Pain olympic 3

after 2-3 years of pain every day, i finally decided to make an appointment for a colonoscopy. calling the doctor tomorrow. i’m a male 26 years old, made this post to give people the courage to make their own appointments and not to keep putting it off!

This is seriously the most painful, agonizing process I've ever gone through.
Everything seemed like a breeze, picked a car, got approved, then started in with "verifications."
First, because I paid off my phone last October and wanted to get away from the big companies, I switched to Mint, and they could not verify my number (I got a new number because I moved here a few years ago and still had my old out-of-state number).
Had to go to Verizon, get on an actual plan - still couldn't verify me. No bill generated for 25 days.
So they "locked the vehicle" to my account for three days, awaiting confirmation. Had to do that 2x, waiting six days - to this morning, where it finally went through. Then they had to do a bunch of income verification.
I switched over to Chime at the beginning of the year. Previously had USAA for 13 years, but they are kind of falling apart and I get my money quicker with Chime and get Credit builder (which has been great, score has gone up 46 points, to over 700 for the first time in my life).
Now they are telling me I can't use my Chime account for verification purposes? I need to upload my las 3 months of paystubs? ARE YOU SERIOUS?!
This is a HUGE pain because the company I work for was pushing their software over to a new system and we had paper checks for almost a year after I started. I have no idea where half my paystubs are, let alone 6 consecutive ones.
This is been so slow and painstaking.
Any suggestions, tricks, loopholes anyone has come across for this?

Between the two websites, there are so many orders, but none with matching seasons.
For instance, here is the DC Wiki and here is TheTVDB.
The DC Wiki has 2 different episode numberings (but this doesn't affect the seasons as they are listed):

• 32 Seasons (with Jp# and Int#)

TheTVDB has 3 different orderings (including different seasons):

• Aired Order (32 seasons)
  
• DVD Order (29 seasons)
  
• Absolute Order (1 gigantic season)
  

Now, I know what you're thinking--obviously, the DC Wiki and TheTVDB's Aired Order must match since they both have 32 seasons. Well, no, they don't. For an example, here is how episode 924 lines up:

#924	DC Wiki	TheTVDB (Aired)	TheTVDB (DVD)	TheTVDB (Abs)
Episode JP#	924
Episode Int#	979
Season	28	26	23	1
Episode # (within season)	27	38	38	924

As you can see, none of the TVDB seasons line up with the DC Wiki.
Is the DC Wiki wrong, or is it TheTVDB?
And I know, it's not really a big deal, but it's just annoying when I think of an episode I want to watch, google it, find it on DC Wiki, then I have to do some gymnastics to find the correct episode on TheTVDB which is what my media library uses to get its data.
I looked into moving away from TheTVDB, but no other TV agent (AniDB, AniList, MyAnimeList) uses the DC Wiki order. And, I would prefer not to use absolute ordering because it's a pain trying to scroll through a thousand episodes on a TV...

Just updated to 3.5.1. Have never seen this before. Every time I add a track to the bottom, the track view goes to the top. Easy enough to move the curser down, but it's a pain when you have 40 plus tracks over a two hour show.
Any suggestions? Is there a new setting I have adjust?

1. fun loath
2. lunchbox
3. wrapped in plastic 4.just a car crash away
4. killing strangers
5. i put a spell on you
6. sweet dreams
7. tainted love
8. mechanical animals
9. i want to disappear 11.kiddie grinder (remix) 12.the speed of pain
10. great big white world
11. diary of a dope fiend
12. devour

in no particular order

Hello everyone! This is my first pregnancy and I’m currently 33 + 3. I had a realllyyyy smooth easy pregnancy the first two trimesters, could barely tell I was pregnant. Well starting 26 weeks I started having frequent Braxton hicks. As the weeks have gone on they become more and more frequent. I definitely think I have uterine irritability, as no change in activity, position, hydration, etc makes them stop or go away.
I’ve mentioned to my doctor and they said to just monitor them and call if I have any pain or leaking. I time them every once in a while (if I timed all of them I would literally not be able to do anything else but sit there and monitor them all day long). They come as close together as every 3 minutes for over an hour but then they eventually slow down or fade out for a while. Just the last few days, especially at night they’re accompanied by period-like cramps. Also having occasional back pain and pressure all around in back and pelvis. But still obviously they’re not labor contractions or I’d know by now right?? Because they do ease up eventually. And again it’s been going on for weeks so surely I’d know by now unless it’s possible to start out like this then progress into preterm? Note, I have them all day long, they just become more intense and frequent at night.
On top of the many contractions, at my 32 week ob appt last week, my doctor told me that the baby has dropped already and it appears that he’s on the bigger side, and also apparently I don’t have much fluid. Not an alarmingly low amount, just not a lot.
I can tell he’s dropped too, and sometimes when i pee I feel this really weird like, I don’t know how to describe it?? Tingle droppy feeling in my pelvis??
Anyway all this combined is making me feel like he’s not going to wait in here another 7 weeks.
Anyone have any input, similar experiences, etc ? Should I ask for a check next week at my 34 week ob? Or is it not even worth it, like when he comes he comes and I’ll know…
Sorry this all over the place and thanks in advance for your input!

Hi, I really need some help from this community. Any feedback or recommendations would be so much appreciated. I am a 37yr old male, and I suspect I may have a LGV (lymphogranuloma venereum). Below I have a long-ish summarized timeline of my symptoms, dr visits, and labs.
TLDR:... I have several labs that show IGG for LGV, but not showing IGM/IGA, and the labs and doctors say it is a past infection. Have taken antibiotics but symptoms persist. I am in utter misery, and I visited an infectious disease doctor, and I felt like they blew me off and they agreed with the lab results that this is all a past infection. They believe all my symptoms are auto-immune related.
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2020-2021 – Started having sores in the corners of my mouth, and bumps in my mouth along with burning in mouth. Infrequent blisters on lip (never crusted up, just would go away). Rashes on body
2022 – December 2023 – In addition to all of the above continuing, had difficulty urinating, leaking urine, lethargy, body aches. Pain in kidney area. Almost every orifice of my body had burning sensation (eyes, ears, nose/sinus, mouth, rectum, sore throat). Small pustules are present in my nostrils. Sinuses appear to be inflamed. Burning sensation in pelvis area.
Saw doctor multiple times and was tested for various things but only thing showed was a severe Epstein-Barr infection in spring of 2023. Symptoms felt worse and worse, and I went again back to the doctor as I thought I may still be experiencing EBV. I requested to be retested for EBV, test for Lupus (ANA), and was tested for LGV.
Doctor prescribed me azithromycin for my sinuses/ears. Within 36-48 hours of taking azithromycin, I had near immediate relief of urological and sinus symptoms, and within a few days my eyes no longer burned.
Test came back that I was over EBV, showed some ANA stuff, and showed a past infection of LGV (C.TRACHOMATIS L1 AB (IGG) 1:64 H) in December of 2023.
I proceeded to setup an appointment with a rheumatologist to address the ANA stuff. Drew multiple labs and felt I had a sensitive immune system, prescribed steroids. By late Jan of 2024 I felt probably 90% better.
February 2024 – Felt nearly completely ok at this point. Had cystoscopy and nothing unusual was noted.
Early March 2024 – Had sex with wife, and all urological symtoms return within about 2 days, and within a week all prior symtoms return, and worse than ever. Frequent urination, difficulty urination, burning sensation in bladder, pain in lower back and kidney area. Rash on testicles that comes and goes. Burning inside of pelvic area. It seemed to me to be very obvious correlation of the timing of symptoms to sex. Wife shows no obvious symptoms.
March 2024 – Was prescribed azithromycin (500mg/day for 10 days) again, and doxycycline (100mg/2x day for 21 days), and when I started the azithromycin within a day it started helping my urological and sinus symptoms, but seemed to stop helping after a couple of days. I finished both rx’s and with no further relief of symptoms.
3/21/24 – Urine screen for UTI/STI's and blood work for LGV. All negative (did not show LGV past infection now)
4/16/24 – LGV test ran again, and now shows past infection again (C.TRACHOMATIS L1 AB (IGG) 1:128 H), but also shows C. Trachomatis D-K AB (IGG 1:64 H) as a past infection now.
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• Species: Dog
• Age: 12
• Sex/Neuter status: Spayed female
• Breed: Lab/Golden retriever mix
• Body weight: 65
• History: Very healthy outside of the arthritis and muscle degeneration issues
• Clinical signs: Back legs clearly have no real muscle mass, she has a hard time standing up and moving. Nowhere near as active as she was a couple years ago
• Duration: 2-3 years, really noticeable in the last year and a half
• Your general location: Tennessee

We've tried some different supplements and prescribed dog food, but they've not been a big help. Would love to know if there are any good suggestions for devices that may assist, or maybe a treatment program outside of the laser therapy and pain medication my vet has suggested.

I'll confess, this post comes as a result of a mini mental breakdown. Things were thrown, tables were flipped. I swear I'm not a newbie, I've been playing fut for some time now. However, it seems I'm completely oblivious to some mechanics that almost everyone else seems to know about. I need some guidance.
I'll include a TLDR here: if you have any rules that you follow when playing the game, whether it be rules followed in gameplay, tactics or formation types, I would be very eager to hear them. Even better, if you know of any way I can either abuse the mechanics in the same way as everyone else seems to be able to do, or a way to counteract them, please let me know.
Im not hindered by squad quality. If anything, I feel I'm falling into the "all the gear, but no idea" category. I've been meddling around with tactics and formations and the same problem seems to be reoccurring: the opponents attackers do some incredibly nimble turns, my defenders (collectively, somehow) are flummoxed by this and it becomes impossible to select the right defender. My opponent simply breezes past the nearest defender without a challenge and either smashes the ball through (!) my goalkeeper, or cuts back to a free player (and there always seems to be one) and scores. This is exacerbated by the fact that I am very rarely able to get the ball into my opponent's box. When I do, I sometimes score. Then, from kick off, they waltz through my defence and score again.
I always play with 4 at the back. 3 CBs seem to get scrambled in unimaginable ways - though 5 at the back might be my last resort, because attacking with this is a nightmare. My full backs are always on "stay back". I keep my width very low (30-40) and either balanced defense or pressure on heavy touch. My attackers are instructed to get in behind, though they rarely do unless I trigger a run, which defeats the point of the instruction. I jockey quite a lot and use advanced defending.
Another problem is that my opponent seems to be able to win the ball from me so easily. After reading my play like a children's book, their tackles simply throw my player off the ball and on the ground, and off they counter! If I tackle, my player either bounces off their player, or they win the ball for a split second before the opponent wins the ball by way of some sort of gravitational force?
Honestly, I'm just really frustrated at the moment. I can't get out of Div 5, champs is out of the question and is so far away from my skill level, I may as well try to enjoy squad battles. If you have any advice for me, great! If you want to share my pain, please do! If you want to make humour of my pain, I already feel like a clown for buying this game in the first place, so you may as well pile on.
Rant over.

Is it just me lol or are these pain point for you as well? If not, disregard 😉. If you can't share in or comprehend it takes less energy to simply keep it going .. why people hide behind anonymity and want to be confrontational is hilarious and contradicts whatever point they call themselves making....
(A) Rooms with more than one 🚪 door... If I could build a cement 🧱 wall on the 2nd door I'd do it 😬🫠.
Without fail, it's always a few who will go out the other way and it's irritating 😆😅. Even with a sign " Other Door" ..." Exit Only " they will yank and pull at the door, oddly missing the other door that is W I D E O P E N....as I await for them to enter lol. Too funny.
(B) Students who don't have a sense of time....Transition time is just that. Not for me to write a pass so you can socialize 😀 time management, let's start early. I even announce, they just sit, and then rush and scramble when they hear the bell 😅😂
They wait until the bell rings to start collecting their things. The last ~ 2-3 minutes you should be wrapping up, saving your work, preparing yourself to exit to get to your next destination on time🙃
(C) Rooms with bad 💡lighting. Excessive fluorescent lights in a confinded space. So glad we were able to modify rooms to have natural light and LESS lighting..my goodness I can't sit in a room for long with bad lighting. 😳😩
*I didn't see a general discussion flair, I wasn't seeking advice/classroom management strategies. I just wanted to share somethings I find interesting 😄
u/Floopydoopypoopy - a post I made ..... that you voluntarily acknowledged..
u/Adamliem895 - not really..... unless you have a reading comprehension deficiency.
u/philosophyofblonde - ... you're asking. Must be telling. 🫤
u/BaseTensMachines - a doctor a well. The crisis is the lack of competency and low I/Eq exhibited by the masses....
u/ponyboycurtis1980 - emojis are expressive language, calling kids brats is telling of "you" .... A decent lesson plan shouldn't run up to the minute..🫠.
u/pile_o_puppies - nope. Reddit circa 1999.

I had a pretty bad sprain back in December and thought I broke my ankle. Went to the ER who only x-rayed it. I had some bad nerve damage and couldn't walk for about 2.5 weeks. I saw my PCP after I could start walking again. She told me to give it 2-3 weeks and if it wasn't getting better she would refer me to Ortho. It did get better over time and just a slight pain that eventually wasnt even every day, some days worse than others. In late April though it felt like I was having more bad days then good again and I still wasn't able to walk at my regular pace without pain. The pain is on my out upper side of the foot all the way to the ankle. I finally made the call to get referred and had the appointment yesterday. Ortho did 10ish X-rays all came back clear. He then manipulated my foot and asked how many times I've injured it in the past. I only know of 2 times and he acted as if I was lying. He then he said "Well can you live with it?" I said " I can but the reason I'm here is I prefer not too." He then told me that my "ankle was real lose." and he couldn't do anything without an MRI. He then asked what I have done to manage the pain... Which has been wraps, braces, anti inflammatory but nothing changes the current pain level it's met a plateau and I haven't done anything for months. He then told me I could either just live with it or they would look at the MRI and go from there. I asked about PT and he told me all they would do is teach me how to not to resprain it and he didn't recommend it because it wouldn't do anything.
From what I've read surgery can take a long time to recover from. I would like to talk to someone else but not sure who that would be any advice would be appreciated.

My boyfriend (22M) and I (22F) go to the same university, same class. We've been dating for 1 year and 2 months now. Our relationship started abruptly when he got to know about me being in an exclusive situationship for more than a year with a guy I've only known online. He figured this guy wasn't going to commit and he didn't treat me right so wanted me to give him a chance and that he'd show what it felt like to be loved, to be in a committed relationship. While we didn’t feel a deep connection initially, he grew on me over time. I enjoyed hanging out with him and doing things together, and I considered him my best friend. One day I was talking to another guy in practical class about using a microscope and we were smiling, we didn't flirt but he had a problem with the guy. He got very angry and refused to talk to me and stormed out and didn't speak to me for an hour, then we fought over the phone like animals for the rest of the night. Similar incidents happened 3 more times. His explanation is that these were guys "he had a problem with and I just had to talk to them and ruin it." Eventually I found out that his ex-girlfriend had cheated on him multiple times and he has some severe trust issues because of that. I tried to understand him and went as far as sending him video updates, live location anytime I went out without him. Although things have changed now, it's not as severe anymore and I don't have to send him proof anymore, I still have to inform him.
My boyfriend is very insecure and has a habit of cursing others behind their backs (not trying to defend the people being cursed at) which disgusts me. His insecurity has led to several huge fights whenever I interact with other guys, to the point where I avoid talking to any male classmates and even stopped visiting my sister because she often has male friends over.
Things took a darker turn when he physically abused me on multiple occasions. He slapped me twice, squeezed my arm hard during arguments, and has called me degrading names. I have also called him names in the past, at some point we started cursing at each other when we fought and things got ugly. He promised me he won't do it again and he hasn't slapped me since but he has squeezed my hand very hard to the point it got sore.
I have an anxious attachment style and tend to hold on to relationships despite the flaws. I thought I could help him heal from his past, where he was cheated on and deeply hurt, but I feel suffocated by the restrictions and his behavior. My childhood was filled with physical and emotional abuse, and I’ve learned to defend myself, but this relationship has triggered many of those old wounds.
Our relationship has a mix of good and bad:
Good Times (80%): He saves seats for me, introduced me to new experiences like seeing the mountains, and I genuinely enjoy his company. Verbal Fights (14%): Frequent arguments, mostly stemming from his insecurity. Abuse (6%): Physical and verbal abuse that has caused both physical pain and emotional distress. Despite the good memories, the physical pain and emotional turmoil remind me of the ongoing abuse, making me question the health of this relationship. I feel sorry for myself and trapped in a cycle of hope and hurt.
He recently abused me and the physical pain reminds me of my emotional turmoil and I just don't want to be abused anymore. But he's begging me to stay, promises that he'll change. But I just don't know. What should I do?
TL;DR: I've been dating my boyfriend for over a year. While our relationship has many good times, it also includes frequent arguments and some physical and verbal abuse. His past experiences and insecurities have led to controlling behavior. I feel trapped between the good memories and the recurring abuse. Recently, he abused me again and I'm struggling with the decision to leave as he promises to change. What should I do?

Please help. I'm diagnosed with chronic calcific pancreatitis and got my ercp done 3 years ago. Will my pancreatitis affect pregnancy chances? When will I be able to eat happily without having to stop for a while until the pain reduces 😮‍💨

Hi there
I have a 16 yo dog (17 in november). He is a mix of yorkshire and cocker or so they told us, but not sure.
He has cataracts on both eyes, specially in one of them where he is completely blind by now and that eye is always red and dry, I wonder if it might be painful. The other eye he maybe has 20% vision.
He moves around but bumps into stuff, is afraid to jump up or down bed, sofas etc (but still does it, sometimes with a bad fall hurting himself on the legs or jaw). I also live in a big house with stairs, so that affects his quality of life as well and I'm afraid it might be really hard for him or he might fall down the stairs once his left eye becomes as blind as the other one.
Regarding the rest of his health, he has check ups every 6 months or so, his organs work well although his lungs show signs of age, he has a bit of cognitive disfunction which makes his back legs fail a bit sometimes (but he walks, jumps and runs perfectly anyways) and the most alarming thing is a very big renal gland which seems like a tumor, but he doesn't show any symptons of cushing so far so he is not being treated.
His bloodworks are completely fine and other than being "tired" and blind he is a very happy dog and doesn't look as old as he is (I've seen dogs younger than him that have a lot of difficulties when walking, etc, which is not his case).
With all of this is mind, would you risk a cataract operation to improve his quality of life and avoid complete blindness once his left eye is worse (if he gets to that) or is it better to leave him alone?
TIA <3

Hello everyone my story could be considered for awareness or ranting reasons. You can share if you have similar stories.
I have helped in the past for months. To me this was nothing new. I began again on April 7th 2024. 4 days into my Jelqing session I jelqed semi erect all of the sudden I feel a sharp pain travelling through my left leg and right leg to my knees. I freaked out and thought let me give it a little rest and I will be alright. I was unfortunately wrong it didn’t get better. I experienced really bad pains from my penis and I couldn’t get an erection very easily. I have seen 2 urologist and 3 emergency care doctors they have all told me with time it should go away on its own. They tell me I don’t have a fracture so I should be fine. They say it’s a tear and nothing more my recovery should be normal. The deal is I don’t feel normal anymore. I don’t get morning wood nor do I get erection like that. It’s only been a month my penis is very soft right now. I am concerned and having frequent panic attacks. This is my story.

I work at the USPS so I have an awkward schedule, I scheduled to have all 5 of my wisdom teeth (extra one on my top right) removed during my 3 day weekend. The surgeon, Dr. B, apparently got sick in Brazil a week before the date, so it was rescheduled almost a month and a half later. Then a week before the rescheduled date, the front desk called and said the surgeon was asking if I could reschedule again. I was annoyed that I had to reschedule again but I played it cool, and said my next day off, but that date didn’t work for him so they kept it as is.
Day of the extraction, I’m in the chair, I’ve been on the gas for 5-10mins, being really relaxed. Then Dr. B walks in and says we are only going to do the right side today for the sake of time. I am quite livid, despite the gas, that there is a literal last minute change in the plan. And I don’t know why that would be a good excuse for anything scheduled so far in advance. But I don’t want to argue with the guy that is about to cut into my mouth, as I had already gotten the feeling that he is a difficult person. AFAIK the extraction went fine, I go home.
But during procedure (conscious sedation) Dr. B is telling the scheduling staff how he doesn’t mind working Sundays just not on Mother’s Day, I can appreciate it. My ride home was in the waiting room, and said while I was in the room, Dr. B had come out to reschedule a patient 5 days out, the desk was saying they won’t call because it was on the books for a month already. Says he can call, he says that’s not my job. True, it’s not, but it’s not professional to treat the patient or staff that way, and he wanted to reschedule me twice despite my appointment being on the books for a month. Later on I find out most of the staff find Dr. B to be difficult.
The next day I’m In debilitating pain, end up taking some sick days, whatevs. But 2 days after the extraction, I’m swishing salt water, and it shoots out of my nose. My wife tells me to call the next day, they want to examine. Say it’s a communication between my sinus. Says take antibiotics and Sudafed, follow up was already scheduled for next week.
I go in today for the follow up and he says looks like it’s starting to heal, let’s do a follow up in a month and a half to “decide if I want to do the other side.” At this rate I’m burning a ton of pto, I’m mad, but I think I’m stuck with the guy, the care credit is in with this office already, so I won’t argue with the guy about to cut into my mouth again. So idk when my left side is even going to get done.
Am I just being too sensitive? Is he too much? Would like to get some perspective, if possible.
Thanks

1. I'm simply not yet ready.

I still love my ex a lot. I broke up with him because I finally have come into terms that I deserve to be treated better by him. Despite of us ending in good terms and agreeing on trying again if circumstances our favorable, I knew I needed to fully heal to be able to love someone better and love myself better.

1. I love him and so I should respect his space.

I have already made peace with the fact that our relationship has already ended. Hence, he is already single. He can go out and have a chance to meet someone who can make him happier. And even if it isn't with me, I will be very happy for him. Even if it hurts. I don't want to ruin his chance with someone just because I keep getting in the way and making things complicated for him. It's unfair for him and unhealthy.

1. I love myself and I should respect myself.

I'm setting boundaries for myself. There's a reason why the relationship didn't work. There's a reason why despite of me still being in love and wanting to stay, I had to make the hard decision to let him go. I needed to protect my peace and emotional health. It is my responsibility to take care of my heart, mind, body, and soul. If it won't do any good on me right now, why would I put myself in that situation?

1. I must respect the season.

Everything has a season. There's a reason why your relationship didn't work right now. But that doesn't mean it you wouldn't be able to find love in the future. When things end, you should embrace the good memories. The bad ones should be lessons learned. You don't have to feel defeated. Either way, it's win-win situation. Bid the relationship that no longer serves you farewell with grace. And focus on what you have to work on today. Do what you got to do. Work on being better in the future. When that time comes, you know what you deserve. When that time comes, you know how to love someone better too. 😊
If there's one thing I've learned from loving someone, getting my heartbroken, and doing NC, it's that we can never unlove the person we truly love. And it's okay. But it's important to remember that before we met that person, we had ourselves first. Our responsibility is ourselves. No one else would take care of our welfare more than we can do. Break ups hurt. But try to do away with the bitterness and resentment. Not because the people who hurt us deserve to be forgiven, but because we deserve to be happy and not be eaten up by anger and hate. This of course is easier said than done. You gotta get through the pain first of letting go and detaching. But trust me, it does get better. 😊

TLDR: My partner had a very sudden manic episode turned into a psychotic break over the past week, and I'm not handling him being in a psych ward for the time being very well. It's honestly killing me, I'm so worried for him - I'm looking for advice and support on how to cope with this event.
My boyfriend (21M) and I (20F) have been together for nearly 3 years. For 2 years, we were long distance. In August 2023 is when we closed the distance and began living with each other in real life. Last week, the week of May 5th, is when this situation begun.
We frequently took edibles (weed) as part of our routine. Last Tuesday, he did just that - and while he was high, he started to get curious about his parents' finances. He began to text both his mother and father, asking questions about what they've saved up for their retirement. His mom seemed to be dodging his questions a lot, but eventually she told him that she estimated that both she and his father would have around 10-13 million after retirement. Not only this, but she also both implied and outright confirmed that my boyfriend would be inheriting this large amount of money after they pass away. This quickly unlocked a hyperfixation for him, and we began to talk about it together. It's all we talked about for that week, because we thought, why is this something that his mother would lie about? There's absolutely no understandable reason that she would have to lie about this. I should mention that, after Tuesday, he did not take any more edibles or substances, though regardless I feel that weed may have partially played a role in why this happened.
Throughout the week, as he was delving into this hyperfixation, his behavior began to change. I didn't truly notice it at the time, and just thought he was very reasonably acting a bit odd and excited because, this was a life changing thing that was presumably happening for the both of us. I didn't think to question his mother's statement. Me being passive to his behavior and not suspicious of his mother's statement and behavior is something I feel I am to blame for, because it turned out to be a slowly building manic episode. On Friday, May 10th, is when we found out that the 10-13 million inheritance was a lie. He was distraught - absolutely broken. Something snapped in him after that day.
On Saturday, he woke me up at 6-7 am. I suspect that he may not have slept Friday night into Saturday morning. He reassured me that he would be okay, we would both be okay after this, that we would get over it and be able to focus on something else. But very quickly throughout Saturday his behavior shifted drastically, and it turned into a full blown manic episode. For the entire first half of the day, he paced around our apartment, glued to his phone, spamming everyone in his life about the thoughts he had been having. It's normal for him to be on his phone a lot, so I didn't question this. I regret it so much, I should have noticed the signs. It's difficult for me to convey what exactly his thoughts were or what his hyperfixation was, because most of it didn't truly make sense, but the short version of it is that since the inheritance wasn't real, he began to hyperfixate on starting a business from the ground up with both me and his friends. It spiraled from there.
In the evening is when his behavior began to become violent and increasingly more erratic. He began to direct his frustration and anger towards me, starting to hyperfixate on me and our relationship, blaming me for the entire situation. We've had a difficult relationship, but we've always managed to come back full circle either way. He became paranoid of me, believed that I could hurt him, and so much more. It broke my heart. It's more than I can convey into words. Saturday evening into Sunday morning I stayed up all night with him, trying to handle the situation as best as I could, but it only got worse. Eventually, his parents arrived at our apartment. He's always had apprehensions about introducing me to his parents for multiple reasons, especially including the fact that we met online. He believed that they wouldn't understand it, and he didn't have a close relationship with his parents to begin with at all. It sucks that I could only meet them as this situation was going down.
Sunday, May 12th, is when his parents took him to the emergency room. It is only on the very next day, May 13th, that he was admitted into a psychiatric hospital. I'm heartbroken. I'm keeping in contact with his mother, but I haven't gotten many updates from her besides the fact that he's in a hospital and that they're waiting to hear from the doctor. Based on what I've seen with his behavior and researched, it seems that his manic episode eventually turned into a psychotic break. I also suspect that he may have bipolar 1 disorder. I'm not a doctor, but it matches up with everything that I've seen, and I'm devastated. It was horrible. His mother has bipolar disorder, though im not sure what type - though my partner did mention that his mother would have occasional manic episodes.
Now it's been three days in total since he's been gone. All I've been doing is grieving. I've eaten very little, all I've been doing is crying, and everything in our apartment reminds me of him. It's incredibly painful to be here without him because we spent all of our time together. I'm also worried about him being in the hospital itself - I don't want him to be mistreated by others or misdiagnosed. Psych hospitals can be very hit or miss, and it terrifies me. It's possible that he could be there for several weeks at the very least given how severe his mental state was. I just don't know what to do, or what this means for us in the future. He hasn't even gotten a diagnosis yet, from what I know. I just feel like I'm being kept in the dark. I don't know anything about what's happening at all. I just want him to be okay. How can I get through this? I don't think I can get through this. What happens when he gets back? Is he gonna be okay? Have any of you experienced what it's like to be kept in a psych hospital? I don't know what to do with myself when he comes back, I don't know how to support myself in the mean time, and I don't know what this means for us or for our relationship. I'm so, so scared. I'm terrified. I love him so much, I just want him to be okay.
I don't have many people around me to support me, so posting here has been my last resort. This is my first time dealing with a mental health crisis like this. I feel awful, I feel horrible, I feel like this is all my fault. I feel like if I saw the signs earlier, I could've prevented this, I could've grounded him, I could've brought him down from where he was headed. I don't know what exact mental illness he has yet, I can only assume based on what I've seen. But, has anyone ever been in a similar situation like this? What do I do with myself? I know he's getting the help that he needs, but I can't help but worry for him. I feel super isolated and alone and anxious in our apartment. It's empty here without him, incredibly empty.
If you've read this far, thank you so much for taking the time to read this. It means more to me than you know. So, once more, TLDR: My partner had a very sudden manic episode turned into a psychotic break over the past week, and I'm not handling him being in a psych ward for the time being very well. It's honestly killing me, I'm so worried for him - I'm looking for advice and support on how to cope with this event.

Sorry, this is a long read but I feel like I need to vent and maybe be judged for being an idiot. I will try to be as unbiased as possible as I know I'm at fault too.
So I (m30) and my ex (f26) met on Hinge and quickly started playing video games together (Destiny 2, and to this day it's still one of my best memories). We stayed up for so long just talking for hours; we hit it off instantly. This theme carried on until we met. I traveled to her (this will become a pattern), and when I tell you it was love at first sight, I mean it. I just could not stop smiling; she was so perfect in every way. As the relationship progressed, it only got stronger. She helped me open up (we both have broken pasts and trauma to go with it). She helped me become soft and as silly as it may seem, she helped me cry again. I have never felt so safe, secure, loved, seen, and heard by anyone. I truly looked up to her and appreciated her as a person, and I know she felt the same. She told me on many occasions how happy she was, how no one had ever been this good to her. She had a bad past with men, so I took that into consideration and even asked if it was OK to touch her and if she was comfortable during our intimate moments. We honestly were perfect and everyone could see how happy we were. Everything I liked, she liked. If I played a game, she got that game to join me (she even got a PS5 just to play with me). She was my little copycat; she even stole some of my jokes and sayings. We were inseparable; she was my best friend and future wife.
Fast forward to us moving in together about a year into our relationship. I moved everything; I left friends and family and packed everything up to be with her. Things were still amazing and healthy. We both have a child each, so that added to the mix, and honestly, they were a pain now and again, but I can safely say they loved having each other around... when they weren't bickering, and I loved them both. I took her child as my own and loved her; I still do.
We went through a lot together and I was always there to support her, and I think I did a good job of it too. I helped her through all her problems; I was always there to help and be a shoulder to cry on. She told me about her past and how every single one of her exes hurt her in some way from the r-word to abuse and cheating. I made sure I was nothing like them. I respected her in every way possible. I made sure I kissed her, told her how beautiful she was and how lucky I was to have her, how much I loved her. I hyped her up every chance I got. I made it my mission to make her feel confident again, and it worked. She finally saw what I did, but let's focus on the issues because every relationship has them. We both got sloppy. I have ADHD and she has her own personal issues, and we let the house get on top of us now and again. She definitely cleaned more than me and I never took the initiative, but when I cleaned, oh boy did I clean, and this was something we were working on and I honestly was getting better but I feel like she didn't see that. I was also struggling to find a job and I got more and more depressed, and in the last month of our relationship, I let myself go completely. I was in a hole and I just needed support, support like I always gave her. She started to argue more but I shut down when I feel like I'm being attacked (it's childhood trauma I'm working with a therapist now). I now see I could have handled it better, but at the same time I told her about this and at times she talked to me about it instead of fighting and it helped. I'm painting myself in a bad light here. She also had her problems, like she would nap a lot and I'd have to deal with the kids, or she would also shut down, especially when her PTSD kicked in. But I never minded. I knew who she was and I fully accepted her for it, and I understand people aren't perfect. But the love we had and the good times we created heavily outweighed the bad.
The night we broke up was the worst night of my life. The day started off so well. We were the amazing loving couple we always were. She and the 2 kids were play fighting and she was egging me on to join, so in a joking fashion I told her no and told my son to go beat her up for me. He took it too far and hit her too hard (he's only 5 at the time). She then out of nowhere hit me across the face and I didn't know what to do. I shut down. I calmly got the kids to bed and just shut down. She was begging and pleading for me to talk to her and I just ignored her like the child I am. The sweetest, most loving girl I've ever known and I ignored her. She left the house in the dark in her pyjamas and I couldn't stop her. I had this battle in my head that wouldn't let me.
She came back an hour later with no emotion. She wanted me and my son out. I tried and tried to talk to her but she wasn't there anymore. Everyone hated me and I couldn't understand why. I know I had a few issues but doesn't everyone? It was our first big fight and all of a sudden I'm manipulative and a narcissist. All I could do was apologize. It got to the point I was saying sorry for things that I didn't do. I was lost and confused. She kissed me before I left and that only made it worse. Me and my son were homeless and living on my mom's couch. I tried talking to her but she got nasty, started with the name calling and belittling, pointing out all my flaws. I didn't know what to do. I just kept apologizing and telling her I loved her and I'd be better. I was losing my mind. She was the best thing that ever happened to me and at one point I was to her. I couldn't understand how she could completely do a 180 and hate me to the core. I made all the mistakes. I begged, I pleaded, I even messaged her nan hoping she would understand and help me but it only made it all worse. I sent gifts, I tried reminding her of the good times... Like I said, all the mistakes. I became obsessive (since then I have done a lot of work with my therapist and I had a nervous breakdown due to my abandonment issues and anxiety). I even turned up at her house; granted I did message beforehand because I needed some documents for the next day but she never got the message.
Well, as I'm sure you can all guess what happened next. She rang the police and I was blocked on everything. I did stop messaging her eventually and only did when I needed to sort out my belongings(admittedly I did mess up now and again but no one is perfect), and at one point we talked on the phone. She told me she didn't know if she wanted to involve the police anymore (gave me false hope). We talked a little; turned out she needed some money so I sent her some. Then it was back to her being cold and evil... She made reports to child services (I've been cleared of them). She reported me for having firearms... They were airsoft guns :/ and she knows this. She's been talking about me behind my back and making me this monster that ruined her life when it was I that lost everything. Even one of her friends came forward and told me all the nasty things she's been saying and all my insecurities she's been mocking me about.
I got to a dark place. I had nothing. It was 3 weeks into the breakup and I snapped. It all got too much. I felt like I failed everyone and I had nothing left to live for. I tried taking my own life. The only person I told was my child's mum so she could come get him.
News got to my ex and she took it as an attack on her. She somehow made it about her. This only made her more vindictive, calling me a narcissist and manipulative yet again. This fucked me up more. For weeks all I could do was research narcissism. Even after my therapist said I wasn't a narcissist, I was still unsure.
I finally got a truck sorted to get my stuff from her, and there was a lot missing so I had to go into the house to sort it. I even made her laugh at some point (bad idea... made her hate me more somehow). But when I was leaving, she turned yet again (I now know it's because I was in front of the ring camera and she wanted me to react to her abuse to further paint me as the bad guy). She laughed in my face and called me pathetic for trying to end it... It destroyed me. She also said if she didn't hit me she would have hit my son, then called me a pussy for not hitting her back.
Do I deserve all this? I know I wasn't a perfect, I'm trying to at least better myself. I fucked up by bugging her for sure but is this level of revenge justified? She's ruined my life. My mental health has never been so bad. I don't feel like this is normal. But then again, I've never loved like this and definitely never felt a heartbreak like this. It's nearly been 3 months now and I still blame myself for everything. I feel like a monster. I've not bothered checking up on her and I'm trying my best to move on She still hates me and from what I heard and the smear campaign is still going strong.
I miss the sweet adorable good girl I used to have, I miss the funny out going person I used to be and I miss the family we had, I'd do anything to have that back but her actions are telling me it's never going to happen and maybe that's for the best I just wish I could stop crying everytime I think of her I wish I could fix this I wish I was better for her but I'm broken.
Will she allways hate me? Is this all my fault? And will this pain ever go because I'm struggling I don't know how much longer I can do this, the one woman I ever fully loved with all my heart hating me over a mistake is weighing heavy on me, maybe one day she will understand that it's not just her with mental health issues and I was only trying my best but I'm not holding out hope.
If you ever read this A Im truly do love you with everything I have and I know you must be hurting too, I'm sorry I did this to you, I'm sorry I couldn't be better, I let my trauma get the better off me and ill never forgive my self for losing the love of my life, I know I made you happy and hopefully in the future I'll get the chance to make you happy again.

(i apologize for my english, im not fluent. i also apologise if some of my questions sound stupid) for some backround information, i dislocated my patella around 12 weeks ago and only just started pt. my leg was in a cast for 3 weeks and in a brace for another 3 weeks and my parents just told me to stay at home for the rest of it. my doctor generally didnt talk much and told me i had ligament sprain, told me to rest and dismissed me (i never bent my knee too much in this whole time)
recently someone convinced my mother to take me to see another doctor and my new doctor said that this was not normal at all and i should be able to bend my knee fully by now, and i learned that i shouldve been doing special exercises this whole time. it is now listed in my files that i have "knee flexion contracture" and "collateral ligament strain" even though my past doctor only said that "my acl looks bad" but didn't elaborate further. doctors generally ignore me and just talk to the person who comes into room with me so i did not think to question it at the time (im underage so i suppose that is normal but i now wish that i paid more attention this time)
my mri appointment for my new doctor isnt due for another few days but i had to start physical therapy about a week ago and it is the most painful thing i have ever experienced in my life, it's worse than the day i actually had my injury, i had panic attacks a few times and almost threw up but i don't know if its because of my low pain tolerance or not. my parents are going to bring me to pt for only about two weeks, but i see people going for almost few months? is slow progress bad for you? am i supposed to push through the pain? how do i know when to stop before i throw up? i feel like im developing a geniune fear of doctors, i don't know what is the "normal" amount of pain and what's the limit. should i wait until mri result? would not going to physical therapy for a few days be okay?

(Reposted from myself in uniUK)
So I’m a 2nd year music student and I’ve dealt with a compressed nerve in my neck for 8 months (since before the start of the academic year) and it’s made the entire year utter hell and the injury keeps getting worse. It’s made my hands extremely weak and numb and painful, which makes playing flute and sax for my degree really hard. So I do some performance modules and they’ve been significantly impacted, but I kept them going because I thought I’d get better (and I was doing a lot better for a couple months before it got much worse again). It’s so depressing seeing everyone around me achieve great things while I can’t play much anymore. I got good spaces in the uni’s orchestras but I had to drop out of those. Luckily I do have non-performance modules (worth about 60% of the degree) but that’s made harder because it’s harder to use a computer.
So now my performance exams are approaching and I’m supposed to be playing in them (my physio’s advice is I can play as long as I take breaks and don’t play while in pain) and I think it’s all gonna go to shit. I also have 3 assignments due at the same time and even though I’m resting my hands and doing physical therapy my injury is getting worse. ATP I’m giving up on a music performance career and doing marketing internships etc but it’s so depressing. It almost feels like my life is over because it’s probably chronic pain at this point.
I’ve got special considerations for exams and extensions for assignments so my degree will be okay and I can resist my exams in August, but if I miss a group performance exam the other people in my ensemble have to go back in August too and the 3rd year members wouldn’t be able to graduate until January.
But yeah I’m trying to be positive and go in other directions but it’s really hard having to give up on my performance dreams. I’m exploring orchestration, composition and music business now, since I really enjoy & get decent to pretty good marks for composing and I have a bit of experience making posters & programmes for concerts. I’m trying to move on but it’s still really affecting my mental well-being.