Man, this is complicated. It's also very, very long.
A little piece out of a lot of background: I've been sick for about 10 years old. For the first six of those years, it was mainly a physical illness. I had chronic pains that the doctors just couldn't figure out and it derailed my entire life. Then in 2020, I ended up in a rehab facility for about 18 months. The first year there was really slow since I was still in pain, but after about 10 months I finally got the meds I needed and my aches went poof.
Amazing!
However, once they did, I discovered that I had a lot of latent psychological trauma etc. that popped its head up as soon as I didn't have the physical pains to distract me. I asked the nurses and doctors there for help with getting in touch with someone who could help me with that, but that didn't happen and instead the remaining 8 months was hell because somehow they decided that instead of offering help, they'd gaslight and abuse me. I've never felt so disconnected from reality because it didn't matter what I did or how hard I worked to accomplish a goal, I always did something wrong and never worked hard enough. It was a wild time, in the worst way possible.
Then I was kicked out of that facility and into my own one-room apartment. I was hesitant about the benefits of living alone right in ground zero for my previous trauma, but then again, staying at the place I had just been at wasn't really an option either.
Well, as it turns out, it was as horrible of an idea as I had feared. I quickly spiraled mentally since I was just alone with myself all day every day, and my own head is a pretty toxic conversational partner.
However, one upside to moving out of that facility is that it opened up another avenue of care for me. I'm not sure how to translate the Swedish health care system into English but basically, if you don't need to go to the hospital for something more urgent, your first go-to health care place is a vårdcentral. I'll just call it a "VC" from now on. You go there for all of the usual smaller things that doesn't require a surgeon or something. There are doctors and nurses there and they'll help you if they can or refer you to a hospital or other health care facilities if they offer the help you need.
When I came home from the rehab place in August of 2021, I got into contact with my local VC and explained that I needed some psychological help, and they let me talk to a counselor. She eventually sent me to another counselor of sorts who was supposed to evaluate me and then send me to the actual psychiatrist who could help me. After talking with her for a while, she sent me on my way and I met the psychiatrist in December of 2022.
We met up and had one conversation, but he basically said that there was nothing he could do for me. There were some reasons why but I don't think those matter now. The point is, my psych help kind of ended there. For various reasons, it wasn't picked up until six months later when I went on a boycott of all of my medicines in order to force my VC to actually do something. They had stayed radio silent up until then despite my pleas to find me some kind of help.
I ended up meeting with another one of their counselors in May last year and we've been talking ever since then. However, I wasn't getting anywhere. I said to her that the only way I saw myself getting better was by going to another of those rehab facilities since I wasn't able to get better on my own. On a fundamental level, I just don't function while alone. I shut down completely and just go on auto-pilot. It doesn't matter what we come up with while talking because as soon as I'm alone again, the auto-pilot engages and I remember almost nothing that isn't a hardwired biological need until I start interacting with another person again and the auto-pilot disengages again.
I had a three-way phone call with my counselor and the woman in charge of granting stays as such rehab facilities, and I said that one thing that I needed as a necessary guarantee was some sort of additional psychological help so that I wasn't simply helped physically and then thrown back once those needs were met. I've been there and done that, and I've seen how destructive that can be.
On the first session with my counselor after that call, she said that she could refer me to another counselor since I had pretty much said that only her support wouldn't be enough during my stay at that rehab facility (if I get a spot). I wasn't sure if that was the best way to go but since we hadn't really gotten anywhere in the last year, it didn't seem like the worst idea.
And this finally brings me to what this post is really about.
I had an initial conversation with this new counselor and then sent her a letter where I outlined my feelings better than I managed in the conversation. She asked if she could show the letter to her boss but didn't say why. I said sure, and after that we settled on a new session that was last Thursday.
During that session, she explained both why she'd taken my letter to her boss and why she'd be stepping down as my counselor after just a couple of sessions.
The reason she took the letter to her boss is because I outlined how I'd been ping-ponged around different counselors and psychiatrists for almost 3 years. That just wasn't right.
The reason she stepped down as my counselor was because of what the psychiatrist I'd met briefly in December 2022 had said about me. I was only aware of what he said directly to me: "I can't help you." However, what I was completely unaware of was that he told my VC a whole different thing: "This guy needs a whole team of (more suitable) psychiatrists."
They seemingly completely ignored this. As I mentioned before, for the first 6 months after my meeting with that psychiatrist, they did nothing. I had to resort to fairly desperate measures to get them to act, but when they did act, they just handed me to one of the counselors who were woefully underqualified to help me through my issues. This is why nothing happened during the year I was speaking to her. She then passed me on to the most recent counselor, and she realized that my issues were far above her paygrade. This wasn't the reason she stepped down, though. Rather, she felt that as long as I had a counselor, everyone around me would just assume that I was getting qualified help when the reality was far from that. As such, she thought that her staying on would do more harm than good to me.
She advised me to talk to my doctor about it and I just so happened to have an unrelated appointment booked with him for later this week so at least I can talk to him without having to wait a month or so. She also suggesting reporting all of this crap to the governing body for health care issues.
I don't know what to feel. I'm angry and confused. It feels like I've lived on a diet consisting of nothing but knuckle sandwiches for the longest time, with these recent revelations being a huge one-dish buffet.
I just needed to get this off my chest.

Okay so um I wanna buy an xs spectrum outfitters binder but I have severe anxiety which makes it hard to breath even in a normal bralett sometimes (i admit that the braletts are also not my size tho...)I wanna ask people who wear binders and suffer from panic attack and or breathing problems (from anxiety or not)if they feel okay with a binder on or if they don't advise wearing one Also in the size chart it says 70-73,5 cm at the ribs and when I measured myself I inhaled as much oxygen as I could and with that it was 74 cm but I usually don't breath that much even if I'm anxious and need to breath deeply. So tbh I just need advice/reassurance on this matter Sorry for my English and thank you for reading

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Bodzza - Pedra no Sapato [Codein Music] / Key Fm, BPM 143, 5:26, MP3 13.17 Mb
Bodzza - Plateau [Codein Music] / Key Dbm, BPM 144, 4:57, MP3 12.01 Mb
Bodzza - Those Days [Codein Music] / Key Dm, BPM 142, 5:40, MP3 13.73 Mb
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Chaco - Rude Boy [Realty Records] / Key Cm, BPM 133, 3:44, MP3 9.50 Mb
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Desire - Human Nature [Italians Do It Better] / Key C, BPM 120, 3:47, MP3 9.54 Mb
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H. Paul - Ghosts in the procession (Original mix) [Induxtriall Records] / Key Cm, BPM 135, 5:13, MP3 12.61 Mb
H. Paul - Gunshots and screams (Original mix) [Induxtriall Records] / Key Dbm, BPM 165, 2:57, MP3 7.18 Mb
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Hokori - No Man's Home [Lamp] / Key Dm, BPM 90, 5:47, MP3 14.17 Mb
Hokori - The Secret Place [Lamp] / Key Fm, BPM 90, 2:51, MP3 7.13 Mb
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House Anatomy - Chances [Queenside Recordings] / Key Am, BPM 124, 3:37, MP3 8.83 Mb
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Imeall - Endevol (Invisible Audience Mix) [Lamp] / Key Em, BPM 123, 3:43, MP3 9.23 Mb
Inherent - Profondità [Systolic Label] / Key Abm, BPM 126, 7:30, MP3 18.20 Mb
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KAT3X - DEMON TIME [KATEXIS] / Key F#m, BPM 140, 7:05, MP3 17.36 Mb
KAT3X, Martin Luis - ON AIR [KATEXIS] / Key Am, BPM 126, 6:13, MP3 15.28 Mb
Kirilovsky - Nebula Nights [Systolic Label] / Key Cm, BPM 130, 7:14, MP3 17.57 Mb
Konkurs - Active Measures [X-IMG] / Key Abm, BPM 130, 6:18, MP3 15.45 Mb
Konkurs - Descender [X-IMG] / Key Bbm, BPM 110, 5:05, MP3 12.53 Mb
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Konkurs - Plasma [X-IMG] / Key Dbm, BPM 130, 6:06, MP3 14.94 Mb
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Luiz Castro - Ainda [Monkey Business Lab] / Key Gm, BPM 124, 3:53, MP3 9.46 Mb
Luiz Castro - Essência [Monkey Business Lab] / Key Abm, BPM 120, 4:19, MP3 10.49 Mb
Luiz Castro - Piquezin [Monkey Business Lab] / Key Bbm, BPM 142, 3:37, MP3 8.83 Mb
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Menori - Nirvighnam [• kosa •] / Key F#m, BPM 118, 9:44, MP3 23.75 Mb
Menori - Wah Yantee [• kosa •] / Key Am, BPM 122, 5:46, MP3 14.25 Mb
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Nava - Session Deep [Lamp] / Key Bbm, BPM 128, 6:30, MP3 15.91 Mb
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Onra - Until The End [All City Dublin] / Key Bm, BPM 152, 2:19, MP3 5.99 Mb
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Paul Pentoxide - Ayla [Lamp] / Key Fm, BPM 110, 3:04, MP3 7.65 Mb
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Recardo - Arco [Sifting Sands] / Key Am, BPM 114, 4:08, MP3 10.11 Mb
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Recardo - Lake [Sifting Sands] / Key Ab, BPM 117, 6:00, MP3 14.59 Mb
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Recardo - Loose [Sifting Sands] / Key Fm, BPM 122, 6:55, MP3 16.79 Mb
Recardo - Nomad [Sifting Sands] / Key Gm, BPM 133, 7:34, MP3 18.25 Mb
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Recardo - One [Sifting Sands] / Key Cm, BPM 129, 5:15, MP3 12.78 Mb
Recardo - Outsiders [Sifting Sands] / Key Cm, BPM 120, 5:57, MP3 14.32 Mb
Recardo - Over and Out [Sifting Sands] / Key C, BPM 120, 2:11, MP3 5.30 Mb
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Recardo - Prototype [Sifting Sands] / Key Am, BPM 128, 5:09, MP3 12.41 Mb
Recardo - Reality Chek [Sifting Sands] / Key Cm, BPM 123, 9:44, MP3 23.52 Mb
Recardo - Red Descent [Sifting Sands] / Key Em, BPM 107, 8:56, MP3 21.49 Mb
Recardo - Red Key [Sifting Sands] / Key B, BPM 124, 5:47, MP3 13.99 Mb
Recardo - Second Skin [Sifting Sands] / Key Cm, BPM 126, 6:03, MP3 14.61 Mb
Recardo - Simotaur [Sifting Sands] / Key Dbm, BPM 129, 4:05, MP3 9.87 Mb
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Recardo - Toth [Sifting Sands] / Key Fm, BPM 128, 3:23, MP3 8.22 Mb
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Recardo - Two [Sifting Sands] / Key Abm, BPM 131, 10:00, MP3 24.11 Mb
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Recardo - Zero [Sifting Sands] / Key Dm, BPM 116, 4:35, MP3 11.07 Mb
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Red Pulse - Effected [Ubuntu Psy Records] / Key Fm, BPM 130, 5:34, MP3 13.66 Mb
Red Pulse - I See Heaven [Ubuntu Psy Records] / Key Gm, BPM 142, 4:47, MP3 11.78 Mb
Red Pulse - Is My Time [Ubuntu Psy Records] / Key Gm, BPM 142, 4:10, MP3 10.29 Mb
Red Pulse - Special [Ubuntu Psy Records] / Key Am, BPM 142, 4:02, MP3 9.96 Mb
Red Pulse - Wonderfull One [Ubuntu Psy Records] / Key Abm, BPM 142, 5:53, MP3 14.42 Mb
Red Pulse, BlackHood - Remember [Ubuntu Psy Records] / Key Em, BPM 140, 4:48, MP3 11.81 Mb
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Hey guys so when we calculate percentage uncertanties of measuring something static/not moving like the length of something on a table we use
(((max-min)/2)/average value) * 100. right?
but if its something that's not stable like measuring the angle of something in the air or length of something we use a fixed absolute error value like 4 degrees for a protractor or 0.5s for a stopwatch, right? (what about rulers btw what do we use?)
plz correct me if Im wrong

Everywhere I have searched about this the same answer always appears: To calculate real GDP you need to divide nominal GDP by the GDP deflator. To calculate GDP deflator you need to divide nominal GDP by real GDP.
This may sound like a very ignorant question, but this is confusing me.
Which is calculated first? I assume it's the deflator right? But how is the deflator actually calculated?
I have read that the deflator is a different measure from the CPI, but how is it measured in real life?
(i am 100% beginner so the question may sound stupid, sorry about that)

I planned on buying a shelf for a project.
Example: https://www.homedepot.com/p/Rubbermaid-White-Laminated-Wood-Shelf-12-in-D-x-24-in-L-FG4B7900WHT/100679070
I need it to be 12" high.
My question is. Is shelving it's actual measment or is it shorter like when you buy lumber?

Hey everyone! I've never made a post on reddit before so bear with me friends. This is also gonna be long because I physically cannot restrain myself from overexplaining.
Ok, SO me (24F) and my guy best friend (25M) have known each other since about sophomore year of college. Let's call him Tony alright. I met him through my college roommate and best friend, we'll call her Tina (Tony is Tina's cousin's husband's best friend). He went to a different college in a city about 2 1/2 hours away, but he came and hung out with his friend a lot and he lived with them during COVID. I'm a pretty socially awkward and shy person so it takes me a while to get comfortable around someone and be myself so I didn't really engage with him at first. It should also be mentioned, I've never been in a relationship or in love befoe; I've been on dates and done a thing or two here and there with some people, but I've always been shy so I'm kind of a late bloomer in the relationship aspect. He is not and he's been in relationships before and has experience doing the horizontal tango; an activity I do not have experience in!
Fast forward, tail end of junior year or beginning of senior year of college we start actually interacting and I open up a bit more. I then develop a small "schoolgirl" kinda type crush because he was a new friend and funny and nice, and I never really had any guy friends growing up so it was new to me and you know the daddy issues of it all. Ok so BOOM spring break senior year right (March 2022), we go on a vacation to NOLA with our friend group. My crush is in full swing at this point and during said trip, my bff Tina and I share a hotel room with Tony and his best friend Ted (sharing bc we are poor). So we get a lot of quality time and get a lot closer as friends. Skip to May 2022, we graduate college and my BFF Tina moves to the bigger city in the state we live in (where he lives) in June (we went to college in a small town). So, naturally I go to the city a lot to visit her and so in turn we start hanging with him more frequently since he's closer now. At this point, I'm over my crush and he's just my really good friend (I promise). Fast forward to December 2022, I move to the city as well and my bff Tina and I move in together so we see him even more, and he's spending nights at our place (on the couch). We get a lot closer and the main thing we do in our friendship is talk. He's a level 100 yapper, and I didn't used to be at all until we became friends honestly, but he just brings out the yap in me. We talk about anything and everything; we even argue about a variety of topics, but it's not with malice or rudeness at all; we're just talking. He's just genuinely the easiest person to talk to I've ever met; strangers just talk to him all the time.
So now we're gonna jump to December of 2023 (sorry for the jumping around, I'm an ADHD warrior). I've had mental health issues off and on since high school, but they got worse around this time. Around this same time, he started getting depressed as well as a few months prior he had been fired from a job and his car got towed amongst other things. My BFF is also going through it.We are all just going through some trials and tribulations lemme tell ya. So, we've all been leaning on each other emotionally pretty heavily lately. Recently, he spends multiple days in a row at our house. So, I've been working through the prior mentioned mental health issues these past months and I'm think I'm finally coming out the other side. I've actually been the happiest I've been in a very long time, but I'm also still struggling a bit because I feel as though my personality has changed drastically since this ordeal or maybe I'm finally feeling secure enough in myself to show my true personality idk, but in a nutshell I'm feeling open and brave which are qualities I don't have experience in whatsoever. As I'm finding myself, I think I'm also becoming more in touch with my feelings which is how I realized I had feelings for him, but anyways back to the nitty gritty. So I'm feeling all these new feelings and all, and my crush on Tony comes back with a terrible new twist: 100% real uncut feelings 😔. But, I am terrible at reading social cues and understanding other people's feelings so I genuinely can't tell if he feels the same or not. But, ever since I've realized my feelings, I've been noticing things more. Me, Tina, and Tony have always been very open with each other in the sense that we talk about anything and everything. We talk about sex, relationships, our bodies, etc. But, lately, I feel like him and I talk even more about sex and relationships and he makes more jokes or funny remarks about sexual or romantic things between us. To be fair, I have too (😝), so it may just be in response, but come on, it's to the point like, we jokin anymore?? So, the other day, I was joking about how I was gonna be a virgin at 40, and he said, "Nah, we'll figure something out before then." like what you mean by that?? And another time, we were riding in the backseat together, and the whole car was talking about eating a girl's kitty cat and I had made a joke about not knowing the feeling and he said, "What?? That's so sad bro" and then under his breath said, "we'll have to do something about it" like huh???? And I also have this crop top with butterflies on it that may be a lil revealing (🙈) that he complimented when he first saw me wear it. And now, whenever I wear it, he'll say something about it like, "Ohhh, return of the shirt" or something along those lines. Also a while back, I had told him about how my late grandpa would always sneak me Ho-Hos as a kid and how I missed him a lot, and in the next few days, he brought some over when he came to hang out like brooo 😩. He didn't say that was the reason or anything, but that would be a crazy coincidence I feel. He's also always showing me something on his phone like a video he thought was funny, a movie he liked, pop culture we talk about, music he likes, etc. He'll just appear in front of me with his phone 2.3 cm from my face saying, "look 👁👄👁". Also, we've both been talking a lot lately about how lonely we are and how we miss sleeping and cuddling with another person in the bed. I feel like I've been dropping hints, but I'm also scared to tip him off so the hints I think I'm dropping could be more like office friendly chit-chat in reality!
It should also be noted that after I got over my initial crush, I didn't find him attractive. I really didn't find him attractive when I had a crush tbh. He's definitely not my usual type at all; I'm a fat bi girl who usually goes for masc women or feminine men and he's a short skinny lil fella with a permed mullet 😭. I'm definitely not his usual type either which is another reason I have doubts about his interest in me. He usually dates skinnier girls. I'm finally okay with my body, but if you're a fat person, you know how absolutely anxiety-inducing it is thinking about shooting your shot and someone rejecting you because of your body. I don't think he would do that, but there's still that fear there. He's also mentioned recently how he doesn't care about looks and body and I'm like 🤨 you hinting at something?? Cause I've talked to him before about struggling with loving my body so he knows im self-conscious about it at times. I'm also hesitant because besides Tina, he's my best friend in the world. I would never want to do anything to jeopardize that friendship. I've been trying to get over it and/or ignore it. But, God, idk what to do anymore. It's driving me insane, and I hate that I'm looking for things and reading into things. And I feel like I'm acting weird or changing my behavior which sucks cause it's hard to control cause I'm nervous. But, I really don't think it's all in my head. I don't even know if I want to pursue anything and change our relationship forever, but I feel like I'm going crazy. If anyone has any insight or advice, it would be much appreciated. Thanks a bunch!
TL;DR: I (24F) think I'm in love with my guy best friend (25). We met when I was 20, and I think he may be flirting and secretly feel the same, but I truly can't tell. We hang out almost everyday, but I don't want to be seeing things that aren't really happening. I also don't want to ruin our friendship. I would really just like some insight on the situation or advice on how to tell if he's also interested. TIA! 🫶

Hi everyone,
I've recently been able to buy the Shimano s-phyre rc903 shoes at a pretty great price. But now as I'm fitting them, I'm worrying if they're actually the right fit for me. For context, I bought size 41,5 in normal width and my feet length is 25,4-25,7 cm (my right one is slightly larger than my left one, also a few mm in width). For my left foot, the fit is near perfect I'd say. The heel cup really grabs my heel and overall I have a very snug and secure feeling. Now for my right foot I don't know if the shoe's a bit too tight. My pinky toe noticeably touches the outside of the shoe. It's not pressing hard against it, but there's noticeable contact. If I take out the insole and just put my foot onto it, my foot is significantly bigger compared to the insole. I haven't yet ridden them, just tested them fresh out of the box without cleats.
Shimano says that a race shoe "should fit like a second sock" so I guess these shoes are made to be tight. Does anyone here have experience with these shoes or has been in a similar situation? Do such shoes loosen up a bit over time? Or is the fact that I'm already contemplating now an indication that these just aren't made for me?
All help is welcome!

I apologize in advance if I phrase this weirdly, English is not my first language.
I (34F) went off birth control two months ago after being on it for about 2-2,5 years. I took slynd/slinda which is a progestin only pill, there are four placebo pills in every pack but I always skipped them since the goal was to not have a period at all. I haven’t been on any hormonal bc before them since I was 19 and didn’t plan to either but started taking these mostly for crippling hormonal migraines.
Now I’m stressing myself out TTC. I just got my regular period for the second time (since going off bc). Before the two normal periods I had a short withdrawal bleed. My cycle seems totally normal again(26-28 days, super positive opk:s around day 11-13). This cycle I hade some fertile cm and even felt the ovulation pain on my left side. I haven’t started measuring my BBT yet so I guess that’s the next step. The only thing that’s different from before bc is that my period seems much lighter and that my breasts feel super sore and swollen all the way from ovulation to the day before my period - never had that before.
Now I know it’s super early into my TTC journey but I can’t stay level headed in this despite my best efforts. I can’t stop beating myself up with thoughts of what I could possibly be doing wrong? Am I too old, is something wrong with me, why am I not pregnant even though I had sex every day for weeks, did taking bc mess me up in some way? I am desperate to know what is or isn’t happening inside my body. I’ve already wasted money on taking extra sensitive pregnancy tests from 8dpo and onwards and haven’t seen the faintest line.
I feel like I took my fertility for granted. I always had a regular cycle with very obvious signs of ovulation. I got pregnant by accident at age 27 (I am still with the same partner) and had a very early abortion without known complications and right now I’m spiraling into thoughts about how not getting pregnant now is my “punishment” for having an abortion then. I don’t want to think like that or become more obsessive about this.
I would be so grateful for any kind advice or similar experiences.

Performance Marketing: Half Wasted? Here's Why
Imagine finding a magic MONEY MACHINE, but then accidentally turning it into a giant MONEY VACUUM CLEANER! That's what happens to many businesses with PERFORMANCE MARKETING (PERF MARKETING).
Performance marketing is awesome - ads, social media, and other things can bring you exactly the CUSTOMERS you want. But over HALF (yikes!) of businesses are doing it wrong, wasting MILLIONS!
Here's why:

• NO PLAN: They jump right in without a strategy, like throwing spaghetti at a wall and hoping it sticks.
• IGNORING DATA: They don't track their results, so they have no idea what's working or not. It's like driving BLINDFOLDED!
• FOCUSING ON BRAGS, NOT SALES: They care about things like "likes" that don't actually make money. It's like getting a million high fives but NO ONE BUYS ANYTHING.
• EXPECTING MAGIC: They think perf marketing is an overnight success button. It takes time and work, like growing a healthy garden.
• BORING ADS: Their ads are like watching paint dry. NO ONE is going to be interested!

But don't worry, there's a fix! Here's how to make performance marketing work for you:

• MAKE A SMART PLAN: Figure out who you want to REACH, what you want them to do (buy something, sign up, etc.), and how you'll MEASURE SUCCESS.
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Since the viewing figures for Space Babies and The Devil's Chord released yesterday, I've seen a lot of people freaking out that neither episode made it much over 4 million viewers. Given that these numbers are around about what they were in 1989 when the show was cancelled, it seems many people think that the end is nigh, and RTD's relaunch has been a total failure.
This is however missing a lot of context. For starters, when the show was cancelled at the end of the 1980s there were only 4 channels. Home recording hardware was available, but extremely expensive and usually unaffordable for the majority of people. If you wanted to watch a show, you had to watch it live. 4 million in 1989 is in no way the same as it is in 2024.
Even since the show returned in 2005 the landscape has changed dramatically. Catchup and streaming services didn't exist yet. The digital switchover hadn't happened yet, meaning a large amount of people still only had 5 channels. Those that did have digitial TV were likely on freeview, which at most had about 50-60 channels. Today, we have thousands of channels on multiple digital media services, and thats not to mention the dozens of streaming platforms like Netflix, Prime, Disney+, and NOW that further divide the audience. We are never getting back the days where an episode can regularly reach 10m viewers. Comparing Series 14 viewing figures to Series 4 ones is utterly worthless.
So, how do we measure the health of the show compared to its own past?
Simple! We use the weekly rankings for the episodes, rather than the viewership numbers themselves. This is how music charts are compiled and no one has any issues with that system. Its also the only way to consistently measure the viewership, while still accounting for the change in viewing habits over the last 20 years.
I've seen a lot of people state that the show is as healthy as its ever been just like I am now, but without the numbers to back it up. Well, I've decided to bring those numbers.
I've compiled a spreadsheet of the weekly placing for every single episode back to 1963 taken from their first transmission date. This was done using figures from Doctor Who Guide, which is an excellent resource. The figures from the iPlayer age are compiled using their 7 day rating, which includes everyone who watched it within a week of transmission, as is standard procedure these days.
You can find my spreadsheet here. It's broken down by classic and revival eras, by each Doctor, and by each revival showrunner, but the graph on the first page is the entire history of the show.
So, what can we tell from these figures?

• Only five episodes have been the number 1 most watched show of their week: Journey's End, The End of Time Part I, The End of Time Part II, The Day of the Doctor, and The Woman Who Fell To Earth.
• The classic show had two golden ages of viewership: under Hartnell in 1964-1965, and under Tom Baker in 1975-1977.
• Troughton and Pertwee's castings saved the show. Both arrested accellerating drops in the rankings, with Pertwee's ranks actually increasing towards his end.
• The true nadir of the show's popularity was not at its cancellation under Sylvester McCoy, but Tom Baker's final season. Averaging at 106th for any given week that it was on, it reached its absolute lowest point during episode 2 of Full Circle, when it only achieved 170th.
• After initially recovering to the norm under Peter Davison, a steady decline began towards the end of his run, which continued into the eras of his two successors and culminated in the shows cancellation.
• The final time that the classic show appeared in the Top 20 for the week was episode 5 of The Talons of Weng-Chiang, hitting 18th on the 26th March 1977. This means it continued running for twelve years achieving rankings that the revival has consistently outperformed.
• The lowest that the revival has ever dropped is 35th. This was for Can You Hear Me? on the 9th February 2020.
• Only two episodes in the RTD1 era fell out of the Top 20. Bizzarely, they were The Empty Child (21st) and Silence in the Library (27th).
• The run from Midnight to The End of Time is unprecedented in the history of the show. Achieving rankings of 5th, 4th, 2nd, 1st, 2nd, 5th, 5th, 1st, and 1st - nothing else comes close to this level of success.
• The decline in the revival seems to begin just after the 50th anniversary. Some might put this down to Capaldi being too abrasive in Series 8, but its also possible that a lot of the general audience saw the 50th as a natural conclusion and gave up (a bit like what happened to the MCU after Endgame).
• Chibnall's era of the revival is the least consistent. The first half of Series 11 never left the Top 10 and he finished strongly with Power of the Doctor (5th), but only eight episodes out of his last 20 as showrunner made the Top 20.
• So far, RTD2 is on par with the majority of RTD1, the runup to the 50th, and the first half of Series 11.

I love this show, and its saddening to see other people who love it scared for its future because scaremongers in the press (and sometimes from within the fandom itself) are willfully ignorant of the fact that things have changed so dramatically that we cannot measure them the same way that we used to.
Anyway, I hope you like my spreadsheet. Although I made it for my own enjoyment (yes I am very fun at parties) I thought it might be helpful to share.

I have some final stage interviews coming up with some SVP/heads of groups and just looking for some advice on questions and prep work. I know their titles and tangentially what their roles are but it’s a bit murky the actual hierarchy or relation with my role so my question list below will focus on that as well as culture - also these are short interviews 30 mins only so I’m trying to really focus on not wasting time!
Potential questions I thought of: 1. (In some way I want to ask how the structure is set up and how they relate to my role if they don’t lead with that which I’m sure they will but in case not I thought about something like this) Can you briefly describe the structure of the team and your role as a leader? 2. How can my position help achieve your short- mid- and long-term goals and what measures of success will you use? 3. What is important to you as a leader and how do you feel you help shape or embody the broader culture? 4. Any advice you would give someone coming into this role? 5. What originally drew you to this organization and what has kept you here for so long? How has it evolved over time and what do you see for the future?

TLDR -------------------------------------
The problem: My fish, Zane, has been extremly lethargic for about a while. A white spot has developed on his side in the last few days. And he is no longer swimming up for food.
What I think it could be: stress (moving, bioload, bad tank location in the house, etc), old age, or sick - maybe swim bladder disease.
What I'd like to get from this post: help identifying the problem and help addressing/fixing it.
Images linked here
Full Story --------------------------------
The time line: - Student teaching Jan 17 - May 1 - Return to fish Mar 15 / April 25-28 / May 6-11 - Friend watches fish Mar 25-28 / April 28 - May 5 / - Fish Moved April 28 / in travel cup until April 30 / in small tank until May 13 / new tank set up May 13 / new filter pump and cartridge May 14 - I start worrying about lethargy April 28 - Different friend watches fish May 10-12 - says he swam up to get food once or twice - partner cares for fish May 14-17
The situation: I was student teaching this spring (Jan 17 - May 1) and so my partner was taking care of Zane in our old apartment while I moved in with family. I have been back at different times during the semester (March 15 / April 26 / May 6-11 ) and my partner has come to visit me too (March 25-28 / April 28 - May 5) and during those times a neighbor has watched him. Any time we have a trusted friend watched him, they will fed him 3 blood worms daily because it is easy to measure. Our friends all have animals and follow the exact instructions we leave.
I have had Zane since February 25, 2021. As he has gotten older, he has slowed down and taken longer to respond, but he still had a lot of energy and swam up to greet you or get food in the morning. But lately he has gotten really lethargic and appears sick.
I don't know the parameters or if there was a strict cleaning schedule while I was student teaching outside of topping the water up every 2 weeks. But, now that things have calmed down we will be returning to a set schedule.
Recently we got a different apartment near where I was student teaching and my partner moved in with me. During the transition of moving, the semester ending, and graduation there were periods where my partner cared for Zane, I cared for him, or a friend cared for him. Zane moved into the new apartment with us on April 28.
He was in a travel bowl for 2 days (it's bigger than the petstore cups, but idk how big it actually is), then he was in a 2 gallon cube for another 10 days days before we got his 5 gallon tank back and set up. During moving we packed as much water as we could into takeaway soup containers because I thought it would be best to bring his old water that already had the bacteria and stuff. When we got back I took everything out of the tank (I wanted to search the gravel for snails) and then added the fluvel substrate and some of the old fishtank gravel on top. I dumped the water filled with all the gravel debris before adding the new substrate. I put all the decorations back then added the old water we saved and the new water from his 2 gal temporary tank together. I doubt the temporary tank was cycled, but he is usually fine staying in that tank when I travel. It's always filtered water, heated, conditioned and left to sit out for a day before adding him. During this process, I had him in a sealed plastic bowl Tupperware with holes in the top and then let him acclimate to the new water by setting the bowl in the tank. I was concerned about the old filter because it looked very gross, so I replaced the entire unit.
Since moving Zane has been really lethargic and spends all his time laying in the bottom of the tank. He used to have a lot of energy, swim around, rest on the plants, or rest on the heater, hunt shrimp, and I suspect he also tried to hit the snail once he realized it was in his tank.
Now, I know he is moving because when we check on him, several times a day, he's in a different spot than he was the previous time. But, in uploading photos, I noticed all of the photos I have are from the same corner of the tank, so maybe he isn't moving as much as he was earlier.
He also moves quickly if we gently brush against him or beside him. But, he is no longer swimming up for food or acting like he used to. He does look at us when we come near him. His eyes look like they're following us. He is breathing because his gills are moving, but it seems labored. I think he is stressed with the move, but his color is fine. He used to sleep or rest a lot too but his fins were always moving when he did and now they don't seem to be.
He has been in the new set up for about a week or two now and a few days ago (maybe May 17/18) I noticed a white spot on his side. It's only one, so I don't think it's itch. There is some white fuzzy something on the driftwood, but according to google it's just bacterial growth and should be fine. I've reduced the food I give him because it doesn't seem like he's eating in all. I used to feed him a small pinch of bug bites or 3 bloodworms because he seemed to have more energy with that pattern than without.
Appearance wise, his color is fine, it doesn't look like itch, it doesn't look like popeye, and his scales aren't pineconing. It could be swim bladder disease?
Thank you for your help.

Hey folks! I'm wanted to make this short but I have everything to learn, and admittedly very little knowledge or experience despite all of the self-research through consuming tons of content on Kayak Fishing and PNW Fishing and want to be very clear on what it is I am asking for in terms of guidance/recommendations!
Bless those of you that can manage to stick w/ me!
I haven't fished since I was a young kid with my grandfather - that was over 20 years ago so let's just assume I have no real bearing on what I'm doing or where to begin.
I live on the WA/OR border where the Columbia meets the Pacific and am looking to get myself setup with my first rod and tackle as I'd like to start fishing the local lakes and estuaries around me.
These are the circumstances that will affect my gear choices: 1.) My locale - Living at the literal mouth of the Columbia River (Astoria/Hammond, OR up to Ilwaco/Long Beach, WA and the surrounding areas) offers me a slew of bangers when it comes to the native fish and waterways being that there are streams, rivers, lakes, ocean, saltwater, freshwater, brackish water - blah, blah, blah - everything all at once. It's exciting, but overwhelming - with each new thing I learn, I realize how much more there is to find out. 2.) The primary use case for the gear I'm currently seeking is to fish from my Tucktec folding kayak, and ideally being able to accommodate a secondary use case of being able to pack in my rod and tackle on quick jaunts to more secluded waters in the area - I'm aware this may be where I just don't get to have the best of both worlds and may have to choose between the ability to pack it down and strap it to the side of my pack to bushwhack with and having it be an ideal rod for kayaking. I really just want to be able to grab my rod and tackle, get in my car, and be able to hop out with what I've got w/ me whenever I find myself in an area w/ a nice fishing spot that is accessible by foot or boat and just go!
I have seen some general recommendations of using around a 6.5'-8' rod on a kayak, and I most often see a 7' rod recommended - w/ the caveat of potentially adding a little length going up to 8' if fishing saltwater - given my locale, its really hard to say if I'll be in fresh, salt, or brackish water at any given time w/ all the coast, estuaries and lakes at my disposal it could really go any way. Even if I'm not kayaking out in the actual open waters of the Columbia, smaller estuaries that I might find myself in have that brackish water that I'm unsure whether to treat as fresh or saltwater when selecting gear.
Do I overcompensate as a foolproofing/failsafe measure and treat it like I'm generally fishing saltwater to handle the larger fish I'd encounter in those estuaries, or actual ocean if I'm on foot on the Washington side? Or do I go in with the intention of using a dedicated lake setup for fishing Bass, Steelhead and the smaller panfish that I'd encounter fishing Coffenbury Lake, Cullaby Lake, and other contained bodies of water and accept the fact that much like motorcycling, an "all-'rounder" or "dual sport" is more often than not underperforming and disappointing whether you're on the interstate or off the beaten path and one is usually better off just having dedicated bikes for dirt and street to really get that dialed in performance, rather than getting the worst of both worlds in one place. If that is in fact that case, then I guess I'm on the hunt for TWO rod/reel combos. One for fishing the local freshwater lakes, and a second for fishing the brackish water on the banks and estuaries.
I am trying my best to learn, but I don't know a lot about what's what seasonally as far as fishing goes, I just know prime time for bass fishing was a few months ago as it's getting warmer now. Tips on what I should be looking to fish for NOW and in the coming summefall months in this region would be greatly appreciated, I'm so eager to learn!
I know gear is subjective, and that if I take to angling, I'll end up amassing a ton of it for the changing seasons and types of fishing I take a shine to, and honestly, just for the hell of it. Right now, though? I just want to get myself a daily driver so that I can stop pulling my hair out researching and JUST GET TO CASTING OUT ON THE WATER ALREADY!
The goal is just to have enough fun in the process to not get discouraged from learning the art of angling, as I'd like it to become a staple source of communion with nature and a still chamber for reflection in my day-to-day life. I don't have any fishing buddies to offer moral support or get tips in this field, and I don't want to get myself in over my head and end up discouraged w/ gear that just sits gathering dust!
OH, and lastly on the note of the general 7' recommendation for kayak fishing, that seems to be a fairly universal ballpark on length, but I stumbled across Emmrod fishing rods - specifically the Emmrod Kayak King and the Emrod Packrod - they're funky little guys but they look bombproof, stowable, have swappable rod ends and they even have a model called the Kayak King - its only 27" assembled, half that packed, and I'm wondering if anyone has any experience with the Emmrod rods as they honestly look like they'd fit the bill for both kayaking and packing in to secluded lakes and streams for me PERFECTLY, but they go against most of what I've gleaned about kayak fishing so far being a whole 5' shy of 7' and I worry that I'm just falling blindly for the idea of the Emmrod because it's unlike anything I've ever seen in the sea of other rods I'm trying to take my pick from, and on paper it says its exactly what I'm looking for and has swappable parts making it pique my interest that much more as I just love modular systems. Someone please, SOUND OFF!
So, tell me what rod/reel YOU'D go for. Tell me why I should not get the Emmrod and get a normal rod like a normal person, or better yet, tell me about your experience with the Emmrod and why it'd be perfect for me after all! Emmrod aside, all recommendations and tips for fishing this incredible area and what gear is going to make it an enjoyable experience for me and the fish I'm bound to meet is welcomed and encouraged!
Thanks to anyone who made it this far and has any advice to offer, maybe I'll see you out there!

Hi all,
I’m just over 3 months into using NC and loving it. I came off the hormonal IUD on January 21st. This cycle was strange for me and I’m pretty sure NC has my ovulation date wrong.
My period lasted 4 days (last day was May 9th). My LH was positive on cycle days 11 and 12. My temperature dipped .05 on day 13 and 0.3 on day 14, then rose by 0.6 on day 15 (yesterday). I also charted watery CM on day 13 and 14. My app thinks I ovulated on day 12, but given everything I’ve tracked, I just don’t think that’s accurate. Can anyone provide some insight? Also, is there some way we can “correct” the app? For now I just made a note on day 14 that I think that is the actual ovulation day. Any insight would be much appreciated. Thank you!
Edit to add: I’m not an expert, but I’ve read multiple books on fertility tracking, including Taking Charge of Your Fertility, and what I’ve learned leads me to believe the app is wrong this time. The reason I say this cycle was strange for me is that the past 3 months, I’ve had a more obvious ovulation - LH surge, temp shift exactly 1 day later, no temperature dip in between.

I just recently bought a McCall's pattern, M8359, and my measurements for it are all over the charts. My bust measures in at 36 my waist at 32 and 9 inches below the waist at 44 with my back of neck to waist measuring in at 16 which puts me at size 14, 18, 20 and, 10 (sizes in order of my measurements) The pattern says that if my figure is a combination of two or more sizes to select the cutting lines that correspond to your size at bust waist and hip and mark with colored felt tip pen then to blend the newly marked lines from one side to another creating your own customized pattern. But I don't really know what that means and I can't seem to find any type of YouTube video to help me. I've been sewing for years and making my own creations for dresses, skirts and such but this is my very first time following an actual pattern. Am I just overthinking it?

I think its always good to set expectations for the transfer window prior to it starting. It is easy to sign multiple players and still want1 more on deadline day. Realistically we are going to be making huge moves but it will be a case of selling fringe players and getting replacements in who will actually form part of the squad. With this in mind I've broken it down to positions and what we need in each.
TLDR is at the bottom for summary of transfers.
GK - Sa, Bentley, King
I would be happy going into the new season with these 3. I do think a better quality back up would be good if we can get somebody on a free but I wouldn't want to spend money in this area when i feel we have others areas we need to improve more.
LB - Ait-Nouri, Bueno
Happy with both of these options and Doc and Toti can cover if we have any lack of depth. Ait-Nouri could be sold if a decent bid comes in but that amount should cover a new LB and 2 other signings which shouldn't be an issue. Ait-Nouri is key to the team and way we play though so it would need to be a substantial offer.
RB - Semedo, Doherty, Bolla, Lembikisa, Hoever
Semedo and Doherty are good options, not sure how I would feel if Semedo got injured and we were dependent on Doherty for the whole season. Hoever has done alright at Stoke and i would be happy to sell now as I don't think his mentality or ability have a place in our squad right now. Bolla has been doing well in Switzerland but at 24 and playing a back up role for us, I think it would be good to cash in on him now albeit we wont get a huge sum for him. Lembikisa has is obviously one for the future and I think loaning him out for another year would help his development and would provide a good replacement for Doherty for 2025/26 season. I would personally do a 6 month loan so we can assess in January whether we need him and if not then we can extend the loan to the end of the season.
CB - Kilman, Bueno, Dawson, Toti, Mosquera, Hubner
Happy with all the main options. Bueno hasnt been great but I think Mosquera will step into the role of back up to the starting 3. Hubner needs to be shipped off now I think. He has barely played in Japan and just seems like the club is holding onto him out of hope more than expectation. Pond is probably the next one on the ranks in the youth team, so if we have a couple of injuries, he can step onto the bench.
CM - Lemina, Gomes, Doyle, Traore, Bellegarde, Hodge, Cundle
I am happy with our options in this area. Bellegarde is in there as I really don't know his best position. He just seems to play where he can get game time. Hodge has dropped out of the team at QPR, I don't know if he will make it to our squad. I would keep him around until pre season and give a full assessment there and decide whether he needs 1 more loan to prove his worth or to sell now. Cundle I think has found his level in the championship and we need to sell now. 4/5 midfielders is good for our 2 midfield system.
Wingers - Neto, Cunha, Sarabia, Enso, Chirewa, Podence, Campbell, Chiquinho, Guedes, Little Lemina
For an area we have had a lack of depth this season, that is a lot of wingers. Guedes and Podence both need to be sold, I think we know that. Neto obviously should stay but if an offer comes in for him then he is the one saleable asset that I wouldn't mind selling. His injuries are too regular for us with the level of club we are at the moment and the money we could get from him would really him strengthen the squad. If we don't sell him then that's great but he either has a brilliant season and we get an offer that we cant refuse next summer or he gets injured again and the cycle continues. Sarabia is really good and has earned more playing time as the season has gone on. I believe he is on a decent amount of money but his experience and technically ability is a must amongst a our forward line. Cunha is obviously a keep and can also be a striker. Enso, Lemina and Chirewa are young and are not reliable yet so we could consider a loan move for them. Might be worth keeping Lemina in the squad and playing for the U21 and occasionally making the bench. The reason for this is that i assume there was a human element to the signing (as well as football ability) given the death of his father and bringing the brothers together and if that was the case i wouldn't want to loan him out yet. This is assuming he stays permanently. Campbell has been playing in League 1 and is 21 now and I think the potential of other younger players is better so its time to part company. Chiquinho needs to come back and be in our squad. He offers a good replacement winger and at a push can cover right back. This essentially leaves us with 4 wingers. This is where we need to go out and get one or 2 players in. Maybe one of those is a loan move for the season so that we aren't stuck with extra players when hopefully Enso comes back and can play that role. Bellegarde can also play out wide if needed.
Striker - Hwang, Fraser, Silva, Sasa
Hwang is obviously a keep. Fraser we were trying to loan out so I think we need to do that to get him some game time. Silva has no interest in playing for us and needs to go. Sasa is injured and will be throughout the window so we will end up keeping him although he probably wont be fit until November. Given this just leaves Hwang fit and available, we need to add depth here. Cunha can slot in here when Hwang is out but really we need an out an out striker option for the bench that can also start. They will need to be happy with a smaller role in the team so an older or younger player or both.
Sell - Hoever, Bolla, Hubner, Cundle, Podence, Guedes, Campbell, Silva
Loan out - Lembikisa, Hodge, Enso , Chirewa, Fraser
Buy/Loan in - Winger x1/2, Striker x2