Why did the farmer visit the pharmacy? To speak with the farm-assist.
Hi and welcome to my post! Wanted to start off with a funny to me dad joke.
Nice to meet you, I'm Dylan! To put it simple, I am a single 22 year old man who has been pretty lonely in life and lacking in female connection and interaction. And part of what comes with that is the desire to be intimate with a person. I am very mature for my age and will always be respectful of your boundaries and feelings, especially with anything sexual. Lately all I have is myself when it comes to sexual desires, so I would like to have someone to keep company with in that regard too.
I'm just relaxing at work since there's nothing really going on and thinking about going home tonight and burning a woodwick candle. Perfect for when there's a storm outside. I love candles! 🕯️ Sometimes a campfire outside on a fall night or a crackling WoodWick candle is a relaxing constant among our busy and hectic world. It's nice to just disconnect, feel grounded and happy in your own little cozy space. Feeling calm and collected and at peace. Something that fewer people take the time to do these days.
I am seeking a woman around my age or older to build a close connection with that could possibly lead to a relationship and something intimate which includes the possibility of teasing/sharing pics etc. but only when we were comfortable. Figured I would be open in my Intentions as that's the best way to be.
You:
Kind, respectful, and easy going.
Comfortable with the idea of eventually sharing intimate things together.
Willing to eventually move off of Reddit.
Want something genuine and fun!
Are honest in your intentions and a good person to be around!
That's about it, we will get along great I know it.
I've been feeling a little bummed out lately. I always try and stay happy and see the best in things. But.. I've just been so alone. Most of my whole childhood and adult years have been spent feeling lonely. I grew up surrounded by cornfields which was peaceful but also has a lonely aspect to it. My family never really were close and never did anything as a family really. And part of it too is the fact that I never had any neighbors my age to interact with. But aside from that, my adult life has been very lonely. I'm just always by myself. I barely have any meaningful adult relationships or experiences, or even any friends.
I work a 3-11 job in building maintenance at my company world headquarters building which I love, but again it's very lonely. I work the off shift so the building is always empty. I don't get normal social interaction with people my age or a chance to build relationships. I only have 3 older men as co-workers and we are mostly in the basement away from any people on the floors from knowing our existence. I always walk the floors and see office people laughing and chatting with their coworkers and I just don't have that kind of experience. And just.. no one knows I exist really. Everyone probably assumes I have a lot of friends, but I'm struggling inside with being so alone and trying to meet people and get past the "hi how are you?" "I'm good thanks" stage. Most people don't seem to want to talk beyond that. And most women are already in relationships and thus it would seem weird to approach them in an office setting trying to get to know them deeper. But man those "hi how are yous" are the only real interactions I get during my day.. so thus I decided to come here lol. Rant over, sorry! I promise I'm not a downer. 😅
Now for some things about me!
As you can tell, I am very mature for my age and am polite and have good grammar which unfortunately not everyone my age does anymore lol. I am not active at all on social media/internet culture really and don't know much about all the slang the younger people these days use. I feel like I'm 50. 🤣
I am left handed which is pretty cool. I'm not much of a party person or a drinker, I much prefer a quiet night at home and maybe a beer or two on a weekend but that's about it. I am simple and stay out of drama and trouble and don't get much into politics or other things that cause drama with people. I much prefer a relaxing campfire and a night at home and to just let the world keep on turning haha. I consider myself pretty intelligent and mature, especially for my age which is why I'm open to older ladies.
Physically I'm 180 pounds, have brown hair, green eyes, and a typical build. There's a few pictures on my profile.
Some of my hobbies are:
• Photography
I have a Nikon D200 and D5500 that I love to shoot with. I love nature scenes, abstract, black and white/goth kinda photography, sunsets, etc. it's so fun to just let your mind explore. It's not about what camera you have, but those who are behind the camera! I'm gonna try and photograph the northern lights tonight!
• Cooking and baking
I loveeee to cook and bake! I enjoy making various meals but also love to just have a frozen pizza once in awhile or something like that. I recently made homemade chili which turned out great. I love to bake, especially in the fall! I love pies, cakes, pastries, cookies, etc. I restored a vintage KitchenAid mixer that needed tbe gearbox rebuilt. Eventually I would love to practice home canning my own food.
• Music
Oh my gosh, I like so much!! Alternative rock, punk, post punk, electronic, synth pop, psychedelic rock, hard rock, etc. I am very non judgemental and open when it comes to music. My three current favorite bands are Type O Negative, Joy Division, and the Cure.
• Nature walks and camping
I really enjoy camping, making fires, and relaxing by a campfire. I love to take walks outside and just enjoy the beauty and simplicity of nature. It's wonderful, especially in a world so focused on everything digital.
• Repairing things
I'm a maintenance guy and one of my hobbies is electronics repair so I am good with my hands and just all around good at troubleshooting and fixing all sorts of things around the house. Last week I helped my elderly neighbor get his tractor started, it needed a new component in the starting circuit. So I'm pretty handy which... Comes in handy! 😂
• Autumn 🍁
This isn't a hobby per say, but man do I love the fall!!! It's my absolute favorite time of the year. Oh my gosh. The beautiful colors, crisp cool air, misty and foggy days, rain, lack of bugs, being cuddled up with a candle or by the fire drinking a tea, etc. I love it! There's only two seasons for me. Fall, and waiting for fall! Haha.
• Scented Candles and incense
Going along with my love for fall, I absolutely love candles! I have like 30 something lol. 😂 Currently my favorite are WoodWick, which are owned by Yankee candle. They have such a soothing crackle and the scents are great! I also love to burn incense from time to time as well. I have cottagecore hippie vibes.
• Old houses and architecture
I love old houses! Especially 1900s and Victorian era homes. Old homes have so much character to them and are just so beautiful from a time when people took pride in their craft. I strongly dislike the modern cookie cutter cheap construction of homes today. I would love to live in an old home one day. I also love their architecture and uniqueness, as well as architecture of old cathedrals and other buildings.
• Relaxing
Basic I know, but sometimes on the weekend I just love to get cozy in bed and relax and put on a YouTube video or an album! 😊
That's about it for me, I'm a pretty laid back and simple person. My ideal person is someone who is respectful and honest! I am very straightforward and open minded and would hope that you are as well.
If I seem interesting to you at all I would love to hear from you!
Thank you so much for reading.

My dad has been using windows PC his whole life, I've recently switched him to a MacBook Pro and he's actually doing ok with it. I'd absolutely LOVE to get him off of Google Voice for texting (that's all he can handle, he carries a flip phone still).
My idea is this: Port his Google Voice number over to a Mint Mobile line inside an old iPhone I have, leave said iPhone on and plugged in all the time and he can now use MacOS for texting/iMessage. The problem I'm worried about is that many people call his Google Voice number (he's had it for many years now) and if someone calls I don't want him having to deal with picking up the iPhone if a call comes in, I'd like all calls to simply forward to his flip phone line and he'll access all texts via his MacBook instead of Google Voice like he's been doing and he'll continue to use the iPhone as a camera only (that's all he can handle).
My concerns/questions:
Would Mint Mobile have any issues with all phone calls being forwarded to another number? Would I need to worry about a limit of minutes available for said calls? Anyone out there doing anything similar to this and has it been working? Thanks so much for anyone's input.

Hey everyone, I just recently reinstalled and I feel pretty lost on various parts of the game, so I'm hoping you guys might be able to help answer some of my questions/guide me in the right direction. Just a bit of backstory for where my account is at currently before getting into some of my questions:

• Played when the game launched in the US and created a Deathblade character. Got this Deathblade to level 39, then "quit" due to irl stuff limiting my time to play.
• Reinstalled around the time Artist came out and created a new Artist character. Got this Artist to around the same level as my Deathblade before "quitting" again due to irl stuff limiting my time to play.
• Reinstalled once again a few days ago and I just got my Artist to level 50; my Deathblade is still sitting at level 39.

As you can see, although I'm a "returning" player, I never made it very far into the game, so many of the core concepts are still quite foreign to me. Also, I am strictly F2P, so please do take that into consideration for your responses. Thanks in advance :)
Since I have a bunch of questions across various parts of the game, I've broken them into hopefully more legible sections:

Story/Location/General

• I have made it to Arthetine with my Artist, what do I do now at level 50? Do I just keep continuing to do all the quests that appear around me? When do the various dungeons and fights I've seen so much about start for me?
• I didn't explore all of Anikka before coming to Arthetine (there is still a gray area on the map, Prisma Valley). Should I go back and unlock triports and whatnot before continuing? The quests themselves never took me there, so just not sure.
• Should I catch my Deathblade up to where my Artist is at before continuing to progress? I actually really like the combat of both characters and I'm not too sure which I want to "main" as a result. Do I need to pick 1 to main? Will it really gimp my ability to do content if I try to progress both characters as much as possible?
• Is PvP dead? I remember liking that a lot when I first started out, but recently when I've tried to queue up, matches couldn't be found. Not that there was an error or anything, just the timer would continue going for a long time.
• Does a character's level go beyond 50?

Gear

• General
  • Does gear degrade?
• Dismantling
  • As I've been leveling up, I would equip the highest item level gear in each slot and dismantle everything else, including gear at the same item level I have equipped. Should I continue doing this? It has left me with 1 of each item I have equipped - will I ever need say multiple weapons or armor pieces to swap out depending on the content I'm doing? It has also left me with a lot of useful and broken gear powders. What do I do with these?
• Stones
  • I have a bunch of stones in both my characters' inventories. What are these and what do I do with all these? Somehow, I also have an ability stone equipped on my Deathblade in addition to the other stones in my inventory, but I don't remember how or why I did that. The equipped one also seems to make my Deathblade's movement slower, what gives? Do they all give some sort of negative effect? Should I also try to equip a stone on my Artist? Is there a strategy for maximizing positive effects while reducing negative effects?
• Engravings
  • I have a bunch of engraving recipes and engraving recipe selection chests/pouches. What are these and what do I do with all these? I'm assuming they combine in some way to create the 2 empty engraving item slots when opening my character profile, but just wanted someone to hopefully walk me through these as well. Do these also have negative effects like stones? If so, is there a strategy for maximizing positive effects while reducing negative effects?
• Skill Rune Effects
  • I have some items like "Focus" and "Bleed" that I've got no clue what they do or what I should be doing with them. Is this another system that could/should be walked through for me?
• Bracelet
  • I don't have items/packs/chests or anything that seemingly would fit into the Bracelet item slot for either character. Where do bracelets come from? Is this another system that could/should be walked through for me?
• Honing/Upgrading
  • I have heard these terms thrown around before, but again, I just don't know what they entail. Am I at this point in the game yet?
• Item Level
  • My Artist's equipped item level is 230.83 and my Deathblade's is 182.50. I've seen people talking about item levels more than 1k greater than even what I've got combined between both characters lol. Am I on the right track here? Should I expect my equipped item level to shoot up soon?

Cards

• I get that equipping multiple cards of the same set grants different effects, but how does it work across the roster - can I equip the exact same cards on both my Deathblade and my Artist?
• When I use cards, it asks me to confirm and says I have x spots remaining in my card catalog, where x continually decrements each time. Is this something I should be worried about? Do I need to be strategic about which cards to add to the catalog as to optimize the amount of space it has available?
  • If not, I have some card packs, should I just use/consume those ASAP?
• Are book effects separate and in addition to effects granted from equipping cards of the same set?
• What are/how to do enhancements?

Stronghold/resource gathering

• I've seen various ores, wood, and other items to gather across the world as I've been leveling up - am I meant to be gathering these? I think it was a requirement for 1 of the earlier quests, but it's been so long I don't remember the point of it, and I don't think I've gathered anything outside of those quest(s). What is the point of gathering these resources?
• I don't get the Stronghold at all. I had to create/visit one with my Deathblade way back when, but I really don't recall what it's all about, what to do, etc. I don't believe I was required to create/visit one when I created my Artist. Is it shared across the roster? What is the point?

Chests/Auras/PowerPass

• I have a lot of different chests and whatnot in both characters' inventories, the universal storage, my mailbox, and wherever else things are sent to lol I don't even know. I have a wide variety of different things (rapport chests, battle item chests, card packs, etc.). In general, what is the strategy for these, what should I be using/consuming right away, what should I be saving?
• There are some other chests and items that I don't even know what they give me. I remember Crystalline Aura and Elgacia PowerPass off the top of my head, but when I can next login, I will be sure to edit this to ask what the others do as well.
  • As far as I'm aware, Elgacia PowerPass is the only thing I have with a time limit left to claim it. What does this do? What character should I claim it on, if any?

Am I missing anything else? I'm sure I will have more questions as well; these are really the biggest things that have been on my mind. If anything else does come up, I will be sure to edit this to clearly include those changes as well.
I know this is a lot already, thanks in advance for any help/guidance, I do very much appreciate it!

For context we have not been in contact since a pretty big falling out that culminated in our father kicking me and my siblings out on Christmas (we live out of town). He has not attempted to reach out until now and included us all in this email. I’m not sure what to make of it.
“So much time has passed since we last saw each other. It’s been far too much time. I know that I hurt you on Christmas night, and I know that I hurt each of you in the past as well. I want you to know that was never my intention. I always tried to be the best man and the best father that I could be …but I know that at times, my best wasn’t good enough.
I have learned a lot about myself over the past 16 months. I have been actively participating in therapy sessions, and I’ve realized some of the mistakes that I’ve made. I’ve also learned a lot about family through this enlightening process. I have learned about how the experiences from my childhood have impacted me as a person, and as a father. I wasn’t raised in a happy, functional family. That’s the kind of family that you deserved, and I tried to break the cycle of generational trauma in order to give that to you, but it was difficult as a single father with no personal nurturing parental experience to refer to.
I now know that you needed more patience, understanding, attention, and love from me. I know that I haven’t been perfect and I know I will continue to have imperfections …but I will try my best to improve. I am hoping that you can give me your co-operation, patience, and compassion to give me the chance to be the father that you need.
I hope we can reconnect and start communicating again. I would like to work on this together. I sent this email to everyone, but please feel free to message me individually. I really look forward to hearing from each one of you, when you are ready. If not today, then hopefully one day soon.”

This is just my personal experience. This group has been so helpful to me by just being a place to feel normal. Lurk, read, post. It helped me keep the faith and see people out 1000s of days gave me inspiration. If you think you have a problem you do and get to rehab. Wishing I knew about this group earlier and intervened earlier in my addiction Alcohol is so insidious. I needed real intervention.
I’ve told the truth every day as much as it is painful, one lie never stands on its own. I lied to myself and everyone around me for years. I don’t now and it’s made all the difference. Probably the one thing for me that changed it all.
Most of my friends from rehab relapsed. Just a fact. As hard as it is you can’t let it drag you down. That almost derailed me. Don’t let the battle get too lonely. Reach out. Connection beats addiction.
Work every day on your groups, finding kindred souls, activities, and celebrating the small wins. Days, weeks, months, years of sobriety. Got to dig in every day. I call it a daily reprieve from destruction.
I give less of a fck about what people think. If anyone asks I just say I retired from drinking. In my life 8pm is my new 11pm. Or nothing good ever happens after 10pm.
I’m finally having fun again. All the dents are not pounded out of me yet but the car is drivable. Let’s stay on the journey. My best to you all. Thank you for the inspiration

I’ve been with my husband for 11 years, married for 4, we are 32. We have a 2 year old and I’m pregnant with another. Our friends and family think we have the perfect life. The careers, the salary, the house the cars ect. I do not take my blessings for granted. Everyone adores my husband, praises him for being such a good husband and father, but is he? He’s secretly awful. He is a certified man child with no self management skills and it’s ruining our life. It’s always been a background issue but add in the kids and the fact that I’ve grown so much as a person and he has not, and the resentment is unbearable.
I handle every single adult aspect of our life from bills to appointments (even his) because he simply can not. He forgets EVERYTHING. If I don’t give him directions he just kind of stands there like a sim. He will “take care of me” by doing things I ask him to do while I lay on the couch for a hour with morning sickness, which I am thankful for! But also, I have to remind him to floss, take vitamins, go to the dentist, get hair cuts, brush his teeth, eat lunch, ect. I have to give him specific directions with house work and the baby. He is a great father and he does not complain about doing anything I ask him to do, it’s just that I shouldn’t have to ask because he’s a grown ass man. Sometimes I have to ask him to do the same thing literally 5-40 times before it gets done. He has zero time management. Honestly, I don’t know how he’s so successful at work. Speaking of work.. I have to wake him up for work at 430am or he will not get up on his own. He makes zero effort to be romantic unless it’s a holiday I reminded him about and since I’ve been pregnant he can’t last longer than 20 seconds for sex (wish I was exaggerating) I’ve been asking him to become more aware, thoughtful and self productive for a very very long time. I got him a planner for our anniversary a few weeks ago, he hasn’t used it yet. I speak to him, I get silence. He says he’s thinking or answering in his head so 7/10 if I talk to him I get no answer and it makes me feel insane. I know he loves me, I love him. I want to just focus on loving him. We fight so much about the same 5 things we can’t even enjoy being a young married couple starting a family. I want him to make the changes so we can move forward. Hard to move forward when he is in complete denial that he does anything wrong. He said the only problem with our marriage is that I am always bitching at him and I seem so unhappy…. What can I do besides beg him to grow up? I can’t leave him, I don’t want to and even if I did it would ruin all of our lives mainly the babies. He doesn’t cheat or abuse me, so should I just keep being his mommy and single handedly hold the weight of the whole family on my own and just suck it up? He would be happy to live happily ever after with me raising him like he’s one of the kids. If I stopped nagging we would have the perfect marriage everyone thinks we have.

She broke up with me on text, I was going through a hard time, we couldn't see each other but as soon as we got back on track, I was dumped on text with half assed reasons and lies, then I was ghosted after being told we would meet up and now she is with someone else 4 weeks later. I don't even know when they met as she avoided me for a month. I never even got to say goodbye. I regret so much, I couldn't drive because I couldn't afford to learn, but I worked so hard after four years just to get into a good position. I'm not as privileged as others so I have to do everything myself. It felt like we were working towards something, I helped her grow so much, we were in the same path in life, but as soon as she got a stable job (the same as me) and a new car, she completely abandons me. She still has my things.
I messaged her for my things back, I got upset that she lied to me but I still never got to say what I wanted to say as I just always give in and end up being nice. I can't stop thinking how they're doing all these things together that we never got to do, she's in a different phase in her life and I'm hurt that she wants to share it with someone else. I feel used, betrayed and abandoned and she doesn't even care. It hurts so bad and I can't stop thinking about her with him. It's not fair how I have been treated:(

I have scoured the interwebs looking for an answer, but I can't get my Air 2s to display video on my Galaxy S22 Ultra (S908U). I have checked that the firmware is up to date, my phone is on the latest Android 14 with OneUI 6.1, and I've tried reinstalling the app. I also made sure to disable Dex.
Nebula recognizes that the glasses are plugged in, and it will say that the mode has switched when I click on Air casting, but no video appears. I can, however, hear the audio from videos through the glasses.
They work fine when plugged into my steam deck or my laptop. I also am unable to get Dex to work with my glasses, though I did a factory reset and they worked for a bit on Dex until, I assume, some setting broke it again.
All this tells me that it has to be some stupid setting on the phone, but I can't for the life of me figure out what it is. I'm using the original cable and I've tried other cables that do not work.
I'm appealing to the Elders of the Internet in hopes that someone might know the answer and take pity on me. Thanks in advance for any help!

I copied and pasted what a random said to me on a reply I made in ask women about being treated badly by ppl and he said it was bc of my looks when I wasn't even the poster I curiously asked how and this is what he said
Thank you for taking the feedback well and asking for some clarification!
That is generally my impression from the pictures, of someone who's a bit of the way into chemo (pale/wan skin, thin hair, somewhat gaunt appearance). None of them in isolation are all that bad, but there's something about the way they all come together.
Perhaps if one of them improved, the rest wouldn't be amplified so much. I'd suggest starting with the hair. Save up and splurge a bit on a stylist. Tell them your goals - that you're coming to them to help you design a look and haircare plan to give your hair volume and compliment your regular appearance (wear typical clothes and makeup). Take all-around pictures of the cut immediately after, and then use those pics to guide your regular hairdresser.
My read on your paragraph is that you're in a bit of denial and reaching to justify how people treat you. Most people are about their appearance.
It's extremely well established that people treat attractive people better.
Yes, you're right, the extremely unattractive/frail/etc, but it comes from a different driver in the mind.
In between the two extremes, there's an uncanny valley type effect. Someone moderately ugly will be treated worse than someone extremely ugly.
Maybe it is something in your demeanor, speech, whatever. If you want to do a video call, I can give you feedback on that.

i know i am probably in the wrong/overreacting and expecting too much. my (18f) boyfriend (17m) have been together for the past 6-ish months. i feel as though he doesn’t put effort enough into me, he doesn’t get me flowers unless i ask, he doesn’t plan dates unless i ask, he doesn’t post me on his social media unless i ask, and i don’t know what else to do. albeit, he’s a wonderful boyfriend and i know he truly loves me but i just want him to express his love in ways that i feel appreciated. i know that he has different love languages than me (physical touch and quality time) so the ways that i want to be shown affection may not like click in his brain, but i feel like i show him affection in his love languages even though they aren’t my main ones (gift giving, words of affirmation, and quality time). and i know comparison is the killer of joy and i shouldn’t compare my relationship to the ones i’m seeing on tiktok or instagram, but i can’t help it. i want someone who takes candids of me (i’ve asked), i want someone who posts me (i’ve asked), gets me flowers (i’ve asked), plans dates (i’ve asked), but he just… doesn’t. i also don’t want to breakup with him because i truly love him and i believe he truly loves me but i just can’t help the feeling like im just settling (??) for the bare minimum if that’s even the right word.

So I have no idea about software dev or linux. I've very little, close to negligible experience with linux from a project I did with the RPi. But I wanted to make my own linux based digital audio player.
Someone told me that the work was more software based so I'm here to ask for some advice.
I was thinking of buying a reto handheld with wifi and Bluetooth and trying stuff with it instead of buying separate hardware components.
Is what I'm thinking logical? Can it be done and where should I start?
I don't want to buy a handheld and then find out that I was wrong about the whole thing.

Hello, sorry if I'm posting in the wrong thread but I don't have anywhere else to go. I don't know if I'm reading the situation wrong/if I'm the crazy exaggerator so here I wanted an outside opinion.
For context, me and my sister were raised by my single mom, who is also an immigrant. My sister has classified my mom as a narcissist and an abuser, and I would definitely agree that she has narcissistic tendencies, they're pretty much in line with the "immigrant parent" experience and although the abuse has lessened with age.
My sister was pretty much the scapegoat and I was the golden child 80% of the time; the only time I was "the problem" was when social issues were involved as I was very much autistic+ADD and had no idea how to relate to others, so I was bullied and blamed for it. My sister has ADHD and was terrible at school, which is where a lot of my mom's anger towards her came from. She's very bitter about the majority of our childhood, which I understand; there are things that happened that I will also simply never recover from, even with therapy.
My sister is bubbly, charismatic, and very empathetic. I can't stress that enough; everyone loves her. She's friends with random people in our neighborhood, she talks to and befriends homeless people, and is training to be a social worker. She has many close friends and talks to them all day and night. Our relationship was pretty rocky when we were kids, and I can't say that we're as close as some siblings are, but I always thought our relationship was okay. My mom would sometimes complain that we were against her, but I think she was just frustrated that we wouldn't turn on each other easily. However, I did start to notice a few things about my sisters behavior that is concerning me.

• She has a victim complex/hard time doing anything important by herself, but only when I'm available to help/do it for her.

I think this is a consequence of her never being trusted to do things as a child, but I thought she would attempt to get better with age. Nope. She would ask me to fill out her student loan and passport forms, saying that she was scared to get things wrong. When I would try to get her to do it herself, she would get upset with me and call me selfish. She says that this is because she feels that she is not smart enough to do anything bc of her childhood; fair, but she's 22 now, so I think she should try to help herself out and try to build confidence. She now pays her friends to fill out forms for her; one of them is actually being paid to apply for graduate programs for her. Any mention of this makes her talk about how badly she was treated as a kid and how its lead to her being so scared of doing anything, so OF COURSE she needs help 24/7.
But at the same time, she goes out of her way to help other people with their paperwork; she even helped a coworker get into grant/loan program for university, and that paperwork was 10 times harder than what she has to fill out. It's very confusing, it makes me feel like she does these things so people like her.

• She hates responsibility.
  I feel like this is her being self aware that she's sort of useless. For example; she doesn't have a credit card, and just uses my moms/mine and pays us back at the end of the month. Recently, I asked her to stop using my credit card since she kept forgetting to pay me the right amount. She also had this habit of using my card as a form of revenge against me if I forgot to pick up her things during my grocery run (she can't drive). She would also threaten to use my card if I didn't do things for her (she said it was a joke, but it rubbed me the wrong way). Anyway, she got upset and said she needed my card for emergencies. I asked why she didn't just apply for a credit card. She said she was unsure if she would be responsible enough to manage a credit cards and make payments on time. But...she felt comfortable using MY card? The one that I have to manage and make sure payments are made on time? I explained how worrisome that was and she just told me I was crazy and controlling.
  

This has also steeped into how she approaches things like deadlines. She missed a deadline for a grant she really needed (twice) and spent an entire week emailing the grant team asking them to accept her application, and then emailing their bosses when they refused. Whenever she's rejected from graduate programs she's always confused and says she should've gotten in, even though there are some clear deficits in her applications.

• She is always telling me how bad of a person I am when I don't do as she says. Like, morally.

A good example I can think of is that she asked me to chip in $23 for her friends birthday; I was confused why I had to pay since the girl wasn't MY friend. My sister argued that since I had talked to her and liked her, this made us friends, and friends contribute to birthdays. She also said if I backed out then she would have to split my part over other people who I would consider to be my friends and that those friends were in tight financial situations, so I would be a shitty person for making them pay extra. I still refused to pay; this really had nothing to do with me. She just looked at me and said that she was surprised that I was such a shitty person. There are similar stories to this; whenever she wants me to do something and I refuse, she makes me out to be a horrible person. Not in a yelling/screaming way; she just comments "oh, never knew you were that shitty" and keeps it up for however long it is until I do the thing she asked for. for some reason I never really saw them as weird until I brought it up with some friends and they said that was messed up.

• She makes fun of/belittles me in front of her friends constantly, but gets upset when I do it back.

^pretty self explanatory. a lot of my sisters friends really like me; I think they see me as a big sister, and a lot of them are in similar situations/career paths as me. They're all very nice. My sister and I are very snarky towards each other, but she is especially mean to me in front of her friends. I'm not 100% sure what she says either; she tries her best to make sure I'm not around much when she's talking to her friends, going out of her way to make sure to exclude me from any plans she makes even when her friends want me to come. She also enjoys rubbing the fact she has friends/plans that I can't join in my face. I'm usually quite busy so it doesn't bother me much, but I have noticed it. she also tends to try and be mean to me in front of them as a joke, but if I snap back I can tell that she gets upset about it. She's asked me to not call her things like stupid in front of her friends (fair, she can be super sensitive about that), but has told many of them about my ASD without my permission (she only asked when they let it slip that they knew). So that's weird.

• she is always switching up the narrative.

this is the thing that makes me feel INSANE. she is always telling me how horrible she has it at home and how much our mom hates her, and how I will never understand how it feels to be her so it's unfair when I call her out on things like not doing chores (like she does to me) because she will always be scolded more harshly than I will be. that's fine, a little grace is fine, but then she'll just outright lie about how "great" she is. For example, in the summer my mother was gone, so we split the chores in the house. I work a lot on weekdays, so she was to take care of general upkeep, and I would do the heavy chores (taking laundry to the laundromat, cooking in bulk for the week, mopping and vacuuming the apartment) on the weekend. I noticed that she would often not be the best at this, but as long as I could fix it on the weekend it was fine. But if I ever messed up, she would be merciless; she refused to wash the dishes for a whole week because I couldn't do them on Sunday since I had extra errands to run that weekend. I brought this up to her and she said we split the chores and that was that. I pointed out that she wasn't keeping her end of the bargain either, but she told me she was simply too busy to keep up with all the work she was being given and that the chore split was unfair anyway. I didn't really know how to deal with that so I dropped it.

• She sets boundaries, but I can't.

There are more issues but I will leave it at this one for last. She has always been very vocal about setting boundaries with me and my mom. For example, we can't give her chores last minute or it messes up her schedule (even if she's doing nothing). She's also really big on talking issues out, but usually the talk just keeps going until we agree with whatever she's saying. Personally, I am the type of person who gets really short and petty when I'm angry, so its not a good idea to talk to me. She will INSIST on talking to me even when I want to shut the conversation down and say my refusal to talk is just proof that she's right and I'm wrong. But if I talk, the conversation will just repeat itself until she gets the answer she wants out of me. She's very good with therapy-speech as well; to be honest, she always sounds condescending when she argues with me or my mom even though she says I'm just projecting. I could be, but I don't hear it when she's arguing with her friends or in online classes.
I'm probably being very one sided here, but whenever I think about some of these issues it just reminds me of my mom in a way. I've survived my mom by just nodding along and waiting for the storm to blow over, but my sisters actions are much more annoying to me for some reason. If anyone has any input it would be appreciated. I don't want to think I'm living with 2 narcissists; maybe I'm actually the problem. because of my ASD I find it very hard to communicate my feelings and I tend to shut up or become very mean and short at random times. I try my best but I do need to work on using my words and making sure they can't be used against me.

I had these custom boards made so they would fit on top of endless potentiometers. They take in 3 pins GND, VCC, and a Signal. The circuit is just a diode/resistor ladder that fades the LED based on voltage which means that I can control it from a PWM pin after I filter it. Works great.
So my idea is to use the HIFI PWM technique using two downscaled PWM pins for a combined higher bit-rate PWM output. I figured I would use two of the timers for this giving me a total of 4 outputs.
Then I'd have some buttons to select which output or parameter is being modified with a single knob. And since the knob is relative, I can use the led array to display the value of the parameter being modified. etc.
I'm thinking of adding a Clock input jack and some ADC-connected jacks for CV input. But what to make? I guess I could always use more LFOs or we could easily make a digital envelop generator too. I think it'd be cool to make this a 1u module. What do you guys think would be useful? I like the idea of having this be somewhat generic enough so that it could be reprogrammed with different functionality, or work with different modes.
https://youtube.com/shorts/0UPOpGVE89M?feature=share

Some preliminary info:
My mum and I have lived in our townhouse for over 10 years. During that time, we have constructed planter boxes that are set on our driveway (we don't own a car, so we use the space for that). For many years my mother has carried out her hobby of gardening there. We received new neighbors approximately 1.5 years ago. For the longest time, they would be throwing parties that would leak over to the AMs of the next day, as well as do renovations. While being understanding, it got to a point where my mum couldn't take the noise anymore at night. After numerous attempts to contact our new neighbours to decrease the noise of their parties, she finally made a noise complaint to a city. Parties started to occur less frequently.
THEN came the REALLY noisy stuff. The majority of my neighbors' renovation was to finish the basement. It was during this time when OUR house would start to shake at times. Aside from the fact that this distracted my mum from doing her (remote) job, it drew a concern as to what could possibly be happening in their basement that would cause OUR house to shake. Again, she reached out to them numerous times, with vague answers. And again my mother filed an anonymous complaint.
Turned out, they did not have the permits for the type of construction they were doing in the basement. They got super-peeved at us, as they now were delayed and had to spend a bit more money.
Anyways, fast forward to 1.5 months ago, I'm helping mum with gardening stuff. The male neighbor (of the couple) decides to approach us. He decides to "apologize" and be the "bettebigger person". Following his apology though, he makes a complaint about one of our planter boxes, the one that borders the property line between us. He says that some of the wood pieces are falling off/poking out onto his property (fair, though my mum reckons he purposely took some of the pieces of, but that's speculation). He decides to give us an ultimatum: either move the planter box more onto our property (an inch our two, but with soil and wood, probably weighs a ton, so not happening), repair the boards, or destroy it. Otherwise he will complain to the city that the planter box is on his property. So.... he's still a LITTLE angry that we complained to the city of his actions, and wants to have something over us.
But my mum remained positive. Understanding that the outer pieces of the planter box ARE weathered (some scrap 2x4s, some decent pieces of wood), she set out to buy sheets of new plywood that would be weather-proofed, and would replace those pieces after I took them out and drilled the sheets in.
This evening we were measuring the dimensions of the planter box to figure out what lengths I would need to cut the plywood. To make one of these measurements, we had to step into our neighbors' driveway. He saw what we were doing, and asked us to get of his property. We explained what we were doing, to which he responded "unless YOU have a permit to do this, the only thing you can do is destroy it, otherwise I'll be filing my own complaints" (not verbatim, but that was the gist of it). My mum and him at a little tiff, but I got the last of the measurements for us to then leave his driveway.
I am not a confrontational person; I'm not good at aggression. But I do not like the fact that I have this intimidating dude trying to scare my old mum and threatening her to destroy something she's worked years on. Furthermore, I have the following contentions:

• The planter box on the property line border was there WAY before the new neighbors bought the place. To me, the fact that they bought it at all should also be an okay/acknowledgement of the placement of the box on the property line; unless something happened to it that ACTUALLY affects them (eg breaks and soil spills over), they shouldn't (?) have a problem.
  
• We reached out multiple times to them, trying to be civil; if they responded in kind, reassuring us in some fashion, I believe we wouldn't be in this mess, especially if you're doing things you ought to get a permit for. I get taking a few shortcuts here and there, but not a good idea trying to do so if you can't be cautious
  
• I looked at City of Toronto's website (https://www.toronto.ca/services-payments/building-construction/apply-for-a-building-permit/when-do-i-need-a-building-permit/), while it DEFINITELY says one is required when finishing a basement (so we were right to complain), don't think I see one particular about changing out wood for a planter box (which I am not considering an addition to the house, as a line of pots would basically be the same thing)
  
• I am borderline worried he'll try to go out of his way to get my mum in trouble
  
• How else are we gonna replace the old wood with new if we aren't on their property a little? We're specifically doing it because they don't want any of the old stuff breaking off into their driveway (potentially damaging their capop a tire, according to them) in the future. It's gotta make sense!
  
• I think he was "trying to be nice/bigger person", but he just wants to make as sad for making him spend more money and time by making us destroy our own stuff. So much for self-improvement on his part I guess.
  

Anyways, I think we'll try our best to fix up the box as efficiently as we can. We won't be covert about it, but to avoid the neighbors yelling at us again, not gonna loudly advertise it. Just drill out screws, take pieces out, and drill in a big sheet. But does anyone want to chime in on what rights I have if this guy calls the cops on us or makes a scene? Again, we're doing this at HIS request, and he's making it difficult to do. Or if you believe there is bias on my part, feel free to point it out! Free to answer questions as well. Hope I was able to get my points across. Any law stuff would help also!

Thank you for creating this group, and having so many helpful tips at the top.
I need to write out my story, for myself. I know I'm going to be preaching to the choir here.
I've wanted kids all my life. Then 2020 happened and I questioned it for a year plus. Early 2021 we went to a midwife to do a pre-conception check up to help with the decision (if we couldn't have kids, why try? Decision made for me). I got a blood work up, hubs got an SA and everything looked great. Early 2022 we decided we'd start trying in July. We took some months off that year, and by March 2023 it had been 5/6 cycles (I was 35 at the time) so off to a different midwife I went. ("Early bird catches the sperm!" I overconfidently told her, feeling like I didn't reeeaaally need to be there.) She referred me to a fertility clinic. We met with them June of 2023, diagnosed unexplained infertility and did 2.5 IUIs (one got cancelled) between Aug-Oct. Nothing. He had had at least one more SA in that timeframe, still looking good. So, December we were pretty sure we wanted to do IVF in 2024, just had to get the monies in a row. May 2024 has been the month chosen for at least 2 months now.
Probably in the IVF sub is where I first heard about DNA fragmentation (NOT the fertility doc). I asked hubs to set that apt up in Feb or March of 2024. He dragged his feet til late April. We just got the results back. 39%. 39%!!! I'm so pissed off. If ANY of the doctor's I've seen (at least 6) had mentioned this in the last 3.5 YEARS, we may have been pregnant long ago. Or known to skip IUI (and the associated thousands out of pocket, time, emotions...I'm preaching to the choir...) and gone to IVF. I'm also a little pissed at hubby because he dragged his feet, potentially messing up this May timeline. But, I won't tell him cuz it won't change the past.
I'm supposed to start BC around 5/20. He's got an INITIAL apt with an RU on 5/23. My baseline is supposed to be around 5/29 and shots starting 5/31. If this all gets pushed back, we can't do ER in July or August because I've planned my ENTIRE SUMMER around this start date, and nothing works until September. In August, one of our money offers expires - I'm hoping they'll extend it. This fuckers so much up. And, it just feels like time keeps on slipping. I'm very close to 37 now, and he's 43.
I'm hooooping our RE will just say we can do Zymot, TESE, or the hydro-something acid thing, and keep this same plan. IDK why she wouldn't...ER is second week of June so hopefully that'd be enough time to figure out anything else he can do on his end with the RU. He's been taking supplements for years. He's been avoiding alcohol since mid-Jan except one 10 day binger earlier this month that really pissed me off (he's in therapy.)
I feel like I've done everything right in my life. I eat healthy, I don't drink alcohol, I volunteer, I'm a good therapist, I'm a kind person, I go out of my way to offer my time to my friends...I just wish someone would have told me about DNA frag years ago.
I'm glad this group exists for the future. And, I'm REALLY glad we tested it before we started IVF - silver lining.

Hello.
I (33f)have the CPTSD Ive known about it since a 2012 and have struggled since then to get treatment other than ssris. I recently had a mental health flare up and have finally found a therapist that I like. I lot of this have been coming up in therapy where my therapist thinks I should be kinder to myself or stand up for myself. I’m not sure because I’ve been trying to do so but it’s not seeming to work.
My husband works for himself/ works from home/ teaching himself to run a business for the past year. We live in hcol I work full time and pay for our health benefits, (he has an office in the apartment and we still split rent 50/50 (when he has the money to) and pay for all household goods and groceries (unless he is working and he will pay for half) I do most of the large purchases, car, insurance vacations, electricity and water and cell phones and he has the internet. He had liked to live month to month while trying to work as little as possible. I enjoy being with him when he has time for his own pursuits and he doesn’t like 9-5 life so I’m very happy with him not working as much as I do.
The thing is, is that he has been telling me that I don’t do enough, or that he doesn’t ask anything of me, or that I don’t spend enough quality time with him. He doesn’t like that I spend time after work reading or listening to audio books, scrolling Reddit or watching Tv. He says that he wants to see me being productive. He talks about how I need to have more productive hobbies. Like instead of reading, writing, or if I’m reading, blogging or reviewing it. He wants me to go on walks. He says I’d be less depressed if I did more things. He calls the time I spend in the evening mindlessly scrolling and said today that all the time I spend on my phone I could be spending with him. My screen time average is 2.5 hours/day. I’m pretty sure he thinks I’m just wasting my whole life away, it makes me think that he thinks very low of me.
This past year he wanted to start having dinner together at the dinning room table every night. (Like we are “supposed to” It’s been hard for me to rally for them. We would fight because I have a hard time eating without relaxing first and I would be so keyd up after a long shift he would get upset that I wasn’t appreciative. It took a lot of conversation to get him to understand that I need that wind down time before I can face dinner and conversation and real life again. I hurt my back and was unable to sit at the table so he has been understanding about sitting at the couch. After dinner and watching a show together he gets upset if I get on my phone when he goes in his office to work. He wants me to spend the time more productively. On my phone I read and listen to audiobooks. I read 5-6 books a month usually. Sometimes more if they are short stories. Idk how to explain to him that I like reading and it helps me relax. I suggested we read the 5 love languages book and he bought it which made me so happy, after he read it he said he excelled in all the love languages and that it was me who didn’t know how to speak his love language. What am I supposed to say to that?
He does most of the daily household chores ie dishes and laundry. I’ve told him in the past that if he paid for part of the electricity and the health insurance I could afford to get a cleaner. When I was in school and working part time I kept a better house but it’s a lot harder now because my job is stressful and mentally exhausting. I thought the cleaner would solve the issue. He doesn’t think we need one but gets upset that I can’t keep up with half of the duties. Dispite the fact he is home 24/7 and I’m only home in the evenings. Sometimes I work up to 14 hour days. Also, some days I need to be in bed. I give a lot to my job and I thought to was worth it to keep our lifestyle going weather he is actively working or not but now I’m hearing that the only thing I contribute is money and that it doesn’t count because he is going to pay me back.
It’s still hard for me though because I always have to make sure I have the money because I never know if he will be able to contribute or not. I don’t really want to work a bunch either. I am also just a work enough to survive kinda person.
The biggest issue I have is that I don’t think he respects me. Because how could you have such a low opinion of someone you respect? Why does he keep saying that I don’t do anything or that he doesn’t ask anything of me. How can he love someone who doesn’t do anything? He says that he is just trying to better me but I’m okay with myself. I’m not perfect but I’m not bad.
It’s true, I’m depressed and love to get cozy in the couch for hours at a time while listening to an audiobook and scrolling Reddit . I do clean on weekends that I don’t also work. I do the dishes twice a week and vacuum and clean the toilet every weekend. I do the litter box every other month. (It’s the crystal that get changed monthly) I buy the cat food and we split feeding them unless I’m working. I don’t do the dishes daily though(I get depressed with the endless daily tasks) I offered to buy a dishwasher because I had no problem doing that daily but he didn’t want me to spend money on it. I prefer to do larger weekly tasks because it’s hard for me to have the energy daily. I don’t like to cook after work so I’ll order us dinner or pick groceries that are quick meals. This is not what he considers healthy though and prefers to cook us healthy meals.
To me this relationship is me finding compromises and him finding reasons why I’m not doing things right. I am trying my best but I just feel like it’s never enough.
Am I crazy for being hurt by his attitude towards me despite him saying it’s to better me? Is my depression and laziness after work making me a bad partner or is my partner not being understanding of my needs?

• Spawn system is unbearable after extended play time. Half of the game is just deathmatch fighting at spawn in which kind of defeats the purpose of an open world style game. Please add many other spawn points with a wider range on the sides of maps or make a dynamic spawn system that detects other player proximity and moves your spawn based on range so there is at least a buffer of room to get away. I know this is hard to do on farm based on the map size but currently this spawn system is going to turn off a lot of players since the game is built around hardcore loss of gear.
• Initial recoil bounce of guns should be removed/reworked. This was already hated in tarkov for years and makes semi auto guns really unviable compared to full auto. Please change this to be a more consistent curve of recoil instead of just a barrel bounce. Think Counter-Strike but more realistic based on attachments, etc.
• Jumping and shooting with full accuracy (super manning corners) needs to be nerfed. This is especially bad with scavs who have zero reason to lose anything and can still melt your legs/face with stock guns. I do enjoy the more arcadey movement but please don't make this into a call of duty 360 noscope type of game. If your feet are off of the ground your gun recoil should be double in my opinion. Easy fix.
• Full auto spread needs increased (lazer hipfire is bad FPS design). Currently full auto guns are way too strong in terms of being able to just hipfire horizontally and not really aim the gun. I do not want the goofy solutions that tarkov did like durability and jamming to make full auto not so dominant. Just make the recoil realistic in terms of the first few shots are accurate where aiming and then if you continue full auto the cone spreads. This is a known design that works in just about every single FPS game. Keep the realistic ballistics of course but also make the recoil patterns realistic as well. If you want an FPS shooter that is skill based than the player should be controlling the recoil not some arbitrary system. The current design just promotes cheesing as players will shoot the first 2-3 shots prefire into the corner of a wall knowing by the time they strafe out the recoil is "fixed" and they laser. It is just bad design overall for a game that wants tactical realism.
• Scav detection radius is absurd. I am not sure if it changes based on your player level but after hitting level 30 scavs see me from EVERYWHERE. I am talking like a 150m radius if I am anywhere near them I am spotted. They very often comm and rush at me from behind cover or non line of sight where they really should have no idea of my exact location other than general footsteps. Sniper scavs on valley are just as bad and I have been hit through trees at like 300m out just randomly moving through cover. Either please reduce the detection radius or make thier shots a bit less accurate. Sniper scav will basically kill you by shot 3 if you do not have hard cover or some serious armor. I have even multiple times (im taking like every other raid) will see a scav in the distance just straight rushing at my location when I have not fired a shot or given any target inidcator and I will just watch them path right up to me like a magnet. Its both immersion breaking and annoying as hell.
• Scav tanking expensive ammo. This one drives me insane. If you want to make scavs be stronger by increasing health pools than please make some kind of visual change to thier clothing to look armored, especially the face. They dont actually have to have lootable gear obviously to keep the loot balance but there is nothing more immersion breaking or frustrating than shooting a scav with a baseball cap in the face and they just flinch and run off. This is one of the worst design aspects of tarkov and how BSG uses hp pools to balance the boss/AI and it kills me to see it copied in ABI. Please ask the art team to do some kind of pass even making the scavs have ghetto looking armor like something out of the game Rust to keep with the lore feel.
• Higher tier 6-7 7.62x54R does same TTK hits as lvl 5 making the cost pointless in many hours of sniping with a mosin. So basically T5 ammo costs roughly $1k. It on average will two shot body a naked and three shot a geared player with L4+ armor. Headshots are one hit kill. T6 and T7 mosin ammo again from my extensive tesing does the exact same damage counts in terms of hits. So you are paying an extra $1k per round to get the same bullet DPS. Of course yes these rounds will shine vs level6+ armor players but I do not think any ammo worth $1k+ per round should take more than two body shots for L4 armor players. There are a few exceptions to this but I have used mosin on Valley for multiple 10+ hour sessions and something is weird with the 7.62x54R T6 and T7 ammo class.
• Shoulder swap for weapons to left peek. This is an easy addition and honestly should be in any tactical FPS game that requires CQB fighting. Please add this for a huge quality of life.
• Option in player list that can be enabled so whatever team mate gets the killing blow can only loot that body who they killed locking out the rest of the team. This would greatly help with players not wanting to join random squads and get thier stuff taken after putting in the hard work of securing the kill. Not a perfect solution but would greatly help stopping thieves. Yes would players try to "last hit" to steal your loot? Sure. Would this system work 10x better than currently just watching a teammate rat your gear? Absolutely. Again make this a selecable option in the lobby so party leaders can choose and everyone wins. You don't want that option just don't enable it.
• Allow ANY keyboard key to be rebound. Many of us use custom key binds that are shared across multiple game titles and having to "relearn" the keys for this game because certain keys like ALT can not be bound to crouch for example makes the player controller feel really bad. A normal person is not going to just unlearn 15+ years of gaming keyboard binds and so every time there is a panicked firefight I naturally revert to the expected keys and it gets me killed. Super annoying and again very basic fix to allow those keys to be rebound.

My main concern right now is that these types of changes I have listed have taken tarkov YEARS to update. So what I do not want to happen is players having to camp the ABI patch notes for another 2-3 years just to get back those quality of life changes missing in this game that tarkov now has resolved. I do expect ABI to be much more efficient with the patch releases but none the less for someone who has played tarkov for many years some of these changes feel like "starting over with an old version" waiting for the same fixes that already exist in tarkov. They copied a lot of the bad design aspects of tarkov along with the good in my opinion.
At the end of the day this game is fantastic and really blends the casual and tactical mix to hit a wide audience. If you do not currently have beta access please do understand watching the game really does not do it justice. You have to play it to feel all of the small quality of life changes that make this title rival tarkov. I personally could care less if the game is copied or not. They did it better and BSG had 6 years to get thier act together. Someone like myself has been praying for this exact mix of extraction for a long time now. As long as the monetization does not impede the hardcore looting aspect AKA buying gear than I think this game will be just fine for the long run. Good luck out there!

So I have no idea about software dev or anything. But I wanted to make my own linux based digital audio player.
Someone told me that the work was more software based so I'm here to ask for some advice.
I was thinking of buying a reto handheld with wifi and Bluetooth and trying stuff with it instead of buying separate hardware components.
Is what I'm thinking logical? Can it be done and where should I start?
I don't want to buy a handheld and then find out that I was wrong about the whole thing.

Hi Y'all,
I'm 2 weeks into my last summer of college. As a generally depressed person I am trying to do my best to exercise and go out in the sun, meditate, but I don't feel any better.
I follow every advice that my therapist gives me and it still sucks big time. I'm on the thicker side, bipolar and a POC in bumfuck Ohio, as such I've never had luck with dating. I see so many happy people outside while I'm doing my daily bike rides thru some local trails and it truly makes my heart cry. I had tears flowing at Walmart and had to like sit down by the car section to calm down. I work about 60 hours weeks between internship and research, fulfilling work but it's still work.
It's my last summer realistically and I realized that I've never had an enjoyable summer. This summer is on the better side but it hurts me that I'll never get to have a lazy afternoon in the sun with someone I love or go on trips to explore places. I grew up poor, still am. I have had to get everything I needed and wanted myself with no help from anyone, I pay for my own insurance, cellphone plan, cellphone, car, rent, everything.
It's so hard, and I literally cannot take a break. But, I'm grateful for the opportunities I'm presented with, but I really want to have a "normal" college summer. It's tragic really. What sucks more is none of my friends get this. Looking to hear from people with Similar Experiences to feel less isolated as my therapist suggested.

This question is out of curiosity. I’ve never had a relationship before as well. Regardless of what you think of age gap relationships, I do wonder if it’s realistic.
At the end of the day, I’ll take what I can get.
I’ve wasted enough of my life. I’d be willing to date someone 28 to 32, but on condition that kids are never on the table.
I'm not saying all women 25 and above want kids and marriage, but I do bet they want something serious and committed; yes I dare say something very adult.
I'm just not ready for that type of relationship yet where most of my days are work and doing errands. I very still much want to go out until 4 in the morning on a Saturday. And I'd be cool with it if it was almost every Saturday. I feel people my age are past that now.
I just want my first relationship to be fun as it can be even though I’m in adulthood now.
So yes, as a male that's never ever had a girlfriend ever, I much prefer women on the younger end. If that makes me a creepy pervert, so be it. But that's not the point of post.
I just want to know if it's feasible to be in age gap relationship like that despite it being unlikely. I do recognize that at the end of the day, women prefer men their age.

I realized recently that I kind of use Reddit as a diary. The place to share things that I wouldn't normally be able to and reflect on what I have been through.
So welcome to my mind I guess, and I find someone talkative and animated amazingly attractive.
It's honestly super important to me because on the talkative and extroverted scale I am very high up and basically spend all day just trying to experience new things and talk to people where I can.
I absolutely LIVE for a good conversation and find myself growing stressed and bent out of shape if I find myself isolated. I often annoy or overwhelm quieter, more shy folks so I want someone to match my energy and have the type of relationship where we stay up until 3 in the morning doing absolutely nothing but sharing stories and flirting when you find a real connection.
I wouldn't call myself clingy and I realize you have a life, I don't want to know what you're up to all the time and I won't keep tabs on you. But realize I genuinely care about what you're life is like, and find great joy in spending time with someone and if you can't make time for that then what's the point of being together?
Maybe I just want someone to adore me as much as I adore them. Someone I can build a future with and gives me motivation and happiness.
I don't really have an idea of what you would look like. I don't really have a "type" whereas most men seem to have a list of traits their ideal woman should have like a coffee drink or something. Hair color, eye color, and nationality never mattered to me though I do find shorter women more attractive (I am six feet tall myself). Hopefully you're not old enough to be my mother or so young it would be creepy.
I want to slow down and relax with someone and be stupid together. Go out and explore the world because shared experiences are always so much more special in my memories than ones where I was alone.
I've been working too hard and been too on my own lately so I dare you to make me stop and think for a moment.
I got time I promise.

I've been working for months to try to unravel the complicated history of my ancestry, but I was wondering if anyone could point me in a better direction.
From what I've found so far, it looks like my great-grandfather was born in a Rusyn village that's in present-day Ukraine. From what I can tell, everything about him seems to line up that of Rusyn people: he was a coal miner, his last name is a Hungarian-ized (later American-ized) version of a Rusyn last name, he was Greek Orthodox, he settled in PA, etc.
But... my great-grandmother is a whole different story. The area she was born in changes on literally every document I've been able to find, and since the majority of my grandmother's siblings have passed away and my grandmother wasn't raised with her parents for very long, I'm having a really hard time putting the pieces together. I know boarders changed constantly in Europe due to the wars, but how do I begin to unravel that? Her maiden name is Polish but she was allegedly born in Czechoslovakia (some docs say Krompachy, some "Kossive," some say she was born in Austria, some say "Slovakland," and some say Dubrava without a country name). But her sister wrote that she was born in "Brgesko, Czechoslovakia" which isn't a place from what I can tell-- the only thing that comes up is Brzesko, Poland. This is, notably, the one that seems to be the most accurate however, since "Kossive" and Krompachy came out of no where.
Additionally, if she was in fact Polish, why wouldn't she just write that on the census documents? Her ethnicity was written as Slovak, Hungarian, and "Slavish" and she wrote her native language as "Slavish" many times, but that doesn't make sense to me. If she was from Poland, why wouldn't she just write Polish? And if she wasn't Polish and she was Slovak, why wouldn't she just write that instead of "Slavish?" I think it's possible she might've been Rusyn as well, so that may explain the "Slavish" thing, but it's extremely difficult to discern that because I literally cannot figure out where she was actually born.
So, I guess my question is, how do I untangle this? What is the most straight-forward way (short of a DNA test 'cause I don't have the money nor the trust in these companies to do that) of being as certain as I can about their ethnicities? I want to be able to talk about where my family came from-- especially since this is important to my grandmother and I want to be able to give her an answer-- but I don't want to claim to be something I'm not.
And as an aside, I'm aware that a lot of these areas were part of the Empire and switched hands between Austria and Hungary often, but my main issue is trying to figure out where my great-grandma was actually born because there's so many inconsistencies there that I don't even know where to start. Additionally, I have tried to look into my great-grandmother's parents since she came to the US with them, but it's just brick wall after brick wall and people who've been doing this for a lot longer than I have can't breakthrough it.