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I got BG3 for Christmas and it really absorbed me, however the last semester of undergrad hit hard so I last played on January 21st. I know a lot of updates have happened since then, but I was busy so I couldn't keep up with what they changed, just that there was a lot and there were some odd story changes. My question now is basically: can/should I finish my original run, or should I just move on to the second one I had in mind?
To give a bit more information, I was a little over 70hrs into the game. By my estimates I was about halfway through Act 3, Gortash is dead, but Orin is not, and finishing Shadowheart's questline was next on the docket. I had romanced her and was doing a good playthrough.
Having loaded the save, it looks like everything works (although Shadowheart did get some random pop-ups about getting the Selunite spear and inspiration for freeing the Nightsong even though that happened quite a bit back in the save) so I'm inclined to believe that everything's kosher. I'm mostly worried that when moving forward there might be some weirdness with story flags, and minorly worried that there will be the odd story change that doesn't make sense to me. Are these worries founded, or do you all think I'm good?

So long story short, I got a tattoo today that I’ve been wanting to get for years. I grew up in a very rural, seaside area and I wanted to get a tattoo that reflected that as I went away to university this year in a big city. I was so excited about it but decided not to tell any of my family and friends as I wanted it to be a surprise. Once I did show everyone, they were so happy and excited for me as they all knew how much I’d wanted to get this. However my dad’s reaction wasn’t good and now I’m questioning whether or not it was a good idea to get one. Here’s how the conversation went when I showed him:
Me: look I got a tattoo! (Shows him) Dad: oh. Why did you get that? Me: because I wanted to? This is the one I’ve always wanted Dad: oh. Well maybe you should have asked us first.
He then gave me a look of complete disappointment and judgement and walked away. My dad has always been so supportive of everything and I’ve always been such a people pleaser that it really hurts that he thinks I made a mistake. It’s taken all the joy I had out of getting the tattoo and now I’m wondering if maybe I should have told him before. But at the same time, I am an adult and didn’t think I needed his permission to do this but I guess his enthusiasm is what I wanted.

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A proposed tax on high-value real estate transactions to pay for affordable housing would add an estimated 3,210 affordable homes in Massachusetts over five years, according to the governor’s administration – a drop in the bucket of the state’s 200,000 housing unit shortage.
Despite only adding about 1.6% of the units needed to chip away at housing demand, the policy may be causing a delay in one of the biggest bills lawmakers are poised to tackle this session, which includes other proposed policies and capital funds that may do more for the state’s housing shortage.
Healey’s $4.1 billion housing bond bill – which she is marketing as the largest-ever state investment in housing in Massachusetts – includes the tax policy change in an outside section that would clear the way for additional local levies on property sales without any additional approval needed from Beacon Hill.
Under the proposed local option, any city, town or regional affordable housing commission can adopt a real estate transfer fee between 0.5% and 2% on the portions of a sale above a certain amount with a vote of their local legislative body. The threshold would be either $1 million or the median single-family home sales price for the county, whichever is greater. Revenue from the transfer tax would fund local affordable housing efforts and the preservation of existing public housing stock.
The administration’s estimate that this policy could generate 3,210 affordable housing units over five years is based on an assumption that 50% of Massachusetts’ cities and towns would adopt a 1% tax, then put that money toward subsidizing housing at about $350,000 per unit.
Based on fiscal 2022 transactions, the Executive Office of Housing and Livable Communities found that 53 municipalities in central and western Massachusetts had zero transactions above the $1 million threshold. Another 96 municipalities would have raised less than $100,000 in FY22 for each 1% levied.
Eighty-four communities could have raised over $1 million in fiscal year 2022 with a transfer tax, including a dozen between $5 million and $10 million. Revere and Somerville could have raised $10 million to $12 million, Cambridge $28 million and Boston $70 million for affordable housing with a 1% levy.
At least 11 cities and towns – Boston, Somerville, Cambridge, Arlington, Amherst, Chatham, Concord, Nantucket, Provincetown, Truro and Wellfleet – have sent the Legislature home rule petitions seeking permission to launch real estate transfer fees. Supporters say the measure is desperately needed to help more people to be able to afford to live and work in those communities.
Another policy included in Healey’s housing bill to authorize accessory dwelling units, or ADUs, by right in single-family zoning districts, would produce more than three times the amount of units across the state, compared to the transfer tax.
Supporters say ADUs, which are smaller buildings or apartments on the same property as a single-family home, offer additional housing for larger families with adult children or older parents, but they can be difficult to get permitted in some communities.
Officials said that based on adoption rates in New Hampshire and California, the permitting reform could lead to production of as many as 10,000 units in Massachusetts in five years. The bill includes other policies meant to spur housing production – including setting a new simple majority voting threshold for inclusionary zoning ordinances and creating a streamlined process for dispensing state land toward housing purposes – as well as unlocking over $4 billion to support production, preservation and rehabilitation of more than 65,000 homes, according to Healey’s office.
Still, House Speaker Ron Mariano indicated last week the controversial real estate transfer tax has slowed down deliberations on the bill that Healey filed over seven months ago.
Mariano said the transfer tax is “not as popular as I thought it might be” within his chamber.
“I’ve been listening to a lot of members. A lot of comments about the taxation issue, around the transfer tax. And so it’s slowed me down a lot,” the speaker told reporters last week. “I’m gonna have to really weigh the measure of where that would, what would happen in the chamber if we brought that up.”
The News Service asked Lt. Gov. Kim Driscoll for a reaction to the speaker’s comments about the transfer tax as she left the Mass Union of Public Housing Tenants lobby day on Monday morning.
“I mean, we really support the affordable homes bill, all of the policy provisions that are in it, and we look forward to working with leadership and frankly everybody in the delegation to try and get it over the goal line,” she responded.
Asked how she would pitch the transfer tax to representatives who may not be on board, Driscoll noted that the policy is local-option, so cities and towns would not be forced to enact the new tax.
“We think it’s a real tool for local communities who want to be able to invest in affordable housing within their boundaries,” she said. “Having these resources is critical to that, and we frankly really appreciate the flexibility that communities will have to choose to accept this transfer fee. It will be a local option for cities and towns.”
Housing and Livable Communities Secretary Ed Augustus emphasized that revenue generated from the transfer fee could also be used to preserve existing housing.
“We think it’s an important tool, and today we’re talking to public housing tenants,” Augustus said in an interview after the Monday morning Mass Union of Public Housing Tenants event. “We specifically said in the legislation that communities that decided to opt into a transfer fee would spend it on affordable housing creation, preservation or public housing. And we see in some communities that there are great partnerships with their local public housing, and they make capital investments ... So we think it can also be a way to preserve and improve the public housing stock in communities through the transfer fee.”
Senate President Karen Spilka sidestepped a question this weekend over whether she supports a local option transfer tax. Spilka, asked in a television interview whether she supports Healey’s pitch to allow municipalities to impose the real estate transfer fee, said her chamber is “still debating it.”
“The housing bill hasn’t even come to the Senate yet. The House is doing it first,” Spilka said on WCVB’s “On The Record,” which aired Sunday. “We are working on some pieces, but I think that we need to look at whatever we do with the eye of ensuring that we continue to build housing in every corner of the state and make it more affordable for residents.”
Spilka, asked by OTR host Sharman Sacchetti whether the $1 million threshold for the transfer tax proposal was “set too low” considering the volume of Massachusetts homes that are worth more than that amount, did not directly answer.
“That will be a big discussion and debate among the senators, so I’m waiting to hear from the Senate,” Spilka said. “We haven’t had that debate and discussion yet, so we’ll see.”

I have a 2012 le with 230k miles on it. Runs solid, but my question is on brakes. I recently ,8-10k miles ago, put loaded calipers and new rotors and pads on the front. I had a sticky caliper, and I replaced both sides just because. In the last 1k miles, I've developed a shake from the rear on high speed braking, coming off highway on an exit. I don't feel it in the steering wheel, and, not really a pulse in the pedal, but that whole rear is shaking until about 30 miles an hour, then smooths out. I have disc and drum back there. I have replaced the rear pads and rotors in the past, but never the shoes. Doesy vehicle use the drums for service braking, or only parking brake? Any advice is greatly appreciated

I am currently working on a side-project investigating the disease mechanism underlying a mutation in an enzyme implicated in a rare disease. Currently the disease mechanism is poorly understood as the enzyme have several substrates it interacts with. My goal is to elucidate how this mutation alters protein structure, substrate binding, and ultimately, cellular function, leading to the observed pathological phenotypes.
As I have an interest in MD simulations and want to learn docking I thought about doing the following to answer the question:
1) Predict mutant protein structures using AlphaFold.
2) Refine the mutant structure through MD simulations to overcome AlphaFold's limitations in handling mutations and to assess the mutation's effect on protein stability and conformational dynamics.
3) Perform molecular docking of substrates to both wild-type and mutant structures to identify potential changes in binding affinity and specificity.
4) Analyze MD trajectories to compare the dynamic behavior of wild-type and mutant enzymes in complex with ligands and identify key structural and functional differences.
Hopefully this should give me some idea of what is the root cause of the pathogenicity.
I really appreciate any feedback you might have!

Sorry if this is the wrong place to ask this or if it isn’t really answerable. I’ll try to make this as short as possible, but my father over the last year has been having treatment for lung cancer that spread to his lymph nodes over the last year and several months.
The chemotherapy worked, clearing the lungs and lymph nodes. Unfortunately, some cells made it to the brain during all of this. That’s when they made the transition to brain surgery. The first round of gamma knife they removed three. We had to wait for the inflammation to go down, and when they went for the CT Scan there was two more. So they scheduled another Gamma Knife treatment for yesterday, Monday. Before surgery on Monday two more had developed since the CT scan two weeks ago. The surgery went well and they are back home. They are having a PET Scan scheduled to see if the cells are being sent from somewhere else that other scans have missed or if it is just remnants from the lung cancer. So there is a plan forward but it all has felt very jolted.
My wife and I are 6 hours away from my parents and information has been semi-sparse. They are kind of in a “whack-a-mole” situation with the tumors forming, and are being bounced between the brain surgeon, oncologist (which theirs just took a leave of absence so they need to find a new one), and the radiologist.
Im am not the most medically literate person and my parents are less so. I was hoping to see what questions we should be asking the doctors? I know this is not the place and everything is different for each individual, but should we be preparing for him to only have a couple years left? Maybe less? Any advice would be appreciated.
Thank you for reading.

I (25F) recently separated from my (25M) partner 3 months ago. We were together for 2 and a half years. It was a bitter sweet relationship. He met me through Instagram he was the one to approach me. The first few weeks were great we were vibing and got along really well. But as the relationship proceeded I began to notice he isn’t putting enough efforts as me. All the things he said in the beginning we would do never actually happened. I wanted us to explore new things, to travel, to experience any possible stuff from shopping to going on a lunch. I expressed many times initially through a polite communication that he’s not doing enough to make me feel special or meeting my efforts. But then it turned into arguments. He would go on vacations with his friends and I always expressed that it makes me feel leftout and I wanna experience all of that with him too. But every single time he gaslit me. Saying I’m asking for too much and I always try to start a fight and try to ruin his day just Cus I’m in a bad mood. I kept settling for the bare minimum for 2.5 years. Wishing one day he would magically change and start treating me better and see my worth. He made empty promises but actions never matched the words. He was the most important person for me and he always came first to me. I put so much effort on him I would start saving two months before his birthday to make it the most special day for him. I have spent three birthdays with him and he has never ever brought me a gift or on valentines or ever went out of his way to do something for me. The most basic thing you expect from a partner is to be heard and understood and for them to acknowledge your feelings that their actions bother you. For them to make you feel safe to be vulnerable and take care of your feelings. But everytime he would put a wall between us. He would invalidate my feelings, blameshift and minimise what I was going through. If I would ask about his day he would get annoyed saying I want the details about every single minute and I suffocate him. I was simply excited to know about his day Cus I loved him and I wanted to be a part of it. During the course of our relationship we only hanged out at his rental place which included a single bedroom. We have never traveled, never been to movies. He never introduced me to his friends. I would always justify his behaviour- maybe he’s occupied, maybe he is too busy with work, he has so many responsibilities of family and friends. Before breaking up with me we got into an ugly argument Cus I said that my skin has gotten worse cus he stresses me out so much. That hurt him so much that he was done with me. He warned me not do anything with myself that I’m not supposed to. I felt so bad and I apologised so many times but he was simply not ready to listen or answer my calls even once. Recently after the breakup I learnt that he has been with other females on his vacations whenever he went with his friends. I was devastated. Knowing that his platonic friends had more access to him and they get to spend a night with him but not me. Earlier I would see him leave comments below other females pictures and it made me upset but he would always mention that they are just normal friends and I matter more to him. Yesterday I texted him saying I want him to take accountability for his actions and manipulation that he went out with females behind my back. To which he replied that he got friends and I will never make friends cus of my toxicity. Toxic for always ruining his day. For constantly arguing to be loved. That’s when I knew I spend these years invested with a narcissist. I kept settling Cus I didn’t love myself enough to walk away. He will never take accountability or ever apologise. I don’t even think he would ever realise the pain he has put me through. Cus he would never self reflect. I’m just trying to pick up the pieces that I was trying to find in him. He made me question me my worth, he made me believe I’m not lovable, that I’m only good enough to be taken to a closed room. He’s the reason I’m suicidal but I’m only sticking around Cus I can’t do that to my parents. I have spent hours crying for him knowing well there won’t be any justice. And I hate myself for still loving him. My only fault was to love him too much that I got so scared of losing him that I lost myself. My whole world revolved around him. Maybe if I wasn’t so needy we would still be together. But I just wanted to be loved, to be understood, to be treated like I matter, to feel safe to be vulnerable, to have those difficult conversations so we could grow together as individuals. I don’t know if I was the problem for having these expectations or if it makes me toxic. But I’m not sure who I am anymore this experience truly took a toll on me.

I’m a 22 year old female at a university in the US and I think my PI has sexually harassed me… but I don’t know if I trust my own judgment.
I went for a coffee with him and he said it was nice to talk to me now that I’m not all shaky and nervous. The reason I was nervous was because I found him to be intimidating, couldn’t put my finger on why. At his research presentation a few weeks later, he shook everyone’s hand, but when shaking mine he patted me on the lower back, and then used that hand on my lower back to guide me past him. I brushed this off at first as simply a demonstration of familiarity but quickly felt emotional when I was able to leave the room and go home.
After this incident , I had a compulsory meeting with him to discuss my current work and in this conversation I asked if he could offer me any advice on how to do a PhD myself later in life. This quickly became a discussion about him being my supervisor, and devolved into a discussion about avoiding discussing this with other staff. In particular, he made fun of a man who I’d been friends with for a few years.
After this, he was very strange at a meal with all of us from our team. Didn’t speak to me for an hour but sat opposite me. Again, in this conversation he kept making fun of this same guy. I also got quite drunk and remember staring back at him to make him uncomfortable back, as he’d been doing all night to me. Probably wasn’t the wisest choice considering how it flips the narrative.
Then I met him again to discuss the progression with the PhD. He said it wasn’t likely to happen. I’d spent 3 months at this point working with him on this and accepting his help, presenting on my own for the first time in aid of gaining some experience. My reaction was silence. He kept getting progressively worse towards me, saying he’s “sorry I didn’t get what I expected”, how I “looked like I wanted to slap him in the face”. After the last comment, I sadly replied “I don’t want to hit you” because I couldn’t think of anything else to say.
I was made to see him again after this. I was dressed in a skirt, tights, winter boots with a little heel and a blazer. He opened the door to his office and seemed very surprised to see me despite knowing I was coming as the meeting was planned months before. He then proceeded to walk behind me up the stairs to his office and repeatedly keep asking me if I’m okay, that I didn’t seem like myself because I was dismissing his questions and not really giving an answer because by this point he was making my skin crawl. In the conversation, he gave me a book he wrote himself to help me with my project based on my partner’s experiences with ocd, and kept staring at my legs. He then sat incredibly close from across me and praised himself for cheering me up and “making me smile”.
Safe to say I never spoke to him again unless it was on zoom. My partner thinks I’ve been sexually harassed, but I’m not sure.

So I’m on my first interloper run so please be kind but I have a question. lol
Day 60 so far, doing pretty good (idk I don’t watch guides really so who knows) but scurvy…what are my reliable options on interloper? Is this going to be a thing where I’ll be constantly fighting it off and it’ll get boring? Or what can I do to fight it off now?
Any tips would be great! Thanks survivors 🫶🏼

Has any men here changed their mind about a pregnancy and if so why?
So me and my boyfriend have been together 3 years. We have had 2 pregnancies already that ended in miscarriage. Last year he was so hell bent on having a child, he really wanted to become a dad etc. We split up for a while during the end of last year and was healing from our trauma (mostly due to the miscarriages we just weren't good for each other at the time and needed time away to heal) anyway fast forward to this year and we are back together. We spoke again about children and I said that I would like to wait until next year to start trying again for a baby (2025) as during my healing I started to realise maybe l'm not as ready for a baby as l initially thought (but who really is lol). He agreed to this so that was our plan. I am now pregnant and he wants me to have an abortion. He is dead set on not having this child and Thave absolutely no idea why. He keeps saying it's because it's not our plan, it's not in the plan etc. and I know men are very different from women, you guys tend to think more logically whereas we women tend to think more emotionally. He has a million and one goals he "hasn't accomplished yet" and "we agreed next year to start trying" so he is hell bent that he does not want this baby at all, full stop. Even though half these goals he has accomplished or is in the process of completing so I just don't understand where this is all coming from. I am at the point thinking will he ever have enough? Will he ever be ready? Our first pregnancy he was really scared as this was the first time ever he had gotten someone pregnant and he did say he wasn't sure if he wanted it as he was still in uni, didn't have a job, no house etc so he hadn't completed his "goals" but eventually he came around but sadly we lost it. It's like he never has enough, before it was because he was in uni and didn't have a proper job (which is fair enough!) but he still eventually came around to the idea. Now he has finished his uni and has a stable, well paying job, and he has a car etc. so he's already completed the goals he set out before but now he has come with a whole bunch of new goals (that really just seem like excuses at this point) as he doesn't have a house, however he is in the process of buying a house which would be completed by the time the baby is born!!! I know men tend to never feel like they are ready for a child unless they have the typical car, job, house etc but nobody is ever truly ready for a baby even with all that stuff & it's not like he doesn't have any of that stuff under his belt if you get what I mean. He is a wonderful man, he's so kind and compassionate and he would make an amazing dad. He's so understanding and protective but has a lovely soft side to him. I adore him so much, I am just so shocked by his reaction to this pregnancy as he is in a better place than he ever was with our other pregnancies and he wanted those 2 but this one he is dead set against and I really don't understand why.
I have tried speaking to him about it and I have tried putting all these points across to him but he just shuts it down and says he's not going in circles about it. I'm just genuinely shocked by the reaction as it's not like him at all to be like this. Part of me feels like maybe it's because of our miscarriages but even if so why ask for an abortion? That's way worse than a miscarriage.
I guess my question really is have any men here been dead set against a pregnancy, even as going far as asking for an abortion but then changed their mind about it and is now a family? If so, what was it that changed your mind or what was it that clicked for you? Is there anything I can do to get him to change his mind? As it's not like this is something he never ever wanted, he did want this it's just not happened in the time frame we agreed, it's happened a year ahead of schedule. I just don't know what to do? For someone who agreed to have children to then turn around and do this is just caught me completely off guard. I know nobody here will have the answers to my specific situation, I am just wondering if maybe any men here have been in a similar situation and can shed any light as he has completely shut down. I just don't know how to make it better or help him. If there is anything I can do or show him that would make him take a second thought or even change his mind? I'm at a loss tbh

We have been very low contact for the last 6 months.
Recently I was browsing reddit, and discovered that my nmom and I have a certain sub in common. As I was reading I thought, wow that sounds a lot like my nmom. Sure enough, I look at the user name and it is her (she uses it for everything). Of course I cannot resist the urge to see what else she has been posting about. I discovered that she has been frequenting a trauma survivors sub and giving out advice on how to have healthy relationships. She is a trauma survivor but she has no business giving advice. She is the most toxic person I have ever known (besides my ex stepmother) and has never had a successful relationship with anyone, family or otherwise (my brother hasn’t talked to her in years). In her posts, she uses me over and over again as an example of someone who is “enmeshed” with my children. I will have to ask my therapist about this because honestly I don’t know if my children and I are enmeshed. Can’t say that I even know what that would look like in a family. From my point of view they are all well adjusted, kind, free thinking, people with full autonomy. They are all grown adults and no longer live at home with me.
She also says that she has no idea how I turned out this way because I basically had a good childhood and if anything she blames my father. My dad is a good person, although he has married two different narcissists. My mother is covert and his second wife was absurdly overt. I was severely neglected by nmom; never hugged, always ignored, given the silent treatment (once for 3 months when I was 14), made to feel as if my feelings were worth nothing, etc. When I bring up anything from my childhood she says that’s not how it happened or that it never happened. I could detail really disgusting things from my childhood but I won’t go into it here
When I was 10 I used to daydream about my best friend’s mom being my mom. She was so warm and nurturing to her kids and also to me. She had cute nicknames for me which made me feel like I was special to her. I loved being at their house. As I grew older I began to make friends with people who were just as damaged as I was
Nmom also states in her posts that she and I were not enmeshed as I was growing up and that she was not raised in an environment like that so she is just baffled at how I could have turned out so badly (this is not word for word, I am paraphrasing). She says that I have never apologized for anything in my life. I remember many years ago trying to apologize to her for getting angry with her in front of my kids. She literally looked at me, blinked, and changed the subject as if I never said it. This has happened a number of times so eventually I learned that apologies mean nothing to her. She on the other hand has never apologized to me for anything and has never uttered the words “I love you”, to any of her kids. Maybe with the exception of when we were babies but I have no memory of that
She also stated that I never “allowed her to have a relationship” with my kids. My kids started to dislike her all on their own when they were very young. My youngest would cry if grandma was coming over. Reason being that nmom would start talking about “end of days” and we are all going to die horrible deaths because of climate change and that we need to have a suicide pact. Scared the shit out of my youngest starting around age 7. Around 15 years ago she said we all had about 5 years left to live before the shit hit the fan
Nmom was raised in an alcoholic household with sexual abuse that was ignored. My grandmother was also a narcissist. Grandmother used to say similar things about my aunt, that she was a “bad seed” and they had no idea what was wrong with her or how she got that way. No one in the family has seen my aunt in over 30 years. She would be around 80 years old now.
This is more of a rant than anything else as there is really nothing I can do about her giving advice to other people and outright lying about me. Even though it’s anonymous, it still stings that my own mother would speak of me like that when she knows full well 95% of it is lies and the other 5% has a grain of truth that she has twisted and distorted to fit her insane narrative. She describes me as an absolute monster. I don’t understand how lying to internet strangers makes her feel good but it must since she keeps doing it. I found over 30 posts about me and my kids.
I am always willing to own up to things I have done wrong as a parent. It does hurt to admit some of these things because it’s such an awful feeling when you realize you may have damaged your own kids. But I think it is part of the healing process for everyone involved if you can own it and apologize. In recent months I have done so much apologizing that my oldest daughter finally said “mom not everything you did was abusive and you have to stop thinking it was”
I don’t know whether to block nmom so I no longer see her posts or to call her out on her outrageous lies. I’m inclined to do the latter, then block her
It makes me sick that nmom of all people is dishing out advice on how to have healthy relationships!
If you’ve gotten this far, thanks for reading ❤️

Hi. I’m at a point in my marriage where I feel pretty disillusioned and while it is pretty civil, there is not much connection. We live parallel lives and what we have most in common is our children, but the youngest is 14. It has always been of the utmost importance to me to raise my children with both of us in the home. But I’m thinking about what happens when they are no longer priority number 1. What do we have, really? We’re not fighting but we are basically roommates. At this point, we’re not even really friends. We coparent. Sex happens regularly but its pretty wack for me. Mostly because it’s primarily focused on his needs and it’s hard for me to really try for better because of the emotional disconnect and lack of romance and passion. In fact, we’ve never had much of that. We married in college under hyper-religious circumstances. He’s still very devout. I am not. So we are just on different planes. I have been married my entire adult life but have never truly experienced a romantic and passionate relationship. Even at its best, it was companionate. I don’t know.
My questions for the divorcees: how do you feel post-divorce, especially if your situation is similar to mine? Any regrets? Especially if you divorced in your 40s. Are you single? Remarried? Content? I look forward to the responses.

السلام عليكم
I am Egyptian and live in Giza i have met alot of sudanese emigrants here and really like them i have a sudanese friend and he has a high opinion on Egyptians but that’s just maybe because he is well here
I personally view egypt and Sudan as the same nation and the separation has only caused problems for the both of us (I believe in a united ummah so same thing)
My question is how is the general sudanese opinion on egypt and Egyptians

This is how my girlfriend feels....I have rOCD ,a year ago and after my last break-up, it was kinda invisible. Now 7 months into a relationship with a perfect girlfriend that I could only dream about. She said something that she hid from (the things that I do that made her uncomfortable like random questions about the past or future, seeing her best-friend's, a girl mutual to us, chat and asking questions which I do without realising) me for 7 months, because these might hurt me and said it after I did something that hurt her. Now after my ROCD resurfaced again, it is worse this time ( I can't share the intrusive thoughts, cuz if she reads it by any chance she will be heart-broken). She really feels guilty that she shouldn't have said those. I don't want to make her feel guilty and it makes me feel really sad and as much as I want to stop asking questions to the answers I already know, the thoughts only grow more and more to the point it's been 2 days since I had food, water and even a week since I slept. When I try to control them , they grow more and I just get scared and scared up to a point where I start to get dysentery or vomiting. I really love her and I don't want ger to leave me, which she won't under normal circumstances, but what if I asked something that a partner isn't supposed to ask like(will you ever cheat on me, I know she will never do even if it's kills her, I can't explain how perfect of a girlfriend she is), but what if just because of my intrusive thoughts I asked her and the wordt part is we are in a long distance for a while. I seriously want this shit to go away. To control these thoughts every time I feel something like this I give myself a burn mark and last time I almost kms when I was on a video call with her. Ik this subreddit isn't allowed to give assurance but will this ever go away with treatment and pills or will it stay forever with me.
I would rather have my spine broken and become paralysed than to have this.

Underdosed for about 3 weeks while on E monotherapy. (Cut my og dose in half) I got slight hot flashes when sleeping, and my mood was a bit off, however I've verified that T can not convert to E.
So for those 3 weeks, was my T just high as well as my E? Or was my T suppressed with low E? I can't tell if I've masculinized or if it's dypshoria. This is the main question because I'm hoping my E was just low.
And I have fixed the issue so my levels are normal now and I can't test for it. Just want to know if it's dysphoria or if it's possible that I've really gone backwards from halving my dose. On injection monotherapy btw. EV once a week.
I was on 0.25 ml per week which is what was halved. Think the concentration was 100 mg per ml but I don't remember.

If you're reading this, please help me, this will only take 2 minutes to read.
I don't know what's going on with me honestly, nothing is going right in my life. I don't know how, but my relationship with myself, my friends, and my parents is very very very weak, almost non-existent.
I was a straight A student in freshman year, but then I lost ALL of my motivation to work in sophomore year :(
I'm failing Honors chemistry this year, I have a 59.
I live in the US, the passing grade is 60.
I'm doing okay in my other classes, but I have been so so depressed because of Hchem, I cry myself to sleep, I think and feel like I am the dumbest person in the world, I have suicidal thoughts.
It's really bad, and this is all because of Hchem.
I asked my school counselor about what to do, and she said that I now have 2 ways.

1. I take the class in the summer online, putting it as a New Credit. With this, the colleges won't know that I failed a course, and I can replace the grade I get in online class with the grade I got before and get a new transcript. This only works if I have less than a 60. Which I do, knowing this made me feel a little better. This is a longer method (I don't care, because colleges won't know). This will be counted as a standard chemistry though. (again, don't care)
2. I take the class in the summer online, putting it as a Recovery. This means that colleges will know that I failed a course. This is a shorter method.

So now I'm thinking that the finals are coming in a week, so I just won't study for them, so that I can fail it. Then I can go through new credit and the colleges won't find out. Getting an A in a standard course is much better than getting a D (60-69) in an honors course.
My question is this: What should I do? Should I not study for the final?
Asked the same question to my counselor, she said she can't tell me to fail legally since she's a school counselor.
Please tell me what you guys think(asap).
I didn't tell my parents about the D in chem and the 2 plans yet, I'm Indian, they are strict, after honors chem I will have to worry about them. Should I wait until after the final to tell them? or should I tell them now? how can I possibly break this news? I just don't know.
Thank you so much for reading, I am so sorry this is so long.

I miss you. I miss you a lot. All these months later, and you're still on my mind. I need you to know that I never stopped loving you. I screwed up, bad. I got stuck in my own mess of feelings and couldn't see beyond them. And all the things i said and did while we were together were simply terrible, i walk with the shame knowing what i did and said in those moments for the rest of my life, i will always have those stains on me. I hope you can hear the truth in this letter and feel the remorse and raw emotion im trying to convey here, i never should have behaved that way, no one should. and i know its dome some deep damage but im here trying to get u to see that i want to do whatever i can to show you i love you and ill never let myself get so fucked off tht i would behave that way again. all i can do is stand here and ask for forgiveness and grace.
When I said I needed space, it wasn't about you. It was about me falling apart and needing to figure my head out. I didn't mean to make you feel small or unimportant, and I'm really sorry for that. Words escape me sometimes, especially when you're trying to express an unfathomable love. I've tried to apologize before, but none of it seemed to hit the mark. I get it. I messed up. I hurt you, and I can't say sorry enough. I'm not trying to intrude or push. I just want you to hear me out. I know I posted apologies that apparently didn't cut it. I don't even know what you need to hear, but I want you to know that I'm still here, missing you like crazy. I messed up, and I know it. I just want us to move past all the crap, hand in hand, ready to take on whatever's next.
I'm healing too. It's a process, and it's taking time. I Hope you see me trying.

How are .exe or .apk made? I've read that we compile (don't really know how) python executable (provided the parts of the code are written in python) with the other codes using packaging softwares. How does that work? Like, how does it automatically link two codes? Imagine bat files 1,2,3 which are expected to run after the other as they install app on which the next bat file runs on. How would you link it or package it so it works as a single executable file? And isn't that sort of a security issue if python doesn't update in the exe? Do you update it separately or create versions of the app to update its components? And even if you DO update it separately, python usually discards many keywords and commands in its update and replaced them with alternatives. How does that work? I think the better approach here would be to update the whole package (python and other) together and change the code so that the app doesn't break rather than individually updating the components. Ik it's a silly question but I'd like to know what you think.
tl/dr : I'm absolutely new to app development and I'd like to know how I should start and how does this work

I would have chosen "Venting" for my flair but it did not appear as an option. This is NOT a "seeking" post so cubs, DO NOT DM me if we don't already know each other. I will just delete it. Here is my "disappointment" story:
I am a Cougar (51F) and I posted my info on one of the "seeking" posts in the appropriate subreddit a couple of weeks ago. I specifically said that I was looking to meet a cub within 2 hours driving distance of me for a FWB type relationship. I am poly with a couple of partners but no one with this specific dynamic. Of course I got quite a few messages and I hit it off really well with one guy - but he lives 5 hours drive from me. To me, this was actually NBD because I don't mind road trips. He drives a lot for work so if HE came to see ME, he wanted to fly. Ok - fine.
I should have looked up the dates before I started typing so forgive the vagueness. But I texted quite a bit with this guy over the course of about 2 weeks and we talked on the phone once for 4 hours. It felt like we had a unique connection and there was definitely mutual attraction there. He told me he was "talking with" one other Cougar he met on Reddit and they had met for lunch once but it wasn't serious. So...I was getting excited to meet him and see if we vibes as well in person as we did via text and phone. We started planning for me to visit him on Memorial Day Weekend.
Then last week (I believe) he texted me to ask if I had bought tickets or made reservations yet. He said he had had lunch with the other woman - who lives within 2 hours of him - and she asked if they could be exclusive and he said "yes." Of course this is his choice and I respected it, but I DID ask some questions because I felt like it came out if nowhere. I said something like, "You are willing to be exclusive with someone you have met only twice and not even made out with?" To which he replied, "I never said we hadn't made out." OH. Okay. That's a bit different. 😞
I told him I was disappointed and that I felt like he had downplayed his interest in the other woman when getting to know me. But I had NOT made any reservations so I wasn't out any money. Then - he blocked my cell number, and blocked me on Instagram AND Reddit! Holy crap! That just felt mean and unnecessary!!
So I shook it off (took a couple of days) and went on with my life. Started talking with another cub from Reddit - again - he is a 2 hour PLANE ride away but not a quick car trip. Hmmm. I have tried to take it slower with this guy. We have also been communicating for about 2 weeks now, and the first week he seemed very enthusiastic, but then over the past weekend he was busy and I didn't hear much from him. I asked on Sunday night what he had been up to and he said mostly going out and drinking beer with friends. Cool, sounds like fun.
So today we are texting and I asked him if he wanted to talk about planning for me to visit him. He said he was stressed from work, not in the mood to talk about it, can we talk later. His waning interest feels familiar so I asked point blank if he has started to date someone local. He said he has met a couple of people but isn't dating them. I asked if he was interested in one in particular and he said yes, but he hasn't made a move. So - my Spidey sense is tingling big time. Part of the problem is that I am poly so I don't think starting to date someone is a reason not to meet someone else. But he has told me that eventually he wants to find a wife and get married and be monogamous. The SOONEST I could go for a visit would be June 7 which is over 2 weeks away. And if he is anything like that other guy, he will probably have a girlfriend by then. 😠
So... I get it. Dating can suck. I'm an adult and I can handle disappointment. But I'm not sure how to guard against this SAME thing happening again!! Some ideas: don't even agree to TALK to guys who live more than 2 hours drive from me, stop talking to younger men because 2 weeks seems like forever to them and I usually need a minimum of 2 weeks to plan a visit.
Cubs - if you are reading this, can you PLEASE avoid being like these 2 guys? I made it CLEAR what I was looking for, where I live, etc. These guys acted like they were interested in spite of the distance but basically ditched me for people who are more immediately accessible. If you only want to date local people, that's totally fine and your choice, but for Pete's sake, don't start talking to someone who lives far away and requires planning to see if you can't wait 2 weeks to meet them!!
Ok - end of ranting/venting. Please be kind in the comments. I would appreciate hearing different perspectives. Ideas to avoid this in the future?

Good Evening R4R people!
Not really sure if I will find anyone on here for the future, but I am open to just chatting for a bit and having some interesting conversations! Maybe get around to hopping on discord and playing some games in the future too!
I'll start off with the about me: White, 6'3", chubbiefat but I work out, go on walks two times a day and healthy everyday now, dirty blonde hair that gets curly as it grows out, blue eyes, glasses cause I'm blind as a bat, college educated, just trying to make my way in life.
I said nerdy because I do play video games (PC only - mainly path of exile, league of legends, and can work on buying other games in the future), and used to play table top games such as card games which I do eventually want to try to get back into. It might turn into just playing poker, but I had a lot of fun with card games and met a lot of my good friends through that.
About you: 18-45, similar interests or nerdy in some way (games, books, movies, etc), and just wants to enjoy the time together!
Hopefully I didn't scare you off, but send me a chat and tell me about yourself, what you are looking for, and we can always just have a nice conversation!