Behan ki beti ke saath

I feel fear, I dunno what is going to happen, I have screwed my school academics, 10th 75% 12th 68%, I'm from commerce, ab bba hons mein enrolment ka soch raha hu
Please thoda kuchh batado mujhe, kyunki school academics ki toh mar li gayi hai, ab bohot kharab lag raha hai. so many questions, kya karunga? kaise kya hoga?
Saala IPMAT JIPMAT ka form bhar diya, lekin usmein bhi hone nai waala mera, kuchh aata jaata hai nai, bass hero ban ke baatein karta rehta hu, lallu hoon main, I just want a fuckin exit, from all of this, I'm tired of all this chaos
kabhi kisi bhi cheez ko seriously nai liya maine, bass certificates ikattha karne mein marata raha, bc usmein bhi ek bhi STATE YA NATIONAL LEVEL nai hai.
bohot jyaada dimaag kharab hai mera, mammi papa ki ijjat ka bhi khayal nai rakha, khud se hi ghin aati hai ab toh, sabne kaha tha PHYSICAL LELO, mai chu, maine comp sci leliya, kam se kam 68 ki jagah 72 75 hote mere
itna ajeeb kabhi feel nai hua...

Till 10th I was a good student like padhai mei bhi accha and all phir aise hi boards mei (state board) 91% ke saath socha tha arts lunga (ias Officer ban na tha ) but Ghar walo ne science pe laga diya Doctor banna padhega bolke, phir aise hi maine bhi socha doctor baan ke baad mei ias ke liye choose kar lunga, then phir start hua mera life ka downfall. I choosed a private college with a good reputation (nam nhi lunga) and many good students like state toppers etc. so humlog ka class, boards results ke lakbhag 10 din baad hi start ho gya tha, lekin mein late join karlia tha like 1 - 2months late (kyuki tab mei arts/science kaunsa loo chakkar mei phas gya tha) aur hamare classes like bohut aage chalegye, mein like blank kuch bhi samaj nhi aarha tha like teaches sab 11th ke motion in plane Tak pauch gya the aur muje tabtak units and dimensions bhi nhi aata tha. Phir aisehi mera 11th chala gya with 0 knowledge kuch bhi nhi aata tha like 0 Bhai 0 aur hostel mei rehta tha toh wah bhi utna padhai ka patner guide wagera nhi tha. And Ghar walo se pressure itna tha (because we are lower middle class ) ki acche institution ke bawajut tuje kuch nhi aata etc. and aisehi mera 11th barbaad ho gya, jab board aaya 11th ke mera percentage around 32 huwa aur school walo ne jaise taise pass kar wa Diya nhi toh 11th pe hi fail ho jata, phir Ghar walo nhi din raat pressure dena start kya, like kya hoga tera tu kuch nhi kar sakta etc. And 12th mei jab Aya toh meine socha liya tha acche se padhunga and all and was everything was going right mere marks bhi tode tode improve huwe like bohot mehnat kya bohot and like test marks bhi improve hone lage tution bhi laya liya tha. Phir jab 12th ke beech Wale din I got myself into a trouble. I fell in love with a girl (online) hum dono ke thoughts taste music and all same hone ke karan ek dusre se pyaar ho gya tha and like later I realised woh toh alag hi tha like usse baat karne ke liye mein apna padhai aadha adhura chor deta tha(kyuki usko sirf ek limited time phone milta tha and like mere padhai ke time hi milta tha aur baaki ke team ya toh mei tution jata ya toh woh) phirse mera marks girne suru ho gaya because of lack of time in studies and then aisehi days went by like I managed somehow todha marks kaam ho jata phirbhi i sticked to her and then aisehi karte karte mera boards aayga , and also I thought I was ready for everything, but ek or unfortunate event ho gya, wo ladki apne ex ke saath phirse chaligyi in between my boards exam she broke up with me (like she was with me for just time pass? Kya woh sab baatein was waste?) and uske wajah se mera boards bhi kharab ho gya kyuki usko time Dena padta tha and as result mere issaal ke boards pe 78 percentage ho gya 😭😭 how i am supposed to do now? My parents don't know a thing about this all they are just putting pressure like you don't want to study, tuje padhai karne nhi dega abse tu kaam karne jayega , etc kuch din pehle neet and jee ka exam Diya tha jo ladka 11th mei 0 tha woh neet ke kuch din pehle pure bio and physics ko 2 baar padh dala and uska expected score aa rha hai around 374 and maths aur physics karke (chemistry weak mera) jee mei uska aaya tha around 73 percentile aaya tha. And now the question is do I deserve it? Do I deserve a chance for the next year. A drop is it will be worth it? Kya mei woh kar paunga ? The pain in me is always hitting me guys please help I just want to kms parents ke expectations the acche karge but nhi ab boj ban gya hu ab toh woh unlog ko dekhne se bhi bura lagta hai😭 guys please help suggest me what should I do ? Should I just kms? I can't handle anymore failures

(Going to be a long post ) Ye post unke liye hai jo padh mhi rahe hain par sapne abhi bhi iit se neeche ke nhi hain. Iss saal jee mains diya, boards diye, kuch aur entrances diye . When i was in 12th, after wasting 11th i wanted to become the - abse sirf padhai aur kuch nahi - student. April gaya, may gaya, june , july , august gaya. Mid terms ae, tab laga ab to padhna hi hai . Strategy videos of scoring 99%ile in 4 months took over kyunki 99 percentile se neeche sochna to gunha hain na! Phir ai 99 %ile in 3 months , then 2 months , then 1 month. Phir jan attempt ke ek hafte pehle how to get 90 percentile in one week . Nhi hua kuch boards diye , april attempt diya . Nhi ai yr rank! Mains mein 60 percentile Now, do I regret for not studying? Yes. Can I change the results of this year? No. Will I get a very good govt college everyone dreams of? No. Par ab regret se kya hoga? Kuch nhi Abhi jo log 11th mein hain, 12th mein hain, you might be feeling ki abhi to bohot time hai. Nahi hai. Time aise jaega ki pata bhi nhi chalega. I got 60 percentile in mains. Pata hai jab mains ka score calculate kiye to 47 ban Raha tha. There wasn't one chapter from whole 12th and 11th I could point my finger and say ki isse koi bhi question dedo, I'll do it. Not a single one. Jab marks calculate kiye to laga ki yar agar har mahine pcm mein ek ek chapter bhi Kiya hota to atleast kuch college to mil jata. Kuch to milta. The habits that destroyed me were yt shorts, series, movies, songs. No relationship shit aur anything. It was all me, enough to ruin my exams. Boards ka result check Kiya and you won't believe how fucking happy I was to pass the jee criteria of 75% in boards. How happy. But this is not what I imagined my life to be after 12th, did I? No. Koi nhi karta yr! I'm searching for colleges nowadays. The colleges I've never heard Of, jinke reviews bhi ache nhi , im praying ki usi mein hi jae. Kahi to ho jae. Kisi college mein. Jinke naam tak nhi sune the ,unke bhi cutoff clear nhi ho rahi. And I'll probably go in a college jiska maine 2 saal mein kisi se naam bhi nhi suna tha. I'm searching for a college jiski placement thodi to decent ho. But I. Sab ka kyaal tab kyu nhi aya jab I wasted my time? Jab I did not study when I could fucking have? Ab lagta hai ki kitna aasan tha padhna. Padhi, exam do aur college le jao. I made plans which I never executed Most of my friends have got above 90 percentile. I can't even text or call them without thinking that kya soch rahe honge vo. The worst is disappointing the ones who trusted you, gave you everything you asked for. tumhare sirf ek baar mangne se tumhe vo cheez laake de di. Apne parents. Meri maa ka sapna tha ki main IIT delhi jau. She used to be so happy jab vo bolti thi. I broke it. I fucking broke it. She still supports me, still cooks my fav dishes, still smiles at me , i am lucky and blessed to have a family jo mujhe har failure pe samjhati hai aur support karti hai. My mom still loves and cares for me . She still talks to me. But it still hurts jab unhone bola ki humein bata do agar humein zyada hi expectations laga li ho tumse aur humein hi soch liya ho ki humara bacha to acha kar hi lega. She isn't wrong. She isn't. Ek hota hai aapne mehnat Kari and something happened which was out of your control which led to a bad result. And ek hota hai jab aap mehnat nhi karte and you know you deserve that shitty result . Sabse bura tab lagta hai when i think ki i know i have the brain and i can study and i could have cleared the exam with a good result. But kabhi padhai seriously hi nhi li. No one would believe me if i said ki i like to study. Bhai mujhe sach mein seekhna acah lagta tha. Jab cheezein samajh aati thi to alag hi khishi hoti thi. Alag hi. Par maine kabhi consistently efforts nhi lagae. And that led to the downfall. Life mein na, ek na ek point par aapko ruk kar sochna hoga ki bhai main kar kya raha hu? Hum sab ko pata hai kya karna hai , mujhe bhi pata tha. You all fucking know that YouTube, insta is not going to help you. Ye sab na bolne ki batein hoti hai ki jee doesn't matter, ur rank doesn't decide your futue. My rank is 5L. I don't know what to do. But one thing ik is rank fucking matters. Mere peeche 7-8 lakh bache hain aur aisa nhi hai ki humara kych nhi hoga. Hoga. Kuch to ho hi jaega. Par abhi at this moment i have no fucking idea ki kya hoga. I can't tell about others. But for me i know mere paas time, resources, supportive environment, saare sukh suvidha thi and i could have easily stopped my self and my family from getting into this situation. Drop isn't really an option as my family thinks that 97-96 percentile isn't really possible for someone who scored 60 this year. And vo apni jagah sahi bhi hain . They trusted me and i failed. Now its their decision and i will accept jo bhi vo bolenge. Will yalk about it in some later posts. To abhi bhi time hai , sudhar jao . Meri tuition teacher kehti thi- life mein ek goal hona bohot zaroori hai. And today i understand her words. Ek goal banao. Not necessary ki jee ho. Aur bohot kuch hai duniya mein. Because you might or might not realize, but financially independent hona life mein bohot zaroori hai.Mujhe padhai ke alawa koi aisi skill nhi aati jispe main depended rahu. Time waste mat karo. Kuch seeko. Kuch bhi useful. Don't just pass your time. Just. Don't. Padhai karo. Aur agar vo nhi kar rahe to koi skill develop karo . Downfall hota hai life mein , kabhi aisi cheez ki vajah se jise hum vontrol kar sakte hain aur kabhi aise cheezon ki vajah se jise hum control nhi kar sakte. And it's important, ki jo humare control mein hain , hum usse kharaab na hone de. Life ko jeeyo. I won't say ki sirf padhai karo. Nahi. Live. Be happy. Dance. Enjoy. Padhai ke alawa bhi bohot cheezein aapko success dilati hain . But padhai ek kaafi hadd tak safe and secure way hai to success. Learn and live please All the best (Spelling vagera pe zyada dhyaan mat dena, typing karte hue error ho gaya hoga. Post ko samajhna)

This might me little off topic but I needed some help so I’m posting this. Last day jis bande me M@th0ngo ke BITSAT test series share kiye the uske jaise ADV ki test series ki link hai kya kisi ke paas? Usme to ID delete krdi varna mai contact krleta use..

Muje kuch samajh nhi Ara mai 2026retard mene tution ke notes ke liye 3 note book banayi hai(pcm)
aur ab kya mai ghar ke liye notes ki lag banau kyuki muje likhe yaad hota hai
Aur kya mai question solve karne ke liye dusri banau ya notes ke sath hi karu same book mai
Alag isliye banani kyuki badme notes revise karte samay problem na ho
Toh tution ki 3 fir ek ek subject ke notes ke liye fir ek question wagera ke liye alag
Toh total 9 ?
Kuch nhi samaj rha bata do kese karu
Aur ha gaali dene ke alawa kuch advice dedena ghar pe waise hi padh rhi hai 10th ke result ke bad 🙏🏼

Guys please suggest management ke through chemical or iem lena thik rahega rvce me as I am getting 50 marks in comedk mujhe placements nahi chahiye aur pata bhi hai ki in sab branch se kuchh hone wala nahi hai isilie mai ms karne abroad chala jaunga. Rvce me peers achhe honge isilie yaha jane me intrested hu otherwise should I opt for some tier 3 college suggest please

Koi bata sakta hai Tanda college ke paas ghumne ki jagah kya- kya hai. Aur uske paas cinema hai kya?

On my first drop I scored 425 (2023) jo mene pw vidyapeeth se kiya tha and 2nd drop (2024) I scored ~500 jo mene online coaching se ki thi (sankalp bharat) and also this time online se hi krni hai(bcoz no money) so I'm looking for suggestions for 1.konsa online batch lu 2.modules(2023) pw ke hai mere paas are they enough? SUBJECTWISE btana Or mene mock test nahi diye hai in 2 saal so konse mock test lu

Bhaiyon aur mahilaon... Me ek introvert shy Square nature wala balak hoon... mujhe enjoy karna nahi aata hai kya karun us din? Mostly har koi dance kar raha hoga us din aur main har baar ki tarha haath fold karke corner me khada nahi rehna chahta... aur upar se meri pasandida aurat bhi farewell me nahi aa rahi hai...
Main kya karu socialize karne ke liye... zara farewell ke scenario me batana
Soch raha hoon ki kuch pee lu... Kabhi piya nai but... nasha mehesus karna chahta hoon...
Yehi bata do kaun si beer better hogi... jo nasha bhi de aur zada alcoholic bhi nah ho....
Mujhe lagta hai ki main nashe me hua toh main kuch pretend ki aapne me comfortable ho kar enjoy kar sakunga...
A Bit depressed also because I will be alone on that day.....

I've decided to take a drop for JEE 2025 (online) coz offline me 2 saal Papa ke 2lakh barbad krne ke baad ab himmat nai bachi aur 1 lakh barbad krne ki, I was never like this before, Hasta tha, enjoy krta tha, doston ki kami nai thi, marks bhi ache aate the, female interaction bhi kafi zyada tha but ab at this moment kuch ni raha na dost, na marks, na kisi ka support kuch nai.
Kal se I'll start grinding back once again for my ultimate GOAL kyuki itna downfall dekh liya ab mere se dekha ni jayega aur genuinely so taking inspiration from Daksh bhai kal se I'll start posting my daily goals accomplished and my study hours

sorry thoda sa bda post hoga pr pls help
Toh mai bohot hi bekar situation mein fans chuka hun pehle toh mera boards mein eligibility criteria pass nhi hua 8 marks se reh gya toh iss saal improvement dunga aur mai abhi bhi confusion mein hun ki mai josaa mein baith skta ya nhi koi kehta nhi baith skta aur koi kehta ki file an affidavit aur reporting ke time pr improvement marksheet show kr dena...iit madras valo ne kaha ki josaa ke beech mein hi dikhani hogi marksheet nhi toh vo reject kr denge pr ek bnde se baat hui vo keh rha tha ki councelling se pehle josaa valo se baat krna pichle saal 2-3 baccho ka affidavit se ho gya tha.............aur meri advance ki 0 tyari h aur mains mein 94.2 percentile h toh kya mai drop lun (vaise pehle attempt mein tukka marke aye 94.2 second attempt mein 57 percentile) aur papa keh rhe ki drop mt le nit lele csab ke thru aur agle saal fir se advance de diyo pr mujhe pta h nit mein jaunga toh distraction itna hoga padhne ka time hi nhi mielga adv ka aur mujhe iit jana h mai mehnat krne ka liye tyyar hun din ka 18 ghnta padhunga abhi 6 mahine bach gye h jan attempt mein (aur june mein improvement ka bhi padhunga physics kyunki july mein paper h aur august ke first week mein marksheet ati h) drop batch mein phy - plane chem- redox maths - quadratic chl rha toh mai catch up kr lunga aur mujhe pta h mera iit nikal jayega agr mai ye 6 mahine cutoff hoke mehnat kr lun ekdum zyada vali (kyunki kam marks chahiye mujhe auro ke comparison mein) bhai pls kuch suggest kr do drop year ki tips dedo bohot hi zyada mind fuck ho rkha h aur hn ek aur reason h ki mai drop year mein padhunga ki maine khud decide kra h ki mujhe drop lena h toh i am responsible agr next year bekar hua toh (nhi hone dunga )meri glti hogi toh pls bhay kuch suggest kr do pls aur maine koi aur exam bhi nhi diye only mains and adv ka form bhra h
note: abhi 10 din adv ka padhke exam dunga fir uske baad drop ka padhna shuru 27 se hi
pls madad krdo iss sub ke mem hone ke naate
edit: shyd ye akhri post hoga sare social chod rha hun (might lurk incase of dipression but only after completing daily goal)

Bhai jab main center phocha to mere admit card se self declaration form aur instructions wala page inhone faad ke fek diya aur fir center ke andar jab gaya tab mujhe galat seat mein baithne ko bola gaya halaki meri galti thi ki Maine acche se verify nahi kiya, 30 mins mein usme baitha aur maine shayad English ke exam mein ‘9’ ki jgh ‘6’ likha hai roll number mein acche se nahi yaad. Aur flow flow mein 40 ki jgh 42 questions attempt kar liye 😭😭, mera sirf ek admit card inhone submit kiya aur dusra lauta diya. Kya mera cuet barbaad gaya?? Also agar kisi ko center ka naam janna ho bol dena main comment kar dunga. Mujhe laga ki privacy bana ke rakhni chahiye lol.

I got 6lakh 29thousand rank in jee mains. Mere ko pta hai Mai chutiya hoon padhne me bekar hoon.Thodi advice chaiye app logo ki - Pichle saal ke cutoff ke according mujhe NIET me cse specialisation, GNIOT me cse , RKGIT me cse, BBD Lucknow me cse mil rahi. Sharda , CU me cse mil rahi(but isme fees pay karne ke liye loan Lena pad jaayega) . Isme kya best rahega appke according?
I had one more doubt are AKTU semester exam really that tough that many people get backs.

Used to be on this sub in 2020 jab maine apni mains aur adv covid year ke percentile fuck up mein udaa di but I could still convert one of the MHTCET top colleges, mai toh yaha content ke liye reh gaya but lately I'm seeing ki log VIT Manipal jaise colleges crack nahi kar paa rahe JEE cheating scandals expose ho rahe which is so shocking to see tbh. What the fuck happened? has engineering become even more difficult to get into ya kuch aur jhamela hai? Karlo vent genuinely, bura lagta hai tumhare haal dekhke

Aaj morning shift mei tha mera test. centre mila tha thane mei. pandit smth mishra college. didnt really expect it to be great but centre problem nahi tha. im not diagnosed but im pretty sure i have adhd (need to read lines twice type of shit) but woh chhodo. the ceiling fan right next to me was so fucking noisy that the noise is still ringing in my head. not really a major problem but it gets worse.
at 1:25 mark, light chali gayi, and my screen shut off. for a solid 3 minutes. uske baad on hua, but bohot frequently flicker ho raha tha. so my math section was fucked. 40 min mei 18 question kar paya. i could attempt about 42 by the end. unme se 3-4 nahi hue
math ki toh lag gayi but phy and chem went well so thats that ig.
about the staff and invigilators: asked them to switch off the fan but he refused coz usko garmi lag rahi thi... fan ke awaaz mei extra sheet ke liye chillana pad raha tha.... pehli baar frisking ke samay grope nahi kiya lmao
im not expecting a lot because i goofed up in math, which is supposed to be my strong subject...
i wish stuff like this doesnt happen to anyone else. wish you all the best in your future exams

I wonder koi aurat itna earn karti ho aur itne properties bana rahi ho khud ke paese se aur wo choti choti baat pe vulnerability dikha rahi hai .... Ye ajeeb lagta hai.
Ye natak ho sakta hai Darna aur pati ki sewa and all lekin females ke liye ek ghalat message hai. Inki viewers to inki nakal karne ki koshish Kari hain na ...
Dabba aur cringika hanikarak hain auraton ke liye.

Dekho im 17F, abhii in 12th and preparing for jee 2025 from a good coaching centre in my hometown. I come from a upper middle class family and my parents are quite (very) well to do. My dad dropped sci in his 10th and built his way up the corporate ladder just with a bcom degree but he belives that engineering degree will help me in my future.
For me, as a student I mad the mistake of showing interest in sci when I was young. 8th,9th mein I was kaafi into sci because it was mostly into theory. i learned a couple of coding languages and did robotics mein kaafi kuch, even went to the US for a robotics competition.
I was pretty aginst becoming engineer as I felt it was what everyone was doing and was happy I had the privilege to choose. i also took some courses with MIT( usa waala) on quantum computing cuz I liked theoroticl physics.
Abhi mere maa baap ko laga ki mein born science prodigidy hoon.but the thing is, I love other shit too
mujhe personally economics mein bohot intrest hai, developments economics, public welfare, sociology are all things I want to learn more of and maybe pursue a future in. I love politics too! And leadership and communication has always been my string point. Debates, elecutions and public speaking is my forte. I love to be in front of a mic and handle people. I was headgirl of my school too and did a lot of management kaam there. I also like working with children as I've worked in 20+ ngos. history, psychology, geography sabh pasand hai mujhe
BIO aur performing and fine arts ke alawa sabhu cheez mein meri interest hai
mujhe upsc karna hai mostly, IFS mera sapna hai, para engineering and all ke saath idfk man
abhh dekho, i know yeh sabh a bada flex lagegga but my point is i have soooo many interests and fields i love to explore, i really don't want to do engineering, but again bcom karke normal bakwas nahi karna hai mujhe. toh isiliye when my parents convinced me to do engineering, i went with it. Now I'm no longer academically strong, I'm doing poorly in all my test and I'm thinking, kya hi fayda yeh sabka? toh pata nahi yaar sabh bada kichdi lag raha hai, toh koi kuch bata do

emito ee jeevitham, oka Vyardam, Bhatuku oka anavasara yuddam, deniko ardam kaadu ee vyadha yokka yadardam.
bathukulaatalo.., padatham, lestam.., munduki veltuntam.., aah matram ke kastam aipoinda.., kondaru saafi konasagistey., kondaru sukam lo kuda kasta lu chustaru.., mari kondaru kastalalo kuda thoti vallaki soukyam panchutaru., aah vedana vallu chendutaru.., vitlo manam ye rakamo manam mundey aneskuntam.., kani manam atyadika rakam., entha kasta padina kastalu nake unnaye anukune rakam.
avunu enno paddam.., Inka na valla kadu.., deniki ee sangharshana.., evari kosam ee Manasthapana.., enno anukunna.., anni vifalam avtunnai.., prathi vaifalyam ki Karanam ga evarini chupettali.., badi lo thoti vaadu Baga chadivadu ani nindha vaani medha., kalashalalo andaru churuku ga unnaru Ani aparadha akkada vari medha.., baaga udgyogam lo ranincharu ani saha udgyogula paina., Baga sampadincharu ani snehithula paina.., ilaga nindani neduthu., manam aparadame cheyani nindhitulam ga nilabadatam manaki alavtu yega., avunu paddam ento ksta paddam..., intlo vari kosam nachina chaduvu odilesam.., nanna kosam prayogalu manesi udgyam lo sthira paddam., Amma kosam nachina ammaini odilesi tyga pelli ki sidda paddam.., nannamma, ammama lakosam pilla Lani kani yavvanam tyagam chesam., bharya kosam samayam.., umpudugathe kosam jeethamm., ilaga manasuki sukam. lekunda jeevitam anta aparadham lekunda nindalu chestha tyagam ki gurtimpu lekundaa batikesam.
Aina ivvani nakem telusu, inta inta tiruguthu.., intlo jarigi kastalu vinta undhaa.., illa badha lu vinalekaa..,
Oka taadu kattukoni, daniki unna Baruvu ni pai nundi kindaku dimpaa..,
hamma pranam haiga poindi.., unna Baruvu odilii poindi.., dimpi auto lo sardandiraa., next fridge, biruva lu ostunnai.., Edo kooli kosam illu marepudu ochey koololam., see kastala venka badha makem yeruke.., pranam potey ochey haiyi villakem yerukee

Scholarship milnae ki chances kya hein agar Thapar ke seniors hein to please help🙏🙏🙏