Goodnight text messages for boyfriend

I have a friend named Lily and her friend, let’s call him Alex, messaged me and we started talking and joking around. I joked that I was gonna touch Lily and he jokingly said he was gonna touch me. Alex is gay and had a boyfriend so I took this in a joking way but I didn’t say anything weird back and made a joke back that I was spying out the window. Alex says that by responding, I encouraged him to flirt with when he already had a bf but I’m confused because I saw Alex in a friendly way and he’s gay so I thought he was joking. I apologized though for confusing him, but he’s still mad at me. AITA?

Pretty much what the title says. I’m 21 so we’ve been friends since we were kids. Inseparable. I found we lived in the same town now that we’ve both moved out! I’ve been trying to contact her to hang out, we had a few weird spots last year over a shared roommate who hated me and she sided with her, which kind of threw me off. Im not a bad person, simply just not religious and don’t feel the need to pretend to be religious anymore. I drink on occasion, say curse words, (not around her.) have piercings and tattoos, and don’t go to church. Other than that, I’m the same person I’ve always been. Oh, I forgot! I had sex with my boyfriend and she threw a fit because I “changed.”
Been trying to contact her to hang out, we both live in a very mormon town. I just live in the stereotypically “exmormon” part of town. She texted me today finally after 6 months of ignoring me, and said she’s over it. She’s done. She needed some “time for herself.” she doesn’t want to see me anymore. All because she doesn’t agree with some things I’m doing and doesn’t want to be tempted! Isn’t that funny. I’ve lost quite a few friends for not being mormon, but never thought it would be my best friend. Funny thing is, she’s best friends with the old roommate now. Good riddance. As much as I want to respond rudely, (and rightfully so,) I’m going to simply ignore. It hurts, but I know it’s for the better. I can’t change other people’s minds about me, and I shouldn’t want people like that In my life.
Just for the fun of it, help me brainstorm funny things to say. Won’t be sending them but it’ll at least cheer me up a bit. :)

I will try to make this short.
Last weekend I had opportunity to peek through her messages and I could not resist to confirm or to deny that she cheated on me almost a year ago.
Everyone told me she cheated but I was convincing myself the opposite. I never imagined myself to getting so low to read someones messages but I did. Through messages I confirmed that she texted her friend that she is in love followed by pictures of a guy and her. Also I found out that when she went to visit a friend of hers she actually slept at his place. Because she fucking didn't know my GF was in town.
I knew about him but she always made fun of me when I said I don't trust her that there is nothing and everything is suspicious.
It seems like they have tried something but it didn't last. So she came back to being normal and started being interested in me.
I didn't want to admit that I went through her messages. So I told her to come clean and that I know. And she is denying hard. I still don't want to admit that I went so low to read her private messages. But she is hard denying and asking me what is happening with me. I am actually digusted by her.
The thing is. Now I am cutting all contact. Her family is kind of cool though. But I wanted to cut them too because honestly we didn't have much in common and I don't want to be near her and I understand that they will always have to take her side. So I unfollowed them on all social media. And now they are asking me what is happening.
What should I do? I am disaapointed to the bottom of my heart that a person with whom I spent two years just doesn't admit it. I am also dissapointed that I didn't end it when everyone around me told me that she is trying something with this guy but instead ended up being suspicious for a year. But I just believed her.
I feel like I want to hurt her and show everyone who she is. But I think that is under my level even after reading the private mesages. Also I am not sure what would happen to me if everyone found out I went through her private stuff..... I feel disgusted by me and by her.

Relationship help?
help!!!!! im so confused
i 14m like this girl in the samw year as me. but its so confusing so i’ll tell u the story first. (its a long one)
I’m from England and so is the girl i like. lets call her Julie. and we go to the same high school. one year an opportunity for an exchange was brought up. In October we’d spend 10 days at our exchange partner’s house in America and go to their school and go round the island learning about different things. Before this, i’d wanted to know who Julie was etc. and I’d kept her at the back of my mind. To my luck, Julie was also going to go on the exchange (There were 30 of us and there are 300 people in my year.) So after the snapchat group chat was made I very smoothly 🤣 slided into Julie’s DM’s. We just talked loads instantly and we were yet to talk in real life. (She is in the other half of the year so we didn’t have any classes.) Meeting after meeting about the trip and we still hadn’t talked. Eventually, the trip arrived and we were headed to heathrow from a local airprot and Heathrow to the airport in america. In the security bit we finally spoke. Julie made a joke as I scurried around trying to be as quick as possible. From there we just kept talking and we even talked on the plane (when she woke up). She was sat behind me and I was sat with a friend and us three talked.
I can’t remember all the details but basically, throughout the whole trip me and her talked the whole time and people always shipped us if you get what I mean. However, I do remember the airport back. We had a three hour wait time I think at the american airport. and we were going around in small groups of four or five and I just spontaneously chose to go around with Julie. Julie was with two of her other friends but we spent the whole three hours making tiktoks and laughing and joking about and we both really enjoyed it. Finally, we were back home and we proceeded to text until school came by again. This is where another recently solved problem comes around.
The last day of the trip there was a massive party and I met this girl lets call Bella. Me and Bella started texting from there and sort of started liking each other. By this point I really really liked Julie and never stopped thinking about her but never knew if she felt the same and was very cautious about it. However, me and Bella kind of died down after a week or so.
So it was back to me putting my full effort into liking Julie. At school we didn’t talk much be exchange the few words whenever I saw her. I was really nervous around her in real life and tried to do my best to make it discreet I liked her and directed my attention elsewhere while still having full attention on her. Yet we texted like crazy and full on as well. We would always joke around and call each other names jokingly and we were really really friendly. We didn’t talk as much in January and February but picked up again in March. I still really really really liked her again and in April we shared our ambitions and they pretty much matched up and we shared our ‘types’ and we described each other but were completely clueless we liked each other. It got a bit confusing because she liked me ( I later found out in June/July) but also mentioned this other guy so I got confused and then in June it got really really messy.
You remember Bella right? Well the American kids all came over to England this time and stayed with us. On the first few days me and Bella didn’t talk however we did one day and we kicked about a ball on a field where everyone on the exchange was hanging out after we had a football match. From there me and Bella hung out a lot together and did stuff together in class activities. We really liked each other and I no longer liked Julie. (It’s really important to keep in mind me and Bella didn’t know each other deeply etc.) However my feeling for Julie still remained a bit but slowly died out even when I still liked Bella the first few days. Anyways, me and Bella had held hands a few times etc. and when Bella went we hugged a lot. We weren’t into a relationship and a few days later we stated ‘talking’ (A state in which the relationship is similar to a boyfriend/girlfriend relationship but is not official.) and we called a lot. However a few problems arose when me and Bella discovered each other’s emotions and how we live and what we live by. It was present she was over reactive, over protective, quite mean (For example I’d talk about my day and she wouldn’t care and she’d talk about hers.), she also talked to a lot of other boys oddly (For example she blocked me sometimes and a few days later my friend was at the top of her best friend-list with a 😗 next to his name.) and she always had excuses. It just didn’t work for me and I wasn’t happy at all. Prior to me and Bella stopping talking me and Julie started to text again.
me and julie started to text again in about july 2023. (idk). julie had just got out of a relationship in august so i only started liking her again in september 2023. i tood my friends and obviously word spread but i always said i didnt infront of her so idk if she knew or not. anyway we still texted alot however another guy liked her who also texted her and there was a bit of competition. for a few months i didnt even know if i liked her, some days i would, some days i wouldnt and i was really conflicted. now, the ither guy and her dont really text much and so im not really bothered. we still both text each other loads and weve had eachother st the top of our best friends list for two weeks😂😂. anyways i have no idea if she likes me or not but i like her and were like best friends. feel free to ask any questions.
By the way the girl from american is completely out the picture. Julie doesnt know i like her.

I am neha ( 26 f ) , I am here to vent and get some suggestions or maybe even a real friend . This is a story of how I ruined my love life and destroyed the man who meant everything to me . We grew up in Coimbatore , i first met my boyfriend when I was in 11th grade , I actually saw him in a video , it was a Facebook video made by his friends , one of his friend proposed a girl , so they made a video of it , he was there in it too . He is tall , above 6ft , he looked ok , normal , a bit weird too with his specs and curl hair . He didn’t stand out , after few days I saw in a local chat place , he was with his friend , all sweaty , they came from gym . I recognised him immediately though. I saw him sneakily , idk why , after going home I sent him a request to his Insta . We started talking the same night , he said he saw me too , we connected way too fast , he was very funny and practical, we became best friends very soon , we almost spoke daily , in that following year we became so close, there wasn’t anything sexual , we just talk about our day and our lives daily , then he got into a relationship with a girl , I liked her too , life was so easy and fun back then , after we got into college , I Started to date a guy in my college , but we didn’t stop talking , nothing changed between us , after going to college we started getting drunk and smoking up , it was all new and we all did it almost everyday in first year , it was pretty fun . The guy I was with that time , didn’t really smoke up that much , he got drunk but he didn’t smoke pot that much , but the rest of us gathered everyday to smoke pot and play carrom . We both even meet at night to just smoke up and listen to music . At the end of the first year , one day he called me one evening and told me that he wanted to meet me , he sounded very low , I was with my my boyfriend and his friends that time but I left there immediately,booked an auto and Met him at a usual place near an IT park , we drink coffee and smoke cigarettes there usually.he was already there when I went in , he saw me and smiled but that looked very sad , he told me that his girlfriend kissed someone , a distant cousin of her actually , she kissed him in a moment and texted her girlfriend about it , she mentioned that she regrets it very much , I can’t stand it , I don’t know what to do , I feel nauseous, stuff like that . He showed the screenshots , he didn’t talk much he just smiled but that killed me . I was so angry on her , I didn’t even know what to do to make him feel better at that moment, I said she is not worth it , don’t worry , things like that . He didn’t talk about it after that , he changed the topic and he just sat there for 30-40 mins just smoking thinking about something. We speak almost daily and I know everything about him , he told me when they first had sex , we speak about everything, just not anything sexual to each other , when I saw him like this , I was feeling only rage , I was so angry on her , I don’t understand why she kissed some other guy , after getting into that relationship he was very loyal , I know how loyal he was , he even got a tattoo of her initials , but when he knew about this kiss , it made him so sad I guess . After 2 hours , we went home . I called her as soon as I went home , i scolded her so much , she started crying and told me that it was a mistake, she sounded very regretful too , she cried so much , I couldn’t bring myself to be mean after that .but that night i couldn’t sleep , my ex called me all night but I didn’t pick his call , I kept texting him , we used to text in Snapchat daily , I kept sending him texts and he texted me back to , he said he is going to get drunk and pass out , I also felt that’s better , after some days she even cut her hand , like scratches with knife on wrists , she was very regretful too , then somehow they didn’t break up , he wanted to after that but she didn’t let him , but gradually it got ok , but after this we started to speak and meet more frequently than before , I started to drop him in my college , both of our colleges are in same road , we started going in one vehicle daily. Mostly I drove , we speak all the time about nothing , even when we were going on my scooty , we just make fun of people in road , we laughed , had fun . One day he even pressed my breasts accidentally, side of my breast . I started neglecting my ex , that guy I dated that time , after few months , people started to notice , but still we didn’t care . (I actually come off from a well doing family , my family has enough money but my parents have a very unsuccessful marriage, they don’t even speak to each other , I have a younger sister and elder sister . My elder sister is married , my younger sister difference is 3 years . My parents doesn’t speak to each other , my mom openly says that they are together only for the kids . ) I loved being with him , he made me feel safe , comfortable and it’s always warm when I’m with him . We smoked pot all the time though , it was so fun , we even bunked college went to room and just smoked pot and watched anime all day . One day my ex boyfriend and his friends were in Ooty and they wanted me to come , I said I’ll come with him , I can’t come alone , and I asked him to come . We rolled some joints and started to go in his bike , we went a beautiful ride , stopped and smoked up in between, after we reached there I went with my ex boyfriend. We all smoked up that night got drunk , he usually doesn’t talk that much , but all of us were drunk and it was chill , some of my friends like him some don’t , but it’s all chill . We stayed in a tent stay there , that night I was with my ex , he wanted to make out , we kissed and did some stuff but I just felt restless and distracted, I kept thinking about him and my ex was a drunk too , it didn’t turn me on , after some time he passed out . I went out and went to his tent to see him if he is asleep , but he wasn’t there , then I started to look for him and I found him near the fire place , he was smoking up there alone with a phone in his hand , he was just singing this song 7 years by Lucas I think , he was singing along with a joint in his hand , he saw me coming , smiled but he didn’t stop singing, I can see him feeling even little embarrassed, but he looked so happy and free . I sat down there started to smoke up with him . After sometime I asked him why haven’t even kissed even once , I just asked him in a fun way but he got all serious all of a sudden , he saw me straight in the eyes and told me that he would love to kiss me , I literally felt butterflies in my lower tummy , my hips felt all tight too , idk , I still remember everything though . I kissed him in an instant, I kinda rushed in and kissed him, it felt magical . We kissed for a long time , we just kissed , nothing else . But I loved it , after sometime we separated, he saw me smiled and said I tasted sweet and bitter with weed taste . But my heart was beating so fast that time , I wanted to make out with him right there , I’ve felt horny before but he was the only guy made me feel like this , I tried to kiss him again but he stopped me and told me im drunk and asked me to go sleep . Next morning they asked me to go with them but my mind was fully on that kiss , I came back to cbe in his bike , we didn’t talk anything for the first time I just hugged him on the way back , it was nice too . I thought about plans to break up with my ex , after he dropped me home I kept thinking about the kiss , things got normal after a few days , we were like before but we started to flirt a bit , I started to call him baby and it gradually became very intimate . One day in a movie I kissed him again and he kissed me back too , we started making out bit by bit , it developed into a place where he started to grope me while im driving , I enjoyed every bit of that , I broke up with that guy I was with but he was still with that girl . Around final year first semester end they broke up too . We had intercourse the next day , it was amazing , I loved everything about him and the best thing is he is my best friend too . We rented a place for us by college end , we had sex every single day , it was the best , I loved staying with him . After this there was covid and we had to stay in our place , for one whole year I lived with him happily, he never let me down even once , he was already very caring from beginning but after we got committed , he really did treated me like a princess . He didn’t speak much but his actions were most considerate , we both worked remotely and having the time of our life , two years went by , I was happy and fullfilled , at the end of third year he quit his job and tried to get a different better job with extra good pay , 3 months passed by , one day few friends of mine from my work visited our place , they told me about opportunity to work in chennai for a month , I took it and went to chennai for a month , he dropped me to bus and sent me off to chennai . We spoke daily but not that much , I went out with my friends daily got drunk , just having fun . Some of my friends think my boyfriend is beneath me , one even said that I deserve better , she said he didn’t even get a job in three months joked and asked me whether I am the one who’s paying rent , actually he never asked me rent or money , he always paid for everything , but that time when they were joking I didn’t defend him , I still couldn’t believe that I didn’t say anything . In that week I met a guy , he came with my friends , he flirted with me when I was there , after I went back to PG I got a text from this guy , he got my number from my friends it seems . After some texts I responded and we started texting ,i liked the attention I think idk , I was talking to my boyfriend daily too , but somehow he noticed that I am not ok , he asked me about it and I said it was work issue and I am tired , 3^rd weekend I met that guy alone , he wanted to have a drink and I went , I slept with him that night , to be honest the sex wasn’t good , when he got inside me I felt darkness , I swear . Idk why I did it , after sex that guy slept in a second , I saw him lying down and I felt like killing myself , I left to my pg in midnight , I booked a cab and went back . I saw my snap notifications from him but I couldn’t open it , I blocked that guy’s number , I went to pg , cried myself to sleep . Next morning I spoke to my boyfriend , told him that I got cold and resting today , he told me that he got a job as a business manager for a US IT firm , he sounded so happy and told me that he called yesterday night to tell me this . I was crying so hard when he was on the phone , at that moment I swear I even fogot the face of that I slept with , he asked me to get rest and I hung up . I couldn’t talk to him , I felt so guilty and ashamed , as I was thinking this I get a notification my swiggy that he placed order to my pg , he bought soup . I broke down , it was like everything is telling me how big mistake I made , suddenly my thought went to that day he told me about his ex’s kiss , I can see that sad smile . I decided not to tell him and love him more and more , he had his birthday in 15 days I wanted to do something for him . When I came back from chennai , he picked me , he was so happy to see me , he spoke about his new job to me on the way , he was like a child , maybe cause he missed me for a month , I can see that he is so happy like silly child just to see me , after going home I had sex with him , I even rimmed him and I kinda liked it , it was the best sex we had , I felt alive and also very guilty . I treated him better and better to ease my guilt , but this made him very happy , I arranged a small party with my sister ,his friends and my mom .the day before his birthday we got drunk he asked me why I am not being adamant like before , ‘enna kadhal ha ‘ (joking sayin I am so in love) he joked about how afetr five years we can get super rich and start a family , I melted hearing all this .i promised myself that I will never let him down . but ha ha This is why I think karma is a bitch , at the noon of his birthday I got a text from that guy saying that he is thinking about that night . He heard the notification took the phone to pass it to me , he just saw the phone simply , just a glance and he just stopped and opened the text , I was blowing up balloons opposite of him , I saw his face and my heart sank , he came closer and gave me the phone , he didn’t speak anything , I opened my phone in a panic , saw the text and I saw him , he asked me ‘ so you slept with some guy ? ‘ , I didn’t reply , my whole mind got blank , I felt like I was gonna faint , he just saw me and said why . Of all these years I knew him I never saw him cry , but now his voice was shaking , he just asked me ‘ yen ‘ (why in tamil) . I saw tears on his eyes , I can see his eyes becoming lifeless in a matter of minutes , I tried to hug him but he just moved away , no matter how much we fight , when I hug him , he gets all cute and lovely , but he just moved away in an instinct . He then came forward hugged me tightly , he said ‘ sorry ‘ . I still don’t know why he said sorry , but that sounded so weak to me , he is my everything and I hurt him , I know everything about him and I still fucked up . He hugged me for some more time , I knew this warmth might be the last thing . After few mins , he rubbed his eyes in my dress , saw me smiled the same way . But it felt more like he is laughing at himself , I watched my 6 ft man walking out of the room , I just stood there alone , and I felt very cold , I remember that cold everyday , evening people came for the party and he got ready and cut the cake , fed me the first piece , my mom and sister was there too , he behaved very good , spoke with my family , but I can see that he is broke , but he still made it through the night , I went to speak with him that night , but he said he can’t . he said ‘ please I can’t ‘ . I choked hearing his voice , he went to terrace , I didn’t sleep at all that night , I walked around our little one bhk apartment , I smoked two packs of cigs that night , I went to check on him in the terrace by 4 , he was sleeping there on the floor , he hugs himself in sleep and its so cold , I cried watching him , just one day ago he was being silly like a kid talking about future family , now he is there alone , heartbroken . Morning usually he makes coffee and rolls one , I made coffee and rolled one , waited for him to come down . He came down saw me and smiled , but its not the cheerful smile , it just hurt so bad watching him like that , he drank the coffee , smoked up with me , even told me its good. Then he got ready , I cooked but he said he can’t eat , he is not hungry , that morning was so silent , he cheers up with he sees me , he was my biggest fan , now he left home with just saying bye . I got a text from him that aftrn asking me to move back to my mom’s if possible , I was dead . I couldn’t say no , I hurt him , he didn’t even scold me , he even requested me , I can only say yes . I asked him that I want to stay one more night , he said ok like always . That night I asked him to cuddle with me , he said ok , he wanted that too it seems , we just hugged in silent , he slept off quickly , he always told me that when I sleep with him it makes him stressfree and he gets a good night sleep . He was asleep on my breasts , I saw him sleeping and I couldn’t stop my tears , realising that this is the last time , I made a stupid mistake , but everything felt unimportant now , I saw him sleeping and I kissed him on his cheek , must have whispered sorry a 100 times , our four years relationship came through my mind , I realize that he made sure I was happy in every way he knew , I proposed him , I made him fall for me , now I broke his heart . I didb’t sleep that night too , morning I dozed off , when I woke up he wasn’t there, he made juice for me and left for work . I packed some of my stuff and went to my mom’s . when I stepped out of our little home , I broke down and cried . I went home and cried , I told my mom we fought , but my sister knew something was up , she tried to ask him but he said it was a small fight , I confessed to her that night , I still remember seeing her confused look , she is a gen z kid , but even she gave me a look of confusion , she didn’t understand how I could do that , she liked my boyfriend very much , she was almost proud of him . But when she knew I cheated on him , she felt disgusted I think . Our sister bind kind of broke too that night . My life was dull , I missed him every second , I missed talking to him , I missed his smell , everything . I just focused on work , two months went by with no contact . I saw him near IT park at our spot one day, he looked like he was sick , he lost weight , his eyes are dry , he looked so pale . I saw him from a distance and I couldn’t believe my eyes , my baby looked so weak and sick , he was having a coffe and smoking a cig alone at the place we used to sit . My eyes teared up watching him , he looked so lonely . None of my friends knew we broke up because I cheated , he specifically asked me not to say anything to anyone . I didn’t speak to him that day , I couldn’t . I was full with guilt . After going home I called his friends and asked how he was and they said that they lost all contact with him and he is ghosting everybody . I broke him and also made him alone , I seriously considered killing myself but I was a coward . After a month , when I was in office , my mom got a diabities issue and fainted , my sister called him in a hurry , he came immediatiely and admitted mom in hospital , when I came there I saw him with a plastic cover with insulins for my mom . After my elder siter came , he left , he asked me to call with updates . Before leaving he asked me why I cheated , he said “ is it because I am not satisfying you “ or “ you wanted a emotial support “. when he said that , I just stood there , I can see his face , hiding a humiliation , I never had a sex issue with him , I loved being with him , but my baby asked me this , I felt ashamed . I couldn’t face him , I just stood there , he said never mind and left . I stood there seeing him leave ,but I didn’t give up , I started texting and snapping so much and somehow I made him talk to me normally , but his eyes has lost its color, he looks like he is tired of everything . After few days we both got drunk and alone , I kissed him as soon as I got the chance , he kissed me back too , usually when he kisses , he hold me ears , looks me in the eyes and kiss me , he did the same out of the habit , as soon as our eyes locked , he bursted out in tears , I truly felt how much this man loved me and how much I hurt him , he wanted to do more but he stopped himself , when he burst into tears, my heart completely broke , I hate myself so much , I hate my friends for fucking up my mind , I hate that guy . My man is gettting punished for giving everything to me , its been a year , he changed , he looks lean , unhealthy , I even think his hair is falling , almost like a zombie . I would glady kill myself for him , I just want him to be happy , I destroyed the only person I love , I see how devastating this can get for him, he looks so weak , I can’r accept it . I should’ve defended him when they joked about him . Its all my fault , its been a year and I still can;t go back to him , I can’t imagine another guy to raise my kids , I want him . Help me .

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we've been together just over 10 months. Over that time some odd things have happened which made me question my trust in her and I like her but have been slightly wary of her since. I've been staying with her at her apartment for the past couple months or so and lately nothing too weird has happened and she seemed to be much better overall. But she recently asked if I wanted to move in and I just felt like I wasn't ready for that kind of commitment at this point as I was still trying to regain her trust and wasn't fully over some of the stuff that happened, and so I ended things. She is completely heartbroken, says she's in love with me and wants me in her life. And I question whether I made the right choice and whether I overreacted to some of the stuff the has happened.
I wanted to write out all the situations but the post got way too long too quick. But one of the bigger incidents was once (before I was staying there consistently) we were texting throughout the day and then suddenly she stopped replying, And I didn't hear from her for the rest of the day. I tried again the next morning and then finally she replied that afternoon but it was a very short response that's very unlike her. Then that night she texted saying a guy had gotten stabbed outside of her apartment while trying to help her with something. So she brought him up to her apt and tended to his wounds and had him stay the night there (she says he stayed out on the couch). I didn't know what was going on and was a little bit angry as well and then she called me. She acted like it was no big deal but she could tell in my voice I was not in a good mood (I was trying to figure out what was happening) and she said I was being rude and hung up on me, and also said the guy had left.
She called again moments later (or I did I can't remember) and there was some guy talking in the background who I thought was one of her roommates but she said it was the guy. I said "I thought he left," she said "he came back." I didn't know what to say and then she's like "ooooh you got real quiet" in a mocking type way. The guy is super drunk and she's pretty drunk too I think. They were both being a little disrespectful to me and he mentioned how they played cards together the night before (something that was a thing her and I had started doing together recently which I really enjoyed) and they mentioned they were going to play a game this night too. He was telling jokes and in one of them mentioned the town and street I live on which was really weird. Also mentioned at one point that his son or sons came over as well (I think to check on him but also it sounded like they hung out for a bit too).
It seemed like he was going to stay the night again. I didn't know what to do but my instincts were going wild and while it was late and I had to go to work early and it's like a 35 min drive to where she lives, I said I was coming. We also facetimed and the dude was chilling laying back on her bed. I stayed on the phone the whole way there. Once I said I was coming she got a little quiet and the guy started acting nervous and at one point said "you didn't mention you had a boyfriend" (she says she did mention it) and "at least we didn't have sex". He kept saying he's got to go but she said stay and meet my boyfriend. I get there and they're in her room with beer cans and tobacco everywhere and then he leaves. She said to him "you can stay but we are taking the bed," (she may have said "room" but I'm pretty sure she said bed) which shouldn't that go unmentioned?? Once he was gone she's like "are you breaking up with me?" I wanted to in that moment but I pictured her just calling up that guy and having him come back if I did right then plus I was still in shock as to what just happened so said "no."
We talked a little about it in the following days and she knew I was not happy with what happened but we didn't have any huge in-depth discussion about it. Since that day she makes random comments here and there like "you're the only guy I want in my room," or "you're the only guy who would be anywhere near my bed" little comments like that in conversation.
There was a point where she was trying to get off of a certain medication, without a doctors help and was struggling with it big time and acting extra crazy due to it and I can't remember if this was during that time or not, but either way it's a bit messed up right? And even though she's been way better lately, I can't help but still be disgusted by this.
There are a few more incidents in the past I'd like to share but this one's probably the worst. And it's too bad because she seems to have changed for the better lately now that she's getting proper medication and whatnot from a doctor but not enough time has passed to where I have regained my trust on her and not think of incidents like this.

If you're here from my newest post on breakups thank you for caring first of all. and second, here's the post from a day or two after the breakup. also might be all over the place. sorry in advance lol.
01.24.24.
Hi, I never post on reddit, (in fact I just made this account for this post) but after thinking a lot and watching a lot of smosh's reading reddit stories, I think this might be the best place to get advice about this, given how specific it is lol.
Anyway, I'll just get started. I (18M) met my gf (17F) about 5 months ago online, a couple months after a rough breakup. Weirdly, she had just got over a break up too. After talking almost everyday for about a month, we decided to officially start dating.
I didn't wanna move on yet, but she completely changed my mind. She's the best. The absolute sweetest person in the world. I was so so in love with her. She was perfect. We called almost every night, texted all day while we were at school. I've always had mental health issues since I was 14. Most prominently, severe anxiety inherited from my father. Along with disorders like OCD and ADHD. But she completely cleared the fog in my mind. Everytime we texted, called, played a game together, or even just seeing her face on my wallpaper, it calmed me down. She was my safe place.
I can go on for hours and hours about this girl, you can ask more questions in the comments if you want but basically, she was perfect, and I believe she's my soulmate. Everything fell into place just for us to meet, which makes me think it was meant to be. Anyway, I'll just get to the point of this post.
It is Wednesday, January 24th. And on Saturday, January 20th, she texted me a long message saying she thinks we should break up. The whole idea was that she's never been quite sure about her sexuality. She always identified as Bisexual, but she thinks she might be a lesbian. As much as it hurt, especially with how sudden it was (we were telling one another how much we loved each other just the night before and she even posted a picture with a filter that said "I ❤️ my bf"). Everything felt like it was going amazingly, the best it's ever been. Then she dropped the bomb.
The first night and the whole next day, I was crushed. I don't cry often (not that I'm one to bottle up, it just never happens) but I cried hysterically. The most I've ever cried in my life, tied with when my childhood dog passed. My love, my happiness, my everything was gone.
Although, on Sunday, she said we should block each other as it would make it harder for both of us if we saw each other on our feeds. Which I agreed with, but I suggested we just unfollow instead of block. Due to her concerns that she might come to the conclusion that she's not gay after this journey she's taking. I love her, and told her I'll support her and her journey of self-searching. And if she never needs anything, I'll be here. She talked through everything with me to help me process it. It gave me clarity and made the following days easier. But I still miss her so much.
I love that she's so motivated to go out and find herself. I'm so proud of her. But I can't lie and say it doesn't hurt. Obviously, if she never told me, she would've been lying to herself and me. I know that. So I'm just accepting it right now. But this is where my head starts to get complicated.
I know it might sound naive because we're still so young. But I really think we're soulmates, and I don't think this is the end of us. It just doesn't feel right, and like it has to resolve in some way. I'm willing to do what it takes to get her back. I'm willing to wait months and months for her to maybe come back around. But is that wrong?
Everything I've heard is saying you shouldn't wait for them to come back. But she's going on a journey of self discovery, so I shouldn't push it right? I should wait for her to find out if she really is gay. And let her come to me when she finds out.
My biggest fear is that she'll wanna come back but she'll be too scared to reach out after she broke my heart. I know her and she's very considerate and sweet. This is something she would do, she's done similar things like this (obviously on a smaller scale).
But this raises even more questions. What if I wait too long and she ends up moving on? What if I wait for a year and she never even texts me? Idk what to do. I just want some guidance. Cause I'm kinda stuck.
If you read this heartbroken teenagers mind being spilled onto this random reddit post, thank you. Any advice is appreciated. And I'll answer any questions you have in the comments. <3

3 days ago i found out my (now ex) boyfriend had a second account on here dedicated to porn. During my awful discovery, I came across messages as well that offered women to pay for their online services such as facetime, videos and pictures. I didnt even mean to find this out, he gave me access to his computer for whatever it is that i needed because we lived together and sometimes i just liked playing on his PC. So when my bestfriend facetimed me to ask if i could help her create a feetfinder account i gladly looked up some examples and decided to look on his computer where i came across a redd post of some girl promoting her account and thats when my nosy ass decided to look around for more and hit the search bar and then found everything.
When he was on his way home he called me and thats when he found out i packed and was moving back home. During one of the phone calls where he was panicking trying to get me to stay he said that the reason he did it was because i masturbated and used my rose toy. To which i feel i have to be VERY clear. I never watched porn and I only ever used it because he didnt have time in the morning before he left for work or we never had the energy to do it bc we were tired after work or because he just didnt want to sometimes. And sometimes sex to me was to much for me.
Every day since i broke things off and moved out (same day) he’s been begging for me to give him a chance to talk and get things off his chest. As well as saying EVERYTHING ive ever wanted to hear during our relationship. And i keep wanting to just tell him how much i love him and how much i want him back. But i know that if i do he wont ever respect my boundaries bc it just goes to show he’s more than welcome to walk all over me the way he has been. :/
Ive been feeling very depressed and just want to lay in bed and rot all day. But im not and i feel like im losing my mind!!
I just wish none of this had ever happened.

So I started dating a girl I’ve known since I was 12 years old. We are both Christians. After we dated about 6 months she Ghosted me. Keep in mind we were talking about getting married. About a month after we broke up she text me. We never talked about what happened because I didn’t want to upset her. We finally stop talking because I told her I couldn’t get over her. She told me to get over it & to have a nice life. I was destroyed. I had never loved anyone that much.
During this time I prayed & I continue to pray about it. God told me to be patient with her & to trust him. I saw her on Facebook I messaged her & we have talked every day since then. 5 months. She messages me every single morning and says good morning. Somedays we message all day & some days she calls me.
I finally told her I was still in love with her. I told her what God said & she told me to do what he said. I never text, message, or call her first. I just reciprocate.
We finally talked about what happened between us & she said she was broken & didn’t know how to handle the situation.
I pray for guidance & for God to show me if she the one for me. Show me if she belongs in my life. I recently started surrendering it to God. I just need some prayer because I want to be obedient. If you don’t have anything positive to say please just scroll on. Thanks

My husband (24M) and I (27F) got Islamically married over 1 year ago. I had just reverted to Islam a month before we married, but we were dating for a year prior. So in total, we have been a couple for 2 years.
I am due to have my baby in 2 weeks... Yesterday I caught my husband texting another woman. He was sexually unfaithful before but swore not to repeat this. So to find out that he was messaging another woman was devastating.
He doesn't want to attend counseling, talk to his parents or speak to an Imam. His only two options were for him to remain 'unhappy' or to divorce. I can't raise a child in a family where one side doesn't want to be there. He will eventually cheat again, if that is the case.
So that leaves divorce. I don't want to but this is what he has been leading up to. He feels like his dignity is gone since the first infidelity and that I am the problem. He is choosing to look at all the negatives and not see the progress or positives.
Has anyone been through this before? I feel so alone and frightened.

My (25f)ldr boyfriend(29) lives with his mom and brother and his brother is throwing a party tn… he hasn’t texted me much in the evening and idk if he ended up partying too..we talked around noon (his 7pm ) when he was helping his brother set up..the other day he said he’d probably be in his room the whole time.
He’s a very good bf and very sweet, just not a good communicator, so idk why I’m nervous, but we’ve been apart for about 2 months now and I don’t want him to get bored even though he told me he never cheated.. he recently moved out of the country and I’m about to move to be with him in a month..is this an unnecessary reason to be anxious?

I’ll keep this as short as possible. I was with my now ex boyfriend for 3 years (broke up 10 days ago). We’re both late 30s, he’s close to 40. I never understood his behavior until the final straw that ended things.
He would get so pissed off with me. Storm out of the house and not talk to me for a day to two. At first, I was appalled. I thought something bad had happened to him. I didn’t hear from him for like a day in a half. I had no idea what was wrong. I was always trying to figure out “what I did wrong”. I would go back and comb through every last conversation we had. I would call, text, and he would never answer when he was stonewalling me. I would be shaking, crying, wondering why??? Then he would come around and act like everything was fine. I told him time and time again this was a deal breaker for me. But of course, I kept letting it happen.
Now, it wouldn’t happen every day, or week, or month. Maybe once a month, or we would go months without him having a tantrum. What broke us was a little over a month ago he “set me up” to see what I would do in a situation. I didn’t live up to his expectations and he stormed out on me. I said in my head…it’s over. I didn’t hear from him the rest of the day, the next day, and then finally the next morning he called. He came over to talk and emotionally destroyed me. Made me feel so ashamed of who I was as a person. Picked out all the things that he couldn’t stand anymore in our relationship. He does everything for me, I do nothing. Please go read my last post.
I tried to end things but we went in circles and his manipulative behavior held me in place. “Our relationship is almost perfect expect for when this happens” “I swear I want to change” “look at everyone around us, they are in toxic relationships” “every couple argues!!”
It’s finally over and I am sad. I do love him, and miss him. We did have a great connection and love for each other but how can I go on in a relationship with someone who emotionally is immature, and abusive?! It’s hard, but I’m hanging in there.

So I've tried streaming before, to help out friends on their streams, but mostly just there to join in a game, so I'm still not fully sure what's what. I wanted to say that much so it's known I know at least to use OBS and link it to the account I'm streaming with and whatnot.
My first questions have to do with chat. How do I interact with chat if I only have one screen? I don't want to risk things like clicking outside the game window or lowering gameplay resolution to see the chat while playing, but I don't want to ignore chat. Some friends suggested keeping my phone open and on chat, but I didn't know if there's another way to keep it on my screen like overlaying my game or something.
Second, still regarding chat, is how do I improve at speaking to chat? Not just responding (I know to read the message then respond), but also speaking while playing when not responding to chat. I'm typically a quiet person who only speaks to respond or if I'm in a conversation with someone, so it's rather tricky for me to get used to just talking at people listening. I'm also worried I might not talk enough while playing.
Third, how long should I be streaming per stream, on average? I often have trouble just sitting and watching so I don't see how long one normally goes for, and I don't want to end up way too short or way too long.
Lastly, if I'm playing a game like Overwatch and someone says something in text or voice chat in-game (like a slur), will I get punished on twitch for that?

Some context here, the project I’m referring to is a game, and I’m managing everything in a discord server. I met my friend, we’ll call him Aaron, in another game making server. After the game making server we met in basically died, I decided to start my own project, moving all the active developers moving into my server. Aaron used to work in npc development, but only in basic ideas and characters, none with depth; that is why I was apprehensive to make him a developer.
So, today, I asked him if he wanted to join in as a developer in my server, and he immediately agreed. I first off asked Aaron what role he wanted to play in this, and he answered saying, “Character designer and lore guy (I can help with that stuff and handle loose ends).” I asked him if he had any past experience with in-depth lore and/or had any works he could present to show his skills. It was just some basic questions, and he responded with a summary of one of the characters he made. I asked him a few questions, and managed to discover several plot holes that just didn’t make sense. First off, his character had a bird form, and he made it the California Condor, despite the character being native to the icy mountains. Second of all, in the description for the appearance of his character, he said, “bird form is just stolas if he was a commoner, or something,” and, “human form is just a tall guy, still similar to stolas,” and that was it. There was nothing else, and mind you, this was one of the characters he was very proud of.
I didn’t know what to do, and did not want to hurt his feelings, but the backstory already had several plot holes, excluding the one I mentioned, and he just didn’t know how to design a create an in depth character. After he read my messages and understood that I was hesitant to hire him, he went into private dms and sent me this message, “why u being harsh.” It’s obvious he has no actual grasp in grammar nor punctuation, and his text was just under my basic standards. He is still mad at me, and I still offered him a job, only if he did better, but he has not responded yet. AITA for not really wanting to hire him and being this rude?

okay this just happened and I may be over thinking. one of my closest freinds is a performance art student (I'm an art student) and its final week for both of us. All my course work was due at 9 am on Monday so I was up till 4am making sure everything was perfect. I decided to not go into college on the Monday because I was knackered. my freind texted me asking "u coming today" and I just replied no. I'm usually a pretty dry texter and I thought she was just asking ab college so I didn't think too much I went back to sleep. I didn't realise until 10 PM THAT NIGHT that her final performance was today. I'd been promising to go see it for months and was genuinely so excited. I feel like shit for forgetting and she just replied back "ok". she never texts that dryly. I sent so many messages apologising but she responded dryly again. if I was her I'd be so furious like our work means the world to both of us and I just forgot like that. I don't know how to make it better

I've got a YouTube channel that's going on 4 years in the making this year, and I've got 217 subscribers, and almost 400 videos between shorts and long form videos. I've been gaining about 1 subscriber a day on average for the past month, and I continue to make shorts of the successful battles I have in Pokemon romhacks and Pokemon games. I started doing Pokemon Solo runs in long form videos of all gym battles and elite four and champion battles back in 2020, but they didn't get many views, maybe 50-100 or so views. I stopped doing that until this year, and I should've kept doing what I did in 2020, but now I do long form videos of each Gym Leader battle with failed attempts and the successful battle, but for right now only in Pokemon Blue Kaizo.
I do plan on wrapping up my Solo Starmie run in Pokemon Blue Kaizo, and I plan on tackling Pokemon Crystal for some Solo runs to show successful runs instead of failed run after failed run in Pokemon Blue Kaizo.
I do make my own thumbmails, however I'm on a Nokia G50 android phone, and I can't seem to make the good thumbnails many of the other Pokemon Solo run tubers make, mainly because I can never tell if the Pokemon image will fit into the YouTube Studios thumbnail size until I upload it into the app, and usually you can't see the whole Pokemon.
I use the Meme Generator to add text to the thumbnail, telling of the Pokemon game I'm playing, the Pokemon I'm using with the word "Solo" so everyone knows it's a Solo run (I've had to say this in the #shorts videos because so many people keep saying I'm overleveled, now the comments are better), and the Gym Leader or Rival number I'm facing.
For example, I'll have a Long Form video titled "Pokemon Blue Kaizo: Solo Starmie (Part 1) - Brock" Simple, right? I also have that in the thumbnail with a picture of Starmie, so you know what to expect in the part. Then I make a #shorts video of the battle, and if the battle takes over a minute, I do 60 seconds of the end of the battle, then link the full video in the Related Video.
One of my shorts videos did pretty well, 225+ views and 110.9% average viewed, although those amount of views are pretty low, but much better than my long form videos, although they're now doing better after being linked as the Related Video.
I heard look at the metrics, so I think I'll start doing that, although many of my long form videos are getting more views than before, mainly because I stopped making 30+ minutes videos and just show the important battles in the Solo runs, and then I put the long form videos in the Related Video of the Shorts videos I make, so perhaps I'm going in the right direction?
Sorry for my very long message, I'm not really good at just making it short, sweet, and to the point. I know of quite a few people on YouTube that do Solo runs (Gym Leader Matt, JRose11, Mah Dry Bread, RBY Challenges, Squidgy, Scott's Thoughts, etc.) I want to one day do YouTube full time, although this might not be that good of a niche to do that, I'd at least love to make some extra income on my YouTube channel. I want to get monetized by 2025, so any helpful feedback would be highy appreciated!

Hello Everyone. This is 100% a true story.
I thought this would be a good story to share here as it deals with getting petty revenge on someone who was being transphobic and a horrible person. This is a long story but the ending is worth it.
This story takes place back in 2020 and was just reminded of it by one of my best Friends lets call her "Hannah". Hannah and I had a mutual friend, lets call him Zack. I at the time was just starting to come out as trans. This plays a part later.
Zack and I were friends after I meet him throw an EX, the EX was a good man but I am the type of person that does not do well being friends with EXs but was trying because this EX was a good person. This in the end also I keep talking to Zack and at time thought he was a good guy.
Anyway it was late in fall when Zack brought up moving into together due to I was having a hard time with my family and only had a dorm to live in. During this time he also brought up that he had a friend, Hannah, that was also looking for a place to live as her home life was not great either. I said I would have to her first before I said yes to anything. Hannah was on the same page as me and wanted to meet me first too.
So one day Invited them both over to the dorm I was living in, as if anything went wrong the College I was at had great police (had meet many of them during the time I was at college) this made me feel safer meeting new people. Hannah and Zack came over and me and Hannah hit it off well to the point you would have thought we had been friends for years. There were many times her and I would hang out without Zack, which he never liked. Red flag right there. Due to this I started to see the cracks in Zack's shell.
He was very passive of Hannah to almost boyfriend level. Which got worries after I came out as Transgender. Red flag number 2. He would also try to one up me and say things underhanded about me being trans. Now I am a huge werewolf geek and the underhanded things would be like "I will never be an alpha" or shit like that. Now I never called myself an alpha or anything like that. He also said that I would never have a man's mindsight. I never told Hannah any of this because I wanted to stay her friend and do to my trust problems thought she would take his side so that is all my fault.
One night I was talking to Hannah not sharing everything but told her Zack was pissing me off. She had known him longer then I did. She said that it could be do to his religious background and that could be why he was being a ass. That is when she opened up to me about something.
Turned out they where Friends with benefits. Zack was always wanting to make things more then that but Hannah had been hurt bad by an EX, like almost killed. So she did not trust getting back into any relationship. But felt she was safe with him and thought of slowly building up to a relationship. However she also spilled all the tea on him in bed, and I mean all the TEA!
So lets jump forward a few months to Hannah's Birthday. Zack wanted to host it the first night and then she would spend the next night with me. Hannah was going a hard time with family during this time so we planned a Birthday weekend for her. Turns out Zack invited her over for night before so she would be over one night without me so they could be the Birthday *GIGGITYY*. Well as many people know there is something that happens to most women once a month. Yes, Hannah was on her period. To her defense she did not know what Zack was planning for the night she thought he was just being nice because she got into a fight with her family.
So the next day comes around and they pick me up as I did not have a car. Everything seemed off as Hannah's mood was not normal. I wanted to ask what was up but also thought it was because of the fight with her family so I just wanted to make her happy. The day goes on and we are playing her fav video game. She went to bed early which I thought was odd as the two of us are night owls. I asked Zack what was going on. He said nothing but I could tell he was lying but dropped it.
The next day we get to mail in our city as planned and well Zack was doing something and it was just Hannah and I alone. That is when she told me what was going on between them. Apparently Zack was mad because Hannah did not SLEEP with her the night before I showed up. I was pissed, but then she keep going and he keep pushing and begging for it. to the point that when she said she was on her period he just said "THEY COULD PUT A TOWEL DOWN".
That was it for me I was done playing nice to Zack and started to think of ways to tell him how much of a pig he was. I am the type of person where three stracks your out. Hannah and I are huge nerds and you could say she is some where between punk and goth. So we told Zack we where going to Spencer's. Zack said he was going to go to another store as he hated this store. You see in the frount of Spencer's is a nerd, punk and goth best dream, as for the back of the store is full of sex toys and other adult themed things. Knowing this I told Hannah to pick out something she wanted for her birthday anything, and I would get it for her.
Well Hannah was looking at new pricings and wallets I headed to the back of the store to get some goodies for Zack. I payed for the stuff all without Hannah knowing. Best part the store has black bags that you can't see throw due to the things they sell. After I walked up to Hannah and I bought the things she wanted all to her protest. So she told me she would by lunch witch I agreed too because as friends we hate to feel like we are using each other even on holidays.
We left the store and went to the food court and ordered food. Once we sat down Hannah texted Zack where we were. That is when she looked at the large bag I had gotten and she asked me what I had gotten. I handed the bag and told her it was for Zack. The grin on her face was the best thing that I have seen. You see Hannah is also a very petty person and she very much approved of what I had gotten for Zack.
Zack showed up some time later and we planned to go back to his house so she could her car and her stuff to come to my place for the night. That is when the "gift" was given to Zack. I was putting Hannah's stuff in her car for her and wish I could have seen his face when he first opened bag.
You see when I am hurt I get petty but if you upset someone close to me I get PETTY. In the bag he found a large bag of candy and a few lollypop DICKS. But it gets better, I also got him a female blow up doll. There was also two cards. the first said "Congrats on your new girlfriend" which I signed alone and the other said "suck a mountain of dicks" which we both signed.
The next thing I know Hannah is walking out with the biggest grin on her face. With him storming after her when he saw me he said I was just mad that I would never be a "true man". Hannah turned on her heels but before she could do anything I yelled back "he would never be bigger then my pinky finger". He looked so mad and red. Hannah got in her car, we drove off and never looked back.
This may have been to far but I regret nothing.
Hannah says it was the best birthday gift anyone has ever gotten her due to his face he made when he saw all his new goodies. Hannah and I are still great friends to this day and know we have each others backs on anything.

My pop pop (the Verizon account owner) added me as an account manager over the phone today and Verizon confirmed it via text message to his phone. When I log in, I don’t see those changes yet. Could it take overnight for it to update?

Over the past few years ive found myself becoming more and more reclusive, to the point where other people interacting and taking an interest in my life is not only annoying but something i actually cannot understand. Ive been trying to think on why that is and it sent me down a rabbit hole which landed me at that title. Ive never really been a sad person, I dont have any glaring confidence issues, i like who i am as a person now more than ever, but still the idea someone would want to get to know me urks me to the point of irritation and it makes it really hard for me to actually form a connection anymore.
I started to explore why that is and began unravelling a web of past relationships that ended, either emotionally or physically, with me feeling abandoned. TL;DR for the next part if you dont feel like reading, lots of the people ive held most dear to me have checked out on me.
My parents checked out midway through my childhood after we fell on hard times, im the youngest of 4 siblings who all had other interests and so lost interest in me growing up, In school i always felt different from others and felt like theyd judge me for being myself, that is until i found my best friend who i felt i could be completely myself around. However later on as we were seperated (i went to Uni he didnt) the relationship became strained as he became jealous of my budding social life at university, we ended up falling out after he demanded i no longer mention my life at uni when we spoke. I made 2 very close friends at Uni who i would keep after graduation, one of whome i came to see as the closest thing to a sister id ever had (something i had always wanted growing up, we'll call her J), the other girl slowly lost interest in our friendship and it became toxic and forced over time, in the end i just stopped texting her first and we never spoke again.
J was the worst by far though, our freindship was at its peak and i genuinly felt like she would nothing to hurt me, i started to have night terrors and as such didnt like sharing beds with anyone out of fear i might hurt them, she was the one person i felt comfortable sharing with, she knew about the night terrors and didnt care, she once held me against her chest to soothe me (which was abit embarrassing lol). But then she got a boyfriend and slowly ghosted me for 6 months, i asked her if something was wrong, she told me no, ghosted me again for 3 months and then blocked me from everything so i couldnt contact her. No warning, no fight, no closure. Just gone.
Since then ive become more reclusive, i talk to less people, im far less open with those i do talk to. Whilest logically i tell myself that i shouldnt take these events as some intrinsic character fault on my part, emotionally I dont think i believe it. I think the reason other people trying to get to know me is becoming so irritating is because I dont think I deserve it, i keep asking why they would want to? Which dosnt make sense because I like myself, I think im a good person, i think im interesting, I think i have good qualities, but the idea that someone else might also see that dosnt compute. It feels like itll only be a matter of time before they lose interest as well.
Today when i asked myself if i felt i deserve love, or just positive relationships, i honestly could not answer in the affirmative, and I dont know what to do about that.

I was in an online relationship with someone and then found out they had a wife. They're now going through a divorce and the wife wants me to make a statement against her husband. He told me in our text conversations that in his early 20s he dated a girl that was 17 and he told me he had never told anyone else that. She keeps saying she wants me to make a statement about "the underage girls", which I only know of the above situation that was 20 years ago at this point, or at the very least that he was messaging me when he was supposed to be watching the kids as a stay at home dad. I believe she wants a statement from me because he is trying to get more money since he had been a stay at home dad for years. I don't want to be involved and I don't want to give them my full name. Can I even give her a statement without my name included? Should I just tell her to leave me out of it and block her or will that lead to issues?