TL;DR: After 3 miscarriages and a diagnosis of DOR, I had two healthy pregnancies without IVF or other ART.
We started TTC when I was 35.5, my partner 37. We got pregnant quickly, and quickly had 3 miscarriages, all around 8 or 9 weeks. We never had them tested, but my OB suspected genetic abnormalities.
My partner's test results were normal for a man his age. After the 2nd miscarriage, I had bloodwork and an SHG, a procedure where my OB filled my uterus with saline and looked at it on an ultrasound to see whether I had any visible issues that could explain what was wrong. This procedure was timed to a specific day in my menstrual cycle, so that while we were at it, she could look at my ovaries on the ultrasound as well, to make a prediction about how many eggs she could expect to retrieve if we decided to try IVF.
The SHG turned out normal. My uterus was perfectly fine. My ovaries, however, looked like those of a woman nearing menopause. My antral follicle count (AFC) was only 4. If we did IVF now, the doctor said, that’s how many eggs she expected to harvest -- just 4. Not nearly enough for a promising cycle. The results from the blood test also corresponded to the levels of a menopausal woman. Here are the numbers, for those of you who already know what these mean:
Day 3 AMH: 0.311
Estradiol: 23.8
FSH: 13.8
I might have looked 30 on the outside, but I’d just turned 36, and on the inside I was closer to 50. Our doctor did not recommend that we move forward with IVF. We asked her what we could do instead. She suggested I try supplementing with DHEA, and gave us the recommended dosage (25 mg 3 times/day, for a total of 75 mg daily). She also recommended CoQ10, though she didn’t have a suggested dosage for that, and noted that my vitamin D levels were low. I started supplementing with each of those three things.
I noticed the effects of the DHEA very quickly. It’s an androgen, and can cause women to start sprouting extra body hair. My libido sprang up to teenager levels, and I got acne again.
I decided to take only 200 mg/day of the CoQ10 because it was expensive. That and the vitamin D seemed to give me more energy, maybe, but I couldn’t say for sure.
It took us longer to get pregnant the 3rd time. The miscarriage was the same.
Our OB explained again why she didn't recommend IVF for women with DOR, and told us about a patient of hers who’d had 9 miscarriages before having a successful pregnancy. We were lucky we were able to get pregnant so easily, she said. We were lucky that we didn’t have any other issues compounding the DOR.
If we wanted to explore other options, she told us, our best chance was to use an egg donor. Other than that, all we could do was keep trying. During my fertile window, and given our age, she recommended intercourse every 48 hours.
I doubled down on my research. I read everything I could find online, and read a lot of posts on message boards like the one I’m writing now. Here’s what I decided to do:

1. Lots of exercise, or at least “lots” by my desk-worker standards (brisk walks every day, gentle training with 10-to-20-pound weights a few times a week, and frequent bike rides)
2. Lots of time being happy and relaxed and out in the sun
3. Supplements:
   1. DHEA, 75 mg/day divided in 3 doses
   2. CoQ10, 800 mg/day (ubiquinone, the cheaper kind)
   3. Vitamin D3, 2,000 IU/day
   4. Acetyl L-carnitine, or Alcar, 250 mg/day (the typical dose is 500 mg, but I found this amount gave me nightmares; at 250 mg I felt more energetic, like I could do twice as much exercising as I normally did)
   5. Alpha lipoic acid, 300 mg/day (this makes your urine stink, but it’s inexpensive and safe, and in addition to helping with fertility, I also found studies about its benefit to diabetics and its effect on the pancreas)
   6. Black cohosh on cycle days 1 through 12 (it’s an herb, so I have no idea how much I was actually getting)
   7. Vitex (ditto)
   8. Prenatal vitamins
   9. Fish oil (why not)
   10. More soy foods and freshly ground flax seeds in my diet, for extra estrogen

A note about CoQ10: There are two kinds on the market, a cheaper one (ubiquinone) and an expensive one (ubiquinol), which is supposed to be better absorbed. Both are similar in structure to vitamin E, but are not classified as vitamins because your body can make them on its own. I went with a low-ish dosage of the expensive one the first time around, but after the third miscarriage, I switched to a higher dose of the cheaper one, 800 mg. I definitely noticed an increase in energy while I was taking it.
Here is a study on CoQ10 in follicular fluid and its association with better outcomes: https://link.springer.com/article/10.1007/s00404-011-2169-2
Here’s another (“Conclusion: Our observation leads to the hypothesis that the oral supplementation of CoQ10 may improve follicular fluid oxidative metabolism and oocyte quality, specially in over 35-year-old women”): https://www.mdpi.com/2076-3921/7/10/141
The positive news about CoQ10 keeps coming. I’ll stop with these: https://rbej.biomedcentral.com/articles/10.1186/s12958-018-0343-0, https://onlinelibrary.wiley.com/doi/full/10.1111/acel.12368
From what I learned while researching this stuff, both CoQ10 and acetyl l-carnitine are antioxidants that are thought to be active in the mitochondria. The mitochondria is sometimes called the “battery” of the cell, supplying its energy as it does its job. After an egg leaves the nourishing environment of the ovary for its journey down the fallopian tube, its only source of energy is its own mitochondria. That’s what keeps it fresh and alive. So an antioxidant that might help the mitochondria have more energy might be crucial for keeping egg cells, and the DNA inside them, better organized for longer -- long enough to conceive. This theory would apply to sperm cells as well, and is thought to be why taking these supplements gives people more energy. Young people have a lot of CoQ10 in their bodies, but after age 25 or so, our natural production goes down.
Here’s a study about egg quality and acetyl l-carnitine (ALCAR): https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/abs/pii/S0378432012002436
There isn’t as much research, especially in humans, on ACLAR as there is on CoQ10, but what’s been done so far looks promising. Here’s a study in mice: https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/abs/pii/S0378432012002436
As for alpha lipoic acid (ALA), my understanding is that this is thought to be beneficial for diabetics because of its effects on the pancreas. The pancreas and the ovaries are similar in the way they age (again, according to things I read while I was researching like crazy). While I’m not overweight, I’ve always had high blood sugar, and have type 2 diabetes on both sides of my family. So I added this to my regimen too.
Research: ALA supplementation is thought to be safe during pregnancy: https://www.tandfonline.com/doi/abs/10.1080/09513590.2018.1462320
A small study has shown ALA to be helpful in patients with PCOS undergoing IVF: https://www.researchgate.net/profile/Luisa_Caponecchia/publication/303088959_Effect_of_myo-inositol_and_alpha-lipoic_acid_on_oocyte_quality_in_polycystic_ovary_syndrome_non-obese_women_undergoing_in_vitro_fertilization_a_pilot_study/links/584fb41c08ae4bc8993b3211/Effect-of-myo-inositol-and-alpha-lipoic-acid-on-oocyte-quality-in-polycystic-ovary-syndrome-non-obese-women-undergoing-in-vitro-fertilization-a-pilot-study.pdf
Anyway, if you're still reading, pregnancy number 4 was a success. I quit every supplement except for prenatal vitamins. My doctor at the IVF clinic put me on progesterone until I got through week 10, in case a progesterone deficiency was the cause of my previous miscarriages. She’d never tested for this, so the progesterone was just a precaution. I’d always been plenty nauseated with each of my pregnancies, and the supplemental progesterone only made it worse. All I could eat were dry crackers. After reading a few things about the potential effects of progesterone on an embryo, I don’t think I’d do it again, not unless my doctor had a test result suggesting that it was what I really needed.
My doctor also recommended I start taking baby aspirin, 81 mgs/day, to be continued throughout the pregnancy, in case I had an issue with blood clotting that was causing the miscarriages. She’d never tested me for it, and given my AFC and AMH and FSH levels, it seemed like we already knew what my problem was, but she said it couldn’t hurt, so I went on it and stayed on it until 36 weeks.
Two years later, while I was supplementing with just prenatal vitamins and CoQ10, and without really trying, we got pregnant again. Baby #1 is now five years old, and #2 is three.

For walpurgis nacht the fae have revealed to me some of the many names of Taborlin.
Tamas Lin, Tamlane, Tamlin, Tambling, Tomlin, Tam Lien, Tam-a-Line, Tam Lyn, and Tam Lane.
HERE is a telling of his tale that far surpasses anything i could muster but heres a tldr from me pointing out some parallels. Tamlin is the inspiration for a plethora of characters in KKC. If i was a betting man i would bet on it.

• Tamlin enters a forest but cant leave it by comand of the fairy queen. Sound like the story of felurian but here is the twist. On her comand he has to now guards the forest for seven years. Only maidens that charm him may pass unharmed. Its a gender swap. Taborlin is felurian
• A gal named janet gets pregnant by him after passing through the forest.cild with no (human) father. Taborlin is thelu father of menda.
• she latter returns to gather herbs that cause miscarriage. those herbs are refered in the following quopte as "rose" aka a flower. And when picking it she meets tamlin again and the plot a plan so he can escape the fae. - Taborlin is the cthae (the beeing that talks to you were the medicin flowers grow) and hes also the moon (hes traped in the fae but wants to leave)

"Why pu's thou the rose, Janet,Amang the groves sae green,And a' to kill the bonny babeThat we gats us between?"

• The fae hunt him. Hes hunted on halloween/high mournin. Taborlin is encanis. Also every this is why every seven years expect disaster its the fae hunting for a sacrifice.

She demands that Tam Lin tell her where he comes from, and he reveals his mortal past to her, telling her that fairyland is a pleasant place but at the end of every seven years the fairy folk must pay a tiend to hell, and he fears that he has been chosen.

• janet has to now catch him while fae turn him into severl beasts. this is the fight against the beast at drossen tor. Taborlin is the draccus.
• At the end he turns into burning coal wich makes her drop him, into a well. When coal burns out it becomes cinder. Taborlin is cinder.
• Out of the well emerges taborlin once more as a man. this is lanres rebirth. Taborlin is lanre if the name ( in case the name was not enaugh for you)
• She hides him under a green mantel. Taborlin is taborlin. ( you thought i leave that one out didnt you)
• The fariyqeen curses in anger that tamalin escaped.

"Out then spak the Queen o Fairies,And an angry woman was she,"Shame betide her ill-far'd face,And an ill death may she die,For she's taen awa the bonniest knightIn a' my companie.""But had I kend, Tam Lin," said she,"What now this night I see,I wad hae taken out thy twa grey een,And put in twa een o tree."

• "take out his eye and replace it with twig or tree" sounds like selitos doesnt it. Considering selitos and lanre kindof swap palces in versions of the story id say its save to say: Taborlin is selitos.
• Also turn part of a person into wood. Taborlin is the Cthae ( in case you werent sold on that already)
• In a different version she wishes she had replaced his heart with a stone. sound familiar?

HERE is a picture of the "real" doors of stone that "Lanre"/Tamlin returned from.
The veil is thin tonight for its walpurgisnacht. A good night to sing a song like tinker tanner or the song of tamberlin.

Preface: I'm a pretty good technical writer but I feel like my fantasy writing is disjointed and my sentences don't always connect into cohesive paragraphs. If you have specific examples where you notice it, please let me know where and how I can improve. I also welcome any other feedback you may have. Thanks! Note: I have edited it but there may still be typos, my apologies.

Trigger warning: Pregnancy/childbirth/miscarriages
Ceralean knew something was wrong the moment he walked into the healer’s cabin that night. Eladayel was still laying in the stiff wooden bed, her face wet with streams forming lines down her pallid skin.
“Ela” He hurried to her side. “Love, what is the word?” He asked, not wanting to know the answer.
Eladayel brushed her smooth blond hair from her porcelain face and tucked the long locks behind her pointed elvan ears. Her green and gold eyes shimmering with the tears of her grief. Ceralean knelt at her bedside, the flickering light from the candles near the open window casting dancing shadows around the room.
“The child...?” His voice trembled. It was as much a question as a statement as he moved his hand to clasp that of his mate’s, which rested on her rounded stomach. She nodded sorrowfully and his dark blue eyes welled with his own sorrow. Long ebony locks spilled over Eladayel as he leaned across her bed and gathered her in a lingering embrace. And together they wept.
After a long moment, Ceralean raised his head and met his mate’s eyes. “What did they say?” He asked, carefully stroking her golden hair with as much comfort as he could offer.
“They said our child will not survive the birth”, she said softly trying to compose herself. “The babe has not turned, and I am ill, perhaps the child as well. The trauma will be too much”. She looked away, an overwhelming sense of failure falling over her. “My own body will kill our child”, she choked, and her tears starting to fall again. “I have done this”, she wept. But Ceralean hushed her and gently turned her chin back towards him. A weary smile crossed his lips, his eyes heavy with sorrow but overflowing with love for his mate.
“No, my darling”, he said cupping her face. “We can do so much but we cannot control the whims of fate. This tragedy is not by your hand.” Her eyes once again welled with tears, her breath hitching with a sob. She pressed her hand to that of her mate and closed her eyes feeling the warmth soak into her sleek skin.
Then her eyes shot open and she pushed herself up on her arms staring Ceralean in the eyes. “Fate”. She said, her eyes flicking now between those of her mate and her memories.
“Eladayel…”
“The prophecy, Ceralean”, she gasped. “We must go to Ishabar Forest”.
The prophesy was old and well known to the elves. On the fourth day of the sixth month, three hundred and seventy-four years following the Blood Wars, a dragon egg would be brought to the forest that lies between the Tyree and Coushka mountains. This forest will be called Ishabar. A village will stand within the wood, and there the egg will remain tended by elvan hands. On the day a dragon is birthed from its shell, a child of destiny will be born. This child will grow to walk the waters in which we all flow.
“Ela… My love”. He grasped her shoulders trying to calm her. “It is superstition, and it does not foretell of cured ailments”.
“No Ceralean,” Her gaze returning to his eyes, “but the child lives”.
“The village was built and the egg was delivered as foretold. More than one hundred years past, still the egg has not hatched.” Desperation flashed through her hazel eyes, her sorrow held back by fear and urgency.
What she said was true, he knew. In fact, pregnant elves from across the lands and even some terrans would make the journey to birth their child in Ishabar Forest in hope they will bear the child of destiny. In their own village, many mocked the pilgrims, knowing the egg must be dead after so long, but that had not stopped two of the elvan mothers from making the journey themselves.
“This is madness”, he cried, his voice splitting with a sorrowful crack. “The journey is long, and you are not well, I would lose you both!”.
A breeze rushed in through the open window, the candles flickering out into thin ribbons of smoke. Then, they sat in darkness, their eyes adjusting to the twilight and the white light of the third moon. The cold glow caressed her face and lit every falling tear as though they were fleeting raindrops of pure light.
“My love…”, Her plea, a whisper. “I would live to see our child open her eyes”.
The serenity of her gaze touched him, all thoughts of his fears dissipating like smoke before her radiance. He could not deny her this hope, and he would not deny it for himself. Leaning down slowly, he breathed out a slow drawn-out breath as he kissed her rounded stomach.
“You are right, my love…” He whispered into the soft folded fabric of her sleeping gown, “she is the child of destiny”.
Then he stood, the moonlight catching the unshed tears in his eyes and a gentle smile finding his lips. “We must go quickly now if we are to arrive in time. I will collect horses and a wagon and return for you within the hour”. He kissed the top of her head and strode out the door, trying for all the world to convince himself that this was the right thing to do.
The journey would take them eight days. They set off under the twilight sky with two strong horses at the yoke and Eladayel in the wagon behind, nested in piled bedding. By the light of the moons and sun with seldom a rest between, Ceralean drove the horses on through narrow, wooded roads, open plains, and mountain passes. Unseen were the spring blossoms that scattered the fields like spilled gemstones, the bird songs of renewed jubilation falling on deaf ears. Steadfast determination was his heart’s salvation, and he could do nothing but count the hours to their destination as milestones flew by. All the while, the warm spring weather held. On the sixth day of travel, Eladayel developed a fever and could no longer rise from her bed. Ceralean had tended to her with cool water though there was little he could do to quell the relentless heat within her. By the end of the seventh day, contractions had started. It was too soon, they both knew, even by their healer’s despairing prediction, but all they could do was move forward. Pressed for time, they travelled through the dead of night.
It was just before dawn when he saw the forms, shadows just outside of the light from the wagon’s lanterns. They leapt in long bounds keeping pace with the horses, their bodies extending to unnatural lengths.
Ceralean urged the horses on. They understood the danger for at his command, they galloped with renewed vigour, crying out loudly into the growing dawn. Behind him in the wagon, Eladayel moaned, long and agonized. The sound tore at his heart like jagged claws, but he could offer no comfort. Trees rushed by and the creatures kept pace, a snarling wail rising from the darkness like a hunting cry.
Then everything happened at once.
A wagon wheel caught in a deep pit in the road, cracking into a torrent of splintered wood. The wagon barrelled forward, crashing lopsidedly into the packed earth, and both travellers were flung into the brush. At the same time, the creatures leapt for the horses. Gray fur and enormous fangs were all Ceralean saw as he fell back out of view and into the forest’s new growth. Eladayel crashed into him, and he grabbed her protectively as they tumbled together. Willowy samplings snapped and underbrush crunched beneath them. Sticks pierced Ceralean’s hand and side, his body wrapped around his mate as he strained to buffer her from the worst of the impact.
With little remaining wagon to hold them back, the horses bolted, and the gnashing teeth followed. A moment later, Eladayel’s cries rang out. There was blood smeared across their clothes and it seemed to be coming from everywhere. But Ceralean didn’t feel any pain. He ripped the twigs from his flesh and stood on an ankle that ground oddly with each step. Then gently, he leaned down and collected his beloved in his arms.
You will not fall to those monsters, he swore as he stepped into the woods. But he didn’t have far to travel. She cried out again in his arms, her eyes shut tight against the pain of contractions and broken bones. Then a figure appeared in the pink light of the woods, and a voice called out.
“Over here!”
“By the gods!” Called another, in the smooth and polished accent of his people.
Elves rushed them, bows in hand but not drawn. They were surrounded in moments, gentle hands ushing them along. A male gently coaxed Eladayel from Ceralean’s grasp and two females flanked him, wrapping his arms around their shoulders and bearing his weight.
“The child is coming”, he cautioned, his head lolling, and the elves around him nodded.
They fled to the village like a deer in flight, all the while, Eladayel cried out. After moments that stretched on for an eternity, they were led into the village and rushed to the healer’s home.
Eladayel was laid out on a bed, but Ceralean refused to leave her side and looking upon then, no elf had the will to do allow otherwise. Shouts rang out through the streets and a moment later, the healer rushed into the room like a gust of wind. Starting her work with a torrent of movements, she grabbed coloured bottles and herbs from shelves setting them on a tray near the bed. Aids swept in with clamps, knives, and other implements, and towels were doused with sweet smelling liquids.
“We will need more space”, she said turning to Ceralean, a sympathetic expression in her eyes.
“She…” He started but Eladayel’s cry cut through the room, the sound searing his heart like a lash of flame. He knew the real battle was about to begin.
Ceralean dropped his gaze, his voice heavy with concern. “The child… She has not turned”.
The healer nodded, turning. “Bring me the birthing forceps and the sulfur, the child has not turned!” she called to her assistants in the crowded room.
Another elf, male with gentle eyes, took his arm and lead him back.
“This is Ishabar, friend, no healer on Zelan has delivered more children. Your mate is in the best hands”.
But something was wrong. Someone yelled, another called from the back room, and another from Eladayel’s other side. There were so many voices now that Ceralean couldn’t track the conversation, the only thing he knew was that Eladayel had gone quiet.
“Ela…” He called. “Ela!” Stepping forward, he was intercepted by a female elf. She placed a hand in the centre of his chest, holding him back as the flurry of activity continued in front of him.
“You cannot help her”, the attendant’s voice was firm. “Her wounds are great and the child…”
She looked behind her at the aids who worked like leaves in a dust devil of organized fury. Ceralean gaze travelled past her and caught a glimpse of Eladayel through the moving bodies. Her eyes were open. Green and gold irises devoured by large, black pupils bore into his soul with haunting desperation.
He knew what he had to do. Turning on his heal, he burst into the street.
Turning in a circle, he gathered his bearings then ran for the centre of town. He ran by buildings of all shapes and colours, built from living wood and metallic stone. Villagers regarded him and someone called out in concern but he didn’t slow.
And there it was, the egg sat on a tall pedestal in the centre of town just as he had heard. An extravagant fountain was built around it, water flowing in high arches, but it didn’t stop him. Leaping through the water and tripping over stones, he stumbled forward until he reached the slender stone structure.
Now is your part to play. He instructed silently, gazing up at the egg, but the egg did not stir.
Now more sounds were rising around him. Calls of concern became cries of alarm and commanding shouts rose throughout the streets.
“You will listen!” He commanded the egg. “Our child will live!”
But the egg did nothing.
Hands reached for him but he pulled away, his gaze focused on the azure shell. Then more hands grabbed at him seizing an arm.
Frustration boiled within Ceralean’s chest, a roar escaping him in a primal dry of defiance. Leaping forward, he ripped himself free of the hands and pitched cries of desperation rose up behind him. With a furious howl, he slammed his shoulder into the pedestal. And then bodies were upon him, connecting with his straining back and pushing him down beneath the fountain’s water. He heard muffled shouts and distant cries through the fluid in his ears, but their attention was no longer on him. Beneath the mass of elves, he fought to pull himself up and managed to crest his head above the water. Just as the egg smashed against the ground.
The world was silent, everyone was still. Ceralean pulled himself out from under his ambushers, and none made a move to stop him. All eyes were on him. He limped over to the smashed egg, his right ankle no longer holding his weight. Before him was the broken egg. The rounded side facing him gleamed pearlescent in the light of the sunrise, blue lit up pink with faint yellow swirls that seemed to shift with each blink of his eyes.
Kneeling down, he lifted the large half shell and there it was. A small, sleek blue dragon no bigger than a house cat. He gathered it up under one arm, but its small form was unmoving. His heart sank and shouts began to echo in his ears. Someone grabbed him roughly under his free arm jerking him to his feet and he staggered almost dropping the hatchling. But he didn’t. The hatchling grasped his arm holding him tightly, its small eyes sealed closed with the gluey substance of the egg.
A collective gasp swept through the crowd, a symphony of shock and disbelief filling the air. The voices around Ceralean blended into chaotic cacophony, drowned out by the fierce thrumming of his own heartbeat and the vision of the small dragon clutching to his arm.
The assistants parted for him as he was led into the house, all activity now stilled, and the first thing he saw was Eladayel. She was mortally pale but in her arms was a tiny, wrapped bundle. Ceralean’s legs buckled beneath him, a wave of weakness sweeping through his limbs as he was eased into a dark wooden chair the bed’s edge.
“The child will live”, said the healer behind him. “But I’m afraid…” Ceralean didn’t need to hear the rest, it was evident on his mate’s face. A ghostly pallor spread over Eladayel’s features, the vitality of her flesh waning by the moment. Blankets and towels concealed her body through deliberate placement.
“Did you hear, Ceralean?” Eladayel whispered, an undercurrent of joy lifting her voice as she looked down into a small, pink face. “The child will live”. And the words were a song on her lips.
Ceralean followed her gaze and there she was. The most perfect child he had ever laid eyes upon, and her green and golden eyes were open wide seeing the world for the first time.
“You did it”, he said softly to the tiny child then looked back to his mate. “She is perfect”. Silent tears of joy cascaded down Eladayel’s cheeks, washing away the anguish in her heart even as her colour faded, her eyelids fluttering shut.
“Ela…” Ceralean called gently, stroking his mate’s hair from her face as his tears fell. “You must name our daughter”.
“I have”, Eladayel said, her eyes struggling to open through the depth of her exhaustion until she looked upon their child once more. “She is Reshelliana…” She smiled. “She who walks the waters”.
“Reshelliana”, He repeated warmly, stroking Eladayel’s face once more, “a beautiful name, my love”.
Then her eyes closed.
Ceralean held his breath, the weight of the moment settling over him like a heavy cloak. In the dim light of the room, Reshelliana lay cradled in her mother’s arms, a tiny beacon of hope amidst the shadows of uncertainty. Ceralean leaned in close, pressing a gentle kiss to his mate's forehead, silently promising to cherish their daughter and to carry their love forward into her future. And as the first light of dawn filtered through the window, he whispered her name once more, a vow and a prayer wrapped into one. Reshelliana, she who walks the waters.

I think that this sub very much agrees that it's impossible to ban abortion without severely compromising Healthcare for all women, not just "harlots who don't bother using protection".
The events of the last 2 years showed that without legal abortion, not only will you have hundreds of thousands of women a year hurting themselves with coathangers and bleach, you will have doctors being afraid to do their jobs. Abortion laws can't be clear enough to describe what constitutes life threatening pregnancy. There's always a risk of complication developing and if one develops, there's a chance woman's body will take care of it and miscarry without need of abortion (which I'm guessing is really rare). And if the complication does occur and gets over with, doctors then carry a burden to prove that the abortion was really necessary in case of a lawsuit. And doctors generally don't want to get involved in lawsuits because even if they win, they're very expensive and can seriously harm the hospital or clinic.
And not only that, abortion bans also hurt women who aren't even pregnant. If you're a woman of reproductive age, you always have a potential to get pregnant. And when facilitating abortion is illegal doctors will also be afraid to prescribe medications that can cause miscarriage, because when you happen to get pregnant with or without your knowledge and miscarry, it could count as abortion under law.
Now, imagine you have a well meaning government that bans abortions and then tries to fix subsequent problems by poking loopholes into the ban to prevent unnecessary deaths from happening. How do you think it would proceed?
About 20% of all pregnancies end in miscarriage which is potential serious complication. Just putting doctors in charge of miscarriage would effectively legalize abortions. If a woman faces unwanted pregnancy, all she'd need was to cause herself miscarriage by some medications or herbs and the doctor would do the rest.
Another possibility would be to legalize abortions in case of medical treatment that can be abortive. For example, antidepressants can cause miscarriage. Any woman could go to see psychiatrist to get prescription for antidepressants by feigning depression and that could make her eligible for therapeutic abortion.

My husband and I had a destination wedding in Punta Cana a few months ago, and mamajuana is considered their “baby making” alcohol that they make there (it has a bunch of herbs that’s supposed to help with it somehow). My husband’s cousin and his wife have been ttc for years and have had 3 miscarriages, and they just announced that they’re pregnant and they conceived during their trip to Punta Cana while drunk on mamajuana for our wedding (they wanted to wait until the 2nd trimester to announce due to all the previous losses). I am so so happy for them, I know they’ve been through a lot in their ttc journey and I’m hoping my husband and I can be lucky soon too. We’re thinking of having a few shots of mamajuana and BD for this cycle and see what happens, can’t hurt right?

I asked this in legaladviceofftopic but nobody answered and it even got downvoted and I have no idea why because i just really want to know:
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I'm just confused about what the whole [Texas] "abortion ban" actually means.
I recently read somewhere that the couple of women who have been in the spotlight the last couple years and were charged with crimes like murder or where people attempted to charge them with something all failed because the actual woman herself is not breaking any law by having an abortion, and that only the doctors are the one's breaking the law where Texan doctors were actually involved.
So does this mean that any woman who attempts and succeeds to induce a miscarriage or abortion at home with herbs, pills, or other methods is safe from having her life ruined by the system, and from being charged with murder?

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I'm just confused about what the whole "abortion ban" actually means.
I recently read somewhere that the couple of women who have been in the spotlight the last couple years and were charged with crimes like murder or where people attempted to charge them with something all failed because the actual woman herself is not breaking any law by having an abortion, and that only the doctors are the one's breaking the law where Texan doctors were actually involved.
So does this mean that any woman who attempts and succeeds to induce a miscarriage or abortion at home with herbs, pills, or other methods is safe from having her life ruined by the system, and from being charged with murder?

Does anyone have experience with taking Vitex and getting a BFP, but OB has also prescribed supplemental progesterone?
Had a chemical pregnancy the only month I took Vitex and had stopped cold turkey when I got BFP. I read afterwards that not weaning from an herb could cause a miscarriage.
This month I decided to try Vitex again and BFP (after 11 cycles TTC, only two months I’ve seen a positive has been Vitex months) but now I don’t know if I should wean while taking RX progesterone, wean and then start Progesterone, don’t start progesterone at all and take through my first trimester?
Very specific problem, but has anyone had to make the transition or take both?

Discord Username: Garin
Character Name: Glaiza Uller
Age: 54
Appearance: An weathered woman with dark skin and greying black curls, often contained in a sandsilk shawl wrapped around he head. Glaiza is of a stocky build with weary amber eyes, the look of a woman who has witnessed the loss of both her country's armies and her own children
Gift: Leadership
Skills: Tactician Logistician, Cautious, Beleaguer (e)
Talents: Playing stringed instruments, Falconry, Board games
Starting Title: Lady of Hellholt
Family Tree: https://www.familyecho.com/?p=J0CYD&c=1un63al7vl0gu40u&f=147653705149775288
Alternate Characters: Lyndon Baratheon
Timeline:
158: Glaiza was born as the heir of Lord Arstan Uller. Her house had a reputation for madness, as well as a military tradition which is fervent enough to resemble it. The Ullers are among those who believe the strongest soldiers come from the most hellish places, reflected in their words: Tempered, I shall emerge
160s: As Glaiza gew up, she gained an early reputation for the callousness of her speech. Unfailingly honest, she was a regarded as something of a cynic, though preferring the term 'realist'. She learned the arts of war alongside her brother Lysander, preferring command, while he favored the spear.
173: As an heiress in training, Glaiza was formally introduced to her intended groom Gulian Vaith, two years her elder and her stark opposite. Gulian was a daring warrior and a romantic at heart. Early on Glaiza merely tolerated him, whilst doing little to mask her own scoffing at his notions of honorable life and death. His unfailing good humor weathered her barbs effortlessly
176: Glaiza and Gulian were married. By this point she'd come to somewhat enjoy his company. While his rhetoric seemed haughty and self-aggrandizing to her sharp gaze, he had mettle to back his words. His soldierly qualities earned a certain admiration. Gulian also proved an entertaining drinking companion, if a bit prodigal
178: Glaiza gave birth to her first son and heir, Qhorin. Gulian took to fatherhood eagerly, intent on making a great warrior of their young son. Glaiza approved, on the condition that his primary education was in command.
180-183: Two more children followed, Martyn and Doreah. Meanwhile the clouds of war gathered on the horizon
184: Glaiza parttook in the Fifth Dornish War, putting her lessons into practice. The war taught her about Dorne's key difficulties in resisting the Seven Kingdoms, a realm with far greater resources and a much deeper pool of reinforcements. Her father fell in battle while her brother succumbed to gangrene following arrow injuries which at first seemed surviveable. Glaiza would then take part in the campaign of bloody vengeance. For his insatiable pride and hunger for conquest Rhaeghar Targaryen was made to host a generous feast for the scorpions and carion birds of the Dornish desert.
186: Glaiza's final child, Harmen, was born. Having suffered a number of miscarriages and stillbirths between her living children, she decided to be content with what the gods had granted her.
190: Inspired by stories of the Fifth Dornish War and a desire to avenge his grandfather and uncle, Qhorin trained eagerly to become a knight, hoping to earn his spurs by sixteen. Instead his leg was crushed when his horse was struck by a scorpion. At the age of twelve he was told he would have to abandon all hopes of a career as a soldier. Glaiza offered to teach him to command from a distance, however her heir had no enthusiasm for such a notion of warfare. Grudgingly he devoted his studies to more agrarian topics.
200s: Qhorin proved an unhappy man ever since his accident, prone to melancholy and isolating himself with his work. He'd find some joy in his marriage and in fatherhood, but would always think himself lesser to his siblings, especially Martyn, a highly gifted warrior who balanced Gulians valor and Glaiza's eye for tactics. Gulian began to show subtle signs of decaying health, his drinking and apetite for rich food beginning to catch up with him, even as he remained outwardly energetic and still looking strong. Having taken on some of his habits, Glaiza suggested they start moderating their lifestyle, though only after som strong urging from both Qhorin and her maester. Gulian is undeterred. He never planned to live long enough to die in bed anyways.
210: The Sixth Dornish War commenced. Based on experience from the previous one, Glaiza was among those who emphasized the need for momentum and ruthlessness in conducting the war. As the aggressor Dorne could not win a war of attrition, and war could not be allowed to reach Dornish soil again. The forces of the Dornish and 'falseborn' took castles quickly and put them to the torch. They would not tie themselves down defending positions their enemies could later starve out. Ultimately it proved insufficient. Even with the Seven Kingdoms severely weakened by the preceding plague and their crown prince falling in battle, there was always land for them to retreat to and new reinforcements to call upon. While Glaiza was in the Reach, Gulian and Martyn both fell at the second battle of Storm's End. Glaiza accepted the retreat bitterly, well aware there was no use in continuing the war. Upon her return home, she'd take a more active role in the lessons of her grandchildren, as well as adopting a very modest diet, swearing off strongwines and reserving wine and meat for special occasions.
212: Glaiza travels to Sunspear, quietly mulling over Dorne's options at any time she's not speaking to anyone else
Auxiliary Character Name: Qhorin Uller
Appearance: A lean man with a sharp face and a well-trimmed beard outlining his face, Qhorin's handsome features are undercut more by his dour mood and resting scowl than by his mangled leg, which requires him to walk with a cane. Dreams of glory are long faded from his eyes, replaced by far more grounded and dreary concerns
Gift: Thrifty
Negative Trait: Maimed leg
Skills: Architect (e), Medic
Talents: Caligraphy, Singing, Painting
Starting title: Heir to Hellholt
Starting Location: With Glaiza
Timeline:
178: Qhorin was born as heir to Glaiza Uller and Gulian Vaith. Though set to be a lord, he always favored his father's heroics over his mother's measured and calculating ways.
185-189: Qhorin is told stories of the Fifth Dornish War, which killed his uncle and lord grandfather, making Glaiza the new ruler of Hellholt. He throws himself at his squire's training with a passion. At age 10 he was able to tame a young sand-steed, greatly impressing his elders. He named the horse Garin, after the great Rhoynish prince and began to imagine what knightly exploits he would accomplish while riding his new mount into battle
190: While riding on his sand-steed near Hellholt, Qhorin fell from his horse when it was sung by a scorpion, crushing his leg in the process. His dreams of becoming a great warrior like his father ended at age twelve, and he gave up on all forms of warfare, feeling unworthy to conduct it, unable to stand and fight with his men like Garin The Great had.
190s: While training to walk with a cane, Qhorin found himself wandering a great deal among the farms and qanats surrounding Hellholt. he would stop and ask the farmers about their techniques, learning about how they made their living while unable to use the waters of the Brimstone, having to channel groundwater through the qanats. Though it was not his great passion as knighthood had been, he began to study farming and stewardship. Qhorin began sketching scenes he saw, buildings in particular, preoccupying his mind with visions of new structures and projects, reshaping the arid landscape. He also cared for his horse, Garin, which miraculously survived the scorpion sting with an amputated leg. Such a wretched creature was destined for knackering, but at Qhorin's adamant insistance, Garin was spared and allowed to be his pet. He learned a bit of medicine, caring for the creature, and later grew curious of the differences in healing animals and humans.
200: As was required of an heir, Qhorin would marry, struggling to smile even at the altar, yet he would find happiness with his new bride, Lady Alys Toland, though he was bad at showing it
200s: He would father three children with Alys and teach them all closely, though he felt inadequate because he could not teach them combat as Ser Gulian had taught him. His brother Martyn filled that mentor role. They both knew quite certainly that Martyn was most unlikely to marry or father children himself, at least if he got his way.
210: Qhorin was left to run Hellholt while his mother, father and brother all went off to war. With war came increased taxation, however he did not resort to harsh methods to extract the funds. He made promises of improvements to quality of life upon the war's conclusion, once he would push for his mother to adopt with relative success. After the war House Uller invested in new qanats to aid in supplying water. The Brimstone was useless for irrigation or drinking but proved a potential avenue for trade. A set number of days each year would allow toll-free transport of goods along the river, making supplies more easily available for the farmers. In times of drought the toll was to be suspended for three months continuously, with potential for extension through petition. The respect he earned for his even-handed rule did little to raise his spirits. Only his mother returned from war.
212: Though he doesn't feel he has much to celebrate, Qhorin and his family travel to Sunspear

NPCs

Doreah Uller (29), Skill: Alchemy
Lady Uller's eldest daughter, one of few among her family to never display much of a martial inclination. An avid student of herb-lore, she is able to concoct anything from benign cosmetics and minor remedies to lethal poison. Doreah is a woman well versed in courtly manners who always employs them with easy confidence and a practical goal in mind.
Harmen Uller (24), Skill: Blunt Weapons
Lady Uller's last son and a trained soldier like his brothers. Though never quite as talented as his late brother Martyn, he's a highly deliberate and disciplined fighter, seldom one to boast or provoke, yet fighting without fear or reservation when the situation calls for it. Stocky, pug-nosed and square-faced, his rough-hewn, muscular appearance is not typically handsome, a fact he accepts with ease, much preferring substance to flash.

Messing with my frizzy chocolate brown hair, the thick glasses had me looking like a huge nerd. The frumpy gray sweater over the dull gray pencil skirt and ivory blouse had me wanting to throw up, Salem struggling to keep his laughter in. Flipping him off as I slid into my worn boots, my wings felt suffocated in my outfit. Shaking off the feeling, I bounced downstairs to see a jet black armored car outside. The window rolled down to reveal Madame Maria winked at me from underneath her big hat, the door swinging open.
“Get in, Feathers.” She teased playfully, looking me up and down. “You understood the assignment. You almost look human and sad at that.” Crashing into the passenger seat, the tires peeled out before I could put on my seat belt. Putting it on in a rush, she pushed a black box over to me. Glancing at it while chewing on my lips, my fingers grasped the edge of the box. Placing it gingerly on my lap, all the breath left my body at the fine baby clothes resting underneath my fake ID.
“Thanks.” I mumbled under my breath, wondering why she would give me such a gift. “I thought you hated me after that meeting. I didn’t expect it to go quite that w-” Raising her hand in the air, her gray suit looking more expensive than anything I might have owned.
“Nonsense. I adore you.” She confided with a natural smile, shrugging her shoulders. “I can’t have my friend suffering alone with those monsters. Don’t tell anybody else that I like you.” Shooting her a thumbs up, an awkward silence tainted the air. Staring numbly ahead, her fingers drummed on the wheel. Leaning my head against the window, trees flashed by my window. Trees turned to skyscrapers, a couple of stern security jobs staring us down as she squealed into the closest parking spot. Getting out to let her out, the door hit my face. Cursing under my breath, her shoulders shrugged with an apologetic smile. Sauntering in, the fakes felt heavy in my sweater pocket. Noting the van across from the bank, I scratched at my neck. Hypnotizing the sea of fancy suits, the elderly bank manager let us into the safe holding people’s precious items. The cameras flicked off, my fingers tracing the numbers.
“I really appreciate this.” I commented with a natural smile while pulling out the silver box I needed. Extending a claw, the tip molded itself to a key. One minute remained, the box whistling open. Switching out the real ones with the fakes, I slammed the top shut and shoved it back into its spot. Taking my spot next to Madame Maria, the cameras flickered back on. Pulling out a couple of stacks of cash, she placed them in her purse. Knocking on the door, the bank manager asked her to fill out the amount she took out. Anxiety built in me, a couple of hunters coming in after us. Shaking her shoulder, her kind gaze rested on me.
“I forgot something in the car.” I choked out with a nervous grin, yells exploding in the safe. “See you later.” Walking out casually, a snap of her fingers erased their memories of me the moment I stepped outside. Spinning around, my disguise dissolved into my usual outfit of a light red sweater dress. Tossing the diamonds into the air, ice built around my boot. Pieces of diamond mixed with ice, both of them turning into snowflakes. Horror rounded my eyes at a group of hunters blocking my path, Sharks pushing his way through the hunters. Charging at me, a tug of my blade had it out of its case. Spinning on his heels, one breath drew the life of the hunters behind him. Dropping to the cracked sidewalk, he spun his blade in his palm. Silent tears stained my cheeks, the corpses twitching. Inky eyes glared up at me, the limp bodies now no more than mere puppets. Madame Maria skidded to my side, her breath shortening with mine.
“Go!” I ordered through gritted teeth, her head shaking. “What can you do!” Hurt dimmed her eyes, blood ribbons swirling to life around her. Dragging me closer, my breath hitched at her stabbing his demons in the chest. Absorbing their demon energy, an inky blackness dyed her veins. Collapsing into a heap behind me, a raging fury mixed with guilt in my eyes. Ignoring Sharks, an ice dome formed over us. Crouching down, I attempted to shove my wrist into her mouth. Desperate pleas poured from my lips, her life force leaving faster than I could save her. Cutting my palm, drops of blood slid into her mouth. The inky blackness began to fade from her veins, her shaking hands yanking me down close to her. Sinking her teeth into my neck, panic rounded my eyes. Nearly draining me dry, the ice began to crack. Gasping for hair, her face fell at my current state. Mouthing a silent blood replacement spell, color returned to my cheeks. Yanking me into a bear hug, any iciness she had for me had dissipated in seconds. Helping her to her feet, Sharks paced around while waiting for us to come out of our hiding spot. Grumbling under my breath, ice spread out underneath my boots. Shadows darted around Sharks, Salem winking in my direction as his arms curled around Madame Maria’s body. Sinking into the shadows with her, the scene was all clear for an all out battle. Sharks pounded towards me, sparks mixing with steam with every violent clash. Pushing off the sidewalk, the ground rattled as he jumped off at the same time. Landing on a building, a good duck had his blade spraying glass over me. Screams filled the air, his heel kicking me into an office. Glass pricked my palm, innocent citizens dashing out of the office space. Wincing in agony as I popped to my feet, a simple raise of my blade blocked his next attack. Daggers of ruby blood swirled behind his head, the damage was going to be worse if I didn’t get out of here. Grabbing him by his waist, feathers drifted aimlessly as I leapt out the broken window. Dropping him, the toe of my boot had him flying into the distance. Zooming after him, his blood daggers were still locked on me. Searching for a safe space to take the hit, an abandoned hospital caught my eyes. Angling my landing for the second floor, the glass imploded onto the second floor. Ducking into a nearby office, the daggers whistled into the wall. Blasts rattled the building, Sharks coming around the corner.
“Come on out, you slippery angel.” He snickered furiously, his blade scraping along the wall. Every breath grew shorter, my heart feeling seconds from pounding out of my chest. Crawling into the closet, I locked the door behind me. Feeling around for any weakness, escaping would ensure me staying mostly in one piece. The door banged open, every deliberate step had me counting to myself. One, my finger found the sole weak spot. Two, a couple of bangs with my hilt had the floor crumbling away. Three, his footfall got closer as I lowered myself down the steel pole. Four, my boots hit the worn wooden floor. Sharks growled at the sight of me dashing away to my next hiding spot. Black flames flickered to life in his palm, his hand pressing against the most flammable thing.
“I will smoke you out of this shithole.” He threatened with a sneer, flames devouring the building around him. “See you outside.” Ditching me to burn my skin off, an idea came to mind. Seeking my way to the tub room, the flames couldn’t reach me there. Skidding down random halls, a coughing fit had me collapsing into a heap. Thick smoke had my lungs begging for fresh air, my fingers clawing the wood. Dragging myself towards the nearest window, Sharks popped up behind me. Picking me up by my wings, he tossed me over his shoulders. Ribbons of blood whisked us away to a shady looking shack in the bowels of Hell, hellish monsters roaring by his door. Throwing me into a rusty cage, a zap prevented him from stealing my blade. Locking me up with a wink, his leather jacket swayed with every step into a separate room. Coughing up a storm, his smoke had been laced with a hell of a venom. Crawling over the lock, a low growl rumbled in my throat the intense level of angel warding. Leaning against the back of the cage, the bastard opening the cage would be my sole chance to escape. Holding my blade on my lap, another ugly monster scurried across the jet black dirt. Rows and rows of similar shacks taunted me, the blood moon pissing me off. Drumming my fingers on my blade, a huff escaped my lips. Sharks sauntered back in, a couple of torture tools spinning in his palm. The spiky ball glistened with fresh blood, a quiet fear hiding underneath my defiant smile. Salem’s shadow darted into the window, Salem proving not to be that far behind. Mamba spun his dual blades in his palm, an angry hiss escaping his lips. Covering my mouth with the next coughing fit, blood painted my palm. Nausea wracked my body, the color draining from my cheeks. Vomit flew up my throat, a clammy sweat drenching my skin. Wiping the vomit from the corner of my mouth, the lock clicked. The door swung open, a loud bang distracting him. Crawling out, my legs felt like jello. Struggling to my feet, another bang covered me stumbling into Salem’s arms. Grabbing Mamba’s coat, we sank into the shadows. Appearing in my winter escape, he placed me on his back. Mamba’s words faded in and out, a couple of new creatures darting past us. Shivering on Salem’s back, he tucked me inside of his coat.
“We are going to get you medicine soon, I promise.” He assured me with a tired smile, his thumb tracing my cheek. Whistling sharply for him, my dragon friend scooped us up. Snuggling into his chest, my shaking fingers gripped his jacket. My lips parted to speak several times, his lips brushing against the top of my head.
“Don’t even try to apologize. I won’t accept it. We never planned any of that.” He chuckled lightly, his hair flying back. “All that matters right now is you getting better. We need you to lead us. Sleep.” Exhaustion weighed on my eyelids, sweet slumber stealing me away.
Standing in a foggy landscape, Lilith danced over to me. A light ivory robe floated over her body, golden wings coming out of her back. Twisting her hair into a bun, her eyes twinkled with an foreign warmth. Holding my chin, her lips curled into a gracious smile.
“You freed me and I get to rest in my paradise. Oops, I should probably clear the fog away.” She chirped cheerfully, waving her hand. “This is my little slice of Heaven. God listened to you and let me live out my afterlife here.” Silent tears stained my cheeks, guilt eating me alive. A panic attack was seconds from starting, her lips brushing against my forehead stalling it for the time being.
“I am sorry!” I blurted out desperately, scratching at the tops of my hands. “I am so sorry that I had to kill you! You had been fighting us and I didn’t know what else to do. You should hate me! Please hate me!” Violent sobs wracked my body, her hands cupping mine awkwardly in an attempt to calm me down. Ripping my hands back, her past sins couldn’t be forgotten. Hurt dimmed her eyes, her hands motioning towards a beautiful field of colorful flowers. A single round table sat in the middle, a dejected smile breaking my heart.
“Please let me explain my life.” She pleaded gently, her palms pressing together. “I want you to leave this dream with more knowledge that you are on the right path. After that, you can still hate me if you want.” Taking a seat across from her, the potion coursing through me wouldn’t let me wake up even if I wanted to. Pouring me a cup of green tea, the steam captivated me. Crossing her legs as she plopped down, she poured her own cup.
“Green tea has always been your favorite so I made sure to grow some here. I even added some healing herbs to it. Let me begin with my life story. I met his father, the Shadow Lord, a long time ago. We survived together, eventually getting married. I found out I was pregnant and I couldn’t wait to give birth to our first child but God had other plans. An accident killed my first child and my whole world crumbled.” She explained with a busted smile, all the breath leaving my body. “His father was just like him. Hell, he is a carbon copy of him. He tried his best to comfort me but I suppose a bit of my madness began then. I bet you did some horrid things after your miscarriage. A miracle happened and we were given our son, Salem. I remember holding him for the first time and never wanting to let go.” A steady stream of tears poured from her eyes, my hands cupping hers. Her breath hitched, her features brightening out of her usual glumness.
“That wouldn’t be a lie. The loss of a child is one of the worst things a living being can experience.” I comforted her sweetly, my heart breaking for her all over again. “I am sorry for your loss. If you ever need to talk, meet me in my dreams. I will always answer.” Thanking me with a gracious smile, she began to barrage me with questions about Salem and our kids. Entertaining her until the edge of my dreams began to fray, we both rose to our feet at the same time. Surprise rounded her eyes the moment I smothered her into a bear hug, her arms snaking around my waist. Swaying with her back and forth until a bright light blinded me, her warmth blended with the warmth of the outside.
Groaning awake, a wet pillow met my cheek. A fire crackled next to me, Salem leaping over the couch to get to me. Ives had a tray of hot green tea and medicinal herbs in his hands, the smell reminding me of my recent conversation with Lilith. Feeling my forehead, Salem breathed a huge sigh of relief.
“Thank goodness you are okay.” He fretted adorably, his lips kissing mine feverishly. “I know you can’t die but you were in pretty bad shape.” Climbing onto his lap, his hand covered us with a blanket in one swift motion. Resting my head on his chest, his heartbeat was all I needed to hear at the moment. Staring at the walls around me, flowers of all kinds stole my breath away. Setting the tray on the vine table next to us, Ives crashed onto the couch next to us.
“I hope you like it here. I had to grow the decor but I think it brings life to this place.” He bragged with a crooked grin, his sage wool suit speaking to his character. “I love it here. I never want to leave. You created something beautiful out of a tragedy. Excuse me, I have some plants to take care of.” Leaving us on our own, my mind wondered if he had seen his mother in his dreams.
“Have you talked with your mother in your dreams?” I inquired cautiously, his loving gaze meeting my wet eyes. “She told me that you weren’t her first child. Did you know that?” Tears hit my face, his hand cupping my cheek. Kissing my tears away, the next words didn’t want to come to his lips.
“I talk to her all the time and she is incredibly sorry for everything that she did. I forgave her the first time.” He answered with a hopeful smile, his finger sliding down to my chin. “She did admit one thing and that was that she always liked you. You made her want to stop but she really was in too deep at that point. I lied that one day after you miscarried. We met to talk about it, her wisdom helping me guide you through the worst of the storm. Don’t hate me for that. She never begged for me to come back that one time. Instead, she cried. She cried like never before, my heart breaking for her secret. I didn’t know that she went through so much. I am happy you got to talk to her one on one.” Draping my arms around his neck, a loud grumble had embarrassment coloring my cheeks. Mamba spun out with four bowls of a steaming vegetable stew, Ives walking on his heels. Sitting down across from us, I slid onto the floor next to Salem. Accepting the meal graciously, the boys broke into a pleasant conversation. Every team members’ smile flashed in my mind, my desire to go home rising higher than ever before at the image of Salem with our kids running around on a sunny day. Devouring my stew in minutes, I set my bowl to the side. Rising to my feet, no one questioned me as I went to see his garden. Turning the corner after corner, plants of all types were in lovely sage garden boxes. Pausing in the warmest part of the room, my jaw dropped at the sheer amount of healing herbs and flowers. A station was a mess behind me, a few potions brewing over the roaring fireplace.
“Do you like it?” Ives’ gentle voice questioned sincerely, his hand resting on my shoulder. “You still have a bad fever. You should really get some more rest before you get home.” His concern was fine but I was in a far better condition than earlier. Leaving me to bask in the wonder of everything around me, his fingers curled around a large crate of potions. Carrying them underneath his left arm, his other elbow waited for me. Swaying slightly, the fever burned bright on my cheeks. Collapsing into his arm, he guided me back with a big smile. Passing me to Salem, he presented the box to us.
“These should tie you over for a while.” He announced with pride, his grin growing wider. “I made these myself! The last thing you should have to worry about is getting hurt. I have everything from the best antidotes to your basic pain relievers. Placing it down next to Mamba, his gloved hands flicked through the glass bottles of colorful liquids.
“Might it be too much for me to ask for some venom samples from you?” He asked while twiddling his thumbs, Mamba hopping to his feet. Walking off with him, Salem held me close to his chest. Another wave of exhaustion crashed over me, a herb in the soup definitely being the culprit. Salem’s eyes fluttered slightly but not enough to alarm me. This herb had been used for centuries to heal an angel’s fever, the one bad side effect being a long nap. Everything blurred, Salem laying down with me. Draping his arm over me, his lips grazed the back of my neck. The heat of the fire deepened my tiredness, the room spinning again. Turning to face Salem, my forehead rested on his chest. Today had been long, way too long. Breathing in his scent, a weary smile rested on his lips at me pressing my body against his. Humming the song his mother used to sing, the battle against sleep was becoming futile. Every breath felt labored, his song ending with me clinging to his shirt. Silent tears cascaded from my eyes, every cell in me wanting to go home. Maybe I will be home in the morning, I thought with a cute yawn. Succumbing to sweet slumber, all my worries melted away.

So I am being stalked and harassed by negative entities for over a year following an NDE and I would like to know if any of you have experienced anything like I have. Any advice is greatly appreciated. The very first thing I did when this started was rule out psychological and psychological causes. I have been psychologically and physically evaluated and the only issue found was moderate anxiety. I even took anti psychotics for four months, because the things I am experiencing are generally believed to be “hallucinations” by modern psychiatry - however, they did not help at all and the experiences continued and increased in intensity. I’ve been evaluated by psychiatrists several times and they cannot find me to be psychotic and there are no medical reasons. I was 32 when I began experiencing the following. Leaving comments saying that I’m mentally ill, is a waste of time and will not be responded to.
Here is a summary of what I have been experiencing following my NDE in December 2021:
So I had an NDE December 18, 2021 and apparently it caused my “third eye” to open completely - shortly after that I had a bunch of awful things start happening to me; (friends started defaming me and ghosting out of no where, a new roommate moved into my house and hacked my phone using apple airdrop in a really sketchy way, I had a miscarriage, a mini stroke, my partner started becoming physically and psychologically abusive out of the blue after being together for years, an entity literally took over my boyfriend and beat the shit out of me - his eyes turned completely black and he has no memory of this, roommate tried to illegally evict me, lost multiple jobs for no apparent reason,) I began to feel like I was being watched. Multiple times I was attacked by random people in the street (the harassment from people and bad luck has stopped for the past year or so.) About a year after my NDE, my bed and my furniture started to move back and fourth by itself and at times it would sound and feel like someone was pacing or running in circles in my room, but no one was there. When I would be trying to fall asleep I could feel something poking me from under the bed through the mattress and crawling around under my bed or couch. I would get randomly poked when I was alone in my room. Once something answered my phone screaming “WHAT?!” at the person on the other end who was a Priest who was calling me back to schedule a time to bless my home, because of the supernatural things that were happening. Then I started to receive voicemails that consisted of white noise and something saying “I’m gonna kill you” over and over, in a voice that did not sound human. The calls would always come from random US numbers - when I would call the numbers back they were never working numbers. Around this time, I began recording audio in my room and caught multiple voices….Then….the audible voices started about 4 months after the physical manifestations began…
At night it started to get really intense - I would get into bed for the night and then it would start with the sensation that a small animal (like a cat or a dog) jumped up on to my bed - you could feel the mattress indent and then it would proceed to run back-and-forth across my pillows or pace all over my bed, or just walk on it and you could feel the footsteps. Then, it builds up to a static electric feeling energy that would crawl over me when I would try to go to sleep. It would cause me to convulse due to its charge. This invisible being would also attack my partner while he was asleep, causing him to convulse. The footsteps would jump on the bed, run over to my partner - I could actually see the footsteps from across the room indenting into the mattress - it would kick my partner and say “I’m hating you! I hate you! Fuck you!” in a baby-like, cartoonish voice. One day, I had a white noise machine on and in the white noise a voice started talking, saying “I remember you from when you were dead” and that it’s “never leaving me” and that there are “seven” of them. The voices just got worse and worse and more and more constant…constantly repeating the same thing “I’m hating you” or “we’re gonna use him” (no clue what that means) and all kinds of nonsense in a baby-like, cartoonish voice, almost like a parity of a demon voice. During this time due to the voices I became aware that they were following me absolutely everywhere I went… I mean literally… like to the bathroom, the shower, just across the room a couple feet - constantly hovering over me, crawling on my body, touching me. Then it started to get really perverted, where I would put on pants or some thing to leave the house and then I would feel a bunch of cold tiny little things go shooting down my pants and they would crawl around in that area while I was out in public to make it extremely uncomfortable for me. They would not let me sleep at all…I would stay up for 3-4 sometimes 5 days at a time… I gave myself a concussion sitting on my floor one night I fell asleep and smashed my head on my coffee table. They started to molest me heavily around this time, constantly just focusing on inappropriate areas with the static electricity feeling energy. And it’s remained like this for over a year now, with the constant stalking and talking and harassment/molestation.
They go in and out of my body through really obvious and uncomfortable ways, they go into the shower with me, they follow me to work and stand behind my desk yelling and screaming and repeating every thought that comes into my head every single day. They have a parade of insectoid and mutant looking things that come in and out of my room all night when I go to lay down to go to sleep. They crawl all over me, fight to get under the covers, they crawl around in every orifice - I have to plug my ears to keep them from crawling into my ears so they don’t crawl into them. I have to have a scarf over my mouth so they don’t crawl in there. They pace back and fourth on my pillows. They scream even louder and cry if I put headphones on or try to watch tv/read. They fuck with my computer at work and my cell phone. They harass my cat to no end. If I visit my family they will go into my father‘s room and I can hear them screaming about raping my father when I stay at his house when I go to visit. They get into anything that I do - I make candles and they literally get into the candles and ruin them they cause a candle wax to melt extremely slowly. If I burn incense it’ll get onto the coal and cause the incense to overburn or not burn it all. Absolutely anything I touch ever including my boyfriend, they will crawl all over or try to disrupt in any and every way possible. One will just attach to my hand in order to try to disrupt everything I do.
I have changed everything in my life; I don’t drink or do drugs, I don’t have sex, I don’t watch porn. I apply the seven virtues to my life completely. I am honest, kind, compassionate and caring. I’m a volunteer worker for the suicide prevention hotline. I don’t feed into them, I try not to feed them at all. I never break down - maybe like once every month for like 30 minutes at most. I bathe in salt water, essential oils & herbs every single night. I try to keep my aura purified, my vibrations and frequency high. I have not been afraid of them since the very beginning, so it’s been months and months where I’ve had absolutely no fear of them whatsoever. I’ve had my chakras removed completely. I’ve had multiple etheric implants that they put in me removed completely. I’ve had all of the entities removed from my body completely. I am getting energy work done by highly vetted practitioners regularly. And STILL, as I sit here today over a year later, they are screaming and crying in my office, right behind me, about five of them just repeating the same thing over and over again, which they do non stop day and night. I have not been in quiet or alone in over a year the only time I don’t hear their voices is if I am unconscious.
It’s also note worthy to state that I am not afraid of these things at all - I ignore them completely or tell them telepathically that they are infringing on my sovereignty and I do not consent and they need to leave. They have been running the same annoying program for months now constantly and none of it has been working - so I’m not feeding into them, but it’s still occurring. They say they want me to kill myself and that’s why they are doing this and that they will never leave. I’m hoping that someone in this sub might be able to help me.
Let me know what you think. I’m happy to answer any questions you have. Thanks.

So I am being stalked and harassed by negative entities for over a year following an NDE and I would like to know if any of you have experienced anything like I have. Any advice is greatly appreciated. The very first thing I did when this started was rule out psychological and psychological causes. I have been psychologically and physically evaluated and the only issue found was moderate anxiety. I even took anti psychotics for four months, because the things I am experiencing are generally believed to be “hallucinations” by modern psychiatry - however, they did not help at all and the experiences continued and increased in intensity. I’ve been evaluated by psychiatrists several times and they cannot find me to be psychotic and there are no medical reasons. I was 32 when I began experiencing the following. Leaving comments saying that I’m mentally ill, is a waste of time and will not be responded to.
Here is a summary of what I have been experiencing following my NDE in December 2021:
So I had an NDE December 18, 2021 and apparently it caused my “third eye” to open completely - shortly after that I had a bunch of awful things start happening to me; (friends started defaming me and ghosting out of no where, a new roommate moved into my house and hacked my phone using apple airdrop in a really sketchy way, I had a miscarriage, a mini stroke, my partner started becoming physically and psychologically abusive out of the blue after being together for years, an entity literally took over my boyfriend and beat the shit out of me - his eyes turned completely black and he has no memory of this, roommate tried to illegally evict me, lost multiple jobs for no apparent reason,) I began to feel like I was being watched. Multiple times I was attacked by random people in the street (the harassment from people and bad luck has stopped for the past year or so.) About a year after my NDE, my bed and my furniture started to move back and fourth by itself and at times it would sound and feel like someone was pacing or running in circles in my room, but no one was there. When I would be trying to fall asleep I could feel something poking me from under the bed through the mattress and crawling around under my bed or couch. I would get randomly poked when I was alone in my room. Once something answered my phone screaming “WHAT?!” at the person on the other end who was a Priest who was calling me back to schedule a time to bless my home, because of the supernatural things that were happening. Then I started to receive voicemails that consisted of white noise and something saying “I’m gonna kill you” over and over, in a voice that did not sound human. The calls would always come from random US numbers - when I would call the numbers back they were never working numbers. Around this time, I began recording audio in my room and caught multiple voices….Then….the audible voices started about 4 months after the physical manifestations began…
At night it started to get really intense - I would get into bed for the night and then it would start with the sensation that a small animal (like a cat or a dog) jumped up on to my bed - you could feel the mattress indent and then it would proceed to run back-and-forth across my pillows or pace all over my bed, or just walk on it and you could feel the footsteps. Then, it builds up to a static electric feeling energy that would crawl over me when I would try to go to sleep. It would cause me to convulse due to its charge. This invisible being would also attack my partner while he was asleep, causing him to convulse. The footsteps would jump on the bed, run over to my partner - I could actually see the footsteps from across the room indenting into the mattress - it would kick my partner and say “I’m hating you! I hate you! Fuck you!” in a baby-like, cartoonish voice. One day, I had a white noise machine on and in the white noise a voice started talking, saying “I remember you from when you were dead” and that it’s “never leaving me” and that there are “seven” of them. The voices just got worse and worse and more and more constant…constantly repeating the same thing “I’m hating you” or “we’re gonna use him” (no clue what that means) and all kinds of nonsense in a baby-like, cartoonish voice, almost like a parity of a demon voice. During this time due to the voices I became aware that they were following me absolutely everywhere I went… I mean literally… like to the bathroom, the shower, just across the room a couple feet - constantly hovering over me, crawling on my body, touching me. Then it started to get really perverted, where I would put on pants or some thing to leave the house and then I would feel a bunch of cold tiny little things go shooting down my pants and they would crawl around in that area while I was out in public to make it extremely uncomfortable for me. They would not let me sleep at all…I would stay up for 3-4 sometimes 5 days at a time… I gave myself a concussion sitting on my floor one night I fell asleep and smashed my head on my coffee table. They started to molest me heavily around this time, constantly just focusing on inappropriate areas with the static electricity feeling energy. And it’s remained like this for over a year now, with the constant stalking and talking and harassment/molestation.
They go in and out of my body through really obvious and uncomfortable ways, they go into the shower with me, they follow me to work and stand behind my desk yelling and screaming and repeating every thought that comes into my head every single day. They have a parade of insectoid and mutant looking things that come in and out of my room all night when I go to lay down to go to sleep. They crawl all over me, fight to get under the covers, they crawl around in every orifice - I have to plug my ears to keep them from crawling into my ears so they don’t crawl into them. I have to have a scarf over my mouth so they don’t crawl in there. They pace back and fourth on my pillows. They scream even louder and cry if I put headphones on or try to watch tv/read. They fuck with my computer at work and my cell phone. They harass my cat to no end. If I visit my family they will go into my father‘s room and I can hear them screaming about raping my father when I stay at his house when I go to visit. They get into anything that I do - I make candles and they literally get into the candles and ruin them they cause a candle wax to melt extremely slowly. If I burn incense it’ll get onto the coal and cause the incense to overburn or not burn it all. Absolutely anything I touch ever including my boyfriend, they will crawl all over or try to disrupt in any and every way possible. One will just attach to my hand in order to try to disrupt everything I do.
I have changed everything in my life; I don’t drink or do drugs, I don’t have sex, I don’t watch porn. I apply the seven virtues to my life completely. I am honest, kind, compassionate and caring. I’m a volunteer worker for the suicide prevention hotline. I don’t feed into them, I try not to feed them at all. I never break down - maybe like once every month for like 30 minutes at most. I bathe in salt water, essential oils & herbs every single night. I try to keep my aura purified, my vibrations and frequency high. I have not been afraid of them since the very beginning, so it’s been months and months where I’ve had absolutely no fear of them whatsoever. I’ve had my chakras removed completely. I’ve had multiple etheric implants that they put in me removed completely. I’ve had all of the entities removed from my body completely. I am getting energy work done by highly vetted practitioners regularly. And STILL, as I sit here today over a year later, they are screaming and crying in my office, right behind me, about five of them just repeating the same thing over and over again, which they do non stop day and night. I have not been in quiet or alone in over a year the only time I don’t hear their voices is if I am unconscious.
It’s also note worthy to state that I am not afraid of these things at all - I ignore them completely or tell them telepathically that they are infringing on my sovereignty and I do not consent and they need to leave. They have been running the same annoying program for months now constantly and none of it has been working - so I’m not feeding into them, but it’s still occurring. They say they want me to kill myself and that’s why they are doing this and that they will never leave. I’m hoping that someone in this sub might be able to help me.
Let me know what you think. I’m happy to answer any questions you have. Thanks.

So I am being stalked and harassed by negative entities for over a year following an NDE and I would like to know if any of you have experienced anything like I have. Any advice is greatly appreciated. The very first thing I did when this started was rule out psychological and psychological causes. I have been psychologically and physically evaluated and the only issue found was moderate anxiety. I even took anti psychotics for four months, because the things I am experiencing are generally believed to be “hallucinations” by modern psychiatry - however, they did not help at all and the experiences continued and increased in intensity. I’ve been evaluated by psychiatrists several times and they cannot find me to be psychotic and there are no medical reasons. I was 32 when I began experiencing the following. Leaving comments saying that I’m mentally ill, is a waste of time and will not be responded to.
Here is a summary of what I have been experiencing following my NDE in December 2021:
So I had an NDE December 18, 2021 and apparently it caused my “third eye” to open completely - shortly after that I had a bunch of awful things start happening to me; (friends started defaming me and ghosting out of no where, a new roommate moved into my house and hacked my phone using apple airdrop in a really sketchy way, I had a miscarriage, a mini stroke, my partner started becoming physically and psychologically abusive out of the blue after being together for years, an entity literally took over my boyfriend and beat the shit out of me - his eyes turned completely black and he has no memory of this, roommate tried to illegally evict me, lost multiple jobs for no apparent reason,) I began to feel like I was being watched. Multiple times I was attacked by random people in the street (the harassment from people and bad luck has stopped for the past year or so.) About a year after my NDE, my bed and my furniture started to move back and fourth by itself and at times it would sound and feel like someone was pacing or running in circles in my room, but no one was there. When I would be trying to fall asleep I could feel something poking me from under the bed through the mattress and crawling around under my bed or couch. I would get randomly poked when I was alone in my room. Once something answered my phone screaming “WHAT?!” at the person on the other end who was a Priest who was calling me back to schedule a time to bless my home, because of the supernatural things that were happening. Then I started to receive voicemails that consisted of white noise and something saying “I’m gonna kill you” over and over, in a voice that did not sound human. The calls would always come from random US numbers - when I would call the numbers back they were never working numbers. Around this time, I began recording audio in my room and caught multiple voices….Then….the audible voices started about 4 months after the physical manifestations began…
At night it started to get really intense - I would get into bed for the night and then it would start with the sensation that a small animal (like a cat or a dog) jumped up on to my bed - you could feel the mattress indent and then it would proceed to run back-and-forth across my pillows or pace all over my bed, or just walk on it and you could feel the footsteps. Then, it builds up to a static electric feeling energy that would crawl over me when I would try to go to sleep. It would cause me to convulse due to its charge. This invisible being would also attack my partner while he was asleep, causing him to convulse. The footsteps would jump on the bed, run over to my partner - I could actually see the footsteps from across the room indenting into the mattress - it would kick my partner and say “I’m hating you! I hate you! Fuck you!” in a baby-like, cartoonish voice. One day, I had a white noise machine on and in the white noise a voice started talking, saying “I remember you from when you were dead” and that it’s “never leaving me” and that there are “seven” of them. The voices just got worse and worse and more and more constant…constantly repeating the same thing “I’m hating you” or “we’re gonna use him” (no clue what that means) and all kinds of nonsense in a baby-like, cartoonish voice, almost like a parity of a demon voice. During this time due to the voices I became aware that they were following me absolutely everywhere I went… I mean literally… like to the bathroom, the shower, just across the room a couple feet - constantly hovering over me, crawling on my body, touching me. Then it started to get really perverted, where I would put on pants or some thing to leave the house and then I would feel a bunch of cold tiny little things go shooting down my pants and they would crawl around in that area while I was out in public to make it extremely uncomfortable for me. They would not let me sleep at all…I would stay up for 3-4 sometimes 5 days at a time… I gave myself a concussion sitting on my floor one night I fell asleep and smashed my head on my coffee table. They started to molest me heavily around this time, constantly just focusing on inappropriate areas with the static electricity feeling energy. And it’s remained like this for over a year now, with the constant stalking and talking and harassment/molestation.
They go in and out of my body through really obvious and uncomfortable ways, they go into the shower with me, they follow me to work and stand behind my desk yelling and screaming and repeating every thought that comes into my head every single day. They have a parade of insectoid and mutant looking things that come in and out of my room all night when I go to lay down to go to sleep. They crawl all over me, fight to get under the covers, they crawl around in every orifice - I have to plug my ears to keep them from crawling into my ears so they don’t crawl into them. I have to have a scarf over my mouth so they don’t crawl in there. They pace back and fourth on my pillows. They scream even louder and cry if I put headphones on or try to watch tv/read. They fuck with my computer at work and my cell phone. They harass my cat to no end. If I visit my family they will go into my father‘s room and I can hear them screaming about raping my father when I stay at his house when I go to visit. They get into anything that I do - I make candles and they literally get into the candles and ruin them they cause a candle wax to melt extremely slowly. If I burn incense it’ll get onto the coal and cause the incense to overburn or not burn it all. Absolutely anything I touch ever including my boyfriend, they will crawl all over or try to disrupt in any and every way possible. One will just attach to my hand in order to try to disrupt everything I do.
I have changed everything in my life; I don’t drink or do drugs, I don’t have sex, I don’t watch porn. I apply the seven virtues to my life completely. I am honest, kind, compassionate and caring. I’m a volunteer worker for the suicide prevention hotline. I don’t feed into them, I try not to feed them at all. I never break down - maybe like once every month for like 30 minutes at most. I bathe in salt water, essential oils & herbs every single night. I try to keep my aura purified, my vibrations and frequency high. I have not been afraid of them since the very beginning, so it’s been months and months where I’ve had absolutely no fear of them whatsoever. I’ve had my chakras removed completely. I’ve had multiple etheric implants that they put in me removed completely. I’ve had all of the entities removed from my body completely. I am getting energy work done by highly vetted practitioners regularly. And STILL, as I sit here today over a year later, they are screaming and crying in my office, right behind me, about five of them just repeating the same thing over and over again, which they do non stop day and night. I have not been in quiet or alone in over a year the only time I don’t hear their voices is if I am unconscious.
It’s also note worthy to state that I am not afraid of these things at all - I ignore them completely or tell them telepathically that they are infringing on my sovereignty and I do not consent and they need to leave. They have been running the same annoying program for months now constantly and none of it has been working - so I’m not feeding into them, but it’s still occurring. They say they want me to kill myself and that’s why they are doing this and that they will never leave. I’m hoping that someone in this sub might be able to help me.
Let me know what you think. I’m happy to answer any questions you have. Thanks.

So I am being stalked and harassed by negative entities for over a year following an NDE and I would like to know if any of you have experienced anything like I have. Any advice is greatly appreciated. The very first thing I did when this started was rule out psychological and psychological causes. I have been psychologically and physically evaluated and the only issue found was moderate anxiety. I even took anti psychotics for four months, because the things I am experiencing are generally believed to be “hallucinations” by modern psychiatry - however, they did not help at all and the experiences continued and increased in intensity. I’ve been evaluated by psychiatrists several times and they cannot find me to be psychotic and there are no medical reasons. I was 32 when I began experiencing the following. Leaving comments saying that I’m mentally ill, is a waste of time and will not be responded to.
Here is a summary of what I have been experiencing following my NDE in December 2021:
So I had an NDE December 18, 2021 and apparently it caused my “third eye” to open completely - shortly after that I had a bunch of awful things start happening to me; (friends started defaming me and ghosting out of no where, a new roommate moved into my house and hacked my phone using apple airdrop in a really sketchy way, I had a miscarriage, a mini stroke, my partner started becoming physically and psychologically abusive out of the blue after being together for years, an entity literally took over my boyfriend and beat the shit out of me - his eyes turned completely black and he has no memory of this, roommate tried to illegally evict me, lost multiple jobs for no apparent reason,) I began to feel like I was being watched. Multiple times I was attacked by random people in the street (the harassment from people and bad luck has stopped for the past year or so.) About a year after my NDE, my bed and my furniture started to move back and fourth by itself and at times it would sound and feel like someone was pacing or running in circles in my room, but no one was there. When I would be trying to fall asleep I could feel something poking me from under the bed through the mattress and crawling around under my bed or couch. I would get randomly poked when I was alone in my room. Once something answered my phone screaming “WHAT?!” at the person on the other end who was a Priest who was calling me back to schedule a time to bless my home, because of the supernatural things that were happening. Then I started to receive voicemails that consisted of white noise and something saying “I’m gonna kill you” over and over, in a voice that did not sound human. The calls would always come from random US numbers - when I would call the numbers back they were never working numbers. Around this time, I began recording audio in my room and caught multiple voices….Then….the audible voices started about 4 months after the physical manifestations began…
At night it started to get really intense - I would get into bed for the night and then it would start with the sensation that a small animal (like a cat or a dog) jumped up on to my bed - you could feel the mattress indent and then it would proceed to run back-and-forth across my pillows or pace all over my bed, or just walk on it and you could feel the footsteps. Then, it builds up to a static electric feeling energy that would crawl over me when I would try to go to sleep. It would cause me to convulse due to its charge. This invisible being would also attack my partner while he was asleep, causing him to convulse. The footsteps would jump on the bed, run over to my partner - I could actually see the footsteps from across the room indenting into the mattress - it would kick my partner and say “I’m hating you! I hate you! Fuck you!” in a baby-like, cartoonish voice. One day, I had a white noise machine on and in the white noise a voice started talking, saying “I remember you from when you were dead” and that it’s “never leaving me” and that there are “seven” of them. The voices just got worse and worse and more and more constant…constantly repeating the same thing “I’m hating you” or “we’re gonna use him” (no clue what that means) and all kinds of nonsense in a baby-like, cartoonish voice, almost like a parity of a demon voice. During this time due to the voices I became aware that they were following me absolutely everywhere I went… I mean literally… like to the bathroom, the shower, just across the room a couple feet - constantly hovering over me, crawling on my body, touching me. Then it started to get really perverted, where I would put on pants or some thing to leave the house and then I would feel a bunch of cold tiny little things go shooting down my pants and they would crawl around in that area while I was out in public to make it extremely uncomfortable for me. They would not let me sleep at all…I would stay up for 3-4 sometimes 5 days at a time… I gave myself a concussion sitting on my floor one night I fell asleep and smashed my head on my coffee table. They started to molest me heavily around this time, constantly just focusing on inappropriate areas with the static electricity feeling energy. And it’s remained like this for over a year now, with the constant stalking and talking and harassment/molestation.
They go in and out of my body through really obvious and uncomfortable ways, they go into the shower with me, they follow me to work and stand behind my desk yelling and screaming and repeating every thought that comes into my head every single day. They have a parade of insectoid and mutant looking things that come in and out of my room all night when I go to lay down to go to sleep. They crawl all over me, fight to get under the covers, they crawl around in every orifice - I have to plug my ears to keep them from crawling into my ears so they don’t crawl into them. I have to have a scarf over my mouth so they don’t crawl in there. They pace back and fourth on my pillows. They scream even louder and cry if I put headphones on or try to watch tv/read. They fuck with my computer at work and my cell phone. They harass my cat to no end. If I visit my family they will go into my father‘s room and I can hear them screaming about raping my father when I stay at his house when I go to visit. They get into anything that I do - I make candles and they literally get into the candles and ruin them they cause a candle wax to melt extremely slowly. If I burn incense it’ll get onto the coal and cause the incense to overburn or not burn it all. Absolutely anything I touch ever including my boyfriend, they will crawl all over or try to disrupt in any and every way possible. One will just attach to my hand in order to try to disrupt everything I do.
I have changed everything in my life; I don’t drink or do drugs, I don’t have sex, I don’t watch porn. I apply the seven virtues to my life completely. I am honest, kind, compassionate and caring. I’m a volunteer worker for the suicide prevention hotline. I don’t feed into them, I try not to feed them at all. I never break down - maybe like once every month for like 30 minutes at most. I bathe in salt water, essential oils & herbs every single night. I try to keep my aura purified, my vibrations and frequency high. I have not been afraid of them since the very beginning, so it’s been months and months where I’ve had absolutely no fear of them whatsoever. I’ve had my chakras removed completely. I’ve had multiple etheric implants that they put in me removed completely. I’ve had all of the entities removed from my body completely. I am getting energy work done by highly vetted practitioners regularly. And STILL, as I sit here today over a year later, they are screaming and crying in my office, right behind me, about five of them just repeating the same thing over and over again, which they do non stop day and night. I have not been in quiet or alone in over a year the only time I don’t hear their voices is if I am unconscious.
It’s also note worthy to state that I am not afraid of these things at all - I ignore them completely or tell them telepathically that they are infringing on my sovereignty and I do not consent and they need to leave. They have been running the same annoying program for months now constantly and none of it has been working - so I’m not feeding into them, but it’s still occurring. They say they want me to kill myself and that’s why they are doing this and that they will never leave. I’m hoping that someone in this sub might be able to help me.
Let me know what you think. I’m happy to answer any questions you have. Thanks.

So I am being stalked and harassed by negative entities for over a year following an NDE and I would like to know if any of you have experienced anything like I have. Any advice is greatly appreciated. The very first thing I did when this started was rule out psychological and psychological causes. I have been psychologically and physically evaluated and the only issue found was moderate anxiety. I even took anti psychotics for four months, because the things I am experiencing are generally believed to be “hallucinations” by modern psychiatry - however, they did not help at all and the experiences continued and increased in intensity. I’ve been evaluated by psychiatrists several times and they cannot find me to be psychotic and there are no medical reasons. I was 32 when I began experiencing the following. Leaving comments saying that I’m mentally ill, is a waste of time and will not be responded to.
Here is a summary of what I have been experiencing following my NDE in December 2021:
So I had an NDE December 18, 2021 and apparently it caused my “third eye” to open completely - shortly after that I had a bunch of awful things start happening to me; (friends started defaming me and ghosting out of no where, a new roommate moved into my house and hacked my phone using apple airdrop in a really sketchy way, I had a miscarriage, a mini stroke, my partner started becoming physically and psychologically abusive out of the blue after being together for years, an entity literally took over my boyfriend and beat the shit out of me - his eyes turned completely black and he has no memory of this, roommate tried to illegally evict me, lost multiple jobs for no apparent reason,) I began to feel like I was being watched. Multiple times I was attacked by random people in the street (the harassment from people and bad luck has stopped for the past year or so.) About a year after my NDE, my bed and my furniture started to move back and fourth by itself and at times it would sound and feel like someone was pacing or running in circles in my room, but no one was there. When I would be trying to fall asleep I could feel something poking me from under the bed through the mattress and crawling around under my bed or couch. I would get randomly poked when I was alone in my room. Once something answered my phone screaming “WHAT?!” at the person on the other end who was a Priest who was calling me back to schedule a time to bless my home, because of the supernatural things that were happening. Then I started to receive voicemails that consisted of white noise and something saying “I’m gonna kill you” over and over, in a voice that did not sound human. The calls would always come from random US numbers - when I would call the numbers back they were never working numbers. Around this time, I began recording audio in my room and caught multiple voices….Then….the audible voices started about 4 months after the physical manifestations began…
At night it started to get really intense - I would get into bed for the night and then it would start with the sensation that a small animal (like a cat or a dog) jumped up on to my bed - you could feel the mattress indent and then it would proceed to run back-and-forth across my pillows or pace all over my bed, or just walk on it and you could feel the footsteps. Then, it builds up to a static electric feeling energy that would crawl over me when I would try to go to sleep. It would cause me to convulse due to its charge. This invisible being would also attack my partner while he was asleep, causing him to convulse. The footsteps would jump on the bed, run over to my partner - I could actually see the footsteps from across the room indenting into the mattress - it would kick my partner and say “I’m hating you! I hate you! Fuck you!” in a baby-like, cartoonish voice. One day, I had a white noise machine on and in the white noise a voice started talking, saying “I remember you from when you were dead” and that it’s “never leaving me” and that there are “seven” of them. The voices just got worse and worse and more and more constant…constantly repeating the same thing “I’m hating you” or “we’re gonna use him” (no clue what that means) and all kinds of nonsense in a baby-like, cartoonish voice, almost like a parity of a demon voice. During this time due to the voices I became aware that they were following me absolutely everywhere I went… I mean literally… like to the bathroom, the shower, just across the room a couple feet - constantly hovering over me, crawling on my body, touching me. Then it started to get really perverted, where I would put on pants or some thing to leave the house and then I would feel a bunch of cold tiny little things go shooting down my pants and they would crawl around in that area while I was out in public to make it extremely uncomfortable for me. They would not let me sleep at all…I would stay up for 3-4 sometimes 5 days at a time… I gave myself a concussion sitting on my floor one night I fell asleep and smashed my head on my coffee table. They started to molest me heavily around this time, constantly just focusing on inappropriate areas with the static electricity feeling energy. And it’s remained like this for over a year now, with the constant stalking and talking and harassment/molestation.
They go in and out of my body through really obvious and uncomfortable ways, they go into the shower with me, they follow me to work and stand behind my desk yelling and screaming and repeating every thought that comes into my head every single day. They have a parade of insectoid and mutant looking things that come in and out of my room all night when I go to lay down to go to sleep. They crawl all over me, fight to get under the covers, they crawl around in every orifice - I have to plug my ears to keep them from crawling into my ears so they don’t crawl into them. I have to have a scarf over my mouth so they don’t crawl in there. They pace back and fourth on my pillows. They scream even louder and cry if I put headphones on or try to watch tv/read. They fuck with my computer at work and my cell phone. They harass my cat to no end. If I visit my family they will go into my father‘s room and I can hear them screaming about raping my father when I stay at his house when I go to visit. They get into anything that I do - I make candles and they literally get into the candles and ruin them they cause a candle wax to melt extremely slowly. If I burn incense it’ll get onto the coal and cause the incense to overburn or not burn it all. Absolutely anything I touch ever including my boyfriend, they will crawl all over or try to disrupt in any and every way possible. One will just attach to my hand in order to try to disrupt everything I do.
I have changed everything in my life; I don’t drink or do drugs, I don’t have sex, I don’t watch porn. I apply the seven virtues to my life completely. I am honest, kind, compassionate and caring. I’m a volunteer worker for the suicide prevention hotline. I don’t feed into them, I try not to feed them at all. I never break down - maybe like once every month for like 30 minutes at most. I bathe in salt water, essential oils & herbs every single night. I try to keep my aura purified, my vibrations and frequency high. I have not been afraid of them since the very beginning, so it’s been months and months where I’ve had absolutely no fear of them whatsoever. I’ve had my chakras removed completely. I’ve had multiple etheric implants that they put in me removed completely. I’ve had all of the entities removed from my body completely. I am getting energy work done by highly vetted practitioners regularly. And STILL, as I sit here today over a year later, they are screaming and crying in my office, right behind me, about five of them just repeating the same thing over and over again, which they do non stop day and night. I have not been in quiet or alone in over a year the only time I don’t hear their voices is if I am unconscious.
It’s also note worthy to state that I am not afraid of these things at all - I ignore them completely or tell them telepathically that they are infringing on my sovereignty and I do not consent and they need to leave. They have been running the same annoying program for months now constantly and none of it has been working - so I’m not feeding into them, but it’s still occurring. They say they want me to kill myself and that’s why they are doing this and that they will never leave. I’m hoping that someone in this sub might be able to help me.
Let me know what you think. I’m happy to answer any questions you have. Thanks.

So I am being stalked and harassed by negative entities for over a year following an NDE and I would like to know if any of you have experienced anything like I have. Any advice is greatly appreciated. The very first thing I did when this started was rule out psychological and psychological causes. I have been psychologically and physically evaluated and the only issue found was moderate anxiety. I even took anti psychotics for four months, because the things I am experiencing are generally believed to be “hallucinations” by modern psychiatry - however, they did not help at all and the experiences continued and increased in intensity. I’ve been evaluated by psychiatrists several times and they cannot find me to be psychotic and there are no medical reasons. I was 32 when I began experiencing the following. Leaving comments saying that I’m mentally ill, is a waste of time and will not be responded to.
Here is a summary of what I have been experiencing following my NDE in December 2021:
So I had an NDE December 18, 2021 and apparently it caused my “third eye” to open completely - shortly after that I had a bunch of awful things start happening to me; (friends started defaming me and ghosting out of no where, a new roommate moved into my house and hacked my phone using apple airdrop in a really sketchy way, I had a miscarriage, a mini stroke, my partner started becoming physically and psychologically abusive out of the blue after being together for years, an entity literally took over my boyfriend and beat the shit out of me - his eyes turned completely black and he has no memory of this, roommate tried to illegally evict me, lost multiple jobs for no apparent reason,) I began to feel like I was being watched. Multiple times I was attacked by random people in the street (the harassment from people and bad luck has stopped for the past year or so.) About a year after my NDE, my bed and my furniture started to move back and fourth by itself and at times it would sound and feel like someone was pacing or running in circles in my room, but no one was there. When I would be trying to fall asleep I could feel something poking me from under the bed through the mattress and crawling around under my bed or couch. I would get randomly poked when I was alone in my room. Once something answered my phone screaming “WHAT?!” at the person on the other end who was a Priest who was calling me back to schedule a time to bless my home, because of the supernatural things that were happening. Then I started to receive voicemails that consisted of white noise and something saying “I’m gonna kill you” over and over, in a voice that did not sound human. The calls would always come from random US numbers - when I would call the numbers back they were never working numbers. Around this time, I began recording audio in my room and caught multiple voices….Then….the audible voices started about 4 months after the physical manifestations began…
At night it started to get really intense - I would get into bed for the night and then it would start with the sensation that a small animal (like a cat or a dog) jumped up on to my bed - you could feel the mattress indent and then it would proceed to run back-and-forth across my pillows or pace all over my bed, or just walk on it and you could feel the footsteps. Then, it builds up to a static electric feeling energy that would crawl over me when I would try to go to sleep. It would cause me to convulse due to its charge. This invisible being would also attack my partner while he was asleep, causing him to convulse. The footsteps would jump on the bed, run over to my partner - I could actually see the footsteps from across the room indenting into the mattress - it would kick my partner and say “I’m hating you! I hate you! Fuck you!” in a baby-like, cartoonish voice. One day, I had a white noise machine on and in the white noise a voice started talking, saying “I remember you from when you were dead” and that it’s “never leaving me” and that there are “seven” of them. The voices just got worse and worse and more and more constant…constantly repeating the same thing “I’m hating you” or “we’re gonna use him” (no clue what that means) and all kinds of nonsense in a baby-like, cartoonish voice, almost like a parity of a demon voice. During this time due to the voices I became aware that they were following me absolutely everywhere I went… I mean literally… like to the bathroom, the shower, just across the room a couple feet - constantly hovering over me, crawling on my body, touching me. Then it started to get really perverted, where I would put on pants or some thing to leave the house and then I would feel a bunch of cold tiny little things go shooting down my pants and they would crawl around in that area while I was out in public to make it extremely uncomfortable for me. They would not let me sleep at all…I would stay up for 3-4 sometimes 5 days at a time… I gave myself a concussion sitting on my floor one night I fell asleep and smashed my head on my coffee table. They started to molest me heavily around this time, constantly just focusing on inappropriate areas with the static electricity feeling energy. And it’s remained like this for over a year now, with the constant stalking and talking and harassment/molestation.
They go in and out of my body through really obvious and uncomfortable ways, they go into the shower with me, they follow me to work and stand behind my desk yelling and screaming and repeating every thought that comes into my head every single day. They have a parade of insectoid and mutant looking things that come in and out of my room all night when I go to lay down to go to sleep. They crawl all over me, fight to get under the covers, they crawl around in every orifice - I have to plug my ears to keep them from crawling into my ears so they don’t crawl into them. I have to have a scarf over my mouth so they don’t crawl in there. They pace back and fourth on my pillows. They scream even louder and cry if I put headphones on or try to watch tv/read. They fuck with my computer at work and my cell phone. They harass my cat to no end. If I visit my family they will go into my father‘s room and I can hear them screaming about raping my father when I stay at his house when I go to visit. They get into anything that I do - I make candles and they literally get into the candles and ruin them they cause a candle wax to melt extremely slowly. If I burn incense it’ll get onto the coal and cause the incense to overburn or not burn it all. Absolutely anything I touch ever including my boyfriend, they will crawl all over or try to disrupt in any and every way possible. One will just attach to my hand in order to try to disrupt everything I do.
I have changed everything in my life; I don’t drink or do drugs, I don’t have sex, I don’t watch porn. I apply the seven virtues to my life completely. I am honest, kind, compassionate and caring. I’m a volunteer worker for the suicide prevention hotline. I don’t feed into them, I try not to feed them at all. I never break down - maybe like once every month for like 30 minutes at most. I bathe in salt water, essential oils & herbs every single night. I try to keep my aura purified, my vibrations and frequency high. I have not been afraid of them since the very beginning, so it’s been months and months where I’ve had absolutely no fear of them whatsoever. I’ve had my chakras removed completely. I’ve had multiple etheric implants that they put in me removed completely. I’ve had all of the entities removed from my body completely. I am getting energy work done by highly vetted practitioners regularly. And STILL, as I sit here today over a year later, they are screaming and crying in my office, right behind me, about five of them just repeating the same thing over and over again, which they do non stop day and night. I have not been in quiet or alone in over a year the only time I don’t hear their voices is if I am unconscious.
It’s also note worthy to state that I am not afraid of these things at all - I ignore them completely or tell them telepathically that they are infringing on my sovereignty and I do not consent and they need to leave. They have been running the same annoying program for months now constantly and none of it has been working - so I’m not feeding into them, but it’s still occurring. They say they want me to kill myself and that’s why they are doing this and that they will never leave. I’m hoping that someone in this sub might be able to help me.
Let me know what you think. I’m happy to answer any questions you have. Thanks.

So I am being stalked and harassed by negative entities for over a year following an NDE and I would like to know if any of you have experienced anything like I have. Any advice is greatly appreciated. The very first thing I did when this started was rule out psychological and psychological causes. I have been psychologically and physically evaluated and the only issue found was moderate anxiety. I even took anti psychotics for four months, because the things I am experiencing are generally believed to be “hallucinations” by modern psychiatry - however, they did not help at all and the experiences continued and increased in intensity. I’ve been evaluated by psychiatrists several times and they cannot find me to be psychotic and there are no medical reasons. I was 32 when I began experiencing the following. Leaving comments saying that I’m mentally ill, is a waste of time and will not be responded to.
Here is a summary of what I have been experiencing following my NDE in December 2021:
So I had an NDE December 18, 2021 and apparently it caused my “third eye” to open completely - shortly after that I had a bunch of awful things start happening to me; (friends started defaming me and ghosting out of no where, a new roommate moved into my house and hacked my phone using apple airdrop in a really sketchy way, I had a miscarriage, a mini stroke, my partner started becoming physically and psychologically abusive out of the blue after being together for years, an entity literally took over my boyfriend and beat the shit out of me - his eyes turned completely black and he has no memory of this, roommate tried to illegally evict me, lost multiple jobs for no apparent reason,) I began to feel like I was being watched. Multiple times I was attacked by random people in the street (the harassment from people and bad luck has stopped for the past year or so.) About a year after my NDE, my bed and my furniture started to move back and fourth by itself and at times it would sound and feel like someone was pacing or running in circles in my room, but no one was there. When I would be trying to fall asleep I could feel something poking me from under the bed through the mattress and crawling around under my bed or couch. I would get randomly poked when I was alone in my room. Once something answered my phone screaming “WHAT?!” at the person on the other end who was a Priest who was calling me back to schedule a time to bless my home, because of the supernatural things that were happening. Then I started to receive voicemails that consisted of white noise and something saying “I’m gonna kill you” over and over, in a voice that did not sound human. The calls would always come from random US numbers - when I would call the numbers back they were never working numbers. Around this time, I began recording audio in my room and caught multiple voices….Then….the audible voices started about 4 months after the physical manifestations began…
At night it started to get really intense - I would get into bed for the night and then it would start with the sensation that a small animal (like a cat or a dog) jumped up on to my bed - you could feel the mattress indent and then it would proceed to run back-and-forth across my pillows or pace all over my bed, or just walk on it and you could feel the footsteps. Then, it builds up to a static electric feeling energy that would crawl over me when I would try to go to sleep. It would cause me to convulse due to its charge. This invisible being would also attack my partner while he was asleep, causing him to convulse. The footsteps would jump on the bed, run over to my partner - I could actually see the footsteps from across the room indenting into the mattress - it would kick my partner and say “I’m hating you! I hate you! Fuck you!” in a baby-like, cartoonish voice. One day, I had a white noise machine on and in the white noise a voice started talking, saying “I remember you from when you were dead” and that it’s “never leaving me” and that there are “seven” of them. The voices just got worse and worse and more and more constant…constantly repeating the same thing “I’m hating you” or “we’re gonna use him” (no clue what that means) and all kinds of nonsense in a baby-like, cartoonish voice, almost like a parity of a demon voice. During this time due to the voices I became aware that they were following me absolutely everywhere I went… I mean literally… like to the bathroom, the shower, just across the room a couple feet - constantly hovering over me, crawling on my body, touching me. Then it started to get really perverted, where I would put on pants or some thing to leave the house and then I would feel a bunch of cold tiny little things go shooting down my pants and they would crawl around in that area while I was out in public to make it extremely uncomfortable for me. They would not let me sleep at all…I would stay up for 3-4 sometimes 5 days at a time… I gave myself a concussion sitting on my floor one night I fell asleep and smashed my head on my coffee table. They started to molest me heavily around this time, constantly just focusing on inappropriate areas with the static electricity feeling energy. And it’s remained like this for over a year now, with the constant stalking and talking and harassment/molestation.
They go in and out of my body through really obvious and uncomfortable ways, they go into the shower with me, they follow me to work and stand behind my desk yelling and screaming and repeating every thought that comes into my head every single day. They have a parade of insectoid and mutant looking things that come in and out of my room all night when I go to lay down to go to sleep. They crawl all over me, fight to get under the covers, they crawl around in every orifice - I have to plug my ears to keep them from crawling into my ears so they don’t crawl into them. I have to have a scarf over my mouth so they don’t crawl in there. They pace back and fourth on my pillows. They scream even louder and cry if I put headphones on or try to watch tv/read. They fuck with my computer at work and my cell phone. They harass my cat to no end. If I visit my family they will go into my father‘s room and I can hear them screaming about raping my father when I stay at his house when I go to visit. They get into anything that I do - I make candles and they literally get into the candles and ruin them they cause a candle wax to melt extremely slowly. If I burn incense it’ll get onto the coal and cause the incense to overburn or not burn it all. Absolutely anything I touch ever including my boyfriend, they will crawl all over or try to disrupt in any and every way possible. One will just attach to my hand in order to try to disrupt everything I do.
I have changed everything in my life; I don’t drink or do drugs, I don’t have sex, I don’t watch porn. I apply the seven virtues to my life completely. I am honest, kind, compassionate and caring. I’m a volunteer worker for the suicide prevention hotline. I don’t feed into them, I try not to feed them at all. I never break down - maybe like once every month for like 30 minutes at most. I bathe in salt water, essential oils & herbs every single night. I try to keep my aura purified, my vibrations and frequency high. I have not been afraid of them since the very beginning, so it’s been months and months where I’ve had absolutely no fear of them whatsoever. I’ve had my chakras removed completely. I’ve had multiple etheric implants that they put in me removed completely. I’ve had all of the entities removed from my body completely. I am getting energy work done by highly vetted practitioners regularly. And STILL, as I sit here today over a year later, they are screaming and crying in my office, right behind me, about five of them just repeating the same thing over and over again, which they do non stop day and night. I have not been in quiet or alone in over a year the only time I don’t hear their voices is if I am unconscious.
It’s also note worthy to state that I am not afraid of these things at all - I ignore them completely or tell them telepathically that they are infringing on my sovereignty and I do not consent and they need to leave. They have been running the same annoying program for months now constantly and none of it has been working - so I’m it feeding into them, but it’s still occurring. They say they want me to kill myself and that’s why they are doing this and that they will never leave. I’m hoping that someone in this sub might be able to help me look into my past lives and see if that is where the answer to why this is happening lays.
Let me know what you think. I’m happy to answer any questions you have. Thanks.

So I am being stalked and harassed by negative entities for over a year following an NDE and I would like to know if any of you have experienced anything like I have. Any advice is greatly appreciated. The very first thing I did when this started was rule out psychological and psychological causes. I have been psychologically and physically evaluated and the only issue found was moderate anxiety. I even took anti psychotics for four months, because the things I am experiencing are generally believed to be “hallucinations” by modern psychiatry - however, they did not help at all and the experiences continued and increased in intensity. I’ve been evaluated by psychiatrists several times and they cannot find me to be psychotic and there are no medical reasons. I was 32 when I began experiencing the following. Leaving comments saying that I’m mentally ill, is a waste of time and will not be responded to. I do not have any memories of being apart of any government projects, I have never been in the military, I have no criminal record, I am not an activist. I work as an administrative assistant for a Real Estate company and I live with my cat in San Francisco, CA. I’ve been told that my experiences resemble that of the experiences of someone who is a Targeted Individual.
Here is a summary of what I have been experiencing following my NDE in December 2021:
So I had an NDE December 18, 2021 and apparently it caused my “third eye” to open completely - shortly after that I had a bunch of awful things start happening to me; (friends started defaming me and ghosting out of no where, a new roommate moved into my house and hacked my phone using apple airdrop in a really sketchy way, I had a miscarriage, a mini stroke, my partner started becoming physically and psychologically abusive out of the blue after being together for years, an entity literally took over my boyfriend and beat the shit out of me - his eyes turned completely black and he has no memory of this, roommate tried to illegally evict me, lost multiple jobs for no apparent reason,) I began to feel like I was being watched. Multiple times I was attacked by random people in the street (the harassment from people and bad luck has stopped for the past year or so.) About a year after my NDE, my bed and my furniture started to move back and fourth by itself and at times it would sound and feel like someone was pacing or running in circles in my room, but no one was there. When I would be trying to fall asleep I could feel something poking me from under the bed through the mattress and crawling around under my bed or couch. I would get randomly poked when I was alone in my room. Once something answered my phone screaming “WHAT?!” at the person on the other end who was a Priest who was calling me back to schedule a time to bless my home, because of the supernatural things that were happening. Then I started to receive voicemails that consisted of white noise and something saying “I’m gonna kill you” over and over, in a voice that did not sound human. The calls would always come from random US numbers - when I would call the numbers back they were never working numbers. Around this time, I began recording audio in my room and caught multiple voices….Then….the audible voices started about 4 months after the physical manifestations began…
At night it started to get really intense - I would get into bed for the night and then it would start with the sensation that a small animal (like a cat or a dog) jumped up on to my bed - you could feel the mattress indent and then it would proceed to run back-and-forth across my pillows or pace all over my bed, or just walk on it and you could feel the footsteps. Then, it builds up to a static electric feeling energy that would crawl over me when I would try to go to sleep. It would cause me to convulse due to its charge. This invisible being would also attack my partner while he was asleep, causing him to convulse. The footsteps would jump on the bed, run over to my partner - I could actually see the footsteps from across the room indenting into the mattress - it would kick my partner and say “I’m hating you! I hate you! Fuck you!” in a baby-like, cartoonish voice. One day, I had a white noise machine on and in the white noise a voice started talking, saying “I remember you from when you were dead” and that it’s “never leaving me” and that there are “seven” of them. The voices just got worse and worse and more and more constant…constantly repeating the same thing “I’m hating you” or “we’re gonna use him” (no clue what that means) and all kinds of nonsense in a baby-like, cartoonish voice, almost like a parity of a demon voice. During this time due to the voices I became aware that they were following me absolutely everywhere I went… I mean literally… like to the bathroom, the shower, just across the room a couple feet - constantly hovering over me, crawling on my body, touching me. Then it started to get really perverted, where I would put on pants or some thing to leave the house and then I would feel a bunch of cold tiny little things go shooting down my pants and they would crawl around in that area while I was out in public to make it extremely uncomfortable for me. They would not let me sleep at all…I would stay up for 3-4 sometimes 5 days at a time… I gave myself a concussion sitting on my floor one night I fell asleep and smashed my head on my coffee table. They started to molest me heavily around this time, constantly just focusing on inappropriate areas with the static electricity feeling energy. And it’s remained like this for over a year now, with the constant stalking and talking and harassment/molestation.
They go in and out of my body through really obvious and uncomfortable ways, they go into the shower with me, they follow me to work and stand behind my desk yelling and screaming and repeating every thought that comes into my head every single day. They have a parade of insectoid and mutant looking things that come in and out of my room all night when I go to lay down to go to sleep. They crawl all over me, fight to get under the covers, they crawl around in every orifice - I have to plug my ears to keep them from crawling into my ears so they don’t crawl into them. I have to have a scarf over my mouth so they don’t crawl in there. They pace back and fourth on my pillows. They scream even louder and cry if I put headphones on or try to watch tv/read. They fuck with my computer at work and my cell phone. They harass my cat to no end. If I visit my family they will go into my father‘s room and I can hear them screaming about raping my father when I stay at his house when I go to visit. They get into anything that I do - I make candles and they literally get into the candles and ruin them they cause a candle wax to melt extremely slowly. If I burn incense it’ll get onto the coal and cause the incense to overburn or not burn it all. Absolutely anything I touch ever including my boyfriend, they will crawl all over or try to disrupt in any and every way possible. One will just attach to my hand in order to try to disrupt everything I do.
I have changed everything in my life; I don’t drink or do drugs, I don’t have sex, I don’t watch porn. I apply the seven virtues to my life completely. I am honest, kind, compassionate and caring. I’m a volunteer worker for the suicide prevention hotline. I don’t feed into them, I try not to feed them at all. I never break down - maybe like once every month for like 30 minutes at most. I bathe in salt water, essential oils & herbs every single night. I try to keep my aura purified, my vibrations and frequency high. I have not been afraid of them since the very beginning, so it’s been months and months where I’ve had absolutely no fear of them whatsoever. I’ve had my chakras removed completely. I’ve had multiple etheric implants that they put in me removed completely. I’ve had all of the entities removed from my body completely. I am getting energy work done by highly vetted practitioners regularly. And STILL, as I sit here today over a year later, they are screaming and crying in my office, right behind me, about five of them just repeating the same thing over and over again, which they do non stop day and night. I have not been in quiet or alone in over a year the only time I don’t hear their voices is if I am unconscious.
When I am at home I can feel energy weapons being shot at me, some cause a mild localized pain and looks like a laser, I can only see it with my eyes closed. When I close my eyes I can also see the entities creating all kinds of light and movement to prevent me from sleeping, meditating or relaxing. My ears ring randomly and it feels like I’m being shot with high frequencies. It seems to be coming in through the roof of my house. Recently I noticed that there is a small foreign object in my foot in between my toes - I am unsure if it is an implant . I am going to get my foot x-rayed this week. The harassment from humans has all but stopped for months now - I well liked and respected in my office and my neighborhood - However, the entity harassment is really intense still. It’s also note worthy to state that I am not afraid of these things at all - I ignore them completely or tell them telepathically that they are infringing on my sovereignty and I do not consent and they need to leave. They have been running the same annoying program for months now constantly and none of it has been working - so I’m not feeding into them, but it’s still occurring. They say they want me to kill myself and that’s why they are doing this and that they will never leave.
Let me know what you think. I’m happy to answer any questions you have. Thanks.

So I am being stalked and harassed by negative entities for over a year following an NDE and I would like to know if any of you have experienced anything like I have. Any advice is greatly appreciated. The very first thing I did when this started was rule out psychological and psychological causes. I have been psychologically and physically evaluated and the only issue found was moderate anxiety. I even took anti psychotics for four months, because the things I am experiencing are generally believed to be “hallucinations” by modern psychiatry - however, they did not help at all and the experiences continued and increased in intensity. I’ve been evaluated by psychiatrists several times and they cannot find me to be psychotic and there are no medical reasons. I was 32 when I began experiencing the following. Leaving comments saying that I’m mentally ill, is a waste of time and will not be responded to.
Here is a summary of what I have been experiencing following my NDE in December 2021:
So I had an NDE December 18, 2021 and apparently it caused my “third eye” to open completely - shortly after that I had a bunch of awful things start happening to me; (friends started defaming me and ghosting out of no where, a new roommate moved into my house and hacked my phone using apple airdrop in a really sketchy way, I had a miscarriage, a mini stroke, my partner started becoming physically and psychologically abusive out of the blue after being together for years, an entity literally took over my boyfriend and beat the shit out of me - his eyes turned completely black and he has no memory of this, roommate tried to illegally evict me, lost multiple jobs for no apparent reason,) I began to feel like I was being watched. Multiple times I was attacked by random people in the street (the harassment from people and bad luck has stopped for the past year or so.) About a year after my NDE, my bed and my furniture started to move back and fourth by itself and at times it would sound and feel like someone was pacing or running in circles in my room, but no one was there. When I would be trying to fall asleep I could feel something poking me from under the bed through the mattress and crawling around under my bed or couch. I would get randomly poked when I was alone in my room. Once something answered my phone screaming “WHAT?!” at the person on the other end who was a Priest who was calling me back to schedule a time to bless my home, because of the supernatural things that were happening. Then I started to receive voicemails that consisted of white noise and something saying “I’m gonna kill you” over and over, in a voice that did not sound human. The calls would always come from random US numbers - when I would call the numbers back they were never working numbers. Around this time, I began recording audio in my room and caught multiple voices….Then….the audible voices started about 4 months after the physical manifestations began…
At night it started to get really intense - I would get into bed for the night and then it would start with the sensation that a small animal (like a cat or a dog) jumped up on to my bed - you could feel the mattress indent and then it would proceed to run back-and-forth across my pillows or pace all over my bed, or just walk on it and you could feel the footsteps. Then, it builds up to a static electric feeling energy that would crawl over me when I would try to go to sleep. It would cause me to convulse due to its charge. This invisible being would also attack my partner while he was asleep, causing him to convulse. The footsteps would jump on the bed, run over to my partner - I could actually see the footsteps from across the room indenting into the mattress - it would kick my partner and say “I’m hating you! I hate you! Fuck you!” in a baby-like, cartoonish voice. One day, I had a white noise machine on and in the white noise a voice started talking, saying “I remember you from when you were dead” and that it’s “never leaving me” and that there are “seven” of them. The voices just got worse and worse and more and more constant…constantly repeating the same thing “I’m hating you” or “we’re gonna use him” (no clue what that means) and all kinds of nonsense in a baby-like, cartoonish voice, almost like a parity of a demon voice. During this time due to the voices I became aware that they were following me absolutely everywhere I went… I mean literally… like to the bathroom, the shower, just across the room a couple feet - constantly hovering over me, crawling on my body, touching me. Then it started to get really perverted, where I would put on pants or some thing to leave the house and then I would feel a bunch of cold tiny little things go shooting down my pants and they would crawl around in that area while I was out in public to make it extremely uncomfortable for me. They would not let me sleep at all…I would stay up for 3-4 sometimes 5 days at a time… I gave myself a concussion sitting on my floor one night I fell asleep and smashed my head on my coffee table. They started to molest me heavily around this time, constantly just focusing on inappropriate areas with the static electricity feeling energy. And it’s remained like this for over a year now, with the constant stalking and talking and harassment/molestation.
They go in and out of my body through really obvious and uncomfortable ways, they go into the shower with me, they follow me to work and stand behind my desk yelling and screaming and repeating every thought that comes into my head every single day. They have a parade of insectoid and mutant looking things that come in and out of my room all night when I go to lay down to go to sleep. They crawl all over me, fight to get under the covers, they crawl around in every orifice - I have to plug my ears to keep them from crawling into my ears so they don’t crawl into them. I have to have a scarf over my mouth so they don’t crawl in there. They pace back and fourth on my pillows. They scream even louder and cry if I put headphones on or try to watch tv/read. They fuck with my computer at work and my cell phone. They harass my cat to no end. If I visit my family they will go into my father‘s room and I can hear them screaming about raping my father when I stay at his house when I go to visit. They get into anything that I do - I make candles and they literally get into the candles and ruin them they cause a candle wax to melt extremely slowly. If I burn incense it’ll get onto the coal and cause the incense to overburn or not burn it all. Absolutely anything I touch ever including my boyfriend, they will crawl all over or try to disrupt in any and every way possible. One will just attach to my hand in order to try to disrupt everything I do.
I have changed everything in my life; I don’t drink or do drugs, I don’t have sex, I don’t watch porn. I apply the seven virtues to my life completely. I am honest, kind, compassionate and caring. I’m a volunteer worker for the suicide prevention hotline. I don’t feed into them, I try not to feed them at all. I never break down - maybe like once every month for like 30 minutes at most. I bathe in salt water, essential oils & herbs every single night. I try to keep my aura purified, my vibrations and frequency high. I have not been afraid of them since the very beginning, so it’s been months and months where I’ve had absolutely no fear of them whatsoever. I’ve had my chakras removed completely. I’ve had multiple etheric implants that they put in me removed completely. I’ve had all of the entities removed from my body completely. I am getting energy work done by highly vetted practitioners regularly. And STILL, as I sit here today over a year later, they are screaming and crying in my office, right behind me, about five of them just repeating the same thing over and over again, which they do non stop day and night. I have not been in quiet or alone in over a year the only time I don’t hear their voices is if I am unconscious.
It’s also note worthy to state that I am not afraid of these things at all - I ignore them completely or tell them telepathically that they are infringing on my sovereignty and I do not consent and they need to leave. They have been running the same annoying program for months now constantly and none of it has been working - so I’m not feeding into them, but it’s still occurring. They say they want me to kill myself and that’s why they are doing this and that they will never leave. I’m hoping that someone in this sub might be able to help me.
Let me know what you think. I’m happy to answer any questions you have. Thanks.

So I am being stalked and harassed by negative entities for over a year following an NDE and I would like to know if any of you have experienced anything like I have. Any advice is greatly appreciated. The very first thing I did when this started was rule out psychological and psychological causes. I have been psychologically and physically evaluated and the only issue found was moderate anxiety. I even took anti psychotics for four months, because the things I am experiencing are generally believed to be “hallucinations” by modern psychiatry - however, they did not help at all and the experiences continued and increased in intensity. I’ve been evaluated by psychiatrists several times and they cannot find me to be psychotic and there are no medical reasons. I was 32 when I began experiencing the following. Leaving comments saying that I’m mentally ill, is a waste of time and will not be responded to.
Here is a summary of what I have been experiencing following my NDE in December 2021:
So I had an NDE December 18, 2021 and apparently it caused my “third eye” to open completely - shortly after that I had a bunch of awful things start happening to me; (friends started defaming me and ghosting out of no where, a new roommate moved into my house and hacked my phone using apple airdrop in a really sketchy way, I had a miscarriage, a mini stroke, my partner started becoming physically and psychologically abusive out of the blue after being together for years, an entity literally took over my boyfriend and beat the shit out of me - his eyes turned completely black and he has no memory of this, roommate tried to illegally evict me, lost multiple jobs for no apparent reason,) I began to feel like I was being watched. Multiple times I was attacked by random people in the street (the harassment from people and bad luck has stopped for the past year or so.) About a year after my NDE, my bed and my furniture started to move back and fourth by itself and at times it would sound and feel like someone was pacing or running in circles in my room, but no one was there. When I would be trying to fall asleep I could feel something poking me from under the bed through the mattress and crawling around under my bed or couch. I would get randomly poked when I was alone in my room. Once something answered my phone screaming “WHAT?!” at the person on the other end who was a Priest who was calling me back to schedule a time to bless my home, because of the supernatural things that were happening. Then I started to receive voicemails that consisted of white noise and something saying “I’m gonna kill you” over and over, in a voice that did not sound human. The calls would always come from random US numbers - when I would call the numbers back they were never working numbers. Around this time, I began recording audio in my room and caught multiple voices….Then….the audible voices started about 4 months after the physical manifestations began…
At night it started to get really intense - I would get into bed for the night and then it would start with the sensation that a small animal (like a cat or a dog) jumped up on to my bed - you could feel the mattress indent and then it would proceed to run back-and-forth across my pillows or pace all over my bed, or just walk on it and you could feel the footsteps. Then, it builds up to a static electric feeling energy that would crawl over me when I would try to go to sleep. It would cause me to convulse due to its charge. This invisible being would also attack my partner while he was asleep, causing him to convulse. The footsteps would jump on the bed, run over to my partner - I could actually see the footsteps from across the room indenting into the mattress - it would kick my partner and say “I’m hating you! I hate you! Fuck you!” in a baby-like, cartoonish voice. One day, I had a white noise machine on and in the white noise a voice started talking, saying “I remember you from when you were dead” and that it’s “never leaving me” and that there are “seven” of them. The voices just got worse and worse and more and more constant…constantly repeating the same thing “I’m hating you” or “we’re gonna use him” (no clue what that means) and all kinds of nonsense in a baby-like, cartoonish voice, almost like a parity of a demon voice. During this time due to the voices I became aware that they were following me absolutely everywhere I went… I mean literally… like to the bathroom, the shower, just across the room a couple feet - constantly hovering over me, crawling on my body, touching me. Then it started to get really perverted, where I would put on pants or some thing to leave the house and then I would feel a bunch of cold tiny little things go shooting down my pants and they would crawl around in that area while I was out in public to make it extremely uncomfortable for me. They would not let me sleep at all…I would stay up for 3-4 sometimes 5 days at a time… I gave myself a concussion sitting on my floor one night I fell asleep and smashed my head on my coffee table. They started to molest me heavily around this time, constantly just focusing on inappropriate areas with the static electricity feeling energy. And it’s remained like this for over a year now, with the constant stalking and talking and harassment/molestation.
They go in and out of my body through really obvious and uncomfortable ways, they go into the shower with me, they follow me to work and stand behind my desk yelling and screaming and repeating every thought that comes into my head every single day. They have a parade of insectoid and mutant looking things that come in and out of my room all night when I go to lay down to go to sleep. They crawl all over me, fight to get under the covers, they crawl around in every orifice - I have to plug my ears to keep them from crawling into my ears so they don’t crawl into them. I have to have a scarf over my mouth so they don’t crawl in there. They pace back and fourth on my pillows. They scream even louder and cry if I put headphones on or try to watch tv/read. They fuck with my computer at work and my cell phone. They harass my cat to no end. If I visit my family they will go into my father‘s room and I can hear them screaming about raping my father when I stay at his house when I go to visit. They get into anything that I do - I make candles and they literally get into the candles and ruin them they cause a candle wax to melt extremely slowly. If I burn incense it’ll get onto the coal and cause the incense to overburn or not burn it all. Absolutely anything I touch ever including my boyfriend, they will crawl all over or try to disrupt in any and every way possible. One will just attach to my hand in order to try to disrupt everything I do.
I have changed everything in my life; I don’t drink or do drugs, I don’t have sex, I don’t watch porn. I apply the seven virtues to my life completely. I am honest, kind, compassionate and caring. I’m a volunteer worker for the suicide prevention hotline. I don’t feed into them, I try not to feed them at all. I never break down - maybe like once every month for like 30 minutes at most. I bathe in salt water, essential oils & herbs every single night. I try to keep my aura purified, my vibrations and frequency high. I have not been afraid of them since the very beginning, so it’s been months and months where I’ve had absolutely no fear of them whatsoever. I’ve had my chakras removed completely. I’ve had multiple etheric implants that they put in me removed completely. I’ve had all of the entities removed from my body completely. I am getting energy work done by highly vetted practitioners regularly. And STILL, as I sit here today over a year later, they are screaming and crying in my office, right behind me, about five of them just repeating the same thing over and over again, which they do non stop day and night. I have not been in quiet or alone in over a year the only time I don’t hear their voices is if I am unconscious.
It’s also note worthy to state that I am not afraid of these things at all - I ignore them completely or tell them telepathically that they are infringing on my sovereignty and I do not consent and they need to leave. They have been running the same annoying program for months now constantly and none of it has been working - so I’m not feeding into them, but it’s still occurring. They say they want me to kill myself and that’s why they are doing this and that they will never leave.
Since this began l have been researching NDEs, but I have yet to find any other cases in which the subject has experienced this type of contact/phenomena following an NDE experience. Has anyone personally experienced anything like this or do you know of any other cases like mine? Let me know what you think. I’m happy to answer any questions you have. Thanks.

So I am being stalked and harassed by negative entities for over a year following an NDE and I would like to know if any of you have experienced anything like I have. Any advice is greatly appreciated. The very first thing I did when this started was rule out psychological and psychological causes. I have been psychologically and physically evaluated and the only issue found was moderate anxiety. I even took anti psychotics for four months, because the things I am experiencing are generally believed to be “hallucinations” by modern psychiatry - however, they did not help at all and the experiences continued and increased in intensity. I’ve been evaluated by psychiatrists several times and they cannot find me to be psychotic and there are no medical reasons. I was 32 when I began experiencing the following. Leaving comments saying that I’m mentally ill, is a waste of time and will not be responded to.
Here is a summary of what I have been experiencing following my NDE in December 2021:
So I had an NDE December 18, 2021 and apparently it caused my “third eye” to open completely - shortly after that I had a bunch of awful things start happening to me; (friends started defaming me and ghosting out of no where, a new roommate moved into my house and hacked my phone using apple airdrop in a really sketchy way, I had a miscarriage, a mini stroke, my partner started becoming physically and psychologically abusive out of the blue after being together for years, an entity literally took over my boyfriend and beat the shit out of me - his eyes turned completely black and he has no memory of this, roommate tried to illegally evict me, lost multiple jobs for no apparent reason,) I began to feel like I was being watched. Multiple times I was attacked by random people in the street (the harassment from people and bad luck has stopped for the past year or so.) About a year after my NDE, my bed and my furniture started to move back and fourth by itself and at times it would sound and feel like someone was pacing or running in circles in my room, but no one was there. When I would be trying to fall asleep I could feel something poking me from under the bed through the mattress and crawling around under my bed or couch. I would get randomly poked when I was alone in my room. Once something answered my phone screaming “WHAT?!” at the person on the other end who was a Priest who was calling me back to schedule a time to bless my home, because of the supernatural things that were happening. Then I started to receive voicemails that consisted of white noise and something saying “I’m gonna kill you” over and over, in a voice that did not sound human. The calls would always come from random US numbers - when I would call the numbers back they were never working numbers. Around this time, I began recording audio in my room and caught multiple voices….Then….the audible voices started about 4 months after the physical manifestations began…
At night it started to get really intense - I would get into bed for the night and then it would start with the sensation that a small animal (like a cat or a dog) jumped up on to my bed - you could feel the mattress indent and then it would proceed to run back-and-forth across my pillows or pace all over my bed, or just walk on it and you could feel the footsteps. Then, it builds up to a static electric feeling energy that would crawl over me when I would try to go to sleep. It would cause me to convulse due to its charge. This invisible being would also attack my partner while he was asleep, causing him to convulse. The footsteps would jump on the bed, run over to my partner - I could actually see the footsteps from across the room indenting into the mattress - it would kick my partner and say “I’m hating you! I hate you! Fuck you!” in a baby-like, cartoonish voice. One day, I had a white noise machine on and in the white noise a voice started talking, saying “I remember you from when you were dead” and that it’s “never leaving me” and that there are “seven” of them. The voices just got worse and worse and more and more constant…constantly repeating the same thing “I’m hating you” or “we’re gonna use him” (no clue what that means) and all kinds of nonsense in a baby-like, cartoonish voice, almost like a parity of a demon voice. During this time due to the voices I became aware that they were following me absolutely everywhere I went… I mean literally… like to the bathroom, the shower, just across the room a couple feet - constantly hovering over me, crawling on my body, touching me. Then it started to get really perverted, where I would put on pants or some thing to leave the house and then I would feel a bunch of cold tiny little things go shooting down my pants and they would crawl around in that area while I was out in public to make it extremely uncomfortable for me. They would not let me sleep at all…I would stay up for 3-4 sometimes 5 days at a time… I gave myself a concussion sitting on my floor one night I fell asleep and smashed my head on my coffee table. They started to molest me heavily around this time, constantly just focusing on inappropriate areas with the static electricity feeling energy. And it’s remained like this for over a year now, with the constant stalking and talking and harassment/molestation.
They go in and out of my body through really obvious and uncomfortable ways, they go into the shower with me, they follow me to work and stand behind my desk yelling and screaming and repeating every thought that comes into my head every single day. They have a parade of insectoid and mutant looking things that come in and out of my room all night when I go to lay down to go to sleep. They crawl all over me, fight to get under the covers, they crawl around in every orifice - I have to plug my ears to keep them from crawling into my ears so they don’t crawl into them. I have to have a scarf over my mouth so they don’t crawl in there. They pace back and fourth on my pillows. They scream even louder and cry if I put headphones on or try to watch tv/read. They fuck with my computer at work and my cell phone. They harass my cat to no end. If I visit my family they will go into my father‘s room and I can hear them screaming about raping my father when I stay at his house when I go to visit. They get into anything that I do - I make candles and they literally get into the candles and ruin them they cause a candle wax to melt extremely slowly. If I burn incense it’ll get onto the coal and cause the incense to overburn or not burn it all. Absolutely anything I touch ever including my boyfriend, they will crawl all over or try to disrupt in any and every way possible. One will just attach to my hand in order to try to disrupt everything I do.
I have changed everything in my life; I don’t drink or do drugs, I don’t have sex, I don’t watch porn. I apply the seven virtues to my life completely. I am honest, kind, compassionate and caring. I’m a volunteer worker for the suicide prevention hotline. I don’t feed into them, I try not to feed them at all. I never break down - maybe like once every month for like 30 minutes at most. I bathe in salt water, essential oils & herbs every single night. I try to keep my aura purified, my vibrations and frequency high. I have not been afraid of them since the very beginning, so it’s been months and months where I’ve had absolutely no fear of them whatsoever. I’ve had my chakras removed completely. I’ve had multiple etheric implants that they put in me removed completely. I’ve had all of the entities removed from my body completely. I am getting energy work done by highly vetted practitioners regularly. And STILL, as I sit here today over a year later, they are screaming and crying in my office, right behind me, about five of them just repeating the same thing over and over again, which they do non stop day and night. I have not been in quiet or alone in over a year the only time I don’t hear their voices is if I am unconscious.
It’s also note worthy to state that I am not afraid of these things at all - I ignore them completely or tell them telepathically that they are infringing on my sovereignty and I do not consent and they need to leave. They have been running the same annoying program for months now constantly and none of it has been working - so I’m not feeding into them, but it’s still occurring. They say they want me to kill myself and that’s why they are doing this and that they will never leave.
Since this began l have been researching NDEs, but I have yet to find any other cases in which the subject has experienced this type of contact/phenomena following an NDE experience. Has anyone personally experienced anything like this or do you know of any other cases like mine? Let me know what you think. I’m happy to answer any questions you have. Thanks.

So I am being stalked and harassed by negative entities for over a year following an NDE and I would like to know if any of you have experienced anything like I have. Any advice is greatly appreciated. The very first thing I did when this started was rule out psychological and psychological causes. I have been psychologically and physically evaluated and the only issue found was moderate anxiety. I even took anti psychotics for four months, because the things I am experiencing are generally believed to be “hallucinations” by modern psychiatry - however, they did not help at all and the experiences continued and increased in intensity. I’ve been evaluated by psychiatrists several times and they cannot find me to be psychotic and there are no medical reasons. I was 32 when I began experiencing the following. Leaving comments saying that I’m mentally ill, is a waste of time and will not be responded to. I do not have any memories of being apart of any government projects, I have never been in the military, I have no criminal record, I am not an activist. I work as an administrative assistant for a Real Estate company and I live with my cat in San Francisco, CA. I’ve been told that my experiences resemble that of the experiences of someone who is a Targeted Individual.
Here is a summary of what I have been experiencing following my NDE in December 2021:
So I had an NDE December 18, 2021 and apparently it caused my “third eye” to open completely - shortly after that I had a bunch of awful things start happening to me; (friends started defaming me and ghosting out of no where, a new roommate moved into my house and hacked my phone using apple airdrop in a really sketchy way, I had a miscarriage, a mini stroke, my partner started becoming physically and psychologically abusive out of the blue after being together for years, an entity literally took over my boyfriend and beat the shit out of me - his eyes turned completely black and he has no memory of this, roommate tried to illegally evict me, lost multiple jobs for no apparent reason,) I began to feel like I was being watched. Multiple times I was attacked by random people in the street (the harassment from people and bad luck has stopped for the past year or so.) About a year after my NDE, my bed and my furniture started to move back and fourth by itself and at times it would sound and feel like someone was pacing or running in circles in my room, but no one was there. When I would be trying to fall asleep I could feel something poking me from under the bed through the mattress and crawling around under my bed or couch. I would get randomly poked when I was alone in my room. Once something answered my phone screaming “WHAT?!” at the person on the other end who was a Priest who was calling me back to schedule a time to bless my home, because of the supernatural things that were happening. Then I started to receive voicemails that consisted of white noise and something saying “I’m gonna kill you” over and over, in a voice that did not sound human. The calls would always come from random US numbers - when I would call the numbers back they were never working numbers. Around this time, I began recording audio in my room and caught multiple voices….Then….the audible voices started about 4 months after the physical manifestations began…
At night it started to get really intense - I would get into bed for the night and then it would start with the sensation that a small animal (like a cat or a dog) jumped up on to my bed - you could feel the mattress indent and then it would proceed to run back-and-forth across my pillows or pace all over my bed, or just walk on it and you could feel the footsteps. Then, it builds up to a static electric feeling energy that would crawl over me when I would try to go to sleep. It would cause me to convulse due to its charge. This invisible being would also attack my partner while he was asleep, causing him to convulse. The footsteps would jump on the bed, run over to my partner - I could actually see the footsteps from across the room indenting into the mattress - it would kick my partner and say “I’m hating you! I hate you! Fuck you!” in a baby-like, cartoonish voice. One day, I had a white noise machine on and in the white noise a voice started talking, saying “I remember you from when you were dead” and that it’s “never leaving me” and that there are “seven” of them. The voices just got worse and worse and more and more constant…constantly repeating the same thing “I’m hating you” or “we’re gonna use him” (no clue what that means) and all kinds of nonsense in a baby-like, cartoonish voice, almost like a parity of a demon voice. During this time due to the voices I became aware that they were following me absolutely everywhere I went… I mean literally… like to the bathroom, the shower, just across the room a couple feet - constantly hovering over me, crawling on my body, touching me. Then it started to get really perverted, where I would put on pants or some thing to leave the house and then I would feel a bunch of cold tiny little things go shooting down my pants and they would crawl around in that area while I was out in public to make it extremely uncomfortable for me. They would not let me sleep at all…I would stay up for 3-4 sometimes 5 days at a time… I gave myself a concussion sitting on my floor one night I fell asleep and smashed my head on my coffee table. They started to molest me heavily around this time, constantly just focusing on inappropriate areas with the static electricity feeling energy. And it’s remained like this for over a year now, with the constant stalking and talking and harassment/molestation.
They go in and out of my body through really obvious and uncomfortable ways, they go into the shower with me, they follow me to work and stand behind my desk yelling and screaming and repeating every thought that comes into my head every single day. They have a parade of insectoid and mutant looking things that come in and out of my room all night when I go to lay down to go to sleep. They crawl all over me, fight to get under the covers, they crawl around in every orifice - I have to plug my ears to keep them from crawling into my ears so they don’t crawl into them. I have to have a scarf over my mouth so they don’t crawl in there. They pace back and fourth on my pillows. They scream even louder and cry if I put headphones on or try to watch tv/read. They fuck with my computer at work and my cell phone. They harass my cat to no end. If I visit my family they will go into my father‘s room and I can hear them screaming about raping my father when I stay at his house when I go to visit. They get into anything that I do - I make candles and they literally get into the candles and ruin them they cause a candle wax to melt extremely slowly. If I burn incense it’ll get onto the coal and cause the incense to overburn or not burn it all. Absolutely anything I touch ever including my boyfriend, they will crawl all over or try to disrupt in any and every way possible. One will just attach to my hand in order to try to disrupt everything I do.
I have changed everything in my life; I don’t drink or do drugs, I don’t have sex, I don’t watch porn. I apply the seven virtues to my life completely. I am honest, kind, compassionate and caring. I’m a volunteer worker for the suicide prevention hotline. I don’t feed into them, I try not to feed them at all. I never break down - maybe like once every month for like 30 minutes at most. I bathe in salt water, essential oils & herbs every single night. I try to keep my aura purified, my vibrations and frequency high. I have not been afraid of them since the very beginning, so it’s been months and months where I’ve had absolutely no fear of them whatsoever. I’ve had my chakras removed completely. I’ve had multiple etheric implants that they put in me removed completely. I’ve had all of the entities removed from my body completely. I am getting energy work done by highly vetted practitioners regularly. And STILL, as I sit here today over a year later, they are screaming and crying in my office, right behind me, about five of them just repeating the same thing over and over again, which they do non stop day and night. I have not been in quiet or alone in over a year the only time I don’t hear their voices is if I am unconscious.
When I am at home I can feel energy weapons being shot at me, some cause a mild localized pain and looks like a laser, I can only see it with my eyes closed. When I close my eyes I can also see the entities creating all kinds of light and movement to prevent me from sleeping, meditating or relaxing. My ears ring randomly and it feels like I’m being shot with high frequencies. It seems to be coming in through the roof of my house. Recently I noticed that there is a small foreign object in my foot in between my toes - I am unsure if it is an implant . I am going to get my foot x-rayed this week. The harassment from humans has all but stopped for months now - I well liked and respected in my office and my neighborhood - However, the entity harassment is really intense still. It’s also note worthy to state that I am not afraid of these things at all - I ignore them completely or tell them telepathically that they are infringing on my sovereignty and I do not consent and they need to leave. They have been running the same annoying program for months now constantly and none of it has been working - so I’m not feeding into them, but it’s still occurring. They say they want me to kill myself and that’s why they are doing this and that they will never leave.
Let me know what you think. I’m happy to answer any questions you have. Thanks.