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2024.05.16 01:49 PandaB3ar1292 Hi!
Hello! Just saying hi to fellow paras! I left an extremely hands-on position at a district funded private school for severe behavioral disorders due to lack of support from staff and especially admin. I am now with an agency and working in AS classrooms at a different district, and I am really enjoying it so far. I do have some guilt leaving the prior position, however, I was paired with one student every day for 4-5 hours, and physical management procedures were used most of the day. I was at urgent care weekly, and I was covered in marks, bites, kicks, scratches. It was sad because at times we’d call over the walkies for help multiple times and we’d get zero help. Staff in my class were with other high intense behaviors, and other classrooms as well. It was frustrating as administrators were trained in our safety care procedures, and after multiple times of calling for support and assistance with a student, even admin wouldn’t show. It just was getting to be a lot mentally on top of being a special needs parent.
I do feel guilty for leaving, but I am happy where I am now. It is way more flexible, and we rotate all students all day long, about 1-2 hours total with each student. I actually like this design.
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I do feel guilty for leaving, but I am happy where I am now. It is way more flexible, and we rotate all students all day long, about 1-2 hours total with each student. I actually like this design.
2024.05.16 01:49 Important_Quarter_15 Bretonnian cavalry getting stuck
Just like the title says, whether or not I use the the Lance formation I feel like I'm losing cavalry left and right (even high tier cav) to low tier units simply because they get stuck inside the units constantly. Is there some glaring thing I'm doing wrong? Even rear charging I'll lose models to it. The most prominent issue was with greenskins where ork boys or goblin spears would kill my questing knights because they couldn't get out.
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2024.05.16 01:49 literalworkaholic Bored - lateral change?
I am in a job/career that pays well but I am so bored all of the time. I don't feel like I am learning anything new other than soft skills and how to manage sometimes annoying personalities. I have about 10 years of experience.
I have an opportunity to take a similar job in the same industry, for slightly more pay (probably 10% bump to go). I would be sacrificing a lot of 'trust' and reputational capital I've acquired over the years, possibly for little change in circumstances. On the other hand, much like investing in a diversified portfolio, maybe trying something 'slightly' different is the key to unlocking new potential.
What do you think? Would you take a semi-lateral change in jobs just to try a different company? Or is this too big a risk given high salary and reputation?
Some additional facts if helpful:
Salary well over 100k with generous bonus and RRSP match. Statistician in consulting, within an overall company that doesn't really value statisticians outside of my business unit.
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I have an opportunity to take a similar job in the same industry, for slightly more pay (probably 10% bump to go). I would be sacrificing a lot of 'trust' and reputational capital I've acquired over the years, possibly for little change in circumstances. On the other hand, much like investing in a diversified portfolio, maybe trying something 'slightly' different is the key to unlocking new potential.
What do you think? Would you take a semi-lateral change in jobs just to try a different company? Or is this too big a risk given high salary and reputation?
Some additional facts if helpful:
Salary well over 100k with generous bonus and RRSP match. Statistician in consulting, within an overall company that doesn't really value statisticians outside of my business unit.
2024.05.16 01:48 JStevinik Premise for a Comedy-Drama Series About a Technocratic Reeducation Camp
I was at work, where one of my co-workers brought up the statistic that over 5% of respondents in a poll believe that chocolate milk comes from brown cows. He claims that the people doubled down and asked whether such people deserve to be placed in a re-education camp. I paused before responding with a definitive "yes".
I noticed that Americans, in particular, express re-education camps as a very particular dystopian punishment. However, I noticed that some people express re-education as rehabilitation since attendees would be trained in skills to have better economic integration in society to prosper. Many Americans advocate for their prison system to be reformed into rehabilitation. I am not surprised that (re)-education would be regarded as a punishment since there is a literal sitcom titled Saved by the Bell.
As an aspiring show-runner of a comedy-drama, I think that a premise about re-education attendees in a technocratic future may or may not work. It has thematic questions, which is necessary for any story or arc. They are: "Is re-education rehabilitation or punishment? Can people be rehabilitated? Another question: Can people be rehabilitated? I got that idea for the latter from the hippie teacher in Beavis and Butthead being challenged (for the sake of comedy). Another question. The former is self-explanatory. I broader question is: Can technocracy fulfill consistent goals as implemented politics, despite its lack of an ideology? I got inspired by my mixed-feelings on technocracy because as someone who studied pharmaceutical sciences, I somewhat wish for humanity and economics to behave less irrationally.
For the characters, I have the facility commandant who gets challenged by both the attendees, who either show lacking progress or defiance, and the re-evaluations made by the changing procedures by the government. The attendees are a varying range of cranks: an easily manipulated poll taker who thinks chocolate milk comes from brown cows, a legit terrorist/conspirator, a "sovereign citizen", a NEET Reddit moderator requested by his parents to attend, a trucker displaced by automation, an underemployed, traveling lab tech seeking transfer credits to get more fitting positions. Each would only last at least one season. I got that idea from a statistic on how most Americans change jobs within 10 years; rendering The Office (at least the US version) unrealistic. I think it can have better settings by having optional, remote classes.
Before you ask, yes, I am aware of the overlap with Dead Poet's Society. I have not seen it beyond its most iconic scene that gets referenced. I watched a Qunton Reviews video on the career of disgraced showrunner Dan Schneider, in which he was in a forgotten sitcom Head of the Class about a gifted high school class and underemployed teacher. I have not watched it yet. I read that PIXAR refused to even read the premise to a Disney-only produced, mid-2000s straight-to-DVD Toy Story 3 to avoid unconsciously plagiarizing material. I am not sure if it is the correct way to avoid material similar to my premise. However, the Toy Story writers studied buddy comedies (and prison escape films for Toy Story 3) to identify common strengths to follow and avoid common weaknesses. Maybe I should catch up on many sitcoms and dramas. However, I work about 60 hours a week, so it is easier said than done. Even I am pushing a little behind (but not late) due to writing this.
Of course, I really appreciate even the harshest dismissal because former Simpsons co-writer and co-showrunner, in his co-authored memoir Springfield Confidential, stated that no amount of talented writers can save a fundamentally bad premise, referring to his first TV writing job at Nine to Five. I hope it is not as problematic as Mr. Enter's (infamous for complaining that Turning Red did not reference post-9/11 paranoia) novel and proposed independent series of kids running adult roles (people do not age backward).
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I noticed that Americans, in particular, express re-education camps as a very particular dystopian punishment. However, I noticed that some people express re-education as rehabilitation since attendees would be trained in skills to have better economic integration in society to prosper. Many Americans advocate for their prison system to be reformed into rehabilitation. I am not surprised that (re)-education would be regarded as a punishment since there is a literal sitcom titled Saved by the Bell.
As an aspiring show-runner of a comedy-drama, I think that a premise about re-education attendees in a technocratic future may or may not work. It has thematic questions, which is necessary for any story or arc. They are: "Is re-education rehabilitation or punishment? Can people be rehabilitated? Another question: Can people be rehabilitated? I got that idea for the latter from the hippie teacher in Beavis and Butthead being challenged (for the sake of comedy). Another question. The former is self-explanatory. I broader question is: Can technocracy fulfill consistent goals as implemented politics, despite its lack of an ideology? I got inspired by my mixed-feelings on technocracy because as someone who studied pharmaceutical sciences, I somewhat wish for humanity and economics to behave less irrationally.
For the characters, I have the facility commandant who gets challenged by both the attendees, who either show lacking progress or defiance, and the re-evaluations made by the changing procedures by the government. The attendees are a varying range of cranks: an easily manipulated poll taker who thinks chocolate milk comes from brown cows, a legit terrorist/conspirator, a "sovereign citizen", a NEET Reddit moderator requested by his parents to attend, a trucker displaced by automation, an underemployed, traveling lab tech seeking transfer credits to get more fitting positions. Each would only last at least one season. I got that idea from a statistic on how most Americans change jobs within 10 years; rendering The Office (at least the US version) unrealistic. I think it can have better settings by having optional, remote classes.
Before you ask, yes, I am aware of the overlap with Dead Poet's Society. I have not seen it beyond its most iconic scene that gets referenced. I watched a Qunton Reviews video on the career of disgraced showrunner Dan Schneider, in which he was in a forgotten sitcom Head of the Class about a gifted high school class and underemployed teacher. I have not watched it yet. I read that PIXAR refused to even read the premise to a Disney-only produced, mid-2000s straight-to-DVD Toy Story 3 to avoid unconsciously plagiarizing material. I am not sure if it is the correct way to avoid material similar to my premise. However, the Toy Story writers studied buddy comedies (and prison escape films for Toy Story 3) to identify common strengths to follow and avoid common weaknesses. Maybe I should catch up on many sitcoms and dramas. However, I work about 60 hours a week, so it is easier said than done. Even I am pushing a little behind (but not late) due to writing this.
Of course, I really appreciate even the harshest dismissal because former Simpsons co-writer and co-showrunner, in his co-authored memoir Springfield Confidential, stated that no amount of talented writers can save a fundamentally bad premise, referring to his first TV writing job at Nine to Five. I hope it is not as problematic as Mr. Enter's (infamous for complaining that Turning Red did not reference post-9/11 paranoia) novel and proposed independent series of kids running adult roles (people do not age backward).
2024.05.16 01:48 Altruistic_Engine818 My Headcanons about other New California Republic Cities in SoCal
I thought it would be a fun idea to write out my headcanons for the other, unmentioned settlements/cities in the New California Republic. As a SoCal native, I thought it would also be fun seeing how some notable cities in the region would look in the fallout universe. I’ve only included places in Southern California because I honestly don’t have too much detailed knowledge about central/northern CA cities.
I tried fitting it in with the lore at the time of New Vegas in 2281, but there might be a few mistakes here and there.
-Escondido: Settlement located along the former 15 freeway and acts as a trade settlement on the way to San Diego. Population: 400. Facing raider attacks from nearby Camp Pendleton and feeling like they’ve been failed by the NCR, some local leaders have considered asking the Temecula Super Mutants to assist in a joint assault on the camp. Population: 500.
-San Diego: Though one of the founding states of the New California Republic, San Diego, now known as Dayglow, is severely underfunded and underdefended compared to other States. Some say this is because of its distance from the capital, others says its because of continued discriminiation towards Ghouls and Super Mutants who helped found the settlement. Despite this, it still operates as a thriving scrap hub and exports many of the materials used by NCR soldiers, vehicles, and machinery. Many smaller settlements still exist in areas farther from downtown, the most major of which include El Cajon, Chula Vista, and Miramar. The latter is the main NCR facility in the area, and has been requesting additional support from Shady Sands to help defeat the Camp Pendleton Raiders. Though having the threat of Raiders in the northwest as well as threats of increased radiation exposure from the Glow in the northeast, many of these settlements are some of the most advanced in the NCR due to the pre-war governance and technology maintained by the descendants of Vault 72. Located near Balboa Park, Vault 72 is the only known vault in the area. Though initially an experiment vault, like Vault 81 in the Commonwealth, its operations were cut short, in this case after a mutiny against the scientists and Overseer by the inhabitants, many of whom were Ex-military due to the Vault’s close distance to the San Diego Navy Yards. For the next century and a half, Vault 72 acted as a control vault. Eventually, its systems started to fail, and many of its inhabitants exited the vault in search of new settlements, bringing the technology and infrastructure found in the vaults with them. As the New California Republic expands, there have been rumors among NCR soldiers about restoring some of the abandoned Navy ships in the former San Diego harbor, though nothing has been completely confirmed. The Brotherhood of Steel also seeks to acquire former military technology in the area, but has been unable to do so.
-San Bernardino: Took the most nuclear strikes out of all cities in SoCal’s Inland Empire during the Great War. Due to this, Feral Ghoul encounters are common in the area, though their population has been dwindling in recent years due to Rubidoux settlers and NCR forces slowly clearing up the area, mainly to help caravans from the area safely travel the 215 freeway to reach high desert settlements.
-Temecula: Reclaimed by former Master Super Mutants into a small settlement, population of 50. Do not mind caravans using the former 15 freeway that goes through the city to reach the San Diego area.
-Hemet: Thriving farm town. Decently isolated from the SoCal sprawl, Hemet is relatively sleepy and peaceful. Supplies a decent amount of crops to the IE region. Nothing really interesting about it besides that. Population: 300.
-Palm Springs: Run by the remnants of the Agua-Caliente, Cabazon, and Morongo Native American Tribes. Due to its strategic prominence, being south of the Mojave and west of Arizona, as well as its proximity to the Idyllwild training grounds and routes to Shady Sands, it has become popular with many NCR higher-ups, many of whom own second homes in the town. Population: 1,000. Vault 93: Located in the foothills of the San Jacinto Mountains. Experimental vault studying the effects of celebrity influence. A dozen celebrities were selected among the 900 civilians who entered the vault, where factions aligning with each of them divided up the leadership inside. No holotapes have been found showing what happened next, though it is to assume that whatever played out led to Vault 93 being opened and vacated. Though considered by the NCR to be repurposed, it sits abandoned, now silently overlooking the Sonoran wastes.
-Irvine: Largely an NCR base centered around the former John Wayne Airport, though there are a decent amount of civilians who have set up shop to cater to the large soldier population. The 452nd Battalion is stationed at the airport, though their numbers have dwindled due to transfers to the Mojave. This has made them unable to respond to the Camp Pendleton Raiders. Population (including soldiers): 2,000.
-San Clemente: A “Ghoul only” settlement ran by wealthy pre-war Ghouls who maintain the area. Despite the exclusivity, it has maintained a population of over 1,000 mainly by bringing in other Ghouls from Orange County and the surrounding area. Mainly keeps to themselves though they accept caravans for trade, though less have been showing up due to the threat of the Camp Pendelton Raiders.
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I tried fitting it in with the lore at the time of New Vegas in 2281, but there might be a few mistakes here and there.
San Diego Area
-Camp Pendleton: Controlled by one of the largest Raider groups of SoCal, cutting off entry to the San Diego area from the 5 Freeway. Uses restored Vertiberds, Power Armor, and APCs left over by the Marines after the war. Because of this, they are an extremely valuable target for the Brotherhood of Steel, though they have not launched a full-scale attack due to fears of high casualties. This, along with manpower shortages in the region due to the the situation in the Mojave, has prevented the NCR from conducting operations as well. Many in the San Diego area have discussed creating a temporary alliance between Settlers/NCR, the BOS, and the Temecula Super Mutants, though the feasibility of that seems a bit low.-Escondido: Settlement located along the former 15 freeway and acts as a trade settlement on the way to San Diego. Population: 400. Facing raider attacks from nearby Camp Pendleton and feeling like they’ve been failed by the NCR, some local leaders have considered asking the Temecula Super Mutants to assist in a joint assault on the camp. Population: 500.
-San Diego: Though one of the founding states of the New California Republic, San Diego, now known as Dayglow, is severely underfunded and underdefended compared to other States. Some say this is because of its distance from the capital, others says its because of continued discriminiation towards Ghouls and Super Mutants who helped found the settlement. Despite this, it still operates as a thriving scrap hub and exports many of the materials used by NCR soldiers, vehicles, and machinery. Many smaller settlements still exist in areas farther from downtown, the most major of which include El Cajon, Chula Vista, and Miramar. The latter is the main NCR facility in the area, and has been requesting additional support from Shady Sands to help defeat the Camp Pendleton Raiders. Though having the threat of Raiders in the northwest as well as threats of increased radiation exposure from the Glow in the northeast, many of these settlements are some of the most advanced in the NCR due to the pre-war governance and technology maintained by the descendants of Vault 72. Located near Balboa Park, Vault 72 is the only known vault in the area. Though initially an experiment vault, like Vault 81 in the Commonwealth, its operations were cut short, in this case after a mutiny against the scientists and Overseer by the inhabitants, many of whom were Ex-military due to the Vault’s close distance to the San Diego Navy Yards. For the next century and a half, Vault 72 acted as a control vault. Eventually, its systems started to fail, and many of its inhabitants exited the vault in search of new settlements, bringing the technology and infrastructure found in the vaults with them. As the New California Republic expands, there have been rumors among NCR soldiers about restoring some of the abandoned Navy ships in the former San Diego harbor, though nothing has been completely confirmed. The Brotherhood of Steel also seeks to acquire former military technology in the area, but has been unable to do so.
Inland Empire
-Riverside: Home to “Rubidoux,” a mid-sized NCR town with a population of about 1,000. Located on the base of Mt. Rubidoux. The Mission Inn, located in the former downtown, is now utilized as an NCR armory and base. Possible plans to rebuild more of downtown have been discussed by local leaders, but not implemented. Vault 54 is located near Rubidoux on the base of Box Springs Mountain. It is a rare control vault with around 800 living citizens, and has been frequently trading with the nearby Rubidoux settlement since its opening in around 2245.-San Bernardino: Took the most nuclear strikes out of all cities in SoCal’s Inland Empire during the Great War. Due to this, Feral Ghoul encounters are common in the area, though their population has been dwindling in recent years due to Rubidoux settlers and NCR forces slowly clearing up the area, mainly to help caravans from the area safely travel the 215 freeway to reach high desert settlements.
-Temecula: Reclaimed by former Master Super Mutants into a small settlement, population of 50. Do not mind caravans using the former 15 freeway that goes through the city to reach the San Diego area.
-Hemet: Thriving farm town. Decently isolated from the SoCal sprawl, Hemet is relatively sleepy and peaceful. Supplies a decent amount of crops to the IE region. Nothing really interesting about it besides that. Population: 300.
Desert Regions
-Idyllwild: Used as a training ground for NCR soldiers due to its isolation in the mountains.-Palm Springs: Run by the remnants of the Agua-Caliente, Cabazon, and Morongo Native American Tribes. Due to its strategic prominence, being south of the Mojave and west of Arizona, as well as its proximity to the Idyllwild training grounds and routes to Shady Sands, it has become popular with many NCR higher-ups, many of whom own second homes in the town. Population: 1,000. Vault 93: Located in the foothills of the San Jacinto Mountains. Experimental vault studying the effects of celebrity influence. A dozen celebrities were selected among the 900 civilians who entered the vault, where factions aligning with each of them divided up the leadership inside. No holotapes have been found showing what happened next, though it is to assume that whatever played out led to Vault 93 being opened and vacated. Though considered by the NCR to be repurposed, it sits abandoned, now silently overlooking the Sonoran wastes.
Orange County
-Huntington Beach: Inhabited by the descendants of the Children of the Cathedral, who founded a settlement in what was Huntington Beach after the destruction of the Cathedral in Long Beach and the end of the Unity project in 2162. Though they tend to keep to themselves, there are still some devout Unity believers who kidnap caravans travelling along the former 405 freeway in order to adopt them into the cult and keep the population afloat (They don’t have any FEV to make Super Mutants). Population: 100.-Irvine: Largely an NCR base centered around the former John Wayne Airport, though there are a decent amount of civilians who have set up shop to cater to the large soldier population. The 452nd Battalion is stationed at the airport, though their numbers have dwindled due to transfers to the Mojave. This has made them unable to respond to the Camp Pendleton Raiders. Population (including soldiers): 2,000.
-San Clemente: A “Ghoul only” settlement ran by wealthy pre-war Ghouls who maintain the area. Despite the exclusivity, it has maintained a population of over 1,000 mainly by bringing in other Ghouls from Orange County and the surrounding area. Mainly keeps to themselves though they accept caravans for trade, though less have been showing up due to the threat of the Camp Pendelton Raiders.
2024.05.16 01:47 imhereforgoodsaddly How do you make the most out of college?
I'm referring mostly to the social aspect in this case.
I have always been basically a introverted loser due to my social anxiety. But as of recently (due to my gap year) I have been able to get all of my mental problems at least under control. I feel pretty confident in myself, but I am just lacking experience. I spent the last to years of high school at home because I didn't really have friends irl. Now I have made irl friends over the last year and we have started going to parties and such and things that I thought I hated, I actually loved.
Through this period I have gone from maybe a 4 to a solid 7, probably could make it to a 8/9 if I get down to 10% bf. Basically I'm asking how the hell I get invited to parties. I will be studying in the Netherland if that info is useful.
TL;DR: How does someone with not much experience get invited to parties
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I have always been basically a introverted loser due to my social anxiety. But as of recently (due to my gap year) I have been able to get all of my mental problems at least under control. I feel pretty confident in myself, but I am just lacking experience. I spent the last to years of high school at home because I didn't really have friends irl. Now I have made irl friends over the last year and we have started going to parties and such and things that I thought I hated, I actually loved.
Through this period I have gone from maybe a 4 to a solid 7, probably could make it to a 8/9 if I get down to 10% bf. Basically I'm asking how the hell I get invited to parties. I will be studying in the Netherland if that info is useful.
TL;DR: How does someone with not much experience get invited to parties
2024.05.16 01:47 throwawayRA7227 Lower sex drive
I’m so jealous of the women with high sex drives during pregnancy. I’m 18wks and I feel like I have a UTI (irritated urethra, tested at doctors, no infection) and every time we have sex it just feels like he’s hitting a bruise (I’m assuming an inflamed cervix). It’s just not enjoyable (other than external oral). I’m not even big yet, anyone else?
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2024.05.16 01:47 ThrowRAmmish I wanna leave but he doesn’t let me 28F and 31M bf. He says he doesn’t have reasons to live if i go and it scares me,how can i pacefully leave?
I know i dont have attraction anymore or romantic love but ..how i can leave? Me 28F girlfriend and he 31M boyfriend been togheter for 11 years and he doesn’t let me go
So we ve been togheter since i was in high school,my parents didnt liked him but i moved in with him after 2 months of dating and i was sure i wanted him for the rest of my life,he was not so sure but he keep going on..financially was very rought and after 2 years almost he didnt wanted To work since i made sacrifices and i worked more and made enough for both. At first i wanted him Home and spend more time with me(at that age i didnt knowed how important is for both him to be independent men)Then he started therapy becouse he suffer from depression and i was always supportive. I dont care about money,but i m doing a job i hate and i cant talk to my parents about it becouse they will not understand it. I m tired of it and i wish a change. I starter focusing on myself ,i losed 30kgs,about 60lbs or more,i started gym he did the same but do home gym.Anyway after many years i started to see he is not the men that i tought he is,he will be abusing me verbally and make me feel small and stupid,he admited to do all those things when i said i wanna leave,he promised he will never say bad words and blame his depression for it..i m afraid that he will do something bad if i leave as he said he cant live if i leave. I tried to leave 3 times already and he doesnt let me,he now wants babbies and to marry me and give me what he didnt in 11 years and is very confusing becouse i suffered so much but also i dont wanna be the victim and in my head i m afraid that no one will love me so much and maybe i m losing the love of my life .. I need an advice becouse i dont know what to do. For many years i couldnt see another man attractive,but now i dont find him attractive even he tries to take care of himself..i even started to talk to another guy and feel attracted to him Very much,but i put boundaries (wich i never can do with my boyfriend idk why i always do what he ask even i dont want to) and told him while i m in a relationship i will not cheat,touch or meet for a drink. Then we started to talk and i told him i wanna leave my bf and he offered me advices..anyway i confessed to my boyfriend maybe he will let me go but he said is ok he deserves that and he blocked the guy over all my social media and send him a text that i will give my relationship a new chance and he made me move my gym (were i meet the guy).I still think of that men even been a few weeks but i always respected myself and i could never cheat,but since i felt attraction towards another men made me realize is done
Long story short-i wanna leave,no matter how nice he treats me and he give me everything i want i dont feel happy but i know he will suffer much if i go..i always feel that somethings is going to happen like i m in danger but i didnt felt this in the first years of relationship.I have nothing mine,and it feels overwhelming to move alone with rent since i cant go to my parents and i dont know how they will take it or if they will support me.. I need an advice and how not feel so confused
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So we ve been togheter since i was in high school,my parents didnt liked him but i moved in with him after 2 months of dating and i was sure i wanted him for the rest of my life,he was not so sure but he keep going on..financially was very rought and after 2 years almost he didnt wanted To work since i made sacrifices and i worked more and made enough for both. At first i wanted him Home and spend more time with me(at that age i didnt knowed how important is for both him to be independent men)Then he started therapy becouse he suffer from depression and i was always supportive. I dont care about money,but i m doing a job i hate and i cant talk to my parents about it becouse they will not understand it. I m tired of it and i wish a change. I starter focusing on myself ,i losed 30kgs,about 60lbs or more,i started gym he did the same but do home gym.Anyway after many years i started to see he is not the men that i tought he is,he will be abusing me verbally and make me feel small and stupid,he admited to do all those things when i said i wanna leave,he promised he will never say bad words and blame his depression for it..i m afraid that he will do something bad if i leave as he said he cant live if i leave. I tried to leave 3 times already and he doesnt let me,he now wants babbies and to marry me and give me what he didnt in 11 years and is very confusing becouse i suffered so much but also i dont wanna be the victim and in my head i m afraid that no one will love me so much and maybe i m losing the love of my life .. I need an advice becouse i dont know what to do. For many years i couldnt see another man attractive,but now i dont find him attractive even he tries to take care of himself..i even started to talk to another guy and feel attracted to him Very much,but i put boundaries (wich i never can do with my boyfriend idk why i always do what he ask even i dont want to) and told him while i m in a relationship i will not cheat,touch or meet for a drink. Then we started to talk and i told him i wanna leave my bf and he offered me advices..anyway i confessed to my boyfriend maybe he will let me go but he said is ok he deserves that and he blocked the guy over all my social media and send him a text that i will give my relationship a new chance and he made me move my gym (were i meet the guy).I still think of that men even been a few weeks but i always respected myself and i could never cheat,but since i felt attraction towards another men made me realize is done
Long story short-i wanna leave,no matter how nice he treats me and he give me everything i want i dont feel happy but i know he will suffer much if i go..i always feel that somethings is going to happen like i m in danger but i didnt felt this in the first years of relationship.I have nothing mine,and it feels overwhelming to move alone with rent since i cant go to my parents and i dont know how they will take it or if they will support me.. I need an advice and how not feel so confused
2024.05.16 01:46 Ufratys First Time ACOMAF Reader (Ch. 11-15) Thoughts & Impressions
Greetings and Salutations! Just dropping the next few chapters below, these were fun to read :) Enjoy!
Ch. 11
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Ch. 11
- “What the hell happened to you?” LOL if Rhys becomes Lucien 2.0 I think I'll be ok with that
- Wait so if he wanted Rhys could just channel his power and go scorched earth??? How are there not any contingencies in place for that and everyone is just relying on his whim?
- Whoa so Feyre has been making some crazy progress with her shields if Rhys is blocked out 90% of the time…hooked on phonics with Rhys has really been paying off for her
- Eyyyyyy Feyre is reading a book! Look how far she's come
- Bro, why is Rhys always asking why Feyre doesn't insult him anymore? Is he into verbal BDSM or something? I guess being Amarantha's toy did a number on him. I bet this guy is a freak in the bed
- Oh damn so she has water bending skills too?! So wateice, fire, wind, psychic abilities…just needs earth and heart and she can finally become Captainess Planet
- Bro, Tamlin’s number one flaw is that he’s straight up not a good communicator. He thinks he can just scowl his way to victory with Feyre and Rhys, and they're not about that life
- I do feel kinda bad for Tammy, I bet he feels like he's getting cucked by Mr. Cavill (completely understandable as well)
- NICE Feyre is just plowing through all the books in the library…WAY better hobby than being a lukewarm painter. That being said, I won't say no to a Bob Ross faerie to help Feyre improve her skills
- Dude Tammy is still shutting Feyre out?! This guy is completely oblivious to the fact that he's losing her slowly
- WTF is Feyre turning part crow now?
- “How long have the claws been appearing?” bro…nothing gets past Luke the Duke. NOTHING
- Dude…Lucien can really do no wrong, am I right? This MAN is advocating for Feyre left and right constantly to have her be trained cause he sees the bigger picture. Everyone's goal in life should be to find a friend that'll be in your corner the way Lucien is with Feyre. HAVE FEYRE BECOME THE AVATAR, YOU COWARDS
- Really. Tammy is still giving her short answers and no new info? How did that work out last time in the first book?
- I mean at this point just continue compromising? Just be a good girl and stay in the palace, then when you go to Rhysand's place go balls out and start training to be the avatar over there. You probably could even bargain and say give me one full month at the Night Court hyperbolic time chamber, I'll become a god, then the bargain is complete and everyone bows to me, HIGH LADY FEYRE
- I'm pretty sure Feyre is gonna learn Winnowing right? Then she'll be able to come and go as she pleases
- WTF is happening, is Feyre getting kidnapped?
- OH SHIT Alis coming in clutch!!! Are her and Mor pen pals or something?
- Back to the Night Court!
- LMAO Rhysand is looking at Feyre rubbing his temples and thinking “I'm too old for this shit”
- She can control darkness too?! Please tell me she summons Charlie Murphy to the battlefield in a future book
- I mean, at the rate she's revealing her powers she's making Avatar Aang look like a baby back bitch
- Oh damn Feyre said it. She's not going back! I think comparing being trapped in the palace to being trapped under the mountain did it for her
- What's with the cloak and dagger shit with Rhys? Feyre can't mention anything to anyone about the Night Court? Interesting, I'm wondering if this court is suffering greatly from the Illyrians
- Noice Rhys treating her like an equal rather than property. Honestly, not a hard concept at all.
- Onward to Velaris, city of stars! Sounds dope
- Wait, Feyre took a bath and got ready in 10 minutes? I call bullshit
- LMAO Rhys said “that was 15 minutes.” I should just keep reading before commenting lol
- Hold on, Rhys has callused hands? From what? I can't imagine this guy doing any type of manual labor or holding a BF sword for fighting, this cat uses mind bullets. Is that even a turn on, having callused hands?
- So, they both arrive in a lived-in home that's inside a city…and that's shocking to Feyre…why?!? Does she expect city residents to just live in the sewers or something? This woman I swear…
- Oh wow that's the end of part 1! We're just moving right along aren't we
- Oooh Part 2 The House of Wind?! Day Court maybe???
- Wut we’re in Rhysand's home? Like the one he grew up in???
- Oh shit Rhys has a family? I thought there was no one left except him and Mor
- I…have no idea what's going on right now lol. The twins live in Rhys's house, are they related to him? And two Illyrians are just banging on his door…can they come in?
- Ohhhh one of them is Cassian! Interesting
- Inner circle…like the circle of trust? How does one come to be a part of this?
- Hmm, so Rhys saved this entire city before he became High Lord…I need deets ASAP
- So Velaris sounds like heaven on Prythian.
- “...his blue eyes were as ruthless as the churning winter sea in the distance.” Wait, I thought he has violet eyes?? Can he change their color??? *Sigh some Faes have all the luck
- This place really sounds like Kalm from FF VII Rebirth…gorgeous town
- Really want to know how Rhysand saved this city…I'm curious if they know he's the high lord and if he appreciates being treated like a normal citizen
- Oh God we're back to Feyre thinking about painting things again…
- Also, calm your tits Feyre?! You're getting mad at these people for something they weren't aware of
- “My people are blameless.” TRUTH, Rhys
- Ooooh a new character has appeared! 2nd in command Amren! Steal her shit and she'll roast your balls off
- Wow Rhys is the most powerful high lord in history….good to get confirmation on this, I felt it was always hinted at so far
- What a weird time to warg into Rhysand lol, guess she can't control this ability
- I was just thinking…if Feyre’s real kinky or doesn't have this ability down yet once she and Rhys bang they can warg into each other's bodies and see them screwing themselves and really start having some crazy sex sessions
- Oh interesting, so psychic Faes are called Daemati. As in, ‘Daemati’ invade your mind, or ‘Daemati’ not LOLOL. I'm keeping that dad joke
- “...or maybe I had broken it, when I shoved that dagger into the hearts of two innocent fae and their blood warmed my hands.” Don't you DARE forget what you did to the Beddors, Feyre! Remember Clare!!!!
- Bro, Rhysand is going to carry Feyre as he flies in with his wings LOL. What a sight that would be
- What do those wings look like by the way? I know we've gotten tiny glimpses and hints..like black, bat wings. And I'm assuming wing span size ABSOLUTELY matters *wink wink
- Ooooh what a cool flying scene; all this needs is “A whole new world” playing in the background.
- Aw sad day, Rhys loved his mommy :/
- “Each chair fashioned, I noted, to accommodate wings.” What does that even look like? No backs to the chairs, or the backs are shorter so the wings can rest over the back when they sit? I gotta know this for my immersion!
- Cute little penny for your thoughts scene between Rhys and Feyre…she's completely out of the woods with Tammy now.
- Let the Illyrian Dinner Feast begin!
2024.05.16 01:43 midnight_falls Conflicted about someone who cheated on the AP Calc BC exam
There were two people in front of me who were cheating on the FRQ section (at least then it was obvious). They were in the front of room and I was behind them and I know at least 4 people know, including me, about this because at one point one of the people in front of me literally put his hand on the other persons test paper to push the page down so he could look at his paper better and me and 2-3 people around me literally laughed. It was so obvious that they were helping each other throughout the whole FRQ. We are the only BC class in our school and we got close and I think no one will report this but I feel conflicted because regardless they are cheating. TO ADD... THEY LITERALLY STARTED TALKING TO EACH OTHER... there was only 30 people in that room and the teachers who were proctoring literally were on their phones the whole time. It was so obvious but I don't want to fuck them over like that because they are smart students and they have a lot to give in their high school career and I do not want to mess that up for them. help me 😞
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2024.05.16 01:43 cannonballjellyfish Community ED > Trauma Center
I’m an ED RN in a small-ish community hospital that is affiliated with a much larger health system in the area. We do not take any trauma patients except to stabilize severe cases that need to fly out to a trauma center. In nursing school, I did my preceptorship at a Level 3 TC that served a large area in rural AL. I really loved working the traumas (of course I was mostly observing back then), and I want to try it again at some point in my career.
I’m anxious, though, since my 3 years of experience are in the smaller community ED, which does see high acuity, but hardly any trauma. I feel like I’d be starting from square one - like a new grad again.
Has anyone made this switch? Any advice or thoughts on the learning curve? Would I have to work in the general ED area for a while before learning to do trauma cases?
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I’m anxious, though, since my 3 years of experience are in the smaller community ED, which does see high acuity, but hardly any trauma. I feel like I’d be starting from square one - like a new grad again.
Has anyone made this switch? Any advice or thoughts on the learning curve? Would I have to work in the general ED area for a while before learning to do trauma cases?
2024.05.16 01:43 DribbleKing97_ Is the GTI/GLI/Golf R badge pretty much the same as the "BiTurbo", "M", and "S-Line", badge?
For example, when you see a MB from the side, and you see bi turbo or V8 bi turbo you immediately know that its a high performance MB I guess if you are a car person, do people get that that feeling with the VW's?
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2024.05.16 01:42 Blake_meyer It was all true
I don't really know why I'm writing this ... I think it's because I've tried to explain it to my uncle but all he said is that I should get my addiction under control and stop forgetting to take my meds.
I can't blame him. You see... I have a history. I've lost it in the past , twice actually. I'm not here to talk about it , but I think it's important to lay this down first. So you can understand.
I've been told something's wrong with my brain, maybe I was born this way, maybe I've been through too much. That my mother was an addict, she'd cut ties with her family for 10 years when she had me. That where she had been and who my father was, is was very unclear. She was part of a community in the forgotten part of the nearest big city when she died. I was there when it happened.
My uncle Sean and Aunt Maggie became my guardians just before my 5th birthday and I'm still with him 20 years later. Maggie left the ranch a few weeks ago after an amicable divorce, I never understood why they were together anyway she was always working somewhere, traveling a lot. I was closer to him and his sturdy way of life.
When I first arrived at the ranch, I was in a bad shape. I got better thanks to him but when I reached thirteen, all the memories from my early childhood suddenly came back. I started having flashbacks. My memories came back, but they came back wrong.
I had been told that my mother had died of an untreated infection. Yet in my dreams, I saw her , again and again , in a pool of blood. An then... Then it came. The... Thing. I won't describe it. It kind of triggers something in me that I really don't need right now.
I've been told that what happened next was so traumatic that my brain made up a monster, a fiction , to make sense of what I was seeing and not processing.
This ... Thing started obsessing me and during my early teenage years I focused all my energy on finding what it was and proving it happened. That a monster did kill and mutilated my mother. My nightmares were so bad that I stopped sleeping. I drank so much energy drinks that I ended up in the hospital twice with severe dehydration.
Thankfully, I got better. I started working more and more with my uncle's horses. I think it's why he employed me, he saw how manual work and caring for the animals helped. I even got my first girlfriend around my 17th year. I was prom king. Who would have thought?
But then... She had a cheerleading accident. In front of me. And I lost it again. I won't go into details but she broke her neck during half-time and once again... The way she fell, folded and screamed. I couldn't process. It was IT. It'd shapeshifted to get to her. I'm ashamed of it but I became violent. Looking for it franticly. Screaming non sense and talking made up words. I had to be sedated. She made it alive, but she never wanted to see me again. I was accused by pretty much everyone to make the accident all about myself. And they were kind of right....
Now you know how I came to be the " crazy" guy. I have a bit of a drinking problem too to be honest... You see I never went back to high school. I started working full time at the ranch when I came by, and sometimes, it gets lonely. It's not rare to find me passed out in the hay in the early morning in the summer. And what can I tell you... I know I shouldn't. I know it's "bad" . But I love those nights. I put music , cuddle with my dog and just look at the cold bright stars, drinking beer until they start spinning.
It's because of this bad habit that I realized something was wrong with the horses. You see, contrary to the movies, horses are pretty silent. They don't neigh unless you separate them from their best mate or bring food. And that night... The night it all started. They wouldn't stop. I could hear them galloping and snorting. I wondered if there was a stray dog but they were used to dogs. I was a bit worried. Horses get stupid when they are afraid and we had a big show coming, it wasn't the time so sprain a leg. What really troubled me was my dog. He seemed ... Weird.
Max was a pit mix my uncle had rescued when I was 15. He only woke when I got up and walked a bit to look at the paddocks. That's when I realised the moon behind me. It was huge, and red. I wondered if I had ever seen it so close and so red before. I looked at Max The white of his eyes showed and he started whining. I had never heard him make this noise. Ever.
I looked at my phone. It was quarter to three. I took a pitchfork to be safe and walked toward the clubhouse. We kept a shotgun there in a locker. The horses kept going crazy and max's tail was stiff. I was walking fast but carefully in the darkness when the music reached me. A chant. A low chant. I kind of felt it too... Like a ... vibration.
It was coming from the yearlings field near the forest patch, on the opposite direction of the clubhouse. My horse was in this field. I backtracked immediately and rushed toward the sound as I dialled my uncle. Off course he didn't answer. He didn't live on the property anymore but a few miles away. I left a message, whispering. " I'm at the stable, something weird ‘s happening. I think they're people messing with horses I'm going to see. I think you should come , I don't know...Call me back.". The weird chant buzzed in the background, louder, as if more people had joined. I saw the glow of the fire before I passed the last building. It rose , under the bloody moonlight. Dark figures circled around it. Slowly. The horses seemed to have retreated at the other end of the pasture and I was relieved. Until I saw it. The figure at the centre of this dark carousel. " What the f are those creeps doing" escaped my lips.
blazing fury filled me , like a white iron like a white hot blade blinding me . "HEYYYY" I screamed at the top of lungs. " WHAT ARE YOU DOING !? ". The figures stopped and turn toward me. I was running now , my knuckles going white around the pitchfork's stick. Max was growling. A deep growl. His hair high upon his backbone. The figure, still pretty far did not move. I could see their heavy hooded cloaks. " what kind of sick pricks are those " I muttered. " HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY" I screamed again, louder than I ever thought I could scream. And then I saw him. Gun.
Gun was my uncle's favourite horse. His old stallion's spitting image. The young horse was lying in front of the fire behind the intruders.
"WHAT DID YOU DO! I'M CALLING THE COPS!!!!". I stopped and was dialling when a figure detached itself from the group and advanced. It seemed to ... float? It moved toward Max and I... so silently.
The burning rage in veins turned cold , and heavy. I opened my mouth but nothing crossed my lips. Suddenly, Max jumped. He growled in a way I hope to never hear any dog do again. A desperate, furious growl. A life or death sound. A war cry... His warm blood spattered on my face. He... Honestly I don't know what happened at that moment. Something lied bloody on the ground but I couldn't even have told that it used to be a dog, even less Max. Acid tears filled my eyes as I realized my mouth was still open. I was tasting him.
I wanted to scream, to run, to just get swallowed by the earth and yet I did nothing at all but stare at the floating silhouette. It was so tall. " Come, my child". " We were waiting for you, we knew you'd come, Your father told us you'd be here when we'd call".
I heard those words, but I wouldn't be able to tell you anything about the thing who spoke them. I say thing because it didn't have a voice. It... Buzzed. Like... a cello.
Suddenly... I floated too. Panick seized me. Like a trapped raccoon in my
chest it dug its claws, scratching furiously my closed throat.
" Your father said you were ready. We will prepare you." I was now in front of the crackling blaze. the other figures circling me. Smiling Men and woman welcomed me. On their faces they all wore a similar mark. a cross covering their eyes horizontally, and their nose and mouth vertically. Their hands... Their hands were still dripping with gun's inside. Gun... Was ... opened.
" A necessary sacrificed" whispered a woman, still smiling. " I know you liked him very much... I'm sorry..." " I could have taken yours, but I knew you wouldn't have forgiven me'. Her voice. .." Aunt Maggie?' I croaked. Her eyes shone with a mad light. " Gosh do you look like your mother tonight... She'd be so proud. Her baby boy..." .
The tall figure made a gesture and I spined and found myself looking at the sky. I thought I'd fallen but... I wasn't touching the ground...
My aunt continued speaking." She was just like you the first time ... So... naive, so afraid.. She was only 16! That was our mistake you see, she wasn't ready for her destiny yet when she joined us... That's why we waited for you."
The chant , the low buzzing chant rose once again. The people around me started walking in a circle around me. I was just above Gun's body.
One, by one, they buried they hands in the belly of the horse and traced the cross on my face. I sealed my lips as tight as I could as the warm blood covered my face. Through the blood and tears I recognize faces. A nurse from the hospital. A teacher. The coffeeshop barista. My psychiatrist... I closed my eyes.
It was a nightmare. It couldn't be anything but a nightmare.
Yet the smell of the horse's inside and the crackling fire still reached me as they started ripping my clothes off.
" This is not real" I whispered. " This is not real, this is not real THIS IS NOT real" I screamed weakly.
'Oh , My dear I'm so sorry ' whispered my aunt. I should have told you earlier... But Dr Carter said it was better to let you grow up a bit first. He said it help you keep the secrets if you were afraid of them. I'm sure you don't feel this way, but it was an honour to watch your mother ascend the way she did. Her agony was the most beautiful thing she could have hoped for. You were supposed to ascend with her but she ruined it". " Slut" groaned a middle aged woman before spitting on the floor.
" She was my best friend you know... I thought I knew her. I thought I could trust her. But she lied to me."
"You see, we know you are his son. But... She wasn't a virgin when she was honoured."
She smiled. " It doesn't matter how cruelly she tricked us. You can help us find the perfect girl."
One by one, each member traced a symbol on my skin.
" You're so handsome... He'll be so glad. The perfect boy. The perfect vessel."
"It's almost time, Prepare" hissed the tall figure.
" You're going to give him his heir, the one ruler among the realms. You see he can't travel here whenever but you're an anchor my love. Each generation he choses an anchor until he finds one who'll give him THE son, the one who'll die for his freedom. Our freedom."
"QUIET SLAVE AND KNEEL" shrieked the tall figure.
She kneeled right near me, and whispered " You're...". I heard a slash. Aunt Maggie’s face slid horizontally. Her eyes followed me as the upper part of the face slid slowly toward the ground.
" HAIL THE PRINCE".
A chant, colder and louder than never before rose with the crackling flames toward the moon.
" Iä! Shub-Niggurath! The Black Goat of the Woods with a Thousand Young! » chanted the disciples."
Frozen, I watched the blazing sky above and saw a door. A perfect wooden door , in the sky. It slowly cracked open as the crowd turn to hysterics and the chant turned to mad screams.
"MY SOOOOOOOON" The whole earth seemed to split open under the weight of the sound coming from the perfect rectangle of empty darkness in the sky.
And then... I saw... I saw what I had tried to forget for twenty-years. I saw those split red eyes and their evil glare. I saw the iron hooves at the end of too many legs. I saw the tentacles who fled my mother with their thousand beaks. Everything all at once, I saw it shift, from an odious form to a more loathsome one. I burned in a way I'll never be able to describe.
I woke up two weeks ago in the nearest hospital. I was found on the ground, surrounded by the yearlings, the corpse of gun and some remains of Max. My uncle explained to me that I had found a bear feasting on Gun, that Max must have attacked it and I'd fainted or been knocked out trying to scare it away. Laying lifeless had saved me. I didn't speak of what I saw at the hospital. I knew better now. I've tried to explain to my uncle why I had to move out to the big city. That I had a mission now. That I had never been crazy and that I shouldn't have been afraid.
I know now that I'm blessed. You see he thinks I'm just having another episode, that it’s a "manic" episode and I should go back to the clinic, but I know better now. I am special. I am. And he can be too. Anyway... He'll be whether he joins or not. You'll all be. Because he is coming. He 'll bless us all. Because you see, I know I can find her and I'll give him the perfect door. A door to let him in. A door to let all of him in. He'll honour us all, all at once.
" Iä! Shub-Niggurath! The Black Goat of the Woods with a Thousand Young! »
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I can't blame him. You see... I have a history. I've lost it in the past , twice actually. I'm not here to talk about it , but I think it's important to lay this down first. So you can understand.
I've been told something's wrong with my brain, maybe I was born this way, maybe I've been through too much. That my mother was an addict, she'd cut ties with her family for 10 years when she had me. That where she had been and who my father was, is was very unclear. She was part of a community in the forgotten part of the nearest big city when she died. I was there when it happened.
My uncle Sean and Aunt Maggie became my guardians just before my 5th birthday and I'm still with him 20 years later. Maggie left the ranch a few weeks ago after an amicable divorce, I never understood why they were together anyway she was always working somewhere, traveling a lot. I was closer to him and his sturdy way of life.
When I first arrived at the ranch, I was in a bad shape. I got better thanks to him but when I reached thirteen, all the memories from my early childhood suddenly came back. I started having flashbacks. My memories came back, but they came back wrong.
I had been told that my mother had died of an untreated infection. Yet in my dreams, I saw her , again and again , in a pool of blood. An then... Then it came. The... Thing. I won't describe it. It kind of triggers something in me that I really don't need right now.
I've been told that what happened next was so traumatic that my brain made up a monster, a fiction , to make sense of what I was seeing and not processing.
This ... Thing started obsessing me and during my early teenage years I focused all my energy on finding what it was and proving it happened. That a monster did kill and mutilated my mother. My nightmares were so bad that I stopped sleeping. I drank so much energy drinks that I ended up in the hospital twice with severe dehydration.
Thankfully, I got better. I started working more and more with my uncle's horses. I think it's why he employed me, he saw how manual work and caring for the animals helped. I even got my first girlfriend around my 17th year. I was prom king. Who would have thought?
But then... She had a cheerleading accident. In front of me. And I lost it again. I won't go into details but she broke her neck during half-time and once again... The way she fell, folded and screamed. I couldn't process. It was IT. It'd shapeshifted to get to her. I'm ashamed of it but I became violent. Looking for it franticly. Screaming non sense and talking made up words. I had to be sedated. She made it alive, but she never wanted to see me again. I was accused by pretty much everyone to make the accident all about myself. And they were kind of right....
Now you know how I came to be the " crazy" guy. I have a bit of a drinking problem too to be honest... You see I never went back to high school. I started working full time at the ranch when I came by, and sometimes, it gets lonely. It's not rare to find me passed out in the hay in the early morning in the summer. And what can I tell you... I know I shouldn't. I know it's "bad" . But I love those nights. I put music , cuddle with my dog and just look at the cold bright stars, drinking beer until they start spinning.
It's because of this bad habit that I realized something was wrong with the horses. You see, contrary to the movies, horses are pretty silent. They don't neigh unless you separate them from their best mate or bring food. And that night... The night it all started. They wouldn't stop. I could hear them galloping and snorting. I wondered if there was a stray dog but they were used to dogs. I was a bit worried. Horses get stupid when they are afraid and we had a big show coming, it wasn't the time so sprain a leg. What really troubled me was my dog. He seemed ... Weird.
Max was a pit mix my uncle had rescued when I was 15. He only woke when I got up and walked a bit to look at the paddocks. That's when I realised the moon behind me. It was huge, and red. I wondered if I had ever seen it so close and so red before. I looked at Max The white of his eyes showed and he started whining. I had never heard him make this noise. Ever.
I looked at my phone. It was quarter to three. I took a pitchfork to be safe and walked toward the clubhouse. We kept a shotgun there in a locker. The horses kept going crazy and max's tail was stiff. I was walking fast but carefully in the darkness when the music reached me. A chant. A low chant. I kind of felt it too... Like a ... vibration.
It was coming from the yearlings field near the forest patch, on the opposite direction of the clubhouse. My horse was in this field. I backtracked immediately and rushed toward the sound as I dialled my uncle. Off course he didn't answer. He didn't live on the property anymore but a few miles away. I left a message, whispering. " I'm at the stable, something weird ‘s happening. I think they're people messing with horses I'm going to see. I think you should come , I don't know...Call me back.". The weird chant buzzed in the background, louder, as if more people had joined. I saw the glow of the fire before I passed the last building. It rose , under the bloody moonlight. Dark figures circled around it. Slowly. The horses seemed to have retreated at the other end of the pasture and I was relieved. Until I saw it. The figure at the centre of this dark carousel. " What the f are those creeps doing" escaped my lips.
blazing fury filled me , like a white iron like a white hot blade blinding me . "HEYYYY" I screamed at the top of lungs. " WHAT ARE YOU DOING !? ". The figures stopped and turn toward me. I was running now , my knuckles going white around the pitchfork's stick. Max was growling. A deep growl. His hair high upon his backbone. The figure, still pretty far did not move. I could see their heavy hooded cloaks. " what kind of sick pricks are those " I muttered. " HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY" I screamed again, louder than I ever thought I could scream. And then I saw him. Gun.
Gun was my uncle's favourite horse. His old stallion's spitting image. The young horse was lying in front of the fire behind the intruders.
"WHAT DID YOU DO! I'M CALLING THE COPS!!!!". I stopped and was dialling when a figure detached itself from the group and advanced. It seemed to ... float? It moved toward Max and I... so silently.
The burning rage in veins turned cold , and heavy. I opened my mouth but nothing crossed my lips. Suddenly, Max jumped. He growled in a way I hope to never hear any dog do again. A desperate, furious growl. A life or death sound. A war cry... His warm blood spattered on my face. He... Honestly I don't know what happened at that moment. Something lied bloody on the ground but I couldn't even have told that it used to be a dog, even less Max. Acid tears filled my eyes as I realized my mouth was still open. I was tasting him.
I wanted to scream, to run, to just get swallowed by the earth and yet I did nothing at all but stare at the floating silhouette. It was so tall. " Come, my child". " We were waiting for you, we knew you'd come, Your father told us you'd be here when we'd call".
I heard those words, but I wouldn't be able to tell you anything about the thing who spoke them. I say thing because it didn't have a voice. It... Buzzed. Like... a cello.
Suddenly... I floated too. Panick seized me. Like a trapped raccoon in my
chest it dug its claws, scratching furiously my closed throat.
" Your father said you were ready. We will prepare you." I was now in front of the crackling blaze. the other figures circling me. Smiling Men and woman welcomed me. On their faces they all wore a similar mark. a cross covering their eyes horizontally, and their nose and mouth vertically. Their hands... Their hands were still dripping with gun's inside. Gun... Was ... opened.
" A necessary sacrificed" whispered a woman, still smiling. " I know you liked him very much... I'm sorry..." " I could have taken yours, but I knew you wouldn't have forgiven me'. Her voice. .." Aunt Maggie?' I croaked. Her eyes shone with a mad light. " Gosh do you look like your mother tonight... She'd be so proud. Her baby boy..." .
The tall figure made a gesture and I spined and found myself looking at the sky. I thought I'd fallen but... I wasn't touching the ground...
My aunt continued speaking." She was just like you the first time ... So... naive, so afraid.. She was only 16! That was our mistake you see, she wasn't ready for her destiny yet when she joined us... That's why we waited for you."
The chant , the low buzzing chant rose once again. The people around me started walking in a circle around me. I was just above Gun's body.
One, by one, they buried they hands in the belly of the horse and traced the cross on my face. I sealed my lips as tight as I could as the warm blood covered my face. Through the blood and tears I recognize faces. A nurse from the hospital. A teacher. The coffeeshop barista. My psychiatrist... I closed my eyes.
It was a nightmare. It couldn't be anything but a nightmare.
Yet the smell of the horse's inside and the crackling fire still reached me as they started ripping my clothes off.
" This is not real" I whispered. " This is not real, this is not real THIS IS NOT real" I screamed weakly.
'Oh , My dear I'm so sorry ' whispered my aunt. I should have told you earlier... But Dr Carter said it was better to let you grow up a bit first. He said it help you keep the secrets if you were afraid of them. I'm sure you don't feel this way, but it was an honour to watch your mother ascend the way she did. Her agony was the most beautiful thing she could have hoped for. You were supposed to ascend with her but she ruined it". " Slut" groaned a middle aged woman before spitting on the floor.
" She was my best friend you know... I thought I knew her. I thought I could trust her. But she lied to me."
"You see, we know you are his son. But... She wasn't a virgin when she was honoured."
She smiled. " It doesn't matter how cruelly she tricked us. You can help us find the perfect girl."
One by one, each member traced a symbol on my skin.
" You're so handsome... He'll be so glad. The perfect boy. The perfect vessel."
"It's almost time, Prepare" hissed the tall figure.
" You're going to give him his heir, the one ruler among the realms. You see he can't travel here whenever but you're an anchor my love. Each generation he choses an anchor until he finds one who'll give him THE son, the one who'll die for his freedom. Our freedom."
"QUIET SLAVE AND KNEEL" shrieked the tall figure.
She kneeled right near me, and whispered " You're...". I heard a slash. Aunt Maggie’s face slid horizontally. Her eyes followed me as the upper part of the face slid slowly toward the ground.
" HAIL THE PRINCE".
A chant, colder and louder than never before rose with the crackling flames toward the moon.
" Iä! Shub-Niggurath! The Black Goat of the Woods with a Thousand Young! » chanted the disciples."
Frozen, I watched the blazing sky above and saw a door. A perfect wooden door , in the sky. It slowly cracked open as the crowd turn to hysterics and the chant turned to mad screams.
"MY SOOOOOOOON" The whole earth seemed to split open under the weight of the sound coming from the perfect rectangle of empty darkness in the sky.
And then... I saw... I saw what I had tried to forget for twenty-years. I saw those split red eyes and their evil glare. I saw the iron hooves at the end of too many legs. I saw the tentacles who fled my mother with their thousand beaks. Everything all at once, I saw it shift, from an odious form to a more loathsome one. I burned in a way I'll never be able to describe.
I woke up two weeks ago in the nearest hospital. I was found on the ground, surrounded by the yearlings, the corpse of gun and some remains of Max. My uncle explained to me that I had found a bear feasting on Gun, that Max must have attacked it and I'd fainted or been knocked out trying to scare it away. Laying lifeless had saved me. I didn't speak of what I saw at the hospital. I knew better now. I've tried to explain to my uncle why I had to move out to the big city. That I had a mission now. That I had never been crazy and that I shouldn't have been afraid.
I know now that I'm blessed. You see he thinks I'm just having another episode, that it’s a "manic" episode and I should go back to the clinic, but I know better now. I am special. I am. And he can be too. Anyway... He'll be whether he joins or not. You'll all be. Because he is coming. He 'll bless us all. Because you see, I know I can find her and I'll give him the perfect door. A door to let him in. A door to let all of him in. He'll honour us all, all at once.
" Iä! Shub-Niggurath! The Black Goat of the Woods with a Thousand Young! »
2024.05.16 01:42 Outrageous-War-8932 High Dose Vitamin C IV
 | Hi, I want to let you all know that my mom is classified as a hospice patient with Ovarian Cancer. She had surgery and that gave her around 8 months of relatively healthy life until it came back. She refused chemo and radiation because of her weakened condition and age (83). I got her to start doing high dose vitamin C IVs at a place called Drip Bar in Minneapolis. They initially had to come to her house to do administer the IVs for a couple weeks because she couldn’t get out of bed. She was full body cramping, throwing up all night, sleeping all day. Approximately, 3 weeks into treatments she started feeling better. Eventually she got back into riding horses and now she’s very energetic, no problems except she still drains the ascities every couple months. It used to be 2x per week. They had given her 1-3 months. In the condition she was in it would have been a very bad month if she made it that long. That was a year ago. submitted by Outrageous-War-8932 to Ovariancancer [link] [comments] I just found that article directly from the National Institute of Health website that literally says Ivermectin suppresses Ovarian Cancer. I sent it to her doctor. We’ll see what they say. She’s a hospice patient still, so not sure if they’ll prescribe something other than morphine. It’s a miraculous story and I thought I would share it with this forum. |
2024.05.16 01:41 27LaylaL Should I move in with a roommate when I'm always w my Bf? 22m 22f
My Bf 22M and I 22F have been dating for about a year.
We both live in an expensive city. I live with a roommate in an average 2 bed 1 bath. I pay a decent amount in rent, utilities and groceries. He lives alone in a brand new 2 bed 1 bath and does not pay his own rent. I spend a majority of my time at his apartment because we love to sleep together. To the point that I only go home to do laundry and usually throw out the groceries in my fridge because I didn't eat them (which I can barely afford to begin with).
My landlord is raising my rent, so I need to move out. My roommate is looking for new places for us to move in to but instead I wanted to talk to my boyfriend about moving in together. I said I would pay him the amount I pay in rent now which would basically go into his pocket, but would save me the trip going back and forth all the time and on utilities. He keeps saying it's a great idea and then doesn't bring it up again. I can tell deep down he doesn't actually want to move in together but won't directly say it to not hurt my feelings.
The stress of my cost of living is driving me crazy and I can't help to feel I am throwing my money in the trash by not even being home to make it worth it. I'm not sure if will I just start telling him no to staying over with him which will make our relationship less close or if I will continue to do what makes me happy and suffer financially.
TL:DR My cost of living is high and I feel like I'm wasting money by not moving in with my boyfriend.
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We both live in an expensive city. I live with a roommate in an average 2 bed 1 bath. I pay a decent amount in rent, utilities and groceries. He lives alone in a brand new 2 bed 1 bath and does not pay his own rent. I spend a majority of my time at his apartment because we love to sleep together. To the point that I only go home to do laundry and usually throw out the groceries in my fridge because I didn't eat them (which I can barely afford to begin with).
My landlord is raising my rent, so I need to move out. My roommate is looking for new places for us to move in to but instead I wanted to talk to my boyfriend about moving in together. I said I would pay him the amount I pay in rent now which would basically go into his pocket, but would save me the trip going back and forth all the time and on utilities. He keeps saying it's a great idea and then doesn't bring it up again. I can tell deep down he doesn't actually want to move in together but won't directly say it to not hurt my feelings.
The stress of my cost of living is driving me crazy and I can't help to feel I am throwing my money in the trash by not even being home to make it worth it. I'm not sure if will I just start telling him no to staying over with him which will make our relationship less close or if I will continue to do what makes me happy and suffer financially.
TL:DR My cost of living is high and I feel like I'm wasting money by not moving in with my boyfriend.
2024.05.16 01:40 Shpongletron22 4Runner overdrive question…
 | Ok so I have stock gears and 285/70/17 tires. It’s an 02 with the overdrive on off switch. When I’m on the highway I’ve been playing around with it and when it’s off my rpms are around 3500 at 75mph. My question is will this hurt anything? Is that too high and rpm to run long distances? I feel like if I had stock size tires it might be around this RPM anyway? submitted by Shpongletron22 to 3rdGen4Runner [link] [comments] |
2024.05.16 01:40 Turbulent-Tonight975 The All Quiet On Set documentary (on Nickelodeon) is a hit piece against Dan Schneider and is unfairly presented
I watched several parts of the documentary All Quiet On Set that was released recently and it absolutely stunk as a ridiculously unfair hit piece against Dan Schneider.
The documentary discusses the experience of many childhood actors who starred in a variety of Nickelodeon shows. It talks about the 'toxic' environment and how these kids were not protected and so on. The whole piece feels like a joke that goes out of its way to blame everything on Dan Schneider in ways that are not fair or intellectually honest.
Much of the documentary talks about moments in the shows that seem to be inappropriate for children with adult themes that are implied, or that the child actoactress is sexualized. The documentary does a great job of implying that Rob is responsible without giving real context or perspective. The documentary is literally taking tens of thousands of hours of programming from shows that appeared over 20 year period and shows many moments that from an adult perspective seem inappropriate.
The documentary fails to actually put it in terms of the perspective of the audience watching these shows. I watched these shows and as an 11 year old I didn't even know what a c**shot was, someone getting 'slimmed' was just funny. I'm guessing that the young audience watching probably didn't have a clue what any of the dialogue that was questionable actually meant either BECAUSE WE WERE KIDS. Its such a load of crap showing these few cherrypicked moments form thousands of hours of content and viewing it from an adult perspective the way nobody seemed to car about doing for 20 years until now.
Even better is how the documentary implies that Dan is the one responsible. All the scripts were written by writers, reviewed by other people, reviewed by executives, then brought to set where the parents (or guardians) of the minors were present and could form objections. That is 4 or 5 levels to get to the point of shooting these shows and it is all Dan's fault that some potentially inappropriate dialogue got to that point? Not the writers, or Nick executives, or review groups, or the parents of the actors on scene; none of these hold any responsibility? The documentary sure thinks so, that Dan should have been rewriting the scripts on set when all the groups that failed to excise the inappropriate dialogue all failed numerous times by the time it even got to Dan.
Even better is Dan being difficult to work with and unprofessional. You mean to tell me that a guy who produced so many high quality and successful shows was sometimes difficult to work with because of the standards he had? Sorry to break it to the snowflakes of the world but most successful people are difficult to work with because they demand quality and won't accept mediocre. There is a reason Dan's shows were highly successful. Most successful people in business and entertainment are difficult. Look at director James Cameron. The guy directed Titanic, Avatar series, Terminator series, and Alien. He is also notoriously difficult to work with demanding a lot out of the actors in his movies. Like Dan, James Cameron demanded quality and pissed off many people who worked with him. Maybe the success of both men had something to do with their ability to be adequate and made very successful shows and movies.
Also the 'unprofessionalism' attacks on Dan seem a little over the top. You mean a guy who demands quality professionally can be temperamental and say insensitive things on set at times? Go to any high pressure workplace and the same thing happens. The difference is that people there handle it. He also got 'shoulder massages' on set from adults. GASP!!!! Give me a break.
The part of the abuse from Drake Bell is a very sad part that happened. The documentry could have cared about the truth that Dan didn't hire the people that did the abuse, and kept them out as soon as it was known. Dan did what he could. Because the documentary is a hit piece, these details to exonerate the character of Dan Schneider get ignored.
The documetary and former child actors and actresses should have been honest with a little more perspective that in 20 years of making award winning series, things happen. They could look more in to the writers, executives, review boards that looked at scripts. They could look at how the child stars had parents and guardians ON SET yet seemed to never say or do anything when it came to these supposedly horrible experiences. They could blame the parents for putting these young kids in these difficult acting roles at such young ages. Those won't happen because it is easier to blame Dan for every shortcoming of an entire multibillion dollar company and system that led to the final product that was the shows.
The attacks on Dan seem like something made by his enemies that is absolutely unfairly biased against him, and makes little attempt at intellectual honesty. It goes along with this woke world we live in where everyone wants to be the victim and has to find fault in anyone who is in a position of authority or control. Dan just happens to be the guy in position so blaming it all on him is easier than having any sense of nuance and looking at all parts that went into this at every level of Nickelodeon and especially the parents of these children who performed on set. Maybe the question of how things should be for child actors generally is a question that needed to be asked more.
It really felt like it just wanted to make Dan into the boogieman in all of this when in reality, I don't think very many people if they were put in his position of doing award winning shows for 2 decades with thousands of hours of content, and involvement of that many people and production- could have done any or much better. Most people never have any position of responsibility that puts them in charge of so many people and so many high level situations or high level projects. I'm sure anyone who produced that amount of content under the same circumstances would have a few things they could cherrypick out that were questionable in the thousands of hours of content over 20 years.
I don't know Dan and I never met the guy, I am just tired of hearing him get dragged through the wringer in ways that seem completely unfair by the cancel culture mob. The system had failures at all levels and making him the fall guy is not fair. He apologized for his shortcomings in professionalism and how he could have treated some people better. People talking about him like an abuser he never was, and dragging his name through the mud seems unreasonable form all I saw. It feels like the guy did the best he could in such difficult situations, and more to the point, I don't think all those maligning the guy could have done any better themselves. Its very easy to attack someone when you don't have the same responsibilities because of course the person can imagine doing a perfect job knowing what we know now and having 25 years of hindsight- the hindsight Dan and everyone there didn't have.
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The documentary discusses the experience of many childhood actors who starred in a variety of Nickelodeon shows. It talks about the 'toxic' environment and how these kids were not protected and so on. The whole piece feels like a joke that goes out of its way to blame everything on Dan Schneider in ways that are not fair or intellectually honest.
Much of the documentary talks about moments in the shows that seem to be inappropriate for children with adult themes that are implied, or that the child actoactress is sexualized. The documentary does a great job of implying that Rob is responsible without giving real context or perspective. The documentary is literally taking tens of thousands of hours of programming from shows that appeared over 20 year period and shows many moments that from an adult perspective seem inappropriate.
The documentary fails to actually put it in terms of the perspective of the audience watching these shows. I watched these shows and as an 11 year old I didn't even know what a c**shot was, someone getting 'slimmed' was just funny. I'm guessing that the young audience watching probably didn't have a clue what any of the dialogue that was questionable actually meant either BECAUSE WE WERE KIDS. Its such a load of crap showing these few cherrypicked moments form thousands of hours of content and viewing it from an adult perspective the way nobody seemed to car about doing for 20 years until now.
Even better is how the documentary implies that Dan is the one responsible. All the scripts were written by writers, reviewed by other people, reviewed by executives, then brought to set where the parents (or guardians) of the minors were present and could form objections. That is 4 or 5 levels to get to the point of shooting these shows and it is all Dan's fault that some potentially inappropriate dialogue got to that point? Not the writers, or Nick executives, or review groups, or the parents of the actors on scene; none of these hold any responsibility? The documentary sure thinks so, that Dan should have been rewriting the scripts on set when all the groups that failed to excise the inappropriate dialogue all failed numerous times by the time it even got to Dan.
Even better is Dan being difficult to work with and unprofessional. You mean to tell me that a guy who produced so many high quality and successful shows was sometimes difficult to work with because of the standards he had? Sorry to break it to the snowflakes of the world but most successful people are difficult to work with because they demand quality and won't accept mediocre. There is a reason Dan's shows were highly successful. Most successful people in business and entertainment are difficult. Look at director James Cameron. The guy directed Titanic, Avatar series, Terminator series, and Alien. He is also notoriously difficult to work with demanding a lot out of the actors in his movies. Like Dan, James Cameron demanded quality and pissed off many people who worked with him. Maybe the success of both men had something to do with their ability to be adequate and made very successful shows and movies.
Also the 'unprofessionalism' attacks on Dan seem a little over the top. You mean a guy who demands quality professionally can be temperamental and say insensitive things on set at times? Go to any high pressure workplace and the same thing happens. The difference is that people there handle it. He also got 'shoulder massages' on set from adults. GASP!!!! Give me a break.
The part of the abuse from Drake Bell is a very sad part that happened. The documentry could have cared about the truth that Dan didn't hire the people that did the abuse, and kept them out as soon as it was known. Dan did what he could. Because the documentary is a hit piece, these details to exonerate the character of Dan Schneider get ignored.
The documetary and former child actors and actresses should have been honest with a little more perspective that in 20 years of making award winning series, things happen. They could look more in to the writers, executives, review boards that looked at scripts. They could look at how the child stars had parents and guardians ON SET yet seemed to never say or do anything when it came to these supposedly horrible experiences. They could blame the parents for putting these young kids in these difficult acting roles at such young ages. Those won't happen because it is easier to blame Dan for every shortcoming of an entire multibillion dollar company and system that led to the final product that was the shows.
The attacks on Dan seem like something made by his enemies that is absolutely unfairly biased against him, and makes little attempt at intellectual honesty. It goes along with this woke world we live in where everyone wants to be the victim and has to find fault in anyone who is in a position of authority or control. Dan just happens to be the guy in position so blaming it all on him is easier than having any sense of nuance and looking at all parts that went into this at every level of Nickelodeon and especially the parents of these children who performed on set. Maybe the question of how things should be for child actors generally is a question that needed to be asked more.
It really felt like it just wanted to make Dan into the boogieman in all of this when in reality, I don't think very many people if they were put in his position of doing award winning shows for 2 decades with thousands of hours of content, and involvement of that many people and production- could have done any or much better. Most people never have any position of responsibility that puts them in charge of so many people and so many high level situations or high level projects. I'm sure anyone who produced that amount of content under the same circumstances would have a few things they could cherrypick out that were questionable in the thousands of hours of content over 20 years.
I don't know Dan and I never met the guy, I am just tired of hearing him get dragged through the wringer in ways that seem completely unfair by the cancel culture mob. The system had failures at all levels and making him the fall guy is not fair. He apologized for his shortcomings in professionalism and how he could have treated some people better. People talking about him like an abuser he never was, and dragging his name through the mud seems unreasonable form all I saw. It feels like the guy did the best he could in such difficult situations, and more to the point, I don't think all those maligning the guy could have done any better themselves. Its very easy to attack someone when you don't have the same responsibilities because of course the person can imagine doing a perfect job knowing what we know now and having 25 years of hindsight- the hindsight Dan and everyone there didn't have.
2024.05.16 01:40 Girl77879 Nuclear stress test results question
I'm mostly just trying to figure out how they parse results. I had one of these done due to pretty bad SOB, and elevated (but they say not?) Sensitive troponins. 18, 26, 30. Mychart has them flagged as high, but drs said they weren't really because another number only went from 6 to 7 to 9?
Anyhow, the test went OK. (Ish). I had the 1st set of pictures and then was given option of trying treadmill while having lexiscan injection or just doing the injection. I've been feeling terrible, but wanted to try the treadmill.
I got on, lasted about 2 minutes before they stopped the test & had me lay back down. Then had second round of photos on back and stomach a little bit later, maybe 20 minutes.
During the testing I basically replicated a lot of how I'm feeling. Really SOB, dizziness, bad chest pressure, with some tachycardia added in. My bps were around 126 laying, 133 standing, 155 during- and they only got the one.
Results come back as normal. Which, ok no blockages are good. But then there was a note that because it was a paced (bivi) ekg, that part couldn't be interpreted. That doesn't make sense to me? I was made to stop due to symptoms. They could see tachycardia..... but the ekg portion wasn't " able to be interpreted."
Why? My EP regularly interprets the ekgs & info dumps recorded by my device during interrogation? Or even if he hooks me up while trying to best adjust settings?
It's honestly a little frustrating for the symptoms to be noted and to the extent of stopping part of the test & to then be told the entire thing was normal.
Any ideas why this is? Is it worth asking my EP to review the test data himself?
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Anyhow, the test went OK. (Ish). I had the 1st set of pictures and then was given option of trying treadmill while having lexiscan injection or just doing the injection. I've been feeling terrible, but wanted to try the treadmill.
I got on, lasted about 2 minutes before they stopped the test & had me lay back down. Then had second round of photos on back and stomach a little bit later, maybe 20 minutes.
During the testing I basically replicated a lot of how I'm feeling. Really SOB, dizziness, bad chest pressure, with some tachycardia added in. My bps were around 126 laying, 133 standing, 155 during- and they only got the one.
Results come back as normal. Which, ok no blockages are good. But then there was a note that because it was a paced (bivi) ekg, that part couldn't be interpreted. That doesn't make sense to me? I was made to stop due to symptoms. They could see tachycardia..... but the ekg portion wasn't " able to be interpreted."
Why? My EP regularly interprets the ekgs & info dumps recorded by my device during interrogation? Or even if he hooks me up while trying to best adjust settings?
It's honestly a little frustrating for the symptoms to be noted and to the extent of stopping part of the test & to then be told the entire thing was normal.
Any ideas why this is? Is it worth asking my EP to review the test data himself?
2024.05.16 01:40 Aware-Ganache-8636 I feel mentally drained about my wedding party.
First I will give a background story. I (21F) and he (22M) got engaged back in December. We picked a wedding date for at the end of October. We had asked the people to be apart of the wedding in March. My side consisted of my 2 sisters, his 2 sisters (I am not close with), my friend I met in high school, and one friend I am not super close with anymore but have known since I was really little. To make the wedding more fun we decided to pair up one person from my side and one from his side to do an entrance at reception. Something fun and memorable and then the “best entrance” would take a shot as a prize or something like that. Both times we have tried to get people together a MONTH in advance and both times less than half of the bridal party showed up. I don’t know what else to do. It was supposed to be to be something fun and they are making it not fun. I make food for everyone and we have drinks but either people cancel the day of, come but don’t stay for more than an hour, or just don’t come period. Also my sisters having been planning a bachelorette that we have dates to almost 2 months ago and they were getting ready to book it. Everyone said they could go on the dates we picked and then they had asked again earlier this week and now only 3 of them are going. his 2 sisters never responded and the friend I have been friends with the longest said she is going to be a camp counselor that week… I feel like no one has really expressed that they are happy we are getting married either which hurts because hello THIS IS A BIG DAY!!! So how can I get my bridal party together?? and what should I do about all of this??
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2024.05.16 01:38 daphne_119 me when i realized i shouldve built good relationships with my stem teachers not only my humanities teachers
so it's letter of recc asking season and idk who to ask. this is stressing me out so bad so any advice is appreciated
my options:
my major is prob finance or econ and I'm 95% sure I'm asking my club advisor but idk who the other teacher I ask should be. my English teacher rn is awesome but i feel like if i pick him and my club advisor I show this very clear spike in writing (and idk if that's good??)
but some schools "recommend" a stem teacher and a humanities teacher... is this recommendation for real or can i bypass it and pick two humanities teachers????
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my options:
- advisor for a humanities club i have a pretty high leadership position in -> he's known me since i was a freshman and almost all seniors in this club ask him for a recc so he's like expecting it
- my english teacher- super great guy, loved this class, except everyone else also loved this class so everyone will be asking for a recc -> but trust he likes me more than everyone else bc he knows what i do outside of class and i participate
- apush teacher - she hates our class but she likes me a little, i rlly enjoyed what we learned in this class
- math teacher from sophomore year - i like talked a little and did my work sometimes but i gave her a sweet card at the end of the year and she always says hi to me and stuff so idk
my major is prob finance or econ and I'm 95% sure I'm asking my club advisor but idk who the other teacher I ask should be. my English teacher rn is awesome but i feel like if i pick him and my club advisor I show this very clear spike in writing (and idk if that's good??)
but some schools "recommend" a stem teacher and a humanities teacher... is this recommendation for real or can i bypass it and pick two humanities teachers????
2024.05.16 01:37 throwawaybecuzbecuz Hi, I am Jossue and I’m an alcoholic.
Where to begin…
I guess it started six years ago, after my brother-in-law passed away at 23 years old because of cancer. I grew up Mormon and actively go to church every Sunday. I have a position that is seen as “high up” in the church. After my brother-in-law passed away, I had an existential crisis that I’m still battling today.
Fast-forward a year, I go on a diving trip to Belize and I tried my first drink then. I got blasted that trip for the first time. I hate the taste, but I love how it made me feel. I guess that’s when it all started. My wife doesn’t like that I do it. Last year for our anniversary, I promised that I wouldn’t drink for a year. I made it a whole year. And then it came back harder than when I left it. I don’t let my kids know that I drink. Recently, I am going through 1.75 mL of 35% and 750 mL of 40% in about a week. I get home from work, then I go to the closet and I take 8-12 gulps straight from the bottle.
My wife feels alone. For work, we moved across the country away from family. Nobody really knows about my drinking. She does a good job at keeping things to herself and not sharing with others. But I guess that’s where she struggles. I’m embarrassed and I’m afraid of going to Alcoholics Anonymous in case I see somebody there who knows me. So I turned to this group, wanting to talk and share my experience here.
Today is day one of no drinking. The problem I guess is, I don’t think I have a problem. I can stop when I want. However, the feeling I get when I come home from work makes all my problems go away. I feel like I am more patient with my kids and am more involved. I don’t know what to do. I’ve lost the trust of my wife, and I know that what I say means nothing now and that I have to start building back the trust.
Actions speak louder than words.
Here is to day one.
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I guess it started six years ago, after my brother-in-law passed away at 23 years old because of cancer. I grew up Mormon and actively go to church every Sunday. I have a position that is seen as “high up” in the church. After my brother-in-law passed away, I had an existential crisis that I’m still battling today.
Fast-forward a year, I go on a diving trip to Belize and I tried my first drink then. I got blasted that trip for the first time. I hate the taste, but I love how it made me feel. I guess that’s when it all started. My wife doesn’t like that I do it. Last year for our anniversary, I promised that I wouldn’t drink for a year. I made it a whole year. And then it came back harder than when I left it. I don’t let my kids know that I drink. Recently, I am going through 1.75 mL of 35% and 750 mL of 40% in about a week. I get home from work, then I go to the closet and I take 8-12 gulps straight from the bottle.
My wife feels alone. For work, we moved across the country away from family. Nobody really knows about my drinking. She does a good job at keeping things to herself and not sharing with others. But I guess that’s where she struggles. I’m embarrassed and I’m afraid of going to Alcoholics Anonymous in case I see somebody there who knows me. So I turned to this group, wanting to talk and share my experience here.
Today is day one of no drinking. The problem I guess is, I don’t think I have a problem. I can stop when I want. However, the feeling I get when I come home from work makes all my problems go away. I feel like I am more patient with my kids and am more involved. I don’t know what to do. I’ve lost the trust of my wife, and I know that what I say means nothing now and that I have to start building back the trust.
Actions speak louder than words.
Here is to day one.
2024.05.16 01:37 Not-DBcooper AITA, I told my S/O that wanting to go to therapy for the trauma dump received from their parents failed marriage is a waste of time and money?
I am jaded when it comes to psychologists practicing therapy. I believe like all careers, there are people who seek a profession because of a calling and some do it for a paycheck. I am not discrediting Psychology. I just think peoples minds are so nuanced, and on such a vast spectrum, that the average person has NO business or even the ability to pursue… like when you're a kid and want to be an astronaut or a brain surgeon and then grow up realizing you barely can hold down a job… To understand a persons psyche is something truly hard to do and takes time and a certain high mental and emotional IQ that most people PRETEND they are qualified for… theres plenty of shitty cops, doctors, lawyers, teachers…in fact every job is just trading our lives away for money to play this rat race game. Again this is not to discredit the field as a whole.. PTSD, Trauma, Grief and Couples counseling are all very LEGIT reasons.. Where is the Line to needing therapy vs a life coach? I truly believe living in this man made “society" trying to find our place in this world and realizing the fleeting nature that is our “lives”: is the source of 98% of our woes. Therapy will expedite the process for some, but a person wont change Unless they actually Wants to change. I feel most people in therapy don't care to change; and the person they Pay is most likely a joe schmoe pretending to give advice with a TON of problems themselves.
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