So, English is not my first language even though I had studied it for years now, so, any grammatical error, please be excused. I also want to point out a few things up, this story is LONG, as it says on the title, we’ve been together for almost a decade, so there’s a lot of things to patch up, also, I’m not trying to paint him as the bad guy nor myself as the good guy, just trying to let it all out because there’s some details I cannot say to everyone I know, so it’s better for me to just talk about it with internet strangers, also, I don’t know if this place has a limit of characters, so if it has, it’s going to be some parts long.
So, to start this, I (27 F), broke things with my bf (26 M) Alan (Not his real name) after we’ve been together for little less than a decade because I was just so fed up with everything we lived together, not having the strength to even try and give this another go as he wanted us to. A year before meeting him on my last school year I was s*xually Ass*ulted by a man that I met on a park where I used to go dancing, not only that, but he made me believe that I was okay with what happened (I was sixteen and he was 21, here the age of consent is not until the 18th mark), he made me believed that I liked it, and made me believe that no one would ever believe me if I ever decided to report it, so I didn’t, but obviously it got me a pretty bad scar.
I met Alan one year later, his friend group was friends with my friend group, so in school we kinda merged together and he was a good guy, a great guy even, he always had something nice to say about me and he never blamed me for being scared of a group of people so anytime I wanted to buy something on the school market, he did it for me until he tried to make me come across my fear and was just behind me as I was approaching the big group gather on the market trying to make me feel confident enough to buy things by myself, after that we became closer and closer until one day I went with my friend group to recess with his friend group, but he wasn’t there, I asked one of his friends and he told me that he wasn’t feeling right and was still on the classroom, so off I went and looked up for him, we talked for a while and then he thank me for listening to him and not bug him with the “guys don’t cry”, that made us even more close to eachother and we started something, not a relationship, but a situationship from mid July to late November, when I graduated from school (He had one more year to go), on my celebration date, he asked me to be his girlfriend and I said yes, I made him meet my family shortly after and I met his.
He was a part-time gamer, and the first straw was that he believed that I would made him choose between his games or me, but no, I didn’t, even so, I asked him to teach me how to play so we could play together, I was not good, at all, but I was just glad to be on his hobbies, little did I know that would be one of the reasons I broke things off. We had fights and arguments because he was a competitive type of guy on this online games and, because I was bad at them, we usually lost games because of me, it took us a lot of work to find a solution, he had to put down some bars, because it was not healthy, also the first “or else” that he made me aware of, was when I told him that I needed him to express his emotions to me, but he took it as “Show emotions or I’m leaving you” which wasn’t the case, but worked up just fine.
Some years passed and… You remember what I told you about the year before meeting Alan? Well, we couldn’t get intimate in that way and I had to sit him and explained what happened, he was supportive and we didn’t do it after our four year mark, but again, he wasn’t as supportive as I recall, he usually push over it and only stopped moments before I got a flashback of what happened. But that one time that we did it, I remember it well, I started crying out of emotion because I finally overcame my fear, but after we finished, he stood up, we cleaned ourselves and he made me get ready because he didn’t want to be late to a friend’s birthday. Speaking of intimacy, he had a really big drive and I didn’t, but every time I tried to say “no”, he got all frustrated so I started initiating moments after I saw him like that so I could brush that feeling off of him, our intimacy was like that until just months before our breakup.
Now into another thing, I have always work, even when I was still at school, I’ve always worked to get my things, I’m not good at saving money, but I work my butt off, so when he started to gain interest on a particular expensive game, we usually used his mother credit card and the one paying it was me, he said that when he worked he bought things for us, but… This is the thing about it… He only worked 5-6 months in all of our relationship, sure, he went with his father some times to do some work, but he didn’t even saw that money because it went directly to a gaming console for himself, so in years that we’ve been together, he worked 5-6 months and the rest was payed from myself and he still took his time working as a sort of argument against me.
Now, one time, when I was on the university, a random classmate just suddenly kissed me and I was in shock, so in shock that I didn’t kissed him back, nor could I stop him, but when he went for a second one, I backed out and I went to my boyfriend crying because I thought I was cheating on him because someone kissed me and I explained every detail to him, but the guy dropped off from college, so I never saw him again and then, another day, I was in the subway and encounter my ex boyfriend while he was, actually, coming back home after his own studies, I ignored him for the most part, but he actually asked politely to let him talk to me, so we went to a public park and he actually just wanted to say sorry because he cheated on me with his ex girlfriend while he was with me, we didn’t do anything besides me listening to him and giving him the closure he was searching for, we did not stay in contact, I just said to him that it was not something that I keep on mind to this day, but if it made him feel better, I would accept his apology and then we parted ways, everything I did and said I made my boyfriend aware of and he was such in a panic that one of his friends actually went to his house and they talked shit about me because I dared to let my ex ask for my forgiveness. Those are the only two time that I recall I made him feel insecure, two times and that’s it and he wasn’t letting any of those things go any time we got into an argument.
I remember one time we actually parted ways for some days and I kissed a girl, a girl that I have liked for a very long time and only then I figured that she actually liked me back, but I was stupid enough to not go for her, and wait for this guy for us to get back together and I actually told him everything, I know I shouldn’t do it, because it would only made him feel like on the edge, but by that time I felt like it was better to come clean about everything, he knew everything about me, it was only fair that I keep it like that. But then he got jealous everything I said I was talking to her in a friendly way (he never was banned from looking into my phone) and now I understand that his jealousy was not that unfounded, because I kissed this girl while we were separated.
There was numerous times when I wanted to break things with him, but he always managed to made me come back to him, one time we were walking on the sidewalk and I told him how I felt and that I was thinking about breaking up, he got on the ground, took a piece of glass and tried to h*rm himself, but I stopped him and we never talked about it again. Another time I was home, not at work because I was injured and we had a phone fight, not breaking up, but making it subtle, then a couple hours after that I received another phone call from an Unknown number, telling me that he almost threw himself on the subway and, Injured as I was, I went to get him and Uber us to his home.
I had to make two limits for him, I didn’t want him to call me before checking if it was possible for me to talk on the phone, unless it was an emergency, of course. And that I didn’t want him to go to my home unannounced, because he did it too much and he did not respect those boundaries until there was yet another conversation about breaking up and just then, he stopped doing it. He also lied to me one time when he went to the bus stop at freaking 7 am with the excuse of “I just wanted to get some air” and the proceeded to talk to me all the way about his problems and follow me to my workplace, and then he had the audacity to get mad when I told him I couldn’t stay longer because I had to get to work, just when we finally broke off he came clean that he was, obviously, trying to get a hold of me and not “Trying to get some air” as he tried to make me believe. I even started to go to my destinations by other means because I was afraid I would encounter him in every corner that I usually go to.
One of my college friends started a relationship with one of his friends and now that we broke things off, neither of them talk to me, so I am not sure what sort of fairytale he told them in which, he obviously was not in the wrong at all.
I am not asking if I was the AH here, nor asking if I should talk to him again, I am pretty confident That I shouldn’t, I just wanted to vent, thanks for anyone who would read this loooooong story. Cheers.

hi everyone! looking for a little bit of advice here. For some context, I (26F) have been hanging out with a man (30) who I met through a mutual friend. We haven't been on any clarified "dates" but we have spent 1x1 time together, and there's clearly been some attraction. On Friday night, we got dinner together, which kind of happened by accident because some other friends bailed.
for context: He had expressed interest in me to our mutual friend, saying I was cute and wanting to ask me out (about a month ago). We also don't necessarily share a friend group, but we share one close mutual friend and he has shown interest and said he really likes my friend group and wants to hang out with them. He is also within the last year out of a 6 year relationship.
On friday, when we got dinner, he essentially told me that he thinks I'm really cute, and has such a great time with me, and enjoys my company/likes me but doesn't date within friend groups. I challenged him a little bit on this, saying that we are all adults, and that I think he should reconsider, because (I didn't say this but) I find it a bit silly to not pursue something due to a singular mutual friend and wanting to be friends with my established friend group. He agreed to think about it a little bit, but that dating within a friend group is a hard line for him. He then made it clear that we weren't currently on a date (which is fine by me). I really like him, I think he has the potential to be the kind of person that I see myself with, but I feel like his indecisiveness is really confusing. I want to give him some grace because he's just getting back into the dating game after a very long relationship.
Since Friday, he texted me Saturday morning saying he "had a great time last night at dinner" and has been in my instagram DMs a little bit, being supportive or showing interest in my interests. How do I handle this? Do I reach out after a few days and ask for more clarity? Or let him take the lead? I feel like I'm not sure how to proceed, but wanting some more clarity here.

OpenAI just announced GPT-4o, their new and improved flagship model for ChatGPT, and I'm betting that this is the model that Apple will integrate with Siri soon.
Here's why:

• It's VERY fast and now multimodal. It can "see" the world around you. Sam Altman (CEO of OpenAI) says it is the best interface he's ever used. He said, "It feels like AI from the movies," and he's not wrong. It's magic. You can ask it to look around you and solve math equations, offer outfit suggestions, help you figure out who and what you're looking at, and more. The demos that they showcased today during their livestream were magical.
• It can help you navigate the world and physical spaces. This is something that Meta, Humane, and Rabbit have been trying to do with their multi-modal devices (Ray-Ban Meta Smart Glasses, Humane AI Pin, Rabbit R1).
• It has improved memory and remembers context and details about you, what you do, and what you ask it to do. It's like having a deeply personalized personal assistant. Think Jarvis in Iron Man.
• It sounds NATURAL and, more importantly, reacts naturally. You can interrupt it mid-sentence, and it'll stop to listen to you, just like a real human. It's akin to the movie "Her". There's a reason they made the default voice sound like Scarlett Johansson.
• They've announced an exclusive MacOS app that integrates seamlessly into your workflow and allows you to upload screenshots to offer feedback on coding or your writing; you can voice chat with it and also have it summarize notes/ meetings. Nothing for windows yet.
• Siri is terrible as it currently stands. We have a ton of anecdotal evidence. Just look at iphone or any discussion around why Siri has gotten worse over the years. It's no secret that Amazon and Google have proven that their assistants are better in many ways, but they don't have the Apple ecosystem. This is the only reason Siri is remotely tolerable.
• The 2024 Apple Worldwide Developers Conference is happening in a little under a month, from June 10th - June 14th. They will be announcing the new features and direction for iOS18. Tim Cook stated on their recent earnings call, "We believe in the transformative power and promise of AI, and we believe we have advantages that will differentiate us in this new era, including Apple’s unique combination of seamless hardware, software, and services integration.”
• Bloomberg released this article on Friday. Apple Nears Deal With OpenAI to Put ChatGPT on iPhone. In it, they state that "The two sides have been finalizing terms for a pact to use ChatGPT features in Apple’s iOS 18, the next iPhone operating system".
• Forbes posted this earlier today: Apple’s New ChatGPT Deal—Here’s What It Means For iPhone Security.

I think we're at a pivotal time in tech with AI large language models, which are finally getting to the point where they are refined and fast enough to be harnessed for general-use cases. With its seamless tech, Apple will ride this wave and finally make Siri the magical assistant that it was always supposed to be.
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I am a 29(F) and my son's father is 32-33(M), I went to high school with this guy. And I was friends with him for a solid year before deciding to give him a chance. I was in a relationship with him for five months and ended up getting pregnant a month into the relationship. Very quickly. I did not originally plan on having children, I also believed I was infertile because I was in an abusive relationship where the man tried to purposefully impregnate me so I wouldn't leave and I never got pregnant. I was 20 y/o when I got pregnant with my son. My son's father, Mark, kept telling me abortion was an option. I couldn't see myself aborting, I believe it's a woman's choice but I couldn't do it. So him and I break up when I'm 4 months pregnant because he ended up back handing me across the face and I had suspicions he was cheating on me(he was because he started dating the girl as soon as we broke up). During the rest of my pregnancy, I didn't hear from Mark at all. But after my son was born, I heard rumors Mark was going around telling people I wouldn't let him see his son. My response to that was "It's a little difficult to deny someone visitation of their child, if they don't ask to see them." I take him for child support when my son is 3, I tried to do it without him but I needed at least financial help. That's when Mark decided he wanted to see our son. I let him because if my son can have both parents in his life, he should. Not even a year later, Mark began refusing to see our son. I recently discovered he's telling his fiancee(which they've been together under a year) that I tried to press assault charges on him, I apparently yelled at him in public for his parenting choices, and that he pays me way more in child support than he actually does. His fiancee wanted to talk to me civilly so we did, or at least I thought we did. But she sent me a message some hours later calling me crazy. I sent her screenshots of mine and Mark's conversations in which he says he didn't want his son and doesn't want to see him. And I sent her proof of child support statements. But then his fiancee asks me to lower the child support. And she said "If he doesn't want to be involved then he doesn't have to be involved. He doesn't want to be in your son's life because your crazy and he doesn't trust you."
AITAH for telling her no, I'm not lowering the child support? I apologize it was so long.

Hello, locals!
I’ll just come right out and say it — I’m (25F) a Black woman who prefers to date white men and it’s been pretty difficult to do so here in STL. While I have successfully interracially dated before, I have found it to be difficult (trust me, I know dating in general is difficult).
All of my friends are either married or in serious relationships and while I do definitely enjoy being single and doing my own thing, I’d eventually like to find someone to spend my time with and whatnot. However, I’m a firm believer in slow and steady wins the race, so a friendship first would be ideal!
When it comes to my personality, I’m extroverted and love to have fun! I love to meet new people, go out with friends, and just enjoy whatever it is I’m doing. Some of my hobbies include writing/blogging and cooking.
Here are some of the following things I am looking for in a man:

• childfree
• hardworking and career driven
• open to trying new experiences
• honest and reliable
• prioritizes healthy communication
• sense of humor (!!!)

If you’ve read this far, thank you! I look forward to possibly connecting with you :-)

Here is what I am asking that you predict: if I have a child, what do you expect their racial background will be?
I recently asked on asksocialscience: “Why are black men more likely to be attracted to white women than black women are to be attracted to white men?”
I’m a black woman, and I wonder about this. I’ve always been in an area that has a low black population, and will note that I do think, based upon observation, that a black woman who lives in an area with a low black population is likely to be more open to dating white men than a black woman who lives in an area with a high black population will be.
But even with that being said, as someone who lives in an area that doesn’t have a terribly high black population, it is rare for me to see black men dating and married to black women here. When I was in high school, black boys seeking out white girls was a “thing.” I receive a lot more attention when I walk around in an area that has a higher black population than I do in my city. I’ve met black women who grew up here that still have a preference for black men. As I’ve grown older, I’ve realized I have a preference for black men even though I haven’t moved. But I can’t say I’ve met many black men who grew up in the same area who prefer black women.
So why is that? I understand that environment growing up and what you see in the media are factors. But as a black woman, I’m wondering myself - why am I not very attracted to white men anymore, like I was for a time in middle school?
Why are mixed race women particularly desirable, and typically represented in the media more often than women who are fully black?
This is something I wonder about. I notice that in general, people seem very intrigued by mixed race women (something I’ve noticed before on Reddit, a person here has even suggested that mixed race women tend to be more attractive) but it also seems to be a big issue within the black community. As someone who grew up in an area with a low black population, I have always noticed that if black boys/men weren’t specifically aiming to date white , Mexican/Latina or Asian women, they would date mixed race (1/2 black 1/2 white generally,) girls/women. I’ve had a black man who seemed excited before about the idea of me potentially being mixed with something, and came to understand in high school that there are black boys/men who do specifically seek out “mixed” girls, sometimes even over white ones (my ex boyfriend was like this to an extent.) I remember that at some point as a child, I had this idea in my mind that mixed race girls were more attractive, even though no one had ever directly told me this. I have realized that, although I am perhaps a colorist and am working on unlearning that sort of mindset, it is in my opinion largely because I didn’t see many dark skinned women in films and television growing up. By the age of 8 or 9, I had an idea in my mind, somehow, that having a darker skin tone was not ideal, even though no one had ever said this to me.
But why? Why are mixed race women considered more attractive, and uprooted within our society?
I am an educator, and my current group of kids is primarily white. A child who is particularly attached to me is white.
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I (24M) am cis gendered straight and my partner (21F) is a bisexual nonbinary. We have been together for about 4 months and things have been amazing for the most part. We love each other and get along well but when it comes to sexuality and gender stuff we tend to have our differences in how we view the world. I knew from the start that they identified as non binary and I had never tried dating someone who labeled themselves as that so everything has been new to me. We had talked about it early on that I saw myself as a straight man and normally would find myself dating women but I told them that since they were born as a female and still present themselves to be very feminine and still look like any other girl that I didn’t see the issue with being attracted to them. I also told them that if we were to start a relationship I would still see it as a heterosexual one and still consider myself straight because I strictly like them because they are female and they dont plan on doing anything to make themselves more masculine. They told me that they prefer they/them pronouns and prefer the term partner instead of girlfriend and boyfriend. They said that as long as I could make the effort to use the correct terms when I’m with them, they had no issue with the fact that I would see the relationship differently than them. They are even fine with the fact that I say she/her and use the term girlfriend when talking about her when she’s not there. They haven’t come out to any of their friends or family about their identity so when we are with them we act as a regular man/women heterosexual relationship which I really enjoy and is a big reason why this relationship works out for me. However the other night they called me gay because they technically aren’t a women. I got a little defensive about it since I clearly started at the start that I see myself and the relationship as straight. So I immediately shut them down and told them that I’m not gay because I see them as any other girl and that this will only work if we don’t come at each others identity whether it be gender or sexuality even though we may not personally agree with each others. Anyways like I said before for the most part we get along great but part of me thinks this whole relationship is bound to fail at some point because of how different we are. What do you think?
TL;DR- will a relationship between a straight cisgendered male and a non binary identifying female ever work out if we both respect each other’s identity and sexuality but don’t necessarily agree with it?

I (24M) am cis gendered straight and my partner (21F) is a bisexual nonbinary. We have been together for about 4 months and things have been amazing for the most part. We love each other and get along well but when it comes to sexuality and gender stuff we tend to have our differences in how we view the world. I knew from the start that they identified as non binary and I had never tried dating someone who labeled themselves as that so everything has been new to me. We had talked about it early on that I saw myself as a straight man and normally would find myself dating women but I told them that since they were born as a female and still present themselves to be very feminine and still look like any other girl that I didn’t see the issue with being attracted to them. I also told them that if we were to start a relationship I would still see it as a heterosexual one and still consider myself straight because I strictly like them because they are female and they dont plan on doing anything to make themselves more masculine. They told me that they prefer they/them pronouns and prefer the term partner instead of girlfriend and boyfriend. They said that as long as I could make the effort to use the correct terms when I’m with them, they had no issue with the fact that I would see the relationship differently than them. They are even fine with the fact that I say she/her and use the term girlfriend when talking about her when she’s not there. They haven’t come out to any of their friends or family about their identity so when we are with them we act as a regular man/women heterosexual relationship which I really enjoy and is a big reason why this relationship works out for me. However the other night they called me gay because they technically aren’t a women. I got a little defensive about it since I clearly started at the start that I see myself and the relationship as straight. So I immediately shut them down and told them that I’m not gay because I see them as any other girl and that this will only work if we don’t come at each others identity whether it be gender or sexuality even though we may not personally agree with each others. Anyways like I said before for the most part we get along great but part of me thinks this whole relationship is bound to fail at some point because of how different we are. What do you think?
TL;DR- will a relationship between a straight cisgendered male and a non binary identifying female ever work out if we both respect each other’s identity and sexuality but don’t necessarily agree with it?

I (24M) am cis gendered straight and my partner (21F) is a bisexual nonbinary. We have been together for about 4 months and things have been amazing for the most part. We love each other and get along well but when it comes to sexuality and gender stuff we tend to have our differences in how we view the world. I knew from the start that they identified as non binary and I had never tried dating someone who labeled themselves as that so everything has been new to me. We had talked about it early on that I saw myself as a straight man and normally would find myself dating women but I told them that since they were born as a female and still present themselves to be very feminine and still look like any other girl that I didn’t see the issue with being attracted to them. I also told them that if we were to start a relationship I would still see it as a heterosexual one and still consider myself straight because I strictly like them because they are female and they dont plan on doing anything to make themselves more masculine. They told me that they prefer they/them pronouns and prefer the term partner instead of girlfriend and boyfriend. They said that as long as I could make the effort to use the correct terms when I’m with them, they had no issue with the fact that I would see the relationship differently than them. They are even fine with the fact that I say she/her and use the term girlfriend when talking about her when she’s not there. They haven’t come out to any of their friends or family about their identity so when we are with them we act as a regular man/women heterosexual relationship which I really enjoy and is a big reason why this relationship works out for me. However the other night they called me gay because they technically aren’t a women. I got a little defensive about it since I clearly started at the start that I see myself and the relationship as straight. So I immediately shut them down and told them that I’m not gay because I see them as any other girl and that this will only work if we don’t come at each others identity whether it be gender or sexuality even though we may not personally agree with each others. Anyways like I said before for the most part we get along great but part of me thinks this whole relationship is bound to fail at some point because of how different we are. What do you think?
TL;DR- will a relationship between a straight cisgendered male and a non binary identifying female ever work out if we both respect each other’s identity and sexuality but don’t necessarily agree with it?

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Im sorry for making this post longer than it needs to be.
I (22M) and my gf (24F) have been together for 3 years.
As context I was viciously abused by my mother for the majority of my childhood. I was the result of an affair and her husband divorced her because of me. My bio dad was gangbanger and went to jail when I was 6. The momemt he went to jail my mom started taking her frustrations about her failed marriage and miserable living situation out on me. I was an afterthought and a punching while my older sister was her "true baby." If my sister got bad grades, it was okay. If I got bad grades I was beaten until I started having seizures. If I started crying my mom would lock me outside. We lived in Chicago and sometimes she would lock me outside during the middle of winter. I tried telling people about the abuse but I was always framed as a liar and in our community my mom had a prestine image, so in their eyes she could do no wrong.
In my mothers words i was " a sorry ass bitch that no mother would want."
If it wasnt for my sister I would probably be dead by now. She would sneak her jackets out of the house when my mom locked me out, snuck food into our room when my mom refused to let me eat and would bring me icepacks and let me cry in her arms after my mom was done beating me. I am and will forever be grateful for her. To this day I consider her to be my actual mother.
A few months after I turned 18, I ran away to Indiana. Besides keeping in contact with my sister and a few friends, to everyone else I just disappeared from the face of the earth. It was tough. I had a few distant relatives there and they would let me occasionally crash on their couch but for the most part, I was homeless. Eventually I did land a job at a grocery store and with a bit of financial help from my sister, I was able to rent a small apartment.
I met my now ex gf while working at that grocery store. I had just turned 18 and she was 20. After working a few shifts together we eventually started casually seing each other which eventually grew into a full on relationship.
I never really opened up her about after my last gf left me after I drunkenly opened up to her. I just lied enough to explain my constant nightmares, occasional seizures and why I would cringe hearing a latina womans accent. I just wanted to forget that part of my life.
Two years into dating each other we moved in together. I eventually got a better job working at a call center.
Around the same time me and my sister started loosing contact. Besides occasionally checking up on each other and wishing each other happy birthday, we didn't text each other. Last I heard from her, she had a new bf.
All that changed recently. My sister randomly texted me saying she wanted to come visit me in Indy. At this point I havent seen her in 3 and a half years so I obviously said yes.
I told my gf that my sister and her bf were coming to crash at our place for a few days. This was their first time meeting each other so I was kinda nervous.
She arrived at our place while my gf was home and I was at work. I spent the next few days catching up and me scoping out her bf(I have always been a bit protective of her. Even tried beating up the boys she brought over when I was 10 lol.)
I did see a weird change in my gf around the same time. It felt like she was walking on egg shells around me. I did bring it up to her but she would just tell that it was nothing and I was imagining things.
The day after my gf and her bf left, me my gf and a few of our friends went out clubbing. I remeber her friends giving me a werid look throughout the night. I didn't drink much but my gf was nearly blackout drunk. I decided to call it a night and get an uber home since my gf could barely stand anymore.
I literally had to drag her out of the club. While everyone was waiting outside for their uber to arrive my gf started throwing a fit about leaving so soon (it was 2am.) She started calling me a pussy and some shit about how I was just probably insecure about some guys hitting on her or something like that. Neither do I remember seeing any guys hitting on her nor do I really give a shit since I trusted her enough to simply reject them. I knew she was drunk and kept my cool until she said something on the lines of "No wonder your mom used to beat you." Everyone just fell silent and stared at her. She then clearly told me "dont worry. You sister told me everything you fucking pussy." At this point her friends tried to shut her up and started pleading with her to „do it at home“ whatever that’s supposed to mean.
I was beyond fuming. I just took out my phone and followed the car icon on the uber app. I wanted to stop myself from doing something that I might regret later. She kept on going on about how im a pussy for letting a woman overpower me or something. After that I just blocked out whatever other bs came out of her mouth.
The uber ride home was silent. I didn't even respond to the small talk the driver tried to start with me. All I could think about was what my gf said earlier. I didn't even notice her starting to sob next to me. When we walked into the apartment she started full on crying and begged me for forgiveness. She said wasn’t thinking straight and she didn't mean what she said etc. I just told her to shut the fuck up and to go to bed I tried sleeping on the couch. I coudnt.
I decided to end things with her a few hours later. She was completely passed out on our bed so I just started packing my things and loaded whatever I could into my car.
Im currently staying at a friends place and shes been trying to reach me nonstop.
Im not mad at my sister for telling my gf since she didn't mean any harm and probably just wanted to tell her what I went through. Im purely mad at my gf.
Thats not something you say to someone you love.
My ex was always insistent on me opening up to her more and her reaction to hearing what I went through just pisses me off. Seriously why do some women want their SO to open up about their emotions/past if they know they’re only going to shame them for it?
A part of me believes that she meant what she said but the other part of me believes that she was just drunk and I was overreacting and should give her a chance to explain herself but Idk.
Her friends have also been texting me that im an AH for leaving even though I knew she was drunk and that my gf has been trying to apologise to me.
Am I going too far?
Should I give her a second chance?
Am I actually the asshole here?
Im overwhelmed by everything happening and just need some advice.
A part of me doesn't want to start over again. Ive done that enough in my life.
She is the second girl ive dated that has had a negative reaction to the things I went through so I believe I should take a bit off the blame here as well and should have told my sister to keep her mouth shut regarding my past.
This will probably be the last time I let anyone else hear my story.

I ‘24M’ am cis gendered straight and my partner ‘21F’ is a bisexual nonbinary. We have been together for about 4 months and things have been amazing for the most part. We love each other and get along well but when it comes to sexuality and gender stuff we tend to have our differences in how we view the world. I knew from the start that they identified as non binary and I had never tried dating someone who labeled themselves as that so everything has been new to me. We had talked about it early on that I saw myself as a straight man and normally would find myself dating women but I told them that since they were born as a female and still present themselves to be very feminine and still look like any other girl that I didn’t see the issue with being attracted to them. I also told them that if we were to start a relationship I would still see it as a heterosexual one and still consider myself straight because I strictly like them because they are female and they dont plan on doing anything to make themselves more masculine. They told me that they prefer they/them pronouns and prefer the term partner instead of girlfriend and boyfriend. They said that as long as I could make the effort to use the correct terms when I’m with them, they had no issue with the fact that I would see the relationship differently than them. They are even fine with the fact that I say she/her and use the term girlfriend when talking about her when she’s not there. They haven’t come out to any of their friends or family about their identity so when we are with them we act as a regular man/women heterosexual relationship which I really enjoy and is a big reason why this relationship works out for me. However the other night they called me gay because they technically aren’t a women. I got a little defensive about it since I clearly started at the start that I see myself and the relationship as straight. So I immediately shut them down and told them that I’m not gay because I see them as any other girl and that this will only work if we don’t come at each others identity whether it be gender or sexuality even though we may not personally agree with each others. Anyways like I said before for the most part we get along great but part of me thinks this whole relationship is bound to fail at some point because of how different we are. What do you think?
TL;DR- will a relationship between a straight cisgendered male and a non binary identifying female ever work out if we both respect each other’s identity and sexuality but don’t necessarily agree with it?

hi everyone! looking for a little bit of advice here. For some context, I (26F) have been hanging out with a man (30) who I met through a mutual friend. We haven't been on any clarified "dates" but we have spent 1x1 time together, and there's clearly been some attraction. On Friday night, we got dinner together, which kind of happened by accident because some other friends bailed.
for context: He had expressed interest in me to our mutual friend, saying I was cute and wanting to ask me out (about a month ago). We also don't necessarily share a friend group, but we share one close mutual friend and he has shown interest and said he really likes my friend group and wants to hang out with them. He is also within the last year out of a 6 year relationship.
On friday, when we got dinner, he essentially told me that he thinks I'm really cute, and has such a great time with me, and enjoys my company/likes me but doesn't date within friend groups. I challenged him a little bit on this, saying that we are all adults, and that I think he should reconsider, because (I didn't say this but) I find it a bit silly to not pursue something due to a singular mutual friend and wanting to be friends with my established friend group. He agreed to think about it a little bit, but that dating within a friend group is a hard line for him. He then made it clear that we weren't currently on a date (which is fine by me). I really like him, I think he has the potential to be the kind of person that I see myself with, but I feel like his indecisiveness is really confusing. I want to give him some grace because he's just getting back into the dating game after a very long relationship.
Since Friday, he texted me Saturday morning saying he "had a great time last night at dinner" and has been in my instagram DMs a little bit, being supportive or showing interest in my interests. How do I handle this? Do I reach out after a few days and ask for more clarity? Or let him take the lead? I feel like I'm not sure how to proceed, but wanting some more clarity here.

My boyfriend, who I have been in a long distance relationship with for a year, came to visit me in my country. I noticed two notifications from different dating apps on his phone, and when I asked him about it, he claimed that all the apps from his old phone were automatically installed on his new phone when he switched devices. The dating apps were in a hidden folder. The first app had messages from 2022, while the second app had new pictures of him (few months ago) and said he was looking for friends and there was no chats, only one match. He explained that he had a drunken challenge with his friends one night to upload new pictures on Tinder and find a match, but there were no actual conversations on the app. The app was downloaded in April, but he changed his phone in February. He said his new phone hadn't finished configuring all the old apps from his previous phone. I'm uncertain whether to believe his explanation or not. When I asked about this hidden folder I found that he takes intimate pictures of me without my consent and pictures of girls bums at the beach or the pool wearing bikinis which disgusted me and creeped me out. I have also found an intimate picture of a man and a woman which he said it was his friend’s and he asked him to keep it which is really weird. He also keeps liking puctures of half naked insta models on IG although I told him how I feel about it. Our Relationship was really good and I believed he was loyal, he was always consistent and calling me every day except in his trip to europe before he came to visit me. When he came back he was kinda hiding the phone from me which made me suspiscious. I found all this stuff this week. I am still in a state of shock. I told him I will leavr him and he was crying for hours telling me he would never cheat on me. I feel so disappointed and I don’t know what to do or how to navigate this. I just ignored all of this and I am talking to him normally until I come back to my senses. I dont know if I am doing the right thing.

Hi! I hope I'm in the right sub, I don't want to ruffle any feathers or something. I just need help. I'm 18 (f) and I've been talking to 22 (almost 23 m). We're hitting it off great, and we've been talking for almost 2 months now. Of course, like any guy he's ready to take me out on a date but my parents are so strict, and I'm nearly sitting bricks thinking about telling them about him. I believe in dating for marriage, and so far he seems like a great candidate. He's understanding, but I can't make him wait forever.
My biggest fear is him losing interest in me. Because of my parents, I've not even been able to keep platonic friends interested in wanting to be around me because I'm hardly ever let out the house alone unless I'm going to work or I'm with a friend my parents know. I don't have a cafull license, and the last time I mentioned dating to my parents (when I was 17) my dad lost his cool- however my mom is giving me mixed signals. One day she's telling me how cute a boy is, the next she's telling me I can never pursue a man unless he comes to me first.
Well, this guy pursued me first, in fact I wasn't going to give him the time at all until I got to know him. Only problem? We met on Bumble, and I'm scared to tell my parents that.
My friends suggested I just lie about the way I met him which is risky, and I want to avoid lying at all. I don't mind not giving the whole story, but lying hurts me to do. My thought was to say he gave me his number when I was out on my own at work or with my friend and talk about it that way...but again if he's not then that's a lie.
I don't know what I do, and I want to play by my parents rules but I also want to keep him happy. How should I go about this? Anyone who can relate with this maybe?

In my last post I didn’t understand the whole 50/50 thing. It is now glaringly apparent since he used the words himself that he wants 50/50 because he doesn’t want to pay child support because he won’t be able to afford it. This is after I decided to be gracious and offer him to buy me out, but keep my name on the house until he can afford to refinance to get me off. Also, he just informed me days before Mother’s Day that he is going to Mexico for his friends wedding (he says they paid his ticket and he wasn’t going to tell me, but felt bad). It’s friends from HS and he has a crush on the sister. While I haven’t filed for divorce yet (I’m a disabled veteran my disabilities are flaring terribly) I am so angry. I need help with a couple bills and he won’t help me. He took the tax refund out of my account saying it’s for the house it’s $5k. I have helped him with his bills especially when we were served a lawsuit for his unpaid medical bill in the fall that I paid to make go away.
I know this sounds bad. I’ve always burned bridges with exes. I have never wanted to burn a bridge so bad, but we have children. I wish I could just throw his passport away in the trash or burn it—I know where it is. He wouldn’t even come to Canada to see my family for Easter unless I had sex with him, but he can go to Mexico for a “friend”. He has always put friends ahead of me new or old and has always told everyone I’m this toxic narcissist and I never told mine our business. I feel so isolated. Just writing this all out makes me feel so dumb for staying. Anyways, I also want to file and ask the courts to force sale the house now, but a part of me is telling me despite the abuse, the lies, the talking behind my back to everyone who will listen… I don’t want to do that because of guilt. I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m also severely depressed. My physical pain is unbearable and now I have to deal with this crap while being the primary caregiver of our children. He was never in my corner and that hurts looking back. It truly started showing once I got pregnant. Anyways. I don’t know why I’m sharing so much. Maybe it’ll help. Maybe someone might have some solid advice from the outside. Looking back… the signs were there. This man did not love me and he definitely never even liked me. He has never trusted me. That hurts because I poured so much into this relationship for seven years— lesson learned, when does it stop hurting? Sorry this was so long….

They say dating is often challenging. But I don’t think it’s supposed to be this challenging?
So I turned 26 last week. And I got single in fall/winter of 2023 after a 3 year thing. Initially while obviously sad I was partially excited to get back in the game. Why? Because not to blow my own horn but in my early 20s dating went extraordinarily well for me. I was in my college town and I got on the apps after kind of reinventing my presentation with my hair, facial hair, and how I dressed (I looked like a clown previously) and phew it was fruitful. Matches and likes poured in by the week. By the day sometimes. I had no issues setting up casual one night stands, friends with benefits, serious endeavors, hell the aforementioned 3 year relationship was a product of dating in that time. Yeah not every single one worked out of course. And yeah I’d get ghosted sometimes like every guy on those apps or even just in dating in general, but broadly speaking it was a great experience. I remember the whole “dating sucks nowadays” rhetoric feeling very foreign and alien to me. I couldn’t relate at all honestly. In fact I was clearing out my camera roll recently and stumbled upon some screenshots from women during that time and it was a bittersweet discovery. Texting me back enthusiastically, asking ME to hangout or if I could call, accepting date plans. I had almost forgotten what mutual interest looked like honestly.
Now fast forward to present and holy fuck what happened? It has quite literally been nothing but failure. Endless. Endless. Endless ghosting. Copious friendzoning. Unreciprocated feelings. And hell honestly just straight up malicious disinterest sometimes. Never had a second date, never had sex since I got back single and the only ones that are into me even slightly are ones I’m not attracted to at all. Which does not bode well. I mean, I’m in a different city I guess, college town to DFW. And some things that could be holding me back include the fact that I don’t drink, (which didn’t seem to hold me back in college) the fact that I quit corporate America to be an Uber driver for now while I save up to be a realtor, not the best first date line when you say you’re an Uber driver I guess. And also maybe this dating market in DFW is just ill suited for me as this is a very religious elitist conservative city where drinking is a main hobby and I’m a black (well half black) liberal atheist Uber driver who doesn’t drink. But still.
I always take self inventory and introspection after a failure cause I don’t want my first instinct to be to blame the other person or extrinsic factors too much. All my friends, male and female, except one, a 26 year old who still lives with his mom, have ostensibly great commited relationships and they’re all moved in with their SO. Now they’re all different from me yes but none of them have reported this level of struggle in dating. If anything their dating experience in this city has been more akin to my dating experience in my early 20s. ie successful and fun. And while I don’t think I’m the most attractive man who ever lived, maybe just average or slightly below or above. I certainly don’t think I’m hideously ugly or anything. Beyond that I dress well, pay for the first date, wear nice cologne and honestly my social skills and self awareness are considerably higher than they were when I was younger doing better. Maybe I was more ebullient and affable when I was younger but I’m not just a different human outright.
It’s just so hyper confounding. No one I know seems to be this unsuccessful. A lot of first dates go extremely well then either ghosted after or get the sorry I don’t see you that way text after. Or short of those two things it’s always just something ya know? It’s driving me a bit crazy because incessant failure with no clear obvious cause is very psychologically pernicious I feel. And it’s not just the apps, I’ve tried to join clubs. No luck. I’ve tried in person singles mixers, no luck. I’ve even tried people I know and see like when I’m walking my dog there’s a woman or two I’ll see a lot and we’ll talk and I asked one or two out and gave them my number but they never texted. So not interested. It’s not awkward when we see each other now but the implication was clear. It’s just very defeating.

Back in January, I met this guy who I really liked - we talked for a bit over a week and went on 2 dates, but he ended things shortly after that due to dealing with the fallout of a divorce. He told me that even though he likes me and feels drawn to me, he's not emotionally stable enough for a relationship. This crushed me because he's the first man in a longgggg time (maybe ever) that I had that kind of chemistry with - our worldviews and life goals aligned, and things between us just flowed so well physically and emotionally (we actually never slept together tho). I am respecting his wishes and leaving him alone. I haven't heard from him in months (the last thing he said was that he didn't want to talk to me anymore, and when I offered that maybe we could just be friends he didn't answer), but it's like I can't get him out of my head, I still think about him a lot.
I am a Cancer sun, Pisces moon and Scorpio rising, so it's hard for me to let go sometimes. I've been dating other people in the meantime, but it's like they all seem so dull and uninteresting compared to him. I just wanted to know if any of you guys were in this situation, would you still remember me? Is there a chance he might reach out again when his divorce is over? He's a Scorpio Sun, Aquarius Moon and Capricorn Venus (very stereotypical Cap Venus so he is not out there sleeping around, I know this for a fact). What do y'all think?

I have a real life adult corporate job and need to be start acting like it instead of Gayloring on the clock, but I cannot stop thinking about this topic.

Foundations Of "The Man You Script" Theory:

My theory is that the manuscript is actually referring to “the man you script.” To me, this means the storylines that Taylor writes in her songs are (at least sometimes) driven exclusively by fans’ theories and delulu fantasies. It’s the man (men) they script that she writes about. One thing about Taylor is, she gives the people what they want.
I think sometimes the songs about the man the fans script are pure parody songs, and other times they are meant to lead Swifties to believe it’s about some random man Taylor has been linked with, when it’s obvious to Gaylors that it is gay.
There are so many examples of this in her discography, and IMO even more instances have occurred in recent years:

• London Boy: We (the public) knew almost nothing about Joe. In parallel to that, this is the most generic song Taylor could have ever written. It touches on the 2 Joe hints we get: he lives in London and he has a normal life and friends, (“pub/rugby with his school friends”). The rest of the song is lyrical vomit about the most touristy London attractions she could think of. It is the definition of camp and I am obsessed with how brilliant she is for trolling this hard.
• ATW 10 MV: The original All Too Well was relatively vague, but Taylor all but confirmed it was “about” Jake G when she released the 10 minute version. With mentions of him being older, dating younger girls, and famously missing her birthday. We knew about the missed birthday because of the moment I knew. More on ATW later.
• Is It Over Now?: Taylor mentions the literal only two known incidents with her and Harry Styles in this song: the snowmobile accident and the “blue dress on a boat” fiasco. One would think there would be other things they did together that were worth mentioning if the relationship was real, but she chose to call out two media-covered stories. Curious.
• So High School: I feel like Gen Z twitter wrote down bullet points of what they assumed Travlor’s relationship was like and sent it to Taylor before she wrote this. This song is chock full of “public knowledge” about the couple and as a bonus, dripping with sarcasm (lol). She went the extra mile in this one by adding in things that the public doesn’t necessarily know, but that they could infer stereotypical Travvy would love: American Pie and GTA. Oh, and knowing how to "ball" and opening her car door. ("Isn't that sweet?")
• The Alchemy: I don’t have the energy to list all of the stupid football references in this song. But the “Marry, kiss or kill me?” line and corresponding interview that went viral is so on the nose that it’s impossible she’s serious about this track.
• thanK you aIMee: On the fence on who this is even about, but I know it’s not Kim Kardashian. Taylor doesn’t have the energy to write a song about Kim, but she’s fine with Kim getting the credit for being the muse. (Queen behavior IMO)

You could argue that more songs on TTPD fit this category, for sure. Maybe Midnights, too. (If you can think of any others please leave them in the comments!)

How Does This Tie In With “The Man You Script?”

So much of TTPD, in my Gaylor opinion, is designed to set the foundation for Taylor to take part in revisionist history, start to call out her fans/weed out her homophobic fans, and be more “real” in general. TTPD is a departure (!! department) from anything we’ve ever heard from Taylor in a lot of ways. To me, it is the least Taylor Swift™ album we’ve ever heard from her. (Folklore and evermore are exceptions to this, but up until TTPD, the Swifties thought they were fictional.)
As the Manuscript goes:

Now and then she rereads the man you script Of the entire torrid affair They compared their licenses He said, "I'm not a donor but I'd give you my heart if you needed it" She rolled her eyes and said "You're a professional" He said, "No, just a good samaritan" He said that if the sex was half as good as the conversation was Soon they'd be pushin' strollers But soon it was over

Starting with “They compared their licenses," it reads like a movie script. It is also kinda jolting: they’re joking about their drivers’ licenses with this rom-com esque dialogue, and then all of a sudden it’s onto sex and strollers. And then it just ends. Does this not sound like the absurd and parasocial Swiftie narrative? A storybook beginning, 0-100 in 2 seconds (brand new, full throttle) and talk of babies. Then it goes down in flames. It’s an entertaining story (“are you not entertained?”), and sometimes Taylor looks back on it, on how all this began. I think it’s entirely possible Jake G was the first beard of Taylor’s, personally. And looking backwards is the only way to move forward. I think the first verse is about her first beard.

And the years passed Like scenes of a show The Professor said to write what you know Lookin' backwards Might be the only way to move forward Then the actors Were hitting their marks And the slow dance Was alight with the sparks And the tears fell In synchronicity with the score And at last She knew what the agony had been for

This verse references all the beards that followed. Taylor here validates my theory that her relationships are scripted. The professor (possibly her team?) says to write what YOU (the fan) knows. (The man YOU script; write what YOU know) They tell Taylor to write about the things the public thinks they know about you to protect her private life. Or at least disguise the muse as someone who fits in those parameters.
And, the fans loved it. It made her a gigantic, massive success. A superstar. It strengthened the parasocial relationships that contribute to her success. She was able to keep her private life private and put out stories that the fans crafted themselves (with some help from Tree).
But it isn’t her truth:

The only thing that's left is the man you script One last souvenir from my trip to your shores Now and then I reread the man you script But the story isn't mine anymore

She used to take fan theories and assumptions and own them as her story and truth. The story is not hers anymore, and she is giving it back to the fans because it was their narrative all along.
I think she is saying she isn’t going to do this anymore after TTPD; No more songs like the ones I mentioned to feed the narrative. (On TTPD, I think she trolled the concept) Exile is expiring.

Region is NA.

If you have my wishlist games, Chat with me anytime. Only accept games from your own collection.

My REPs: 200+ successful trades, stopped tracking after 202.

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My steam games for trade (wishlist in the end of this post):

Added recently:

Blade of Darkness
Stardew
Amanda the Adventurer
Bravery and Greed
King Of The Castle
Loddlenaut
Mediterranea Inferno
Steelrising
Yakuza: Like a Dragon
Coromon
Fashion Police Squad
HUMANKIND™ Definitive Edition
Symphony of War: The Nephilim Saga
Terraformers
The Callisto Protocol
The Excavation of Hob's Barrow
Victoria 3
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Tomb Raider: Game of the Year Edition (GOG)
LEGO Star Wars III: The Clone Wars (GOG)
Littlewood
Astrea: Six-Sided Oracles
One Hand Clapping
Tainted Grail: Conquest
Shadow of the Tomb Raider
Ultimate Chicken Horse
Mad Max
MORTAL KOMBAT XL
Mortal Kombat 11: Ultimate
Middle-earth: Shadow of Mordor GOTY
Middle-Earth: Shadow of War Definitive Edition
Injustice 2 Legendary Edition
Gotham Knights
Back 4 Blood
Batman™: Arkham Knight Premium Edition
Batman™: Arkham Asylum GOTY Edition
Batman™: Arkham City GOTY Edition
Batman™: Arkham Origins
.hack//G.U. Last Recode
CODE VEIN
GOD EATER 3
Katamari Damacy REROLL
PAC-MAN MUSEUM+
Tales of Vesperia: Definitive Edition
TEKKEN 7
Dragon Knight (delisted, 18+, PM for price)
Hell Girls (delisted, 18+, PM for price)
Super Star (delisted, 18+, PM for price)
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Steam games:

9 Years of Shadows
A Juggler's Tale
A Plague Tale: Innocence
ABZU
Aces and Adventures
Ad Infinitum
Afterimage
Agent in Depth
Alchemist's Castle
Alchemy Garden
Aliens vs. Predator Collection ( includes Aliens vs. Predator + Aliens vs Predator Swarm Map Pack + Aliens vs Predator: Bug Hunt Pack)
Aliens: Fireteam Elite
AMID EVIL
Amnesia: The Bunker
Among Us
Anuchard
Aragami 2
Arcade Paradise
Arise: A Simple Story
Armello
Army Men RTS
Assault Suit Leynos
Astrea: Six-Sided Oracles
Astronarch
Autonauts vs Piratebots
Battlecruisers
Beacon Pines
Big Pharma
BIOMUTANT
Bionic Commando Rearmed
Black Paradox
Black Skylands
Blade Assault
Blade of Darkness
Blood And Zombies
Bloodstained: Ritual of the Night
Borderlands 3: Super Deluxe Edition
Boundless
BPM: Bullets Per Minute
Brawlout
Castle on the Coast
Cats in Time
Caveblazers
Chicka Wars Chicken Meat (delisted)
Children of Silentown
CHIVALRY 2 - EPIC EDITION
Citizen Sleeper
CivCity: Rome
Click and Slay
Colt Canyon
Conan Chop Chop
Concept Destruction
Construction Simulator (2015) Deluxe Edition
Cookie Cutter
Corridor Z
Cosmonautica
Crayon Physics Deluxe
CROSSBOW: Bloodnight
Cultist Simulator
Curse of the Dead Gods
Dagon - The Eldritch Box DLC
Dark Deity
Dead Age
Dear Esther: Landmark Edition
Death Squared
Deceive Inc.
Demonologist
Depraved
Descenders
Desperados III
Destiny 2: Beyond Light DLC
Destroy All Humans! 2 - Reprobed
Destroyer: The U-Boat Hunter
Detached: Non-VR Edition
DEVOUR
Dicey Dungeons
Disciples: Liberation
Disco Elysium - The Final Cut
Dishonored Definitive Edition
Distant Worlds Universe
Doctor Strange Defenders Skin
Double Cross
Doughlings: Arcade
Doughlings: Invasion
Dragon Knight (delisted, 18+)
Dragon's Dogma: Dark Arisen
Draw Slasher
Drawful 2
Due Process
Dungeons 2 - Complete Edition
Dusk
EDGE OF ETERNITY
Eiyuden Chronicle: Rising
El Hijo
Emily is Away <3
Encased
Endless Space 2
Epic Chef
ETERNAL THREADS
Exorder
Expeditions: Rome
F1 2018
Farming Simulator 17
Firegirl: Hack 'n Splash Rescue
First Class Trouble
Five Dates
Fling to the Finish
Fobia - St. Dinfna Hotel
Foretales
FOREWARNED
Forged Battalion
Fortissimo FA INTL Ver
Founders' Fortune
Friends vs Friends
From Space
Full Metal Furies
Fun with Ragdolls: The Game
GameGuru Classic
Garfield Kart - Furious Racing
Generation Zero
Geometric Sniper
Ghost 1.0
Gloria Victis
Go Home Dinosaurs!
Going Under
Golf Gang
Good knight
GRID Ultimate Edition
GRIME
Grow: Song of the Evertree
Guilty Gear X2 #Reload
Guns & Fishes
Guts and Glory
Hack 'n' Slash bundle (including Hack 'n' Slash + Hack 'n' Slash Soundtrack + Spacebase GIFT)
Halcyon 6: Lightspeed Edition
Hardspace: Shipbreaker
Heart Fragment - Book Two: Belief Fragments (Shannon & Lana)
Hedon Bloodrite
Hell Girls (delisted, 18+)
Hell Pie
Hellbound
HERO'S HOUR
Hidden & Dangerous 2: Courage Under Fire
Hidden & Dangerous: Action Pack
Hokko Life
Hollow Knight
Honey, I Joined a Cult
Hot Brass
Hotshot Racing
How to Sing to Open Your Heart
Hyper Gunsport
I’m not a Monster
Internet Cafe Simulator
Interplanetary: Enhanced Edition
Intravenous
Intruders: Hide and Seek
Iron Danger
Iron Harvest
Izmir: An Independence Simulator
Joggernauts
Joggernauts
JURASSIC WORLD EVOLUTION 2
Just Cause 3 XXL Edition
Just Cause 4 Complete Edition
JYDGE
Kerbal Space Program
Killsquad
King's Bounty II
Kraken Academy!!
Labirinto 2
Lacuna – A Sci-Fi Noir Adventure
Last Call BBS
Last Oasis
Late Shift
Lawn Mowing Simulator
Legend of Keepers
Leisure Suit Larry - Wet Dreams Don't Dry
Let Them Come
Life is Strange 2 Complete Season (incl. Mascot Bundle DLC)
Little Misfortune
Little Orpheus
Lords and Villeins
Lost Planet 3 Complete Pack
Lost Ruins
Lust for Darkness
Lust from Beyond: M Edition
MageQuit
Maid of Sker
Mainlining
MEEPLE STATION
Meow Express
Merchant of the Skies
Metal: Hellsinger
Metro Exodus
Midnight Fight Express
Midnight Ghost Hunt
Mini Metro
Mini motor Racing EVO (delisted)
MirrorMoon EP
Monster Prom 2: Monster Camp
Monster Sanctuary
Moon Hunters
Moonlighter
Morbid: The Seven Acolytes
Motorcycle Mechanic Simulator 2021
Moving Out - Movers in Paradise DLC
Mr. Prepper
Murder by Numbers
My Friendly Neighborhood
My Time At Portia
Mythic Ocean
Nadir: A Grimdark Deckbuilder
Necromunda Hired Gun
NecroWorm
NeuroVoider
Neverinth
Neverout
New Super Luckys Tale
Nickelodeon All Star Brawl
Nobody Saves the World
Non-Stop Raiders
Northgard
Oaken
Obduction
Of Orcs And Men
Offworld Trading Company
OLLIOLLI WORLD - RAD EDITION
One Hand Clapping
Orbital Racer
Othercide
Out of Reach: Treasure Royale
Outward Definitive Edition
Outward The Soroboreans DLC + soundtrack (DLC only)
Override
Overture
Ozymandias
Paint the Town Red
Partial Control
Patch Quest
Pathfinder: Kingmaker Enhanced Plus Edition (NA only) + Royal Ascension DLC + The Wildcards DLC
Pathfinder: Wrath of the Righteous - Enhanced Edition
Pathfinders: Memories
Pathway
Peaky Blinders: Mastermind
Per Asperatrar
Pilgrims
Pill Baby
Pixplode
Planet TD
PlataGO!
Port Royale 3 Gold
PowerBeatsVR
Prodeus
Project CARS (delisted)
Project Chemistry
Project Nimbus: Complete Edition
Project Wingman
Propagation VR - Co-op
Propnight
Proteus
Proteus
PULSAR: The Lost Colony
Pumped BMX +
Quadrata
Quantum Break
Radio Commander
Ragnarock
Railroad Corporation
Railroad Tycoon 3
Rain World
Rebel Inc: Escalation
Rebound Dodgeball Evolved
Re-Legion
Remnant: From the Ashes - Complete Edition
Remnants of Naezith
Resident Evil Revelations
Resident Evil Revelations 2
Reventure
Revita
RIOT - Civil Unrest
Road 96
Roarr! Jurassic Edition
ROGUE LORDS
Roguebook
RollerCoaster Tycoon 2: Triple Thrill Pack
RPG Maker VX
Rubber Bandits
RUINER
Rym 9000
Saints Row
Sakura Dungeon, 18+
Sakura Knight, 18+
Sakura MMO, 18+
Sakura Knight 2, 18+
Sakura Knight 3, 18+
Sakura MMO 2, 18+
Sakura MMO 3, 18+
Sakura MMO Extra, 18+
Sakura Succubus, 18+
Sakura Succubus 2, 18+
Sakura Succubus 3, 18+
Sakura Succubus 4, 18+
Sakura Succubus 5, 18+
Sakura Succubus 6, 18+
Sakura Swim Club, 18+
Sam & Max: Devil's Playhouse
Scorn
SCP : Secret Files
Secret Neighbor: Hello Neighbor Multiplayer
SEUM: Speedrunners from Hell
Shadow of the Tomb Raider
Shady Part of Me
Shing!
Shotgun King: The Final Checkmate
Sid Meier's Railroads!
Siege Survival: Gloria Victis
Skullgirls 2nd Encore
Slinger VR
Smile For Me
Sniper Elite 3
Sniper Elite 4
Snowtopia
Sorcerer King: Rivals
Soul Searching
Soulblight
Souldiers
Soulstice
Spellcaster University
Spirit Hunter: Death Mark
Spirit of the Island
Stacking
Starbound
Starpoint Gemini Warlords
State of Decay: Year-One Survival Edition (steam inventory gift)
Stirring Abyss
Strider
Stygian: Reign of the Old Ones
SuchArt!
Sunlight
Super Chicken Catchers
Super Magbot
Super Star (delisted)
SUPERHOT: MIND CONTROL DELETE
Surviving the Aftermath
Sword Legacy Omen
SYMMETRYro
Tails Noir
Tainted Grail: Conquest
Telefrag VR
TEMTEM
The Amazing American Circus
The Ascent
The Beast Inside
The Dark Pictures Anthology: Man of Medan
The Dark Pictures Anthology: House of Ashes
The Dark Pictures Anthology: Little Hope
The Deed II
The Dungeon Of Naheulbeuk: The Amulet Of Chaos
The Golf Club 2019 Featuring PGA TOUR
The Gunk
The Legend of Tianding
The Life and Suffering of Sir Brante
The Long Dark
The Outer Worlds: Spacer's Choice Edition
The Pale Beyond
The Quarry
The Red Lantern
The Serpent Rogue
The USB Stick Found in the Grass
The Witcher: Enhanced Edition (steam inventory gift)
The Witness
The Wolf Among Us
There Is No Light
Ticket to Ride
Tin Can
Titan Souls
TOEM
Tools Up!
Townsmen - A Kingdom Rebuilt
Traffic Jams
Train Station Renovation
Treasure Hunter Simulator
Trek to Yomi
Tribes of Midgard
Turbo Overkill
Twilight Struggle
Twin Mirror
Two Point Campus
Ultimate Chicken Horse
Underland: The Climb
Unity of Command: Stalingrad Campaign
UnMetal
Vanishing Realms
War for the Overworld
Warhammer 40,000: Chaos Gate - Daemonhunters
Warhammer 40,000: Space Wolf
Warhammer 40,000: Space Wolf - Drenn Redblade
Warhammer 40,000: Space Wolf - Exceptional Card Pack
Warhammer 40,000: Space Wolf - Saga of the Great Awakening
Warhammer 40,000: Space Wolf - Wrath of the Damned
Warhammer Age of Sigmar: Realms of Ruin Ultimate Edition
WARSAW
We Happy Few Season Pass
We Were Here Too
Where the Water Tastes Like Wine
White Noise 2
Who Pressed Mute on Uncle Marcus?
Wizard of Legend
Wobbledogs
Worms Rumble
WRC 7
WWE 2K BATTLEGROUNDS
XCOM 2
X-COM: Complete Pack (including X-COM: UFO Defense + X-COM: Apocalypse + X-COM: Enforcer + X-COM: Interceptor + X-COM: Terror from the Deep)
XCOM: Enemy Unknown Complete Edition
XEL
X-Morph: Defense Complete Pack (including X-Morph: Defense + X-Morph: Defense - European Assault + X-Morph: Defense - Survival Of The Fittest + X-Morph: Defense - Last Bastion)
Yakuza 4 Remastered
Zoeti
ΔV: Rings of Saturn
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Other platforms:
Command & Conquer Remastered Collection (ORIGINkey)
Liberated (GOG key)
STAR WARS: Squadrons (Origin)
Wanderlust Travel Stories (GOG key)
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My Wishlist: (prefer gift links)

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Hi-Fi RUSH
DIABLO 4 PC
Street Fighter 6
Rocket League
Poker night
poker night 2
Game of Thrones - A Telltale Games Series
NBA 2k16, 2k17
WWE 2K16, 2K17, 2K18, 2K19, 2K20, 2k23
The Last Remnant
Doctor Who: The Adventure Games
Hell let loose
Crusader kings 3
Spiderman remaster
F1 2020, 2019, 2017, 2016, 2012, 2011
ACE COMBAT ASSAULT HORIZON Enhanced Edition
DARK SOULS
DARK SOULS II
DARK SOULS III
Pistol Whip
CLANNAD
Automobilista 2
Gears 5
monster hunter rise
Tiny tina's wonderlands chaotic great edition
Spyro Reignited Trilogy
DIRT 5
Fable Anniversary
Nioh 2 COMPLETE
Victoria 3
HUMANKIND
A Hat in Time
VTOL VR
rFactor 2
ZERO Sievert
Barotrauma
monster hunter world
fight in tight space
Life Is Strange Complete Season
phoenix wright
LOOT RIVER
satisfactory
Gotham Knights
Rivals of Aether
Vrising
DOOM Eternal
Deep Rock Galactic
LegionTD 2
Dead by Daylight
quantum break
slay the spire
Yakuza kiwami 2
Stardew Valley
resident evil village
Eiyuden Chronicle: Rising
stray blade
clash: Artifacts of chaos
Valfaris: Mecha Therion
The Quarry
9 Years of Shadows

other humble choice title games

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Note: for some games from humble I might ask for gift links. There is a rumor 3 years ago that humble bans users due to making gift links only. I make gift links every week, never have any issues. I have no idea why humble would ever ban its customers for using a feature it provides to its custimers.

Here is a guide how to make gift links from support.Humblebundle.com: https://support.humblebundle.com/hc/en-us/articles/202712460-Purchasing-and-Sending-Gifts

I do not believe humble teaches you how to make gift links, so it can ban you, lol

I don't have anyone that I can talk to about this and I really need neutral opinions.
I 20f have been with my boyfriend 20m for about two years at this point. We've been friends for years before we started dating.
Over the past few weeks I noticed my lack of affection towards him. I don't feel like talking to him and I don't really want to be touched either. During the week we barely see each other because of work and uni and only see each other on friday nights. When those days come around, I tense up and catch myself unhappy about the fact that he's coming over, since it's usually always the same routine. He comes over, we cook (which only ever I pay for), watch a movie and sleep with each other if I decide it's okay. It sounds really harsh that I say "I decide" but I genuinely do not feel the urge to do so most days. It's not that it's terrible sex or one sided pleasure, I just feel so obligated to do so that it's no fun anymore. We've talked about seeing each other more often no strings attached but it eventually never works out because of schedules.
Another reason I struggle is his mom. She wallows in self pity because of her divorce literal years ago. He always has to keep her happy and entertained. It even gets so far that he goes running home even though we have set plans because his mom doesn't feel like cooking or walking the dog.
She blames me for ruining their trips because I got sick. I was never supposed to come but she just cancelled everything. When I once was at his house on my birthday she asked me about my plans for that night. When I told her that I was going out with some friends she just said "Well then let's hope you don't get sick again and we have to cancel our trip a second time this year." Another trip I was never meant to go on. I know that I'm not in relationship with HER but the fact that he didn't say anything still doesn't sit right with me.
He really tries to be involved in my life, whereas I try and keep everything separate; family, hobbies, boyfriend. It's what comforts me the most and I also just really feel like he's still too shy to match my very outgoing family after two years.
He's very caring and loving towards me and we respect each others boundaries but I can't help but feel like I'd rather go back to just being friends. The thought's been crossing my mind for some time now and I genuinely don't know if that's just something everyone goes through in a relationship. I used to be very jealous of seeing him with other girls but now it doesn't really bother me anymore. Some days when it's really bad, I hope he cheats on me so that I could leave him without being the cause.
So many things about him start to annoy me. It starts with the noise he makes when drinking water or sneezing and goes all the way to how he speaks foreign languages. Super dumb, I know!! But I just can't help it. I also feel like im neurodivergent for many other reason but the noises he makes-- UGHH
What I also find hard to handle is his attitude with money. We don't really go out together, maybe once every two months. It's never crazy expenses, usually under 40-50$, which is less than what I spend on our cooking every weekend. When we go out I always offer to pay or split the bill. He will then claim it's fine and that he's taking care of it, but when I asked him if he'd like to go to the fair, I was expected to pay for everything. I know I was the one that brought it up and usually it wouldn't be an issue but it was the way he said "why are you putting away your wallet, you have to pay for my food now." without even so much as a smirk that made me feel like a piggy bank or a way to another cheap meal.
My biggest issue would definitely be seeing him upset and likely losing him as my friend.
If I told him how I feel he'd not sleep for ages and love bomb me. Not in a toxic, but in a probably desperate way.
We've been each others firsts in so many different ways and he always talks about how he wants to marry me. I feel terrible that the thought of breaking up with him frequents my mind that much but I also feel like I owe it to myself to do whats best for me.
Thank you in advance!