Wedding blessing in welsh
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2024.05.21 13:56 dissociativedays I want to go no-contact with my family. How do I become okay with it?
I suspect my sister is narcissistic with enabling parents. I was considering going no-contact with my family minus a brother I’m close to 3 years ago and was almost out until my father died in a freak accident and I got roped back in. My sister has spent the last 30 years making my life a living hell and my parents never stuck up for me or protected me from her. My mother, now alone, is terrified of her. We had a shitty childhood and all have different survival tactics, but after going to therapy for four years now, I’ve gotten away from those and surround myself with happy, healthy, amazing, supportive people. In regard to family, I keep my distance when I can (living 3.5 hours away helps), but often am the one everyone turns to when shit goes sideways to fix everything, calm people down, figure out what to do next. I’m tired of it, especially now realizing no one does the same for me.
I recently got married and had a 40 person head count, with 38 yeses. After a bunch of random crap, 13 of my 20 invitees flaked 3 days to 2 hours before the party, all of which were very, very close family members including a brother and two of my BILs. Had I known this, with ample timing, I would have invited more friends who WOULD have shown, but due to family taking up so much of the headcount, I couldn’t extend invites to them all. I vented to my mother who said at least I have my sister coming, who I said was only invited since the others were and she has never been nice to me or my husband - which my mother agreed with and said was a self-centered survival thing. I said she should learn a little kindness which would get her far. She despises my husband, who is genuinely as nice as can be, even to a fault. Doesn’t have a bad bone in his body, god bless him. But he supports me and loves me and we do well off each other and thrive, which she doesn’t like. Other siblings have commented on the fact she treats him so poorly when he is nothing but so kind to her.
Come party, 2 hours in and she’s nowhere to be seen. We’re waiting around to cut cakes since her household consisted of 5 people and we didn’t want to have people randomly walk in on it and ruin the photographs, miss the momentous moment, etc. My brother gets in touch with her and relays the message that I’m a monster, I’m childish and horrible and never welcome her to anything and I’m irrelevant and no one likes me which is why everyone bailed on me and I should be embarrassed. The only person I said those things to was my mother (who couldn’t come to party due to health reasons). I spent a majority of my wedding party crying on a fire escape because I was so upset by her words, so upset that everyone bailed, and so upset I didn’t follow my gut inviting other friends who would have come over obligatory family invites. I blocked my sister and her friend who joined in on her meanness. She has taken to emailing and texting me under spoof emails and phone numbers. Calling me irrelevant, embarrassing, disgusting, ugly, childish, greedy, no one showed up because they don’t like me, never been liked, etc.
My mother has spoken to her, but hasn’t reached out to me since the party when I said I was hurt at what she shared in confidence and need to think about what I want from this family anymore. My mother swears she went through her phone and saw the messages, but other parts of her (mothers) story don’t align. My mother historically has victim mindset over everything and could do no wrong.
I’m hurt, I’m upset. My husband has been amazing, but he doesn’t have any family that we could lean on ever. I’m torn between going fully no contact between my siblings who enable my sister, my mother who is emotionally abusive and enables her and doesn’t protect the rest of us, and calling it a day. Or going no contact with siblings, low contact with my mother, and never returning until they get their shit together and go to therapy. I just don’t know what is best anymore since I know my mom will never stand up to her. Family is all I’ve ever really had outside a close knit group of 3 friends, so it’s hard to go from everything to nothing in the blink of an eye.
Ever since my dad died and my sister took over, I have felt like I don’t have a spot in the family anymore. My sisters best friend of 15 years has always wanted to be apart of our big family since she had a dysfunctional one herself, and joins us on family vacations, Christmas, every waking moment. She is just as bad as my sister, and my sister is her only friend so she bows down to her. Since dad died, it’s like my sister and her friend don’t want me in the family and want to give the bff my daughter spot and to ostracize me. All of this is making me spiral and spiral and spiral. I haven’t been this bad mentally in a really, REALLY long time and it’s triggering me a lot.
I feel like as a woman, I’m held to a different caliber than the others. My brothers could do whatever they damn well please, and they do, and everyone turns a blind eye. With my sister being the oldest, she gets the same treatment. I am overwhelmed with what this family puts me through. My husband doesn’t have any family anymore for us to lean on, spend holidays with, etc. How do you move on? How do you find peace? How do you be okay with the fact nothing will ever change in this dynamic so it’s all or nothing?
FWIW - have an amazing therapist, amazing support group. Am ok, just sad and upset.
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I recently got married and had a 40 person head count, with 38 yeses. After a bunch of random crap, 13 of my 20 invitees flaked 3 days to 2 hours before the party, all of which were very, very close family members including a brother and two of my BILs. Had I known this, with ample timing, I would have invited more friends who WOULD have shown, but due to family taking up so much of the headcount, I couldn’t extend invites to them all. I vented to my mother who said at least I have my sister coming, who I said was only invited since the others were and she has never been nice to me or my husband - which my mother agreed with and said was a self-centered survival thing. I said she should learn a little kindness which would get her far. She despises my husband, who is genuinely as nice as can be, even to a fault. Doesn’t have a bad bone in his body, god bless him. But he supports me and loves me and we do well off each other and thrive, which she doesn’t like. Other siblings have commented on the fact she treats him so poorly when he is nothing but so kind to her.
Come party, 2 hours in and she’s nowhere to be seen. We’re waiting around to cut cakes since her household consisted of 5 people and we didn’t want to have people randomly walk in on it and ruin the photographs, miss the momentous moment, etc. My brother gets in touch with her and relays the message that I’m a monster, I’m childish and horrible and never welcome her to anything and I’m irrelevant and no one likes me which is why everyone bailed on me and I should be embarrassed. The only person I said those things to was my mother (who couldn’t come to party due to health reasons). I spent a majority of my wedding party crying on a fire escape because I was so upset by her words, so upset that everyone bailed, and so upset I didn’t follow my gut inviting other friends who would have come over obligatory family invites. I blocked my sister and her friend who joined in on her meanness. She has taken to emailing and texting me under spoof emails and phone numbers. Calling me irrelevant, embarrassing, disgusting, ugly, childish, greedy, no one showed up because they don’t like me, never been liked, etc.
My mother has spoken to her, but hasn’t reached out to me since the party when I said I was hurt at what she shared in confidence and need to think about what I want from this family anymore. My mother swears she went through her phone and saw the messages, but other parts of her (mothers) story don’t align. My mother historically has victim mindset over everything and could do no wrong.
I’m hurt, I’m upset. My husband has been amazing, but he doesn’t have any family that we could lean on ever. I’m torn between going fully no contact between my siblings who enable my sister, my mother who is emotionally abusive and enables her and doesn’t protect the rest of us, and calling it a day. Or going no contact with siblings, low contact with my mother, and never returning until they get their shit together and go to therapy. I just don’t know what is best anymore since I know my mom will never stand up to her. Family is all I’ve ever really had outside a close knit group of 3 friends, so it’s hard to go from everything to nothing in the blink of an eye.
Ever since my dad died and my sister took over, I have felt like I don’t have a spot in the family anymore. My sisters best friend of 15 years has always wanted to be apart of our big family since she had a dysfunctional one herself, and joins us on family vacations, Christmas, every waking moment. She is just as bad as my sister, and my sister is her only friend so she bows down to her. Since dad died, it’s like my sister and her friend don’t want me in the family and want to give the bff my daughter spot and to ostracize me. All of this is making me spiral and spiral and spiral. I haven’t been this bad mentally in a really, REALLY long time and it’s triggering me a lot.
I feel like as a woman, I’m held to a different caliber than the others. My brothers could do whatever they damn well please, and they do, and everyone turns a blind eye. With my sister being the oldest, she gets the same treatment. I am overwhelmed with what this family puts me through. My husband doesn’t have any family anymore for us to lean on, spend holidays with, etc. How do you move on? How do you find peace? How do you be okay with the fact nothing will ever change in this dynamic so it’s all or nothing?
FWIW - have an amazing therapist, amazing support group. Am ok, just sad and upset.
2024.05.21 11:51 Klutzy2627 AITA FOR GETTING MY BROTHER IN LAW'S SISTER AND HER FRIEND KICKED OUT FROM THE WEDDING
It was my cousin sister's wedding and we are Indians, so if you are Indian or know Indian friends/weddings, you know the drill - the daysss long wedding events, the heavy dresses and jewelry, and also, some serious family dramas.
My cousin and I are very close even if there is a huge age gap between us. Naturally, when her wedding came around I was very excited and I helped a lot with the planning and decoration and the food - literally everything. It was exactly as we have imagined her wedding to be like. Just perfect in every way possible. But again, it's a wedding. How is a wedding ever complete with a Drama Llama? So dear potato community, here is the tea.
The man that my cousin was marrying to, my current BIL, is an amazing man who has been with my cousin since their college days. They were friends in their college days and when they started working they joined the same company so they remained close to each other. Friendship turned into love and they decided to date and eventually get married. Both the families were informed and everyone was very happy with their decisions, except just one person. BIL's sister. She didn't have any personal problems with my cousin, her only issue was that her best friend liked my BIL, let's name this friend the 'idiot' (because she truly is an idiot and this is honestly the nicest word I can use for her).
When idiot found out that BIL loved someone else and is getting married, she went ballistic. She has been trying to get his attention for so many years and he didn't even turn towards her even for one day and he was being head over heels for my cousin. I understand her being upset, I have been a girl in love and in heartbreak too, but I wouldn't try to break someone's marriage because of my heartbreak.
Yes she tried to stop their marriage via BIL's sister. The two forged all types of absurd accusations on my cousin and tried to anonymously sneak in the accusations in means of messages from unknown numbers to my cousin's then future FIL and MIL, to emails and even letters delivered to their doorstep. My cousin was really stressed because she thought the FIL and MIL would think the accusations are true and would stop the wedding. I told her, "don't worry sisso, I am here." (add dramatic music here and imagine a cape on my back).
My cousin's father (my maternal uncle), me and my brother first went to the FIL and MIL to let them know that all of this was false and that my cousin is innocent. We asked them for some time and that we will find proof of who has been sending them those false news and will let them know of everything and then they are free to judge and make decisions from their side. We got the permission from them and decided to get to work immediately.
One thing I forgot to mention was that BIL used to live in his own house in a different state from where his parents lived after he got a job. Before this, my cousin and BIL used to live in one town and went to college together. Once they got their jobs, they both came to my city, BIL got his own house and my cousin came to live with me. His family came to live with him when he told them that he wanted to marry so they came help him with the wedding arrangements. What's unfortunate is that the sister also brought her best friend, the 'idiot', who was in love with my BIL since she was 15 and BIL was 17.
I mentioned BIL having his own separate house in a new town because it was important to mention. Both his sister and the idiot didn't know he installed security cameras in his house and that the camera was pretty well hidden so they couldn't have noticed either. We asked BIL if we can see the camera's recordings and we saw someone early in the morning at 4 am dropping a letter. Guess who it was... THE IDIOT!! We showed it to my cousin's FIL and MIL and they cross questioned the idiot about it and she was in tears and admitted to everything. She and BIL's sister apologized for everything. They were forgiven and it was a happily ever after... or so you thought...
Everything after that was pretty peaceful, all the arrangements were made and we are now at the wedding day. My cousin was really jumpy and on her toes at all times, she was panicking so bad about everything. My brother and I had to sit her down and talk her out of her panic. She however mentioned that she was scared that idiot might try to pull up some sick stunt to ruin her wedding day. I however told to her calm down cause I wouldn't let my precious angel's wedding get ruined. I have seen enough Charlotte's videos to know that we must always have a backup plan prepared in advance in situations like this. And so I did. I collected a lot of information and evidences and kept them in place in case they come in handy.
I had my suspicions that they would do something to mess up the wedding way before it even became a thought in my cousin's mind, so I did a little research about the two. Since we all belong from the same hometown, I got in contact with my friends who still lived in the town that my cousin and my BIL used to live in. I asked around about these two baboons and found out that BIL's sister had a boyfriend and has even slept with him. Premarital smex is a big no no here. As for the idiot, I found out that she was slowly getting BIL's sister into illegal substances and into becoming a call girl. Again, a big no no. And I think no parent in this world would want their child to do something that would end up in trouble for them and the child as well. I knew my cousin's FIL and MIL would be worried about their daughter and take actions immediately if I let them know of this. I would have told them this after the wedding was over anyway, but that would have been in private so no one else would know, but I guess the girls wanted something else.
Once the wedding ceremony started and the guests were all there, they were enjoying, everyone was having fun and giving their blessings to the new husband and wife to be. These two pain in the asses were going around and gossiping about my cousin to everyone. We noticed that, and we came up with a quick solution. I asked two of my male friends, who is very attractive to go and talk to the girls. However I told them to switch on their recorder and be with them no matter what. God bless my two friends, they did exactly what I told them without thinking twice. They came to me after an hour or so and told me what was going on.
The two girls were planning to ruin her wedding dress. When I tell you that shit was costly, IT WAS COSTLY. It was really heavy with all the heavy stone work that was done on the cream colored lehenga and if it was stained it would be ruined. We could not afford that in any cost. She was taking a glass of juice from the juice counters and tried sitting right behind the bride but I stepped in and told her to go sit behind her brother and that I would sit behind my cousin. She was trying so hard but me and my brother kept pushing her off and away from my cousin. Eventually she did manage to throw it but it accidentally landed on someone from the groom's side and she got scolded by her. While her grumpy face was funny to see, I still had enough because if that aunty wasn't there, it would have been my cousin. After the wedding was over and people were going to start taking the photos with the couple, I announced that me and my brother had some things to say. Initially we talked about the bride and the groom but then we shifted the attention to the groom's sister and her friend. We played the audios of the calls I had with her friends in the hometown as a surprise to the groom's sister. There were a lot of angry faces, some on the sister and some on me and my brother. I tried to explain, that had she and her friend not try to ruin my cousin sister's wedding dress, this wouldn't have been broadcasted to the entire wedding venue. I then called my two male friends and both of their faces was in gasps. Both of them pulled out their phones and I played the recordings on one of the phones, which explained how they were still spreading fake news about my cousin and also them planning to ruin my cousin's dress. We also got the video recording of them actively trying to throw the red colored drink on my cousin's dress.
Both of them got kicked out from there and weren't allowed to enter until the rest of the ceremony was over. Both of them stood outside, making attempts to convince anyone who would listen to them and let them in, but no one paid heed to them. Once everyone got home they were scolded badly and my BIL's sister kept screaming at me that I was so mean and rude to have their truths exposed to not just her family, but to every relative and friends who was there to witness the show. While my cousin was glad that I had her back and my brother is standing in support of me, my parents and some of our relatives think that it should have dealt within the family and shouldn't have been exposed to anyone outside of the immediate family members. AITA?
Note: I am so sorry if the post ended up being too long but I just wanted to give all the context that would be required to judge the entire situation and my actions as well. Also if something doesn't make sense just blame it on my sleepy head cause I wrote it in half sleep mode.
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My cousin and I are very close even if there is a huge age gap between us. Naturally, when her wedding came around I was very excited and I helped a lot with the planning and decoration and the food - literally everything. It was exactly as we have imagined her wedding to be like. Just perfect in every way possible. But again, it's a wedding. How is a wedding ever complete with a Drama Llama? So dear potato community, here is the tea.
The man that my cousin was marrying to, my current BIL, is an amazing man who has been with my cousin since their college days. They were friends in their college days and when they started working they joined the same company so they remained close to each other. Friendship turned into love and they decided to date and eventually get married. Both the families were informed and everyone was very happy with their decisions, except just one person. BIL's sister. She didn't have any personal problems with my cousin, her only issue was that her best friend liked my BIL, let's name this friend the 'idiot' (because she truly is an idiot and this is honestly the nicest word I can use for her).
When idiot found out that BIL loved someone else and is getting married, she went ballistic. She has been trying to get his attention for so many years and he didn't even turn towards her even for one day and he was being head over heels for my cousin. I understand her being upset, I have been a girl in love and in heartbreak too, but I wouldn't try to break someone's marriage because of my heartbreak.
Yes she tried to stop their marriage via BIL's sister. The two forged all types of absurd accusations on my cousin and tried to anonymously sneak in the accusations in means of messages from unknown numbers to my cousin's then future FIL and MIL, to emails and even letters delivered to their doorstep. My cousin was really stressed because she thought the FIL and MIL would think the accusations are true and would stop the wedding. I told her, "don't worry sisso, I am here." (add dramatic music here and imagine a cape on my back).
My cousin's father (my maternal uncle), me and my brother first went to the FIL and MIL to let them know that all of this was false and that my cousin is innocent. We asked them for some time and that we will find proof of who has been sending them those false news and will let them know of everything and then they are free to judge and make decisions from their side. We got the permission from them and decided to get to work immediately.
One thing I forgot to mention was that BIL used to live in his own house in a different state from where his parents lived after he got a job. Before this, my cousin and BIL used to live in one town and went to college together. Once they got their jobs, they both came to my city, BIL got his own house and my cousin came to live with me. His family came to live with him when he told them that he wanted to marry so they came help him with the wedding arrangements. What's unfortunate is that the sister also brought her best friend, the 'idiot', who was in love with my BIL since she was 15 and BIL was 17.
I mentioned BIL having his own separate house in a new town because it was important to mention. Both his sister and the idiot didn't know he installed security cameras in his house and that the camera was pretty well hidden so they couldn't have noticed either. We asked BIL if we can see the camera's recordings and we saw someone early in the morning at 4 am dropping a letter. Guess who it was... THE IDIOT!! We showed it to my cousin's FIL and MIL and they cross questioned the idiot about it and she was in tears and admitted to everything. She and BIL's sister apologized for everything. They were forgiven and it was a happily ever after... or so you thought...
Everything after that was pretty peaceful, all the arrangements were made and we are now at the wedding day. My cousin was really jumpy and on her toes at all times, she was panicking so bad about everything. My brother and I had to sit her down and talk her out of her panic. She however mentioned that she was scared that idiot might try to pull up some sick stunt to ruin her wedding day. I however told to her calm down cause I wouldn't let my precious angel's wedding get ruined. I have seen enough Charlotte's videos to know that we must always have a backup plan prepared in advance in situations like this. And so I did. I collected a lot of information and evidences and kept them in place in case they come in handy.
I had my suspicions that they would do something to mess up the wedding way before it even became a thought in my cousin's mind, so I did a little research about the two. Since we all belong from the same hometown, I got in contact with my friends who still lived in the town that my cousin and my BIL used to live in. I asked around about these two baboons and found out that BIL's sister had a boyfriend and has even slept with him. Premarital smex is a big no no here. As for the idiot, I found out that she was slowly getting BIL's sister into illegal substances and into becoming a call girl. Again, a big no no. And I think no parent in this world would want their child to do something that would end up in trouble for them and the child as well. I knew my cousin's FIL and MIL would be worried about their daughter and take actions immediately if I let them know of this. I would have told them this after the wedding was over anyway, but that would have been in private so no one else would know, but I guess the girls wanted something else.
Once the wedding ceremony started and the guests were all there, they were enjoying, everyone was having fun and giving their blessings to the new husband and wife to be. These two pain in the asses were going around and gossiping about my cousin to everyone. We noticed that, and we came up with a quick solution. I asked two of my male friends, who is very attractive to go and talk to the girls. However I told them to switch on their recorder and be with them no matter what. God bless my two friends, they did exactly what I told them without thinking twice. They came to me after an hour or so and told me what was going on.
The two girls were planning to ruin her wedding dress. When I tell you that shit was costly, IT WAS COSTLY. It was really heavy with all the heavy stone work that was done on the cream colored lehenga and if it was stained it would be ruined. We could not afford that in any cost. She was taking a glass of juice from the juice counters and tried sitting right behind the bride but I stepped in and told her to go sit behind her brother and that I would sit behind my cousin. She was trying so hard but me and my brother kept pushing her off and away from my cousin. Eventually she did manage to throw it but it accidentally landed on someone from the groom's side and she got scolded by her. While her grumpy face was funny to see, I still had enough because if that aunty wasn't there, it would have been my cousin. After the wedding was over and people were going to start taking the photos with the couple, I announced that me and my brother had some things to say. Initially we talked about the bride and the groom but then we shifted the attention to the groom's sister and her friend. We played the audios of the calls I had with her friends in the hometown as a surprise to the groom's sister. There were a lot of angry faces, some on the sister and some on me and my brother. I tried to explain, that had she and her friend not try to ruin my cousin sister's wedding dress, this wouldn't have been broadcasted to the entire wedding venue. I then called my two male friends and both of their faces was in gasps. Both of them pulled out their phones and I played the recordings on one of the phones, which explained how they were still spreading fake news about my cousin and also them planning to ruin my cousin's dress. We also got the video recording of them actively trying to throw the red colored drink on my cousin's dress.
Both of them got kicked out from there and weren't allowed to enter until the rest of the ceremony was over. Both of them stood outside, making attempts to convince anyone who would listen to them and let them in, but no one paid heed to them. Once everyone got home they were scolded badly and my BIL's sister kept screaming at me that I was so mean and rude to have their truths exposed to not just her family, but to every relative and friends who was there to witness the show. While my cousin was glad that I had her back and my brother is standing in support of me, my parents and some of our relatives think that it should have dealt within the family and shouldn't have been exposed to anyone outside of the immediate family members. AITA?
Note: I am so sorry if the post ended up being too long but I just wanted to give all the context that would be required to judge the entire situation and my actions as well. Also if something doesn't make sense just blame it on my sleepy head cause I wrote it in half sleep mode.
2024.05.21 08:37 somedevchick I (41F) kicked my alcoholic husband (39M) out.
Ihave been with my husband for just shy of 14 years. This is going to be a long one so strap in. There’s some nuance.
He is an alcoholic and struggles with other addictions like porn, marijuana, caffeine, nicotine, etc. if it can raise the dopamine level he is hooked onto it.
Going into our relationship I had a 4 year old with a previous abusive partner who had abandoned her when I finally broke off he relationship. My husband and my daughter bonded and I felt led to pursue a relationship with him. Before we got married I found out he was sneaking around and drinking so about 4 months prior to the wedding I gave him an ultimatum that he had to stop drinking and under the agreement that he would never return to it or it would be the end of our marriage. (This was a boundary I set for myself and I gave him an out of the relationship if he could not adhere to my boundary. I come from a family with a lot of alcoholism issues and my husband watched me mourn my uncle who died from complications of alcoholism). He agreed and he was sober from alcohol for 12 years.
Throughout our marriage other issues bubbled up. He never complimented me, he rarely initiated any physical intimacy. He would sit on the opposite side of the couch and he wouldn’t cuddle me or hold my hand. There was little to no affection unless I initiated it. I told him many times that that’s what I need to feel loved, and literally for a decade+ I would cry every few months and beg for that attention and he would get better for a week or two and then fall back to old habits.
I stayed because overall he is a good man, he is kind and he is a great father. Having come from a severely abusive relationship not getting the affection I craved felt like it wasn’t a deal breaker. Since my world was skewed by violence. My husband was never violent and didn’t yell at me or verbally abuse me. So I thought it was worth trying to stay.
Nearly 3 years ago we had a son. And my husband suffered a back injury that ended his career - so we decided he would be a stay at home dad until he healed or until our son got into school. I made enough money to support us so it was fine. Except he fell into a depression - I got him into therapy and on meds but he just wasn’t the same. I could tell he hated being a stay at home dad and I encouraged him during the last 3 years he’s been home to pursue hobbies, interests and potential new careers. He hasn’t. I encouraged him to spend time with friends and get out of the house - he hasn’t.
Things got a bit better when he got medicated - but he was struggling still with hiding and sneaking around with different addictions. He would start one quit another… t got to the point that between his depressive state, inability and unwillingness to find anything to make him feel more fulfilled and his lack of attention to me and our marital bond, I asked for a co-parenting marriage.
I told him I wanted to end our romantic relationship so I could pursue outside relationships to get my intimacy needs met (and he was free to do the same) and we would stay together cohabitating for the sake of the kids especially our daughter who we had planned to move across country for so she can attend her dream college. He took a few days to think about it and came back to me with only concerns about what it meant for him financially speaking. I assured him I’d still take care of him while he figured out what he wanted to be doing with his life. Since he was primary caretaker of our son I told him I’d do whatever it took to ensure he was set. He agreed to have the co-parenting marriage, he told me he really hopes I find what I need and that he’s been unable to provide me and gave me his blessing to date. and we informed our families together as a united front. I thought things would be ok from there. This was in March.
I will preface this next bit by saying we have always had an open phone rule because of my trust issues from the many times over the years he’s broken my trust by hiding another addiction. And also because he has a hard time expressing himself and doesn’t talk to me. I couldn’t get a read on what he was thinking about this new arrangement and he (as usual) was not talking to me / expressing his feelings. So I peeked at his texts hoping to get a look into his mindset. This was absolutely wrong and I own this (I owned it to him too). I hoped to find that he was telling someone that he loved me and didn’t any the open marriage cause he just wasn’t expressing that to me with his actions. Instead I found him vilifying me to his siblings claiming basically he had no money and wasn’t allowed to do anything and I was dating already. None of this was true - he even had an allowance for his personal spending in his own account.
That kind of brought our relationship to a head and I confronted him about it. He claims he was venting I told him venting is one thing but these were lies that effectively made his siblings dislike me. I told him after that I could no longer agree to live together long term and that once we moved out of state he had to find a job and get his own place.
This was a couple weeks ago. Fast forward to last week he came to me basically concerned that we should stay together cause we are going to need each others and he has fears about becoming homeless. I told him he just wants to continue to benefit from my salary and the life it has afforded him. So I told him it’s not going to happen.
Now, Saturday morning he was out with a friend and I took my son on a morning walk. He does this same walk with my husband often. They go to the store across the street and my son gets an apple. So we go into the store and my toddler makes a beeline for the apples and it was cute - but then he takes me to the liquor department and hands me a fifth of vodka and looks at me all proud of himself for it. At first I was laughing but then realized oh no… there has to be a reason for this. I noted the vodka was $6.99, and the apple was $1, so I checked the bank account and there were 8 transactions for $8 and some change from the last month.
So my son and I walked home and when my husband got home I told him the story of what our son did and asked if he had something to confess. He started sharing and told me that yes he had returned to drinking. I calmly told him he needs to leave and waited for a few hours while he got his stuff together and arranged for his parents to pick him up. I told him he is not welcome on the move and he has to find his own way to the new state if he wants to be with the kids.
It’s been 2 days and I’ve been crying non stop because my family has completely been destroyed and now I’m a work from home mom of 2 with a toddler who requires a lot of attention. I’m on my own and I’m so angry with him. My heart is broken for my children. My daughter is devastated, my son is confused.
Did I do the right thing? I have an emergency appt with my therapist tomorrow - but I’m struggling with guilt because of my role in this since I couldn’t be happy with his lack of ambition and lack of intimacy had I just sucked it up maybe my family would still be ok. But then I know it’s bs because he involved our son in his addictions which I almost kicked him out for taking him to a headshop when he was 1 - he knew that was a boundary.
How would you handle this situation? Did I do the right thing?
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He is an alcoholic and struggles with other addictions like porn, marijuana, caffeine, nicotine, etc. if it can raise the dopamine level he is hooked onto it.
Going into our relationship I had a 4 year old with a previous abusive partner who had abandoned her when I finally broke off he relationship. My husband and my daughter bonded and I felt led to pursue a relationship with him. Before we got married I found out he was sneaking around and drinking so about 4 months prior to the wedding I gave him an ultimatum that he had to stop drinking and under the agreement that he would never return to it or it would be the end of our marriage. (This was a boundary I set for myself and I gave him an out of the relationship if he could not adhere to my boundary. I come from a family with a lot of alcoholism issues and my husband watched me mourn my uncle who died from complications of alcoholism). He agreed and he was sober from alcohol for 12 years.
Throughout our marriage other issues bubbled up. He never complimented me, he rarely initiated any physical intimacy. He would sit on the opposite side of the couch and he wouldn’t cuddle me or hold my hand. There was little to no affection unless I initiated it. I told him many times that that’s what I need to feel loved, and literally for a decade+ I would cry every few months and beg for that attention and he would get better for a week or two and then fall back to old habits.
I stayed because overall he is a good man, he is kind and he is a great father. Having come from a severely abusive relationship not getting the affection I craved felt like it wasn’t a deal breaker. Since my world was skewed by violence. My husband was never violent and didn’t yell at me or verbally abuse me. So I thought it was worth trying to stay.
Nearly 3 years ago we had a son. And my husband suffered a back injury that ended his career - so we decided he would be a stay at home dad until he healed or until our son got into school. I made enough money to support us so it was fine. Except he fell into a depression - I got him into therapy and on meds but he just wasn’t the same. I could tell he hated being a stay at home dad and I encouraged him during the last 3 years he’s been home to pursue hobbies, interests and potential new careers. He hasn’t. I encouraged him to spend time with friends and get out of the house - he hasn’t.
Things got a bit better when he got medicated - but he was struggling still with hiding and sneaking around with different addictions. He would start one quit another… t got to the point that between his depressive state, inability and unwillingness to find anything to make him feel more fulfilled and his lack of attention to me and our marital bond, I asked for a co-parenting marriage.
I told him I wanted to end our romantic relationship so I could pursue outside relationships to get my intimacy needs met (and he was free to do the same) and we would stay together cohabitating for the sake of the kids especially our daughter who we had planned to move across country for so she can attend her dream college. He took a few days to think about it and came back to me with only concerns about what it meant for him financially speaking. I assured him I’d still take care of him while he figured out what he wanted to be doing with his life. Since he was primary caretaker of our son I told him I’d do whatever it took to ensure he was set. He agreed to have the co-parenting marriage, he told me he really hopes I find what I need and that he’s been unable to provide me and gave me his blessing to date. and we informed our families together as a united front. I thought things would be ok from there. This was in March.
I will preface this next bit by saying we have always had an open phone rule because of my trust issues from the many times over the years he’s broken my trust by hiding another addiction. And also because he has a hard time expressing himself and doesn’t talk to me. I couldn’t get a read on what he was thinking about this new arrangement and he (as usual) was not talking to me / expressing his feelings. So I peeked at his texts hoping to get a look into his mindset. This was absolutely wrong and I own this (I owned it to him too). I hoped to find that he was telling someone that he loved me and didn’t any the open marriage cause he just wasn’t expressing that to me with his actions. Instead I found him vilifying me to his siblings claiming basically he had no money and wasn’t allowed to do anything and I was dating already. None of this was true - he even had an allowance for his personal spending in his own account.
That kind of brought our relationship to a head and I confronted him about it. He claims he was venting I told him venting is one thing but these were lies that effectively made his siblings dislike me. I told him after that I could no longer agree to live together long term and that once we moved out of state he had to find a job and get his own place.
This was a couple weeks ago. Fast forward to last week he came to me basically concerned that we should stay together cause we are going to need each others and he has fears about becoming homeless. I told him he just wants to continue to benefit from my salary and the life it has afforded him. So I told him it’s not going to happen.
Now, Saturday morning he was out with a friend and I took my son on a morning walk. He does this same walk with my husband often. They go to the store across the street and my son gets an apple. So we go into the store and my toddler makes a beeline for the apples and it was cute - but then he takes me to the liquor department and hands me a fifth of vodka and looks at me all proud of himself for it. At first I was laughing but then realized oh no… there has to be a reason for this. I noted the vodka was $6.99, and the apple was $1, so I checked the bank account and there were 8 transactions for $8 and some change from the last month.
So my son and I walked home and when my husband got home I told him the story of what our son did and asked if he had something to confess. He started sharing and told me that yes he had returned to drinking. I calmly told him he needs to leave and waited for a few hours while he got his stuff together and arranged for his parents to pick him up. I told him he is not welcome on the move and he has to find his own way to the new state if he wants to be with the kids.
It’s been 2 days and I’ve been crying non stop because my family has completely been destroyed and now I’m a work from home mom of 2 with a toddler who requires a lot of attention. I’m on my own and I’m so angry with him. My heart is broken for my children. My daughter is devastated, my son is confused.
Did I do the right thing? I have an emergency appt with my therapist tomorrow - but I’m struggling with guilt because of my role in this since I couldn’t be happy with his lack of ambition and lack of intimacy had I just sucked it up maybe my family would still be ok. But then I know it’s bs because he involved our son in his addictions which I almost kicked him out for taking him to a headshop when he was 1 - he knew that was a boundary.
How would you handle this situation? Did I do the right thing?
2024.05.21 08:03 somedevchick Am I (41F) doing the right thing by kicking my husband (39M) out?
Ihave been with my husband for just shy of 14 years. This is going to be a long one so strap in. There’s some nuance.
He is an alcoholic and struggles with other addictions like porn, marijuana, caffeine, nicotine, etc. if it can raise the dopamine level he is hooked onto it.
Going into our relationship I had a 4 year old with a previous abusive partner who had abandoned her when I finally broke off he relationship. My husband and my daughter bonded and I felt led to pursue a relationship with him. Before we got married I found out he was sneaking around and drinking so about 4 months prior to the wedding I gave him an ultimatum that he had to stop drinking and under the agreement that he would never return to it or it would be the end of our marriage. (This was a boundary I set for myself and I gave him an out of the relationship if he could not adhere to my boundary. I come from a family with a lot of alcoholism issues and my husband watched me mourn my uncle who died from complications of alcoholism). He agreed and he was sober from alcohol for 12 years.
Throughout our marriage other issues bubbled up. He never complimented me, he rarely initiated any physical intimacy. He would sit on the opposite side of the couch and he wouldn’t cuddle me or hold my hand. There was little to no affection unless I initiated it. I told him many times that that’s what I need to feel loved, and literally for a decade+ I would cry every few months and beg for that attention and he would get better for a week or two and then fall back to old habits.
I stayed because overall he is a good man, he is kind and he is a great father. Having come from a severely abusive relationship not getting the affection I craved felt like it wasn’t a deal breaker. Since my world was skewed by violence. My husband was never violent and didn’t yell at me or verbally abuse me. So I thought it was worth trying to stay.
Nearly 3 years ago we had a son. And my husband suffered a back injury that ended his career - so we decided he would be a stay at home dad until he healed or until our son got into school. I made enough money to support us so it was fine. Except he fell into a depression - I got him into therapy and on meds but he just wasn’t the same. I could tell he hated being a stay at home dad and I encouraged him during the last 3 years he’s been home to pursue hobbies, interests and potential new careers. He hasn’t. I encouraged him to spend time with friends and get out of the house - he hasn’t.
Things got a bit better when he got medicated - but he was struggling still with hiding and sneaking around with different addictions. He would start one quit another… t got to the point that between his depressive state, inability and unwillingness to find anything to make him feel more fulfilled and his lack of attention to me and our marital bond, I asked for a co-parenting marriage.
I told him I wanted to end our romantic relationship so I could pursue outside relationships to get my intimacy needs met (and he was free to do the same) and we would stay together cohabitating for the sake of the kids especially our daughter who we had planned to move across country for so she can attend her dream college. He took a few days to think about it and came back to me with only concerns about what it meant for him financially speaking. I assured him I’d still take care of him while he figured out what he wanted to be doing with his life. Since he was primary caretaker of our son I told him I’d do whatever it took to ensure he was set. He agreed to have the co-parenting marriage, he told me he really hopes I find what I need and that he’s been unable to provide me and gave me his blessing to date. and we informed our families together as a united front. I thought things would be ok from there. This was in March.
I will preface this next bit by saying we have always had an open phone rule because of my trust issues from the many times over the years he’s broken my trust by hiding another addiction. And also because he has a hard time expressing himself and doesn’t talk to me. I couldn’t get a read on what he was thinking about this new arrangement and he (as usual) was not talking to me / expressing his feelings. So I peeked at his texts hoping to get a look into his mindset. This was absolutely wrong and I own this (I owned it to him too). I hoped to find that he was telling someone that he loved me and didn’t any the open marriage cause he just wasn’t expressing that to me with his actions. Instead I found him vilifying me to his siblings claiming basically he had no money and wasn’t allowed to do anything and I was dating already. None of this was true - he even had an allowance for his personal spending in his own account.
That kind of brought our relationship to a head and I confronted him about it. He claims he was venting I told him venting is one thing but these were lies that effectively made his siblings dislike me. I told him after that I could no longer agree to live together long term and that once we moved out of state he had to find a job and get his own place.
This was a couple weeks ago. Fast forward to last week he came to me basically concerned that we should stay together cause we are going to need each others and he has fears about becoming homeless. I told him he just wants to continue to benefit from my salary and the life it has afforded him. So I told him it’s not going to happen.
Now, Saturday morning he was out with a friend and I took my son on a morning walk. He does this same walk with my husband often. They go to the store across the street and my son gets an apple. So we go into the store and my toddler makes a beeline for the apples and it was cute - but then he takes me to the liquor department and hands me a fifth of vodka and looks at me all proud of himself for it. At first I was laughing but then realized oh no… there has to be a reason for this. I noted the vodka was $6.99, and the apple was $1, so I checked the bank account and there were 8 transactions for $8 and some change from the last month.
So my son and I walked home and when my husband got home I told him the story of what our son did and asked if he had something to confess. He started sharing and told me that yes he had returned to drinking. I calmly told him he needs to leave and waited for a few hours while he got his stuff together and arranged for his parents to pick him up. I told him he is not welcome on the move and he has to find his own way to the new state if he wants to be with the kids.
It’s been 2 days and I’ve been crying non stop because my family has completely been destroyed and now I’m a work from home mom of 2 with a toddler who requires a lot of attention. I’m on my own and I’m so angry with him. My heart is broken for my children. My daughter is devastated, my son is confused.
Did I do the right thing? I have an emergency appt with my therapist tomorrow - but I’m struggling with guilt because of my role in this since I couldn’t be happy with his lack of ambition and lack of intimacy had I just sucked it up maybe my family would still be ok. But then I know it’s bs because he involved our son in his addictions which I almost kicked him out for taking him to a headshop when he was 1 - he knew that was a boundary.
How would you handle this situation? Did I do the right thing?
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He is an alcoholic and struggles with other addictions like porn, marijuana, caffeine, nicotine, etc. if it can raise the dopamine level he is hooked onto it.
Going into our relationship I had a 4 year old with a previous abusive partner who had abandoned her when I finally broke off he relationship. My husband and my daughter bonded and I felt led to pursue a relationship with him. Before we got married I found out he was sneaking around and drinking so about 4 months prior to the wedding I gave him an ultimatum that he had to stop drinking and under the agreement that he would never return to it or it would be the end of our marriage. (This was a boundary I set for myself and I gave him an out of the relationship if he could not adhere to my boundary. I come from a family with a lot of alcoholism issues and my husband watched me mourn my uncle who died from complications of alcoholism). He agreed and he was sober from alcohol for 12 years.
Throughout our marriage other issues bubbled up. He never complimented me, he rarely initiated any physical intimacy. He would sit on the opposite side of the couch and he wouldn’t cuddle me or hold my hand. There was little to no affection unless I initiated it. I told him many times that that’s what I need to feel loved, and literally for a decade+ I would cry every few months and beg for that attention and he would get better for a week or two and then fall back to old habits.
I stayed because overall he is a good man, he is kind and he is a great father. Having come from a severely abusive relationship not getting the affection I craved felt like it wasn’t a deal breaker. Since my world was skewed by violence. My husband was never violent and didn’t yell at me or verbally abuse me. So I thought it was worth trying to stay.
Nearly 3 years ago we had a son. And my husband suffered a back injury that ended his career - so we decided he would be a stay at home dad until he healed or until our son got into school. I made enough money to support us so it was fine. Except he fell into a depression - I got him into therapy and on meds but he just wasn’t the same. I could tell he hated being a stay at home dad and I encouraged him during the last 3 years he’s been home to pursue hobbies, interests and potential new careers. He hasn’t. I encouraged him to spend time with friends and get out of the house - he hasn’t.
Things got a bit better when he got medicated - but he was struggling still with hiding and sneaking around with different addictions. He would start one quit another… t got to the point that between his depressive state, inability and unwillingness to find anything to make him feel more fulfilled and his lack of attention to me and our marital bond, I asked for a co-parenting marriage.
I told him I wanted to end our romantic relationship so I could pursue outside relationships to get my intimacy needs met (and he was free to do the same) and we would stay together cohabitating for the sake of the kids especially our daughter who we had planned to move across country for so she can attend her dream college. He took a few days to think about it and came back to me with only concerns about what it meant for him financially speaking. I assured him I’d still take care of him while he figured out what he wanted to be doing with his life. Since he was primary caretaker of our son I told him I’d do whatever it took to ensure he was set. He agreed to have the co-parenting marriage, he told me he really hopes I find what I need and that he’s been unable to provide me and gave me his blessing to date. and we informed our families together as a united front. I thought things would be ok from there. This was in March.
I will preface this next bit by saying we have always had an open phone rule because of my trust issues from the many times over the years he’s broken my trust by hiding another addiction. And also because he has a hard time expressing himself and doesn’t talk to me. I couldn’t get a read on what he was thinking about this new arrangement and he (as usual) was not talking to me / expressing his feelings. So I peeked at his texts hoping to get a look into his mindset. This was absolutely wrong and I own this (I owned it to him too). I hoped to find that he was telling someone that he loved me and didn’t any the open marriage cause he just wasn’t expressing that to me with his actions. Instead I found him vilifying me to his siblings claiming basically he had no money and wasn’t allowed to do anything and I was dating already. None of this was true - he even had an allowance for his personal spending in his own account.
That kind of brought our relationship to a head and I confronted him about it. He claims he was venting I told him venting is one thing but these were lies that effectively made his siblings dislike me. I told him after that I could no longer agree to live together long term and that once we moved out of state he had to find a job and get his own place.
This was a couple weeks ago. Fast forward to last week he came to me basically concerned that we should stay together cause we are going to need each others and he has fears about becoming homeless. I told him he just wants to continue to benefit from my salary and the life it has afforded him. So I told him it’s not going to happen.
Now, Saturday morning he was out with a friend and I took my son on a morning walk. He does this same walk with my husband often. They go to the store across the street and my son gets an apple. So we go into the store and my toddler makes a beeline for the apples and it was cute - but then he takes me to the liquor department and hands me a fifth of vodka and looks at me all proud of himself for it. At first I was laughing but then realized oh no… there has to be a reason for this. I noted the vodka was $6.99, and the apple was $1, so I checked the bank account and there were 8 transactions for $8 and some change from the last month.
So my son and I walked home and when my husband got home I told him the story of what our son did and asked if he had something to confess. He started sharing and told me that yes he had returned to drinking. I calmly told him he needs to leave and waited for a few hours while he got his stuff together and arranged for his parents to pick him up. I told him he is not welcome on the move and he has to find his own way to the new state if he wants to be with the kids.
It’s been 2 days and I’ve been crying non stop because my family has completely been destroyed and now I’m a work from home mom of 2 with a toddler who requires a lot of attention. I’m on my own and I’m so angry with him. My heart is broken for my children. My daughter is devastated, my son is confused.
Did I do the right thing? I have an emergency appt with my therapist tomorrow - but I’m struggling with guilt because of my role in this since I couldn’t be happy with his lack of ambition and lack of intimacy had I just sucked it up maybe my family would still be ok. But then I know it’s bs because he involved our son in his addictions which I almost kicked him out for taking him to a headshop when he was 1 - he knew that was a boundary.
How would you handle this situation? Did I do the right thing?
2024.05.21 06:56 Apprehensive_Earth46 🥰 Happy Updates
I’ve posted a few times about one of my relationships and received great insight from y’all! Thank you 🙏🏻
Since my last post, my partner and I have experienced some plot twists that led to him being gone much longer than either of us expected or desired. He had family obligations that he really needed to attend to.
It’s been about five weeks since we’ve seen each other, and it’s been tough! However, I’ve taken much of the advice here to heart. We’ve used this time to communicate more clearly about our needs, find other ways to stay connected, and the current arrangement gave us several days of uninterrupted time together before he left. This allowed us to confirm that we truly enjoy spending sustained time together. 😅
All to say, it feels so good to be in love with such an awesome human. I don’t think I’ve ever felt more respected and heard. I can express discomfort and be met with genuine empathy, while trusting him to maintain his boundaries.
This summer has been challenging, but we’re making it. I’m going to meet him at the end of this week to attend a relative’s wedding and meet his extended family. I’ve been a bit nervous about this, but it feels fun, aligned, and true for us. I’m just really happy that we each get to prioritize the other in the ways we can.
There was part of me kinda holding back about the “seriousness” of the relationship because of many things (fear of big feeling mostly tbh) but the truth is that I’d totally be traveling or going to weddings with monogamous partners of 9-10 months. And it feels good to honor this relationship in the same way, and be totally surprised by the fact that it’s available.
I attribute his incredible relationship skills to his 20+ years of practicing polyamory. And all the work I’ve done too! Wow it feels so good to live such a balanced life- I continue dating others and am still seeking my own partner with NP potential. I also told my parents about everything which is truly wild.
Feeling blessed by the polyamory gods. Receiving gifts the more I let go of control and allow things to work out as they will. 🙌🏻
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Since my last post, my partner and I have experienced some plot twists that led to him being gone much longer than either of us expected or desired. He had family obligations that he really needed to attend to.
It’s been about five weeks since we’ve seen each other, and it’s been tough! However, I’ve taken much of the advice here to heart. We’ve used this time to communicate more clearly about our needs, find other ways to stay connected, and the current arrangement gave us several days of uninterrupted time together before he left. This allowed us to confirm that we truly enjoy spending sustained time together. 😅
All to say, it feels so good to be in love with such an awesome human. I don’t think I’ve ever felt more respected and heard. I can express discomfort and be met with genuine empathy, while trusting him to maintain his boundaries.
This summer has been challenging, but we’re making it. I’m going to meet him at the end of this week to attend a relative’s wedding and meet his extended family. I’ve been a bit nervous about this, but it feels fun, aligned, and true for us. I’m just really happy that we each get to prioritize the other in the ways we can.
There was part of me kinda holding back about the “seriousness” of the relationship because of many things (fear of big feeling mostly tbh) but the truth is that I’d totally be traveling or going to weddings with monogamous partners of 9-10 months. And it feels good to honor this relationship in the same way, and be totally surprised by the fact that it’s available.
I attribute his incredible relationship skills to his 20+ years of practicing polyamory. And all the work I’ve done too! Wow it feels so good to live such a balanced life- I continue dating others and am still seeking my own partner with NP potential. I also told my parents about everything which is truly wild.
Feeling blessed by the polyamory gods. Receiving gifts the more I let go of control and allow things to work out as they will. 🙌🏻
2024.05.21 05:48 Rich-Chip5399 Help I’m stuck in the middle!
I am a professional florist and wedding planner (25 years). I am also the stepmother to a son who is to be married. Twist to this story… they are early twenties and expecting… so a wedding has been planned for a few weeks from now. I initially spoke with MOB AND MOG who both do not live close to where event will take place. It’s to be a small event at a small local church. From the beginning both bio moms have stated they cannot afford to host wedding. Great. We can and I have the means to do so at cost. Everything the bride wanted she has sent to me (we get along very well) but I have also sent the invitation that was designed as well as flower inspiration photos to mothers and spoke to each on the phone at length. Well invites have gone out, I’ve paid for everything except her dress and grooms cake, secured church, minister they chose and photographer. MOB received an invitation in the mail today (because bride wanted her to have as a memento) and she LOST IT ON ME. Stating proper etiquette says the parents names should be on the invite… but my stepson and fiancé wanted just their names since I (the stepmom) am essentially hosting it and we will have a printed program at the wedding with parent names. So to sum this up the MOB who explicitly told me she couldn’t pay for even a small affair has texted everyone in a group message saying how inappropriate the invite was and that she will not be pushed to the side at her own daughters wedding. Although let me remind you she cannot afford to pay for anything. She has demanded that I send her pricing for everything for her to “approve” it from this point forward. The wedding is in two weeks. Everything is ordered and done. I just have to work my magic with flowers and food (which I can do at cost). Essentially I have been slapped in the face. Reduced to a hired hand. I have consulted with the BRIDE on everything and received her approval because I AM PAYING FOR IT. I don't feel the need to consult with her mother on every detail because they don’t have the best relationship and it’s not her wedding! Should I just back out of everything and let her come up with what she can? I am afraid the bride will not stand up to her mother and I feel extremely hurt and blindsided. I have spent thousands that I cannot get back. I am of the impression that if you are young and pregnant, cannot afford a wedding and neither can your family… that this is a gift and a blessing! And I have done all this from a pure heart. I love them both! Right now I do not know what to do because the MOB is literally being manipulative and controlling. And she is doing it publicly. I refuse to send someone the bills for things I have already paid for knowing she will never pay for them! Am I right to think she just wants all the credit but for me to foot the bill? And labor? I need suggestions on how to handle this.
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2024.05.21 01:53 DepartureHonest7948 The Uncompromising Blissful Extravagance of His Presence!
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By CMM.World CMMTheology.org - November 10, 2022
Dear Mighty One,
I see the Lord's eye upon us we discover by revelation the 'new thing' He is doing in our lives and of those of us who, beyond the present darkness, gaze into His eyes. The 'tuning fork' of Yahweh is orchestrating the sons and daughters of our living God in growing holy remnant unity to withstand as we stand with Him fearlessly in the boldness of the faith of God in this hour. Egypt is behind us, and the covenantal promises and prophetic words we have received (1 Tim. 1:18) empower us by His Holy Spirit to advance in warfare, humbly growing in the spirit of wisdom and revelation.

Yesterday as I encouraged some friends, I said, 'stay in the blissful extravagance of His presence.' Today I saw in Psalm 34 His eyes are upon us in vs. 8 & 9 and v:15 about the 'uncompromisingly righteous.' We are to be holy as He is holy. That leaves no room for any more compromise or seeking to please man or the traditions of men, being free of the fear of man, the religious spirit, and any demonic activity. We are seated in heavenly places with Christ Jesus. Lord, help us understand by revelation to walk in all the authority we have been given by Jesus Christ.
Psalm 34:8-9 'O taste and see that the Lord [our God] is good! Blessed (happy, fortunate, to be envied) is the man who trusts and takes refuge in Him. O fear the Lord, you His saints [revere and worship Him]! For there is no want to those who truly revere and worship Him with godly fear.'
v. 15 'The eyes of the Lord are toward the [uncompromisingly] righteous and His ears are open to their cry.'
Chuck Pierce shared this amazing word from Penny Jackson that is right on for this season: https://christsmandate.blogspot.com/2022/11/chuck-pierce-shares-powerful-word-from.html
May YOUR November be full of Thanksgiving and Praise for you and yours as YOU enjoy The Uncompromising Blissful Extravagance of His Presence!
Thank you for praying for CMM and all your fellow CMM Global Family worldwide. Pray for all the missionaries, schools, and students in CMM College of Theology in the US, Ecuador, Canada, Cuba, Myanmar, Nigeria, and Thailand.
Pray for the new wells and the living water and safe water recently drilled or soon to be drilled in Tanzania, India, Malawi, and Pakistan.
Pray for our upcoming Christmas gift campaigns to bless children and youth in many nations. Many of them are precious, beautiful children (orphans). As the Lord leads, pray about giving any amount to bless dear CMM children this Christmas. https://cmmworld.kindful.com/
Pray for each other, dear friends. We all know we each need prayers going up to Heaven for all those on the front lines. We each are on the front lines!
Please pray for me as I speak tomorrow online to a crusade with 8,000 expected to attend in Pakistan. In December, I will speak at conferences in Liberia and Kenya with fellow CMM Ordained ministers Robert Bimba (Liberia), Tom Omukhobero, and Daniel and Christine Oyoko (Kenya).
We are working on plans and trips for 2023. If you would like to have some of our awesome CMM family speakers for a conference in your area or would like to join or lead a missions trip, we would love to hook you up with dear friends in many nations.
Please join me in welcoming Dr. Louis Blom of Judea Harvest as Associate Director of Missions at CMM. This strategic alliance multiplies the efforts and impact in building the Kingdom of our God, for His glory. https://youtu.be/HXfP8tCySRc

Many blessings and shalom from us all here at the home office and around the world.
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Honoring and Celebrating the Class of 2022's 196 Graduates of CMM College of Theology Global Schools
By CMM.World CMMTheology.org - June 15, 2022

We are rejoicing! We just celebrated two of our six schools' graduations on June 4th in the US and June 11th in Ecuador and we thank the Lord for all He has done in their lives and will do in this new era. We honor the faith in action of each of the seventy-eight students (in the USA and Ecuador schools this year)of all ages and from different streams and backgrounds. We thank the Lord for the hunger, perseverance and faith to finish strong. Each one encountered the Lord in fresh new ways as their hunger and perseverance in faith reaped eternal change as evidenced in their dissertations and heavenly encounters. In the last few months we have graduated 196 students from our global schools. All glory to the Lord as we enter our 16th year of offering affordable, life changing accredited degrees around the world. Each year our school is led by the Holy Spirit to go higher and deeper in excellence in academic standards and spirit-led equipping in a truly experiential, interactive, a
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By CMM.World CMMTheology.org - January 02, 2022

Prophetic Encouragement for 2022 By Jorge Parrott (all scriptures NKJV) (Graphic art by Nancy G. Daniel) Despite the impending wars, division, chaos, calamity, and deceptive controls we hear the voice of our Lord at times speaking, or roaring, or whispering, and breathing on the sons of God. Are we listening yet? Heaven’s roar is clear to those with an ear to hear what the Spirit of the Living God is saying. This year holds untold opportunities, many answered prayers, and the cries of many hearts if we arise to walk obediently in His fullness, not growing weary in well-doing, nor fainting in the heat of this fiery battle. Deut. 6:4 ‘ The Lord our God, the Lord is one! 5 You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your strength.’ Jesus was asked many questions. What should you ask
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By CMM.World CMMTheology.org - July 19, 2022

Highlights Of Our Amazing Trip To The Holy Land With Chris Reed And Bart Peacher Prov. 16:9 ' A man’s mind plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps and makes them sure.' We are continually blessed and in awe of how the Lord breathes and moves in our lives. As we press into the high calling of Jesus Christ and we grow in intimacy and trust by faith, His love, grace, and mercy unfold in surprising ways. I had not been to Israel since 2017. So much has changed in the world since then as we see the tremendous acceleration of the times and seasons. Chaos, control, and corruption are increasing at an alarming rate. Our only hope is in Jesus Christ and His righteousness. Divine Encounters Abound As We Are Led By Holy Spirit And Make Ourselves Available Many churches are led by their pursuit of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil instead of the knowledge of the Tree of Life. As we surrender fully to the Holy Spirit, we learn to walk in deep humility and attenti
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The Uncompromising Blissful Extravagance of His Presence! Inbox
By CMM.World CMMTheology.org - November 10, 2022
Dear Mighty One,
I see the Lord's eye upon us we discover by revelation the 'new thing' He is doing in our lives and of those of us who, beyond the present darkness, gaze into His eyes. The 'tuning fork' of Yahweh is orchestrating the sons and daughters of our living God in growing holy remnant unity to withstand as we stand with Him fearlessly in the boldness of the faith of God in this hour. Egypt is behind us, and the covenantal promises and prophetic words we have received (1 Tim. 1:18) empower us by His Holy Spirit to advance in warfare, humbly growing in the spirit of wisdom and revelation.

Yesterday as I encouraged some friends, I said, 'stay in the blissful extravagance of His presence.' Today I saw in Psalm 34 His eyes are upon us in vs. 8 & 9 and v:15 about the 'uncompromisingly righteous.' We are to be holy as He is holy. That leaves no room for any more compromise or seeking to please man or the traditions of men, being free of the fear of man, the religious spirit, and any demonic activity. We are seated in heavenly places with Christ Jesus. Lord, help us understand by revelation to walk in all the authority we have been given by Jesus Christ.
Psalm 34:8-9 'O taste and see that the Lord [our God] is good! Blessed (happy, fortunate, to be envied) is the man who trusts and takes refuge in Him. O fear the Lord, you His saints [revere and worship Him]! For there is no want to those who truly revere and worship Him with godly fear.'
v. 15 'The eyes of the Lord are toward the [uncompromisingly] righteous and His ears are open to their cry.'
Chuck Pierce shared this amazing word from Penny Jackson that is right on for this season: https://christsmandate.blogspot.com/2022/11/chuck-pierce-shares-powerful-word-from.html
May YOUR November be full of Thanksgiving and Praise for you and yours as YOU enjoy The Uncompromising Blissful Extravagance of His Presence!
Thank you for praying for CMM and all your fellow CMM Global Family worldwide. Pray for all the missionaries, schools, and students in CMM College of Theology in the US, Ecuador, Canada, Cuba, Myanmar, Nigeria, and Thailand.
Pray for the new wells and the living water and safe water recently drilled or soon to be drilled in Tanzania, India, Malawi, and Pakistan.
Pray for our upcoming Christmas gift campaigns to bless children and youth in many nations. Many of them are precious, beautiful children (orphans). As the Lord leads, pray about giving any amount to bless dear CMM children this Christmas. https://cmmworld.kindful.com/
Pray for each other, dear friends. We all know we each need prayers going up to Heaven for all those on the front lines. We each are on the front lines!
Please pray for me as I speak tomorrow online to a crusade with 8,000 expected to attend in Pakistan. In December, I will speak at conferences in Liberia and Kenya with fellow CMM Ordained ministers Robert Bimba (Liberia), Tom Omukhobero, and Daniel and Christine Oyoko (Kenya).
We are working on plans and trips for 2023. If you would like to have some of our awesome CMM family speakers for a conference in your area or would like to join or lead a missions trip, we would love to hook you up with dear friends in many nations.
Please join me in welcoming Dr. Louis Blom of Judea Harvest as Associate Director of Missions at CMM. This strategic alliance multiplies the efforts and impact in building the Kingdom of our God, for His glory. https://youtu.be/HXfP8tCySRc

Many blessings and shalom from us all here at the home office and around the world.
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Honoring and Celebrating the Class of 2022's 196 Graduates of CMM College of Theology Global Schools
By CMM.World CMMTheology.org - June 15, 2022

We are rejoicing! We just celebrated two of our six schools' graduations on June 4th in the US and June 11th in Ecuador and we thank the Lord for all He has done in their lives and will do in this new era. We honor the faith in action of each of the seventy-eight students (in the USA and Ecuador schools this year)of all ages and from different streams and backgrounds. We thank the Lord for the hunger, perseverance and faith to finish strong. Each one encountered the Lord in fresh new ways as their hunger and perseverance in faith reaped eternal change as evidenced in their dissertations and heavenly encounters. In the last few months we have graduated 196 students from our global schools. All glory to the Lord as we enter our 16th year of offering affordable, life changing accredited degrees around the world. Each year our school is led by the Holy Spirit to go higher and deeper in excellence in academic standards and spirit-led equipping in a truly experiential, interactive, a
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By CMM.World CMMTheology.org - January 02, 2022

Prophetic Encouragement for 2022 By Jorge Parrott (all scriptures NKJV) (Graphic art by Nancy G. Daniel) Despite the impending wars, division, chaos, calamity, and deceptive controls we hear the voice of our Lord at times speaking, or roaring, or whispering, and breathing on the sons of God. Are we listening yet? Heaven’s roar is clear to those with an ear to hear what the Spirit of the Living God is saying. This year holds untold opportunities, many answered prayers, and the cries of many hearts if we arise to walk obediently in His fullness, not growing weary in well-doing, nor fainting in the heat of this fiery battle. Deut. 6:4 ‘ The Lord our God, the Lord is one! 5 You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your strength.’ Jesus was asked many questions. What should you ask
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Highlights Of Our Amazing Trip To The Holy Land With Chris Reed And Bart Peacher
By CMM.World CMMTheology.org - July 19, 2022

Highlights Of Our Amazing Trip To The Holy Land With Chris Reed And Bart Peacher Prov. 16:9 ' A man’s mind plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps and makes them sure.' We are continually blessed and in awe of how the Lord breathes and moves in our lives. As we press into the high calling of Jesus Christ and we grow in intimacy and trust by faith, His love, grace, and mercy unfold in surprising ways. I had not been to Israel since 2017. So much has changed in the world since then as we see the tremendous acceleration of the times and seasons. Chaos, control, and corruption are increasing at an alarming rate. Our only hope is in Jesus Christ and His righteousness. Divine Encounters Abound As We Are Led By Holy Spirit And Make Ourselves Available Many churches are led by their pursuit of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil instead of the knowledge of the Tree of Life. As we surrender fully to the Holy Spirit, we learn to walk in deep humility and attenti
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CMM is cross-denominational. We are seated in heavenly places with Christ Jesus and the completed work of Jesus Christ on the cross assures us of victory, through trials, as we are trained to rule and reign with the Father's heart and love of justice and mercy and walk humbly before Him.
CMM is a 501c3 founded in 1978. We also handle donor relations for approximately 500 missionaries globally, ordained ministers, as we enjoy the Lord in fellowship, offering Christian accredited degrees globally, church planting, healing, counseling, orphanages, and prayer centers, creative arts, prophetic, humanitarian aid and disaster relief, medical, stopping human trafficking, leadership training and creative incubators for entrepreneurs, disaster relief, and connecting destinies.
Call 704-225-3927 or email office@cmm.world to learn more or to have one of our many CMM amointed, itinerant ministers speak at your church or group, in person or online.
2024.05.21 01:36 LanguageOk5504 AITAH for suggesting therapy to my partner after she gave wild ultimatum?
My civil partner and I are moving abroad from 2 different countries so have been apart for few weeks after there was some delays with our visa process.
We got our civil partnership last year but actually changed our mind and would like to get married eventually, ideally within next 2 years. Only issue is we're completely broke after the industry my career is in completely collapsed while my partner took a sabbatical. We're essentially economic migrants now which neither of us planned or wanted.
Fortunately we're literally a few days away from moving back together in our new home country after acquiring visa. My partner has persistently been asking about marriage for the past 8 weeks, she is jealous of her younger brother who recently married. I have been quite frank and said that we can discuss when we arrive in our new country and both get jobs and stable income. I want us to have a nice wedding, nice engagement ring, and we need money for it - we have none because I lost my career for the better part of a year.
Her parents offered to pay for the wedding, I said I need to think about it because my mind is completely overwhelmed by my career situation. It was clear I am not against marriage, we regularly talk about the future.
Anyway, today she told me quite plainly: "I am going to get married in Feb 2026, whether it is with you or somebody else." She had been making remarks doubting our partnership here and there for quite a few weeks up to this. But I have always affirmed my life long commitment to her, I have never doubted our future together and I think we're both smart enough and have the tools to notice something is wrong and to fix it with a bit of effort - you know, a civil partnership. We both seemed to be on same page that the next step is to just get back together physically after being removed from eachother when we didn't want that.
Anyway, her comment really upset me and she immediately apologised for it. Afterwards, for the first time I finally said that I think it's wise we spend more time together working on things before we get married. I suggested therapy as part of this but she refused and says it's basically pseudoscience quackery. Suddenly I am being accused of being controlling asshole by putting a condition on us getting married. Now she want a dissolution after I put a condition on us getting married. (After she just told me she's thought about marrying other people but didn't really mean it?)
I feel like I've not been talking to the same person since she said that. Completely blindsided me. The distance between us has been painful, and neither of us wanted this to happen. She has been financially supporting us in the meantime, but I am in a field with guaranteed high 6 digit salary for life after a certain point so finance isn't really an issue long term. Definitely a crunch atm though and she's been a blessing.
I don't think I'm the asshole because I think any person with any amount of self-respect would be reconsidering their civil partnership after hearing such a remark. (She later told me that it was indeed meant as an ultimatum)
Am I the asshole for putting my foot down here? She makes me feel like I am being unreasonable and controlling and I honestly just don't know anymore. It's been a stressful year.
Edit: tl;dr - partner gave ultimatum for marriage date, i suggested we need more time together and therapy, is that controlling?
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We got our civil partnership last year but actually changed our mind and would like to get married eventually, ideally within next 2 years. Only issue is we're completely broke after the industry my career is in completely collapsed while my partner took a sabbatical. We're essentially economic migrants now which neither of us planned or wanted.
Fortunately we're literally a few days away from moving back together in our new home country after acquiring visa. My partner has persistently been asking about marriage for the past 8 weeks, she is jealous of her younger brother who recently married. I have been quite frank and said that we can discuss when we arrive in our new country and both get jobs and stable income. I want us to have a nice wedding, nice engagement ring, and we need money for it - we have none because I lost my career for the better part of a year.
Her parents offered to pay for the wedding, I said I need to think about it because my mind is completely overwhelmed by my career situation. It was clear I am not against marriage, we regularly talk about the future.
Anyway, today she told me quite plainly: "I am going to get married in Feb 2026, whether it is with you or somebody else." She had been making remarks doubting our partnership here and there for quite a few weeks up to this. But I have always affirmed my life long commitment to her, I have never doubted our future together and I think we're both smart enough and have the tools to notice something is wrong and to fix it with a bit of effort - you know, a civil partnership. We both seemed to be on same page that the next step is to just get back together physically after being removed from eachother when we didn't want that.
Anyway, her comment really upset me and she immediately apologised for it. Afterwards, for the first time I finally said that I think it's wise we spend more time together working on things before we get married. I suggested therapy as part of this but she refused and says it's basically pseudoscience quackery. Suddenly I am being accused of being controlling asshole by putting a condition on us getting married. Now she want a dissolution after I put a condition on us getting married. (After she just told me she's thought about marrying other people but didn't really mean it?)
I feel like I've not been talking to the same person since she said that. Completely blindsided me. The distance between us has been painful, and neither of us wanted this to happen. She has been financially supporting us in the meantime, but I am in a field with guaranteed high 6 digit salary for life after a certain point so finance isn't really an issue long term. Definitely a crunch atm though and she's been a blessing.
I don't think I'm the asshole because I think any person with any amount of self-respect would be reconsidering their civil partnership after hearing such a remark. (She later told me that it was indeed meant as an ultimatum)
Am I the asshole for putting my foot down here? She makes me feel like I am being unreasonable and controlling and I honestly just don't know anymore. It's been a stressful year.
Edit: tl;dr - partner gave ultimatum for marriage date, i suggested we need more time together and therapy, is that controlling?
2024.05.21 00:05 Such_Patient_7128 Clancy, a partial review
Firstly I want to acknowledge this is In my opinion less than half of the whole story of Clancy. We are a blessed fan base to consistently get incredible music videos and we get another 10! 11? Who knows. I'm also going to not divulge into any major information, because if you didn't hear it yet I respect you.
Overcompensate- a banger, we've all heard it, it stackable right up with jumpsuit and heavydirtysoul. I love this song, the MV goes hard 10/10
Next Semester- made me cry the first time I heard it. Is an absolute banger, I love the punky TOP and we will see that again through this album. 10/10
Backslide- another big banger, just hit after hit. I love the beat, I loved the MV. 10/10
Minor Spoilers ahead.
Midwest Indigo- Again, I love it when top goes punk, this is like Next Semesters best friend. The "Time To Pretend" style intro is so glammy I love it. It also reminds me of ollld style TOP 10/10
Also at this point I want to acknowledge how amazing Josh's drumming is on this record, and I think his direct in person acoustic sound being gone is a part of what made SAI sound so different
Routines In The Night- A heavy beat, a super catchy chorus. In my opinion this song is very lore heavy and I won't elaborate much else until Friday. VERY excited for the MV. 10/10
Also can we appreciate just how incredible the songwriting is from these two. Like these are all perfect songs that could be played on any radio station from alt to pop. I listen to music from very much a producing standpoint, and this record stands out like Trench did
Vignette- Oh my this is a song, again I think very lore heavy and the MV will show this. I ADORE the use of organic sounds in the beginning. A heavy hitter all around, but that chorus is just something else. Very much not a normal pop chorus which I know goes against my previous point lol. There's some lyrics in here that I'm excited to see get picked apart. Also the chorus has those OLD Tyler notes and I love that. 10/10 for us, probably an 8/10 for regular people.
The Craving(JV)- If you like this band, and this song doesn't make you cry.... idk man. This one's a real treat and its so raw, and sweet. A true wedding song. 9/10
Lavish- A statement for sure. Weird all around, very trippy and entrancing, lyrically a LOT like Mulberry Street. Some very fun lyrics that are making quite a stir. My fav part is the verse at the end, the one in question, very similar song structure to The Outside. 8.5/10
Navigating- My personal favourite off the whole record and I think a lot of people will say that. I love that Tyler plays the guitar now, it really amplified this record. Very TOP, it reminds me a bit like Shy Away on a much higher frequency. This song has the potential to go big big. Feature this in a movie or something boys. This could be a 1B+ stream song. 11/10
Snap Back- I adore this song, I love when i am directly approached, 4th wall breaking. I love the self referential lines. I love the consistent increase in tempo but it's still relaxing. I love the moral of it. It's not a lot of people's favorites, but these last two are my favourite part of the album so I'm still giving it a 10/10
Oldies Station- This is my second favourite on the whole record. Its a really refreshing song, a beautiful song in my opinion. Like Good Day if it was genuinely positive. The cadence of the verses. The wavy bass. If you truly hate this song, I don't think you want to be happy lol. I also think that different generations of fans are gonna take this album in different ways. This song fits the Legend slot in my head. 10/10.
At The Risk Of Feeling Dumb- A prime example of Beat = 😊 lyrics = 😔. A super fun song, this is the moment that I found the whole band sound really came together. My 3rd favourite on the record. The most important message. Fits the Not Today and Neon Gravestones and Redecorate vibes, lyrically. A perfect closer to the record. 10/10
Paladin Strait- I am not going to say much about this song, I feel like this song is a major point in this story. I love it sonically, it is almost haunting. Friday cannot come fast enough for this one. ?/10
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Overcompensate- a banger, we've all heard it, it stackable right up with jumpsuit and heavydirtysoul. I love this song, the MV goes hard 10/10
Next Semester- made me cry the first time I heard it. Is an absolute banger, I love the punky TOP and we will see that again through this album. 10/10
Backslide- another big banger, just hit after hit. I love the beat, I loved the MV. 10/10
Minor Spoilers ahead.
Midwest Indigo- Again, I love it when top goes punk, this is like Next Semesters best friend. The "Time To Pretend" style intro is so glammy I love it. It also reminds me of ollld style TOP 10/10
Also at this point I want to acknowledge how amazing Josh's drumming is on this record, and I think his direct in person acoustic sound being gone is a part of what made SAI sound so different
Routines In The Night- A heavy beat, a super catchy chorus. In my opinion this song is very lore heavy and I won't elaborate much else until Friday. VERY excited for the MV. 10/10
Also can we appreciate just how incredible the songwriting is from these two. Like these are all perfect songs that could be played on any radio station from alt to pop. I listen to music from very much a producing standpoint, and this record stands out like Trench did
Vignette- Oh my this is a song, again I think very lore heavy and the MV will show this. I ADORE the use of organic sounds in the beginning. A heavy hitter all around, but that chorus is just something else. Very much not a normal pop chorus which I know goes against my previous point lol. There's some lyrics in here that I'm excited to see get picked apart. Also the chorus has those OLD Tyler notes and I love that. 10/10 for us, probably an 8/10 for regular people.
The Craving(JV)- If you like this band, and this song doesn't make you cry.... idk man. This one's a real treat and its so raw, and sweet. A true wedding song. 9/10
Lavish- A statement for sure. Weird all around, very trippy and entrancing, lyrically a LOT like Mulberry Street. Some very fun lyrics that are making quite a stir. My fav part is the verse at the end, the one in question, very similar song structure to The Outside. 8.5/10
Navigating- My personal favourite off the whole record and I think a lot of people will say that. I love that Tyler plays the guitar now, it really amplified this record. Very TOP, it reminds me a bit like Shy Away on a much higher frequency. This song has the potential to go big big. Feature this in a movie or something boys. This could be a 1B+ stream song. 11/10
Snap Back- I adore this song, I love when i am directly approached, 4th wall breaking. I love the self referential lines. I love the consistent increase in tempo but it's still relaxing. I love the moral of it. It's not a lot of people's favorites, but these last two are my favourite part of the album so I'm still giving it a 10/10
Oldies Station- This is my second favourite on the whole record. Its a really refreshing song, a beautiful song in my opinion. Like Good Day if it was genuinely positive. The cadence of the verses. The wavy bass. If you truly hate this song, I don't think you want to be happy lol. I also think that different generations of fans are gonna take this album in different ways. This song fits the Legend slot in my head. 10/10.
At The Risk Of Feeling Dumb- A prime example of Beat = 😊 lyrics = 😔. A super fun song, this is the moment that I found the whole band sound really came together. My 3rd favourite on the record. The most important message. Fits the Not Today and Neon Gravestones and Redecorate vibes, lyrically. A perfect closer to the record. 10/10
Paladin Strait- I am not going to say much about this song, I feel like this song is a major point in this story. I love it sonically, it is almost haunting. Friday cannot come fast enough for this one. ?/10
2024.05.20 23:14 eowynladyofrohan83 A long insane story from my life…
Growing up my siblings and I were abused in various ways and there was also blatant favoritism shown for some siblings.
This post is going to be long. What’s important is there’s going to be a bunch of examples of our parents ruining fun in the name of “inclusion,” then allowing some of the worst exclusion ever.
Homeschooling parents are so creative in the nonsensical reasons they come up with for depriving their children of fun. Because we didn’t get to create social groups at school, my brother and I decided we wanted to have a club. Our dad got angry and originally said if we were going to have one then anybody in or outside our house had to be allowed in it, then later he outright forbade it at all AND forbade us from ever ASKING to create one!
About a couple years or so down the road our little sister decided she was going to have a club and not a peep from our father. One night our dad overheard my brother and me talking angrily and his gut told him we were talking about him. He asked and we pointed out the double standards with the club. Our dad got that wild narcissistic look in his eyes like, “How dare you be brave enough to address the forbidden white elephant in the room!” He said, “Because she was treated different!” In a sarcastic tone. Then he said, “Y’all don’t even WANT to know what I’m thinking about right now!” Basically we were supposed to be afraid of some severe punishment for bringing up the hypocrisy and not expect his rules to be logical or fair.
Once we had relatives fly in to visit from across the country. The family spent a few nights at our house but they also stayed elsewhere for a few nights also. It was a couple and their teenage daughter and I was also a teenage girl. They invited me to spend the night with them and have fun with their daughter. My little sister was nine years old. I was forced to include her in our teenage sleepover! I have heard from other people that that was completely inappropriate and that my parents should have found a way to entertain her while I was spending the night. I have heard an example from a completely different family where little sister was only 3 & 1/2 years younger than big sister and she was still told she was too little so mom and little sister did something fun just the two of them. I am about 6 & 1/2 years older than my sister in this story!
Not only did we have to censor our teenage conversations for a little kid, but she wasn’t even grateful! She had a sour look on her face most of the time and whined about things.
A lot of people commenting on the sleepover story said they just thought it was an example of my parents being too lazy to entertain my sister, but I think it was much more sinister than that. My gut was screaming that it was a way to “put me in my place,” and be like, “You just THOUGHT you were going to have a good time but you thought wrong!” By the way, my dad said, “You’ll be blessed for it!” It’s important for everyone to remember this nauseating inappropriate comment for later.
My brother was approximately twelve and he got a Nintendo 64. Our little brother was approximately four years old. My brother was never given the chance to be a good big brother and offer to share and play with little brother. Our dad immediately jumped in and demanded he let little brother play. There was a huge deal made and our dad lied to extended family about it. Once my little brother was playing the Nintendo so much that my aunt, my dad’s sister, told my dad that lil bro needed to do schoolwork instead of playing the Nintendo so much. My dad got so angry and told me he was at the same level of reading that I was at the same age. This is a load of bs because I know for a fact his reading comprehension at age seven was a train wreck and far behind mine at age five. Also, our dad had yelled at our mom for failing to teach him to read on time. He constantly changed the story and moved the goalposts to fit an agenda. In order to be a good liar you need to have a good memory!
Once my brother had loaned his Nintendo to some friends who were brothers and our dad screamed at him that he had loaned it to friends where little brother couldn’t play it. Imagine having so little agency over your own alleged birthday present that you can’t even loan it to friends because little brother needs to monopolize it at all times.
Ok so here’s the main part of the story to tie everything together…
As most of our lives were/are, as strict homeschoolers you’re not allowed to do hardly anything. If we obeyed all the rules and never snuck around, we would be a pack of 50-year-old virgins.
I started earning my own living, moved out of my parents’ home, and immediately got a boyfriend they didn’t approve of. There were huge screaming fights with my parents over the phone. The man and I eloped but then he filed for divorce before I could get my stuff moved to his home and actually live there full time. The guy was probably a predator but that was my parents’ fault for driving my self-worth into the dirt.
My sister, the one I was forced to include in the sleepover, got married after my ex was out of the picture and I had no contact with him. She got married and was allowed to exclude me from her bridal party even though she had both other sisters plus a few friends as bridesmaids. My aunt who is my mom’s sister knew that if the roles had been reversed and I tried to exclude all but one sister that all hell would have broken loose. She knew my dad would have refused to pay for the wedding. My cousin spoke up for me and said my sister was going to look like an ass for having the other two sisters but not me. My dad was furious and excluded her from attending the wedding just for saying that. It was the typical narcissist rage where they’re so furious at people for being brave enough to stand up to them. He said, “This is [sister’s] day! Everybody better behave!” When everybody knew if I had a wedding he was paying for he wouldn’t have gone on about it being my day, he would have said I had to include my sister or he wouldn’t pay for it!
This part is absolutely nuts. I was literally invited to the bridesmaids’ luncheon! I normally worked an extra job on Saturdays but I took off to come to the luncheon. My sister had just kicked a girl out for trivial reasons and I was hoping I was being asked to be the replacement. This was at my aunt’s house (dad’s sister) and she had a window seat type shelf near the entrance to her house with the gifts. As I entered I counted six gifts. There were five bridesmaids. I was seated at the table with the bride and the bridesmaids. That’s literally the only people at that table. When we were finished eating my sister distributed the gifts. I was hoping that sixth gift was for me and that she was asking me to be the other girl’s replacement. It turns out she had bought a gift for herself!!!!
My eyes welled up with tears. When I finally got home I cried for hours and hours, probably about eight hours. From bright daylight until the wee hours of the morning.
Later my cousin’s mom told my dad that it sounded like the cousin he had excluded from the wedding had gotten caught up in drama between me and my sister. He replied, “Well wherever [OP] is, drama’s not too far behind!”
If I had been the one who excluded my sister he would have said I was the one who had created the drama by excluding her. He would have said how awful and hurtful to exclude her and that she would be justified in crying about it. But since I was the one who was excluded I had created drama for crying about being left out.
Also it’s amusing how my little brother wasn’t “creating drama” for asking to play his big bro’s N64. It’s just ridiculous nonsensical rules that change depending on when he wants to favor one sibling over the other. Why was it so important that my sister’s wedding be the way she wanted even if it involved being cruel to me, but it wasn’t important for my brother’s Nintendo to be HIS Nintendo and he could gate keep who played it? Also interesting how he didn’t say the self-righteous garbage to my sister about, “You’ll be blessed for it,” by encouraging her to include me in her wedding.
My dad a couple years or so later commented that he was avoiding doing a particular favor for me because he didn’t want my sister to find out and hurt the relationship between us.
Also he inserted my sister into a conversation that has nothing to do with her and made the comment, “Now I know you don’t like [sister]…”. I would think if you were going to accuse a sibling of “not liking” the other one it would be the one who had inflicted cruelty on the other one. But he said it like I was a troublemaker for wanting to be loved and treated equally.
There was so much more hypocrisy and abuse but I’m tired writing this out and will probably just need to write a part 2.
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This post is going to be long. What’s important is there’s going to be a bunch of examples of our parents ruining fun in the name of “inclusion,” then allowing some of the worst exclusion ever.
Homeschooling parents are so creative in the nonsensical reasons they come up with for depriving their children of fun. Because we didn’t get to create social groups at school, my brother and I decided we wanted to have a club. Our dad got angry and originally said if we were going to have one then anybody in or outside our house had to be allowed in it, then later he outright forbade it at all AND forbade us from ever ASKING to create one!
About a couple years or so down the road our little sister decided she was going to have a club and not a peep from our father. One night our dad overheard my brother and me talking angrily and his gut told him we were talking about him. He asked and we pointed out the double standards with the club. Our dad got that wild narcissistic look in his eyes like, “How dare you be brave enough to address the forbidden white elephant in the room!” He said, “Because she was treated different!” In a sarcastic tone. Then he said, “Y’all don’t even WANT to know what I’m thinking about right now!” Basically we were supposed to be afraid of some severe punishment for bringing up the hypocrisy and not expect his rules to be logical or fair.
Once we had relatives fly in to visit from across the country. The family spent a few nights at our house but they also stayed elsewhere for a few nights also. It was a couple and their teenage daughter and I was also a teenage girl. They invited me to spend the night with them and have fun with their daughter. My little sister was nine years old. I was forced to include her in our teenage sleepover! I have heard from other people that that was completely inappropriate and that my parents should have found a way to entertain her while I was spending the night. I have heard an example from a completely different family where little sister was only 3 & 1/2 years younger than big sister and she was still told she was too little so mom and little sister did something fun just the two of them. I am about 6 & 1/2 years older than my sister in this story!
Not only did we have to censor our teenage conversations for a little kid, but she wasn’t even grateful! She had a sour look on her face most of the time and whined about things.
A lot of people commenting on the sleepover story said they just thought it was an example of my parents being too lazy to entertain my sister, but I think it was much more sinister than that. My gut was screaming that it was a way to “put me in my place,” and be like, “You just THOUGHT you were going to have a good time but you thought wrong!” By the way, my dad said, “You’ll be blessed for it!” It’s important for everyone to remember this nauseating inappropriate comment for later.
My brother was approximately twelve and he got a Nintendo 64. Our little brother was approximately four years old. My brother was never given the chance to be a good big brother and offer to share and play with little brother. Our dad immediately jumped in and demanded he let little brother play. There was a huge deal made and our dad lied to extended family about it. Once my little brother was playing the Nintendo so much that my aunt, my dad’s sister, told my dad that lil bro needed to do schoolwork instead of playing the Nintendo so much. My dad got so angry and told me he was at the same level of reading that I was at the same age. This is a load of bs because I know for a fact his reading comprehension at age seven was a train wreck and far behind mine at age five. Also, our dad had yelled at our mom for failing to teach him to read on time. He constantly changed the story and moved the goalposts to fit an agenda. In order to be a good liar you need to have a good memory!
Once my brother had loaned his Nintendo to some friends who were brothers and our dad screamed at him that he had loaned it to friends where little brother couldn’t play it. Imagine having so little agency over your own alleged birthday present that you can’t even loan it to friends because little brother needs to monopolize it at all times.
Ok so here’s the main part of the story to tie everything together…
As most of our lives were/are, as strict homeschoolers you’re not allowed to do hardly anything. If we obeyed all the rules and never snuck around, we would be a pack of 50-year-old virgins.
I started earning my own living, moved out of my parents’ home, and immediately got a boyfriend they didn’t approve of. There were huge screaming fights with my parents over the phone. The man and I eloped but then he filed for divorce before I could get my stuff moved to his home and actually live there full time. The guy was probably a predator but that was my parents’ fault for driving my self-worth into the dirt.
My sister, the one I was forced to include in the sleepover, got married after my ex was out of the picture and I had no contact with him. She got married and was allowed to exclude me from her bridal party even though she had both other sisters plus a few friends as bridesmaids. My aunt who is my mom’s sister knew that if the roles had been reversed and I tried to exclude all but one sister that all hell would have broken loose. She knew my dad would have refused to pay for the wedding. My cousin spoke up for me and said my sister was going to look like an ass for having the other two sisters but not me. My dad was furious and excluded her from attending the wedding just for saying that. It was the typical narcissist rage where they’re so furious at people for being brave enough to stand up to them. He said, “This is [sister’s] day! Everybody better behave!” When everybody knew if I had a wedding he was paying for he wouldn’t have gone on about it being my day, he would have said I had to include my sister or he wouldn’t pay for it!
This part is absolutely nuts. I was literally invited to the bridesmaids’ luncheon! I normally worked an extra job on Saturdays but I took off to come to the luncheon. My sister had just kicked a girl out for trivial reasons and I was hoping I was being asked to be the replacement. This was at my aunt’s house (dad’s sister) and she had a window seat type shelf near the entrance to her house with the gifts. As I entered I counted six gifts. There were five bridesmaids. I was seated at the table with the bride and the bridesmaids. That’s literally the only people at that table. When we were finished eating my sister distributed the gifts. I was hoping that sixth gift was for me and that she was asking me to be the other girl’s replacement. It turns out she had bought a gift for herself!!!!
My eyes welled up with tears. When I finally got home I cried for hours and hours, probably about eight hours. From bright daylight until the wee hours of the morning.
Later my cousin’s mom told my dad that it sounded like the cousin he had excluded from the wedding had gotten caught up in drama between me and my sister. He replied, “Well wherever [OP] is, drama’s not too far behind!”
If I had been the one who excluded my sister he would have said I was the one who had created the drama by excluding her. He would have said how awful and hurtful to exclude her and that she would be justified in crying about it. But since I was the one who was excluded I had created drama for crying about being left out.
Also it’s amusing how my little brother wasn’t “creating drama” for asking to play his big bro’s N64. It’s just ridiculous nonsensical rules that change depending on when he wants to favor one sibling over the other. Why was it so important that my sister’s wedding be the way she wanted even if it involved being cruel to me, but it wasn’t important for my brother’s Nintendo to be HIS Nintendo and he could gate keep who played it? Also interesting how he didn’t say the self-righteous garbage to my sister about, “You’ll be blessed for it,” by encouraging her to include me in her wedding.
My dad a couple years or so later commented that he was avoiding doing a particular favor for me because he didn’t want my sister to find out and hurt the relationship between us.
Also he inserted my sister into a conversation that has nothing to do with her and made the comment, “Now I know you don’t like [sister]…”. I would think if you were going to accuse a sibling of “not liking” the other one it would be the one who had inflicted cruelty on the other one. But he said it like I was a troublemaker for wanting to be loved and treated equally.
There was so much more hypocrisy and abuse but I’m tired writing this out and will probably just need to write a part 2.
2024.05.20 21:28 coffeetablecat WIBTA for telling my little sister she can’t remove me from my wedding photo & photoshop herself into my place?
My little sister (28f) is recently engaged. I (30 f) got married about 6 years ago (I’ve since divorced and am engaged again). Our mom died 5 years ago, shortly after my wedding.
At my wedding 6 years ago, the photographer took a photo of my mom fastening a necklace around my neck. My little sister has told multiple people that when she gets married, she plans to hire someone with graphic design skills to remove me from that photo and photoshop herself in my place. So far, I’ve said nothing, but I’ve always felt hurt by that idea and now that she is actually planning a wedding, I am wondering if I should put my foot down. At the same time, I don’t want to add to her pain either.
Background on prioritizing her feelings/wants leading up to this point: Very shortly after our mom died, all my sisters (including my older married sisters) expressed that they wanted our mom’s engagement ring. As my little sister didn’t get to have our mom at her wedding and the rest of us did get that experience, I urged my dad to hang on to our mom’s engagement ring for our little sister for when she eventually were to get engaged. Ultimately, I was successful in advocating for her to inherit our mom’s ring. Once engaged, she decided to reset the ring so the only part of it that remains is the central diamond—it is a completely different design now and is unrecognizable. We are all a bit miffed by that but what’s done is done.
Next, we both wanted to use our mom’s wedding dress in our upcoming weddings, but she plans to alter it beyond recognition as it was a long-sleeve, A-line dress and she wants a strapless, mermaid-style dress. I proposed that we each wear it but not make significant alterations, but she brought up that “I’m the only one who didn’t get to have mom at her wedding”, and I do feel for her, so I dropped my bid to wear the dress.
But at this point, I feel inclined to draw the line at removing me from my own photo with my mom. Yes, I did get to have my mom at my [first] wedding. I won’t have her at my wedding to the person I’ll be spending the rest of my life with, so I’m feeling some sadness there too. If someone is going to be photoshopping someone out of that picture, I feel it should be me photoshopping my 24 year old self out for my 31 year old self. She also has tons of photos with our mom she could use for this purpose instead, as well as photos of our mom solo that no one would need to be removed from.
Obviously I can’t force her to not do as she pleases with the photo, but WIBTA if I tell her I’m not ok with that and that she doesn’t have my permission or blessing to remove me from my wedding photo with my mom?
ETA: many people suggesting lawsuits so want to clarify that no I would not sue over this. I love my sister and don’t want to add to her grief. I’m only grappling with whether or not it’s worth it to ask her not to use my photo in this way,
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At my wedding 6 years ago, the photographer took a photo of my mom fastening a necklace around my neck. My little sister has told multiple people that when she gets married, she plans to hire someone with graphic design skills to remove me from that photo and photoshop herself in my place. So far, I’ve said nothing, but I’ve always felt hurt by that idea and now that she is actually planning a wedding, I am wondering if I should put my foot down. At the same time, I don’t want to add to her pain either.
Background on prioritizing her feelings/wants leading up to this point: Very shortly after our mom died, all my sisters (including my older married sisters) expressed that they wanted our mom’s engagement ring. As my little sister didn’t get to have our mom at her wedding and the rest of us did get that experience, I urged my dad to hang on to our mom’s engagement ring for our little sister for when she eventually were to get engaged. Ultimately, I was successful in advocating for her to inherit our mom’s ring. Once engaged, she decided to reset the ring so the only part of it that remains is the central diamond—it is a completely different design now and is unrecognizable. We are all a bit miffed by that but what’s done is done.
Next, we both wanted to use our mom’s wedding dress in our upcoming weddings, but she plans to alter it beyond recognition as it was a long-sleeve, A-line dress and she wants a strapless, mermaid-style dress. I proposed that we each wear it but not make significant alterations, but she brought up that “I’m the only one who didn’t get to have mom at her wedding”, and I do feel for her, so I dropped my bid to wear the dress.
But at this point, I feel inclined to draw the line at removing me from my own photo with my mom. Yes, I did get to have my mom at my [first] wedding. I won’t have her at my wedding to the person I’ll be spending the rest of my life with, so I’m feeling some sadness there too. If someone is going to be photoshopping someone out of that picture, I feel it should be me photoshopping my 24 year old self out for my 31 year old self. She also has tons of photos with our mom she could use for this purpose instead, as well as photos of our mom solo that no one would need to be removed from.
Obviously I can’t force her to not do as she pleases with the photo, but WIBTA if I tell her I’m not ok with that and that she doesn’t have my permission or blessing to remove me from my wedding photo with my mom?
ETA: many people suggesting lawsuits so want to clarify that no I would not sue over this. I love my sister and don’t want to add to her grief. I’m only grappling with whether or not it’s worth it to ask her not to use my photo in this way,
2024.05.20 21:24 Opening_State_7211 Where to begin?
Hi!
Okay. Brief synopsis. I'm like mid 20s, male, no musical experience at all. I've always enjoyed singing. I think my family has a home video of me singing God bless America watching a baseball game on TV at 3, ect. In elementary school, the very few times we did things that had singing involved, I'd always be the one to have a solo, they just chose me basically.
Anyways, in passing, I've noticed things or gotten comments. Nothing really notable at any given time. Then in like the last 6 months or so, I've been a lot more active socially and it has resulted in numerous comments regarding my singing.
I made friends with a few people that actively just want me to sing along to songs when we're together. A mutual friend who introduced us literally texted me before I came over for the third time "just so you know, you're about to be the star of the show. lol." I think I hooked up with a girl bc of it? Uhh. Yeah. I was asked to take a mic and sing a song randomly at a wedding (I refused, we will get to that). Ect.
I'd say like 90% of these interactions are females, which has probably been part of the reason I brush them off, but through those friends, I was with them with a large group of their friends, most of whom I didn't know where this like 30 year old dude came over to me and commented.
More recently, both my parents have made comments, notably of which like 3 years ago, my dad (constantly aloof) said in passing that I couldn't sing. That's more bc he'd like never heard me sing but at the time it hurt a little LOL.
I was in the car with him a few weeks ago singing along quietly (like yk, not really how I'd actually sing) and he made a comment saying I sound just like whoever (I mimic singers in general, so in the last 5 months people have told me I sound like Harry Styles, post Malone, Benson boone, and noah kahan, soooooooo yeah dk bout that). I used this to sing a bit more free and then he asked me about if I'd do better on American Idol or Survivor and my whole family thinks I'd be good at shows of the Survivor ilk, and I just laughed. I told this to my younger sister (who also can sing at least competently) joking ab it and she said American Idol (which is just a bad take bc 99% of the battle with Survivor is just getting on the show, where American idol you have to legit beat thousands to do anything relevant.)
Then the other day I was in the car with my parents and my mom was like "can't you just make a song?" (LOL no.) And then was talking about my singing to my dad.
All this to say that, look. I love to sing BUT I don't think I'm that good. If I record myself (no tech help at all bc idk wtf I'd even do), I just do not like it. I have so many issues that bother me. I will say, I can admit I'm a perfectionist and I think this about basically everyone that I've ever heard playing at a ba restauraunt on a Thursday night. I will be sitting there like eh, not great, basically every time.
This leads me to multiple questions
How do I deal with this? What do I do? What would you guys do?
Should I get a vocal coach? How can I get like legitimate feedback and help. How can I really tell like where I'm at? Let's say I'm actually the beat singer alive (I'm 10000000% not) but wtf do I even do if that's the case?
I could easily sing in front of people, I love singing and I'm not nervous at all. I actually think I would have pretty good stage presence (just like comfortable, relaxed). However, like I said, I just don't think I'm that good and I don't want to go in front of random people and sing and be like oh look at me when I don't even feel like I'm that good. That's why I would've never sung at that wedding. Those poor people didn't sign up to listen to this random sing a song. LOL.
Anyways, yeah. All suggestions ideas, advice here helps.
Appreciate it in advance
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Okay. Brief synopsis. I'm like mid 20s, male, no musical experience at all. I've always enjoyed singing. I think my family has a home video of me singing God bless America watching a baseball game on TV at 3, ect. In elementary school, the very few times we did things that had singing involved, I'd always be the one to have a solo, they just chose me basically.
Anyways, in passing, I've noticed things or gotten comments. Nothing really notable at any given time. Then in like the last 6 months or so, I've been a lot more active socially and it has resulted in numerous comments regarding my singing.
I made friends with a few people that actively just want me to sing along to songs when we're together. A mutual friend who introduced us literally texted me before I came over for the third time "just so you know, you're about to be the star of the show. lol." I think I hooked up with a girl bc of it? Uhh. Yeah. I was asked to take a mic and sing a song randomly at a wedding (I refused, we will get to that). Ect.
I'd say like 90% of these interactions are females, which has probably been part of the reason I brush them off, but through those friends, I was with them with a large group of their friends, most of whom I didn't know where this like 30 year old dude came over to me and commented.
More recently, both my parents have made comments, notably of which like 3 years ago, my dad (constantly aloof) said in passing that I couldn't sing. That's more bc he'd like never heard me sing but at the time it hurt a little LOL.
I was in the car with him a few weeks ago singing along quietly (like yk, not really how I'd actually sing) and he made a comment saying I sound just like whoever (I mimic singers in general, so in the last 5 months people have told me I sound like Harry Styles, post Malone, Benson boone, and noah kahan, soooooooo yeah dk bout that). I used this to sing a bit more free and then he asked me about if I'd do better on American Idol or Survivor and my whole family thinks I'd be good at shows of the Survivor ilk, and I just laughed. I told this to my younger sister (who also can sing at least competently) joking ab it and she said American Idol (which is just a bad take bc 99% of the battle with Survivor is just getting on the show, where American idol you have to legit beat thousands to do anything relevant.)
Then the other day I was in the car with my parents and my mom was like "can't you just make a song?" (LOL no.) And then was talking about my singing to my dad.
All this to say that, look. I love to sing BUT I don't think I'm that good. If I record myself (no tech help at all bc idk wtf I'd even do), I just do not like it. I have so many issues that bother me. I will say, I can admit I'm a perfectionist and I think this about basically everyone that I've ever heard playing at a ba restauraunt on a Thursday night. I will be sitting there like eh, not great, basically every time.
This leads me to multiple questions
How do I deal with this? What do I do? What would you guys do?
Should I get a vocal coach? How can I get like legitimate feedback and help. How can I really tell like where I'm at? Let's say I'm actually the beat singer alive (I'm 10000000% not) but wtf do I even do if that's the case?
I could easily sing in front of people, I love singing and I'm not nervous at all. I actually think I would have pretty good stage presence (just like comfortable, relaxed). However, like I said, I just don't think I'm that good and I don't want to go in front of random people and sing and be like oh look at me when I don't even feel like I'm that good. That's why I would've never sung at that wedding. Those poor people didn't sign up to listen to this random sing a song. LOL.
Anyways, yeah. All suggestions ideas, advice here helps.
Appreciate it in advance
2024.05.20 18:03 chaos_knight_xy Boruto Boudican Ch.37 part 3
 | Meanwhile Ehou was upset, and William Wallace was shocked. submitted by chaos_knight_xy to u/chaos_knight_xy [link] [comments] "What do you remember?" asked William Wallace. "It is all blank, it happened so fast." Said Ehou. "If this is what it means to be a Boudican than-?" "What, you just want to be a Shinobi?" said William Wallace. "Do you really think there is no killed or be killed rule for a warrior." "I just-I can't, it is too much." Cried Ehou. "At first, I wanted to be a Shinobi, like everyone looks up to Naruto..." "He may be a hero to the Leaf, and his allies." Said William. "But he is demon to his enemies, especially in Boudica, also Shinobi do kill." Ehou looked down on the ground. "What would my mom think, is this why she hid my father from me?" said Ehou "I don't know." Said William Wallace. "But there is one thing, you must know." William Wallace put his hands on Ehou's shoulders. "Get a grip, you swore an oath to the band of Macduff." Said William. "You were given power, now you have a responsibility to use it." "SOME ONE HELP!!!!!" cried a voice. William Wallace and Ehou hide behind a small hill. They looked across the and saw a village, where they saw a bunch of armed men with blue arm bands. "Please sir, we given you everything we have." Said a crying villager. "Don't lie to me?" said one of the bandits in samurai armor, most likely the leader. "Or do you really think you'd value your possessions over your lives." "What are you waiting for, help them, you've done this before." Said Ehou, in shock. "What if I'm frightened what if I don't want the act of killing on my soul." Said William. "But-bu.." stuttered Ehou. "Think, Think." Said William. "This is a test brought forth by God! Will you cower, or will you be brave." "If you won't tell me the truth." Said the bandit leader. "The Leaf will hear of this." Said a young girl. "Oi, boss." Said one thug. "I think that was threat." "Well, little miss mayor, Koharu?" said the bandit leader sarcastically. "Our contact told us of a booty, and we out to have it, and this trash does not equal the booty promised to us. "Boss I have an idea." Said a thug and whispered into the leader's ear. "Oh, great idea." Said the bandit leader. "Let's start drowning people into the rivers, that ought to make them talk." "No please!" cried one. "You can't, we've given you everything you've have." Shouted another in desperation. "You can't do this!" cried Koharu. "Try and stop us then." Gloated the bandit leader. The Bandits proceeded to grab people, some tried to fight back but got taken down by one punch due to the strength of each bandit. "I-I can't, what will my mother think?" said Ehou in despair. "Good question!" said William Wallace. "What would she think if you let a bunch of people die." William Wallace's voice spoke deeper than ever. "If you won't save them." Said William. "Who will?" https://preview.redd.it/sgayvdyjtl1d1.png?width=641&format=png&auto=webp&s=647a8590292e48373c92b6d6bfe4c6381dbaa4f4 All at once, everything was a haze for Ehou. The Bandit Leader looked gleefully as his men forced people under water. "Oh boy, I'm going to be rich, just little torture first." He spoke. "Halt!" cried a voice. The voice came from the woods, at once everyone including the bandits looked. Koharu, who was the young head of the small village, eyes glowed from what she saw. There was a figure in the entrance of the woods. She saw glowing light, from the woods, and it shined off the figure's armor. An armor she had never seen before, with shiny sword, metal helm, metal ring tunic, with a white one on top and a red shield within a red shield for a shield. https://preview.redd.it/wbnskayltl1d1.png?width=724&format=png&auto=webp&s=07d4ad622f84e1dbd97c11ac2782dd4b8ab0f302 "I shall Face you, Scum!" said the armored figure, the voice echoed within the helm, it sounded like a boy's voice mixed with the fury of damnation. The bandit leader looked on gleefully. "Boss, he insulted you." Said a Bandit subordinate. "Let's surround him and rip him to shreds, that cocky metal boy." The Bandit leader only smiled. "Oh, Jigoku, I think I will take him alone." Said the Bandit leader, he then pointed his katana at the metal boy's armor. "See look at his apparel, if we ganga up on him, we will destroy his expensive armor, which could sell for great profit intact in the underworld market." The Bandit leader smiled grimly. He then jumped into the flowing river standing in it shin deep. The river was flowing into a waterfall, yet the bandit's strength made it, so he was as still as a mountain. "Alright, metal boy, lets duel one on one, with the river as our field." Said the Bandit leader. saw that the metal boy was hesitant, but nonetheless jumped into the river, also maintaining his form. "I'm Daku, leader of the Blue Bands." Said Daku. "I am-." Said the metal boy. "Don't care, I'll forget the moment, I kill you." Interrupted Daku, lunging his katan for a swing at Ehou's head. The Ehou, the metal boy,'s head was flooded with thoughts. Ehou, not thinking straight in his first real battle, saw it and out of instinct, blocked it with his sword. A large clash between the swords put water up in the air, making it rain, and blew trees like hard wind. "Interesting!" said Daku, grinning. With great speed like light, he started swing faster, Water from the river shot up like it was raining hard backwards. Ehou, amazedly kept with the katana with his sword and shield parrying. "This is what it means to kill or be killed." Thought Ehou. To Ehou, Wallace had taught him many things about his mysterious heritage, that they both shared as half Boudicans. There a line between life and death, war stands at that line. Ehou, now stands dancing on the line between life and death. He understood it now, all too well. He was playing a game of chess with death, and he wasn't sure if he was winning or losing. Nonetheless, it was a magical and thrilling drug, is this why Boudicans enjoy war? "I'm idiot." Thought Ehou. "Why am I so focused on Blocking, I am wearing armor!" Ehou then swung up with his sword. Daku blocked it desperately, his katana cracked, he then maneuvered and hit Ehou twice with it, each blow causing a shock wave that put water over the trees, like that they were being flooded. Daku with his katana, struck Ehou on his side with no shield, and on his shoulder, nothing. They hurt Ehou but only like a small punch. Ehou took the initiative, he shield bashed Daku's knees, and knocked him off balance. Now Ehou has had enough of Daku's face, so he stabbed it. Right through the mouth, thought the head, with such force, it launched Daku's helmet into the air, and if fell into the water, and floated down stream like a paper made boat. There was shock among everyone, including Ehou. This was the second man Ehou had killed in his life, but this man deserved it. "He killed the boss!" yelled a thug. "Gang up on him!" To Ehou's surprise, the bandits were not cowards, despite picking on weaker people. Everything now was a Haze, it no longer rained water upwards from the river, but blood. These men were much weaker than their leader. Ehou shield bashed, hacked, slashed, and stab. The fight between Ehou and Daku was duel, this was a battle, and Ehou was a one-man army. Gazing at his arms and skill in battle against his enemies, seeing his power through the visor of his helmet pumped his adrenaline. An imagined memory flashed, a imagined memory he had. It was him, a young William Wallace, playing with wooden swords and wooden shields with wooden helms. It seems like a fun game to play with wooden swords, thus Boudican warfare was deadly game, a game where you either win or die. During war, you are either alive or dead, to Ehou he was walking on the line in between, he felt he had risen to a new plane of existence. The battle was now over, the bandits were gone, their bodies, or what's left of them flowed down the river, that was red with their blood. Ehou had stepped off the line, and was now back into life, no longer was he in the plane of existence which was the line between life and death. After his first battle, Ehou felt nauseated, so much had happened, that he not only shocked by his first battle, but that he won it as well. He was shocked at the kind of power he wielded. He fell backwards to rest, but instead of hitting the water, he was just falling, he was so close to the waterfall, after the battle, that he fell down it, with sword and shield in hand. He heard the villagers call out in horror. But Ehou couldn't make out what they were saying, but didn't care, he crashed into the pond below that the waterfall was going too. He drifted into the water a bit, he sunk to the bottom, his head was still in a haze, nonetheless he realized he had to get out. With his strength he swam to the surface, despite his armor weighing him down, he walked out to a rock, dripping water. He then used the wind of his strength and body to dry himself. Ehou heard the villagers coming to check on him, but out of instinct he hid. He was not in the right mind to be celebrated, he wouldn't know what to say, let alone how he would react to being glorified a hero. "Guess I understand why William is anti-social." Thought Ehou. Ehou looked from his hidden hiding place, as the villagers looked left and right for him. "Quick, Hiro!" ordered Koharu, "He must be under the pond, somewhere." "I've checked." Said Hiro, who was wet from swimming. "He just disappeared." "Miss Koharu, look here." Said a villager, pointing at the watered rock that Ehou was on. "It is like he disappeared." Said a villager. "It's like he is the man with wings.." Said Hiro. "While I was sailing, and catching fish in the sea, I met a sailor with a weird accent, who told how he survived drowning because his guardian angel watched over him." "An angel?" Said Koharu. "Either that or he was ghost." Replied Hiro. "But nonetheless, he is gone, now miss mayor we must make sure everyone is alright." Everyone left to attend to the village problems, but not Koharu, who was still in awe by the ordeal. Ehou was still in shock, some part of him felt shame in taking pleasure in battle, yet this was the result of his battle prowess. This girl and her village live because of him. He is hero now, he slayed bad men to save good innocent people. "Who was he?" Said Koharu. 'Was he actually our guardian angel?" Koharu stood around for a little bit, thinking. "But I guess it doesn't matter what he is, but what he did." Said Koharu to herself. Koharu then put her hands together in prayer for thanksgiving. https://preview.redd.it/khgu421ptl1d1.png?width=780&format=png&auto=webp&s=c3bc87873f6f432a27e90604e001581f80af7787 "Thank you! Angel, who-ever you are?" said Koharu. Koharu's face went red. "Although, I wish I at least got your real name." said Kaharu. She smiled; it was a pretty smile. Ehou was now surprised. He was still shocked at what he did, he had slain a man, no men, living human beings, but they were evil human beings, that would have killed good ones. They would have drowned the villagers if not for Ehou's interference. This girl and her people are safe, because of what Ehou had done. "I did this." Thought Ehou. "I saved them, I became a hero, by making a tough call." Ehou continued thinking about all that happened on the way back to William Wallace Ehou left and found William Wallace, sitting next to a boulder. William was reading from a book. "The breath that wafts from some blessed corner of Paradise gives sweetness to the bitterness of this region; it tempers the curse on this earth of ours. That Garden is the life-breath of this diseased world that has been so long in sickness; that breath proclaims that a saving remedy has been sent to heal our mortality." Said William. "You really are reading poetry, while I fought for my life." Said Ehou, "Really?" "I would be perceptive enough to know you were in trouble." Replied William. Ehou caught his breath. "Anyways, you were right." Said Ehou. "I see why you made me kill them, I'm just shocked such evil people exist, even today in this Peace era." "Regardless of era, all humans are created with their own free will, they can choose to be good." Said William. "Or evil?" "The bandit Daku, and his men would have drowned those people, and I killed all of the bandits for that." Said Ehou. "And I felt, I felt something from it, a mad crazed joy, the thrill of walking on a new plane of existence, between Life and Death, it was like an addiction." "Boudicans enjoy warfare, plain and simple." Said William. 'Because of this, we should not let our feelings dictate our reason, or else we are no worse than mindless savage monsters." "But there is one thing, I don't feal so good about?" said Ehou. "What is it?" asked William. Ehou's face was embarrassed. "You know those generic fairy tales or romances." Said Ehou. "You know where the damsel in distress "falls in love" with the hero, after he save her." "Yeah, in fact, some of those are the best books I have read." Replied William. "Let's just say, I didn't think it would happen in real life." Said Ehou. "The mayor girl, I think-think she uh likes me?" "So?" said William. "Don't you think it's weird, like-liking someone who just saved you, and you don't even know them as a person." Said Ehou. William Wallace closed his book. "Well, not knowing you, maybe a bit farfetched." Said William. "I mean certain qualities of your character were on display, when you saved her and her village, for one bravery, courage, and maybe perseverance?" Ehou thought for a second. "I don't know, it just sounds clique, if you know what I mean." Said Ehou. William Wallace got up. "I think I do." Said William. "But now, I believe we should be on our way." Ehou nodded in agreement. Meanwhile, Stewart stood on guard having a drink and leaning on a tree, he watched as the girls as well as the other people of the festival danced with music and usually around the large bonfire. There were also some people huddled at tables for drink and food, delicious food, and drink. Stewart was quite bored, he didn't take in the festivities, unless it was with Graham, who in Stewart's mind was the outgoing nice type. Stewart remembered how hostile these people were towards Stewart's friend William. He understands why, but then he remembered the teaching from the Boudican Church. "Are we not taught to forgive those who persecute us?" thought Stewart. They call themselves good Boudican Christians, oh the irony. Plus, William had already paid for his crime, the Church pardoned him upon seeing that his sentence was too extreme. But unfortunately, the Church has done nothing to the Boudicans treating William as an outcast. "Ugh, why is the Church so corrupt under our current pope, maybe that is why we lost the war." Thought Stewart. "The Bodeland abbey's cardinal should be pope, he would set everything right, reform the Church, and excommunicate people who are unnecessarily cruel to William." "Hey, Stewart." Said a voice, it was Mary Graham. "Mary." Replied Stewart. Mary sat next to the Stewart on the grass. "You probably should have brought noble dancing clothes, if you wished to dance." Said Mary, in a joking voice. "I wouldn't want to dance." Said Stewart, whose temper soured upon looking at the girls who insulted William Wallace. "Not with them, they who treat my friend and superior unjustly, after how heroically William is, they despite them and try their best to shun him." Stewart had never gotten mad in front of Mary Graham, but now, because William was his friend, he had to defend him, despite everyone's feelings. Feelings shouldn't dictate reason, if they did, reason would be subjective, based on the eye of the perceiver. Mary Graham's smile died. "Stewart, I admire that you defended your friend." Said Graham. "But understand they are hurting, just look at them." Stewart looked at them, everyone was enjoying themselves in a peaceful time. Dancing, singing, eating, an outsider would see this as a joyous atmosphere. "Everyone suffered in the war, everyone's still hurting." Said Mary. "Yet moments like this make them happy." "I don't get your point." Said Stewart. "The point is that we are part of these people, and we now have peace of as sort." Said Mary. "William, unfortunately is a grim reminder of what everyone had lost, and I know it is not fair, but they hate him, for he makes them suffer." Mary Graham stood up. "But I think with time the wounds could heal." Said Mary. "I believe what you say on William is true, he is a hero, he will show them, one day, I'm sure, Graham thinks the same as well." At once, a whole crowd gathered around two people at once. There was a bunch of murmuring, joyful murmuring around the new visitors. "Martha, what is going on?" asked Mary. "It's Lord Comyn!" said Martha with excitement. "He has arrived to our festival upon Mayor Taylor's request, and oh my, is that who I think it is." "Is it the-the lady-princess Asami, Lord Comyn's fiancée?" Said Mary with surprise. "Yes, let's go see her." Said Martha. 'She has brightest most beautiful red hair of anyone I have ever seen." Mary ran past Martha. Martha looked at Stewart, after Mary passed her. "If you were Comyn, you would see the hating on Wallace is justified." She said with a stern voice. Martha then went to join the others to see Lord Comyn and his fiancée. Stewart poured out his drink in disgust. "Hating William Wallace will come back to bite you." Thought Stewart. "It will come back to bite all of you." Stewart went behind the tree and decided to sit down and rest. The crowd horde around Lord Comyn and his fiancée. "Lord, Comyn. It is an honor, my lord." Said a dancer. "Lord Comyn, may I honor thy Lord and Lady with song?" asked a signer. "Lord Comyn, would thy Lady, like to try me famous festival roast?" asked a chef. They were asking so many questions, that Comyn only smiled and did not answer. Asami huddled close to John Comyn, embarrassed by the attention. Asami wore Boudican woman's clothing fit for nobility, a long teal dress, with a light green cape. The Mayor, James Taylor, with his wife in hand walked up and everyone cleared around John Comyn and Asami. "My Lord and my Lady, I am so happy, you have accepted to join us today." Said Taylor. Both Taylor and his wife, Mrs. Taylor bowed before their Lord and Lady. "My lady, you are more beautiful as the rumors say." Said Mrs. Taylor. Asami's face went red, almost as red as her hair. "Now, will our Lord and Lady care to join us in a dance, and in the festivities of this festival." asked Mayor Taylor. Asami whispered something in Comyn's ear. "We will, but first may I have a word with my lady, alone." Said Comyn. Comyn and Asami walked together to the tree Stewart were resting on, although on the opposite side. https://preview.redd.it/owz8a3gttl1d1.png?width=780&format=png&auto=webp&s=2611e0f9b00beb25b714634c9e68091501e6ef89 "I am glad you took me to meet your people, John." Said Asami. "But this dress.." "Is beautiful isn't it?" replied Comyn. "It is but, it is hard to move around in." said Asami. "I prefer my Kimono." "Will it stop you from dancing?" asked Comyn. "No, I think I should be I can still move my feat to dance the way your people do." Replied Asami. "I saw the girls dance in their dresses, it shouldn't be hard I hope." "Did you understand them at least." Asked Comyn. "Yes, I have studied Latin enough to recognize it and speak it, you taught me." Said Asami. Comyn nodded in agreement. Stewart heard this conversation, and decided to hopefully walk away, quietly. "Wait, boy!" said Asami, upon noticing him. Stewart turned towards Asami and Lord Comyn. He bowed, to hide his face, and show respect. "Hello, my lord and lady, it is a honor." Said Stewart with careful courtesy. "Wait, are you a knight, a young boy knight?" asked Asami. "No, my lady, knights and squires look similar, but all squire's are just boys, while most knights are men like Lord Comyn here." Replied Stewart. "I recognize your surcoat, your older brother Steward James was one of the six appointed guardians of Boudica, is that right, John Stewart?" Said John Comyn. "You may rise squire." Stewart got up on his feat. "That is correct my lord." Replied Stewart. Asami looked a little infuriated. "Is John really a popular common name in Boudica." Asked Asami. "It is one of them my lady." Replied Stewart. Asami sighed. "Guess I'll just be using last names most of the time in Boudica them." Said Asami jokingly. "Stewart, where is the earl of Fife?" asked Comyn. "Oh, he's with his wife up north, he has left his head squire in charge." Replied Stewart. He turned towards Asami. "I'm sure you know them, my lady." "Oh, wait, all those boys in templar cloaks at the wedding, I remember seeing you among them." Said Asami. "And there was another boy, a handsome boy, with dirty blond hair, the color of his eyes were light green, they look exactly like the head Medical ninja, Sakura Uchiha's eyes." "Yep that is Macduff's squire." Interrupted Stewart, upon seeing Comyn's face redden from anger. "But my lords and lady, isn't there a festival, that you ought to attend to?" "Why the sudden change in subject?" asked Asami. "My lady." Said Comyn. "He is right, this boy is a sentry. I feal it is time to join the others in dancing, in fact you ought to know all Boudicans then getting to know just three." Asami looked at each Stewart then back at Comyn. "Oh, ok, I guess you are right, love." Said Asami. "It was good to meet you, John Stewart." As Asami and Comyn turned away, Stewart saw Comyn mouth a "thanks," at Stewart. Stewart sat down and leaned on the tree. Meanwhile outside the forest of the festival, Ehou and William rode horses. "What do you mean you can't go to the festival?" said Ehou. "It's a long story, but the people of Bodeland hate me." Said William. "But why, you going to tell me?" asked Ehou. William looked at Ehou with an emotionless face. "Well, I don't know your secret past." Said William. "So it is fair that you don't know mine, plus I never like talking about it." "Hey, that's not fair." Said Ehou in protest. "Even I don't know my past." Ehou thought for a moment. "Well, if the Boudicans do hate you, I wouldn't want to hang with them then." Said Ehou. William Wallace looked at Ehou in surprise. "Just because they hate me, doesn't mean you have to." Said William. Ehou laughed. "No thanks, haters of my half-Boudican brother, are haters of me as well." Said Ehou with a smile. William smirked. "Very well, we ride north for Macduff." Said William. As Ehou turned his horse north. The back of his head, through the woods caught the eyes of John Comyn. Comyn was shook, his eyes poked out of his socket. "John!?" asked Asami in worry. "Are you Ok!?" John looked at Asami, his face sweating. He looked back, and the figure he saw was gone. "I though I saw something." Said John Comyn. https://preview.redd.it/3ekl79z1ul1d1.png?width=352&format=png&auto=webp&s=86e264d1d5b9ae79e881f363e74285a4b29f9db2 "Your face is sweating." Said Asami. "What did you see." John Comyn looked left and right. Asami put her hands over his right hand. "What did you see?" asked Asami again. "John, you can tell me." John looked at her with frightened eyes. "A ghost!" he said. |
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Hellraiser: Judgment HD/VU $4
Home Alone 1 & 2 Set HD/MA $6.5
Hook 4K/MA $6
Hot Tub Time Machine 2 HD/VU $3.5 or 4K/IT $4
Hunger Games Ballad of Songbirds & Snakes HD/VU $6.5
Ice Age Continental Drift HD/MA $3
I, Frankenstein HD/VU or IT $3
I Saw the Light HD/MA $4
Identity Thief HD/IT $3.5
Indiana Jones & the Last Crusade HD/VU $4 or 4K/IT $4.5
If Beale Street Could Talk HD/MA $4
Inhabitant HD/VU $4.5
Insidious The Last Key HD/MA $3.5
Insidious Red Door HD/MA $5
Jay and Silent Bob Reboot HD/VU $3.5
Jerry Maguire 4K/MA $6
Jesus Revolution HD/VU $4.5
John Wick 4 4K/VU $6.5
John Wick 4-Film Collection HD/VU $13
Journey to Bethlehem HD/MA $5.5
Jumanji '95 4K/MA $6
Jungle Book '67 HD/MA $4
Jurassic World 6-film Set HD/MA $18
Kandahar HD/MA $5.5
Karate Kid '84 4K/MA $6
Kiss the Girls 4K/VU $6
Knights of the Zodiac HD/MA $5
Kramer vs Kramer 4K/MA $6
Last Action Hero 4K/MA $5.5
Last Christmas HD/MA $4.5
Last Night in Soho 4K/MA $5.5
Leprechaun 8-Film Set HD/VU $15
Lincoln Lawyer 4K/VU $6
Little Mermaid '23 HD/MA $5
Lost Boys 4K/MA $6
Love Again SD/MA $2.5
Lucky Number Slevin HD/VU $4.5
M3GAN (Thea & Unr) HD/MA $5
Ma '19 HD/MA $4
Madame Web 4K/MA $10 or HD/MA $8.5
Mamma Mia Here We Go Again HD/MA $3
Manodrome HD/VU $5.5
Marsh King's Daughter 4K/VU $5.5
Martyrs HD/VU $4.5
May HD/VU $4
Memories of Murder 4K/MA $6.5
Menu HD/GP $3.5
Meryl Streep 8-Film Set HD/MA $22
MIB International HD/MA $4
Midnight Meat Train (Unr) HD/VU $4
Migration HD/MA $6
Miller's Girl 4K/VU $9.5
Miracle on 34th Street HD/MA $4
Missing HD/MA $5
Mission Impossible Dead Reckoning Pt 1 HD/VU $6
Mist 4K/VU $6.5
Mitchells vs the Machines HD/MA $4.5
Monster High Electrified HD/MA or IT $2.5
Mortal Kombat Legends Cage Match HD/MA $5.5
Mr. Holmes HD/VU $3.5
Mulan '98 HD/MA $4 or HD/GP $3.5
My Big Fat Greek Wedding 3 HD/MA $5.5
My Girl 4K/MA $6
National Champions 4K/IT $5
New Mutants HD/MA $4 or HD/GP $3.5
Night at the Museum Secret of the Tomb HD/MA $3
Night Swim HD/MA $8
Night Train to Lisbon HD/VU $4
No Good Deed HD/MA $3
No Hard Feelings HD/MA $5.5
Nope HD/MA $4.5
Nun 2 HD/MA $5.5
Ocean's Trilogy 4K/MA $16
Old 4K/MA $6 or HD/MA $4.5
Once Upon a Time in Hollywood HD/MA $3.5
Oppenheimer HD/MA $6
Other Side of the Door HD/MA $4
Out Of The Blue HD/VU $4
Overlord 4K/VU or IT $4.5
Parental Guidance HD/MA $2.5
Parents HD/VU $4
Parasite HD/MA $4
Paw Patrol Mighty Movie HD/VU $6.5
Pet Sematary Bloodlines HD/VU $5.5
Peter Pan Return to Neverland HD/GP $4
Philadelphia 4K/MA $5.5
Pick 1 (Black Christmas '18 4K, Dog's Purpose 4K, Sparks Brothers 4K, Raw, Agnes Bourne, Antz, Being Frank, Loving, Don't Let Go, Kicks, Final Account) HD/MA $4
Pitch Perfect 3 4K/MA $5
Pixels HD/MA $3
Plane 4K/VU $5.5
Poor Things HD/MA $7.5
Pope's Exorcist HD/MA $5
Prey for the Devil 4K/VU $5.5
Priscilla HD/VU $6
Punch-Drunk Love 4K/MA $6.5
Queen & Slim HD/MA $4
Quick & the Dead '95 4K/MA $6
Rambo First Blood HD/VU $4
Rambo First Blood Pt 2 HD/VU $4
Rango HD/VU $3
Real Genius 4K/MA $5.5
Red Rocket HD/VU $4
Red Sparrow HD/MA $3.5
Renfield HD/MA $5.5
Requin HD/VU $4.5
Resident Evil Welcome to Raccoon City HD/MA $4
Robin Hood '73 HD/MA $4
Rosemary's Baby 4K/VU $6.5
Rhythm Section HD/VU $3.5
Ruby Gilman Teenage Kraken HD/MA $5.5
Rudy (Dir Cut) 4K/MA $6.5
Run Lola Run 4K/MA $6.5
Saint Maud HD/VU $4
Samurai Jack Complete Series HD/VU $40
Saw 8-film Set (Unr except Jigsaw) HD/VU $20
Secret Life of Walter Mitty HD/MA $3.5
Shaun of the Dead HD/MA $4 or 4K/IT $4.5
Shrek 6-Film Set (1-4, Musical, Puss in Boots) HD/MA $19
Skiptrace HD/VU $3.5
Scorpion King 4-Film Set (1, 3, 4, Book of Souls) HD/MA $12
Scream 3 4K/VU $5.5
Scream 5 4K/VU $5.5 or HD/VU $4
Scream 6 4K/VU $7 or HD/VU $5.5
Sharktopus HD/VU $3.5
Shazam 2-film Set HD/MA $8
Shazam Fury of the Gods 4K/MA $6 or HD/MA $4.5
She Said HD/MA $4.5
She's the Man HD/VU $3.5
Silver Linings Playbook HD/VU $3 or HD/GP $2.5
Sisu 4K/VU $6
Sixteen Candles HD/MA $3.5 or HD/IT $3.5
Sleepless in Seattle 4K/MA $6
Smile HD/VU $4.5
Social Network 4K/MA $6
Sometimes They Come Back...Again HD/VU $4
Sometimes They Come Back...For More HD/VU $3.5
Sonic the Hedgehog 2 4K/VU $5.5
Spider-Man Across the Spider-Verse 4K/MA $7 or HD/MA $5.5
Split HD/MA $3 or 4K/IT $3.5
Spoiler Alert HD/MA $5
Star Trek First Contact 4K/VU $5.5
Star Trek Generations 4K/VU $5.5
Star Trek Insurrection 4K/VU $5.5
Star Trek Nemesis 4K/VU $5.5
Star Wars A New Hope HD/MA $4 or HD/GP $3.5
Starship Troopers 4K/MA $6
Step Brothers 4K/MA $6.5
Stillwater HD/MA $4
Studio 666 HD/MA $5
Sum of All Fears 4K/VU $5
Supercell HD/VU $4.5
Super Mario Bros Movie HD/MA $5
Super Troopers 2 HD/MA $3.5
Superfly HD/MA $4
Suspiria (2018) HD/VU $4
T2 Trainspotting 4K/MA $6
Talk to Me 4K/VU $6
Talladega Nights 4K/MA $6.5
Taxi Driver 4K/MA $5.5
Thanksgiving 4K/MA $7.5
The Batman 4K/MA $5.5
The Bay HD/VU $4
The Color Purple '23 4K/MA $8 or HD/MA $6.5
The Descent (Unr) HD/VU $4.5
The Flash HD/MA $5
The Marvels HD/MA $6.5
The Natural 4K/MA $6
The Other Guys 4K/MA $6
The Professional (Ext) 4K/MA $6
The Super '17 HD/VU $4
Ticket to Paradise HD/MA $4.5
Titanic 4K/VU or IT $6 or HD/VU $4.5
Top Gun Maverick HD/VU $4
Toy Story 3 HD/MA $4
Trading Places 4K/VU $6
Transformers Rise of the Beasts 4K/MA $7 or HD/VU $5.5
Trolls 3-Film Collection HD/MA $12
Trolls Band Together HD/MA $6.5
Tusk HD/VU $4.5
Umma HD/MA $4.5
Unbearable Weight of Massive Talent 4K/VU $5
Universal Monsters 4-Film Set 4K/MA $17
V for Vendetta 4K/MA $6.5
Vanilla Sky HD/VU $5.5
Velvet Goldmine HD/VU $4.5
Venture Bros Radiant is the Blood of the Baboon Heart HD/MA $5.5
Violent Night HD/MA $5
Walking Dead Season 9 HD/VU $7
Watchmen Ultimate Cut 4K/MA $7.5
Waxwork 2 HD/VU $3.5
We Summon the Darkness HD/VU $4.5
Welcome to Marwen HD/MA $4.5
Welcome to Monster High HD/MA or IT $3
Whiplash 4K/MA $6 or HD/MA $4.5
Whitney Houston I Wanna Dance w/ Somebody HD/MA $4
Wicker Man 4K/VU $5.5
Wish HD/MA $7
Witch HD/VU $3.5
Woman King 4K/MA $5 or HD/MA $4
Woman Walks Ahead HD/VU $4
You're Next HD/VU $3.5
X-Men 1-4 Set SD/MA $7.5
Zombieland Double Tap HD/MA $4
All other movies (A-Z)
10 Cloverfield Lane HD/VU $3 or 4K/IT $3.5
101 Dalmatians '61 HD/MA $3.5 or HD/GP $3
13 Hours HD/VU $2.5 or 4K/IT $3
14 Blades HD/VU $3.5
1917 4K/MA $5 or HD/MA $3.5
2 Guns 4K/MA $4 or HD/MA or IT $2.5
21 Jump Street HD/MA $3
22 Jump Street HD/MA $3.5
3 Extremes HD/VU $4
3 From Hell (Unr) 4K/VU $4 or HD/VU $2.5
3:10 to Yuma 4K/VU $5
31 HD/VU $2.5
47 Meters Down HD/IT $3.5
47 Meters Down Uncaged 4K/VU $4.5 or HD/VU $3
47 Ronin HD/MA $3 or 4K/IT $3.5
600 Miles HD/VU $3.5
71 HD/VU $3.5
A Christmas Story 4K/MA $6
A Dog's Purpose HD/IT $3
A Good Day to Die Hard (Ext) HD/VU $2.5
A Journal For Jordan HD/MA $4
A Quiet Place HD/VU $2.5 or 4K/IT $3
A Walk Among the Tombstones HD/IT $3.5
A Wrinkle in Time HD/MA $3 or HD/GP $2.5
A.C.O.D. HD/VU or IT $3.5
Abominable 4K/MA $5.5 or HD/MA $4
About Last Night HD/MA $3
Action Point HD/IT $2
Ad Astra HD/MA $4
Adaptation 4K/MA $6
Adrift HD/IT $3.5
Adverse 4K/VU $5
After Earth HD/MA $3
Aftermath HD/VU $3
Air Force One 4K/MA $6
Aladdin ‘19 HD/MA $3 or HD/GP $2.5
Aladdin ‘92 HD/MA $3.5 or HD/GP $3
Alien HD/MA $4
Alien Covenant HD/MA $2.5
Alfred Hitchcock 4-Film Set Vol 1 4K/MA $18
Alfred Hitchcock 5-Film Set Vol 2 4K/MA $21
Alien 6-film Set HD/MA $16
Alita Battle Angel 4K/MA $5 or HD/MA $3.5
All Eyez on Me HD/VU or IT $3
All is Lost HD/VU $3.5
All the Money in the World HD/MA $3.5
Allied HD/VU or IT $3.5
Almost Christmas HD/MA or IT $3
Amazing Spider-Man 2 HD/MA $3.5 or SD/MA $1.5
Amazing Spider-Man HD/MA $3.5 or SD/MA $1.5
American Assassin 4K/VU $4.5 or HD/VU $3
American Hustle HD/MA $3.5
American Reunion HD/VU or IT $3
American Ultra HD/VU or IT $4
American Underdog 4K/VU $5.5 or HD/VU $4
Anatomy of a Murder 4K/MA $5
Anchorman 2 HD/VU or IT $2.5
Angel Has Fallen 4K/VU $5 or HD/VU $3.5
Angel Heart 4K/VU $5.5
Angel of Mine 4K/VU $5.5
Angry Birds Movie HD/MA $3.5
Anna Karenina HD/IT $3.5
Annie ‘14 HD/MA $3.5
Annihilation HD/VU $3 or 4K/IT $3.5
Antebellum 4K/VU $5
Antlers HD/GP $3
Ant-Man & the Wasp HD/MA $3.5 or HD/GP $3
Ant-Man HD/MA $4 or HD/GP $3.5
Apache Junction HD/VU $3.5
Apollo 13 4K/MA or IT $5 or HD/MA $3.5
Arctic HD/MA $4
Arrival HD/VU $2.5 or 4K/IT $3
Art of Self-Defense HD/MA $4
Ash vs Evil Dead S.3 HD/VU $5
Assassination Nation HD/MA $3.5
Assassin's Creed HD/MA $3
Assignment HD/VU $4
Atomic Blonde 4K/MA or IT $4.5 or HD/MA $3
August Osage County HD/VU $3
Avengers Age of Ultron HD/GP $3
Avengers Endgame HD/MA $2.5 or HD/GP $2
Avengers Infinity War 4K/MA $4 or HD/MA $2.5 or HD/GP $2
Baby Driver HD/MA $4
Backdraft 4K/IT $5.5
Bad Grandpa HD/VU or IT $2.5
Bad Words HD/MA or IT $3
Bandslam HD/VU $4
Bank Job HD/VU $3.5
Barb & Star go to Vista Del Mar HD/VU $4
Barbie & Her Sisters in the Great Puppy Adventure HD/IT $3.5
Bart Got a Room HD/VU $4
Battle Royale HD/VU $4.5
Battleship 4K/MA or IT $4.5 or HD/MA $3
Baywatch HD/VU $2.5 or 4K/IT $3
Beauty & the Beast ‘17 HD/MA $2.5 or HD/GP $2
Beauty & the Beast ‘91 HD/GP $3
Bedknobs & Broomsticks HD/GP $3.5
Before I Fall HD/VU or IT $3.5
Begin Again HD/VU $3.5
Beiruit HD/MA $3.5
Belly 4K/VU $5.5
Ben-Hur ‘16 HD/VU $3.5
Between Worlds HD/VU $3.5
Big Hero 6 4K/MA $5 or HD/MA $3.5 or HD/GP $3
Big Lebowski 4K/MA or IT $5.5
Big Short HD/VU $3.5
Big Wedding HD/VU or IT $3
Billy Elliot HD/MA or IT $4
Birdman HD/MA $4
Black & Blue HD/MA $4
Black Christmas '19 HD/MA $4.5
Black Panther 4K/MA $4.5 or HD/GP $2.5
Black Panther Wakanda Forever HD/MA $3.5 or HD/GP $3
BlackKklansman HD/MA $4.5
Blacklight HD/MA $4
Black Widow HD/GP $3
Blackhat HD/IT $3.5
Blair Witch Project ‘99 HD/VU $4
Bleeding Steel HD/VU $3.5
Blindspotting 4K/VU $5.5 or HD/VU $4
Blood Money ‘17 HD/VU $3.5
Blood Ties HD/VU $3.5
Blue Jasmine HD/MA $3.5
Blue Ruin HD/VU $4
Blues Brothers HD/MA $4 or 4K/IT $4.5
Bob's Burgers Movie HD/GP $3
Body Cam HD/VU $4
Bohemian Rhapsody 4K/MA $5 or HD/MA $3.5
Bombshell 4K/VU $5
Book Club HD/VU or IT $2.5
Book of Life HD/MA $3.5
Boss Baby HD/MA $2.5
Bourne Identity 4K/IT $5 or HD/MA $3.5
Bourne Legacy HD/VU $2 or 4K/IT $2.5
Bourne Supremacy HD/MA $3.5 or 4K/IT $4
Bourne Ultimatum 4K/MA or IT $5 or HD/MA $3.5
Boy ‘16 HD/IT $3.5
Boy & the World HD/IT $3.5
Boyhood HD/VU or IT $2.5
Braven HD/VU $4
Breakfast Club HD/MA or IT $4
Breakthrough HD/MA $3
Brian Banks HD/MA $3
Bridge of Spies HD/GP $3.5
Brothers Bloom HD/VU $4.5
Bumblebee 4K/VU or IT $5 or HD/VU $3.5
Butler HD/VU $3
Cabin in the Woods HD/VU $2.5 or 4K/IT $3
Cake HD/MA $4
Call of Wild 4K/MA $4.5 or HD/MA $3 or HD/GP $2.5
Calvary HD/MA $4
Candyman '20 4K/MA $6 or HD/MA $4.5
Candyman 3 HD/VU $4
Captain America Civil War HD/GP $2.5
Captain America First Avenger HD/GP $3.5
Captain America Winter Soldier HD/GP $3.5
Captain Marvel 4K/MA $4 or HD/MA $2.5 or HD/GP $2
Captain Phillips HD/MA $3.5
Captain Underpants First Epic Movie HD/MA $2.5
Carol HD/VU $4
Cars 3 HD/GP $2.5
Casablanca 4K/MA $5.5
Case for Christ HD/MA or IT $2.5
Casper HD/IT $4
Celebrating Mickey HD/MA $3.5 or HD/GP $3
Chaos Walking 4K/VU $5
Chappaquiddick HD/VU $4
Chasing Mavericks HD/MA $3.5
Chicago HD/VU $4
Child 44 HD/VU $4
Children ‘08 HD/VU $4
Christopher Robin HD/MA $4 or HD/GP $3.5
Chronicles of Riddick HD/IT $4
Clerks 3 4K/VU $4.5
Clifford the Big Red Dog HD/VU $4
Cloverfield 4K/VU $5.5 or HD/VU $4
Coco HD/GP $2.5
Cold Pursuit 4K/VU $5 or HD/VU $3.5
Collection HD/VU $3.5
Collide ‘17 HD/VU or IT $2.5
Colma The Musical HD/VU $4
Colombiana (Unr) HD/MA $4
Colony 4K/VU $5
Come & Find Me HD/VU $4
Commuter 4K/VU $5 or HD/VU $3.5
Company of Heroes HD/MA $4
Conan the Barbarian ‘11 4K/VU $5
Conspirator HD/VU $4
Contraband HD/IT $3
Contractor HD/VU $4.5
Cooler HD/VU $4
Cool Hand Luke 4K/MA $5.5
Cooties HD/VU $4
Cotton Club Encore 4K/VU $5.5
Countdown ‘16 HD/VU $3.5
Courier 4K/VU $5.5 or HD/VU $4
Craft Legacy HD/MA $4.5
Criminal HD/VU or IT $3
Croods HD/VU $3.5
Cruella HD/MA $3.5 or HD/GP $3
Crypto 4K/VU $5 or HD/VU $3.5
Daddy's Home HD/IT $2.5
Daddy's Home 2 HD/VU or IT $3
Damsel HD/VU $4.5
Dangerous 4K/VU $4.5 or HD/VU $3
Danny Collins HD/IT $3.5
Dark Crimes HD/VU $4
Darkest Minds HD/MA $4
Dark Places HD/VU $4
Dark Tower HD/MA $3.5
Darkest Hour ‘17 4K/MA $5 or HD/MA $3.5
Dawn of the Planet of the Apes HD/MA $3.5
Deadpool 2 (w/Super Duper Cut) HD/MA $4
Deadpool HD/MA $2.5
Death of Me HD/VU $4
Death on the Nile HD/GP $3
Death Wish '18 HD/VU $3
Deepwater Horizon HD/VU $2.5 or 4K/IT $3
Deliver Us From Evil HD/MA $3.5
Dentist 2-Film Set HD/VU $7
Despicable Me 2 HD/VU $3 or 4K/IT $3.5
Despicable Me 3 4K/MA or IT $4.5
Despicable Me 4K/MA or IT $4.5
Detroit HD/MA $3.5
Devil Inside HD/VU $3.5
Devil's Due HD/MA $3.5
Die Hard HD/MA $3.5
Die Hard 5-film Set HD/MA $18
Die in a Gunfight 4K/VU $5
Dilemma HD/VU $3.5
Dirty Dancing 4K/VU $5 or HD/VU $3.5
Disney Animated Short Films Set HD/MA $3.5 or HD/GP $3
Disneynature Monkey Kingdom HD/MA $3
Django Unchained HD/VU $3
Doctor Strange HD/MA $3 or HD/GP $2.5
Doctor Strange Multiverse of Madness HD/GP $3
Dolittle HD/MA $3.5
Dom Hemingway HD/MA $3.5
Don Verdean HD/VU $4.5
Doorman HD/VU $3.5
Doors 4K/VU $5.5 or HD/VU $4
Downsizing HD/VU $2 or 4K/IT $2.5
Downton Abbey A New Era HD/MA $4
Downton Abbey The Movie HD/MA $3.5
Draft Day HD/IT $3.5
Dragged Across Concrete HD/VU $3.5
Dragonslayer 4K/VU $5.5
Dream a Little Dream HD/VU $4
Dreamkatcher HD/VU $4
Dreamworks 10-Film HD/MA $25
Dredd 4K/VU $4 or HD/VU $2.5
Dying of the Light HD/VU $2.5
E.T. Extra Terrestrial 4K/MA or IT $5 or HD/MA $3.5
Early Man 4K/VU $5.5
Earth Girls are Easy HD/VU $4
Eddie the Eagle HD/MA $4
Edge of Seventeen HD/IT $3
Edward Scissorhands HD/MA $3.5
El Chicano HD/MA $4
Elysium HD/MA $3.5
Emoji Movie HD/MA $3
Empire of Light HD/MA $3.5 or HD/GP $3
Empire State HD/VU $3
Encanto 4K/GP $3.5
Enough Said HD/MA $3.5
Enter the Dragon 4K/MA $6
Epic HD/MA $3
Equalizer HD/MA $3.5
Equalizer 2 HD/MA $3.5
Escape From Planet Earth HD/VU $3
Eternals HD/MA $3.5 or HD/GP $3
Everest HD/MA $3 or 4K/IT $3.5
Everything Must Go HD/VU $4
Evil Dead 2 HD/VU $3.5
Ex Machina HD/VU $3
Exodus Gods & Kings HD/MA $3.5
Expired 4K/VU $4.5
Fair Game (Dir) HD/VU $4
Fantastic Four ‘15 HD/MA $4
Fast & Furious 4 4K/MA $5
Fast & the Furious 8-film Set HD/MA $17.5
Fast & the Furious 9-film Set HD/MA $20
Fast Color 4K/VU $5.5
Fatale ‘20 4K/VU $5 or HD/VU $3.5
Fatherhood HD/MA $4
Fault in Our Stars HD/MA $3.5
Fear of Rain 4K/VU $5.5
Fences HD/VU $2.5 or 4K/IT $3
Ferdinand HD/MA $3.5
Field of Dreams 4K/MA or IT $5.5
Fifty Shades Darker (Unr) HD/VU $2.5 or 4K/IT $3
Fifty Shades Freed HD/MA $4
Fifty Shades of Grey (Unr) 4K/MA or IT $4
Finding Dory HD/MA $2.5 or HD/GP $2
Finding Nemo HD/GP $3.5
Finest Hours HD/GP $3
Firm 4K/VU $6
First Man HD/MA $4
Flashback ‘20 HD/VU $4
Flight HD/VU or IT $3
Florence Foster Jenkins HD/VU or IT $3
Footloose ‘11 HD/IT $3
Forbidden Kingdom HD/VU $4.5
Ford v Ferrari HD/MA $4
Forest HD/IT $3.5
Forever My Girl HD/IT $3
Fortress HD/VU $3.5
Fortress Sniper's Eye HD/VU $3.5
Fox & the Hound 2 HD/MA $4 or HD/GP $3.5
Foxcatcher HD/MA $4
Frank & Lola HD/VU or IT $3
Free Guy HD/GP $3
French Dispatch HD/MA $4 or HD/GP $3.5
Friday the 13th 4K/VU $5.5
From Here to Eternity 4K/MA $5.5
Frozen (Sing-Along) HD/MA $2 or HD/GP $1.5
Frozen HD/GP $2
Frozen 2 HD/MA $2.5 or HD/GP $2
Frozen Ground ‘13 HD/VU $3.5
Fury HD/MA $3.5
Future World HD/VU $3.5
G.I. Joe Retaliation HD/VU $3 or 4K/IT $3.5
Gambit ‘12 HD/MA $4
Gambler HD/VU or IT $3
Gamer 4K/VU $5.5
Gemini Man 4K/VU or IT $4.5 or HD/VU $3
Get Out 4K/MA or IT $5 or HD/MA $3.5
Ghost in the Shell ‘17 HD/VU $3 or 4K/IT $3.5
Ghost in the Shell ‘95 4K/VU $5
Ghost Rider Spirit of Vengeance HD/MA $4
Ghost Team One HD/VU or IT $3.5
Ghostbusters ‘84 HD/MA $3.5
Ghostbusters (Thea & Ext) ‘16 HD/MA $3
Ghostbusters 2 HD/MA $3.5
Gifted HD/MA $3
Girl in Spider's Web HD/MA $4
Girl on Train HD/VU $3 or 4K/IT $3.5
Girl w/ All Gifts HD/VU $4
Giver HD/VU $3.5
Glass Castle 4K/VU $5.5
Glass HD/MA $4
God Bless The Broken Road HD/VU $3.5
God's Not Dead 2 HD/MA or IT $2.5
God's Not Dead 3 HD/MA $3
Gods of Egypt HD/VU $2.5 or 4K/IT $3
Gold ‘16 HD/VU $2.5
Good Dinosaur HD/GP $2.5
Good Kill HD/VU or IT $3.5
Grease 2 HD/VU $4
Great Wall 4K/MA or IT $4.5 or HD/MA $3
Greatest Showman HD/MA $3.5
Green Book HD/MA $4
Grey HD/VU or IT $3
Guardians of the Galaxy Vol 1 HD/MA $3.5 or HD/GP $3
Guardians of the Galaxy Vol 2 HD/GP $2
Guilt Trip HD/VU or IT $3
Gunman HD/MA or IT $3
Guns of Navarone 4K/MA $5.5
Hacksaw Ridge 4K/VU or IT $4.5 or HD/VU $3
Halloween ‘18 HD/MA $3
Hammer of the Gods HD/VU $2
Hannibal S.1 HD/VU $5
Hansel & Gretel Witch Hunters (Unr) HD/VU or IT $3
Hard Luck Love Song 4K/VU $5.5
Hard Target 2 HD/IT $1.5
Hardcore Henry HD/VU or IT $3.5
Hate U Give HD/MA $4
Hateful Eight HD/VU $3.5
Heat (Director's Cut) ‘95 4K/MA $5.5
Heaven is for Real HD/MA $3.5
Hercules ‘14 HD/VU $2.5 or 4K/IT $3
Here Comes the Boom HD/MA $3.5
Hereditary HD/VU $3.5
Hidden Figures HD/MA $3
High Note HD/MA $4
Highlander 4K/VU $5.5 or HD/VU $4
Hitchcock '12 HD/MA $4
Hitman Agent 47 HD/MA $3
Hitman's Bodyguard HD/VU $3.5
Hocus Pocus HD/MA $3.5 or HD/GP $3
Home HD/MA $3
Home Again HD/MA $3
Home Alone 4K/MA $5 or HD/MA $3.5
Homefront HD/MA or IT $3
Homesman HD/VU $3
Honey 2 HD/VU $3
Hostiles 4K/VU $4.5 or HD/VU $3
Hotel Transylvania 3 HD/MA $3.5
Hot Fuzz HD/VU $4
Hotel Mumbai HD/MA $4
Hours ‘13 HD/VU $4
House of 1000 Corpses HD/VU $4
House of Gucci 4K/IT $5.5
House w/ a Clock in Its Walls sHD/MA $4
How to Train Your Dragon 2 HD/MA $2.5
Hugo HD/VU $3
Hunt for Red October 4K/VU $5.5 or HD/VU $4
Huntsman Winter's War (Ext) HD/MA $3 or 4K/IT $3.5
I Can Only Imagine HD/VU $3.5
I Feel Pretty HD/IT $2
Ides of March HD/MA $4
I Know What You Did Last Summer 4K/MA $5.5
Imitation Game HD/VU $3
In a Valley of Violence HD/MA or IT $3
In Secret ‘14 HD/VU $4.5
In the Blood HD/VU $4
Incredibles 2 HD/GP $3
Independence Day ‘96 HD/MA $4
Independence Day Resurgence HD/MA $2.5
Indiana Jones & the Raiders of the Lost Ark 4K/VU or IT $5.5 or HD/VU $4
Indiana Jones & the Temple of Doom 4K/VU or IT $5.5 or HD/VU $4
Indignation HD/VU $4
Indivisible HD/MA $3.5
Inferno HD/MA $3
Initiation 4K/VU $5
Initiation HD/VU $3.5
Internship HD/MA $3
Interstellar 4K/VU or IT $5 or HD/VU $3.5
Interview HD/MA $3.5
Into the Woods HD/MA $3 or HD/GP $2.5
Invisible Man '20 HD/MA $3.5
Invisible Man ‘33 HD/MA $3.5
Iron Man 3 HD/MA $2.5 or HD/GP $2
Iron Man & Hulk Heroes United HD/GP $3.5
Iron Mask ‘19 HD/VU $4.5
It Follows HD/VU $3.5
It's a Wonderful Life HD/VU $3
Jack & Jill HD/MA $3.5
Jack Reacher 4K/IT $4.5
Jack Reacher Never Go Back HD/VU $3 or 4K/IT $3.5
Jack Ryan Shadow Recruit 4K/IT $4 or HD/VU $2.5
Jacob's Ladder HD/VU $4
Jane Got a Gun HD/VU $4
Jarhead 3 (Unr) HD/IT $2.5
Jason Bourne HD/VU $2.5 or 4K/IT $3
Jesus Music HD/VU $3.5
Jexi HD/VU $3.5
Jobs HD/MA or IT $3.5
Joe HD/VU $3.5
Joe Kidd HD/IT $4
John Wick 1 & 2 Bundle HD/VU $4
John Wick 3 Parabellum 4K/VU $4.5
John Wick Chapter 2 HD/VU $3.5 or 4K/IT $4
John Wick HD/VU $2 or 4K/IT $2.5
John Wick Trilogy (Parabellum 4K) HD/VU $9 or all HD/VU $8
Journey to the West Conquering the Demons HD/VU $3.5
Joy HD/MA $3
Judy 4K/VU $5 or HD/VU $3.5
Juliet, Naked 4K/VU $5.5
Jumanji Welcome To The Jungle HD/MA $2.5
Jungle Book ‘16 4K/MA $4.5 or HD/GP $2.5
Jungle Cruise HD/MA $4 or HD/GP $3.5
Jurassic Park 3 HD/VU $3.5 or 4K/IT $4
Jurassic Park 4K/MA or IT $5 or HD/MA $3.5
Jurassic World 5-film Set HD/MA $14
Jurassic World Fallen Kingdom 4K/MA $4.5 or HD/MA $3
Jurassic World HD/VU $2.5 or 4K/IT $3
Justice ‘17 HD/VU or IT $3
Kama Sutra HD/VU $4
Kick-Ass 2 HD/MA $3.5
Kid ‘19 HD/VU $3.5
Kid Who Would Be King 4K/MA $5.5 or HD/MA $4
Kidnap HD/VU or IT $2.5
Kill Zone ‘05 HD/VU $4.5
Killer Elite HD/IT $3
Killing Gunther HD/VU $4
Kin ‘18 4K/VU $4.5 or HD/VU $3
King Kong ‘05 4K/MA or IT $5 or HD/MA $3.5
King of Staten Island HD/MA $4
King's Man HD/GP $3.5
Kingsman The Golden Circle HD/MA $3
Kingsman The Secret Service HD/MA $3.5
Knives Out HD/VU $3.5
Knowing 4K/VU $5.5
La La Land HD/VU $3 or 4K/IT $3.5
Labor Day HD/VU or IT $3
Lady Macbeth HD/VU $4.5
Lady of the Manor 4K/VU $5
Lair of White Worm HD/VU $4.5
Lake Mungo HD/VU $4
Lara Croft Tomb Raider 4K/VU $5.5 or HD/VU $4
Last Dragon HD/MA $4.5
Last Duel HD/GP $3.5
Last Exorcism HD/VU $4
Last Knights HD/VU $3.5
Last Man ‘19 HD/VU $4
Last Stand HD/IT $2
Last Vegas HD/VU $3
Last Witch Hunter HD/VU $3 or 4K/IT $3.5
Lawrence of Arabia 4K/MA $5.5
Legend of Hercules 4K/IT $3
Legends of Oz Dorothy's Return HD/MA $3.5
Leprechaun 7-film Set HD/VU $12
Let's be Cops HD/MA $3.5
Let Him Go HD/MA $4
Let Me Explain HD/IT $2.5
Life ‘17 HD/MA $3.5
Life of Crime HD/VU $3.5
Life of Pi 4K/MA $5 or HD/MA or IT $3.5
Light of My Life HD/IT $3.5
Lightyear HD/MA $3.5 or HD/GP $3
Like a Boss HD/VU $3.5
Lilo & Stitch 2 HD/MA $4 or HD/GP $3.5
Lion HD/VU $4
Lion King ‘19 4K/MA $4 or HD/GP $2
Lion King ‘94 4K/MA $5 or HD/GP $3
Little HD/MA $3.5
Little Mermaid ‘89 HD/MA $4
Live Free or Die Hard HD/MA $4
Locked Down 4K/MA $5.5
Logan HD/MA $3
Logan Lucky HD/MA $3.5 or /IT $4
Lone Ranger HD/MA $3.5 or HD/GP $3
Lone Survivor HD/VU $2.5
Longest Ride HD/MA $3
Longest Week HD/VU $3.5
Looper HD/MA $3.5
Lorax HD/MA or IT $3
Lord of War 4K/VU $5.5
Lords of Salem HD/VU $4
Lost World Jurassic Park HD/MA $3.5
Love & Mercy HD/VU $3.5
Love the Coopers HD/VU or IT $4
Love, Simon HD/MA $3.5
Loving HD/VU or IT $3.5
Luca HD/GP $3
Lucy 4K/MA or IT $4.5 or HD/MA $3
Lyle, Lyle Crocodile HD/MA $4.5 or SD/MA $2
Madagascar 3 HD/MA $3
Maggie HD/VU $2.5
Magic Mike's Last Dance HD/MA $4.5
Magnificent Seven ‘16 HD/VU $3
Maleficent HD/MA $2.5 or HD/GP $2
Maleficent Mistress of Evil HD/GP $2.5
Man Who Fell To Earth ‘76 4K/VU $5
Man Who Shot Liberty Vance 4K/VU $5.5
Marauders HD/VU $3.5
Marksman HD/MA $4
Martian HD/MA $3.5
Mary Poppins ‘64 HD/MA $3.5 or ‘64 HD/GP $3
Mary Poppins Returns 4K/MA $4.5 or HD/GP $2.5
Mask of Zorro 4K/MA $6
Mauritanian 4K/IT $5
Max Steel HD/IT $3
Maze Runner HD/MA $3.5
McKenna Shoots for the Stars HD/IT $2
Meatballs HD/VU $4
Megan Leavey HD/VU or IT $3
Memory HD/MA $3.5
Men HD/VU $4
Men in Black 3 HD/MA $3
Men in Black 4K/MA $5.5 or HD/MA $4
MI-5 Spooks '15 HD/VU $4
Mickey & Minnie 10 Classic Shorts HD/GP $4.5
Mid-Century 4K/VU $5
Midnight in the Switchgrass 4K/VU $5 or HD/VU $3.5
Midsommar (CANADA) 4K/IT $3
Midway 4K/VU $4.5 or HD/VU $3
Mile 22 HD/IT $3
Million Dollar Arm HD/GP $2.5
MindGamers HD/MA or IT $3.5
Minions 4K/MA or IT $4.5 or HD/VU $3
Miracles from Heaven HD/MA $3.5
Miss Peregrine's Home for Peculiar Children HD/MA $3
Mission Impossible 3 4K/VU $5
Mission Impossible 6-film Set HD/VU $17
Mommy HD/VU $4
Moneyball HD/MA $3
Monster High Electrified HD/IT $2.5
Monster Hunter HD/MA $3.5
Money Monster HD/MA $3.5
Monster Trucks HD/VU $2.5 or 4K/IT $3
Monsters University HD/GP $3
Monuments Men HD/MA $3.5
Moon 4K/MA $5.5
Morbius HD/MA $4
Morgan HD/MA $4
Mortal Engines 4K/MA $5.5 or HD/MA $4
Mortal HD/VU $4
Mortal Instruments City of Bones HD/MA $3
Mortdecai HD/VU $3.5
Mother! HD/VU $2.5
Mountain Between Us HD/MA $2.5
Mr. Peabody & Sherman HD/MA $3
Mud HD/VU $2.5
Mulan 2 HD/GP $3
Mulan ‘20 4K/MA $4.5 or ‘20 HD/MA $3 or HD/GP $2.5
Mummy ‘17 4K/MA or IT $4.5 or HD/MA $3
Mummy ‘99 HD/MA $3.5
Mummy 4-Film Set (Mummy 1-3, Scorpion King) HD/MA $12
Mummy Trilogy 4K/MA or IT $14 or HD/MA $9 4K/IT
Muppets Most Wanted HD/GP $3
Murder on the Orient Express HD/MA $3.5
My All American HD/MA or IT $3.5
My Best Friend is a Vampire HD/VU $4
National Lampoon's Vacation 4K/MA $5.5
Nebraska HD/VU $3
Need for Speed HD/GP $3.5
Needle in a Timestack 4K/VU $5.5
Nerve HD/VU $3.5
News of the World HD/MA $4
Night at the Museum Trilogy HD/MA $11
Night House HD/MA $4.5 or HD/GP $4
Nightmare Alley HD/GP $3.5
Nightmare Before Christmas 4K/MA $5.5 or HD/MA $4 or HD/GP $3.5
No Time to Die 4K/IT $4.5
Noah HD/VU or IT $2.5
Nobody's Fool HD/IT $2.5
Non-Stop HD/VU or IT $3
Norm of the North HD/VU $2.5
Nostalgia ‘18 HD/MA $3.5
Now You See Me 2 4K/IT $4
Now You See Me HD/VU or IT $2.5 or SD/VU $1
Nut Job 2 HD/IT $2.5
Nut Job HD/IT $2.5
Nutcracker & Four Realms HD/MA $3.5 or HD/GP $3
Oblivion 4K/MA or IT $5 or HD/MA $3.5
Occupation ‘18 HD/VU $3.5
Occupation Rainfall HD/VU $4
Office Christmas Party 4K/IT $3.5
Olaf's Frozen Adventure HD/GP $3
Oliver! 4K/MA $5
On Chesil Beach HD/MA $4.5
One Ranger HD/VU $4.5
Onward HD/GP $2.5
Open Water 2 Adrift HD/VU $4
Open Water HD/VU $4
Operation Avalanche HD/VU $4
Other Woman HD/MA $3
Ouija HD/MA or IT $3.5
Our Kind of Traitor HD/MA $4
Outlander S.1 Vol 1 HD/VU $5
Overboard ‘18 HD/VU $3.5
Oz the Great & Powerful HD/MA $3 or HD/GP $2.5
Pacific Rim Uprising HD/MA $4
Paddington HD/VU $3.5
Pain & Gain HD/VU or IT $3.5
Paper Towns HD/MA $3
Paradise Highway 4K/VU $5
Paranormal Activity 3 (Ext) HD/VU or IT $3
Paranormal Activity 4 (Unr) HD/VU or IT $2.5
Paranormal Activity Ghost Dimension (Unr) HD/VU or IT $3.5
Paranormal Activity HD/VU $4
Paranormal Activity The Marked Ones HD/VU or IT $3.5
Passengers HD/MA $3.5
Patriot Games 4K/VU $5
Patriot's Day HD/VU $3
Paul Apostle of Christ HD/MA $3
Peanuts Movie HD/MA $3
Penelope HD/VU $4.5
Peppermint HD/IT $3.5
Percy Jackson Sea of Monsters HD/MA $3
Perfect Guy HD/MA $2.5
Perks of Being a Wallflower HD/VU or IT $3 or SD/VU or IT $1
Pet Sematary ‘19 HD/VU $3 or 4K/IT $3.5
Pet Sematary ‘89 HD/VU $3.5 or 4K/IT $4
Peter Rabbit HD/MA $3.5
Pete's Dragon ‘16 HD/MA $3.5 or HD/GP $3
Phantom Thread HD/MA $4
Philomena HD/VU $2.5
Pirates of the Caribbean 5 HD/MA $3 or HD/GP $2.5
Pirates! Band of Misfits HD/MA $3.5
Pitch Perfect 2 4K/MA $4 or HD/MA $2.5
Pitch Perfect HD/MA $2.5 or 4K/IT $3
Pixar Short Films Set Vol. 3 HD/MA $3.5 or HD/GP $3
Planes Fire & Rescue HD/GP $3
Planes HD/MA $2.5 or HD/GP $2
Planes, Trains & Automobiles 4K/VU $5.5 or HD/VU $4
Playing w/ Fire HD/VU or IT $2.5
Poltergeist ‘82 4K/MA $5.5
Poltergeist (Ext) ‘15 HD/MA $4
Pompeii HD/MA $3.5
Power Rangers ‘17 HD/VU $3 or 4K/IT $3.5
Predator ‘18 HD/MA $3
Predator ‘87 HD/MA $4
Pride & Prejudice & Zombies HD/MA $3.5
Primal HD/VU $3.5
Promise HD/MA or IT $3.5
Protege HD/VU $4
Proud Mary HD/MA $3.5
Psycho 4K/MA $5
Pulp Fiction 4K/VU $5.5 or HD/VU $4
Punisher War Zone 4K/VU $5.5
Purge Anarchy HD/MA $3 or 4K/IT $3.5
Purge Election Year HD/MA $3.5
Purge 4K/MA or IT $4.5 or HD/MA $3 or
Push 4K/VU $6
Quantum of Solace HD/VU $4.5
Quarry 4K/VU $5
Quartet HD/VU $4
Queen of Katwe HD/GP $2.5
Quiet Ones HD/VU $3.5
Rambo ‘08 HD/VU $4
Rambo 5-film Set HD/VU $18
Rambo Last Blood 4K/VU $4.5 or HD/VU $3
Ran ‘85 4K/VU $5.5
Raya & the Last Dragon HD/MA $3.5
Rear Window 4K/IT $3.5
Rebel Without a Cause 4K/MA $5.5
Reclaim HD/VU $3.5
RED 2 HD/VU $2
Red Dawn ‘12 HD/IT $3
Redline ‘10 HD/VU $4.5
Reign of Assassins HD/VU $4.5
Replicant ‘01 HD/VU $3.5
Replicas HD/VU $3.5
Rescuers Down Under HD/MA $4 or HD/GP $3.5
Rescuers HD/MA $4.5 or HD/GP $4
Reservoir Dogs HD/VU $4
Resident Evil Retribution 4K/MA $5 or HD/MA $3.5
Resurrection of Gavin Stone HD/VU or IT $2.5
Retaliation ‘17 HD/VU $4
Revenant 4K/MA $5 or HD/MA $3.5
Ricki & the Flash HD/MA $3
Riddick (Unr) HD/VU or IT $3
Ride Like a Girl HD/VU $4
Right At Your Door HD/VU $4
Right One 4K/VU $5.5
Rings HD/VU or IT $2.5
Rio 2 (Sing-Along) HD/MA $3
Riot HD/VU or IT $3
RIPD HD/IT $2.5
Risen HD/MA $3
Rob Zombie Trilogy (3 From Hell, House of 1000 Corpses, Devil's Rejects) HD/VU $8
Robin Hood ‘18 HD/VU $3
Robocop ‘14 HD/VU $2.5
Rocketman ‘19 HD/VU $3 or 4K/IT $3.5
Rocky Horror Picture Show HD/MA $4
Roman J. Israel Esq HD/MA $3
Ron's Gone Wrong HD/MA $3.5 or HD/GP $3
Room '15 HD/VU $3.5
Rough Night 4K/MA $5 or HD/MA $3.5
Run The Race HD/MA $3
Runner Runner HD/MA $3.5
Rush HD/IT $3
Safe HD/VU or IT $2.5
Same Kind of Different As Me HD/VU or IT $3
Samson HD/MA $3.5
Santa Clause HD/MA $3.5 or HD/GP $3
Santa Clause 2 HD/MA $3.5 or HD/GP $3
Santa Clause 3 HD/GP $2.5
Sapphires HD/VU $4
Sausage Party HD/MA $3.5
Saving Mr. Banks HD/GP $3
Saw (Unr) 4K/VU $4.5
Saw 7-film Set (Unr) HD/VU $16
Saw HD/VU $3
Scarface HD/MA $4 or 4K/IT $4.5
Scary Stories to Tell in the Dark 4K/VU $4.5
Schindler's List 4K/MA or IT $5.5 or HD/MA $4
Scream '96 4K/VU $5 or HD/VU $3.5
Scream Trilogy HD/VU $11
Secret Garden ‘20 4K/VU or IT $5.5
Secret in Their Eyes HD/VU or IT $3
Secret Life of Pets 4K/MA or IT $4.5 or HD/MA $3
See No Evil 2 HD/VU $3.5
Selma HD/VU or IT $2.5
Serenity ‘05 4K/MA $5.5 or HD/MA $4
Seriously Red HD/VU $4
Sex Tape HD/MA $3.5
Shack HD/VU or IT $2.5
Shallows HD/MA $3.5
Shang-Chi Legend of the Ten Rings HD/GP $3
Shape of Water HD/MA $3.5
Sherlock Gnomes HD/VU or IT $2.5
Shivers HD/VU $4
Show Dogs HD/MA $3.5
Sicario HD/VU $2.5 or 4K/IT $3
Sicario Day of the Soldado HD/MA $4
Sicario, Wind River, Hell or High Water HD/VU $7.5
Side Effects HD/IT $3.5
Silencing HD/VU $4
Silent Night, Deadly Night 3-Film Set (3-5 HD/VU $7.5
Silk Road 4K/VU $5
Sing ‘16 HD/MA $3 or 4K/IT $3.5
Sing Street HD/VU $4
Sinister HD/VU $3
Sisters (Unr) HD/IT $2.5
Skeleton Twins HD/VU $4
Skyfall HD/VU $2.5
Skyscraper 4K/MA $5 or HD/MA $3.5
Sleeping Beauty ‘59 HD/MA $4 or HD/GP $3.5
Sleepless HD/IT $2
Sleepy Hollow 4K/VU $6.5
Slender Man HD/MA $4
Smokey & the Bandit HD/MA $3.5
Smokin' Aces 4K/MA $5.5
Smurfs The Lost Village HD/MA or IT $3
Snitch 4K/IT $3 or HD/VU $2.5 or SD/VU or IT $1
Snow White & the Huntsman (Ext) 4K/VU or IT $4.5 or HD/VU $3
Snow White & the Seven Dwarfs ‘37 4K/MA $6 or HD/MA $3.5 or HD/GP $3
Snowden HD/MA or IT $3.5
Snowpiercer HD/VU $4.5
Solo A Star Wars Story HD/GP $3
Son of God HD/MA $3
Sonic the Hedgehog 4K/VU $5 or HD/VU $3.5
Soul HD/MA $3 or HD/GP $2.5
Source Code 4K/VU $5.5
Southpaw HD/VU $3
Spartacus HD/MA $3.5
Spectre HD/VU $3.5
Spider-Man 2 (Thea & Ext) HD/MA $4.5
Spider-Man 3 HD/MA $3.5
Spider-Man 4-Cut Set (Spider-Man 2 w/ Thea & Ext) HD/MA $11.5
Spider-Man Far From Home HD/MA $3
Spider-Man Homecoming HD/MA $2.5
Spider-Man Into the Spider-Verse HD/MA $4.5
Spider-Man No Way Home HD/MA $4 or SD/MA $2
Spies in Disguise HD/MA $3.5 or HD/GP $3
Spinning Man HD/VU $4
Spiral 4K/VU $5 or HD/VU $3.5
Spongebob Sponge out of Water HD/IT $2.5
Spontaneous HD/VU $4.5
Spy Who Dumped Me 4K/VU $5 or HD/VU $3.5
St. Vincent HD/VU $3
Stand Up Guys HD/VU $3.5
Star Trek 3 Search for Spock 4K/VU $5
Star Trek 4 Voyage Home 4K/VU $5
Star Trek Beyond HD/VU $3
Star Trek Into Darkness HD/VU $2.5 or 4K/IT $3
Star Trek The Motion Picture ‘79 4K/VU $5
Steel Dawn HD/VU $3.5
Still Alice HD/MA $4
Straight Outta Compton (Unr) HD/MA $3 or 4K/IT $3.5
Strange World HD/MA $4 or HD/GP $3.5
Suburbicon HD/VU $3 or /IT $3.5
Sundown The Vampire in Retreat HD/VU $3.5
Super 8 4K/VU or IT $5 or HD/VU $3.5
Sword in the Stone HD/MA $4 or HD/GP $3.5
Taken 2 HD/MA $3.5
Taken 3 (Unr) HD/MA $3.5
Tangled HD/GP $3.5
Ted (Unr) HD/MA or IT $2.5
Teen Spirit ‘19 HD/MA $4
Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles ‘14 4K/VU or IT $4.5 or HD/VU $2.5
Terminator 2 Judgment Day (Special) HD/VU $4.5
Terminator 2 Judgment Day 4K/VU $5 or HD/VU $3.5
Terminator Dark Fate 4K/IT $4
Terminator Genisys HD/VU $3 or 4K/IT $3.5
Texas Chainsaw ‘13 HD/VU $3.5
Thanks for Sharing HD/VU $4
The Heat HD/MA $3
The Impossible HD/VU $3.5
The Sting 4K/MA $5.5
Think Like a Dog 4K/VU $5
This is the End HD/MA $3.5
Thor Dark World HD/MA $4 or HD/GP $3.5
Thor HD/GP $3.5
Thor Love & Thunder HD/MA $3.5 or HD/GP $3
Thor Ragnarok HD/MA $2.5 or HD/GP $2
Three Billboards Outside Ebbing, Missouri HD/MA $3.5
To Kill a Mockingbird HD/MA $3.5
Toll HD/VU $4.5
Tomorrowland HD/GP $3
Top Five HD/IT $3
Top Gun ‘86 4K/VU $5 or HD/VU $3.5
Total Recall ‘90 4K/VU $5 or HD/VU $3.5
Touched w/ Fire HD/VU $4.5
Toy Story HD/GP $3.5
Toy Story 4 HD/GP $2
Training Day 4K/MA $5.5
Transformers Age of Extinction HD/VU $2.5 or 4K/IT $3
Transformers Dark of the Moon 4K/VU $4.5 or HD/VU $3
Transformers The Last Knight 4K/VU or IT $4 or HD/VU $2.5
Trolls HD/MA $2.5
Trust ‘16 HD/VU $4
Tucker The Man & His Dream 4K/VU $5
Tulip Fever HD/VU $4
Tumbledown HD/VU $4
Turbo HD/MA or IT $3
Turning HD/MA $4
Ugly Dolls 4K/VU or IT $5.5
Unbreakable HD/GP $3.5
Unbroken HD/VU or IT $3
Uncharted 4K/MA $5.5 or HD/MA $4
Uncle Drew HD/VU $3.5
Underworld Awakening HD/MA $3
Underworld Blood Wars HD/MA $3
Untouchables 4K/VU $5.5
Us ‘19 4K/MA $5.5 or HD/MA $4
Valerian & the City of a Thousand Planets HD/VU $3.5
Vampire Academy HD/VU $3.5
Vanishing ‘18 HD/VU $4
Venom HD/MA $3.5
Victoria & Abdul HD/MA $4
Virtuoso 4K/VU $5 or HD/VU $3.5
Vivo HD/MA $4.5
Voices ‘14 HD/VU $4
Voyagers 4K/VU $5
Walk HD/MA $3.5
Walking w/ Dinosaurs HD/MA $3
Wall '17 HD/VU $4
War for the Planet of the Apes HD/MA $3
War of the Worlds ‘53 4K/VU $5.5
War on Everyone HD/VU $4
Warcraft 4K/IT $4.5 or HD/MA $3
Warhunt 4K/VU $4.5
Warm Bodies HD/VU $3 or SD/VU $1.5
Warning HD/VU $4
Watch HD/MA or IT $3.5
Wayne's World HD/VU $4.5
We Die Young HD/VU $3.5
Weekend HD/VU $4
Werewolf The Beast Among Us (Unr) HD/MA or IT $3.5
West Side Story 4K/MA $5 or HD/MA $3.5 or HD/GP $3
What Men Want HD/VU $3 or 4K/IT $3.5
What We Did on our Holiday HD/VU $4
When the Game Stands Tall HD/MA $3
Whiskey Tango Foxtrot HD/VU or IT $3
Why Him? HD/MA $3
Widows HD/MA $3.5
Wild Card HD/VU $3
Willow HD/MA $4 or HD/GP $3.5
Wilson HD/MA $3.5
Winchester HD/VU $3.5
Winnie the Pooh Springtime w/ Roo HD/MA $4 or HD/GP $3.5
Wolf Hound 4K/VU $4.5
Wolf of Wall Street 4K/VU $5 or HD/VU or IT $3.5
Wolverine (Unr) (w/Thea) HD/MA $3.5
Woman in Gold HD/VU $3.5
Won't Back Down HD/MA $3.5
Woodlawn HD/MA or IT $3.5
World War Z HD/VU or IT $2.5
Wraith HD/VU $4
X-Men Apocalypse HD/MA $3
X-Men Days of Future Past HD/MA $3
XXX Return of Xander Cage HD/VU $2 or 4K/IT $2.5
Z for Zachariah HD/VU $4
Zero Dark Thirty HD/MA $3.5
Zeros & Ones HD/VU $4
Zootopia HD/MA $3 or HD/GP $2.5
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Birds of Prey HD/MA $3.5
Scoob! HD/MA $3.5
Wonder Woman: Bloodlines HD/MA $3.5
2000s 10-Film Bundle (The Departed 4K, I Am Legend 4K, Pan's Labyrinth 4K, The Hangover 4K, A History of Violence HD, Best in Show HD, A.I. Artificial Intelligence HD, Mystic River HD, Ocean's Eleven HD, Letters from Iwo Jima HD) HD/MA $30
24 Hours to Live HD/VU $3.5
355 HD/MA $4.5
48 Hrs HD/VU $6
65 HD/MA $4.5 or SD/MA $2.5
80 for Brady HD/VU $5
976-Evil HD/MA $5.5
A League of Their Own 4K/MA $5.5 or HD/MA $4
A Most Violent Year HD/VU $4.5
A24 Horror 5-Film Collection (X, Green Room, It Comes at Night, Hereditary, Witch) HD/VU $13.5
Addams Family '19 4K/IT $4.5
Addams Family '91 4K/VU $5.5
Afflicted HD/MA $4
Aliens 4K/MA $6.5
Almost Famous 4K/VU $5
American Psycho 4K/VU $5.5
Angels & Demons 4K/MA $6
Anyone But You HD/MA $7.5
Armageddon Time HD/MA $4.5
As Good as it Gets 4K/MA $6
Asteroid City 4K/MA $6.5
Atlantis Milo's Return HD/MA $5 or HD/GP $4.5
Avatar The Way of Water HD/MA $4.5 or HD/GP $4
Avengers 4K/MA $5.5
Back to the Future Trilogy HD/MA $10
Bad Boys 4K/MA $5.5
Bad Guys HD/MA $4.5
Bad Times at the El Royale 4K/MA $6
Banshees of Inisherin HD/MA $4 or HD/GP $3.5
Barbie HD/MA $6
Battle for Terra HD/VU $4.5
Beast HD/MA $4.5
Beekeeper 4K/VU $9.5
Beguiled HD/IT $3
Beyond Re-Animator HD/VU $4
Big Chill 4K/MA $5.5
Big Eyes HD/VU $4
Billy Lynn’s Long Half Time Walk HD/MA $4
Black Adam 4K/MA $5.5
Black Phone HD/MA $4
Blockers HD/MA $3.5
Blood Father HD/VU $3
Bloodshot HD/MA $4
Body Double 4K/MA $5.5
Book Club Next Chapter HD/MA $5
Book of Life HD/MA $3.5
Bram Stoker's Dracula 4K/MA $6
Broken Hearts Gallery HD/VU $4.5
Bros HD/MA $4.5
Bullet Train HD/MA $4
Burrowers HD/VU $4
Call Jane HD/VU $4.5
Cannibal Cabin 4K/VU $5
Charlie's Angels '00 4K/MA $5.5
Cheech & Chong's Up in Smoke HD/VU or IT $3.5
Christmas Classics 4-Film Set (Miracle on 34th Street '94, A Christmas Carol '84, Home Alone, Jingle all the Way) HD/MA $12
Cinderella '50 HD/MA $4.5
Cinderella 2 HD/MA $4.5
Cinderella 3 HD/MA $4.5
Cobweb 4K/VU $7.5
Cocaine Bear HD/MA $5
Colossal HD/VU or IT $4
Come to Daddy HD/VU $4.5
Contagion 4K/MA $6.5
Creature from the Black Lagoon '54 HD/MA $3.5 or 4K/IT $4
Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon 4K/MA $6
Counselor HD/MA $4
Da Vinci Code 4K/MA $6
Dagon HD/VU $4
Dark Skies HD/VU $3.5
Dear David 4K/VU $6
Dear White People HD/VU $3.5
Devil's Workshop 4K/VU $5.5
Devil's Workshop HD/VU $4.5
Devotion 4K/VU $6 or HD/VU $4.5
Diary of the Dead HD/VU $4
Dig 4K/VU $5.5
District 9 / Elysium Bundle HD/MA $7.5
Dragon Blade HD/VU $3.5
Dr. Strangelove 4K/MA $5
Dreamland HD/VU $4.5
Dream Scenario HD/VU $7
Dumb Money HD/MA $6
Dune Part 2 HD/MA $9.5
Easy Rider 4K/MA $6
Emperor HD/VU $3.5
Equalizer 3 HD/MA $5.5
Evil Dead '13 4K/MA $5.5 or HD/MA $4
Evil Dead Rise 4K/MA $6 or HD/MA $4.5
Evil Under The Sun HD/VU $4
Exorcist (2-cuts) 4K/VU $6.5
Exorcist Believer 4K/MA $7 or HD/MA $5.5
Expendables 1-3 Set 4K/MA $10 or HD/VU $7
Expendables 1-4 Set 4K/VU $15 or HD/VU $11
F9 Fast Saga (Thea & Ext) HD/MA $4
Fall 4K/VU $6 or HD/VU $4.5
Fast & the Furious 10-film Set HD/MA $25
Fast X HD/MA $5
Feast (Unr) HD/VU $4
Fifth Element 4K/MA $5.5
Fifty Shades 6-Cut Set (Thea & Unr) HD/MA $12
First Purge HD/MA $3.5
Five Nights at Freddy's HD/MA $6
Fool's Paradise HD/VU $6
Force of Nature '20 HD/VU $3.5
Forger HD/VU $3
Freeheld HD/VU $4
Friendsgiving HD/VU $4
Front Runner HD/MA $4
Frozen '10 HD/VU $4
Funny Girl 4K/MA $5.5
Gandhi 4K/MA $5.5
Gateway 4K/VU $5.5
Gattaca 4K/MA $6
Ghostbusters Afterlife HD/MA $4
Ghoulies Go To College HD/VU $3.5
Glory 4K/MA $6
Godfather 3 Coda HD/VU $4
Good Boys HD/MA $3.5
Good House 4K/VU $5.5
Goodnight Mommy HD/VU $4
Goosebumps 2 HD/MA $3
Gran Turismo 4K/MA $7 or HD/MA $5.5
Grease Trilogy HD/VU $9 or 4K/IT $10.5
Green Knight 4K/VU $5
Green Room HD/VU $4
Groundhog Day 4K/MA $5.5
Guess Who's Coming to Dinner 4K/MA $6
Hail, Caesar! HD/VU or IT $2.5
Hammett HD/VU $4
Halloween Ends HD/MA $4.5
Halloween Kills (Ext) HD/MA $4.5
Harriet 4K/MA $6 or HD/MA $4.5
Hex 4K/VU $5.5
High Tension HD/VU $4.5
Hellbenders HD/VU $4
Hellraiser: Judgment HD/VU $4
Home Alone 1 & 2 Set HD/MA $6.5
Hook 4K/MA $6
Hot Tub Time Machine 2 HD/VU $3.5 or 4K/IT $4
Hunger Games Ballad of Songbirds & Snakes HD/VU $6.5
Ice Age Continental Drift HD/MA $3
I, Frankenstein HD/VU or IT $3
I Saw the Light HD/MA $4
Identity Thief HD/IT $3.5
Indiana Jones & the Last Crusade HD/VU $4 or 4K/IT $4.5
If Beale Street Could Talk HD/MA $4
Inhabitant HD/VU $4.5
Insidious The Last Key HD/MA $3.5
Insidious Red Door HD/MA $5
Jay and Silent Bob Reboot HD/VU $3.5
Jerry Maguire 4K/MA $6
Jesus Revolution HD/VU $4.5
John Wick 4 4K/VU $6.5
John Wick 4-Film Collection HD/VU $13
Journey to Bethlehem HD/MA $5.5
Jumanji '95 4K/MA $6
Jungle Book '67 HD/MA $4
Jurassic World 6-film Set HD/MA $18
Kandahar HD/MA $5.5
Karate Kid '84 4K/MA $6
Kiss the Girls 4K/VU $6
Knights of the Zodiac HD/MA $5
Kramer vs Kramer 4K/MA $6
Last Action Hero 4K/MA $5.5
Last Christmas HD/MA $4.5
Last Night in Soho 4K/MA $5.5
Leprechaun 8-Film Set HD/VU $15
Lincoln Lawyer 4K/VU $6
Little Mermaid '23 HD/MA $5
Lost Boys 4K/MA $6
Love Again SD/MA $2.5
Lucky Number Slevin HD/VU $4.5
M3GAN (Thea & Unr) HD/MA $5
Ma '19 HD/MA $4
Madame Web 4K/MA $10 or HD/MA $8.5
Mamma Mia Here We Go Again HD/MA $3
Manodrome HD/VU $5.5
Marsh King's Daughter 4K/VU $5.5
Martyrs HD/VU $4.5
May HD/VU $4
Memories of Murder 4K/MA $6.5
Menu HD/GP $3.5
Meryl Streep 8-Film Set HD/MA $22
MIB International HD/MA $4
Midnight Meat Train (Unr) HD/VU $4
Migration HD/MA $6
Miller's Girl 4K/VU $9.5
Miracle on 34th Street HD/MA $4
Missing HD/MA $5
Mission Impossible Dead Reckoning Pt 1 HD/VU $6
Mist 4K/VU $6.5
Mitchells vs the Machines HD/MA $4.5
Monster High Electrified HD/MA or IT $2.5
Mortal Kombat Legends Cage Match HD/MA $5.5
Mr. Holmes HD/VU $3.5
Mulan '98 HD/MA $4 or HD/GP $3.5
My Big Fat Greek Wedding 3 HD/MA $5.5
My Girl 4K/MA $6
National Champions 4K/IT $5
New Mutants HD/MA $4 or HD/GP $3.5
Night at the Museum Secret of the Tomb HD/MA $3
Night Swim HD/MA $8
Night Train to Lisbon HD/VU $4
No Good Deed HD/MA $3
No Hard Feelings HD/MA $5.5
Nope HD/MA $4.5
Nun 2 HD/MA $5.5
Ocean's Trilogy 4K/MA $16
Old 4K/MA $6 or HD/MA $4.5
Once Upon a Time in Hollywood HD/MA $3.5
Oppenheimer HD/MA $6
Other Side of the Door HD/MA $4
Out Of The Blue HD/VU $4
Overlord 4K/VU or IT $4.5
Parental Guidance HD/MA $2.5
Parents HD/VU $4
Parasite HD/MA $4
Paw Patrol Mighty Movie HD/VU $6.5
Pet Sematary Bloodlines HD/VU $5.5
Peter Pan Return to Neverland HD/GP $4
Philadelphia 4K/MA $5.5
Pick 1 (Black Christmas '18 4K, Dog's Purpose 4K, Sparks Brothers 4K, Raw, Agnes Bourne, Antz, Being Frank, Loving, Don't Let Go, Kicks, Final Account) HD/MA $4
Pitch Perfect 3 4K/MA $5
Pixels HD/MA $3
Plane 4K/VU $5.5
Poor Things HD/MA $7.5
Pope's Exorcist HD/MA $5
Prey for the Devil 4K/VU $5.5
Priscilla HD/VU $6
Punch-Drunk Love 4K/MA $6.5
Queen & Slim HD/MA $4
Quick & the Dead '95 4K/MA $6
Rambo First Blood HD/VU $4
Rambo First Blood Pt 2 HD/VU $4
Rango HD/VU $3
Real Genius 4K/MA $5.5
Red Rocket HD/VU $4
Red Sparrow HD/MA $3.5
Renfield HD/MA $5.5
Requin HD/VU $4.5
Resident Evil Welcome to Raccoon City HD/MA $4
Robin Hood '73 HD/MA $4
Rosemary's Baby 4K/VU $6.5
Rhythm Section HD/VU $3.5
Ruby Gilman Teenage Kraken HD/MA $5.5
Rudy (Dir Cut) 4K/MA $6.5
Run Lola Run 4K/MA $6.5
Saint Maud HD/VU $4
Samurai Jack Complete Series HD/VU $40
Saw 8-film Set (Unr except Jigsaw) HD/VU $20
Secret Life of Walter Mitty HD/MA $3.5
Shaun of the Dead HD/MA $4 or 4K/IT $4.5
Shrek 6-Film Set (1-4, Musical, Puss in Boots) HD/MA $19
Skiptrace HD/VU $3.5
Scorpion King 4-Film Set (1, 3, 4, Book of Souls) HD/MA $12
Scream 3 4K/VU $5.5
Scream 5 4K/VU $5.5 or HD/VU $4
Scream 6 4K/VU $7 or HD/VU $5.5
Sharktopus HD/VU $3.5
Shazam 2-film Set HD/MA $8
Shazam Fury of the Gods 4K/MA $6 or HD/MA $4.5
She Said HD/MA $4.5
She's the Man HD/VU $3.5
Silver Linings Playbook HD/VU $3 or HD/GP $2.5
Sisu 4K/VU $6
Sixteen Candles HD/MA $3.5 or HD/IT $3.5
Sleepless in Seattle 4K/MA $6
Smile HD/VU $4.5
Social Network 4K/MA $6
Sometimes They Come Back...Again HD/VU $4
Sometimes They Come Back...For More HD/VU $3.5
Sonic the Hedgehog 2 4K/VU $5.5
Spider-Man Across the Spider-Verse 4K/MA $7 or HD/MA $5.5
Split HD/MA $3 or 4K/IT $3.5
Spoiler Alert HD/MA $5
Star Trek First Contact 4K/VU $5.5
Star Trek Generations 4K/VU $5.5
Star Trek Insurrection 4K/VU $5.5
Star Trek Nemesis 4K/VU $5.5
Star Wars A New Hope HD/MA $4 or HD/GP $3.5
Starship Troopers 4K/MA $6
Step Brothers 4K/MA $6.5
Stillwater HD/MA $4
Studio 666 HD/MA $5
Sum of All Fears 4K/VU $5
Supercell HD/VU $4.5
Super Mario Bros Movie HD/MA $5
Super Troopers 2 HD/MA $3.5
Superfly HD/MA $4
Suspiria (2018) HD/VU $4
T2 Trainspotting 4K/MA $6
Talk to Me 4K/VU $6
Talladega Nights 4K/MA $6.5
Taxi Driver 4K/MA $5.5
Thanksgiving 4K/MA $7.5
The Batman 4K/MA $5.5
The Bay HD/VU $4
The Color Purple '23 4K/MA $8 or HD/MA $6.5
The Descent (Unr) HD/VU $4.5
The Flash HD/MA $5
The Marvels HD/MA $6.5
The Natural 4K/MA $6
The Other Guys 4K/MA $6
The Professional (Ext) 4K/MA $6
The Super '17 HD/VU $4
Ticket to Paradise HD/MA $4.5
Titanic 4K/VU or IT $6 or HD/VU $4.5
Top Gun Maverick HD/VU $4
Toy Story 3 HD/MA $4
Trading Places 4K/VU $6
Transformers Rise of the Beasts 4K/MA $7 or HD/VU $5.5
Trolls 3-Film Collection HD/MA $12
Trolls Band Together HD/MA $6.5
Tusk HD/VU $4.5
Umma HD/MA $4.5
Unbearable Weight of Massive Talent 4K/VU $5
Universal Monsters 4-Film Set 4K/MA $17
V for Vendetta 4K/MA $6.5
Vanilla Sky HD/VU $5.5
Velvet Goldmine HD/VU $4.5
Venture Bros Radiant is the Blood of the Baboon Heart HD/MA $5.5
Violent Night HD/MA $5
Walking Dead Season 9 HD/VU $7
Watchmen Ultimate Cut 4K/MA $7.5
Waxwork 2 HD/VU $3.5
We Summon the Darkness HD/VU $4.5
Welcome to Marwen HD/MA $4.5
Welcome to Monster High HD/MA or IT $3
Whiplash 4K/MA $6 or HD/MA $4.5
Whitney Houston I Wanna Dance w/ Somebody HD/MA $4
Wicker Man 4K/VU $5.5
Wish HD/MA $7
Witch HD/VU $3.5
Woman King 4K/MA $5 or HD/MA $4
Woman Walks Ahead HD/VU $4
You're Next HD/VU $3.5
X-Men 1-4 Set SD/MA $7.5
Zombieland Double Tap HD/MA $4
10 Cloverfield Lane HD/VU $3 or 4K/IT $3.5
101 Dalmatians '61 HD/MA $3.5 or HD/GP $3
13 Hours HD/VU $2.5 or 4K/IT $3
14 Blades HD/VU $3.5
1917 4K/MA $5 or HD/MA $3.5
2 Guns 4K/MA $4 or HD/MA or IT $2.5
21 Jump Street HD/MA $3
22 Jump Street HD/MA $3.5
3 Extremes HD/VU $4
3 From Hell (Unr) 4K/VU $4 or HD/VU $2.5
3:10 to Yuma 4K/VU $5
31 HD/VU $2.5
47 Meters Down HD/IT $3.5
47 Meters Down Uncaged 4K/VU $4.5 or HD/VU $3
47 Ronin HD/MA $3 or 4K/IT $3.5
600 Miles HD/VU $3.5
71 HD/VU $3.5
A Christmas Story 4K/MA $6
A Dog's Purpose HD/IT $3
A Good Day to Die Hard (Ext) HD/VU $2.5
A Journal For Jordan HD/MA $4
A Quiet Place HD/VU $2.5 or 4K/IT $3
A Walk Among the Tombstones HD/IT $3.5
A Wrinkle in Time HD/MA $3 or HD/GP $2.5
A.C.O.D. HD/VU or IT $3.5
Abominable 4K/MA $5.5 or HD/MA $4
About Last Night HD/MA $3
Action Point HD/IT $2
Ad Astra HD/MA $4
Adaptation 4K/MA $6
Adrift HD/IT $3.5
Adverse 4K/VU $5
After Earth HD/MA $3
Aftermath HD/VU $3
Air Force One 4K/MA $6
Aladdin ‘19 HD/MA $3 or HD/GP $2.5
Aladdin ‘92 HD/MA $3.5 or HD/GP $3
Alien HD/MA $4
Alien Covenant HD/MA $2.5
Alfred Hitchcock 4-Film Set Vol 1 4K/MA $18
Alfred Hitchcock 5-Film Set Vol 2 4K/MA $21
Alien 6-film Set HD/MA $16
Alita Battle Angel 4K/MA $5 or HD/MA $3.5
All Eyez on Me HD/VU or IT $3
All is Lost HD/VU $3.5
All the Money in the World HD/MA $3.5
Allied HD/VU or IT $3.5
Almost Christmas HD/MA or IT $3
Amazing Spider-Man 2 HD/MA $3.5 or SD/MA $1.5
Amazing Spider-Man HD/MA $3.5 or SD/MA $1.5
American Assassin 4K/VU $4.5 or HD/VU $3
American Hustle HD/MA $3.5
American Reunion HD/VU or IT $3
American Ultra HD/VU or IT $4
American Underdog 4K/VU $5.5 or HD/VU $4
Anatomy of a Murder 4K/MA $5
Anchorman 2 HD/VU or IT $2.5
Angel Has Fallen 4K/VU $5 or HD/VU $3.5
Angel Heart 4K/VU $5.5
Angel of Mine 4K/VU $5.5
Angry Birds Movie HD/MA $3.5
Anna Karenina HD/IT $3.5
Annie ‘14 HD/MA $3.5
Annihilation HD/VU $3 or 4K/IT $3.5
Antebellum 4K/VU $5
Antlers HD/GP $3
Ant-Man & the Wasp HD/MA $3.5 or HD/GP $3
Ant-Man HD/MA $4 or HD/GP $3.5
Apache Junction HD/VU $3.5
Apollo 13 4K/MA or IT $5 or HD/MA $3.5
Arctic HD/MA $4
Arrival HD/VU $2.5 or 4K/IT $3
Art of Self-Defense HD/MA $4
Ash vs Evil Dead S.3 HD/VU $5
Assassination Nation HD/MA $3.5
Assassin's Creed HD/MA $3
Assignment HD/VU $4
Atomic Blonde 4K/MA or IT $4.5 or HD/MA $3
August Osage County HD/VU $3
Avengers Age of Ultron HD/GP $3
Avengers Endgame HD/MA $2.5 or HD/GP $2
Avengers Infinity War 4K/MA $4 or HD/MA $2.5 or HD/GP $2
Baby Driver HD/MA $4
Backdraft 4K/IT $5.5
Bad Grandpa HD/VU or IT $2.5
Bad Words HD/MA or IT $3
Bandslam HD/VU $4
Bank Job HD/VU $3.5
Barb & Star go to Vista Del Mar HD/VU $4
Barbie & Her Sisters in the Great Puppy Adventure HD/IT $3.5
Bart Got a Room HD/VU $4
Battle Royale HD/VU $4.5
Battleship 4K/MA or IT $4.5 or HD/MA $3
Baywatch HD/VU $2.5 or 4K/IT $3
Beauty & the Beast ‘17 HD/MA $2.5 or HD/GP $2
Beauty & the Beast ‘91 HD/GP $3
Bedknobs & Broomsticks HD/GP $3.5
Before I Fall HD/VU or IT $3.5
Begin Again HD/VU $3.5
Beiruit HD/MA $3.5
Belly 4K/VU $5.5
Ben-Hur ‘16 HD/VU $3.5
Between Worlds HD/VU $3.5
Big Hero 6 4K/MA $5 or HD/MA $3.5 or HD/GP $3
Big Lebowski 4K/MA or IT $5.5
Big Short HD/VU $3.5
Big Wedding HD/VU or IT $3
Billy Elliot HD/MA or IT $4
Birdman HD/MA $4
Black & Blue HD/MA $4
Black Christmas '19 HD/MA $4.5
Black Panther 4K/MA $4.5 or HD/GP $2.5
Black Panther Wakanda Forever HD/MA $3.5 or HD/GP $3
BlackKklansman HD/MA $4.5
Blacklight HD/MA $4
Black Widow HD/GP $3
Blackhat HD/IT $3.5
Blair Witch Project ‘99 HD/VU $4
Bleeding Steel HD/VU $3.5
Blindspotting 4K/VU $5.5 or HD/VU $4
Blood Money ‘17 HD/VU $3.5
Blood Ties HD/VU $3.5
Blue Jasmine HD/MA $3.5
Blue Ruin HD/VU $4
Blues Brothers HD/MA $4 or 4K/IT $4.5
Bob's Burgers Movie HD/GP $3
Body Cam HD/VU $4
Bohemian Rhapsody 4K/MA $5 or HD/MA $3.5
Bombshell 4K/VU $5
Book Club HD/VU or IT $2.5
Book of Life HD/MA $3.5
Boss Baby HD/MA $2.5
Bourne Identity 4K/IT $5 or HD/MA $3.5
Bourne Legacy HD/VU $2 or 4K/IT $2.5
Bourne Supremacy HD/MA $3.5 or 4K/IT $4
Bourne Ultimatum 4K/MA or IT $5 or HD/MA $3.5
Boy ‘16 HD/IT $3.5
Boy & the World HD/IT $3.5
Boyhood HD/VU or IT $2.5
Braven HD/VU $4
Breakfast Club HD/MA or IT $4
Breakthrough HD/MA $3
Brian Banks HD/MA $3
Bridge of Spies HD/GP $3.5
Brothers Bloom HD/VU $4.5
Bumblebee 4K/VU or IT $5 or HD/VU $3.5
Butler HD/VU $3
Cabin in the Woods HD/VU $2.5 or 4K/IT $3
Cake HD/MA $4
Call of Wild 4K/MA $4.5 or HD/MA $3 or HD/GP $2.5
Calvary HD/MA $4
Candyman '20 4K/MA $6 or HD/MA $4.5
Candyman 3 HD/VU $4
Captain America Civil War HD/GP $2.5
Captain America First Avenger HD/GP $3.5
Captain America Winter Soldier HD/GP $3.5
Captain Marvel 4K/MA $4 or HD/MA $2.5 or HD/GP $2
Captain Phillips HD/MA $3.5
Captain Underpants First Epic Movie HD/MA $2.5
Carol HD/VU $4
Cars 3 HD/GP $2.5
Casablanca 4K/MA $5.5
Case for Christ HD/MA or IT $2.5
Casper HD/IT $4
Celebrating Mickey HD/MA $3.5 or HD/GP $3
Chaos Walking 4K/VU $5
Chappaquiddick HD/VU $4
Chasing Mavericks HD/MA $3.5
Chicago HD/VU $4
Child 44 HD/VU $4
Children ‘08 HD/VU $4
Christopher Robin HD/MA $4 or HD/GP $3.5
Chronicles of Riddick HD/IT $4
Clerks 3 4K/VU $4.5
Clifford the Big Red Dog HD/VU $4
Cloverfield 4K/VU $5.5 or HD/VU $4
Coco HD/GP $2.5
Cold Pursuit 4K/VU $5 or HD/VU $3.5
Collection HD/VU $3.5
Collide ‘17 HD/VU or IT $2.5
Colma The Musical HD/VU $4
Colombiana (Unr) HD/MA $4
Colony 4K/VU $5
Come & Find Me HD/VU $4
Commuter 4K/VU $5 or HD/VU $3.5
Company of Heroes HD/MA $4
Conan the Barbarian ‘11 4K/VU $5
Conspirator HD/VU $4
Contraband HD/IT $3
Contractor HD/VU $4.5
Cooler HD/VU $4
Cool Hand Luke 4K/MA $5.5
Cooties HD/VU $4
Cotton Club Encore 4K/VU $5.5
Countdown ‘16 HD/VU $3.5
Courier 4K/VU $5.5 or HD/VU $4
Craft Legacy HD/MA $4.5
Criminal HD/VU or IT $3
Croods HD/VU $3.5
Cruella HD/MA $3.5 or HD/GP $3
Crypto 4K/VU $5 or HD/VU $3.5
Daddy's Home HD/IT $2.5
Daddy's Home 2 HD/VU or IT $3
Damsel HD/VU $4.5
Dangerous 4K/VU $4.5 or HD/VU $3
Danny Collins HD/IT $3.5
Dark Crimes HD/VU $4
Darkest Minds HD/MA $4
Dark Places HD/VU $4
Dark Tower HD/MA $3.5
Darkest Hour ‘17 4K/MA $5 or HD/MA $3.5
Dawn of the Planet of the Apes HD/MA $3.5
Deadpool 2 (w/Super Duper Cut) HD/MA $4
Deadpool HD/MA $2.5
Death of Me HD/VU $4
Death on the Nile HD/GP $3
Death Wish '18 HD/VU $3
Deepwater Horizon HD/VU $2.5 or 4K/IT $3
Deliver Us From Evil HD/MA $3.5
Dentist 2-Film Set HD/VU $7
Despicable Me 2 HD/VU $3 or 4K/IT $3.5
Despicable Me 3 4K/MA or IT $4.5
Despicable Me 4K/MA or IT $4.5
Detroit HD/MA $3.5
Devil Inside HD/VU $3.5
Devil's Due HD/MA $3.5
Die Hard HD/MA $3.5
Die Hard 5-film Set HD/MA $18
Die in a Gunfight 4K/VU $5
Dilemma HD/VU $3.5
Dirty Dancing 4K/VU $5 or HD/VU $3.5
Disney Animated Short Films Set HD/MA $3.5 or HD/GP $3
Disneynature Monkey Kingdom HD/MA $3
Django Unchained HD/VU $3
Doctor Strange HD/MA $3 or HD/GP $2.5
Doctor Strange Multiverse of Madness HD/GP $3
Dolittle HD/MA $3.5
Dom Hemingway HD/MA $3.5
Don Verdean HD/VU $4.5
Doorman HD/VU $3.5
Doors 4K/VU $5.5 or HD/VU $4
Downsizing HD/VU $2 or 4K/IT $2.5
Downton Abbey A New Era HD/MA $4
Downton Abbey The Movie HD/MA $3.5
Draft Day HD/IT $3.5
Dragged Across Concrete HD/VU $3.5
Dragonslayer 4K/VU $5.5
Dream a Little Dream HD/VU $4
Dreamkatcher HD/VU $4
Dreamworks 10-Film HD/MA $25
Dredd 4K/VU $4 or HD/VU $2.5
Dying of the Light HD/VU $2.5
E.T. Extra Terrestrial 4K/MA or IT $5 or HD/MA $3.5
Early Man 4K/VU $5.5
Earth Girls are Easy HD/VU $4
Eddie the Eagle HD/MA $4
Edge of Seventeen HD/IT $3
Edward Scissorhands HD/MA $3.5
El Chicano HD/MA $4
Elysium HD/MA $3.5
Emoji Movie HD/MA $3
Empire of Light HD/MA $3.5 or HD/GP $3
Empire State HD/VU $3
Encanto 4K/GP $3.5
Enough Said HD/MA $3.5
Enter the Dragon 4K/MA $6
Epic HD/MA $3
Equalizer HD/MA $3.5
Equalizer 2 HD/MA $3.5
Escape From Planet Earth HD/VU $3
Eternals HD/MA $3.5 or HD/GP $3
Everest HD/MA $3 or 4K/IT $3.5
Everything Must Go HD/VU $4
Evil Dead 2 HD/VU $3.5
Ex Machina HD/VU $3
Exodus Gods & Kings HD/MA $3.5
Expired 4K/VU $4.5
Fair Game (Dir) HD/VU $4
Fantastic Four ‘15 HD/MA $4
Fast & Furious 4 4K/MA $5
Fast & the Furious 8-film Set HD/MA $17.5
Fast & the Furious 9-film Set HD/MA $20
Fast Color 4K/VU $5.5
Fatale ‘20 4K/VU $5 or HD/VU $3.5
Fatherhood HD/MA $4
Fault in Our Stars HD/MA $3.5
Fear of Rain 4K/VU $5.5
Fences HD/VU $2.5 or 4K/IT $3
Ferdinand HD/MA $3.5
Field of Dreams 4K/MA or IT $5.5
Fifty Shades Darker (Unr) HD/VU $2.5 or 4K/IT $3
Fifty Shades Freed HD/MA $4
Fifty Shades of Grey (Unr) 4K/MA or IT $4
Finding Dory HD/MA $2.5 or HD/GP $2
Finding Nemo HD/GP $3.5
Finest Hours HD/GP $3
Firm 4K/VU $6
First Man HD/MA $4
Flashback ‘20 HD/VU $4
Flight HD/VU or IT $3
Florence Foster Jenkins HD/VU or IT $3
Footloose ‘11 HD/IT $3
Forbidden Kingdom HD/VU $4.5
Ford v Ferrari HD/MA $4
Forest HD/IT $3.5
Forever My Girl HD/IT $3
Fortress HD/VU $3.5
Fortress Sniper's Eye HD/VU $3.5
Fox & the Hound 2 HD/MA $4 or HD/GP $3.5
Foxcatcher HD/MA $4
Frank & Lola HD/VU or IT $3
Free Guy HD/GP $3
French Dispatch HD/MA $4 or HD/GP $3.5
Friday the 13th 4K/VU $5.5
From Here to Eternity 4K/MA $5.5
Frozen (Sing-Along) HD/MA $2 or HD/GP $1.5
Frozen HD/GP $2
Frozen 2 HD/MA $2.5 or HD/GP $2
Frozen Ground ‘13 HD/VU $3.5
Fury HD/MA $3.5
Future World HD/VU $3.5
G.I. Joe Retaliation HD/VU $3 or 4K/IT $3.5
Gambit ‘12 HD/MA $4
Gambler HD/VU or IT $3
Gamer 4K/VU $5.5
Gemini Man 4K/VU or IT $4.5 or HD/VU $3
Get Out 4K/MA or IT $5 or HD/MA $3.5
Ghost in the Shell ‘17 HD/VU $3 or 4K/IT $3.5
Ghost in the Shell ‘95 4K/VU $5
Ghost Rider Spirit of Vengeance HD/MA $4
Ghost Team One HD/VU or IT $3.5
Ghostbusters ‘84 HD/MA $3.5
Ghostbusters (Thea & Ext) ‘16 HD/MA $3
Ghostbusters 2 HD/MA $3.5
Gifted HD/MA $3
Girl in Spider's Web HD/MA $4
Girl on Train HD/VU $3 or 4K/IT $3.5
Girl w/ All Gifts HD/VU $4
Giver HD/VU $3.5
Glass Castle 4K/VU $5.5
Glass HD/MA $4
God Bless The Broken Road HD/VU $3.5
God's Not Dead 2 HD/MA or IT $2.5
God's Not Dead 3 HD/MA $3
Gods of Egypt HD/VU $2.5 or 4K/IT $3
Gold ‘16 HD/VU $2.5
Good Dinosaur HD/GP $2.5
Good Kill HD/VU or IT $3.5
Grease 2 HD/VU $4
Great Wall 4K/MA or IT $4.5 or HD/MA $3
Greatest Showman HD/MA $3.5
Green Book HD/MA $4
Grey HD/VU or IT $3
Guardians of the Galaxy Vol 1 HD/MA $3.5 or HD/GP $3
Guardians of the Galaxy Vol 2 HD/GP $2
Guilt Trip HD/VU or IT $3
Gunman HD/MA or IT $3
Guns of Navarone 4K/MA $5.5
Hacksaw Ridge 4K/VU or IT $4.5 or HD/VU $3
Halloween ‘18 HD/MA $3
Hammer of the Gods HD/VU $2
Hannibal S.1 HD/VU $5
Hansel & Gretel Witch Hunters (Unr) HD/VU or IT $3
Hard Luck Love Song 4K/VU $5.5
Hard Target 2 HD/IT $1.5
Hardcore Henry HD/VU or IT $3.5
Hate U Give HD/MA $4
Hateful Eight HD/VU $3.5
Heat (Director's Cut) ‘95 4K/MA $5.5
Heaven is for Real HD/MA $3.5
Hercules ‘14 HD/VU $2.5 or 4K/IT $3
Here Comes the Boom HD/MA $3.5
Hereditary HD/VU $3.5
Hidden Figures HD/MA $3
High Note HD/MA $4
Highlander 4K/VU $5.5 or HD/VU $4
Hitchcock '12 HD/MA $4
Hitman Agent 47 HD/MA $3
Hitman's Bodyguard HD/VU $3.5
Hocus Pocus HD/MA $3.5 or HD/GP $3
Home HD/MA $3
Home Again HD/MA $3
Home Alone 4K/MA $5 or HD/MA $3.5
Homefront HD/MA or IT $3
Homesman HD/VU $3
Honey 2 HD/VU $3
Hostiles 4K/VU $4.5 or HD/VU $3
Hotel Transylvania 3 HD/MA $3.5
Hot Fuzz HD/VU $4
Hotel Mumbai HD/MA $4
Hours ‘13 HD/VU $4
House of 1000 Corpses HD/VU $4
House of Gucci 4K/IT $5.5
House w/ a Clock in Its Walls sHD/MA $4
How to Train Your Dragon 2 HD/MA $2.5
Hugo HD/VU $3
Hunt for Red October 4K/VU $5.5 or HD/VU $4
Huntsman Winter's War (Ext) HD/MA $3 or 4K/IT $3.5
I Can Only Imagine HD/VU $3.5
I Feel Pretty HD/IT $2
Ides of March HD/MA $4
I Know What You Did Last Summer 4K/MA $5.5
Imitation Game HD/VU $3
In a Valley of Violence HD/MA or IT $3
In Secret ‘14 HD/VU $4.5
In the Blood HD/VU $4
Incredibles 2 HD/GP $3
Independence Day ‘96 HD/MA $4
Independence Day Resurgence HD/MA $2.5
Indiana Jones & the Raiders of the Lost Ark 4K/VU or IT $5.5 or HD/VU $4
Indiana Jones & the Temple of Doom 4K/VU or IT $5.5 or HD/VU $4
Indignation HD/VU $4
Indivisible HD/MA $3.5
Inferno HD/MA $3
Initiation 4K/VU $5
Initiation HD/VU $3.5
Internship HD/MA $3
Interstellar 4K/VU or IT $5 or HD/VU $3.5
Interview HD/MA $3.5
Into the Woods HD/MA $3 or HD/GP $2.5
Invisible Man '20 HD/MA $3.5
Invisible Man ‘33 HD/MA $3.5
Iron Man 3 HD/MA $2.5 or HD/GP $2
Iron Man & Hulk Heroes United HD/GP $3.5
Iron Mask ‘19 HD/VU $4.5
It Follows HD/VU $3.5
It's a Wonderful Life HD/VU $3
Jack & Jill HD/MA $3.5
Jack Reacher 4K/IT $4.5
Jack Reacher Never Go Back HD/VU $3 or 4K/IT $3.5
Jack Ryan Shadow Recruit 4K/IT $4 or HD/VU $2.5
Jacob's Ladder HD/VU $4
Jane Got a Gun HD/VU $4
Jarhead 3 (Unr) HD/IT $2.5
Jason Bourne HD/VU $2.5 or 4K/IT $3
Jesus Music HD/VU $3.5
Jexi HD/VU $3.5
Jobs HD/MA or IT $3.5
Joe HD/VU $3.5
Joe Kidd HD/IT $4
John Wick 1 & 2 Bundle HD/VU $4
John Wick 3 Parabellum 4K/VU $4.5
John Wick Chapter 2 HD/VU $3.5 or 4K/IT $4
John Wick HD/VU $2 or 4K/IT $2.5
John Wick Trilogy (Parabellum 4K) HD/VU $9 or all HD/VU $8
Journey to the West Conquering the Demons HD/VU $3.5
Joy HD/MA $3
Judy 4K/VU $5 or HD/VU $3.5
Juliet, Naked 4K/VU $5.5
Jumanji Welcome To The Jungle HD/MA $2.5
Jungle Book ‘16 4K/MA $4.5 or HD/GP $2.5
Jungle Cruise HD/MA $4 or HD/GP $3.5
Jurassic Park 3 HD/VU $3.5 or 4K/IT $4
Jurassic Park 4K/MA or IT $5 or HD/MA $3.5
Jurassic World 5-film Set HD/MA $14
Jurassic World Fallen Kingdom 4K/MA $4.5 or HD/MA $3
Jurassic World HD/VU $2.5 or 4K/IT $3
Justice ‘17 HD/VU or IT $3
Kama Sutra HD/VU $4
Kick-Ass 2 HD/MA $3.5
Kid ‘19 HD/VU $3.5
Kid Who Would Be King 4K/MA $5.5 or HD/MA $4
Kidnap HD/VU or IT $2.5
Kill Zone ‘05 HD/VU $4.5
Killer Elite HD/IT $3
Killing Gunther HD/VU $4
Kin ‘18 4K/VU $4.5 or HD/VU $3
King Kong ‘05 4K/MA or IT $5 or HD/MA $3.5
King of Staten Island HD/MA $4
King's Man HD/GP $3.5
Kingsman The Golden Circle HD/MA $3
Kingsman The Secret Service HD/MA $3.5
Knives Out HD/VU $3.5
Knowing 4K/VU $5.5
La La Land HD/VU $3 or 4K/IT $3.5
Labor Day HD/VU or IT $3
Lady Macbeth HD/VU $4.5
Lady of the Manor 4K/VU $5
Lair of White Worm HD/VU $4.5
Lake Mungo HD/VU $4
Lara Croft Tomb Raider 4K/VU $5.5 or HD/VU $4
Last Dragon HD/MA $4.5
Last Duel HD/GP $3.5
Last Exorcism HD/VU $4
Last Knights HD/VU $3.5
Last Man ‘19 HD/VU $4
Last Stand HD/IT $2
Last Vegas HD/VU $3
Last Witch Hunter HD/VU $3 or 4K/IT $3.5
Lawrence of Arabia 4K/MA $5.5
Legend of Hercules 4K/IT $3
Legends of Oz Dorothy's Return HD/MA $3.5
Leprechaun 7-film Set HD/VU $12
Let's be Cops HD/MA $3.5
Let Him Go HD/MA $4
Let Me Explain HD/IT $2.5
Life ‘17 HD/MA $3.5
Life of Crime HD/VU $3.5
Life of Pi 4K/MA $5 or HD/MA or IT $3.5
Light of My Life HD/IT $3.5
Lightyear HD/MA $3.5 or HD/GP $3
Like a Boss HD/VU $3.5
Lilo & Stitch 2 HD/MA $4 or HD/GP $3.5
Lion HD/VU $4
Lion King ‘19 4K/MA $4 or HD/GP $2
Lion King ‘94 4K/MA $5 or HD/GP $3
Little HD/MA $3.5
Little Mermaid ‘89 HD/MA $4
Live Free or Die Hard HD/MA $4
Locked Down 4K/MA $5.5
Logan HD/MA $3
Logan Lucky HD/MA $3.5 or /IT $4
Lone Ranger HD/MA $3.5 or HD/GP $3
Lone Survivor HD/VU $2.5
Longest Ride HD/MA $3
Longest Week HD/VU $3.5
Looper HD/MA $3.5
Lorax HD/MA or IT $3
Lord of War 4K/VU $5.5
Lords of Salem HD/VU $4
Lost World Jurassic Park HD/MA $3.5
Love & Mercy HD/VU $3.5
Love the Coopers HD/VU or IT $4
Love, Simon HD/MA $3.5
Loving HD/VU or IT $3.5
Luca HD/GP $3
Lucy 4K/MA or IT $4.5 or HD/MA $3
Lyle, Lyle Crocodile HD/MA $4.5 or SD/MA $2
Madagascar 3 HD/MA $3
Maggie HD/VU $2.5
Magic Mike's Last Dance HD/MA $4.5
Magnificent Seven ‘16 HD/VU $3
Maleficent HD/MA $2.5 or HD/GP $2
Maleficent Mistress of Evil HD/GP $2.5
Man Who Fell To Earth ‘76 4K/VU $5
Man Who Shot Liberty Vance 4K/VU $5.5
Marauders HD/VU $3.5
Marksman HD/MA $4
Martian HD/MA $3.5
Mary Poppins ‘64 HD/MA $3.5 or ‘64 HD/GP $3
Mary Poppins Returns 4K/MA $4.5 or HD/GP $2.5
Mask of Zorro 4K/MA $6
Mauritanian 4K/IT $5
Max Steel HD/IT $3
Maze Runner HD/MA $3.5
McKenna Shoots for the Stars HD/IT $2
Meatballs HD/VU $4
Megan Leavey HD/VU or IT $3
Memory HD/MA $3.5
Men HD/VU $4
Men in Black 3 HD/MA $3
Men in Black 4K/MA $5.5 or HD/MA $4
MI-5 Spooks '15 HD/VU $4
Mickey & Minnie 10 Classic Shorts HD/GP $4.5
Mid-Century 4K/VU $5
Midnight in the Switchgrass 4K/VU $5 or HD/VU $3.5
Midsommar (CANADA) 4K/IT $3
Midway 4K/VU $4.5 or HD/VU $3
Mile 22 HD/IT $3
Million Dollar Arm HD/GP $2.5
MindGamers HD/MA or IT $3.5
Minions 4K/MA or IT $4.5 or HD/VU $3
Miracles from Heaven HD/MA $3.5
Miss Peregrine's Home for Peculiar Children HD/MA $3
Mission Impossible 3 4K/VU $5
Mission Impossible 6-film Set HD/VU $17
Mommy HD/VU $4
Moneyball HD/MA $3
Monster High Electrified HD/IT $2.5
Monster Hunter HD/MA $3.5
Money Monster HD/MA $3.5
Monster Trucks HD/VU $2.5 or 4K/IT $3
Monsters University HD/GP $3
Monuments Men HD/MA $3.5
Moon 4K/MA $5.5
Morbius HD/MA $4
Morgan HD/MA $4
Mortal Engines 4K/MA $5.5 or HD/MA $4
Mortal HD/VU $4
Mortal Instruments City of Bones HD/MA $3
Mortdecai HD/VU $3.5
Mother! HD/VU $2.5
Mountain Between Us HD/MA $2.5
Mr. Peabody & Sherman HD/MA $3
Mud HD/VU $2.5
Mulan 2 HD/GP $3
Mulan ‘20 4K/MA $4.5 or ‘20 HD/MA $3 or HD/GP $2.5
Mummy ‘17 4K/MA or IT $4.5 or HD/MA $3
Mummy ‘99 HD/MA $3.5
Mummy 4-Film Set (Mummy 1-3, Scorpion King) HD/MA $12
Mummy Trilogy 4K/MA or IT $14 or HD/MA $9 4K/IT
Muppets Most Wanted HD/GP $3
Murder on the Orient Express HD/MA $3.5
My All American HD/MA or IT $3.5
My Best Friend is a Vampire HD/VU $4
National Lampoon's Vacation 4K/MA $5.5
Nebraska HD/VU $3
Need for Speed HD/GP $3.5
Needle in a Timestack 4K/VU $5.5
Nerve HD/VU $3.5
News of the World HD/MA $4
Night at the Museum Trilogy HD/MA $11
Night House HD/MA $4.5 or HD/GP $4
Nightmare Alley HD/GP $3.5
Nightmare Before Christmas 4K/MA $5.5 or HD/MA $4 or HD/GP $3.5
No Time to Die 4K/IT $4.5
Noah HD/VU or IT $2.5
Nobody's Fool HD/IT $2.5
Non-Stop HD/VU or IT $3
Norm of the North HD/VU $2.5
Nostalgia ‘18 HD/MA $3.5
Now You See Me 2 4K/IT $4
Now You See Me HD/VU or IT $2.5 or SD/VU $1
Nut Job 2 HD/IT $2.5
Nut Job HD/IT $2.5
Nutcracker & Four Realms HD/MA $3.5 or HD/GP $3
Oblivion 4K/MA or IT $5 or HD/MA $3.5
Occupation ‘18 HD/VU $3.5
Occupation Rainfall HD/VU $4
Office Christmas Party 4K/IT $3.5
Olaf's Frozen Adventure HD/GP $3
Oliver! 4K/MA $5
On Chesil Beach HD/MA $4.5
One Ranger HD/VU $4.5
Onward HD/GP $2.5
Open Water 2 Adrift HD/VU $4
Open Water HD/VU $4
Operation Avalanche HD/VU $4
Other Woman HD/MA $3
Ouija HD/MA or IT $3.5
Our Kind of Traitor HD/MA $4
Outlander S.1 Vol 1 HD/VU $5
Overboard ‘18 HD/VU $3.5
Oz the Great & Powerful HD/MA $3 or HD/GP $2.5
Pacific Rim Uprising HD/MA $4
Paddington HD/VU $3.5
Pain & Gain HD/VU or IT $3.5
Paper Towns HD/MA $3
Paradise Highway 4K/VU $5
Paranormal Activity 3 (Ext) HD/VU or IT $3
Paranormal Activity 4 (Unr) HD/VU or IT $2.5
Paranormal Activity Ghost Dimension (Unr) HD/VU or IT $3.5
Paranormal Activity HD/VU $4
Paranormal Activity The Marked Ones HD/VU or IT $3.5
Passengers HD/MA $3.5
Patriot Games 4K/VU $5
Patriot's Day HD/VU $3
Paul Apostle of Christ HD/MA $3
Peanuts Movie HD/MA $3
Penelope HD/VU $4.5
Peppermint HD/IT $3.5
Percy Jackson Sea of Monsters HD/MA $3
Perfect Guy HD/MA $2.5
Perks of Being a Wallflower HD/VU or IT $3 or SD/VU or IT $1
Pet Sematary ‘19 HD/VU $3 or 4K/IT $3.5
Pet Sematary ‘89 HD/VU $3.5 or 4K/IT $4
Peter Rabbit HD/MA $3.5
Pete's Dragon ‘16 HD/MA $3.5 or HD/GP $3
Phantom Thread HD/MA $4
Philomena HD/VU $2.5
Pirates of the Caribbean 5 HD/MA $3 or HD/GP $2.5
Pirates! Band of Misfits HD/MA $3.5
Pitch Perfect 2 4K/MA $4 or HD/MA $2.5
Pitch Perfect HD/MA $2.5 or 4K/IT $3
Pixar Short Films Set Vol. 3 HD/MA $3.5 or HD/GP $3
Planes Fire & Rescue HD/GP $3
Planes HD/MA $2.5 or HD/GP $2
Planes, Trains & Automobiles 4K/VU $5.5 or HD/VU $4
Playing w/ Fire HD/VU or IT $2.5
Poltergeist ‘82 4K/MA $5.5
Poltergeist (Ext) ‘15 HD/MA $4
Pompeii HD/MA $3.5
Power Rangers ‘17 HD/VU $3 or 4K/IT $3.5
Predator ‘18 HD/MA $3
Predator ‘87 HD/MA $4
Pride & Prejudice & Zombies HD/MA $3.5
Primal HD/VU $3.5
Promise HD/MA or IT $3.5
Protege HD/VU $4
Proud Mary HD/MA $3.5
Psycho 4K/MA $5
Pulp Fiction 4K/VU $5.5 or HD/VU $4
Punisher War Zone 4K/VU $5.5
Purge Anarchy HD/MA $3 or 4K/IT $3.5
Purge Election Year HD/MA $3.5
Purge 4K/MA or IT $4.5 or HD/MA $3 or
Push 4K/VU $6
Quantum of Solace HD/VU $4.5
Quarry 4K/VU $5
Quartet HD/VU $4
Queen of Katwe HD/GP $2.5
Quiet Ones HD/VU $3.5
Rambo ‘08 HD/VU $4
Rambo 5-film Set HD/VU $18
Rambo Last Blood 4K/VU $4.5 or HD/VU $3
Ran ‘85 4K/VU $5.5
Raya & the Last Dragon HD/MA $3.5
Rear Window 4K/IT $3.5
Rebel Without a Cause 4K/MA $5.5
Reclaim HD/VU $3.5
RED 2 HD/VU $2
Red Dawn ‘12 HD/IT $3
Redline ‘10 HD/VU $4.5
Reign of Assassins HD/VU $4.5
Replicant ‘01 HD/VU $3.5
Replicas HD/VU $3.5
Rescuers Down Under HD/MA $4 or HD/GP $3.5
Rescuers HD/MA $4.5 or HD/GP $4
Reservoir Dogs HD/VU $4
Resident Evil Retribution 4K/MA $5 or HD/MA $3.5
Resurrection of Gavin Stone HD/VU or IT $2.5
Retaliation ‘17 HD/VU $4
Revenant 4K/MA $5 or HD/MA $3.5
Ricki & the Flash HD/MA $3
Riddick (Unr) HD/VU or IT $3
Ride Like a Girl HD/VU $4
Right At Your Door HD/VU $4
Right One 4K/VU $5.5
Rings HD/VU or IT $2.5
Rio 2 (Sing-Along) HD/MA $3
Riot HD/VU or IT $3
RIPD HD/IT $2.5
Risen HD/MA $3
Rob Zombie Trilogy (3 From Hell, House of 1000 Corpses, Devil's Rejects) HD/VU $8
Robin Hood ‘18 HD/VU $3
Robocop ‘14 HD/VU $2.5
Rocketman ‘19 HD/VU $3 or 4K/IT $3.5
Rocky Horror Picture Show HD/MA $4
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2024.05.20 17:38 EquivalentBat7088 Am I finally seeing what this is?
Ok, this will be long because there's a lot to get out. I'm mostly doing this for myself because I just want to share with like-minded people and not think Im crazy. Thank you for your time.
To begin, I (f47) believe to know and love my TF (m31). Our birthday dates are 7 days apart so we have the same Sun sign. We met almost 10 years ago at work. He was just a kid and I was going through a divorce. But I remember how I felt the first time i saw him. It was eerie but yet calming. However, I pushed it aside because-- 21.
About 1 1/2 years later, we found each other on FB through a mutual. It was an instant connection. I felt so alive! We messaged for hours that night and for the next few nights/days. We were absorbed into each other. I have felt connection with people before (about 3 to be exact) and I adore those people, but this was different, and I knew it the first day I saw him. It's a magnetic pull I've not felt with anyone-- other than lust for other people. This is deeper-- it's like I MUST be near him and I don't even know why. On paper, we are a MESS-- so different in culture and generation but our life experiences are pretty parallel and when I'm near him, or messaging him, or in his arms, I feel WHOLE- and i hate sounding so cliche, but i do. I feel absolutely complete when with him. He recently said that just laying with me and talking was his favorite thing-- that he never felt so good.
Consequently, he told me that the day we met, he felt something shift in him (i hadn't told him how i feel) and he was happy we connected (back 10 years ago he said this). But within 3 months, we had a huge falling out (never met up in person), he ghosted, and that was that. i was so deeply hurt which was weird bc I didn't even feel that gutted with my divorce. so-- he was gone, or so I thought.
Six months later he pops up to apologize. I saw his message and i had a surge of electricity go through me. I accepted his apology and we talked for a few months-- then the pattern repeated. This time, it would be 3 years before he reached out again.
I should add that EVERY TIME we stopped talking, it's because we'd have a huge fight about something. Or he'd trigger an emotion in me I couldn't figure out. Or I'd set him off for something I said that he couldn't grasp. The 3 year absence though --- wow.
So before I requested his friendship on FB, I was BOMBARDED with things in the world that reminded me of him. His work trucks were everywhere all of a sudden. His initials. The number 11:11 constantly-- so I reached out. He accepted and started talking right away. In those 3 years we both had a ton of growth and maturity about our issues etc. This time around, we made it physical.
I've always had good seggual relations with men. Superficially pleasing and whatnot. This was not the same. This was soul touching and after our first time, we both cried. Well, I silently let the tears roll while he pretended to yawn as some tears fell down his cheek. It was beyond this world. The eye contact took me out of this plane and Im not even sure where I went, but it was the closest to God i've ever felt. He even says similar now (we talked about it because it was really that transformative). What's interesting, that before I realized this could be my TF yesterday, I told him last week (when he said that no one has ever touched him that way) that it was no trouble for me because it was like touching myself...I knew what to do and how to do it.
We continued for a year back and forth. Physical contact and conversations, then he says he cant have a relationship. This time I'm the one who ghosted. Changed my number and everything. I want a LIFE with someone and I was tired of being messed around. I started looking for a life. Within 7 months I was engaged to my exhusband (who is a wonderful man now that we've both fixed our issues etc) and life was peaceful-- until--
TF reached out a year after i blocked. new account. I didn't reply. Six months later he reaches out again, I replied 2 months after that. I tried SO HARD not to get sucked in but i am at a loss because I am so in love with this man.
But as we were talking, before I even put together the TF aspect, my TF was telling me how he missed me and how it was so magical with me-- that he hasn't found it with others-- that he kept leaving bc he didn't feel like the man i deserved. That he looks up to me. That he thinks about me constantly even when apart. That no one comes close to me. I believe that because I feel the same. It was just when he said it that I had an "aha" moment. Granted, now our careers are aligning and we have had so many similar life events at the same ages, but i digress.
He said he's never felt loved, that he doesn't need love-- but he felt and feels loved by me.
So last week we have a deep conversation. Soul baring. He said he thinks our connection comes from a past life. I said that my love for him is so pure, there's nothing to feel bad about. It just "is". We both agreed we feel whole when we're connected. He sent me a picture of himself and I just burst into tears. He asked for a picture of me because he needed to see my eyes. He is upset i'm engaged. I am happy! I am at peace. But i haven't set a date for the wedding or even pushed it bc I think I'm waiting for him. I think in the depths of me, i cannot legally tie myself to anyone ever again unless it's him.
I didn't tell him that but our conversation was deep and honest. He said he's so happy we're back in each others lives and that he's not going anywhere. But while he hasn't blocked me, he's not talking anymore. I stopped reaching out after the first and last time Saturday. He replied with a smile emoji . Ugh-- the cycle repeats.
In all of this, i don't feel any guilt because i can't help how I feel and i do love my fiance. It's a different love. It's stable and fun. It's superficial and easy.
But I do believe I have found my TF. What say you? I don't know where to go from here. Let him go, of course, but that ache is for real!!
Ok to be even more weird, let me tell you something that has stuck with me since I was 15. I had the MOST LUCID dream of my life the year he was born. I dreamt I had a son. I could feel him and smell him. I saw his face and woke up crying-- looking for him almost. That feeling sat with me for a few YEARS. That i was missing my son. Wtf. Turns out, he was born that year and I wonder--- well, you can see where I'm going.
ANYWAY-- thanks for getting this far if you did. Blessed be.
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To begin, I (f47) believe to know and love my TF (m31). Our birthday dates are 7 days apart so we have the same Sun sign. We met almost 10 years ago at work. He was just a kid and I was going through a divorce. But I remember how I felt the first time i saw him. It was eerie but yet calming. However, I pushed it aside because-- 21.
About 1 1/2 years later, we found each other on FB through a mutual. It was an instant connection. I felt so alive! We messaged for hours that night and for the next few nights/days. We were absorbed into each other. I have felt connection with people before (about 3 to be exact) and I adore those people, but this was different, and I knew it the first day I saw him. It's a magnetic pull I've not felt with anyone-- other than lust for other people. This is deeper-- it's like I MUST be near him and I don't even know why. On paper, we are a MESS-- so different in culture and generation but our life experiences are pretty parallel and when I'm near him, or messaging him, or in his arms, I feel WHOLE- and i hate sounding so cliche, but i do. I feel absolutely complete when with him. He recently said that just laying with me and talking was his favorite thing-- that he never felt so good.
Consequently, he told me that the day we met, he felt something shift in him (i hadn't told him how i feel) and he was happy we connected (back 10 years ago he said this). But within 3 months, we had a huge falling out (never met up in person), he ghosted, and that was that. i was so deeply hurt which was weird bc I didn't even feel that gutted with my divorce. so-- he was gone, or so I thought.
Six months later he pops up to apologize. I saw his message and i had a surge of electricity go through me. I accepted his apology and we talked for a few months-- then the pattern repeated. This time, it would be 3 years before he reached out again.
I should add that EVERY TIME we stopped talking, it's because we'd have a huge fight about something. Or he'd trigger an emotion in me I couldn't figure out. Or I'd set him off for something I said that he couldn't grasp. The 3 year absence though --- wow.
So before I requested his friendship on FB, I was BOMBARDED with things in the world that reminded me of him. His work trucks were everywhere all of a sudden. His initials. The number 11:11 constantly-- so I reached out. He accepted and started talking right away. In those 3 years we both had a ton of growth and maturity about our issues etc. This time around, we made it physical.
I've always had good seggual relations with men. Superficially pleasing and whatnot. This was not the same. This was soul touching and after our first time, we both cried. Well, I silently let the tears roll while he pretended to yawn as some tears fell down his cheek. It was beyond this world. The eye contact took me out of this plane and Im not even sure where I went, but it was the closest to God i've ever felt. He even says similar now (we talked about it because it was really that transformative). What's interesting, that before I realized this could be my TF yesterday, I told him last week (when he said that no one has ever touched him that way) that it was no trouble for me because it was like touching myself...I knew what to do and how to do it.
We continued for a year back and forth. Physical contact and conversations, then he says he cant have a relationship. This time I'm the one who ghosted. Changed my number and everything. I want a LIFE with someone and I was tired of being messed around. I started looking for a life. Within 7 months I was engaged to my exhusband (who is a wonderful man now that we've both fixed our issues etc) and life was peaceful-- until--
TF reached out a year after i blocked. new account. I didn't reply. Six months later he reaches out again, I replied 2 months after that. I tried SO HARD not to get sucked in but i am at a loss because I am so in love with this man.
But as we were talking, before I even put together the TF aspect, my TF was telling me how he missed me and how it was so magical with me-- that he hasn't found it with others-- that he kept leaving bc he didn't feel like the man i deserved. That he looks up to me. That he thinks about me constantly even when apart. That no one comes close to me. I believe that because I feel the same. It was just when he said it that I had an "aha" moment. Granted, now our careers are aligning and we have had so many similar life events at the same ages, but i digress.
He said he's never felt loved, that he doesn't need love-- but he felt and feels loved by me.
So last week we have a deep conversation. Soul baring. He said he thinks our connection comes from a past life. I said that my love for him is so pure, there's nothing to feel bad about. It just "is". We both agreed we feel whole when we're connected. He sent me a picture of himself and I just burst into tears. He asked for a picture of me because he needed to see my eyes. He is upset i'm engaged. I am happy! I am at peace. But i haven't set a date for the wedding or even pushed it bc I think I'm waiting for him. I think in the depths of me, i cannot legally tie myself to anyone ever again unless it's him.
I didn't tell him that but our conversation was deep and honest. He said he's so happy we're back in each others lives and that he's not going anywhere. But while he hasn't blocked me, he's not talking anymore. I stopped reaching out after the first and last time Saturday. He replied with a smile emoji . Ugh-- the cycle repeats.
In all of this, i don't feel any guilt because i can't help how I feel and i do love my fiance. It's a different love. It's stable and fun. It's superficial and easy.
But I do believe I have found my TF. What say you? I don't know where to go from here. Let him go, of course, but that ache is for real!!
Ok to be even more weird, let me tell you something that has stuck with me since I was 15. I had the MOST LUCID dream of my life the year he was born. I dreamt I had a son. I could feel him and smell him. I saw his face and woke up crying-- looking for him almost. That feeling sat with me for a few YEARS. That i was missing my son. Wtf. Turns out, he was born that year and I wonder--- well, you can see where I'm going.
ANYWAY-- thanks for getting this far if you did. Blessed be.
2024.05.20 16:05 FewCelebration7892 Mom wants me to get married before Dad dies, I don’t.
Hi all. I (34F) am in a committed relationship of 5 years with my boyfriend. We have no plans to have children, and at this point no significant shared assets. I have never been a wedding person, we have always planned to just go to the courthouse or elope when we eventually move or buy property together.
My dad was diagnosed with lung cancer 3 years ago and given 7 months to live this past May. He is going strong and trying to cram as many experiences in to these months as possible. My mom has repeatedly brought up whether we will get married so that dad can be a part of it. I have repeatedly told her no and told her to stop asking.
Last night she was talking about going ahead and buying funeral dresses. Then asked if I’m going to be getting married and if she needs to get a dress for that too. I said no, kindly. She pushed and pushed.
Her brother (my uncle) married his wife when my grandfather was dying, I told her that while it was sweet it was also very sad and I don’t want that. She said “but it made Grandaddy so happy”. I told her “I will not get married for anyone’s happiness but my own, not even my dying father”. She was taken aback but relented.
My dad has never mentioned being excited about my wedding, or wanting to see me get married. He knows it’s not my thing. He wants grandkids. He wants me to get a good job. He wants to go on more adventures with me. I can’t imagine him giving me away, that’s so out of character for both of us I can’t even picture it. I am sad thinking about missing the fathedaughter dance, because it is such a sentimental moment, but we went to so many daddy/daughter dances growing up. frankly, he can’t swing me above his head or between his legs like he used to, so it could never be as fun.
My boyfriend reminded me that this is a memory mom wants to create, getting her daughter ready for her wedding, celebrating as the parents of the bride. So thankful he gives me perspective. I feel so sad for her. But I won’t get married for anyone else’s happiness but my own, not even my grieving mother.
And I have a sibling, which you might never know unless you catch him on the rare occasions he blesses us with his presence. Has she bugged them about getting married? Or just me? Is it because I’m the daughter? Or is that why I’m the only one here when things get hard, while my brother only wants to be a caregiver every couple of months when he gets a free vacation out of it? Why are you putting this on me now, when my plate is absolutely overflowing?
How do you maintain boundaries with fellow caregivers, especially when they really need care and support? My mom is going through it in more ways than I can describe. I have never seen her so sad and scared. She has never needed love and support more than she does now. But damn if she doesn’t know how to push every button. I’m losing my mind.
Anyway, anyone else getting marriage pressure? 👰♀️
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My dad was diagnosed with lung cancer 3 years ago and given 7 months to live this past May. He is going strong and trying to cram as many experiences in to these months as possible. My mom has repeatedly brought up whether we will get married so that dad can be a part of it. I have repeatedly told her no and told her to stop asking.
Last night she was talking about going ahead and buying funeral dresses. Then asked if I’m going to be getting married and if she needs to get a dress for that too. I said no, kindly. She pushed and pushed.
Her brother (my uncle) married his wife when my grandfather was dying, I told her that while it was sweet it was also very sad and I don’t want that. She said “but it made Grandaddy so happy”. I told her “I will not get married for anyone’s happiness but my own, not even my dying father”. She was taken aback but relented.
My dad has never mentioned being excited about my wedding, or wanting to see me get married. He knows it’s not my thing. He wants grandkids. He wants me to get a good job. He wants to go on more adventures with me. I can’t imagine him giving me away, that’s so out of character for both of us I can’t even picture it. I am sad thinking about missing the fathedaughter dance, because it is such a sentimental moment, but we went to so many daddy/daughter dances growing up. frankly, he can’t swing me above his head or between his legs like he used to, so it could never be as fun.
My boyfriend reminded me that this is a memory mom wants to create, getting her daughter ready for her wedding, celebrating as the parents of the bride. So thankful he gives me perspective. I feel so sad for her. But I won’t get married for anyone else’s happiness but my own, not even my grieving mother.
And I have a sibling, which you might never know unless you catch him on the rare occasions he blesses us with his presence. Has she bugged them about getting married? Or just me? Is it because I’m the daughter? Or is that why I’m the only one here when things get hard, while my brother only wants to be a caregiver every couple of months when he gets a free vacation out of it? Why are you putting this on me now, when my plate is absolutely overflowing?
How do you maintain boundaries with fellow caregivers, especially when they really need care and support? My mom is going through it in more ways than I can describe. I have never seen her so sad and scared. She has never needed love and support more than she does now. But damn if she doesn’t know how to push every button. I’m losing my mind.
Anyway, anyone else getting marriage pressure? 👰♀️
2024.05.20 15:35 SouthernBrownEyes Advice for No Contact?
MIL escalated wildly over the last week.
My husband called her yesterday to talk things out (bless him, he is a sweet person), and she spent 30 minutes yelling at him. She spent 30 minutes screaming about how terrible I am. When my husband would bring up a point about how my actions were a response to her behavior, she would just change the subject and get louder.
Her main complaint was that I didn’t pay enough attention to her during our wedding weekend (years ago). My husband responded, “so you’re going to nitpick the bride over her own wedding?”
She changed tactics to “I raised you better than this.” Better than me, presumably.
My husband told her, “I think my wife is doing the best she can with what she’s been given,” referring to MIL’s treatment of me. And MIL responded, “I’ve given her a great husband.” Vomit.
There was lots more said on the call, but I’ve come to the conclusion that I’d really like to be no contact with this person. This relationship was never in a good place and I’d like to free myself from her. Does anybody have any advice or validation for me? My husband will likely still remain in contact as is his absolute right, and I support his wish to remain in contact with his family. We don’t have kids so that piece of the equation is not there.
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My husband called her yesterday to talk things out (bless him, he is a sweet person), and she spent 30 minutes yelling at him. She spent 30 minutes screaming about how terrible I am. When my husband would bring up a point about how my actions were a response to her behavior, she would just change the subject and get louder.
Her main complaint was that I didn’t pay enough attention to her during our wedding weekend (years ago). My husband responded, “so you’re going to nitpick the bride over her own wedding?”
She changed tactics to “I raised you better than this.” Better than me, presumably.
My husband told her, “I think my wife is doing the best she can with what she’s been given,” referring to MIL’s treatment of me. And MIL responded, “I’ve given her a great husband.” Vomit.
There was lots more said on the call, but I’ve come to the conclusion that I’d really like to be no contact with this person. This relationship was never in a good place and I’d like to free myself from her. Does anybody have any advice or validation for me? My husband will likely still remain in contact as is his absolute right, and I support his wish to remain in contact with his family. We don’t have kids so that piece of the equation is not there.
2024.05.20 15:20 DejureWaffles1066 Ellyn Moore, Cavalier, The Discarded Lady
Reddit Account: u/Dejurewaffles1066
Discord Tag: Garin
Name and House: Ellyn Moore
Age: 25
Cultural Group: Valeman
Appearance: Of middling height and red hair, Ellyn has spent the last four years in constant training and increasingly eschews the courtly manners she was taught in favor of a direct and frank mode of speaking and acting, thoroughly disillusioned with subtleties and empty flattery. Her eyes can be rather intense and seldom evade contact.
Trait: Brave
Skills: Swords (e), Two-handed weapons (swords), Brute, Errantly
Talents: Weaving, Fishing, Hawking
Negative trait: N/A
Starting title: Scion of house Moore, Cavalier
Starting Location: Greyhelm
Alternate Characters: Dorian Merryweather
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The tapestries of andal knights, fearlessly facing their enemies with gleaming greatswords captured her imagination already as a child, and she began training beside her brothers. They were fairly accepting of this, and so Lord Moore let it slide as long as Ellyn did not skip other lessons for the sake of training, however when the Cavaliers were formed, it would not be many years before his daughter began to speak of joining, in hushed tones at first but ever more loudly as time went on. When she turned sixteen, Ellyn asked for permission to join and was promptly shut down. Instead Lord Berrick took his family on a visit to Snakewood, where Ellyn was introduced to the heir of the house, who had become her betrothed by the end of the visit. her betrothed did not come accross as a cruel or mean-spirited man, yet he was also not particularly strong-willed, a fact which would later become painfully aparent
Soon after her eighteenth nameday, Ellyn married the heir to House Lynderly, moving to Snakewood. Three things quickly became obvious to Ellyn. Firstly, even as a man grown, her husband had few opinions of his own, preferring to hear the verdict of his parents and adjust to it. Secondly, the maester in House Lynderly's service had little knowledge of medicine, and somehow even less of how to practice it on women. This fact became clear from the third revelation, she was already with child, probably since her wedding night. This was celebrated as a sign of good luck and the blessing of the gods. The final outcome would prove a hellish ordeal. The labor would become a protracted affair as Ellyn struggled. Something was clearly wrong, and the maester was utterly clueless in regards to a solution. By the time the idea of cutting the child out of her was being proposed, the impasse finally ended and her daughter was born, as if by the Mother's much belated mercy. At this point a hedge-maester was called in, ostensibly as assistant to the Maester of Snakewood. In practice, the dornishman named Marcel took over her care, and his clueless colleague was happy for an excuse to leave the room. He would stay to nurse her back to health, a process which took more than three months.
By then the warning signs were already showing. Leyla, her daughter, could not even look straight at someone, her gaze constantly shifting and her pupils often turning in opposite directions. Ellyn requested that Marcel stay at Sanekwood to monitor the girl and the Lynderlys obliged, their maester being no more skilled in treating children than women. At age one Leyla was not learning to walk, and struggled to even crawl or lay still. The Lynderlys assumed the child to be dim-witted, an ill omen. Furthermore, even a year after the birth, Ellyn's cycle had not returned to normal, becoming infrequent and irregular. For two more years she and her husband were urged to try to produce a suitable heir, unlike their daughter, however Ellyn proved incapable of conceiving another child. She was increasingly left to her own devices, and began to take up her old swordsmanship again, a way to remind herself and those around her that she hadn't died that night, even if her in-laws increasingly seemed to treat her as such.
Meanwhile Marcel continued to monitor Leyla's condition, unconvinced by the analysis of Snakewood's regular maester. He eventually concluded the condition to be palsy, and that the girl might eventually learn to control the spasms of her limbs, fashioning straps that would limit the movement in her arms and legs, allowing her to begin to practice moving them deliberately rather than involuntarily.
By 21AC, the Lynderlys concluded that divorce was the solution to their plight. A wife incapable of producing a fit heir could be set aside, and so this was Ellyn's fate. Her husband had not leapt at the opportunity eagerly, however as his parents argued the necessity he protested it less and less. He offered Ellyn and Leyla a place at his court after the divorce, but Ellyn rejected it, unable to stomach how the court seemed to treat both her and her daughter as functionally dead, a sentiment which had started years before the divorce itself. Instead she took her unwanted daughter and made for the Gates of The Moon and the Cavaliers, bringing Leyla with her. Marcel would accompany her, intent on continuing Leyla's training. As the years went by, the girl slowly staggered to her feet, beginning to walk with shambling steps and speak with a ragged voice. Meanwhile Ellyn resumed her own training at arms, using up her anger by throwing it into her training, regaining the strength of teenage years that already felt like a lifetime ago. Rather than ruminate on what the gods may have meant by it all, she sought meaning in the people around her, her companions and her family, not any house.
Family Tree:
Berrick Moore (Father, b.30BC)
Sybelle Wydman (Mother, b.27BC)
Lucan Moore (Brother, b.5BC)
Harmen Moore (Brother, b.2BC)
Martyn Lynderly (Ex-husband, b.1BC)
Leyla Lynderly (Daughter, b.17BC)
NPCs:
Berrick Moore (55), General
Lucan Moore (30), Huntsman
Timeline:
1BC: Ellyn Moore is born
6AC: She begins training with her brothers
15AC: She asks permission to join the Cavalliers, but is instead arranged to be married to the heir of House Lynderly
17AC: Ellyn marries Martyn Lynderly and gives birth to her only daughter, Leyla, by the end of the year. The labor is long and difficult, and she is saved by the intervention of the hedge-maester Marcel after the maester of Snakewood proves incapable of helping.
20AC: It becomes clear that Leyla is afflicted with palsy while Ellyn is no longer capable of conceiving. Martyn Lynderly's parents begin advocating for a divorce to allow House Lynderly to have a healthy heir by another lady. Ellyn begins practicing with a sword again
21AC: The divorce is finalized. Ellyn is offered a place at court by her former husband but instead takes her daughter with her and joins the Cavaliers. Marcel joins her
21-25AC: Ellyn trains as a Cavalier while Marcel gradually teaches Leyla to move more independently and speak. Ellyn and Marcel accompany the leaders of the Cavaliers to Greyhelm
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AC
Name and House: Marcel
Age: 44
Cultural Group: Dornishman
Appearance: A tall man with greying, black hair. Marcello's curly beard is carefully trimmed and his hands usually carry a metallic scent, whether from tinkering or treating injuries. His eyes are bright and keen, but tend to dart around a lot, constantly preoccupying themselves with new objects of fascination
Gift: Erudite
Skills: Medic (e), Craftsman (Armor)
Talents: Tinkering, Language (Valyrian), Fishing
Negative Traits: N/A
Starting title: Maester
Starting Location: Greyhelm
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Arriving in Oldtown at the age of 16, Marcel initially pursued metallurgy, but soon found that medicine stirred a very similar fascination in him. whether understanding the intricacies of a body made of flesh or metal, he was always keenly interested. It only took a few years before he came to be considered somewhat of a prodigy, especially for his interest in reconvalescent healing, the act of helping stroke victims and the maimed to use their bodies once again. By 21 he had taken further interests, particularly in a fellow maester in training, named Leo. For three years they were inseparable, jointly pursuing their studies by day and their passion by night. Then, one day, Leo suddenly started avoiding him. Marcel grew angry and tried to confront him several times, even in public.
This eventually caused enough of a scene for one of his seniors to pull him aside. Leo, as things would have it, was the nephew of one of the closest aides to the Archmaester of medicine. The over-proud geezer, Malcom, accused Marcel of corrupting his nephew wiht 'dornish vices' and told him in no uncertain terms that he should abandon the study of medicine, having already thrown away his prospects with his impertinence. At the time Marcel scoffed at his threat. He abandoned Leo, who had willingly abandoned him at his uncle's order, however he stayed in his course. A decade later, he was painfully aware that Malcom had acted on his threat. After an unusually protracted study they finally granted him a link of medicine, but there after the Citadel's college of medicine wanted nothing to do with him, throwing menial jobs far below his level at him whenever he offered his services. He went into metallurgy, but soon found himself similarly disdained. Though not an Archmaester, Malcom knew many men in the other colleges and had obstructed him here too. At this point, Malcom took to the road, serving as a hedge-maester. With few friends at the citadel, even an official posting at some hole in the middle of nowhere was out of reach.
One fateful evening in the Vale however, he would find a new sense of purpose, aiding Lady Ellyn Moore and her newborn Leyla. As the little girl grew into her toddler years, he determined that she could learn to walk on her own like other children, given the right supports. Those few with her affliction who grew to adulthood would sometimes show more control of their limbs with time, and maesters had speculated about accelerating the process. The project engrossed him so much that joining the service of the Cavaliers was almost an afterthought, a simple decision that would allow him to continue his work on the girl. Functionally, Marcel has now achieved what his seniors tried to deny him, serving as a surgeon and smith at the Gates of The Moon
Timeline:
20BC: Marcel is born in Planky-Town as a merchant's son
7BC: Marcel is a quick learner at everything except how to manage money. After spending a lot of money to acquire an automaton, a Qohorik curiosity, Marcel's parents determine that he is best suited for the citadel
4BC: He arrives in Oldtown to begin his studies
2AC-5AC: Marcel becomes recognized as a promising student of medicine and develops a relationship with Leo, a fellow student. Eventually Leo begins ignoring him. Marcel is told by Leo's uncle Malcom that their relationship is intolerable and that he should stop studying medicine
15AC: After a decade Marcel is granted his chain in medicine, and promptly stonewalled from further advancement. Malcom also pulls strings to make other archmaesters obstruct him from advancement as well. Marcel becomes a hedge-maester at the end of the year.
17AC: Marcel happens to be in Snakewood when the heir's wife is giving birth. He is able to help save Lady Ellyn Moore and her child, Leyla.
18AC-21AC: Marcel trains Leyla to be able to move independently despite her palsy. When Lady Ellyn is set aside by the Lynderlys he joins her to the Cavaliers, where he takes up service as a surgeon and smith while continuing to train Leyla
25AC: He joins the Cavaliers to Greyhelm
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Discord Tag: Garin
Name and House: Ellyn Moore
Age: 25
Cultural Group: Valeman
Appearance: Of middling height and red hair, Ellyn has spent the last four years in constant training and increasingly eschews the courtly manners she was taught in favor of a direct and frank mode of speaking and acting, thoroughly disillusioned with subtleties and empty flattery. Her eyes can be rather intense and seldom evade contact.
Trait: Brave
Skills: Swords (e), Two-handed weapons (swords), Brute, Errantly
Talents: Weaving, Fishing, Hawking
Negative trait: N/A
Starting title: Scion of house Moore, Cavalier
Starting Location: Greyhelm
Alternate Characters: Dorian Merryweather
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Biography:
For house Moore, like many other houses of the Vale's sheltered interior, Aegon's conquest was rather unremarkable. They went to bed one evening as subjects of one king and woke up as subjects of a new one, without the old one having gone anywhere either. Ellyn was the third child of Lord Berrick Moore and his wife Sybelle Wydman. Ellyn would be their only daughter. Lord Berrick went on to play a minor role in the campaign against the Root Father. The stories of the menace in the mountains inspired many a youth at Bronzespear to want to take up arms themselves, Ellyn among them.The tapestries of andal knights, fearlessly facing their enemies with gleaming greatswords captured her imagination already as a child, and she began training beside her brothers. They were fairly accepting of this, and so Lord Moore let it slide as long as Ellyn did not skip other lessons for the sake of training, however when the Cavaliers were formed, it would not be many years before his daughter began to speak of joining, in hushed tones at first but ever more loudly as time went on. When she turned sixteen, Ellyn asked for permission to join and was promptly shut down. Instead Lord Berrick took his family on a visit to Snakewood, where Ellyn was introduced to the heir of the house, who had become her betrothed by the end of the visit. her betrothed did not come accross as a cruel or mean-spirited man, yet he was also not particularly strong-willed, a fact which would later become painfully aparent
Soon after her eighteenth nameday, Ellyn married the heir to House Lynderly, moving to Snakewood. Three things quickly became obvious to Ellyn. Firstly, even as a man grown, her husband had few opinions of his own, preferring to hear the verdict of his parents and adjust to it. Secondly, the maester in House Lynderly's service had little knowledge of medicine, and somehow even less of how to practice it on women. This fact became clear from the third revelation, she was already with child, probably since her wedding night. This was celebrated as a sign of good luck and the blessing of the gods. The final outcome would prove a hellish ordeal. The labor would become a protracted affair as Ellyn struggled. Something was clearly wrong, and the maester was utterly clueless in regards to a solution. By the time the idea of cutting the child out of her was being proposed, the impasse finally ended and her daughter was born, as if by the Mother's much belated mercy. At this point a hedge-maester was called in, ostensibly as assistant to the Maester of Snakewood. In practice, the dornishman named Marcel took over her care, and his clueless colleague was happy for an excuse to leave the room. He would stay to nurse her back to health, a process which took more than three months.
By then the warning signs were already showing. Leyla, her daughter, could not even look straight at someone, her gaze constantly shifting and her pupils often turning in opposite directions. Ellyn requested that Marcel stay at Sanekwood to monitor the girl and the Lynderlys obliged, their maester being no more skilled in treating children than women. At age one Leyla was not learning to walk, and struggled to even crawl or lay still. The Lynderlys assumed the child to be dim-witted, an ill omen. Furthermore, even a year after the birth, Ellyn's cycle had not returned to normal, becoming infrequent and irregular. For two more years she and her husband were urged to try to produce a suitable heir, unlike their daughter, however Ellyn proved incapable of conceiving another child. She was increasingly left to her own devices, and began to take up her old swordsmanship again, a way to remind herself and those around her that she hadn't died that night, even if her in-laws increasingly seemed to treat her as such.
Meanwhile Marcel continued to monitor Leyla's condition, unconvinced by the analysis of Snakewood's regular maester. He eventually concluded the condition to be palsy, and that the girl might eventually learn to control the spasms of her limbs, fashioning straps that would limit the movement in her arms and legs, allowing her to begin to practice moving them deliberately rather than involuntarily.
By 21AC, the Lynderlys concluded that divorce was the solution to their plight. A wife incapable of producing a fit heir could be set aside, and so this was Ellyn's fate. Her husband had not leapt at the opportunity eagerly, however as his parents argued the necessity he protested it less and less. He offered Ellyn and Leyla a place at his court after the divorce, but Ellyn rejected it, unable to stomach how the court seemed to treat both her and her daughter as functionally dead, a sentiment which had started years before the divorce itself. Instead she took her unwanted daughter and made for the Gates of The Moon and the Cavaliers, bringing Leyla with her. Marcel would accompany her, intent on continuing Leyla's training. As the years went by, the girl slowly staggered to her feet, beginning to walk with shambling steps and speak with a ragged voice. Meanwhile Ellyn resumed her own training at arms, using up her anger by throwing it into her training, regaining the strength of teenage years that already felt like a lifetime ago. Rather than ruminate on what the gods may have meant by it all, she sought meaning in the people around her, her companions and her family, not any house.
Family Tree:
Berrick Moore (Father, b.30BC)
Sybelle Wydman (Mother, b.27BC)
Lucan Moore (Brother, b.5BC)
Harmen Moore (Brother, b.2BC)
Martyn Lynderly (Ex-husband, b.1BC)
Leyla Lynderly (Daughter, b.17BC)
NPCs:
Berrick Moore (55), General
Lucan Moore (30), Huntsman
Timeline:
1BC: Ellyn Moore is born
6AC: She begins training with her brothers
15AC: She asks permission to join the Cavalliers, but is instead arranged to be married to the heir of House Lynderly
17AC: Ellyn marries Martyn Lynderly and gives birth to her only daughter, Leyla, by the end of the year. The labor is long and difficult, and she is saved by the intervention of the hedge-maester Marcel after the maester of Snakewood proves incapable of helping.
20AC: It becomes clear that Leyla is afflicted with palsy while Ellyn is no longer capable of conceiving. Martyn Lynderly's parents begin advocating for a divorce to allow House Lynderly to have a healthy heir by another lady. Ellyn begins practicing with a sword again
21AC: The divorce is finalized. Ellyn is offered a place at court by her former husband but instead takes her daughter with her and joins the Cavaliers. Marcel joins her
21-25AC: Ellyn trains as a Cavalier while Marcel gradually teaches Leyla to move more independently and speak. Ellyn and Marcel accompany the leaders of the Cavaliers to Greyhelm
_____________________________________________________________________________________________________________________
AC
Name and House: Marcel
Age: 44
Cultural Group: Dornishman
Appearance: A tall man with greying, black hair. Marcello's curly beard is carefully trimmed and his hands usually carry a metallic scent, whether from tinkering or treating injuries. His eyes are bright and keen, but tend to dart around a lot, constantly preoccupying themselves with new objects of fascination
Gift: Erudite
Skills: Medic (e), Craftsman (Armor)
Talents: Tinkering, Language (Valyrian), Fishing
Negative Traits: N/A
Starting title: Maester
Starting Location: Greyhelm
_____________________________________________________________________________________________________________________
Biography:
Marcel was born in 20BC, a son of a Planky Town merchant. While taking an keen interest in learning letters, numbers and even a few valyrian phrases, he had no mind for managing money. His parents quickly decided that out of all their children, he was better sent off to the Citadel, before one of his flights of fancy caused a greater loss of money. This was after he had spent a considerable sum just to acquire a Qohorik automaton, an intricate little lion with cogs on the inside that allowed it to walk when wound up.Arriving in Oldtown at the age of 16, Marcel initially pursued metallurgy, but soon found that medicine stirred a very similar fascination in him. whether understanding the intricacies of a body made of flesh or metal, he was always keenly interested. It only took a few years before he came to be considered somewhat of a prodigy, especially for his interest in reconvalescent healing, the act of helping stroke victims and the maimed to use their bodies once again. By 21 he had taken further interests, particularly in a fellow maester in training, named Leo. For three years they were inseparable, jointly pursuing their studies by day and their passion by night. Then, one day, Leo suddenly started avoiding him. Marcel grew angry and tried to confront him several times, even in public.
This eventually caused enough of a scene for one of his seniors to pull him aside. Leo, as things would have it, was the nephew of one of the closest aides to the Archmaester of medicine. The over-proud geezer, Malcom, accused Marcel of corrupting his nephew wiht 'dornish vices' and told him in no uncertain terms that he should abandon the study of medicine, having already thrown away his prospects with his impertinence. At the time Marcel scoffed at his threat. He abandoned Leo, who had willingly abandoned him at his uncle's order, however he stayed in his course. A decade later, he was painfully aware that Malcom had acted on his threat. After an unusually protracted study they finally granted him a link of medicine, but there after the Citadel's college of medicine wanted nothing to do with him, throwing menial jobs far below his level at him whenever he offered his services. He went into metallurgy, but soon found himself similarly disdained. Though not an Archmaester, Malcom knew many men in the other colleges and had obstructed him here too. At this point, Malcom took to the road, serving as a hedge-maester. With few friends at the citadel, even an official posting at some hole in the middle of nowhere was out of reach.
One fateful evening in the Vale however, he would find a new sense of purpose, aiding Lady Ellyn Moore and her newborn Leyla. As the little girl grew into her toddler years, he determined that she could learn to walk on her own like other children, given the right supports. Those few with her affliction who grew to adulthood would sometimes show more control of their limbs with time, and maesters had speculated about accelerating the process. The project engrossed him so much that joining the service of the Cavaliers was almost an afterthought, a simple decision that would allow him to continue his work on the girl. Functionally, Marcel has now achieved what his seniors tried to deny him, serving as a surgeon and smith at the Gates of The Moon
Timeline:
20BC: Marcel is born in Planky-Town as a merchant's son
7BC: Marcel is a quick learner at everything except how to manage money. After spending a lot of money to acquire an automaton, a Qohorik curiosity, Marcel's parents determine that he is best suited for the citadel
4BC: He arrives in Oldtown to begin his studies
2AC-5AC: Marcel becomes recognized as a promising student of medicine and develops a relationship with Leo, a fellow student. Eventually Leo begins ignoring him. Marcel is told by Leo's uncle Malcom that their relationship is intolerable and that he should stop studying medicine
15AC: After a decade Marcel is granted his chain in medicine, and promptly stonewalled from further advancement. Malcom also pulls strings to make other archmaesters obstruct him from advancement as well. Marcel becomes a hedge-maester at the end of the year.
17AC: Marcel happens to be in Snakewood when the heir's wife is giving birth. He is able to help save Lady Ellyn Moore and her child, Leyla.
18AC-21AC: Marcel trains Leyla to be able to move independently despite her palsy. When Lady Ellyn is set aside by the Lynderlys he joins her to the Cavaliers, where he takes up service as a surgeon and smith while continuing to train Leyla
25AC: He joins the Cavaliers to Greyhelm
2024.05.20 15:07 Blake_meyer I've been lied about my mother's death and who I really was for 20 years. I know the truth now.
I don't really know why I'm writing this ... I think it's because I've tried to explain it to my uncle but all he said is that I should get my addiction under control and stop forgetting to take my meds. I think my aunt’s absence is weighing on him more than he’d ever admit.
I can't blame him. About not believing me I mean. You see... I have a history. I've lost it in the past , twice actually. I'm not here to talk about it , but I think it's important to lay this down first. So you can understand.
I've been told something's wrong with my brain, maybe I was born this way, maybe I've been through too much. That my mother was an addict, she'd cut ties with her family for 10 years when she had me. That where she had been and who my father was, is was very unclear. She was part of a community in the forgotten part of the nearest big city when she died. I was there when it happened.
My uncle Sean and Aunt Maggie became my guardians just before my 5th birthday and I'm still with him 20 years later. Maggie left the ranch a few weeks ago after an amicable divorce, I never understood why they were together anyway she was always working somewhere, traveling a lot. I was closer to him and his sturdy way of life.
When I first arrived at the ranch, I was in a bad shape. I got better thanks to him but when I reached thirteen, all the memories from my early childhood suddenly came back. I started having flashbacks. My memories came back, but they came back wrong.
I had been told that my mother had died of an overdose. Yet in my dreams, I saw her , again and again , in a pool of blood. An then... Then it came. The... Thing. I won't describe it. It kind of triggers something in me that I really don't need right now.
I've been told that what happened next was so traumatic that my brain made up a monster, a fiction , to make sense of what I was seeing and not processing.
This ... Thing started obsessing me and during my early teenage years I focused all my energy on finding what it was and proving it happened. That a monster did kill and mutilated my mother. My nightmares were so bad that I stopped sleeping. I drank so much energy drinks that I ended up in the hospital twice with severe dehydration.
Thankfully, I got better. I started working more and more with my uncle's horses. I think it's why he employed me, he saw how manual work and caring for the animals helped. I even got my first girlfriend around my 17th year. I was prom king. Who would have thought?
But then... She had a cheerleading accident. In front of me. And I lost it again. I won't go into details but she broke her neck during half-time and once again... The way she fell, folded and screamed. I couldn't process. It was IT. It'd shapeshifted to get to her. I'm ashamed of it but I became violent. Looking for it franticly. Screaming non sense and talking made up words. I had to be sedated. She made it alive, but she never wanted to see me again. I was accused by pretty much everyone to make the accident all about myself. And they were kind of right....
Now you know how I came to be the " crazy" guy. I have a bit of a drinking problem too to be honest... You see I never went back to high school. I started working full time at the ranch when I came by, and sometimes, it gets lonely. It's not rare to find me passed out in the hay in the early morning in the summer. And what can I tell you... I know I shouldn't. I know it's "bad" . But I love those nights. I put music , cuddle with my dog and just look at the cold bright stars, drinking beer until they start spinning.
It's because of this bad habit that I realized something was wrong with the horses. You see, contrary to the movies, horses are pretty silent. They don't neigh unless you separate them from their best mate or bring food. And that night... The night it all started. They wouldn't stop. I could hear them galloping and snorting. I wondered if there was a stray dog but they were used to dogs. I was a bit worried. Horses get stupid when they are afraid and we had a big show coming, it wasn't the time so sprain a leg. What really troubled me was my dog. He seemed ... Weird.
Max was a pit mix my uncle had rescued when I was 15. He only woke when I got up and walked a bit to look at the paddocks. That's when I realised the moon behind me. It was huge, and red. I wondered if I had ever seen it so close and so red before. I looked at Max The white of his eyes showed and he started whining. I had never heard him make this noise. Ever.
I looked at my phone. It was quarter to three. I took a pitchfork to be safe and walked toward the clubhouse. We kept a shotgun there in a locker. The horses kept going crazy and max's tail was stiff. I was walking fast but carefully in the darkness when the music reached me. A chant. A low chant. I kind of felt it too... Like a ... vibration.
It was coming from the yearlings field near the forest patch, on the opposite direction of the clubhouse. My horse was in this field. I backtracked immediately and rushed toward the sound as I dialled my uncle. Off course he didn't answer. He didn't live on the property anymore but a few miles away. I left a message, whispering. " I'm at the stable, something weird ‘s happening. I think they're people messing with horses I'm going to see. I think you should come , I don't know...Call me back.".
The weird chant buzzed in the background, louder, as if more people had joined. I saw the glow of the fire before I passed the last building. It rose , under the bloody moonlight. Dark figures circled around it. Slowly. The horses seemed to have retreated at the other end of the pasture and I was relieved. Until I saw it. The figure at the centre of this dark carousel. " What the f are those creeps doing" escaped my lips.
A blazing fury filled me , like a white iron like a white hot blade blinding me . "HEYYYY" I screamed at the top of lungs. " WHAT ARE YOU DOING !? ". The figures stopped and turn toward me. I was running now , my knuckles going white around the pitchfork's stick. Max was growling. A deep growl. His hair high upon his backbone. The figure, still pretty far did not move. I could see their heavy hooded cloaks. " what kind of sick pricks are those " I muttered. " HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY" I screamed again, louder than I ever thought I could scream. And then I saw him. Gun.
Gun was my uncle's favourite horse. His old stallion's spitting image. The young horse was lying in front of the fire behind the intruders.
"WHAT DID YOU DO! I'M CALLING THE COPS!!!!". I stopped and was dialling when a figure detached itself from the group and advanced. It seemed to ... float? It moved toward Max and I... so silently.
The burning rage in veins turned cold , and heavy. I opened my mouth but nothing crossed my lips. Suddenly, Max jumped. He growled in a way I hope to never hear any dog do again. A desperate, furious growl. A life or death sound. A war cry... His warm blood spattered on my face. He... Honestly I don't know what happened at that moment. Something lied bloody on the ground but I couldn't even have told that it used to be a dog, even less Max. Acid tears filled my eyes as I realized my mouth was still open. I was tasting him.
I wanted to scream, to run, to just get swallowed by the earth and yet I did nothing at all but stare at the floating silhouette. It was so tall. " Come, my child". " We were waiting for you, we knew you'd come, Your father told us you'd be here when we'd call".
I heard those words, but I wouldn't be able to tell you anything about the thing who spoke them. I say thing because it didn't have a voice. It... Buzzed. Like... a cello.
Suddenly... I floated too. Panick seized me. Like a trapped raccoon in my
chest it dug its claws, scratching furiously my closed throat.
" Your father said you were ready. We will prepare you." I was now in front of the crackling blaze. the other figures circling me. Smiling Men and woman welcomed me. On their faces they all wore a similar mark. a cross covering their eyes horizontally, and their nose and mouth vertically. Their hands... Their hands were still dripping with gun's inside. Gun... Was ... opened.
" A necessary sacrifice" whispered a woman, still smiling. " I know you liked him very much... I'm sorry..." " I could have taken yours, but I knew you wouldn't have forgiven me'. Her voice. .." Aunt Maggie?' I croaked. Her eyes shone with a mad light. " Gosh do you look like your mother tonight... She'd be so proud. Her baby boy..." .
The tall figure made a gesture and I spined and found myself looking at the sky. I thought I'd fallen but... I wasn't touching the ground...
My aunt continued speaking." She was just like you the first time ... So... naive, so afraid.. She was only 16! That was our mistake you see, she wasn't ready for her destiny yet when she joined us... That's why we waited for you."
The chant , the low buzzing chant rose once again. The people around me started walking in a circle around me. I was just above Gun's body.
One, by one, they buried they hands in the belly of the horse and traced the cross on my face. I sealed my lips as tight as I could as the warm blood covered my face. Through the blood and tears I recognize faces. A nurse from the hospital. A teacher. The coffeeshop barista. My psychiatrist... I closed my eyes.
It was a nightmare. It couldn't be anything but a nightmare.
Yet the smell of the horse's inside and the crackling fire still reached me as they started ripping my clothes off.
" This is not real" I whispered. " This is not real, this is not real THIS IS NOT real" I screamed weakly.
'Oh , My dear I'm so sorry ' whispered my aunt. I should have told you earlier... But Dr Carter said it was better to let you grow up a bit first. He said it help you keep the secrets if you were afraid of them. I'm sure you don't feel this way, but it was an honour to watch your mother ascend the way she did. Her agony was the most beautiful thing she could have hoped for. You were supposed to ascend with her but she ruined it". " Slut" groaned a middle aged woman before spitting on the floor.
" She was my best friend you know... I thought I knew her. I thought I could trust her. But she lied to me."
"You see, we know you are his son. But... She wasn't a virgin when she was honoured."
She smiled. " It doesn't matter how cruelly she tricked us. You can help us find the perfect girl."
One by one, each member traced a bloody cross on my skin.
" You're so handsome... He'll be so glad. The perfect boy. The perfect vessel."whispered aunt Maggie.
"It's almost time, Prepare" hissed the tall figure.
" You're going to give him his heir, the one ruler among the realms. You see he can't travel here whenever but you're an anchor my love. Each generation he choses an anchor until he finds one who'll give him THE son, the one who'll die for his freedom. Our freedom." Maggie continued, lower.
"QUIET SLAVE AND KNEEL" shrieked the tall figure.
She kneeled right near me, and breathed " You're...". I heard a slash. Aunt Maggie’s face slid horizontally. Her eyes followed me as the upper part of the face slid slowly toward the ground.
" HAIL THE PRINCE".
A chant, colder and louder than never before rose with the crackling flames toward the moon.
" Iä! Shub-Niggurath! The Black Goat of the Woods with a Thousand Young! » chanted the disciples."
Frozen, I watched the blazing sky above and saw a door. A perfect wooden door , in the sky. It slowly cracked open as the crowd turn to hysterics and the chant turned to mad screams.
"MY SOOOOOOOON" The whole earth seemed to split open under the weight of the sound coming from the perfect rectangle of empty darkness in the sky.
And then... I saw... I saw what I had tried to forget for twenty-years. I saw those split red eyes and their evil glare. I saw the iron hooves at the end of too many legs. I saw the tentacles who flayed my mother with their thousand beaks. Everything all at once, I saw it shift, from an odious form to a more loathsome one. I burned in a way I'll never be able to describe. The tentacle reached , they crossed this unholy door.
I woke up two weeks ago in the nearest hospital. I was found on the ground, surrounded by the yearlings, the corpse of gun and some remains of Max. My uncle explained to me that I had found a bear feasting on Gun, that Max must have attacked it and I'd fainted or been knocked out trying to scare it away. Laying lifeless had saved me. I didn't tell him right away at the hospital what happened.
I would have. But you see. When I woke up, she was there. The nurse. The one I had recognized. Dr Carter. Miss Thompson my primary school teacher. They were all around me , holding hands. And they smiled. They showed me the sign, the cross on my chest surrounding by the four secret signs left by my father.
I’ve tried to explain to my uncle that aunt Maggie would never come back. Why gun had to die too. I think he deserved to know. I’m sorry to leave him … but I’ve got to go now. I thought he could handle the truth. You know… That I had never been crazy and that I shouldn't have been afraid. That everything was going to be okay from now.
Because I know now that I'm blessed. You see he thinks I'm just having another episode, that it’s a "manic" episode or something and I should go back to the clinic. But Dr Carter is by my sides now... I am special. I am. And he can be too. Anyway... He'll be , whether he joins or not. You'll all be. Because he is coming. He 'll bless us all. Because you see, I know I can find her and I'll give him the perfect door. A door to let him in. A door to let all of him in this time. He'll honour us all, all at once.
" Iä! Shub-Niggurath! The Black Goat of the Woods with a Thousand Young! »
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I can't blame him. About not believing me I mean. You see... I have a history. I've lost it in the past , twice actually. I'm not here to talk about it , but I think it's important to lay this down first. So you can understand.
I've been told something's wrong with my brain, maybe I was born this way, maybe I've been through too much. That my mother was an addict, she'd cut ties with her family for 10 years when she had me. That where she had been and who my father was, is was very unclear. She was part of a community in the forgotten part of the nearest big city when she died. I was there when it happened.
My uncle Sean and Aunt Maggie became my guardians just before my 5th birthday and I'm still with him 20 years later. Maggie left the ranch a few weeks ago after an amicable divorce, I never understood why they were together anyway she was always working somewhere, traveling a lot. I was closer to him and his sturdy way of life.
When I first arrived at the ranch, I was in a bad shape. I got better thanks to him but when I reached thirteen, all the memories from my early childhood suddenly came back. I started having flashbacks. My memories came back, but they came back wrong.
I had been told that my mother had died of an overdose. Yet in my dreams, I saw her , again and again , in a pool of blood. An then... Then it came. The... Thing. I won't describe it. It kind of triggers something in me that I really don't need right now.
I've been told that what happened next was so traumatic that my brain made up a monster, a fiction , to make sense of what I was seeing and not processing.
This ... Thing started obsessing me and during my early teenage years I focused all my energy on finding what it was and proving it happened. That a monster did kill and mutilated my mother. My nightmares were so bad that I stopped sleeping. I drank so much energy drinks that I ended up in the hospital twice with severe dehydration.
Thankfully, I got better. I started working more and more with my uncle's horses. I think it's why he employed me, he saw how manual work and caring for the animals helped. I even got my first girlfriend around my 17th year. I was prom king. Who would have thought?
But then... She had a cheerleading accident. In front of me. And I lost it again. I won't go into details but she broke her neck during half-time and once again... The way she fell, folded and screamed. I couldn't process. It was IT. It'd shapeshifted to get to her. I'm ashamed of it but I became violent. Looking for it franticly. Screaming non sense and talking made up words. I had to be sedated. She made it alive, but she never wanted to see me again. I was accused by pretty much everyone to make the accident all about myself. And they were kind of right....
Now you know how I came to be the " crazy" guy. I have a bit of a drinking problem too to be honest... You see I never went back to high school. I started working full time at the ranch when I came by, and sometimes, it gets lonely. It's not rare to find me passed out in the hay in the early morning in the summer. And what can I tell you... I know I shouldn't. I know it's "bad" . But I love those nights. I put music , cuddle with my dog and just look at the cold bright stars, drinking beer until they start spinning.
It's because of this bad habit that I realized something was wrong with the horses. You see, contrary to the movies, horses are pretty silent. They don't neigh unless you separate them from their best mate or bring food. And that night... The night it all started. They wouldn't stop. I could hear them galloping and snorting. I wondered if there was a stray dog but they were used to dogs. I was a bit worried. Horses get stupid when they are afraid and we had a big show coming, it wasn't the time so sprain a leg. What really troubled me was my dog. He seemed ... Weird.
Max was a pit mix my uncle had rescued when I was 15. He only woke when I got up and walked a bit to look at the paddocks. That's when I realised the moon behind me. It was huge, and red. I wondered if I had ever seen it so close and so red before. I looked at Max The white of his eyes showed and he started whining. I had never heard him make this noise. Ever.
I looked at my phone. It was quarter to three. I took a pitchfork to be safe and walked toward the clubhouse. We kept a shotgun there in a locker. The horses kept going crazy and max's tail was stiff. I was walking fast but carefully in the darkness when the music reached me. A chant. A low chant. I kind of felt it too... Like a ... vibration.
It was coming from the yearlings field near the forest patch, on the opposite direction of the clubhouse. My horse was in this field. I backtracked immediately and rushed toward the sound as I dialled my uncle. Off course he didn't answer. He didn't live on the property anymore but a few miles away. I left a message, whispering. " I'm at the stable, something weird ‘s happening. I think they're people messing with horses I'm going to see. I think you should come , I don't know...Call me back.".
The weird chant buzzed in the background, louder, as if more people had joined. I saw the glow of the fire before I passed the last building. It rose , under the bloody moonlight. Dark figures circled around it. Slowly. The horses seemed to have retreated at the other end of the pasture and I was relieved. Until I saw it. The figure at the centre of this dark carousel. " What the f are those creeps doing" escaped my lips.
A blazing fury filled me , like a white iron like a white hot blade blinding me . "HEYYYY" I screamed at the top of lungs. " WHAT ARE YOU DOING !? ". The figures stopped and turn toward me. I was running now , my knuckles going white around the pitchfork's stick. Max was growling. A deep growl. His hair high upon his backbone. The figure, still pretty far did not move. I could see their heavy hooded cloaks. " what kind of sick pricks are those " I muttered. " HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY" I screamed again, louder than I ever thought I could scream. And then I saw him. Gun.
Gun was my uncle's favourite horse. His old stallion's spitting image. The young horse was lying in front of the fire behind the intruders.
"WHAT DID YOU DO! I'M CALLING THE COPS!!!!". I stopped and was dialling when a figure detached itself from the group and advanced. It seemed to ... float? It moved toward Max and I... so silently.
The burning rage in veins turned cold , and heavy. I opened my mouth but nothing crossed my lips. Suddenly, Max jumped. He growled in a way I hope to never hear any dog do again. A desperate, furious growl. A life or death sound. A war cry... His warm blood spattered on my face. He... Honestly I don't know what happened at that moment. Something lied bloody on the ground but I couldn't even have told that it used to be a dog, even less Max. Acid tears filled my eyes as I realized my mouth was still open. I was tasting him.
I wanted to scream, to run, to just get swallowed by the earth and yet I did nothing at all but stare at the floating silhouette. It was so tall. " Come, my child". " We were waiting for you, we knew you'd come, Your father told us you'd be here when we'd call".
I heard those words, but I wouldn't be able to tell you anything about the thing who spoke them. I say thing because it didn't have a voice. It... Buzzed. Like... a cello.
Suddenly... I floated too. Panick seized me. Like a trapped raccoon in my
chest it dug its claws, scratching furiously my closed throat.
" Your father said you were ready. We will prepare you." I was now in front of the crackling blaze. the other figures circling me. Smiling Men and woman welcomed me. On their faces they all wore a similar mark. a cross covering their eyes horizontally, and their nose and mouth vertically. Their hands... Their hands were still dripping with gun's inside. Gun... Was ... opened.
" A necessary sacrifice" whispered a woman, still smiling. " I know you liked him very much... I'm sorry..." " I could have taken yours, but I knew you wouldn't have forgiven me'. Her voice. .." Aunt Maggie?' I croaked. Her eyes shone with a mad light. " Gosh do you look like your mother tonight... She'd be so proud. Her baby boy..." .
The tall figure made a gesture and I spined and found myself looking at the sky. I thought I'd fallen but... I wasn't touching the ground...
My aunt continued speaking." She was just like you the first time ... So... naive, so afraid.. She was only 16! That was our mistake you see, she wasn't ready for her destiny yet when she joined us... That's why we waited for you."
The chant , the low buzzing chant rose once again. The people around me started walking in a circle around me. I was just above Gun's body.
One, by one, they buried they hands in the belly of the horse and traced the cross on my face. I sealed my lips as tight as I could as the warm blood covered my face. Through the blood and tears I recognize faces. A nurse from the hospital. A teacher. The coffeeshop barista. My psychiatrist... I closed my eyes.
It was a nightmare. It couldn't be anything but a nightmare.
Yet the smell of the horse's inside and the crackling fire still reached me as they started ripping my clothes off.
" This is not real" I whispered. " This is not real, this is not real THIS IS NOT real" I screamed weakly.
'Oh , My dear I'm so sorry ' whispered my aunt. I should have told you earlier... But Dr Carter said it was better to let you grow up a bit first. He said it help you keep the secrets if you were afraid of them. I'm sure you don't feel this way, but it was an honour to watch your mother ascend the way she did. Her agony was the most beautiful thing she could have hoped for. You were supposed to ascend with her but she ruined it". " Slut" groaned a middle aged woman before spitting on the floor.
" She was my best friend you know... I thought I knew her. I thought I could trust her. But she lied to me."
"You see, we know you are his son. But... She wasn't a virgin when she was honoured."
She smiled. " It doesn't matter how cruelly she tricked us. You can help us find the perfect girl."
One by one, each member traced a bloody cross on my skin.
" You're so handsome... He'll be so glad. The perfect boy. The perfect vessel."whispered aunt Maggie.
"It's almost time, Prepare" hissed the tall figure.
" You're going to give him his heir, the one ruler among the realms. You see he can't travel here whenever but you're an anchor my love. Each generation he choses an anchor until he finds one who'll give him THE son, the one who'll die for his freedom. Our freedom." Maggie continued, lower.
"QUIET SLAVE AND KNEEL" shrieked the tall figure.
She kneeled right near me, and breathed " You're...". I heard a slash. Aunt Maggie’s face slid horizontally. Her eyes followed me as the upper part of the face slid slowly toward the ground.
" HAIL THE PRINCE".
A chant, colder and louder than never before rose with the crackling flames toward the moon.
" Iä! Shub-Niggurath! The Black Goat of the Woods with a Thousand Young! » chanted the disciples."
Frozen, I watched the blazing sky above and saw a door. A perfect wooden door , in the sky. It slowly cracked open as the crowd turn to hysterics and the chant turned to mad screams.
"MY SOOOOOOOON" The whole earth seemed to split open under the weight of the sound coming from the perfect rectangle of empty darkness in the sky.
And then... I saw... I saw what I had tried to forget for twenty-years. I saw those split red eyes and their evil glare. I saw the iron hooves at the end of too many legs. I saw the tentacles who flayed my mother with their thousand beaks. Everything all at once, I saw it shift, from an odious form to a more loathsome one. I burned in a way I'll never be able to describe. The tentacle reached , they crossed this unholy door.
I woke up two weeks ago in the nearest hospital. I was found on the ground, surrounded by the yearlings, the corpse of gun and some remains of Max. My uncle explained to me that I had found a bear feasting on Gun, that Max must have attacked it and I'd fainted or been knocked out trying to scare it away. Laying lifeless had saved me. I didn't tell him right away at the hospital what happened.
I would have. But you see. When I woke up, she was there. The nurse. The one I had recognized. Dr Carter. Miss Thompson my primary school teacher. They were all around me , holding hands. And they smiled. They showed me the sign, the cross on my chest surrounding by the four secret signs left by my father.
I’ve tried to explain to my uncle that aunt Maggie would never come back. Why gun had to die too. I think he deserved to know. I’m sorry to leave him … but I’ve got to go now. I thought he could handle the truth. You know… That I had never been crazy and that I shouldn't have been afraid. That everything was going to be okay from now.
Because I know now that I'm blessed. You see he thinks I'm just having another episode, that it’s a "manic" episode or something and I should go back to the clinic. But Dr Carter is by my sides now... I am special. I am. And he can be too. Anyway... He'll be , whether he joins or not. You'll all be. Because he is coming. He 'll bless us all. Because you see, I know I can find her and I'll give him the perfect door. A door to let him in. A door to let all of him in this time. He'll honour us all, all at once.
" Iä! Shub-Niggurath! The Black Goat of the Woods with a Thousand Young! »
2024.05.20 15:04 InteractionNext2214 Traditional & Bridal Gold Jhumka Designs in karjat
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2024.05.20 14:57 Dr_geo Great Ocean Road Marathon 2024
Race Information
- Name: Great Ocean Road Marathon 2024
- Date: May 19, 2024
- Distance: 42.2km +
- Location: Victoria, Australia
Goals
| Goal | Description | Completed? |
|---|---|---|
| A | New PR | Yes |
Splits
| Kilometer | Time |
|---|---|
| 1 | Half 1.29 |
| 2 | Full .... |
Intro
Hello running, it's been a while since I (M,38) posted my last report! 3+ years since my last marathon (3.16) that was in Dubai during covid and was self supported. Lots has changed since then... I now live with my family in Australia and yesterday I tackled the Great Ocean Road Marathon, my 5th marathon.Training
Note for readers: paces are in min/km.I started targeting a marathon after doing my first half Ironman (HIM) in November 2023. I was a bit upset with my triathlon run time (1.45) so 2 weeks after the HIM I ran a 1.28 half marathon (self supported). This was a 3minute pr and it sparked my desire to run another full marathon. I first tried to enter Melbourne Marathon but it was sold out so I searched for other local races and found the Great Ocean road Marathon. I signed up without wasting any time as all these events sell out before you know it. I told my brother about it that lives in Europe and is also a runner and funnily he was reading the lonely planet guide for the best marathons in the world, and this one was on the list! I had about 6 months to get into marathon shape but with Christmas in between and a big vacation to Vietnam planned in January I really started following the plan from early Feb. My race plan is based on Pfitzinger's advanced marathon training (70km average weekly volume, peaking at 90km) but I followed it loosely as I was swapping 1 run per week for a bike session and had a few longer than usual long runs!
The body was feeling good up to mid March. I knew about the course being hilly so I did most of my runs on the hills near the city (Yarra bend park). Unfortunately on one of the long runs I pushed the downhills too hard and my IT band flared up. I had suffered from IT band pain several years ago so I knew there was something wrong and decided to stop training for a few days. On the Tuesday the knee was still hurting despite rest and meds so I booked an appointment with a physio. Fearing for the worst I thought I had to cancel the race. She confirmed that the problem was with the IT band however wasn't concerned for the marathon. With 2 months left there was plenty of time to keep fit and strengthen the muscles. The physio gave me weekly plans of run/walks, hill reps (walking back), cadence exercises and strengthening exercises. The rehab went fairly well and 1000s of 1 leg squats later I would be ready for the race. In hindsight I think the IT band issue was a blessing in disguise as I did a lot of strengthening work that I had never done before.
In April I also casually met a group of runners that run around a track near my apartment on Tuesday mornings. The workout is the same each week. 6x1000 with 90s standing rest. Getting speed work done regularly with a group is great. You manage to push your pace so much more when everyone around you is faster. Track Tuesdays became a regular appointment and the workout I was most looking forward too all week. I'd do reps in the 3.20/3.30 range. One week I decided to push one rep at max effort to see if I could stick with the front pack and PR 'd my 1km time (3.05).
PR'ing has been a common theme for me in the last 2 months! I brought down my 1km, 5km (18.30) 10km (37.50) times and also came 1st in my age group and 7th overall at my local Parkrun (900+ participants).
By the end of April I was fully healed from the IT band issues and managed to run up to 39km as my longest run completely pain free. Taper time! I'm not a fan of the taper as for some reason all sorts of pains pop out randomly for a few days and then disappear. I read these are called phantom pains and I've accepted them now as they always pop up during the taper and disappear on race day. In any case the 2 weeks went by quickly and it was finally race weekend!
Race
Saturday morning we did our weekly 5km family run with my wife, older son on his bike and little one in the running stroller. Then we drove down to Lorne where some friends were waiting for us at their place. After a great meal and a decent 6 hour sleep I woke up at 4am. I waited till 6 to have breakfast and then at 7 walked down to the race village. At 7.30 I did my 10min warmup jog, stretched, took a few pics with the family near the ocean and then headed to the starting line. The weather was great at the start around 10C (50F) and not much wind.I knew I had enough fitness to beat my previous PR of 3:16 so I set a more ambitious goal: Run the marathon in under 3:08. This is my dad's marathon PR from 30 years ago! He transmitted his passion for long distance running to me and I always considered that time to be the ultimate challenge. As the route is hilly with about 500m of positive elevation and I saw the forecast being windy with headwinds up to 30kph (20MPH) picking up towards the second half I decided to start the first km with the 4.30 pace group but then speed up the first half and take advantage of the better weather and slow down the second half. I know, I know, theory says to run equal splits...
I passed the half marathon in 1:29 a bit faster than planned but still plenty of energy and a great mood. Running up hill wasn't too bad and running down was fealing great. I had a good group of runners around me and we'd take turns leading the pack to shield the wind for others. In a race where there is almost no one chearing for you for 44km this was a great way to keep the spirits up. There are 3 main hills, Mt. Defiance at the 7km mark, then the hill after Kennet river at 22km and Cape Patton after Grey river at approx 26km. This one is the hardest in my opinion. Not too steep but long. When you think it's over and it flattens out, you turn the corner expecting to go down, instead it climbs a bit further. I finally arrived at the top passing the 28km mark in 2 hours... and here, mother nature decided to turn the challenge up a notch! The group had thinned out by now so I was on my own. Rain started pouring and the headwind started blowing hard. From this point I slowed down to a 4.45 pace doing math in my head calculating my finish time still under 3:08.
Gel after gel, km after km the finish line was getting closer. Rain would come and go, wind was always there.
37&38 -5min pace need to speed up
39- 4.45 going well, hang on
41- 5 minutes time to push the last km
42- 4.30, last 195m
Marathon! 3.06.42!
New PR, goal achieved, huge smile on my face... Still 2+ km to go for the finish line... Yep because this mara is actually a 44.6km race!I decided to walk the last 2km as my goal was the marathon and I really left everything I had on the last km. In hindsight this was a bad decision. I should've jogged to the finish line as I got really cold and stiff walking and all sorts of pains in the hips and legs popped out. Looking at the results I crossed the Marathon as 51st and I crossed the finish line as 125th out of a field of approx. 1600 runners. In any case I did a little run to get some nice pics at the finish line in Apollo Bay in 3.29.59 and a team of friendly kids handed out my medal!
What an amazing race! I loved the challenge, loved the training, loved the weather, loved the views and camaraderie between runners. I think my next goal will be a BQ (3:05) or maybe if the stars align a sub 3!
In the next months I have a few half marathons coming up where I'll aim for a 1.25 and the HIM in November.
Happy running everyone, and thank you for reading my report. If you've endured my poor English you can endure a marathon for sure!
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2024.05.20 14:30 TeaAndCozy Nocturne Alchemy review batch #7: 20 more Nocturne Alchemy reviews
I continue to have the best time exploring my way through Nocturne Alchemy! My previous NAVA reviews are here:
Nocturne Alchemy, sometimes known as "NAVA" from when they combined Nocturne Alchemy and VApothecary, is one of the most expensive houses, and I want to point out that you don't have to buy hundreds of dollars of full-sizes in order to explore their catalog and enjoy their artistry. I owe huge thanks to everyone who has sold or gifted me a decant, sample, or partial bottle. In fact, I have never actually ordered direct from the house myself! My best advice, if you want to explore NAVA, is to include freebie sniffies in your Ajevie order. When you check out, there's a text box in which you can ask for NAVAs specifically, and if they're available, they'll send you empty full-sizes! There's almost always still enough left to try, and it's been a great (and fantastically cost-effective) way for me to experience so many of NAVA's perfumes. You don't get to pick what you get, of course, but that in itself has been useful because it has allowed me to try a wide range of NAVA's notes, including some things I wouldn't have picked for myself (as you can see in a few of the reviews below). And then I can include these "empty" bottles as freebies when people order from my own destash - always great to spread the love!
Since folks keep saying it's helpful, I'll recopy my "basics of the NAVA collections" information. NAVA sells three categories of things:
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- Batch #1, my favorites including Alchemist Chamomile, Cardamom Musk, Afternoon Tea Cat, and Eternal Ankh Snow
- Batch #2, my favorites including Honeysuckle Crystalline, Snowy Woolly, and Love & Otters
- Batch #3, my favorites including Crystalline #8 and #9, Eternal Ankh Violet, Butterfly Orange and Butterfly Yellow, Tea Rex, and Peter
- Batch #4, my favorites including Spring '23 Musk, Mourning Tea, Aset's Frangipani Sandalwood, Eternal Ankh Rose de Mai, and Eternal Ankh Summer
- Batch #5, my favorites including Eternal Tut Ankh Amun, Eternal Ankh Labradorite, Masquerade RA, and V by Thoth
- Batch #6, my favorites including Sandalwood Musk, Tibetan Crystalline, and Incense Chai
Nocturne Alchemy, sometimes known as "NAVA" from when they combined Nocturne Alchemy and VApothecary, is one of the most expensive houses, and I want to point out that you don't have to buy hundreds of dollars of full-sizes in order to explore their catalog and enjoy their artistry. I owe huge thanks to everyone who has sold or gifted me a decant, sample, or partial bottle. In fact, I have never actually ordered direct from the house myself! My best advice, if you want to explore NAVA, is to include freebie sniffies in your Ajevie order. When you check out, there's a text box in which you can ask for NAVAs specifically, and if they're available, they'll send you empty full-sizes! There's almost always still enough left to try, and it's been a great (and fantastically cost-effective) way for me to experience so many of NAVA's perfumes. You don't get to pick what you get, of course, but that in itself has been useful because it has allowed me to try a wide range of NAVA's notes, including some things I wouldn't have picked for myself (as you can see in a few of the reviews below). And then I can include these "empty" bottles as freebies when people order from my own destash - always great to spread the love!
Since folks keep saying it's helpful, I'll recopy my "basics of the NAVA collections" information. NAVA sells three categories of things:
- The Permanent Collection are those scents they always keep around. PC scents are available in small 2-mls (which range in price from $11.50 to $12.50) in addition to the larger full-size bottles. (This is useful because if you're placing an Ajevie order during a NAVA pre-order window, you can get PCs as reasonably affordable add-ons - this is a great way to try some of the most beloved NAVA scents.) Unfortunately, the vanillas are not PCs...
- Which brings us to the second category: Studio Limited scents. SL scents are basically permanent as far as I can tell, but they are not offered in 2-ml small sizes. This is troublesome when you're a newbie NAVA fan trying to learn your way around this house but not spend too much money. Ajevie will occasionally decant SL scents, but only when NAVA adds new ones to a given SL collection. Otherwise, you have to buy full-sizes, or seek a friendly decanter. This is where to find the famous "Vanilla Haven" and "Musk Haven" collections. u/anathemas has tried and reviewed a LOT of the musks (bless you!). u/araelykin of Arae Decantery is working on getting a lot of the Studio Limited scents, especially the Musk Haven, in stock as decants, and already has quite a few available for order.
- The third category is the one that seems to turn a lot of people off from this house: the Limited Edition collections. NAVA is a house that runs on FOMO (fear of missing out). Seasonally throughout the year (Valentines, spring, summer, Halloween, holiday, and so on), NAVA releases a giant Limited Edition collection that is made up of two parts. First, the new scents that year; second, the "Resurgence" scents, which are (most of) the scents newly introduced in the previous year. Thus, a given LE perfume is likely to be around for exactly two years, no more: the first year it appears, and the next year when it's a Resurgence. You can find a fantastically useful archive of NAVA LEs HERE (I refer to that handy website all the time!). On the one hand, this is a decent model because you can theoretically sample in the first year (from Ajevie or Arae, or for much faster shipping since they only deal with NAVA, Crypta Obscura; or by seeking decants/samples from this community a few months later) and then buy more the next year if you love it. The NAVA Facebook group contains really useful review roundup posts if you're wondering what folks think of any of these LE scents. On the other hand, this sales model absolutely encourages a spirit of frantic buying to stave off FOMO. ("Oh no, this is its second year, the scent will be gone forever, I must buy more than I'll ever actually realistically use!") The best advice I've heard is not to worry: NAVA recycles basic combinations a lot, so if you miss a particular perfume, chances are something similar will come around within a couple of years.
Permanent Collection
"Bastet's Garden" collection- Frangipani Egyptian Musk [Egyptian Frangipani, Egyptian Jasmine, Egyptian Lilac, Italian Bergamot, Irish Plumeria resting gently in a bath of exquisite original Studio Limited - Egyptian Musk] - I really do adore NAVA's frangipani, but here it's wildly overpowered by the Egyptian musk. Egyptian musk always smells to me like a slightly salty skin musk (but a really strong one, not skin-hugging) that has been made golden, almost caramelized. To me, it goes really well with autumnal scents - resins, incense, spices; I especially like the use of Egyptian musk in Nui Cobalt Ailurophilia [Egyptian musk, tonka, and dulce de leche wrapped in luxuriant cashmere, soft suede, wisps of sandalwood and copal smoke] - but this is my first time trying it in a floral perfume, and perhaps my skin just amps it, because here it is too much. There's an undercurrent of velvety white florals, but this one feels unbalanced - as a Bastet's Garden, I wanted it to be florals foremost, with Egyptian musk in the background. This would be much more successful for me with Bastet's Musk instead.
- White Pear Crystalline [Egyptian White Pear Accord, African Mandarin Essence, a quiet drop of Vanilla of Crystalline and Vanilla of Moonstone] (Note - mine is the old version, not the reformulated 2024 version) - It's named "Crystalline," but it's thicker and richer with touches of vanilla frosting, so coming back to the notes list I wasn't surprised at all to see Moonstone also listed. The pear is soft and fruity and a bit fantasy rather than realistic, and I could swear I get a touch of rose petal as well.
- Artemisia [White Musk, Skin Musk, Bastet's Musk, Tibetan Musk, Vetiver essence, Nevada Sage, Benzoin, Fresh Dirt accord, Vanilla, Dragon’s Blood Incense resin] - This is a remarkably tame, soft and gentle dragon's blood. The whole scent is quiet and velvety, mostly pillowy skin musk with Tibetan incense and dragon's blood incense in the background. The dirt feels more "light grey ash" than "dirty".
- Dionysus [Teak Wood, Mahogany Wood, Honey & Almond accord, Heliotrope, White Musk, Dragon’s Blood resin, eNVie ambre saphir] - A soft, powdery dragon's blood (I honestly didn't know that was possible! Dragon's blood usually hits me over the face) plus a honeyed almond that reminds me really strongly of Nui Cobalt's, Silver Fox [White tea with honey and rice milk, almond macaron, soft grey cashmere and cool woodland musk] in particular, over a base of white musk and powdery heliotrope (which are definitely doing a lot to soften the dragon's blood). As it dries, the dragon's blood does come out more strongly - definitely not for me. If I must do NAVA dragon's blood, I liked Selene more than this one.
- Selene [Dragon Blood Incense, French Vanilla, Vanilla Fleck (and sifted) of Tahiti, White Pepper, Crystal and Egyptian Musks, Dragon's Blood Tears (resin), and aged Moonstone Vanilla] - My blind guesses, not remembering any of the notes list, were lunar musk, ash, and non-gourmand vanilla. It's a very calm, ever so slightly soapy scent, and has very much a lunar effect. Now that I'm seeing the notes list, I can definitely make out the white pepper, which adds just a bit of ashy bite to the vanilla (like in Arcana Haint). And yes, I can now identify the dragon's blood, but it's the calmest, most serene dragon's blood I've ever encountered.
Studio Limited
Originals- Pink Quartz [Pink Vanilla Blossom, Crystalline, Crimson Egyptian Musk, Bastet’s White Amber Absolute, and a minimal drop of aged Oak] - This sugary pink floral-vanilla musk isn't a bad substitute for Eternal Ankh Pink [White Amber Absolute, Powdered and reconstructed oil of Egyptian Vanilla Husk, Vanilla fleck, African White Vanilla Absolute, Amber Resin, Bastet’s Amber, Pink Sugar and a touch of Crimson Musk] if you can't find the latter. Pink Quartz has more of that fruity warm Crimson red musk than EA Pink does, which (alas, because it's hard to find - I myself have only ever managed to find a half-ml decant) means that I do prefer EA Pink over Pink Quartz. Husband's reaction: "ooh, very nice!" It dries down to a whole lotta Crimson, and at this point I washed it off because I'm here for the vanilla-floral, not the red musk.
- Indigo/Crystalline [Indigo: Words to visualize with this perfume oil are 'heavenly,' 'purple,' 'peaceful,' 'ethereal,' and 'grounding'; imported African Musk. Crystalline: A thick viscous Vanilla that comes on soft and subtle creates a cacophony of a beautiful cloud of vanilla purity. It is not a food vanilla, but one that makes you feel at peace, tranquil, and right with the world. Crystalline, named in 2009 - for the signature Vanilla scent it creates, is one solid scent of uplifting Vanilla from the stigma of a Vanilla Orchid, especially for this perfume. Wear alone or layered with most any NA perfume from our site. Crystalline is composed of a supple skin musk to lift the vanilla note. Crystalline is a naturally occurring viscous perfume oil due to its vanilla components.] - It's heavenly, ethereal, restful, peaceful, all right, a soft velvet purple haze…but alas, there's something ever so slightly too animalic at close range, that Indigo musk too sheepy or b.o-ish for me to really relax into this scent. I do love the way NAVA blends Crystalline into other things, it's such a wonderful base.
Limited Edition
Eternal Ankh Colors & Gems- Eternal Ankh Pearl [Crystalline Absolute, aged Bastet Amber Absolute, Heliotrope EO, Siberian Rhododendron EO, White Amber Absolute, Powdered and reconstructed oil of Egyptian Vanilla Husk, Vanilla fleck and Vanilla bean] - I'm in love! It's a baby powder-ish, delicate and ethereal white floral. Is this what rhododendrons smell like? If so, I want one! "Pearl" is exactly the right description for this shimmery white scent. Those florals float on a cloud of Eternal Ankh - of all the EA Colors and Gems I've tried, this one has the strongest proportion of the original EA vanilla with its slightly sandy quality. If this ever comes back around from the house, I would absolutely FS this; it's absolutely glorious. It also has pretty astonishing longevity for such a delicate scent, lasting basically the entire day on me.
- Blueberry Musk [Bastet’s Musk absolute (Tuberose, Mallow, Angelica, Musk Flower, and White Lily), Blueberry essence, Snow Blueberry accord, Bastet’s Amber absolute, eNVie saphir absolute, and Blueberry Mallow essence accord] - It goes on as artificial, over-sweet candied blueberries, but within a few minutes the blueberry calms down and the soft luscious vague white floral blanket of the Bastet's Musk kicks in, and it because just incredibly velvety and pretty, a blueberry-floral-musk. I had thought perhaps this would be best as a layering note, but to my surprise I'm finding I enjoy it quite enough all on its own! Longevity isn't great, but I never expected it to be, and lasting about three hours, it's actually slightly longer than I thought it would be. And it's awfully pretty!
- Raspberry Musk [Bastet’s Musk absolute (Tuberose, Mallow, Angelica, Musk Flower, and White Lily), Wild Transylvanian Raspberry accord, Raspberry skin accord, Crystalline (Studio Limited Vanilla) absolute, Bastet’s Amber absolute, eNVie saphir, Bastet’s Ice Cream Essence] - A fairly realistic raspberry - tart and sweet, juicy but also with a hint of bitter greenery - paired with the soft velvety white florals of Bastet's Musk. I don't get any amber or ice cream; my nose is simply reading them as part of the Bastet's Musk background, if at all. I don't wear raspberry perfumes much (and this is very much a raspberry single-note) so I'll try it alongside my Poesie Fan Dance [Sugar-dusted tart raspberries, vanilla bean, and powder-white skin] this summer and see which one I want to keep because I don't think I need both.
- Dream Musk [Blue Chamomile Paste extraction, Bulgarian and Moroccan Rose blend, Jasmine, Ylang Ylang, Sandalwood, Lavender, French Lavender, Cola root extract, Cola accord, Caramel, Frangipani, and Bastet’s Musk absolute] - I love NAVA's blue chamomile note, and I'm coming to realize how much I love their seasonal musks, so this one was kind of an automatic purchase for me. The cola note in the description took me aback, a bit, but I figured it was still very much worth a try! And as expected, this one is gorgeous. Any mix of florals from NAVA, even those that contain jasmine (usually a note I steer clear of), tend to be astonishingly velvety, soft and plush, and super luxurious-feeling, with great longevity, and this is no exception! Here in Dream Musk, blue chamomile is at the fore of the otherwise well-blended florals. And yes indeed, there's a definite cola note, especially when wet - but it really kind of works and makes this a much more cold-weather scent when it could otherwise definitely be extremely springtime. Dry, the cola reads more like an undertone of frankincense, which grounds the florals in a really lovely way.
- Parisian Musk [Lily of the Valley accord, Muguet Musk accord, eNVie saphir absolute, Honeysuckle extraction, Honeysuckle sugar accord, Bastet’s Musk absolute and White Musk] - Super unique in NAVA's catalog? No - but gorgeous as always! NAVA has the most wonderful soft velvety florals, and to my great delight this one features the honeysuckle prominently. There's nothing sharp or loud about this scent - though the perfume itself has great throw and longevity, the florals are feathery and glossy, with the slight lime-ish quality I always get from honeysuckle. The Bastet's Musk helps keep them soft and delicate, and the Saphir, barely noticeable, grounds them so that the floral scent has depth, richness, and longevity. Parisian Musk is closer to Masquerade RA [Honeysuckle Nectar accord, SLO Egyptian Musk, Veil Vanilla Bean Absolute, eNVie saphir Absolute, Amber Resin, and Bastet’s Musk Absolute] )though it has a LOT less amber) than it is to Eternal Ankh Labradorite [White Amber light, Powdered and reconstructed oil of Egyptian Vanilla Husk, Vanilla fleck, enfleurage of South American Honeysuckle (Lonicera japonica), gorgeous Crystalline Absolute infused Bastet's Amber Absolute blend and a drop of pure Egyptian Honeysuckle and Peony Extract], which has more vanilla and white amber, but if you missed EA Labradorite and are looking for another really fabulous NAVA honeysuckle, this one is a phenomenal choice. The first time I tried Parisian Musk, I liked it but wasn't wowed, but honestly I haven't been able to keep away from it ever since. It has definitely become one of my top-favorite NAVAs!
- Crystalline #10 [Toasted Coconut, Coconut Pulp, Caramelized Sugar, Tonka, Coconut Milk, Bastet’s Musk, eNVie saphir, Crystalline (Studio Limited Originals)] - Sweetened coconut. It's simple yet gorgeous. The sugary note helps it avoid sunscreen status, and there's something really light and refreshing about this one. Longevity is not great though.
- Amber Cotton Candy & Honey Bee [Fossilized Amber accord, Bastet’s Amber absolute, Labdanum, Patchouli, Sandalwood, Cedar Chips, Cotton Candy accord, Vanilla-sugar, Whipped Orange Blossom Honey accord, Languid Amber Cordial accord (rich PC Ozymandias amber absolute), French Vanilla, Caramel and Raspberry Essence] - I don't buy NAVA's Bees because their honey doesn't work on me - their orange blossom honey is quite cloying, sickly sweet, and a bit urinous on me. This was a freebie sniffie bottle from Ajevie, which I still tried because it's always fun to try new things, and because (having experienced the orange blossom honey before) I figured I could overlook the honey to evaluate the other notes. This amber definitely has a thick, syrupy quality to it - I get almost a whiff of their limestone accord - and it's heavy on the labdanum. The pink spun-sugar cotton candy note amps the already quite sweet honey note. I also, to my surprise, actually can make out a touch of tart juicy raspbery - but not any patchouli.
- Dia de los Muertos - Fuego [Black Cardamom, Wood Ember accord, Smoke, Mexican Wedding Cake accord (ground almonds, powdered sugar, and sugared butter) and the perfume of Horchata; a drink made from ground up rice along with sweet cinnamon sugar infused with almond milk and blended into Studio Limited Vanilla, Crystal. Horchata - (light spices of clove, nutmeg, allspice and cinnamon)] - I can't get past the thick, cloying ember smoke, which sticks in my throat and leans barbeque-y. If I sort of hold my breath and sniff, yes, I can get some underlying cardamom and baked-good sweetness, but oh my gosh I can't handle the smoke. Husband sniffed my wrist and pointed out curry powder, which I can totally see. He laughed and said he kind of likes it!
- Eclipse Ambrosia [Sugared Summer White Tuberose, Velvet Jasmine, Sugared Ylang Ylang, Vanilla Custard Crème accord, Tonka Bean absolute, Labdanum, Benzoin, Eternal Ankh Vanilla absolute, Moonstone absolute and African Vanilla] - Huh, there's no coconut listed, but the first note I get Is delicate white coconut flesh, followed by a gentle pink tuberose. This is a very feminine, softly floral scent with a tropical flair. I like it - and it's further evidence that I don't need to be nervous when I see jasmine or ylang ylang listed for a NAVA perfume - but I don't love it so much that I'll seek out more after this sniffie.
- Crystalline Rose de Mai [Our much-loved Crystalline Studio Limited aged to perfection for this particular blend of Vanilla from the stigma of a Vanilla Orchid, Vanilla Bean extract, Bastet’s Musk blended into the special Rose de Mai perfume oil blend] - Sugared rose petals, sweet and pink and absolutely lovely. I really do get sugar crystals alongside the rose (and not, as I expected, immediately recognizable Crystalline vanilla). This is such a delicate and dainty scent, though sweet enough that it also feels quite girlish and youthful. It reminds me of Wylde Ivy's Love Note collection, all sugar and floral and femininity, and also of Death & Floral Macarons & Roses [Sugared rose macarons with a light raspberry and strawberry cream filling]. However, Crystalline Rose de Mai is really too sweet for me, and I found myself always reaching for Eternal Ankh Rose de Mai instead, so I destashed this one.
- Whale Totem [Copaiba Balsam, Amber Incense, Musk Incense, drop of Ambergris accord (vegan) and Bastet’s Amber Absolute] - I absolutely see why everyone raves about this - it's ethereal, alluring, captivating, the best kind of my-skin-but-better scent. For me it's a multifaceted grey musk, white amber plus a delicately dirty, slightly salty musk. It is totally work-appropriate but also totally unique. And as much as I appreciate its beauty, and see why everyone loves it, it's also not quite my thing - I don't think its gossamer "dirtiness" suits my general persona or wardrobe. I suspect I'd always reach for a white amber or a silk note (now that I think about it, this is very similar conceptually to Arcana Moth-Like Stars [Creamy white amber, elegant cashmere, soft silk voile, salty Ambroxan, and diaphanous musk], which I love) before I'd reach for this. I'm truly delighted to have had the chance to try this, and I was also happy to pass it along to someone seeking it.
- Orchid Yellow [Kobalt Vanilla SL Absolute, Dogwood accord, Sweet Egyptian Musk, Plumeria and Cyclamen] - First and foremost is the dogwood, an extremely musky that truly reads to my nose more like a dirty, earthy cottonseed than a floral. I'm not opposed to dogwood - I love it in Nui Cobalt Robin's Egg [Dainty forget-me-nots and lily of the valley, a dollop of whipped blueberry creme, and a cozy birch nest tucked into a flowering dogwood tree] - but here it's too strong and makes the perfume unbalanced. Along with the musky dogwood I get lime soda, with a very distinct fizzy note. Apparently cyclamen can be quite aldehydic, so that's probably where the fizz comes from. Meanwhile, I adore NAVA's plumeria, but I really don't get any of that intoxicating while floral here, except for the lime overtone I associate with plumeria. Orchid Yellow is a swing and a miss for me, unfortunately.
- Cardamom & Coconut Milk [Beautiful pure Sri Lanka Cardamom essential oil bathed in creamy California coconut milk, an ember of coconut husk smoke, Indonesian Vanilla bean with natural hints of caramel and chocolate notes] - Oh this is absolutely lovely - not too foodie, artificial, or sweet! Just a very vanilla-ish coconut milk that highlights the cardamom so well. This cardamom also feels spicier, more like Poesie's than most of NAVA's cardamom notes which feel a little musty and disappear quickly. (The cardamom does recede within about an hour, but unlike some - looking at you, Meditating Raccoon - Cardamom & Coconut Milk isn't left feeling "empty" but only less spiced.) Pity I could only eke out one scant wear from my sniffie.