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Long read - summary on bottom, let me know if you can relate or if I’m just the next person to be reported to your nearest Democratic Officer
Day one diver, did every major order up until the menkent/lasath defensive line. When I saw us fight hard to secure any type of line after those damn oil-spewers blitzed into our territory I felt accomplished that we finally made a line to stand in. I went to sleep that night waiting to push onward tomorrow. To my surprise in the 7 hours I slept we had lost the line and a new planet was being attacked and the “defensive line” was now on the verge of being lost. Don’t get me started on any bugs or bs factors with patches that’s a whole other thing.
With that frustration I came here and was reccomended to take a break so I did, and quietly played fallout 4 waiting for changes that I thought were needed and more importantly I thought “they couldn’t possibly leave this issue alone for too long, they’re not like other game devs!” .
Fast forward 3 weeks later I try to come back and found that most of the issues that made me take a break were here on top of new ones, weapon nerfs and still no real new content besides a mission type. Then sonys fiasco and seeing the playerbase drop off the earth did something to my morale for this. Getting on today and seeing the kill order fail and seeing “md-17 at mines will be, once again, delayed” That “once again” part combined with the fact that literal countries are being restricted and thus less fellow divers, just made me not even want to try for any MO anymore and just let it play out on its own, as it was seemingly hopeless to even try to complete it and I just then lost any interest in it and began wondering how they plan on making us take back all these planets.
I’ve unlocked everything, I want to play this game for fun and honest to god love of killing bugs, major orders are nice and winning or failing is fine, but nerfing all my weapons constantly kills my bug killing vibe/abilities. I was under the assumption this is a PVE game so it doesn’t make sense why it matters if we have strong guns/strats. If we kill everything quickly just send more our way, no one complained about fighting 5 titans in a row BY THEMSELVES when the railgun can take it out in 2 shots, but force a squad to take 5 on at once with just strats and at rockets and that confidence fades quickly (dont forget in both cases your still dealing with chargers and other).
Summary- Major orders give lore and a cool reason to kill bugs or bots and I’m here for it. But as of now they don’t inspire any hype or real necessity and finding it hard to find it again.

Hi!
I’m looking for something real, long term, and not interested in nsfw, probably. Lol just kidding, please don’t, I’m classy and stuff.
I’m a unique mix of awkward, judgy, and sassy, but in a good way? A little wild, but only to say I’m as crazy as the average woman. You’ll probably like me anyway.
I feel too old to be on Reddit, so assume I’ve lived some life already. I’m hoping to find someone in that same place. Please have your shit together. Goals and stability are sexy. Stereotypical guy is my ideal, but also someone who can make me laugh and has good taste in music :)
At the risk of offending the populous, I’m not into anime. I’ve never met anyone in real life who is, but I think it’s because they live here on Reddit, so I just have to put it out there. Also, gaming is fine, but I’m not looking for a “gamer”.
Ugh, these things are the worst. Thank goodness I don’t work in sales. Although, I probably could just write “female” a few times and have a thousand responses. If this doesn’t work, I’ll try that.
If you’re interested and maybe looking for the possibility of an actual relationship, send me a message with your name and general location.

Hello!
I only have limited understanding of Japanese, and I was hoping to get the camera motion for Dance Robot Dance. I am unsure if I am losing something in translation..
配布場所↓ https://bowlroll.net/file/220760 パスワード「この楽曲制作者の名前のカタカナ部分をローマ字で」

Distribution location↓ https://bowlroll.net/file/220760 Password: "Katakana part of this music creator's name in Roman letters"Distribution location↓ https://bowlroll.net/file/220760 Password: "Katakana part of this music creator's name in Roman letters" 

I have tried multiple ways of writing Pinocchio's name and its just not working, would anyone be able to help or give more hints? I have tried, ノキオ, nokio, pinokiopi, ピノチオピ, but none are working.

I feel any assignment or task I do now, rather than having a go on my own, I end up seeing what ChatGDP’s approach to doing the assignment is. And essentially my work becomes a rewritten version of all the information articulated from AI.
Thankfully my assignments this semester have mainly been things Chat can’t help me with, but my reliance on it for the even the simplest writing tasks has become immense (this was all written by me fyi 😅). Anyone else has this issue and just started doing things on your own? And next question, what’s a good way to use AI, without impacting your thought process?

FUCK YOU BALTIMORE!
IF YOU'RE DUMB ENOUGH TO BUY A NEW CAR THIS WEEKEND, YOU'RE A BIG ENOUGH SCHMUCK TO COME TO BIG BILL HELL'S CARS!
BAD DEALS, CARS THAT BREAK DOWN, THIEVES!
IF YOU THINK YOUR GOING TO FIND A BARGAIN AT BIG BILL'S, YOU CAN KISS MY ASS!
IT'S OUR BELIEF THAT YOU'RE SUCH A STUPID MOTHERFUCKER THAT YOU'LL FALL FOR THIS BULLSHIT GUARANTEED!
IF YOU FIND A BETTER DEAL: SHOVE IT UP YOUR UGLY ASS! YOU HEARD US RIGHT: SHOVE IT UP YOUR UGLY ASS!
BRING YOUR TRADE, BRING YOUR TITLE, BRING YOUR WIFE, WE'LL FUCK HER! THAT'S RIGHT WE'LL FUCK YOUR WIFE!
BECAUSE AT BIG BILL HELL'S, YOU'RE FUCKED SIX WAYS FROM SUNDAY!
TAKE A HIKE TO BIG BILL HELL'S!
HOME OF CHALLENGE PISSING, THAT'S RIGHT, CHALLENGE PISSING. HOW DOES IT WORK?
IF YOU CAN PISS 6 FEET IN THE AIR STRAIGHT UP AND NOT GET WET, YOU GET NO DOWN PAYMENT.
DON'T WAIT, DON'T DELAY, DON'T FUCK WITH US OR WE'LL RIP YOUR NUTS OFF!
ONLY AT BIG BILL'S HELL, THE ONLY DEALER THAT TELLS YOU TO FUCK OFF.
HURRY UP, ASSHOLE!
THIS EVENT ENDS THE MINUTE YOU WRITE US A CHECK AND IT BETTER NOT BOUNCE OR YOU'RE A DEAD MOTHERFUCKER.
GO TO HELL.
BIG BILL HELL'S CARS
BALTIMORE'S FILTHIEST AND EXCLUSIVE HOME OF THE MEANEST SONS OF BITCHES IN THE STATE OF MARYLAND, GUARANTEED!!

I’ve always thought of myself as an open minded person but my extreme discomfort in many situations is completely abnormal. I am exposed to media with people looking the same making the same choices and of course that becomes my reality rather than the one I live in. People regurgitate the same advice expressing the same thoughts and I start seeing everyone as this monolith. I feel like original thought isn’t valuable anymore because no one else does it. Humans are susceptible to group think believing there must be a reason everyone is doing one thing and nothing else. There must be a reason people say certain things and all have the same sort of tendencies right? The reason seems to be that everyone wants to be accepted and no one wants to waste time on something that has the potential to fail. Living is work and the energy you put into it has to be carefully considered.
It’s very uncomfortable having a thought that feels different like no one else would have. This is especially true when you’re socially isolated and your main connection to humanity is through social media as a girl. You realize that you’re doing everything wrong like the way you speak, dress, express yourself. You have mental illness written all over you and you do everything in your power to cover this feeling up. You spend countless hours researching what normal girls do and how to perfectly curate yourself so you are acceptable. Not in a people pleasing way but in a cool way. If you disagree with people there’s a bigger picture reason to it and later down the line there’s nothing to regret. You want every moment to be something you will never regret because it’s perfect. You have some sort of value in this world and impacted people in some way of use and you’re not here for no reason.

tl;dr when am I likely to be able to speak with a human at 136150?
It's been 6 months since I submitted a separation form... https://www.reddit.com/CentrelinkOz/comments/19doaca/mod_s_separation_form_submitted_over_2_months_ago/ ... but my ex-partner is still listed as a spouse. The only acknowledgement by Centrelink is that it's shown as submitted.
I just tried to call 136 150, at 10:20am EST, but after a few minutes through a bunch of menus and "you CAN do this online, you know?" prompts, once I finally got the option to be put through to an operator, the system said too busy right now, thanks, goodbye.
This has been my experience the few times I've attempted to call since creating the above thread 4 months ago...
When is a good time, and day - generally - to call?
(Is there some way to submit queries in writing online? Or do I need to resort to a postal letter?)

Hi all, happy Wednesday. I have been thinking lately about starting a monthly newsletter. A brief newsletter that touches on one specific topic each month that works for the general public but mainly for my clients. They can absolutely opt out, though I have a lot of clients who I know would be interested in a supplemental little nugget from me each month and I figure it couldn’t hurt to have it floating out there for marketing purposes. I also enjoy writing and so this is something that would be personally fun and fulfilling for me (Hopefully!). My question is- does anyone do this and if so, do you have any insight into what you’ve learned along the way and what platforms/services work best for this. TIA!

FUCK YOU BALTIMORE!
IF YOU'RE DUMB ENOUGH TO BUY A NEW CAR THIS WEEKEND, YOU'RE A BIG ENOUGH SCHMUCK TO COME TO BIG BILL HELL'S CARS!
BAD DEALS, CARS THAT BREAK DOWN, THIEVES!
IF YOU THINK YOUR GOING TO FIND A BARGAIN AT BIG BILL'S, YOU CAN KISS MY ASS!
IT'S OUR BELIEF THAT YOU'RE SUCH A STUPID MOTHERFUCKER THAT YOU'LL FALL FOR THIS BULLSHIT GUARANTEED!
IF YOU FIND A BETTER DEAL: SHOVE IT UP YOUR UGLY ASS! YOU HEARD US RIGHT: SHOVE IT UP YOUR UGLY ASS!
BRING YOUR TRADE, BRING YOUR TITLE, BRING YOUR WIFE, WE'LL FUCK HER! THAT'S RIGHT WE'LL FUCK YOUR WIFE!
BECAUSE AT BIG BILL HELL'S, YOU'RE FUCKED SIX WAYS FROM SUNDAY!
TAKE A HIKE TO BIG BILL HELL'S!
HOME OF CHALLENGE PISSING, THAT'S RIGHT, CHALLENGE PISSING. HOW DOES IT WORK?
IF YOU CAN PISS 6 FEET IN THE AIR STRAIGHT UP AND NOT GET WET, YOU GET NO DOWN PAYMENT.
DON'T WAIT, DON'T DELAY, DON'T FUCK WITH US OR WE'LL RIP YOUR NUTS OFF!
ONLY AT BIG BILL'S HELL, THE ONLY DEALER THAT TELLS YOU TO FUCK OFF.
HURRY UP, ASSHOLE!
THIS EVENT ENDS THE MINUTE YOU WRITE US A CHECK AND IT BETTER NOT BOUNCE OR YOU'RE A DEAD MOTHERFUCKER.
GO TO HELL.
BIG BILL HELL'S CARS
BALTIMORE'S FILTHIEST AND EXCLUSIVE HOME OF THE MEANEST SONS OF BITCHES IN THE STATE OF MARYLAND, GUARANTEED!!

Since I was a kid I have been a heavily immersive daydreamer and used to share my imagination. Eventually I made the realization that that wasn't very well socially received to say the least lol. There's one particular story that's been on my mind since my teens, and about a year ago I started putting it to paper and am still in the process of doing so. Idk how to explain it but it feels so invigorating. I went to school and stacked certifications and currently train athletes and sell diet plans and I'm good at what I do, but in an ideal life this is what I would do as side hustles. This story along with other stories too have been what I think about for hours in a day every day for as long as I can remember. The more I write the more I feel like bringing these stories to life on screen is what I am supposed to be doing. I dream of the world where this is my profession. I look at my story and as a huge film nerd am genuinely impressed with what I've put together, once it's done I just have no idea what to do next. Anyway I just came across this sub and thought it was cool so I thought I'd share and recommend writing to you all, cheers!

A very fun way to play! Very cool!

I have been arguing with my supervisors over a specific issue that is now severely influencing my PhD. I believe they are wrong and want to understand their reasons for disagreement. However, my supervisors refuse to elaborate and keep making self-contradictory comments. They are also making it a big issue, suggesting that I don't take any advice from them, and are close to not allowing me to continue my PhD.
A simplified metaphor for my trouble would be: flow is defined as the volume of water moving past a particular point during a given time period. My supervisors are telling me I can't put "flow" along with "moving water."
A detailed version without the metaphor: I am writing my literature review. The concept I am studying has been using two terminologies (A & B) together. The first definition of A in my field stated: "A is the B (under subject-specific context)" Over five decades, scholars in my field have been using these two terms interchangeably, and phrases like "these two are used interchangeably and it brings benefits of flexibility" are common in important papers and reviews. So, I used them interchangely, never thought it will cause an issue.
However, my supervisors argue that I should not use them interchangeably. They say, "Just use one of them." I disagree because the very definition of A includes B in it. I did my research and found that about a decade ago, researchers started considering A & B as presenting separate things (my supervisors clearly didn't know about this). Meanwhile, the majority of studies still use them interchangeably. I included these in my writing and explained why I use them together(not interchangeably). My supervisors again said, "You can't put them together if they are different," but they also said, "You can't put them together if they are the same," before. So, during our last supervisory meeting, I asked them directly if I should choose one terminology. They said no, if the literature says to include both, I should include it. So now, I am at a dead end. I think the easiest way is to just use one terminology, but then it will be wrong on many levels.
Any advice is welcomed. My supervisors are terrible and I really don't know how to solve the issue.
I am doing a PhD in UK

Hi, so I’ll list some important things about me right off the bat.

• I’m fairly plus sized, but I’ve made a commitment to get into shape. I don’t want or expect you to help me with that, it’s a personal journey.
  
• I’m a black girl so no racists or anything.
  
• I’m only looking for guys who share my values and at least some of my interests. I want us to have stuff to talk about right away.
  
• if you romanticize mental illness, or like “crazy girls” respectfully leave me alone.
  

Okay now that’s out of the way, hi! It’s nice to meet you. I’m a twenty year old girly from the garden state. I love cats, reading, and writing. I’ll read anything (comic books, memoirs, romance, sci fi). It would be cool to find someone I could discuss books with, even if we don’t read the same ones. Writing is another passion but I keep it to myself most of the time.
What I’m looking for in a partner: someone goal oriented and consistent, someone loyal, someone willing to take things slow. As for appearance, I am attracted to more fit men (I know I know, kinda hypocritical) but that’s just a preference. I don’t plan on staying out of shape myself.
If you read all of this, thank you! Have a nice day, even if I’m not for you :)

So my husband likes to dress as a woman. And even has a name for who she is which I've been accepting and cool with and even buy the wigs and makeup amd clothes. However what I am confused about and worries me is thar he likes to play with dildos and penetrate himself and wants me to penetrate him as well.. for the longest time he was doing all of this while I was at work and our sex life went down the drain because he would have sex with himself but not me anymore accept maybe once a month. He says he isn't gay and doesn't like men but dressing as a woman turns him on and makes him feel aroused. The only time we have sex now is when he is dressed up and I'm home or if I penetrate him with a strap on etc.. so I really don't know what to think or what to do and he gets so mad and offended when I ask why he doesn't want to have sex with me and thinks that's all I think about or want from him which isn't true but I need attention and intimacy as well. He says he does this so he doesn't look like his father etc. What should I do or say or am I wrong for feeling the way I do??

Hello Reddit! I’m six months along with boy and girl twins. My husband and I have quite liked the name Nathaniel for a boy for quite some time now, and we’ve settled on the name Nathaniel Roger for him. However! We never discussed girl names before we got pregnant, but since we’re having twins I wanted to give them names that are similar in some sort of way so I wanted it to start with the same letter.
I like the name Nirviane for a girl. Pronounced ner-veen. I think it sounds very lovely and like a cool girl’s name. However! The times I’ve brought this up to my friends, they haven’t reacted positively. I do know it’s a somewhat unusual name. My husband suggested the name Norma which I don’t like as much, but he said Nirviane would be alright with him because it isn’t too common and sounds proper to him. If it helps, our last name is Khlat (my husband is Cambodian, I’m white) and we live in Arizona. I plan to name her Nirviane Janet. Although nobody I know seems to agree with this, so what are your thoughts on it? I feel everyone in my circle is exaggerating about it being a bad name because one of my friends who vetoed it has a daughter named Priscilla (which I don’t like, it sounds like prissy), and another has a daughter named Marigold who goes by Golda.
What are your thoughts on it?

Sexual guilt and shame 21(F)
Over the past few months I’ve been thinking of things I’ve done with past sexual partners and feeling shame because of how my current boyfriend reacted to me telling him that I already had sex with 2 other guys (within committed relationships — 1 of them sorta.. we had more of a talking phase but we had gone out on more than 5+ dates ) another one within a commited relationship I never had sex with but we did a few things so 4 partners including him. I however, was the first person he had sex with and I’m his first girlfriend.
I had started dating kind of young with the idea that I HAD to marry my first boyfriend no matter the cost, got me into lots of trouble and then he left me out of the blue. I kinda then dated people out of wanting the experience and love but they always turned too sexual and I always thought that’s what you were supposed to do when you like someone. I had only ever had sex with them once and then I left cause things just didn’t work out and the situation leading up or after sex just went sour , I always felt bad about that but I stood my ground about wanting a healthier relationship even after doing the unhealthy thing… worse part is I just kind of let these things happen acknowledging that it might’ve not been the best idea.
I met my boyfriend and I was head over heels, he wasn’t sexually forward, he was polite and the sweetest. He won my heart by always wanting to spend time with me and having a solid heart of gold. However, a little less than dating he had gotten EXTREMELY cold and angry at me because he had thought that I was someone who would go to parties and have sex with anyone before I met him because of some post that was about being “overstimulated” he misunderstood the post but realized he knew nothing of my past. I never told him cause he never asked.i would’ve told him but the way he was so mad I was scared . He literally threw a fit when I had told him my “body count” I was honest. He told me he just didn’t want other guys to look at me and be like “ yeah I fuckedddd his b!tch & whatever “ “ he saved ms.305” we had a lot of tension and arguments about it for like a month, half of it was me being extremely upset that he was ever like that with me. I felt shame that I was the first he’d ever been with and he wasn’t mine I still had this mentality over the perfect love story.
In the end, he apologized a million times and made up for it. He said that he had accepted it and doesn’t even think about it. Just didn’t want to have someone with a high body count 5+ ( note: I only agree because people with higher counts (10+)tend to not be reliable within relationships IN MY EXPERIENCE , I know it doesn’t apply to everyone, I really don’t judge I still even give him the side eye for judging people for that when he knows nothing of their life but he stands by it. Understandable it’s just the way he says it sometimes) It actually brought us closer in a lot of ways. Our communication, the way we handle problems, our tempers, and overall we’ve actually been extremely happy. I love this man with all my being. I just don’t want to self sabotage with these insane thoughts.
Later, he tells me that he had gone on 15+ dates all with different women and that he had been sexual with at least 4 of them, in a way I was very relieved and happy because it seemed more even. But then maybe realized he was projecting onto me ? I still feel shame about some of it but that’s because of this weird attitude towards sexual women that men tend to have . I feel better writing out and seeing that I really have nothing to worry about but now I can’t accept that I did these things sometimes and it makes me feel shame and guilt when I remember I did certain things with my past partners. Nothing ever so crazy but you know your 16 year old lust. I am getting over it but I don’t know. I don’t want to ruin my relationship thinking I’m not worthy somehow.

Just for context, I am studying Japanese. That's one of the lesser supported languages on Duolingo. My wife for instance is using it for Spanish, and she talks to the app. Japanese doesn't do that. Additionally Japanese has a different alphabet and the Kanji system. Which leads me to my first criticism.
I will often get at the start of lessons, quizzes that want me to match the Japanese alphabet to the sounds, without telling the definition. WIthholding the definition of a word seems bizarre. I can match the words to the Kanji AND still try to learn the word. These exercises become overall meaningless. I've reported this to Duolingo many times, but they don't change it.
For me, I'm not retaining a lot. I studied in school and now I'm trying again and at first I liked it because it helped me remember what I had learned. But now I'm finding very low retention. Unless you hyper focus, which is a chore with an app that is basically bugging you, it's hard to learn with this app. Instead all the gimmicks that they advertise are actually detriments. Because there 'game like' quizzing, there are alternative ways to get the right answer. So stuff doesn't stick for me.
For a while I tried to just push, keep going, it'll all click into place. That's unfortunately not true for me. So I find myself in chapters with very little knowledge of the vocabulary. I try to go to the 'learn words' section of the app, but it will only give me the words for the furthest lesson I've completed, which is words like prefecture and emperor. I would much prefer to be able to learn different words that might be more useful. Seems silly to drill prefecture when I don't know the word for 'emergency' or 'ambulance'.
A 1,200 day streak, a streak btw that I don't do the minimum on, I also have every monthly badge since they started those. But at the end of the day I don't really feel like I've learned much at all.
Cool art style. I like the characters :)

Amidst the relentless siege of daily strife, I seek a whisper of relief, a slice of life Where burdens ease and shadows lightly fall, A moment's peace to soothe the soul's call.
Each day a labyrinth of silent screams, Where hope dwindles and despair gleams. With every breath, a desperate plea, For a respite, a pause, a chance to flee.
The weight of existence crushes bone and will, Invisible forces bending me to their ill. I yearn for a break in the clouds overhead, A patch of blue, a sunbeam's thread.
The grinding gears of routine grind too much, Each task, each duty, cold to the touch. How I long for the softness of an easier way, A gentle night, a lighter day.
In the clutter of thoughts that clutter my mind, I search for a clearing, a space to find A breath of calm amidst the storm's rage, A sentence of peace on life's crowded page.
Desperation grows like a fire wild, Burning within me, fierce and unfiled. It consumes my patience, my resilience, my core, Leaving ashes of anguish, an internal war.
Oh, for a draught of cooling rain, To wash away this searing pain. Oh, for a touch, a word, a sign, To ease this existence, make it benign.
Is there no balm in Gilead, no ease in sight? Must my days be battles, my nights a fight? How desperate my heart for a drop of relief, A moment of silence, however brief.
So I wait in the shadows, watching, worn, For the herald of relief, the breaking morn. Desperate for a change, for a tide that will lift, The burdens I carry, the ultimate gift.

Don't despair, everyone goes through this. You can become an ace debugger.
Bad News: Debugging is an essential yet often overlooked skill for programmers, especially newcomers to the field. When you first start programming, it's natural to think that writing the code is the finish line. However, the process of debugging and fixing defects is a crucial part of the programming journey, and it frequently requires as much effort as writing the initial code.
Good News: As you develop your debugging skills, your efficiency will skyrocket. You'll identify and resolve issues more quickly, and you'll write better code from the outset, reducing the need for extensive debugging.
This three-step approach can help you conquer up to 99% of code defects:
1) Watches: Add watches on the variables causing you problems. Watches allow you to monitor the values of variables as your code executes, providing valuable insights into where things might be going wrong.
2) Trace: Set a breakpoint at the start of where you think the problem is and get ready to trace one line at a time. Tracing through your code step-by-step allows you to observe its behavior and pinpoint the precise location of the defect.
3) Play the Computer: Before you trace the line, predict how the watches should change based on the code that's about to execute. Instead of predicting what "should happen" based on your assumptions, look at the code that's about to impact your "watch" and perform the calculations or operations yourself. If the actual behavior differs from your prediction, you've likely found the issue.
Best News: By "Playing the Computer," you'll rapidly improve your programming skills. Before you know it, people will seek your help to fix their bugs! (and maybe even call you ace :)
Remember, the only way to fail is to quit. Embrace the challenges, persist through the frustrations, and celebrate your progress. Debugging is a valuable learning experience that will propel you to become a proficient and sought-after programmer. Good luck on your coding journey!
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I’ve been playing a lil over a year.(chapter 4 season 1) and I’ve participated in every season up until now (chapter 5 season2). I just wasn’t feeling the Greek mythology vibe. Thought it was corny and had absolutely nothing to do with the storyline… which is non existent it seems… I’ve pretty much decided if they don’t come out with a banger of a season (chapter 5 season 3) then I’m hanging it up, and uninstalling. I’m so tired of it… I feel like I missed out on all the cool stuff in the earlier seasons but since I’ve started playing the game has went way downhill… and I’m just over it! It’s been fun… kinda

i’ve been hiatus for the past couple of months, Mainly I forced myself to get off my reddit because I felt like I needed to make action instead of taking my problems to reddit.
Its been good!! I don’t really have this obsession anymore. Im glad to say I can enjoy the outdoors even when humid smoke is out there.
To me, The smell and aroma doesnt effect me anymore. The amount of times ive been around the aroma and full blown smoke clouds on a hot and humid day is too many to count, But have I ever really gotten contact high? No. Have I had a deep gut feeling that I will or have? Sure. But it never truly happened.
Ive grown to know that I was just simply traumatized as shit, Other background trauma is a aspect to it but, For the most part I needed to recollect myself.
The only thing I really struggle with now is I get a migraine if I smell marijuana most times, But thats only because strong smells trigger such headaches.
Questions Ive asked myself Or you might ask
What if Im in a room and it smells?
By all means do what you have to do, But dont freak out and storm outside like how I have in the past. But do your best to collect yourself, Try to exercise the fear.
What if my friends smoke weed?
If your friends are mature or arent total pot heads, Let them know your boundaries. And if they are jackasses about it. Please save yourself the stress and find better friends. Been there done that.
What if im in a hotboxed area/room/environment?
Being in a small and very hotboxed room is probably the only way youll really get “contact high” in a public setting. But, Do your best to avoid places like that lol. But simply just leave, Fan away your nose if you need to. But if you’re at a party, or a concert. Youll be a okay if you just get past the smell. Took a while for me to get there.
remember, tell yourself that what ever someone else does, Should not, Could not, Would not effect you.
I still struggle with being optimistic. Writing this still has me feeling like that it could happen some day. But till now i must know ill be okay for the most part.