I wasn't even feeling the energy to rant here but I've no other option. I don't really know how to put it. I took a gap year because of some issues and was hoping to come back strong but as the new start is coming near I have become more depressed and fully addicted to phone. I don't even watch movies or anime. I just scroll and my head feels dizzy. Its like i have no control over life and am trapped inside. Also I have been totally cranky. Everyone makes me annoyed. And I feel so lonely that I get attached to anyone who slightly meets my liking. And my anxiety has gotten worse than ever.

This doubles as a vent so bare with me. I am a lead teacher in the toddler room. My assistant teacher was the previous lead for that room but chose to step down. She is great with the kids and has experience but her work ethic really stops there. She is constantly “sick” so we have a rotating wheel of random teachers in her spot that makes it very difficult to get things done. She has no regard for sanitary/licensing regulations. Really her main goal is for things to look cute and aesthetically pleasing but I get no help whatsoever with cleaning. She starts hundreds of projects but never finishes them so there are always materials everywhere and unfinished projects littering the classroom. She also never collaborates with me on them which is frustrating because I get no say (even when I offer to help) in how things function. She is only concerned with product art after many conversations with her about the the importance of process art so I have had to exclude her from that portion of our lessons often for the sake of the kids. Her attention to detail is severely lacking and I find myself embarrassed at the messages that go out to parents/admin on my days off(I work 4 days a week). She pushes back on every little decision I make (things as simple as jackets vs. no jackets outside, etc.) and I’m getting very frustrated. Ultimately, I think she is having a hard time letting go of what she views as “her” classroom. These may seem like minor gripes and I do not need total control, I want to be able to work as a team with my assistant but I feel like my ability to lead is being hindered. I am not great with confrontation but I have tried chatting with her about things and it just goes over her head. For weeks now, I have been contemplating asking my director about a change in assistant teachers and possibly moving her to another classroom. Is it worth it? Will it make me seem like a control-freak and someone who is difficult to work with?
Edited to add: Sick is in quotation marks because multiple times she has flat out told me that she is just tired or does not want to be there. We all get burnt out so I tried to be understanding but the frequency is what makes it so frustrating.

Hello, I’m in Crete (Rethymno, headed to Chania) right now. I planned to buy a few litres of olive oil, honey, cheese and stuff in batch and fly it back home with me. My question is, where can I get good quality products with a good price? I though tourist shops and supermarkets can’t be the only options, right? Thanks for the help!

TW: Kitten Death.
Last night something happened that really shook me up.
I was headed to bed when suddenly I heard the sound of a kitten mewling very close by (as if it was in the room with me). My first instinct was that one of the stray kittens that live in our yard was in trouble, but I quickly wrote that idea off because it just wasn't possible.
Given the layout of my house, there's literally physically no way I could have heard one of the kittens from my bed, especially not so clearly. My instincts kept screaming at me that something was wrong, but I was exhausted. I knew I was just hearing things because of how tired I was. Until this morning.
There's this crack between our back door and the porch. When I walked outside this morning, I found one of the stray kittens laying in the crack, dead. I suspect it somehow got stuck in the wrong position and suffocated or starved because it couldn't get out.
Now my mind keeps going back to that moment before I fell asleep. I know there's no way I could have actually been hearing a kitten calling out through three walls and a door. But in the moment, I know I heard mewling, and my every instinct told me to check on the kittens. But I ignored it.
I can't stop the guilt. I don't know the real explanation, but for one reason or another, I may have had the opportunity to save that poor baby, and that I turned my back on it because it was too inconvenient to just go outside and check.
I don't know what happened, but I'm not sure I'll ever stop feeling bad about it.

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Prior to today's game, SRH fans were in rabid mood — the kind of mood that reminds you everything that's wrong with Indian cricket.
First, the hero worship.
Imagine a person who breaks your dream. 2 months later you cheer for him because now he plays for your interest. No animosity, no bad memories anymore. So fickle. You make him hero, your savior. You suck up to him and want him to do the same thing as he did to you. That parasitic allegiance in SRH is an ICT problem. We always look for a myth, a legend — pinning the hopes of a team sport on an individual. Australia won on Nov 19 because they played far better cricket. Pat didn't silence the crowd, that was not his primary job. He captained a team to win and the crowd silence itself as consequence.
Running up to Qualifier 1 today, it's again the same. SRH fans literally worshipping Cummins to become their own Thala, thinking he's the cult Tollywood hero that will win them a trophy. Sports doesn't work that way. You win only by playing better. There's no silencer, no cumdawg legend to save you if all 11 players don't play well.
Last, the aussie mentality.
Absolute BS narrative. Would you now call Gambhir, MSD, Zaheer, Yuvi, Ashwin, Aussies as well? Because they won the same trophies. When you say the Aussie mentality in KOs, you admit trophies are only destined for them because only Aussies can be Aussies. And guess what, they suck as well if they don't play well. Starc is back today as big game Aussie but what about Head?? Is he not a KO mentality monster anymore? He even missed a dolly of Iyer. You pin all the reasons for a win into "mentality" and then say only Aussies have it. So you cancel yourself out. Today KKR's winning because they played far better cricket. Look at Russell's movement to dismiss Tripathi. Look at Harshit's and Varun's bowling figures today. Look at Venky's counterattack against "Silencer Thala". There's no trademark for mental fortitude.
This is not a self-righteous rant. KKR might lose the final if they don't play well. But we keep taking the wrong lessons from wins and losses.

I’ve been going to therapy on and off for a couple years, about a month and a half ago I decided to go back to therapy because my partner started going and brought home a dissociation chart. As I was looking at it, I realized that I’m dissociating most of the time, especially when I’m trying to be intimate with my partner. After 3 weeks and multiple dissociation assessments she thought we should try to look into this. During those 3 weeks I would go into my head and yell, scream and just be so upset and try to scream at someone to come out, to no one’s surprise nothing happened but me feeling awful. Finally after those 3 weeks I decided to go into my head and talk calmly and ask, is anyone else here? Thats when a man came forward introducing himself has Tristen and behind him a child who I am not allowed to talk to or interact with. Once I began sharing with my partner and therapist more started to come out and introduce themselves, all with different ages, names, and appearances. This has been freeing but also exhausting and terrifying all in the same way. I decided to talk to my psychiatrist about this because I was finally feeling comfortable. She proceeded to tell me I don’t have DID, and said that because I have been diagnosed with OCD it’s my brain that is over doing it and creating these things. I’m basically spiraling and I just feel so awful & confused. I guess I just needed to rant somewhere, I feel so incredibly uneasy and so frustrated that I can’t understand what’s happening in my head.

Synopsis:
Carlos was an ordinary software engineer on Earth, up until he died and found himself in a fantasy world of dungeons, magic, and adventure. This new world offers many fascinating possibilities, but it's unfortunate that the skills he spent much of his life developing will be useless because they don't have computers.
Wait, why does this spell incantation read like a computer program's source code? Magic is programming?
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"So, in short, the most stuck-up bully of my life is now begging for our help to fulfill his greatest dream, because we've happened to become his only remotely realistic hope of achieving it. Do I have that right?"
Carlos looked up from his plate of succulent roasted meats and vegetables, all covered generously with a rich gravy, and raised an eyebrow at Amber. They were in Mayor Stelras's personal dining room, enjoying the service of his personal chef. "You know you do. You've read the letter yourself, what, a dozen times now?"
Amber set the letter aside yet again and took another bite of her own lunch. "Yeah, I know. It's just…" She shook her head and chuckled. "Out of all the things that happened the last few weeks, this one is somehow the hardest for me to believe is real. It's ridiculous. I know it's ridiculous. I've personally met and spoken with royalty! Kindar should be nothing compared to that! But, somehow… This is hitting me harder than anything."
Carlos nodded calmly. "Makes sense to me. The presence of royalty is completely new to you. It's huge and important, and far beyond anything you ever expected might happen, but the only thing you've experienced before that's different is its absence. You don't have any memories in the back of your mind telling you 'that's not how this is supposed to work.' For Kindar, you have a lifetime of memories telling you that he's more powerful and better supported than you are, and that you're mostly helpless against his bullying. Now that you're the one in power, and he's the one helpless against you, that's not just new, but contradicts a lot of your past experiences. Some part of you in the back of your mind is having difficulty reconciling the contradiction; it's like you have a subconscious voice shouting 'that's wrong; it's not how this is supposed to work!' For meeting Princess Lornera, that voice is only confused and surprised, not feeling like something's wrong."
"Hmm." Amber cocked her head and paused. She looked down and idly speared another forkful of tender steak. She made a few more contemplative sounds as she chewed and swallowed. "That makes some weird kind of sense. I think." She shook her head. "How did you know that? I never would have figured it out."
Carlos chuckled. "Don't feel bad about it. Not many people would ever figure out that kind of thing about how human minds work without being taught. I certainly didn't. My dad's a therapist, and he taught me a lot."
Amber blinked, then blinked again. "I have never heard of that profession before. In fact, I think it doesn't exist here."
Carlos realized on reflection that "therapist" hadn't translated. There was no word for it in Ganler, the native language here. "Huh. … I hadn't thought about it, but I'm not surprised. It took a long time for people where I grew up to realize that kind of thing can be important. Or maybe the hard part was realizing that it takes education and training to do it well."
"Ah."
They ate mostly in silence for a while, occasionally humming in thoughtful consideration while they chewed. Eventually Amber was leaning on her elbow, just watching as Carlos scraped up a few last bits of gravy from his plate. She stared distantly at nothing. "Hmm… You know, I'm tempted to actually accept, just so I can rub his face in how I succeeded better at his own greatest ambition than he ever will."
"Hmm? Oh right, Kindar." Carlos chuckled. "I imagine a few sessions of smugly condescending to him would be rather cathartic revenge for you. Would it be worth the downside of helping him actually achieve his ambition, at least to a minor degree, though? I'm sure that if Darmelkon had any other viable options for helping his son with this, he would have taken care of it years ago. If we refuse, we'll be denying Kindar from achieving his ambition at all. Wouldn't that be better revenge?"
"Logically, yeah, that makes sense. But it just doesn't feel satisfying to me." Amber took a sip of water and pushed her empty plate away. "I want to show him how badly we outclass him now. I want to see his face when he realizes that he will never measure up to the 'annoying stupid girl' he used to tease."
Carlos put his hands together, resting his elbows on the table, and rested his chin on his hands as he looked at Amber. "Not to mention how much money Darmelkon will pay us for doing it." His voice was calm and level.
Amber nodded quickly. "Yes, that too."
"You realize we're already rich now, right? Receiving taxes, and all that."
Amber threw her head back laughed uproariously. When her laughter finally tapered off, she leaned forward and looked Carlos in the eyes. "You may have heard that Darmelkon is rich, but you clearly don't understand how filthy rich he really is. Yes, I was shocked when he offered a hundred gold bounty for finding us back before we became nobles, but that was only because I didn't know why he considered us valuable. For this? For helping his son achieve his otherwise impossible greatest desire? A price in platinum would be cheap! I would bet that he'll pay in mythril and be glad about it."
"Hmm." Carlos quickly did the math in his head. 100 gold was roughly equivalent in value here to a million dollars on Earth, and is also equal to 1 platinum. So 1 million dollars per platinum. 100 platinum is 1 mythril. So each mythril coin is around the same order of magnitude value as 100 million dollars. Just 10 mythril to match a billion dollars. "Okay, that's more than I thought. So he's a major business tycoon? What the hell is he doing living in a backwater in the middle of nowhere like Erlen?"
Amber shrugged. "I have no idea. Ask him."
Carlos stared for a moment and snorted. "I suppose it doesn't matter." He took a deep breath. "Alright, I guess we're at least seriously considering it after all. So, let's break it down, pros and cons. Pros: personal satisfaction for you, Darmelkon loses any basis for claiming we still owe him a favor, and we get a ridiculous amount of money. Cons: Kindar becomes a noble. Also, we have to put up with him being here for a while. Anything else?"
"Another one for pros: Even with the favor and Darmelkon paying so much, Kindar himself will personally owe us, bigtime." Amber grinned. "His house will just about be permanent vassals in service to us."
Carlos hesitated, then frowned. "… Just how much, and how long, do you intend to keep paying him back for how he treated you?"
Amber raised an eyebrow and shrugged. "…Until I get tired of it? I don't know."
"I'm all for giving him a well-deserved comeuppance, turning the tables, and giving him a taste of his own medicine to teach him a lesson. But I will not countenance continuing to humiliate and abuse him long term!" Carlos shook his head emphatically. "If we do that, we would be bullies just as bad as he was. I hate bullies, and I refuse to be one."
Amber slowly lowered her eyes, blushed, and nodded shyly. "I… You're right. That is not the kind of person I want to be. I'm sorry for suggesting it."
Carlos leaned forward and reached out to gently put his right hand on top of her hands. "It's okay. What's important is that you recognize your mistakes, learn from them, and make yourself a better person. My parents taught me that very, very thoroughly."
"Yeah." Amber sighed and shook herself. "Thanks. I'll try to remember that. And… Should we just call off the whole idea?"
"Only if you truly want to." Carlos squeezed her hands gently. "If you can get some satisfaction without taking it too far, then that's completely okay, and you were right that there are serious benefits to it. Even having him as a vassal house, as long as we treat him reasonably. Though… Hmm." He frowned. "There has to be a reason why strong noble houses aren't raising up new vassal nobles all the time, right? It's not all that hard to make a noble soul plan if you know the requirements details."
"I suppose. Lorvan probably knows the reason."
Carlos nodded. "Yeah. I feel like he might just ask if we can figure it out ourselves, like he did about nobles keeping mana wellsprings, though…" He shrugged. "I'm sure Darmelkon knows too, and he wouldn't have asked if the Crown forbids it, or anything like that. He's ambitious and ruthless, not stupid. We should ask, certainly, but I expect any consequences we might have overlooked will be manageable. As I see it, the core question is just…" Carlos reached his other hand forward, firmly clasped and lifted both of Amber's hands, and looked her in the eyes. "Amber, what do you want to do with this?"
Amber stared back for a moment, then averted her gaze. "Don't you have an opinion about this too? Why are you only asking me?"
"Of course I have an opinion, but all he did to me was loan me a sword in a dungeon and then act rude and arrogant when he demanded it back afterward. You are the one who grew up being bullied by him. How to treat him matters far more to you than it possibly could to me." Carlos squeezed Amber's hands reassuringly. "Amber, please, look at me." He waited, and after a few seconds Amber hesitantly turned her head to face him directly again. "My opinion on this is that I want our response to be something that you will be content and happy with. All other relevant considerations that I can think of are less important than that."
Amber stared and slowly nodded. "I… Thank you." She squeezed Carlos's hands back and awkwardly extracted her hands from his grip so she could lean forward and rest her head on them, propped up by her elbows on the table. "I think… I do want to accept, but maybe with some conditions. I still want to show him up in person and see his reaction. Part of me still feels afraid of him, and I want to prove to myself that he doesn't have the power to threaten me anymore. That seems like something your 'therapists' would say something about. Would they say it's a good idea? Do you know?"
Carlos nodded. "Yes, absolutely. Standing up to something you used to fear is a great way to resolve residual fear of it that lingers in your mind."
"Then, yeah. I want to do that, and I do still want to get some payback." Amber hesitated. "But if I start bullying people like he did, I'd start hating myself as soon as I realize it. So, no bullying. And that goes for Kindar too. If he can't learn to stop being a bully, then he doesn't deserve what he wants. Let's give him a chance. Make our conditions clear, and demand partial payment up front, but give him an opportunity to earn our help."
"That sounds fair." Carlos cocked his head and frowned in thought. "Having him with us may require adjusting some of our plans. … Actually, we're overdue for making certain plans in the first place. I got a bit too carried away with my excitement over all the spell keywords we can learn now. Sorry."
Amber grinned. "Have you forgotten that I told you I'm well known for always having a plan? What do you think I've been doing the past two days?"
Carlos raised an eyebrow, then grinned back at her. "Oh really? Let's see what you've got!"
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"You'll find this game worth playing," the general said, enthusiastically. "Your brain against mine. Your woodcraft against mine. Your strength and stamina against mine. Outdoor chess!

When Sanger Rainsford falls off his yacht on his way to the Amazon forest for a hunting expedition, he washes up on a strange Caribbean island only to find that more danger lies ahead. When Russian aristocrat and the owner of a palatial chateau. He soon learns that Zaroff is a hunter like him however he is no longer interested in hunting animals and believes men are the true test of a hunter. Rainsford goes from being the hunter to the hunted as he struggles to survive in a game of cat and mouse.
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• Was hurled against a tree by the biggest Cape Buffalo famous hunter Sanger Rainsford has ever seen
  
  • This incident left him bead ridden for six months
• Crushed a walnut under his heel
  
• After falling into a deadfall trap consisting of a dead tree balanced against a living one made by Rainsford he was able to jump back with the agility of an ape so the tree only hit his shoulder and although he was injured he didn’t fall or drop his gun
  

Skill/Intelligence

Hunting

• Read Rainsford’s book on hunting snow leopards in Tibet
  
• Read other books on hunting as well
  
• On his walls were the mounted heads lions, tigers, elephants, moose and bears; larger and better maintained than Rainsford had never seen
  
• Killed the biggest Cape Buffalo Sanger Rainsford has ever seen
  
• Has hunted and killed so many tigers he no longer sees the danger in them
  
• His father gave him a gun when he was five, he killed his fathers turkeys using excellent marksmanship, and he killed his first bear when he was ten
  
• Has been around the world killing several animals such as grizzly bears in the Rocky Mountains, crocodiles in the Ganges, and by the time he went to the Amazon to hunt jaguars a species that had a reputation of being unusually cunning he killed them so easily it bored him
  
• When he releases the men he hunts they are given a hunting knife and a three hour head start Zaroff than hunts them using the smallest caliber pistol if they elude him for three days they win however by the time Sanger Rainsford made it to his island this has yet to happen
  
• After Rainsford created a long and complicated trail for Zaroff to follow The General followed it and found him despite it being at night only leaving his prey to have another days sport
  
• He is so observant that no crushed blade of grass, bent twig, and no mark in the moss no matter how faint escaped his notice
  

Other

• Knows English, French, and Russian
  
• Gives Rainsford advice on how to better allude him
  

GeaEquipment

• A 22 revolver
  
• Has several large hunting dogs he uses as home defense or if he is close to losing his game
  

Other

• Has a large and aggressive manservant his name is Ivan he is rather slow witted, deaf and much like the General is a Cossack
  
• Rigged the island with lights to lure passing ships into the jagged rocks that surround it
  

I’m currently employed in California.
My employer caused me debilitating anxiety, depression and panic attacks. I have this well documented with my physician for months.
This work environment has also had numerous internal investigations regarding a toxic work environment/abusive supervisors and has had 30+ people quit or get fired within 2/3 years of the start of the organization. This organization has been under scrutiny in the public eye, but as we all know … the money is protected. (Wanted to add this context)
It took 3 weeks from requesting a reasonable work accommodation with HR (remote work for 6 weeks to adjust to my medication was request) for them to give me no other option but unpaid leave. They even tried forcing me back into the office even though I stated I couldn’t operate a vehicle at the time…
While my position has some on site duties - the majority of my responsibilities can be done remotely. I am currently the only qualified person in my role so we have used external contractors in times when I’ve been absent or drowning in projects.
As I’ve continued requesting accommodations as time has gone on so I could attempt returning the work …. They continued to only offer me unpaid leave. I’ve applied for SDI - but that has taken a long time. I am now on month three without being paid.
Recently our HR team was under investigation which led to our original VP’s resignation. After the resignation I corresponded with our coordinator who was the only HR team member left. After a couple weeks, a new VP was hired and she called me asking for my equipment back so they “can utilize it while I’m on leave” She never asked about my disability or how I’m doing. And there is no current staff member that could utilize the equipment I have. I know they have the right to their equipment but I’ve been on unpaid leave for 3 months and now they need my equipment? Sounds sketchy to me.
Also the head of my department has shared social media and LinkedIn posts with team milestones, excluding me and me only. I know I’m being targeted while I’m out because I was when I was in office.
Would love any thoughts to this. There’s so much more involved but did my best to include important pieces. Thank you!

TW for people with eating disorders. And TW in general too, ig.
I (31F) have been suffering from pcos on and off since I was 15 or 16. I live in a small town and didn't get a proper diagnosis for the most part of my life. I suffered from a range of side effects from all the treatments I received(or the lack of). I've been overweight almost all my life and bled out for too long until one day in my early twenties I decided enough was enough and started working out out of sheer stubbornness. My weight dropped to a healthy range and I was eating well, was completely off sugars and processed food for almost 8 years and didn't have any cravings or withdrawals. Everything was fine until 2021. I had a fall and fractured my tailbone, had to quit my job, went through a breakup, was in a crash, endured a couple of more back injuries and was caught up in a toxic situation with my family as well. All of this took a toll on my mental health and I spiralled. Food has always been something I abused when things weren't alright and I went back to binging on unhealthy stuff and my pcos resurfaced in a much more intense way. My weight shot up from 68kg to 90kg in a very short span of time. I bled heavily almost everyday from July 2021 to June 2022 just because I was kind of bedridden because of my injury and had no support from anyone to get the required medical attention. I had to be a full time caregiver for my grandpa since May, 2022 and did not have a chance to prioritise myself in any way. He passed away recently and that loss hit harder than anything ever.
One of the gynecs I went to before my weightloss was extremely insensitive and was like you're depressed and you're prediabetic. There's no saving you. After a lot of trial and error, I found a course of homeopathic treatment to be helpful for a while but that stopped being effective too. Luckily, the weightloss and the habits I built helped maintain my health for a long time.
The gynec I'm currently seeing has a good understanding of my case and gives good advice too but the past couple of sessions with her have been a little frustrating. She hasn't addressed some of my concerns like chronic fatigue and extreme hairloss saying the weather has been harsh and a lot of people are complaining about the same things. She said we should wait before considering any tests or supplements. She put me on biotin a few months ago but that did not help at all. I started rosemary+rice water for hair because someone told me to give it a try. I tried redensyl + anagain. None of them helped. My gynec keeps telling me to reduce my stress levels and lose weight and I've been trying everything in my power to. I started going on walks, started some low intensity workouts and I've been mindful of what I eat as well. I've been trying to turn things around but nothing seems to be working. I'm currently on birth control pills. I missed a preiod for the first time in a decade and when I got one this month, it was really painful. I quickly regain the weight I lose. My muscles feel sore all the time. My anemia hasn't improved. Everyone just thinks I'm being lazy and I'm just finding excuses to not workout like I used to or go about my day like I used to. I wake up extremely late now, struggle to fall asleep, feel anxious all the time, feel extremely weak but also nauseated and bloated if I eat something, ibs pain is torturous, my skin looks lackluster, the hormonal acne are a nightmare if they show up, there's a constant discomfort in my lower abdomen, I get migraines frequently, I'm constantly scared of my bone health and becoming a diabetic, my hair is thinning beyond control and I'm just losing hope.
I finally saw a dermatologist for my hairloss and she advised me to start using minoxidil. She suggested 6 sessions of prp/ gfc treatment along with it and when I asked if the results are permanent, she said I'd have to rely on minoxidil for the rest of my life if I wish to have any hairs on my head. That felt like a huge blow to my confidence because I used to have thick and lustrous curly hair and what I have now is unrecognizable.
Is there anything else I can do to regrow my hair and reverse the effects of PCOS in general too, because this course of treatment might be a bit too heavy on my pocket right now?

Hello, I am very new to the world of having an autistic child. (She is 2y and is being evaluated in two weeks. We already know she will be diagnosed.) I was just wondering why so many stims have picked up within a short amount of time. She has the classic spinning in circles, pacing, head shaking, never being able to stay still, and bouncing/jumping in place (had been doing these every since she could walk) and has regressed with speech (she used to be able to say a ‘Mum’ or a ‘dadadada’ when she was younger but now only babbles. She is in EI for speech currently.) However, within the past few weeks or so? Her stims have picked up at a rapid pace. She is now having hand stimming, rocking back and forth on feet side to side, face scrunching, not having good eye contact (she used to have amazing eye contact), she recently lined toys up which she never has done before, and the list goes on. I am just wondering if that’s a ‘normal’ progression into autism or maybe something else is going on? Her father has ADHD, also said he used to do a lot of the same stuff she does now. I wouldn’t be surprised if she had autism and ADHD, but does it get ‘worse’ before it gets better?

Dear mom
I truly wished you’d love me unconditionally, every night I bawl my eyes out thinking of the day you’ll disown me. I don’t want to be disowned but it’s so suffocating to live as a person I’m not.
I’m so sad that god is what separates us, I truly hate the concept of religion and I wish it didn’t exist I wish we were a religion less family. I can’t believe that after everything a cloth is what will cause you to hate me. You said god will take the sorrow and sadness of your heart since I’m just a dog and a non believer but who will take the sadness from mine?
I don’t think I’ll ever be able to disown any of my siblings, a mothers love should be stronger than whatever love I have for them but i don’t get I don’t get why you don’t love me and I wish I knew why.
Every night I cry just about the thought of you leaving me, I keep playing the scenarios in my head. I keep trying to convince myself to go back to religion to accept it to be normal but I really can’t. I don’t know if I will ever have the bravery to tell you that, I don’t want to tell you I just want to live life I just don’t want to wear religious symbols I just want to be normal.
I think of telling you to come to a compromise, to ask you to just let me wear whatever I want outside of our country and act the way you want inside our country but I don’t think you’ll agree, I don’t think you’ll let me out if I ever mention that.
I know it’s because of peoples words and not religion only, I wish I was more important to you than any of these things..I wish you’d prove me wrong, that all this is me overthinking and I wish you’d comfort me and tell me you’ll never disown me.
I love you mom

I've been a loyal Logitech custome for nearly 20 years, going back to my MX518 in 2005. A mouse I used for over a decade until I upgraded to the G502 Lightspeed. I even upgraded that to the G502 Lightspeed Wireless because I loved it so much. But I've had constant problems with that wieless G502 and my currrent G613 wirreless keyboarrd and my prrevious logitech keyboarrds before that. Then on top of all that, build quality issues on my Prro X headset.
My 502 Lightspeed Wireless has issues with the right click acting as if I've stopped prressing it when I haven't. Significantly affects my ability to raid in WoW because holding right click is how you spin you camera instead of your character. You've likely alrready noticed the issue I'm having with my G613 keyboard. My "RR" key will either not rregister at all when I press it or else it will register twice. I've left in most of the typos related to that issue in this post for all to see. My "1" key also requirres seveal presses to get it to rregisterr as well. Which is the exact same reason I replaced my previous Logitech keyboard with my currrent one. (Can't rrember the exact model numberr off the top of my head) I just blamed the issues with that last keyboarrd on age but now that my second keyboarrd with the same Romer G switches is having the exact same problem of keys either not rregisteing o rregisterring multuiple times, it's obvious a defect with the harrdwarre.
I don't want to turn this into a book to explain all the other prroblems I'm having with Logitech products, like mym Pro X headset. I'd literrally be writing all day if I listed everything. the TLD is the quality of Logitech products is not worrth thei cost. I'll be using a differrent brand moving forwarrd. Nearly 2 decades of loyalty gone.

This is not any kind of complete love story with any complete ending it's just collection of few incidents. I am just writing it on the run. I am using dummy name for her let's call her Shree.
So story starts in 7th standard I guess. Once day an aunty approached me while I was going for tution class that she wants to talk to my tuition teacher regarding admission of her daughter because their family recently got shifted to our near by society and while I go for tuition probably she might have seen me.
So from here story starts, next day Aunty was with her daughter "Shree" she introduced me with her and we went to tution as usual she was walking a little far behind us ( me and bro ) and following us to the tution because she didn't know the path but Idk what I had no feeling for her with first sight. Like for a month or two she was attending tution with us we almost never talked to each other because I am very shy person and same with her.
After that vacation started and I went to Mama ke ghar and idk what happened I stated to see her in my dreams like playing badminton in our society compound and talking with her so much and she was always cheering and happy in my dream I slightly thought about it that I might like her and eventually started falling for her.
Incident - 1 I started developing very little little feeling for her and one fine day I she came to me with some project work/ model she wanted to create a solar system with toys 😂 idk what was she expecting and she described the project so so un realistic with those material. I brutally told her that it's not possible like this ( I had no communication skills but I really liked her ).
Incident - 2 We used to play games in compound we have a common society compound ( very complex to understand ) and it was her bday she gifted me and all other kinds "Kaccha Mango" it was very special for me I exactly remember she gave me 3 and I kept in hidden pocket of my school bag and never ever ate it after like 1.5 years Chitiya ( Ant ) aa gai bag mai and I had to throw them I was very upset because like after 1 year of this "gift"(kaccha mango) her family shifted somewhere else it was her first and last gift to me.
Incident - 3 Once we were playing Hide and Seek ( Dabba is Spice idk what it's translation in english ) "Shree" , I and one small kid hide at same place. I saw her so very closely ( not in creepy manner ) her brown eyes was like coconut 😂. I was feeling that time should stop and I can see her indefinitely. If I try to describe more about her I have to make another post so leave it and back to the story. We exchange few words about our study nothing more and I tried to peek and see the status of the compound for the guy who was after us to find us and she told don't take a peek to me and as an obedient friend I instantly pulled back my head and it hit so hard in the corner of the wall that it instantly started to bleed. She started to get panic but I was very calm and said nothing happened to me ( I knew I was bleeding but still I wanted to spend more time with her 🫠). After that neighborhood of that building came and my parents and took me to hospital and I got stitches. While on my way and getting stitches all I was thinking was about her that she must be very scared because of this incident. After this incident Shree never came to compound to play with us.
Incident - 4 We totally lost each other's contact after she shifted another where then I saw in same complex where I was going to tution ( new tution not the older where we were together we changed in 9th standard and she before 9th ) and saw her in the stairs of the tution and I asked her "Do You remember me ?" Shree "No I don't" *Traumatic Background music player inside my heart - "Chann se jo toote sapna ...." * After like 5 seconds she laughed ( her smile was so so so much cute 🫠😭 ) and said " Obviously I remember you " and we exchanged our last smile with each other.
I was scared of proposing her because I had literally 0.1 female interaction with anyone in my entire life and she was "Jain" so I thought she might tell her parents 😭 and never dared to purpose her. I still Miss her a lot and currently don't have any idea or contacts where can I find her but if "Shree" is reading this just i wanted to talk to you ( not going to propose you 😭😂💀 ) just " How are you? "😭
That's it guys that you for reading this I know it's not any well structured story but just my feelings. Thank you all for reading this much lots of love.

I wanted to share how I treated my C. Glabrata as Reddit was extremely helpful throughout my whole experience.
From the time I started having symptoms to almost complete resolution it has been 6 weeks. I started off with the typical fluconazole, I did 4 days of that and it didn’t work. Did Monistat 1 day since that has worked for me in the past and it made it more irritated. I was having a lot of pelvic pressure, burning, numbness, tingling, and couldn’t sit in certain positions because my pelvis was so inflamed.
I was prescribed brexafemme after my culture coming out positive for c. Glabrata but unfortunately brexafemme is under recall and according to a very kind pharmacist, he said it will not be in stock until July 7.
I was then given nystatin cream which was of course not nearly enough. I had already started taking the fem dophillus suppositories at this point and was on day 3. I was hopeful but unfortunately did not notice any changes in my symptoms. The gynecologist had suggested I continue on nystatin cream until brexafemme became available (absolutely not!!!).
I ended up seeing a different gynecologist who prescribed Terconazole vaginal cream 0.8 with applicator for 3 days. By the first day I had significant relief. I continued the probiotic intravaginally as well. By the end of the 3rd day of terconazole I no longer had pelvic pressure and pelvic discomfort but still had some mild itching at the vulva which I put nystatin on before bed and it helped significantly.
I transitioned to taking the fem dophillus orally. I also was taking zinc, vitamin D, oregano oil, and garlic extract.
I saw my doctor a 5 days after finishing terconazole. While still using nystatin. I no longer have symptoms. She prescribed me mycolog which is nystatin+triamcinolone mixed with A&D. As she said certain parts around the vulva are slightly irritated from all the medication I’ve been using but the vaginal canal did not have any irritation or signs of infection. I finally no longer have symptoms. I’m not sure I’m ready to wear spandex-like leggings yet but I was able to have sex which is a huge win. My culture comes sometime today or tomorrow and hopefully I will test negative. So fingers crossed.
Take aways: PLEASE switch doctors if your doctor is not listening to you. When I told the (first) gyno I saw that brexafemme was on back order, they suggested I wait until it’s back in stock and keep up with the nystatin. That is unacceptable.
Try not to go for the strongest medication first like amphotericin B or flucytosine, because if that doesn’t work, you’re prone to building further resistance and having even more limited options.
I did research on the “Candida diet” and although it all sounds promising, once glabrata has gotten out of hand, I’m not sure changing your diet is enough. I ended up not following through with it and was pretty determined on living my life by eating what I want.
I used 100% coconut oil for the areas that were very irritated, it gave relief but be careful with inserting it into the vaginal canal as it can cause burning because it heats up so quickly.
I am still taking oregano oil (under the tongue, it’s not pleasant), fem dophillus 15B, zinc, vitamin D, garlic extract, daily.
Last thing- although I did not try this myself, I saw recommendation for Tenitian Violet (source: Treating recurrent vulvovaginal candidiasis, OBG Management volume 34. No. 11). I purchased it just incase but thankfully did not have to use it. Seems like it would be a reasonable topical options for the vulva.
I hope this brings insight to anyone going through C. Glabrata now. It was awful and feels hopeless but you will get through it. ❤️

Baby Begin is PT. I used them with my child who had torticollis which was causing her to favor a side when laying down which was starting to give her a flat spot on her head. my pediatrician recommended them and we worked with them over the course of 2-3 months (once a week and then every other week). they come to your house. it's not cheap at all even with insurance covering part of it and we have really great insurance.
they taught us lots of stretches and it was very hands on. if you don't do the stretches they teach you, your child won't improve. we were doing them every hour or so. doing something once a week can't drastically change a child, it's the parent's job to learn the stretches and implement them. baby begin's specialty is helping to solve torticollis to avoid the need for a helmet, which worked for us.
out of curiosity i sent our BB PT the crawligator that tiff been shilling, asking her thoughts and our PT sent back "NO!!!" so it will be interesting to see that play out.... lol
no doubt tiffany is embarrassed to say that lily needs EI or she downplayed the severe delays to her pediatrician. she chose baby begin because PT sounds less scary than EI and seems like she just needs to work on strength versus the developmental delays that seem to be prominent bc tiff shoves her in a container all day everyday besides her allotted 30 mins
at least she's finally doing SOMETHING????? just wish she would put her child's needs above her own selfish vain needs for manufactured perfection.

Hi, so this is my first post so I’m unsure on how to word it but I’ll give a little backstory. I (18f) live with my mum (44), my sister (17), and my brother (12). My dad’s a narcissist so we never had the perfect upbringing and a lot of problems happened.
So uh a couple of weeks ago I got into an argument with my mum. I was upset at something that happened with my boyfriend, so I wasn’t exactly in the right mental state right then and there. My brother and sister were arguing over the WiFi as it was being funny so I (being upset and getting annoyed) told them to shut up and that my sister should just turn it off if something was happening.
20 minutes later my mum shouts me down, (I’m guessing my sister told my mum about what had happened). My mum was going on about how I can’t “talk with an attitude” with everyone- again I was annoyed with the arguing and I tried to resolve it (I probably should have done it with a better attitude I’ll admit) and it ended in a screaming match as I walked away since my mum was getting pretty aggressive. I won’t exactly say what happened but it ended up with some shoving and some hurtful things being said.
Anyways, I hadn’t talked to her for about 2 weeks as I was trying to let the situation calm down. And today, as we was all eating my brother was talking to me about his friend. And I had listened to him all throughout and at the end I had said “honestly, I don’t really care about your friend”. I was being honest as everyone tells me to be. My mum turned to look at me and started shouting at me. She had ragged my headphones off my head and got into my face. She had said that I should talk to him better and some other things. She then tried to take my phone away (btw it’s the phone I paid for with my own money). Once she had backed away I decided to walk upstairs to calm myself as I was crying.
As I was packing my bag (I asked my nan if I could stay with her for tonight as I didn’t feel comfortable in my own home), my mum came into the bedroom trying to shove me onto the bed so we could “talk”. I didn’t want to as I was crying, and kept packing my bag.
I guess that was my first mistake as she went on a 30 minute rant about how hard it is for her and how I’m a “spoilt little bitch” and that I should never have kids.
I am now at my nans trying to calm down.
I understand that I’m not the best daughter and that I should not have done what I did. But idk I just feel like everyone is making me seem like the villain and not hearing about how it makes me feel. Don’t get me wrong she’s not a bad mum and I love her, but I just can’t deal with this anymore.
If you need any more details I’ll be happy to answer.

Had no idea how to label this title so I did my best but I'm wanting opinions or past experience stories. Please thank you
I 25f got an older friend (54m) he does Typical "dad" stuff fix the car, pull me out when i get stuck mentally or like physically in the car, gives advice, hang out, drink, dance, take me fishing, helps me get over fears, helped me recover from my car accident, etc. He's married, seems happily, but who knows what goes on behind closed doors. Anyways.he gives me the eyes all the time, yall know the eyes. Not the side eye, the flirty eyes. He makes funny flirty jokes, just overall making me feel good and laugh and smile. And he whistles at me.. ALL THE TIME. I love it though😂 I just feel like he has the idea that is wrong in the back of his head, maybe all men do but it comes to character to act on it or not. Maybe im just wrong and horny😂 Whatcha think? Is this man testing the waters? Is this a man that sees me as adopted daughter and just genuinely cares?
I don't know but I do know that I've been taken advantage of by someone I saw as a male figure (65m) in my life. Yeah I was way wrong😂 Basically If I gotta add distance then imma add the distance bc I love the married ones wife as a momma Sticky situation in my hands.
Also I'm definitely not a california dime, id say maybe im a 7 with a personality of a 12 😂 but I am viewed as "damsel in distress" which tends to bring out ALL the superhero complexes in people😂
Men Help Truth please My feelings won't be hurt😂

So we pick up where we left off the raw after clash at the castle has tegan in a sit down interview with Michael Cole. This basically explains all of tegan nox's past to the main roster. Michael asks about the history between dekota and nox. Nox says that sometimes she still sees her old friend in dekota but understands that they are different people now. This segment ends with tegan nox will return next week on raw.
The next week she has a money in the bank qualifier against kadi sane. She wins with the shinnest wizard and her and dekota kai have stare down and both look up at the money in the bank.
So we get a pretty normal money in the bank build but keep them out of each others way. So we are at money in the bank and its iyo sky vs dekota kai vs tegan nox vs shana blazer (sorry if wrong spelling) vs zoey stark vs nia jax vs zelina zega vs Tiffany Stratton. During the match zoey stark and shana team up and take every one out with a ladder and are about to hit dekota kai she gets pushed out the way by tegan who takes her spot and gets taken out this is a shock. Note the last time we saw tegan in the match before this is getting hit in the head. Anyway Tiffany Stratton wins after some big event that wipes everyone out.
The next night on raw tegan nox is in a match against iyo sky to see who will advance to a number one contenders triple threat next week. During the match dekota has the chance to hit tegan with a chair but she doesn't and this leaves the door open for tegan nox to hit the shinnest wizard for the win.
During the triple threat match on the next raw just as tegan nox manages to hit the shinnest wizard on becky lynch 1 2 dragged out by iyo and kari sane this leaves the door open for rhea Ripley to win and staredown with liv Morgan.on raw talk after tegan nox is wondering why damage control would do that after nox saved dekota at money in the bank. Dekota comes in and apologies for damage control and claims to have no idea about what damage control did. Tegan nox says just like with bayley right save it I am going after damage control so if you truly feel bad stay out of my way.
The next week is a rematch with iyo sky but dekota isn't at ring side but insted is watchingon a tv screen backstage. Iyo wins with sane's help they then wrap a chair around tegan nox's knee. Cut to the camera backstage on dekota kai and she is gone then rushes to the ring to plead with iyo to stop there is no need to do it. This leads to sane attacking her they then both get laid out by damage control.
Now it is the raw before Summerslam and tegan throws out the challenge she wants to team with kai against sane and sky at Summerslam. Dekota kai comes out and says she will team with nox and asks iyo to come out and accept the challenge. Iyo comes out and claims that dekota was always the loser of the group and they just kept her around to abuse the numbers game but after money in the bank it was she was going to go crawling back to nox after the save so they accept the challenge and says maybe you will both get a YouTube series once they put them back on the shelf.
At Summerslam it is a good match ends with a demolition kick followed by the shinnest wizard to pin iyo. On a Summerslam digtal exclusive tegan and dekota agree to try a win the women's tag team belts something they were unable to do last time they teamed up.