Good night peoms

I turn 18 in august and most of my suicide attempts was when I was 15, each one of them painful and made me wanna die less because of it. Now i actually have reasons to live, I have a boyfriend, my niece and nephews are old enough to remember me, and I realized my dogs will not understand what happened and will miss me. Despite having no idea what I’m gonna do when I’m 18 due to being a dropout I am no longer suicidal and I’m kinda excited to turn 18. And I made this post to hopefully encourage people to wait a little longer, it might get better and it might happen without you realizing it. Anyway I hope whoever’s reading this has a good day/night. (I hope this post is readable I’m on mobile and tired)

I am set on stopping my people pleasing attitudes, and one of the things I have set a goal on doing is setting boundaries with people, especially with people I love, because there is where I find it the hardest. Well, yesterday the person that cleans my house, with whom I have a good relationship (I wouldn’t say they are a super close friend, but we don’t have just a employer-employee relationship, we care about each other and we support each other emotionally), texted me and asked me to lend her 500€. I immediately felt a sense of dread when I read that message, because I immediately knew that was a line I didn’t want to cross. I have had bad experiences in the past, where someone borrowed more than 4k€ from me and never gave it back. Of course, they are not that person and I don’t necessarily have to have the same experience with them, but I firmly believe that is a boundary I don’t want to be crossed, and I don’t want to introduce that dynamic in our relationship. So I told them no. Later on I was feeling extremely guilty (even though I knew I didn’t want to do it) and I told a friend about it, and I honestly didn’t feel supported at all. She focused on the fact that she would have lent them the money, and I told her that was not the point, the point was that I was feeling like a terrible person for not doing something I don’t want to do. She tried to reassure me that she didn’t think I was a bad person, but that didn’t comfort me. I had a terrible night sleep and haven’t eaten anything for 2 days now. Trying to stop people pleasing is hard.

My best friend and I have been close since school so for around 10 years now, we’ve seen eachother through a couple of awful relationships, been in single girl phases and spent pretty much every weekend together. Until we both got into relationships again, we don’t see eachother as much anymore which is fine we’re both busy.
Unfortunately my friend was coerced to move in with her long term boyfriend, as his tenancy was coming to an end and he insisted she joined him on his next one, and if she didn’t he’d of been really upset. She exclusively told me that she’d love to live with a friend before a boy, but that she couldn’t do this because he’d be upset.
This is now a theme in their relationship, they live together and spend every weekend together, and eat dinner together every night. They don’t have friends over to their place, he has had a tantrum when she said I was coming over for lunch and he refused to let me come as it was ‘messy’. She can’t even go to the cinema or the gym alone, he insists that they have to do things together and she just goes along with it! She won’t see films in the cinema because HE doesn’t want to see them! He’s also said before that they can’t go to the gym seperately because they need to ‘support eachother’ and go on the journey together…every time I hear a story it’s piecing more things together in my brain and I don’t feel good about it. I can’t believe she’s actually happy and wanting to be with this person long term? He’s attended gathering at my house where I have warned her it’s just girls and no guys are attending, and then made her leave early because he was bored.
He also gets annoyed at her whenever she makes plans with me (maybe once every month) because HE wanted to have plans with her on that day too. I’ve noticed her become a shell of herself, she doesn’t take care in her appearance like she used to. She doesn’t seem happy when we meet up and he’s just smothered her entire life outside of work. I thought maybe the change was just because she’s settled down, but the stories she tells me of him getting annoyed at her for making plans with me just make me think differently…
So she fought her corner and said I don’t care if you’re annoyed at me, I want to see my friend and have a day out so I’m going to do that. We went on a road trip, I drove there and back probably around 100 miles round trip. I didn’t ask for fuel money, and I didn’t ask for money for the car park when we were there. But she didn’t even give me a ‘thank you’ or offer to contribute anything towards fuel or parking. This has left a bitter taste in my mouth, and I also hate the situation she’s in with her relationship. It’s making me not feel so loving towards her, the fact she was ungrateful and not helpful, and the fact she’s losing her personality, and not doing anything about the blood sucking man in her life. I have so much anger towards him and this situation and I want to go the fuck off on him but I can’t.

I have said a few times that once Xiaomi can sell and deliver over 300k electric vehicles a year, it's electric vehicle venture should be profitable even after taking into account the research and development expenses.
Of course, the higher the sales and delivery volume, the lower the R&D cost per unit will be. This will make it even more compelling from a price angle, which Xiaomi has always been good at.
News last night mentioned that Xiaomi is working on a SUV and will be launching by year end come as no surprise. Will it outperform Tesla model? Of course, I have sufficient confidence in it.
This news drives Xiaomi's share price up over 3 percent and it has at one point reaches over 20.15 hkd.
If it can break above 20 hkd strongly, I will not be surprised to see xiaomi share price (01810hk as ticker code) to break above 25 hkd.
As always, this should not be construed as any investment or trading advice.

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My play group is quite small, only around 10 of us, and a few drop in and out so any day there might only be 3 games going.
2 of the regulars are people who are otherwise really nice guys, they are friendly and good natured, they dont cheat or get angry or anything like that, they arent "that guy"
BUT, when they start to lose they become very obviously grumpy, and are quite quick to conceed if they think things arent going their way. they dont get angry or abrasive, they just become very obviously unhappy with the game.
as a result when playing against them, if i start to win i feel as though im not allowed to enjoy the game without making it worse for them, i feel as though i have to downplay my fun, i cant celebrate good rolls, and if things are going very well for me have to start making bad decisions and skipping rules/strats to try and win less, because if i dont do any of that i just make them more unhappy and so make the atmosphere of the game and night even worse.
again they arent "that guy", they dont get angry, they dont cheat, they arent unpleasent to be around (most of the time). iv had some great games against them, its just if things ever start to turn a bit one sided against them they kind of pout (for lack of a better word) and ruin the atmosphere by being obviously unhappy
i cant avoid playing against them, as i said there might only be 3 games going on a night, i am going to play against them sometimes.
Have any of you had experience with this sort of player, in your own playgroups, at tournaments or anywhere else, how do you deal with them without making the game worse for everyone.

It’s late and I don’t really have time to properly journal sooo here are some points:

• I went to the play tonight and it was utterly wonderful! It was quite a creative approach and was so funny at times. Many of the actors played multiple parts and they did some of them so brilliantly. Like Sir Walter and Mary? Definite standouts. But they’re such funny characters, funny is such a lazy word and doesn’t quite cover it but whatever. I didn’t like the Frederick in the movie, and I didn’t much like him in this play either. I love the character but idk, the way he seems to be portrayed is so… twatty. But the love story between them is so romantic, if a little tragic. Anyway it was amazing. It was a very small theatre and so some of the times the actors were staring straight at me while reciting their lines and it was so unnerving, but I didn’t want to look away in case it disrupted their focus. It only happened like that twice, and then the other times I could look elsewhere. I get so uncomfy when people look at me. I know it wasn’t looking at ME though, which made it more bearable, I was just in the middle and someone for them to focus their eyeline on so that made me feel less… seen. Also they had weird puppets as the children which was so funny and clever.
  
• We talked last night about his friend and holy mother of god we can absolutely NOT talk about it ever again because it truly sent me feral. I had to sleep on the other side of the bed because of how wet I got. NEVER AGAIN. But all day I’ve not thought about his friend, but the way Andy spoke to me, I can’t remember exactly what he said which annoys me but he said new things like about how wet I was and things and throughout the day I’ve had thoughts about what maybe he said and I get tingles from head to toe and like I’m glowing inside. He’s so goddamn hot shsgagahagakjasg. I’ve felt bad today, because he said he didn’t want to talk about it again after last night which I agree with but I feel guilty because I couldn’t exactly hide how into it I was. I’m now dreading the day I meet his friend M. I think I’ll be “sick” every single time. I mean I won’t but ffs, I get anxious meeting new people as it is, imagine how hard it’ll be meeting him while at the back of my mind I have an image of him slamming me up against a wall. I resent the fact we talked about this. J is okay, M is absolutely not. Anyway. Last night was insannnnnnneeeeeeeeeelllyyyyyyt good.
  
• I had puppy today, he’s so cute. He’s super fluffy at the moment and he slept at my feet while I worked.
  
• I just realised I haven’t really eaten today, I had some vegemite toast around 11 and then nothing since. I’m kind of peckish but it’s 9:26pm so I’m going to wait til tomorrow.
  

I don’t want to think about anything else to journal now, I just wanna spend time with my honey. I missed him a lot today, idk why I miss him more somedays? I know I can be quite a clingy lil thing though, but he said he doesn’t mind that and kind of likes it so thank god for that. I hope he still doesn’t mind it? Hm. Anyway. Night night

Ran into a friend the other day and we got talking about some of the craziest things we did when we were kids growing up in the 80's.
We got talking about this one time we camped out at a friends house but then stayed up all night prowling the streets. We were about 12-13 and we had stolen a few beers from my dad (it was pretty weak beer, which I think he kept because of this!) but we thought we were the bosses.
We thought it would be cool to make a fire in field and have a good old campfire. It was summer holidays and we were making the most of it!
Well one thing led to another and we accidentally set fire to a hedgerow. We got freaked out and tried and tried to get it under control but it was just raging. At a certain point, we just decided to run like hell back to our tent.
Back in our tent a bit later, we heard emergency vehicles going back and forth, people shouting etc. but we just stayed in our tent.
The next day we found our we had destroyed about just under a mile of hedgerow. The whole thing was in the local paper and it's all people spoke about when we went back to school. It was crazy, we heard all types of theories about it and some people were blamed and were always then known as the person who did it etc.
40 years later, the truth still hasn't come out and everyone has moved on. I do regret it happening and feel ashamed of the damage I caused, but I do think how lucky I am to have such good friends who never spilled the beans, always kept that secret and hopefully that is one we will all take to our graves.

So about 1 and a half weeks ago I hurt a muscle at the top of my butt/lower back. I rested for about a week and then played a game of netball, thinking I was better. Annoyingly, I struggled to run fast during the game and it felt worse after, ruining my healing progress.
Now that a few days have passed and I’m not exercising at all, I feel it slowly getting better again but I really want to start playing netball as soon as possible as it’s been really good for my mental health. I’m getting desperate.
I am vegan for the animals and I have never even made a slight effort to get enough protein (I know it’s bad) I probably average at about 20-25g a day. But since this is the first time I’ve gotten an Injury that’s lasted more than a few days, I’m now inspired to actually eat enough protein because I know it helps with muscle recovery.
So today I put in effort, tracked my intake and ended up having about 50g! So basically I jumped to more than double my daily intake. If I continue this for the next next 3 days, (until my netball game on Friday night), will it speed up the recovery process, or do I have to have been eating enough protein for a few weeks? It’s only 3 days so I’m worried it won’t help. Obviously I will keep eating more after this but I am so desperate to play.
Thanks for your help

What should I do, my entire friend group is ignoring me and I don’t know why?
This past week I was having a really hard time and my closest friend in the group knows it. It’s been really difficult for me and I couldn’t really get out of the bad mood I was in, as besides the things that were making me worry or feel bad, even more stuff continued to happen.
On Friday we decided to hang out for just a little bit, however they were being kinda quiet, which nothing wrong with that but I already kinda did not wanna be there cause I felt bad but I decided to go nonetheless and after twenty minutes I couldn’t stay anymore so I just told them that I’m going back to my room. (I was already having some issues with one of them cause she bailed on me for us living together last second, then we were supposed to go on a one day trip and she lied to me just to get out of it, almost a week ago I had given her a little present and on Thursday she had told me she still hasn’t opened it because apparently she didn’t have time, and then finally on Saturday when I saw her after coming back from the supermarket I had started talking to her and midway she just stopped listening to me, turned her back and started talking to other people and then even though we were in the same elevator she didn’t say bye or anything.)
Right after the thing with the supermarket all of us were supposed to hang out so I was already thinking if I should even show up (also a little bit because after me leaving on Friday nobody had bothered to text me as well, and they had also hung out Saturday during the day without me) but I thought I would regret it if I don’t so I actually did end up going. However, I was one of the first to come and when I entered the room my friend’s bf and his friend said hi to me , however my friend (not the one I was having issues with) didn’t so I just kinda felt weird cause I thought she didn’t want me to be there or sth so once again after like thirty minutes I just kinda left and ik I probably shouldn’t have and I probably should have texted sth to explain myself but I just thought that ,,oh she knows I have been feeling like shit the past few days, she’ll know I’m not doing it on purpose or sth.”
Then on Sunday they were hanging out during the day and nobody had texted me or invited me so I kinda felt bad and then they were posting stories of them hanging out at night as well without inviting me even though we hang out together almost every single day.
At that point I was thinking if I should ask them if I did sth but I never skip classes and cause all of us live in the same building and we always go to class together like 30 minutes before it starts I thought they would text me and maybe then I could ask, however nobody texted me to go with them or why I’m not in class. I made up my mind and later during the day I texted my closest friend in the friend group if I did sth or if sth happened cause things have felt a little off since Friday and she left me on around 4 hours delivered. However, she just told me she doesn’t feel that good so she will just come back to me when she feels better. And I don’t wanna assume things but from my side it just felt like she said it as an excuse to not talk to me because she was with them all the previous days the entire time and she was posting stories a bit before I had texted her but ofc I can’t rlly know that.
One more thing the other friend I had some issues with removed me from her close friends around the time I had texted the other one, so I don’t know if she just removed me randomly or if she removed me cause they were hanging out and she just didn’t want me to see or sth.
I also did not end up going to class today and none of them have bothered to ask me if I’m coming or sth so idk.
It just truly makes me feel like shit cause they know this is probably the hardest week I’ve gone through and suddenly all of them r ignoring me, and I rlly don’t think I have done anything. Cause everything was okay before Friday. I think the worst I could have done was leave suddenly like two times on Friday and Saturday but then they do know I haven’t been feeling okay so it’s not like I’m doing it cause I don’t like them or sth. So right now I just really don’t know what to do. I was thinking about maybe texting my friend once again tonight if she hasn’t responded by then and just asking her nicely for an explanation because it sucks being completely in the dark but idk.

Wade took a breath as he picked up his old duffel bag, now loaded with his DD uniform and a few other items from the Ceres mines as he slotted it to his side, with the large band handle around his neck. Having gathered his belongings, he joined Tina, who was waiting near the ship's open bay door as he walked over to her. The couple watched several of the other troopers inside marching out as well, some carrying crates of supplies and items out of the craft as they departed for the base outside. Kelly was one of the last ones still on board, checking on a section of the cargo bay as she did what Wade presumed was some maintenance work.
With the way now clear, Wade and Tina stepped off the transport, glancing at the massive base around them as they touched the roughened pavement. Throughout the large landing port were several more chameleon dropships, their crews disembarking with similar items and loads of rescued drones aboard. Beyond the ships were several hangar bays and fighter craft, mostly A-20s and their space-borne cousins docked in lines going across the pad. And beyond the landing zone, towering over several buildings at the base, were the few cruisers docked to the large clamps holding them in place.
Walking ahead with Tina, Wade observed some of the departing Coalition troops as they neared one of several tents stationed near an inactive group of planes, the military personnel interacting and exchanging the crates with the Coalition officers upon reaching each other. Hearing a low roar of engines from afar, the lover drones looked upward to see the large USN warship that was present at the factory earlier, having followed the transport convoy home and now was beginning to descend for landing. Wade gave a silent gasp as he caught a glimpse of the ship's name and SIC number at the side, remembering it from the ship he and Ron saw while returning to Earth.
"Always a wondrous thing to see, isn't it Wade?" Tina said as she and her boyfriend watched the ship slowly come lower to the unoccupied dockyard clamps below it.
"Sure is, wonder how they built those babies?" Wade replied as the two looked upon the landing starship, the former worker drone smirking as he added, "I could've swore I saw that same exact ship over Henderson when Ron and I came back, before we got mugged earlier."
Tina glanced to Wade with surprise as she spoke up on his claim. "Really? Well, that had to be the one that helped our friends here back at the factory. I think I saw the same name on it too!"
"Wouldn't surprise me, seeing all that's happened today." Wade replied as he chortled a bit, Tina doing the same as the former spoke further. "I wonder, what kind of ship is the... Vickers again? You know?"
"Autumn class, dear. A heavy destroyer variant, not as strong as those enormous Yamato dreadnoughts or Adelaide battlecruisers, but she'll put up a good fight for whatever comes at her." Tina explained as she held back another chuckle, thinking of her education on various USN craft as she teased Wade lightly. "You know, I may just have to grab one of those ship roster tabs when we get in the base. I'd love to show you all they got in their arsenal."
Wade chortled again as he gave his thoughts on the idea. "Well, it wouldn't be bad to have a little more knowledge in ship-story."
Tina almost burst out laughing at his crude pun, Wade smiling at her as F and Nathan jogged over to the two, the latter carrying his own backpack behind him as he spoke. "Well, not a bad place, huh? You guys heading to the clearance station?"
"Oh yes, we were just admiring the ships around us while we walked." Tina said with a stifled laugh, easing herself as she chatted with her new friends. Wade, however, was quickly overcome with panic as he remembered something. Checking his pockets, his fears were confirmed as he failed to find one of his key possessions: his ID card. Wade felt he must have lost it when he was stripped of his old clothing while in the factory.
Oh no, guys? I don't think I can pass through." Wade said with greenish-yellow circles for eyes as Tina and the others looked to him in concern, the drone feeling through his pockets once more before stating his issue. "My ID, they must've taken it off me when they turned me into a disassembly drone!" Wade began to hyperventilate lightly as he grew fearful of the potential outcomes when they reached the security gate ahead. "Oouuugghh, if I don't have my ID, they'll have to keep me lo-"
"Wade, Wade... it's okay. I'll have them make a pass for you, surely we can get them to after getting them to understand what's happened." Tina stated as she put her hand to Wade's chest, who eased his panic as he looked to his girlfriend.
"Yeah, and besides Wade, those people over there went around gathering what ever items the company stole from the drones during their conversion. I'm sure that once they find it, they'll have it sent off to be given back to you!" Nathan said as F nodded in agreement, shunting Wade's panic out of him with their words as he replied to the hopeful responses.
"Right, yeah, they should do that. Sorry." Holding Tina's hand, Wade spoke to her once more. "Lead the way."
Tina nodded to Wade before the two began to walk over to the security gate nearby, several people, drones and humans alike, already in the line as they checked themselves in to the base to relax after the hard-fought battle. Once they reached the line, the four stood together as they waited for the line to slowly go up, more troops and rescued drones coming over to add to the long line. During the wait, a loud, mechanical 'SLAM' erupted through the air, prompting Wade and Tina to glance over to the direction of the noise. The two felt at ease once more as they saw the Vickers finally landed at the base, the loud clang being the docking clamps attaching to the ships hull just moments ago.
As the line moved up further to the gate, Wade and Tina caught sight of a pair of A-20 aircraft passing over them, the two watching as the planes slowed down while descending onto the runway nearby. The four drones' collective viewing of the fighters landing ceased as they caught sight of J, who took flight as she departed the transport nearby before flying over to the tents near the hangar bays.
"Huh, wonder what she's over there for?" Nathan said as he observed J landing onto the ground in front of one of the tents.
"Probably checking on the drones we got back, or meeting up with one of those commanders there." F said as she motioned an arm towards the tents, J walking under one as she made her way to one of the soldiers coming over to her. "Seems like the latter, from the looks of it."
Wade shrugged as he responded to the group's pondering over J's actions. "Well, she'll be here with us if we need her, right? Shouldn't be much to worry about."
Returning their focus to the line ahead, Wade and his team waited as the line moved up over the next few minutes, moving impressively fast as the people in front cleared themselves in one at a time. Eventually, the four of them were up, Tina stepping up to show her ID for clearance. "Hello, it's been a busy day, hasn't it?"
The security agent smirked at Tina's small-talk. "Hah, not too busy here until you all showed up."
As the guard finished scanning Tina's ID, she handed the card back to her as she raised a finger to begin her request. "Oh, um, there's a little issue we need to resolve." Putting a hand to Wade's arm, Tina explained her boyfriend. "This is my dear friend Wade, Wade Carter. We both managed to escape that blasted factory with the help of those Coalition folks there." Wade gave a pleading look as Tina continued. "Unfortunately, Wade was converted into a disassembly drone before he was rescued, and it seems those people at the company took all his belongings he had on him, including his ID. Do you think there's... anyway you could write up something to let him by?"
Stepping forward, F gave her end of the story. "I can vouch for him, Ma'am. Wade and I we're among the teams helping in getting the worker drones out of the factory during the operation." The disassembly drone pulled out a pair of cards as she finished her explanation, one of them being her company-issued Disassembly Service Passcard, which resembled a normal civilian ID in appearance, save for the 'JCJenson (In Spaaace!) Logo on the top left and hazard markings around the rim of the card. As for the other card, it was a well worn, still legitimate ID card, showing F as how she appeared when she was a worker drone. At the side of her picture was a name with an initial. "FELICITY A LEE"
Taking the two cards in her hand, she looked them over and scanned them as Nathan tried to back Wade up as well. "So can I, Ma'am! I helped there too, when he was under the company's control. We all got him out of the factory so we could get him back in order." Pulling out his own ID, Nathan handed it out as the guard returned F's IDs to her.
The guard accepted Nathan's ID as she spoke over what to do with Wade. "Well, normally it takes clearance from higher ranked personnel here to allow someone inside without a legitimate form of identification. We can't just take someone's word on things like this, after all." Tina seemed to frown in disappointment as the guard explained her protocols, Wade looking down at the ground as he felt his worries were about to be proven correct. Going over Nathan's ID further, she gave an intrigued expression at the card before continuing. "Huh, interesting. Got two veteran folks here, I see?" She glanced to Nathan and F as she said that, taking into account their former military background as the former spoke up.
"Three, actually. My pal Kurtis is somewhere back there, I think. He should be heading down here later this evening." The guard glanced back at Nathan's ID as she took in the veteran drone's reply, sighing as she decided to make a slight amendment to the issue put before her and the four friends.
"Well, seeing you two here, I believe I can write something up. The Major won't be happy with me for this, but I think I can trust you with appropriate behavior." Taking a small sticky name-tag, the woman pulled out a pen before starting to write on it. Initially, she glanced to Wade, who stated his name again before she began to write his name on the tag. Once she was finished, the guard gave the tag to Wade, who slapped it onto his jacket before she spoke to him. "You should be fine to enter for the most part, just stick close to your friends and don't cause any trouble. Understood?"
Wade gave a stern salute to the security officer, who held back a chuckle at the honest, yet amusing effort the disassembly drone showed to her. Giving a simple nod and a flick of her hand, she permitted Wade and his friends entrance to the base, the four walking past the walkway barricades as they made their way past the gate.
Wade let out a heavy sigh of relief as he thanked his allies. "I owe you both so much for this, thanks!"
"Don't mention it, Wade." F said warmly as she and Nathan laughed at his joyful face.
"Yeah, just doing what any good friend should." Nathan said as Tina wrapped an arm around Wade, holding him tightly as the two walked together.
Looking to his girlfriend, Wade spoke to Tina about what to do next. "Well, since we're in, you wanna go fi-" He ceased his words as he remembered that there was someone else they needed to find amongst the base. "Oh, I almost forgot about her,"
"Jasmine!" Tina and Wade said aloud together as the former remembered her sister, Wade's words snapping her mind to Jasmine in an instant. "We should look for her, you think she might be here somewhere?"
"Probably. If they got Ron after they captured me, they have to 've picked her up too." Wade stated, Nathan raising a hand as he offered to help.
"I could go looking for her! You know what she looks like?" Readying a holo-projector, he tried to display an image of Jasmine from one of his many memories of her. The picture was, while pixelated and under a blue hue, incredibly well-detailed. And for Nathan, that was all he needed to see to note Jasmine's appearance in his memory. Nodding, he spoke again to his friends. "Got it! I'll see if she's around!" Then, turning to run down one of the paths leading to a nearby base facility, he stopped as he asked one more question. "Oh! One more thing, you got a smartcomm on ya, Wade?"
Readying one from his holo-projector hand, he nodded as he spoke into it. "Seems so, though I don't seem to have all my contacts added in."
Running back over, Nathan pulled out his own smartcomm before putting it up against Wade's hand one, allowing the two devices to exchange information. Upon the devices beeping, Wade and Nathan nodded to each other, the former ignoring a pop-up that stated, "New Contact Added" while the latter spoke once more. "Okay, I'll call you once I spot her!" With that, he began running down the path once more, intent on finding Tina's sister at the base, wherever she could be.
"Fowley! Her last name's Fowley!" Tina said aloud to the departing Nathan, hoping he heard her words before turning away from the miner drone and facing Wade and F again.
As Tina sighed in partial relief, Wade put his own arm around her before asking the question he tried to ask before. "So, uh, with that out of the way for now... You wanna go look for one of those ship tabs?"
Putting a hand to Wade's chest, Tina smiled as she replied. "Oh, certainly." Then, as the three began walking down a different path that Nathan hadn't taken, the pilot drone continued with a chuckle. "I hear they have a place here that sells model kits too!"
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Jasmine sat in silent sorrow as she took another gulp of her glass of Proxi-Vodka, a tasty, but heavy alcoholic beverage produced at the colony of Proxima 2... and one of Jasmine's preferred drinks to have when she wasn't in a good mood. When she awoke after being stunned by the station guards, she found that she was just recovered by a group that called themselves the 'United Earth Coalition', and that her drone friend, Tina, was unfortunately taken by the JCJenson corporation to be turned into one of their horrid disassembly drones. While the people that saved her offered to help her find Tina, so far there had been no luck in doing so. No successful calls, no response from Wade nor Ron, nothing.
The whole situation widdled at her like scrapes to her form, slowly draining any bit of hope that she had in finding her sister. And once the mission at that factory was over, the ship began heading back to the Nellis Base to escort the recovered drones back to a safe area. Unfortunately for Jasmine, Tina's presence was not given confirmation. Alone, she walked off to one of the bars down at the base, specifically Drexler's Cantina, one of the more popular bars down at the military starport. Thankfully, though she didn't openly exhibit feelings of wanting to be alone in her wallowing, she was glad the place was nearly barren of patrons, with only a few at a couple of tables within the bar.
The stage at the back of the bar also had a few singer drones performing aloud, the lead singer girl reciting the words of a quiet, yet exciting song that, instrumentally, consisted of a strange mix of bass, techno, and a hint of opera. The song itself was one Jasmine had heard a good many times before in her life, known as, 'You Complete My World' by a decades old Earth band by the name of HeartStar. The song, as Jasmine and many others who'd heard it interpreted it, was about someone who described their world like a puzzle, and that the one whom the main singer cared for beyond all was the only thing that could keep their world from shattering into ruin before them.
An oddly fitting tune, given what had just happened on the JCJ Central earlier. For all Jasmine knew, Tina was either alive beyond her knowledge, hopefully searching for her wherever she could, or, the answer Jasmine feared... Dead.
Not wanting to even consider the thought, the human pilot took another swig of the colonial Vodka, relishing in its taste before forcing herself to swallow, almost gagging from the strength of the drink. Easing herself, she glanced out to one of the windows of the bar, taking the faint glimpse of night into her eyes. Then, looking to the clock at the wall ahead of her, she saw the time was about a little over an hour to 10 pm. Jasmine gave a sigh to herself, certain she would be alone for the rest of the night.
Unbeknownst to her, however, Jasmine had been spied upon a little while ago. Nathan, in his search for the woman Tina called Jasmine Fowley, had spotted a woman matching the physical appearance of the target. Knowing Jasmine wouldn't know who he was if he tried to talk to her himself, Nathan immediately went looking for Wade, easing his return to his team by calling the former worker drone and signaling him about his findings.
Deciding to check on the news, Jasmine slowly pulled out her smartcomm, resisting her urge to press the contacts button as she tapped the news app. Looking through it, she spotted a recent story that was posted just over an hour ago, titled, "JCJenson 'Recall' effort sabotaged by joint Government/Militia forces! The Truth Exposed!" Above the article was a video, a play button in front of it teasing Jasmine. Curious over this sudden development, she pressed the button, her attention in complete focus on the video as it began to play.
After the news station's logo appeared on-screen for a short few seconds, the current host for the story, Mrs. Tiffany Joy, appeared at her seat before beginning the story. "Good evening, this is Nevada-78, I'm your host, Tiffany Joy. Tonight, we start with a rapid development for the 'drone recall' incidents propagated by the business conglomerate JCJenson In Space. Throughout the afternoon up to now, several advanced factories under the ownership of the corporation have fallen under violent assault by various militarized forces, ranging from official United Nations operatives to private militia groups with varying goals." The small screen to Joy's left shifted to show the state of Nevada, zooming into it to show a portion of the Mojave desert as Joy continued her story.
"Among these facilities, one such factory based right here in southern Nevada has recently succumbed to the successful efforts of the USN Defense Force and a group by the name of the United Earth Coalition, an alliance consisting of humans and automatons working to create a unified world for both species." The screen shifted again to show the logo for the UEC, which appeared as one half of a human head outline and another of a drone's, along with two arms behind the heads belonging to both beings pictured. "With the attack having concluded just hours ago, we have reporters gathering at the New Nellis Staryards near Henderson City to bring you the aftermath of the conflict. We go to Mr. Jelico, on the scene in five."
The camera shifted after the countdown of five to show Mr. Jelico in front of the camera, the cameraman filming a large tent housing several worker drones being tended to by the base soldiers. "Alright, Jelico here, we're on station at New Nellis. What you're all seeing here are some of the recovered worker drones, many of them were pretty spooked by the events that unfolded in that factory earlier." As the camera panned over the lot of drones, some of them looked to the camera, curious at the news crew filming them as Jelico continued. "A few of them are real glad to be here, Joy. Seems like they feel safe here, as far as I can tell."
As the camera moved to show Jelico again, a plane could be seen taking off as he spoke. "Yeah, these people did them quite a service. The staff here are working to find their original owners and families, it'll probably be a little bit before they can get them all home." The camera switched once again to another view of the base, the lights of various buildings illuminating the night as the news story continued.
At the entrance, Nathan pushed open the door to the bar, the chime failing to catch anyone's attention as he, Wade, F and Tina stepped inside. Carefully pointing at Jasmine, he whispered to Tina, "That's her, from the looks of it. She's been here for a good minute!"
Taking another drink of the Proxi-Vodka, Jasmine listened further to the story. "The authorities didn't just recover a majority of the worker drones taken into the factory, however. A recent update provided by Mrs. Yuka, shows her interviewing a disassembly drone who claims to be among the unfortunate drones the assault force failed to save before their conversion."
"Jasmine!" Tina called out, the voice instantly grabbing the woman's attention as she paused the news story. Swiftly turning her head, her heart began pounding with immense excitement as she saw her drone sister, who grinned upon seeing her face.
"Tina!" Jasmine said aloud, somewhat weakly from her previous wallowing as she tried to run over to her sister, landing on her knees as the two embraced in a flush of emotions. Wade and his friends stood behind the two girls as they hugged each other, clinging onto one another as tightly as they could give. Jasmine seemed to erupt with a pained cough as she allowed some of her sorrow out of her heart, Tina carressing her back in a comforting manner as she held back her own tears. The sisters held the hug for a long moment, not daring to let go of one another for fear of losing each other again. Eventually, however, they did, the two sisters taking heavy breaths as Jasmine spoke up while wiping her face. "I thought I'd lost you."
"Can't say I didn't feel the same way, love." Tina replied as she broke out in light laughter, glancing to Wade before continuing. "But, fortunately, those Coalition boys helped out quite a bit. Though, not as much as my knight in his new armor."
Standing herself up, Jasmine took Tina's helping hand as she looked to the one her sister spoke of. A grateful smile formed on Jasmine's face as she saw Wade, standing in front of her and Tina as he returned the expression. Looking upon her family friend, Jasmine noticed something... different about Wade. He was taller now, his arms were shaped like white cones rather than the silver bendy tubes he and Tina normally had. As for his face, his pure green eyes were replaced with a set of greenish-yellow ones, and above his forehead was a band holding five yellow bulbs that she didn't know the function of.
While the pieces started to click together in her head, Jasmine took Wade's held out hand as she spoke to him. "Wade, I'm so glad to see you! You look different, too. Did something... happen to you?" She already guessed it by this point, but feigned confusion as she opted to hear Wade's take on the matter.
"Yeah, I hope you don't mind your sister dating a vampire from now on." Tina chortled in amusement at Wade's comment at himself, Jasmine raising an eyebrow in confusion at the former worker drone as he returned his expression to a more sincere smile. "The company got me too, and unlike the workers we got out... they managed to turn me into a disassembly drone. From now on, I'm gonna need to take in more oil than I usually did before I was turned. My cooling system's not as good as it should be, from what I've heard." Pulling out his two full canteens, Wade finished his partial explanation. "Don't worry, though. I've got some to keep me down."
Jasmine took in the news with immense surprise, noticing the hazard stripes at the rims of Wade's arms as she replied to her friend. "Oh... Well, if Tina's fine with it, then I see no problem with that, Wade." Admittedly, she was a bit unnerved by the change, concerned for both him and Tina's safety due to this supposed oil coolant issue. Trying to sound as nice as she could on the matter, Jasmine hesitantly asked Wade, "Though... I am a bit concerned with that bad cooling problem you mention. You... don't think you would-"
"Hurt Tina?!" Wade assumed, understanding Jasmine's concern as he gave a horrified glance to the two sisters. Standing with his fists to his hips, he gave his answer to Jasmine's presumed question. "Don't even say such a thing, Jasmine. I'd rather overheat than dare strike her."
Admittedly amused as well as concerned for Wade's selflessness, Tina chuckled at him before speaking up on the matter. "Now now, Wade. It won't be so bad. We'll manage."
Jasmine nodded as she agreed with her sister's optimistic view on the problem. "Indeed we will, we always do." Then, taking notice of the other two drones in the room, Jasmine smiled at them before speaking again. "Ah, I see you brought some friends too."
Wade and Tina glanced over to Nathan and F upon Jasmine's statement, the two friends smiling pleasantly as Wade spoke up. "Oh, yeah. These are some of my work buddies from Ceres, Jasmine. This is Nathan, I first met him when Ron and I came to the mines, showed us around a bit too." Putting a hand on F's shoulder, Wade introduced her too. "And this is Serial Designation F, or, just F. She was one of the guards keeping watch on the place while we worked."
F seemed to blush out of embarrassment as she remembered her and Wade's first meeting. "I... did come off a little rough on them when they first came in, though. Stopped Nathan's touring run too. Just following colony protocol."
Nathan patted F's back as he tried to ease F's guilt. "Oh, it's nothing F. We had to start work in a few minutes anyway. Besides, it's a bit more fun exploring the place yourself without a guide." He winked at the others as he finished his praise. "Trust me, it really is."
Wade, Tina and Jasmine all chuckled at their friend's amusing words, F joining in as she replied to Nathan's encouragement. "Alright, alright."
Walking up to the two, Tina put her hand onto Nathan's as she gave her own praises. "And they may not look like it, dear, but Nathan and F were both formerly in the military, from what Wade's told me."
Jasmine gave a proud smirk at the two as she responded to her sister's claim. "Well, that's quite something. Did she tell you we used to fly for them some years back?"
"Oh, she did, Mrs. Fowley." Nathan replied as he chuckled lightly, F giving a smile of her own as she added her own part to the story.
"Yeah, and given what's happening now, maybe they might call you back for service again. Wade told me you two were excellent pilots."
It was now Jasmine's turn to blush as she chuckled from the compliment, knowing Wade's high praise for her and her sister's flying as she replied. "Well, I can't say that's wrong, Tina saved the day during the flight back here. We ran into an asteroid cluster while in the middle of a jump."
Wade patted Tina on her back as he quietly cheered his love on. "That's what I'm talking about, she's a wonder among the stars, I'm telling you!"
The group fell into an excited fit of laughter at the conversation, a few of the bar patrons taking notice of the bunch as they eventually ceased their joyful moment.
As everyone calmed down, Jasmine spoke up, intending to bring the discussion to another place. "Well, with all that said, it feels great to see you all here. It was such a terrible day after all those company folk showed up." Then, as she scanned the group of friends around her, she noticed someone else missing from this puzzle. "Hey, uh... is Ron here? Did he head off somewhere?"
The mood was quickly put down to a mournful aura as Wade and Tina glanced to the floor in sadness, Nathan and F giving uncomfortable postures as they awaited for someone to speak up on the matter.
Eventually, Wade was the one to open his mouth, breathing steadily as he tried to speak to Jasmine. "Um, Jasmine? Things, uh... really took a nose dive after we got captured. You think we could find a place to sit? It's a lot to talk about."
Looking to the four drones with concern, Jasmine eased her returning fear as she nodded to Wade in agreement. "...Sure, there's plenty of space at the table here." Pointing her arm to the table, which was surrounded by a U-shaped seating bench, Wade and his friends began to move to the table as Tina spoke up.
"I can get us some drinks for the talk, you all want anything?"
"Just some oil, thanks. "Wade answered as F and Nathan gave their own nods to Tina, the drone girl walking over to the bartender near the stage as she went to purchase some beverages.
Sitting down, Jasmine picked up her smartcomm from the table, glancing to it as she spoke up on her half-finished drink. "Heh, and to think I was drowning myself in this drag of a drink before. Probably have to find a different glass."
"Proxi-Vodka? Haven't seen you touch that since we lost Aunt Susan." Wade said solemnly as he examined Jasmine's drink, sighing as he reluctantly continued. "Well, maybe it can go for a few more sips."
Looking to the vodka, Jasmine nodded as she put her smartcomm in her pocket. "I figured, I didn't think this was gonna sound good."
"I wish it did." Wade replied as Tina walked back to the table, a plate of three oil glasses resting on her careful hand as she set it down.
After delivering the drinks, Tina took a seat next to Wade, holding his hand as Jasmine spoke up. "So, where do we start this terrible story?"
Wade gulped a bit as he began to recount the events that transpired today. "Well, it all started when Ron and I came back from the mining colony."

I am writing this with tears streaming down my face. Yesterday I had to say goodbye to my baby Luca, my childhood dog.
My poor baby was diagnosed with lymphoma over a month ago. He was a 12-and-a half-year-old Golden Retriever. The lymphomas started to spread all over his body very quickly and grew larger and larger as the days went by. It was aggressive cancer, and in a matter of two weeks he took a turn for the worse.
The vet was very plain and straightforward with us. Due to his age and other conditions that he already had, such as arthritis and neurological disorders, it was not worth making him go through chemo. That would have just prolonged his suffering, and he would have had a lot of side effects from it.
In the last few weeks, he slowed down a lot and stopped being himself. He could not stand on his own, he could not bark or breathe because the tumours on his throat prevented him from doing so; he couldn’t sleep through the night, he relieved himself inside the house, he did not want to eat, his eyes were sunken… We had to be home 24/7 to keep an eye on him. Watching him deteriorate was really heartbreaking. There was no point in suffering any longer.
Last week we set an appointment for Monday so we could have some days to say goodbye. In his last days, I didn’t leave home at all, only to take him out for his walks. We took lots of pics together (he hated taking pics!), slept with him, did his paw print and a cast, kept some of his fur and had lots of conversations with him.
I think he sensed his end was coming. We had such a hard time trying to take him to the vet because he did not want to leave home. I cried all the way to the vet. Watching him being euthanised was the most heart-wrenching thing I have ever experienced in my life. My mom was with me. My dad and my brother did not want to witness it. I knew I had to be there and there was no way I would let my baby leave this world without me being there. It’s the least I could do. I told him how much I loved him and thanked him for all the good years we’d spent together. I kissed and hugged him tightly throughout. What was most painful was when he kept staring at me once he had already crossed the rainbow bridge. I don’t know how I will ever be able to get the image of him seeing dead out of my head. It was devastating.
I'm 22, and he's been with me for more than half of my life. He was like a brother to me. Right now, I just don’t know how I will be able to move on… I am simply devastated. I couldn’t sleep tonight, and when I woke up I broke down again, seeing the house so empty without him around. I cried more when I grabbed his fur and smelt it. It feels so unreal. It has not sunk in yet. I've been trying to mentally prepare myself for this moment in the last year, but the truth is that you're never prepared for it...
I will miss his walks, seeing him go under the table waiting for food scraps to drop, following me around the house, seeing him greet me at the door when I get home, his barks asking for food… It will be a hard pill to swallow.
Luca, thank you for all these wonderful years full of love and joy that you gave us. You were more than a pet and a companion to me. You will be in my heart until the last days of my life. I will never forget you, I promise. I love you.

Hello I often have very vivid dreams with clear goals people and laws. However, I often wake up multiples times throughout the night when this happens. Upwards of 3-6 times on average and I've even stayed up for 10+ minutes some times, but my dream always continues until I wake up for good. Does this happen to anyone else? I should add these dreams can be very strange and involve people i know and don't know as well as real life actions and fantastical actions.

This past week I was having a really hard time and my closest friend in the group knows it. It’s been really difficult for me and I couldn’t really get out of the bad mood I was in, as besides the things that were making me worry or feel bad, even more stuff continued to happen.
On Friday we decided to hang out for just a little bit, however they were being kinda quiet, which nothing wrong with that but I already kinda did not wanna be there cause I felt bad but I decided to go nonetheless and after twenty minutes I couldn’t stay anymore so I just told them that I’m going back to my room. (I was already having some issues with one of them cause she bailed on me for us living together last second, then we were supposed to go on a one day trip and she lied to me just to get out of it, almost a week ago I had given her a little present and on Thursday she had told me she still hasn’t opened it because apparently she didn’t have time, and then finally on Saturday when I saw her after coming back from the supermarket I had started talking to her and midway she just stopped listening to me, turned her back and started talking to other people and then even though we were in the same elevator she didn’t say bye or anything.)
Right after the thing with the supermarket all of us were supposed to hang out so I was already thinking if I should even show up (also a little bit because after me leaving on Friday nobody had bothered to text me as well, and they had also hung out Saturday during the day without me) but I thought I would regret it if I don’t so I actually did end up going. However, I was one of the first to come and when I entered the room my friend’s bf and his friend said hi to me , however my friend (not the one I was having issues with) didn’t so I just kinda felt weird cause I thought she didn’t want me to be there or sth so once again after like thirty minutes I just kinda left and ik I probably shouldn’t have and I probably should have texted sth to explain myself but I just thought that ,,oh she knows I have been feeling like shit the past few days, she’ll know I’m not doing it on purpose or sth.”
Then on Sunday they were hanging out during the day and nobody had texted me or invited me so I kinda felt bad and then they were posting stories of them hanging out at night as well without inviting me even though we hang out together almost every single day.
At that point I was thinking if I should ask them if I did sth but I never skip classes and cause all of us live in the same building and we always go to class together like 30 minutes before it starts I thought they would text me and maybe then I could ask, however nobody texted me to go with them or why I’m not in class. I made up my mind and later during the day I texted my closest friend in the friend group if I did sth or if sth happened cause things have felt a little off since Friday and she left me on around 4 hours delivered. However, she just told me she doesn’t feel that good so she will just come back to me when she feels better. And I don’t wanna assume things but from my side it just felt like she said it as an excuse to not talk to me because she was with them all the previous days the entire time and she was posting stories a bit before I had texted her but ofc I can’t rlly know that.
One more thing the other friend I had some issues with removed me from her close friends around the time I had texted the other one, so I don’t know if she just removed me randomly or if she removed me cause they were hanging out and she just didn’t want me to see or sth.
I also did not end up going to class today and none of them have bothered to ask me if I’m coming or sth so idk.
It just truly makes me feel like shit cause they know this is probably the hardest week I’ve gone through and suddenly all of them r ignoring me, and I rlly don’t think I have done anything. Cause everything was okay before Friday. I think the worst I could have done was leave suddenly like two times on Friday and Saturday but then they do know I haven’t been feeling okay so it’s not like I’m doing it cause I don’t like them or sth. So right now I just really don’t know what to do. I was thinking about maybe texting my friend once again tonight if she hasn’t responded by then and just asking her nicely for an explanation because it sucks being completely in the dark but idk.