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2024.05.16 05:50 Juanox78 [WTS] 👍👍"📍Mercadillo Store📍"👍👍 ▶️ CCU'ed LTI Ships ► A1 Spirit LTI $180 Vanguard Warden LTI $215 Retaliator Bomber LTI $230 Vanguard Harbinger LTI $235 Eclipse LTI $240 Redeemer LTI $245 Hammerhead $390 ▶️ many more upgrades & ships inside
May 15/16 2024
👍👍 👋 Welcome citizens, come and take a look at the items I have to offer and feel free to send me a PM if you have any questions before buying.
About me:
RSI: Juannox - Discord: Juannox
- I don't use second hand credits and I don't purshase accounts, all the items I sell are directly from my own account using my own funds, so there is no risk on my side.
🌎🌍🌏 I'am accepting US$ and EU€ from anywhere in the world using paypal or Cryptocurrencies: BTC, ETH, LTC, USDT, BUSDT etc.
my local time is GMT -5
⬇️☀️ SOME ITEMS AND PAINTS ☀️⬇️
HOW TO BUY:
submitted by Juanox78 to Starcitizen_trades [link] [comments]
👍👍 👋 Welcome citizens, come and take a look at the items I have to offer and feel free to send me a PM if you have any questions before buying.
About me:
RSI: Juannox - Discord: Juannox
- I'm a backer since Jan-2015, I'm an active user in the comunity, my goal is to bring all items to you at best possible prices from me, all funds will be used to support the proyect again,
- More than 3000 real trades in this subreddit without any problem.
- I don't use second hand credits and I don't purshase accounts, all the items I sell are directly from my own account using my own funds, so there is no risk on my side.
🌎🌍🌏 I'am accepting US$ and EU€ from anywhere in the world using paypal or Cryptocurrencies: BTC, ETH, LTC, USDT, BUSDT etc.
my local time is GMT -5
- Listed prices includes paypal fees.
- Verified paypal users only
- Confirmed RSI account only, (check HERE on how to)
- Items over $35 only to buyers with some reddit history (crypto has no limits)
- Check instructions on "how to buy" at the end of this post.
⬇️ STANDALONE SHIPS ⬇️
- If you don't find a ship in the list, feel free to ask me.- All the ships listed here are built with my own funds without using second-hand credits, so there's no risk here.
| SHIP | Insurance - Attributes | Price | Availability |
|---|---|---|---|
| SPARTAN | OC - LTI | $90 | ✔️ YES |
| NOMAD | OC - LTI | $90 | ✔️ YES |
| CUTTER | OC - LTI | $70 | ✔️ YES |
| SABRE | CCU'ed - LTI | $155 | ✔️ YES |
| FREELANCER MIS | CCU'ed - LTI | $160 | ✔️ YES |
| CUTLASS BLUE | CCU'ed - LTI | $160 | ✔️ YES |
| F7C- SUPER HORNET | CCU'ed - LTI | $170 | ✔️ YES |
| A1 SPIRIT | CCU'ed - LTI | $180 | ✔️ YES |
| HURRICANE | CCU'ed - LTI | $185 | ✔️ YES |
| DEFENDER | CCU'ed - LTI | $190 | ✔️ YES |
| SAN TOK YAI | CCU'ed - LTI | $195 | ✔️ YES |
| SCORPIUS | CCU'ed - LTI | $200 | ✔️ YES |
| APOLLO TRIAGE | CCU'ed - LTI | $210 | ✔️ YES |
| ARES INFERNO | CCU'ed - LTI | $215 | ✔️ YES |
| ARES ION | CCU'ed - LTI | $215 | ✔️ YES |
| 400i | CCU'ed - LTI | $215 | ✔️ YES |
| VANGUARD WARDEN | CCU'ed - LTI | $215 | ✔️ YES |
| CORSAIR BIS 2953 | CCU'ed - LTI | $220 | ✔️ YES |
| MERCURY BIS 2952 | CCU'ed - LTI | $225 | ✔️ YES |
| APOLLO MEDIVAC | CCU'ed - LTI | $230 | ✔️ YES |
| RETALIATOR BOMBER | CCU'ed - LTI | $230 | ✔️ YES |
| VANGUARD HARBINGER | CCU'ed - LTI | $235 | ✔️ YES |
| ECLIPSE | CCU'ed - LTI | $240 | ✔️ YES |
| CATERPILLAR | CCU'ed - LTI | $245 | ✔️ YES |
| REDEEMER | CCU'ed - LTI | $245 | ✔️ YES |
| ENDEAVOR | CCU'ed - LTI | $255 | ✔️ YES |
| CRUCIBLE | CCU'ed - LTI | $255 | ✔️ YES |
| VALKYRIE | CCU'ed - LTI | $265 | ✔️ YES |
| GALAXY | CCU'ed - LTI | $270 | ✔️ YES |
| RECLAIMER | CCU'ed - LTI | $285 | ✔️ YES |
| GENESIS | CCU'ed - LTI | $285 | ✔️ YES |
| C2 HERCULES | CCU'ed - LTI | $285 | ✔️ YES |
| 600i EXPLORER BIS 2953 | CCU'ed - LTI | $320 | ✔️ YES |
| HULL C | CCU'ed - LTI | $325 | ✔️ YES |
| M2 HERCULES | CCU'ed - LTI | $335 | ✔️ YES |
| HULL D | CCU'ed - LTI | $340 | ✔️ YES |
| LIBERATOR | CCU'ed - LTI | $345 | ✔️ YES |
| ARRASTRA | CCU'ed - LTI | $345 | ✔️ YES |
| CARRACK | CCU'ed - LTI | $345 | ✔️ YES |
| MERCHANTMAN | CCU'ed - LTI | $350 | ✔️ YES |
| ORION | CCU'ed - LTI | $350 | ✔️ YES |
| PERSEUS | CCU'ed - LTI | $370 | ✔️ YES |
| ODYSEY | CCU'ed - LTI | $380 | ✔️ YES |
| HAMERHEAD | CCU'ed - LTI | $390 | ✔️ YES |
| NAUTILUS | CCU'ed - LTI | $390 | ✔️ YES |
| POLARIS | CCU'ed - LTI | $395 | ✔️ YES |
⬇️🤑 Saving Cost WARBOND/Pre-Price UPGRADES 🤑⬇️
| FROM | 📌 | TO 👇 | Insurance | Price |
|---|---|---|---|---|
| Reliant Mako | ➡️ | Freelancer | - | $10 |
| Nova | ➡️ | Cutlass Red | - | $10 |
| Hornet Tracker | Prospector | - | $10 | |
| Sabre | ➡️ | A1 Spirit | - | $15 |
| Hornet Tracker | ➡️ | SRV | - | $16 |
| Hull B | ➡️ | SRV | - | $16 |
| Defender | ➡️ | Corsair | 120 | $15 |
| Railen | ➡️ | Corsair | 120 | $15 |
| F7C-M Super Hornet Heartseeker | ➡️ | Defender | - | $12 |
| Retaliator Bomber | ➡️ | Eclipse | 120 | $15 |
| Prowler | ➡️ | Hull C | - | $25 |
| F7C-M Super Hornet | ➡️ | Hurricane | - | $15 |
| Liberator | ➡️ | Merchantman | - | $38 |
| Vanguard Hoplite | ➡️ | Mercury | 120 | $12 |
| Hull D | ➡️ | Orion | 120 | $56 |
| Perseus | ➡️ | Polaris | 120 | $56 |
| Reclaimer | ➡️ | Prowler | 120 | $25 |
| Prospector | ➡️ | Sabre | 120 | $12 |
| A1 Spirit | ➡️ | San'tok.yāi | 120 | $20 |
| Starfarer Gemini | ➡️ | Valkyrie | - | $25 |
| Razor | ➡️ | Vulture | - | $15 |
⬇️☀️ Standard UPGRADES ☀️⬇️
| FROM | 📌 | TO 👇 | Price | Availability |
|---|---|---|---|---|
| Aurora MR | ➡️ | MPUV C | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| Mustang Alpha | ➡️ | MPUV C | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| Aurora MR | ➡️ | P-72 Archimedes | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| HoverQuad | ➡️ | P-72 Archimedes | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Aurora MR | ➡️ | Ranger CV | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| HoverQuad | ➡️ | Ranger CV | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Aurora MR | ➡️ | Ranger RC | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| HoverQuad | ➡️ | Ranger RC | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Aurora LX | ➡️ | Ranger TR | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Dragonfly Black | ➡️ | Nox | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| P-72 Archimedes | ➡️ | X1 | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| Dragonfly Black | ➡️ | X1 | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| Dragonfly Yellowjacket | ➡️ | X1 | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| STV | ➡️ | X1 | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| C8X Pisces Expedition | ➡️ | Cutter Rambler | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| Cutter | ➡️ | Cutter Rambler | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| Mule | ➡️ | Cutter Rambler | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| C8X Pisces Expedition | ➡️ | Cutter Scout | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| Cutter | ➡️ | Cutter Scout | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| Mule | ➡️ | Cutter Scout | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| STV | ➡️ | X1 Velocity | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| Cutter | ➡️ | X1 Velocity | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| Mule | ➡️ | X1 Velocity | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| X1 | ➡️ | X1 Velocity | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| 100i | ➡️ | Fury | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| Cutter Rambler | ➡️ | Fury | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| Cutter Scout | ➡️ | Fury | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| Ursa | ➡️ | Fury | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| 100i | ➡️ | Fury LX | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| Cutter Rambler | ➡️ | Fury LX | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| Cutter Scout | ➡️ | Fury LX | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| Ursa | ➡️ | Fury LX | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| 100i | ➡️ | Fury MX | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| Cutter Rambler | ➡️ | Fury MX | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| Cutter Scout | ➡️ | Fury MX | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| Ursa | ➡️ | Fury MX | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| 100i | ➡️ | Mustang Gamma | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Cutter | ➡️ | X1 Force | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| 100i | ➡️ | X1 Force | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| X1 Velocity | ➡️ | X1 Force | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Cyclone | ➡️ | Lynx | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| Fury | ➡️ | Lynx | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| ROC | ➡️ | Lynx | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| 300i | ➡️ | C8R Pisces | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| Avenger Stalker | ➡️ | C8R Pisces | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| 125a | ➡️ | Cyclone RC | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| 300i | ➡️ | Cyclone RC | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| Avenger Stalker | ➡️ | Cyclone RC | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| 300i | ➡️ | Cyclone RN | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| Avenger Stalker | ➡️ | Cyclone RN | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| 300i | ➡️ | Cyclone TR | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| Avenger Stalker | ➡️ | Cyclone TR | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Avenger Stalker | ➡️ | G12a | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Avenger Stalker | ➡️ | Mustang Delta | $9 | 🔥 Last one! |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| 135c | ➡️ | Syulen | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| Reliant Kore | ➡️ | Syulen | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| 325a | ➡️ | Avenger Titan Renegade | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| 325a | ➡️ | Cyclone MT | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Reliant Kore | ➡️ | Reliant Tana | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| 325a | ➡️ | Reliant Tana | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| Syulen | ➡️ | Reliant Tana | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Arrow | ➡️ | Cyclone AA | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| 300i | ➡️ | Spartan | $25 | ✔️ YES |
| G12 | ➡️ | Spartan | $25 | 🔥 Last one! |
| G12r | ➡️ | Spartan | $25 | 🔥 Last one! |
| Arrow | ➡️ | Spartan | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Nomad | ➡️ | Avenger Warlock | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Nomad | ➡️ | Herald | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Arrow | ➡️ | Reliant Sen | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| Nomad | ➡️ | Reliant Sen | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| Spartan | ➡️ | Reliant Sen | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Arrow | ➡️ | Storm | $19 | ✔️ YES |
| Nomad | ➡️ | Storm | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| Reliant Sen | ➡️ | Storm | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Gladius | ➡️ | Reliant Mako | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Reliant Sen | ➡️ | M50 | $19 | ✔️ YES |
| Gladius | ➡️ | M50 | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| Hull A | ➡️ | M50 | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| Reliant Mako | ➡️ | M50 | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Gladius | ➡️ | Storm AA | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| Storm | ➡️ | Storm AA | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Hull A | ➡️ | Buccaneer | $25 | ✔️ YES |
| Hawk | ➡️ | Buccaneer | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Gladius | ➡️ | Centurion | $25 | ✔️ YES |
| Hull A | ➡️ | Centurion | $25 | 🔥 Last one! |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Gladius | ➡️ | Talon | $30 | ✔️ YES |
| Reliant Mako | ➡️ | Talon | $25 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Arrow | ➡️ | Talon Shrike | $46 | ✔️ YES |
| Gladius | ➡️ | Talon Shrike | $30 | ✔️ YES |
| Reliant Mako | ➡️ | Talon Shrike | $25 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Freelancer | ➡️ | Legionnaire | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| M50 | ➡️ | Nova | $25 | 🔥 2 Left! |
| Cutlass Black | ➡️ | Nova | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| Freelancer | ➡️ | Nova | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Cutlass Black | ➡️ | 350r | $19 | ✔️ YES |
| Talon | ➡️ | 350r | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| Talon Shrike | ➡️ | 350r | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| Legionnaire | ➡️ | 350r | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| Nova | ➡️ | 350r | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Cutlass Black | ➡️ | C1 Spirit | $19 | ✔️ YES |
| Freelancer | ➡️ | C1 Spirit | $19 | ✔️ YES |
| Nova | ➡️ | C1 Spirit | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| F7C Hornet | ➡️ | Cutlass Red | $30 | 🔥 Last one! |
| Freelancer | ➡️ | Cutlass Red | $30 | 🔥 Last one! |
| F7C-S Hornet Ghost | ➡️ | Cutlass Red | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Cutlass Red | ➡️ | Hull B | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| Freelancer DUR | ➡️ | Hull B | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| F7C-R Hornet Tracker | ➡️ | Razor | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| Hull B | ➡️ | Razor | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Ballista | ➡️ | E1 Spirit | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| Razor | ➡️ | E1 Spirit | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| F7C-R Hornet Tracker | ➡️ | Expanse | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| F7C-R Hornet Tracker | ➡️ | Razor LX | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| Razor | ➡️ | Razor LX | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Razor | ➡️ | Zeus Mk II CL | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Razor | ➡️ | Zeus Mk II ES | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Razor | ➡️ | Razor EX | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| Freelancer MAX | ➡️ | Razor EX | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| Mantis | ➡️ | Razor EX | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| Razor LX | ➡️ | Razor EX | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Prospector | ➡️ | Gladiator | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Hull B | ➡️ | Khartu-Al | $35 | ✔️ YES |
| Prospector | ➡️ | Khartu-Al | $19 | ✔️ YES |
| Gladiator | ➡️ | Khartu-Al | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Freelancer MAX | ➡️ | Sabre | $25 | 🔥 2 Left! |
| Prospector | ➡️ | Sabre | $19 | ✔️ YES |
| Razor EX | ➡️ | Sabre | $19 | ✔️ YES |
| Gladiator | ➡️ | Sabre | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Cutlass Red | ➡️ | Cutlass Blue | $46 | ✔️ YES |
| Prospector | ➡️ | Cutlass Blue | $25 | ✔️ YES |
| Sabre | ➡️ | Cutlass Blue | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Prospector | ➡️ | F7C Hornet Wildfire | $25 | ✔️ YES |
| Razor EX | ➡️ | F7C Hornet Wildfire | $25 | ✔️ YES |
| Gladiator | ➡️ | F7C Hornet Wildfire | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| Khartu-Al | ➡️ | F7C Hornet Wildfire | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| Sabre | ➡️ | F7C Hornet Wildfire | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| E1 Spirit | ➡️ | Freelancer MIS | $30 | ✔️ YES |
| Prospector | ➡️ | Freelancer MIS | $25 | ✔️ YES |
| Razor EX | ➡️ | Freelancer MIS | $25 | ✔️ YES |
| Gladiator | ➡️ | Freelancer MIS | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| Khartu-Al | ➡️ | Freelancer MIS | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| Sabre | ➡️ | Freelancer MIS | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Prospector | ➡️ | F7C-M Super Hornet | $35 | ✔️ YES |
| Razor EX | ➡️ | F7C-M Super Hornet | $35 | ✔️ YES |
| Gladiator | ➡️ | F7C-M Super Hornet | $25 | ✔️ YES |
| Khartu-Al | ➡️ | F7C-M Super Hornet | $19 | ✔️ YES |
| Sabre | ➡️ | F7C-M Super Hornet | $19 | ✔️ YES |
| Cutlass Blue | ➡️ | F7C-M Super Hornet | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| F7C Hornet Wildfire | ➡️ | F7C-M Super Hornet | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| Freelancer MIS | ➡️ | F7C-M Super Hornet | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| Vulture | ➡️ | F7C-M Super Hornet | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Prospector | ➡️ | Sabre Comet | $35 | ✔️ YES |
| Vulture | ➡️ | Sabre Comet | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Vulture | ➡️ | Zeus Mk II MR | $19 | ✔️ YES |
| F7C-M Super Hornet | ➡️ | Zeus Mk II MR | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Prospector | ➡️ | A1 Spirit | $51 | ✔️ YES |
| Gladiator | ➡️ | A1 Spirit | $40 | ✔️ YES |
| Khartu-Al | ➡️ | A1 Spirit | $35 | ✔️ YES |
| Sabre | ➡️ | A1 Spirit | $35 | ✔️ YES |
| Vulture | ➡️ | A1 Spirit | $30 | ✔️ YES |
| Zeus Mk II MR | ➡️ | A1 Spirit | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Prospector | ➡️ | F7C-M Super Hornet Heartseeker | $51 | ✔️ YES |
| Sabre | ➡️ | F7C-M Super Hornet Heartseeker | $35 | ✔️ YES |
| Freelancer MIS | ➡️ | F7C-M Super Hornet Heartseeker | $30 | ✔️ YES |
| F7C-M Super Hornet | ➡️ | F7C-M Super Hornet Heartseeker | $19 | ✔️ YES |
| Sabre Comet | ➡️ | F7C-M Super Hornet Heartseeker | $19 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| F7C-M Super Hornet | ➡️ | Vulcan | $19 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Prospector | ➡️ | Hurricane | $62 | ✔️ YES |
| Sabre | ➡️ | Hurricane | $46 | ✔️ YES |
| Cutlass Blue | ➡️ | Hurricane | $40 | ✔️ YES |
| F7C-M Super Hornet | ➡️ | Hurricane | $30 | ✔️ YES |
| A1 Spirit | ➡️ | Hurricane | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| Constellation Taurus | ➡️ | Hurricane | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| F7C-M Super Hornet Heartseeker | ➡️ | Hurricane | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| Vulcan | ➡️ | Hurricane | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Prospector | ➡️ | Defender | $72 | ✔️ YES |
| Khartu-Al | ➡️ | Defender | $56 | 🔥 2 Left! |
| Sabre | ➡️ | Defender | $56 | ✔️ YES |
| Cutlass Blue | ➡️ | Defender | $51 | ✔️ YES |
| Freelancer MIS | ➡️ | Defender | $51 | ✔️ YES |
| F7C-M Super Hornet | ➡️ | Defender | $40 | ✔️ YES |
| Sabre Comet | ➡️ | Defender | $40 | ✔️ YES |
| Constellation Taurus | ➡️ | Defender | $25 | ✔️ YES |
| Hurricane | ➡️ | Defender | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| A1 Spirit | ➡️ | Terrapin | $25 | ✔️ YES |
| Constellation Taurus | ➡️ | Terrapin | $25 | ✔️ YES |
| F7C-M Super Hornet Heartseeker | ➡️ | Terrapin | $25 | ✔️ YES |
| Vulcan | ➡️ | Terrapin | $25 | ✔️ YES |
| Hurricane | ➡️ | Terrapin | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Prospector | ➡️ | Railen | $77 | ✔️ YES |
| Constellation Taurus | ➡️ | Railen | $30 | ✔️ YES |
| Vulcan | ➡️ | Railen | $30 | ✔️ YES |
| Defender | ➡️ | Railen | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Constellation Taurus | ➡️ | Scorpius Antares | $35 | ✔️ YES |
| F7C-M Super Hornet Heartseeker | ➡️ | Scorpius Antares | $35 | ✔️ YES |
| Hurricane | ➡️ | Scorpius Antares | $25 | ✔️ YES |
| Defender | ➡️ | Scorpius Antares | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| Terrapin | ➡️ | Scorpius Antares | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| Railen | ➡️ | Scorpius Antares | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Constellation Taurus | ➡️ | Cutlass Steel | $40 | ✔️ YES |
| Terrapin | ➡️ | Cutlass Steel | $19 | ✔️ YES |
| Scorpius Antares | ➡️ | Cutlass Steel | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| A1 Spirit | ➡️ | San'tok.yāi | $46 | ✔️ YES |
| Constellation Taurus | ➡️ | San'tok.yāi | $46 | ✔️ YES |
| Hurricane | ➡️ | San'tok.yāi | $35 | ✔️ YES |
| Defender | ➡️ | San'tok.yāi | $25 | ✔️ YES |
| Terrapin | ➡️ | San'tok.yāi | $25 | ✔️ YES |
| Scorpius Antares | ➡️ | San'tok.yāi | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| Cutlass Steel | ➡️ | San'tok.yāi | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Prospector | ➡️ | Scorpius | $93 | ✔️ YES |
| Sabre | ➡️ | Scorpius | $77 | ✔️ YES |
| Freelancer MIS | ➡️ | Scorpius | $72 | ✔️ YES |
| F7C-M Super Hornet | ➡️ | Scorpius | $62 | ✔️ YES |
| Sabre Comet | ➡️ | Scorpius | $62 | 🔥 2 Left! |
| Constellation Taurus | ➡️ | Scorpius | $46 | ✔️ YES |
| F7C-M Super Hornet Heartseeker | ➡️ | Scorpius | $46 | ✔️ YES |
| Hurricane | ➡️ | Scorpius | $35 | ✔️ YES |
| Defender | ➡️ | Scorpius | $25 | ✔️ YES |
| Terrapin | ➡️ | Scorpius | $25 | ✔️ YES |
| Scorpius Antares | ➡️ | Scorpius | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| Cutlass Steel | ➡️ | Scorpius | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Constellation Taurus | ➡️ | Vanguard Hoplite | $46 | ✔️ YES |
| Defender | ➡️ | Vanguard Hoplite | $25 | ✔️ YES |
| Railen | ➡️ | Vanguard Hoplite | $19 | ✔️ YES |
| Scorpius Antares | ➡️ | Vanguard Hoplite | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Constellation Taurus | ➡️ | 400i | $56 | ✔️ YES |
| Terrapin | ➡️ | 400i | $35 | ✔️ YES |
| Constellation Andromeda | ➡️ | 400i | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| San'tok.yāi | ➡️ | 400i | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| Scorpius | ➡️ | 400i | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| Vanguard Hoplite | ➡️ | 400i | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Constellation Andromeda | ➡️ | Apollo Triage | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| Scorpius | ➡️ | Apollo Triage | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Prospector | ➡️ | Ares Inferno | $104 | ✔️ YES |
| Sabre | ➡️ | Ares Inferno | $88 | ✔️ YES |
| Freelancer MIS | ➡️ | Ares Inferno | $83 | ✔️ YES |
| F7C-M Super Hornet | ➡️ | Ares Inferno | $72 | ✔️ YES |
| Sabre Comet | ➡️ | Ares Inferno | $72 | ✔️ YES |
| Constellation Taurus | ➡️ | Ares Inferno | $56 | ✔️ YES |
| F7C-M Super Hornet Heartseeker | ➡️ | Ares Inferno | $56 | ✔️ YES |
| Vulcan | ➡️ | Ares Inferno | $56 | ✔️ YES |
| Constellation Andromeda | ➡️ | Ares Inferno | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| San'tok.yāi | ➡️ | Ares Inferno | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| Scorpius | ➡️ | Ares Inferno | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Prospector | ➡️ | Ares Ion | $104 | ✔️ YES |
| Sabre | ➡️ | Ares Ion | $88 | ✔️ YES |
| Freelancer MIS | ➡️ | Ares Ion | $83 | ✔️ YES |
| F7C-M Super Hornet | ➡️ | Ares Ion | $72 | ✔️ YES |
| Sabre Comet | ➡️ | Ares Ion | $72 | ✔️ YES |
| Constellation Taurus | ➡️ | Ares Ion | $56 | ✔️ YES |
| F7C-M Super Hornet Heartseeker | ➡️ | Ares Ion | $56 | ✔️ YES |
| Vulcan | ➡️ | Ares Ion | $56 | ✔️ YES |
| Constellation Andromeda | ➡️ | Ares Ion | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| San'tok.yāi | ➡️ | Ares Ion | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| Scorpius | ➡️ | Ares Ion | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Defender | ➡️ | Corsair | $35 | ✔️ YES |
| Terrapin | ➡️ | Corsair | $35 | ✔️ YES |
| Constellation Andromeda | ➡️ | Corsair | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| San'tok.yāi | ➡️ | Corsair | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| Scorpius | ➡️ | Corsair | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| Vanguard Hoplite | ➡️ | Corsair | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| F7C-M Super Hornet Heartseeker | ➡️ | Mercury | $67 | ✔️ YES |
| Terrapin | ➡️ | Mercury | $46 | ✔️ YES |
| Constellation Andromeda | ➡️ | Mercury | $25 | ✔️ YES |
| San'tok.yāi | ➡️ | Mercury | $25 | ✔️ YES |
| Scorpius | ➡️ | Mercury | $25 | ✔️ YES |
| Vanguard Hoplite | ➡️ | Mercury | $25 | ✔️ YES |
| 400i | ➡️ | Mercury | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| Ares Inferno | ➡️ | Mercury | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| Ares Ion | ➡️ | Mercury | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| Corsair | ➡️ | Mercury | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Constellation Andromeda | ➡️ | Vanguard Warden | $25 | ✔️ YES |
| Scorpius | ➡️ | Vanguard Warden | $25 | ✔️ YES |
| 400i | ➡️ | Vanguard Warden | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| Ares Inferno | ➡️ | Vanguard Warden | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| Ares Ion | ➡️ | Vanguard Warden | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| Corsair | ➡️ | Vanguard Warden | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Constellation Andromeda | ➡️ | Apollo Medivac | $40 | ✔️ YES |
| 400i | ➡️ | Apollo Medivac | $30 | ✔️ YES |
| Apollo Triage | ➡️ | Apollo Medivac | $30 | ✔️ YES |
| Corsair | ➡️ | Apollo Medivac | $30 | ✔️ YES |
| Mercury | ➡️ | Apollo Medivac | $19 | ✔️ YES |
| Vanguard Warden | ➡️ | Apollo Medivac | $19 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Constellation Andromeda | ➡️ | Blade | $40 | 🔥 2 Left! |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Constellation Andromeda | ➡️ | Retaliator Bomber | $40 | ✔️ YES |
| Scorpius | ➡️ | Retaliator Bomber | $40 | 🔥 Last one! |
| 400i | ➡️ | Retaliator Bomber | $30 | ✔️ YES |
| Ares Inferno | ➡️ | Retaliator Bomber | $30 | ✔️ YES |
| Ares Ion | ➡️ | Retaliator Bomber | $30 | ✔️ YES |
| Corsair | ➡️ | Retaliator Bomber | $30 | ✔️ YES |
| Mercury | ➡️ | Retaliator Bomber | $19 | ✔️ YES |
| Vanguard Warden | ➡️ | Retaliator Bomber | $19 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Constellation Andromeda | ➡️ | Vanguard Sentinel | $40 | ✔️ YES |
| 400i | ➡️ | Vanguard Sentinel | $30 | ✔️ YES |
| Ares Ion | ➡️ | Vanguard Sentinel | $30 | ✔️ YES |
| Corsair | ➡️ | Vanguard Sentinel | $30 | ✔️ YES |
| Mercury | ➡️ | Vanguard Sentinel | $19 | ✔️ YES |
| Vanguard Warden | ➡️ | Vanguard Sentinel | $19 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Constellation Andromeda | ➡️ | Vanguard Harbinger | $56 | ✔️ YES |
| Mercury | ➡️ | Vanguard Harbinger | $35 | ✔️ YES |
| Vanguard Warden | ➡️ | Vanguard Harbinger | $35 | ✔️ YES |
| Retaliator Bomber | ➡️ | Vanguard Harbinger | $19 | ✔️ YES |
| Vanguard Sentinel | ➡️ | Vanguard Harbinger | $19 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Constellation Andromeda | ➡️ | Eclipse | $67 | ✔️ YES |
| Mercury | ➡️ | Eclipse | $46 | ✔️ YES |
| Vanguard Warden | ➡️ | Eclipse | $46 | 🔥 Last one! |
| Retaliator Bomber | ➡️ | Eclipse | $30 | ✔️ YES |
| Vanguard Sentinel | ➡️ | Eclipse | $30 | ✔️ YES |
| Vanguard Harbinger | ➡️ | Eclipse | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Constellation Andromeda | ➡️ | Starfarer | $67 | 🔥 Last one! |
| Mercury | ➡️ | Starfarer | $46 | 🔥 Last one! |
| Vanguard Harbinger | ➡️ | Starfarer | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Constellation Andromeda | ➡️ | Caterpillar | $99 | ✔️ YES |
| 400i | ➡️ | Caterpillar | $88 | ✔️ YES |
| Mercury | ➡️ | Caterpillar | $77 | ✔️ YES |
| Vanguard Warden | ➡️ | Caterpillar | $77 | ✔️ YES |
| Retaliator Bomber | ➡️ | Caterpillar | $62 | ✔️ YES |
| Vanguard Sentinel | ➡️ | Caterpillar | $62 | ✔️ YES |
| Vanguard Harbinger | ➡️ | Caterpillar | $46 | ✔️ YES |
| Constellation Aquila | ➡️ | Caterpillar | $19 | ✔️ YES |
| MOLE | ➡️ | Caterpillar | $19 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Mercury | ➡️ | Redeemer | $77 | ✔️ YES |
| Vanguard Warden | ➡️ | Redeemer | $77 | ✔️ YES |
| Constellation Aquila | ➡️ | Redeemer | $19 | ✔️ YES |
| MOLE | ➡️ | Redeemer | $19 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Constellation Aquila | ➡️ | Starfarer Gemini | $30 | ✔️ YES |
| MOLE | ➡️ | Starfarer Gemini | $30 | ✔️ YES |
| Caterpillar | ➡️ | Starfarer Gemini | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| Redeemer | ➡️ | Starfarer Gemini | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| MOLE | ➡️ | Crucible | $40 | ✔️ YES |
| Caterpillar | ➡️ | Crucible | $25 | ✔️ YES |
| Starfarer Gemini | ➡️ | Crucible | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| MOLE | ➡️ | Endeavor | $40 | ✔️ YES |
| Caterpillar | ➡️ | Endeavor | $25 | ✔️ YES |
| Redeemer | ➡️ | Endeavor | $25 | ✔️ YES |
| Starfarer Gemini | ➡️ | Endeavor | $14 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Constellation Aquila | ➡️ | Valkyrie | $67 | 🔥 Last one! |
| MOLE | ➡️ | Valkyrie | $67 | ✔️ YES |
| Caterpillar | ➡️ | Valkyrie | $51 | ✔️ YES |
| Redeemer | ➡️ | Valkyrie | $51 | ✔️ YES |
| Starfarer Gemini | ➡️ | Valkyrie | $40 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Valkyrie | ➡️ | Galaxy | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| MOLE | ➡️ | C2 Hercules | $93 | ✔️ YES |
| Starfarer Gemini | ➡️ | C2 Hercules | $67 | ✔️ YES |
| Glaive | ➡️ | C2 Hercules | $56 | ✔️ YES |
| Valkyrie | ➡️ | C2 Hercules | $30 | ✔️ YES |
| Galaxy | ➡️ | C2 Hercules | $25 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| MOLE | ➡️ | Genesis | $93 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Valkyrie | ➡️ | Reclaimer | $30 | ✔️ YES |
| Galaxy | ➡️ | Reclaimer | $25 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Valkyrie | ➡️ | 600i Touring | $67 | 🔥 Last one! |
| C2 Hercules | ➡️ | 600i Touring | $40 | ✔️ YES |
| Reclaimer | ➡️ | 600i Touring | $40 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Constellation Aquila | ➡️ | Prowler | $136 | ✔️ YES |
| Valkyrie | ➡️ | Prowler | $72 | ✔️ YES |
| C2 Hercules | ➡️ | Prowler | $46 | ✔️ YES |
| Reclaimer | ➡️ | Prowler | $46 | ✔️ YES |
| 600i Touring | ➡️ | Prowler | $9 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| C2 Hercules | ➡️ | 600i Explorer | $83 | 🔥 2 Left! |
| 600i Touring | ➡️ | 600i Explorer | $46 | ✔️ YES |
| Prowler | ➡️ | 600i Explorer | $40 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| MOLE | ➡️ | Hull C | $199 | ✔️ YES |
| Prowler | ➡️ | Hull C | $67 | ✔️ YES |
| 600i Explorer | ➡️ | Hull C | $30 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| MOLE | ➡️ | M2 Hercules | $220 | ✔️ YES |
| C2 Hercules | ➡️ | M2 Hercules | $130 | ✔️ YES |
| 600i Explorer | ➡️ | M2 Hercules | $51 | ✔️ YES |
| Hull C | ➡️ | M2 Hercules | $25 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| M2 Hercules | ➡️ | Arrastra | $62 | ✔️ YES |
| Hull D | ➡️ | Arrastra | $30 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| M2 Hercules | ➡️ | Liberator | $62 | ✔️ YES |
| Hull D | ➡️ | Liberator | $30 | 🔥 2 Left! |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Valkyrie | ➡️ | Carrack | $241 | ✔️ YES |
| Genesis | ➡️ | Carrack | $215 | 🔥 Last one! |
| Prowler | ➡️ | Carrack | $173 | ✔️ YES |
| 600i Explorer | ➡️ | Carrack | $136 | ✔️ YES |
| M2 Hercules | ➡️ | Carrack | $88 | ✔️ YES |
| Arrastra | ➡️ | Carrack | $30 | ✔️ YES |
| Liberator | ➡️ | Carrack | $30 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Prowler | ➡️ | Merchantman | $225 | ✔️ YES |
| 600i Explorer | ➡️ | Merchantman | $188 | ✔️ YES |
| M2 Hercules | ➡️ | Merchantman | $141 | ✔️ YES |
| Liberator | ➡️ | Merchantman | $83 | ✔️ YES |
| Carrack | ➡️ | Merchantman | $56 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Carrack | ➡️ | Orion | $56 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Carrack | ➡️ | Perseus | $83 | ✔️ YES |
| Merchantman | ➡️ | Perseus | $30 | ✔️ YES |
| Orion | ➡️ | Perseus | $30 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Carrack | ➡️ | Odyssey | $109 | ✔️ YES |
| Perseus | ➡️ | Odyssey | $30 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Carrack | ➡️ | Hammerhead | $136 | 🔥 Last one! |
| Carrack Expedition w/C8X | ➡️ | Hammerhead | $88 | 🔥 2 Left! |
| Merchantman | ➡️ | Hammerhead | $83 | ✔️ YES |
| Perseus | ➡️ | Hammerhead | $56 | ✔️ YES |
| Odyssey | ➡️ | Hammerhead | $30 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
| Merchantman | ➡️ | Nautilus | $83 | 🔥 Last one! |
| Perseus | ➡️ | Nautilus | $56 | 🔥 2 Left! |
| Odyssey | ➡️ | Nautilus | $30 | ✔️ YES |
| - | 📌 | TO 👇 | ||
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2024.05.16 05:44 DrollerGZB_770 Did the world and WW2 veterans at the time of the Korean War think it would escalate into World War 3 during 1950-1953?
In anticipation for Indy Neidell’s upcoming series where he’ll be doing a real time coverage of the Korean War (1950-1953), I’m wondering how many people in the world at the time of when the Korean War was being fought thought that this small regional conflict in East Asia could potentially escalate into WW3 especially considering that China got involved, there’s an coalition of allied nations fighting on behest of the ROK, the Soviets sent in fighter pilots dressed in DPRK/Chinese flight suits, and General MacArthur threatened to create a “sea of radioactive cobalt” alongside the Manchurian border using nuclear bombs previously used in WW2. Obviously in hindsight we now know it was one of the first proxy wars in the Cold War between the US and USSR but I’m genuinely curious how many people, especially WW2 veterans, in the early 1950s thought that the Korean War would escalate into yet another major global conflict considering 5 years earlier the deadliest war in human history just recently ended. Feel free to include perspectives and media from as many nations as possible (e.g. USA, USSR, East Germany, West Germany, UK, France, Japan, China, etc.)
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2024.05.16 05:44 athenasolives HanGu (Years of Intoxication) Song Compilation
One thing that I really enjoy when getting into stories is coming up with song compilations/playlists that remind of the work, the characters, and/or the ship (which I guess could be considered "fanwork" in some respect? But I was also considering the "appreciation" flair as well. Please let me know which is more fitting!). I have been working on creating some of these songlists for 188 couples, complete with sections of the lyrics which I think fit the best.
I recently finalised HanGu's first (more to come in the future), so I wanted to share it with the 188 subreddit in case anyone else was interested. Feel free to suggest other songs below as well!
Taeyeon - INVU
Falling in love
To you, I’m just an option
You and I were different from the beginning
Broken heart
Your missed mention
I’m used to it, yeah
"Don't lean"
"Don't even expect"
Even if I rеpeat it over and over
With your onе touch
Watching me collapse
How do you feel about it?
, no-no, no
I guess I lost my mind
Yeah, it's my kind of love (Love)
Like it's always the first time
It hurts me again since I'm so clumsy (It hurts me again since I'm so clumsy)
Before I get dull
Before I even get healed
I mess up my mind
So I can't love you
Even though I do
Even if I push you away
I can't beat you
Even I abandon myself
And lose myself more
The irony is that you shine more
It hurts but I can't stop it
So when you leave
Please make it easy
'Cause I-N-V-U
Hayley Reardon - Losing
And you walk on by with that stupid smile
And I’m trying to move on, but it’s not worth my while
‘Cause when I see your face, I lose all control
Why do I always have to play this desperate role?
‘Cause you love me then you don’t
You can have me and you won’t
Why are you so confusing?
It’s a never ending game, and what’s complicated is
I always end up losing
How am I supposed to know what you feel?
When it’s something that you won’t reveal
Emmelie de Forest - Only Teardrops
The sky is red tonight
We're on the edge tonight
No shooting star to guide us
So come and face me now
Here on the stage tonight
Let's leave the past behind us
Eye for an eye
Why tear each other apart?
Please tell me why
Why do we make it so hard?
Look at us now
We only got ourselves to blame
It's such a shame
How many times can we win and lose?
How many times can we break the rules between us?
Only teardrops
How many times do we have to fight?
How many times till we get it right between us?
Only teardrops
Svala - Paper
I can’t leave you
But you make me feel like
Paper
You cut right through
I’m stuck like glue to you
Paper
Your darkness pulls
I lose control again
Drawing every bit of my truth
Colour me in with your blue
Paper
You cut right through
A thousand words for you
Bebe Rexha & Louis Tomlinson - Back to You
I know you say you know me, know me well
But these days I don't even know myself, no
I thought I would own the way I felt, yeah
Oh, you stress me out, you kill me
You drag me down, you fuck me up
We're on the ground, we're screaming
I don't know how to make it stop
I love it, I hate it
And I can't take it
But I keep on coming back to you
Ellie Goulding - Something In the Way You Move
But this heart is open, bloodstain on my sleeve
When our eyes meet, I can only see the end
But tonight I'm here, yours again
There's something in the way you do
There's something in the way you
Push me closer, further
Break me just enough
Your lies always seem so true
There's nothing left for me to lose
There's not one thing I can do to change your ways
But I can't sit back and take the lonely days
When our eyes meet, I can only see the end
And tonight the rain pours again
But tonight I'm gonna lose it all
Playing with fire, I was the first to fall
Heart is sinking like a cannonball
Baby, kill it, what you waiting for?
Crusher-P - Thunderstorm
I have no place being here
No, not anymore
I should've run while I could
When it began to pour
The temperature drops at the sound of your name
Storm chasing is always a dangerous game
Like a tornado, you swept me off my feet
And like a blizzard, you chill every bone in me
I am left with nothing here
Empty handed in the rain
The people we once were got lost in the hurricane
I was the lightning
You were the sound that followed me
The storm is coming
Streets are flooding
But I can’t leave
I'd give anything for the eye of the storm
We were a natural disaster in the realest form
And all I've got left is the aching in my heart
And all I've got left is the rain coming down
Hard, hard, hard
Taylor Swift - Wildest Dreams
He said, "Let's get out of this town
Drive out of the city, away from the crowds"
I thought, "Heaven can't help me now"
Nothing lasts forever
But this is gonna take me down
He's so tall and handsome as hell
He's so bad, but he does it so well
I can see the end as it begins
His hands are in my hair, his clothes are in my room
And his voice is a familiar sound
Nothin' lasts forever
But this is gettin' good now
He's so tall and handsome as hell
He's so bad, but he does it so well
You'll see me in hindsight
Tangled up with you all night
Burnin' it down
Someday, when you leave me
I bet these memories
Follow you around
Lana Del Rey - Young and Beautiful
I've seen the world, done it all
Had my cake now
Diamonds, brilliant,
and Bel Air now
Hot summer nights, mid-July
When you and I were forever wild
The crazy days, city lights
The way you'd play with me like a child
I've seen the world, lit it up as my stage now
Channelling angels in the new age now
Hot summer days
, rock and roll
The way you'd play for me at your show
And all the ways I got to know
Your pretty face and electric soul
Will you still love me when I'm no longer young and beautiful?
Will you still love me when I got nothing but my aching soul?
I know you will, I know you will, I know that you will
Will you still love me when I'm no longer beautiful?
Adam Lambert - Better Than I Know Myself
Cold as ice
And more bitter than a December
Winter night
That's how I treated you
And I know that I
I sometimes tend to lose my temper
And I cross the line
But I could never
Leave your side
No matter what I say
'Cause if I wanted to go
I would've gone by now but
I really need you near me
Keep my mind off the edge
If I wanted to leave, I would've left by now
But you're the only one that knows me
Better than I know myself
All along
I tried to pretend it didn't matter
If I was alone
But deep down I know
If you were gone
For even a day, I wouldn't know which way to turn
'Cause I'm lost without you
You're the only thing in this world
I would die without
Marianas Trench - All To Myself
I don't patronise, I realise
I'm losing and this is my real life
I'm half asleep, and I am wide awake
This habit is always so hard to break
I don't wanna be the bad guy
I've been blaming myself and I think you know why
I'm killing time and time's killing you
Every way that I do
It's not enough, it's never enough
And I wish I could breathe without getting it stuck
Can't focus it, but I try it
Over and over again
Did you say, "Please just follow me?"
I thought you wanted me
'Cause I can't stay with someone else
I'll try and suck it up
I just keep fucking up
I want you all to myself
Did you say, "Please just follow me?"
I thought you wanted me
'Cause I want you all to myself
I can try and suck it up
I just can't suck it up
Make me feel like someone else
Selena Gomez & The Scene - Love You Like a Love Song
It's been said and done
Every beautiful thought's been already sung
And I guess right now, here's another one
So your melody will play on and on
With the best of 'em
You are beautiful
Like a dream come alive, incredible
A centrefold miracle, lyrical
You saved my life again
Constantly
Boy, you play through my mind like a symphony
There's no way to describe what you do to me
You just do to me what you do
And it feels like I've been rescued
I've been set free
I am hypnotised by your destiny
You are magical, lyrical, beautiful, you are
No one compares
You stand alone to every record I own
Music to my heart, that's what you are
A song that goes on and on
Selena Gomez & The Scene - A Year Without Rain
Can you feel me when I think about you?
With every breath I take
Every minute, no matter what I do
My world is an empty place
Like I've been wanderin' the desert for a thousand days
Don't know if it's a mirage, but I always see your face, baby
I'm missin' you so much
Can't help it, I'm in love
A day without you is like a year without rain
I need you by my side
Don't know how I'll survive
A day without you is like a year without rain
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I recently finalised HanGu's first (more to come in the future), so I wanted to share it with the 188 subreddit in case anyone else was interested. Feel free to suggest other songs below as well!
Taeyeon - INVU
Falling in love
To you, I’m just an option
You and I were different from the beginning
Broken heart
Your missed mention
I’m used to it, yeah
"Don't lean"
"Don't even expect"
Even if I rеpeat it over and over
With your onе touch
Watching me collapse
How do you feel about it?
, no-no, no
I guess I lost my mind
Yeah, it's my kind of love (Love)
Like it's always the first time
It hurts me again since I'm so clumsy (It hurts me again since I'm so clumsy)
Before I get dull
Before I even get healed
I mess up my mind
So I can't love you
Even though I do
Even if I push you away
I can't beat you
Even I abandon myself
And lose myself more
The irony is that you shine more
It hurts but I can't stop it
So when you leave
Please make it easy
'Cause I-N-V-U
Hayley Reardon - Losing
And you walk on by with that stupid smile
And I’m trying to move on, but it’s not worth my while
‘Cause when I see your face, I lose all control
Why do I always have to play this desperate role?
‘Cause you love me then you don’t
You can have me and you won’t
Why are you so confusing?
It’s a never ending game, and what’s complicated is
I always end up losing
How am I supposed to know what you feel?
When it’s something that you won’t reveal
Emmelie de Forest - Only Teardrops
The sky is red tonight
We're on the edge tonight
No shooting star to guide us
So come and face me now
Here on the stage tonight
Let's leave the past behind us
Eye for an eye
Why tear each other apart?
Please tell me why
Why do we make it so hard?
Look at us now
We only got ourselves to blame
It's such a shame
How many times can we win and lose?
How many times can we break the rules between us?
Only teardrops
How many times do we have to fight?
How many times till we get it right between us?
Only teardrops
Svala - Paper
I can’t leave you
But you make me feel like
Paper
You cut right through
I’m stuck like glue to you
Paper
Your darkness pulls
I lose control again
Drawing every bit of my truth
Colour me in with your blue
Paper
You cut right through
A thousand words for you
Bebe Rexha & Louis Tomlinson - Back to You
I know you say you know me, know me well
But these days I don't even know myself, no
I thought I would own the way I felt, yeah
Oh, you stress me out, you kill me
You drag me down, you fuck me up
We're on the ground, we're screaming
I don't know how to make it stop
I love it, I hate it
And I can't take it
But I keep on coming back to you
Ellie Goulding - Something In the Way You Move
But this heart is open, bloodstain on my sleeve
When our eyes meet, I can only see the end
But tonight I'm here, yours again
There's something in the way you do
There's something in the way you
Push me closer, further
Break me just enough
Your lies always seem so true
There's nothing left for me to lose
There's not one thing I can do to change your ways
But I can't sit back and take the lonely days
When our eyes meet, I can only see the end
And tonight the rain pours again
But tonight I'm gonna lose it all
Playing with fire, I was the first to fall
Heart is sinking like a cannonball
Baby, kill it, what you waiting for?
Crusher-P - Thunderstorm
I have no place being here
No, not anymore
I should've run while I could
When it began to pour
The temperature drops at the sound of your name
Storm chasing is always a dangerous game
Like a tornado, you swept me off my feet
And like a blizzard, you chill every bone in me
I am left with nothing here
Empty handed in the rain
The people we once were got lost in the hurricane
I was the lightning
You were the sound that followed me
The storm is coming
Streets are flooding
But I can’t leave
I'd give anything for the eye of the storm
We were a natural disaster in the realest form
And all I've got left is the aching in my heart
And all I've got left is the rain coming down
Hard, hard, hard
Taylor Swift - Wildest Dreams
He said, "Let's get out of this town
Drive out of the city, away from the crowds"
I thought, "Heaven can't help me now"
Nothing lasts forever
But this is gonna take me down
He's so tall and handsome as hell
He's so bad, but he does it so well
I can see the end as it begins
His hands are in my hair, his clothes are in my room
And his voice is a familiar sound
Nothin' lasts forever
But this is gettin' good now
He's so tall and handsome as hell
He's so bad, but he does it so well
You'll see me in hindsight
Tangled up with you all night
Burnin' it down
Someday, when you leave me
I bet these memories
Follow you around
Lana Del Rey - Young and Beautiful
I've seen the world, done it all
Had my cake now
Diamonds, brilliant,
and Bel Air now
Hot summer nights, mid-July
When you and I were forever wild
The crazy days, city lights
The way you'd play with me like a child
I've seen the world, lit it up as my stage now
Channelling angels in the new age now
Hot summer days
, rock and roll
The way you'd play for me at your show
And all the ways I got to know
Your pretty face and electric soul
Will you still love me when I'm no longer young and beautiful?
Will you still love me when I got nothing but my aching soul?
I know you will, I know you will, I know that you will
Will you still love me when I'm no longer beautiful?
Adam Lambert - Better Than I Know Myself
Cold as ice
And more bitter than a December
Winter night
That's how I treated you
And I know that I
I sometimes tend to lose my temper
And I cross the line
But I could never
Leave your side
No matter what I say
'Cause if I wanted to go
I would've gone by now but
I really need you near me
Keep my mind off the edge
If I wanted to leave, I would've left by now
But you're the only one that knows me
Better than I know myself
All along
I tried to pretend it didn't matter
If I was alone
But deep down I know
If you were gone
For even a day, I wouldn't know which way to turn
'Cause I'm lost without you
You're the only thing in this world
I would die without
Marianas Trench - All To Myself
I don't patronise, I realise
I'm losing and this is my real life
I'm half asleep, and I am wide awake
This habit is always so hard to break
I don't wanna be the bad guy
I've been blaming myself and I think you know why
I'm killing time and time's killing you
Every way that I do
It's not enough, it's never enough
And I wish I could breathe without getting it stuck
Can't focus it, but I try it
Over and over again
Did you say, "Please just follow me?"
I thought you wanted me
'Cause I can't stay with someone else
I'll try and suck it up
I just keep fucking up
I want you all to myself
Did you say, "Please just follow me?"
I thought you wanted me
'Cause I want you all to myself
I can try and suck it up
I just can't suck it up
Make me feel like someone else
Selena Gomez & The Scene - Love You Like a Love Song
It's been said and done
Every beautiful thought's been already sung
And I guess right now, here's another one
So your melody will play on and on
With the best of 'em
You are beautiful
Like a dream come alive, incredible
A centrefold miracle, lyrical
You saved my life again
Constantly
Boy, you play through my mind like a symphony
There's no way to describe what you do to me
You just do to me what you do
And it feels like I've been rescued
I've been set free
I am hypnotised by your destiny
You are magical, lyrical, beautiful, you are
No one compares
You stand alone to every record I own
Music to my heart, that's what you are
A song that goes on and on
Selena Gomez & The Scene - A Year Without Rain
Can you feel me when I think about you?
With every breath I take
Every minute, no matter what I do
My world is an empty place
Like I've been wanderin' the desert for a thousand days
Don't know if it's a mirage, but I always see your face, baby
I'm missin' you so much
Can't help it, I'm in love
A day without you is like a year without rain
I need you by my side
Don't know how I'll survive
A day without you is like a year without rain
2024.05.16 05:43 TheWhistlingWarrior Many of you don't want to hear my testimony, and that's okay... I let go of the need for you to read this, but this is what happened to me... This is the story of how I saw a vision of Jesus, God and Satan, was helped by Thoth, went through the medical system, and learned they have no empathy...
When I was around 13 years old, I was a young stupid teenager, and hanging out with my friends, and we were all saying inflammatory things, and I said, "Yeah, if I turn 30, and I haven't accomplished anything, I'll probably just kill myself." It was an awful thing to say, and I can't believe I said it.
Well, I turned 29. I had probably close to 50 jobs, and had a complete discontentment with my life and civilization, and was contemplating suicide, and then I had a full-blown spiritual awakening, saw a vision of Jesus, God and Satan, and went through an immense dark night of the soul and personal transformation of the heart.
I just have this verse on my heart right now thinking about it, "Death and life are in the power of the tongue, and those who love it will eat its fruits, [Psalm 18:21]" and it just reminds me of what I said when I was a teenager.
I know God heard that and knew that he wasn't going to let me die of suicide. He was watching me the whole time, and he cared about me, and he didn't want to lose me.
Three years ago, I was a 29-year-old man whose life had become defined by isolation. Once curious and engaged with the world in my youth, I had slowly withdrawn into myself from depression, retreating into the comfort of my room in my mother's house. My agnostic atheism left me without a guiding light, and the mundane realities of life, from my dozens of failed jobs to my ongoing struggles with addiction, weighed heavily on my spirit. I found solace instead in the company of strategy games and suffered deeply in the rabbit hole of conspiracies on the internet.
My addictions had become an ever-tightening grip on my life. I found myself reaching for cannabis, alcohol, video games, fast food, and pornography to fill the void that had grown in my heart over the years. My life had become a series of hollow habits, each one leaving me feeling emptier than before. I could no longer deny that something was deeply wrong.
One day, while browsing online, I stumbled upon a post that claimed Thoth, the ancient Egyptian deity of knowledge and wisdom, could help those who asked for his assistance. Intrigued, I wondered if reaching out to Thoth could provide me with the help I needed.
Weeks passed since reading the post, and as I stood in my shower, my thoughts drifted to the crossroads my life seemed to have come to. I asked myself why I was stuck in a cycle of self-destructive behaviors and why I felt such a profound sense of emptiness. The steam from the shower enveloped me as I said aloud, "Thoth, if you are real, I really need your help right now. I don't want to live like this anymore; I don't want to die yet." As I spoke the words, my hand moved from the side of my body, and then to my forehead and heart, while making a hand-sign and I felt at peace.
I was stunned, realizing the hand-sign I had made was eerily similar to ones I had seen in paintings of Jesus. I was stunned but felt an unusual calmness wash over me. As I dried off and dressed, I pondered what had just happened. I went to the full-body mirror in my room, looking at myself. I saw someone I no longer recognized, someone I no longer wanted to be.
Once more, I said, "Thoth, if you are real, will you help me? This isn't who I want to be anymore." I stared at myself in the mirror, and slowly a vision began to form in my eyes. It wasn’t Thoth I saw, but Jesus.
Jesus appeared with long brown hair, a brown beard, brown eyes, and light brown skin. Half of his face was illuminated by light, while the other half was cast in shadow. The vision of Jesus was so vivid that it left me both in awe and at peace. As the vision of him faded, I remember reaching out to him because I didn't want him to go, I could tell he was here to help.
As night fell, I lay in my bed, lost in deep contemplation. I revisited the events of the day, focusing on the vision of Jesus. The clarity of the vision was imprinted on my mind, and I couldn't shake the feeling that it held a deeper meaning. I pondered the nature of good and evil, and how they were intertwined in a complex dance of duality. I found myself questioning whether the traditional view of evil as something to be hated and shunned was truly the right approach. Instead, I began to entertain the idea that perhaps evil people and perhaps even evil itself, could be understood with compassion and empathy, instead of hatred and disgust.
As I continued to ponder, I experienced a peculiar sensation in my head. It was as though something shifted in the center of my brain, around the area of my third eye or pineal gland. There was a slight pop like a tearing or crunching sound, it was not painful, but surprising nonetheless. I then felt a fluid movement from the left hemisphere of my brain to the right hemisphere, using the third eye as a bridge or something. This shift brought me a sense of balance and calmness I had not felt before. I realized I had been living predominantly in the logical part of my brain, instead of emotional side.
As I embraced this newfound state of relaxation, I began to see another vision in my mind. This time, it was God who appeared. God had long white hair, a white beard, and wore white robes and sandals. Then God began dancing, moving with joy and lightheartedness.
Before I could fully process what I was seeing, another figure appeared alongside God. It was Satan, with red skin and horns. Satan seemed curious and playful, attempting to imitate God's dance moves with enthusiasm. The sight of these two seemingly opposing forces dancing together struck me as surreal.
As I watched them dance, I found myself smiling, and really enjoying the moment. Then, my mind wandered to the Russian squat dance, a thought that seemed to come out of nowhere. To my amazement, God began performing the Russian squat dance, his movements precise and fluid. I couldn't help but laugh. It was awesome and hilarious.
Slowly, they both faded away, leaving me in a state of awe and wonder. I realized that my third eye had opened, granting me access to a deeper level of perception and understanding.
I lay in my bed for a few moments, attempting to grasp the profound implications of the vision I had just experienced. The reality of the spiritual world was undeniable now. God, Jesus, Satan, and other spiritual beings were real, their presence deeply embedded within my new understanding. This stark realization overwhelmed me, and I felt an immense fear wash over me, it was like the Eye of Sauron was upon me, or the eye of Satan.
I began pacing frantically around my room, gasping for air as I tried to process the magnitude of my new awareness. My mind felt as if it were on the brink of shattering; I couldn't comprehend what was happening. The very foundation of my reality had shifted, leaving me teetering on the edge of my sanity.
Despite my racing thoughts and heart, I managed to steady myself using deep breathing techniques I had learned in the past from Wim Hof. My frantic pace gradually slowed, and I returned to my bed, trying to make sense of everything.
I deduced that the condition commonly known as schizophrenia might not be what people thought it was. Instead, it could be an individual's heightened sensitivity to the spirit world, a world most people never perceived.
As I lay in bed, still reeling from my panic, I suddenly saw a vision of Satan. He had red skin and horns, and spoke directly to me, expressing admiration for my deduction. Satan confirmed that what I thought was true: many people were speaking to demons, believing themselves to be schizophrenic. This deceptive world was, indeed, a harsh reality.
I tried to take in Satan's words, but a sensation of something being pulled out of me struck me. It felt as though my very soul was being drained from my body. My energy depleted rapidly, and I was overcome by a sense of impending doom. I lost control of my bodily functions, believing that I was moments away from death.
At the moment when I thought I was succumbing to death, I caught sight of an Easter lily I had bought earlier that day, sitting on my desk. The sight of the beautiful lily sparked a powerful desire to live within me. Fueled by a newfound will to survive coursing through me, I leaped out of my bed, and began pacing back and forth in my room once more, gasping for air.
As I walked, I experienced a series of visions featuring characters I admired and found inspiration from—Master Yoda from Star Wars, Aang from Avatar: The Last Airbender, and Neo from The Matrix. I realized that God had shown me these characters because they were a source of moral guidance and strength in my life.
My thoughts then turned to the physical pain I was experiencing. My awareness of the spirit world had heightened significantly, causing my brain to start heating up, and I felt a piercing pain and ballooning sensation near my right temple, which deeply concerned me.
Every time I had a thought, I could feel my brain stem wiggle and I would feel pain in my right temple, so I had to learn to still or quiet my mind. Recognizing that I needed to take action to cool my head and relieve the pain, with a sort of just knowing of what I had to do, I resolved to get a large bowl of ice water and head to the basement.
I quietly left my room so as not to wake my mother, who was sleeping in her room nearby, and ventured downstairs to the basement
At this point you could say I was "possessed" by spirits, Thoth, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit. I was able to rest my consciousness in my third eye, and the Holy Spirit, Thoth, or Jesus could help me and take move my body to keep me alive. There was no way for me to survive without help.
The holy spirit showed me a specific breathing technique to diffuse the energy in my brain by inhaling through my mouth deeply, and then exhaling through my nose in the water. The vibration of exhaling through my nose into the water would cause my brain to feel soothed for a little while, likely stimulating my vagus nerve too, and I believe it was doing something with the fluid in my brain. When I was able to not be at the water, I had to keep pressure on the center of my forehead to rest in my third eye so they could help me.
I remember pacing between the two sections of my basement, and Thoth was helping me breathe just to stay conscious. One half of the basement was bright with light with concrete floors, which is where the bowl of water was, the washer and drier, a sink, and four litter boxes. On the other side of the basement was dark with a carpeted floor and a wood fireplace. The basement's light was painted in the duality of light and dark.
I remained in the basement until the sun rose, soaking my head in icewater, and pacing back and forth between the dark and light rooms because i would become overly sensitive to one particular room, and I was just trying to breathe to stay conscious. I was battling the spirit of fear the entire night. The fear from my initial awakening and the fear of death over and over again, hundreds if not thousands of times.
I soaked my head in the ice water all night, getting momentary breaks from the water, and certain I was going to die hundreds of times from a brain hemorrhage, I stood on the hard pavement for hours, I remember Jesus was my legs at one point, I could feel him focusing through me to keep me standing. I continuously soaked my head in the ice water to combat the piercing pain and ballooning sensation in my right temple. Throughout the night, I heard voices speaking to me—some belonging to what I would call demons and others to angels.
The demons tried to instill fear in me, convincing me I was going to die. While the angels offered comfort and reassurance, telling me I would be okay. Despite the torment I endured, I found profound inner strength and refused to give up. I remember squeezing my Celtic cross necklace so hard during this time.
The sun rose on the second day, I had been awake all night, I was beyond exhausted. I don't remember all of the specifics of this time, my awakening was very traumatic, but several hours passed and I remember being told that I needed to grab a book and go outside down the street and sit by a tree. I refused, and Satan said, "Do you want to die?" I said "No," and grabbed a book and went outside and walked down the street to a tree and sat with my back leaned against it.
I read my book for about 10 minutes when two women carrying their babies in slings approached me, and asked me what I was reading. I told them the name of the book, Inner Engineering by Sadghuru, and they said that they were doing a prayer walk, and wanted to share the gospel message with me. I knew this was a divine appointment. This was meant to happen.
They shared the gospel message with me, and then offered to let me join their community of house churches, and gave me the number of one of their husbands so I could call and get connected with them.
I spent the rest of the day relaxing, but was unable to sleep and barely ate anything, and once the night fell, I was in the basement again, soaking my head in ice water. I would often get relief during the days when the sun was out, and then at night, it was a brutal spiritual battle all night in the basement where I was fighting for my life.
On the second day, I was in the kitchen, and I had the right side of my head in the ice water, and was moving my head up to breathe in through my mouth, and then I would tilt my head back down and exhale my entire breath out through my nose. I didn't know what I was doing, I was just listening to guidance from what I believe was the holy spirit.
After around 15-20 minutes of intense exhaling through my nose, a ton of white viscous liquid started coming out of my nose, and filling the bowl, it wasn't painful at all, it was a massive relief, and the excess fluid in my head was somehow being drained out. When the process was done, I remember I felt amazing, incredible actually, like my head was clear of all confusion, and I was so very much alive and conscious.
I went outside and was swinging a stick like a sword and having fun, and I think I got a little overzealous and jumped the fence behind my house, and started going on an adventure. After around 3-5 minutes though, the fluid started building back up, and I had to soak my head in a puddle to keep my brain cool. When I returned home, I went back to the water to soak my head. I still hadn't slept.
That night was brutal, and I was suffering badly, and I remember I was sitting on the dark side of the basement, but I had turned on the lamp. I was sitting on pillows, and I had just been soaking my head in the water. Satan then told me that in order to save the world, I would have to die by popping my third eye. I don't know why I believed him, I didn't have discernment at the time, and I was just following whatever guidance was coming my way, but I know that I had to do that to find my true strength.
I sat for a moment and contemplated. I grabbed a wooden walking stick that was nearby, and I moved it to my forehead, and pushed it into the center of my head as hard as I could until my arms literally gave out. I thought of my mom and sister, and I wanted the world to be free from suffering, but I wasn't meant to die that day. I cried very hard, and I learned that the human skull is very strong. I got up and went back to the ice water, and my forehead was numb.
Eventually, after three days and nights of this suffering, following the path God laid out before me, I reached my complete breaking point. I declared to the spirits that I had had enough. I was done soaking my head in ice water and I slowly and bravely removed my head from the bowl of water.
I was shivering so badly. These weren't just cold shivers, these were spiritual shivers, they shake you to your very core. I felt awful. Those who have been delivered will know what I am speaking about when I saw spiritual shivers. I spread out pillows on the floor, and lay down to rest. As I settled in, I pulled the blanket over me, and I remember I felt the comforting presence of Jesus, he was tucking me in.
I slept for just a few hours and awoke up early on Saturday morning. I remember my head hurt and it felt like the left side of my head was full of fluid. I grabbed the bowl of ice water, and this time, however, I decided to sit outside. The pain in my head was still excruciating, and I thought I might die.
My mother saw me outside, and concerned about my well-being, approached me to check if I was okay. I told her to call the ambulance because I needed help, and she quickly complied. When the paramedics arrived, they took me to the hospital, where I hoped I would receive the medical care I desperately needed, but that wasn't what was in store for me.
I got to the hospital, and the medical establishment, unfortunately, has no empathy or concern for people's mental sufferings. I asked them for water to drink because I was so dehydrated, and they wouldn't give me water.
Then, I got admitted to the hospital, and they finally gave me some juice and a snack, and I was starting to relax, but then a voice came into my head, it was Satan, and he made me think I needed to soak my head in the icewater again and expel the white viscous fluid again, so I started panicking a bit and had them bring me a bowl of ice water, and I began soaking my head.
They had probably never seen anything like what I was doing, and thought I was just crazy, because they basically came after me and tied me to the bed, and forcefully injected me with something to make me calm down or sleep, and then they didn't talk to me at all anymore throughout the night.
I am claustrophobic, so being tied down was absolute torture for me. They left me in the dark hospital room suffering all night, tied to the bed, thinking I was going to die the entire night, and then finally the sun rose on the horizon, and when the nurse came in to draw my blood in the morning, I asked them to request security to release me from the restraints. They have no empathy for people. Something is deeply wrong with the medical system.
Anyways, they finally sent me to an in-patient mental health clinic which is honestly just a warehouse for people to take meds, sleep, and eat, away from society. It was honestly a welcome respite, but there's no therapy available at these places. Which means no real internal healing is taking place for people suffering.
Once I got to the in-patient mental health clinic, I spent the first day mostly just relaxing, but there was a man there that was definitely possessed by a demon. He would be shouting a bunch of biblical verses about the kingdom of God, and a lot more, and then he would be on the floor the next, flailing around, being tortured by a demon. One of the other patients there told me he is being tortured by something, and I see what she means now.
I spent the rest of my time there recovering the best I could, and just taking the meds to calm down, and try to get some sleep, and spent time listening to people's stories. One of the girls there told me that the wound on my forehead from when I pushed the wooden staff into my forehead, looked like a cross, and she was right.
When I got out of the in-patient mental health clinic, I called the number that I had received during my three days and nights dark night of the soul.
I joined their community of house churches, and was studying the Bible with them for several months and meeting with them frequently, and I thought I had found my forever friends. We would go on prayer walks, and I was eventually baptized at a lake, and thought that I had a new life of faith waiting for me with new friends.
They were concerned about my well-being and cared about me, but a small part of me felt like I was being controlled by them too, like they wanted me to conform to all of their beliefs and everything in the Bible as fact, and the word of God, and I have always been very sensitive to manipulation since I was a child, and I could tell they were manipulating me. They never left room for me to be myself, and share my beliefs without condemnation, which is a major red flag.
Recognizing this, I distanced myself from them, and went on my own spiritual journey where I spent months conversing with the spirit world in my backyard. walking in circles. I spoke to God and Satan/Lucifer and was trying to come to understanding why Satan would reject God's will.
After some time, I realized I was just being tortured, and I needed help. I was suffering from a lot, and I needed deliverance. Satan had taken up a seat in my mind because I let him, and I had demons hurting me. I reached out to the Christian group again after several months of being distant from them, and they said there was an opportunity to move in with some Christian brothers and live with them, so I jumped on the opportunity. I was so excited. I was on fire for God.
I got to the house, and moved my stuff in, and then the night fell on the first night, and the enemy was not having it. The demons and Satan were not having it. They did NOT want me living with my brothers in Christ because they knew I was detached from all the boxes of thought control, and I was living in the spirit, wasn't a slave of mind or spirit. They wanted to destroy our relationship, between us, the brothers of Christ, and they did.
I don't remember the exact sequence of events, but I was entirely in the spirit at the time, I was detached from my body in a way, and just following the path laid out before me. I could feel that I needed to go outside and walk the neighborhood as a part of my spiritual path, so I left the house, and walked barefoot throughout the neighborhood.
While walking the neighborhood, I was in full spirit mode, I was communicating with God and Jesus, and they were guiding me on my path. I saw visions of them sitting beside a tree and trimming off rotten fruit, which I think was symbolic of them removing rotten fruit from my mind. I also saw them sweeping out a room and cleaning it, as if symbolic of my mind, and them cleaning my mind and purifying it. I also remember seeing a symbolic vision of myself holding up a golden gemstone encrusted goblet to God.
During that night, I declared war on the principalities of darkness. Against the forces of darkness. I saw skulls in the clouds, and could tell they were communicating with me as they are spirits of the air.
My feet were bloodied from walking around the neighborhood barefoot, I was completely lost all night, I was new to the neighborhood too, and had no idea where I was, so I wandered for hours throughout the night, so hungry, tired, and thirsty, and just physically and mentally exhausted, but I endured. That night made me realize how strong I really am when I let go of everything and trust in God. When I completely become the spirit instead of the body. The human body is incredible and capable of withstanding far more than we know.
Finally, I found my way to the house, and my footsteps were spilling blood on the front porch. The door was locked, and I knocked, and one of the brothers let me in, and I went to my bedroom. I couldn't sleep at all, my mind was very active, it was very similar to when I had my spiritual awakening, I was just unable to sleep because of how active my mind was. I spent the whole night awake.
The next day, I was suffering horrible spiritual attack, my head was in pain and I was holding my head just to feel comfortable, and one of the brothers called a friend of theirs to come and do a deliverance. I remember them being very bold, but gentle... firm, but kind to me, as they expelled some of the demons through prayer. It wasn't a painful deliverance or too exhausting, it was gentle by comparison. I felt much better after the deliverance, hungry and thirsty again, and wanted to nourish my body. I spent the rest of the day relaxing a bit, and listening to the other believers talk about the Bible, and their beliefs.
That night, I was delivered again, and it was awful. My brothers in Christ shouldn't have done the deliverance, but I don't know if I even would have made the rest of the night it if they didn't. I think the holy spirit guided them to do the deliverance, but it went out of control.
I was in my room, suffering deeply, holding my head, and all three brothers who lived there came up to my room to check on me, and pray for me. Their prayers turned into a full blown deliverance, and demons were screaming out of me for around half an hour straight. They were casting them out in the name of Jesus, but it was awful, it's one of my most traumatic memories. I was suffering so badly, and honestly I could tell the demons were suffering so badly, and my brothers in Christ had zero empathy for me.
After speaking with demons, the brothers wanted to speak with me again, so I came to, I asked them for water, and they denied me, and they just continued the deliverance without giving me a break. I had been suffering for around 45 minutes straight, with demons screaming out of me, and I was beyond exhausted, I was so dehydrated, and I just needed to stop. They didn't care, they kept going.
They kept shouting at these demons in the name of Jesus to leave, and eventually after another ten minutes, I realized, nothing was happening, we weren't getting anywhere, the demons weren't coming out, and they asked to speak with me again, and I came to the forefront and regained control, and tried talking to them, but they were gone. The demons had got into them somehow, and they were filled with hatred and revulsion for me. They all had the same facial expression of hatred and revulsion for me.
I went around the room and pleaded with them that it was me, but they didn't believe me, they were gone, checked out, I tried bringing up memories of what had happened between us that were specific to each person to bring them to understanding that it was me, and in fact not a demon speaking, but they thought I was a demon speaking.
They all grabbed ahold of me, and pinned me down on the bed, but I knew where this was going, the demons in them were going to flood me with fear and fill me with demons again, and I wasn't going to have that, I wasn't going to let them win.
I flailed out of their grasp, told them to get off me, and ran down the stairs and out of the house. I remember as I was running out, Satan told me, "You are the most free person on the planet."
I ran outside, and even the weight of my clothes felt like too much, I was panicking from the trauma of the deliverance and the attack from my brothers, and I stripped off all my clothes and ran down the alley way in the middle of the night and got away from the house.
There were no light, and no one around, and no one followed me, so I just ran down the alley way, and found an abandoned car to sit on for a few minutes until I got a message from God that it was time to go grab my clothes and put my clothes on.
I put my clothes back on, and started walking away from the house because I needed to get some air. That is when one of the other brother's in Christ, the one that I had called initially to join their community of house churches, was there. I think he was guided by the holy spirit to show up there that night.
Anyways, we walked back to the house, and when we got there, there was a cop car and an ambulance there. I guess the brothers had called for a wellness check on me. They wanted to bring me to the hospital to have me evaluated. I protested, but just wanted them to leave me alone, I went with them, and went to the hospital.
Much to no one's surprise, they did nothing for me at the hospital. They just put me in a room where I waited around for 6-8 hours, until I was finally released. I didn't go back to the brother's house though. When they offered me an uber, I went back to my mom's house. I wasn't going to live with them anymore after what they did to me...
A couple weeks passed and two of the brothers who did the deliverance called me, and wanted to schedule a time to meet up so they could minister to me. They came over to my house, and basically told me that I was still demon possessed, and made me feel like there was something wrong with me, and then when I confronted them and asked them if they had a problem with me, they lied to my face, and said that they didn't have a problem with me.
About a month passed and the last brother that was a part of deliverance contacted me and invited me to go to church with him. I told him how that experience made me feel, how I was claustrophobic from childhood trauma and that being pinned down by everyone was horribly traumatic, and he said, "Do you feel better now?" in a sarcastic tone. He completely dismissed how I felt, that hurt me badly.
I went to church with him once, but never went with him again, I also never reconnected with any of the other brothers, and then my life started to become very spiritual. God had a path of understanding laid out before me that most people will not tread.
I began to try to become friends with demons and minister to them and try to turn them to Christ. I had a lot of visions during this time, and I cried a lot. I would walk around my neighborhood and see visions of demons sitting on top of the apartment buildings.
When I would go home, I would have visions of demons in my basement, and would have to drive them out in the name of Jesus. I would speak to them too, and wait and listen for them to telepathically communicate with me.
I remember I was suffering badly though, and I needed to go to in-patient mental health again for help. I needed the meds and a place where I could rest and relax.
During my time there, I was communicating with a spirit named Jezebel, and during that time I was suffering very badly. I won't get into all of the details, but I was becoming friends with her, and we shared a deep laugh about something that I cannot remember anymore, but I remember the laugh. It felt so good to laugh after suffering so badly.
During my time while I was there I was seeing visions of my own death. I was seeing people suffering from demonic attack and spirits of confusion. They couldn't remember who they were, or who other people were.
I prayed for a woman to be delivered that night in her sleep, and the next day she was bright and fresh and happy, and doing so much better. God performed a miracle on her, and saved her. She was a normal person again after entering the hospital in a complete state of confusion. It was miraculous. I was honestly jealous, because I was suffering so badly, and she was delivered overnight in her sleep in a relaxed way, while my time had been so intense.
While I was there though, I was under heavy attack, but I pulled through, God pulled me through too, but when I got home, the journey wasn't over though. I was in a spiritual state for a while, and was seeing visions. I could rest in my third eye, and see the spirit world. It was exhausting, I saw a lot of demons, and had to drive them out in the name of Jesus.
Then one night, I was downstairs, and I was with Satan, Lilith, and a spirit calling itself Baal. I remember Baal was sitting in the middle in front of the fireplace, and Satan was to my left, and Lilith was to my right.
I don't remember what we spoke about, I just spent time with them, and I drank a beer with them, the air was heavy with demonic energy, and then I remember Lilith went over to Satan and kneeled before him, and grabbed him by the hand tenderly and asked him to turn away from his evil ways.
Satan neither accepted nor refused, and then I remember maybe 5 minutes passed and I was doing a full-blown deliverance on Lilith. I was praying for her, and I could see visions of her on the ground flailing around, it was awful, and I hope she is okay.
I don't know how long after that passed, but I was delivered many times during this phase. I was around demons a lot and they would get into me, and I would have to expel them out through vomiting, and it was excruciating.
Several months passed after that where I was okay, I spent months just relaxing and recovering, playing video games, smoking weed, and just relaxing. It was nice, but it wasn't the end of my journey.
My next journey was against Thoth. While he was a great help at the beginning of my spiritual awakening, he is not a perfect being like God, and he tried to overtake me. It's really hard to explain what he did, but he was viciously attacking me spiritually, and I sought help to go to the in-patient mental health clinic again. That was where I went when things got too spiritually charged. I had Medicaid, so I was able to go as needed.
They didn't send me to in-patient this time though, they sent me to a crisis pivot center, which is basically a residential house that is being used to treat people suffering from mental illness, where you can receive meds and sleep in a sort of half-way house between in-patient mental health and being back in the world at home.
Anyways, I was suffering grotesquely from Thoth, he is a VERY powerful entity, perhaps one of the strongest I have faced, and has been more cruel to me than even Satan, and I remember having a conversation with one of the people working there about how I had asked a false God at the beginning of my spiritual awakening for help to fix my life, and how that had caused a bunch of problems.
Eventually, I realized I was not receiving the care that I needed while at the crisis center, so I had them transfer me to hospital. All I wanted to do was sleep. I had been awake for days, and I just wanted sleep, so I was looking for Ambien when I went to the hospital, and that's what I got.
I remember they had admitted me to the emergency, but it was so full that every room was full, so they had me in the hallway, and I was just exhausted, and in a very tired state, but my third eye was opened, and I could sense spirits around me, and Satan, Lilith, and Jezebel were there for me that night.
They were hovering over my bed, and speaking to me telepathically, and asking me if I was okay, they were genuinely concerned for me, and wanted to know if I was okay. It was kind of shocking to be honest. These entities are not known for being nice in any way, but they were there for me that night, and God let them be there for me that night, instead of Jesus or someone else, which i find interesting.
This moment and seeing Lilith kneel before Satan made me realize that entities that we think are pure evil, are more dynamic than just evil. They may have evil in them, or have the ability to evil actions, but they can also be good and support others, like they did with me when I was in such an exhausted and vulnerable state after being delivered from Thoth.
I made it back home, and some time passed and I was in a very spiritual moment. My third eye was very awakened. It seems to happen in cycles. That night was a blizzard, and the air was heavy with demonic energy. This time it was the demiurge.
I remember I had dozens if not hundreds of demons in my room, and they were swirling above my bed, and I kept trying to lay down because I was so exhausted, and I kept being told to not lay down because I would squish a spirit, so I chose to not lay down.
I was whistling the avatar theme for the spirits to uplift them and make them feel better, and during this time I was being possessed by spirits. The room was heavy with spiritual energy.
So much happened that I don't want to get into, but it all lead to me being outside in the blizzard, in the snow storm, naked, and laying down in the snow. I had to be very cold for some reason while interacting with these demons, to keep them from overtaking me, and I remember I had to leave my house behind entirely.
My mom came outside before I left the house and I could feel demonic energy, evil spirits, all around her. There was a presence of wrath around her, and she was angry with me, because I had flooded the bathroom of the house while trying to get cold in the shower.
I left the house, there was a foot of snow on the ground, and I was naked and wandering down the street. I would check in with what I thought was God every once in a while to figure out what was happening with the demons in my bedroom.
For some reason when I would have a thought it would affect them in my room. That's really complicated to get into, and I don't understand it, but regardless, I wandered down the street and around the corner, and that is when the police got me.
They handcuffed me, and put me in the back of the police cruiser, and I remember telling God that the Matrix has me. The police called an ambulance, and they came to get me, I remember they transferred me to the ambulance, and they covered me with blankets, but I didn't want to be warm, I didn't have any control over this situation.
My body started to shut down, and I was struggling to even breathe, and that's when the demiurge appeared. They started speaking to me, and controlling my body to keep me breathing, and that's when I submitted to them, thinking that I was on my own, and God had abandoned me. I told them to fill me with demons, and that I would become a demon lord.
As I would breathe, I could feel demons entering me, spirits. When I got to the hospital, I was possessed by a lot of spirits, and my body was in agony. It's very hard to explain what it feels like, but just imagine discordant energy in your body that makes you feel awful, and physically hurts.
I struggled the entire night, and was in absolute agony. After 6-8 hours I was recovered and feeling better, they had admitted me to the hospital at this time, so I was able to rest in a room and eat plenty of food and recover.
My experience with the demiurge was really traumatic though, but that wasn't the end of my experiences with him.
... to be continued...
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Well, I turned 29. I had probably close to 50 jobs, and had a complete discontentment with my life and civilization, and was contemplating suicide, and then I had a full-blown spiritual awakening, saw a vision of Jesus, God and Satan, and went through an immense dark night of the soul and personal transformation of the heart.
I just have this verse on my heart right now thinking about it, "Death and life are in the power of the tongue, and those who love it will eat its fruits, [Psalm 18:21]" and it just reminds me of what I said when I was a teenager.
I know God heard that and knew that he wasn't going to let me die of suicide. He was watching me the whole time, and he cared about me, and he didn't want to lose me.
Three years ago, I was a 29-year-old man whose life had become defined by isolation. Once curious and engaged with the world in my youth, I had slowly withdrawn into myself from depression, retreating into the comfort of my room in my mother's house. My agnostic atheism left me without a guiding light, and the mundane realities of life, from my dozens of failed jobs to my ongoing struggles with addiction, weighed heavily on my spirit. I found solace instead in the company of strategy games and suffered deeply in the rabbit hole of conspiracies on the internet.
My addictions had become an ever-tightening grip on my life. I found myself reaching for cannabis, alcohol, video games, fast food, and pornography to fill the void that had grown in my heart over the years. My life had become a series of hollow habits, each one leaving me feeling emptier than before. I could no longer deny that something was deeply wrong.
One day, while browsing online, I stumbled upon a post that claimed Thoth, the ancient Egyptian deity of knowledge and wisdom, could help those who asked for his assistance. Intrigued, I wondered if reaching out to Thoth could provide me with the help I needed.
Weeks passed since reading the post, and as I stood in my shower, my thoughts drifted to the crossroads my life seemed to have come to. I asked myself why I was stuck in a cycle of self-destructive behaviors and why I felt such a profound sense of emptiness. The steam from the shower enveloped me as I said aloud, "Thoth, if you are real, I really need your help right now. I don't want to live like this anymore; I don't want to die yet." As I spoke the words, my hand moved from the side of my body, and then to my forehead and heart, while making a hand-sign and I felt at peace.
I was stunned, realizing the hand-sign I had made was eerily similar to ones I had seen in paintings of Jesus. I was stunned but felt an unusual calmness wash over me. As I dried off and dressed, I pondered what had just happened. I went to the full-body mirror in my room, looking at myself. I saw someone I no longer recognized, someone I no longer wanted to be.
Once more, I said, "Thoth, if you are real, will you help me? This isn't who I want to be anymore." I stared at myself in the mirror, and slowly a vision began to form in my eyes. It wasn’t Thoth I saw, but Jesus.
Jesus appeared with long brown hair, a brown beard, brown eyes, and light brown skin. Half of his face was illuminated by light, while the other half was cast in shadow. The vision of Jesus was so vivid that it left me both in awe and at peace. As the vision of him faded, I remember reaching out to him because I didn't want him to go, I could tell he was here to help.
As night fell, I lay in my bed, lost in deep contemplation. I revisited the events of the day, focusing on the vision of Jesus. The clarity of the vision was imprinted on my mind, and I couldn't shake the feeling that it held a deeper meaning. I pondered the nature of good and evil, and how they were intertwined in a complex dance of duality. I found myself questioning whether the traditional view of evil as something to be hated and shunned was truly the right approach. Instead, I began to entertain the idea that perhaps evil people and perhaps even evil itself, could be understood with compassion and empathy, instead of hatred and disgust.
As I continued to ponder, I experienced a peculiar sensation in my head. It was as though something shifted in the center of my brain, around the area of my third eye or pineal gland. There was a slight pop like a tearing or crunching sound, it was not painful, but surprising nonetheless. I then felt a fluid movement from the left hemisphere of my brain to the right hemisphere, using the third eye as a bridge or something. This shift brought me a sense of balance and calmness I had not felt before. I realized I had been living predominantly in the logical part of my brain, instead of emotional side.
As I embraced this newfound state of relaxation, I began to see another vision in my mind. This time, it was God who appeared. God had long white hair, a white beard, and wore white robes and sandals. Then God began dancing, moving with joy and lightheartedness.
Before I could fully process what I was seeing, another figure appeared alongside God. It was Satan, with red skin and horns. Satan seemed curious and playful, attempting to imitate God's dance moves with enthusiasm. The sight of these two seemingly opposing forces dancing together struck me as surreal.
As I watched them dance, I found myself smiling, and really enjoying the moment. Then, my mind wandered to the Russian squat dance, a thought that seemed to come out of nowhere. To my amazement, God began performing the Russian squat dance, his movements precise and fluid. I couldn't help but laugh. It was awesome and hilarious.
Slowly, they both faded away, leaving me in a state of awe and wonder. I realized that my third eye had opened, granting me access to a deeper level of perception and understanding.
I lay in my bed for a few moments, attempting to grasp the profound implications of the vision I had just experienced. The reality of the spiritual world was undeniable now. God, Jesus, Satan, and other spiritual beings were real, their presence deeply embedded within my new understanding. This stark realization overwhelmed me, and I felt an immense fear wash over me, it was like the Eye of Sauron was upon me, or the eye of Satan.
I began pacing frantically around my room, gasping for air as I tried to process the magnitude of my new awareness. My mind felt as if it were on the brink of shattering; I couldn't comprehend what was happening. The very foundation of my reality had shifted, leaving me teetering on the edge of my sanity.
Despite my racing thoughts and heart, I managed to steady myself using deep breathing techniques I had learned in the past from Wim Hof. My frantic pace gradually slowed, and I returned to my bed, trying to make sense of everything.
I deduced that the condition commonly known as schizophrenia might not be what people thought it was. Instead, it could be an individual's heightened sensitivity to the spirit world, a world most people never perceived.
As I lay in bed, still reeling from my panic, I suddenly saw a vision of Satan. He had red skin and horns, and spoke directly to me, expressing admiration for my deduction. Satan confirmed that what I thought was true: many people were speaking to demons, believing themselves to be schizophrenic. This deceptive world was, indeed, a harsh reality.
I tried to take in Satan's words, but a sensation of something being pulled out of me struck me. It felt as though my very soul was being drained from my body. My energy depleted rapidly, and I was overcome by a sense of impending doom. I lost control of my bodily functions, believing that I was moments away from death.
At the moment when I thought I was succumbing to death, I caught sight of an Easter lily I had bought earlier that day, sitting on my desk. The sight of the beautiful lily sparked a powerful desire to live within me. Fueled by a newfound will to survive coursing through me, I leaped out of my bed, and began pacing back and forth in my room once more, gasping for air.
As I walked, I experienced a series of visions featuring characters I admired and found inspiration from—Master Yoda from Star Wars, Aang from Avatar: The Last Airbender, and Neo from The Matrix. I realized that God had shown me these characters because they were a source of moral guidance and strength in my life.
My thoughts then turned to the physical pain I was experiencing. My awareness of the spirit world had heightened significantly, causing my brain to start heating up, and I felt a piercing pain and ballooning sensation near my right temple, which deeply concerned me.
Every time I had a thought, I could feel my brain stem wiggle and I would feel pain in my right temple, so I had to learn to still or quiet my mind. Recognizing that I needed to take action to cool my head and relieve the pain, with a sort of just knowing of what I had to do, I resolved to get a large bowl of ice water and head to the basement.
I quietly left my room so as not to wake my mother, who was sleeping in her room nearby, and ventured downstairs to the basement
At this point you could say I was "possessed" by spirits, Thoth, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit. I was able to rest my consciousness in my third eye, and the Holy Spirit, Thoth, or Jesus could help me and take move my body to keep me alive. There was no way for me to survive without help.
The holy spirit showed me a specific breathing technique to diffuse the energy in my brain by inhaling through my mouth deeply, and then exhaling through my nose in the water. The vibration of exhaling through my nose into the water would cause my brain to feel soothed for a little while, likely stimulating my vagus nerve too, and I believe it was doing something with the fluid in my brain. When I was able to not be at the water, I had to keep pressure on the center of my forehead to rest in my third eye so they could help me.
I remember pacing between the two sections of my basement, and Thoth was helping me breathe just to stay conscious. One half of the basement was bright with light with concrete floors, which is where the bowl of water was, the washer and drier, a sink, and four litter boxes. On the other side of the basement was dark with a carpeted floor and a wood fireplace. The basement's light was painted in the duality of light and dark.
I remained in the basement until the sun rose, soaking my head in icewater, and pacing back and forth between the dark and light rooms because i would become overly sensitive to one particular room, and I was just trying to breathe to stay conscious. I was battling the spirit of fear the entire night. The fear from my initial awakening and the fear of death over and over again, hundreds if not thousands of times.
I soaked my head in the ice water all night, getting momentary breaks from the water, and certain I was going to die hundreds of times from a brain hemorrhage, I stood on the hard pavement for hours, I remember Jesus was my legs at one point, I could feel him focusing through me to keep me standing. I continuously soaked my head in the ice water to combat the piercing pain and ballooning sensation in my right temple. Throughout the night, I heard voices speaking to me—some belonging to what I would call demons and others to angels.
The demons tried to instill fear in me, convincing me I was going to die. While the angels offered comfort and reassurance, telling me I would be okay. Despite the torment I endured, I found profound inner strength and refused to give up. I remember squeezing my Celtic cross necklace so hard during this time.
The sun rose on the second day, I had been awake all night, I was beyond exhausted. I don't remember all of the specifics of this time, my awakening was very traumatic, but several hours passed and I remember being told that I needed to grab a book and go outside down the street and sit by a tree. I refused, and Satan said, "Do you want to die?" I said "No," and grabbed a book and went outside and walked down the street to a tree and sat with my back leaned against it.
I read my book for about 10 minutes when two women carrying their babies in slings approached me, and asked me what I was reading. I told them the name of the book, Inner Engineering by Sadghuru, and they said that they were doing a prayer walk, and wanted to share the gospel message with me. I knew this was a divine appointment. This was meant to happen.
They shared the gospel message with me, and then offered to let me join their community of house churches, and gave me the number of one of their husbands so I could call and get connected with them.
I spent the rest of the day relaxing, but was unable to sleep and barely ate anything, and once the night fell, I was in the basement again, soaking my head in ice water. I would often get relief during the days when the sun was out, and then at night, it was a brutal spiritual battle all night in the basement where I was fighting for my life.
On the second day, I was in the kitchen, and I had the right side of my head in the ice water, and was moving my head up to breathe in through my mouth, and then I would tilt my head back down and exhale my entire breath out through my nose. I didn't know what I was doing, I was just listening to guidance from what I believe was the holy spirit.
After around 15-20 minutes of intense exhaling through my nose, a ton of white viscous liquid started coming out of my nose, and filling the bowl, it wasn't painful at all, it was a massive relief, and the excess fluid in my head was somehow being drained out. When the process was done, I remember I felt amazing, incredible actually, like my head was clear of all confusion, and I was so very much alive and conscious.
I went outside and was swinging a stick like a sword and having fun, and I think I got a little overzealous and jumped the fence behind my house, and started going on an adventure. After around 3-5 minutes though, the fluid started building back up, and I had to soak my head in a puddle to keep my brain cool. When I returned home, I went back to the water to soak my head. I still hadn't slept.
That night was brutal, and I was suffering badly, and I remember I was sitting on the dark side of the basement, but I had turned on the lamp. I was sitting on pillows, and I had just been soaking my head in the water. Satan then told me that in order to save the world, I would have to die by popping my third eye. I don't know why I believed him, I didn't have discernment at the time, and I was just following whatever guidance was coming my way, but I know that I had to do that to find my true strength.
I sat for a moment and contemplated. I grabbed a wooden walking stick that was nearby, and I moved it to my forehead, and pushed it into the center of my head as hard as I could until my arms literally gave out. I thought of my mom and sister, and I wanted the world to be free from suffering, but I wasn't meant to die that day. I cried very hard, and I learned that the human skull is very strong. I got up and went back to the ice water, and my forehead was numb.
Eventually, after three days and nights of this suffering, following the path God laid out before me, I reached my complete breaking point. I declared to the spirits that I had had enough. I was done soaking my head in ice water and I slowly and bravely removed my head from the bowl of water.
I was shivering so badly. These weren't just cold shivers, these were spiritual shivers, they shake you to your very core. I felt awful. Those who have been delivered will know what I am speaking about when I saw spiritual shivers. I spread out pillows on the floor, and lay down to rest. As I settled in, I pulled the blanket over me, and I remember I felt the comforting presence of Jesus, he was tucking me in.
I slept for just a few hours and awoke up early on Saturday morning. I remember my head hurt and it felt like the left side of my head was full of fluid. I grabbed the bowl of ice water, and this time, however, I decided to sit outside. The pain in my head was still excruciating, and I thought I might die.
My mother saw me outside, and concerned about my well-being, approached me to check if I was okay. I told her to call the ambulance because I needed help, and she quickly complied. When the paramedics arrived, they took me to the hospital, where I hoped I would receive the medical care I desperately needed, but that wasn't what was in store for me.
I got to the hospital, and the medical establishment, unfortunately, has no empathy or concern for people's mental sufferings. I asked them for water to drink because I was so dehydrated, and they wouldn't give me water.
Then, I got admitted to the hospital, and they finally gave me some juice and a snack, and I was starting to relax, but then a voice came into my head, it was Satan, and he made me think I needed to soak my head in the icewater again and expel the white viscous fluid again, so I started panicking a bit and had them bring me a bowl of ice water, and I began soaking my head.
They had probably never seen anything like what I was doing, and thought I was just crazy, because they basically came after me and tied me to the bed, and forcefully injected me with something to make me calm down or sleep, and then they didn't talk to me at all anymore throughout the night.
I am claustrophobic, so being tied down was absolute torture for me. They left me in the dark hospital room suffering all night, tied to the bed, thinking I was going to die the entire night, and then finally the sun rose on the horizon, and when the nurse came in to draw my blood in the morning, I asked them to request security to release me from the restraints. They have no empathy for people. Something is deeply wrong with the medical system.
Anyways, they finally sent me to an in-patient mental health clinic which is honestly just a warehouse for people to take meds, sleep, and eat, away from society. It was honestly a welcome respite, but there's no therapy available at these places. Which means no real internal healing is taking place for people suffering.
Once I got to the in-patient mental health clinic, I spent the first day mostly just relaxing, but there was a man there that was definitely possessed by a demon. He would be shouting a bunch of biblical verses about the kingdom of God, and a lot more, and then he would be on the floor the next, flailing around, being tortured by a demon. One of the other patients there told me he is being tortured by something, and I see what she means now.
I spent the rest of my time there recovering the best I could, and just taking the meds to calm down, and try to get some sleep, and spent time listening to people's stories. One of the girls there told me that the wound on my forehead from when I pushed the wooden staff into my forehead, looked like a cross, and she was right.
When I got out of the in-patient mental health clinic, I called the number that I had received during my three days and nights dark night of the soul.
I joined their community of house churches, and was studying the Bible with them for several months and meeting with them frequently, and I thought I had found my forever friends. We would go on prayer walks, and I was eventually baptized at a lake, and thought that I had a new life of faith waiting for me with new friends.
They were concerned about my well-being and cared about me, but a small part of me felt like I was being controlled by them too, like they wanted me to conform to all of their beliefs and everything in the Bible as fact, and the word of God, and I have always been very sensitive to manipulation since I was a child, and I could tell they were manipulating me. They never left room for me to be myself, and share my beliefs without condemnation, which is a major red flag.
Recognizing this, I distanced myself from them, and went on my own spiritual journey where I spent months conversing with the spirit world in my backyard. walking in circles. I spoke to God and Satan/Lucifer and was trying to come to understanding why Satan would reject God's will.
After some time, I realized I was just being tortured, and I needed help. I was suffering from a lot, and I needed deliverance. Satan had taken up a seat in my mind because I let him, and I had demons hurting me. I reached out to the Christian group again after several months of being distant from them, and they said there was an opportunity to move in with some Christian brothers and live with them, so I jumped on the opportunity. I was so excited. I was on fire for God.
I got to the house, and moved my stuff in, and then the night fell on the first night, and the enemy was not having it. The demons and Satan were not having it. They did NOT want me living with my brothers in Christ because they knew I was detached from all the boxes of thought control, and I was living in the spirit, wasn't a slave of mind or spirit. They wanted to destroy our relationship, between us, the brothers of Christ, and they did.
I don't remember the exact sequence of events, but I was entirely in the spirit at the time, I was detached from my body in a way, and just following the path laid out before me. I could feel that I needed to go outside and walk the neighborhood as a part of my spiritual path, so I left the house, and walked barefoot throughout the neighborhood.
While walking the neighborhood, I was in full spirit mode, I was communicating with God and Jesus, and they were guiding me on my path. I saw visions of them sitting beside a tree and trimming off rotten fruit, which I think was symbolic of them removing rotten fruit from my mind. I also saw them sweeping out a room and cleaning it, as if symbolic of my mind, and them cleaning my mind and purifying it. I also remember seeing a symbolic vision of myself holding up a golden gemstone encrusted goblet to God.
During that night, I declared war on the principalities of darkness. Against the forces of darkness. I saw skulls in the clouds, and could tell they were communicating with me as they are spirits of the air.
My feet were bloodied from walking around the neighborhood barefoot, I was completely lost all night, I was new to the neighborhood too, and had no idea where I was, so I wandered for hours throughout the night, so hungry, tired, and thirsty, and just physically and mentally exhausted, but I endured. That night made me realize how strong I really am when I let go of everything and trust in God. When I completely become the spirit instead of the body. The human body is incredible and capable of withstanding far more than we know.
Finally, I found my way to the house, and my footsteps were spilling blood on the front porch. The door was locked, and I knocked, and one of the brothers let me in, and I went to my bedroom. I couldn't sleep at all, my mind was very active, it was very similar to when I had my spiritual awakening, I was just unable to sleep because of how active my mind was. I spent the whole night awake.
The next day, I was suffering horrible spiritual attack, my head was in pain and I was holding my head just to feel comfortable, and one of the brothers called a friend of theirs to come and do a deliverance. I remember them being very bold, but gentle... firm, but kind to me, as they expelled some of the demons through prayer. It wasn't a painful deliverance or too exhausting, it was gentle by comparison. I felt much better after the deliverance, hungry and thirsty again, and wanted to nourish my body. I spent the rest of the day relaxing a bit, and listening to the other believers talk about the Bible, and their beliefs.
That night, I was delivered again, and it was awful. My brothers in Christ shouldn't have done the deliverance, but I don't know if I even would have made the rest of the night it if they didn't. I think the holy spirit guided them to do the deliverance, but it went out of control.
I was in my room, suffering deeply, holding my head, and all three brothers who lived there came up to my room to check on me, and pray for me. Their prayers turned into a full blown deliverance, and demons were screaming out of me for around half an hour straight. They were casting them out in the name of Jesus, but it was awful, it's one of my most traumatic memories. I was suffering so badly, and honestly I could tell the demons were suffering so badly, and my brothers in Christ had zero empathy for me.
After speaking with demons, the brothers wanted to speak with me again, so I came to, I asked them for water, and they denied me, and they just continued the deliverance without giving me a break. I had been suffering for around 45 minutes straight, with demons screaming out of me, and I was beyond exhausted, I was so dehydrated, and I just needed to stop. They didn't care, they kept going.
They kept shouting at these demons in the name of Jesus to leave, and eventually after another ten minutes, I realized, nothing was happening, we weren't getting anywhere, the demons weren't coming out, and they asked to speak with me again, and I came to the forefront and regained control, and tried talking to them, but they were gone. The demons had got into them somehow, and they were filled with hatred and revulsion for me. They all had the same facial expression of hatred and revulsion for me.
I went around the room and pleaded with them that it was me, but they didn't believe me, they were gone, checked out, I tried bringing up memories of what had happened between us that were specific to each person to bring them to understanding that it was me, and in fact not a demon speaking, but they thought I was a demon speaking.
They all grabbed ahold of me, and pinned me down on the bed, but I knew where this was going, the demons in them were going to flood me with fear and fill me with demons again, and I wasn't going to have that, I wasn't going to let them win.
I flailed out of their grasp, told them to get off me, and ran down the stairs and out of the house. I remember as I was running out, Satan told me, "You are the most free person on the planet."
I ran outside, and even the weight of my clothes felt like too much, I was panicking from the trauma of the deliverance and the attack from my brothers, and I stripped off all my clothes and ran down the alley way in the middle of the night and got away from the house.
There were no light, and no one around, and no one followed me, so I just ran down the alley way, and found an abandoned car to sit on for a few minutes until I got a message from God that it was time to go grab my clothes and put my clothes on.
I put my clothes back on, and started walking away from the house because I needed to get some air. That is when one of the other brother's in Christ, the one that I had called initially to join their community of house churches, was there. I think he was guided by the holy spirit to show up there that night.
Anyways, we walked back to the house, and when we got there, there was a cop car and an ambulance there. I guess the brothers had called for a wellness check on me. They wanted to bring me to the hospital to have me evaluated. I protested, but just wanted them to leave me alone, I went with them, and went to the hospital.
Much to no one's surprise, they did nothing for me at the hospital. They just put me in a room where I waited around for 6-8 hours, until I was finally released. I didn't go back to the brother's house though. When they offered me an uber, I went back to my mom's house. I wasn't going to live with them anymore after what they did to me...
A couple weeks passed and two of the brothers who did the deliverance called me, and wanted to schedule a time to meet up so they could minister to me. They came over to my house, and basically told me that I was still demon possessed, and made me feel like there was something wrong with me, and then when I confronted them and asked them if they had a problem with me, they lied to my face, and said that they didn't have a problem with me.
About a month passed and the last brother that was a part of deliverance contacted me and invited me to go to church with him. I told him how that experience made me feel, how I was claustrophobic from childhood trauma and that being pinned down by everyone was horribly traumatic, and he said, "Do you feel better now?" in a sarcastic tone. He completely dismissed how I felt, that hurt me badly.
I went to church with him once, but never went with him again, I also never reconnected with any of the other brothers, and then my life started to become very spiritual. God had a path of understanding laid out before me that most people will not tread.
I began to try to become friends with demons and minister to them and try to turn them to Christ. I had a lot of visions during this time, and I cried a lot. I would walk around my neighborhood and see visions of demons sitting on top of the apartment buildings.
When I would go home, I would have visions of demons in my basement, and would have to drive them out in the name of Jesus. I would speak to them too, and wait and listen for them to telepathically communicate with me.
I remember I was suffering badly though, and I needed to go to in-patient mental health again for help. I needed the meds and a place where I could rest and relax.
During my time there, I was communicating with a spirit named Jezebel, and during that time I was suffering very badly. I won't get into all of the details, but I was becoming friends with her, and we shared a deep laugh about something that I cannot remember anymore, but I remember the laugh. It felt so good to laugh after suffering so badly.
During my time while I was there I was seeing visions of my own death. I was seeing people suffering from demonic attack and spirits of confusion. They couldn't remember who they were, or who other people were.
I prayed for a woman to be delivered that night in her sleep, and the next day she was bright and fresh and happy, and doing so much better. God performed a miracle on her, and saved her. She was a normal person again after entering the hospital in a complete state of confusion. It was miraculous. I was honestly jealous, because I was suffering so badly, and she was delivered overnight in her sleep in a relaxed way, while my time had been so intense.
While I was there though, I was under heavy attack, but I pulled through, God pulled me through too, but when I got home, the journey wasn't over though. I was in a spiritual state for a while, and was seeing visions. I could rest in my third eye, and see the spirit world. It was exhausting, I saw a lot of demons, and had to drive them out in the name of Jesus.
Then one night, I was downstairs, and I was with Satan, Lilith, and a spirit calling itself Baal. I remember Baal was sitting in the middle in front of the fireplace, and Satan was to my left, and Lilith was to my right.
I don't remember what we spoke about, I just spent time with them, and I drank a beer with them, the air was heavy with demonic energy, and then I remember Lilith went over to Satan and kneeled before him, and grabbed him by the hand tenderly and asked him to turn away from his evil ways.
Satan neither accepted nor refused, and then I remember maybe 5 minutes passed and I was doing a full-blown deliverance on Lilith. I was praying for her, and I could see visions of her on the ground flailing around, it was awful, and I hope she is okay.
I don't know how long after that passed, but I was delivered many times during this phase. I was around demons a lot and they would get into me, and I would have to expel them out through vomiting, and it was excruciating.
Several months passed after that where I was okay, I spent months just relaxing and recovering, playing video games, smoking weed, and just relaxing. It was nice, but it wasn't the end of my journey.
My next journey was against Thoth. While he was a great help at the beginning of my spiritual awakening, he is not a perfect being like God, and he tried to overtake me. It's really hard to explain what he did, but he was viciously attacking me spiritually, and I sought help to go to the in-patient mental health clinic again. That was where I went when things got too spiritually charged. I had Medicaid, so I was able to go as needed.
They didn't send me to in-patient this time though, they sent me to a crisis pivot center, which is basically a residential house that is being used to treat people suffering from mental illness, where you can receive meds and sleep in a sort of half-way house between in-patient mental health and being back in the world at home.
Anyways, I was suffering grotesquely from Thoth, he is a VERY powerful entity, perhaps one of the strongest I have faced, and has been more cruel to me than even Satan, and I remember having a conversation with one of the people working there about how I had asked a false God at the beginning of my spiritual awakening for help to fix my life, and how that had caused a bunch of problems.
Eventually, I realized I was not receiving the care that I needed while at the crisis center, so I had them transfer me to hospital. All I wanted to do was sleep. I had been awake for days, and I just wanted sleep, so I was looking for Ambien when I went to the hospital, and that's what I got.
I remember they had admitted me to the emergency, but it was so full that every room was full, so they had me in the hallway, and I was just exhausted, and in a very tired state, but my third eye was opened, and I could sense spirits around me, and Satan, Lilith, and Jezebel were there for me that night.
They were hovering over my bed, and speaking to me telepathically, and asking me if I was okay, they were genuinely concerned for me, and wanted to know if I was okay. It was kind of shocking to be honest. These entities are not known for being nice in any way, but they were there for me that night, and God let them be there for me that night, instead of Jesus or someone else, which i find interesting.
This moment and seeing Lilith kneel before Satan made me realize that entities that we think are pure evil, are more dynamic than just evil. They may have evil in them, or have the ability to evil actions, but they can also be good and support others, like they did with me when I was in such an exhausted and vulnerable state after being delivered from Thoth.
I made it back home, and some time passed and I was in a very spiritual moment. My third eye was very awakened. It seems to happen in cycles. That night was a blizzard, and the air was heavy with demonic energy. This time it was the demiurge.
I remember I had dozens if not hundreds of demons in my room, and they were swirling above my bed, and I kept trying to lay down because I was so exhausted, and I kept being told to not lay down because I would squish a spirit, so I chose to not lay down.
I was whistling the avatar theme for the spirits to uplift them and make them feel better, and during this time I was being possessed by spirits. The room was heavy with spiritual energy.
So much happened that I don't want to get into, but it all lead to me being outside in the blizzard, in the snow storm, naked, and laying down in the snow. I had to be very cold for some reason while interacting with these demons, to keep them from overtaking me, and I remember I had to leave my house behind entirely.
My mom came outside before I left the house and I could feel demonic energy, evil spirits, all around her. There was a presence of wrath around her, and she was angry with me, because I had flooded the bathroom of the house while trying to get cold in the shower.
I left the house, there was a foot of snow on the ground, and I was naked and wandering down the street. I would check in with what I thought was God every once in a while to figure out what was happening with the demons in my bedroom.
For some reason when I would have a thought it would affect them in my room. That's really complicated to get into, and I don't understand it, but regardless, I wandered down the street and around the corner, and that is when the police got me.
They handcuffed me, and put me in the back of the police cruiser, and I remember telling God that the Matrix has me. The police called an ambulance, and they came to get me, I remember they transferred me to the ambulance, and they covered me with blankets, but I didn't want to be warm, I didn't have any control over this situation.
My body started to shut down, and I was struggling to even breathe, and that's when the demiurge appeared. They started speaking to me, and controlling my body to keep me breathing, and that's when I submitted to them, thinking that I was on my own, and God had abandoned me. I told them to fill me with demons, and that I would become a demon lord.
As I would breathe, I could feel demons entering me, spirits. When I got to the hospital, I was possessed by a lot of spirits, and my body was in agony. It's very hard to explain what it feels like, but just imagine discordant energy in your body that makes you feel awful, and physically hurts.
I struggled the entire night, and was in absolute agony. After 6-8 hours I was recovered and feeling better, they had admitted me to the hospital at this time, so I was able to rest in a room and eat plenty of food and recover.
My experience with the demiurge was really traumatic though, but that wasn't the end of my experiences with him.
... to be continued...
2024.05.16 05:43 SoapInMyCoffeee (XB1) Whitespring Resort Donation Box
I just dropped off a solid 363lbs of random starred stuff like weapons/armoPA, along with some aid items like stimpacks and radaway. Free to anyone who finds it, stash weight limit strikes again.
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2024.05.16 05:42 1MTzy96 What turning 28 is or feels like?
Sa bilis ng panahon, mag-28 na ako this start of June. So around 2 weeks from now, and before I know it madadagdagan na edad ko.
Being 27 ay sumasagi na sa isipan na nasa late 20s na, like am I expected to be a bit more mature youth. Or does turning 28 hit a bit different?
What I can say as an opinion is, bata pa pero di na ganun kabata. I still feel young being considered at my late 20s, but 30s life is waving and medj mabilis lang din ang 2 years na un. Adult na nga but I still don't feel totally like it, as if in some aspects I may not yet be acting or thinking mature enough, maybe feeling like 5 years younger pa ako. But having job requirements/government IDs and stuff, add to that na nakawork na ako for 1st job and kakastart lang 2 weeks ago sa 2nd job tapos sumasahod na (pero wala pa sa current job na kakasimula lang), plus may savings na rin, I think na slowly ramdam na ang pagiging adult. May alam na chores pero di pa lahat, part of me medj tinatamad especially pag pagod na sa work. And I still prefer gaming pa rin bilang libangan during free time. Limited din friends ko especially sa socmeds, and as introverted di rin masyado mahilig lumabas except pag kasama pamilya o relative/cousins, foodtrip lang hilig din haha. Single pa rin. Walang bisyo except gaming lang, though dahil sa work di na rin masyado nakakalaro.
And since sa cafe/resto ako nagwo-work, a natapat pa ng weekend birthday ko, probably di ko mace-celebrate sa araw mismo. Maybe sa day-off closest either before or after pweds magcelebrate. Don't know exactly rin how would I celebrate it. Unlike before na nakakapag-out-of-town travel or buffet, I might lean towards a simpler celebration like kain ng lunch sa labas pag rest-day then handa na lang sa bahay for dinner.
Your thoughts about turning 28? How's going 28 for you?
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Being 27 ay sumasagi na sa isipan na nasa late 20s na, like am I expected to be a bit more mature youth. Or does turning 28 hit a bit different?
What I can say as an opinion is, bata pa pero di na ganun kabata. I still feel young being considered at my late 20s, but 30s life is waving and medj mabilis lang din ang 2 years na un. Adult na nga but I still don't feel totally like it, as if in some aspects I may not yet be acting or thinking mature enough, maybe feeling like 5 years younger pa ako. But having job requirements/government IDs and stuff, add to that na nakawork na ako for 1st job and kakastart lang 2 weeks ago sa 2nd job tapos sumasahod na (pero wala pa sa current job na kakasimula lang), plus may savings na rin, I think na slowly ramdam na ang pagiging adult. May alam na chores pero di pa lahat, part of me medj tinatamad especially pag pagod na sa work. And I still prefer gaming pa rin bilang libangan during free time. Limited din friends ko especially sa socmeds, and as introverted di rin masyado mahilig lumabas except pag kasama pamilya o relative/cousins, foodtrip lang hilig din haha. Single pa rin. Walang bisyo except gaming lang, though dahil sa work di na rin masyado nakakalaro.
And since sa cafe/resto ako nagwo-work, a natapat pa ng weekend birthday ko, probably di ko mace-celebrate sa araw mismo. Maybe sa day-off closest either before or after pweds magcelebrate. Don't know exactly rin how would I celebrate it. Unlike before na nakakapag-out-of-town travel or buffet, I might lean towards a simpler celebration like kain ng lunch sa labas pag rest-day then handa na lang sa bahay for dinner.
Your thoughts about turning 28? How's going 28 for you?
2024.05.16 05:39 Diligent-Writer-4501 My 22 F fiance 23 M threw me into a wall and now I don’t know how to get over it
TD;LR My fiance threw me into a wall on valentines after he hit my dog in the head with a remote
My (22f) fiance (23m) from January to Feb of this year was doing an emt class to get his certification. He’s got A.D.D and mild learning disabilities so learning for him is much more difficult than the normal person. Well he was super stressed the entire class and I helped him every day even though I was taking 8 college classes to get my Bachelors of nursing degree. I was so stressed with my school on top of him begging me to help him study and on top of watching his father with dementia Monday- Thursday from 7am-2pm (because my classes were from 3-7 and 5 of my 8 classes are online) on top of working at the hospital from 7am-7pm Friday Saturday and Sunday. On top of having gastric sleeve surgery on December 5th of 2023, and my mental health was awful after surgery during the liquid / soft food diet fazes. So when my fiance started emt school I was already stressed to the max with everything and I really needed him during that time of my life because I was so depressed and needed someone to talk too. I don’t have a good family life so I moved out a year ago so all I have is my fiance. So for a month straight I had been so excited about Valentine’s Day because it was the only day I could fully see my fiance without anything else stressing us out. I won’t lie I have been a little moody towards him because he spent all day everyday studying and never spoke to me unless it was “can you help me study” “please I need your help I’m not smart enough to learn this alone” so I constantly begged for him to take a break to be with me so Valentine’s Day for me was a big deal. So for a month straight I was asking “what are we doing for Valentine’s Day? I’m so excited” and he would tell me “I promise I have something big and special for you that day and we will have a stress free romantic day together” well I was so excited about it I went off and spent 70 dollars on a dress and shoes for our date. Well come the day off I was patiently waiting for him to come home from his emt class so I could start to get ready, but he walks in and walks straight to the couch, opens up his laptop (well it was actually my laptop that I used for school so you can really see where my school was pushed back and I accommodated for him) and didn’t say a word to me. And I asked him what we were doing and he said “oh I forgot to tell you I’ve got to study for my test so we can’t do Valentine’s Day sorry” I was so devastated so I was rude when I shouldn’t have been and I said “thanks for disappointing you, you have done nothing but disappoint me and abandon me for 2 months straight when I’ve needed you but I’m always there when you need me” and I ran out of the house and returned my dress and shoes and got my money back. Well I felt guilty and I went and bought him some chocolate covered strawberries and went back to his house and apologized to him. Well for a little back story I moved into his parents house so I live with him and his mom and dad and his parents are assholes. Well when I apologized to him he didn’t seem to care so I walked away, well we just recently got a puppy and she was whining after me and at the time she couldn’t jump down out of the chair to run after me so she started to whine. Well my fiancé hit her in the head with a remote to get her to be quieter like a ass hole, so I took the laptop out of his lap to get him to look at me when I was telling him how messed up that was and he grabbed me by the arm and threw me into the wall and started cussing me out telling me to get tf out of his house and how all I do is fuss and that he was done with me. He continuously threw me into walls and shook me while cussing me out and he woke up his parents. They came down the hall way freaking out that he was screaming and told him to stop. Well I looked at my fiancé and told him he was crazy for putting his hands on me and his mama has the audacity to look at me and tell me I was the crazy one for expecting him to have free time to take me out for Valentine’s Day and my fiancé let her talk to me all kinds of ways without giving a dern. Well I went to go pack my shit and leave and he came and pulled me outside and told me I wasn’t going anywhere and then he apologized and told me I was nothing but a b*tch and if I wasn’t so selfish he wouldn’t had put his hands on me. (This may be a good point to make that he doesn’t freaking work I work and provide for him) well we got okay but I was triggered by his actions because I was physically abused by my father growing up and for him to know that and do that to me really messed with me. Well the next day he comes to me and tells me that his mother said “you shouldn’t put your hands on her because she can get the police involved and ruin your life “ not because he shouldn’t put his hands on his partner of 8 years ya know . Whatever she’s a butthole!!!! My question is how can I get over that experience? How do I let go of the hurt I feel? It was 3 months ago, shouldn’t I be over it by now?
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My (22f) fiance (23m) from January to Feb of this year was doing an emt class to get his certification. He’s got A.D.D and mild learning disabilities so learning for him is much more difficult than the normal person. Well he was super stressed the entire class and I helped him every day even though I was taking 8 college classes to get my Bachelors of nursing degree. I was so stressed with my school on top of him begging me to help him study and on top of watching his father with dementia Monday- Thursday from 7am-2pm (because my classes were from 3-7 and 5 of my 8 classes are online) on top of working at the hospital from 7am-7pm Friday Saturday and Sunday. On top of having gastric sleeve surgery on December 5th of 2023, and my mental health was awful after surgery during the liquid / soft food diet fazes. So when my fiance started emt school I was already stressed to the max with everything and I really needed him during that time of my life because I was so depressed and needed someone to talk too. I don’t have a good family life so I moved out a year ago so all I have is my fiance. So for a month straight I had been so excited about Valentine’s Day because it was the only day I could fully see my fiance without anything else stressing us out. I won’t lie I have been a little moody towards him because he spent all day everyday studying and never spoke to me unless it was “can you help me study” “please I need your help I’m not smart enough to learn this alone” so I constantly begged for him to take a break to be with me so Valentine’s Day for me was a big deal. So for a month straight I was asking “what are we doing for Valentine’s Day? I’m so excited” and he would tell me “I promise I have something big and special for you that day and we will have a stress free romantic day together” well I was so excited about it I went off and spent 70 dollars on a dress and shoes for our date. Well come the day off I was patiently waiting for him to come home from his emt class so I could start to get ready, but he walks in and walks straight to the couch, opens up his laptop (well it was actually my laptop that I used for school so you can really see where my school was pushed back and I accommodated for him) and didn’t say a word to me. And I asked him what we were doing and he said “oh I forgot to tell you I’ve got to study for my test so we can’t do Valentine’s Day sorry” I was so devastated so I was rude when I shouldn’t have been and I said “thanks for disappointing you, you have done nothing but disappoint me and abandon me for 2 months straight when I’ve needed you but I’m always there when you need me” and I ran out of the house and returned my dress and shoes and got my money back. Well I felt guilty and I went and bought him some chocolate covered strawberries and went back to his house and apologized to him. Well for a little back story I moved into his parents house so I live with him and his mom and dad and his parents are assholes. Well when I apologized to him he didn’t seem to care so I walked away, well we just recently got a puppy and she was whining after me and at the time she couldn’t jump down out of the chair to run after me so she started to whine. Well my fiancé hit her in the head with a remote to get her to be quieter like a ass hole, so I took the laptop out of his lap to get him to look at me when I was telling him how messed up that was and he grabbed me by the arm and threw me into the wall and started cussing me out telling me to get tf out of his house and how all I do is fuss and that he was done with me. He continuously threw me into walls and shook me while cussing me out and he woke up his parents. They came down the hall way freaking out that he was screaming and told him to stop. Well I looked at my fiancé and told him he was crazy for putting his hands on me and his mama has the audacity to look at me and tell me I was the crazy one for expecting him to have free time to take me out for Valentine’s Day and my fiancé let her talk to me all kinds of ways without giving a dern. Well I went to go pack my shit and leave and he came and pulled me outside and told me I wasn’t going anywhere and then he apologized and told me I was nothing but a b*tch and if I wasn’t so selfish he wouldn’t had put his hands on me. (This may be a good point to make that he doesn’t freaking work I work and provide for him) well we got okay but I was triggered by his actions because I was physically abused by my father growing up and for him to know that and do that to me really messed with me. Well the next day he comes to me and tells me that his mother said “you shouldn’t put your hands on her because she can get the police involved and ruin your life “ not because he shouldn’t put his hands on his partner of 8 years ya know . Whatever she’s a butthole!!!! My question is how can I get over that experience? How do I let go of the hurt I feel? It was 3 months ago, shouldn’t I be over it by now?
2024.05.16 05:39 Davess_World2019 HNN: Hagwon News Network April 2024 II
This batch from Tokyo Jon's is another aggravating, "Then why did you put up with this?" venture.
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iGarten Creverse, April, CDI, are all basically the Chungdahm umbrella, I don't know why anyone hasn't figured out not to work for any of these places.
Search bar: iGarten Seocho Branch DO NOT DO IT!iGarten Seocho Branch DO NOT DO IT!
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You wanted to be a teacher? Well then TEACH. Students and everyone else learn a lot from failure. You can talk / complain all day long--ears closed. As soon as there are consequences for leaving the classroom with a room full of naughty children, deadlines are not reached, parents are put off by poor results, management is caught with their pants down--ears open.
Now, do you have the spine inside you to reject punishment? Are you going to reject it and walk out the door, fight back, keep on with your talking points? To SAVE FACE, management will undoubtedly:
a) have a meeting in which they emote all over you, blame you for everything.
b) demand you come to work early/stay late to get said work done, without pay of course.
c) demand you go home and come back with the work completed, without sleep or pay of course.
d) threaten to withhold salary until objective is completed?
e) stink-eyes, sneers, passive-aggressive pouty behavior?
You don't need to throw chairs and getting into a big donnybrook about it (thank you Thesaurus.com). Stick to your talking points, "I'm not doing that, you didn't give us proper notice, there is no time in the day to do it, you aren't paying us overtime or actually anything at all" etc etc.. and if you really need to "Cross the Rubicon" (Thank you Wikipedia), you may have to go full Willy Wonka on their ass:
Wrong, sir! Wrong! Under section 37B of the contract signed by him, it states quite clearly that all offers shall become null and void if - and you can read it for yourself in this photostatic copy:
I, the undersigned, shall forfeit all rights, privileges, and licenses herein and herein contained, et cetera, et cetera... Fax mentis incendium gloria cultum, et cetera, et cetera... Memo bis punitor delicatum!
It's all there, black and white, clear as crystal! You stole fizzy lifting drinks! You bumped into the ceiling which now has to be washed and sterilized, so you get nothing! You lose! Good day, sir!
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British Education Korea (BEK) Apr 16. 2024
...unprofessional and incompetent staff, unqualified bilingual teachers and toxic atmosphere. Worst experience of my life. Waste of time and energy. Extremely low pay and imposed additional (unpaid) roles.--That's really the key elements that never seem to go away:
- Unprofessional.
- Unorganized.
- Incompetent.
- Catty, petty, gossipy, abusive.
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Last year they fired 6 people and claimed financial reasons. On top of this they continued to hire foreign workers from overseas despite claiming financial troubles. Because management was so poor the place is leaking students and so the ones that stay get away with anything.--The first mistake is to trust anything that comes out of their mouths. If they tell me it's raining, I head for a window, open it, stick my hand out before I believe anything from these buffoons and their constant lies, misdirection, and propaganda. Find 5 things that you already know the answers to and that anyone in management / education ought to know, ask in a meeting, see what they say. It's fun, they know nothing about anything.
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iGarten Seocho Banpo Apr 23. 2024
From the moment I signed with this school, warning signs were glaringly evident, but I was optimistic and brushed them off. However, in hindsight, those warning signals were clear indicators of what was to come.* 2. Lack of leadership. 3. Lack of Communication breakdowns 4. Incoherent curriculum 7. Dishonesty and manipulation--Yup! That sounds like a Hagwon alright.
2. Lack of Leadership ...with those in charge either physically absent or lacking the awareness needed to foster accountability, communication, and organization.--This happens everywhere. The laziness is profound. Search bar: Hagwon Life:The Day They Refused to Pay Me. Floor manager playing games on computer, university students paying on their phones in the break room instead of working, and everything else wrong, broken, incomplete, wrong levels, bratty / undisciplined children, no one cares. Let the foreigners pull their hair out and deal with all the issue, the rest of us will sit back and do like the prisoners say, "Get over, get by." The answer is, follow them right out the door no matter what the reason is, stay with them until they come back. They leave, you leave.
Many times, Korean teachers are found either sitting in a corner of the room on their phones, taking selfies, or shopping, or they're outside the classroom engaging in gossip with the front desk or lunch staff.
3. Lack of communication (School Events) Even when management does inform us of an event, it's usually with minimal notice, often just a week or two in advance... (Science Fair) It's frustrating that management only takes action when faced with the threat of embarrassment, leaving teachers to pick up the slack with little support or guidance. (Report cards) The lack of communication extends to the crucial task of writing end-of-year report card comments. Shockingly, this important information was only relayed in the last week of school, not by management, but through hearsay from a veteran teacher. This last-minute notification left teachers with minimal time to prepare thoughtful and personalized comments for each student.--The answer is, THEN DON'T DO IT! Why do the foreigners care more than the people who own the place? All you are teaching them when you put in double-overtime, scramble around like crazy, frantically quick-time it to get things done, don't get enough sleep or proper exercise/nutrition, do it for free at home, is that they learn to expect it from you again and again without consequences. They are as bad at education than anyone you will ever encounter on the planet. They have no idea about anything, ESPECIALLY how long it takes to plan and put together a good result. You can ask any one of them, "How long do you THINK it takes to add a worksheet or construct a lesson plan from scratch? And when do you think I will have time to finish it?" As the OP said, they don't do anything until there is a threat of embarrassment. Well then? Embarrass them and keep giving them the same talking points right from the beginning, "I don't have enough time, I don't work at home for free, everyone ignored my request for resources etc." In many cases, they do this out of disrespect to the foreigners, also they don't want to hear foreigners complain or adjust the instructions so they purposely try to run out the clock on them to keep them busy and quiet. A part of it is to see the foreigners stressed and fail. Yeah, really. They want it to fail. Give them what they want and let it collapse. Of course they blame it all on the foreigners, but just repeat your talking points and keep on repeating them. You get off topic, they'll keep jabbering in your face, you stay on topic they'll get frustrated and give up.....eventually.
iGarten Creverse, April, CDI, are all basically the Chungdahm umbrella, I don't know why anyone hasn't figured out not to work for any of these places.
Search bar: iGarten Seocho Branch DO NOT DO IT!iGarten Seocho Branch DO NOT DO IT!
Blogpage
Google Maps
You wanted to be a teacher? Well then TEACH. Students and everyone else learn a lot from failure. You can talk / complain all day long--ears closed. As soon as there are consequences for leaving the classroom with a room full of naughty children, deadlines are not reached, parents are put off by poor results, management is caught with their pants down--ears open.
Now, do you have the spine inside you to reject punishment? Are you going to reject it and walk out the door, fight back, keep on with your talking points? To SAVE FACE, management will undoubtedly:
a) have a meeting in which they emote all over you, blame you for everything.
b) demand you come to work early/stay late to get said work done, without pay of course.
c) demand you go home and come back with the work completed, without sleep or pay of course.
d) threaten to withhold salary until objective is completed?
e) stink-eyes, sneers, passive-aggressive pouty behavior?
You don't need to throw chairs and getting into a big donnybrook about it (thank you Thesaurus.com). Stick to your talking points, "I'm not doing that, you didn't give us proper notice, there is no time in the day to do it, you aren't paying us overtime or actually anything at all" etc etc.. and if you really need to "Cross the Rubicon" (Thank you Wikipedia), you may have to go full Willy Wonka on their ass:
Wrong, sir! Wrong! Under section 37B of the contract signed by him, it states quite clearly that all offers shall become null and void if - and you can read it for yourself in this photostatic copy:
I, the undersigned, shall forfeit all rights, privileges, and licenses herein and herein contained, et cetera, et cetera... Fax mentis incendium gloria cultum, et cetera, et cetera... Memo bis punitor delicatum!
It's all there, black and white, clear as crystal! You stole fizzy lifting drinks! You bumped into the ceiling which now has to be washed and sterilized, so you get nothing! You lose! Good day, sir!
2024.05.16 05:39 turquoiseanswers I’m really struggling to love my faith again like I used to.
I was a homeschooled only child, raised in a QAnon/conspiracy theorist household. It was just a recipe for disaster, and I’ve slowly been trying to put the pieces together to figure things out.
I kind of thought things were going okay, but covid is what really made my world crumble. Out of everything, I think watching my parents turn into doomsday anti-vaxxers was the most devastating thing I’ve ever endured. I had to hide my covid vaccinations from them because my mom threatened to disown me if I “took the mark of the beast.” My dad thinks it’ll turn people into government controlled zombies. I have no other family, and honestly no strong friendships because I was isolated my entire childhood.
I grew up a huge fan of contemporary Christian music, and having so many of my favorite artists spiral into similar ideologies as my parents made me feel so alone. I won’t name anyone directly, but several have said or posted hurtful things regarding LGBTQ rights, and people like me who still choose to mask up out of caution for covid. One artist I especially loved changed the lyrics and made a mockery of Amazing Grace when I saw him in concert in 2022. He said “since we were in good old Florida, he knew he could get away with it.”
(Trigger warning honestly if you don’t want the song ruined for you)
He sang “My mask is gone, I’ve been set free” and a bunch of other altered verses making fun of anyone who still cared about the pandemic. I felt excruciatingly uncomfortable sitting there in the first couple of rows, the only person in the crowd in a mask. The same artist has also posted stuff endorsing toxic purity culture and also anti-trans things.
He’s not the only one. I’ve really started having a tough time separating the artists from the music. I know of a couple who’ve posted some more inclusive things which is nice, but overall the CCM industry has really been giving me the ick lately. Not only that, but my old church as well.
I stopped attending church shortly before 2020. I’m honestly thankful for that because several of my old “Bible study” friends have become versions of themselves I hardly recognize. Maybe I was just oblivious to it at the less politically charged time, but gosh. I moved away so I haven’t seen them in about 5 years, but I’m still friends with them on Facebook and it’s insane how many seem to have become QAnon/conspiracy theorists like my parents. They were normal in high school, at least I thought they were, so what happened?
I’ve thought about looking for a new church, but I’m not sure if I’m ready yet. I used to pray and worship and read scripture all the time, but now I’m ashamed to say it all feels like a chore. I’m terrified of losing my relationship with God, but I don’t feel authentic in my faith like I used to. Because I’ve been hurt by the people who used to encourage me in my faith, that pain has radiated its way into who I am today: someone who doesn’t know how to feel like myself, because I don’t even know who she is anymore.
I cringe listening to my old favorite worship songs. I want to feel that love for my faith again, but I can’t stop associating it with the insanity I’ve been subjected to.
As a teenager I pledged to “save my first kiss for my wedding day,” and that was something I was honestly happy with, until last year when I realized how absolutely deranged that concept was. Sure, don’t even kiss a man until you’ve signed a lifetime contract promising to never leave him for any reason whatsoever. Oh yeah, and while you’re at it make sure you’re submissive to him in everything because he’s “the head of the household.”
I’m now 27 and still have never had a boyfriend, still haven’t kissed anyone. I’ve been on about 5 dates with men. The first one, I was 21 years old. He was from my Bible study, the one I mentioned earlier. He asked me for nudes after our one and only date and wouldn’t stop pressuring me to send them, even after I told him about my then-delusion of no kissing til marriage. I never gave him any thankfully.
I also didn’t go on another date with anyone until I was 25. I had ONE date to my name at the age of 25, because the one time I trusted a “nice boy from church,” he pulled that stunt and I was revolted.
The second guy I went out with, he was really nice but I just didn’t have feelings for him, which made me guilty for some reason. I don’t think I was ever taught growing up that it’s important to feel a connection with a guy, you’re just expected to take what you can get. We only had that one date. The third guy just wanted a hook up, and I was still hooked on purity culture so it went nowhere.
I didn’t have feelings for the fourth and fifth guys either. I only went out with them because they asked me, and out of loneliness and being too guilty to say no, I talked to them for longer than I should have, wasting everyone’s time.
Now I’m in a weird place where I feel like I need to figure myself out more before I try inviting someone in. But I’m 27, and feel “over the hill,” especially as someone with virtually zero real romantic experience. I definitely don’t want my first kiss to be at the alter, but at the same time I’m conflicted on how the heck to feel comfortable with the idea of gasp having sex outside of marriage. I don’t even know when it would feel “okay.” Is six months into a relationship decently enough? Is that too long to find out if we’re incompatible? I was taught nothing so I’m feeling lost. And it’s hard to keep suppressing my forced tendency of “even holding a man’s hand is cheating on your future husband!”
This post was a little all over the place, but I guess what I’m trying to ask is how do I cope with the loss of who I thought I was? How do I get comfortable with who I am now? I’m horrified at how long I subscribed to my parents’ beliefs without questioning anything. I just adopted anything and everything I was told as “truth,” and it created a clueless, confused adult.
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I kind of thought things were going okay, but covid is what really made my world crumble. Out of everything, I think watching my parents turn into doomsday anti-vaxxers was the most devastating thing I’ve ever endured. I had to hide my covid vaccinations from them because my mom threatened to disown me if I “took the mark of the beast.” My dad thinks it’ll turn people into government controlled zombies. I have no other family, and honestly no strong friendships because I was isolated my entire childhood.
I grew up a huge fan of contemporary Christian music, and having so many of my favorite artists spiral into similar ideologies as my parents made me feel so alone. I won’t name anyone directly, but several have said or posted hurtful things regarding LGBTQ rights, and people like me who still choose to mask up out of caution for covid. One artist I especially loved changed the lyrics and made a mockery of Amazing Grace when I saw him in concert in 2022. He said “since we were in good old Florida, he knew he could get away with it.”
(Trigger warning honestly if you don’t want the song ruined for you)
He sang “My mask is gone, I’ve been set free” and a bunch of other altered verses making fun of anyone who still cared about the pandemic. I felt excruciatingly uncomfortable sitting there in the first couple of rows, the only person in the crowd in a mask. The same artist has also posted stuff endorsing toxic purity culture and also anti-trans things.
He’s not the only one. I’ve really started having a tough time separating the artists from the music. I know of a couple who’ve posted some more inclusive things which is nice, but overall the CCM industry has really been giving me the ick lately. Not only that, but my old church as well.
I stopped attending church shortly before 2020. I’m honestly thankful for that because several of my old “Bible study” friends have become versions of themselves I hardly recognize. Maybe I was just oblivious to it at the less politically charged time, but gosh. I moved away so I haven’t seen them in about 5 years, but I’m still friends with them on Facebook and it’s insane how many seem to have become QAnon/conspiracy theorists like my parents. They were normal in high school, at least I thought they were, so what happened?
I’ve thought about looking for a new church, but I’m not sure if I’m ready yet. I used to pray and worship and read scripture all the time, but now I’m ashamed to say it all feels like a chore. I’m terrified of losing my relationship with God, but I don’t feel authentic in my faith like I used to. Because I’ve been hurt by the people who used to encourage me in my faith, that pain has radiated its way into who I am today: someone who doesn’t know how to feel like myself, because I don’t even know who she is anymore.
I cringe listening to my old favorite worship songs. I want to feel that love for my faith again, but I can’t stop associating it with the insanity I’ve been subjected to.
As a teenager I pledged to “save my first kiss for my wedding day,” and that was something I was honestly happy with, until last year when I realized how absolutely deranged that concept was. Sure, don’t even kiss a man until you’ve signed a lifetime contract promising to never leave him for any reason whatsoever. Oh yeah, and while you’re at it make sure you’re submissive to him in everything because he’s “the head of the household.”
I’m now 27 and still have never had a boyfriend, still haven’t kissed anyone. I’ve been on about 5 dates with men. The first one, I was 21 years old. He was from my Bible study, the one I mentioned earlier. He asked me for nudes after our one and only date and wouldn’t stop pressuring me to send them, even after I told him about my then-delusion of no kissing til marriage. I never gave him any thankfully.
I also didn’t go on another date with anyone until I was 25. I had ONE date to my name at the age of 25, because the one time I trusted a “nice boy from church,” he pulled that stunt and I was revolted.
The second guy I went out with, he was really nice but I just didn’t have feelings for him, which made me guilty for some reason. I don’t think I was ever taught growing up that it’s important to feel a connection with a guy, you’re just expected to take what you can get. We only had that one date. The third guy just wanted a hook up, and I was still hooked on purity culture so it went nowhere.
I didn’t have feelings for the fourth and fifth guys either. I only went out with them because they asked me, and out of loneliness and being too guilty to say no, I talked to them for longer than I should have, wasting everyone’s time.
Now I’m in a weird place where I feel like I need to figure myself out more before I try inviting someone in. But I’m 27, and feel “over the hill,” especially as someone with virtually zero real romantic experience. I definitely don’t want my first kiss to be at the alter, but at the same time I’m conflicted on how the heck to feel comfortable with the idea of gasp having sex outside of marriage. I don’t even know when it would feel “okay.” Is six months into a relationship decently enough? Is that too long to find out if we’re incompatible? I was taught nothing so I’m feeling lost. And it’s hard to keep suppressing my forced tendency of “even holding a man’s hand is cheating on your future husband!”
This post was a little all over the place, but I guess what I’m trying to ask is how do I cope with the loss of who I thought I was? How do I get comfortable with who I am now? I’m horrified at how long I subscribed to my parents’ beliefs without questioning anything. I just adopted anything and everything I was told as “truth,” and it created a clueless, confused adult.
2024.05.16 05:38 Fawcettmaster97 What are some complaints you have about your speedcubing timer/things you wish it had?
Basically, I'm working on a web-based timer and I wanna know what kinda stuff the community wants/doesn't like. Feel free to be super nitpicky, I'm trying to optimize the shit out of this do I want to know all the tiny quality of life things that people would like (or big things, that too)
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2024.05.16 05:38 MisundrstoodContendr I'm 26 and I haven't achieved anything and don't know where I'm headed
I just don't feel good about how I've spent my twenties. I was very depressed and struggling with my mental health since I was an adolescent so I'm sure that contributed. I only started to get better when I was 23, a year into therapy. I started taking medication when I was 25, which helped a lot.
I've never been a driven person. I've only ever worked dead-end low wage jobs. I had different internships in college but never settled on anything. Due to my mental health, college was spent surviving. I didn't think about my future. I never thought to aim for anything high or had a idea of what I wanted or could do.
Actually, last year was the first time I ever chose something for myself. I decided on a whim to get certified as an EMT and found myself in school right after and got it. However, I delayed looking for a new job for 4-5 months. I recently got an EMT job and had the great embarrassment of being the only one to fail the lifting test in my group, so I've been working out and will retest in a month.
Even so, this will be another low-wage job for me and I have no desire to pursue medicine. I did it purely as a challenge and to see how I like the job. I've had some thoughts of becoming a therapist, a social worker. Maybe a physical therapist. This is a huge improvement from before where I had no plans for what I wanted to do. Things do actually feel possible.
Still... I'm frustrated with how I've spent my twenties. I know there's nothing to do about it now except move forward. But the path ahead is so...
Like I said, I've only worked dead end jobs. I still live at home. I don't really pay rent or expenses. My mother is kind enough to let me live rent-free contingent that I just help her with things around the house (and I do). I struggle in my social relationships with few friends. I've never dated or had a relationship.
I know I am moving forward and I'm growing little by little but it doesn't often feel that way. I feel restless with everything I have to do. Most of it feels like it should've been done already. I feel I'm where I would've expected to be at age 20-22. Like I'm aging quickly out of the period where it's acceptable to be a loser (haha). I get more discouraged when I try new things and judge myself for it because I'm so old and so bad at this thing (like dating or making friends or doing adulting tasks).
It's just so hard to look on the bright side. Every day, I feel smacked in the face with every way in which I'm not succeeding compared to other 26 year olds. Some days, I feel so empty and worthless I can only cry. Many days are wasted to my aimlessness. I can't get stuff done and I get discouraged. I have to always fight my urge to do nothing and to hide in my bed. Things are getting easier so slowly.... but the amount of work it requires to keep what little I have going together feels endless.
Sometimes I just lay awake in bed and think about how I'm a few years short of turning thirty, and where will I be by then? I don't know why I'm still where I am. And I don't know what I'm missing that other people seem to have that allows them to go out there and want to do things and be willing to make mistakes. I wonder if I'll always be the one standing in my own way. It doesn't feel like I'm in control of my life. But if I keep feeling that way, I'll spend my life unhappy because I didn't pursue the things I should have. I'm stuck and I feel so guilty about it!!
I don't know what advice I'm seeking so thank you for reading. I think I just want to feel like I'm okay, like things will work out and I'm really an okay person and not a failure. But I don't think anybody can give me that except me!! Maybe it's just a bad few weeks...
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I've never been a driven person. I've only ever worked dead-end low wage jobs. I had different internships in college but never settled on anything. Due to my mental health, college was spent surviving. I didn't think about my future. I never thought to aim for anything high or had a idea of what I wanted or could do.
Actually, last year was the first time I ever chose something for myself. I decided on a whim to get certified as an EMT and found myself in school right after and got it. However, I delayed looking for a new job for 4-5 months. I recently got an EMT job and had the great embarrassment of being the only one to fail the lifting test in my group, so I've been working out and will retest in a month.
Even so, this will be another low-wage job for me and I have no desire to pursue medicine. I did it purely as a challenge and to see how I like the job. I've had some thoughts of becoming a therapist, a social worker. Maybe a physical therapist. This is a huge improvement from before where I had no plans for what I wanted to do. Things do actually feel possible.
Still... I'm frustrated with how I've spent my twenties. I know there's nothing to do about it now except move forward. But the path ahead is so...
Like I said, I've only worked dead end jobs. I still live at home. I don't really pay rent or expenses. My mother is kind enough to let me live rent-free contingent that I just help her with things around the house (and I do). I struggle in my social relationships with few friends. I've never dated or had a relationship.
I know I am moving forward and I'm growing little by little but it doesn't often feel that way. I feel restless with everything I have to do. Most of it feels like it should've been done already. I feel I'm where I would've expected to be at age 20-22. Like I'm aging quickly out of the period where it's acceptable to be a loser (haha). I get more discouraged when I try new things and judge myself for it because I'm so old and so bad at this thing (like dating or making friends or doing adulting tasks).
It's just so hard to look on the bright side. Every day, I feel smacked in the face with every way in which I'm not succeeding compared to other 26 year olds. Some days, I feel so empty and worthless I can only cry. Many days are wasted to my aimlessness. I can't get stuff done and I get discouraged. I have to always fight my urge to do nothing and to hide in my bed. Things are getting easier so slowly.... but the amount of work it requires to keep what little I have going together feels endless.
Sometimes I just lay awake in bed and think about how I'm a few years short of turning thirty, and where will I be by then? I don't know why I'm still where I am. And I don't know what I'm missing that other people seem to have that allows them to go out there and want to do things and be willing to make mistakes. I wonder if I'll always be the one standing in my own way. It doesn't feel like I'm in control of my life. But if I keep feeling that way, I'll spend my life unhappy because I didn't pursue the things I should have. I'm stuck and I feel so guilty about it!!
I don't know what advice I'm seeking so thank you for reading. I think I just want to feel like I'm okay, like things will work out and I'm really an okay person and not a failure. But I don't think anybody can give me that except me!! Maybe it's just a bad few weeks...
2024.05.16 05:38 Return_Icy The One Thing That Will Give the Wolves A Realistic, Fighting Chance of Winning Game 6
I went back and rewatched games 1 - 5, with a specific focus on what worked defensively against Jokic. I think the Wolves have made adjustments well enough on everyone else to keep things competitive (i.e., don't leave opponents wide open even if they are only role players) so long as they don't fall off a shooting cliff, but of course what do you do if Jokic has another "unstoppable" night like last night?
You don't give him a chance to get in that rhythm and mindset. Jokic is stoppable if you play him the exact right way, or at the very least, you can make him human again. You have to frustrate him, and it needs to start early and happen often in the game. How do you do that? What did the Wolves do differently in games 1 and 2 that they slacked off on and largely stopped doing in games 3 - 5?
When defending Jokic in the halfcourt and he has the ball, you have got to stay attached to him and fight him. While he may still get to his spots by backing you down or using his footwork, the harder you make it for him, the better your odds of making him miss a shot, throw a bad pass or overlook the correct read. The only way to consistently do this without getting into foul trouble is to get up right on him, arms barred in front of you into his waist, bend your knees (or arch your back, legs splayed behind for stability and leverage) and use a lower center of gravity to not let him get wherever he wants to go. Or at least not let him get there the way that he wants to, by creating separation and space. It has to be hard for him, it has to frustrate him. DO NOT SLAM BACK INTO HIM (KAT). The refs will call this and you will get into foul trouble. DO NOT GAMBLE TRYING TO POKE THE BALL AWAY (Naz). Besides giving the refs a reason to blow their whistle, it will also almost always take you out of our leveraged position and Joker will get his separation or just blow by you.
KAT and Naz both showed they can do this in games 1 and 2, Kyle and Rudy are not capable of doing this (at least not consistently enough). Kyle does not have the size or strength, Rudy cannot get low enough and is too lanky and uncoordinated on top of that. KAT may no longer be able to do this given reinjuring his knee in game 5, but we have to hope that he can. Naz can do it, though it is significantly harder for him given he is shorter and lighter than KAT.
If you frustrate Jokic, he will still score, he will still get assists and rebounds, but he will not be unstoppable. The only reliably consistent way to frustrate him is to play like the bigs of old - get up, get strong, get physical, BUT DON'T GAMBLE AND OPEN YOURSELF UP TO FOULS. As soon as you're in foul trouble, you have to get timid and Jokic is free to do as he pleases. However, once you start to frustrate Jokic, it will open up opportunities to try to block his shot (Naz) or deflect his passes (KAT).
Jokic plays like an old man, you have to play him like an old man to stand a chance.
Oh yeah, and for everyone else on the Wolves, if you're not crashing the boards for an open rebound after a shot? SPRINT BACK AND DON'T LET THE NUGGETS GET INTO TRANSITION OFFENSE. Almost forgot that piece.
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You don't give him a chance to get in that rhythm and mindset. Jokic is stoppable if you play him the exact right way, or at the very least, you can make him human again. You have to frustrate him, and it needs to start early and happen often in the game. How do you do that? What did the Wolves do differently in games 1 and 2 that they slacked off on and largely stopped doing in games 3 - 5?
When defending Jokic in the halfcourt and he has the ball, you have got to stay attached to him and fight him. While he may still get to his spots by backing you down or using his footwork, the harder you make it for him, the better your odds of making him miss a shot, throw a bad pass or overlook the correct read. The only way to consistently do this without getting into foul trouble is to get up right on him, arms barred in front of you into his waist, bend your knees (or arch your back, legs splayed behind for stability and leverage) and use a lower center of gravity to not let him get wherever he wants to go. Or at least not let him get there the way that he wants to, by creating separation and space. It has to be hard for him, it has to frustrate him. DO NOT SLAM BACK INTO HIM (KAT). The refs will call this and you will get into foul trouble. DO NOT GAMBLE TRYING TO POKE THE BALL AWAY (Naz). Besides giving the refs a reason to blow their whistle, it will also almost always take you out of our leveraged position and Joker will get his separation or just blow by you.
KAT and Naz both showed they can do this in games 1 and 2, Kyle and Rudy are not capable of doing this (at least not consistently enough). Kyle does not have the size or strength, Rudy cannot get low enough and is too lanky and uncoordinated on top of that. KAT may no longer be able to do this given reinjuring his knee in game 5, but we have to hope that he can. Naz can do it, though it is significantly harder for him given he is shorter and lighter than KAT.
If you frustrate Jokic, he will still score, he will still get assists and rebounds, but he will not be unstoppable. The only reliably consistent way to frustrate him is to play like the bigs of old - get up, get strong, get physical, BUT DON'T GAMBLE AND OPEN YOURSELF UP TO FOULS. As soon as you're in foul trouble, you have to get timid and Jokic is free to do as he pleases. However, once you start to frustrate Jokic, it will open up opportunities to try to block his shot (Naz) or deflect his passes (KAT).
Jokic plays like an old man, you have to play him like an old man to stand a chance.
Oh yeah, and for everyone else on the Wolves, if you're not crashing the boards for an open rebound after a shot? SPRINT BACK AND DON'T LET THE NUGGETS GET INTO TRANSITION OFFENSE. Almost forgot that piece.
2024.05.16 05:37 spicycupidity 33 [f4r] #online - show me where the delicate stops
21+ ! !
please message me with more than "hi, how are you?" + do not chat message me, send me a DM! it's so much easier for me since i use the app on my phone.
just your local girlfriend stealing, alternative, bisexual here. 👋 but you know what? let's set that aside for now (your girlfriend is safe for the moment) because i'm looking for friends that are as good to me as i am to others, which is apparently *harder than it should be. i am a genuinely kind, loving person even if my face says otherwise. oops. i have a severe case of resting sad face, so sorry.
i'm smitten with people who are weird but not weird enough to make others uncomfy, or unable to enjoy the weirdness, ya know? i know you know. i like people who are into things that others mostly aren't: tarot, astrology, deep conversations, things like that. i might not actively be participating in said things but i like hearing the perspective of people who are! my friends always joke that i'm the person people say "i can fix her!" about but uh, i'm awesome. i don't need fixed. ✨i will admit though, i hesitate about people a lot because while i do want a best friend -- mine have scorned me, so i need someone patient with me and understanding of that, please. please. i adore social connections but i do come with a social battery and it needs refilled. me needing that time does not negate the connection i have built with you and am nurturing with you.
i will genuinely offer you diamonds in the form of friendship, just reciprocate it. i will offer you the safest, most non-judgement free zone you can imagine, you are always - always, safe with me. i just ask that you are a good, kind, compassionate friend to me. you can literally tell me anything in the world and if it isn't hurting anyone else, i will listen without judgment. i promise you. i'll also send you spotify songs that i really like, so hi. hello.
on to the fun tingz (and the stuff that will hopefully bring you in),
i'm watching my first ever anime, like ever and no we're not going to talk about my real first ever anime because it might've been a live action and it might've been death note and maybe i enjoyed it (holy crap, sueeeee me) but i have a few on my list to watch but i got pressured into this one, so far so good! let's talk about it, ask me which one it is! it's a pretty popular one lol. maybe you can guess it! either way, i'm also into horror shows/movies. i'm not really into the gory ones anymore, nor the emotional horror so i'll pass. my heart strings are saying noOoO thanks. i love watching movies with friends and even anthology shows like cabinet of curiosities, dark mirror, etc etc. i don't mind anything else! hit me up. i'll tell you some stuff i like(d)
currently, iiiiii am a graphic design major with a knack for not drawing. i mean, i guess i do like pixel art. if you can give me something small to draw in pixel art form, i will attempt it (if you give me something large, i'll send you doo doo in the mail) but honestly, i am still learning and trying new things everyday 💤 however, i'm in the process of changing majors to cybersecurity! which starts in June, so wish ya girl luck 💅
i am a gamer, so come game with me! i don't play league, my mental health is terrible enough, thank you. i also don't play wow, my attention span could never. i do, however, play valorant because i don't like myself that much. i got you there, didn't i? i play a few other things: CS, starting to get into overwatch 2 (please play this with me and if you ask me my rank, i'll cry), party animals, pummel party (can we please?) etc. i tend to hang out in valorant land though, i won't lie. i do not take it seriously and honestly, nor should you.. nerd.
i am ✨sPiCy✨so if that bothers you, i am sorry. i, again, am a genuinely kind person but i do have a snarkiness to me that is meant to be a slight "i love you" + dash of bully. ❤
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please message me with more than "hi, how are you?" + do not chat message me, send me a DM! it's so much easier for me since i use the app on my phone.
just your local girlfriend stealing, alternative, bisexual here. 👋 but you know what? let's set that aside for now (your girlfriend is safe for the moment) because i'm looking for friends that are as good to me as i am to others, which is apparently *harder than it should be. i am a genuinely kind, loving person even if my face says otherwise. oops. i have a severe case of resting sad face, so sorry.
i'm smitten with people who are weird but not weird enough to make others uncomfy, or unable to enjoy the weirdness, ya know? i know you know. i like people who are into things that others mostly aren't: tarot, astrology, deep conversations, things like that. i might not actively be participating in said things but i like hearing the perspective of people who are! my friends always joke that i'm the person people say "i can fix her!" about but uh, i'm awesome. i don't need fixed. ✨i will admit though, i hesitate about people a lot because while i do want a best friend -- mine have scorned me, so i need someone patient with me and understanding of that, please. please. i adore social connections but i do come with a social battery and it needs refilled. me needing that time does not negate the connection i have built with you and am nurturing with you.
i will genuinely offer you diamonds in the form of friendship, just reciprocate it. i will offer you the safest, most non-judgement free zone you can imagine, you are always - always, safe with me. i just ask that you are a good, kind, compassionate friend to me. you can literally tell me anything in the world and if it isn't hurting anyone else, i will listen without judgment. i promise you. i'll also send you spotify songs that i really like, so hi. hello.
on to the fun tingz (and the stuff that will hopefully bring you in),
i'm watching my first ever anime, like ever and no we're not going to talk about my real first ever anime because it might've been a live action and it might've been death note and maybe i enjoyed it (holy crap, sueeeee me) but i have a few on my list to watch but i got pressured into this one, so far so good! let's talk about it, ask me which one it is! it's a pretty popular one lol. maybe you can guess it! either way, i'm also into horror shows/movies. i'm not really into the gory ones anymore, nor the emotional horror so i'll pass. my heart strings are saying noOoO thanks. i love watching movies with friends and even anthology shows like cabinet of curiosities, dark mirror, etc etc. i don't mind anything else! hit me up. i'll tell you some stuff i like(d)
currently, iiiiii am a graphic design major with a knack for not drawing. i mean, i guess i do like pixel art. if you can give me something small to draw in pixel art form, i will attempt it (if you give me something large, i'll send you doo doo in the mail) but honestly, i am still learning and trying new things everyday 💤 however, i'm in the process of changing majors to cybersecurity! which starts in June, so wish ya girl luck 💅
i am a gamer, so come game with me! i don't play league, my mental health is terrible enough, thank you. i also don't play wow, my attention span could never. i do, however, play valorant because i don't like myself that much. i got you there, didn't i? i play a few other things: CS, starting to get into overwatch 2 (please play this with me and if you ask me my rank, i'll cry), party animals, pummel party (can we please?) etc. i tend to hang out in valorant land though, i won't lie. i do not take it seriously and honestly, nor should you.. nerd.
i am ✨sPiCy✨so if that bothers you, i am sorry. i, again, am a genuinely kind person but i do have a snarkiness to me that is meant to be a slight "i love you" + dash of bully. ❤
2024.05.16 05:36 RecentMatter3790 Retroarch and PPSSPP are too difficult to set-up, in comparison to Delta. (I am only diving into the official App Store app versions, no jailbreaking nor sideloading. Only official and approved (trusted)).
I am a complete newbie in terms of this topic of emulation. Think of me as this analogy: (I just found out that the ocean exists, and this community IS the users already on the abyss of this “ocean”, the “ocean” being this community. I’m basically the guy at the beach that just saw something that has never seen the ocean or what its purpose is.)
This stuff is completely new to me so, idk.
Do yall treat emulation as the free way to get and play games?
How do yall treat emulators? Do you use only 1 emulator or multiple emulators for different platforms or purposes? It would be cool for there to be 1 emulator for everything or every platform: (pc, console, mobile), and I can make my iPhone the ultimate gaming device (Just like they say that the best camera is the one you have in your pocket, well, let’s make our phones the best gaming device on our pockets).
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This stuff is completely new to me so, idk.
Do yall treat emulation as the free way to get and play games?
How do yall treat emulators? Do you use only 1 emulator or multiple emulators for different platforms or purposes? It would be cool for there to be 1 emulator for everything or every platform: (pc, console, mobile), and I can make my iPhone the ultimate gaming device (Just like they say that the best camera is the one you have in your pocket, well, let’s make our phones the best gaming device on our pockets).
2024.05.16 05:35 BetoLord Summer teen pass
"Hello, I currently have a membership with PF, but I heard about the free summer pass for teens. Is it possible for me to still take advantage of this offer, or is it exclusively for those without an existing membership?"
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2024.05.16 05:35 sVanilla_Survival sVanilla Survival [Semi-Anarchy][SMP]{Crossplay Enabled}{No Crystal PvP}
sVanilla Survival: The Original SMP Experience for java & bedrock geyser.
IP: corn.gg
Region: USA East
sVanilla Survival goes back to the roots of what an SMP should be. Semi Vanilla, with a few quality of life additions. We're dedicated to providing the old-school SMP experience, with a large map that never resets, no land claims, and most importantly - crystal free PvP.
So why choose sVanilla Survival?
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IP: corn.gg
Region: USA East
sVanilla Survival goes back to the roots of what an SMP should be. Semi Vanilla, with a few quality of life additions. We're dedicated to providing the old-school SMP experience, with a large map that never resets, no land claims, and most importantly - crystal free PvP.
So why choose sVanilla Survival?
- Survive & Thrive: On sVanilla we favor the ability of players to have freedom in how they play the game. While we do not allow hacked clients; You are free to explore the world, build extragavant builds, or simply destroy & conquer. Only the strong survive on sVanilla.
- Melee Based PVP: We believe that the current PvP meta is a detriment to the survival experience. With this in mind, crystal PvP has been disabled in favor of swords, axes, and bows.
- Quality of Life: While we love vanilla, we also understand the need for a few tweaks. We've implemented a few quality-of-life modifications to enhance gameplay without deviating from the authentic feel. Teleport, Ignore & Sethome commands are provided for convenience.
- Bartering Economy: There are no economy plugins, the server economy is based on trading with other players.
- Boundless Exploration: With no land claims and a modest 300k world border, feel free to explore any corner of the map as you wish and lay claim as you see fit.
- Permanent Legacy: Our map is permanent and will never reset, so the monuments you build today will stand as a testament to your creativity for years to come.
- TNT Duplication: Piston and slime based TNT dupers are enabled, which means you can build tree farms with ease or even create tnt machines of destruction.
2024.05.16 05:35 sVanilla_Survival sVanilla Survival [Semi-Anarchy][SMP]{Crossplay Enabled}{No Crystal PvP}
sVanilla Survival: The Original SMP Experience for java & bedrock geyser.
IP: corn.gg
Region: USA East
sVanilla Survival goes back to the roots of what an SMP should be. Semi Vanilla, with a few quality of life additions. We're dedicated to providing the old-school SMP experience, with a large map that never resets, no land claims, and most importantly - crystal free PvP.
So why choose sVanilla Survival?
submitted by sVanilla_Survival to MinecraftServer [link] [comments]
IP: corn.gg
Region: USA East
sVanilla Survival goes back to the roots of what an SMP should be. Semi Vanilla, with a few quality of life additions. We're dedicated to providing the old-school SMP experience, with a large map that never resets, no land claims, and most importantly - crystal free PvP.
So why choose sVanilla Survival?
- Survive & Thrive: On sVanilla we favor the ability of players to have freedom in how they play the game. While we do not allow hacked clients; You are free to explore the world, build extragavant builds, or simply destroy & conquer. Only the strong survive on sVanilla.
- Melee Based PVP: We believe that the current PvP meta is a detriment to the survival experience. With this in mind, crystal PvP has been disabled in favor of swords, axes, and bows.
- Quality of Life: While we love vanilla, we also understand the need for a few tweaks. We've implemented a few quality-of-life modifications to enhance gameplay without deviating from the authentic feel. Teleport, Ignore & Sethome commands are provided for convenience.
- Bartering Economy: There are no economy plugins, the server economy is based on trading with other players.
- Boundless Exploration: With no land claims and a modest 300k world border, feel free to explore any corner of the map as you wish and lay claim as you see fit.
- Permanent Legacy: Our map is permanent and will never reset, so the monuments you build today will stand as a testament to your creativity for years to come.
- TNT Duplication: Piston and slime based TNT dupers are enabled, which means you can build tree farms with ease or even create tnt machines of destruction.
2024.05.16 05:33 JakeHundley Free Ads Courses
I don't think I speak for the majority of this subreddit but I have been encountering a lot more "agency owners" who fell into the YouTube guru trap and instead of actually getting free certifications from platforms, they give away all their money to those gurus.
This post is my attempt to stear those people into the right direction before spending all of their money.
Whenever a new "agency owner" (or someone looking to start an agency) asks me about where to start for learning ads (doesn't matter which platform, Google, Facebook, etc), they seem dumbfounded when I tell them that Google and Meta have FREE ad courses where they teach you how to run ads on their own platform AND you get a certification from Google and Meta.
Why does everyone immediately jump to YouTube and start giving these gurus their money without even taking the free courses and getting certified?
I think one of the biggest issues I have with wannabe agency owners is they want to own and operate an agency and are willing to "learn" what it takes to own a successful agency, but when I tell them what it takes is actually learning how to perform the service you sell, it falls on deaf ears.
I'll tell you this right now, if you're not actually willing to learn and become an expert in the service you're selling, you're not going to make it. You're going to be another one of the thousands of people who gave a YouTube guru money with the hopes of one day being a millionaire only to eventually turn to crypto day trading scams.
And just to show that I'm not only just ranting... here...
Here are actual FREE courses FROM Google and Meta on how to run any type of ads on their platform AND get certified by them:Google:
**This has literally everything you need to know about Facebook & Instagram marketing. Organic, paid, video, AI, etc.TikTok:
**I included this one just to show that you really can just Google "[platform] ad certification/course/academy" and find a free set of courses FROM the actual platform for FREE.Hubspot:
**Finally, Hubspot Academy isn't platform-specific. But there are a TON of courses and certifications here ranging from inbound marketing to content marketing, and even email marketing and SEO.
ALL FREE.
Lastly, I'll say that there is a time and place for paid courses from other agency owners and experienced coaches. But AFTER you do the research yourself and take some basic-level free certifications from actual platforms.
Creator courses are fine if you're looking to get deeper information but there isn't a need to start there.
One thing paid creator courses can teach you is how to run an agency from a business perspective. But 9x out of 10, executing the actual ads can be found in free courses.
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This post is my attempt to stear those people into the right direction before spending all of their money.
Whenever a new "agency owner" (or someone looking to start an agency) asks me about where to start for learning ads (doesn't matter which platform, Google, Facebook, etc), they seem dumbfounded when I tell them that Google and Meta have FREE ad courses where they teach you how to run ads on their own platform AND you get a certification from Google and Meta.
Why does everyone immediately jump to YouTube and start giving these gurus their money without even taking the free courses and getting certified?
I think one of the biggest issues I have with wannabe agency owners is they want to own and operate an agency and are willing to "learn" what it takes to own a successful agency, but when I tell them what it takes is actually learning how to perform the service you sell, it falls on deaf ears.
I'll tell you this right now, if you're not actually willing to learn and become an expert in the service you're selling, you're not going to make it. You're going to be another one of the thousands of people who gave a YouTube guru money with the hopes of one day being a millionaire only to eventually turn to crypto day trading scams.
And just to show that I'm not only just ranting... here...
Here are actual FREE courses FROM Google and Meta on how to run any type of ads on their platform AND get certified by them:Google:
- E-Commerce & Digital Marketing Certification
- All Google Ads Certifications
- Google Analytics Certification
- Google Tag Manager Fundamentals Course
**This has literally everything you need to know about Facebook & Instagram marketing. Organic, paid, video, AI, etc.TikTok:
**I included this one just to show that you really can just Google "[platform] ad certification/course/academy" and find a free set of courses FROM the actual platform for FREE.Hubspot:
**Finally, Hubspot Academy isn't platform-specific. But there are a TON of courses and certifications here ranging from inbound marketing to content marketing, and even email marketing and SEO.
ALL FREE.
Lastly, I'll say that there is a time and place for paid courses from other agency owners and experienced coaches. But AFTER you do the research yourself and take some basic-level free certifications from actual platforms.
Creator courses are fine if you're looking to get deeper information but there isn't a need to start there.
One thing paid creator courses can teach you is how to run an agency from a business perspective. But 9x out of 10, executing the actual ads can be found in free courses.
2024.05.16 05:30 liftweights69 General information, etc.
Firstly, im not a doctor, but endocrinology and pharmacology are a bit of a hobby lol. I see alot of guys posting bloodwork results and asking what they mean, asking why their test could be low, asking about fertility, ball size, side effects, etc. so i wanted to make a post that may help some of them out.
Why is my test low? -bodyfat: bodyfat contributes to aromatization of test into estrogen. Reference estradiol or e2 levels on bloodwork -poor diet: calories too low (if youre natural) and your body will lower test levels. If you dont intake sufficient cholesterol, vitamins, minerals, etc, your body wont have the building blocks for hormone production. Reference vitamin and mineral levels on bloods -poor sleep: your body will not produce as much test if you arent sleeping well -genetics: self-explanatory but some ethnicities are lower test naturally and may be biased more towards estrogen or DHT -SHBG: sex hormone binding globulin can bind up free test into androgen receptors or other places. Reference total test vs free test and SHBG on bloods -concussions: can damage the pituitary and cause secondary hypogonadism
Are there other options than TRT? -yes. Dialing in diet and exercise, sleep, micronutrients is the first step. Beyond that, some supplements do actually influence test either via aromatase suppression, SHBG suppression, or stimulation of LH/FSH.
-beyond that there is HCG/HMG/LH monotherapy. This works by stimulating the bodys natural test production. Will not work if you have primary hypogonadism.
Why is my libido low/ED on test? -crashed SHBG -crashed estradiol -too much estradiol -prolactin levels
Can i maintain ball size/fertility on test? -yes. You can concurrently run HCG/HMG/LH with your test to maintain. HMG/LH are considered by some to be superior options.
Why isnt test making my mental health that much better?/why did my mental stop getting better? -some people seem to feel better with higher levels of DHT in the system than others and so feel better when they arrange that. -as your HPTA gets turned off by exogenous test, your neurosteroid production will slow down as well and many supplement with DHEA and pregnenolone to rectify that.
My doctor said no. Now what? -doctors in many places arent taught endocrinology in med school and many dont have your best interest in mind. If youve done your research and are prepared, take care of yourself.
Do i need an aromatase inhibitor? -depends. If bodyfat is high, you could lose it before beginning otherwise you might. -if you are taking a bolus dose (1x/2x per week) you might as this can lead to large fluctuations in levels. A possible solution is to administer every other day or daily. -if your dose is sub 300mg/week and you arent high bodyfat, you might be able to maintain good e2 levels with DIM, etc. -“other” hormone-based compounds can also act as aromatase Inhibitors -some foods can also help
Arimidex dose? -many consider .125mg or .25 mg to be the best dose for arimidex so as not to crush e2
Aromasin? -considered by some to be a better option for higher dose/week and its said that 25 mg is a good dose.
Resources? -vigorous steve on youtube is great for all things man health and hormone related. -searching the web -marek health (expensive but THOROUGH clinic run by people who specialize in this stuff.) If you feel out of your depth and dont feel comfortable interpreting your bloods and calling the shots, check them out.
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Why is my test low? -bodyfat: bodyfat contributes to aromatization of test into estrogen. Reference estradiol or e2 levels on bloodwork -poor diet: calories too low (if youre natural) and your body will lower test levels. If you dont intake sufficient cholesterol, vitamins, minerals, etc, your body wont have the building blocks for hormone production. Reference vitamin and mineral levels on bloods -poor sleep: your body will not produce as much test if you arent sleeping well -genetics: self-explanatory but some ethnicities are lower test naturally and may be biased more towards estrogen or DHT -SHBG: sex hormone binding globulin can bind up free test into androgen receptors or other places. Reference total test vs free test and SHBG on bloods -concussions: can damage the pituitary and cause secondary hypogonadism
Are there other options than TRT? -yes. Dialing in diet and exercise, sleep, micronutrients is the first step. Beyond that, some supplements do actually influence test either via aromatase suppression, SHBG suppression, or stimulation of LH/FSH.
-beyond that there is HCG/HMG/LH monotherapy. This works by stimulating the bodys natural test production. Will not work if you have primary hypogonadism.
Why is my libido low/ED on test? -crashed SHBG -crashed estradiol -too much estradiol -prolactin levels
Can i maintain ball size/fertility on test? -yes. You can concurrently run HCG/HMG/LH with your test to maintain. HMG/LH are considered by some to be superior options.
Why isnt test making my mental health that much better?/why did my mental stop getting better? -some people seem to feel better with higher levels of DHT in the system than others and so feel better when they arrange that. -as your HPTA gets turned off by exogenous test, your neurosteroid production will slow down as well and many supplement with DHEA and pregnenolone to rectify that.
My doctor said no. Now what? -doctors in many places arent taught endocrinology in med school and many dont have your best interest in mind. If youve done your research and are prepared, take care of yourself.
Do i need an aromatase inhibitor? -depends. If bodyfat is high, you could lose it before beginning otherwise you might. -if you are taking a bolus dose (1x/2x per week) you might as this can lead to large fluctuations in levels. A possible solution is to administer every other day or daily. -if your dose is sub 300mg/week and you arent high bodyfat, you might be able to maintain good e2 levels with DIM, etc. -“other” hormone-based compounds can also act as aromatase Inhibitors -some foods can also help
Arimidex dose? -many consider .125mg or .25 mg to be the best dose for arimidex so as not to crush e2
Aromasin? -considered by some to be a better option for higher dose/week and its said that 25 mg is a good dose.
Resources? -vigorous steve on youtube is great for all things man health and hormone related. -searching the web -marek health (expensive but THOROUGH clinic run by people who specialize in this stuff.) If you feel out of your depth and dont feel comfortable interpreting your bloods and calling the shots, check them out.
2024.05.16 05:30 Round_Strawberry474 What is your opinion on how sex criminals sometimes walk free due to "lack of evidence"?
Sometimes prosecutors are hesitant to pursue sexual assault cases because it's a "she say, he say situation". Without a rape kit, witnesses or any other evidence besides a statement from the victim and the defendant, there's nothing they can do to prove the crime happened. And when prosecutors know they won't win due to not being able to obtain enough evidence, they will just not move forward with the case. Criminal walks free.
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2024.05.16 05:27 wadmutter Nuphy Gem80 - Unbox, Assemble, Soundcheck
 | I’ve been holding off on the NuPhy after reading so many discouraging comments in their sub and honestly, I’m not a fan of 80s. This is my first Nuphy. That said, while almost falling asleep the other night I decided to order one and I’ll be darned if they didn’t ship it and get it to me from china in four days. So quick, I couldn’t cancel it or change my mind, So here it is. submitted by wadmutter to MechanicalKeyboards [link] [comments] Before I got this board, I’d tried dozens of other boards that are half the cost. I have a bad habit of buying stuff and returning it after trying it. This hobby is expensive enough without having to be stuck with everything you try. I don’t live in a big city where any resellers are near me to experience any of these products hands on, So I rely on the friendly UPS and Amazon drivers to feed my addiction. When considering it’s cost, I felt I was spending too much and worried I already didn’t love it before it got here. I think a close comparison in sound, feel and design would be the be the galaxy 80. Check out u/badmark posts to see his latest review of that one. (I returned it, the wireless dongle would not work with my kvm so I failed it.) I’m very happy to say this board delighted me. I found it’s value over the cheaper competitors in the little thing. For me, they all added up to make it a keeper. So much so that I made a video to share with you, feel free to troll it, in a nice way. Video here. The little things I like: -Cost is affordable -Color is stunning, -Keycap choices are fun and I love the profile. -General availablabilty is good -Shipping was fast and cost inline with others -Switch choices are “average” but at least they exist -The sound right out of the box is great -The ability to disable and manipulate both the badge and status LED if you find them annoying like I did. -The status light itself, it’s a multi function one for all status light. Brilliant! -Comes with mounting mod options included -Comes with a screwdriver you actually want to keep so long as you have some additional bits for it. So in summary; with Amazon selling so many Chinese aluminum boards all in price range at often times half the full built cost of this, why choose this one? Watch the video and see for yourself. I enjoyed the customization options, the overall experience, the features the board, its sound and most of all, it feels great to type on. Few other company’s offer that Experience, in stock today that might make you smile tomorrow. |