Having a smol breakdown because I'm just fucking exhausted and suffering in most aspects of my life.
Failed a midterm, not because I didn't know what I was doing, but because it takes me awhile to figure out what's going on before dealing with the prompt/question. Even with extended time, I failed. It feels awful, and I'm getting needled from all sides telling me that I'm behind (including me telling me that I'm behind). Like, how the heck do people keep everything together and get everything done and just life?
I just want to hit pause so I can get a real night's sleep, since I try (emphasis on "try") to compensate by not sleeping.
Make it stop

Just a few days ago we brought baby home from a three week stay in the NICU. I really wanted to breastfeed and baby was latching but he was struggling with eating in general. The nurses/lactation team were supportive but I was told just to try one or the other (breastfeeding or bottle feeding) per feed so he didn’t tire out. As he got more used to the bottle, he started crying when I would attempt to breastfeed. Since the breastfeeding wasn’t really counting towards his volumes anyway, I gave up trying and just bottle fed in the NICU with donor milk combined with my pumped milk.
I found pumping exhausting and frustrating, especially because my volumes were low and I was barely producing even a ML when I wasn’t at the NICU but I kept it up in hopes I could transition to breastfeeding. I tried supplements recommended by lactation.
I thought when I got baby home my supply would increase but that’s not been the case. At first, I was able to make nearly a 50/50 formula/breastmilk mix but now I’ve been having to use around 80- 100% formula. My supply has gotten even lower and probably because I’ve missed pumping sessions. With baby eating every 2-3 hours, by the time I prepare the bottle, feed him, hold him, pump and clean everything, I’m lucky if I have even 30 minutes to spare to get some rest. I try to prioritize pumping but sometimes I have no time between feeds. Since I’m barely producing anything, the pumping feels almost pointless but I’m having a hard time giving it up because I know it’s good for him what little I can produce.
I tried breastfeeding once at home but I’m scared because I never really got the hang of it in the NICU and feel like I don’t know what I’m doing. I want to make sure he has enough to eat, especially with my supply low, and I don’t know if trying both will exhaust him. I’ve been sleeping maybe 3 hours per 24 hour period and don’t know how long I can keep up with pumping. I’m feeling discouraged. Any words of wisdom?

And I doubt she'll trust them anyways.
Bit of context: I'm non binary (25yo) and come out to most of my family, no one uses my new name and correct pronouns because it would be a mess with my dad and grandma (and I'm the one that choose not to change things for now) but there are some people that would switch to what I want in a heartbeat if I asked them, and that is enough for me to know I can trust them with my gender, and I feel validated by other things they told me. Other relatives don't understand it and I doubt will ever call me anything different than my birth name, but I understand I can't have everything and that's ok. My mum tho... She's a whole other story. Also, I'm italian, so I hope everything makes sense.
I've been in lists for bloodwork and other exams and psychology assesments (like dysphoria diagnosis) in order to see the endocrinologist and get HRT, my mother knows I'm non binary and I told her and tried to explain to her many times (even once with my therapist, and my therapist agrees with me that it's like talking to a wall). I also told her I'm doing these HRT things and she said she would help in looking for doctors and driving me to the appointments but that I had to come up with the money for the visits myself (oh, nice, thanks mum /s).
One day, late on the evening, she calls me and tells me

I can't take you to get the bloodwork the day after tomorrow, can I cancel it and take it a bit later?

I was pretty exhausted so I said "yeah it's ok", without thinking much about it because I figured those appointments can be max in a week time waiting list, so I was fine with waiting that bit more. The next morning she calls me and had taken it A MONTH AND A WEEK LATER (she choose the date) and I was crushed, but I manged to understand my feeling, and that I wasn't ok with that at all, only in the evening. I texted her asking to move it sooner or I'd do it myself, that it was too much time and I just can't wait anymore (I was being kinda dramatic bc there are still months before other assessments, but it felt like my life depended on it). She was like

ok but don't take it soon you'll have to move it again and pay again It's not like you're paying for it anyways

Then she kept insisting to postpone and similar stuff so I asked her

do you even want to help me? Might be just my feeling, but it feels like you're always putting yourself in my way even when you're saying the contrary

She got defensive and started saying her usual stuff like that I'm not grateful and I'm so bad at keeping the house clean and she doesn't even make me feel bad about the fact that I don't work or study (this is a lie, she does) and so I asked her

Ok, so can I ask you something easy to do to show me you want to help? Can you call me by my chosen name and pronouns when we're alone?

She didn't answer and kept going on with other arguments, I reiterated but she kept avoiding the question, she instead said that

Whoever you are. If you're looking for yourself. I don't call you in any way, person.

Don't mind how weird it sounds, she speaks weird in italian too, but that "if you're looking for yourself" and the fact that she'd rather call me "person" than my chosen name was horrible, it made me understand - coupled with other stuff she said before about me "being sick and needing the right medical path" - that she's just waiting for the doctors to see if I'm sick and stop me from getting HRT... When I first talked to her about HRT she was talking about the fact that I'm fat, about a surgery I had that could stop me from it, about the fact that she has a genetic disease that might stop me from it etc... And it could have been read as worry before, as being cautious and wanting to check all the possibilities so I don't have sad surprises after I start HRT... But it never was that, not even a bit, it was just a way to control my visits and send me to the path of failure (in her eyes, ofc psychologists would know better than not giving me HRT).
It was awful, that "if you're looking for yourself" was totally unexpected to me because I never had doubts since I told my therapist and that was months ago, and I was questioning for around 3 years already, and I never make a choice without thinking and I never wagered about wanting HRT a being non binary with my mother, so it's all her own mind that made this shit up. I'm tired.
This happened a while ago but I'm still very angry at her, I'm reaching a place where I know I won't be able to forgive her and it makes me actually feel better, at least I'll feel less guilty when I'll go little to no contact.
This is a rant about other stuff that I feel it's related but not specific about gender: I'm pretty sure about the thing that she doesn't believe I'm non binary because she didn't believe I was depressed either, just like she doesn't believe I am probably autistic (my psychologist also agrees with me) and doesn't listen to me when I tell her that I'm still in depression/autistic burnout and it's fucking hard to wake up in the morning, so how the fuck could I keep a job? Luckily my country has public healthcare, it's like €20/36 every visit - even if long waiting lists- so I can probably manage with some tutoring I do to some kids (plus, luckily my aunt understans me and would pay for it). But mother is very pushy to me about the fact that I need a job, even when I told her that in order to heal from autistic burnout I literally have to NOT have responsibilities and take them back slowly or I get overwhelmed and relapse right away (I know ot, I tried). And as responsibility I mean even dumb shit like brushing my teeth, I swear to god I'd never curse anyone to feel as hopeless as I do and as useless, but she can't understand me and doesn't believe me, it's like I'm a kid all over again and whatever I say had the same importance as a riffle of wind, unremarkable and unimportant.
TLDR: My mum is an asshole and thinks I'm mentally ill and that's why I want HRT. I actually am mentally ill (depression and autistic burnout) but that's BECAUSE I haven't been formally diagnosed all my life (CPTSD, dysphoria and probably both autism and ADHD). Plus, she doesn't want to pay for my HRT visits, and that would be like € 100/180 btw.

Hey y’all. I’m a big Kendrick fan, even named my dog Kenny, after him. Never been too into Drake, I’ve often got in lil arguments w/ my brother about whether or not he’s a real “artist”. I’ll admit I have a somewhat pretentious music taste; integrity, effort, and personal meaning are vital to me enjoying an artwork. I’ll accept that about myself.
This past week has been unbecoming of me. When Euphoria dropped, I was on vacation with my girlfriend (we’re long distance), and once I was alone I became encumbered in all things BEEF. My brother and my gf have giggled at my recounts of the lines & developments in the whole thing. I’ve caught myself endlessly refreshing Reddit to get new scoops on what’s going on. It was like the feeling of Christmas morning- all day every day.
The last week has been stripping me of all thoughts beyond the downfall of Drake. I’ve even read some things said by Drake fans and taken personal offense. I’ve obsessively read threads that build up my eager hatred for somebody I do not know.
But, after the Christopher Alvarez article today… I just feel guilty & tired. I’ve gone down the rabbit hole, and only found disgust in myself for letting this be an obsession. I’ll admit; it was fun making jokes and feeling like we were witnessing the collapse of a system that seems to have existed forever. In that time, I haven’t thought of myself.
Who am I? I’ve never met Drake. I hardly listen to rap music, to be honest. I’m a 26 y/o white guy from Iowa. I’m a small part of the world, but super active in my community. Realizing, I have no benefit pouring over this beef. This rabbit hole doesn’t affect me in any ways positive.
Not sure entirely why I’m writing this- I guess its just to vocalize that I’m tired. I’m ready to get out of this rabbit hole and go back to the things I really love about my real life.

i dont feel like im accepted as an agedre anymor :( i barely do anything when i am dreaming and my dreaming only starts when im tired. i dont know what to do, am i accepted still? :c

In light of recent events I was granted to spend the entire Mother’s Day with my kids this year. Typically every year I have to share it with a dad’s girlfriend & get part of the day..
However I still told my kids to call/text step mom. My oldest said she did but got no response so then before we went out for our activities I was like okay why don’t you guys call her now before we get too busy..they did & got no answer.
Well today I dropped my kids off at school then texted step mom asking when a good time to meet was to give her a few things the girls wanted at dads..she texted back saying to text my daughter when she got out of school to meet her at the stop sign (dad won’t allow me in front of the house so I have to sit at a stop sign)
So I did just that..as my youngest is walking towards me (oldest was still in school) I can tell it looks like she’s about to cry so I ask her what’s wrong to which she reply’s “step mom is mad at me for not calling or texting her for Mother’s Day” I told her I’m sorry & gave her a hug & told her (in a nice way) to tell step mom you guys did try to call & she didnt answer
I just feel so bad that my daughter was out of school for all of 10 mins & already was getting put down. & now I know until Wednesday when I get our kids that they will be getting told how they are probably unappreciative & whatever else
I don’t want this post to come off as though I don’t think my kids should wish her a happy Mother’s Day..I do, which is why I made sure for them to call her before we went & did our activities so they could give her their full attention. But she didn’t answer then gets mad at her ( maybe my oldest I don’t know yet honestly) for not wishing her a happy Mother’s Day
It’s just always something & im tired

I don’t know what to feel anymore, I always feel angry and depressed and not in control of anything in my life Don’t know if it’s me I’m I the problem or I’m just a really unfortunate dude, I won’t Bore Anyone with my past Because quite frankly, I don’t give a shit about that Cause, unfortunately, in this world, nobody cares about others. The human race as a whole is a fucking disease We can never truly agree with one another there’s always bickering fighting people dying for no reason, Our class system is fucked we can never be happy Because on one hand, Since we live in a capitalistic world They were always be hungry mouths to feed, And people slaving away trying to survive. even if we went the communist Route nothing will ever get done in this world, because unfortunately, human beings are very fucking lazy living and Will do the minimum effort required Because what’s the point of going the extra mile? And don’t say there’s always good people Around I just haven’t looked hard enough, Because everybody wants to gain something or at least have an opportunity whether it be Something financially, or something else worth of value, Now why is it when I try to do something good, Whether Being a random Act of kindness or Just to help an old lady cross the street and Something happens and something ends up going wrong and Whether or not I’m the one to blame, And with Without a doubt I get the short end of the stick. At the end of things and I don’t know if I could take it anymore. I don’t know if I wanna just fight the world. or just kill myself in General. I’m not as strong as I might Seem be, I’m not afraid of dying or the way I die or even what comes after I’m just. Everyone In my life I have me so far has either been an Nice and distant and each time I try to make friends. They either shut me out at the end, but then when they need me, they come crawling back to me like a bunch of Savage wolves. But for some apparent reason, I am a Complicated person. I’ll try to be nice. I try to help others. I try to better myself, but in the end, I just end up feeling like somebody else takes a part of me for their own for their own personal game. But in the long run, I feel I will never be at peace with myself Maybe I’m wrong maybe I’m right who the fuck knows who the fuck cares but I do know deep down I’m a A Piece of shit like everybody else Trying to look for answers When i already know the answers

I took my first dose on Thursday 4/9/2024 and after a couple hours, I started feeling the effects. I felt a head rush, my ears started to warm up, my hands and feet’s began tingling. It was almost as if I had a caffeine rush. Needless to say I began to panic which made the feeling worse. I definitely do not feel as hungry than I normally would which is great. However, I’ll randomly feel the caffeine rush throughout the day.
Also, one day I ate more than normal and I felt the same feeling as well. My stomach had butterflies and my heart began racing.
Is this feeling normal? If so, I most likely will cancel my subscription. I cannot afford to have panic attacks throughout the day at work.

Wolf here looking for his Fox. :)
This post will be written way more formally and serious than I normally would ever be! (Unless I'm writing)
I’m an eccentric nerd, and I have a BFA in art to match. I’ve been on a long journey of self improvement. Fitness, discipline, etc. To my surprise and satisfaction, I’ve made strides. Some of us spend a lot of time figuring out what the hell we’re doing. I think I have a pretty good idea, but it's a work in progress. There’s things I want to accomplish. But I’m trying to learn that wanting isn’t enough. One must choose to act. Easier said than done. Anyhow, about me:
Stuff: White/Japanese American. Dark haieyes. Chubby. Broad shoulders.
Virtues: Chill. Open to ideas. Chill temper. Very stable. Extroverted and silly when appropriate(when I can get away with it!). Serious or lighthearted when appropriate(When I have to be >.>). Passionate about many things.
Weaknesses: Procrastinates too much. Daydreams. Procrastinates more. Not yet in good shape.
Hobbies: Into Gaming, Art, Creative things, Writing, Fantasy and Worldbuilding, and Design. Extremely passionate about the TTRPG space and personal projects revolving around it!
Lifestyle: I enjoy cooking, hanging out with friends, doing fun stuff together, watching movies, debating about silly nerdy things, and taking it easy. Would like kids one day. I don’t drink/other similar things partially because I know I can get addicted to things. I want to surround myself with small beautiful things, ideas, stories, feelings to inspire myself to create. Friends and Family and loved ones are the most beautiful things.
Romance: Will tickle you. Will boop your nose. Will give headpats. Silly, Affectionate, Teasing, Playful, Explorative and mischievous… But serious when you need me to be.
"Switch".
Looking for: Someone playful to share the joy of little things with. Someone warm and passionate, perhaps with an eye for the creative. Perhaps someone patient because good things take time. And someone with a feisty side when they need to use it.
There’s certainly something a bit odd about putting a dating resume out there. I feel like this method of meeting people is probably thought upon as bizarre by many. That’s understandable, but why not cast a lure into the dark? There’s something romantic about someone latching onto you in a fleeting moment across the net, on a whim. At first, I thought I’d wait until I've met more of my goals. But why? Perhaps now is when we need each other the most. So here I am. Hi. :)

Wolf here looking for his Fox. :)
This post will be written way more formally and serious than I normally would ever be! (Unless I'm writing)
I’m an eccentric nerd, and I have a BFA in art to match. I’ve been on a long journey of self improvement. Fitness, discipline, etc. To my surprise and satisfaction, I’ve made strides. Some of us spend a lot of time figuring out what the hell we’re doing. I think I have a pretty good idea, but it's a work in progress. There’s things I want to accomplish. But I’m trying to learn that wanting isn’t enough. One must choose to act. Easier said than done. Anyhow, about me:
Stuff: White/Japanese American. Dark haieyes. Chubby. Broad shoulders.
Virtues: Chill. Open to ideas. Chill temper. Very stable. Extroverted and silly when appropriate(when I can get away with it!). Serious or lighthearted when appropriate(When I have to be >.>). Passionate about many things.
Weaknesses: Procrastinates too much. Daydreams. Procrastinates more. Not yet in good shape.
Hobbies: Into Gaming, Art, Creative things, Writing, Fantasy and Worldbuilding, and Design. Extremely passionate about the TTRPG space and personal projects revolving around it!
Lifestyle: I enjoy cooking, hanging out with friends, doing fun stuff together, watching movies, debating about silly nerdy things, and taking it easy. Would like kids one day. I don’t drink/other similar things partially because I know I can get addicted to things. I want to surround myself with small beautiful things, ideas, stories, feelings to inspire myself to create. Friends and Family and loved ones are the most beautiful things.
Romance: Will tickle you. Will boop your nose. Will give headpats. Silly, Affectionate, Teasing, Playful, Explorative and mischievous… But serious when you need me to be.
"Switch".
Looking for: Someone playful to share the joy of little things with. Someone warm and passionate, perhaps with an eye for the creative. Perhaps someone patient because good things take time. And someone with a feisty side when they need to use it.
There’s certainly something a bit odd about putting a dating resume out there. I feel like this method of meeting people is probably thought upon as bizarre by many. That’s understandable, but why not cast a lure into the dark? There’s something romantic about someone latching onto you in a fleeting moment across the net, on a whim. At first, I thought I’d wait until I've met more of my goals. But why? Perhaps now is when we need each other the most. So here I am. Hi. :)

Dad of a 3 MO. My wife is such an amazing mother. I always knew she would be one but seeing it unfurl has been incredible.
I have supported her really well, and she said I’ve been exemplary but in my mind I’m just doing my duty, and I can’t help but be inspired from her efforts. She is tireless.
From day one she never complained about breastfeeding. I have seen how hard it is to do it and kudos to all the moms who do it. One day I read a post here from a Dad who was concerned that his wife would get annoyed when the baby was hungry and it was time to feed (no shade and judgement - it’s hard and there’s PPD). That made me worried about asking her. But she assured me that it was her priority, “what am I gonna do let him go hungry?”. No mather what, even if she was sick or tired or hungry she said I will feed him.
Those first few weeks she was bed ridden recovering from a tailbone injury and the baby would keep her in bed all day for weeks, she would just lay there and admire him.
Our son is so healthy and is often mistaken for a year old child, even though he’s only approaching 4 MO. All thanks to her (and in part my efforts because I feed her )
She is so dedicated in pumping and feeding him, both of which are difficult esp in days where she’s so drained. It’s my mission to support her.
For her first mother’s day I made it special by getting matching customized first Mother’s Day shirts, a photo frame customized with their names, and flowers (and some gifts from Sephora). I got Mother’s Day balloons and gift wrapped jt myself, even though I suck at it. She was so happy and said I made it special for her, but I also thought of my son and that I was doing it for him. It makes me sad to see so many stories of husbands and dads dropping the ball. To the moms: so much is on your shoulders and you deserve so much.
I can do so many things my wife can’t and I wish I could trade sometimes. Things such as eat fresh food but she can’t because the baby is at her breast. We’re pretty much equal but no matter what, it can’t be 50/50 because babies rely so much on their mothers.
I am so grateful for this journey. I love being a dad and caring for her and my son. He’s such a happy baby and loves laughing and is mostly always smiling (unless he has gas lol), because I think he sees that he has two involved parents.
Dads never forget to say thank you to the mom for everything. I make it a point to always say “thank you for feeding him” whenever I can because I know it can be hard. Of course the response is always “of course I love my son”
To all the moms: your babies are lucky to have you and whether your husband did something for you or not know this: you have a special bond with your child that cannot be replicated. Some of us dads are jealous of that. You are lucky to have that.
Happy Mother’s Day!

I have no access to HRT for another 3 years and I have no idea what to do. Everyone just calls me a guy or sometimes a “woman” and just starts laughing. I stick out like a sore thumb and not many people want to be around me because of that. It makes me sick when I see myself and hear my voice. I’m tired of hearing people say crap about me behind me. I also wanna try to tell people to call me my preferred name but I’m way too scared to even tell my best friends. I feel stuck.

I have a sick mother with whom I stay with 24/7, I haven't went out in months and my life has been on hold since I finished my studies. The only time I used to get some relief was when I used to go study, basically. I have always been her caregiver, since none of her other children care enough to do anything.
Lately I'm starting to go crazy, I can't take it anymore, my mother calls me any time, she doesn't care if I'm in the middle of something or sleeping for example, this year has been so hard. When she calls me, she can go on for hours and not stop untill I go to her. I dread and hate her voice now, whenever I hear it, my stomach hurts and my heart sinks. I have developed a fear and extreme annoyance from it. She doesn't have any limits. I started hearing voices ringing in my ears whenever there's a high pitched noise in the background, sometimes while the kids are playing outside in the park, from all the noises and screams I hear my mother's voice in between them. It's like a train is coming from a distance. It made me so paranoid, I feel my stomach shrinking and my heart pounding faster.
I started snapping at her, yelling and saying rude stuff to her and then she tells me that she will not do it again but it's always the same. I am so disgusted from myself from being that rude to her but I hate her so much when she constantly over steps my boundaries, I have no rest. I can't even focus on a task anymore, my body is always on fear mode, decrypting every noise around me, I feel like a prey. I resent her and I hate myself so much especially when I see her scared of me when I snap at her and start screaming and crying bc I feel so exhausted, and no one helps.
I don't know what to do, i pray for god to give me more patience and that my love for her will make my angst and rage go away. But I can't, it's always here, at all times. I don't want to hate her, but in moments like that I can't control my emotions. I'm just very tired and lost.

Female, 7y/o, 57lbs. She has asthma already which she uses an albuterol inhaler for and has a history of weird medical problems. I have autoimmune disease so I thought she might be at risk too, especially with her history.
Anyway, recently she’s started having some pretty odd mood changes and being more tired than usual. That on its own isn’t too concerning, but yesterday she came down with a very bad case of diarrhea, she sweat a LOT through last night and told me she felt like she was going to “bad pass out”, and today she’s peed/pood about four times more than normal, fell asleep in the middle of the day after sleeping all night, she literally begged me for a pbj and then FINISHED it (she’s never finished any of her food) then downed a bowl of cottage cheese right afterwards, and then asked me for a bowl of ramen after that. Her legs are also strangely littered with tiny bruises all of a sudden and she’s complaining of random pains in her legs and just generally not feeling good.
Some of these can be explained away by growth spurts and hormonal changes but the fact this all happened pretty much overnight freaks me out. I’m gonna set her up an appointment but, yknow, I’m worried.
Does it sound like what i think it sounds like?

As the title says let's be real! What bottle does everyone love but it's actually bottom shelf feel free to list your bottom middle and top shelf and this is solely based off of flavor and and mouthfeel not price. I'll go first with some that I've had that are actually bottom shelf or mid shell teetering to drop according to my taste buds.
First I'll say just to get some hate eagal rare yes I would say flavor wise it's mid-shelf but it's the bottom of that midshelf same for a Woodford double oak. Next up don't let people kid you it's cheap and it may be bang for buck but Evan Williams bottled in bond is in fact bottom shelf and Jim beam white label is bottom of the bottom.
Edit: I should mention what made me think of this. I was watching a video by "it's bourbon night" and they kind of let it slip and I've seen plenty of YouTubers do this with other whiskies. But they said knob Creek 9 tasted like bottom shelf. Lots of people rave about it say it's good I wish there was more transparency out there things may be good but are they bottom shelf. I'm tired of being tricked I don't want bottom shelf anymore. Yes I have had kc9 and thought it was good but that doesn't mean it's mid-shelf or top shelf quality

🍇.+ introduction +.🍇

i know i mostly give a lot of informative based shifting posts and i absolutely love doing that, however, i also genuinely find shifting to be one of my main hobbies. and so, i decided to take it upon myself to write about and share with all of you my drs. some fandom, some based within this dr, and some all over the place!
i will include scripts, relationships, personality, time, and duration. i do have some that i plan but have not yet shifted to however i am only including the ones i have shifted to as the ones i would like to shift to are just wishful thinking and not me actively trying to shift there. though, i may make a separate post about drs that i desire to shift to one day.
this post will be also talking about drs that i shifted to in the past as well going in chronological order.
side note; when i talk about time spent in dr, i mean how long i spent in it in total. when i use a date like xxxx-xxxx**, i am talking about in this time period. how long it was since i had scripted and focused on this dr for. there will be plenty of overlap here.

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november 2021 - now (with a two year break in between)
time spent in dr; six months
i honestly don't use this dr as much since my forest dr is much more nicer to relax in. i never used my waiting room for its original purpose. my waiting room was small with multiple doors surrounding it. it was more cozy though some would consider it claustrophobic.
the waiting room itself was my bedroom. for context, my bedroom has a walk in closet. inside that walk in closet is my dr. inside that closet is my waiting room where it is not a closet. honestly, idk why i didn't just permashift there but i find the process of shifting to be very relaxing for me as well haha.
it still has my other drs that i used to shift to but don't anymore. i just don't open the doors to it cuz i'm too focused on two of them. one that i don't even shift to the waiting room to and one that i do shift to it.
i shifted here using the raven method the first time and later the adhd method.

𓍢ִ໋🎧♫⋆｡ k-pop dr 𓍢ִ໋🎧♫⋆｡

december 2021 - october 2022
time spent in dr; five years
i have talked about this dr of mine before in a couple of comments and i think maybe a post. i haven't really blabbed about all of it. i remember about it just as a memory. i never dreamed in that reality though simply because it is hard for me to dream in this reality too and i never cared to script in 'i can dream in this reality.' however, now i make it a point to add that in.
i did not spend five years straight. it would make me too disoriented. i shifted to it consistently for a total of five years.
my k-pop group was pretty small tbh. at least compared to other groups i listen to. i scripted that i would not know who was in my group and i would find out after auditions and meeting them for the first time. we had five members and it was pretty average. it was not crazy popular but it wasn't very small either. it was one of the most successful of our record company though.
we were a mixed gender k-pop group. meaning some girls, two guys, and me, agender nonbinary. each member had a separate persona. i will give a quick run down of each member, their persona, and my relationship with them. though i was close with all of them. it's just that i was closer with some more than others.
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we had me, i suppose you can call me tato since that was the name i had in that dr. i was known as the nerdy one. the smart one who would info dump and talk very formally while most of the members talked casual. i was mostly a dancer but also was good back up vocals.
my best friend was the pessimistic black cat of the group. i knew her from training and we grew close since then. i give her a five out of five on the closeness scale. her name was ga-young. she is a tan skinned korean girl. she was dancer and singer.
the bubbly girl. she sometimes acted bratty for the sake of cuteness. the cute bubbly girl was used interchangeably for her. she's very sweet both on and off stage. all of the group members were. she probably had the highest social media following due to her aesthetic photos and content. all of them looked like they belonged on pinterest. she was also makeup savvy and had a lot of skin care so got many promos and sponsorships from that. her name was banyen and she was an international idol from thailand!
then we have the soft girl of the group. her name was jae-eun. she was pretty short and kinda chubby but very shy and soft spoken. she was main singer and rapper.
the tough boy. his name was shik. shik is a sweet heart off stage. one of the rappers and dancers. he was actually pretty soft outside of his persona.
the jokester. another boy of the group. he was half black half korean. i found him to be very nice. he did struggle in the industry in the beginning but his mother had connections made through networking that allowed him to make it into the group. he hopes to have a solo career one day under a bigger company. his name is hwan. he was one of the main dancers and main vocals.
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some basics of this dr are that stalkers, sasaengs, diet culture, and general toxicity in k-pop do not exist. i do not wish to deal with the drama and struggles of that and hate to see other idols go through it. i did not want for my friends to go through the same as well. he did not get one however across the five years though. i scripted that i spoke korean and english.
also those were the only things i ever scripted about this dr. i wanted it to be as exciting as possible so everything was left up to chance.
i shifted to this reality using the adhd method.

🌊˚.༄ h2o dr 🌊˚.༄

july 2022 - october 2022
time spent in dr; seven months
i don't often see people write down, talk about, or script this dr. this was my very first fandom drs. even though k-pop itself is a fandom, i personally would not consider it a fandom based dr since it does not belong to any specific group, just the general industry of it.
i got the idea for this reality because i was in a summery mood at the time and binge watched this show and mako mermaids with my cousin on his birthday. we watched this show together and i came up with the idea lol. after that, i kept it going for a little bit longer in my dr until i kinda forgot about it. i was honestly too tired switching between this dr and my k-pop dr and another dr on top of this and decided to take a break with this one. i may revisit it. i still have the script in a google doc.
my merfolk power was substanciakinesis. this granted me the ability to harden water almost as if it was like glass or crystallized. it would be strong, sturdy, and indestructible. if i so choose, i can let it revert back to water after a bit, or keep it crystal like forever.
a bit of a con about this reality was that it was actually pretty annoying. that and having to keep such a secret. i did have some lore to it however. it is a coming of age thing when someone in the family turns thirteen. i shifted to when i was thirteen and did the ceremony then shifted again the next time to when i was seventeen to eighteen as that was my age at the time. i had a single dad that i lived with and one ten year old sister who was later fourteen in the story. she was really sweet and honestly i miss her.
i will say though that the powers made it worth it. the ability to breathe underwater is honestly so cool and such a strange sensation. like you don't take notice on how strange a sensation it is to breathe air either until you've breathed underwater in a dr where you can.
i also shifted to this reality using the adhd method.

˗ˏˋ꒰ 📝 ꒱ hogwarts dr ˗ˏˋ꒰ 📝 ꒱

february 2022 - february 2022
time spent in dr; one week
i wasn't even a fan of harry potter haha. i just shifted there because everyone else was and i decided 'hey, why not?' and such.
to decide what house i would script myself into and get sorted in, i went onto a buzzfeed quiz of which house i was. i got ravenclaw and therefore, i was a ravenclaw. i didn't associate myself with the cast too much aside from the teachers and professors because i kinda had to there. the food was pretty good though even if it was kinda out there. it was fun while it lasted but honestly it felt so crowded and overwhelming to me and i'm unsure why. i guess because of the classes that i had to take.
i only shifted there once.
i shifted to this reality using my waiting room.

☄. *. ⋆ alien dr ☄. *. ⋆

march 2022 - april 2022
time spent in dr; three months
this was the last dr i shifted to before my shifting break. it was a pretty fun one. my main ability was anti gravity. alien me in this dr is slightly humanoid. in most of my drs, i look like how i look in this reality here but for this one, i looked much more different and dressed even more different. it was a cultural based clothes for the home planet i was from. think kinda star wars based but not a star wars inspired reality.
in my dr, i had antennas which basically acted as eyes to see from 360 degrees. hair isn't hair but made from a liquidy slime of bright neons. the neons change colors depending on emotions.
though i did spent quite a while in this reality, i don't have too much to say about it. this is because the most i can say is just different greetings, food, and general culture from aliens than humans. it's from another galaxy and obviously planet. and life span on this planet is much longer. we are more durable than humans.
when an alien passes away, their energy becomes one with the stars, turning into star dust and watching over their people.
i shifted to this reality using my waiting room.

💥✧࿐ mha/bnha dr 💥 ✧࿐

april 2024 - now
time spent in dr; twelve days
this was my first shift i did since my two year break! well, technically it was my waiting room but i used my waiting room to shift here immediately after and spent a week there.
i plan on going back to it but not much of my script was done to it yet. i prefer to be spontaneous in my scripting and just choose to cover the basics. i don't even script future upcoming events.
i'll be honest, it was a bit trippy having this as my first animated dr ever. if felt so real but the lines surrounding my hands made it all feel crazy. i think next time i will try realistic instead, haha.
my quirk in this reality is prediction. i can predict the actions and attacks of my opponent. think of it like the attacks in the video game undertale. a warning sign shows up for certain attacks that alerts the player to move out of the way.
one of my friends in this dr's quirk is extensions. her nails can grow into sharp nail extensions that cut like steel.
i am in the hero class of class 3a along with the big three. we spend a lot of time together. i am closer with nijere since she's the most friendly of them.
i shifted to this reality using my waiting room which i shifted from using the astral projection method.

⋆｡ﾟ🌖 wolfblood dr 🌖 ﾟ｡⋆

april 2024 - now
time spent in dr; eight months four months each shift
wolfblood is an english/british teen drama live action series about what are essentially werewolves known as wolfbloods. a wolfblood is born human and looks human up until a certain age and moon. once they reach that age, their blood changes and they become a wolf. they can then interchange between wolf and human however they please except on a full moon. unless of course it is a blood moon. on a blood moon, a wolfblood looks the exact same except their mind transforms.
there's no unique feature of a wolfblood. they can be any race, religion, etc. the thing that holds them all together is being a wolfblood. in my dr.
in my dr, i looked the exact same as here. i came from a small family of wolfbloods. i decided to take my family in my h2o reality and put them here as well. it has a similar coming of age theme. at a certain age, a wolfblood transforms just as in my h2o dr, once you are a certain age, you can go and become a merfolk. in this dr, i lived in england my entire life there and attend the same school as the main cast. however, i am not friends with the main cast nor enemies.
i can sense something is up with them as they act weird in class but can't put my finger on it. i scripted it so i was unaware of the identities on my peers.

‧₊˚🌿 forest dr ‧₊˚🌿

april 2024 - now
time spent in dr; two months
copying this from a previous post here, don't mind me.
'so a bit about my dr that i am shifting to. it is not any fandom related dr but instead an alternate reality where i live in the forest in an advanced tree house. think of the houses in trees type. i spend a lot of time there meditating, practicing spells, and spending time with the animals there but especially wolves. i still have internet connection but irl i don't live close to nature so this is just perfect for me. i'm happy in both this reality and my dr. i switch between the two whenever i feel like it.'
i also shifted to this one first astral projecting. but now i just meditate until i shift. when i shift, i am also in the same meditating position as well. i wanted this to instead be connected to my waiting room, to become a sort of escapism for myself. just in a different way.
you can see the posts i made about the outfits that i wear in this dr here if you want! you can also see more of my outfits in that reality here as well. :)
i shifted to this reality using my meditation method.

⋆🔗 ˚⟡˖ ࣪ conclusion ⋆ ˚⟡˖ ࣪🔗

this is all i have for today! i hope you enjoyed it. perhaps this gave you all motivation or some scripting and reality ideas. i may have forgotten some things to include and add. apologies if some stuff didn't make sense. i hope you enjoyed the read though!
i will say this as well and leave you off with some general scripting ideas
: ̗̀➛ you cannot die
: ̗̀➛ you cannot get hurt
: ̗̀➛ you always get a good night sleep
: ̗̀➛ if you have chronic illnesses like me, you can script that your chronic illnesses are more manageable or you simply just don't have it.
that is all i have for now and happy shifting! ᥫ᭡

I feel completely and totally lost. My current situation is that I was asked to house it my mom's home while she watches her mom. I work second shift so I have different hours on top of working second shift I have bad sinuses sleep apnea and other things which make me sleep later. My mom just told me that she's frustrated that I can't even come out to ask her if there's something I can do and she says that she physically struggles too but she is still able to do 10 things in one hour.
Honestly I want to tell her I'm tired of this arguing and I just want to get out of her life. I feel like I'm going kind of crazy and sometimes I feel like saying things as blunt as possible is the only way that things can get worked out.
I feel like maybe I'll even tell her that I can't stand the situation and I need to get away from her because I feel like crap around her.

I've proceeded to analyse tominecon_decoy.7z, to hopefully give you some hints / useful info:

"data" file - decoy.7z

I've checked it's distribution to see if it's a random file (probably created with dd from /dev/urandom) or in fact an encrypted file. It's most likely pure random data.

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"secret.mp4" file - decoy.7z

Transcript.srt (Whisper v2)

1 00:00:00,000 00:00:06,000 Kids get the best of it with WDCA Channel 20 in Washington, D.C. 2 00:00:06,000 00:00:14,000 Think twice before you answer. 3 00:00:14,000 00:00:16,000 Think twice. 4 00:00:16,000 00:00:20,000 Think twice before you say yes. 5 00:00:20,000 00:00:23,000 Think twice before you answer. 6 00:00:23,000 00:00:26,000 Think twice before you say yes. 7 00:00:26,000 00:00:28,000 You know, I know y'all saying this and that. 8 00:00:28,000 00:00:31,000 Look at this food. Got this watermelon here. 9 00:00:31,000 00:00:36,000 The reason why I say think twice is because... 10 00:00:36,000 00:00:40,000 That's giving me a little air. That'll give me a little air, y'all. 11 00:00:40,000 00:00:45,000 The reason why I say think twice is because... 12 00:00:45,000 00:00:54,000 I just can't understand how we as black people started eating watermelon in the closet. 13 00:00:54,000 00:00:57,000 Lord have me. 14 00:00:57,000 00:01:00,000 This is called the heart. 15 00:01:00,000 00:01:06,000 You know, it makes me feel so bad sometimes when I see black... 16 00:01:06,000 00:01:08,000 My black brothers and sisters. 17 00:01:08,000 00:01:14,000 And they'll see me eating a piece of watermelon like this here. 18 00:01:14,000 00:01:17,000 And they'll go... 19 00:01:17,000 00:01:20,000 And they'll go to frown their faces on me. That's despicable. 20 00:01:20,000 00:01:22,000 But it's good. 21 00:01:22,000 00:01:24,000 And you know the thing that makes me mad? 22 00:01:24,000 00:01:28,000 When I go to their parties, they will take a big pretty watermelon like this... 23 00:01:28,000 00:01:31,000 And cut all kinds of gadgets. 24 00:01:31,000 00:01:34,000 And then cut the inside. 25 00:01:34,000 00:01:36,000 You see this good piece of watermelon here? 26 00:01:36,000 00:01:39,000 Cut all the guts out that good watermelon. 27 00:01:39,000 00:01:42,000 And mix it up and mess it up with something else. 28 00:01:42,000 00:01:44,000 Man, sometimes they got a notion to put liquor in it. 29 00:01:44,000 00:01:49,000 And then after they cut them little crevices in it, then put it back inside of that hood. 30 00:01:50,000 00:01:55,000 Man, that's a waste of watermelon when all you got to do with it is pick it up like this here. 31 00:01:55,000 00:01:58,000 Look here, let's pick it up like this here. 32 00:02:03,000 00:02:05,000 I don't mess it up. 33 00:02:05,000 00:02:07,000 I can work my eye out. 34 00:02:07,000 00:02:10,000 That's the way you eat a watermelon. 35 00:02:10,000 00:02:13,000 And I don't care if you use a PHD, if you use a whatever. 36 00:02:13,000 00:02:17,000 You can't tell me cutting all that out, putting it back in there. 37 00:02:20,000 00:02:22,000 Yeah, Lord. 38 00:02:22,000 00:02:24,000 It's better than this here. 39 00:02:24,000 00:02:26,000 Now, I know you're sitting at home. 40 00:02:26,000 00:02:28,000 That's an ignorant nigga. 41 00:02:28,000 00:02:30,000 But this is a sweet watermelon. 42 00:02:30,000 00:02:34,000 I ain't going to waste no time cutting no watermelon up and mixing it up in no fruit cocktail. 43 00:02:34,000 00:02:37,000 All I'm saying to you, be yourself. 44 00:02:37,000 00:02:39,000 Because I went to a party the other night with some white folks. 45 00:02:39,000 00:02:40,000 They didn't have it in that thing there. 46 00:02:40,000 00:02:41,000 They had slices. 47 00:02:41,000 00:02:43,000 Walk around, Peter Green, you want a slice? 48 00:02:43,000 00:02:44,000 I said, yeah, give me a slice. 49 00:02:44,000 00:02:48,000 One of them, they said, I don't think, I didn't think you blacks eat watermelon like that. 50 00:02:48,000 00:02:50,000 You can't eat watermelon like that no more. 51 00:02:50,000 00:02:52,000 I said, look, lady, don't try to get out on me, you understand? 52 00:02:52,000 00:02:55,000 You just want to eat the good part and want me to cut it all up and do it. 53 00:02:55,000 00:02:59,000 And then, you know, I was mad with niggas for putting salt on a watermelon until two old bamboos. 54 00:02:59,000 00:03:02,000 I was talking to two cold-blooded country bamboos. 55 00:03:02,000 00:03:04,000 And I said, why y'all put salt on watermelons? 56 00:03:04,000 00:03:05,000 Niggas were a man in my home. 57 00:03:05,000 00:03:07,000 I said, you know, I'm down in that bottom in Virginia. 58 00:03:07,000 00:03:08,000 I said, let me tell you about salt, Peter. 59 00:03:08,000 00:03:11,000 He said, you Washington niggas put too much salt on it. 60 00:03:11,000 00:03:13,000 I said, I watched you, Peter. 61 00:03:13,000 00:03:21,000 You dump salt on it and say you put a twang of salt on a sweet melon and it brings out like accent. 62 00:03:21,000 00:03:22,000 I said, what you say? 63 00:03:22,000 00:03:24,000 He said, man, I love watching you Washington people. 64 00:03:24,000 00:03:26,000 Y'all dump salt on it like you got chicken. 65 00:03:26,000 00:03:29,000 He said, but you twang it. 66 00:03:29,000 00:03:31,000 I never knew that. 67 00:03:31,000 00:03:37,000 But I just want to sit here this evening and let y'all know there's two things you don't do. 68 00:03:37,000 00:03:42,000 Don't cut the insides out of no watermelon and mix it with nothing else. 69 00:03:42,000 00:03:46,000 And don't put no two sticks around a corner rochner. 70 00:03:46,000 00:03:48,000 You know, y'all niggas put two sticks. 71 00:03:48,000 00:03:49,000 Don't do that. 72 00:03:49,000 00:03:55,000 You get one of them big rochners, saturate it with some butter and hit that. 73 00:03:55,000 00:03:57,000 Be yourself. 74 00:03:57,000 00:04:01,000 And always remember that I got it off the vine. 75 00:04:01,000 00:04:02,000 It's sweet like, honey. 76 00:04:02,000 00:04:04,000 And I'll plug it all the time. 77 00:04:04,000 00:04:06,000 Sit back, y'all. 78 00:04:06,000 00:04:08,000 This nigga's good and crazy. 79 00:04:08,000 00:04:09,000 Hold it, boy. 80 00:04:09,000 00:04:14,000 I tell y'all just. 81 00:04:14,000 00:04:17,000 Adjust the color in the taco. 82 00:04:17,000 00:04:19,000 Give yourself a slice of watermelon. 83 00:04:19,000 00:04:22,000 And get ready to groove with Petey Green's White. 84 00:04:52,000 00:05:21,000 Mm hmm. 85 00:05:21,000 00:05:48,000 Mm hmm. 86 00:05:48,000 00:05:49,000 Mm hmm. 

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(I'm sorry for double-posting but i didn't want my first post to be too long and this question of mine is not related to my first question at all.)
I am on Zoloft and weight gain is a side effect of this SSRI. But I've learned that most people on Zoloft don't experience weight gain. Now with me, it was VERY different, I would get SOOO hungry that I needed to eat more. It would make me physically nauseous if i didn't eat anything, it wasn't just craving and hunger. I tried to avoid this by taking a shit tone of Ondansetron tablets, which I regret bc I took them without prescription and it messed up my digestive system😀
The hunger and nausea got so bad to a point that bc i didn't have access to my psychiatrist I abruptly decreased my Zoloft dosage in half.
My hunger and nausea are way better. But I'm not exaggerating, when I take Zoloft it literally seems to make me feel like I haven't eaten anything... I am at a point in my academic life that I have a very important entrance exam coming up and I don't wanna mess up my mental health by getting off Zoloft completely. I have to take this med, but i cannot afford to gain more weight.
If any of you has any advice or similar experience, I'd really appreciate it if you share them!

I (f28) just want to vent here because of my past and current experiences with doctors. I am sick and I’m tired of having to do all of my own advocating when doctors are literally paid for their work and some don’t even do the bare minimum for you.
I spent 3 years trying to get a proper diagnosis, sick, in pain and then when I felt I was at deaths door and decided I NEEDED to go to the Emergency Room because I was so sick I could barely get out of bed, they found the problem and yet dismissed me and misdiagnosed me even though I had evidence to contradict their diagnosis and discharge me.
If it wasn’t for me constantly looking up research articles online and studies for my symptoms and looking into potential diagnosis I could say I would have probably died. I’m so angry and upset with the U.S. healthcare system and I feel sorry for those that don’t know how to advocate for themselves or do their own research. I trust science and medicine that’s backed by research but I’ve been led astray far too many times to really believe everything a doctor tells me.
Yes they have a degree and went to school but do half of them stay up to date on their education? Do they even care anymore? One doctor straight up told me to “just take vitamin D” as a 26yo weighing 145lbs when I told him that my BP and HR shot up out of nowhere and I kept getting seriously ill. It took forever just to get a referral to see a specialist.
My current Oncologist didn’t even check to see if any of my current medications interacted with the one she was prescribing me for nausea. She just prescribed it, didn’t say anything and “hoped for the best”.
I’ve been taking it almost on a daily basis and when I looked up the interactions thinking “I doubt it has any since it’s just for nausea”, I found that it has a MAJOR INTERACTION with my antidepressant. Apparently it can cause arrhythmias.
What’s even scarier is that I’ve been taking both and slowly titrating off the anti depressant myself but I had a weird episode last night where I was falling asleep and then for like 5-10 seconds my heart started POUNDING.
Had I not looked this up sooner or had already been titrating off of this medication, it could have been way more serious. Wtf?? This feels like the bare minimum that should’ve been done. I’m contemplating switching doctors at this point but I don’t know.
I feel like I’m always being discriminated against because I’m young so I can probably “handle more” in their head but that’s literally no excuse when you’re literal patients are trusting you to take care of them and keep them from accidentally dying.
I’m so fed up with this, it just seems so negligent.

When it comes to mountain biking, having the right tire size can make a huge difference in how your bike performs on the trails. The three most common tire sizes you'll see are 26, 27.5, and 29 inches. But what do these numbers mean, and how do you know which one is best for you?
Let's break it down, starting with the smallest of the bunch: 26 inches.

26" Tires: The Classic Choice

Back in the day, 26" tires were the standard for mountain bikes. These smaller tires were lightweight and nimble, making them a popular choice for cross-country racing and technical trail riding. The smaller diameter also meant the tires could be made with a higher volume (wider and taller) to provide more cushioning and traction.
Pros:

• Lightweight and responsive
• Good for technical riding and tight trails
• Higher volume options available

Cons:

• Smaller diameter means less rollover ability (harder to roll over obstacles)
• Can feel twitchier at higher speeds

These days, 26" tires are becoming less common as the bigger sizes gain popularity. But they're still a great option for riders who prioritize agility and want a more traditional mountain bike feel.

27.5" Tires: The Goldilocks Zone

Next up is the 27.5" tire size, also known as 650b. This size struck a nice balance between the small 26" tires and the larger 29" options. The 27.5" diameter provided better rollover capabilities than the 26" while still maintaining a relatively low weight and nimble handling.
Pros:

• Good balance of rollover, weight, and agility
• Widely available and used on many modern trail bikes

Cons:

• Doesn't excel in any one area compared to 26" or 29"

The 27.5" size quickly became a favorite for trail and all-mountain riding, offering a great all-around package. If you're looking for a versatile tire size that can handle a variety of terrain, this is a solid choice.

29" Tires: The Big Rollers

Last but not least, we have the 29" tires, also called 29ers. These big boys have been gaining serious popularity in recent years, and for good reason. The larger diameter means they can roll over obstacles more easily, maintain speed better, and provide more traction and stability at higher speeds.
Pros:

• Excellent rollover ability
• Smooth and stable at high speeds
• Increased traction and grip

Cons:

• Heavier and less nimble than smaller sizes
• Can feel sluggish on tight, technical trails

29" tires really shine on open, flowy trails where you can take advantage of their momentum and rollover capabilities. They're also a great choice for enduro and downhill riding, where speed and stability are key.

So, which size should you choose?

Ultimately, the best tire size for you will depend on your riding style, terrain, and personal preferences. If you're focused on cross-country racing or technical trail riding, the 26" or 27.5" sizes might be the way to go. For more aggressive trail and enduro riding, the 27.5" or 29" sizes are popular choices.
And if you're just getting started with mountain biking, the 27.5" size is a great all-around option that can handle a variety of terrain and riding styles.
Remember, tire size is just one piece of the puzzle. Tread pattern, compound, and tire pressure all play a role in how your tires perform. But understanding the differences between these three main sizes is a good starting point for choosing the right setup for your rides.