I am a teaching assistant. I’ve been 19 for a reasonably short amount of time. I work while taking community college courses, and have $11117 in my savings account from my job (was a sub, am now an assistant and have been one since January. Next month I receive a dollar raise, becoming an assistant means I work daily. I should have more saved after I’ve been paid through the end of this month.) I’m admittedly not positive that this is what I see myself doing for my entire life, but also don’t know what I want to major in and am partly here because it’s supposed to be a learning experience for me.
I have grown up in, and still live in, an area that has a very large white population (and a sizable population of one specific non-white ethnic group that is not black. I am from a place that has a low population of black people.) I am a black woman who is from a low income family, and have grown up in an apartment complex (my parents allow me to live with them and not pay rent, which is what has helped me save my money.) I look: https://www.instagram.com/p/C6IR_UzLjTM/?igsh=MzRlODBiNWFlZA== and https://www.instagram.com/p/C6z0F4bptE4/?igsh=MzRlODBiNWFlZA== and https://www.instagram.com/p/C6IW3nlLufV/?igsh=MzRlODBiNWFlZA==
I have noticed, ever since graduating from high school, that I am no longer terribly attracted to white men. I pass average looking white men on the street, and there’s no attraction present. I have felt attraction toward average and above looking black men, particularly those who are dark skinned, although I felt very strong attraction toward a light skinned 1/2 black 1/2 white boy in my senior year of high school (had colored eyes and was commonly considered to be above average/conventionally attractive. I also had a crush on another mixed boy who was slightly above average as a freshman, yet average by the time he was a junior - I was no longer attracted to him after he became average, and also started to dislike him because he had criticized my physical appearance behind my back.) The non-black men I have been attracted to were Mexican/Latino, yet were typically above average (I occasionally feel attraction toward an average looking Mexican/Latino man. Occasionally.) I will admit that I am very specific about what I like. I have found Jake Gyllenhaal attractive (about two years ago I was wildly attracted to him when watching Donnie Darko,) and had a crush on David Bowie in middle school, but think I was more attracted to white men then than I am now. My only boyfriend, two years ago, was black, and was what I think of as average looking. The white men I have typically been attracted to have had blonde hair and blue eyes, but I don’t know why.
I’m introverted. I do have to interact with people because of the nature of my job, but I have no friends. Whenever I am not working, I generally watch television (as of right now, that has typically been “Laverne and Shirley” and “twilight zone” - I’ve actually been marathoning twilight zone every year since I was about 11 or 12 ever since my middle school science teacher turned on two episodes, “eye of the beholder” and “number 12 looks just like you” for our class. I’ve always wanted to introduce a group of youth to the series in that manner, because I remember that it actually got me hooked on the series.)
Black men in my area typically take out and prefer white women, or otherwise seem to be colorists. In high school, I remember that black boys specifically dating white girls was a “thing.” I don’t really tend to receive attention in my area, I have not received any attention this year.
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Over the course of the past few months I have been working on compiling a list of my 500 favorite songs. It was sort of challenge that I gave myself and I'm super pumped with how it turned out. There were a few rules (only 5 songs per artist being the big rule, among a few others), and here's the list I came up with. Thought it was fun, so wanted to share here and see if it might spark any discussion about song placement, lack of songs/artists, or see if anyone had any similar lists. All thoughts are welcome! (and if you don't care to comb through all 500 songs for your favorite song or artist I'm more than happy to help you track 'em down)

1. Trash Panda - Aging out of the 20th Century
   
2. Djo - Roddy
   
3. The Beatles - Don't Let Me Down
   
4. Snail Mail - Heat Wave
   
5. Phoebe Bridgers - Savior Complex
   
6. Joji - SLOW DANCING IN THE DARK
   
7. The Shins - The Fear
   
8. Talking Heads - This Must Be the Place (Naive Melody)
   
9. The Cranberries - Linger
   
10. Post Animal - Ralphie
    
11. Hop Along - Not Abel
    
12. The Beach Boys - Heroes And Villains
    
13. Electric Light Orchestra - Livin' Thing
    
14. The Monkees - As We Go Along
    
15. Blondie - Heart Of Glass
    
16. The Strokes - Oblivius
    
17. Chet Baker - It's Always You
    
18. The Beatles - Rain
    
19. Electric Light Orchestra - Telephone Line
    
20. Husbands - Must Be a Cop
    
21. Faces - Ooh La La
    
22. The Flaming Lips - Do You Realize??
    
23. Frank Ocean - Nights
    
24. Harry James - It's Been a Long, Long Time
    
25. The Turtles - Happy Together
    
26. Etta James - At Last
    
27. The Zombies - The Way I Feel Inside
    
28. The Beatles - Here, There And Everywhere
    
29. The Beach Boys - God Only Knows
    
30. Kanye West - Father Stretch My Hands Pt. 1
    
31. Briston Maroney - Sinkin'
    
32. John Lennon - Oh My Love
    
33. Herb Alpert & The Tijuana Brass - Ladyfingers
    
34. Squirrel Flower - Headlights
    
35. The Backseat Lovers - Maple Syrup
    
36. The B-52's - Rock Lobster
    
37. George Harrison - All Things Must Pass
    
38. Snail Mail - Ben Franklin
    
39. Laura Elliott - Grass Stains
    
40. Djo - Chateau (Feel Alright)
    
41. Tame Impala - Eventually
    
42. The Backseat Lovers - Snowbank Blues
    
43. Claude Debussy - Clair de Lune
    
44. The Weeknd - Save Your Tears
    
45. Talking Heads - Thank You for Sending Me an Angel
    
46. The Zombies - Time of the Season
    
47. The War On Drugs - Nothing to Find
    
48. Queen - Brighton Rock
    
49. The Dream Academy - Please, Please, Please Let Me Get What I Want
    
50. The B-52's - Strobe Light
    
51. The Cranberries - Dreams
    
52. Fugees - Killing Me Softly With His Song
    
53. Molchat Doma - Тоска
    
54. Tyler, The Creator - ARE WE STILL FRIENDS?
    
55. The Mamas & The Papas - Dream A Little Dream Of Me
    
56. The Chords - Sh-Boom
    
57. The Beatles - The Abbey Road Medley
    
58. The Ronettes - Be My Baby
    
59. The Who - Baba O'Riley
    
60. Dr. Dog - Where'd All the Time Go?
    
61. M83 - My Tears Are Becoming A Sea
    
62. Billie Eilish - everything i wanted
    
63. Outkast - Hey Ya!
    
64. Nat King Cole - Orange Colored Sky
    
65. The Notorious B.I.G. - Hypnotize
    
66. Four Tops - Reach Out I'll Be There
    
67. Foreign Air - Shut Up and Show Me
    
68. Leonard Cohen - So Long, Marianne
    
69. dodie - If I'm Being Honest
    
70. Briston Maroney - June
    
71. Post Malone - Sunflower
    
72. John Lennon - Isolation
    
73. Buddy Holly & The Crickets - Not Fade Away
    
74. Phoebe Bridgers - I Know The End
    
75. Kanye West - All Falls Down
    
76. Alvvays - Adult Diversion
    
77. John Lennon - Beautiful Boy (Darling Boy)
    
78. Clairo - Amoeba
    
79. The Beach Boys - I Know There's An Answer
    
80. Paul McCartney - Let Me Roll It
    
81. Frank Ocean - Ivy
    
82. Radiohead - Motion Picture Soundtrack
    
83. Djo - Mutual Future (Repeat)
    
84. Phoebe Bridgers - Scott Street
    
85. Childish Gambino - Me and Your Mama
    
86. Pink Floyd - Astronomy Domine
    
87. The Pied Pipers - Dream
    
88. The Beach Boys - All I Wanna Do
    
89. Djo - Change
    
90. Второй этаж поражает - Крайности
    
91. Little Richard - Lucille
    
92. King Gizzard & The Lizard Wizard - Shanghai
    
93. Chet Baker - Deep In A Dream
    
94. The Beatles - It's All Too Much
    
95. Post Animal - Dirtpicker
    
96. The B-52's - Love Shack
    
97. EDEN - foreve/over
    
98. Kanye West - Ultralight Beam
    
99. The Zombies - Going Out Of My Head
    
100. Talking Heads - Found a Job
     
101. Snail Mail - Pristine
     
102. Tom Tom Club - Genius of Love
     
103. Tears For Fears - Everybody Wants To Rule The World
     
104. WILLIS - I Think I Like When It Rains
     
105. Chet Baker - But Not For Me
     
106. Naked Eyes - Always Something There to Remind Me
     
107. Tyler, The Creator - GONE, GONE / THANK YOU
     
108. Djo - Half Life
     
109. Trash Panda - Check Please
     
110. Briston Maroney - Deep Sea Diver
     
111. Beach Fossils - This Year
     
112. Momma - Medicine
     
113. Hop Along - Prior Things
     
114. Talking Heads - Road to Nowhere
     
115. Electric Light Orchestra - Turn to Stone
     
116. Briston Maroney - It's Not My Fault
     
117. Tyler, The Creator - NEW MAGIC WAND
     
118. Snail Mail - Headlock
     
119. Phil Collins - Take Me Home
     
120. Gotye - Somebody That I Used To Know
     
121. The Beach Boys - Do It Again
     
122. Tame Impala - Breathe Deeper
     
123. Ella Fitzgerald - Misty
     
124. Phoebe Bridgers - Waiting Room
     
125. Kanye West - Runaway
     
126. Daft Punk - Get Lucky (feat. Pharrell Williams and Nile Rodgers)
     
127. Dire Straits - Money for Nothing
     
128. Kendrick Lamar - Alright
     
129. Black Country, New Road - Concorde
     
130. George Harrison - If Not for You
     
131. Harry Styles - Cherry
     
132. Ms. Lauryn Hill - Doo Wop (That Thing)
     
133. Paul McCartney - Junk
     
134. Wings - Maybe I'm Amazed [Live]
     
135. Talking Heads - Houses in Motion
     
136. Del Water Gap - Ode to a Conversation Stuck in Your Throat
     
137. Pixies - Where Is My Mind?
     
138. Queen - Seven Seas Of Rhye
     
139. Paul McCartney - Jet
     
140. Sufjan Stevens - Death with Dignity
     
141. A Flock Of Seagulls - I Ran (So Far Away)
     
142. Tame Impala - Let It Happen
     
143. Led Zeppelin - Whole Lotta Love
     
144. Clairo - Management
     
145. Tommy James & The Shondells - I Think We're Alone Now
     
146. Fergie - Clumsy
     
147. Childish Gambino - This Is America
     
148. Prefab Sprout - The King of Rock 'N' Roll
     
149. Joy Again - Looking Out for You
     
150. Beach House - Space Song
     
151. John Lennon - Mind Games
     
152. The Weeknd - Gasoline
     
153. Weezer - Buddy Holly
     
154. Phoebe Bridgers - Sidelines
     
155. Tame Impala - New Person, Same Old Mistakes
     
156. Lana Del Rey - A&W
     
157. The Dillards - I've Just Seen a Face
     
158. The Doors - Break on Through (To the Other Side)
     
159. Julie London - I'm Glad There Is You
     
160. 2Pac - California Love
     
161. Dean Martin - Everybody Loves Somebody
     
162. Snail Mail - Anytime
     
163. The Strokes - The Adults Are Talking
     
164. Jordana, TV Girl - Better in the Dark
     
165. Juice WRLD - Hide (feat. Seezyn)
     
166. The Wild Reeds - Get Better
     
167. Finom - Mine
     
168. Hop Along - One That Suits Me
     
169. The Killers - Mr. Brightside
     
170. Michael Cera - Clay Pigeons
     
171. Clairo - Bags
     
172. Prince - Let's Go Crazy
     
173. The Zombies - She's Not There
     
174. Blackstreet - No Diggity
     
175. Frank Sinatra - I've Got You Under My Skin
     
176. John Denver - Take Me Home, Country Roads
     
177. Harry James - I'm Beginning to See The Light
     
178. The Clash - London Calling
     
179. Charles Bradley - Changes
     
180. Buddy Holly - (Ummmm, Oh Yeah) Dearest
     
181. Eagles - Seven Bridges Road [Live]
     
182. Moxie - Honey
     
183. Faces - Stay with Me
     
184. Post Animal - How Do You Feel
     
185. New Order - Age of Consent
     
186. Natalie Imbruglia - Torn
     
187. Lana Del Rey - Doin' Time
     
188. Twin Peaks - Blue Coupe
     
189. Kanye West - Gold Digger
     
190. Fruit Bats - The Bottom of It
     
191. Frank Sinatra - Somethin' Stupid
     
192. Lorde - Perfect Places
     
193. Martha Tilton - Exactly Like You
     
194. King Crimson - 21st Century Schizoid Man
     
195. Glen Campbell - Southern Nights
     
196. Claire Rosinkranz - Frankenstein
     
197. Guillemots - Made-Up Lovesong #43
     
198. Fleetwood Mac - Say You Love Me
     
199. Frankie Valli - Can't Take My Eyes off You
     
200. The Crickets - Don't Ever Change
     
201. Paul Anka - Put Your Head On My Shoulder
     
202. George Harrison - Isn't It a Pity
     
203. Trash Panda - Off
     
204. Super Besse - Holod
     
205. Beyoncé - Hold Up
     
206. Charlie Burg - I Don't Wanna Be Okay Without You
     
207. Eagles - Peaceful Easy Feeling
     
208. Ella Fitzgerald - It's A Lovely Day Today
     
209. PERMSKY KRAY - Дорогой Человек
     
210. The Little Dippers - Forever
     
211. The B-52's - There's a Moon in the Sky (Called the Moon)
     
212. Patti Page - Old Cape Cod
     
213. Daft Punk - Harder, Better, Faster, Stronger
     
214. The Soggy Bottom Boys - I Am A Man Of Constant Sorrow
     
215. Trash Panda - Things Will Never Change
     
216. Hop Along - Well-dressed
     
217. Sixpence None The Richer - Kiss Me
     
218. TV Girl - Daughter of a Cop
     
219. LAUNDRY DAY - Jane
     
220. Tyler, The Creator - EARFQUAKE
     
221. Sigue Sigue Sputnik - Love Missile F1-11
     
222. Joji - Gimme Love
     
223. The Backseat Lovers - Pool House
     
224. The Weeknd - Take My Breath
     
225. Mild High Club - Homage
     
226. Doc Watson - Am I Born to Die?
     
227. Daniel Caesar - Streetcar
     
228. The Kinks - Sunny Afternoon
     
229. John Lennon - #9 Dream
     
230. Tame Impala - Elephant
     
231. Chuck Berry - You Never Can Tell
     
232. Pink Floyd - Wish You Were Here
     
233. KIDS SEE GHOSTS - 4th Dimension
     
234. Soft Cell - Tainted Love
     
235. The B-52's - Song for a Future Generation
     
236. Gnarls Barkley - Crazy
     
237. Lana Del Rey - Blue Jeans
     
238. Billie Eilish - Halley's Comet
     
239. Glenn Miller - In the Mood
     
240. Kid Bloom - Control
     
241. The Cinematic Orchestra - To Build A Home
     
242. Marvin Gaye - I Heard It Through The Grapevine
     
243. Brenda Lee - If You Love Me (Really Love Me)
     
244. TV Girl - Lovers Rock
     
245. Art Lown - Knew You Well
     
246. Dean Martin - Ain't That A Kick In The Head
     
247. Miniature Tigers - Like or Like Like
     
248. Electric Light Orchestra - Sweet Talkin' Woman
     
249. The Hunts - Ages
     
250. The Cars - Good Times Roll
     
251. Bill Withers - Lovely Day
     
252. Drake - God's Plan
     
253. Kansas - Point of Know Return
     
254. The Neighbourhood - Stargazing
     
255. The Clash - Rock the Casbah
     
256. Hop Along - What the Writer Meant
     
257. Briston Maroney - Under My Skin
     
258. Jack Stauber - Buttercup
     
259. King Gizzard & The Lizard Wizard - Ya Love
     
260. Ginger Root - Loretta
     
261. Thompson Twins - Hold Me Now
     
262. Frank Ocean - Pyramids
     
263. Kate Bush - Running Up That Hill (A Deal With God)
     
264. Destroy Boys - I Threw Glass at My Friend's Eyes and Now I'm on Probation
     
265. Mild High Club - Dionysian State
     
266. Franz Ferdinand - Take Me Out
     
267. Kevin Abstract - Empty
     
268. The Frights - Crust Bucket
     
269. Stealers Wheel - Stuck In The Middle With You
     
270. The Shins - Fighting in a Sack
     
271. fun. - We Are Young (feat. Janelle Monáe)
     
272. Lil Uzi Vert - Money Longer
     
273. Miniature Tigers - Cannibal Queen
     
274. The Doors - Touch Me
     
275. Jean Dawson - Clear Bones
     
276. King Gizzard & The Lizard Wizard - Catching Smoke
     
277. Molchat Doma - Люди Надоели
     
278. The Go-Go's - Our Lips Are Sealed
     
279. Billie Eilish - ocean eyes
     
280. BOYO - Crown
     
281. The 1975 - Somebody Else
     
282. Husbands - She's a Betty
     
283. Syd Barrett - If It's In You
     
284. Trash Panda - Atlanta Girls
     
285. Frank Ocean - Godspeed
     
286. Alice Phoebe Lou - Glow
     
287. Childish Gambino - Redbone
     
288. New Order - Blue Monday
     
289. Post Animal - Schedule
     
290. Harry Styles - Fine Line
     
291. Harry James - I'll Get By (As Long As I Have You)
     
292. Depeche Mode - Never Let Me Down Again
     
293. Chet Baker - I Fall In Love Too Easily
     
294. The Cranberries - Put Me Down
     
295. John Mayer - Edge of Desire
     
296. George Harrison - All Those Years Ago
     
297. Electric Light Orchestra - The Diary of Horace Wimp
     
298. Alex Clare - Too Close
     
299. Eric B. & Rakim - Know The Ledge
     
300. Peter Frampton - Show Me The Way [Live]
     
301. Simon & Garfunkel - Mrs. Robinson
     
302. Black Eyes - Deformative
     
303. The Righteous Brothers - Unchained Melody
     
304. Bonny Light Horseman - Deep In Love
     
305. The Walker Brothers - The Sun Ain't Gonna Shine Anymore
     
306. Cage The Elephant - Cigarette Daydreams
     
307. Hot Flash Heat Wave - Raindrop
     
308. Clairo - Sofia
     
309. Kendrick Lamar - PRIDE.
     
310. Camille Saint-Saëns - The Swan
     
311. Weezer - Say It Ain't So
     
312. C418 - Sweden
     
313. Lana Del Rey - Let The Light In (feat. Father John Misty)
     
314. The Postal Service - Such Great Heights
     
315. Pickin' On Series - Those to Come
     
316. Lana Del Rey - Grandfather please stand on the shoulders of my father while he's deep-sea fishing (feat. RIOPY)
     
317. John Mayer - Moving On and Getting Over
     
318. Field Medic - POWERFUL LOVE
     
319. Cage The Elephant - Flow
     
320. Joji - Run
     
321. The Who - Won't Get Fooled Again
     
322. Boston - Peace of Mind
     
323. Ben E. King - This Magic Moment
     
324. David Bowie - Starman
     
325. Beastie Boys - Sabotage
     
326. Harry Belafonte - Banana Boat (Day-O)
     
327. Gene Krupa & His Orchestra - Rhumboogie
     
328. The Cardigans - Lovefool
     
329. The Kinks - You Really Got Me
     
330. The Zombies - She's Coming Home
     
331. Michael Jackson - Thriller
     
332. Moxie - Blue Skies
     
333. The Mamas & The Papas - Straight Shooter
     
334. Peter, Paul and Mary - Don't Think Twice, It's All Right
     
335. Green Day - Brain Stew
     
336. Dua Lipa - Levitating (feat. DaBaby)
     
337. The Police - Roxanne
     
338. Britney Spears - Toxic
     
339. Tears For Fears - Head Over Heels
     
340. Rex Orange County - Pluto Projector
     
341. The Strokes - Call It Fate, Call It Karma
     
342. Portugal. The Man - Feel It Still
     
343. The Black Crowes - Twice As Hard
     
344. Ted Nugent - Stranglehold
     
345. fun. - Some Nights
     
346. Wings - Silly Love Songs
     
347. Paramore - Still into You
     
348. Peter Frampton - Baby, I Love Your Way [Live]
     
349. The Monkees - Last Train to Clarksville
     
350. Royel Otis - Oysters In My Pocket
     
351. The Backseat Lovers - Growing/Dying
     
352. Nelly Furtado - Say It Right
     
353. Post Animal - Goggles
     
354. Erik Satie - Gymnopédie No. 1
     
355. Childish Gambino - IV. Sweatpants
     
356. Steely Dan - Dirty Work
     
357. ABBA - Lay All Your Love On Me
     
358. Still Woozy - Goodie Bag
     
359. Arlo Parks - Black Dog
     
360. Goth Babe - Weekend Friend
     
361. George & the Handsomes - Sleepy Beats
     
362. boygenius - 20
     
363. The Mills Brothers - You Always Hurt The One You Love
     
364. Travis Scott - SICKO MODE
     
365. Pinegrove - Need 2
     
366. The Backseat Lovers - Sinking Ship
     
367. Franz Schubert - Ave Maria
     
368. Zac Brown Band - Knee Deep (feat. Jimmy Buffett)
     
369. Justin Timberlake - Mirrors
     
370. Simon & Garfunkel - Cecilia
     
371. The Cranberries - Zombie
     
372. Daniel Caesar - Japanese Denim
     
373. Billie Holiday - Easy Living
     
374. ISLAND - By Your Side
     
375. Phil Collins - Tomorrow Never Knows
     
376. Bob Dylan - The Times They Are A-Changin'
     
377. The Four Freshmen - Day By Day
     
378. Fleetwood Mac - The Chain
     
379. Billy Joel - Big Shot
     
380. Billie Eilish - Happier Than Ever
     
381. Yot Club - down bad
     
382. Rihanna - Stay
     
383. Fleetwood Mac - Landslide
     
384. Pyotr Ilyich Tchaikovsky - Swan Lake, Op. 20, Act 2: No. 10, Scene. Moderato
     
385. The White Stripes - Fell In Love With a Girl
     
386. Alvvays - Easy On Your Own?
     
387. Jason Isbell and the 400 Unit - If We Were Vampires
     
388. Blackway - What's Up Danger (with Black Caviar)
     
389. Albert Hammond - It Never Rains in Southern California
     
390. Matt Maltese - Jupiter
     
391. John Denver - Mother Nature's Son
     
392. Childish Gambino - Sober
     
393. Claire Rosinkranz - Pools and Palm Trees
     
394. The Cars - Just What I Needed
     
395. The Doors - Light My Fire
     
396. Blondie - Tomorrow Never Knows
     
397. King Gizzard & The Lizard Wizard - Hell's Itch
     
398. The Japanese House - Saw You In A Dream
     
399. Franz Schubert - String Quartet No. 13 in A Minor, Op. 29 No. 1, D. 804
     
400. The Drifters - White Christmas
     
401. The 1975 - Robbers
     
402. George Harrison - Between The Devil And The Deep Blue Sea
     
403. The Frights - Tongues
     
404. Paramore - Ain't It Fun
     
405. Billy Joel - Pressure
     
406. Frank Sinatra - My Way
     
407. Art Lown - Going Back to Carolina
     
408. Bruno Mars - Just the Way You Are
     
409. Under The Rug - Lonesome & Mad
     
410. The Mamas & The Papas - Dedicated To The One I Love
     
411. Foster The People - Sit Next to Me
     
412. Weezer - Undone - The Sweater Song
     
413. Michael Jackson - Wanna Be Startin' Somethin'
     
414. Tia Blake - Plastic Jesus
     
415. Los Bravos - Bring a Little Lovin'
     
416. Lady Gaga - Bad Romance
     
417. Minnie Riperton - Les Fleurs
     
418. Billy Idol - Dancing with Myself
     
419. Cody Fry - I Hear a Symphony
     
420. Gringo Sapiens - Driver's Licence
     
421. Vacations - Relax
     
422. Glitter Party - time waits
     
423. Steve Lacy - Bad Habit
     
424. The Crystals - Then He Kissed Me
     
425. The Pied Pipers - Mairzy Doats
     
426. Mitski - Bug Like an Angel
     
427. James Ray - I've Got My Mind Set On You
     
428. Clairo - Bubble Gum
     
429. Masayoshi Takanaka - SEXY DANCE
     
430. Nat King Cole - (I Love You) For Sentimental Reasons
     
431. Sleigh Bells - Crown On the Ground
     
432. Olivia Rodrigo - favorite crime
     
433. No Doubt - Just A Girl
     
434. Foreigner - Long, Long Way from Home
     
435. Heart - Crazy On You
     
436. The Hunts - Darlin'
     
437. David Bowie - Heroes
     
438. Alice Phoebe Lou - Hammer
     
439. Thee Oh Sees - Toe Cutter - Thumb Buster
     
440. Roar - I Can't Handle Change
     
441. TV Girl - Birds Dont Sing
     
442. Laufey - From The Start
     
443. Chas McDevitt Skiffle Group - Freight Train (feat. Nancy Whiskey)
     
444. Metro Boomin - Am I Dreaming
     
445. Liana Flores - rises the moon
     
446. POP ETC - Speak Up
     
447. Jean Knight - Mr. Big Stuff
     
448. The Platters - Twilight Time
     
449. Derek & The Dominos - Layla
     
450. King Gizzard & The Lizard Wizard - Homeless Man in Adidas
     
451. Charlie Burg - Lovesong (The Way)
     
452. Hot Flash Heat Wave - Gutter Girl
     
453. ABBA - Fernando
     
454. Mitski - My Love Mine All Mine
     
455. Savannah Conley - More Than Fine
     
456. Young the Giant - Mind Over Matter
     
457. Future Crib - Yer Movin'
     
458. Bob Dylan - Like a Rolling Stone
     
459. benches - Violent
     
460. Musical Youth - Pass The Dutchie
     
461. Olivia Rodrigo - vampire
     
462. Ryan Gosling, Emma Stone - City Of Stars
     
463. Maya Hawke - Thérèse
     
464. Current Joys - A Different Age
     
465. Wayne Newton - Danke Schoen
     
466. La Roux - Bulletproof
     
467. Jason Segel, Walter - Man Or Muppet
     
468. U2 - I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For
     
469. The Raconteurs - Steady, As She Goes
     
470. The Ink Spots - Into Each Life Some Rain Must Fall
     
471. Ace of Base - The Sign
     
472. Vulfpeck - 1612
     
473. Nordista Freeze - Hey GiGi
     
474. The Chainsmokers - New York City
     
475. Suki Waterhouse - Johanna
     
476. Pete Rodriguez - I Like It Like That
     
477. Calvin Harris - Summer
     
478. The Rare Occasions - Notion
     
479. a-ha - Take on Me
     
480. Rush - Working Man
     
481. Traffic - Dear Mr. Fantasy
     
482. Starbuck - Moonlight Feels Right
     
483. Van Halen - Drop Dead Legs
     
484. The Troggs - Wild Thing
     
485. Led Zeppelin - Good Times Bad Times
     
486. The Byrds - Turn! Turn! Turn! (To Everything There Is a Season)
     
487. Cream - Sunshine Of Your Love
     
488. Justin Timberlake - SexyBack (feat. Timbaland)
     
489. David Bowie - Suffragette City
     
490. Ludwig van Beethoven - Sonata No. 14 in C-Sharp Minor, Op. 27, No. 2 "Moonlight"
     
491. Avicii - Wake Me Up
     
492. The Who - La-La-La-Lies
     
493. The Spinners - The Rubberband Man
     
494. MGMT - Time to Pretend
     
495. Hootie & The Blowfish - Only Wanna Be With You
     
496. Sheck Wes - Mo Bamba
     
497. Claire Rosinkranz - 123
     
498. Ringo Starr - Photograph
     
499. The Proclaimers - I'm Gonna Be (500 Miles)
     
500. Duran Duran - Rio
     

First time ever posting on Reddit!!
I think I watched this 5ish years ago? I’m not sure exactly. It was a I believe Russian song. I remember they mainly said a single word multiple times, and I think it was something like “quiet” or “hush”, a word along those lines. The music video was like a little girl walking past a room with her parents fighting in it. Then it changes to like an adult woman and she snaps the neck of this guy. Then he’s laying on the floor in black paint and is dragged off screen. Then there is a funeral for him and his casket is carried by women and there’s a ton of snow. They all had white hair I believe. Like silver white.
TYIA everyone 🤍

PC

Reddit Account: Satisfactionleather7
Discord Tag: CertifiedEveSimp
Name and House: Valarr velaryon
Age: 48
Cultural Group: Valyrian
Appearance: A tall man, but not a large man, standing at six feet, with thick arms and a firm stance, one would expect him to be the visaghe of strength, but more often than not, his bright clothes and feathered hat are simply covering for his drunken state and constant wide smile, though his rugged handsomeness helps.
Trait: Strong
Skill(s): Swords, Essosi Blademaster (e), Dual Wielding, daggers
Talent(s): Singing, Sailing, gambling
Negative Trait(s):
Starting Title(s): Lord of Driftmark, Lord of the Tides, Master of Ships
Starting Location: Opening Event
Alternate Characters: n/a
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AC

Name and House: Raya Stark
Age: 45
Cultural Group: First Man
Appearance: Marked by slight lines of age, the lady Stark has tanned at sea, her freckles now less pronounced, but her beauty holding strong just as her sense of fashion and love for hats has done the same. Dressed usually in darker tones than her husband, she is still a woman who looks fresh from sea no matter the occasion.
Trait: Mariner
Skill(s): Admiral (e), scrutinous
Talent(s): Sailing, Singing, Caligraphy
Negative Trait(s):
Starting Title(s): Lady of Driftmark
Starting Location: Opening Event
Alternate Characters: n/a
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Timeline

23 BCE - Valarr Velaryon is born on Driftmark to a cousin of the existing lords of driftmark under Daemon Velaryon. He is never expected to find any power of his own.
20 BCE - Raya Stark is born, a cousin to Torrhen Stark, the king in the North and soon to be the Kneeler. It was said that the first thing she did when she was given the ability to crawl, was to attempt to climb into a bath on her own.
15 BCE - Valarr, at age eight, is brought on his first voyage by his father. The young Valarr is taken on a trading trip to Braavos with his father and the young boy soon becomes enamored with the concept of the sea and the beauty of the world. Beginning his love for travel and sailing.
12 BCE - In White Harbour, where Raya's family had moved, she too takes her first voyage, alongside her father, the tomboyish girl leaves the city and learns ship and sail on a voyage to Duskendale and then Oldtown.
9 BCE - Valarr, now 14, an experienced sailor and well-trained in the sword begins charting his own small trips from Driftmark to trade partners on Westeros. These voyages are only of a few days at best, but largely they are of great success and the man begins building up a regular crew of men and women to serve on his vessels.
7 BCE - Across the sea, Raya Stark begins working with her own small scale shipping adventures, sailing along the coast of the North and down to Gulltown, also in the process she finds herself carrying out anti-piracy actions for her cousin... or rather she is upon the ships that do so and she rambunctiously states she is in fact leading the party. The sailors with her humour her.
5 BCE - Valarr Velaryon begins travelling through Essos. He spends three years moving about through Essos, this first voyage largely spent travelling between Driftmark and the Free cities, fighting in Braavos, Pentos and Tyrosh specifically, but come his latest return home in 3 BCE, he is given word of Aegon's plans for Westeros. Daemon recruits him to fight in the war, and act as a captain in the Velaryon fleet.
2 BCE - Daemon Velaryon sends Valarr north to White harbour to negotiate with the Starks and bring them into the kingdom peacefully, but he is shut out quickly and instead spends time in White Harbour assessing the fleet of the manderlys. There he meets Raya Stark while he competes in a smaller tourney. The two quickly fall in love, and marry. Valarr then returns home to Driftmark with his new wife, and later that year his first son is born.
1 BCE - Valarr deploys to the mainland to fight in the field for Aegon, doing battle under numerous engagements and distinguishing himself well. Meanwhile, his wife Raya takes to her new home well, and leads a small detachment of the Velaryon fleet in battle.
1 AC - Valarr, upon his duty in the war finishing, takes his wife with him back to Essos, and for the next several years he travels the continent proper, his wife and his growing family accompanying him and at times being left back on Driftmark. At times being raised at sea on his travels, at others in Essos.
3 AC - Rhaegal Velaryon, the second son, is born.
4 AC - Valarr, while travelling in Essos, meets a man with a mysterious black Arakh. Over drinks they speak and the man reveals its history to him as some ritual required for a new owner to claim the weapon. Having bested the man in an arena the day before, the man requests a duel to give over the weapon. In the fight, the stranger is wounded, but Valarr no less takes him to receive healing. The man passess on his sword, and Valarr comes into possession of a black sword by the name of
5 AC - Laena Velaryon, his first daughter is born.
6 AC - Viserra Velaryon, the youngest child is born.
7-14 AC - Valarr's adventures in Essos continue and continue to bring him great renown and wealth in the East through adventuring and selling his sword and ship to the highest bidder. However, during this period, he visits Asshai and for fun seeks to have his fortune read. In doing so, a masked figure tells him that he must return to his home, for "the seahorse shall burn seven years after the dragon drowns." At first he does not find any logic to it, and then he hears of the death of Aegon by a Riverlander plot. And for years he contemplates the words, eventually choosing to return home to Driftmark.
15 AC - The kingswood catastrophe wipes out the line of Daemon Velaryon, and when the next Velaryon was needed, Valarr was there on the island and was elevated to be the new lord of the tides from his new keep on Driftmark, High Tide.
16-24 AC - Between the years of 16-24 AC, Valarr's travels east slow down, and he begins to spend more time in King's landing and Driftmark, namely he takes a liking to hosting tourneys on the island regularly, and enjoys the betting and the sport that it brings, competing himself numerous times.
20 AC - Partakes in the Eastern Wooing.
23 AC - Raya Stark negotiates Laena Velaryon marrying Maelor Velaryon's firstborn son. Laena is forced to break off a romance with Dickon bracken, though she knew their romance was doomed already.
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Family Tree
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NPCS
Laena Velaryon - master at arms.
Maegor Velaryon - Ship Captain

I’m tired of black women being casted in these remakes and I’m tired of all of these remakes in general. Why can’t we just make original stories? I feel like it just sets these women up to be bullied. The comment sections that involve this movie are horrendous. It’s 10x worse than the whole Little Mermaid remake. With Halle the remarks were mostly just racially motivated but with the Francesca people are literally acting like she’s some beast. How can this be good for this girl’s mental health? understand the idea that these roles give them publicity and probably a big check but is it even worth it?

And man, as a mother, my heart aches for Lauren but I am also so extremely proud of her!! I really loved these books.
I also LOVED watching Kindred on Hulu and had been meaning to check out her books, when I realized they are on Spotify and have spent the past week doing little else with my free time. Now I feel empty lol. Any recommendations on another great read? I love epic tales with black women protagonists.

Jon Wylde, PC

Reddit Account: death-ace
Discord Tag: shellshock3d
Name and House: Jon Wylde, House Wylde
Age: 55
Cultural Group: Stormlander
Appearance: Jon is an older man whose years haven't quite caught up to him yet. He is tall and broad with thick muscled arms and wide shoulders. His hair is black mixed with white and he keeps it well maintained, if long. He has a large mustache and mutton chops. His eyes are blue gray and constantly narrowed under heavy brows.
Trait: Inspiring
Skill(s): Tactician (E), Andal Knight, Swords, Malicious
Talent(s): Training hounds, Woodcarving, Hunting
Negative Trait(s): N/A
Starting Title(s): Steward of the Stormlands, Lord of Rain House
Starting Location: Opening event
Alternate Characters: if I try to alt this iteration someone shoot me
30 BC: Jon is born as the first son of the lord and lady of Rain House.
25 BC: Jon's younger brother Ormund is born.
19 BC: Jon begins squiring for Argilac Durrandon, the Storm King and is knighted by him at a future date.
12 BC: Jon's father makes a match for him with Cassandra Tarth to strengthen House Wylde's alliance with House Tarth. It was a political match but love grew from it quickly.
12 BC: Jon and Cassandra's first son Harlan is born.
10 BC: Tristan is born to Jon and Cassandra.
7 BC: Aelinor is born to Jon and Cassandra.
2 BC:Jon's son Lyonel is born. At the same time Aegon's conquest of the Stormlands begins. Jon's father dies during the Last Storm while Jon is leading troops elsewhere. Jon is one of the first people to surrender to the Targaryens after Argilac Durrandon falls in battle.
1 AC: Jon's daughter Coryanne is born. Jon also begins to kindle a friendship with his new lord paramount, Orys Baratheon.
7 AC: King Aegon the Conqueror dies. Orys Baratheon is pronounced regent of the seven kingdoms. Due to Jon's loyalty and his friendship with Orys, he's asked to be steward of the Stormlands in Orys's stead. Jon readily accepts. In the same year, Jon's first grandchild Ravella is born.
13 AC: Jon sends his son Harlan and his family to Dorne during the war in the Stepstones to act as his diplomatic envoy. The war in the Stepstones is a success and the Stormlands gains some of the islands under Tarth and Estermont.
15 AC: Jon loses his son Harlan and his brother Ormund in the Kingswood massacre. He declares the entire year a year of mourning in the Stormlands, no tournaments or parties are to be held.
17 AC: Assassins disguised as bandits attempt to kill Jon Wylde on the road. He and his guards slaughter them all instead. No one ever found out who hired the assassins.
20 AC: Another assassination attempt that failed. The assassin was tortured until he admitted he was hired by members of a noble house in the Stormlands. Jon Wylde has the second and third sons of that house killed in a public hanging at Storm’s End.
23 AC: Another assassin makes an attempt on Jon Wylde’s life and poisons his supper. There is a mix up and Jon Wylde’s wife, Cassandra Tarth, is killed instead. This assassin was the only one who was never found.
25 AC: Current day. Jon Wylde is traveling to King’s Landing for the festivities and has encouraged all lords and ladies of the Stormlands to join him.
House Wylde

Ravella Wylde, AC

Name and House: Ravella Wylde, House Wylde
Age: 18
Cultural Group: Stormlander
Appearance: A young woman, now grown, Ravella has the height of her grandfather standing at an impressive 5' and 9''. She has an athletic build after years of riding horses and hawking in the rain wood. Her skin is pale and smooth with no blemishes. Shiny black hair frames her face, always pulled back in a long braid. Her eyes are amber brown in color and framed by long lashes. She tends to wear more simple gowns but wont hesitate to show off if the occasion calls for it.
Trait: Ruthless
Skill(s): Devious (E), Animal Taming
Talent(s): Dancing, Hawking, Horse Riding
Negative Trait(s): N/A
Starting Title(s): Heiress of Rain House
Starting Location: Opening event
Alternate Characters: if I try to alt this iteration someone shoot me
7 AC: Ravella is born to two loving parents! Her grandfather becomes steward of the Stormlands.
13 AC: Ravella moves to Sunspear with her mother and father for a short while. She makes friends with Nymia Martell while she's there.
14 AC: Late in the year Ravella and her family move back to the Stormlands.
15 AC: Ravella is still in Rain House when news comes of her father's death in the Kingswood massacre. As an 8 year old it takes her a while to process what it means for her father to be dead.
16 AC: Ravella's mother becomes more distant and stops taking care of her, spending most of her day locked in her room in bed. Her grandmother takes over her care.
19 AC: Ravella's father begins grooming her to take over as his heir one day. She begins learning all sorts of things from her maester, from numbers and writing to history and geography.
23 AC: Ravella's heart breaks once more when her grandmother is killed. She takes it just as hard as her grandfather but neither one of them shows it.
24 AC: She begins sneaking off into the rain wood more and more often to get away from the pressure of her duties.
25 AC: She goes to King's Landing to attend the Princes birthday celebrations.

NPCs

Tristan Wylde Warrior (Swords)

• Jon's oldest living son.

Lyonel Wylde Castellan

• Jon's youngest son.

Coryanne Wylde Medic

• Jon's youngest daughter.

Why did the farmer visit the pharmacy? To speak with the farm-assist.
Hi and welcome to my post! Wanted to start off with a funny to me dad joke.
Nice to meet you, I'm Dylan! To put it simple, I am a single 22 year old man who has been pretty lonely in life and lacking in female connection and interaction. And part of what comes with that is the desire to be intimate with a person. I am very mature for my age and will always be respectful of your boundaries and feelings, especially with anything sexual. Lately all I have is myself when it comes to sexual desires, so I would like to have someone to keep company with in that regard too.
I'm just relaxing at work since there's nothing really going on and thinking about going home tonight and burning a woodwick candle. Perfect for when there's a storm outside. I love candles! 🕯️ Sometimes a campfire outside on a fall night or a crackling WoodWick candle is a relaxing constant among our busy and hectic world. It's nice to just disconnect, feel grounded and happy in your own little cozy space. Feeling calm and collected and at peace. Something that fewer people take the time to do these days.
I am seeking a woman around my age or older to build a close connection with that could possibly lead to a relationship and something intimate which includes the possibility of teasing/sharing pics etc. but only when we were comfortable. Figured I would be open in my Intentions as that's the best way to be.
You:
Kind, respectful, and easy going.
Comfortable with the idea of eventually sharing intimate things together.
Willing to eventually move off of Reddit.
Want something genuine and fun!
Are honest in your intentions and a good person to be around!
That's about it, we will get along great I know it.
I've been feeling a little bummed out lately. I always try and stay happy and see the best in things. But.. I've just been so alone. Most of my whole childhood and adult years have been spent feeling lonely. I grew up surrounded by cornfields which was peaceful but also has a lonely aspect to it. My family never really were close and never did anything as a family really. And part of it too is the fact that I never had any neighbors my age to interact with. But aside from that, my adult life has been very lonely. I'm just always by myself. I barely have any meaningful adult relationships or experiences, or even any friends.
I work a 3-11 job in building maintenance at my company world headquarters building which I love, but again it's very lonely. I work the off shift so the building is always empty. I don't get normal social interaction with people my age or a chance to build relationships. I only have 3 older men as co-workers and we are mostly in the basement away from any people on the floors from knowing our existence. I always walk the floors and see office people laughing and chatting with their coworkers and I just don't have that kind of experience. And just.. no one knows I exist really. Everyone probably assumes I have a lot of friends, but I'm struggling inside with being so alone and trying to meet people and get past the "hi how are you?" "I'm good thanks" stage. Most people don't seem to want to talk beyond that. And most women are already in relationships and thus it would seem weird to approach them in an office setting trying to get to know them deeper. But man those "hi how are yous" are the only real interactions I get during my day.. so thus I decided to come here lol. Rant over, sorry! I promise I'm not a downer. 😅
Now for some things about me!
As you can tell, I am very mature for my age and am polite and have good grammar which unfortunately not everyone my age does anymore lol. I am not active at all on social media/internet culture really and don't know much about all the slang the younger people these days use. I feel like I'm 50. 🤣
I am left handed which is pretty cool. I'm not much of a party person or a drinker, I much prefer a quiet night at home and maybe a beer or two on a weekend but that's about it. I am simple and stay out of drama and trouble and don't get much into politics or other things that cause drama with people. I much prefer a relaxing campfire and a night at home and to just let the world keep on turning haha. I consider myself pretty intelligent and mature, especially for my age which is why I'm open to older ladies.
Physically I'm 180 pounds, have brown hair, green eyes, and a typical build. There's a few pictures on my profile.
Some of my hobbies are:
• Photography
I have a Nikon D200 and D5500 that I love to shoot with. I love nature scenes, abstract, black and white/goth kinda photography, sunsets, etc. it's so fun to just let your mind explore. It's not about what camera you have, but those who are behind the camera! I'm gonna try and photograph the northern lights tonight!
• Cooking and baking
I loveeee to cook and bake! I enjoy making various meals but also love to just have a frozen pizza once in awhile or something like that. I recently made homemade chili which turned out great. I love to bake, especially in the fall! I love pies, cakes, pastries, cookies, etc. I restored a vintage KitchenAid mixer that needed tbe gearbox rebuilt. Eventually I would love to practice home canning my own food.
• Music
Oh my gosh, I like so much!! Alternative rock, punk, post punk, electronic, synth pop, psychedelic rock, hard rock, etc. I am very non judgemental and open when it comes to music. My three current favorite bands are Type O Negative, Joy Division, and the Cure.
• Nature walks and camping
I really enjoy camping, making fires, and relaxing by a campfire. I love to take walks outside and just enjoy the beauty and simplicity of nature. It's wonderful, especially in a world so focused on everything digital.
• Repairing things
I'm a maintenance guy and one of my hobbies is electronics repair so I am good with my hands and just all around good at troubleshooting and fixing all sorts of things around the house. Last week I helped my elderly neighbor get his tractor started, it needed a new component in the starting circuit. So I'm pretty handy which... Comes in handy! 😂
• Autumn 🍁
This isn't a hobby per say, but man do I love the fall!!! It's my absolute favorite time of the year. Oh my gosh. The beautiful colors, crisp cool air, misty and foggy days, rain, lack of bugs, being cuddled up with a candle or by the fire drinking a tea, etc. I love it! There's only two seasons for me. Fall, and waiting for fall! Haha.
• Scented Candles and incense
Going along with my love for fall, I absolutely love candles! I have like 30 something lol. 😂 Currently my favorite are WoodWick, which are owned by Yankee candle. They have such a soothing crackle and the scents are great! I also love to burn incense from time to time as well. I have cottagecore hippie vibes.
• Old houses and architecture
I love old houses! Especially 1900s and Victorian era homes. Old homes have so much character to them and are just so beautiful from a time when people took pride in their craft. I strongly dislike the modern cookie cutter cheap construction of homes today. I would love to live in an old home one day. I also love their architecture and uniqueness, as well as architecture of old cathedrals and other buildings.
• Relaxing
Basic I know, but sometimes on the weekend I just love to get cozy in bed and relax and put on a YouTube video or an album! 😊
That's about it for me, I'm a pretty laid back and simple person. My ideal person is someone who is respectful and honest! I am very straightforward and open minded and would hope that you are as well.
If I seem interesting to you at all I would love to hear from you!
Thank you so much for reading.

So I got my 25x Pflueger president and a Lews Black MH/Moderate rod because I wanna use it for crankbaits but also for larger topwaters and not sure what weight braid and leader I should be using. Is there a leader material that is semi floating that won't affect the action of either types of baits or should I just go with mono since it floats? I was thinking of 16 to 20lb braid. I have some 20 leftover from my other reel i planned to only use plastic baits with. And maybe a 12 lb leader? What do ya think?

As the title suggests, I need help with my LO. I tend to crash at random intervals and I don't know what's causing it, some help will be greatly appreciated. I'm using the Halls of Ysgramor LO template.
MASTER FILES:

1. Unofficial Skyrim special edition patch
   
2. Simple Workaround
   

Creation club patches:
Bug fixes and quality of life:

1. Increased mining resources X3
   
2. Truly absorb Dragon souls
   
3. Ring of increased carry weight
   
4. Optional quick start
   

Cheat functions:

1. Cheat room

SMIM & MESH FIXES:

1. SMIM PERFORMANCE PLUS

Foundations and frameworks:

1. Swift Kingdom overhaul
   
2. Vanilla Plus v5.1.1
   
3. Relationship dialogue overhaul
   
4. RDO - USSEP PATCH
   

Magic additions & Changes:

1. Odin - Skyrim magic overhaul
   
2. Arcanum - a new age of magic (Fixed)
   
3. Apocalypse - Magic of Skyrim
   
4. Ancient dragonborn powers
   
5. Phenderix magic evolved
   
6. Spellforge
   
7. Spellforge - Library - base - Odin
   
8. Spellforge - library - Apocalypse
   
9. Spellforge - library - Odin (For apocalypse)
   
10. Spellforge - Library - arcanum
    

Perks and leveling changes:

1. Ordinator - perks of Skyrim
   
2. 50 PCT More perk points
   
3. Odin- ordinator compatibility patch
   
4. Apocalypse - ordinator compatibility patch
   

Race record changes:

1. Character creation overhaul AIO
   
2. Imperious - races of Skyrim
   
3. Universal imperious patch
   
4. True hybrid - tainted blood of the dragonborn
   
5. Growl - werebeasts of Skyrim
   
6. Sacrosanct - vampires of Skyrim
   
7. Tainted blood & growl compatibility patch
   
8. Unleashed Sacrosanct & growl racial abilities
   

Items obtained by crafting:

1. Katana crafting
   
2. The heavy Greatsword
   
3. Stonefire set - Mihail weapons, armor and clothes
   
4. Aetherium armor and weapons
   
5. Black knight armor
   
6. Zerofrost's armor AIO
   
7. Cloaks and capes 1K
   
8. Skyrim outfitters AIO
   
9. Kynreeve armor
   
10. Dragon carved Armor AIO
    
11. Expanded jewelry crafting
    
12. Ultimate assortment - jewelry
    
13. Vanity mirror
    
14. Weapons of the third era
    

Enemy NPC leveled list:

1. Diverse dragons collection 1k
   
2. Monsters reborn special edition
   

Loot leveled list:

1. Heavy weapons - New weapons SE
   
2. PrivateEye's heavy armory
   
3. Skyrim SE expanded Skyrim weaponry - NPC
   
4. Summeryst - enchantments of skyrim
   
5. Warbird's drastic dragon loot
   
6. STAR triple gold
   
7. Loot overhaul - rarity and abundance
   

Effect changes:
User interface/camera/HUD/Fonts/menus

1. Dragon UI

Vanilla quest alterations:
Audio:

1. Realistic waterfall sounds
   
2. Skyrim music 2
   
3. Quieter dungeons and caves
   

Weather:

1. Mythical wonders - a weather and sky bundle

Grass:
Interior lighting:

1. Enhanced lights & FX (SMIM)
   
2. ELFX Fixes AIO
   

Mesh & Textures architecture and landscapes:

1. Skyland AIO
   
2. Enhanced texture detail - No SMIM overlap
   

Meshes and textures - creatures and wildlife:
Meshes and textures - armors and weapons:

1. Leanwolf's better shaped weapons
   
2. Vanilla apparel for pyrokess
   
3. HIMBO vanilla refit - default
   

Meshes and textures - clutter and misc:
Meshes and textures - effects:

1. Enhanced blood textures
   
2. Magical forces and fx bundle - lite
   
3. Dynamic impact - slash effects X
   
4. Just blood - blood and dirt lite
   

NPC ai alterations:

1. Immersive citizens

NPC and player interactions:

1. Serena dialogue add-on
   
2. Serena dialogue add-on RDO patch
   

Follower framework:

1. Amazing follower tweaks
   
2. GET no more dead followers
   

New animal companions and mounts:
New followers and named NPCS:

1. Sofia - the funny fully voiced follower

New creature and NPC encounters:
Combat overhaul:

1. Serio's enhanced dragons
   
2. BIG: Ultimate kills
   
3. Violens - a killmove mod
   

NPC Face replacers:
Body meshes and skin textures:

1. Pyrokess
   
2. Highly improved male body (HIMBO)
   
3. ReaLore young men and women 1K
   

Beards, brows, and hairs:

1. Superior lore friendly hair
   
2. Extra vanilla hair WIP
   
3. Skywigs PK1
   
4. HN66 Updated long eyelashes SSE
   
5. Brows [XB1]
   
6. Beards [XB1]
   

Eyes:

1. Eyes of amber

Scars, tints, and warpaints:

1. HD vanilla eyeliner
   
2. Character editor - All in one vanilla customization pack
   
3. Skyrim vanity kit
   

Idle & animations replacers:
Skeleton frameworks and nemesis output:

1. Realistic weapon placement (cloaks edition)
   
2. Belt-fastened quivers
   
3. XP32 Maximum skeleton special edition extended
   
4. GDB'S elden beast edition
   
5. Comprehensive first person animations
   

Multi-area edits:
Single-area edits:

1. Magical college of winterhold
   
2. Magical college of winterhold (ELFX patch)
   

Unique items added to locations:

1. Reinforced ebony armor

Exterior lighting mods:
New quest mods with area edits:
Trees & flora with area edits:
LOD & map mods:
INI (settings) changes:
Bottom of LO required:

1. Pauly's very attractive water & effects (performance mode)
   
2. Ilinalta - realistic water transparency
   
3. Realistic conversations
   

Disabled records:

1. No radial blur - performance optimization
   
2. Insignificant object remover
   

I am a teaching assistant. I’ve been 19 for a reasonably short amount of time. I work while taking community college courses, and have $11117 in my savings account from my job (was a sub, am now an assistant and have been one since January. Next month I receive a dollar raise, becoming an assistant means I work daily. I should have more saved after I’ve been paid through the end of this month.) I’m admittedly not positive that this is what I see myself doing for my entire life, but also don’t know what I want to major in and am partly here because it’s supposed to be a learning experience for me.
I have grown up in, and still live in, an area that has a very large white population (and a sizable population of one specific non-white ethnic group that is not black. I am from a place that has a low population of black people.) I am a black woman who is from a low income family, and have grown up in an apartment complex (my parents allow me to live with them and not pay rent, which is what has helped me save my money.) I look: https://www.instagram.com/p/C6IR_UzLjTM/?igsh=MzRlODBiNWFlZA== and https://www.instagram.com/p/C6z0F4bptE4/?igsh=MzRlODBiNWFlZA== and https://www.instagram.com/p/C6IW3nlLufV/?igsh=MzRlODBiNWFlZA==
I have noticed, ever since graduating from high school, that I am no longer terribly attracted to white men. I pass average looking white men on the street, and there’s no attraction present. I have felt attraction toward average and above looking black men, particularly those who are dark skinned, although I felt very strong attraction toward a light skinned 1/2 black 1/2 white boy in my senior year of high school (had colored eyes and was commonly considered to be above average/conventionally attractive. I also had a crush on another mixed boy who was slightly above average as a freshman, yet average by the time he was a junior - I was no longer attracted to him after he became average, and also started to dislike him because he had criticized my physical appearance behind my back.) The non-black men I have been attracted to were Mexican/Latino, yet were typically above average (I occasionally feel attraction toward an average looking Mexican/Latino man. Occasionally.) I will admit that I am very specific about what I like. I have found Jake Gyllenhaal attractive (about two years ago I was wildly attracted to him when watching Donnie Darko,) and had a crush on David Bowie in middle school, but think I was more attracted to white men then than I am now. My only boyfriend, two years ago, was black, and was what I think of as average looking. The white men I have typically been attracted to have had blonde hair and blue eyes, but I don’t know why.
I’m introverted. I do have to interact with people because of the nature of my job, but I have no friends. Whenever I am not working, I generally watch television (as of right now, that has typically been “Laverne and Shirley” and “twilight zone” - I’ve actually been marathoning twilight zone every year since I was about 11 or 12 ever since my middle school science teacher turned on two episodes, “eye of the beholder” and “number 12 looks just like you” for our class. I’ve always wanted to introduce a group of youth to the series in that manner, because I remember that it actually got me hooked on the series.)
Black men in my area typically take out and prefer white women, or otherwise seem to be colorists. In high school, I remember that black boys specifically dating white girls was a “thing.” I don’t really tend to receive attention in my area, I have not received any attention this year.
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Idk if I’ll delete this post later but this is just a rant on how much I hate being around black men who spent all or significant portions of their life socialised in the US, regardless of their origins.
No this isn’t another post trying to cause « diaspora wars ». I’m black immigrant and am not descended from any enslaved populations. This hatred I have is equally distributed to black men of different origins (African, Caribbean, African American). I go even further and say that dealing with people regardless of race or gender, who’ve been socially conditioned in the US is horrible.
What is it that makes it so horrible you might wonder? It’s multiple things and I don’t know if I have the right language to describe it, but I would characterise it by saying how much implicit and explicit anti blackness is ingrained in how people interact with me (and black women in general) in daily interactions all the way to bigger systems.
I feel like the best way to really understand this is through stories but even then, only certain black women who are fully awareness of anti blackness would be able to understand. There’s always a vocal subset that will just blame me for what I’m experiencing or tell me it’s a « class issue », not a race one. To be honest again, I don’t really like white people or non black peoples in the US either, but I can’t really take dealing with anti blackness from black people and then seeing those same black people wipe the tears and roll out the royal treatment, providing the utmost respect and understanding for anything but a black woman. Or behave like it’s some grand honour and blessings to help or serve anything non black.
Idk if it’s worth it to post publicly about the anti black encountersthat I have to deal with from black men (and women). I just felt like writing this because I was reading through the posts on this sub and just thought how people think black women divest is extreme, but have never lived as a black woman or even understand what we have to put up with from everyone, even other black women all the time.

Going to a wedding in a couple of weeks and trying to figure out what to wear. I also don't particularly want to spend too much money on new dress/shoes/accessories/etc.
I'm thinking of possibly wearing an black formal gown I already own - but it's black...It'd be great for an evening or fall/winter wedding but I worry about the setting.
The wedding is in the afternoon, outdoor in a fancy farm setting. Dress code is formal: "We suggest that men wear a suit and tie and women wear a cocktail dress or a nice pantsuit. Dress to impress! The wedding is on a farm so there will be walking on some uneven surfaces and we suggest you steer clear of stilettos, kitten heels or very high heels."
Thinking of wearing bright pink accessories or something along that line to offset the darkness of the dress. But the farm/summer thing is also throwing me way off. Thoughts?

Looking for suggestions on what I should do with my hair. I have a pixie cut and shave the sides and back down with a 4. I'm going to do the top in rainbow stripes but I don't know what color will look best on the sides! I'm doing it myself so I can't do anything fancyyy... I'm thinking either pink or purple. I considered black but semi permanent blacks arent great from my experience and stain extremely bad and with rainbow that's going to be rough 😆. Help me decide what would best (any brands/specific colors greatly appreciated!)

The hodge twins for example have a recent video titled "why black women are the least desireable to marry" which is becoming a popular #1 topic amongst male leaning spaces
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=23i6zy1zotA&ab_channel=ConservativeTwins
These guys are just an example but ive noticed there is a huge uptick of black male presence in white alpha male or white incel and white conservative male spaces "bonding" with non black male audiences (even on "black twitter").
There seems to be a weird hate brewing in the air where SOME black guys seem to be hellbent on some sort of crusade to get white people (especially the men) to think that black women are the enemy of everyone. Or that black women are somehow at fault for "destroying black households "and that they are somehow "better behaved" than black women. Has anyone noticed this weird online crusade? How about offline? I have somewhat seen this offline when a group of non black men are friends with black men and visibly show disdain at black women in public.

I work with a team of 30 people. There are people of all different backgrounds. Currently associate A is claiming associate B is discrimination based on race. Associate A’s reasoning is that B is not nice to her or gives her attitude. (Associate A is a black woman, associate B is a hispanic woman) Associate A also says that B is only nice to the other hispanic women and not to the black women. Associate B claims that A and a group of women A hangs with are bullies and constantly pick on her by saying mean things and spreading rumors. I have worked with both for years now. I have not seen any behavior from B that suggests discrimination. I have heard the mean comments from A’s group. I have seen the attitude coming from both A and B. When I try to discuss it with each of them, A gets defensive and B breaks down crying. I can seem to have proper communication with either of them without them shutting down unless I am completely on their side. I am not sure how to fix this tension between my team now. If I leave it alone it will only get worse.

the weirdest part about this is I saw someone else post about having a dream and I thought they was playing but nah this shi real asf.
So the dream starts and I become lucid for reasons I can’t say, me and this baddie listening to 2021 vibes in this black car(hopefully Lucki’s) and we get to this club, I walk inside and there Lucki is, smoking sum exotic, he spots me and motions me over and im thinking “There’s no way this is happening😭” i walk over type shi and we start getting geeked asf. Women shaking ass, music blasting, vibes on ten its a great time. I muster up the courage to finally speak cause I was just smoking and i go, “Yo Lucki this is live as fuck!” and he goes “Fuck yea twinski!” bro i was so hyped nothing could mess this up for me😭 Then I remember my original mission and tell him, “Yo slatt im tryna fuck this bih u tryna run a 2 man” He goes “Yoo bet lil bro” and Im geeking asf on the inside cause we bros now but I remain chill and say “Bet type shi”He says bet and we dap eachother up perfectly on sum twin shi. Woke up after that I guess he got me too excited idk. Imma try again tn
but yea thats my dream, before you comment just think, “What would Lucki say if he saw this”🙏peace out

Asgard 1827
The Trial of Asgard made national news in Valhalla . Brunhilde stood there in front of many gods, each vote determining her faith . Does she live or die ? Only odin can make that judgment. Heimdall opened a pamphlet speaking though his horn “ Brunhilde, eldest sister of the gods ! You stand accused of crimes against Humanity and Goding alike ! How do you plead ? “. Brunhilde rolled her eyes before speaking her mind . “How do I plead ? What crimes are you talking about ? I was making coffee before me and Randgriz were arrested on the spot “ she spoke out . “ Don't play dumb Brunhilde I saw you cast forbidden spells and illegal magic “ Odin told everyone. Despite the bold straight up lie hilde remained as calm as ever . Using magic and spells is more for Gondul and she is too smart to get caught. What did Odin really want and why is he dragging Randgriz of all demigods.“Nonsense ! My sister would never so such a ““SILENCE “ Odin shouted but Randgriz stood her ground ready to face death itself to protect Brunhilde. Meanwhile in another area. Loki used his blades to slice the doors open splitting them in half. Beelzebub was in the middle of an experiment his red eyes shooting at loki. “This better be good “ he whispered. “It is Brunhilde and Randgriz lives are a stake during the trial “ Loki spat out in a panicked state . “ Why should I care about some demigod's life when I don't even care about my own? “ Beel questioned. “It's because I know you hate Odin and would do anything to spite him how dare he label you as a freak when he is just as bad “ Loki answered “ Hurry we are running out of time ! “ . “What do you get out of this ? “ Beel stood up . “ I owe Brunhilde a favor “ A flashback of small Loki almost getting eaten by a giant snake until Brunhilde saved him by slicing it in half with a scythe
. “Be more careful child “ she turned around seeing the scared loki shiver .
The flash back ended with Brunhilde standing off to Odin . “Confess your crime or serve death “ A purple hue spear floated over him. “ I choose death, “ Brunhilde replied. “ Brun no ! “ Randgriz screamed buy it was too late . The spear launched at her body with such force blood she was pushed back to the wall. Brunhilde refused to give up despite all the pain seeping into her. “ This is the end of the road valkyrie…” Odin whispering. The last thing she saw was the gods demonic smile before everything faced to black.
“Is she alive ? “
“Wait “
“What if he killed her ? “
“Wait “
“ Is she dead ?”
“I will slap you “
“Yikes chill emo “
Brunhilde woke up in the lab with purple ,red and green eyes staring at her. “ What just happened…” Brunhilde felt a tight hug from Randgriz “ You are alive! “ Grizz cried out. “Yes …I am …” Brunhilde realized. “However at a price ….” Beel commented . “What did you do demon? “ Brunhilde hissed . “ Weird way of thanking someone for saving your life “ Beel brushed that comment off. The valkyrie gave him a weird look , “ Don't mention it I only did it to piss off Odin “ Beel shrugged. “Wait Mr Beel what “price “ are you talking about ? “ Grizz asked. “Oh well being a demigod you are more human then god now “ Loki jumped in stuttering at every word. “Meaning you can't fly , super strength and speed is gone, no more soul connection or anything that would make you a valkyrie “ Loki explained some more “ I had to do something to get Beel to save your life “. “ I'm not mad Loki “ Brunhilde took a deep breath “ This is just a sign that I need to leave asgard now …” Brunhilde stated . “I'm coming with you “ Randgriz sat next to her “ If I stay I'm dead Valkyrie walking “. “Plus it's no longer possible to survive here, however despite losing most of your powers there is still a place for you “ Beel mentioned “ Loki will take you “ . “Wait, what about our sisters ! “ Randgriz started to cry . Loki and Beelzebub looked at each other. “ We will figure that part out but remember if Odin catches wind they die too “ Loki pointed out . “Yes but faking our deaths still sounds horrible, “ Randgriz shook her head. “ Alright I'll do something you will see them again soon “ Beel told her “ Overall you both need to leave as soon as possible “ . “Follow me there is not much time “ Loki used his magic to make a portal . The scenery revealed a large Eiffel tower and people walking by . “ Once we step in there is no going back “ Randgriz shivered. “We don't have a choice “ Brunhilde stepped in holding Randgriz hand to help her . “Even if we never meet again Lord Loki, thank you for saving my life “ Brunhilde bowed down. “ No Brunhilde…thank you for saving mine “ Loki smiled, closing the portal. “So this is our new home “ Randgriz looked around seeing things that just aren't familiar anymore .
5 years later 1832
Late in the afternoon at the Salle Pleyel concert there was the sound of the piano . The fast paced music made everyone in the area cheer . The musician had blonde brown hair that passed his ears . He waved it back and forth like a rockstar smashing his keyboards so hard you would think he broke them. The crowd cheered his name “LISZT LISZT LISZT LISZT “ , fangirls jumped up and down going crazy over him . Brunhilde and Randgriz sat down in chairs watching the man go , “ His music is very rough and insane ..reminds me of home listening to vikings “ Brunhilde mentioned. “ I don't know who is making me more deaf the music or the annoying girls “ Randgriz covered her ears, “If it's too much for you then why did you bother coming? “ Brunhilde gave her a look. “ I don't wanna be alone “ Grizz admitted, “By the way ,..why are you wearing a suit “ Brunhilde wondered . “ The human women show too much window and well sister you don't show just the window the entire frame is gone leaving only thin fabric “ Randgriz gave her honest opinion. “ I don't need a lesson on modesty “ Brunhilde focused her attention on Liszt who kept playing . His piercing green eyes gave her a wink . “Was he winking at me ? “ Brunhilde turned to Randgriz. “Probably or at the other women fawning over him “ Grizz stated . “Yeah you're right “ Brunhilde relaxed some more “Not like I care he is a massive playboy breaking one heart after another I'm not going to fall for that plus I'm not a noble “. “You are right Hilde you aren't..you are a demigod , from our divine perspective human nobility is just fancy talk for commoner” Grizz whispered.
“ Randy shhhh we aren't in Valhalla anymore “ Brun reminded her , “ If looks could kill you would be a serial killer by now “ Randgriz laughed “ I mean I'm not wrong if an Archduke came to Valhalla and started bossing everyone he would be laughed at “. That comment made by a few folks behind her gave the sisters an irritated glare . “Shhh “ a man right next to Randgriz silenced her with his white glove .The concert ended leaving Liszt to step off the stage . He was quickly surrounded by fans causing Brunhilde to leave until she felt something hit her. Behind her was a red rose , she picked it up seeing the musician wave at her before being surrounded by more fans . “Come on Brunhilde let's go, I don't like parties “ Randgriz dragged her out towards the concert halls . “Oof I'm sorry “ she accidentally bumped into the same guy that sat next to him. He was a short guy with a big nose that spoke with a thick polish accident. “Sorry I'm looking for a man named Liszt “ he mentioned. “Down the hallway but you are going to have to wait in line “ Brunhilde pointed to the left before leaving . The man thanked her before walking in that direction, “He is very cute “ Randgriz thought. “Eh …okay let's go home “ she walked with Randgriz.
A few days later Brunhilde went back to the same concert alone this time to attend a mass . There she sat down reading the holy Bible while waiting for the preacher . “ Excuse me, is this seat taken? “ a familiar voice spoke to her . Brunhilde turned around, seeing the face once again. “Are you Franz Liszt ? “she asked while watching him sit down. “Yes “ Liszt confirmed sitting next to her “ Nice to meet you “ . “ Yeah I see ..” Brunhilde stuck her head back in the Bible. “Sorry if I was bothering you “ Liszt apologized getting ready to leave . “No you weren't, I just have a lot on my mind “ Brunhilde sighed. “Oh ..I hope the church can relax you ..lift those spirits up “ Liszt gave a warm smile. “Yeah” Brunhilde half smiled back , “So where are you from? I've never seen you around? “ he questioned. “Oh I'm from - “ Brunhilde tried to think of an answer. “Don't tell me your from heaven? “ Liszt answered "Wait how did you -”Brunhilde's face turned red from the blushing. “ “ Relax I was just kidding c Liszt chuckled . “Oh right …hahaha” Brunhilde joined the laughter

I don’t want to delve much into the woman’s perspective in this discussion, more about the men’s as much as possible. A lot of black men today are moving away from what people call “traditional dating” and “relationships/marriage” - what I’ll define simply as the man being the main initiator and chaser, and being the main provider and backbone of the family. Provider is such a charged buzzword nowadays because of that idea and rejection of older, established ideals.
Those men are practicing a spectrum of reversal - from requiring more equal/reciprocal energy from the woman they’re chasing, to outright refusing to chase in favor of being chased, refusing to step into the role of sole provider and requiring the woman to bring her own financial support to the relationship. Obviously, this makes sense, especially in modern US (where I am) because of the economy.
But I (23M) still don’t exactly get it. I mean, it makes sense to me to want to be pursued because of your worth, as a person and as a partner. It makes sense to be attractive in multiple ways and for that to be recognized and sought. That, I understand - I wouldn’t want my value to be dictated solely on what I can provide, or how I make you feel…
But why not go after the woman I want, and go after her hard with intention? Why not prove I’m the best man for her, the rest are lesser compared to me? I’m spending all of this time building the life I want, building the foundation so the family I create will thrive however they so please…
I don’t get the far end of the “modern” dating spectrum, where the man waits for a woman to see him and go after him. That doesn’t make sense to me at all, you spent all this energy, all of this work, to wait and be picked?
And even the more middling side of that, of course I want the woman I’m interested in to be interested back, but aren’t those men kind of waiting? It makes sense to me that the woman I’m going to be pursuing has a lot going for her, and therefore is pursued by other men… Isn’t it up to me to show her why I’m the best among the competition?
And then, after that’s all said and done she is mine… I’m unsure what the general consensus is on the less traditional side, but it just feels right in my bones to want to make the table and put something on it. Mothers, especially new mothers, go through such an ordeal the first few years, and so will the father who is putting in as much equal work with the baby as he can, but I don’t think it will ever be truly equal. It’s sacrificing energy vs sacrificing energy & body, most women get put into a disadvantage because of that when it comes to careers and education if they weren’t very well established beforehand. Someone has to provide the bulk during that time, and then after to be able to support her getting back to where she wants to be outside of being a mother and wife. Where do more modern minds fall when it comes to that?

As the title states, it was on Netflix. It was before Netflix originals. I watched a couple of episodes and for whatever reason didn't finish it. The anime is about a women that has to protect a child. She has black hair. She uses a long pole as a weapon (not sure what the proper name is). The outfit she wears is mostly red but may have black or gold in it. I know in either the first or second episode she has get her weapon repaired at a blacksmith. She gets injured and takes refuge at a rice paddy field farmers house. He dresses her wounds and she heads out with the child. Beyond that I know nothing else. Sorry I don't know more. I've been trying to remember this anime for years and I just can't seem to find it. Any help is appreciated.

Can y’all give some ground ing techniques thar help me calm my body down🥲🥹? Or coping strategies. Non drug/alc Thx (sorry for rant TW long post)
Im a black women who has serve anxiety. I was put in 72 hold after a burned out and didn’t show up to work. I thought I was going to ER to get checked up for exhaustion,24 hrs later im locked up.
They said that 72 hours but i was held longer than that bcs i was admitted before the weekend.Instead they kept me there for a week. I kept asking when I was getting discharged but no one was listening, nurse were giving allusive answers and I couldn’t self regulate my anxiety with music because they ripped my phone away when the locked me there .
The day of discharge, I kept asking for the time I was being discharge and they again kepts saying soon. Or some bullshit like early morning or late afternoon. I kept asking if the can be more specific. Please govern me details but the nurse in charge me would answer me. Eventually i started breaking down and having a panic attack in the hallways and my nurse threatened to cancel my discharge.
side note: why would that bitch ass nurse be say that to an anxious person having a breakdown about being discharged!? How can you cal yourself a nurse. She didn’t even try de escalate the situation she just made it worse.
black nurses were able to calm me down. And another nurse was able to tell me the discharge process. Thats all I wanted
But that not even half of what happened end there.
But after I got discharged my mind knows im free. But my body cant relax. I cant stay in my room cause I feel trapped but cant be outside either cuz there to many people.i took my anxiety meds but im still feel like someone is gonna lock me up again. I keep telling myself im safe but my body doesn’t believe me.
I wanna call my doctor but i don’t want to be put there again.
If i get stick again im making a run for it. Like mental institutions are inhumane fr.im more anxious than I was going in. The hold made me more anxious than i have been.

I’m 16 years old. I’m black I’m ugly i’m short I can’t catch a break in school everytime i go for a girl I always end up fucking it up. I’ve fucked up my perception of people so much to where I can’t talk to women about anything without it being weird. Nobody knows about how much I’m suffering and how much I want to leave this God Forsaken shithole of a planet. My lesbian mother left me for a woman in a city 2 hours away. I see her maybe once a month. I’m not doing good in my sport. None of my friends want to help me and listen to my fucking issues because no one cares. I’m too scared to talk to the girl I like. And I know she already doesn’t like me. The only thing currently keeping me going is ever lasting fear that once I die I will have committed the most irreparable sin, i’m constantly living on the edge from this new conflict I made with a friend for opening my stupid mouth around him. that bottle of ibuprofen is looking more and more attractive by the day. I don’t know how much longer I can deal with this worthless pitiful existence. Maybe if I die my classmates will finally notice me as something more than that autistic kid in the hallway.