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Demographics: Male, Asian, Public School
Intended Major(s): Biology
ACT/SAT/SAT II: 1570
UW/W GPA and Rank: 3.6, no rank
Coursework: 8 APS/3 DE/2 Honors (All 5s)
Awards:

• 1st in HOSA States (1/40) -> sent to internationals
• 2nd in HOSA internationals (2/150), (2/1800 overall)
• AP Scholar w/ Distinction
• National Merit Semifinalist
• Honor Roll
• NHS
• School Award for 5s on both AP Econ Tests

Extracurriculars:
Biotechnology and Research Sequencing at the University of Michigan (501c3 research organization) - Explored Nucleotide Hybridization, and led group research linking it to a real-world disease. Analyzed related Thermodynamics, PCR, Advanced Linux, and mapping genomes. Presented a business plan on Biotechnology and Next Generation Sequencing Technology (showing how genetic variation could lead to disease).
11th and 12th grade, 12hrs/wk, 4wk/yr
Medical Student Shadowing and Cardiac Medicine Exploration at the University of Brown Alpert Medical School - Completed a Medical Interview, a Cardiopulmonary Physical Exam with a patient, reviewed different medical careers, learned about the pathophysiology of the heart, and completed an ethics course on heart transplants.
11th and 12th grade, 10hrs/wk, 4wk/yr
Shadowed Primary Care Physician - Pediatrician has experience for 20+ years and ranked the #1 Care Physician out of 45 in my city. Worked in the Biomedical Lab analyzing samples and results for patients (in real-time). I shadowed the actual checkups as well
11th and 12th grade, 10hrs/wk, 3wk/yr
HOSA (Health Occupations Students of America) Competitor (all 50 states + 11 countries competed) (2yrs) - State Champion (1st out of 40 teams) in my 1st year, Only three teams are sent to ILC from Michigan, Qualified for ILC (International Leadership Conference), and placed Top 3 at ILC. Posted on 10+ nationwide news sites, as well as covered by the media. 260,000 members nationwide.
11th and 12th grade, 10hrs/wk, 30wk/yr
Co-Founder of Biomed Club (Only Student-Made Medical Club @ School) (4yrs) - Led in-school Biomedical-Based Medical Club focused on healthcare careers, connecting with licensed doctors and current medical students to inspire youth and teach them about the experience through the medical process. Expanded membership from 4 to 150 in 4 years by organizing talks for younger classmen about life as a doctor.
9th, 10th, 11th, 12th grade, 8hrs/wk, 35wk/yr
Joined SAT/Tutoring Help - Helps students increase their chances for college applications, as well as earn significant amounts of scholarship money. Was able to empower high school students through hackathons, college seminars, and a Cranbrook HUB Program which helped struggling students increase their SAT scores.
10th, 11th, 12th grade, 6hrs/wk, 10wk/yr
Swim Instructor (paid) - Worked for ~1 year, over 400 hours of work, about 8-10 hours weekly on school weeks, and closer to 15 hours during summer, CPR and Lifeguard Certified. Had several classes, weekly, with kids with disabilities, such as Down Syndrome, Autism, and ADHD.
11th, 12th grade, 8-10hrs/wk, 40wk/yr
Swim Instructor Summer Volunteer connected w/Hospital's Children’s Care Center (most vulnerable kids) - Instructed and taught children who have been impaired with neurological, social, and developmental challenges, as well as kids that have dealt with major trauma at a very young age to swim. Participated in a 3-week long program teaching them the basics of swimming.
11th, 12th grade, 8-10hrs/wk, 4wk/yr
Michigan Ref Certified - Participated in overall 50+ hours of ref-related activities, played soccer for 13 years and competed in competitive/travel soccer for 10 years.
9th, 10th, 11th, 12th grade, 2hrs/wk, 13wk/yr (for reffing)
9th, 10th grade, 8hrs/wk, 50wk/yr (for soccer)
VolunteeTutor Work - Volunteer Monthly at an Indian Cultural Program (10hrs/month), Math Tutor for struggling students (3hrs/week), Volunteer Monthly for Key Club (3hrs/month)
Essays/LORs/Other:
APES (7/10)
STEM Teacher (9/10)
Schools (in state for MSU/UMich):
MSU
UMich (EA)
Rice
JHU
BU
Brown
Cornell
Columbia (ED + Legacy)

I'm 5'9 ftm (born female, but goin transition to male). I'm almost hitting 19, my doctor said that the growth plates on my spine still open (I also got surprised bc I got my puberty at 11, so in theory I should have stopped growing at 13-14) I also have bad posture, scoliosis and my neck is projected forward due to some muscular issues. Is it possible for me to be 5'11?
Both my parents are 5'7 - 5'8 (172cm).

Hi,
I tried a post like this before and US lawyers couldn’t understand why I’d even consider switching from being a doctor to a lawyer.
I hope that with the state of the NHS, the doctors strikes etc, I may have some more understanding from the UK lot.
I’m not prepared to continue at £15 an hour, with £18 for nights, funding my professional fees, my exams, the unsocial hours, the disrespect and infiltration from “Physcians associates” and non-medically trained staff. The pay progression is small and minimal in comparsion to other professional fields. I also don’t see myself progressing to a consultant due to wanting to prioritise family, kids and travel in the future. I would probably go for GP as things stand if I stayed in the field.
Money is a big thing. I would like to be paid appropriately, well, I want to be paid well.
To the actual question, would you advise transferring? I’ve done a bit of research and saw a 1 year law conversion? I’ve heard it’s pretty difficult to get a… training spot in a firm? Sorry still not 100% clued up and thought I’d seek some direction first!
Also considering other fields but I want to be valued as a professional and do something that keeps me intellectually stimulated.
Any advice or personal stories or anything really is very appreciated!
Thank you!

DISCLAIMER : I forgot to add it to the title but this post is about HRT in Transpeople taking Estradiol and other feminizing medication.
Hello people im fairly new to everything HRT and will start soon myself! Feel free to note any mistakes i may have made :)
So i have been reading A LOT about a good amount of topics that include factors that influence the Breast Development and there are quite as much confusing and contradicting information, which is obviously frustrating, not only to me, but to a lot of People!
The one thing that was clear, was the lack of information, in studies aswell as in posts in this or other subreddits. We cant influence the studies, make them faster or even have the necessary rescources to conduct our own, but we can definitly influence the amount of information given to each other!
Many posts asking about feminization in HRT, especially in combination with Progesteron, often lack crucial infromation to the specific situations. We dont have any studies supporting which factors exactly contribute to the different mechanisms, but having a good amount of Factors for every Person posting here could give us all a bigger picture and maybe help with every single ones situation, even tho its anecdotally it may still help!
Noones memory is perfect, every bit of Information can help!!!
Also note that all of the following information is what i found, tried to understand and put into context or explain the importance. Im not a doctor and CANNOT give medical advice. Im just trying to theorize about this topic and maybe be able to filter out what can help!

1. Antiandrogen usage (and possible dangers?)

Specifically Spironolactone, an Antiandronegen, is suspected to decrease Breast Size (to be exacty : happiness with breast size). https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/23055547/
Finding exact reasons for that is extremely difficult and while researching i didnt find ANY other study supporting this claim, even tho beeing reposted here and in other subs over and over again.
The Level of contradiction only rises in prospect of the apparent enlargment of breasts in female patients using Spironolactone.
"Breast enlargement and tenderness may occur in 26% of women at high doses"
is stated on the Wikipedia article on Spironolactone ( https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Spironolactone ) and an article is linked as source ( https://www.eurekaselect.com/article/128779 ) that i sadly couldnt access.
As seen in Spironolactone, its extremely unclear what exactly contributes to breast development. Contradicting or unfounded claims seem to rule over general discussion about this topic, but from what i found, Spironolactone does not decrease breast size.
Even though it is agreed upon that lowering Testosterone is crucial for feminization (like breast development), i could not find any rescources to where the Testosterone levels should go. There doesnt even seem to be a general understanding how testosterone exactly influences breast development, the general consensus seemingly beeing that testosterone levels should be low with no exact point where to go, though it is advised to reach the "normal" female level of "testosterone 30 – 100 ng/dl; E2 <200 pg/ml" as stated in "The Practical Guidelines for Transgender Hormone Treatment" https://www.bumc.bu.edu/endo/clinics/transgender-medicine/guidelines/
For many Lowering Testosterone by Estradiol Monotherapy seems to work better and decreases intake of different medications, which is generally preferably, not only in hrt. In order to supress testosterone with exclusively with estradiol, estradiol levels starting form around 200pg/mL are needed.
"studies in cisgender men and transfeminine people have found that estradiol levels of around 200 pg/mL (734 pmol/L) suppress testosterone levels by about 90% on average (to ~50 ng/dL [1.7 nmol/L]), while estradiol levels of around 500 pg/mL (1,840 pmol/L) suppress testosterone levels by about 95% on average (to ~20–30 ng/dL [0.7–1.0 nmol/L])" https://transfemscience.org/articles/transfem-intro/ (Under Gonadal Suppresion)
Current Studies, while limited, suggest there is a higher risk of myocardial infarction (MI), ischemic stroke (IS) and Venous thromboembolism (VTE) ( https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC8907681/ ). A thing i have noticed while reading through this is the lack of differentiation in HRT when it comes to Estradiol monotherapy in direct comparison to the use of Estradiol and an Anti-Androgen (AA), aswell as the way the Estradiol entered the System.
Newer research suggest a increased risked of both MI and VTE in prostate Cancer patients taking AAs ( https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC7473503/ ). Similarly AAs are suspected to increase risk of IS ( https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC6675721/ ). There is also another Study that looked at Adverse effects of gender affirming hormonal therapy, in which 22 transfem people were assessed. Only 5 People did not use any kind of Antiandrogen, 3 of which it appeared to have quite mild Adverse Drug Reactions (ADR), with patients recovering from those effects again. The 2 remaining People were both 45 and actively Smoking, one smoking 30 cigarettes a day and dealing with alcoholism, the other one also smoking and having untreated high blood pressure ( https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC9796635/ ).
Obviously more studies are needed but a possible connection between the HRT risks and antiandrogens, with little to no contribution from estradiol is intriguing and could promote a shift to more promotion of montherapy as a safer way to transition.

1. Progesterone

When it comes to Progesterone i have seen mostly People that said it helped them immensly and People that said it stunted their Breast Development.
Alot of Studies suggest that early intake of Progesterone could potentially negatively influence ultimate breast size in female people that also need to take Estrogen because of Development Issues. Generally its advised to wait for 1 - 2 Years of Estrogen Treatment. https://transfemscience.org/articles/progestogens-early-exposure-breast-dev/
No proper evidence supports or dismisses a positive effect of Progesterone, aswell as timing and amount incase of usage.

1. GH / IGH-1

Insulinlike Growth Factor 1 or IGH-1 play a big role in childhood growth, aswell as in breast development and peak in Puberty. This lead not only me to question if an increase in growth hormone (GH) could help development of proper female body parts.
Aswell as with most stuff, when it comes to studies supporting or dismissing a potential help of GH, there are none i could find.
Because too much GH can have huge negative effects on the body, you shouldnt use any strong GH enhancers.
Naturally human Growth Hormone (hGH) increases through excercise ( https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/12797841/ )
Also a variety of differen Aminoacids is supposed to increase hGH levels. These include :

l-carnitine : sadly the longterm effects are unknown ( https://jissn.biomedcentral.com/articles/10.1186/s12970-020-00377-2 )
creatine : can increase hGH after workout ( https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/25804393/ )

I wouldnt use l-arginine, purely because there is good chance for it to have detremental effects on aging and especially in combination with HRT its hard to tell how the body would react. An increased risk is the potential reward not worth in my Opinion ( https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC7851093/ ).
These CAN be helpfull but HAVE NOT BEEN PROVEN TO HELP. Im just trying to share what im finding, please do not throw out all your money for supplements that could may aswell have no effect.
hGH could also be increased by other Factors like decrease of bodyfat ( https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC2690428/ ) and generally a more healthy life style (which is adviced in any case ;) )

1. Body-fat-(re)distribution
   
2. Different Methods of Estradiol intake
   

IF ANY OF MY INFO IS WRONG, I FORGOT SOMETHING OR I MISREAD SOMETHING PLEASE SHARE YOUR CRITIQUE. IM NEW TO THIS AND IM DOING MY BEST BUT DONT WANT TO SPREAD MISINFORMATION!!! EVERYTHING IN THIS POST IS NO MEDICAL ADVICE AND ONLY EXPLORING THE TOPIC
This post is not entirely finished yet and i will complete it in the next few days. Sharing your own Experience, specifically with remarks to how Estradiol is beeing taken (intramuscular, oral, transdermal, etc), aswell if Anti-Androgens (and which) are used and if Progesterone (which and time in transition when first beginning treatment with Progesterone) is used. Also weight loss and fat distribution info, aswell as breast development time and state are as important! I totally get that this is all private info and everyone feels comfortable to share other things, to feel free to just share as much as you personally want. Also looking at the rulebook : All the stuff im hoping people would share are not for any survey or study, only for exchange of anecdotal sharing of person Experience. As long as one person maybe finds help or even just solice in your comment, it goes a long way :)

Age: 33, Sex:Male, 5'9 175lb, white, no known medical conditions. Occasional use of pouch snus, live in Scandinavia.
Do my fingers look clubbed? Havent been to a doctor in 10 years. Havent gotten a physical or any kind of comprehensive medical exam. Have only gotten a skin check for cancer and 1 urine test for uti. Should i see a doctor? https://imgur.com/a/eHvWIg4

So a couple weeks ago my cat got sick, was very lethargic and one side of her face began to swell. She had had bad breath for a couple weeks prior so I suspected she had bad teeth.
She went to the vet and got checked out and it was determined that she indeed had bad teeth. The first vet appointment was just a diagnostic exam and they took blood, and made an appointment for surgery. However when she got home that day, she was EXTREMELY off balance, her head tilted to one side and every time she tried to walk or jump on anything she was tripping and falling like she had vertigo. I immediately called the vet and they said they would ask the doctor and call me back.
I never got a call back but I ended up calling again and the doctor told me it was likely the infection from her teeth messing with her ear drums making her off balance, and that the antibiotics they had given her should help and if not that after surgery everything should be back to normal.
Fast forward to about two weeks ago and my cat got her surgery. They removed every tooth behind her canines and she came home and was acting better, but still off balance. Her head was still cocked to the side and she walked around as if she had vertigo. I thought it might just take a few days so I kept waiting it out. 10 days after her surgery she had her post-op check up. The vet tech said the doctor said everything looked great and that she can return to normal activities. I asked him about her head still being tilted to the side and he didn’t really have an answer for me but said he would ask the doctor and call me back.
Of course I never got a call back so I called them and he said that the vet wasn’t concerned as long as my cat is acting normal otherwise. She is acting completely normal now and has resumed normal activity and she’s gotten better at navigating with her head tilted but it makes me feel bad for her :( im not sure what to think is this normal?? When I try to google it not much comes up other than “vestibular syndrome” but that doesn’t seem to be a permanent condition? Thank you in advance

Hi Ladies, I need advice. I'm planning on leaving a review and reporting him to the Texas Medical Board but I feel like I'm going crazy and don't feel justified in reporting. I'd like to hear what y'all think (TLDR at bottom)
2 days ago I noticed what looked like a boil or cyst on my right labia. Yesterday this boil started to grow and become very irritated making it hard to sit down and hurt to walk around. I checked google and started putting a warm compress on it throughout the day to get it to drain naturally but knew I would probably need to get antibiotics to keep from infection. The boil (now know it was a cyst) was about 1cm big, pea-edamame sized and looked like it was possibly infected, hence the urgent care trip, and very red and inflamed. Wanted to be safe rather than sorry and decided it was better to go get antibiotics and start them that night just in case it started draining. It was pretty late at night and there was only 1 urgent care open, which was not the urgent care I typically went to.
Get to the urgent care, fill out the papers. Receptionist sees my paperwork and lets me know they only have a male doctor, and if that would be ok. Male doctors doing my exams in sensitive areas wasn't my favorite thing. Had some good experiences, had some bad. I said it was fine, since I assumed he was just going to examine if it looked infected and maybe prescribe some antibiotics. Wait for a bit in the waiting room then the nurse pulls me back for vitals. She was extremely sweet, talked about her bartholin's cyst and how it sounded like that could possibly be my problem. She told me to get undressed from the waist down, gave me a cover up, and she let me know she would be in the room with me while the doctor took a look.
Doctor comes into the room. It was an older man in his 70's or 80's. He did not introduce himself, he did not ask me what I was in for. I said hello, tried to start talking about my problem and he interrupts me with just a "show me it.". Rude and weird as we haven't even had a conversation yet but whatever, it's late at night.
I get on my back, there were no sternups or anything so I kind of awkwardly had my legs frog style. He immediately began touching the area- which was very red and tender and painful without a single word. Not a huge fan of that. My gyno's and dr's have always told me what they were about to do, especially when touching in or around my vagina. I asked him to tell me if it looked infected, if I could just let it drain and if I would need antibiotics (been super anxious about sepsis recently which was the biggest factor for coming in). He mentions that it looked like it may have started draining and then asked the nurse to grab him a paper towel.
Suddenly I felt a huge stinging pain on the area where the cyst was. Enough to make me yelp in pain and scoot back from him. He was popping my cyst. Popping it! No lancing, no gentle squeezing, no pain relief, NOTHING! He hadn't even wiped the area before popping a cyst, possibly making it more infected if it wasn't already. After the first wave of pain, nearly passing out he kept squeezing very hard I said "that hurts really bad can you stop?" and he did not stop. He squeezed again, and I yelped again and said "I'm serious I haven't had any ibuprofen or anything this hurts so bad please stop". Still no words spoken to me at this point. I was pissed, and in a lot of pain. I had wanted it to drain naturally because I didn't want to risk any extra scarring even with a cut or lance, but I will get even worse scarring from this doctor popping it! He took the paper towel and kept wiping and I winced in pain and told him to seriously stop touching it. He finally backed off, and waddled over to his clipboard all without saying a single word to me. The female nurse was in the room, silent this entire time- mind you.
He finally spoke up to ask me how much I weighed and if I was allergic to any medications because now that it's ruptured I needed to be on antibiotics immediately so I don't get infected. I couldn't believe what had just happened. He had not asked me if I wanted it "drained" if you could even call it that. He had not talked to me about what he was going to do. And if he had listened to me as he waddled over, he would have heard me say that I've been doing warm compresses to get it to drain naturally. I had to ask the female nurse for a panty liner so that I wasn't (TMI) leaking puss and blood all over my panties while I waited 45 minutes at a CVS to start my antibiotics. He left the room, without sharing any aftercare, without asking me if I had any questions. Nothing, just left. I just have this big gaping wound on my labia that I guess I'm just trying to keep clean and not pee on?
I have gotten cysts drained before at doctors offices, by the way. Cysts on my vaginal opening and urethral opening have been drained at gyno appointments. They are supposed to give you some kind of local numbing and it is done on request with either a lance or a cut. They certainly didn't squeeze-pop them without consent and they were explaining everything they were doing, before doing it. And the most important thing was when the pain was bad and I said "break" or "stop" and they would stop.
I left the clinic feeling violated. I'm upset that this cyst is going to scar more because he ruptured it without a care in the world. I had not asked him to drain my cyst on any kind of paperwork. I am upset he had not asked for any kind of consent before doing it. I was not there on request of a cyst draining. I had requested an exam to check for infection and to possibly get antibiotics.
I will be following up with my primary care physician, just to check for damage and proper aftercare instructions. I am planning on leaving a review on the clinics google page, which I found also had a few 1 star reviews about "the older gentleman" that took care of them. I want to also report to the medical board, but I have no strong evidence against him. I am a SA victim, and I'm already very uncomfortable with people touching me in that area. And I feel like he scarred me without my consent.
Any and all advice or support is greatly needed right now <3
TLDR: Went to doctor for centimeter sized cyst on labia to examine if it was infected and to get antibiotics. Male doctor refused to speak to me, and squeeze-popped my cyst without talking to me, without consent, without pain relief and refused to stop squeezing after I had asked him to stop, twice. My risk of infection is higher, and the area is going to scar. Left me no aftercare instructions. Gave me antibiotic prescription. This was a *non-emergency* urgent care trip.

dds worker sent out a Adult function form and ask no other questions on initial application and she didn't ask for doctor exam is that a bad sign I'm on 64%. Does everyone get asked for function form even if there approved medically at step 3?

My dds worker sent out a Adult function form and ask no other questions on initial application and she didn't ask for doctor exam is that a bad sign I'm on 64%. Does everyone get asked for function form even if there approved medically at step 3?

I was diagnosed yesterday after thinking I had breast pain which scared me. After an exam, the doctor said it’s actually sternum pain from costochondritis. Please pray it goes away asap. It’s tender to the touch and causes me severe anxiety. Amen, Emma

Hi again, I posted in here about a week ago about being pregnant with the copper IUD. I had to travel about 6 hours to another state. I’ve heard from just about everyone that a SA is quicker and less painful than a MA so I went the surgical route. I had my initial apt and then I had to wait 24 hours until I could have my procedure.
Let me start by saying I had a very painful experience having the IUD placed, I passed out in the bathroom at the doctors office after it was placed and no one checked any of my vitals before leaving despite being visibly unwell.
I have a pretty high pain tolerance, I am covered in tattoos and piercings, I handle most pain pretty well. I did not handle this well at all.
When I went in for the procedure, I had everything explained to me thoroughly, but I feel like they minimized how painful it would actually be.
I was given 800mg Ibuprofen beforehand, and was offered Nitrous Oxide (laughing gas) during the procedure to help calm my nerves (did absolutely nothing for me). I was awake the entire time this happened and it all happened so fast. They gave me a Lidocaine block in my cervix but then immediately started dilating. I was writhing in agony. The suction lasted about a minute and was absolutely awful. I felt every bit of the pain. I was sobbing on the table, screaming to please stop while the nurses held my hips down. When it was finished, everyone but one nurse walked out without another word. I was still inconsolable, writhing in pain on the table. The nurse tried to get my vitals multiple times and my blood pressure was unreadable. I feel like I blacked out because I don’t even remember getting up and moving to the recovery suite. The intense pain did eventually subside after about 30 minutes thankfully, but I will have lasting emotional damage from this.
I felt truly dehumanized after the whole ordeal. I am appalled at how women’s reproductive health is handled. Our pain is constantly minimized and we’re told to “suck it up.” My gyno is a woman and I thought she’d be more empathetic to the pain, but I was met with the same “it’s just some cramping” pertaining to the IUD. Same for the SA, the female nurses explained it as intense cramping, INTENSE? try AGONIZING.
The night we got back home, my partner and I decided that it would be best if we process all of this separately. We parted on good terms and I’m glad he was able to help support me through this and I’ll continue to have a supportive friend.
I don’t know when or if I’ll ever feel comfortable having PIV sex ever again, I don’t want a baby and I don’t ever want to go through this again. I thought I was doing the right thing by getting the IUD, but now im afraid I won’t ever trust a birth control ever again. I’m bisexual, but always leaned towards dating men, but after this I genuinely am terrified to ever be with a penis-having individual ever again.
How do I move forward after this?

I’m an 18 year old female, weigh 200 pounds, white, live in Georgia. I recently began working at a daycare, and about six weeks ago I was diagnosed with staph on my face. It cleared up for a little bit and then this showed up. I have eczema but it doesn’t react or feel the same as eczema. I also have asthma and allergies to animals, which I do have in my home but they aren’t allowed in my room. My doctor says she doesn’t think it’s scabies but we’re doing a treatment to rule it out anyways and I’ve been referred to the dermatologist, just wanted to see if anyone had any ideas that I could bring up. I’m currently taking Montalukast, Lexapro and Claritin. None of the children at work or my coworkers have anything that look anything like this, including a baby and a coworker that have eczema and I work in close proximity with.

guys my whole life I wanted to become a doctor of some sort but after that FRQ section of the ap bio exam (literally I thought it was easy bc I started from Q3->6 and was eating it up and then I got to 1&2 and realized I was in fact getting slapped by it without even knowing) I got mf deep fried. not even cooked lightly but like extra fried type of cooked BURNT. I thought I was somewhat smart- yes I started studying last night for this exam but that’s because I did fine on the mock exams without even knowing how dna replication works, so I assumed if I learned the content I’d be fine. lol! I’m a fucking dumbass! . the freshmen at my school get 5s (the teacher is brutal on them). I think I got like a 3-4. yes not that bad but considering I was aiming somewhat top schools am I cooked. I wanted to major biochem but I may just 🙂‍↔️ become a housewife now!
how important are ap exam scores??? if I don’t submit my score for this class how bad will it look??? (My other stats are somewhat okay)
Someone help.

I went to the doctor for a routine physical exam today. I knew it was time because I've been getting increasingly paranoid that I have some kind of fatal illness for no reason and needed to see some blood work to convince myself I don't.
I was surprised to already get my results back today just hours later. First I saw my cholesterol and was happy that it has actually gone down and mostly doing great now, when last year it was a little high. Now only a couple things are a tiny bit low/high but nothing to worry about.
Then I got my full general health labs, and only two things were actually high — total protein and thyroid. Protein is whatever, probably just dehydration. I also googled every single item that was anywhere close to low or high. Overall the only thing to be concerned about is that I might have hypothyroidism, which is totally common and not scary. If anything I can take some hormones and probably feel way better (not 100% sure it isn't Hashimoto's tho).
But tell me why I still spent like 4 hours at work just poring over every detail of my lab results and working myself up to the point where I felt like I was gonna cry and that I must have some horrible illness? I think this has been a big trigger or something because I haven't had a day like this for a long time. I'm not this person anymore. Idk what's up with me lately but I can tell I've been regressing.
I think I will ask my doctor about these things, and then obviously convince myself he doesn't know what he's talking about and I'm probably still dying.

I have a little bit of a thesis on sex and gender, specifically addressing certain objections to our modern conceptions of both.
I'm sure at this point anyone who is taking part in discussions on these topics has heard the question "What is a woman?" and received answers along the lines of "Adult human female". I'm also sure that most of you reading along have heard sentiments similar to "There's only two sexes/genders". There's nothing strictly wrong with those answers, except that I would say that they are a simple lie upon which we build a complex truth.
When we teach children about the solar system, we usually start with a diagram showing the sun in the center and all nine eight planets roughly the same size in tightly packed circular orbits. Anybody even vaguely familiar with astrophysics can point out the inaccuracies, and one might even go so far as to say that that model of the solar system is a lie. However, the simplicity of that lie is a necessary step for us to build the comprehensive truth. Beginning with the dramatic difference in size is extremely difficult for a young mind to comprehend, circles are much more easily drawn than ellipses, and the vast scales of space simply don't fit on an A4 sheet of paper in an 11-year-old's duotang. Once the foundation of a simple lie has been built, we then move on to the more complex truths of astrophysics.
In much the same way, we are taught the simple lies about sex and gender because the actual complexities of those topics are, if you'll pardon the wordplay, astronomical. There's nothing wrong with the simple lies for the vast majority of people going about their day-to-day life. Most people you'll meet on the street don't have intersex conditions, are gender conforming, and play out the cultural expectations for their gender role. After all, gender roles wouldn't be a thing if the majority of people didn't perform them to some degree.
However, simple lies are just that, simple and untrue. They're easy for our minds to grasp, but don't reflect reality. There are certain situations when a simple lie will fail us and the complex truth is necessary. When crafting legislation, teaching doctors about intersex conditions and the additional care needed, or when researching sex and gender, it is imperative that we adopt the complex, comprehensive definitions that so many seem to shy away from.
It's for these reasons that I think the dialectic coming from those who wish for the world to adopt comprehensive, complex definitions should shift towards making those differences known. Rather than telling somebody they're wrong for defining a woman as an "adult human female", I think it would be more valuable and more correct to point out that that definition fails to grasp the vast complexity of sex determination and gender identity.

For context, I started a new job, took some pepto, took some pepcid as advised by my doctor (found extremely small traces of blood in my stool), and overall I've been pretty stressed.
My period started two days ago, pretty normal. heavy flow, fresh blood, some clots. The first day was pretty bad, some cramping and nausea. I went to the doctor today and deadass my period stopped about 3 hours ago. The doctor game me a tampon, I had to get a rectal exam. After I took it out, no more blood. It just kinda stopped after the tampon. Also I have dropped some weight due to the stomach problems I assume.
I'm basically certain I'm not pregnant. No symptoms outside of mild nausea and bloating, but again, stomach acid problems. Also I've taken multiple tests and they all came out negative.
Am I gonna be okay? Is this just stress or medication? My last two cycles were off because of a plan B I took, lighter and more brown for about 3-4 days. Is this normal? I thought my cycle was going back to normal.

I’m having surgery on Tuesday for a full hysterectomy (everything goes, even the ovaries) due to endometrial cancer and I’m starting to have negative thoughts creeping in. My last scan indicated the cancer has not spread; there is a tumor in the uterus and a large tumor in my left ovary. I've had chemo since January and overall it went well. When going over the obligatory risks of surgery In my pre-op appointment my doctor did say if they discover the cancer is not removable they will end the surgery. This is a VERY unlikely scenario and nothing in my scan indicates this will be an issue (I've read the scan notes over, and over and over), so why do I worry so much? It haunts me, even more than not surviving the surgery. I’m 57 and have so much life to live. I want to see my boys graduate from college, and go on that special trip to Italy with my husband. I want to see my dad in August. I'm the only female left in my boys' lives and they need me. This waiting game is proving to be the hardest part of my journey so far. I've been so positive since I was diagnosed, but now that surgery is so close it's all I think about.
Thank you all who are reading for allowing me to vent! I do have some specific questions if anyone can offer a bit of advice or insight:

• I’m supposed to do an antibiotic bowel prep in case they have to touch my bowels during surgery. (Metronidazole and neomycin) How quickly does this work after the first dose? How intense is it? Do I need to stay near a bathroom at all times? Can I still enjoy dinner that evening? My doses are 1pm, 2pm and 11pm.
• Since I have a port, will I still need an IV?
• Is there anything I should take to the hospital besides clean clothes, slippers, and my phone charger?
• When should I expect to eat normally after surgery?
• I’ve had two cesareans and an appendectomy. Is this a similar recovery?
• I live 4 hours away from the hospital, so I’m staying for 2-4 days. What can I expect for the journey home (husband is driving)? I’m bringing a pillow and loose clothing. Anything else I should know?
• Surgery is in Portland at OHSU. Can anyone tell me what to expect as a patient at OHSU, such as what the rooms are like, can I use electronics like an iPad and phone, is there WiFi? I know I focus on the little details to avoid focusing on the surgery itself. :)

Thanks again for your input! And good luck to everyone else having surgery next week. I will post an update when I'm able.

Item #: SCP-021
Codename: Skin Wyrm
Summarized Description: Animate tattoo in the form of the mythical Chinese dragon. SCP-021 sustains itself off its host’s melanin, causes pain to its host when it moves, and can be transferred to another host via prolonged skin-to-skin contact.
Battlefield Summary: N/A
Additional Notes: SCP-021 is useless as a weapon and is to remain in containment.
Usefulness: 1/5
Item #: SCP-022
Codename: The Morgue
Summarized Description: Morgue capable of periodically reanimating Human cadavers. Consciousnesses of subjects placed within a drawer of the morgue are randomly swapped between reanimated cadavers.
Battlefield Summary: N/A
Additional Notes: SCP-022 is useless as a weapon and is to remain in containment.
Usefulness: 1/5
Item #: SCP-023
Codename: Black Shuck
Summarized Description: Large canine. Sapient subjects who make eye contact will expire 1 Terran year after contact is broken, their internal systems suffering spontaneous flash incineration. SCP-023’s eyes and teeth were removed in 2010 before being regrown in 2136 using an imperfect copy of SCP-500 generated by SCP-038. SCP-023 cannot be stopped by any barrier unless it resembles a crossroads.
Battlefield Summary: SCP-023 released into Federal city. SCP-023 underwent rigorous anomalous training, having been taught to avoid direct conflict with enemy subjects, and is generally non-hostile to Foundation personnel.
Additional Notes: As of time of writing, SCP-023 has terminated 86 subjects and has disorganized security forces, who have failed to capture or neutralize it. SCP-023’s relative obedience to the Foundation has given cause for reclassification to Thaumiel.
Usefulness: 3/5
Item #: SCP-024
Codename: Game Show of Death
Summarized Description: Abandoned sound stage. Subjects who enter SCP-024 will be greeted by an apparent stereotypical game show announcer from a speaker, who will offer subjects a chance to play a game show and gain a reward. Subjects who consent will be forced to undergo taxing trials to complete the show, which often results in injury and/or death. Subjects who refuse to participate after consenting, attempt to break any rules, or fail to complete the game will be attacked and terminated by unknown entities. SCP-024 will not activate if there is only 1 subject present.
Battlefield Summary: N/A
Additional Notes: SCP-024 cannot be moved from its current location. SCP-024 is useless as a weapon and is to remain in containment.
Usefulness: 1/5
Item #: SCP-025
Codename: A Well-Worn Wardrobe
Summarized Description: Wardrobe with multiple articles of damaged clothing. Subjects who wear any clothing from SCP-025 will invariably be injured or terminated, with wounds corresponding to the locations of damage on the clothing.
Battlefield Summary: N/A
Additional Notes: As xenos do not wear any clothing that SCP-025 possesses, SCP-025 is useless as a weapon and is to remain in containment.
Usefulness: 1/5
Item #: SCP-026
Codename: Afterschool Retention
Summarized Description: Abandoned public school. Layout does not correspond to official public blueprints. Cognitohazards within SCP-026 disorient subjects. Multiple individuals with identical features to missing persons can be found in apparent comas and cannot be woken. All comatose individuals are students and educators who attended the school before its abandonment. Attempting to remove comatose subjects from the premises will result in them waking, followed by extremely rapid dehydration and death. Foundation personnel who fall asleep in SCP-026 also become comatose, but will not suffer dehydration if removed.
Battlefield Summary: N/A
Additional Notes: SCP-026 is useless as a weapon and is to remain in containment.
Usefulness: 1/5
Item #: SCP-027
Codename: The Vermin God
Summarized Description: Intangible effect tied to one individual at a time. Subjects affected by SCP-027 attract large amounts of insects, rodents, and other organisms considered to be “vermin.” Upon death of a host, SCP-027 will transfer itself to the closest sapient organism.
Battlefield Summary: D-3829, the host of SCP-027 at the time, was airdropped onto a Federal planet. D-3829 fitted with an explosive collar and instructed to wait in the colony leader’s place of residence. As the leader entered the residence, the collar was remotely detonated, terminating D-3829 and transferring SCP-027 to the target.
Additional Notes: Though it would have been more practical to simply take the opportunity to assassinate the target, the long-term disorder expected to be caused by SCP-027 was deemed to be of greater importance. There are no plans to retrieve SCP-027 at this time.
Usefulness: 2/5
Item #: SCP-028
Codename: Knowledge
Summarized Description: Small space in Michigan, USA with psychic properties. Individuals who enter SCP-028 are imbued with a random piece of knowledge on a random topic.
Battlefield Summary: N/A
Additional Notes: SCP-028 is currently being used to gather intelligence on Federal operations. Due to its inefficient method of intelligence gathering, it has been deemed a low priority.
Usefulness: 2/5
Item #: SCP-029
Codename: Daughter of Shadows
Summarized Description: Human female with alopecia universalis. 80% of skin surface is vantablack, 20% is albino. All sapient male-identifying subjects who come in contact with SCP-029 will worship it as a messiah-like figure, who must have 1,000,000 lives sacrificed to it via strangulation to bring forth an unknown deity. SCP-029 has a physic connection with its followers and is aware of its followers’ numbers.
Battlefield Summary: SCP-029 deployed on a Federal planet and allowed to gather xeno followers. SCP-029’s “cult” has infiltrated the planetary government and is sending large numbers of subjects to “predator disease” facilities to convert or sacrifice them.
Additional Notes: SCP-029 willingly volunteered for Operation 5000, although this is more likely out of a desire for escape from the Foundation than to avenge Humanity for the Battle of Earth, the current cover story for Operation 5000. SCP-029’s “cult” is not to be allowed to complete its goal of 1,000,000 sacrifices, due to the uncertain nature of the existence of the cult’s deity. Current estimates give SCP-029’s cult 37,000 confirmed sacrificial fatalities. Should this number come close to being accomplished, SCP-029 is to be neutralized and the cult destroyed. Until then, the disorder caused by the cult’s activities has been deemed beneficial.
Usefulness: 3/5
Item #: SCP-030
Codename: The Homunculus
Summarized Description: Small humanoid made of clay. Only active when exposed to at least 15 lumens of light. If not exposed to adequate light, SCP-030 immediately falls unconscious.
Battlefield Summary: N/A
Additional Notes: SCP-030 has no fighting or strategic capabilities and is to remain in containment.
Usefulness: 1/5
Item #: SCP-031
Codename: What is Love?
Summarized Description: Giant organic mass inhabiting the interior of the Ryugyong Hotel, Korea. Influences subjects to be willingly assimilated into SCP-031, with only their brains remaining intact and presumably conscious. Unknown cognitive and/or space-time anomaly causes it to simultaneously inhabit the hotel alongside SCP-1427, despite respective containment teams insisting that the other does not exist.
Battlefield Summary: Samples of SCP-031 taken and deployed on various planets. 4 instances have been neutralized by Federal forces, while 4 have established a permanent foothold on their respective planets.
Additional Notes: SCP-031 is susceptible to fire, making Extermination Officers a convenient counter for smaller infestations.
Usefulness: 3/5
Item #: SCP-032
Codename: Brother’s Bride
Summarized Description: Type-F female Human simulacrum, passable at a distance, Uncanny Valley triggered at close range. Deleterious effects on nearby organic life, except for Humans and domesticated/trained animals.
Battlefield Summary: SCP-032 instructed to position itself discreetly in highly populated areas and military encampments. SCP-032 given a weapon and authorization to defend itself should it ever come into conflict with Federal authorities or eyewitnesses. SCP-032 has depopulated multiple areas and encampments with minor damage to itself.
Additional Notes: SCP-032’s complete obedience to the Foundation has given cause for a reclassification to Thaumiel.
Usefulness: 2/5
Item #: SCP-033
Codename: The Missing Number
Summarized Description: Mathematical equation that essentially proves that all Human (and xeno) mathematical systems “missed” a number. SCP-033, when inscribed on a physical “paper-like” surface or a white/chalkboard, will begin to spread to other nearby viable surfaces. Causes catastrophic glitches in computers as it spreads onto them.
Battlefield Summary: SCP-033 uploaded onto multiple planetary internets, crashing all systems.
Additional Notes: SCP-033 is astoundingly effective in removing the Federation’s capability to defend themselves, as they rely heavily on technology.
Usefulness: 5/5
Item #: SCP-034
Codename: Obsidian Ritual Knife
Summarized Description: Primitive obsidian knife likely used in sacrificial rituals. Any flesh cut from a living organism by SCP-034 that is applied to another organism will result in the latter’s appearance changing into the former.
Battlefield Summary: N/A
Additional Notes: Federal military leader captured and flesh sample removed with SCP-034 and applied to D-9482 to test capabilities for a Human to change into a xeno form. D-9482 expired mid-transition. Military leader interrogated for general information and subsequently terminated. SCP-034 still cannot alter an organism beyond its original species, regardless of sapience.
Usefulness: 1/5
Item #: SCP-035
Codename: Possessive Mask
Summarized Description: Sapient theatre mask that changes from comedy to tragedy, corresponding with current emotions. Highly corrosive liquid seeps from the eyes of the mask at all times. Capable of reading and influencing the thoughts nearby sapient organisms. SCP-035, when placed on the face of a Human, Human cadaver, or otherwise humanoid organism or figure, will take control of the subject and begin to converse. The subject will slowly decay the longer SCP-035 is applied. SCP-035 displays a highly charismatic and manipulative personality and is unusually knowledgeable about a variety of topics.
Battlefield Summary: N/A
Additional Notes: SCP-035 is currently being negotiated with. SCP-035 claims to hold knowledge of the Federation, including a “conspiracy” orchestrated by at least 2 member species. If negotiations are successful, SCP-035 could provide the Foundation with valuable insight into the workings of the Federation.
Usefulness: 2/5
Item #: SCP-036
Codename: The Reincarnation Pilgrimage of the Yazidi (Kiras Guhorîn)
Summarized Description: Annual event during which deceased followers of the Yazidi faith arrive via an unscheduled flight at Site-22A in Iraq and depart on a separate flight at Site-22B. This process is observed and protected by the Foundation. Considered to be the modern form of the Kiras Guhorîn. Expected to change in the near future to include modern starships.
Battlefield Summary: N/A
Additional Notes: SCP-036 is useless as a weapon and is to remain in containment.
Usefulness: 1/5
Item #: SCP-037
Codename: Dwarf Star
Summarized Description: Miniaturized main sequence star in its red giant phase, going through a highly accelerated stellar lifecycle. Expected to go supernova in the near future. Was transported off-planet in 2100.
Battlefield Summary: SCP-037 transported from its location in the outer Sol System and deposited in high orbit of a Federal capital planet. Approaching supernova is expected to cause an XK-Class “End-of-the-World” Scenario.
Additional Notes: SCP-037 pending reclassification to Neutralized once supernova occurs.
Usefulness: 4/5
Item #: SCP-038
Codename: The Everything Tree
Summarized Description: Apple tree capable of replicating any object or organism that makes contact with its bark. Replicated objects will never exceed 90.9 kg. Anomalous objects replicated by SCP-038 are often imperfect.
Battlefield Summary: N/A
Additional Notes: SCP-038 is being used to cheaply replicate weapons-of-mass-destruction but is otherwise useless as a weapon.
Usefulness: 2/5
Item #: SCP-039
Codename: Monkey Brain
Summarized Description: Collection of 23 proboscis monkeys (SCP-038-1) and one Human (SCP-038-A) with a complete lack of all facial features, created by the now-defunct Prometheus Labs. Instances display highly increased intelligance and are able to navigate their surroundings via echolocation.
Battlefield Summary: N/A
Additional Notes: SCP-038-A employed as a tactical advisor under the promise of a loosening of containment protocols for itself and all instances of SCP-038-1.
Usefulness: 2/5
Item #: SCP-040
Codename: Evolution’s Child
Summarized Description: Female human capable of altering the genetic code of organisms it comes into contact with.
Battlefield Summary: N/A
Additional Notes: SCP-040 willingly joined Operation 5000. SCP-040 currently being utilized to genetically enhance certain Mobile Task Force personnel.
Usefulness: 2/5
Item #: SCP-041
Codename: Thought-Broadcasting Patient
Summarized Description: Permanently paralyzed Human male capable of telepathy with nearby sapient subjects. Subjects within range can also have their thoughts “transmitted” with one another at SCP-041’s discretion.
Battlefield Summary: N/A
Additional Notes: SCP-041 has been used to extract information from high-ranking Federal personnel.
Usefulness: 2/5
Item #: SCP-042
Codename: A Formerly-Winged Horse
Summarized Description: Equine subject with winged appendages. Appendages were removed by Foundation personnel to simplify containment. Displays a depressive personality and must be force-fed food and water and motivated with pain to obey instructions. Displays mind-affecting properties in attempts to convince personnel to neutralize it.
Battlefield Summary: N/A
Additional Notes: SCP-042 is no use as a weapon and is to remain in containment.
Usefulness: 1/5
Item #: SCP-043
Codename: The Beatle
Summarized Description: Vinyl copy of “The White Album”. Capable of communicating with subjects who play the 29th track. Theorized to hold the consciousness of Paul McCartney, although unconfirmed.
Battlefield Summary: N/A
Additional Notes: SCP-043 is useless as a weapon and is to remain in containment.
Usefulness: 1/5
Item #: SCP-044
Codename: World War II Era Molecular-Fission Cannon
Summarized Description: Heavily modified World War II-era Howitzer. Any item placed in its barrel and fired will detonate at a mass-to-energy conversion ratio greater than 100%. Built by an/the Administrator.
Battlefield Summary: SCP-044 loaded with several tons of earth and fired into a city wall during an uncharacteristically difficult siege, terminating all resistance and causing massive damage to the city.
Additional Notes: SCP-044 blueprints have been obtained from the Administrator by the O5 Council and the item is to be mass produced. Further modifications for use as a space-based weapon are being considered.
Usefulness: 4/5
Item #: SCP-045
Codename: Atmospheric Converter
Summarized Description: Icosahedron composed of ice-12. Likely a 3-dimensional projection of a 4-dimensional hypericosahedron. Periodically rotates on multiple axes, causing minor seismic activity. When prevented from rotating, seismic activity will steadily increase. When gaseous nitrogen or argon come into close proximity with SCP-045, both substatnces will be converted into water and table salt respectively.
Battlefield Summary: SCP-045 placed on a Federal planet in a remote location and prevented from rotating. As of time of writing, SCP-045 has caused seismic activity reaching 9.5 on the Richter scale, causing massive damage. Planetary cracking is expected to occur within several weeks.
Additional Notes: SCP-045, should it be recovered after estimated XK-Class Scenario, is authorized for further use.
Usefulness: 4/5
Item #: SCP-046
Codename: “Predatory” Holly Bush
Summarized Description: Holly bush that consumes subjects who lay in its vicinity, lulling them to sleep with relief from physical/mental pain and feelings of relaxation and pleasure. Subjects are not compelled to sacrifice themselves and can resist temptations with ease. All subjects recorded to have been consumed by SCP-046 have willingly allowed the item to do so.
Battlefield Summary: N/A
Additional Notes: As SCP-046 cannot compel unwilling subjects into sacrificing themselves for consumption, it is useless as a weapon and is to remain in containment.
Usefulness: 1/5
Item #: SCP-047
Codename: Microbial Mutagen
Summarized Description: Gaseous substance with mutagenic properties on microorganisms. 3 strains affected by SCP-047 identified. Propionibacterium 047-A causes severe acne and sepsis with 40% fataility rate. Streptococcus 047-C causes inflammation, sepsis, and endocarditis with 35% fatality rate. Clostridium 047-A cause severe damage to internal organs, most notably the colon, with near 100% fatality rate.
Battlefield Summary: All SCP-047-affected strains of bacterium cannot be used against xeno life and are to remain in containment. SCP-047 dispersed among Federal cities and encampments, causing several fatal “superbugs” to mutate.
Additional Notes: Caution is to be taken to prevent SCP-047 from coming into contact with Terran microorganisms.
Usefulness: 3/5
Item #: SCP-048
Codename: The Cursed SCP Number
Summarized Description: All SCP objects assigned the 048 designation have invariably become lost, stolen, or accidentally neutralized, thus gathering a air of superstition among Foundation personnel and has such been locked from further use to prevent morale from falling. Believed to be non-anomalous, as the file describing this phenomenon has yet to suffer any adverse effects.
Battlefield Summary: N/A
Additional Notes: SCP-048 is likely non-anomalous and no action is to be taken.
Usefulness: 1/5
Item #: SCP-049
Codename: Plague Doctor
Summarized Description: Male humanoid covered in organic growth resembling a traditional plague doctor uniform and mask. Subjects who come into physical contact with SCP-049 may suddenly cease all life functions if SCP-049 so chooses. SCP-049 often performs surgery on corpses - preferably Humans - and crudly reanimates them in an attempt to cure them of a presumably supernatural “Pestilence.” The nature of this Pestilence is unknown, if it exists.
Battlefield Summary: SCP-049 allowed to reanimate deceased xeno subjects for the Foundation war effort.
Additional Notes: SCP-049 willingly joined Operatin 5000 after declaring that the xenos were also infected with the “Pestilence.”
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[THE FOLLOWING IS FOR O5 CLEARANCE ONLY.]
[Does the Black Moon howl?]
[only when the White Sun rejoices]
[Does the Black Moon howl?]
[only when Waning]
[Does the Black Moon howl?]
[only when the Void calls forth]
[ACCESS GRANTED]
SCP-049’s declaration has confirmed that non-Human species are indeed also victims of The Entity. Complete destruction of the Federation is necessary.
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Usefulness: 2/5

So I've recently been having problems with my stomach. Doctors found very, very small traces of blood in my stool. I took four chewable peptos (not all at once) two days ago at the very start of my period and I took some pepcid today, as advised by my doctor. I heard antacids can effect your period, but I'm not sure if that would be enough to really effect anything.
My period started off completely normal, red fresh blood and a heavy-ish flow. After my doctor's appointment, it just kinda stopped. I was given a tampon (I had to get a rectal exam, fml) and after I took it out, I haven't bled since. The tampon was bloodied btw.
I'm pretty much certain I am not pregnant. Basically no actual symptoms. Some abdominal discomfort and mild nausea here and there, but I believe that's from my stomach acid issues. No frequent urination, no constipation, no sore boobs, no cravings or aversions, and I did get my period. That was way too heavy and dark to be spotting, it even had clots in it. I took some pregnancy tests just to be safe, I had protected sex well over a month ago, all negative.
I think it may be from stress, since you know, internal bleeding is scary. I also started a new job recently. About 3 months ago I took a plan B as well. Should I panic or nah?

Have had a lot of symptoms the last couple months. Most I have been able to attribute to anxiety since I’ve been working on it. I’m on lexapro, metoprolol (beta blocker) and short term Xanax. Now my health anxiety has moved into my eyes, brain tumors, schizophrenia, retina detachment. I feel like I’m seeing floaters out, dry/burning eyes as well as light sensitivity. Just totally freaked out and I know I’m on 3 different meds so I’m trying to convince myself it’s just side effects being made worse by me hyperfocusing on it and freaking out.
This started 2 days ago at the doctors office and he talked to me about it and said don’t pay too much mind to it . Well I ended up having a bad panic attack and went to the ER 3 hours later. They looked at my eyes and tested my field of vision and it was good but told me to see my eye doctor soon. I had an appointment yesterday with them.
They took a photo of my retina as well as testing my eye pressure and doing a slit exam. No sings of glaucoma, no retina detachment, no issues that they could see aside from my astigmatism (myopia?). I’ve known about that for years though. Now that I am hyperfocusing on it I feel like my eyes are burning more and now I’m seeing double vision.
Just need some reassurance and some folks to talk too :/ I’m getting testing done with my primary doctor as well for other things then my anxiety treatment. I really feel like there might be something wrong with my brain :/

I taught band and marching band for 25+ years and was on my feet either on the podium or marching field all day. My arches are flat and I’m now experiencing knee pain. At first thought, it’s all related to years of bad shoes and flip-flopping weight. Most marching bands use a rolled step and it’s fairly stuck in my head to walk that way after teaching it so long. We told the kids if their mom was watching in the stands, she should be able to see a written message on your soles saying “hi, mom!” I intend to ask my doctor in my yearly exam in August and will likely get a referral from there. In the meantime, I need a pair of sandals and/or shoes that won’t kill me. I like the arch support in the Merrell Jungle Moc style, but they don’t really have a similar style in sandals and with my swelling, I wonder if the construction is too tight for the fluid retention I’m experiencing. I’ve got a pair of CUSHIONAIRE Women's Feather Cloud Recovery Slide Sandals with +Comfort sandals coming this weekend and also purchased an elevated pillow to get my legs above my heart a few times a day. I’d like to order a few styles from Amazon, but don’t know where to start and would appreciate any direction on brands, styles or lift inserts so everyday isn’t such a struggle.