Was just wondering what are the weirdest/funniest/silliest reasons that you guys have been asked by your consultant/senior to refer to another specialty for advice/consult?
During my internship in the Gen Med rotation in a regional hospital, I was asked by my locum consultant to call up the endocrinology registrar at the city hospital to ask for levothyroxine advice for a re-presentation of this nursing home patient, severe dementia with low thyroid levels who has been refusing her thyroid medications there. The way they were going about it from her last discharge successfully was crushing the levothyroxine meds in her morning tea and that has well but the consultant still asked me to contact endocrinology to see if we can, in his own words "give the patient a thyroxine depot."
I've never heard of levothyroxine in a depot form. I did remember googling thyroxine depot but all I found was IV levothyroxine and some.. Subcutaneous/intramuscular levothyroxine stuff as well?
Anyways, I asked the endocrinology registrar about the above who told me that she has never heard of a levothyroxine depot before and that she agreed that crushing the meds in her morning tea is probably the best way to go about it. She was so nice that she actually went ahead and asked her endocrinology consultant about the availability of levothyroxine depot and got back to me that levothyroxine depot does not exist in Australia, as far as the endocrinology consultant is aware of.

Another time was the Gen Surg consultant asking me to call up the Gen Med consultant on call for medical causes of acute acalculous cholecystitis in a very stable patient. At the end of the phone consult, there was no input at all from the Gen Med consultant, other than telling me that's a very weird question.

I’ve been with my husband for a couple of years now, married a few months. I caught him out in a pretty big lie last weekend and it’s unravelled so many things. So many times that I thought that what he was saying was strange, or seemed far-fetched all make sense now. The lies aren’t even big or to hide something that would hurt someone’s feelings, it’s just small stuff but the lie is what makes it huge for me. I’ll give a couple of examples to provide a bit of context:
EXAMPLE 1
When we met, he told me he had tried to kill himself in a car crash when he was 19, that it was a split second decision and to never tell his parents because it would crush them. I dutifully kept his secret.
A few days ago, I found out that there was someone else in the car from an offhand comment made by one of his parents. When I asked him later why he had lied about it, he said that he didn’t remember the crash, has no memories before or for a while after. I asked why he would try to kill himself with someone else in the car. He maintained that “it was a bit about killing myself”, before restating that he had no memory and “I don’t know what to tell you”. Very defensive, yelling and crying.
I asked him again a couple of days later (in one of our attempts to resolve the situation) saying that either he has lied to me since we met, or he tried to take someone else out with him. He said he didn’t remember but that he thought it was suicide because he was so deeply unhappy at that time in his life. I said “so you tried to take your girlfriend out with you? Because that’s murder”. He then said he didnt know the real reason. I then asked why he would definitively tell me it was a suicide attempt if he didn’t know the real reason. He couldn’t tell me. I then asked why he seemed to remember specifics when I asked him at the start of the relationship (“I was driving home from dads after dinner, it was a split second decision”) but now couldn’t even tell me if it was an accident or suicide. Admitted that it was silly to claim suicide attempt, but still didnt admit to lying.
EXAMPLE 2
I received a sapphire bracelet from my mum for Christmas last year. Boxing Day, he told me that “oh sapphire! it’s just like the ring my mum got you”. I asked him what he was talking about, and he said he didn't know. I said “no, your mum got me emerald earrings”. He said “ah yes that’s what I must have been thinking about”. I knew something was up but I left it at that because we were at family's house.
Later I asked him directly if his mum had given a sapphire ring to his ex. He said no, he was just confused about the earrings. I said I wouldn’t care, but that I don't want to be lied to. He said no, he was just confused.
Two weeks later his mum was on the phone on speaker (she didn't realise she was on speaker) and she said “I’ve asked for that sapphire ring back from [ex] and given it to [sister in law]”. I told him “I fucking knew it, why did you lie to me?” He said he didn't remember and that he genuinely got confused, and that he was “an idiot” for not remembering. I told him I’d be far more upset about being lied to than I would about a gift your mum gave to someone before we met. He said “I know, and that’s why I’m not lying to you!”
In all the other current issues going on, I brought this issue up again in the context of the other lies. The conversation went like this:
Me: Why did you lie to me about that, even when your mum mentioned it? Him: I already told you, I got confused, I totally forgot Me: How did you forget when I asked you directly, with specifics? I asked you “Did your mum give a sapphire ring to [ex’s name]” and you told me no. Him: I got my wires crossed, I was talking about the earrings Me: but you specifically mentioned a sapphire ring, which was exactly what it was. Him: I don’t remember who she gave it to. Me: So you do remember there was a ring… then why didn’t it jog your memory when I asked you directly? Him: I already apologised for this, we’ve been through this Me: What? No, after your mum got off the phone, you told me again that you’d forgot about it and you couldn’t remember anything about it. Him: Yeah, after the phone call with mum - we had a conversation the next day which I vividly remember where I told you I lied so as not to hurt your feelings.
I have no recollection of this conversation, but it would directly contradict claims he made seconds prior about ‘getting his wires crossed’, thinking it was about my earrings, and having no memory of it. When I asked why he had contradicted himself, he said he didn’t understand. It’s making me feel crazy.
There are actually many more examples like this, but over and over again, I’ve told him that I can handle the truth, but begged him not to lie to me. I caught him out in a lie in the first couple of months of us dating. When he said it was to protect my feelings, I told him that I would rather the truth than a lie from him. He promised never to lie to me again.
Over the last couple of years, he has sent me texts like:
“I felt absolutely stupid and embarrassed when I lied to you ages ago. And I told you it will not happen again. And it hasn’t.”
“I don’t lie to you”
“I’m so glad I have you. I can be my true self with you. I love the complete openness and honesty in our relationship. All we want is the best for one another”
”I asked myself something last night about us. Just in quiet reflection. Would I tell you everything and anything even if it would upset you? Like would I even make up little white lies to avoid anything crappy and I was like nah. I am cellophane with you. But frosted glass with everyone else”
“I love you so much. I promise to tell you everything and always devote myself to you”
He has repeatedly told me that he would never lie to me as “you know everything anyway, do you think I could lie to you?”
When faced with all of the above, he admits that he's got a problem with lying and says he’s turned a new leaf, that he knows what he needs to do, and that from now on it will be complete honesty.
In light of everything, how do I know that this is the truth, and not another lie?? All of my trust in him has gone, along with any respect I had for him. Everything he's saying to me just feels like lip service.
I know the above seems like a lot, but I’m only asking so many questions about these issues and others in the last couple of days because suddenly everything is making sense. A number of events that I went “huh, that’s weird” over the last two years but took him at face value and brushed off are all coming back into focus. I’m trying to get him to admit to lying for things that I know for a fact he has lied about. I’m trying to get him to understand that he can’t just give me something that doesn’t make sense and expect me to believe it.
HE is the one who asks me daily to talk about the issues we're facing, to tell how I'm feeling or what I'm thinking etc. He brings it up, so I explain to him what doesn't make sense to me or what I'm trying to process.
I ask him questions so that I can understand what his story is, and how that interacts with the facts that I know. When he’s defensive and contradicting himself instead of being honest and saying “yeah I made that up”. The fact that I’ve told him that I just want the truth and he still can’t admit to it indicates that there’s a problem - I even held a “safe space lie amnesty” a couple of days ago where I said I just wanted to know what he’s lied about so we can move forward. A lie you’ve gotten yourself tangled in is one thing. Repeated and continuous lying even in the face of contradictory facts is concerning. Despite my repeatedly telling him I can handle the truth, he maintains lies that have no value. Most of the lies he's told me couldn't even be considered to be for a reason - if it was to protect my feelings I'd get it, but some of them are just for attention.
These are not two isolated incidents, these are two of maybe ten events that I can recall from the last 2 years that have always been weird to me, but I kinda brushed them under the rug until recently when I realised there was something else going on.
I don’t think it’s too much to ask from a man who has repeatedly told me how much he values the honesty and openness in our relationship to show me those same values. He is not a man who has ever even indicated that he wanted to have his own space or privacy, in fact, he jumped into the relationship with "we should have each other's phone passcodes and be able to look at it whenever we want because we have absolutely nooooooo secrets". That was a bit of a shock to my system, but I thought 'hey, if this man wants full transparency and openness then let's go for it'.
Sometimes I’m furious and can’t stand the sight of him and other times I think it’s not such a big deal. I don’t know if I even really know how I feel about it. Sometimes merely annoyed, other times completely betrayed.
For me to move forward with him, I need to understand what’s driving this behaviour. Is it a personality disorder? NPD? BPD? Has anyone been through similar? How did it end? This is all I can think about. I don’t know what it means.

I’ve been with my husband for a couple of years now, married a few months. I caught him out in a pretty big lie last weekend and it’s unravelled so many things. So many times that I thought that what he was saying was strange, or seemed far-fetched all make sense now. The lies aren’t even big or to hide something that would hurt someone’s feelings, it’s just small stuff but the lie is what makes it huge for me. I’ll give a couple of examples to provide a bit of context:
EXAMPLE 1
When we met, he told me he had tried to kill himself in a car crash when he was 19, that it was a split second decision and to never tell his parents because it would crush them. I dutifully kept his secret.
A few days ago, I found out that there was someone else in the car from an offhand comment made by one of his parents. When I asked him later why he had lied about it, he said that he didn’t remember the crash, has no memories before or for a while after. I asked why he would try to kill himself with someone else in the car. He maintained that “it was a bit about killing myself”, before restating that he had no memory and “I don’t know what to tell you”. Very defensive, yelling and crying.
I asked him again a couple of days later (in one of our attempts to resolve the situation) saying that either he has lied to me since we met, or he tried to take someone else out with him. He said he didn’t remember but that he thought it was suicide because he was so deeply unhappy at that time in his life. I said “so you tried to take your girlfriend out with you? Because that’s murder”. He then said he didnt know the real reason. I then asked why he would definitively tell me it was a suicide attempt if he didn’t know the real reason. He couldn’t tell me. I then asked why he seemed to remember specifics when I asked him at the start of the relationship (“I was driving home from dads after dinner, it was a split second decision”) but now couldn’t even tell me if it was an accident or suicide. Admitted that it was silly to claim suicide attempt, but still didnt admit to lying.
EXAMPLE 2
I received a sapphire bracelet from my mum for Christmas last year. Boxing Day, he told me that “oh sapphire! it’s just like the ring my mum got you”. I asked him what he was talking about, and he said he didn't know. I said “no, your mum got me emerald earrings”. He said “ah yes that’s what I must have been thinking about”. I knew something was up but I left it at that because we were at family's house.
Later I asked him directly if his mum had given a sapphire ring to his ex. He said no, he was just confused about the earrings. I said I wouldn’t care, but that I don't want to be lied to. He said no, he was just confused.
Two weeks later his mum was on the phone on speaker (she didn't realise she was on speaker) and she said “I’ve asked for that sapphire ring back from [ex] and given it to [sister in law]”. I told him “I fucking knew it, why did you lie to me?” He said he didn't remember and that he genuinely got confused, and that he was “an idiot” for not remembering. I told him I’d be far more upset about being lied to than I would about a gift your mum gave to someone before we met. He said “I know, and that’s why I’m not lying to you!”
In all the other current issues going on, I brought this issue up again in the context of the other lies. The conversation went like this:
Me: Why did you lie to me about that, even when your mum mentioned it? Him: I already told you, I got confused, I totally forgot Me: How did you forget when I asked you directly, with specifics? I asked you “Did your mum give a sapphire ring to [ex’s name]” and you told me no. Him: I got my wires crossed, I was talking about the earrings Me: but you specifically mentioned a sapphire ring, which was exactly what it was. Him: I don’t remember who she gave it to. Me: So you do remember there was a ring… then why didn’t it jog your memory when I asked you directly? Him: I already apologised for this, we’ve been through this Me: What? No, after your mum got off the phone, you told me again that you’d forgot about it and you couldn’t remember anything about it. Him: Yeah, after the phone call with mum - we had a conversation the next day which I vividly remember where I told you I lied so as not to hurt your feelings.
I have no recollection of this conversation, but it would directly contradict claims he made seconds prior about ‘getting his wires crossed’, thinking it was about my earrings, and having no memory of it. When I asked why he had contradicted himself, he said he didn’t understand. It’s making me feel crazy.
There are actually many more examples like this, but over and over again, I’ve told him that I can handle the truth, but begged him not to lie to me. I caught him out in a lie in the first couple of months of us dating. When he said it was to protect my feelings, I told him that I would rather the truth than a lie from him. He promised never to lie to me again.
Over the last couple of years, he has sent me texts like:
“I felt absolutely stupid and embarrassed when I lied to you ages ago. And I told you it will not happen again. And it hasn’t.”
“I don’t lie to you”
“I’m so glad I have you. I can be my true self with you. I love the complete openness and honesty in our relationship. All we want is the best for one another”
”I asked myself something last night about us. Just in quiet reflection. Would I tell you everything and anything even if it would upset you? Like would I even make up little white lies to avoid anything crappy and I was like nah. I am cellophane with you. But frosted glass with everyone else”
“I love you so much. I promise to tell you everything and always devote myself to you”
He has repeatedly told me that he would never lie to me as “you know everything anyway, do you think I could lie to you?”
When faced with all of the above, he admits that he's got a problem with lying and says he’s turned a new leaf, that he knows what he needs to do, and that from now on it will be complete honesty.
In light of everything, how do I know that this is the truth, and not another lie?? All of my trust in him has gone, along with any respect I had for him. Everything he's saying to me just feels like lip service.
I know the above seems like a lot, but I’m only asking so many questions about these issues and others in the last couple of days because suddenly everything is making sense. A number of events that I went “huh, that’s weird” over the last two years but took him at face value and brushed off are all coming back into focus. I’m trying to get him to admit to lying for things that I know for a fact he has lied about. I’m trying to get him to understand that he can’t just give me something that doesn’t make sense and expect me to believe it.
HE is the one who asks me daily to talk about the issues we're facing, to tell how I'm feeling or what I'm thinking etc. He brings it up, so I explain to him what doesn't make sense to me or what I'm trying to process.
I ask him questions so that I can understand what his story is, and how that interacts with the facts that I know. When he’s defensive and contradicting himself instead of being honest and saying “yeah I made that up”. The fact that I’ve told him that I just want the truth and he still can’t admit to it indicates that there’s a problem - I even held a “safe space lie amnesty” a couple of days ago where I said I just wanted to know what he’s lied about so we can move forward. A lie you’ve gotten yourself tangled in is one thing. Repeated and continuous lying even in the face of contradictory facts is concerning. Despite my repeatedly telling him I can handle the truth, he maintains lies that have no value. Most of the lies he's told me couldn't even be considered to be for a reason - if it was to protect my feelings I'd get it, but some of them are just for attention.
These are not two isolated incidents, these are two of maybe ten events that I can recall from the last 2 years that have always been weird to me, but I kinda brushed them under the rug until recently when I realised there was something else going on.
I don’t think it’s too much to ask from a man who has repeatedly told me how much he values the honesty and openness in our relationship to show me those same values. He is not a man who has ever even indicated that he wanted to have his own space or privacy, in fact, he jumped into the relationship with "we should have each other's phone passcodes and be able to look at it whenever we want because we have absolutely nooooooo secrets". That was a bit of a shock to my system, but I thought 'hey, if this man wants full transparency and openness then let's go for it'.
Sometimes I’m furious and can’t stand the sight of him and other times I think it’s not such a big deal. I don’t know if I even really know how I feel about it. Sometimes merely annoyed, other times completely betrayed.
So…. AITAH for considering ending the marriage?

Hi,
I don't know what to do.
I am not out to myself or others. I only have one sexual experience that went further then flirting with the same sex and it has left me confused.
Me and a friend kissed when we were drunk one night when I was about 15. After that for a while everything was normal.After maybe half a year or less had passed and I was still friends with this girl. I started to watch gay TV shows and maybe had a crush on a teacher and also flirted with girls that I thought might be gay but I still declared myself as straight, I started to remember my kiss with her fondly and started to fantasies about having a relationship with her, things got really weird quickly from there. I felt so awkward around her I would get spiteful and bitchy and be very jealous when she made new friends, I would be mean to her but I still insisted on staying friends, I would glue myself to her invite myself round to her house and pretend everything was normal. I would keep asking her for reassurance that we were still friends.
I would indulge myself into fantasy's that we were in love etc I asked her once if we could kiss again which she refused saying that I shouldn't have told my other friends about our kiss.
20 years later I am still coming to terms with it all, I have dreams about her and my life has not been the same since. I try to distract myself with porn or play with the idea of being with girls I meet at work etc. I keep messaging her with the idea that I can bring it all up to talk to her about it. But end up just talking about normal mundane things.
I feel alone and isolated. I just came to terms with it this morning that maybe it was obvious that I was in love with her and maybe people around me are just waiting for me to admit it.
Should I ask her if she could tell I was in love with her? Something like "was I in love with you at school?". It is all abit of a blur and I don't know myself really but looking back on it does seem like I was in love with her.
It is so complicated relationships with girls because there is a power dynamic that comes to play which confused me. For example when we started hanging out she would copy me and dress like me etc but when she no longer needed me I felt bad and I was confused when she rejected me. Was I in love with her or was if just a complicated friendship and I was just emotional and sensitive at the time?Will coming out about this fix anything?
I don't know what to do? life is not black and white and it is what you make of it. I just wish she could tell me she loved me so I could understand my feeling were real.

So I see people recommending nutramedix, Zhangs, other products every day here. And I have no comments about the effectiveness of those products (except that NutraMedix TOA free cats claw is a scam, TOA is a necessary part of the cats claw and they are using false information to promote it), but I have something to say about the prices.
Lets start with cistus. Many people pay 50 cents or more per moderate dose of cistus, more if its a tincture. People might pay 25 euros for 100g of the tea. Well, some places sell 250g for 3 euros, so thats about 97% discount. 97 percent. Lymeherbs.eu is one such place.
Or Zhangs products. They sell houttuynia, artemisia annua, garlic, or other herbs for something like 1 euro per dose. You can get dried houttuynia for 5 cents per dose at some places, but fresh houttuynia is much more effective. Teaselshop sells fresh tincture for quite a good price, but even then, you can save 95-99.9% if you just find/plant houttuynia yourself at any place that is moist enough for it to grow. It grows fast. After 3 months, you have free medicine forever.
Or the garlic capsules. Garlic costs almost nothing in supermarkets, so you can just take a clove, crush it into coconut/olive oil and eat it. Again, you save at least 90% of your money. Same for cinnamon and clove. Dont buy the oil, just get good quality spice from any supermarket. Eucalyptus oil is 2 euros for a bottle at lymeherbs. Thats 50-100 doses for 2 euros.
So, before you pay another 50 euros or 90 euros or 130 dollars for product x and y, check lymeherbs.eu and your grocery store and maybe etsy and if possible, plant your own houttuynia and see if your area has other natural medicines growing there. Dont pay 20x more than you need to pay. Get your cistus and other herbs at 90-99% discount by looking up a few websites first

I can't make up my mind.
To preface this, I know that everyone needs to find their comfort zone individually, but there seems to be a gigantic conflict that ultimately boils down to trust. However, my question aims at figuring out where my gold standard and minimum requirements are that balance it all in a neat package. I don't care whether it's unreasonable, I prioritise fairness above all and I would appreciate your help in finding my North star or even set priorities in which value gets to trump which.
Let's set the scene.
Pomegranate and Blueberry started out as poly relationship, neither found another compatible partner in four years, mango was "outed" as having a not-so-secret-any-longer crush on Blueberry, but Blueberry was hesitant due to potential long term consequences with mutual contacts.
Recently Mango ended up visiting Blueberry for a couple of nights. During the visit Mango was very flirtatious and revealed that their (previously undisclosed) partner Orange was a very monogamous and jealous person. Blueberry expressed that they didn't like that, and set a boundary over not allowing spontaneous overnight visits with unannounced extensions ever again.
Now, plenty of factors are unknown, but Blueberry agrees with Pomegranate that Orange wouldn't have consented to staying in their relationship with Mango a) staying with Blueberry over night by themselves (without the person they piggybacked in with - someone Orange trusts), b) staying with someone they (used to) have a crush on and c) flirting with Blueberry; and that Orange probably didn't and doesn't know (the truth) about any of it.
I am curious about your various (or even uniform) thoughts on this situation and furthermore:
Where's the line in the sand?
I'm very firm in my convictions for every single role except for Pomegranate's. What demands and boundaries are fair or appropriate? I get why Pomegranate wouldn't feel comfortable with what can be considered Mango cheating on/betraying/deceiving Orange, but it's really none of their business. Playing the "I don't consent to unethical non-monogamy even outside our relationship" leaves room for "and I'm the judge over what's ethical and what isn't".
At which point would demands intrude on autonomy? Where is the balance between autonomy, consent and ethics?
I can't expect everyone to share my moral convictions and while I can aim for high compatibility with my partners, applying that same standard to meta's is basically a hard veto on everyone.
The case I presented is rather clear (imho), but conflicting values rarely clash in black and white and I would feel better with myself if I knew I had some guidance for grey areas.
So what would you do if you were Pomegranate, what would you wish you could do if you were them, what should you not have done when you were in a situation like that, what would you desire from Pomegranate in Blueberry's shoes? (Does the fact that the dynamic for Mango and Orange is culturally normalised and they're both just acting according to national stereotypes change anything?)
Really curious to read your thoughts, organised or stream of consciousness are both very welcome, I read for pleasure, feel free to entertain me with your unfiltered novels. As an aside, I have a desire to protect my metas from my partner's shenanigans, and thus appreciate tangents in that direction as well.
Thank you all in advance!

Hello everyone. I am a 23 year old roleplayer. This was a RP I did years ago so going to try to revive it.
IDEA
The main idea is that now all the Disney kids have had children and now go to school together. We will pick a could and play their kid. We can plot out a slice of life RP and the RP will be our characters
There are 2 things I am looking for which. I will mention in the characters section of this post.
CHARACTERS
My character will be the son of prince charming. He will be the person that everyone has a crush on without question. If you like men, your into him and if your not into men you are jealous or want to be him.
So what I would like from your character you character. I have a preference for if you want to be a male and for a female.
For a male character I would like of you played the son of another prince and princess. Our characters would be best friends since we are both royalty. If you would like that we can even do a friends to lovers thing, but I am fine with just friendship. I really wouldike one of these.
For a female character we can do a simple prince and princess RP.
Those are just some simple ideas but you can be anyone.
Here are some...
REQUIREMENTS
Be over 18
Be semi lit (2-3 paragraphs)
Be invested
Show some enthusiasm
Talk OOC
DM me if interested

Hello everyone. I am a 23 year old roleplayer. This was a RP I did years ago so going to try to revive it.
IDEA
The main idea is that now all the Disney kids have had children and now go to school together. We will pick a could and play their kid. We can plot out a slice of life RP and the RP will be our characters
There are 2 things I am looking for which. I will mention in the characters section of this post.
CHARACTERS
My character will be the son of prince charming. He will be the person that everyone has a crush on without question. If you like men, your into him and if your not into men you are jealous or want to be him.
So what I would like from your character you character. I have a preference for if you want to be a male and for a female.
For a male character I would like of you played the son of another prince and princess. Our characters would be best friends since we are both royalty. If you would like that we can even do a friends to lovers thing, but I am fine with just friendship. I really wouldike one of these.
For a female character we can do a simple prince and princess RP.
Those are just some simple ideas but you can be anyone.
Here are some...
REQUIREMENTS
Be over 18
Be semi lit (2-3 paragraphs)
Be invested
Show some enthusiasm
Talk OOC
DM me if interested

I tend to forget people’s names when they tell me verbally, but I’m good at hiding it. In general I avoid using names by making sure I have someone’s attention and just using the pronoun “you.” So instead of “hey Matt, do you know where the trash bags are?” I’d walk up to face them and say “do you know where the trash bags are?” Hardly anyone realizes when I don’t remember their names. Outside of family/friends/coworkers I tend to forget names unless it’s social media where I can see it constantly.
It’s not about how important I think the person is or anything. I’m just bad with them. I don’t even remember my mother’s middle name and I didn’t remember how to spell my own middle name until I was like 20. I've forgotten the names of people I have had a crush on. I've forgotten the last name of people I was dating. I have forgotten the names of bosses, teachers, and other people I interacted with on a regular basis.
I’m a visual and logical thinker so I tend to remember what a person looks like and what the point they were making was rather than the literal words they used. I can remember everything that happens in a movie, including what they were talking about, but not be able to quote a single line that was said. If I see a name, like on social media or subtitles in a movie I remember it. But just hearing a name won't stick unless I hear it several times. I just suck at remembering labels vs content.
This isn't really a problem for me, since I remember everyone I primarily interact with and I can just avoid names for everyone else. If I really need to remember a name I'll just write it down. It's just a weird thing I've never admitted because I think someone would get upset. Someone not remembering your name seems to be an insult to people, like it means that they don't think you are important. Nope! Nothing personal. I just suck at it.

(AU) Chapter 1.- Start a quest?
[East Gangseo] [Gayan (il) dong]
[Narrator POV]
A fight was taking place between high school students in an abandoned warehouse
"TAKE THEM DOWN!!"
"WE CAN'T LET EAST GANGSEO FALL!!"
Those now known as the Eastern Gangseo students shouted fervently to encourage their companions in battle since the situation was not going in their favor.
"COME ON NORTH GANSEO, TAKE THEM DOWN" A student from north gangseo shouted, they had the advantage because the personal executives of the top 5 in the north were with them
The two executives were crushing the lines as if the east students were nothing more than flies
As they were about to beat another student, a hand suddenly grabbed both of them by the legs
"HE IS HERE... KIM SEOLJIN!!!"
"OUR KING IS HERE!!!"
[Kim Seoljin Pov]
'Shit, I have been fighting these last hours' i think to myself while slamming the Personal Executives onto the floor
"You fuckers, all of you are just cowards" I say while looking at the northern students just cowering in fear as they watched their superiors unconscious on the ground
Leaving the bodies in the ground I sprint towards the north forces
[You used to the moon card]
I jump high in the air and taking advantage of the descent I made sure to crush one of them
"EVERYONE RUN!!"
Hearing one of them declare retreat, I rush to defeat as many of them as I can before there is no one left in the warehouse
phew
I let out a sigh while looking at the unconscious students in the floor
[Ding]
[Quest: Protect your territory] [Completed] [Reward: 1 Gold card]
"Ahh... I need to rest" i say while walking towards my subordinates
"Thanks everyone for your hard work. Go home and rest; this war is still ongoing"
"YES SIR" they all said in unison
Looking at them leaving I finally look at the blue window
"Claim Card"
[You have claimed a card]
[Ding]
[New] [Maximum Capacity]
[Increases your weight by 220 pounds for 5 seconds] [*Can only be used once per day]
"Hmm, that's definitely a good card" i say to myself while leaving the warehouse and riding my bike heading to the central high school of east gangseo.
[Narrator Pov]
After a while of traveling seoljin made it to the central high of east Gangseo, that school were his headquarter and it was practically all they had left
"WELCOME BACK SIR"
A group of students received Seoljin, they were the guardians of the headquarters and they would defend it with their lives no matter what
One of the students walked towards Seoljin and took his jacket off
"Sir jeonu and miss Soomin are waiting for you in the meeting room"
Seoljin nodded and entered the school, while walking trough the alleys he remembered how all of this started

[Narrator Pov]
A blonde guy was relaxing in his bed, he was apparently reading a webtoon
sigh
"I wish i had a sistem too, that way i could be more strong and thus be someone more important"
The boy looked at his phone for some moments, and then he got up from bed
"I should eat something, i feel like shit"
The boy looked around looking for his sneakers to then proceed walk out of his apartment
'What should i buy, maybe some instant noodles and some chips'
The guy nodded, that's what he was gonna buy, it was cheap and delicious plus, of he buy that he could save some money to spend later
While the boy was walking he noticed something strange, there was no one nearby and there wasn't even any noise.
'This is weird there's no on-' The boy's thoughts were abruptly stopped.
The reason
A floating card shaped object was in front of him
"What the fuck" the boy said with a tone of voice full of surprise and terror
Suddenly the object started to shake, but stopped after a few seconds and a voice was heard
[Congratulations you have been chosen to participate in this war]
"Eh?... war??, what do you mean" the boy said while he looked at the object, what was that thing talking about, a war?
'Huh... everything is spinni-'
Suddenly, the boy fell to the ground, unconscious
. .. ...
[Seoljin POV]
I opened my eyes to see a ceiling, but thats weird, wasn't i on the street a few moments ago,
I look around my room but everything is in its place, just as it was before i went out
Maybe i fell asleep... yeah that should ne the case, there is no way that really happen-
[Ding]
[Quest window activated]
[Would you like to begin a quest]
[YES] [NO]
I opened my eyes in surprise, this... wasn't this what the protagonists receive in webtoons, a system
A system...
System...
OH MY FUCKING GOD!!!
I HAVE A SYSTEM!!!
But wait, that means that, that thing was real, and it said something about a war
I looked at the window and after thinking for a moment I pressed [Yes] maybe that way I can get some answers
[initializing quest system] [Once you complete a quest you will receive a card]
[generating tutorial quest]
[Quest: Have a meeting with ♤€₩] [Reward: 3 Random cards]
'Cards huh, i can work with that' I think while looking at the blue window, but...
A meeting with someone Huh, thats fine but where is the meeting
"Are you looking for someone kid"
Huh??
I quickly turn around and i see a guy sitting on my desk, where did he came from?
. .. ...
[Narrator POV]
Seol-jin looked at the man sitting in the desk without knowing what to say, so he just stared at the man
...
"So, don't you have any questions" the man said
Seoljin looked at him and nodded
"Yeah, but would you answer them?" seoljin asked
The man looked at seol-jin and smiled "Of course, that's why I'm here"
Seoljin nodded and walked towards his bed to then sit on it "then my first question, Are you the creator of the system?"
"Yes... or well, i had some help but technically i made it myself" the man answered
Seoljin looked at him surprised which made the man look at Seoljin weirdly
"Is there something wrong with what i said" the man said which made Seoljin finally react
"No... is just that normally they never say that until the end, but anyways, my second question... What is that 'War' that the card was talking about"
The man nodded and got up from the desk
"Currently gangseo is divided in 3 territories: East, south and North, with east being the weakest and smallest of the three"
The man got to a wall and suddenly a map of gangseo appeared
"You were selected to be the one to stop both south and north, and before you say something... no, nothing about you is special, the fact that you were selected was purely random"
Seoljin looked at the man, he wanted to ask that but hearing the truth still hurt him
"And something else, you will be given something to make you stronger because if I let you go like this, you will be crushed immediately"
Seoljin nodded again, he was the top dog of his school but if even with his current strength he would be crushed by them The that meant that north and south were monsters
"So, i need to become the leader of east and then take down south and north, I think that was everything i was curious about"
The man nodded and the map disappeared into thin air
"Well, then i should get going now-" The man was interrupted by seoljin
"Wait, if there's a war, why haven't east disappeared if there was no one to protect it and what about west, did they decided to not take part of this war?"
The man looked at seoljin and sighed
"West was instantly defeated by north, and east had someone to protect it but that person disappeared, only 2 of the former executives of east remains"
Seoljin remained silent, it was good to know that he has 2 posible allies
"Well, I'll get going and good luck Kim seoljin"
And like that the man disappeared as if it had never been there
Seoljin lay on the bed, digesting the information he just learned but a blue window appeared in front of his eyes
[Ding]
[Quest: Have a meeting with ♤£₩] [Completed] [Reward: 1 gold card] [ 1 Platinum Card] [ 1 silver card]
[Do you wish to claim the cards]
Seoljin looked at the system window before speaking
"Claim cards"
[You have claimed the cards]
[New] [Strong against the weak, Weak against the strong] [The user's strength is increased by one level if the opponent's is lower than the user]
[Peek at you] [Allows the user to see someone's stats]
[To the moon [Allows the user to make a very high jump]
Seoljin looks at the cards in front of him
"Ohhh, this are some good cards... specially [peek at you], that is going to be useful"
[You used peek at you]
[Kim Seol-jin] [6'0] [174 lbs] [Strength- S] [Speed- S] Potential- B] [Intelligence- B] Endurance- S+]
Seoljin looked at his stat window, judging the full bars he was strong, but if with this stats he would still be crushed
He doesn't wanna imagine how strong are south and north
[Ding]
[Primary quest: Become east gangseo top dog]
[1.-Meet the east executives 0/2] [2.-Recover East territory 0/3] [Reward: 2 silver cards] [ 1 Gold card]
[Would you like to start the quest] [Yes] [No]
Seoljin took a deep breath, there is no coming back after pressing [Yes] but instead of fear, Seoljin felt excitement
So finally, seoljin pressed [Yes]
[You have accepted the quest]

TLDR: I (a non-monogamous person) have an intense crush on a friend who I now sleep with. Don't know how he feels. What do I do.
I reconnected with an old friend last year. We've been calling, texting, seeing each other, and having v good sex since then. A few months ago, I realized I'm into him romantically in a way that never happens for me. I don't want monogamy, and I am interested in .. I think a closer relationship with him where we try to live/build our lives together a little more, IF he is.
He might be on the spectrum, and he has ADHD and PTSD. In other words, he's very hot, cool, great and weird, but I am unclear on his communication style.
I think I want to know how he feels so I know what boundaries/expectations to have. But I worry that I'm obsessing about this/ thinking about this because of anxious attachment, and I should just chill out and wait. I dont want to come off as weird or clingy, or miss obvious signs that he doesn't feel the same way. I'm stressed out about it all, and often suppress saying things to him. I really want him to be able to express what he wants and needs, not feel pressured into anything.
I told him I had a crush on him a few months ago. I can't remember exactly what was said, but the gist was, I said:"Can you tell I have a crush on you?" And he said "I might not use that word.. But the feelings are mutual, lots of feelings.." And then I looked at him, then he made a joke about men being bad at expressing their feelings, then he said he liked me.
He lives a little far away, and he often gets caught in big projects (as do I) and doesn't text for a while. Honestly, I'm not a big texter and I have a busy life, so this would normally be good for me, but I feel so unstable/unsure/insecure in this dynamic.
What do you think I should do? Plus, there's the added layer of addressing non-monogamy. "typical" couples might start a conversation by asking if they want to be "exclusive" but that doesn't apply for me. We talk about sexual safety and when we were last tested, but it's a little awkward. Why are these feelings making me feel soooo bonkers?
THANK YOU ALL <333

Monday, July 25th, 2016
JD, AH & their respective lawyers had a six-hour voluntary settlement conference with a judge but "did not reach a resolution of all matters".
This was the final time JD & AH met.
Tuesday, July 26th, 2016
Text exchange between AH & Melanie Inglessis

AH: I'm about to take off. So I couldn't talk earlier. I had a complete mental breakdown before I left. Johnny begging me not to go through with the divorce, to stay and talk to them, to work it out. I have been and was crushed. So confused, angry and hurt and so lost and scared. Plus, having to move. Yesterday was the first day I saw him in mediation. I have talked to him today. He's begging me to let him fix everything and delay my flight to talk tonight. I left instead. But I left my heart behind. I don't know what's right when everything feels so wrong.
MI: Holy shit. You are talking to him, my baby
AH: Yeah mediation. So hard.
MI: I had no idea mediation was a face-to-face with him. Babe, I can only imagine the pain, stress, anxiety, sadness and confusion that you are experiencing right now. And I know you are mourning the end of your marriage and try to process everything. I'm sure mediation was extremely difficult as you still love him. But, please don't doubt yourself as far as the decision that you courageously made.

During her deposition, Elaine asked MI about these messages

EB: Do you recall writing that?
MI: I don't recall writing it…But I remember feeling scared for my friend.

__________________
God, AH is such a shit friend.
She lies to her friends to maintain the facade of being the victimised party, disregarding the stress and concern her lies cause them.
Had MI been aware that just three days earlier, AH had flown to San Francisco and persistently begged JD to get back together and tried to get him into bed, I doubt she would have felt “scared” for her friend.
It's no surprise that AH's old friends want nothing to do with her; she just wastes people's time and energy!

Im 25 F, he’s 31 M
I’m so so anxious…. A man I’ve had a long term crush on for years. We finally reconnected and we slept together. It was so passionate we could both feel it intensely. I really want to see him again as we’ve talked about riding our motorcycles togethe touring when he gets his bike back from the East coast. (We met on a motorcycle touring trip on the interstate/gas station, and rode our bikes through two states together)
He didn’t text for over a day and I texted him saying, “Oh dear, I hope you’re not one of those guys that ghosts after sleeping together”. Then he texted an hour later saying he was really sick and had to delay his travel. And that he has very little service at his property and struggles to send out messages..
It’s been two days since he said that and im scared maybe he’s not telling the truth? Or he is ignoring me? I’ve already texted him three times since that and now im just letting him reply when he can. I just can’t stop thinking about it as I want to see him again badly..
I just really really like this guy. And hope he gets back to me. Should I be worried? Do you think he ghosted me?

It’s been 5 years of happy marriage. My MIL is a single mother as my FIL passed away when my husband was in college with a heart attack. My SIL is like 10 years younger to me and there was a time during initial days of marriage where we stayed with them for a few months. Initially, I noticed that they did not treat my husband very well. The reason might be an age gap of 12 years between my SIL and my husband or because he wasn’t doing very well in his career. In every chance, my SIL tried to disrespect him and thereafter I witness a huge fight. I didn’t like the way she treated him and I tried to fix things between them since it’s family at the end of the day. However, things were still kinda weird between SIL and my husband and they hardly talk and I gave up on that since my husband also insisted that it’s better this way. Although, she was very sweet to me and I reciprocated that - planned birthdays for her since I thought it would be difficult for her, my MIL being a single mom. During our stay with them, I was laid off from my company (it was during covid) and I was finding it difficult to find another job.
We moved from there to another city since my husband was placed there with a high paying job and he had significantly progressed in his career. At the same time, I was still job hunting.
My in-laws visited us at our new place probably like after a year, and things changed just like that. My SIL started giving all the respect and love for her brother suddenly including my MIL and she started being like I’m going to be exactly like my brother. She started copying everything my husband does. And all of a sudden, she started this behaviour of being disrespectful to me since I was unemployed, putting me down during dinners by emphasising the fact to her brother that don’t worry, he doesn’t have to pay the bill always- she will start paying bills soon after college. She also tried to create issues between me and my husband by bringing up his past relationships- she highlighted that there was a time he had a crush on his cousin sister. (My husband had mentioned this to me and he admitted it was a stupid thing). Moreover, my SIL started passing slight comments to me like why do you go out of your way to plan birthdays etc. so, whenever they meet us, it’s been like this and my husband just tells me she is crazy but now surprisingly, they have started getting along well since she has started looking up to him. However I would like to emphasise the fact that my husband was very supportive when I was unemployed, and he tried to motivate me everyday.
There was also a point where my husband and I travelled abroad for a vacation and my in-laws hated me - they give subtle signs that they have to struggle there and I’m traveling abroad by just getting married. Also I’m from a rich family compared to them so my MIL keeps passing comments that my SIL had to struggle her entire life unlike me.
I find it so hard and I’ve been avoiding her. I finally found a job after 2 years of job search and constant interviews since the job market was bad. They still disrespect me sometimes in subtle ways or my MIL keeps comparing me with my SIL, she keeps praising her with things like oh my daughter is the best and she will be successful soon like she’s obsessed with her kids. They keep putting me down in a way that since I’m already 30, and I had a 2 year gap I’m never going to as successful as them. My SIL acts like this adult who has taken over everything just because she finished college and received a job offer immediately.
Currently, I’m happy with my job and things are going well on the career side for me. But whenever I meet them, I can’t handle this shit and I’m sick of this. And I don’t know how to stop this. The only thing I do is avoid them. It’s always like they give me the feeling that their family is doing much better than me and I don’t belong with them. How do I deal with this?

Hello, all! I hope this is the right subreddit for this, although if it isn't, I apologize and hope you can point me to the correct one. So, essentially, just as the title says, I want to do my PhD, and everyone has always told me that a PhD has to be original research and content. I'm really struggling to come up with a topic I can't find research on already, and I was wondering, is it really possible to do a thesis that is completely original? It really doesn't seem like it anymore, but maybe I'm just not smart enough to come up with anything, honestly.
Further context, I'm in Animal Science, not in the US, I have my Master's, currently on a research grant working so I can, you know, pay rent and eat haha. Every time I think of something I could do, some food supplement I could use, some parameters I could measure, Google Scholar crushes my dreams because there are already some papers on it.
Does anybody have any insight? Thank you very much!

English it's not my first language so I'm sorry If there's any grammatical errors
So you see, not exactly today but 3 weeks ago I decided to confess to a guy I was having a huge crush on since 3 months ago beforehand but I didn't got the courage to talk to because of struggling before in socializing, love relationship and in resume not too sure if I wanted a relationship with him. These reasons weren't any new, since I got these thoughts from the start so I tried to brush them off during those months but I couldn't manage to do so, since he got friends in common with me, was in my class and constantly standing out by his grades just made it hard for me to do so in general. But there was this time, a friend of mine that knew I had a crush on him and her seat was near to his and his friend, heard that they were talking abt relationships and somehow ended talking about one particular time he (my crush) went out in a date with a girl he wasn't interested in just for her to pay him to eat, and was laughing abt it with his friend. Ofc I knew this kinda thing was pretty messed up, and I'm a person that gets the "Ick" pretty fast with this things but somehow my crush in him didn't vanish away STILL knowing that. There was this other time he was somehow embarrassed of his culture, and pretty much talked abt part of his family being from Europe to "defend" himself (where I live it's pretty common this type of things) and it did pretty much upset me bcs I don't support any kind of this behavior, but my crush in him still didn't vanish away?? I somehow thought at a certain part I was straight up just obsessed or just in love with the person I thought he was in my head, so I tried quitting that feeling by uninstalling social media, tried switching classrooms (I didn't got to do so) straight up making like he didn't exist, everything you could do to get over it while attending the same classes. Before all this my parents were gonna make me switch high school by the end of these 3 months so my friend proposed me to confess; see this was a crazy idea but somehow to me atm made sense since if he rejected me directly, I was gonna lose hope in all type of ways (part of the complications to get over it was this type of holding eye contact time-to-time in class) so I got the courage, and pretty much put my mind in it for what to say if I somehow got the courage to do so.
Surprisingly, even for me, I did it and in the last day I was gonna attend I asked him that if we could talk for a moment, he accepted and we went to talk to a park, I started with how sorry I was if I got to make him uncomfortable in any way, that I didn't got to talk to him but we got to attend classes together, that I wished we could've got to know better but I was gonna retire soon, and I wanted to get what I felt off of my chest. That I pretty much understood if he rejected me, and wished that I somehow didn't get to make him feel discomfort in any way, that in fact I wasn't pretty much sure if it was the right time to be in a relationship in my perspective and he interrupted me by saying: "ohh no, don't say that, we still can get to know each other, I'm pretty much sociable" and asked for my number. As you can imagine, I pretty much didn't expect that, just wrote my number in my phone and pretty much started disassociating in the moment because I didn't knew what to do next 😭 the moment got awkward, and I got to comment my points of view still of why I thought was a wrong time for dating, and he started saying his. The Convo pretty much got lighten up after that, and then he started wanting to know me better, asking by my music interests, talking about his childhood and his struggles in high school with education. We talked about 3 hours, time went flying and by the end of the conversation he said he would text me, somehow I still got this feeling at the back of my head that even after having a good talk, he didn't wanted to do so but I gave it a chance then figured out I was right, in some type of way.
I still, illusionated somehow and was anxious the whole day since all of this conversation dated in the morning. He texted me the next day by that in the night after that, we somehow talked by approximately 4 days but not too much and a pretty much average/short conv. Here's when it got pretty much awkward, he told me straight up, at 8pm that he was looking into something more "intimate", by what I replied that I wasn't searching the same and that it was okay still if he doesn't want to keep talking after this (this is the first time I handle a situation like this) by what he replied that it was okay still, that he was sorry if it made me uncomfortable, that he wasn't pretty much interested in relationships too, I replied that I understood and wished him the best, he asked me to please don't mention this to any friends, that he wouldn't do so too and I agreed. But then, I pretty much stopped to go to high school just 2 weeks and my parents decided to put me back in (it's hard to explain the real high school situation) and started to go again in the Friday. One of my friends, that sits next to them (my ex-crush and his friends) heard them tease him about this "dirty jokes" with a girl and constantly ask him to look at the back of the class, him pretty much embarrassed by the comments too, but they were a bunch of friends, pretty much 5 boys teasing him abt it and now, I'm attending high school in this situation and no, since according not to talk about it with our friends, we haven't talked again.
TL;DR I confessed to the person I loved thinking I wouldn't see him again He offered me a relationship only for sex and I rejected him, went back to high school and now the whole situation it's embarassing

Had a nightmare where I was working retail again, and this car parked outside was revving the engine so loud and so much that things were crackling and popping and it just kept going that it was so annoying. Finally I get sick of it and I look outside and no one is sitting in the car. I got a better look and no kid or animal was on the floor by the pedals to do that. The car was doing this by itself and there was so much exhaust smoke and stuff coming out of it. I get scared cause like what if things go haywire and it goes into drive and drives through this wall into the store? I go out the side/back door so I’m out of the way if that happens. The way it sounds is like it’s literally trying so hard to do just that. And it eventually does. After it crashed through, it actually turns towards me and comes out that way. I do the floaty thingy in my dream so I’m not on the ground and I’m holding onto the top of the door. The car is below me, then it senses me and stands up like a dog would to get a sniff or jump all over you, and the car is scolding hot to the touch. So now it’s like it’s hunting me and I can’t get away. Then I woke up.
It kinda reminded me of like a self-driving car becoming sentient, like rogue AI.
I need help interpreting these dream symbols since the sites I normally go to don’t have interpretations for things like “AI / artificial intelligence / rogue” ect. Also worthy of noting that rogue AI is not something I spend a lot of time thinking about or worrying about in waking life.

Remember SM...remember when they did the coolest thing by giving a bunch of older characters new designs. Like we got Red and Blue, Colress and Grimsley, HECK even Annabel! A character who was only in the BF in emerald, (a game Game Freak wants you to forget about...).
So why not do this again?

Here is my top 5 characters I want to cameo in the gen 10 games

5. Drasna

Very underrated E4 Member...
I want to know if Zinnia is her kid or not, if not kid, like maybe...niece?
It would cool if she and her family were a sect of draconids that specialize in the sinnoh legendary dragon pokemon, and she was interested in the legendary dragon pokemon of Gen 10...since we know every generation has to have a legendary dragon pokemon.

4. Nemona

Love or hate her, Nemona is one of the most popular characters of Gen 9. I would argue before Kieran and Carmine, it was her by a long mile. Still might be.
I would love to see her again, because she might have finally taken Geeta's place as La Primera, and it would be really funny if she is just a superboss like Cynthia. Go into a house, and then BOOM...Nemona!
"Hi I'm Nemona! I'm La Primera of Paldea. Things have been stressful...but fun! Battling all of the new trainers in the paldea league-wait you look like a trainer...a strong one. ME. YOU. BATTLE. YES?!"
Show slight growth as she talks about how becoming La Primera opened her eyes to the responsibilities that Geeta had, and how she wishes to do her do best to honor her example.
Just please...KEEP her the same, ON sight persona. PLEASE.

3. Drayton

I feel out of the entire blueberry league, including Lacey, Drayton has to be coming back again...like I feel they set him far too well to replace Drayden as gym leader.
Like Drayden's other grandchild, he is a prodigy but unlike Iris he is a SLACKER.
Which feel like could be translate well if bro is just on vacation to the another region and they could further his character saying he finally graduted blueberry but still doesn't want to come home.
Could be a fun six sages type quest/glitterai where you follow him around and get more of his story.
I'm going to assume it's because Drayden is getting up there in age, and he feels he won't be able to set an example as the heir. And perhaps this story has a dark ending with Drayton being called by someone (assuming it's Iris) that Drayden has passed.
Bro then leaves but thanks the player for following him around by giving him Draco Meteor, which would be really cool since Iris and Drayden did that in BW1, so it kinda leaves something to the imagination....hm.

2. Hau

Now, I feel if any character that needs a chance in the spotlight again...I think it should be Hau.
Like he forever plagued by being "the smiley rival" because SM didn't have that many facial expressions for anyone that wasn't the aether family (minus Mohn). Like Drayton, he is a prodigy, but unlike Drayton...he is a bit more upfront with his insecurities.
In SM, there are moments in the story when Hau gets visibly upset he isn't strong: like when Lily gets kidnapped, or when Gladion accused of holding back, or when he still can't beat the player in their final battle.
USUM gave his character more focus, giving a lot more urge to battle and win, while still keeping his level headed persona. He even got to be the champion fight for the game, that is arguably the hardest in the franchise. Good on him.
When he returns...he should be the kahuna of Melemele Island*. There is no excuse why he couldn't be. They SHOULD make my bro a BADASS gigachad like that guy from* Moana.
Like make everyone think Hau is the coolest dude ever.

1. Bianca and Cheren

Now, I know picking two for one is kinda unfair...BUT COME ON.
These two were the first rivals that actually felt like characters instead of just being tropes.
Blue was literally just cocky anime rival, Silver was the edgy criminal rival, May and Brendan were the rivals that have a crush on the protag,
Wally and Barry were close but the story of the games don't really have time to dwell on them... unlike Cheren and Bianca.
Like they these two were a perfect example of pokemon fans at the time of BW1's release date, ambitious yet kinda clueless about what to do with their ambition.
So what if, after nearly 12-13 years, we finally see them in the games and learn what they have been up to.
Like I want to see if Bianca has become professor and if Cheren finally has a beard to cover up that baby face he has lmao.
IF RED AND BLUE CAN COME BACK...why can't them?

I, F 19, have been crushing on my brothers best friend, M 21, for quite some time now. I’ve been in denial for months but it was always just a small crush, nothing too crazy. Him and i chat every now and then and last month i felt he was acting a little off. I got alot of mixed signals from him and told a few friends of mine since i thought i was perhaps imagining things. Everyone told me i was delusional and that it was obvious he liked me so i decided to confess. I was however ready to get rejected. Turned out my friends were right and that he did in fact like me, he just didn’t know how to act since i’m his best friends younger sister.
About a week passed and me and my friends are celebrating a holiday by going out drinking and clubbing. My brother and his friends were at the club as well which meant i would see my crush there. However at some point of the night my crush approached me. We shared a bit of small talk til he changed the subject to me telling him i liked him. He asked if i was serious and i told him i don’t joke about things like that and he went on saying ”oh, cause you know i like you too”. He was nervous since my brother could potentially see us together but he went on saying he wanted me to prove i had a crush on him, obviously meaning he wanted me to kiss him. I’m very shy though and i could only bring myself to give him a kiss on the cheek. He called me cute and i recieved one as well. The whole night we kind of clinged to each other a bit but nothing more happened.
After all that we didn’t talk alot and i’m an overthinker so i basically went crazy wondering if it was a joke. He is a busy guy though and he made sure to properly apologize for not being available which i really appreciated. I went out of my comfort zone and asked him if he’d like to hangout some day when he isn’t busy and he replied with 100%.
Here’s the thing though, a few days ago i mentioned i was still waiting for him to make plans with me. His reply was that i am forgetting that i’m his best friends younger sister. It’s been a repeating cycle that he says something but he also backs off when it gets too real.
I feel like i’ve done all that i can to make it possible for us to see each other, i even told my brother who apparently doesn’t really have a problem with it. My crush knows that too but i still don’t understand what’s holding him back. I confronted him about it last night because it’s becoming exhausting for me emotionally. I’m still waiting for him to go on and read it. I appreciate that he isn’t taking things further if he is unsure though. But if this is all it’s gonna be then i feel like it’s better if he just breaks it off and we continue as friends only.
Thoughts ?????

Dear Agent,
THE CHAOTIC FLAME is a high fantasy novel complete at 98,000 words. It follows Aetoria Borne, a noblewoman framed for the assassination of her mother, who travels the continent seeking revenge. It will appeal to readers of Mark Lawrence’s Prince of Thorns and John Gwynne’s The Shadow of the Gods. This is a standalone novel with series potential.
Aetoria Borne is consumed with visions of a bluish-purple flame. She begins to have disturbing impulses to burn things around her to extinguish her urge. Setting things aflame helps Aetoria cope with her low self-esteem, a consequence of her status as a bastard. Aetoria’s serpent-like eyes don’t help, either. In order to earn her family’s approval, she strives to become a Messianic Shifter, a genetically and surgically modified human deployed in war. Her mother disapproves and tells Aetoria, she is chosen to succeed the throne over her two siblings. They’re too deranged and greedy to become great rulers.
But on the day Aetoria is to be announced as the new monarch—her beloved mother is assassinated, and it is Aetoria who is falsely accused of hiring the assassins by her siblings. Fearing a rigged trial, she flees the city with three friends and a mage. In order to prove her innocence and reclaim the throne. Aetoria pursues the assassins in hopes of revealing who the true culprit is. She travels from place to place seeking the elusive assassins that are as ruthless and inescapable as death itself.
In her pursuit of the assassins, she becomes reckless, putting her friends in further danger. With a high bounty placed on her—dead or alive—by House Borne, she can no longer pursue her path of revenge freely. Worse, she’s being pursued by the Dragonspawn, a race of humanoid dragons, who believe her to be the bearer of the Chaotic Flame. Due to a prophecy foretelling of a serpent-eyed maiden being born within a millennium, who’s destined to rebuild the Dragonspawn’s empire and destroy all civilizations. Realizing she has a greater purpose in life and knowing the flame she has visioned could be the Chaotic Flame. Aetoria must decide if proving her innocence is more important than a destiny that surpasses being the queen of a kingdom that branded her a traitor.

First 300 words:
Chapter One.
The sunlight glinted off Aetoria’s dache sword. She tensed her shoulders and swung from the hip, her blade cleaved through the towering oak. The tree crashed and a resounding boom echoed through the woodland as leaves quivered. Startled birds took to the air chirping. Aetoria admired the black dache steel; light bounced off the flat length of the blade. She whistled through her teeth. “I’m impressed, you weren’t kidding when you said dache swords can cut through anything.” The air carried a scent of cedarwood, intermingled with a hint of mildew in the damp greenery. Her friend, Harlew shot her a half-amused smirk. “Lady Aetoria, that was sloppy, you never hesitate. As soon as that sword is drawn you better intend to use it with a purpose and next time step back from the tree, when it's collapsing.” “Whatever you say, Sir Harlew Bamont.” Aetoria raised her right hand to her forehead with straightened fingers and mockingly saluted. “You can’t be saying whatever when you could’ve been crushed by a tree.” “I would’ve deferred to your judgement had you offered any prior to me cutting it down.” Harlew chuckled. “You jest too much, but I can respect that. Regardless, we’ve been out here for over an hour. Let’s head back to the city and tell the local woodsman about the downed trees he can collect.” “Five more—” A whooshing sound interrupted Aetoria. She walked to the edge of the hill. Far below lay her much-loved home, the City of Dawnhelm, ruled by House Borne. She glanced up, shielding her eyes from the sun with her hand. Dozens of purple circles filled the sky and hovered below the clouds. The vibrant circles cast an ominous shadow over the distant city that lay in the middle of a flat landscape.

Hi, everyone! This is my first time posting here so please try to be nice to me. hehe char lang! so just like sa title of this post, I got married with my girlfriend, now wife, 6 months after we first met. Why am i posting? What's the catch?
It's because we got married in secret.
So ano ngayon if we got married in secret you say? Wala lang. I'm just really happy but I can't share it with the world just yet. I just want the world to know that I am now married with the woman I want to share my lifetime with and luckily I found this group so maybe I can share it here, this world right here.
I, 32F met my wife 25F in my workplace. To cut the story short, it wasn't all rainbows. She was in a long term relationship with a guy when we started going out and meron akong, sabihin nating fubu from the same workplace dati but i immediately ended it when I met her (wife). I know sasabihin niyo mga cheater, okay gets and totoo naman, some may even say na deserve ng wife ko yung narereceive niya na blackmail from her ex about posting their R18 photos and videos, and ako na aabangan daw niya ako (open for interpretation). Ang di ko lang magets, my then gf caught her ex-boyfriend cheating months bago kami nagmeet pero nag-aastang malinis yung ex-bf? Mmmm. I know may plan na sila dapat to get married this year, but not yet engaged. They were together for 5 years and alam kong baliw na baliw yung guy sakanya so diko gets kung bakit siya nagcheat. Also, my wife is out of my league, some people can't believe na pinatulan niya ako. She's really pretty, to say the least, a head-turner, bonus lang yun kasi super nice pa niya and matalino. Madami ding nagulat na hindi pala siya straight. Hindi kasi halata. My fubu? crush niya si wife. Even my gay-guy friend crush niya si wife. And I know a lot from our workplace e gusto siya, siguro from the day I met her hindi lang 10 guys yung halatang gumugusto sakanya.
Bakit kami kinasal in secret? Takot siyang icut-off siya ng parents niya. She's 25 but due to our chosen profession, she'll definitely need her parents' support pa muna and I admit diko pa kayang ibigay din yun. Sabihin niyo nalang na baliw kami. Hahahaha Sakin, I wanted to tell my parents, but since di pa niya masabi sa side niya, ganon nalang din sakin para fair so gets niyo na ba san ako nanggagaling? Only my sister and my trusted-workmate lang ang nakakalaam kasi sila yung witnesses sa wedding namin. Utah Online wedding pala just incase may curious.
Wala lang. Gusto ko lang i-share kasi I'm really happy. Also, if nadeads ako bigla tapos biglang tunugang may foul play, yung ex yung primary suspect. hahahah thank you! Cheers!