I'M DONE WITH AP EXAMS AND HIGH SCHOOL FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE. I'VE FINISHED IT FINALLY. GONNA GRADUATE NEXT WEEK AND NO MORE EXAMS FOR ME. ALL A'S AND B+'S SENIOR YEAR SOMEHOW, DUE TO SOME SERIOUS LUCK AND AMAZING TEACHERS. I'M FINALLY DONE WITH THIS SHIT AND DON'T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT IT AGAIN LETS GOOOO. TOOK 7 THIS YEAR AND DONE WITH EVERY LAST ONE. BUT REGARDLESS, MY JOURNEY'S FINALLY DONE. I CAN REST IN PEACE. I CAN RELAX. I CAN BREATHE. I CAN GO TOUCH SOME GRASS NOW. I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS MOMENT MY WHOLE LIFE. FINALLY DONE WITH HIGH SCHOOL, GOING OFF TO COLLEGE, AND LEAVING REDDIT 🙏 I CAN FINALLY SAY THAT I ALONE AM THE HONORED ONE.

I just had things ended because a guy I was talking to finally told me today that he didn't want me and that I wasn't for him, but it ended up going way worse than I wanted.
Everything started with me reconnecting with him in Walmart. I knew him prior to this because we used to go to the same high school together but never really talked. I gave him my instagram and we were talking about our exes cause that is how we even knew each other. While I was texting him, he asked me for my number then we started texting on imessages. He would text me, send me pigeon games, and call me every now and then.
There was one day where he called me and he wanted to ask me sexual questions, I was cool with it cause we had been friends for 2 weeks and plus I don't really have anything to hide. I didn't think much about it while telling him and asking him stuff cause we were friends, he had started talking about how he wanted someone to be friends with benefits with that it wouldn't end up ruining the friendship and I told him I could never do that stuff cause I want to be in a relationship with those that I am sexual with, plus I get clingy with them cause I tend to actually like them.
At some point of talking, he even asked for me to send and I told him that I wanted to do all of that stuff when I get married because my last ex (the ex he knew about) had taken my virginity to get his ex (the guy i was talking to's ex) jealous. I don't know exactly what he said but he said something like "Well it would suck to wait for someone during the relationship just to realize that they aren't good at sex", which made me feel like I was waiting for no reason because after that ex, I never was sexually active with anyone (about 2-3 years counting). I ended up sending some old nudes because I thought it wouldn't matter anymore and that he was kind of cute. After that, the more we talked the more the sexual tension got heavy, he was talking about how he liked my body and how he wanted to fuck me, and I was eating it up cause he was making me feel pretty and wanted. He ended up jerking off to my picture when I let him take the time to (cause I really didn't want to do e-sex cause I've always felt unfulfilled doing it) and when he came back everything was fine.
After some days, we had gotten into this habit of me sending him nudes, taking them how he wanted them to look, with him complimenting me and jerking off to them, there was only one time where we did e-sex, everything else was sending. The sending nudes ended up making me feel how I did in my previous relationship which was like a whore, not an actual person, and like a porn magazine, so I talked to him about it and he told me to just tell him to stop when he does ask. Time passed some more and he would still asked so I talked to him again about it because everytime we would have a sweet moment he would ask me for nudes or say something sexual, but this time he was still entertaining the idea, I assume he was thinking I was playing hard to get, I really don't know, but this time I told him, "I don't think you'll get to the point of actually liking me" because during this time he made it seem like we were leaning into a relationship while I always said that I wanted a relationship, he had backed off when I said that but he replied saying "(my name) don't be like that". After that, the only time that we would be sexual was whenever I initiated it, which would be about once every 2-3 weeks.
During that I would treat him like a boyfriend, but he was still being plain towards me, (he even told me that he liked the way I treated him) the only time he would compliment me was when I dressed up, so I asked him about how he was rarely lovey dovey towards me and he told me that he needed more time to get to like me even more than he did cause he wanted to take things slow, I got salty and told him that sexting me and wanting me to send nudes wasn't take it slow, he didn't say anything about that but smirked and change the topic. Every now and then, I'd make slick comments about stuff that didn't make sense. We had gotten to a point where he told me that he wasn't going to be texting and calling as much because he wants to start his business up, which I had no problem with that, I told him that I would always be there for him and when needed me, if there was anything I could do to just let me know, and I even told him if he felt like he needed to not pursue a relationship right now that we could stop or cut ties for now. He agreed with him not pursuing a relationship, again stating that he wants to put all of his focus in the business, and that there was nothing wrong with me, just that he wanted to focus on himself. I told him that I didn't know if I was cool being just friends because I was actually trying to pursue a relationship with him and that if I figured out how I felt about it I would let him know so that things didn't get toxic between us.
6 days later (5/10/2024),
At night, I told him the way everything is right now is making me confused and overwhelmed because I didn't really understand what our status was, and it wasn't somewhere I wanted to be especially after sending him pictures of my body using a voice message. I also told him that I was regretting showing him my body cause of how I felt I was being used but didn't want to assume and was hoping that he just needed time, he replied the next day during the afternoon telling me that I was a good person just that he couldn't see a future with me, that he thought he made his want of being only friends clear, that we would go different directions if we did get together. I got confused about that part because everytime I would try and talk to him about us meeting up and how we would maintain the relationship, he would tell me that it was too soon to talk about it, so i got a bit mad and asked him how he came to that conclusion knowing that we didn't talk about it at all, how he knew my boundaries but didn't straight up tell me that he didn't want me so I could save my time, and how he didn't make anything clear cause I thought we were on pause for now and going to attempt to try again once the business started up. He then told me that I was trying to guilt him, to not be mad at him because he didn't want a relationship, that he didn't want me, that I wasn't for him, and to not get mad at him for something he couldn't control.
I told him that I wasn't meaning to guilt him (cause I wasn't, I was just being transparent and honest on how I felt) and that I wanted to call instead of texting cause i didn't like it, I felt more miscommunication was happening, he told me he didn't want to call because he didn't want me to call him an asshole and how my problems are his fault, I told him i never said it was his fault but he corrected me by reminding me i said it in the voice message i sent last night (I was really high when I made it, so i didn't remember much when I woke up), so i listened to it and I literally told him that it was half of his fault that I'm confused about our status and how I needed more stability from him, so I told him that just adding that I was also at fault to for not knocking him down when he first came at me. After that, I started screenshotting the messages for my notion journal to dissect more on how I feel about it to try to understand more on how i felt and to help me move on, but he gets PISSED, he texted me on imessage.
him: "yeah no, fuck your screenshots"
me: "why you don't even know what i'm going to do with them?"
him: "1 screenshot. Sure. 3??? Nahhh. You trynna catch me up. I one you and screenshots and I don't fuck with it. That drew the line for me. You right. We shouldn't talk."
THEN HE FUCKING BLOCKS ME ON EVERYTHING EVEN GETTING A MUTUAL FRIEND OF OURS TO BLOCK ME. So i start racing to talk to him because I didn't think it was a big ass deal, so i text him on discord and he's telling me to fuck off and blocks me. I kept finding ways to contact him trying to explain to him and apologizing that I'm keeping it to myself and that its nothing more but he tells me to fuck off even more to the point where he even threatens to report me. I gave up and I sent my last message to him telling him that he basically sucks, doesn't reciprocate any mercy I've given to him or treat me as if I mattered to him, how it was unfair how stubborn he was to not even try to understand how i felt, how i still, despite, the entirety of the situation, love him, and hopes his life goes well.
I do want to add that I understand constantly texting him and calling him about it was a bad move, I truly was just acting on my emotions instead of calming down then making a choice. I am obviously at fault for it

Hello. My name is Bungling-Worm. You may remember me from my highly condemned submissions such as "Socialists-The Moralist Busybodies Preventing You From Beating YOUR Cheating C\nt of a Wife and Annoying Children", "Profit or: Humanity's Raisin Deter (sic).", "Who Really 'Needs' Clean Air and Water Anyway?", "Hayek Was Right! - How Fascism Saved Western Civilization™ From the Bolshevik Menace" and "SWEATSHOPS!-The Greatest Gift to Third-World Youths Since the Polio Vaccine.*"
Today I'd like to address my fellow capitalists. It's no secret that, much like the U.S. military in Iraq circa 2003-2011, we're losing the battle for the hearts and minds of our intended slav..subje...vict...vassa...thral...our fellow men™. For this reason my employer, Generic Right-Wing Think Tank Inc., in partnership with our good friends in the U.S. Central Intelligence Agency and the U.K. Special Intelligence Service (formerly U.K. Military Intelligence, Section 6), have contacted the eminent propagandist conservative philosopher and gained his gracious permission to make an official Part 2 to his highly acclaimed How to argue in favor of capitalism and against socialism, a helpful guide the table of contents of which is freely available (for a limited time only) here: https://www.reddit.com/CapitalismVSocialism/comments/1cqvdsv/comment/l3wuegi/
Without picnic-boy's pioneering achievements in sophistry this work would not be possible. Now, without further add-do (sic) I give you a sneak peak into the table of contents of How to argue in favor of capitalism and against socialism, a helpful guide: Part 2.

1. State, often and always without evidence (because none exists), that socialists control all mainstream news media, organized religion (especially the Catholic Church, the Jesuit Order, the Hasidic College and every sect of Islam), Western academia, K-12 public education, the entire U.S. civil service (from the municipal all the way up to the federal), the FBI, the CIA, the Justice Department, the Democratic Party, the Fraternal Order of Freemasons, Hollywood, all police unions, the entire federal judiciary, all the major drug cartels and organized crime syndicates, the Federal Reserve System and the governments of literally every single third and second world country, especially the far-right and non-white majority ones. At the exact same time, and this is really important so pay close attention, accuse socialists of being unpopular teenage losers living in their parents' basement who're too lazy to get a job.
2. When socialists remark upon how similar the claims in point 1 are to contemporary Neo-Nazi conspiracy theories and start to question how you feel about Jewish people turn around and accuse them of being "the real anti-semites" for "wanting to take all the Jews' money away ". In no way is this conflation of all Jews with rich capitalists a form of economic antisemitism. If someone points out that it is simply cherry pick quotes from Marx's "On the Jewish Question" out of context so that none of the parts where Marx makes it clear he is only critiquing Judaism as a religion while at the same time advocating for the political emancipation of Jews as people are clear to the reader. After that go on to talk about how much you support Israel and how much happier you think diaspora Jews would be if they permanently immigrated there. Also and for no particular reason talk about the "failure" of the Kibbutzim apropos of nothing and don't elaborate on anything.
3. Always portray struggles of democratic socialists within ML states/the Eastern Bloc as struggles for capitalism. Yes, it is true the people who organized the East German Uprising of 1953, the 1956 Hungarian Revolution, the Prague Spring of 1968, and the Polish Solidarity Movement of the 1980's (before the Vatican and CIA hijacked it) all demanded democratic socialism, yes they all said that, but what they "really wanted" was capitalism and don't you let any so-called "historian" tell you otherwise.
4. Pretend that socialists invented the very concept of the state and thus that all state rulers from the Roman Emperors, Egyptian Pharaohs, Greek Archons, etc. to modern Kings, Kaisers, Tsars and Presidents were/are "socialists".
5. Don't forget to liberally pepper your psychotic rants with plenty of freudian slips and accusations in a mirror. For example, make the claim that socialists want to destroy the family so that they can isolate, abuse and indoctrinate women and children while at the same time assert that wives and children are nothing more than an extension of "the individual" who need to be shielded by this individual from an unrealistically hostile and confusing world (literally everything and everyone outside the home).
6. Assert that socialists invented taxation and ignore that the first taxes in recorded history took the form of land-rents set by the first governments (which were councils of militaristic landlords).
7. Defend rent-seeking and landlordism so long as it's done by private individuals. Remember rent-seeking is only bad when the government does it because they spend that money on social parasites and welfare leeches, unlike landlords who spend it on their second families in the next state over.
8. Claim fascism is a form of socialism but also defend the legacies of lesser known fascist regimes, military dictatorships and other totalitarian right-wing governments whose symbols and mottos the people in your country haven't developed a learned fear response to yet the way they have the Swastika and the Fasces.
9. When leftists point out that the main victims of things like the Great Purge and the Chinese Cultural Revolution were socialists,communists, anarchists and other left-wing intellectuals who opposed Stalin and Mao's cults of personality either ignore them and maintain that the "real victims" were the tiny minority of "innocent" religious extremists, ultranationalists (who were "definitely not" fascist collaborators or spies), and resource hoarders who were killed or do a complete one hundred and eighty degree pivot and actually defend the Great Purge and Cultural Revolution because "The more left someone is, the more violent/dictatorial they are, therefore anyone to the left of Stalin and Mao would have been more violent than them and it's a good thing they were killed."
10. If you think any of these points are self-contradicting just remember that doublethink is merely a tool and "communists" (Stalinists) shouldn't be the only ones allowed to make use of it.
11. Ignore the mountains of evidence that an anti-Stalinist left exists. Portray these leftists as right-wingers and edit their most famous works to leave out the many mentions of their own support for socialism.
12. Remind your interlocutor(s) that socialism is gay and cringe.
13. Remember that reading is gay but total illiteracy is still kinda cringe (unfortunately). Therefore read as little as humanly possible without going full illiterate. Our recommendation is to only read blurbs from ancap websites, your favorite right-wing conspiracy theorists' social media threads and your fellow "capitalists' " reddit posts and nothing else.
14. In keeping with point 13 let the only things you "know" or "learn" about socialism be things you absorbed through osmosis and half remember from your high school history textbooks assuming you even read them at all. Never look at primary sources, never listen to people trying to explain things to you in detail, always complain that quotes provided to you are "blocks of text" or "unoriginal".
15. Remember that conformism, unquestioning obedience to authority, an unflinching belief in the correctness of the current socioeconomic status quo and conventional wisdom, and a general Panglossian worldview with a huge heaping of moral nihilism (which is definitely a real philosophical school of thought and not just a rationalization of one's own sociopathic tendencies) are actually somehow radical and that "conservatism is the new punk rock" of the 21st century.

Thought I'd make some closing thoughts on the CS experience at this school for future/current students.

1. Figure out what the goal of college is for you - to get a job, to get into academia, to strengthen your knowledge in CS, to go out to bars and make lots of friends, or a combination of all/some of these. This will save you lots of time when making decisions. Should you work all night to bump that MP from 85 to a 95, or would you rather go to happies with your friends. Would you sacrifice your grades to make new friends and gain leadership experience in RSOs. If you know your goal, it is relatively simple to make these decisions.
2. You don't need to know exactly what you want to do within CS, but do not let that be an excuse to do nothing. Don't know if you want to do machine learning, cybersecurity, backend, ui/ux, frontend, product management, or leadership? Doesn't matter. Choose something, and dive deep into it. If you like it, great! If not, move on to the next thing.
3. Being kind gets you further than being smart. I'm not saying being technically competent isn't important -- it is. but, DO NOT BURN BRIDGES. TALK TO EVERYONE. BE KIND TO EVERYONE. This is especially valuable for freshman. I'm not telling you to be the most outgoing person or spend all your time trying to make random friends just for the sake of it. But when you run into people you met once, say hi! This is very dependent on the type of person you are, and why you are even in college, but in general I notice that people who are just kind and get along with everyone tend to do better in life lol.
4. If you want to go into further education, do research. or, have connections with some faculty/professors. You cannot get into most masters program without some academic letters of rec, so be a face that some professors know. I graduated with a very high gpa, but didn't apply to a single masters program because I had no connections in the university.
5. Almost everyone around you is cheating. It is pretty wild how UIUC is ranked so highly with a HUGE proportion of students cheating in classes like Data Structures and Systems Prog. Again, if you know your goal is to just explore computer science topics and expand your knowledge, this wouldn't bother you. However, if your goal in college is to land a high paying job or get into higher education, it will definitely bother you that others are taking easy routes to potentially take your job/college spot. My best advice is to either ignore the issue or join them. Complaining tends to do nothing. I'm sure professors know and don't care, either because they are lazy, or because if you cheat in college you are usually just cheating yourself out of an education.
6. College isn't designed to be a pipeline to a job. I found myself many times wondering why I'm spending all this time on a course/topics that I won't need in Software Engineering. However, the curriculum is designed to give you a wide breathe of computer science topics, not software engineering topics.
7. Go out more. Make deep, real connections with people as well as some not-so-deep friendships. Make mistakes, make dumb decisions. Messing up now is way better than messing up in the real world.

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With Honeywell’s impending acquisition of LenelS2 (expected to close q3), I’ve heard around the rumor mill (from some possible inside sources, but low on the totem pole, and also from every engineer speculating) that Honeywell possibly intends to sunset one of the 3 ACS products in the portfolio?
If it were you, who would you axe?
OnGuard, being a staple in numerous government/high security installations?
Netbox, being the most user friendly UX but maybe lowest market share?
Or the sleeper, ProWatch, your own child, albeit a terribly decrepit, barely alive monster.
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i’ve had an ed for a year now, i have come a long way since then. i don’t want to fully recover because i am scared to gain weight back. is there any way not to? i literally gain weight from the volume of food instead of calories. example: i could eat a burger and fries and a milkshake and thatll be all i ate that day so i wouldn’t gain weight, but if i ate less calories and a bigger amount of food, i would gain weight. and its not “water weight” because it doesn’t go away and i know my body. i would have to work to lose it. this is really weird but i have to avoid water because im scared of the scale. i used to be able to drink 3 bottles everyday in the peak of my ed when i ate one meal a day and 500 calories a day. i cant drink more than 8oz of liquid a day now because ill gain weight even if its a zero calorie drink.

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Literally it cost the shipping, that's it
Speaking of shipping, it'll be $5 coming out of Illinois. Thank you all for looking whenever you can.

Try out various positions and see if you find a position that works.
Im a bit of a headfi nut and own several headsets at the $500 mark.
One of my favorites (and many other peoples) is the midrange ($100) Audiotechnica AD700; an open and comfortable headset that leaks a bit of sound into the room, but pays back with an extremely vivid and airy sound.
Imo the Quest 3 headphones, using the "manual reverberation" method described above "mod", when you get it right, is not far from the AD700 level, in a way Im tempted to call them even better. Good natural freq distribution, no sharp highs, strong mids, good clarity and separation, good bass with punch potential.
Surely some optional reverb chambers that you can attach at demand must be moddable by manufacturers like BOBOVR and similarly.

[Acne] Sharing my story to help others <3
I recently had an Acne outbreak from a B-12 injection (which knew this was a thing??). After 2 weeks of about 20+ pimples continuing to develop I decided to visit a Dermatologist… the Dermatologist tried to prescribe very strong hormone altering pills/creams but I declined as being pregnant in the near future was on the cards & I knew my breakouts were not hormone related… Instead the Derm gave me Gycolic acid wipes and told me to use them twice a day… I did this for 1 month exactly and my skin was ruined. I broke my skin barrier so bad that I now had 100+ pimples….
Having never really been into skincare I had no idea how to even fix this issue… so after trying a month on my own using random products from Ulta & Sephora getting nowhere, I visited an Esthetician who recommended a whole new routine with just purely hydrating / non pore clogging products. Plus a couple of NDYag laser facials & extractions.
Using my new skincare products is trial and error as everyone’s skin is different, thoughout this experience I learnt that I cannot tolerate products with Fatty Alcohols. It took about 5-6 months in total from initially taking the B-12 injection to totally clear my skin but about 3 months of solid great skincare really did the trick. Along with avoiding inflammatory foods (canola/vegetable/sunflower oil, processed meats, sugars, dairy etc).
Products I use now that I love:

• Bioderma Micellar Water
• REN Evercalm Gentle Cleansing Gel
• Charlotte Tilbury Glow Toner
• Epicutis Lipid Serum HOLY GRAIL
• Tizo Zinc Suncreen
• Avene Eye Cream
• LED Mask by Dennis Gross
• Shoosh Silk Pillowcase on Amazon (silk helps keep your products in place through the night, less absorbent than cotton)
• Dermaline Hydro Soothing Calming Face Mask

Products that made my breakouts worse:

• CORSX Hyaluronic Acid Cream
• VIVANT Allantoin Moisturizer
• IUNIK Beta Glucan Moisturizer

In the past, before my B-12 breakout & broken skin barrier I had pretty clear skin for years and followed the below routine, I’ll look to go back to this over time. I have learnt it’s good to only introduce 1 product at a time slowly so you know how your skin is coping & how that product might react with other ingredients. If a product you use is making you breakout, you’ll know after about a week of using.

• Garnier Micellar Water
• Charlotte Tilbury Glow Toner (daytime)
• Charlotte Tilbury Glow Serum (daytime)
• Charlotte Tilbury Magic Water Cream (daytime)
• La Roche Posay SPF 50 (daytime)
• Lancôme Génifique Serum (evenings)

My doctor wants 3 weeks of a solid 1000 calorie, low carb/fat, high protein diet. 3 days of liquid diet. I see such a disparity between how long people have to do their liquid diet.
My BMI is currently 37. Currently struggling a little bit, but doing mostly okay on it.

I was in a server and for like 3 events (2 in a row) I started the event as soon as I got there, because I was waiting for them to start. I usually got there 10-30sec after it begins.
I’m a newer player, lvl 21, and I started at lvl 2. I didn’t think of any reason the high levels (same group each time) might be standing around when I got there. One of the times, they even had a set up waiting for more people. Very obvious. AND I WALTZ ON OVER AND STARTED THE EVENT, WITH 0 HESITATION.
Anyways, I’m hoping those involved see this. I’m not trolling I’m just stupid. ❤️

Hi, I recently listened to the "Drive to Work" podcasts by Mark Rosewater, where he discusses how the wedges in Khans of Tarkir weren't the "natural ones" because they shifted the central color from what was originally intended. In Ikoria, they returned to the original configuration for the triomes, although they weren't technically factions.
So, I was wondering how the clans of Tarkir would have been if they had stuck to the original idea. After some thought, the best I came up with was:
Abzan, with black as the center: This clan would be the least affected by the re-imagining. Essentially, there would be 3 main families (BG, WB, B) that would control their branch families through tradition, religion, and other means, all that thing that the OG abzan believe but know jus truly believe by the branch families. So basically these 3 main families would control the clan trough the indoctrination to give their life's for the group, fond coopetition between the branches to win their approval and basically having their ancestors souls as hostages since the keen trees now are owned by their main family in gardens. In the main families there would be a lot of intrigue to become the patriarch/matriarch. They would use family titles (big brother, aunt, father, etc.) as a hierarchical system.
Mardu, with white as the center: Essentially a mercenary/crusader clan focused on establishing "order" in Tarkir through bloodshed and brutality to get rid of those who oppose to peace. They would work as mercenaries or demand tributes from those they protect (not paying would count as "oppose to peace") since they live in a scarce land. Fearmongering through brutality would be a common tactic, but they would still have honor and some codes. They would heavily rely on meritocracy, penalizing those who do not contribute to the cause. Other clans members could join them as long as they are not dishonorable, but they must prove their loyalty by committing an irrefutable act of treason to their former clan as a joining ritual.
I dont have much for the next ones
Temur, with blue as the center: They would be a tribe of hermits living in small but connected communities. They would train their bodies and enter shamanic trances to explore a spiritual world with no time (i was thinking in the dream time from australian mythology), gaining knowledge from ancient spiritual beasts. or maybe their would explore something like their inner worlds.
Sultai, with green as the center: perhaps they could be shapeshifting shamans capable of copying animal traits and mixing them. They would live in the most bountiful territory and protect their land by any means necessary, like making trades with rakshasas or distorting their environment to better protect itself. basically a "either we outmatch our opponents be any mean or we loss" mentality
Jeskai, with red as the center: Monasteries would be dedicated to specific crafts like weapon making or complex artifact creation. The "art of war" would still be present, but the focus would be on crafting rather than fighting. and the 3 fires would be less for fighting and more to make themself they art
honestly, except for Abzan, they are barely even half-baked., and I'm not sure what dragon aspect they would use. I'm curious to see what ideas others come up with.

Thanks in advance to anyone who takes the time to read this.
My life is in a terrible mess & just continues to spiral downwards at a rate of knots. Where I’m at has been heavily influenced by mental illness (bipolar disorder) but equally I take full responsibility for my actions.
I have 2 kids. All I care about is them. But this life I’m living isn’t sustainable.
I’m 42. I’ve been with my wife for 22 years & we’ve been married for 17. Things were good until 7 years ago. At that time my eldest child was 3 & my youngest was a baby. I had a good enough career for my wife to not work for the foreseeable. I had a history of anxiety & depressions & 7 years ago I was put on an antidepressant. I hadn’t had my bipolar diagnosis (won’t get in to all that here) & taking an antidepressant without a mood stabiliser if you’re bipolar generally ends badly. I’d not long started work at a new company & I began to feel very unwell. Even after stopping the antidepressant (when I was diagnosed soon after), I was very unwell for several months. I couldn’t do my job. My wife was at home with a baby & I didn’t want to worry her. I pretended to go to work & sat in my car all day. I thought it’d pass & I’d be better, therefore never having needed to worry her, but things got worse. Sitting alone all day every day contributed. I ended up in hospital a few months later, having suffered a huge breakdown. Even though I had good intentions to protect her, my wife felt hugely betrayed, which I can understand. She has never forgiven me.
I was off work for another 6 months after I got out of hospital. We had very little money coming in & had to borrow money from my wife’s parents. They were very cruel about my mental illness & told me I should be ashamed of myself. I found my way back due to the love for my kids. I got back to work in a more junior role, but have never regained the person I used to be. I’ve been so heavily medicated since my diagnosis & my world’s been turned so upside down that he’s lost.
I had a few years of relative stability & we were able to rebuild some of the damage. But my wife never forgave me. We haven’t had an intimate relationship since before it happened. Then lockdown came & I started to wobble. I got an appointment with a private psychiatrist through my health insurance & he put me on the highest dose possible of a medication called pregabalin (for anxiety).
Fast forward a few months (about 3 years ago) & I had a terrible manic episode. I don’t remember much of it but I had a good salary & credit rating, so was able to take out a lot of loans. Long story I buried myself in tens of thousands of £s in debt. When I came to & that episode ended, I was distraught & had to go to great lengths to hide it from my wife. As I’ll come on to, in all honesty I’m afraid of her. Also, when is a good time to tell someone that? After a year of hiding letters etc. I sunk in to a bad depression in September / October. I’ve been in it since & it continues to worsen.
I’ve been off sick all year. I was hospitalised in January as I was in crisis. It’s been a terrible ordeal for my wife. Illness or not, I’ll never forgive myself for what I’ve put her through.
I’m at home all day because the depression has just made everything impossible. I understand my wife’s frustration but all she does is shout at me. I must sound pathetic, but it’s been this way for years. I’m afraid of her. When I tell her she’s being aggressive she denies it. She gaslights me a lot. She calls me lazy & a failure. She tells me to “f off back to work”. There are some days when it’s not too bad but most days it’s constant & extremely aggressive.
My youngest has now been at school full time for 2 years. My wife won’t get a job. She gets angry with me about problems with the house but won’t work. The last time it was mentioned she made my life hell for weeks. I experienced a lot of abuse as a child & can’t stand or cope with bad atmospheres in the house. She kept saying I’d “told her to get a job”.
She knows what I’ve been going through but hasn’t even brought it up. My salary is going to drop soon as I’ll move on to the income protection plan. She’ll then be forced to work so God help me. I’m terrified.
My mental health is a mess. I forgot to mention that the pregabalin prescribed during lockdown has become something I’ve abused the last year or so. I take more when I get my prescription & leave myself with less for the rest of the month. It’s the only temporary relief from this terrible depression & how I’m treated at home.
I have no parents or siblings. Nowhere to go. It would break my heart to leave my kids but I’ve come to realise if I don’t get away from my wife then this is only going to end in one outcome. I’m not far from it at all. I’m terrified of what she’ll do. I would be able to pay the core bills on this house (around £2200) & get a cheap airbnb (I’d need to live on canned food) until this house is sold. But she’d need to work to pay for groceries & ‘non-bill’ things. She can have all the equity from the house when it’s sold. All I want is for the kids to be ok.
One way or the other it’s terrifying: I live with the aftermath of telling her about the salary drop (if my mental health gets any worse it will be dangerous) or I find the courage to leave. If I leave I dread to think what crazy stuff she’ll do.
I’m exhausted, humiliated, ill & I’ve had as much as I can take. I’m only still here for the kids’ sake. But the bad thoughts are creeping in more & more
My wife hates me. I haven’t had a hug in years. She shows no compassion whatsoever. She makes it so blatantly obvious that she can’t stand me but that she’s just here because she has nowhere else to go.. It’s horrific. I haven’t explained it all well enough here. It feels like hell on earth & I’m on countdown now until this explodes one way or another. I’m already at the end of my tether. I just have to make sure that I am still here for my kids. Maybe not in the same house. But I can’t sink any lower & not be here at all

Hello,
In about a month I'll be travelling with my girlfriend to Malaysia and Singapore. We'll stay 3 nights in KL, 3 nights in Penang, 4 nights in Langkawi and 4 nights in Singapore. The stays are fixed but the programme of what we do every day is flexible.

1. Travel to Kuala Lumpur, plane arrives at 9.30 AM. I suppose we'll probably arrive in KL sentral somewhere in the afternoon? We're hoping to be able to walk in the Petronas towers area, visit the KL tower, KLCC park and maybe do the walk bridges eco forest.
2. AM: Visit Willaya mosque (grab), PM: Thean Hou Temple and visit Chinatown
3. AM: Batu Caves, PM: Pavillion shopping in the afternoon which is close to our hotel
4. Travel to Penang by train and ferry. Walk around the city centre for a bit after checking into our hotel.
5. AM: Visit Penang Hill by train, Sri Aruloli temple. PM: Visit Kek Lok Si temple
6. AM: Not sure really, perhaps hike to monkey beach and take a boat back?
7. AM: Travel to Langkawi by plane PM: Probably visit Pantai Cenang and/or chill at some beach?
8. AM: Visit the Seven Wells Waterfall and Machinchang natural swimming pool. Maybe the full hike up Mount Machinchang
9. AM: Cable car to Langkawi Sky bridge, PM: Do a kayak tour through the mangroves (maybe better in AM?)
10. Beach day at Tanjung Rhu beach, return to hotel, visit a fire show at Pantai Cenang beach
11. Travel to Singapore, plane lands at 11.30 AM. Again not sure how much time we'll have in the afternoon. Either way our hotel is near Little India so we could definitely explore that and the Arabic neighbourhood. In the evening we could go to Bay Sands Area for the 2 lightshows.
12. Visit gardens by the bay (cloud forest and flower dome) and walk through Orchard Road in the afternoon. Not sure what else to add here? Does it make more sense to visit Bay Sands area in the afternoon and visit the light shows on the same day?
13. AM: Visit the botanical and orchid garden. Perhaps the night safari as well? Should we combine these two and do botanical in the afternoon? If so, any recommendations for AM?
14. Doing a 12k hike in the MacRitchie Nature trail with the treetop walk. Is this worth it? Or is Sentosa Island worth a trip? We don't really care about theme parks, have alread had beach time in Langkawi and would probably only do a short walk and visit S.E.A. (if it's worth it).
15. Fly home

Should I be moving things around? Is it too busy or too little? We like to always have something to do but at the same time we don't want to feel like we have to rush from one thing to another. At the end of the day, we should also have enough time to relax and enjoy all the delicious food. Any feedback?
Thanks in advance!

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For context, I am in University about 50 miles from where she and my parents live, so I commute every weekend and most weekdays to see her. I love her. Plain and simple, in so many ways. We used to work together until she got a better job recently. Yesterday was her birthday. I made her some cookies common in the continent she's from, and baked them into heart shapes. I also got her 25$ of lottery tickets, flowers, her favorite energy drink, and a handwritten card with a lot of writing and drawings of us and her cat. I dropped it off to her in the morning after an all-nighter (going through it with finals and papers right now) and drove to the University to work my full shift. First she texted me thanking me for the gift, then asked me "what the fuck" those cookies were and that she choked on them. I was sad, told her what they were, and she told me I shouldn't have cooked something as a gift since I'm a bad cook. (I am, but I've made other stuff that she liked in the past). She also complained that the whole point of buying lottery tickets is to buy them, not to scratch them (I disagree?). She texted me that I shouldn't have gotten her anything if it was just going to be low effort.
I saw her later that night after she got out of work, and she was mad at me. She said I ruined her birthday by giving such a low effort gift, and that I didn't care about her. She brought up that I ruined her birthday last year too (by not immediately stopping our text conversation about some other girl and wishing her happy birthday the minute it got past midnight). Anytime I responded that I did put effort into the cookies, she would just deny it. Incredibly frustrating since I know how much effort I put in. She was mad the flowers I got her were not in a boquet, only loose, which didn't make it seem like a special occasion. At the heart of it she was mad that my gifts weren't special? To me the card and cookies were plenty special but she just says that it was stuff I've given her other days. She started calling me ret*rded, to which I responded "You're mean to me and I don't like it". I don't remember much of what she said (I'd had 4 hours of sleep in the past 2 nights), but she doubled down and continued calling me a wide variety of hurtful words, from ret*rded to stupid to childish and immature. I was already long sobbing, and in the middle asked her to just hit me instead. She obviously refused. She asked if I even wanted to go on our trip this upcoming weekend. I responded yes, and she replied that maybe I don't if I don't care about her enough to get her a decent gift.
She's horrifically depressed, and I know she has some specific trauma in response to people not caring about her birthdays. I think that explains part of it. Still, I tried. I am also depressed myself. I've tried bringing it up to her a few times and she responds that I'm "always bitching too much" because my life is so perfect. Compared to hers its way better, yes, but that doesn't mean I need a reason to be depressed. She's also acted distant the entire Spring semester. I rarely spend time with her, and even more rarely is it time that isn't just "okay we can see each other for 5 minutes but I have to go in". We havent' had sex since January, or cuddling. I very much miss both of these things, and we've had (rare) opportunities for them shes missed because shes too busy sleeping (I'm not allowed in her appartment to join her, mom discovered we had sex).
At the end of being yelled at when she denied me a hug and told me essentially to go away, I had a nervous break. Honestly I've been working too much and I'm overwhelmed with needing to find a new second job and the immense weight of finals and final essays ,things breaking on my car, and now this. I sped off, her and her mom heard my tires squealing and uninvited me from the trip. I drove recklessly for about 2-3 minutes on backroads while scream-crying about killing myself and fighting the urge to drive into a tree. Not proud of it. But I am devastated about missing the trip. She backed out on us living together, and promised we could have time to cuddle on the trip. I honestly don't feel like I have anything to look forward to.
I do a lot for her. I drive two hours round trip every time I want to see her, sometimes even for 5 minutes to drop off some food before going back. I've spent the past academic year working to support our long-standing plans of moving out together (This past weekend was my first time having more than one day off in a row since accompanying her to her surgery in October). I bring her flowers weekly, at work I do all of the hard stuff for her and massage her shoulders if she feels sore. I bring her food from my University and any treats she wants from the surrounding stores. I always ask if she wants anything. I have never said anything hurtful to her. She apologizes when she hurts my feelings too much and she realizes it, like last night. I spend thousands on her, whether jewelry (the most expensive ring she lost), buying her contacts or paying big bills when shes strugglign like drivers' ed or her wheel bearing replacements.
She texted me that shes sorry I'm not going and that she hurt me but I need to control my emotions better. That she loves me so much and regardless of our fights she will always love me so much. I responded that I felt like an unappreciated chore and didnt want to get yelled at. She replied that I'm not a chore she just hasnt had time and has been too depressed to make time for me. We texted a bit and I slept a few hours until my final/work today. She clearly didn't like me defending myself by saying that if i got a present i didnt like i wouldnt call my partner a "worthless ret*rd" by responding "i never called you worthless dont put words in my mouth...i sent you messages apologizing and being worried and your response is victimizing and arguing more...not happy with ruining my birthday? had to go further and ruin the day after?"
We've been texting each other throughout the day happier things. She's been sending me recipes to be a better cook and wants me to see her for 5 minutes after work in about 2 hours from the time of writing. I want to be with her. I love her, I've done so much, I will continue. But I feel like I'm being verbally abused. And I don't know how to stop it. I'm so overwhelmed with everythign in my life and I really just need someone on my side. I think i'll just first establish a rule of not interrupting/yelling and then telling her how hurt and lonely I feel. That I love her and I can totally work with her on managing time for me and depression but that I cannot tolerate verbal abuse.
TLDR: Gave girlfriend cookies for her birthday. She didnt like them and called me a ret*rd. I had a nervous break from other combined stressors, made a scene with reckless driving, got uninvited to a trip with her and her mom. She is texting me recipes and being nice to me today. I will see her in a few hours. I am hurt and overwhelmed with life and just want to be treated like I'm loved.
Thank you readers

I’m 28 my brother is 22 I used to beat him easily in 1v1 everytime I’m pretty good don’t wanna boost or anything I’m sure a lot of ppl here are better but he has a family gene and is now 6’2 a big I’m only 5’9 so a couple months ago he beat me 11-3 I was like there’s no shot he’s just to tall. But I started training because I wanted to play in the summer league at the rec center in my town. So on Mother’s Day the time presented itself. This time was much different it started out as a back and forth of course I can’t stop everything but my footwork and finesse with the basketball kept me in the game. Normally I’d get tired and start calling 2s but I never settled so mid way I could tell he was getting worn down absolutely gassed went into the house for water sitting down and I’m just unphased ready to go. It’s 10-8 my lead at this point: he comes back in the game I give him a little space because if I get best off one foot he’s got a lay up line so he tied it. Hoping I would to for 2 and the win back I didn’t I just continued to play bully ball the more you wear on your opponent the easier it is back down back down fake up and under bucket 11-10. So he comes back down I see ball I see man can’t pick him up at the high post poking the ball away multiple times he’s exhausted at this point I get the stop finally. I come back down same thing to his credit he gets the stop. At this point he’s entirely gassed and has no option to go for 2 so I step up a bit more and then box out it missed the whole rim so just lay it in and that’s game, was a hell of a game didn’t know my stamina and strength was that high. I didn’t really feel worn out much at all I was sweating of course but the next day I’m sore as shit guarding a big man is no joke plus there was no real ref so I was getting elbowed hit in all areas but never went away. Shit was competitive as fuck I can’t wait for the league to start so we can run real plays pick and rolls all game that’s my favorite offense shooting a bunch of 3s just lets your opponents miss and if your only making like 1. Out of 4 I can live with that. I’d rather attack like a slasher type and just wear my opponent down. For reference I’m 5’9 about 197 and he’s 6’2 225 so yeah. It’s does definitely sting the day after

My parents have been divorced since I was around 5, but I’ve seen my dad periodically maybe 3-5x a year growing up since then, and the number became less frequent when becoming a middle schooler, high schooler, etc.
He lives a state over, but never attended my HS graduation because his relationship to my mom + extended family has always been kind of rocky. He was always kind of a drunk/trouble maker in their eyes. I think it bothered him that he didn’t get to see me walk in HS (7 years ago) so bad, I remember he got drunk and called me, cursing me out at my graduation class ceremony celebration, telling me I am his seed + nothing without him and all this other crap with all my classmates out in the party having a good time in which I hid in the venue’s bathroom for half an hour crying, arguing with him.
We kind of glossed over this fact as time went on. He would cut me off and then eventually moved overseas and just tried to contact me after months and act like nothing happened. He’d tell me he’s sober and whatnot and he was loving again.
Fast forward to today, I text him maybe 2x a month, he lives a state away from me, and I graduate with my master’s now in a week from now. I know he’s excited for me, but I don’t think he’s expecting an invite from me necessarily, but in case he is, what would I even say? I don’t even think he’d remember the HS argument we had. And it makes me feel uneasy at the thought of him coming in the first place to see my mom + extended family to my ceremony bc he would totally be the type to cause a scene or something with them based on old patterns.
What would you do or say in this situation if he asked confronting you why you didn’t invite him?