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2024.06.10 02:09 Arcoris-throwaway I (30F) resent my spouse (35M) for making me rehome a pet -- How do I get over this?

(Sorry for the long post, I just really have a hard time condensing things) So to start, I'm 39 and a half weeks pregnant and maybe a bit more emotional due to that, but I wanna see if there's any validity to my feelings, and if so, or not, how to overcome it.
If it matters, we've been together for 12 years, married for 7.
Backstory: When we bought our house 5 years ago, we gained a bit of a reputation for being a safe place for friends to rehome their pets because we had the space and time to care for them) My spouse never minded, and we ended up with a dog (planned), 2 cats (1 planned, 1 not), a hedgehog (unplanned), an aquatic tank of frogs and snails (unplanned), and a giant african land snail (unplanned).
We had others, but due to age, they have, over the years, passed on. (such as other snails, a hamster, another hedgehog, etc)
My husband never really liked the snail, but put up with it, since I kept the tank clean and all of the upkeep cost fell onto me. (We do have separate finances, but usually cover half of the pets, except for the snail.)
Well, this last 2 years, we noticed that every 4 months or so, there would be a cycle of flies that would come in, invade the exotic pet room, and it would take us a couple weeks to remove them. NOTHING seemed to trigger it... At first, we thought the tank wasn't good enough, or I wasn't cleaning him as often as I should (even though I removed old food and poop daily, and kept his substrate clean) so I upped the intensity a bit, bought completely new types of substrate, removed wet bark daily and replaced it, it was a very pricey upkeep but I wanted to try everything.
In this past winter, we had a large fly outbreak, and my husband said if we couldn't solve it this time, I would have to rehome Gordon (the snail) because he couldn't handle it anymore. We did a lot of research on what to do, and tried out a new tank.
Now, we DO like to keep windows open, so we aren't really surprised that the flies are getting in per se, but they linger because they usually sneak into the snail tank, which is very humid, and they nest and populate there.
However, the new tank worked wonders for about 6 months this time, until the flies started again the other night.
Frustrated, he said that this was it, Gordon couldn't stay, the flies were just too much, and he couldn't deal with another week or two until the situation went under control again.
I, very emotional, pleaded with him to let me try a different substrate -- but here's the thing, changing substrate really stressed Gordon out every time. Cleaning and re-adding it one thing, but complete changes always makes him a bit sick for a few days where he's noticeably lethargic and doesn't eat. He's getting old and I'm not sure exactly how long snails like him live, so I really weighed the pros and cons.
He was pretty mad, but agreed.
I did so much research and found out I was going to probably have to fork over another $120 for this substrate, AND our local stores didn't have it in stock, so it would take awhile to come in.
We're expecting our daughter in literally 4 days, and I kept replaying in my head his frustration (never anger, he never once raised his voice, but he was very very obviously upset) about the situation, and the next morning (yesterday), I took Gordon down to a very small local pet store that is NOTORIOUS for taking in exotic animals, since the owner cares for them, doesn't resell them, and has a passion for exotics.
This place has saved so many lives, since they take in a lot of illegal animals that the SPCA would kill. I trusted them with my baby, I know the owner, and knew that if anyone would give Gordon the best life possible, it would be him.
He did happily take Gordon, said he was the biggest snail of the species he had ever seen, and he was obviously very well taken care of so far. It was incredibly emotional, and I went home and ended up having an absolute massive breakdown.
When my husband came home, I admitted that I was angry at him, and needed some alone time. He saw that I had given Gordon away, and kept telling me how sorry he was (over and over and over) and that part of him regrets saying what he did....but that only made me angrier. HOW can you be sorry when you told me that this was what I needed to do?? The thing that made me angriest was when he said "I didn't want you to hurt this badly"...as if we hadn't done this whole song and dance literally 6 months previously when he FIRST gave me the ultimatum.
I'm just so angry that he keeps apologizing, and I want to lash out and say he wasn't actually sorry, because he doubled down on the ultimatum TWICE. I've been keeping my head cool so far when I'm around him, but every time he tells me he loves me, I feel like I have to force myself to say it back, because I'm just so mad.
I'm NOT willing to throw away 12 years, plus the lives of the rest of our amazing animals, or our upcoming daughter, over a snail...but HOW can I regulate these emotions and calmly (and clearly) emphasize that I need him to stop apologizing, because there's no fixing what has happened, and we just need to move on with our lives?
(I should mention, I have NEVER EVER rehomed a pet before...not in my entire life. My family was exactly the same way, we were the safe place for people to rehome their pets too...we never gave them up again.)
Thank you for the advice.
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2024.06.10 02:08 CombinationHour4238 SIL

I have very complex feelings over my SIL. She in general, is very kind, sweet and thoughtful. On a surface level we get along and enjoy each other’s company. She is incredibly close to my husband.
She is extremely type A and I sometimes refer to her in my head as Mrs. Perfect. Her house always is always immaculate- she always talks about how her kids play together so well and that everything is just always amazing.
We both have 2 kids, the exact same ages (4yo & 1yo). Our oldests are extremely close.
Her oldest daughter is a truly unique child - always has been just a vibe - funny, smart, caring. I’ve never seen her have a meltdown, ever.
My son has a very sweet but sensitive soul. He was always a mild mannered baby/young toddler. Then his brother was born (he was 2.5yo) and we saw a completely new side to him - he was struggling so hard to accept his brother. We saw tantrums/meltdowns/hitting. It took a full year for him to adjust.
It was a difficult time but I worked so hard to research different methods- to see what works to help him adjust and minimize these behaviors.
Anyways, my SIL very rarely, if ever invites us over. When my son was really in the throws of this difficult year - she had us over for dinner and he had a complete meltdown. I was genuinely mortified. Like out of all places, please not here and not in front of her.
We recently got together and she commented about how mature he’s become. I made a reference to that night and said something like “oh yea - he’s really grown, we’re so proud of him”.
Then she said went into all the details: “Yea that night he threw a fork (it was a toddler fork!!) at my daughter, nearly took her eye out and it left a knick in our table. Our table is perfect except for that knick”.
I just didn’t know what to say. I felt mortified all over again, like I was being judged but more so bc I felt like she was judging my son. It started off as a compliment, then kind of turned into something else.
Like someone saying “Wow you look beautiful in this dress tonight! But remember how awful you looked in that dress a year ago?!”.
I’ve always felt in my heart she completely distanced herself from us after that night. We’ve never been invited back unless it’s a family function. And it just kind of hurts.
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2024.06.10 02:06 Stellar-Sketch42 I'm tired of living.

I apologize for the length in advance....Honestly, writing down my feelings isn't easy for me, but I'll give it a shot. As a guy, I've always felt like expressing emotions is a waste of time and unwelcome. That's why I turned to Reddit—where no one knows me and I don't have to fear judgment from people in my daily life. I've often felt like my issues aren't as bad as others', so I didn't think I had a place in this thread and just tried to tough it out. I still feel that way, but I think I'll explode if I don't get these thoughts out somewhere.
Growing up, I was always bullied and excluded, which made me feel like I'd never be fully accepted anywhere. I've been considered overweight for most of my life, and people never missed a chance to remind me. Looking in the mirror, I feel disgusted with my body. Whenever I try to start a routine of exercising and eating healthier, it doesn't last because the cruel things people say hold me back. It feels like I'm only trying to lose weight because of them, not for myself. It really hurts to hear comments like, 'I don't want to work with him, he's fat,' or 'You need to lose some weight, you're too big.' These words stick with me, and I just can't seem to lose weight, no matter what I do. Discouragement is always there.
I've always been the one who 'accidentally' wasn't invited to the party or event. I get those lame apologies like, 'I thought you wouldn't want to come' or 'I didn't think you'd be into that.' Sometimes, I wouldn't get invited at all, and everyone would act normal the next day. I've been excluded because of my weight and race, and it's made me ashamed of my background. I feel like so many people are better than me, and that's why I can't be friends with them or get invited to events. Now, I turn down any invites because I always feel like there's a catch or some malicious intent. I'm not used to feeling included, so when it happens, it makes me uncomfortable in the worst way and it sucks.
Growing up, my parents always treated my sister better than me. When she got in trouble, she'd get yelled at or have something taken away. But for me, it was much worse—I’d get yelled at, have things taken away, and get beaten. My father used dress shoes, belts, broomsticks, his hands, and feet on me. My sister never faced that kind of discipline. Some beatings haunt me to this day, making physical affection really hard for me. I remember being beaten until I bled or being thrown against walls. Going to school with visible bruises was humiliating, and even teachers made fun of me sometimes.
My dad would also destroy things I loved as punishment. I vividly remember him breaking my favorite Spider-Man (2002) DVD, threatening to hit me if I tried to stop him. Since then, I haven't watched that movie. He also broke some toys and electronics, making me detach from things I loved because I knew they'd eventually be destroyed. I would cry, be angry, and sad for days, and if I showed it, my dad would give me the "I'll give you something to cry about" lecture. This experience left me feeling powerless and angry with anything I grew to love and cherish.
My younger cousin had to stay with my family as her mother was arrested and she would have been placed in foster care if we had not taken her in. I'm not sure what she was subjected to but she would constantly ask me for sexual favors (I was also a kid at this time as well) and I would turn her down for obvious reasons. Eventually, she became more aggressive and would ask for sexual favors but add ultimatums in which she would tell my parents I was trying to do sexual things to her if I didn't comply. I couldn't tell if this was a joke, so I complied being a dumb kid, and continued to feel so humiliated and violated by my cousin. Thankfully, she was able to leave our house to live with another relative but I never told my parents what went down.
As a teenager, I realized how emotionally unavailable my parents were. Whenever I tried to talk to them about my dark thoughts and feelings, they brushed me off, especially my mom. She’d say I was making it up, being dramatic, acting crazy, or being a psychopath. My dad would make sarcastic remarks or smile like I was a crazy person, telling me to stop the nonsense.
What hurt even more is that both my parents work in mental health. It’s ironic how two mental health professionals could make me feel so invalidated. Whenever I calmly approached them about something they did or said that upset me, they’d gaslight me into thinking I was the problem, especially my mom. She always found ways to make me feel guilty and stupid if I didn’t follow her advice. Saying no in my house was nearly impossible.
For a long time, I believed that my self-hatred and suicidal thoughts were just me being dramatic because my parents made me feel that way. They took my sister’s emotions more seriously. When she had depressive episodes, they’d check on her, but they never did the same for me. My dad even said it was probably because she's a woman and I’m a man, which seemed to be the dynamic in our household.
One time, my sister pulled a knife on me because I called her friend a B-word after being bullied by her. She chased me into the kitchen, pinned me against the counter, and threatened to cut me if I ever insulted her friend again. My dad also chased me with a knife and scissors during heated arguments. When I voiced thoughts about wanting to harm or kill myself, my dad would grab something sharp and say he'd help me do it, while my mom would coldly say, 'Do what you gotta do,' or even claim, 'He's not my son anymore.'
My sister never seemed to care about my mental and emotional health, and my parents seemed to agree with her. She constantly made me feel inferior, saying things like, 'You're not emotionally developed enough to have conversations with me.' This lack of support from my family made me feel even more isolated and desperate.
I used to cut myself, eat gluten (even though I have celiac disease) to cause internal pain and bleeding, and hit myself with objects or my bare hands. I’d punch my thighs or my face until I saw bruises, discoloration, blood, or swelling. I still do this when I feel overwhelmed, as a form of self-punishment. I also yell at myself aggressively because I believed that’s what punishment was. I even broke my own things as a way of saying, 'Do it again, and see what happens.' I thought punishment meant making myself feel miserable and worse about myself, rather than teaching a lesson.
In high school, the bullying continued. People brought up old things to bully me about, and I faced even more racism, being called the N-word and hearing other racist jokes and phrases. Many people told me I should just kill myself and that I was a waste of space. This was when I first seriously considered suicide and started planning it out.
During this time, I met my first girlfriend. She was a bright spot in my life, but then she cheated on me three times with her ex-FWB. With little self-worth or respect, I kept taking her back, letting her disrespectful remarks and actions slide. Yet, she also had moments of being loving, caring, and understanding. I felt trapped because she made me feel understood and cared for. Looking back, it was probably a manipulation tactic.
As an adult, things got even worse. I stayed with my ex-girlfriend for about five years, enduring her cheating, verbal abuse, emotional abuse, and sometimes physical and sexual abuse. She insulted my family and friends, invalidated my feelings, and told me to 'stop crying' and 'be a man' when I was struggling with suicidal thoughts. She’d throw objects at me during arguments and manipulate me into having sex, knowing how desperate I was to stay with her. She even showed her friends pictures of my penis, ignoring how uncomfortable it made me.
One day, I made a harmless joke about always doing her laundry, and she flipped out. We got into a heated argument, and I said some hurtful things, like how I needed medication because of situations like this. We broke up that day, and she slammed her promise ring into my hand.
I was a wreck and tried to patch things up, but she said she wanted to 'experiment' and sleep with other guys. She went on to sleep with many guys and a few girls, and she’d give me detailed rundowns of what she did with each of them. She talked about their "sizes", what they were good at, and things she experienced with them. It crushed me and destroyed my sexual confidence, making me feel like I was never good enough.
This relationship left me more self-conscious about my body than ever. I was diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Major Depressive Disorder, Panic Disorder, Social Anxiety Disorder, and ADHD. I've tried various medications to find what works, and I'm still figuring it out.
Eventually, I hit my breaking point and decided to overdose on my antidepressants. After taking them, I collapsed, feeling my heart race, and my body heat up, and struggled to stay awake. My parents saw what was happening and just stayed with me in my room instead of taking me to the hospital. I could have died that night, and maybe I should have because if my parents would leave me to die, how can I believe anyone cares about me?
A few weeks later, I tried to OD again. This time, no one saw, and I passed out, waking up hours later, still alive. I felt like I couldn't even kill myself correctly, and it made me wonder how I could do anything right. I started distancing myself from friends, going months without talking to them. Even though it hurts, I feel like their lives are better without me in them.
I have a few things going for me right now, but it's gotten to the point where I'd give it all up just to stop the pain. I'm almost done with my MBA, I have money saved up, a new girlfriend who's much better than my ex, good friends, and a family. But no matter how hard I try, I can't feel happy.
I've tried seeking professional help, but it hasn't worked out. Therapists either don't pay attention, like one who was on her phone during most of our sessions, or they keep canceling on me. It feels like no one wants to help.
Right now, I still feel the same way, stuck in the same patterns, and the only solution I see is ending my life. I've prayed to God many times, and I believe He hears me. I don't blame Him for any of this, but I hope one day I can experience happiness and the positive feelings people talk about. At this point, I think only God can help me, but it feels like it'll never happen in my lifetime.
I don't feel like I have anyone to turn to or vent to. It seems like I only have myself to rely on, and maybe that's just how it's supposed to be. I really hope my day of death comes soon because I can't keep living like this. I'm isolating myself from friends, my partner, and family. I feel like a waste of space, not good enough for anyone or anything. I believe I'll always be nothing, a loser, fat, and ugly. Sometimes, it's just not in the cards to be 'somebody' in life, and that's the sad truth for me. I honestly don't know what else to do or say.
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2024.06.10 02:05 Kuroihane One voice (Kassandra Curze short story)

One voice (Kassandra Curze short story)

One Voice

co-written with u/SandwichQuiet7369


“Say, captain, do you believe in fate?”
Dark corridors of the Nightfall were dimly lit with stripes of pale light, resembling their homeworld traditions. The homeworld to which they headed now. Morgenstern stood against one of the Emperor’s Angels, however he could not think of one soul to call this particular one an angel. Or any other space marine on this ship for that matter. Cold black eyes stared the iterator down, there was no animosity in them. Just a faint blink of curiosity.
“What is it to you, Iterator, we’re not in one of your peace talks right now,” said Jago Sevatarion, first captain of the Night Lords legion.
He pushed through the man standing before him and headed through the corridor. He heard steps of the mortal trying to catch up to him, almost skipping but still trying to uphold decency. The thought of any mortal maintaining a face before him amused the Night Lord. Morgenstern caught up with the space marine. They walked in silence for a few moments.
“Lady Kassandra is going to sentence Nostramo to Exterminatus,” said the iterator. He sounded calm, but heightened senses of a space marine gave away his slightly higher heart rate to Jago.
First captain quickly glanced at the man beside him.
“That is for Mother to decide,” he said quietly, “If she deems this planet a lost cause, so be it.”
“And what do you think, captain?” the iterator asked, sounding unnaturally passionless, “I thought of you as a rare example of independent thinker on this whole fleet. I thought you of all people knew that our Lady’s judgments could be… affected.”
The space marine stopped suddenly, causing Morgenstern to flinch. Iterator however held his composure, stopping himself and turning to the Night Lord, man’s cloak clicking from a quick movement as he did so.
“Are you questioning the primarch, mortal?” black flame danced dangerously in the eyes of the first captain.
“Are you not?” he shot back.
Jago hated that for all that he wanted he could not refute this man.
“What do you want me to do?” If Morgenstern didn’t know who was before him, he would have thought the Night Lord sounded helplessly.
“I suggest you listen to your own words, captain,” the iterator began slowly, “I suggest for the first time you try to do better.”
“What does it mean, Morgenstern?” Even muffled by airlocks, primarch’s voice felt suppressing.
“Canons are disarmed, Lady Kassandra,” Morgenstern said after a long silence.
“That is not how it is supposed to be,” Primarch's voice contained suppressed disbelief and rising rage.
“It is indeed not.”
A series of strikes shook the deck. Jago looked at the iterator. Even though the mortal flinched each time Kassandra Curze’s hit landed on the bridge's gates, Morgenstern firmly stood against them, hands behind his back.
“OPEN THE GATES AND DO WHAT YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO!” a shout from the other side of the airlocks made the iterator suffer from a headache. He turned to the first captain.
“I will kindly ask you to leave, Jago,” he said firmly.
The first captain measured the mortal with his glance for a moment. Then the space marine turned away from the bridge.
“It is your funeral, iterator.”
“Then I will expect flowers from you, captain,” Morgenstern answered, as the primarch's screams in the background became more chaotic and loud.
“You better love plastic, it is the best we have on Nostramo,” Night Lord’s words were distant.
The Iterator smiled at this unexpected joke from a space marine and focused his sight on the gates. Strikes still fell on their steel.
“I SWEAR, MORTAL, YOU WILL REGRET THAT DECISION AS I WILL BE MAKING MYSELF A ROBE OUT OF YOUR SKIN WITH YOU STILL BREATHING!”
Now, that is just rude, Morgenstern thought to himself trying to stay calm as his Lady’s words made a cold sweat run down his back.
The iterator stood and waited. Screams and threats continued, but as hours went on he started to notice something new in Kassandra’s voice. Pain started as thin threads in the fabric of her voice, growing thicker until all that was there was agony. It was so alive, so unbearable that the man felt pain in his own heart. Those screams were filled with thick despair and fear, fear of someone whose world crumbled beneath their feet. Voice of the Dark Queen, vibrating through the walls and floor of the deck started slowly fading more silent, until it became a flow of slurred words, then just a torrent of silent sobs and whispers.
And then there was silence.

Kassandra couldn’t manage her breath. Her vision blurred, hearts beat so hard, she thought her ribs would break. Opening mouth in a silent scream, primarch clawed her head, blood streamed between her fingers. Kassandra slid down the bridge gates trying to find some shelter in her surroundings. But there was nothing. Only a spacious empty bridge and complete darkness. She hugged her knees, burying her head in them, in a futile attempt to cover her eyes from what she was about to see. Primarch’s eyes blazed purple, now burning with the fire of cursed future. Kassandra was engulfed with darkness, a dark choking fog of false reality swirling around her. Then she blinked.
Kassandra no longer sat on the cold floor of the bridge. Her hands now tightly grasped the armrests of her command throne.
Nostramo is guilty. This filthy planet is rotten to the core and one sentence awaits it. Death. We gave them a chance, a quiet rustling voice came.
The impudent mortal standing to her side shouted an immediate counter command to the fleet before comms could be closed. Kassandra recognized the woman even seeing her for the first time in her life. Morgenstern’s wheat blond mane and sharp jaw was recognizable even in this warped reality. Why he, or she, looked like this, did not matter for now. Her stupidly arrant actions did. The Primarch clamped her jaw, her hands clenched so hard the armrests cracked.
Dashing, Lady of the VIIIth raised from her flagship’s throne and grabbed Morgenstern, tossing her across the bridge. The Mortal flew until she hit the wall with a horrible whack, falling down. Quietly moaning from pain, the iterator tried to get up, getting only to her four before pain stopped her further attempts. The Primarch couldn’t believe it. One of the only people in the whole galaxy Kassandra thought she could count on had just gone against her.
She is guilty too, whispered the voice, and just as that pathetic sphere of mud, she deserves death.
The Primarch took a step forward.
That mortal is not the same! A new, youthful voice proclaimed.
Kassandra made two more steps.
The first voice laughed at her in cruel mocking, Ah-ha-ha, but you still are. Look at her. So much pain. So much misery. BROUGHT BY YOUR HAND! The voice became silent for a moment.
Then it sounded again.
Kill her. Kill her, kill her, kill her, kill her, kill her, kill her, KILL HER, KILL HER–
Voices echoed in primarch’s head, doubling and tripling, deafening her thoughts. The cacophony building up and turning to a crescendo.
“SILENCE!” The primarch roared.
Her voice thundered across the fleet through the vox channel that was still open, as the communication officer was frozen in fear. The order was given. If they were sentient, the servitors and engines would have silenced themselves too.
As she came closer to the kneeling iterator, primarch’s breath became heavier and heavier, weighed down by her resolution. The voice granted her a few seconds of peace before starting to talk again. This time berating her for embarrassment she brought upon herself in front of her subordinates.
And how do you want them to respect you after such a fit? How do you want them to keep being afraid of you? You still are just the same child from–, Kassandra swept it away to the back of her head.
Morgenstern coughed up lumps of blood and spit. Turning back to her lady coming closer, she used one of the bridge's consoles to lean on and stand up. A mouthful of blood splat forth giving it a new coat of red paint.
So proud, so foolish.
Kassandra grabbed the woman's shoulder and turned her around. She lifted the iterator in the air holding her by the throat.
The Primarch gazed mortal in the eyes. Iterator's stubborn determination hit her with flaming intensity.
We do not have to do this, the youthful voice again tried to reason.
The lightning claws chattered to life. One smooth motion in less than one second is all it would take.
The rustling voice started its declamation again.
Those who help the peccant are peccant themselves. Guilt demands punishment. There can be no hesitation, no mercy, and no exceptions. That is how this galaxy works. That is how justice is ensured. We learned this at a young age. You know this. Your sons know this. Even this wench knows this. She, who is in front of you is guilty of aiding crime, justice HAS to be dealt. Your feelings matter nothing.
A sharpened tip of a chainglaive promptly rose to meet the primarch's throat. She turned her head to see who was so foolishly, insolently brave to even think of that.
“Mother, please,” Lord Commander Shang’s voice sounded desperate, even distorted by his helmet.
Sweet, stupid Shang, rustling voice laughed at the space marine.
He is not stupid, a youthful bitter silent voice echoed defeated in the primarch’s skull.
“Lower your weapon this instance, Lord Commander, and you might stay alive until the tribunal,” Primcrch's voice pushed down the already thick air of the bridge.
“He will not,” another space marine’s voice sounded from behind Lady of the VIIIth, paired with the sound of a spinning chainglaive.
First captain of the Night Lords legion stood up against his gene-mother.
Another one? After that lump of mud is dealt with, you should look really closely at your impudent brats, rustling voice snarled.
And take our legion’s last honorable parts? questioned the youthful one.
“One more to defy me,” said Kassandra, “one more to be punished.”
No retort came. Sevatarion’s visor lenses gleaned grim. Sworn oaths betrayed each other.
“Th– Then do it,” the mortal's voice choked out. “Prove everyone right. Destroy Nostramo. Kill your people. Kill your sons. Kill me. Prove that there is only Night Hauntress left. Put out the last glimmering flames of light you have in your miserable life.”
Ha! the rustling voice exclaimed enthusiastically, maybe you should listen to that pest after all!
She is frightened, the youthful murmured.
“They all have betrayed me.” Primarch closed her eyes and shook her head trying to think clearly.
Her hand tensed, making a woman in her grasp cough up blood again.
Then make these an example, a rustling voice whispered nonchalantly, their skin hanging on the main deck will stop any one from defying you again.
This is what you call justice? You could be better than this.
“No.” Kassandra spoke uncertainly, “Shut up.”
Morgenstern desperately grabbed primarch’s hands, fighting suffocation. With the corner of her eye, Kassandra noticed how her sons tightened grips on their weapons.
Stop this whining, and do what you must.
You will not be able to turn back from this.
What, you will betray the justice itself for a cup of sweet beverage?
You know it is more than that.
Two voices argue, spiraling and mixing in themselves, deafening Kassandra, making her feel like her head is about to explode. A cacophony of madness blinded the primarch, extinguishing reason that left in her broken mind. The Lady of the VIIIth screamed. And everything went dark.
When Kassandra’s vision cleared again, bridge walls and observation windows were thinly painted red. Crew and servitors, dismembered, covered the floor with their body parts and intestines. Irritating disharmonic wet dripping noise of blood, streaming down the bridge interior and systems, filled the space. Kassandra’s breath was heavy and uneven. She stared long at her gauntlets and lightning claws, soaked in body fluids of men and women she slaughtered, before raising her eyes. Shang’s body, pierced and pinned by his own chainglaive, hung on the bridge gates, leaving a long trail of blood flowing down. Leaning on the airlocks, sat Sevatarion’s beheaded corpse, surrounded by several dozen space marines. Cracked armor, severed limbs, they were grouped around their captain and Lord Commander as if they had kept a defense line against some raging beast.
Tears of horror and self-loath streamed down the face of the primarch. Surrounding scene resembled primarch ancient Terra’s myths of afterlife punishment and damnation. Hell created by her own madness.
Muffled moans brought Kassandra’s attention to the foot of the bridge throne. Iterator’s broken body lay there motionless. But she was still alive. Kassandra rushed to her, stopping two steps from away, no desire to come closer, no courage. Morgenstern coughed, following her pierced lungs prompting. She could only move her eyes to look at the devastated primarch.
“You did it,” croaked the iterator, “you killed us all.”
“I–“
“Come closer.” Morgenstern did not let her make excuses.
Unable to refute the dying woman, Kassandra made two steps forward and leaned lower to Morgenstern. She noticed the detonator in the iterator’s hand too late.
“Ave Dominus Nox, my Lady.”
Before fire tore reality of the vision apart, Kassandra realized one last thing. There were never two voices vocalizing in her head. There was only her own.

The floor’s rockrete stinged Kassandra's cheek with cold. Tears silently rolled down her face, blurring her vision. She did not twitch nor scratched herself, limply lying on the floor. She was so tired. Constant nightmares that always came to life, sooner or later. False hope that she could ever escape it. Hope that her sons and her iterator have been shoving down her throat right now. And that vision. What she saw was so surreal, yet so alive. Alternative present and immediate future was not something she ever saw until this point. But that did not matter. It too was knitted from threads of darkness.
“You should have just killed me.” she whispered.
The stone’s chill became strangely calming. Kassandra felt like she did not want to ever get up. She contemplated voices, or rather voices that haunted her in that bizarre vision. Voices that were unsynchronized and split, but still belonged to Kassandra Curze. She was no fool. Kassandra understood that there was something deeply wrong with her. Something that she allowed to happen. Something that since tormented her and was her shelter alike.
The primarch’s thoughts were interrupted by a torrent of another possible forthcoming stirring in her eyes. Kassandra’s body tightened up, she bit her lip, once more that day painting her face with a stripe of red.
Then the primarch stopped breathing. She could not believe herself, stopping every movement of her body, trying not to scare off what is to come. Kassandra felt this only once, in a dark alley of Nostramo, where she was forced with a role of judge. Where she chose to be the executioner.
Canvas of light, images of future burned on it, second time in Kassandra’s life, they were not pitch black. She closed her eyes and let herself be consumed.

Only the finest gold-plated rockrete surrounded the Lady of the VIIIth legion. Eighteen marble statues greeted her, behind them stood their legions in perfect parade formation. Unlike the statues used on compliant worlds, not a single statue here was produced from the mass industrial lines. Instead, entire armies of the finest artisans the Imperium had to offer were unleashed just for this room.
The Hall of Heroes was enchanting. The history of humanity under the rule of the Emperor, captured on its walls gazed upon anyone who stepped here. It seemed that whatever architects worked on this chamber, their end goal was to capture the glory of Mankind itself. Many could be elevated by those walls, but the primarch of the Night Lords was not. Too much light, not enough shadows, she felt trapped in a cage without bars. That was a place for heroes. And she was not a hero.
In the center of the Imperial Palace Kassandra knelt, dressed in ceremonial tail-suit, head bowed, before the Emperor of Mankind. She was still waiting for judgment, for censure, for rejection and banishment. But none came as she waited. Then the Emperor spoke.
+Stand up, daughter.+
At the unexpected words Kassandra twitched her head, looking up at her father, before turning away in embarrassment. She slowly stood up, not fully sure she was really allowed to, warily anticipating what was to come. Annoying rustling made itself heard.
What does he have to say to us? This hypocrite, will he critique us again? Will he-
+I only want to speak to you.+
Soft waves of force washing against her mind made the distracting voice finally shut up. Kassandra looked her father in the eyes. His face was so serene, she doubted he even had really spoken right now. Watching her father’s glorious image, she felt bitter, realizing how different they were.
Father and daughter, what a fraking joke, she thought to herself.
“What do you want me to hear, father?” asked primarch, defense ringing in her voice.
The Emperor waited before his answer.
+You are conflicted.+
Kassandra felt anger welling up inside her.
“Oh, Emperor, beloved by all, your attentiveness should be celebrated by all of humanity!” She loudly spat these words, and then continued, now almost whispering, “I almost gouged out my eyeballs before you on Nostramo, and you just left me with your little funny war on stars.”
Emperor held out his hand and softly grasped his daughter’s shoulder. It felt stunningly unnatural for the Lady of the VIIIth, but also stirred up something inside her from the old days. From those days she still had someone who really cared about her on Nostramo.
+I never wanted or intended you to suffer like this. I had belief you will overcome this.+
Kassandra grinned bitterly.
“As you can see, I failed. Perhaps, you should have intended better.”
+You may be right. I want you to join Blood Angels’ expedition fleet.+
Lady of the VIIIth squinted.
“Want your perfect Angel to watch over me? Is that your punishment?”
+It is your opportunity.+
Kassandra shook off her father’s hand.
“Opportunity for what?! To make your Imperium, this house of hypocrisy and violence, larger and broader?”
The Emperor's face remained impenetrable.
+To make it better.+
Kassandra tried to find words, but could not. The Emperor's words were not just a façade, they were not a ploy to coax her in compliance. He was being genuine. Kassandra lowered her head, examining the Imperial Palace’s floor marble in defeat of her obstinacy.
“How will I make Imperium better, if I cannot make myself better?”
+The question you should ask is not how to make yourself better. But how to finally decide who you are.+
“And who am I supposed to be?” Kassandra raised her head again in a hope for an answer.
The Emperor slowly held out his hand, tenderly touching his daughter’s forehead with his index.
+That you must find out for yourself.+
The Emperor and his palace, all around Kassandra Curze, disappeared.
She now appeared in complete darkness, looking around, trying to understand what the Emperor just did to her. Everywhere the primarch could see was only dark, she stood ankles deep in an obsidian water that made no sound as she wandered around. Kassandra tried to walk in one direction until she stopped, understanding that this dark plane was endless. Cold of this place bit her bones.
“Always so enigmatic, isn’t he?” sounded a rustling voice behind her.
Kassandra turned around snappily, as she had not felt anyone to sneak up. That was new for her.
Before primarch stood figure, figure rivaling her in height and stature, covered in thin black mist, making its features unrecognizable.
“Who, the frak, are you?” Kassandra asked the stranger.
“Weren’t you told to ask yourself this question?” Shadow answered, clearly amused by her bewilderment.
“How do you know?” The primarch was getting annoyed by this creature’s attitude.
“I was there, obviously.”
The dark figure started to walk in circles around Kassandra, reminding her of beasts readying to jump at their prey. But Kassandra was no prey. And she was not in the mood for these charades.
“We are in my head,” Kassandra stated the obvious.
“Look at her, that girl is not only about appearances!” a stranger mocked her, clapping its hands.
“Enough,” ordered the primarch, “surely, you are not the one to answer my questions.”
The dark figure finally ended its circling, stopping in front of the dismissive primarch.
“And what questions would you ask?” mocking rustling changed with an ominous growl.
Kassandra thought for a couple of moments.
“How shall I deal from now on?”
“Just as before.”
“I cannot.”
“Why? Have you become so weak?”
“Because I have to be stronger than that.” The creature snarled in resentment of these words.
“Who do you think you are? Humanity’s savior, warrior princess in a snow-white armor?”
Kassandra's eyes widened in sudden recognition.
“Why so silent? Admit it to yourself and your dead mommy. She would be so disappointed.”
Shadow was tense, opposing the primarch.
"Admit it. You are a monster."
Kassandra stared at the figure. It all made sense to her now. Her prior visions, her father’s words. This place and abomination of darkness standing before her. Awareness dawned on her with a weight of new, vaguely perceived, responsibility, crushing her with guilt for all she has done by now. She was afraid. But here and now she had a chance. A chance to start walking towards a ghostly glimpse of light at the end of the cursed tunnel she now saw. Now that she knew it existed.
Kassandra walked closer to the shadow and extended her arm, placing hand on the figure's chest.
“I know what I am,” upon her touch, black mist dissolved revealing a face that Kassandra hated so much. Dirty rags and self-made blades lay on a creature’s milk-pale skin. Sunken eyes as black as the void of space and twice as cold. Lips peeled back barring sharp teeth in horror.
“I know what I am,” repeated Kassandra, voice filled with realization, “I am you.”
Her reflection’s features started to twist and break, turning into jet black liquid. Violently swirling around the primarch’s hand, her arm, and her body. Kassandra felt as if she was forced to drink sewer water. But it was a part of her. Only with it could she be complete.
In a second it was over. She stood alone in the endless plane that did not seem so unwelcoming now. Cold became less severe. Pitch-black water was gone, and beneath her feet, soft onyx grass sprouted. Within a moment of contemplation, Kassandra lowered herself and lay down in its delicate embrace, relaxing her body.
Resting there, Kassandra Curze avowed.
“I am Night Hauntress.”
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2024.06.10 02:02 Goth_mommy469 New baby!!!

New baby!!!
The only tank mates are a few species of snails and 7 ghost shrimp it's a 10 gallon tank with a filter and heater I have plants in and outside the tank (as you can see by the roots in the top right back lol) just got this baby today! His name is pearl bc he's got such an awesome shine under the right light. If there's anything you think can be improved or would make him happier please comment!
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2024.06.10 01:51 ZsaZsaG Kieselguhr help!

Hi everyone! I’m hoping someone can help me decipher the Kieselguhr pattern. I’m new to knitting tops so I thought I’d start with a tank or tee before I start a sweater. I have just finished the first part, the back and I am utterly confused by the instructions for the front.
I’ve tried to follow the instructions four times now and I just can’t figure it out.
Has anyone knit this and can walk me through it?
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2024.06.10 01:50 Reasonable-Milk298 Season 10...

This is a long post but I'm sure some of you guys can relate
So after a long hiatus, I started to rewatch S10 today and I only got to the part where that fucking blue iroc pulls up to the gate, before I had to turn it off because of angeanxiety over all of the bullshit in this season. I'd love to say that the worst part of the season was where J-roc came back with that airheaded Mexican chick but that's wishful thinking. What's wrong with this season is... Well, many multitudes of things (mostly the idiot characters.)
Everyone acts like they've got a stick up their asses, starting with Lucy. I know she was plucked away from George Green's place where the floozy should have stayed tbh. She thought her ugly old ass could have another kid after she gave up her greasy cheeseburger baby that Randy put in her. She was even more of a bitch when Sarah came to stay "while she got her shit together." Even Ricky objected to Sarah barging into Ricky's home, and being a freeloading ass on Ricky's-no Jacob's-dime. She and Lucy think their shit don't stink by demanding that Ricky get a job, not them, of course, no doubt minimum wage, to support those two. I get that the baby's a lot of work, but I assume that's why Trin doesn't work-to take care of The motel, formally known as Ray...
Meanwhile, Lucy and Sarah expect Ricky and Jacob to support them while they refuse to get work and help out, Rick does a job or two because that's all he knew. Then they get pissed because they act righteous like Ricky's a loser, according to Sarah. With this Queen of Sheba attitude, Lucy thinks she had the right to tell Ricky that he was "out of the family" after the queens from hell (nm, that title is for someone else. More on that later...) find that safe in the trunk. When Sarah laughed and said "wow" to Ricky afterwards, I seriously wanted to slap the shit out of her.
What confused me is that at one point Lucy and Sarah wanted to go do a job with the boys, and were whooping and all gung-ho about breaking the law like Bonnie Parker, (from Bonnie and Clyde) but treat Ricky like an idiot when they use the winch idea to steal the rack of bicycles. Granted, that was a good idea, but damn. Then Ricky had to talk his way out of their situation with campus security, while the girls tossed their vests and just walked away..
Fast forward to the bitches from hell. Candy, Donna and the other broad.. Oh Barb. Those three should have gone back to prison where they belong for all the crap they pulled. Fuck, they were annoying. Candy alone was a cujo thundercunt from hell who I wanted to take that fucking pink bat and put it where the sun don't shine (although she'd probably like it lol.)
I felt so sorry for Lahey, who was getting his life back in order and getting as sober as possible (for him anyway) and finally living in peace and not bothering anyone. I honestly loved his quiet little place and it suited him well. It was hard to see Candy commit elder abuse by physically and emotionally assaulting Jim, by grabbing his manhood and demanding they stay at HIS place "as LONG as we want" (like how tf did she even fit in that little camper anyway...) And dumping their trash on Jim's head while thinking they were "too good" for the tent he bought.
Poor Jim was driven to drink by those bitches after they trespassed on his property, stole his chicken dinner, and fucking Donna taking his movie. Barb was a stupid looking crusty old wannabe biker skank, Donna was ugly as shit and Candy was so hideous that they were all walking salt peter. Oh and when Candy's fat blimp ass twisted Randy's tits and fucking bitch Donna (do I even call her that?) kidnapping and raping Randy with a fucking frozen fish. Just unbelievable.
Frig bitches caused Lahey to go off the deep end and force Leslie to drink at gunpoint before going to the park, and then was spray painted by a bunch of celebs who turned TPB into the national enquirer. Jimmy Kimmel. Fuck that asshole lol. It felt SO fake with bubbles talking to him and when the boys start fighting again, Bubbles apologized like * "I'm sorry Jimmy Kimmel"* before Bubs closed the laptop and started crying and whining like a detard. I wonder what clattenburg thought of these shit on a stick episodes, if he even cared to see them.
Lastly, snoop was cool and I appreciated Tom's enthusiasm and excitement, but it seemed fake and overkill. Him wanting to fuck LUCY of all women; then Julian and Sarah trying to take portions of Lucy's money for themselves. Tom wanted to give Trin the best wedding ever but it seems like Lucy just bought Trin's dress and nothing else. No formal reception, no bridesmaids, nothing. I get that her dad was in bad shape in the hospital, but it seemed like she deserved more for her wedding. Which told me that Lucy probably pocketed the remaining money without helping to get housewares or a car for Trin and Jacob, or to buy another trailer for her and Trin and Jacob, if she hated living with Ricky so much. That's what I would've assumed that a good mom would do.
Honorable mention goes to j-rocs dimple minded wife and that asshole kid. They both fit racial stereotypes for their races, especially when MC Flurry kept making "jokes" toward Hispanic and white people. It seemed more offensive than anything, and these racial slurs were supposed to be cute, but just pissed me off. Even Snoop got in on the racial slurs, calling j-roc John Denver and a liquid paper colored mah'fucka. But it's Snoop so he can get away with it..
Last but not least, once Barb and her bitch gang start shit and Lahey shoots Ricky, she turns all nice and caring while the other two slugs disappear into the abyss. And the asshole Colonel Dancer as well. Poor guy got himself back on track just to end up in jail (?) These broads should have been in jail for the shit they pulled and Barb covered her ass when becomes all buddy buddy with Lucy and Trin after she pulled the crap that nearly killed Ricky. Poor Trin couldn't even have her father walk down the hospital room aisle... I guess but maybe,, just maybe Julian's her daddy.
So my face went from 🤬 to 👺, the longer the season went lol. On the bright side, at least Ricky was with Lucy and not that skinny bitch Susan yet. Ugh..
Sorry for the rant, imma go smoke a joint.. maybe I have pms or something 🤣😡🥲
(p.s. fuck it would've been fun watching the bitch trio and certain aforementioned characters getting the living shit kicked out of them before getting Randy and Ted take them down..)
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2024.06.10 01:45 DeparturePlus2889 Update- eggs all hatched

Update- eggs all hatched
I received 11 tricolor lamè eggs may 31st. They started hatching day 4-7 for me, and it is now 6 days since the the first emerged. They are in a bowl and eating the tiniest amount of Hikari first bites three-ish times a day. I use a pipette to remove crud from the bottom and to add in about a half cup of water from their future pond home, slowly increasing the volume. They have a couple of very baby snails to help clean up. What should I be looking for, any advice for the upcoming weeks? I want to do my best to ensure that everybody survives although I understand that that may not happen. What should I watch for? I’ve have heard it’s good to have a separate container for oddballs. I trying my second attempt at infusoria but not sure I’m doing it right. I took water from a very mature shrimp tank with lots of copepods etc and added a crushed up spinach leaf to leave to brew, but the last one never turned green. Thanks for looking, it’s been such a cool experience so far.
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2024.06.10 01:44 Confident_Emphasis69 how to/should I clean tank with fry?

I have a 5g betta tank and have some unexpected shrimp babies. I have 5 neocaridina shrimp and 3 are ladies, all were berried within a couple of days of each other and the first one has blessed me with her little babies already and I love trying to find them all around my tank. My betta is the most docile betta I’ve ever had, so I’m thinking at least some of the babies should survive until adulthood.
So my problem is that I typically do a 10-20% water change and vac my gravel weekly because the tank is small and the waste adds up. Could/should I use my siphon or will I suck up all my babies? I could scoop from the top but I also have a ton of floater plants and those are full of baby shrimp as well and I don’t want to accidentally kill any of them :-(
Only about 6 months into the tank keeping hobby and I just want to either find a way to still keep up with my cleaning or be reassured that my entire tank won’t be thrown out of wack if I don’t vac my gravel for a little bit until my shirmp babies are bigger.
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2024.06.10 01:42 Super_Taro4204 Karma

When I got married my eldest sister wore a actual wedding dress to my wedding.she swore it wasn't and I was mad to make matters worse she lied said my cousin didn't want to be there. I believed her as I was focusing on the wedding which turned south as no one listened to what I wanted the only good thing was marrying the love of my life.well I also learned my best friend of 20 odd years had slashed my dress outta jealously. I was so upset I couldn't stop wanting to kick her a.but I let it go the day went on and I wasn't happy but tried to be well not even a day later eldest sister got divorced,and now ex best friend had spread rumors and started drama well I decided to be the bigger person I let her say whatever to whoever and ignored it which ticked her off as she decided to be even more a b**.well, she would brag alot about her expensive things her fiancee got her. how she was soo happy and I was miserable and gonna be all alone as my husband lived in Australia for first 3yrs of marriage.well I moved over sea an she became my sisters best friend both are snakes but I do love my middle sister (I'm the baby sister).well karma hit ex friend hard she found her fiancee cheating and left him she's alone but is a wannabe influencer now.an cares about her looks while living with her parents.she still assumed I'd be miserable but kicker is I'm living my best life got a house married 9yrs and no debt also have wonderful in laws.she tries to flex from what my mom has mentioned but hates that she can't get a rise and funny thing is when I was engaged she tried to convince me to leave my now husband and tried to talk him into sending her stuff to unbox on YouTube from Australia lol.she hated also that my fiancee would ignore her as well when she would beg him for that stuff.
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2024.06.10 01:40 Elzibaby Weekend makes

Weekend makes
This weekends makes were 2 berets and I got the cutest little tags. One for a friend and one for my aunt.
4mm hook Woolcraft baby care DK in silver Pattern : https://youtu.be/dOcTYm0wcHk?si=evCKBh0u_6jV0QAx
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2024.06.10 01:38 Rhiishere Finished a baby blanket for my cousin

Finished a baby blanket for my cousin
Modified a gingham pattern so I didn't have a bunch of separate balls of yarn and added a border. I pretty happy with how it turned out, and all I have left to do is embroider the baby's name on!
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2024.06.10 01:37 emmijaane Could someone create a US Navy Bootcamp photo of my dog?

Could someone create a US Navy Bootcamp photo of my dog?
Preferably in Dress Blues with the singular “McDonalds” ribbon. I’ll pay $10 for a good quality photo. We are a military family and we wanted to add this masterpiece to our new baby’s nursery haha.
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2024.06.10 01:20 Forsaken_Average9325 Today was my last straw- my husband humiliated me at the grocery store

I just got back from a 4 day girls trip to Wyoming with my aunt. Used all of the baby sitting money I saved over the last 2 years to go (I’ve been a stay at home mom for the last 8 years but just got a job a few weeks ago). My husband took care of our three daughters (along with the help of my grandma) and he didn’t do any of the daily tasks that need done to run our house at all. I came home to a humongous mess. I wish I hadn’t gone to begin with. I had everything caught up before I left and now there is so much work to do. 7 years ago I left a for a few days and he did the exact same thing.
He did start working on this tiny door for our attic entrance which has needed done for the last 6 months and he has supposedly been sanding it down for months in our garage but I think he has just been drinking every time he was working on the door. I ask him why he decided to do that while I was on vacation and put off all the other things that actually need done? I handle all of the daily things that need done in our house (and everything else with our entire life— even now that I’m working full time- all has to do is go to work and worry about absolutely nothing) and my husband doesn’t really do much at all. So he has had plenty of time to worry about getting this door finished for ever now and should have been done months ago. He told me that I should just be fucking happy that he’s finally doing something. The was the end of that conversation.
Since I came home he has been so mean to me and our girls. Just in a completely bad mood. We’ve all been asking what’s wrong with him.
We all decided to go to the grocery store and shop for some birthday decorations for our daughter’s 9th bday party. Afterwards we were supposed to go on a hike.
The entire time we were at the grocery store, he didn’t help me shop for anything or help with the kids. And he was in the worst mood ever.
It gets worse- my husband started to act like he was crippled- was walking very dramatically and flailing his legs with each step. The kids and I asked him why he was walking like that and he would respond loudly and say that we’re making fun of him because of his disability (which he doesn’t have). Everyone was just looking at us the entire time. He said this multiple times. He followed us around the entire store like that and I just kept trying to avoid him. He kept saying that I’m was embarrassed of him because of his disability. All three of my daughters and myself were so embarrassed. By time I got everything and was checking out I was on the verge of crying.
We got in an argument in the car and I ask him if he was on drugs because why else would he act like this?! He took such great offence to this that he open the car door while I was driving and tried to get out. I immediately slammed on the breaks to let him out and left him there.
I just feel like over the last 4 years he has regressed like a child. I can’t do this anymore. I’m exhausted. Our sex life has tanked, every chance he gets he makes jokes at my expense and does stuff like this to humiliate me (we never go out in public together). He’s just so mean to me and I’m mean right back in return in defence. I’m feel like I’m the only actual adult in this marriage.
And he knows this is coming. A few weeks ago when I was getting serious about getting a job I asked if i could work at the family business (because that was the plan this entire time- he just became the owner and I was supposed to work there to get back into the workforce) and he told me “why would i pay you to leave me” so I immediately went out and found a job.
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2024.06.10 01:19 dovahkiitten16 Fish unexpectedly had babies

A family member was moving and gave their tank to us. There’s 4 Blue Cichlids and a couple of other species in the tank. Well, one of the Cichlids just released her fry today.
Suffice to say it’s disastrous, the mother and father are both bullying the other fish in the tank. There’s like 30 babies.
I have no clue what to do and am not equipped to deal with proper fish breeding. I had a few goldfish as a kid.
The non-parent adults obviously need separation for their safety. I’m not sure if I should separate the parents from the babies? I know eventually the parents will eat the babies - should they be removed immediately or should I wait? (And if so, how do I know when to separate them?)
How can I do my best to keep the childfree fish alive, parents alive, and babies alive?
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2024.06.10 01:18 AllTheHappyParts Fav Baby Blanket pattern using Blanket Yarn?

What are your fav patterns (paid or free) for baby blankets using blanket yarn?
I've done a bit of searching on my own, including on Bernat's website where you can specifically select the yarn type, but nothing has grabbed my interest yet.
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2024.06.10 01:09 loverrory after 7+ years of pregnant/kitten rearing , i’ve had my first attack (a precautionary story )

i’ve been fostering general cats for 8 years and fostering pregnant mommas/litters for 7, EVERY cat in the past 7 years was loving towards me, adapting me as a pseudoparent to their babies, and sometimes insisted birthing right on my lap, gesturing for comfort and love during the birthing process. a very enriching experience for me and the moms. i officially had my first aggressive mom cat 2 days ago. 3 days ago i picked up a new mom with 4 already birthed beautiful kittens and everything seemed fine at first, she was cautious but accepting pets, love and handling of her kittens to ensure health and weighing. i gave her plentiful food, water and bedding to ensure comfort and milk production. the day after i picked her and her litter up i went in her room for a regular check and some human engagement, i sat on the bed in the room and she started hissing and growling , i started to get off the bed to leave the room as i could tell she was stressed , and when i lowered my leg to head to the door she started attacking. i couldn’t make a b-line for the door due to her attacking and had to be a bit more strategic, it took me about 20 seconds to actually escape her attacks, i eventually got out the door with multiple scratches and bite wounds. luckily my friend was doing a phone interview in my bedroom (next to the room the mom and kittens were in) and the interview had ended around when the attack started, while i was in shock and trying to not freak out she helped me clean the blood and dress the injuries. two days later(now) i have scabbing wounds and a swollen foot, it’s difficult to walk due to the full foot healing, but i’ll be fine in a couple weeks :-) . side note: the mom and litter were transferred back to the organization the morning after the attack, they are no longer in my care and trusted to another foster. ⚠️VVVVV this post is just a warning to foster parents that may experience territorial moms or moms showing ANY form of aggression. DONT push it if a mom is showing any form of stress or aggression, even if you think it’s a non threatening action you are doing. moms that show any territorial actions towards you, you should back off , and if they get alarmingly aggressive, have them go back to your organization and placed in a home that is more equipped for that type of behavior. thank you for reading <3
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2024.06.10 01:02 kaleviko [All] This is here

In P17, Mr C magically materialised in the Twin Peaks Sheriff's station parking lot. Andy was first to spot him, thinking Agent Cooper had returned.
Andy: "Everyone's gonna be so happy to see you!"
Andy also pointed out he had a picnic basket, in case we thought it didn't matter.
Andy: "I was just taking this picnic basket in."
Mr C went in to have a chat with Sheriff Truman. Even if Andy stayed behind in the reception with Lucy, next he and his basket were in the Sheriff's office, helping Mr C to get a seat for himself. Then he rushed away, still excited that Cooper was back.
Andy: "I'm going to go tell Hawk you're here!"
What happened then was not clear. Andy's basket was not seen again. He didn't appear to have gone to see Hawk either as it was only later when a gun was fired that Hawk rushed to the scene. It looked as if this Andy just ran out of the story, jumping somewhere else, like Mr C had magically jumped into it. The Andy that we saw next may have been somebody else - unless then he was the same Andy, having spent some time elsewhere before thrown back to the station, now fully alerted to what was going on.
So what happened to Andy and his picnic basket?
When you jump, it can all be different, including your picnic basket.
Much earlier in P3, Andy and Lucy were in the station's conference room looking for "something" that was missing. Hawk came in carrying another kind of basket, an RR Diner coffee cup box. They had trouble figuring out what Hawk expected them to find. Andy spread his hands over the piles of folders and other stuff they had gathered on the table.
Andy: "This ... is here."
The gesture he made would have been meaningless if it wasn't the same that Cole asked Tammy to do with her hands in P7. As she spread her fingers out, Cole assigned a meaning for each of them.
Cole: "I'm very, very happy to see you again, old friend."
These two scenes also shared a red letter X, one in the EXIT sign next to Cole and another on the carton box next to Andy.
Is the old friend you are talking about in the room with us right now?
As usual, Lynch appears to have again taken things to the dreamlike absurd extreme. If the purpose was to indicate that when Andy made the same gesture, he also delivered the same message to Hawk, the scene in the conference probably was in continuation of Andy leaving the Sheriff's office with the basket in P17, whatever then caused such an abrupt jump in his story. Andy would not only have told Hawk that he was happy to have seen their old friend again - presumed to be Agent Cooper - but that this old friend was now right there and then, not just in the station but on the conference room table.
It's knot about the bunny, and probably about its basket and tie as well.
In line with this idea and suspected abstractions, Andy's disappearing picnic basket probably was to be found in the cover of the chocolate box, held both hands by the bunny. This would be followed by another throwback to the later showdown when Hawk appeared to understand what the message really was about.
Hawk: "It's not about the bunny."
This should apparently be heard a bit differently.
Hawk: "It's knot about the bunny."
There was a knot in the bowtie that the basket-holding bunny had around its neck. A bowtie can also be called as just a bow which takes us to another kind of bow, the weapon that Native American archers used to propel arrows at invading colonizers. That connected the bunny to Hawk's heritage, just like the Log Lady told him the missing "something" would.
Reflecting this back to Mr C in P17, when Mr C was shot by Lucy, Hawk rushed to the scene.
Hawk: "But that is Agent Cooper!" Sheriff Truman: "No ... it's not."
Again, we may have needed to hear the Sheriff differently.
Sheriff Truman: "No ... it's knot."
The knot and the bowtie.
That this was the intended approach was suggested a bit earlier when Mr C walked in to the station's reception. Andy turned towards him.
Andy: "Lucy, look who's here!"
On the other side of Mr C, visible through the glass doors and also in the line of Andy's sight, there was a quick glimpse of a white 2015 Chevrolet Trax parked in front of the station. Famously, Chevrolet's logo is a bowtie, thus connecting the knot and the bow again, like the bunny did. As a reminder that this wasn't to be missed, Cole arrived to the scene with another kind of Chevrolet the bowtie of which was pushed at the camera at 30:02.
Chevrolet Trax made space for a basket case.
If we pondered whether this really was something to pay attention to, the same Chevrolet Trax made a more pronounced appearance a few episodes earlier in P15 when it left the RR Diner just as Ed arrived there. Ed was dressed in a plaid shirt that had the same colors and very similar pattern as Andy's picnic box. Ed was excited about his freedom, but something wasn't right, and Norma looked at him with friendly pity, as if he was a bit of a basket case.
We got a further suggestion what to do with all this abstract strangeness when Cooper rushed to the scene and placed the green ring on the lifeless doppelganger's left hand ring finger. That is often regarded as the finger for the wedding ring.
Tying the knot.
If you marry someone, you tie the knot. There was a quite literal performance of this in P15 when furious Audrey tied her hands around her mystery husband Charlie's neck, after feeling she was "knot me" in P14. Here then, Cooper would have used the green ring to tie the "knot", causing the doppelganger and the green ring to disappear. But only the ring fell on the Black Lodge floor, leaving it for us to figure out what really happened to the doppelganger when the knot got tied.
She gave the basket to Mr Toad ...
Elsewhere in P5, basket-carrying Rebecca "Becky" Burnett was asking money from her mother Shelly while Norma watched on, playing with her bow - the rim of her eyeglasses - that between the cuts suggestively jumped here and there on the table. When Steven and Becky drove away, there was a subtle play with her green eyes that connected her to the knot of Cooper's tie, seen last in P6 on the Jones's table among piles of folders that reminded us of the piles on the Sheriff station's conference room table surrounding the bunny with another kind of tie.
In line with these connections, the name Rebecca means "to tie", here in likely further reference to her having tied the knot and married Steven.
... and the Country Squire gave it then to Andy.
There probably was another amusing play with contexts here. Becky left the basket with Toad, the diner's cook. The most famous toad is probably the one from The Wind in the Willows, Mr Toad, the squire who lived in a country house and was passionate about cars. This takes us back to Andy and his picnic basket that he took from the trunk of his 1979 Ford Country Squire, parked right next to that white Chevrolet Trax, these two cars now suggested to be abstractions of Becky and Toad and thus Andy's basket the same that Becky had, whatever that would then mean.
Steven was introduced in P5. The scene started with an exterior establishment shot that featured a large Chevrolet signboard, equipped with its bowtie logo. Mike asked to send Steven in. In the reception, Steven was sitting close to the glass doors through which we could see the same Chevrolet bowtie in the distance. As he walked in and sat down, the bowtie remained right next to his head.
This is a tight knot to open.
Comparing the scene to the Sheriff station's reception when Mr C walked in while another Chevrolet was visible through the glass doors, they also shared a lifesize duck figurine and a man carrying a large case. As a further reminder to think about the tie, when Steven left in anger, he was tearing his tie off.
As it seems, mindless Black Lodge doppelgangers needed someone to possess them before they got anything meaningful done. Here, we got good hints that the "knot" coming to the station as Cooper's doppelganger was actually Steven, the knot Becky had tied, the problem to solve.
Figuring out what this might mean, it is something to think about that both Mike and the Sheriff's office had two deer heads mounted on adjacent walls. The round, black top of the chair on which Steven sat was framed so that it resembled the round black mould that held BOB's head inside.
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2024.06.10 01:01 ZachTheLitchKing [SerSun] Serial Sunday: Beauty!

Original Prompt

Chapter 30
Blood had a unique taste. Metallic, warm, and almost soothing. Not tasty, not good. Empowering. It was the taste of victory. Cass opened her jaws wide enough to encompass the scream solder's neck and-
"Cass?" A voice echoed through the air. The ground shook. The starry sky cracked open and light flooded her eyes, blinding her.
Cass sat up with a start. Charis was sitting on the edge of her bed, their hand on her shoulder. Long black curls framed their pretty face, eyes wide and brow furrowed with concern.
"What?" Cass asked breathlessly. She felt winded, like she'd just run several miles.
"You were tossing about and yelling in your sleep," they answered. "Anatu was concerned you were...turning." Their eyes glanced down to Cass's bandage-wrapped arm.
"No, no, I was just having a...bad dream." She tried to recall it but it had already slipped away. "I think."
"Do you have nightmares often?"
"I don't think so. But usually, I have enough wine on hand that I don't really dream." She laid back down and groaned. "I miss the army. There were enough wagons and wine to keep me plenty drunk during downtime."
Silence filled the air for a moment. Cass looked back at Charis, who was eyeing her arm again. She could read the curiosity on their face and unwrapped the bandage. Their eyes widened in surprise at the stark difference from when they'd seen it the night before. No stars and no deep void. Just ashy black skin like burnt wood.
"Have you ever changed in your sleep before?"
Cass shook her head. "So far it's only ever happened because I wanted to. Never been an accident or a surprise. Well, except the first time, but Helen walked me through it."
"The High Priestess was there for your first time?" Charis's question got a smirk and a chuckle out of her.
"For a few first times," she joked slyly, "but yeah she was the one who told me how to do it." Cass looked at her hand, carefully flexing the thin, bony fingers. "Back then it was only part of my hand. These three fingers." She held up her pinky, ring, and middle. "Every time I change, the curse spreads further up my arm."
She could feel the curly-haired Sammosan's gaze climb up her arm to the shoulder where several thin tendrils of the black skin spread like the roots of a tree, standing out against her natural tanned olive tones.
"It looks awful, I can't imagine how it feels."
"Actually, it's pretty nice." Cass clenched her fist and winced. "Well, not like this. During the day it hurts. But at night, or when I immerse myself in it entirely, it feels amazing. I feel...very powerful. Like I can do anything."
Charis raised an eyebrow and crossed their arms over their broad chest. "You say that like you aren't the most powerful person in Sammos."
A smile creased Cass's face and she chuckled. "I guess. But it's so much more than being strong. When I give into it, the curse bestows me with-"
Her tent flap opened up and Glaukos stuck his head in. "Hey! Love birds! Time to eat." He looked at Cass's arm. "You're gonna want to cover that up, the sun's real hot today."
Charis left with Glaukos and Cass got dressed, covering up against the evening sun. She shielded her eyes and went over to the fire where everyone had gathered. Maar, Nuu, and Anatu were sitting across from Mica and Kher, who were serving Iuven and Glaukos small platters of whatever Kher thought was best to start the day with this time. Cass got in line behind Charis, watching Mica balance several small wafers of bread on a wooden board with a bowl of green sauce.
"Dhourra cakes and zhoug. Let the bread soak in the sauce for a few minutes to soften," she explained, smacking one of the cakes against the iron pot. It was very hard bread.
"Takes more than a few minutes," Nuu grumbled, stirring the hard lumps of bread around in their bowl with a dull clatter. Their sister was nowhere to be seen, which was fine by Cass.
She picked up one of the dhourra cakes, dipped it in the zhoug, and bit into it. It was definitely harder than normal bread, but it didn't inhibit her.
"Sheemsh fine tchoo me," she said around the food before swallowing. "Want me to chew it up and feed you like a baby bird?"
This got a bunch of chuckles from everyone. A loud, almost braying cackle rose higher than the rest. Cass was more than surprised to see Anatu covering their mouth, almost doubled over. They glanced up from the ground and noticed all eyes were on them.
"Now that's a laugh," Glaukos muttered. Cass nudged him as Anatu got up, red-faced, and retreated to their tent.
"Hey, shut up."
"What? I didn't say anything mean. It's just..." he glanced over at their tent. "It sounded weird. Maybe Anatu's actually a demon trying to bamboozle us?" He grinned playfully but Cass didn't return it.
"Don't be a shit, Glaukos," Mica joined Cass in the argument. "People can't help how they laugh."
"You stared too!"
"Well yeah, I was surprised. Never heard Anatu laugh before, didn't think they knew how."
"I'm not crazy here, right?" Glaukos asked, looking around, "It sounded weird, right?"
"I don't know about that," Cass said, taking Anatu's seat by Nuu and Maar. "It was kind of...uh cute? Not cute. What's atfos pou empneei?"
"Endearing is the word you want," Charis answered.
"Yeah, that sounds right." Cass nodded. "Endearing. I'm glad they found something to smile about for a change." Knowing Anatu had a sense of humor gave Cass hope that she could get to know them better now.
"I'm glad they stopped making that freaky sound." Glaukos said, followed by a loud thunk and an "ouch!". Mica had thrown one of the cakes at him.
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2024.06.10 00:53 Disastrous_Cha0s My special baby

My special baby
This is hot pot. He had an unfortunate accident when he was a baby and got squished by the lid of his tank leaving him with a bowl in his back. ( he a spicy noodle boy full of goodness) He saw a vet and we where told that he was the healthiest snake other then the whole squished boy thing. He’s a strong boy who has apparently never let being broken stop him from living his best snake life. Also If any one knows what morph he is that would be cool to know also. The person who gave him to me said he was part Colombian and part sanoran boa if that helps.
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2024.06.10 00:52 Kilfoic [FS] - Irvine, CA - $2+ plants, $0.50 Neocardinia Culls

[FS] - Irvine, CA - $2+ plants, $0.50 Neocardinia Culls
Hi everyone! I am moving and I have to downsize my tanks
Java fern - large (2) $10 each ; medium/small (3) $5 each; small/baby (5) $2 each
Large Amazon sword (1): $15
Vallisneria (3): $6 each
Dwarf Lily (1): $6
Neocardinia Culls mixed colors (150+): $0.50 each
Prices are negotiable!
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2024.06.10 00:50 lifept3 Setting up $6.28 (3/4 gal) basic cube with lid from Walmart

Setting up $6.28 (3/4 gal) basic cube with lid from Walmart
Started 10 days ago with several sea monkey refills, add’l saltwater made w/Instant Ocean.
Sorry, rough video was made for myself, looking for mating pair, other things but decided to post. You guys are forgiving.
Surprised when 9 day old male paired up with female. Seems early? I thought, cute… maybe young male just giving it a try but they’ve stayed together fairly peacefully as opposed to pure chaos in my Ocean Zoos. Don’t know how males haven’t killed each other in my purple tank.
Cutouts in cube lid handy, hollow bottom has potential but I’m not creative. Taped tiny USB blue LED for now, usually turned off though. Added 4 plastic “feet”. 1” rounds that previously held glitter or something. Wanted heat from light to escape and/or cord clearance.
Almost poisoned newly hatched with random item from my house. Tan stone thing in front was boiled, cooled, added to clear water, looked good at base of leaves but clear water turned solid white overnight, babies at airline. I’m sure many didn’t make it that day or through partial water changes this past week.
Not thrilled w/toy starfish but something dark is on it now, maybe algae, they like to rub against it. Says it’s PVC, hope ok.
Won’t be using fake coral. Rough edges. Thought glass snail would sparkle ✨in water, it doesn’t. Lol
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