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2024.05.22 05:24 DonutOfTruth22 How long should MIL visit?

Please help us settle the question of how long is a reasonable visit length for my mother-in-law.
Background, my husband (50M) and I (44F) have different opinions on how long his mother should visit. He would like much longer visits than I do. We both work from home, have two kids (9M and 5F) and live in a 1600 square foot condo in a HCOL area. One child has autism and requires more resources and attention.
We have made around the same amount of total money in our lifetimes (based on Social Security estimates) but I started earning at a much later stage in life than him as I am an M.D. (annual salary earnings ~$400k). My husband has found it difficult to save money due to his family constantly asking for money, him giving it to them, and poor financial habits learned from his family. I have saved around $2 million net worth and paid for 97% of all housing costs (I paid off condo). I am the only one saving for my kids to go to college or paying for family vacations. Filing tax returns is such a nightmare for us with my husband regularly underpaying by $10K to $20K per year and my picking up the slack, that we’ve decided we need to do married filed separately from now on despite the tax hit.
MIL is difficult for me to get along with. She is 77 years old, does not leave the house much, can barely drive, has no money, is extremely religious and tries to convert everyone she sees to her religion, and is very conservative (think does not believe in climate change, anti-vaxxer) and vocal about it. Although she knows we do not have much space in our little condo, she showed up last year and declared she was going to stay for 10 months. This was against my will where I think 2 weeks is pushing the limits for a visit. She left after a month to help an ailing family member getting lung cancer from a lifetime of smoking, but the damage was done with my feelings being trampled upon and rights violated.
My husband has a sister who barely works and claims to have an autoimmune disease that laboratory tests sometimes validate and sometimes do not (false positive exist). She recently got an inheritance from her father (different father from my husband, MIL had 3 husbands) which puts her net worth much higher (estimate $500K?) than my husband’s net worth of $0. My SIL has a husband who makes decent money and a son who she is trying to send to private school at $25K per year. They travel internationally often and value vacation time. She contributes little to nothing to my MIL’s living expenses and my MIL never visits her more than 4 days at a time. They live in a similar sized condo.
After the disastrous visit from my MIL, my husband and I decide to buy a house in the country to have more space for our kids on the weekends/vacations. Of course, I am the only one who has money to put down for a downpayment. I put down $250K, and he put down nothing. The agreement was my MIL cannot visit longer than 2 weeks at a time.
Now MIL wants to visit our house in the country and wants to stay “longer”. I think we made a rule and nothing has changed that makes me think the rule should change. My husband has not contributed more financially. SIL is not stepping up to help. MIL is just as difficult.
I feel like I am being financially taken advantage of as I float our household so my husband can funnel all of his money to support his mom and others in his family who don’t like to work (there is a BIL that hasn’t worked for a year, and others). All the while, SIL gets off scot free, hoarding her money and going on vacations while not helping her mom out financially or spending time with her.
So given all this, how long is a reasonable visit length for MIL?
tldr: MIL wants to visit longer than I feel comfortable, I am financially responsible for almost everything while husband funnels his money to his mother and other relatives get off scott free with limited visits
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2024.05.22 05:06 Londoncashmeans 27f marrying 28m in three months with a one year old son together but terrified because of our relationship and past. Need advice. Super long vent. Only from people that read it ( I know it’s long so it’s ok)

Hi! This is going to be a long one/rant and story because I really don’t know who to talk to about this in real life because I’m not in therapy and I’m so embarrassed to be feeling this way knowing I made all the choices to be here and people are already flying in from out of state to come to our wedding. Also I’m diagnosed adhd incase any of yall are wondering what’s wrong with me once I tell you all the decisions I made to get here. I am getting married in three months and have a son who is 15 months old. My now fiance 28m and I 27f met whenever we were thirteen years old in middle school and started a tumultuous up and down / on and off again relationship. We were together all the way up until junior year in high school and we broke up. I come from a broken home and he does not. Looking back I realize how much of me staying with him and trying to keep his attention stemmed from my abandonment issues that I must have had from my own parents. After we broke up he joined a gang in my local hometown and I was still in love with him so I decided to still be involved with him even though I was not in a relationship with him. I ended up losing my virginity to him while we were not together just because I wanted to be with him and we said we were friends with benefits but really I was just in love with him and thought by doing that maybe he would want to be with me again but he didn’t and continued to sleep with other girls and do drugs. I also started doing drugs like Xanax and smoking to fit in with him and be cool. I ended up getting a horrible tattoo because one of the other girls he was also seeing had a bunch of tattoos. I dropped out of my high school college courses and ended up going to jail for marijuana in high school and got kicked out of cheer and softball. I ended up on probation and having to be drug tested for a year. Within that year after being heart broken and realizing nothing I did would make him change into who he was before he got involved in our local gang or make him want to be with me… I ended up enrolling in college and getting accepted to a university where I would move about two hours away from our home town to live on campus and study to be a nurse. While on probation, so I couldn’t really party or anything in college which was good (even though I was never really addicted to anything and it wouldn’t be that hard for me) I wanted to save money for a car so I ended up getting a job at the hooters next to my college and was in college full time and working at hooters. My sister happened to go to that same college before I did and live in that town with her ex bf and they would give me rides to and from work back to campus. Low and behold after about two semesters of me being in college and finally feeling like I was moving on from him, he came back messaging me and telling me he missed me and wanted to be with me again. I was stupid and so excited that I agreed and asked him to come see me at college where he would stay for the weekend and we would have an amazing time. I felt so good about myself doing what I was doing and being able to show my growth. Despite all that he was still able to convince me to leave school and come back to be with him and live with him and go to the college near our hometown and work at the hooters near our hometown. I had already felt like I didn’t want to be a nurse at the time because my sister who was a nurse told me you could never leave the state as a nurse if you get your license there (which she didn’t know at the time that you could) and I knew I didn’t want to stay where I was from and wanted to eventually travel. So I decided to leave and move back with him in his bedroom at his parents house where I would work at the hooters close to our home town and never enroll in the college. He would eventually break up with me while I was at work one day even though I was living with him and since I didn’t have a car he continued to take me back in forth from work and I continued to live with him and continued to be in love with him while he committed to the fact that he didn’t want to be in a relationship but wanted to marry me one day and just wasn’t ready for anything right now and still wanted to have sex with me which I did. From working at hooters I had auditioned for the calendar and ended up being really liked by the photographer and started doing some modeling from that which was super exciting for me because I always was interested in that and the pictures we took would blow up and I started getting well known in my area for modeling even though they were just pictures and I wasn’t making any money off of it. Eventually a guy came into hooters telling me about working as an exotic dancer and how much they could make and I still needed a car really badly and was desperate to get out of my ex’s (now fiance) house. So I told him I would be waitressing and that I heard the waitresses make good money there and asked him to give me a ride there one day and so he started giving me a ride everyday. The money was so good to me and the most money I had ever seen. I ended up staying in a hotel closer to the club I worked at and sometimes he would come stay with me and I would just uber to work. Eventually I had gotten a car which I was so happy about. A couple of weeks after I got a car I ended up getting sucked into human trafficking with a friend where I would live in a house with multiple girls for 6 months and go to work at the club every day of the week except Saturday and Sundays. I wasn’t doing anything extra just dancing but the money was going to some random guy. It’s crazy I know. I was stupid and young and my family were not concerned for me at all or involved in my life. unfortunately my friend is just now leaving that situation. I got out without anything no car or nothing and had nowhere to go so back to my exes I went where I decided I was going to buy a cash car again and I worked everyday like I was used to saved money and got a car. Moved to my sisters and stayed with her for a little where i decided I didn’t want to dance anymore and I got a job as a bottle service girl and then waitressing at another waitress. I continued modeling because it made me happy and I never told anyone the truth about the deep things that were happening in my life except for my now fiance. So nobody had no idea about me dancing or the human trafficking or anything. Everyone just knew I modeled. I ended up getting an apartment with some friends and One day I got the urge to go to California randomly and at my waitressing job I was handed $800 and I took it as a sign and booked a flight the next day. Where I went by myself my first time ever on a flight with no plans at all. The day I got there I got asked to be in a commercial two days later. My roommate and her friends flew out there to get me and she ended up being able to be in the commercial with me which ended up on tbs but I had to go back home to my apartment and responsibilities and couldn’t leave my roommate stranded. Even though months later we would end up getting in an argument and I’d move out and move back with my ex (now fiance) where I would continue to work and model (for free) and went back to the club to dance and then my sister ended up going to California for a travel nursing assignment and her and her bf broke up and she asked me to move with her. I had nothing else here, my ex was still saying he didn’t want to be in a relationship, he was consistently sleeping with other girls while we lived together and expected relationship things from me. I was paying for everything for him. I paid for him while he was in school for audio engineer, his gas, lunch, school clothes, shopping, I helped him open his own studio and bought his equipment and Mac for it, even though his parents were very involved in his life. I got all his family bday gifts and Christmas gifts every year. He was honestly just using me but I was so in love and blind. He encouraged me to go to California too so I had nothing else there for me, if he had told me to stay and he wanted to be with me I would’ve. I flew out on my 21st birthday and met my sister and Vegas where we would have such a great time and my ex spent that day hanging out with a girl that tried to fight me and didn’t even tell me happy birthday, I was crying in the bathroom in Vegas until my sister shook me and told me to get it together we’re in Vegas. I was so heart broken to be leaving him but he didn’t care. I got to LA and I instantly started modeling on day one I booked a photo shoot where I met a guy that reminded me of my ex (I know) but we instantly clicked and he was 7 years older than me. We ended up talking for a little bit and pursuing something even though I wasn’t ready emotionally but he didn’t really care and I was kind of star struck a little because he was a music producer for a very famous musician and he was very persistent but that’s another story. I ended up booking a music video as a main girl for my ex’s (now fiance) favorite artist. When it came out it was crazy because I felt like the universe and God was just blessing me for leaving that situation and I knew he would see it because he was so obsessed with that artist and it shook up the whole small town I was from. After that I booked a lot of cool jobs like Sephora and worked with a lot of companies, and did some music videos for other super famous artists, and walked in fashion shows and modeled for clothing brands etc. I was working all the time as an extra to pay my bills and I was meeting cool people. I was always getting invited to celebrities parties and just having such a fun time. I decided to start getting into acting instead and started going to acting school where a lot of well known celebrities also went to and I started having meetings with very popular directors and I was being mentored by famous directors and another person that created an tv entertainment channel that I won’t say here also mentored me a lot and got me a lot of meetings with these people and would go to dinners and stuff etc with a list celebrities. I truly was living the life. And coming from where I can it was almost a dream. I had gotten in a relationship my first year there with that other guy I mentioned who ended up being super possessive of me but he treated me like a queen in the sense of paying for everything, giving me a safe space to tell my feelings, open up, the sex was amazing, he would take me on trips, took me out of the country for the first time. We ended up not working out due to lifestyle differences and just being at two different places and wanting different things. He wanted to move out of the country and have a farm and I wasn’t ready to do that as I wanted to focus on my career. (But I would die to move out of the country on a farm now ironically and he is doing just that now like he said he would haha) anyway, I ended up having my own studio apartment by myself that I loved so much and was so proud of. My sister had moved to Montana and it took a lot for me to get my apartment like staying in a house with other girls for a little to sleeping in my car and at a spa for a couple days. When I would fly home or drive home to see my family I would always see my ex, everytime. We kept a friendship and sometimes I would still help him out if needed, he was interning at a church through his school for audio engineering and recording people at his studio in our hometown. By this time I was going to New York and Miami also sometimes and doing work there. I wasn’t as stressed about bills anymore. I was seeing guys every now and then but not at all interested in a relationship, my heart was still healing from the past and both my exes but mainly my first (now fiance). I was super focused on my career and optimistic, I was used to the grind and in no way ever thinking of quitting. It just wasn’t an option because I knew I would make it wherever that would be because to me that is all I had for me and all I ever knew I wanted and the only thing that saved me. Skip to around October 2019 I had found out about a girl my ex was seeing and it crushed me. He was doing with her just like he was with me though. Just “friends with benefits” I was living in my apartment in LA still and my uncle that helped raise me was getting really sick back home and put on hospice so I decided to take a trip back to see him. I would go to restaurants in my state and near my home town and people would ask to take pictures with me, and at the little ceasars drive through someone asked if I was me and stuff it was crazy because I hadn’t been home in awhile and I felt like what I was doing was finally paying off and people were recognizing me. It was surreal. I ended up going to see my ex. I had such a fear of losing him to this other girl for some reason. I was so scared he would get her pregnant or get in a serious relationship since I was gone so far away and I would never be with him, I would end up sleeping with him again and the girl found out and drove by his house mad and cussing me out and throwing stuff at me. We ended up getting in a fight which is so embarrassing and beneath me. I ended up crying to him that I wanted to be with him and don’t know why he never wanted to be with me which at this time he honestly was not even in my playing field anymore. He told me if I wanted to be with him I had to move back to my hometown.. my heart dropped to my stomach and I knew it wasn’t what I was supposed to do but I said okay… all because this is what I had wanted all those years. I decided to stay where the next two years all I would think about everyday was I was making the wrong decision and needed to go back to my life. My hometown had nothing for me.. COVID hit a couple months after me being there and we were terrified. We ended up getting everything out of my apartment and moving into a house around the corner from his parents. I had to tell him how I liked to communicate now without yelling and stuff which I learned from the boyfriend I had in LA and that I wasn’t going to put up with that disrespect but he never listened. Eventually everything went back to normal. I ended up going back to the club again dancing because I didn’t want to go backward and model here. He never wanted me to go back to LA even for a little bit even though that’s where my career and heart was so I had no idea what to do with my life. I started waitressing as well and getting back on my adhd meds. People started pressuring us to get pregnant and we tried for a year and 6 months. The month I found out I was pregnant before I knew, I quit my job and decided I was going to move back and get my life back. Two days later I found out I was pregnant…. Finally after trying for over a year. Our relationship was toxic just like the past he always yelled, I could never talk to him about my feelings without him saying I was trying to fight, he spit in my face once, threatened me, put his hands on me, he would tell me he was going to take my baby away from me as soon as I had it. I started asking him about getting married while I was pregnant and the proposal wasn’t even that. He got mad at me for asking one day and walked in the room and handed me the ring. It didn’t fit because I was pregnant & it was $27 (not that that matters but the proposal sucked).. he drained both my bank accounts and they closed it, charged my credit card up and put me in debt, he has not let me do anything I want to do like school or anything. He is so bad with money. He has an action figure addiction and at one point was spending 3k on action figures every month and turned one of the rooms in our house into a collection room so I had to take everything out of my closet and put my sons crib in there for the first year of his life. we have good times and I feel comfortable with him. He knows everything about me but he doesn’t respect me and sometimes I feel like he is intimidated by me. The sex isn’t good at all we always just ask “do you want to have sex” he never gives oral or foreplay, I never get pleasure. He’s an amazing dad though and loves his son. We have the most sweet and beautiful little boy now who I love so much and he loves him also. He’s very attentive to his son. But I still feel unheard. I can’t talk about my feelings. If I do it doesn’t matter, it doesn’t change anything. He is so defensive and we never communicate for a solution it’s always just pointing fingers. I have started yelling again because I’m so used to it now and I hate it because I grew up like that and I finally grew out of it until I got back with him and recently started again and now he throws it in my face and knows I begged him not to do it forever but he never stopped and now I am too. I’ve asked him to take me to the movies and he hasn’t still. I just ask for more romance and stuff but it just feels like I have a roommate. I have nothing now. I had my car and we traded it in for a new car that he wanted. I always dreamed of the next car I’d get once I paid it off but he got it & it’s in his name now so I paid it off for nothing. I’m driving around his dream car. I’ve been planning our wedding since I birthed our son and everything is going good. Money is tight. He works at the church now full time and makes about 45k a year or so, my son has been waiting to start daycare for awhile so I have been home with him. I’ve tried starting jobs multiple times but he is against it unless it’s super fast money like going to the club which I am so repulsed by and absolutely hate it now. I tried going back to college but my old college won’t release my transcripts for fasfa because I owe them money. I started cosmetology school a few months ago which he was all for but two months in freaked out and him and his mom guilt tripped me that we can’t handle this right now and he was having a hard time doing the night time routine for the baby while I was at school so I had to leave and now owe that’s school for my kit unless I enroll again in 128 days. I also miss modeling so much and sometimes think I can start again but it’s been five years. My body is so different too after a baby. Everything I want is a no go. Especially moving out of our hometown. He says he wants to but I don’t think he does. We are constantly at his moms and dads and they tell us all the time we aren’t moving anywhere which is really hard for me as this place is super toxic for my soul. Anytime I get money he spends it. Anytime I save money he spends it. Even if it does go towards our bills. His action figure habit is almost nonexistent now and he has grown a lot in the past few months from that since I demanded my son have his own bedroom after his first bday and all his figures are in boxes now and told him he could turn the shed into his man cave. He says we can’t save because we have nothing to save after bills but I believe in saving anything even $5 a paycheck. It’s doable. I grew up poor so this is nothing to me but after living the lifestyle I lived in LA and going out with guys that respected me and cherished me it’s hard. I know nobody is perfect but we are about to get married and I’m scared… I have nothing though anymore. I’ve threatened to leave a couple times and he says he will take me to court and take my baby. I’m scared he might. I don’t want my son to be angry like him or not respect women how he does. In public he’s a saint. He also has a very supportive family that it’s almost toxic. They all blame me for his anger issues and say I make him that way. But he’s been punching walls since I met him in 8th grade. I know it’s not because of me. But I have nobody else and nowhere else to go. No money. No car. I’m at the bottom again where I was before. Only difference is now I have a son. And we are getting married in three months and I can’t call it off. I am older now and looking back on my life I realize he maybe truly never loved me and I was just so desperate for love. I got myself here nobody else. I accepted everything, even when my gut told me not to. ( he is not just horrible, he’s a great person just with some bad qualities like everyone but I’m tired of feeling stuck with someone that never truly wanted me and doesn’t care to grow in some ways or show me )
Please help.. what do I do?
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2024.05.22 04:51 Londoncashmeans Getting married in three months to the guy that never took me seriously… cold feet

Hi! This is going to be a long one/rant and story because I really don’t know who to talk to about this in real life because I’m not in therapy and I’m so embarrassed to be feeling this way knowing I made all the choices to be here and people are already flying in from out of state to come to our wedding. Also I’m diagnosed adhd incase any of yall are wondering what’s wrong with me once I tell you all the decisions I made to get here. I am getting married in three months and have a son who is 15 months old. My now fiance 28m and I 27f met whenever we were thirteen years old in middle school and started a tumultuous up and down / on and off again relationship. We were together all the way up until junior year in high school and we broke up. I come from a broken home and he does not. Looking back I realize how much of me staying with him and trying to keep his attention stemmed from my abandonment issues that I must have had from my own parents. After we broke up he joined a gang in my local hometown and I was still in love with him so I decided to still be involved with him even though I was not in a relationship with him. I ended up losing my virginity to him while we were not together just because I wanted to be with him and we said we were friends with benefits but really I was just in love with him and thought by doing that maybe he would want to be with me again but he didn’t and continued to sleep with other girls and do drugs. I also started doing drugs like Xanax and smoking to fit in with him and be cool. I ended up getting a horrible tattoo because one of the other girls he was also seeing had a bunch of tattoos. I dropped out of my high school college courses and ended up going to jail for marijuana in high school and got kicked out of cheer and softball. I ended up on probation and having to be drug tested for a year. Within that year after being heart broken and realizing nothing I did would make him change into who he was before he got involved in our local gang or make him want to be with me… I ended up enrolling in college and getting accepted to a university where I would move about two hours away from our home town to live on campus and study to be a nurse. While on probation, so I couldn’t really party or anything in college which was good (even though I was never really addicted to anything and it wouldn’t be that hard for me) I wanted to save money for a car so I ended up getting a job at the hooters next to my college and was in college full time and working at hooters. My sister happened to go to that same college before I did and live in that town with her ex bf and they would give me rides to and from work back to campus. Low and behold after about two semesters of me being in college and finally feeling like I was moving on from him, he came back messaging me and telling me he missed me and wanted to be with me again. I was stupid and so excited that I agreed and asked him to come see me at college where he would stay for the weekend and we would have an amazing time. I felt so good about myself doing what I was doing and being able to show my growth. Despite all that he was still able to convince me to leave school and come back to be with him and live with him and go to the college near our hometown and work at the hooters near our hometown. I had already felt like I didn’t want to be a nurse at the time because my sister who was a nurse told me you could never leave the state as a nurse if you get your license there (which she didn’t know at the time that you could) and I knew I didn’t want to stay where I was from and wanted to eventually travel. So I decided to leave and move back with him in his bedroom at his parents house where I would work at the hooters close to our home town and never enroll in the college. He would eventually break up with me while I was at work one day even though I was living with him and since I didn’t have a car he continued to take me back in forth from work and I continued to live with him and continued to be in love with him while he committed to the fact that he didn’t want to be in a relationship but wanted to marry me one day and just wasn’t ready for anything right now and still wanted to have sex with me which I did. From working at hooters I had auditioned for the calendar and ended up being really liked by the photographer and started doing some modeling from that which was super exciting for me because I always was interested in that and the pictures we took would blow up and I started getting well known in my area for modeling even though they were just pictures and I wasn’t making any money off of it. Eventually a guy came into hooters telling me about working as an exotic dancer and how much they could make and I still needed a car really badly and was desperate to get out of my ex’s (now fiance) house. So I told him I would be waitressing and that I heard the waitresses make good money there and asked him to give me a ride there one day and so he started giving me a ride everyday. The money was so good to me and the most money I had ever seen. I ended up staying in a hotel closer to the club I worked at and sometimes he would come stay with me and I would just uber to work. Eventually I had gotten a car which I was so happy about. A couple of weeks after I got a car I ended up getting sucked into human trafficking with a friend where I would live in a house with multiple girls for 6 months and go to work at the club every day of the week except Saturday and Sundays. I wasn’t doing anything extra just dancing but the money was going to some random guy. It’s crazy I know. I was stupid and young and my family were not concerned for me at all or involved in my life. unfortunately my friend is just now leaving that situation. I got out without anything no car or nothing and had nowhere to go so back to my exes I went where I decided I was going to buy a cash car again and I worked everyday like I was used to saved money and got a car. Moved to my sisters and stayed with her for a little where i decided I didn’t want to dance anymore and I got a job as a bottle service girl and then waitressing at another waitress. I continued modeling because it made me happy and I never told anyone the truth about the deep things that were happening in my life except for my now fiance. So nobody had no idea about me dancing or the human trafficking or anything. Everyone just knew I modeled. I ended up getting an apartment with some friends and One day I got the urge to go to California randomly and at my waitressing job I was handed $800 and I took it as a sign and booked a flight the next day. Where I went by myself my first time ever on a flight with no plans at all. The day I got there I got asked to be in a commercial two days later. My roommate and her friends flew out there to get me and she ended up being able to be in the commercial with me which ended up on tbs but I had to go back home to my apartment and responsibilities and couldn’t leave my roommate stranded. Even though months later we would end up getting in an argument and I’d move out and move back with my ex (now fiance) where I would continue to work and model (for free) and went back to the club to dance and then my sister ended up going to California for a travel nursing assignment and her and her bf broke up and she asked me to move with her. I had nothing else here, my ex was still saying he didn’t want to be in a relationship, he was consistently sleeping with other girls while we lived together and expected relationship things from me. I was paying for everything for him. I paid for him while he was in school for audio engineer, his gas, lunch, school clothes, shopping, I helped him open his own studio and bought his equipment and Mac for it, even though his parents were very involved in his life. I got all his family bday gifts and Christmas gifts every year. He was honestly just using me but I was so in love and blind. He encouraged me to go to California too so I had nothing else there for me, if he had told me to stay and he wanted to be with me I would’ve. I flew out on my 21st birthday and met my sister and Vegas where we would have such a great time and my ex spent that day hanging out with a girl that tried to fight me and didn’t even tell me happy birthday, I was crying in the bathroom in Vegas until my sister shook me and told me to get it together we’re in Vegas. I was so heart broken to be leaving him but he didn’t care. I got to LA and I instantly started modeling on day one I booked a photo shoot where I met a guy that reminded me of my ex (I know) but we instantly clicked and he was 7 years older than me. We ended up talking for a little bit and pursuing something even though I wasn’t ready emotionally but he didn’t really care and I was kind of star struck a little because he was a music producer for a very famous musician and he was very persistent but that’s another story. I ended up booking a music video as a main girl for my ex’s (now fiance) favorite artist. When it came out it was crazy because I felt like the universe and God was just blessing me for leaving that situation and I knew he would see it because he was so obsessed with that artist and it shook up the whole small town I was from. After that I booked a lot of cool jobs like Sephora and worked with a lot of companies, and did some music videos for other super famous artists, and walked in fashion shows and modeled for clothing brands etc. I was working all the time as an extra to pay my bills and I was meeting cool people. I was always getting invited to celebrities parties and just having such a fun time. I decided to start getting into acting instead and started going to acting school where a lot of well known celebrities also went to and I started having meetings with very popular directors and I was being mentored by famous directors and another person that created an tv entertainment channel that I won’t say here also mentored me a lot and got me a lot of meetings with these people and would go to dinners and stuff etc with a list celebrities. I truly was living the life. And coming from where I can it was almost a dream. I had gotten in a relationship my first year there with that other guy I mentioned who ended up being super possessive of me but he treated me like a queen in the sense of paying for everything, giving me a safe space to tell my feelings, open up, the sex was amazing, he would take me on trips, took me out of the country for the first time. We ended up not working out due to lifestyle differences and just being at two different places and wanting different things. He wanted to move out of the country and have a farm and I wasn’t ready to do that as I wanted to focus on my career. (But I would die to move out of the country on a farm now ironically and he is doing just that now like he said he would haha) anyway, I ended up having my own studio apartment by myself that I loved so much and was so proud of. My sister had moved to Montana and it took a lot for me to get my apartment like staying in a house with other girls for a little to sleeping in my car and at a spa for a couple days. When I would fly home or drive home to see my family I would always see my ex, everytime. We kept a friendship and sometimes I would still help him out if needed, he was interning at a church through his school for audio engineering and recording people at his studio in our hometown. By this time I was going to New York and Miami also sometimes and doing work there. I wasn’t as stressed about bills anymore. I was seeing guys every now and then but not at all interested in a relationship, my heart was still healing from the past and both my exes but mainly my first (now fiance). I was super focused on my career and optimistic, I was used to the grind and in no way ever thinking of quitting. It just wasn’t an option because I knew I would make it wherever that would be because to me that is all I had for me and all I ever knew I wanted and the only thing that saved me. Skip to around October 2019 I had found out about a girl my ex was seeing and it crushed me. He was doing with her just like he was with me though. Just “friends with benefits” I was living in my apartment in LA still and my uncle that helped raise me was getting really sick back home and put on hospice so I decided to take a trip back to see him. I would go to restaurants in my state and near my home town and people would ask to take pictures with me, and at the little ceasars drive through someone asked if I was me and stuff it was crazy because I hadn’t been home in awhile and I felt like what I was doing was finally paying off and people were recognizing me. It was surreal. I ended up going to see my ex. I had such a fear of losing him to this other girl for some reason. I was so scared he would get her pregnant or get in a serious relationship since I was gone so far away and I would never be with him, I would end up sleeping with him again and the girl found out and drove by his house mad and cussing me out and throwing stuff at me. We ended up getting in a fight which is so embarrassing and beneath me. I ended up crying to him that I wanted to be with him and don’t know why he never wanted to be with me which at this time he honestly was not even in my playing field anymore. He told me if I wanted to be with him I had to move back to my hometown.. my heart dropped to my stomach and I knew it wasn’t what I was supposed to do but I said okay… all because this is what I had wanted all those years. I decided to stay where the next two years all I would think about everyday was I was making the wrong decision and needed to go back to my life. My hometown had nothing for me.. COVID hit a couple months after me being there and we were terrified. We ended up getting everything out of my apartment and moving into a house around the corner from his parents. I had to tell him how I liked to communicate now without yelling and stuff which I learned from the boyfriend I had in LA and that I wasn’t going to put up with that disrespect but he never listened. Eventually everything went back to normal. I ended up going back to the club again dancing because I didn’t want to go backward and model here. He never wanted me to go back to LA even for a little bit even though that’s where my career and heart was so I had no idea what to do with my life. I started waitressing as well and getting back on my adhd meds. People started pressuring us to get pregnant and we tried for a year and 6 months. The month I found out I was pregnant before I knew, I quit my job and decided I was going to move back and get my life back. Two days later I found out I was pregnant…. Finally after trying for over a year. Our relationship was toxic just like the past he always yelled, I could never talk to him about my feelings without him saying I was trying to fight, he spit in my face once, threatened me, put his hands on me, he would tell me he was going to take my baby away from me as soon as I had it. I started asking him about getting married while I was pregnant and the proposal wasn’t even that. He got mad at me for asking one day and walked in the room and handed me the ring. It didn’t fit because I was pregnant & it was $27 (not that that matters but the proposal sucked).. he drained both my bank accounts and they closed it, charged my credit card up and put me in debt, he has not let me do anything I want to do like school or anything. He is so bad with money. He has an action figure addiction and at one point was spending 3k on action figures every month and turned one of the rooms in our house into a collection room so I had to take everything out of my closet and put my sons crib in there for the first year of his life. we have good times and I feel comfortable with him. He knows everything about me but he doesn’t respect me and sometimes I feel like he is intimidated by me. The sex isn’t good at all we always just ask “do you want to have sex” he never gives oral or foreplay, I never get pleasure. He’s an amazing dad though and loves his son. We have the most sweet and beautiful little boy now who I love so much and he loves him also. He’s very attentive to his son. But I still feel unheard. I can’t talk about my feelings. If I do it doesn’t matter, it doesn’t change anything. He is so defensive and we never communicate for a solution it’s always just pointing fingers. I have started yelling again because I’m so used to it now and I hate it because I grew up like that and I finally grew out of it until I got back with him and recently started again and now he throws it in my face and knows I begged him not to do it forever but he never stopped and now I am too. I’ve asked him to take me to the movies and he hasn’t still. I just ask for more romance and stuff but it just feels like I have a roommate. I have nothing now. I had my car and we traded it in for a new car that he wanted. I always dreamed of the next car I’d get once I paid it off but he got it & it’s in his name now so I paid it off for nothing. I’m driving around his dream car. I’ve been planning our wedding since I birthed our son and everything is going good. Money is tight. He works at the church now full time and makes about 45k a year or so, my son has been waiting to start daycare for awhile so I have been home with him. I’ve tried starting jobs multiple times but he is against it unless it’s super fast money like going to the club which I am so repulsed by and absolutely hate it now. I tried going back to college but my old college won’t release my transcripts for fasfa because I owe them money. I started cosmetology school a few months ago which he was all for but two months in freaked out and him and his mom guilt tripped me that we can’t handle this right now and he was having a hard time doing the night time routine for the baby while I was at school so I had to leave and now owe that’s school for my kit unless I enroll again in 128 days. I also miss modeling so much and sometimes think I can start again but it’s been five years. My body is so different too after a baby. Everything I want is a no go. Especially moving out of our hometown. He says he wants to but I don’t think he does. We are constantly at his moms and dads and they tell us all the time we aren’t moving anywhere which is really hard for me as this place is super toxic for my soul. Anytime I get money he spends it. Anytime I save money he spends it. Even if it does go towards our bills. His action figure habit is almost nonexistent now and he has grown a lot in the past few months from that since I demanded my son have his own bedroom after his first bday and all his figures are in boxes now and told him he could turn the shed into his man cave. He says we can’t save because we have nothing to save after bills but I believe in saving anything even $5 a paycheck. It’s doable. I grew up poor so this is nothing to me but after living the lifestyle I lived in LA and going out with guys that respected me and cherished me it’s hard. I know nobody is perfect but we are about to get married and I’m scared… I have nothing though anymore. I’ve threatened to leave a couple times and he says he will take me to court and take my baby. I’m scared he might. I don’t want my son to be angry like him or not respect women how he does. In public he’s a saint. He also has a very supportive family that it’s almost toxic. They all blame me for his anger issues and say I make him that way. But he’s been punching walls since I met him in 8th grade. I know it’s not because of me. But I have nobody else and nowhere else to go. No money. No car. I’m at the bottom again where I was before. Only difference is now I have a son. And we are getting married in three months and I can’t call it off. I am older now and looking back on my life I realize he maybe truly never loved me and I was just so desperate for love. I got myself here nobody else. I accepted everything, even when my gut told me not to. ( he is not just horrible, he’s a great person just with some bad qualities like everyone but I’m tired of feeling stuck with someone that never truly wanted me and doesn’t care to grow in some ways or show me )
Please help.. what do I do?
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2024.05.22 04:28 Londoncashmeans 27F Getting married to 28M in 3 months with a one year old son together, cold feet.. what do I do?

Hi! This is going to be a long one/rant and story because I really don’t know who to talk to about this in real life because I’m not in therapy and I’m so embarrassed to be feeling this way knowing I made all the choices to be here and people are already flying in from out of state to come to our wedding. Also I’m diagnosed adhd incase any of yall are wondering what’s wrong with me once I tell you all the decisions I made to get here. I am getting married in three months and have a son who is 15 months old. My now fiance 28m and I 27f met whenever we were thirteen years old in middle school and started a tumultuous up and down / on and off again relationship. We were together all the way up until junior year in high school and we broke up. I come from a broken home and he does not. Looking back I realize how much of me staying with him and trying to keep his attention stemmed from my abandonment issues that I must have had from my own parents. After we broke up he joined a gang in my local hometown and I was still in love with him so I decided to still be involved with him even though I was not in a relationship with him. I ended up losing my virginity to him while we were not together just because I wanted to be with him and we said we were friends with benefits but really I was just in love with him and thought by doing that maybe he would want to be with me again but he didn’t and continued to sleep with other girls and do drugs. I also started doing drugs like Xanax and smoking to fit in with him and be cool. I ended up getting a horrible tattoo because one of the other girls he was also seeing had a bunch of tattoos. I dropped out of my high school college courses and ended up going to jail for marijuana in high school and got kicked out of cheer and softball. I ended up on probation and having to be drug tested for a year. Within that year after being heart broken and realizing nothing I did would make him change into who he was before he got involved in our local gang or make him want to be with me… I ended up enrolling in college and getting accepted to a university where I would move about two hours away from our home town to live on campus and study to be a nurse. While on probation, so I couldn’t really party or anything in college which was good (even though I was never really addicted to anything and it wouldn’t be that hard for me) I wanted to save money for a car so I ended up getting a job at the hooters next to my college and was in college full time and working at hooters. My sister happened to go to that same college before I did and live in that town with her ex bf and they would give me rides to and from work back to campus. Low and behold after about two semesters of me being in college and finally feeling like I was moving on from him, he came back messaging me and telling me he missed me and wanted to be with me again. I was stupid and so excited that I agreed and asked him to come see me at college where he would stay for the weekend and we would have an amazing time. I felt so good about myself doing what I was doing and being able to show my growth. Despite all that he was still able to convince me to leave school and come back to be with him and live with him and go to the college near our hometown and work at the hooters near our hometown. I had already felt like I didn’t want to be a nurse at the time because my sister who was a nurse told me you could never leave the state as a nurse if you get your license there (which she didn’t know at the time that you could) and I knew I didn’t want to stay where I was from and wanted to eventually travel. So I decided to leave and move back with him in his bedroom at his parents house where I would work at the hooters close to our home town and never enroll in the college. He would eventually break up with me while I was at work one day even though I was living with him and since I didn’t have a car he continued to take me back in forth from work and I continued to live with him and continued to be in love with him while he committed to the fact that he didn’t want to be in a relationship but wanted to marry me one day and just wasn’t ready for anything right now and still wanted to have sex with me which I did. From working at hooters I had auditioned for the calendar and ended up being really liked by the photographer and started doing some modeling from that which was super exciting for me because I always was interested in that and the pictures we took would blow up and I started getting well known in my area for modeling even though they were just pictures and I wasn’t making any money off of it. Eventually a guy came into hooters telling me about working as an exotic dancer and how much they could make and I still needed a car really badly and was desperate to get out of my ex’s (now fiance) house. So I told him I would be waitressing and that I heard the waitresses make good money there and asked him to give me a ride there one day and so he started giving me a ride everyday. The money was so good to me and the most money I had ever seen. I ended up staying in a hotel closer to the club I worked at and sometimes he would come stay with me and I would just uber to work. Eventually I had gotten a car which I was so happy about. A couple of weeks after I got a car I ended up getting sucked into human trafficking with a friend where I would live in a house with multiple girls for 6 months and go to work at the club every day of the week except Saturday and Sundays. I wasn’t doing anything extra just dancing but the money was going to some random guy. It’s crazy I know. I was stupid and young and my family were not concerned for me at all or involved in my life. unfortunately my friend is just now leaving that situation. I got out without anything no car or nothing and had nowhere to go so back to my exes I went where I decided I was going to buy a cash car again and I worked everyday like I was used to saved money and got a car. Moved to my sisters and stayed with her for a little where i decided I didn’t want to dance anymore and I got a job as a bottle service girl and then waitressing at another waitress. I continued modeling because it made me happy and I never told anyone the truth about the deep things that were happening in my life except for my now fiance. So nobody had no idea about me dancing or the human trafficking or anything. Everyone just knew I modeled. I ended up getting an apartment with some friends and One day I got the urge to go to California randomly and at my waitressing job I was handed $800 and I took it as a sign and booked a flight the next day. Where I went by myself my first time ever on a flight with no plans at all. The day I got there I got asked to be in a commercial two days later. My roommate and her friends flew out there to get me and she ended up being able to be in the commercial with me which ended up on tbs but I had to go back home to my apartment and responsibilities and couldn’t leave my roommate stranded. Even though months later we would end up getting in an argument and I’d move out and move back with my ex (now fiance) where I would continue to work and model (for free) and went back to the club to dance and then my sister ended up going to California for a travel nursing assignment and her and her bf broke up and she asked me to move with her. I had nothing else here, my ex was still saying he didn’t want to be in a relationship, he was consistently sleeping with other girls while we lived together and expected relationship things from me. I was paying for everything for him. I paid for him while he was in school for audio engineer, his gas, lunch, school clothes, shopping, I helped him open his own studio and bought his equipment and Mac for it, even though his parents were very involved in his life. I got all his family bday gifts and Christmas gifts every year. He was honestly just using me but I was so in love and blind. He encouraged me to go to California too so I had nothing else there for me, if he had told me to stay and he wanted to be with me I would’ve. I flew out on my 21st birthday and met my sister and Vegas where we would have such a great time and my ex spent that day hanging out with a girl that tried to fight me and didn’t even tell me happy birthday, I was crying in the bathroom in Vegas until my sister shook me and told me to get it together we’re in Vegas. I was so heart broken to be leaving him but he didn’t care. I got to LA and I instantly started modeling on day one I booked a photo shoot where I met a guy that reminded me of my ex (I know) but we instantly clicked and he was 7 years older than me. We ended up talking for a little bit and pursuing something even though I wasn’t ready emotionally but he didn’t really care and I was kind of star struck a little because he was a music producer for a very famous musician and he was very persistent but that’s another story. I ended up booking a music video as a main girl for my ex’s (now fiance) favorite artist. When it came out it was crazy because I felt like the universe and God was just blessing me for leaving that situation and I knew he would see it because he was so obsessed with that artist and it shook up the whole small town I was from. After that I booked a lot of cool jobs like Sephora and worked with a lot of companies, and did some music videos for other super famous artists, and walked in fashion shows and modeled for clothing brands etc. I was working all the time as an extra to pay my bills and I was meeting cool people. I was always getting invited to celebrities parties and just having such a fun time. I decided to start getting into acting instead and started going to acting school where a lot of well known celebrities also went to and I started having meetings with very popular directors and I was being mentored by famous directors and another person that created an tv entertainment channel that I won’t say here also mentored me a lot and got me a lot of meetings with these people and would go to dinners and stuff etc with a list celebrities. I truly was living the life. And coming from where I can it was almost a dream. I had gotten in a relationship my first year there with that other guy I mentioned who ended up being super possessive of me but he treated me like a queen in the sense of paying for everything, giving me a safe space to tell my feelings, open up, the sex was amazing, he would take me on trips, took me out of the country for the first time. We ended up not working out due to lifestyle differences and just being at two different places and wanting different things. He wanted to move out of the country and have a farm and I wasn’t ready to do that as I wanted to focus on my career. (But I would die to move out of the country on a farm now ironically and he is doing just that now like he said he would haha) anyway, I ended up having my own studio apartment by myself that I loved so much and was so proud of. My sister had moved to Montana and it took a lot for me to get my apartment like staying in a house with other girls for a little to sleeping in my car and at a spa for a couple days. When I would fly home or drive home to see my family I would always see my ex, everytime. We kept a friendship and sometimes I would still help him out if needed, he was interning at a church through his school for audio engineering and recording people at his studio in our hometown. By this time I was going to New York and Miami also sometimes and doing work there. I wasn’t as stressed about bills anymore. I was seeing guys every now and then but not at all interested in a relationship, my heart was still healing from the past and both my exes but mainly my first (now fiance). I was super focused on my career and optimistic, I was used to the grind and in no way ever thinking of quitting. It just wasn’t an option because I knew I would make it wherever that would be because to me that is all I had for me and all I ever knew I wanted and the only thing that saved me. Skip to around October 2019 I had found out about a girl my ex was seeing and it crushed me. He was doing with her just like he was with me though. Just “friends with benefits” I was living in my apartment in LA still and my uncle that helped raise me was getting really sick back home and put on hospice so I decided to take a trip back to see him. I would go to restaurants in my state and near my home town and people would ask to take pictures with me, and at the little ceasars drive through someone asked if I was me and stuff it was crazy because I hadn’t been home in awhile and I felt like what I was doing was finally paying off and people were recognizing me. It was surreal. I ended up going to see my ex. I had such a fear of losing him to this other girl for some reason. I was so scared he would get her pregnant or get in a serious relationship since I was gone so far away and I would never be with him, I would end up sleeping with him again and the girl found out and drove by his house mad and cussing me out and throwing stuff at me. We ended up getting in a fight which is so embarrassing and beneath me. I ended up crying to him that I wanted to be with him and don’t know why he never wanted to be with me which at this time he honestly was not even in my playing field anymore. He told me if I wanted to be with him I had to move back to my hometown.. my heart dropped to my stomach and I knew it wasn’t what I was supposed to do but I said okay… all because this is what I had wanted all those years. I decided to stay where the next two years all I would think about everyday was I was making the wrong decision and needed to go back to my life. My hometown had nothing for me.. COVID hit a couple months after me being there and we were terrified. We ended up getting everything out of my apartment and moving into a house around the corner from his parents. I had to tell him how I liked to communicate now without yelling and stuff which I learned from the boyfriend I had in LA and that I wasn’t going to put up with that disrespect but he never listened. Eventually everything went back to normal. I ended up going back to the club again dancing because I didn’t want to go backward and model here. He never wanted me to go back to LA even for a little bit even though that’s where my career and heart was so I had no idea what to do with my life. I started waitressing as well and getting back on my adhd meds. People started pressuring us to get pregnant and we tried for a year and 6 months. The month I found out I was pregnant before I knew, I quit my job and decided I was going to move back and get my life back. Two days later I found out I was pregnant…. Finally after trying for over a year. Our relationship was toxic just like the past he always yelled, I could never talk to him about my feelings without him saying I was trying to fight, he spit in my face once, threatened me, put his hands on me, he would tell me he was going to take my baby away from me as soon as I had it. I started asking him about getting married while I was pregnant and the proposal wasn’t even that. He got mad at me for asking one day and walked in the room and handed me the ring. It didn’t fit because I was pregnant & it was $27 (not that that matters but the proposal sucked).. he drained both my bank accounts and they closed it, charged my credit card up and put me in debt, he has not let me do anything I want to do like school or anything. He is so bad with money. He has an action figure addiction and at one point was spending 3k on action figures every month and turned one of the rooms in our house into a collection room so I had to take everything out of my closet and put my sons crib in there for the first year of his life. we have good times and I feel comfortable with him. He knows everything about me but he doesn’t respect me and sometimes I feel like he is intimidated by me. The sex isn’t good at all we always just ask “do you want to have sex” he never gives oral or foreplay, I never get pleasure. He’s an amazing dad though and loves his son. We have the most sweet and beautiful little boy now who I love so much and he loves him also. He’s very attentive to his son. But I still feel unheard. I can’t talk about my feelings. If I do it doesn’t matter, it doesn’t change anything. He is so defensive and we never communicate for a solution it’s always just pointing fingers. I have started yelling again because I’m so used to it now and I hate it because I grew up like that and I finally grew out of it until I got back with him and recently started again and now he throws it in my face and knows I begged him not to do it forever but he never stopped and now I am too. I’ve asked him to take me to the movies and he hasn’t still. I just ask for more romance and stuff but it just feels like I have a roommate. I have nothing now. I had my car and we traded it in for a new car that he wanted. I always dreamed of the next car I’d get once I paid it off but he got it & it’s in his name now so I paid it off for nothing. I’m driving around his dream car. I’ve been planning our wedding since I birthed our son and everything is going good. Money is tight. He works at the church now full time and makes about 45k a year or so, my son has been waiting to start daycare for awhile so I have been home with him. I’ve tried starting jobs multiple times but he is against it unless it’s super fast money like going to the club which I am so repulsed by and absolutely hate it now. I tried going back to college but my old college won’t release my transcripts for fasfa because I owe them money. I started cosmetology school a few months ago which he was all for but two months in freaked out and him and his mom guilt tripped me that we can’t handle this right now and he was having a hard time doing the night time routine for the baby while I was at school so I had to leave and now owe that’s school for my kit unless I enroll again in 128 days. I also miss modeling so much and sometimes think I can start again but it’s been five years. My body is so different too after a baby. Everything I want is a no go. Especially moving out of our hometown. He says he wants to but I don’t think he does. We are constantly at his moms and dads and they tell us all the time we aren’t moving anywhere which is really hard for me as this place is super toxic for my soul. Anytime I get money he spends it. Anytime I save money he spends it. Even if it does go towards our bills. His action figure habit is almost nonexistent now and he has grown a lot in the past few months from that since I demanded my son have his own bedroom after his first bday and all his figures are in boxes now and told him he could turn the shed into his man cave. He says we can’t save because we have nothing to save after bills but I believe in saving anything even $5 a paycheck. It’s doable. I grew up poor so this is nothing to me but after living the lifestyle I lived in LA and going out with guys that respected me and cherished me it’s hard. I know nobody is perfect but we are about to get married and I’m scared… I have nothing though anymore. I’ve threatened to leave a couple times and he says he will take me to court and take my baby. I’m scared he might. I don’t want my son to be angry like him or not respect women how he does. In public he’s a saint. He also has a very supportive family that it’s almost toxic. They all blame me for his anger issues and say I make him that way. But he’s been punching walls since I met him in 8th grade. I know it’s not because of me. But I have nobody else and nowhere else to go. No money. No car. I’m at the bottom again where I was before. Only difference is now I have a son. And we are getting married in three months and I can’t call it off. I am older now and looking back on my life I realize he maybe truly never loved me and I was just so desperate for love. I got myself here nobody else. I accepted everything, even when my gut told me not to. ( he is not just horrible, he’s a great person just with some bad qualities like everyone but I’m tired of feeling stuck with someone that never truly wanted me and doesn’t care to grow in some ways or show me )
Please help.. what do I do?
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2024.05.22 04:27 Jrdn98 32 m looking for new chat buddies

Hello people of Reddit, anybody up for making a new friend? we can chat for tonight, overnight, a few days, or even long term.
Im from the USA, southeast area, married so keeping it platonic, and I am introverted so I may be dull at first but I’ll get better.
My hobbies are:
Video games: racing, shooters, sport games and what I call time killers.
Movies/Tv: comedy and action mostly some drama and reality
Music: country and rock mostly, but will listen to most of anything.
Other hobbies are legos, traveling, cars and outdoors.
I’m open to anyone to chat with and potentially forming a friendship. And open to talk to anyone from around the world. Hit me up and let’s chat! Oh I also work nights so anyone feel free to hit me up, DM/Chat preferred.
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2024.05.22 04:27 Jrdn98 32 m looking for new chat buddies

Hello people of Reddit, anybody up for making a new friend? we can chat for tonight, overnight, a few days, or even long term.
Im from the USA, southeast area, married so keeping it platonic, and I am introverted so I may be dull at first but I’ll get better.
My hobbies are:
Video games: racing, shooters, sport games and what I call time killers.
Movies/Tv: comedy and action mostly some drama and reality
Music: country and rock mostly, but will listen to most of anything.
Other hobbies are legos, traveling, cars and outdoors.
I’m open to anyone to chat with and potentially forming a friendship. And open to talk to anyone from around the world. Hit me up and let’s chat! Oh I also work nights so anyone feel free to hit me up, DM/Chat preferred.
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2024.05.22 04:26 Jrdn98 32 m looking for new chat buddies

Hello people of Reddit, anybody up for making a new friend? we can chat for tonight, overnight, a few days, or even long term.
Im from the USA, southeast area, married so keeping it platonic, and I am introverted so I may be dull at first but I’ll get better.
My hobbies are:
Video games: racing, shooters, sport games and what I call time killers.
Movies/Tv: comedy and action mostly some drama and reality
Music: country and rock mostly, but will listen to most of anything.
Other hobbies are legos, traveling, cars and outdoors.
I’m open to anyone to chat with and potentially forming a friendship. And open to talk to anyone from around the world. Hit me up and let’s chat! Oh I also work nights so anyone feel free to hit me up, DM/Chat preferred.
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2024.05.22 04:26 Jrdn98 32m looking for new chat buddies

Hello people of Reddit, anybody up for making a new friend? we can chat for tonight, overnight, a few days, or even long term.
Im from the USA, southeast area, married so keeping it platonic, and I am introverted so I may be dull at first but I’ll get better.
My hobbies are:
Video games: racing, shooters, sport games and what I call time killers.
Movies/Tv: comedy and action mostly some drama and reality
Music: country and rock mostly, but will listen to most of anything.
Other hobbies are legos, traveling, cars and outdoors.
I’m open to anyone to chat with and potentially forming a friendship. And open to talk to anyone from around the world. Hit me up and let’s chat! Oh I also work nights so anyone feel free to hit me up, DM/Chat preferred.
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2024.05.22 04:25 Jrdn98 32 m looking for new chat buddies

Hello people of Reddit, anybody up for making a new friend? we can chat for tonight, overnight, a few days, or even long term.
Im from the USA, southeast area, married so keeping it platonic, and I am introverted so I may be dull at first but I’ll get better.
My hobbies are:
Video games: racing, shooters, sport games and what I call time killers.
Movies/Tv: comedy and action mostly some drama and reality
Music: country and rock mostly, but will listen to most of anything.
Other hobbies are legos, traveling, cars and outdoors.
I’m open to anyone to chat with and potentially forming a friendship. And open to talk to anyone from around the world. Hit me up and let’s chat! Oh I also work nights so anyone feel free to hit me up, DM/Chat preferred.
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2024.05.22 04:25 Jrdn98 32 m looking for new chat buddies

Hello people of Reddit, anybody up for making a new friend? we can chat for tonight, overnight, a few days, or even long term.
Im from the USA, southeast area, married so keeping it platonic, and I am introverted so I may be dull at first but I’ll get better.
My hobbies are:
Video games: racing, shooters, sport games and what I call time killers.
Movies/Tv: comedy and action mostly some drama and reality
Music: country and rock mostly, but will listen to most of anything.
Other hobbies are legos, traveling, cars and outdoors.
I’m open to anyone to chat with and potentially forming a friendship. And open to talk to anyone from around the world. Hit me up and let’s chat! Oh I also work nights so anyone feel free to hit me up, DM/Chat preferred.
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2024.05.22 03:21 elio_perlman_ In which language am I supposed to audition with?

Hi! I am a 21-year-old female in college who after many many years is delving into musical theater, I've been on plays before but they were very small productions in which they gave us a specific song to sing for the audition.
I am auditioning for the musical theater company at my college which is in a country where the primary language is Spanish. They asked us to choose any musical theater song to audition with and to make sure it showcases our vocal range, in my case I'm a Mezzo-soprano. I wanted to try auditioning with "World Burn" from the Mean Girls musical or "The Winner Takes It All" from Mamma Mia! the Musical, these songs are in English but I think they showcase very well what I can do vocally, however, I don't know if I should perform a song in Spanish instead since the play will be in Spanish, I was thinking about "Una vez en Diciembre" which is Once Upon a December from the Anastasia musical, this song I can do very well but I'm not sure it truly shows what I can do.
I need advice on whether I should perform a song in English or Spanish because I feel like I'm stuck now. And if anyone has any other good mezzo songs for auditions I would really appreciate it, in my country theater is not such a huge thing so my knowledge is pretty limited and any help I could get will be very much appreciated.
Thanks!
Note: I have no details about which roles or plays I'm auditioning for it's just a general audition for the company.
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2024.05.22 03:12 Kind-Ask7330 Who are some of you guys favorite music artists?

Ik I asked the question about the countries but I promise this is the last question 😭 I'm just such a music nerd and am always curious about ppls music preferences 😭 if u don't want to respond to this post feel free not to. Plus I wanna see if there's ppl on here with the same music taste as me 😭
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2024.05.22 03:06 DivaForever Family being selfish or am I wrong.

I am 25F. My dad is 65 and mom 60. I only have one sibling and she is 33. I was born in the US and raised in India. My parents were not rich but they raised me and my sister well. Never let us feel that we need to ask for anything. Lived luxuriously. I was always told as a kid that after highschool in India, I have to return to the US, get a degree start working and then I would file for my parents green card since when I was born in the US they only had a work visa and had to return to India. I came to the US when I was 17.5 years old. Got a nursing degree. Successful in my career and working full time as the assistant director of nursing in critical care. I am simultaneously in school full time to get my masters. When I first came in 2016, I lived in a rented room, my parents supported me and used to send Monday for rent. I used to work part time in library and support my food and any other needs like clothes etc. In 2020 when I got my first job, I started sending them money back and so far I am still sending. I did as I was told and I filed for my parents green card and now they are permanent residents. Their plan all along was to move in with me in United States and we would all live together again. During this Journey I met an amazing person who is now my significant other. We plan to get married. My parents dream of living with me is not going to fulfill and I see a huge change in their behavior towards me. I explained to them and apologized and said I know that it was your dream all along and followed every direction that you gave me but I am an adult now. I want to enjoy with my partner and live nuclear like my Parents did. I also said this doesn’t mean I will neglect them but instead of staying in the same house we will have a different arrangement. On the other hand my sister who is 8 years elder got married the same year to a guy who lived in the US and moved here in 2016 as well. I was supposed to go Kansas for an engineering degree instead of nursing but she made a comment regarding who will pick me up from the airport. I was supposed to live in the dorm but because my sister made that comment, I at the age of 17.5 changed plans and went to another state where I received grant and scholarship so my education was basically free for undergraduate. I have visited my sister and she has visited me. We haven’t met in the past two years and she thinks I have no interest in meeting her. We talk on the phone everyday and if I have any vacation days I go to see another country. Last to last year I went to Morocco because my partner lost his father. We went there. Last year I went to France and met my best friend there who was gonna get married in Jan this year. She has some issues which I do not understand. When she was my age she was living her life. I try not to hold any grudge against her when she did not help me in 2016. I explained to her let me enjoy with my partner for now. When I am getting older and married and settled, that’s when people seek out family and meet and stay connected. I told her since I am working so hard let me travel see new places now and she can definitely visit me. I do not have the budget to go see her and then go on a vacation. Now it’s been 2 weeks she is not talking to me and my parents have abruptly come to the US and working in a random motel. I don’t know what to think anymore. Even though I am the youngest in the family I feel the oldest.
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2024.05.22 02:55 Ok_Bodybuilder_6887 Is there an AI service that adds vocals to "my" music?

So I have this song that I created years ago, and it's missing the lyrics and vocals only. I would like to have an AI service that I can upload the music file to and create vocals for it.
I'm not looking to benefit from it, I just want to have an inspiration for the vocalization in case I ever want to complete the song in the future using my own voice.
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2024.05.22 02:18 Ayouby Help with tajweed & memorisation & recitation

Asalamu3laykom,
I’m almost 26, early into my hifdh journey.
I understand it’s a journey, but I want to memorise the Quran before I get married and have kids inshAllah. I set a goal for myself of 3-4 years, and I’m finishing up Juzz Amma.
Right now is the ideal time, as I live alone and can design my life around it. I do have full-time commitments though, so I don’t have an entirely free schedule.
My goals are:
  1. Memorisation, with understanding and preserving harakat
  2. Tajweed rules, and applying them
  3. Beautifying my voice, through vocal exercises, learning control
I am a native Arabic speaker, I can read, but not very quickly if it’s new ayat. And even if I’m familiar with the ayat, I often mess up harakat or neglect them, which has been frustrating.
Im learning the Tajweed rules at a slow pace, but a concern of mine is that I’m memorising incorrectly, until I know more of the rules.
Lastly, I want to recite beautifully. I enjoy it. I’m not good at it though. But im training my voice by trying to mimic my favourite reciters. I really like Ahmad al Nufais’ style, but he’s got a higher pitched voice than mine and I’m not skilled enough to transpose his style, so I end up straining myself.
How do I balance all 3? How do I prioritise?
Im thinking that once I learn tajweed rules and know how to apply them, I dont need to mimic a specific reciation which makes memorisation easier, as I can stylise the recitation based on my own for the lack of a better word, musical ability.
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2024.05.22 02:17 yookaloco [TOMT] [Song] Upbeat Danceable Indie Rock Song, a touch of Passion Pit, 1999-2017 (Strange Audio Link Provided)

Re-post/Attempt 2. No winners on https://www.reddit.com/tipofmytongue/comments/1cowei2/comment/l3h586h/
Figured I would try again.
Audio Sample: https://flat.io/score/663e742bda2ce852eeff15b7-mystery-indietronica-song-help-me-reddit-006-copy?sharingKey=a32eb8f4145529c4aafdd4b79f03afe08b13485d9bc8b0517f252c1e65d39a284f017e4e1143e5c81703397e211eda09208cf0d82e442b62fb9ca19464a62849
This is a song that I know I've listened to many times, and I think I even had mp3s of (or made note of) several other of this band's songs, and it amazes me that I forgot it. I have had this earworm plaguing me for at least six years. I am sure the song was already kinda old in 2018 when I went on my first search for this. I'd place estimated year of release as somewhere around 2002-2015 (despite the title).
The genre is certainly indietronica post-punk or dance-punk or indie-emo-dance-punk or I-don't-know. So I guess, it's a little obscure. Though it wouldn't shock me if I found it through a video game circa 2004.
Alot of these sound 'in the ballpark'
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_dance-punk_artists
.. especially
... but the vocals are VERY close to Johnny Whitney of Jaguar Love and Blood Brothers...
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Johnny_Whitney
I am 100% certain I found him and his bands in the search for this band and song. His style (both song composition and his singing style) is a little too zany to be them. Pretty cool tho.
About that Sound File/Link
This isn't exactly the song. Figuring this out/producing this was like childbirth... so.... like many parents, eventually I said "the hell with it". I think I got the pitches down pretty good though, especially considering it's been at least a decade. So to be the actual song, some of these parts would have to repeat more (then again, it is good to isolate sections for listening more closely) . Especially the opening riff, which I reflect with bass. That is pretty constant sound through the verses. My tempo in the first half is definitely slower and more choppy than the actual song. Second half sounds as much like the song as anyone can make with these instruments, I think.
The use of cats meows combined Soprano Vocals is meant to reflect whatever vocal filter is done in the aforementioned Passion Pit - Sleepyhead. They really boost it on the last high note of the chorus, and I reflect this with high pitched brass. Best I could do, free account.
The electric guitar goes through more of the chorus than I put it for, but not all of it. I think it quits before the big high note. I got the cascading progression just right. It's the standout part of the song, like the opening keyboards of Take On Me.
The bass and the drums are considerably more active than is reflected here. That would be super painstaking. If this isn't solved in a week, I'll probably add it in time, and post again in about 8 days. It's a high energy song. Drums are about the tempo of Bonnie Tyler's "I need a hero".
I hesitate to post lyrics I misremember, because if I was solid on my knowledge of them, I think I woulda found it already. Plenty of "ooohs (ooze?)", "boys", and "what you're doing to me-ee-ee" (to end a verse). Somewhere in this chorus I thought there was something like "more than any other guy". The song lyrics are vaguely "suggestive" 👨‍❤️‍💋‍👨... like Erasure or Boy George's vibe. Mika is also another artist that has a little of that vibe, although when I listened back to Grace Kelly, I didn't hear as much of that vocal filter as I remember.
I was pretty sure part of the chorus was something like "more than any other guy" or "from any other guy" or something. I have no idea what the word is that comprises the high note.
Previous "No, but Thank You" 's..
Thanks!
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2024.05.22 02:17 YelloHD Selling some vinyls in the EU

Hi, I've been collecting anime ost vinyls since covid started, but I realized it a while ago that I haven't even listened once to some of them and so I decided to downsize my collection. All of the vinyls I'm selling are unplayed. I did open some of them, since I originally didn't plan on reselling and I changed out the original inner sleeves with this one (usually I also kept the original sleeves): https://www.amazon.de/-/en/gp/product/B00XSM1CM2
I sorted out my collection and made a google sheets file more than half a year ago, but ended up not posting it (probably thanks to my ADD). Finally I decided to check the value of them and try to give a fair selling price. Since I made this list I had preorders arrive so I will most likely update it in the future with a few more like Tamako Market, No game no life, Saya no Uta...
About the items: The discogs link should take you to the vinyl's correct variant page, "-" means there were no variants. Condition of these are all unplayed, "new" and "like new" means the same = opened, sleeve changed to the better one and put inside a record sleeve.
About the prices: I looked at sold discogs, ebay items and tried to give a fair estimate.
About the transaction process: I will send you a paypal goods and services invoice. I don't charge extra for paypal fees. You can pay in euro or usd.
About Shipping: I only shipped figures before and not vinyls, but shipping cost to EU countries should be around 15-25 euros. I can ship outside the EU, but it's usually expensive 35-50 euros. Local pickup in Budapest, Hungary is also an option :) I bought some vinyl mailers, kept some good quality ones from hhv, blackscreenrecords and the expensive ones will be shipped bubble wrapped in a box, like how cdjapan ships them.
About contacting me: Feel free to dm me if you would like to check how much the shipping cost would be to your country. I can also send pictures of the vinyl, but please only ask for it if you really are interested in buying it. Since I'm planning on putting these up on discogs/ebay I wouldn't really want to lower prices for a few weeks, but I'm still happy to listen to offers.
Sorry about the long post, also I couldn't figure out the table formatting, check the google sheets file for a cleaner look and discogs links: https://docs.google.com/spreadsheets/d/1e88aFgmdMZ97yj03JcH3MzAaPIHskCwj3leLfb_56pU
Elfen Lied Repress,Pink and Black Marbeld [Lucy Marbled] New 35
Dropkick on My Devil! - New 35
Made In Abyss (Original Soundtrack 2) Clear Magenta Splatter & Clear Blue Splatter New 130
Made In Abyss Original Soundtrack Grey / Blue, not numbered unplayed, 1 bent corner 350
Demon Slayer: Gurenge / Homura - New, never played 65
Demon Slayer: Kimetsu no Yaiba (TV Anime) - Sealed 125
Puella Magi Madoka Magica Ultimate Best - Seald 140
Evangelion: One Last Kiss Japanese release, Limited Edition Sealed 45
Evangelion Finally too long, see discogs page :) Sealed 70
Anamanaguchi – Miku Teal Sealed 28
bôa – Duvet - Booklet opened, vinyl unplayed 380
Yakushimaru - Unknown World Map - New 20
Mori Calliope – Your Mori. - New 300
Mori Calliope – Unalive - Sealed 105
Pretty Guardian Sailor Moon The 30th Anniversary Memorial Album Pink Translucent with sticker Sealed 65
Grave Of The Fireflies Soundtrack Collection Reissue Sealed, 2 corners damaged 20
Tsukihime -A Piece Of Blue Glass Moon- Theme Song E.P. - New 30
Heart Of The Woods Original Soundtrack Green Translucent & Clear New 38
Needy Girl Overdose Soundtrack Purple Translucent New, Sealed? -
Ado – Kyōgen - Sealed 270
Twinkle Heart OVA Soundtrack - used 35
Roujin-Z - like new, unplayed 35
My Neighbor Totoro - bent corner, unplayed 30
Petshop Of Horrors like new, unplayed 25
The Girl Who Leapt Through Time - like new, unplayed 35
Demon City Shinjuku Purple marbled like new, unplayed 16
Oshi no Ko - new 45
3x3 Eyes: Legend Of The Divine Demon Blue w/ Brown like new, unplayed 15
Weathering With You Reissue like new, unplayed -
Your Name Reissue, Clear like new, unplayed -
Suzume Limited Edition? like new, unplayed -
Bocchi the Rock / Kessoku Band - Sealed 60
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2024.05.22 01:59 Purtle [PIL] #1313 5/21/2024

Purtle's Internet Lineup for May 21st, 2024 8:00pm
Pics:
Clips:
Videos
Articles/News/Other
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2024.05.22 01:45 ComprehensiveCell514 (M4F) 31 M Eastern US/Online Looking for my person

Hello, you can call me Drake, I honestly looking for find someone who is the perfect other half to myself. I currently work from home so am available most of the time. I have kids since I know that can be a deal breaker for some. In my free time I enjoy playing video games, watching anime or reading just to name a few. I also love sports of basically any kind and watch them and go to sporting events and concerts when I can. Musically I lean more into rock and metal but am not opposed to pretty much anything but most country music.
As far as what I am looking for, more than anything someone who I feel a connection to when I talk to them. Someone who shares hobbies or interests would obviously me great, if we could play games or watch anime together count me in, but I also like learning about people and what they enjoy just the same! If any of this interests you feel free to send me a chat, also there are pictures of my on my profile if you want to see what I look like. Hope you are all having a great day!
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2024.05.22 01:42 Felgrey Help with first home server for media, file+photo backup w remote access

Hi
I'll preface by saying my experience is limited to building 2 personal pc's, tinkering with fan/clock speeds, and basic folder sharing between Windows pc's at home. I've never used dockerfiles or linux so far.
The last few weeks I've been trying to read forums and posts, and watch as many guides and explanations as possible to help get my first understandings of home servers. I've reached a point where I am tipping into overwhelmed with possibilities (probably overthinking), and struggling with how I proceed.
I think I'm mostly struggling with how it all connects and how/what software I need to make it easily remote accessible/a cloud server, so help on this front would be great. Thanks in advance.
First idea: I use my Old PC + new HDD's as the servecloud hardware. (Cheaper and ideal in that it uses old parts)
My understanding so far for this is;
  1. I reset the Win 10 operating system on my Old PC
  2. Remove Win bloatware
  3. Set new HDD's to Raid 5 and format
  4. Install Plex media server
  5. Install Steam with games
  6. Install Moonlight/Sunshine for streaming Far Cry 6
  7. Install Immich or Photosync with Photoprism for auto photo backups from mobile phones
  8. ?Designate folder access for other users on the local network?
  9. Tailscale vpn for remote access (never used it before)
  10. ...unsure if i need to do anything else
Second idea: Buy a Synology device and add HDD. This acts as media+photo+file servecloud and remains on 24/7. Old PC gets turned on intermittently to act as GUI for Web browsing+PC gaming on TV. (upfront more expensive, possibly easier to first setup)
Below are some parameters of what I'm trying to do/use.
Functions to perform:
  1. Connect to tv, other pc’s and mobile devices within local home network for access to personal media (movies, music, photos).
  2. Storage of home media, personal documents
  3. Access to web browsing on TV for ad-free viewing instead of using direct aps like YouTube (I imagine i need a GUI for this such as Windows 10)
  4. Infrequent pc gaming on TV (without using my gaming specific pc to stream from. Far cry 6 on low-ish settings but OK fps).
  5. Auto backup/syncing of photos from Mobile phones.
  6. Avoid needing to use public cloud services like Google Photos/Apple iCloud/Microsoft Onedrive as file sharing/backup/remote access.
  7. Be online and accessible 24/7
Note: I’d welcome any tips to reduce noise and wattage profile.
Room layout:
Planning to buy so far:
Hardware I have:
(Old PC part list)
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2024.05.22 01:05 idunnowhatshappenin Slightly different theory on the ending(s)

With the game being popular and leaving a few choice questions unanswered I think there’s one point that’s been bugging me since I finished the game that I think answers a lot of those unanswered questions
Of course spoilers from here out and sorry for weird formatting I’m on mobile also TLDR at the bottom
So I’ll go over the widely accepted points leading up to this. The pool was created by people from the future to prevent some kind of Mass Extinction event from destroying humanity as we know it and Edward Crow’s father disrupted the process of bringing people back while Edward himself continued the process of mining the roots and further disrupted the time travel device. Pretty much all of that is confirmed in game very explicitly. But there are a few questions that remain unanswered; why choose 1988 to come back? What was the disaster that cause the process to begin with? What are the numbers 2106 supposed to mean?
Now a lot of what I’ve seen for theory’s on the answers above are fairly in line, the disaster was some kind of global warming or climate crisis because it parallels with the Crows abuse of the roots as corroborated with some paintings in blood that appear later in the game. But I have one question that I haven’t seen anywhere else in discussions about the game (not that it isn’t there I just haven’t seen it) that I think provides a better argument for the disaster being a plague caused by a bootstrap paradox.
My question is……..Why in that location specifically? Maybe it’s just bc I’m from the ATL area I was super curious why the British devs chose that area for the setting of the game. Imagine your world is dying and you HAVE to find a way to prevent it from ever happening, (presumably after trying everything else bc I doubt time travel and potentially destroying all of reality is anyone’s first pick) why build your saving grace in Atlanta, Georgia? It isn’t a major metropolitan area, it’s not the capital of the U.S or some huge political force and it’s certainly NOT super open to change especially in the later 80’s. So why Atlanta? My theory is because it’s the home for the Center of Disease Control. That’s the only real reason to pick the ATL area for your last ditch effort to prevent a disaster. If they could get the disease in front of medical experts and have them analyze the infection and create a cure then the disaster would never really happen in the first place.
But then that begs the question of why 1988? Now here’s where I think the bootstrap paradox comes into play.
If you’re unfamiliar with the term it basically describes a thought experiment of time travel when an event is repeated due to itself causing a causal loop. Say a time traveler was a huge fan of Mozart, so he travels back in time to see him but when he gets to the time period where Mozart was popular he finds there is no Mozart. So he decides to write all of Mozart’s music and perform them himself under the name Mozart, thus “creating” the persona of the famous artist. The question becomes who originally wrote Mozarts music? It’s a surprisingly common trope in pop culture: Back to the Future with Chuck Berry’s song “Johnny B. Good” all of Skynet from the Terminator series, even my example above is stolen from Dr. Who.
So how is Crow Country a BSP? I think the time travelers from the future picked 1988 because it was the first time the disease was documented in official records, from Elaine’s trip to the hospital. I also think the disease was caused from the disruption of the pool which is why they never understood its origin enough to re-engineer a cure and why Edward Crow could. In my theory as well I don’t think the tougher and more diverse enemies later in the game were caused by the CC team further excavating the roots, I think it was caused by people who were already infected coming through the portal. It doesn’t really make sense for them to be from Edward digging up more of the roots, he had been doing that for years up until the start of the game. So something else had to change over the short period of time shown in the game itself and I think that’s infected people coming through hoping to be cured since it should have been long enough from when the first “Guest” arrived that the cure had been developed.
Finally for the two endings of the game. The bad ending obviously is the one where you don’t take the cure and decide to (presumably) let everyone die from the infection, thus burying the cure and dooming all of humanity. The good ending is you decide to trust Crow and take the cure, thus saving yourself and potentially others by the cure being able to be synthesized from your blood. I think that’s also why Crow isn’t able to describe the future yet when he comes back out of the pool, because by that point in the timeline you haven’t picked whether to save everyone or not.
TLDR; Crow Country is a bootstrap paradox cause by the bacterial disease that develops from coming out of the pool. That’s why the pool was built(?) in the ATL area, why the time travelers chose 1988 and why the two endings have greater meaning beyond just the fate of your characters that survived.
Feel free to tell me if I’m wrong or poke holes in this theory I just couldn’t stop thinking about it and wanted to put it out there!
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2024.05.22 01:02 KitSpin after 600 hours i've (mostly) completed the progress chart AND got the Amulet of Yendor on the same run

after 600 hours i've (mostly) completed the progress chart AND got the Amulet of Yendor on the same run
obviously, warning for major spoilers
first off: here is the completed progress chart! i haven't been able to find a progress chart online that contains all of the new spells and enemies, so here's mine all stitched together for your convenience.
https://preview.redd.it/e9uql6j1ou1d1.png?width=3840&format=png&auto=webp&s=22bec15064eedfbf585c1638ef49b3219cbc36ac
as you can see i haven't gotten the spell refresh mimic, but thanks to the bug where the left and right facing sentries count as 2 separate enemies i technically have 100% enemy progress (this does give the steam achievement). that's good enough for me. it'll spawn naturally one day, i dont need to waste hours opening chests in parallel worlds when i can open chests just as frequently by playing the game normally.
like any god run i started by breaking the reroll machines. you get about 1000 free rerolls, so once i got all the perks i wanted i spent the last of the rerolls getting extra health perks, optimizing by only rolling if there are at least 5 perks to roll. i got to about 100 trillion health before i ran out of free rerolls, then by the end i had about 800 trillion health from picking up naturally spawned extra health perks. i also duped my perks to get more shields and lukki mutations for extra long legs (cessation makes perk duping much easier and safer)
by the end of the game i had:
  • 6 lukki mutations
  • 40 greed perks
  • 10 shields
  • 8 extra lives
  • 23 stainless armor (i think you only need 17, but i duped)
the giga holy bomb was the last (and only, for this run) spell that i needed to unlock. I failed once, accidentally killed toveri JUST before getting to the avarice diamond because i got stuck on the blood thanks to freeze field while bringing him through the cursed rock. i just grabbed another one from a parallel world. the wand was full-firerate long distance cast+null shot+double cast+homebringer+deadly heal. also, toveri makes and effective digging solution if you're going straight up or down.
Unlocking giga holy bomb
after a loooooong time gathering everything i needed, i went through and grabbed all 33 orbs (i used orb atlas since i needed the great chest coordinates anyway, but i have gotten 33 orbs without orb atlas before), i did the safe method to get the 34th orb. i wanted to try doing it modless but constantly restarting the game to check the player.xml file was annoying, so i just used the position display mod
https://i.redd.it/2vdvhf1aru1d1.gif
then went down to grab the sampo! or in this case, the Amulet of Yendor. technically i didn't need to kill kolmi, but i did is anyway as a victory lap. it took 30 minutes to kill him. i probably could have built a higher damage wand, but i had gotten kind of sick of wand tinkering.
https://preview.redd.it/qipeya1xru1d1.png?width=3840&format=png&auto=webp&s=7e69aee8165fb77a0fdc18f241cf4498d1345dc8
https://preview.redd.it/6tgs9t7zru1d1.png?width=3840&format=png&auto=webp&s=f739d6bf2909342022d57e1f8b6a3651cd13312b
killing 34 orb kolmi
and that's that! i completed the work, waited 50 minutes for my polymorph immunity to run out, and used a master of vulnerability to kill myself. (note that at about 150 hours in i reset my save bc i played with cheatgui and accidentally unlocked some spells, so my actual win and death counts are a little higher. i'm not sure by how much, though.)
https://preview.redd.it/d3dp0kisvu1d1.png?width=3840&format=png&auto=webp&s=cc4bd63a99457f105b3a77807c86913a2d64215f
bling acquired
this was my final wand setup:
https://preview.redd.it/p79brffkju1d1.png?width=3840&format=png&auto=webp&s=b252ab84a387a78c4a8b3684923fe9018cd5430f
  1. combat wand, i'm fond of the music note builds. player-safe native piercing, baby!
  2. teleport + heal + digging wand
  3. basic utility and storage wand, the upwards larpa + black hole is great for clearing out a lot of space very quickly and for digging to the surface more quickly
  4. infinite lifetime platforms! previously this was my long distance travel wand.
this isn't true 100%, i still have a handful of achievement pillars left (i still haven't beaten nightmare mode!), but i'm happy that i finally have all the steam achievements (and the bling). i think i'm going to focus on streaks for a while, since i've somehow never managed to win twice in a row. getting good enough to win consistently is a different skill-set than being able to break the game (which i would say isn't actually very hard), so i still have some work to do.
that's all! thanks for reading :)
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