So the good news is I made it further than I ever had on the last run. My body still feels much improved even though I ruined my streak with 1 measly shot. Went to visit a bartender friend to give her a present for her birthday. She basically bullied me into taking it. I still chose so that’s on me but that one shot lasted 5 days. Sure I drank for 5 days straight but I don’t remember any of those, I remember the 1 shot that lasted me almost a week. I don’t feel any shame, just annoyed I’m back at day 1. Then again I remember a time in my life where I didn’t have a Day 1 for many years. Thankful for yall and thankful for all the positivity ths place has given so much.
Today I will not drink with you.

I’ve had it easy And I’ve been blessed To only suffer the feeling For those with less And those with more Of the carnage of war That pounds unwelcome at their door That brings down the roof And scars the youth Of tens of thousands Who are used to playing Going to school And maybe just losing their first front tooth And now a hand And now a leg And now a parent And now a friend And now a family And now a future And now the vividness of sense Vanishing with their view And what happens then, I cannot say I only see pictures of their pain This I’ve understood That I have had it good Though I’m trained to think that I’m in need By the vulturous advertiser’s greed And my problems have all been imagined ones Internal battles with my own demons The battles of one’s own existence The persistence of my own resistance To such inevitabilities of life: Universal failures, strivings, strife That distract all us living from our dying But again there are the very many Whose peace must come among with plenty of things not other than agonies Nothing other than tragedies, And not of chance but travesty The contortions of humanity The results of the depravity Of those hearts that are but a cavity And callous to the gravity Of a single person multiplied By the millions more amplified By the screaming of each and all The loudness of unanswered calls The desperate wails that overcome The visions of the tons and tons Of bodies piling in the sun The former loved and loving ones No longer… looking like… Persons For evil ideologues there are calculations: Who can we trick into taking our side? Who can we get to fund our supplies? When can we erase them and begin renovations? What can we gain from this mass starvation? And this is what the killers think That flesh and blood And beings that breathe Have no value guaranteed Not to mention the truths perceived In years and years of life elapsed In the children’s futures and elders’ pasts No different than buildings collapsed And we all can see Though some deny And others turn away their eyes We all can think And know the lies Forget for a second our piece of the pie We all can hear The babies’ cries How many more are going to die? If you have the power it’s time to decide

What PSP game is this. Been trying to find it for so long and still have no luck.
It’s a game from the 00’s. A game where you push multiple TNT barrels as a little kid around a bunch of different blocks of tiles. You must place them strategically or else you will blow up with the tiles as well. To win the level you must be able to destroy all the blocks but one with the TNT barrels. Once ignited and every tile blows up but except the one you are standing on. You won the level and you advance to a more difficult level. Otherwise you have to restart the level until you finally figured out the solution.
I love this game as a child it was so frustrating and fun at the same time. This was the first game I ever raged quitted and threw my controller because it was so damn hard to place these damn TNT on the right tiles. There were so many ways to do it but only one was right. You just keep making mistakes after mistakes until you finally came up with the solution. You feel so proud and happy of yourself. That all the goes away once you go on to the next level. I have not beaten the game and I want to so badly now if I can find this game! Please help a brother out what is this game called???

Hey there, i hope you're doing well. I think that i have a severe carpal tunnel, and I'm panicking, like a lot. And what annoys me more is how i got it.
After looking for a student job for so long, i finally managed to get one, at one the busiest bars in my city, Brussels. So last Thursday day, it was my second shift, a 5h25 min shift. I worked so hard as a server. The whole time, it had a server tray, that were heavy most of the time. At some point, i realised i had my fingers, from the one that's after the middle, till the 👍 finger(idk how do we call it sorry), are numb. When i finished, i realised that a part of my pawm was numb too. So i thought maybe it's normal, cuz it's a new job and we had so many ppl, i thought it will go, but oh boy it stayed, and it doesn't come and go, no, the numbness is present all the time. Last Tuesday i went to my doctor and he told me it's probably carpal tunnel syndrome. And he told me it's ok it will go, ur young ( 18 ) and the thing that caused it wasn't something that you do occasionally. It was a one day thing. He gave me ibuprofen teva and naproxen. A'd he told to wait for 2 weeks, and it doesn't go then i should visit a neurologist.
I saw that if you have pain in your Forearm then you probably have a severe CTS. Well i do have Pain in my forearm and in my elbow. So I feel I'm fucked. The numbness in my middle finger is a bit less than before, and at night the numbness doesn't get worse.
So any advices? Do you think I'm cooked? I feel I'll end up getting a surgery, but it has some terrible risks. I'm really panicking and i feel so stupid, cuz now i have this just so that i could pay uni, that's not fair. Sorry for the long text and thanks in advance.

I have recently started a relationship with a girl at school, i liked her for a few months started making moves. Two dates later and it was official. The relationship only started 1-2 days ago. And although i know the relationship is only fresh, i feel things have become increasingly awkward between me and my girlfriend since it has begun, little things ive noticed like her not laughing at my jokes as much. I will say, my confidence has dropped since then because i am scared to fumble, likely having effect on my social skills, but i feel she has lost interest aswell, although i tend to overthink. Along with this, i have a friend who god bless him, has no filter. And he doesnt realise when he is interrupting our conversations with his random statements. I would feel terrible if i told him to leave but at the same time i realise that i try my best to utilise and balance time for when im with my friends, and when im with my girlfriend while also making sure she has some time with her friends aswell.
I have heard from her friends that she is very excited about this relationship however i dont seem to see her excitemnt when she is interracting and talking with me.
I just feel she is losing interest and that my nervousness around her is contributing. I try to sit next to her as much as i can during classes, lunch, recess etc. But as of recently i have noticed an alarming increase of awkwardness between us, we don’t sit in silence, but i feel my words and conversations are becoming uninteresting and less appealing. I know im nervous and unfamiliar with this new relationship, and i know it wont ease in overnight, but i have addressed it with her and told her about my nervousness and she seems to not be too nervous at all. Or at least not as much as me.
She will be attending one of my basketball games this week, so there is obviously still some element of interest, but i don’t want to watch the relationship deteriorate as the awkwardness gets worse because im not doing something about it. So thats why ive made this post. I have been in a relationship before but i believe i was mistreated in that relationship and that has had a drastic effect on my confidence with dating.
Its my 2nd relationship and i am still pretty new to the dating scene so is there any advice anyone could give me to reduce or get rid of the awkwardness as well as a confidence boost?

I’ve had it easy
And I’ve been blessed
To only suffer the feeling
For those with less
And those with more
Of the carnage of war
That pounds unwelcome at their door
That brings down the roof
And scars the youth
Of tens of thousands
Who are used to playing
Going to school
And maybe just losing their first front tooth
And now a hand
And now a leg
And now a parent
And now a friend
And now a family
And now a future
And now the vividness of sense
Vanishing with their view
And what happens then, I cannot say
I only see pictures of their pain
This I’ve understood
That I have had it good
Though I’m trained to think that I’m in need
By the vulturous advertiser’s greed
And my problems have all been imagined ones
Internal battles with my own demons
The battles of one’s own existence
The persistence of my own resistance
To such inevitabilities of life:
Universal failures, strivings, strife
That distract all us living from our dying
But again there are the very many
Whose peace must come among with plenty
of things not other than agonies
Nothing other than tragedies,
And not of chance but travesty
The contortions of humanity
The results of the depravity
Of those hearts that are but a cavity
And callous to the gravity
Of a single person multiplied
By the millions more amplified
By the screaming of each and all
The loudness of unanswered calls
The desperate wails that overcome
The visions of the tons and tons
Of bodies piling in the sun
The former loved and loving ones
No longer…
looking like…
Persons
For evil ideologues there are calculations:
Who can we trick into taking our side?
Who can we get to fund our supplies?
When can we erase them and begin renovations?
What can we gain from this mass starvation?
And this is what the killers think
That flesh and blood
And beings that breathe
Have no value guaranteed
Not to mention the truths perceived
In years and years of life elapsed
In the children’s futures and elders’ pasts
No different than buildings collapsed
And we all can see
Though some deny
And others turn away their eyes
We all can think
And know the lies
Forget for a second our piece of the pie
We all can hear
The babies’ cries
How many more are going to die?
If you have the power it’s time to decide

Hypoglycemic episodes but not quite—what questions can I ask? I’m 23F, AFAB I have atypical Cystic Fibrosis, I’m pancreatic sufficient, and no CFRD. for the past 2-3 years I’ve been having episodes that seem to mimic postprandial hypoglycemia but my levels are always above 70. I’ve had a few fasting readings that are 67-69 but I don’t have any symptoms then. The symptoms start within an hour or so of eating and my levels will be 70-80 but get to 100ish 3-4 hours after eating, which does make me nervous that something insulin related is going on. My blood pressure is normal but tends to be on the low side as well.
The episodes mostly correspond with the 7-12 days before my period but it’s not uncommon for them to happen outside of that range. The symptoms are: - high heart rate (130-150) even if at rest (resting heart rate when I’m not having an episode is 60-70 range - shaking - sweating - confusion (including slurring/stammering and switching words around) - weird tingly rising feeling inside - mouth tastes like sand/ash regardless of food or drink - pallor - certain edges blur in my vision; like where the walls meet the ceiling or floors - more frequent urination with lower output - chills
There are a few things that don’t happen every time I have an episode but have happened more than once: - Pain behind eyes - intense headache that disappears quickly
I’ve tried adjusting my diet in every way I can think of (and GI and nutrition have suggested) and nothing really seems to have an impact. Drinking sugar during/after an episode does help a bit but not by much.
My CF team seems to kind of be at a loss. All of my bloodwork is normal, weight and PFTs are fine. They’re sending me to a gynecologist because of how the episodes tend to correspond with my period. I am also seeing my PCP to get my heart checked soon.
Meds: Bupropion 450 (had been on this for about 2 years before any of these symptoms started) Levalbuterol (10+ years) Trikafta (3 years ish) Mirena iud, placed fall 2019
Vitamins Women’s one a day 2000 iu d3
Other diagnoses: PTSD/CPTSD (incest/rape trauma related, not sure how relevant that it is but I’m trying to be more detailed than not ) Major depression General anxiety Insomnia (PTSD related)
Psych meds I’ve tried a while ago but didn’t help: - Zoloft (brain fog was way worse) - lexapro (would not stay in my system, to put it politely) - latuda (didn’t do anything)
I edited my post on cysticfibrosis after someone recommended I post here,so this part isn’t over there but —one of the things that’s getting truly untenable for me is brain fog/confusion. Since fall 2020 I’ve struggled a lot with brain fog and since it started with PTSD related events my doctors and I have been assuming it to be a mental health thing but I’m not that sure anymore.
The confusion is definitely worse during the episodes I described (and affects stuff like where I walk around and what I put down where, for example, putting my phone in a fridge or not being able to find my car) But day to day—I’m forgetting words and sentences almost immediately after thinking them. My mental health has improved a lot on Wellbutrin but I can’t tell if it’s improved the brain fog at all or just improved the other symptoms like low energy and the can’t get out of bed heaviness.
My major involves a lot of writing and the same assignments that would take me a few several hour sessions, if that, I haven’t been able to complete. I’ve spent 12 hours on essays (with only meal breaks and things like that) with about a paragraph to show for it — but what I can get out never quite matches what I’m thinking. I almost constantly have the feeling of having a word on the tip of my tongue, especially when trying to write. The things I think of seem to float away before I can keep them in my head long enough to write them down. I was supposed to graduate 3 years ago and I’ve been one full time semester’s worth of classes for these past three years because I just can’t get it done. The majority of my depression symptoms that remain have to do with the stress and feelings behind not having finished school despite being so close. On the whole though, my mental health is in the best place it’s been in pretty much my entire life And the other symptoms have improved drastically.
Last note on the day to day brain fog/confusion: I don’t switch words around when I’m not having an episode—but I have been noticing that 0-5 times a day (I can’t say for sure that it happens daily without fail but it definitely happens several times a week) that I do slur sometimes when talking? The beginnings and ends of words will just sort of smush together . This is a relatively recent development (in the last 8 months maybe?) don’t know if that’s normal person stuttering kind of thing but combined with the writing stuff it irks me more than it normally would)
I feel like a lot of these symptoms could be literally anything so I don’t know how to go about narrowing it down.
I have a check up appointment soon and I wanted to see if anyone has any suggestions for other questions or specific testing requests that I can ask my doctors for to help figure this out.
Thank you!

I F(34) am a full time arborist with the local Park& Rec in my town. I have been struggling to lose weight for a few years now. My job is labor intensive almost daily. Most days I feel like if I want to lose weight I need to exercise more after work like walking, running, lifting etc. However I don’t have much energy left when I get home in the evening to do so.
I have recently cut out alcohol and I am tracking my calories. I do make walking on the weekend a priority and shoot for the 8-10k steps. I have lost 25 pounds in the last 4 months due to the mix of that and my job.
Maybe it was the alcohol and eating whatever I wanted before that was stalling my progress? And not the lack of physical activity? I’m just curious to see if anyone else has any type of similar experience and if it was all just me not trying hard enough in the past?

Hi! I hurt my girlfriend alot by betraying her trust, I didnt cheat but I let someone who I thought was a friend in on a private thing between the two of us who used that to attack her.
She's stated that she wants to take a month break to re-evaluate if she wants a long term relationship, and to punish me so I feel what its like to be without her. She wants to go on one last date before the break so she has "something good to remember".
5 days after our break is over, she has a plan to go to a convention with me up north as a way to "start off strong" since shes recently got into going to these conventions. Its gonna be a long roadtrip, and we talked about going on a road trip before things went bad.
She keeps on bringing up that our relationship is no longer guaranteed, that theres no promises, that she can leave at anytime, I understand i messed up, i hurt her but its scary. We were talking about Marriage and now everything is so fucked up. She says she cant trust me anymore, that she doesn't see me the same way. But she loves me and cares about me, it just doesn't make sense. If your so unsure about if you want this relationship or not, would a month apart make a difference? Would it make sense to plan for a vacation if your unsure about if you want to be with me?
I want to fix things. I want to have her trust again when ive proven to her I can handle it, and i want her to feel safe and secure. She said shes willing to help me change but then in the same day shes not sure if she wants to stay. I understand her emotions are complicated because of me.
It doesn't help that im deployed to Germany and things are just falling apart. If i was never deployed here this wouldn't of happened. I just dont know what to do and I really want to cling on and fix this. I know its all at her pace and her decision though. Im going to come home from deployment, go on a date, and be on my own for a month before we take a long roadtrip.
She asked me a few days ago after I hurt her to help her pay for her car repair. I just paid all of it. I toldher i needed space and she seems upset but then she tells me i shouldn't be suprised shes cold and distant. So some days she says i love you, some day she couldn't seem to care about me and i dont blame her. Its just alot of confusing emotions, ive never been the one to hurt someone like this in a relationship. Its my first and last time being the bad guy and it sucks. I did try to communicate with her how i felt and that was a bad idea. I really have no outlet for my feelings. I offered to see a relationship counselor, she wants to keep things internal between us and not involve anyone else. I asked if i could see a therapist and she said she'd rather i not since it'd be involving her personal information. Im on a shitty deployment and I have no one to turn to. She says that shes still talking to me to support my mental health but it just hurts more knowing the moment i come home im just on my own until she has a momth to make a decision. There is no supporting my mental health i fucked up and i dont know how to fix things. There is so much agony in hurting the one you love and i just have to eat it everyday and hour im awake. She thinks that I thought everything could be "smoothed over because i felt bad and did a few things".
Its not at all that, im just an emotional wreck and trying to hold on. I deserve the consequences but its just guilt, pain, shame, and loneliness everyday im here. She says shes pretending to be happy when talking to me and i dont get it. It seems so much like shes out of love and done after this but im still holding on. I want to fix myself and change my behavior regardless if shes with me or not, but im afraid she will be gone. Im not going to a convention with a friend.

At what point do you leave a marriage when ones so depressed and refuses to do anything to fix it? At what point does it no longer seem wrong to leave because you cant handle being ignored for weeks, or feeling like your one sided in most?
What if it affected the kids as well? At what point does it make me not a dick? I love him with all my heart but he refuses help, he says “im beyond help it ends when im 6ft under.” And in no way is he toxic other than his depression he litterally will go weeks and days without talking to me. He just sits there, he snips at the kids, he doesnt want to do anything he just mopes all the time. He takes meds gets “better” thinks its over and stops them. Its a process thats been ongoing for years and its getting to the point im starting to feel unworthy because im alone. I try to communicate but he says hes a pos and maybe he just really shouldnt be here or deserve me!!
I just want the husband i married idk what to do. Idk if he cant help himself theres not much i can do.

I'm on my 4th or 5th re-watch of DS9, and I just have to say that this is such an underrated episode.
For one thing, it comes right after 'Duet', which is not only S1's best episode overall, but one of the Top 10 best episodes in the series IMHO.
Aside from that, though, it's also a S1 episode, and for better or worse most of S1 seems to be ignored, or at best assumed to be very average compared to the rest of the show.
Yet watching this episode again, I have to say that it is remarkably well done. The mystery does not feel contrived, and all of the performances (yes, even Keiko) are so well done. As someone who grew up in the American South in a very religious home, but now identifies as agnostic, I was particularly moved by the story.
And while the side of 'Science' is certainly presented as the good guys here, DS9 once again does an excellent job not totally minimizing or deriding faith or people of faith, but instead pointing out that it's people who take advantage of faith to justify their own ends or advance themselves that are to blame. As frustrated as I can sometimes be with Kira (mainly because I know and love so many people just like her*), I also think the episode really presents her faith three-dimmensionally.
I had also forgotten that this was Winn's first ever appearance, but it might be her best. She is somehow so menacing despite never actually saying or doing anything 'wrong' that we see. I wonder if she was always planned to be a long-term character, or if this performance earned her more screen-time. She certainly deserved it.
Overall, this is an incredible way to end S1 and bookend what began with 'Emissary'. Don't sleep on Season 1!
\People who share a similar level of faith, not people who are former terrorists*

I (41m) have been married to her (37f) for 13 years with 3 kids. For the couple of months, I had my suspicions that something was going on with her. She travels frequently for work (around 3-4 days every month) and always be very busy during these trips. She would never take video calls and rarely answers voice calls especially at night. Every time when she’s back, she’s cold and distant, and very protective of her phone. The way I tried to deal with my suspicions, is to treat her with the exact opposite, always been supportive to her and her career, showing her how much I missed her and how much the kids miss her, meeting her with flowers and sometimes gifts when she’s back. And this is why she broke down and confessed. She opened the conversation by “why are you so good to me? I am trying to push you away and you’re doing this to me” before breaking down in tears. Turns out she’s doing it with her much younger colleague and travel companion for the past 4 months.
When she spelled it out, I felt empty. No anger, no retaliation, no name calling. I guess I was expecting it. I even said, “if this is what you want, then more power to you.” Then I smiled and went to watch a football match. What kind of cuckold response was that?! I don’t even have that kind of kink. I am all over my head right now trying to explain why I acted like this. Since I met her, I always felt she’s settling with me. Have I just let her manipulate me into submission? A couple of days of awkwardness passed without much talking as I decided to stay late in the office.
Yesterday night, she offered sex, and while the rational response should have been to scream at her and storm away, I was just numb and let it happen. She was more wild and passionate than ever. I guess she thought that would make it up. Today after taking the kids to bed, she wants to have the conversation of where do we go from here and I still don’t know how to feel or what to say. I don’t even know why I am sharing this as I know strangers on the internet cannot tell me how to feel but I needed somewhere to get this off my chest but here it is....

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Thank you high school XC and track, it's been a great 4 years.
I'm a high school senior in MI, and a couple of hours ago my senior season ended. And what a season it was. During the season, I had a PR streak where I PRed in at least one of my two races every meet, whether it was the mile or 2 mile. My mile time went from 5:34 to 5:24, and my 2 mile time went from 12:37 to 11:58.
However, as noteworthy as my senior accomplishments have been, the purpose of this post is to reflect on my last 4 years, and how I have changed as a person, mentally and physically.
I started in freshman year, the summer after the COVID lockdowns. I was short and socially awkward. In fact, I almost quit after freshman season. However, I found that running was a great outlet after online school, and that it was a great way to relieve my worries and stresses of freshman year. The thing was, I was also not fast freshman year. In XC, I ran mostly 23 minute 5Ks, and in track, sub 6 miles were a dream.
Sophomore year started similar too, but with a major difference. At meets, I noticed a lot of the guys on my team had learned my nickname, and were making an effort to actually know and cheer me on at meets. That helped a lot, as it gave me a confidence boost. In that season, in my last race, I went sub 22. It was then I knew that I had a lot more within me. Track was similar as well, I slowly edged closer and closer to sub 6, and ran the 2 mile for the first time, dropping down to low 13s.
Junior year was my breakout year, and was the year my confidence and athleticism exploded. In cross country, I broke time barrier after time barrier. First it was sub 21, then I went sub 20 three times to make it even sweeter. In track, I went sub 6 for the first time, and would drop my mile time all the way down to 5:34 by the end of the season. In the 2 mile, I broke 13 for the first time, going all the way down to 12:37.
Senior cross season was the sweetest of them all though. There, I broke 19 two times, and ran 19s many times. In track, as stated above, I went 5:20s multiple times and broke 12 minutes in the 2 mile.
Now, I must stress, my team was very good during my four years. For reference, my senior year of XC, you needed to be 16:40s or faster to even sniff the 7th place spot. In track, sub 4:50 would get you top of JV. And I feel like that was what gave me the ability to push myself, by being able to model myself off of other people.
If you are still reading this, then I will end by saying that my favorite part of these 4 years has been the memories. From the silly banter with the guys (talking about all sorts of random topics) to long runs at XC camp, I wouldn't have changed anything for the better. And you know what? This is only the beginning. While I won't say where I'm going, I will say that I will be joining a college run club, all because of these past 4 years.

(continuation of part 3)
Since Fatal Calling is all about Cloud facing his past and his origins, Tifa’s musical theme is most appropriate for the ending cutscene. For all of these reasons, Tifa’s theme is absolutely appropriate for the conclusion of Fatal Calling. It makes a lot of sense then that once Cloud has finished revisiting the past and vanishes with the crystal to find his Promised Land, Tifa’s theme stops and Aerith’s theme begins.
There’s a lot to be said about Sephiroth in Fatal Calling. Sephiroth feeds off of despair, and deems Palamecia’s suffering inadequate: he seeks a much greater source of power than this realm. He states that Palamecia isn’t “the world that was promised to [him]”, referencing his desire to become the god of his core world of FFVII:

“Sephiroth: Melding with the planet, I will cease to exist as I am now only to be reborn as a ‘god’ to rule over every soul” (FFVII OG, disk 1, chapter 25).

Sephiroth’s line “Now, let us return [Cloud]. Back to the Promised Land” reveals he wants to return to their shared core world of FFVII, like we established in our review of the Remake timelines theory (see section “I. a) vii.”). Sephiroth wants to go back to FFVII and modify the OG timeline to achieve his evil goals. This is his ideal scenario, his place of complete happiness: his desired Promised Land. Fatal Calling is setting up Sephiroth’s plans for Remake. In fact, the after-credits scene wherein Sephiroth stands in Nibelheim as it burns confirms his return to the FFVII OG timeline.
However, he isn’t the only one returning. Now that Cloud has revisited his past in Fatal Calling, he’s ready to reach his Promised Land. After Sephiroth’s after-credits scene, the OG FFVII title and logo turn into the FFVII Remake title and logo, indicating a shift: we are now officially in the Remakeera or world. Cloud and Sephiroth disappeared at the end of Fatal Calling, and now the game is telling us where they’ve gone. Combined with Hamaguchi’s recommendation that players complete the collaboration event before playing Remake, I think this is a solid indication that the Cloud and Sephiroth we see in this collaboration event are those we encounter in the Remake world. Once the switch to Remake occurs, Aerith’s theme returns. This communicates that she is indeed —as we’ve proven countless times already— Cloud’s Promised Land. But it also conveys her importance to the story of Remake. Scenario writer Nojima confirmed this:

“Aerith's the most important character in the remake so we paid special attention to her lines” (FFVII Remake Ultimania, section 08 “Secrets”, “Development Staff Interviews, Part 2: Tetsuya Nomura, Yoshinori Kitase, Kazushige Nojima”, page 744).

Aerith was already important to OG, so what could’ve motivated Nojima to state her importance to Remake? Could it be that she’s even more important in the latter than she was in the former? In what way?
That was the collaboration! Before we move on from MFF x FFVII Remake entirely though, let’s glean some more relevant information from some of the collaboration’s promotional material and special features.
~III. e) iii. Promotional Material and Special Features~
Two particular pieces of promotional material for this collaboration stick out to me as extremely relevant. The first is a promotion for a new summons batch in the Mobius FF game, created in honor of the collaboration.
MFF x FFVII Remake Summons Batch Cloud Promo
The summons batch contains three FFVII Remake-themed cards, including a Cloud card. As you can see, this promo reads “Who awaits in the Promised Land?” under Cloud’s picture.
The second is a promotion of an Aerith and summons and an Aerith Job Card (in MFF, Job Cards allow a character to embody an archetype or another character, giving them certain physical traits, clothing, weapons and abilities):
MFF x FFVII Remake Aerith Summons and Job Card Promo
I couldn’t find this picture in English, but the text relevant to us translates to:

“Midgar's Flower Vendor Summons
‘I'm searching for you. I want to meet… you.’
The witch protects the planet, imbues it with power, and leads to the Promised Land.”

A few things here. First, Aerith is referenced by name, and we see a picture of her in her famous praying pose. Secondly, both Cloud and Aerith’s images are attached to the notion of the Promised Land. Cloud’s card asks who awaits there, and Aerith’s evokes a guiding role, as though in response. Thirdly, both Cloud and Aerith are attached to the notion of searching: Cloud searches for the Promised Land and whomever awaits there, and Aerith searches for Cloud’s true self. Speaking of which, the promo also includes parts of Aerith’s famous gondola date quote from OG:

“Aeris: I'm searching for you.
Cloud: …?
Aeris: I want to meet you.
Cloud: But I'm right here.
Aeris: I know, I know... what I mean is... I want to meet... you” (disk 1 chapter 24).

In case you’re wondering about the lady in Aerith’s clothes on the left-hand side, that’s Meia, a character in MFF. She is the “witch” being referred to in the promotional material. She’s often called the Azure Witch. Meia is wearing Aerith’s clothes because a Meia-type Job Card called “Flower Girl of Midgar” was created in honor of the MFF x FFVII Remake collaboration:
MFF x FFVII Remake \"Flower Girl of Midgar\" Job Card
There’s even an Aerith outfit you can have Echo wear, and it appears with Wol’s Cloud outfit in the promotional picture:
MFF x FFVII Remake Echo's Aerith Outfit and Wol's Cloud Outfit
To be fair, Tifa also appears in one of these summons promos. However, unlike Aerith’s, her appearance doesn’t reference the Promised Land or her version of the gondola date. She is not presented in connection to Cloud at all. On top of that, while the Aerith and Cloud outfits are promoted together, Tifa is paired with Vincent in the promotional image:
MFF x FFVII Remake Summons Promo Tifa and Vincent
This is hardly indicative of Cloti content in the event collaboration or in Remake.
~III. e) iv. Cloud’s Promised Land~
All in all, the collaboration tells the story of Cloud searching for his Promised Land, just as post-OG Cloud has been shown doing for years and years of canon SE content. Cloud is searching for Aerith in the MFF x FFVII Remake collaboration, just like he was in FFT and DFF, and just like he was shown doing in the 30th FF Anniversary Exposition. This is nothing new. However, the collaboration informs us that this mission to be reunited with Aerith is what leads Cloud to enter the world of Remake.
Echo noted that people obtain the Promised Land they deserve rather than the one they want. What does Cloud deserve? I believe the answer is: another chance at saving Aerith.
Cloud needs to start over, from the top. He needs to go back to the very moment he and Avalanche arrived at mako reactor 1 to bomb it. He needs to return to the beginning of the OG game. He needs a redo, a fix-it, another shot at happiness; a remake.

IV. The Hidden Plot Point: Mission Theory

~a) Thesis~
Here lies the heart of my theory. My dear Cleriths, Sephiroth isn’t the only one who travelled back in time to undo destiny and create a reality where things go his way: Remake is also —I would even say primarily— Cloud’s chance to free Aerith from her fate, save her life and secure his shot at happiness with her. That’s why he experiences MOTFs in Remake: he’s done FFVII before and now he’s back, although with only fragments of his memories from OG, to save Aerith. That’s why his triggers all involve Aerith: he doesn’t consciously remember anything from OG, but his grief over Aerith is so strong that it rises from his subconsciousness at the slightest trigger.
In Remake, Cloud remembers some but not all elements of the OG timeline (MOTFs), and it appears he only remembers the most important things: all his MOTFs revolve around Aerith and her fate. Our theory explains why Aerith triggers Cloud’s MOTFs in Remake quite perfectly: he traveled back in time to prevent Aerith’s death from happening. Remake Cloud remembers Aerith because, well, he knows her from OG. Post-OG Cloud has returned to the past to save Aerith, resulting in Remake. This is why seeing her in Remake triggers visions and memories of things that haven’t happened yet in Remake, but have already happened to post-OG Cloud. He recognizes her face on Loveless in Remake because seeing her face again is the whole reason he entered Remake in the first place. His visions of her death when they meet once more at the church, the spike of anxiety and grief as he watches her walk away from him, the constriction in his chest when she talks about doing everything in her power to help the planet… all of it, it’s all his memories of OG being jogged by things related to her death. What he’s forgotten from the OG timeline emerges in flashes of pain, images, memory and emotion. Remember that the language the devs used to describe these instances where Cloud reacts to Aerith in this way is always about “remembering” or “recognizing”; Cloud has to have seen Aerith, known Aerith, loved Aerith, lost Aerith and felt the pain of living without Aerith before in order to recognize and remember these feelings. Think about it: this is the only thing that can explain Cloud’s extremely selective MOTFs and the fact that he has MOTFs at all.
The Remake trilogy is all about Cloud and Sephiroth stepping into the ring one more time, both ready to risk it all to get what they lost in the OG timeline. Sephiroth is hungry for destruction and godhood, while Cloud stands determined to save the love of his life. Fighting for their respective goals, the fated enemies enter a new battle in Remake, one to end the war, both needing to win this time after losing so horribly in OG. Now, it’s all or nothing. Sephiroth vying for the planet, and Cloud reaching out for Aerith.
Cloud’s back with a quest, one he can’t fail— it’s the most secret and important plot point of all. I call this the “Mission Theory”.
~IV. b) Mission Theory Logistics~
There are a few things that remain vague, so I’m going to use this section of the analysis to speculate on the logistics of my theory. We know very little about the hows of the timeline and multiverse shenanigans, so I’m going to hypothesize. However, this analysis is about the whys: so if you’re not interested in mechanical speculation on the logistics of time travel and multiverses, you can totally disregard this section and skip to section “V.”.
~IV. b) i. Cloud the Time-Traveler?~
It’s unclear whether Remake is the result of post-OG Cloud going back in time to try his hand at the OG timeline again, or the result of post-OG Cloud somehow informing OG Cloud that he must save Aerith this time around. It’s vague in the same way that we aren’t sure if Remake Aerith is post-OG Aerith or if she’s been informed by post-OG Aerith via her connection to the Lifestream as a Cetra. Though it doesn’t much matter how Cloud has memories of Aerith’s death in Remake, I personally think that Remake Cloud is a time-traveling post-OG Cloud. My explanation as to why might be a little confusing, so again, feel free to skip to section “V.”.
One must be able to communicate with the Lifestream in order to obtain knowledge of the future. This access can only be granted to the Cetra or to the souls of the deceased that compose the Lifestream itself. Since Cloud is not a Cetra, he cannot commune with the Lifestream while he is alive, meaning a deceased post-OG Cloud would not have been able to communicate his memories of the OG plot-line with a living OG Cloud. Therefore, the only way Remake Cloud could have knowledge of the future (manifested as MOTFs) would be that Remake Cloud is inhabited by his post-OG consciousness. Effectively, this is time-traveling.
Then comes the question of how Cloud was able to time-travel at all. I have what I consider a pretty solid hypothesis. The most interesting thing about the realm of Palamecia is that every FF character that’s ever appeared in the realm for a cameo died in their core world beforehand (spoilers for FFI, FFV, FFVI, FFX, FFXII, FFXIII, FFXV incoming). These characters include Tidus (FFX), Lightning (FFXIII), Garland (FFI), Sephiroth (FFVII), Gilgamesh (FFV), Vargas (FFVI), Gabranth (FFXII) and Ultros (FFXV). My interpretation of Palamecia serves at least partly as a directory for deceased souls that can’t simply fade. For instance, FFX’s Tidus actually came back to life to be with his love>! Yuna !! FFX!<. Of course, MFF x>! FFX !!FFX!< and FFX-2, just like MFF x FFVII Remake came out between FFVII OG and FFVII. And similarly to Fatal Calling, the ending cutscene of MFF x>! FFX !!Next thing you know, FFX-2 comes out and shows Tidus returning to Yuna and their core world in an optional cutscene.!< The MFF x>! FFX !! Tidus !Remake.
~IV. b) ii. Post-OG Cloud’s Amnesia~
If we consider that Remake Cloud is a time-travelling post-OG Cloud who’s returned to the start of the OG timeline, we encounter another logistical problem: why doesn’t Cloud remember everything or most things from the OG plot-line in Remake, like Sephiroth and Remake Aerith do? After all, aren’t the three of them in the same time-travelling boat? Why isn’t Cloud as lucid on the matter as the two others? Didn’t the post-OG Cloud in Fatal Calling face his past and origins? Shouldn’t that mean Cloud would remember all that stuff in Remake from the start?
In OG, the true Cloud’s memories are repressed by both his false persona and Jenova. The latter’s memetic abilities are able to block Cloud’s memories of the past from emerging and conflicting with his SOLDIER persona. For instance, in both OG and Remake, Cloud is unable to hear Aerith tell him Zack’s name in Evergreen Park: Jenova blocks it out. I think this is a similar situation: post-OG Cloud’s consciousness carries memories things that Jenova doesn’t want Cloud to know, so she pushes down on them. On top of that, after travelling through different worlds and back through the Lifestream for who knows how long, post-OG Cloud’s consciousness must be quite weak. We know how good Cloud is at repressing, so it makes total sense to me that post-OG Cloud’s consciousness would be trapped or suppressed somewhere deep in Remake Cloud’s subconsciousness. After all, it’s not like this whole time-travelling-consciousness thing is normal for a mind to experience. It’s no wonder Remake Cloud doesn’t consciously remember how things go in OG. However, post-OG Cloud’s love and grief for Aerith are so strong that memories related to her can occasionally pierce through to his Remake consciousness and Jenova’s barriers, resulting in his MOTFs. His pain and love for her are definitely permanent and strong enough:

“A young woman descended from the Ancients who will forever be engraved in [Cloud’s] heart” (Dirge of Cerberus, Japanese manual, Aerith’s character description).
“I believe for those who formerly traveled with her as comrades and for the viewers, each carries their own feelings and love for Aerith. In this story, Cloud also carries his own undying feelings for Aerith, even to this very day… Its relation with the church scene is… Yup. I’ll leave this part to your imagination. (laughs)” (Nomura interview on Advent Children “Designer’s Note” in Famitsu PS2!magazine, October 24th issue).

So you see, Remake Cloud’s mind is a little more complicated than OG Cloud’s mind. Everything is still the same in Remake as in OG, but with the added complication that his future self is hidden in his subconscious mind, probably trying to get out.
There is actually pretty good evidence of this. I’m sure you’re aware that whenever Jenova is trying to hide something from Cloud or altering his memory and/or perception, the screen glitches green with an audio cue (34:15-34:29, 1:15:30-1:15:41 and 1:17:14-1:17:29). Guess what? These Jenova audiovisual cues also occur during the MOTFs (ie: MOTF 3 2:58-3:07 and MOTF 4 0:29-0:42). Whenever post-OG Cloud’s consciousness encounters anything that reminds it of losing Aerith, the strength of its pain helps it push memories of Aerith to the surface so that RemakeCloud can consciously see them. Remake Cloud then experiences sensations and/or visions, all from his future self’s memories as they rise to the surface, propelled by grief. Jenova can’t allow Remake Cloud to fully recover his post-OG memory, so in order to shut down the process, its cells jump in to repress the MOTFs: this results in the classic Jenova audiovisual cues. The only time Jenova doesn’t bother to fight against a MOTF is the sixth, as it is quite weak: no visions occur, only a tight sensation in his chest.
~IV. b) iii.~ ~Eclipse Contact~ ~and Cloud’s Memories of Reactor 1~
There is one problem I have trouble decoding. In Eclipse Contact, Cloud tells Wol and Echo that the last thing he remembers is the run-up to his arrival at mako reactor 1 (FFVII OG, disk 1, chapter 1). Recall that usually, people summoned to Palamecia have no memories of their world of origin and lives before that point at all. So then why is it that upon being summoned to Palamecia, Cloud recalls the events that took place right before the start of the OG game? This strikes me as highly relevant since this is the exact point in time where post-OG Cloud’s consciousness needs to be transported to in order for Remake to begin, but I haven’t been able to figure out a solid hypothesis on what it could mean. My best guess is that this is the devs’ way of signalling to us that the events of the MFF x FFVII Remake collaboration occur before the very beginning of post-OG Cloud’s second try at the OG timeline (Remake).
Now that I’ve shown you how I’ve come to form my Mission Theory and we’ve done some pesky housekeeping, let’s connect some dots, shall we? It’s time to really get into it and see if any of my wild speculation tracks with content from the Remake trilogy so far.
~V. Musical Evidence~
What about the music of the game? Any hints there? Let’s try to see if we can find support for the Mission Theory in the music made for the Remake trilogy thus far!
As a preface to my musical evidence analysis, I want to insist on something: the story guys tell the soundtrack guys everything. In a high-quality production such as Remake, people who make music for audiovisual media are told everything in advance. They need to know the secrets of every little scene, because their job is to depict whatever is happening through music.
Therefore, if the Mission Theory is true, then there has to be musical evidence for it.
~V. a) Preface: The Basics of the~ ~FFVII~ ~OST~
There’s a lot of evidence in the music of the Remake trilogy that we have to address, but before we get into it, I do have to give you the basics of the FFVII soundscape! For the easiest experience, I suggest you keep a tab open for every link I provide for you until the music analysis is over, because we will be hopping from one musical theme to another and then back again.
~V. a) i. The World Theme: Cloud’s Troubled Identity~
The world theme of FFVII is a perfect example of how musicians working on an OST have to know the secrets of a story as they compose for it. On top of representing the FFVII world as a whole, it doubles as Cloud’s character theme… except that isn’t exactly right. You see, this piece does indeed contain Cloud’s true theme, but Sephiroth and Jenova’s musical motifs also contaminate it. This, of course, symbolizes how Cloud experiences identity sabotage because of these two antagonists. The result is that globally, the world theme does indeed represent Cloud’s character, but it isn’t exclusively Cloud’s in the same way that Cloud’s mind isn’t exclusively his. It’s brilliant storytelling through musical motifs, and evidently requires Uematsu to know in advance that Sephiroth manipulates Cloud’s identity in the story.
For future reference, let’s isolate Cloud’s true theme from Jenova and Sephiroth’s influence.
~V. a) i. 1) Sephiroth: Dissonance and Semi-Tone Motif~
I’m sure you know Sephiroth’s infamous theme: “One-Winged Angel”. The first motif we need to know is Sephiroth’s threatening, repetitive dissonance motif, which plays all throughout the piece (plays solo at 0:00 to 0:04). The second motif is what I call the semi-tone motif. “One-Winged Angel” has a ton of minor 2nd intervals, which is what we call the relationship between two notes that are only a semi-tone apart. You might recognize the minor 2nd interval in the foreboding Jaws theme. Just like in Jaws, the minor 2nd interval or semi-tone is commonly used to indicate an impending, life-threatening danger, a monster, predator, evil, or insanity; suits Sephiroth quite nicely!
~V. a) i. 2) Jenova: Parasite Motif~
The track “J-E-N-O-V-A” contains many competing melodies and has generated many variations of those melodies —almost like clones— that all represent aspects of the alien’s character. The main Jenova motif is simply a descending, two-octaves-long, arpeggiated mb6 chord (eight notes total). I’ve played it for you here. Sometimes, this motif is altered to form variations. For instance, in “Listen to the Cries of the Planet”, a variation of Jenova’s main motif is created by changing the order of the notes and reducing the number of notes to only six (0:00-0:03), however, it remains an arpeggiated mb6 chord. Regardless of the alteration, if you hear an arpeggiated mb6 chord, it means Jenova is creeping close by or that its influence is at work.
The variation of the mb6 arpeggiated chord that concerns us alters Jenova’s main theme so it ascends from the tonic to the b6 note and descends back to the tonic, then ending on the lower dominant for a total of eight notes. I’ve played it for you here. I call this variation the “parasite motif”, because it is often heard when Cloud is being controlled by Jenova. For instance, it plays when Cloud loses himself and becomes unusually violent in Rebirth’s chapter 13 (17:25-18:34), signalling to us that Jenova is in control. It is also the main motif of the track “Who… Am I?”, which evidently symbolizes Jenova’s fuelling of Cloud’s identity crisis— though here, the parasite motif is shortened to its six first notes.
~V. a) i. 3) Cloud’s True Self~
Now that we can recognize Sephiroth and Jenova’s motifs, let’s return to the world theme to isolate Cloud’s true self. Cloud’s true theme can be heard from 0:51 to 3:48. It consists of a section A (0:51-1:54), followed by a section B (1:54-2:41), and then returns to section A (2:41-3:48).
After Cloud’s true theme concludes however, it seems he experiences a psychic interference: doubt and confusion weave through the world theme (3:48-4:09), representing an instability in his identity. I call this interruption of Cloud’s true theme the “interference section”. It symbolizes a moment of psychic interference or weakness within Cloud that Sephiroth and Jenova take advantage of to take control of Cloud.
The end of the interference section introduces Jenova’s parasite motif. It slithers in (4:09), later joined by Sephiroth’s dissonance motif (4:16): Cloud’s mind and identity are being hijacked by the two antagonists in service of their evil plans.
They torment Cloud, dominating his mind until he manages to free himself: section A of Cloud’s true theme begins playing again (6:06), closing the loop of the theme.
Based on this musical storytelling, if you already knew the character motifs going into OG, you might’ve suspected something odd was going on with Cloud’s identity, and that Jenova and Sephiroth were involved. All this to say that whatever music is playing at any given time can give us hints as to what is going on. That’s the power and significance of a good soundtrack. Trust me when I say that with Uematsu and his team, we’re in excellent hands. And remember: the story guys tell the soundtrack guys everything.
~V. a) ii. Aerith’s Theme~
Another base we have to cover before checking out the Remake soundtrack is Aerith’s theme. I’m sure everyone here is familiar with it, but I insist that you refresh your memory. It consists of a section A (0:00-0:34), a section B (0:34-1:13) and a section C (1:13-2:00), concluding with a repeat of section A.
~V. a) iii. Motifs and Timing in~ ~FFVII~ ~OSTs~
I’m going to analyze pieces in great detail, which people who haven’t studied or paid attention to soundtracks may find strange. To prevent anyone from making the mistake of thinking that I’m reading too much into things, I want to emphasize that the music that plays during the Remaketrilogy’s cutscenes is carefully timed, composed and arranged to match the events in the cutscenes, as they are provided in advance to the musicians. Composers pay lots of attention to whatever is going on onscreen so they can include the corresponding musical motifs as accompaniment at the exact right moments, always striving to get the timing perfect. I’m not exaggerating the effort and minutia involved in soundtrack composition and arrangement. Here are just a few sound staff comments from the “Material 4: Soundtrack” section of the FFVII Remake Material Ultimania to prove it:

“[To] make sure players really feel the weight of the moment, we worked hard on getting the tempo and the entry timing of each instrument exactly right. In particular, that big ‘boom’ that sounds almost like a meteor crashing down was fine-tuned to match the timing of the logo's appearance. I remember this was a real sticking point for us, because if the boom's timing was even slightly off, the effect would be completely different. We […] had to sequence [each and every sound] to play at exactly the right moment” (Shotaro Shima on track “Midgar, City of Mako”, page 229).

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“I was originally told to keep this piece to under two minutes, but it ended up being over six minutes long, in order to match the flow of the cutscene. I arranged the track while watching the latest CG visuals that had been rendered for the scene” (Naoyuki Honzawa on track “Smash ‘Em, Rip ‘Em”, page 309).

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“This is the track that plays during the tour of Shinra’s different divisions. The movie shown in the Visual Entertainment Hall describes the history of the Ancients (0:25 onward in the soundtrack version), and I wanted to create a musical link to them as well, so I made use of the chord progression from ‘Aerith’s Theme’ [D(I)-Am(Vm)-D(I).] [This simple sequence of moving from major to minor and back again creates a really mysterious air. Then, during the section where the movie recounts the history of the construction of the Shinra Building (1:47 onward in the soundtrack version), I quoted a section of the Shinra theme” (Yasunori Nishiki on track “Stewards of the Planet”, page 313).

~V. b) The~ ~Remake~ ~OST~
Now that you’re ready, it’s time to verify the Mission Theory’s validity with Remake’s music.
~V. b) i. MOTF 6 Music~
We were able to explain Remake Cloud’s MOTFs with the Mission Theory, and it just so happens that the music that plays during the scene of MOTF 6 is unique to Remake. This gives us the perfect opportunity: we should analyze the piece that plays as it occurs to evaluate the legitimacy of our theory on the Remake trilogy, using all the motifs we uncovered in section “V. a)”.
First, a refresher on the scene and on our theory’s interpretation of it. The party is gathered in Aerith and Ifalna’s old room at Shinra HQ. Here is how the scene is described by the VA script notes:

“The Whispers once again close in [on Aerith], but Aerith refuses to stop speaking this time.
Aerith: Listen to me. […] Shinra isn’t the enemy. They were the ones who set things in motion, but our true foe is someone else.
At that moment, the spectacle of Meteor they saw in the Visual Entertainment Hall comes into Cloud and the others’ heads.
Aerith: Somehow, some way, I want to help— all of you… the planet…
For some reason, Cloud feels his chest constrict tightly” (FFVII Remake Material Ultimania Plus, VA script notes, “Aerith Speaks”).

Indeed, right after Aerith says she wants to help the planet any way she can, Cloud looks down at his chest with a frown and a quiet grunt (7:46-7:54). According to the Mission Theory, this tightness in Cloud’s chest can be explained as an emergence of post-OG Cloud’s grief, triggered by the slightest allusion to Aerith’s sacrifice.
The piece that plays during this scene is called “Aerith’s Theme - The Cetra”. It is one of many variations of Aerith’s iconic theme arranged for Remake. However, Cloud’s theme is just as prominent in the piece— if not, more.
~V. b) i. 1) The Fate Motif~
Before we interpret “Aerith’s Theme - The Cetra”, I need to introduce you to one more motif that crops up in the piece. There is a windy motif that appears (from 1:45 onwards) and it is unaccounted for, despite how it’s clearly meant to represent something. I’ve become certain that this wind noise symbolizes fate, and I’ll tell you why.
In the MOTF 6 scene, just after Nanaki explains how he gained knowledge of the Whispers via contact with Aerith (7:23), they emerge and begin swirling aggressively around Aerith (7:26). Her hair and dress blow and ripple in the resulting wind. From this very moment onward “Aerith’s Theme - The Cetra” (3:00), a string section (bowed instruments in the violin family) that deliberately emphasizes the airy sound of the bow crossing the strings enters, creating a windy effect that adds to the already present wind noise (that started at 1:45). As the Whispers progressively become even more aggressive onscreen, both the wind SFX of the cutscene and the wind noise in the piece get louder and louder. Because of the timing of its appearance and crescendo in the cutscene, I’m certain the wind noise is meant to represent the restrictive flow of fate; it only makes sense, given that destiny is a current —or a wind— that cannot be broken, and Aerith is like a helpless petal in fate’s carefully planned storm. Of course, it’s also quite significant that the Whispers make a windy noise as they fly. You can hear it every time they’re onscreen, like when they first appear to Cloud in chapter 2 of Remake (17:45-18:20), or when the White Whispers hold Cloud back from chasing after Aerith during Rebirth’s Sleeping Forest scene in chapter 14 (28:43-29:45). You can also hear the wind sounds in other Whisper-related tracks, such as “Whorl of Whispers” (clearly audible at 2:50-3:05), as well as “A Death Not Ordained by Fate” (clearly audible at 2:56-3:18). Therefore, I’ll call these wind noises the “fate motif”.
~V. b) ii. 2) Interpreting “Aerith’s Theme - The Cetra”~
In part 1 of “Aerith’s Theme - The Cetra” (0:00-1:45), Aerith’s theme and Cloud’s true theme play simultaneously, their respective phrases fitting perfectly together, interweaving peacefully and softly. It sounds like the two of them are chatting, dancing bashfully yet contently and in perfect sync, glad to be exactly where they’re meant to be as their themes sing together in harmony (soft piano). Part 1 of this piece is about Cloud and Aerith becoming important to one another as they discover their soulmate bond.
Unfortunately that contentment doesn’t last. In part 2 (1:45-3:00), Cloud experiences a moment of psychic vulnerability (world theme’s interference section). Fate lurks (fate motif enters quietly). His instability forces our couple’s sweet dance to a halt, and Aerith’s theme must retreat as Cloud’s confusion takes center stage. Sephiroth torments and taunts him (semi-tone played by strings, 2:03-2:10), taking advantage of Cloud’s psychic interference to plunge him into darkness (world theme’s interference section ends, low cello enters, 2:18): Cloud temporarily becomes a darker version of himself as evil corrupts him (piano plays section A phrases 1 and 2 of Cloud’s true theme in minor, 2:18-2:53). Jenova finally reveals itself and promptly exits, releasing Cloud’s mind from its grasp (seven first notes of parasite motif played twice on piano 2:53-3:00). Cloud is free, but the damage has been done: his dance with Aerith has long been interrupted, and she is gone. Part 2 of “Aerith’s Theme - The Cetra” is about Cloud being manipulated in service of Sephiroth and Jenova’s evil plan, interrupting his interaction with Aerith.
Part 3 (3:00-3:33) kicks off the mechanisms of a tragic fate (strings section joins fate motif, 3:00). Both anxious that she’s disappeared from his side and terrified of the darkness he just discovered inside him (in part 2), Cloud fearfully calls out for Aerith (phrase 1 of Cloud’s true theme’s section A, timid and hesitant piano, 3:04-3:15). Before his psychic interference began (start of part 2), Cloud’s voice was accompanied by Aerith’s as they grew closer and closer (their character themes mingling in part 1)… but now, Aerith isn’t answering his call, and he cannot find her (Aerith’s theme doesn’t to join Cloud’s anymore).
Anxious, Cloud tries calling out for Aerith a second time (section A phrase 2 of Cloud’s true theme’s, 3:19-3:31), searching for her in the hopes that they can continue their dance, but even now, Aerith does not respond. She’s gone (Aerith’s theme remains absent). Destiny keeps Aerith away from Cloud (fate motif gently crescendos). Part 3 of “Aerith’s Theme - The Cetra” is about Cloud’s separation from Aerith, his search for her, and the fear and anxiousness he feels when he realizes he cannot find her.
And then, part 4 begins with a sweet, gentle voice, calling out from the blackened horizon: it’s Aerith (section B phrase 1 of Aerith’s theme, soft piano, 3:33-3:45). Cloud finally hears her respond to his pleas: he’s found her. Fate begins howling in protest, doubling its efforts to keep Cloud and Aerith apart (fate motif crescendos noticeably in reaction to Aerith’s theme, 3:45). You can just picture Cloud running toward Aerith, struggling against the current of destiny to try and close the distance between them. Aerith tries calling out for Cloud a second time, (section B phrase 2 of Aerith’s theme, 3:40-3:43), but the Whispers only swirl around her more ferociously, taking her away in the uncompromising current of fate (fate motif continues to crescendo). Aerith tries again (section B phrase 1 of Aerith’s theme, 3:47-3:49). It sounds like she’s saying “Cloud, I’m over here, come find me!”
Fate doesn’t take too kindly to her defying it. Cloud and Aerith are not supposed to be together; it can’t be, it won’t. She’s destined to die to save the planet, and he’s destined to remain hollow forevermore. I can picture Cloud breaking into a sprint at the sound of her voice, running countercurrent to the flow of destiny— but the winds are so loud, fate’s demands are so strong, and the Whispers are shrieking in defense of destiny now. Aerith’s voice emerges for the fourth time (first three notes of section B phrase 3 of Aerith’s theme, 3:54 to 3:56). Fate screams louder, louder (steep crescendo of fate motif, 3:59-4:02). In a desperate hail Mary, Aerith shouts out one more time, as though throwing her hand out toward Cloud’s extended fingers (section C phrase 1 of Aerith’s theme, louder and more insistent, cutting through the fate motif as it crescendos sharply, 4:00-4:06). Part 4 of “Aerith’s Theme - The Cetra” is about Cloud and Aerith desperately trying to defy fate in order to be together. And then, it all stops: fate has seemingly quieted Aerith (4:04-4:08)…
Part 5 (4:08-4:27) begins with Cloud jumping, launching himself off the ground with all his strength (Cloud’s true theme section A phrase 2, first 5 notes, melody starting on the note E5 and ascending) as Aerith plummets toward the ground in a fatal fall (Aerith’s theme section C phrase 1, melody starting on the note E6 and descending, the last note altered)— he successfully catches her in mid-air (both Cloud’s ascending melody and Aerith’s descending melody meet in the middle of the octave, first uniting on B5, and then ending on A5). I’ve recreated the melodies for you here so you can hear this reunion more clearly. If you consider that the airy strings in this piece represent fate, which I do, the fact that they follow Cloud and Aerith’s themes in part 5 signifies that they are now in control of their own destinies, and successfully making it their fate to reunite.
To be completely frank, I did not realize until right now writing this that Cloud unites with Aerith in part 5, even though his theme is right there. I’m so excited to share this part with you.
We hear Aerith once more, her voice quietly trailing off into the silence (phrase 4 of section C of Aerith’s theme) with no conclusion (phrase 5 normally follows phrase 4 to conclude Aerith’s theme, but is absent here). Part 5 of “Aerith’s Theme - The Cetra” suggests that Cloud will save Aerith and that the couple will change their fate, but also conveys an uncertain and open-ended quality.

We are separated, she cheated on me. I want to believe that it didn't involve sex, but I feel like a clown whenever I feel a bit of hope. I cannot bring myself to divorce. She returned home but we sleep in different rooms. I saw conversations on her Instagram with another man and I insist she confesses. But I do wonder if her confession would change a thing. I told her yesterday that if she will be honest with me, I might forgive her and leave this all behind, but she denies she did something. I went to therapy, 2 sessions already. It doesn't help me, but I will keep going to see what happens. Somehow I know I need to take a decision, forgive her or divorce her. Right now my life is on hold. I am terrified that maybe, just maybe, there is a little hope she indeed didn't cheat. That maybe she intended (At worst) but didn't in the end. And I will ruin our future.
Some replies suggested I contact the guy. I think about this a lot but it's so humiliating for me. At the same time, I think he might give me the truth. I don't know if I can hear it though.
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My wife is very beautiful and has great personality, but I was never the jealous type because I just trust her and don't really have self esteem or confidence issues myself. Yet, 2 days ago, she used laptop for Instagram, as her phone was broken. She doesn't do this often so she forgot to log out.
I saw her conversations with a guy. He is 30, super fit, strong built. Plus he is a medical doctor. I went a bit through his profile and he seems to be the typical gym addict and party dude.
Their conversation was like that: so, should we repeat this? (wife asked) And he said it was great and she was great, but given the situation of her, once was more than enough, as he doesn't want drama in his life.
She probably deleted other conversation because nothing else was there. But I am not overreacting, am I? It looks like she slept with him. I am not sure how to address this
Update post:
I can't make her confess, she did cheat. She keeps repeating I am paranoid, jealous, controlling over a conversation she had with her doctor. She doesn't want the divorce, but I do. I am in pain, I must tell you. A lot of pain and I fear I will regret this, but I cannot trust her when she swears she didn't cheat. She refuses to call him in front of me. I stopped trying to get it out of her. But I will never be able to trust her again. She told me around 50 times today it was just a normal doctor- patient conversation. Nothing else. But I don't want to hear it anymore. I did not yet tell her officially I want a divorce. I plan to do it tomorrow. Should I do something else, something more? I know there is no way back after this.

Hi! I’m having family come in and stay with us for Memorial Day weekend. I’m having a hard time coming up with all meal ideas, breakfast, lunch, and dinner. I thought about a breakfast casserole? We hope to grill out for dinners but it looks right now that the weather may be bad in my area. I know traditionally it’s hamburgers/hot dogs. If we can do that, wonderful but what are some other things for meal that wouldn’t require grilling just incase we can’t grill. We do have a smoker! Also, if weather does turn out to be good, I’d like to maybe have a picnic in the park, what sounds good with that? I’m feeling lost. I’ve never hosted anyone overnight.

I’ve always been a ball of sexual energy. As far back as I can remember. I held all in until I was 18 (I’m in my 40’s now). Refused sex and hardly ever masturbated. I’m kind of an empath, so I’ve also always been really respectful. Unfortunately I’ve also always been very attractive. Women have always clung to me. But I was careful not to ruin any of the frienddships I had made.
I married the only woman I ever had sex with at 24 (we dated for 6 years). She divorced me three years ago because I revealed to her how sexual of a person I am. Mainly that I am fully bisexual and that I like all kinds of stuff as long as it’s consensual and legal .
I’ve let sex ruin things and let people in that take advantage of my sexual being. People that know that I’m down for anything. They use and abuse me and then they treat me horrible. I’m only there to service them. My ex-wife treated me the same way the last year I was with her. Leveraged my sexuality to explore hers but also made me feel horrible for my own sexuality. I resorted to being cucked, whenever it was that she allowed me to watch. I hated it. I cried every day for a year. My ex gf had treated me the same way. Took advantage of my sexuality to feel better about hers. Did things with me no one else ever accepted. On the reverse? It’s a big no-no for me.
I fucked my best friend a few times and ruined that relationship. I’ve fucked so many women and men. I have gone days in a row fucking different women. Many times multiple in one day.
I thought I found someone that I can express that with. I didn’t. I’m only here to make others feel better about their own sexual insecurities.
I need to go back in the closet. I don’t know how I’ll do it, but I need to hold all this in and never do anything sexual again. It worked great until I was 18! It’s the only way I’ll ever be happy. Have questions? Ask away.

Bf wants to break up because he lost his job
I am new to reddit
As the title says, my (26m) boyfriend wants to break up with me (25f) because of his final situation.
A bit of a back story, we met 4 years ago both of us were in our final year and about to graduate college. He is kind, loving, a planner and very smart. He learned to code in his early teens and at 17 got his 1st full time job. At 20 he got into college and finished it in less than three years, and then got his masters a year later. After i graduated I moved in with him, and i was doing and payed internship (not much) and a part time job and working on my masters. He insisted in covering all bills and me focusing on paying for my studies.
I tried to compensate by cooking and cleaning, but he ends cooking most of the time and there is almost nothing to clean as well most of the times. A part of this is due to our schedule, but most of this is with his difficulty to accept things from others, wether it’s help, gifts, favors, you name it. At the beginning when i gave him little gifts he was was grateful but then would tell me he doesn’t like receiving gifts, I respect it, when i tried to help him with something he always said if I need anything I’ll ask, this kind of thing. Honestly it made me feel a bit useless in the relationship, all I wanted was to do something for him. I finally landed me full time job through my internship and finished my masters so i insisted in contributing with half of the rent and and other bills, which he was okay with but then he lost his job. He started looking right away but he didn’t predict it would take him many months get an offer. Past 7 months with out working part time he decided to break things off to “to get his life in order”, and during this time he was still paying for bills despite my insistence in covering all while he looks for a job. I love him a lot, but i thing he is too prideful to be in the relationship with me paying for things. I am angry, i am sad and disappointed that he only wants a relationship when he is doing well but well he faces hardships wants to end things. I just want some suggestions on how in can support him and change his mind, for anyone which has been through something similar.
Thanks for reading.
TL;DR: bf is to prideful to be in a relationship while not having a job wants to break up

Some time ago I had a plan and the necessary materials to finally end my subhuman existence.
I am very ashamed to admit but I did not expect to feel as terrified as I did. I ended up calling my family sounding really slurred and just told them everything. I gave them the materials and they threw it away. I lost my way out.
At the time I thought maybe it would be okay. They might have seemed cold before but maybe I am just imagining things. They might just give me the love I didn't receive before.
I'm here again. Circumstances are the same. The problem is my body, my personality, myself. All of me. My history, my status. Everything about me. I deal with this only now my family are involved as well in my internal suffering. And they hate it. They literally have told me before.
People say suicide is selfish but every decision I can make is selfish. Living is selfish in my case. My life is very straightfoward. Suffer until I die. I can't suffer quietly. People will know. I will bother them. Dirty their conscience.
If I die, less people will be bothered. In this way suicide is the most selfless option. For my situation.

As the title says, I feel bad. I've taken a long break from the game again and just getting back and getting ranked. I was mid gold when I walked away and this is game 3 as Axis to find my ranking again.
I normally wouldn't build a Baltic fleet. I can count on one hand the number of times I've done that, but he let me sink all the Atlantic transport fleet on G2. And India goes down on J3 unless something goes horribly wrong.
Definitely got paired with someone that doesn't seem to understand that all out attack as Allies isn't great.