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r/StressFreeSeason - No Stress Needed!

2019.01.08 00:52 KerriFL r/StressFreeSeason - No Stress Needed!

Stress isn't healthy! This sub is for those who need to destress and relax. During the Holiday season, this is the place to share tips, tricks, and resources to cut down on seasonal stress. Year round, this is a sub to share Stress-Free content! From the helpful to the relaxing, all chill content has a home here. So take a breather! This is StressFreeSeason
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2014.02.15 01:17 opalhat Twitch Plays Pokémon

The community subreddit for the original Twitch Plays Pokémon, the Twitch channel where hundreds of people play a Pokémon game at the same time. Join us at twitch.tv/twitchplayspokemon.
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2024.05.13 22:41 Redluff Comprehensive TORRAS Ostand case review

Comprehensive TORRAS Ostand case review
Full disclosure, TORRAS sent me these cases free of charge, but they didn't pay me or tell me to say anything; these are my own genuine opinions about the cases, good and bad.
The white iPhone is in the Ostand Spin case, and the natural one is in the Ostand R case.
I want to start off with MagSafe because the magnets on these are insane. As visible with the magnet paper, the MagSafe consists of only two segments rather than a full ring, but they are suuper strong. I currently own 7 cases, and the TORRAS ones have the strongest magnets by far. They stick to MagSafe accessories very strongly, but the R case takes the edge because you can just stick it to any ferromagnetic metal surface and it sticks to it securely. I've done some testing and I'm not afraid of the phone falling off at all. Here's a video I made of this. I've found that this happens because the stand flips out very slightly due to the attraction and sticks to the metal surface. It can also be done with the Spin case, but in my experience, it's a hit or miss, more often a miss. I have to smash my phone onto the surface for it to work, which isn't nice... with the R case, it works flawlessly. I don't think this is an advertised feature, but it works very well.
The only thing I miss is the alignment magnets below the ring. The Spin case has the hinge kind of in the way, but I think the R case could easily have it, and it's a bummer that it doesn't. I use a MagSafe wallet, and it just rotates around the rings without the alignment magnet, especially since the ring itself can rotate too, so not even the friction can keep it in place. Not all MagSafe accessories rely on the alignment magnet though, so this depends on what you use with your phone.
The built-in stands are more useful than I anticipated. I haven't used cases with stands, pop sockets, or anything like that before, because I don't like the bulk they add to the phone, but these are very minimal and don't add any weight or bulk compared to other cases. The tension hinges feel good and high quality, and the stands work as you would expect, pretty nice overall; you can prop the phone up in basically any orientation and angle. The Spin case has a fixed hinge at the bottom of the MagSafe ring that clicks into place at 90-degree intervals. The R (rotatable) stand can rotate around the MagSafe ring freely. Only the Spin case can hold the phone in a fully upright vertical position, and it can even go at a negative angle if you put something heavy into the stand to counterbalance it (could be useful for taking videos maybe). Overall, I've found the R stand more useful though, and found some alternative uses for the stand as well, as you can see in the images. I've used it to hang it on the glass shower door to listen to music in the shower, without getting the phone wet multiple times, and it works wonders. I've asked TORRAS about how waterproof the hinges are, but they haven't gotten back to me about it yet. (The case or phone doesn't get wet directly, but the steam might condense on it; not sure how good that is in the long run.) Another important aspect to mention is the fidgeting potential of the stands. Opening and closing the stands, spinning them around their axis, it's just all really satisfying and I just can't stop myself from playing with them whenever I have my phone in my hands. This could even potentially be considered a downside in certain situations, as I've found myself distracted, playing with my phone case during conversations with people. These things are addictive if you like to fidget.
The overall production and material quality of the cases is excellent. I've bought multiple TORRAS cases and screen protectors with my own money in the past, and they always deliver superb quality. The back of these is a soft translucent dark gray plastic, which means they don't yellow like clear cases. The edges are slightly rough rubber for good grip and drop protection (the same as their Guardian Mag). I also sometimes flip out the stands to support my grip on the phone too. The R stand comes with interchangeable buttons (black, orange, and dark green) machined out of aluminum. This elevates the quality and can be customized (as you can also see in my pictures) and is also a win for the R case in my eyes, compared to the Spin case's fixed buttons made of the same rubber as the sides of the case, though both cases' buttons are clicky and responsive.
To summarize, both cases are really high quality with super strong magnets, and I can recommend both; they're great. They have slight differences and strengths, depending on what you need. If I had to choose one, though, I'd definitely get the rotatable over the spin, especially since they're both the same price. The only downside I've found throughout my testing is the missing alignment magnets.
I personally have mostly been using my Bullstrap leather case (that I ordered to Europe, expensive as hell) and going caseless every now and then in the past, but the Ostand R quickly became my main case, replacing the Bullstrap and even the naked phone. The built-in kickstand in a regular phone case form factor is just so convenient, I miss it whenever I don't have it (and the addcitive fidgeting might play a role too haha), and the fact that I can just slap the phone onto a metal surface without worrying about it falling off is also very useful for me. I often put my phone aside to take a timelapse video of me working, so that i don't get distracted by it and concentrate on work, and the built in stands make this A LOT easier than before. I switched the action and power button to orange and set my wallpaper and clock to match and i just love the personality of it. If i happen to switch to another case or go naked occasionally (which i rarely do now), i still carry the R case in my backpack with me in case i need it or want to switch to it. I genuinely love this case, which to be honest i didn't expect before getting them.
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2024.05.13 22:40 SubjectRevolution295 When to involve families?

Long Post Alert:
So when do you all usually involve families? What is your AM process?
For me it is like:
  1. Parents search for the prospects in the matrimony or from relatives
  2. Talk with the prospect's parents to get basic details and stuff or they contact us
  3. Prospect's parents show my profile to the guy or my parents show the guy's profile to me
  4. If they are ok or we are ok, my parents check kundli
  5. If the kundli matches, parents talk again and exchange numbers
  6. PROBLEM STARTS HERE LOL
The guy and me will start talking. Two guys have rejected me because of my height after initial conversation (even though it is mentioned in the matrimony profile - 5'3), I have rejected 2 guys because one was boasting a lot about himself and was not at all interested in me, and the other one was really rude and said he hated his family, etc (WEIRD). Other guy is cute and all but been talking (only talking, chats only and not conversations) for four months now and there is no visible progress or any affirmation from the guy's end.
So the rejection part - I informed the guys directly, respectfully stating in the lines of "I don't think this is something that I'm looking for. We are just very different people, and hope you find your right match and wishing the best". And one of their parents (the second rude one) called my parents and almost begged and apologized for whatever their son spoke and asked for us to meet in person, which my parents denied. Other parent was not involved. Among the two guys that rejected me, one ghosted while I was genuinely interested and without any idea that he did not like me for my appearance, I was texting him and waiting for response. I felt pathetic about it. Another guy did not tell me anything either but his parents called my parents and informed that they think I am too short for their son and might not be compatible.
Now with the guy that I have been talking with also came to us through the same process as above but families are not at all involved. My parents are anxious that the guy's parents are not ready to get to know us or meet me (because the guy is not exclusive and I am and always been) so it doesn't sit right with my parents and family. The guy is reluctant to involve our families even now because he still hasn't decided upon anything. We are talking like two friends and not like 2 adults wanting to get married (mostly because he isn't) and my parents hate both of us for this. My parents already gave up on this one and started looking for other options in the matrimony and been asking me to cut this one off soon before i get another match but I do not have the heart to do it yet as I like this person genuinely.
Questions:
  1. Is there a specific time that you guys start involving your parents or are they involved right from the beginning?
  2. Is 4 months of mere talking stage (not even something serious) is a red flag to look upon?
  3. How much parents involvement is too much involvement? I know it depends on the state/family or the communities but still I'm curious to know
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2024.05.13 22:39 SubjectRevolution295 When to involve families?

Long Post Alert:
So when do you all usually involve families? What is your AM process?
For me it is like:
  1. Parents search for the prospects in the matrimony or from relatives
  2. Talk with the prospect's parents to get basic details and stuff or they contact us
  3. Prospect's parents show my profile to the guy or my parents show the guy's profile to me
  4. If they are ok or we are ok, my parents check kundli
  5. If the kundli matches, parents talk again and exchange numbers
  6. PROBLEM STARTS HERE LOL
The guy and me will start talking. Two guys have rejected me because of my height after initial conversation (even though it is mentioned in the matrimony profile - 5'3), I have rejected 2 guys because one was boasting a lot about himself and was not at all interested in me, and the other one was really rude and said he hated his family, etc (WEIRD). Other guy is cute and all but been talking (only talking, chats only and not conversations) for four months now and there is no visible progress or any affirmation from the guy's end.
So the rejection part - I informed the guys directly, respectfully stating in the lines of "I don't think this is something that I'm looking for. We are just very different people, and hope you find your right match and wishing the best". And one of their parents (the second rude one) called my parents and almost begged and apologized for whatever their son spoke and asked for us to meet in person, which my parents denied. Other parent was not involved. Among the two guys that rejected me, one ghosted while I was genuinely interested and without any idea that he did not like me for my appearance, I was texting him and waiting for response. I felt pathetic about it. Another guy did not tell me anything either but his parents called my parents and informed that they think I am too short for their son and might not be compatible.
Now with the guy that I have been talking with also came to us through the same process as above but families are not at all involved. My parents are anxious that the guy's parents are not ready to get to know us or meet me (because the guy is not exclusive and I am and always been) so it doesn't sit right with my parents and family. The guy is reluctant to involve our families even now because he still hasn't decided upon anything. We are talking like two friends and not like 2 adults wanting to get married (mostly because he isn't) and my parents hate both of us for this. My parents already gave up on this one and started looking for other options in the matrimony and been asking me to cut this one off soon before i get another match but I do not have the heart to do it yet as I like this person genuinely.
Questions:
  1. Is there a specific time that you guys start involving your parents or are they involved right from the beginning?
  2. Is 4 months of mere talking stage (not even something serious) is a red flag to look upon?
  3. How much parents involvement is too much involvement? I know it depends on the state/family or the communities but still I'm curious to know
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2024.05.13 22:38 WheresMyChip Do I need a transformer?

I bought this spotlight without realizing it’s meant to be wired directly. Can I just wire it to any old cord and plug into the wall?
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2024.05.13 22:36 CuriousAnachronism 24 [M4M] Germany/Europe/Online - Fiat iustitia, et pereat mundus

Prologue

Hello and welcome to my post. I will subdivide this into two large parts. One will cover my thoughts, feelings, my hopes and dreams...While the other will tell you the specifics of how I pass the time, what topics interest me, what passions do I posses. I believe that at the end of this leap into my inner world, you dear reader, will have all the necessary information to judge whether we are compatible or not.

Part I
I am writing this in the hopes of finding something that I lack. Lately I have had this feeling, this tinge of melancholy within the dephts of my being, this yearning to find a kindred spirit, another Soul, much like mine, to form a bond with. Perhaps Loneliness is the right word for what is bothering me, but to use it seems to carry with it a connotation of ungratefulness. Ungratefulness for the people that I do have in my life, although none of them, of course, have the connection to me that I seek here.

I have found it increasingly necessary to seek in this Life a sort of purity of thought. What I mean is, I have began to undestand what ideas and concepts are ultimately compatible with my inner most Self, ergo what guidelines I have to follow to feel the most whole. Naturally I have likewise realised what I cannot add to my Self and what I will henceforth reject with all the power that I posses.

With this new context in mind, I now follow on the path of self improvement. I will now begin to mold my Self into my perfected idea of how the Self should be. This is certainly a significant undertaking, one that will not be easy to follow through on but one that I ultimately have to do. To me such context is essential. It is akin to a Guiding Star shining in the night. I will follow this Star for without it I am lost in the vast Darkness.

Looking back at my life, it was suboptimal, especially if one compares the way it molded me to how I will now mold myself. I suppose I must look on with a hint of regret at all that time which one might consider to be lost. Still... I try to stave off such decisively negative interpretations, after all, I have ultimately came to these conclusions. That means that somewhere along the line I had to have picked up on enough of such ideas for them to become so cemented in my consciousness. Well, either that or I was always like this, but in that case I can at least thank my life up to this point for not being able to supress such manifestations of my inner most Self.

To add to the topic of my life, I must admit that not all the battles have yet been won, not all the Demons vanquished, not every Mountain climbed. I want you to keep such things in mind when deciding whether or not to approach me. Many will shy away, I undestand that much, but the pursuit of true Companionship is just another such battle. Having said all that I do believe that being able to overcome hurdles together carries with it a certain appeal. That is to say, what's the fun in joining once the Game is already over?

I don't shy away from such challenges, perhaps to a fault. Certain troubles that I faced in the past carry with them a long shadow over my current health and well being. Still, I intend to change little in this regard other than the proficiency with which I will clash the current of my Will against the cliffs of Life.
Part II
In this part of my post I will tell you about my interests and hobbies, I will try to be thorough, commonality in this regard is rather important to build a relationship
History. I have had an interest in history for almost a decade now, it started back in school and developed from there. Well, now that I think about it one could argue that it started even earlier in my life as I liked watching the odd historic documentary or film aired on television but it wasn't regular back then, I never actively sought it out. I am mostly interested in European history in the period between the 18th-20th century but I sometimes branch out to other time periods and other parts of the world. I watch various channels related to history and read articles and sometimes books. I have recently got a few books on the German revolution of 1848/1849 and a historical magazine on the Thirty Years' War. Besides that I try to visit museums sometimes.
Literature. Especially old novels. I like to immerse myself in the Worlds of these books, I tend to read them while listening to thematically fitting music and take my time with them. One time you are following a troubled Youth in his quest for spiritual understanding of the world, another you see the aged and decrepit Doctor gambling his very Soul on the promises of abtaining satisfaction in earthy pleasures, then again your olfaction notices the most pleasant scent known to man even as the one eminating it has the appearance of a revolting Frog. These and many other stories open up to you once you decide to set foot into the literary World.
Languages. I know three, with one being a bit rusty. I am currently working intently on strengthening it. I believe that if I continue to apply myself in this regard then I should be able to finally conquer it. What language am I working on? Well, if you were to stack all the major works in it they would be as tall as a house... It is fun to go through different works in multiple languages, the same goes for film, games and such.
Games. I recently played Cyberpunk 2077. Well as recently as I played any major story centric game. Now that the dust has settled and the bugs mostly removed...It's not that bad. The main questline at least. Besides that I tried Fallout 76 (Very average, I'm dissapointed with what they made the "RPG" system) and I might give Deus Ex Manking Divided another spin (since it's somewhat similar to Cyberpunk when it comes to its aesthetics). Dark Souls is one of my favorite series, I still haven't beaten Elden Ring though. When it came out I wasn't in the right mindset to invest a hundred hours into it, with all those bosses and difficult locations. I think I'll only consider playing it if I am streaming it to someone. I am generally interested in either streaming games or having the person I am talking to stream them to me. To be specific I mean streaming to a single person while being on call. Besides that I'm a big fan of Paradox strategy games, especially Europa Universalis IV and Heats of Iron IV, I tend to only play single player since I find multiplayer with many people to be rather stressful but on the other hand I have nothing against a co-op game. I'm not the best player though, despite the ammount of hours I have in them. Another great game I would mention would be Dragon's Dogma. A very underrated RPG. I recently beat it again and it was an atmospheric and interesting experience. It is one of those games that feel like they have an endless ammount of depth and constant new secrets to discover.
Anime and Manga. In recent times my interest in them has waned but I still watch the occasional series here and there. Like Cyberpunk Edgerunners (Which I found to be rather mediocre) and the very good first season from the new arc of Bleach. Some of my favourite series include: Fullmetal Alchemist Brotherhood, Death Note, Fate;Zero, Psycho Pass, Code Geass and Attack on Titan. I wouldn't mind if you were to introduce me to some new series, maybe based on the ones I mentioned. My favourite Manga is Berserk which I still follow, althought I am still not certain on the direction that the new author is taking. I suppose it really is a matter of contention whether a somewhat (or considerably warped) vision is better than an unfinished work. One could argue that a few novels remain unfinished and possess a macabre appeal to them as such.
Music. Classical music has a very special place in my heart. A few of my favourite pieces would be: Clair de Lune, Nocturne Op. 9 No.2, Devil's Trill Sonata, Danse Macabre, Valse Sentimentale, Symphony No. 7 in A Major, Op. 92: II. Alegreto (by Beethoven) and Suite from Swan Lake, Op. 20a: I. Scene. Moderato. There are more but these ones always invoke something in me when I listen to them. Besides Classical I also enjoy listening to Synthwave, old Western pop and J-pop, both modern and from the 20th century.
Esotericism. I am interested in things spiritual, mystical, magical and esoteric. I have read religios texts, magical grimoires, introductions to various schools of thought. It is interesting to me.
Epilogue
Hopefully I was able to cast the spotlight upon my inner World in a clear and unequivocal manner. I feel the need to add to the aforementioned that I am rather introverted, which means that I tend to dislike large social gatherings. I managed to condition myself to be able to endure the presense of large groups of people but it isn't something that I would seek out in most cases. Besides that I am neurodivergent and suffer from certain issues with mental health. I have to take medication to keep myself under control. They work well enough but certain days are harder than others. I respect the struggle that others have with mental health but in the context of a relationship I have my limits, no one with BDP for instance. I am also not looking for anything casual. I understand than one cannot demand depth and meaning from a conversation with an absolute stranger, that is akin to trying to build a sand castle right before the waves strike but I ask at least that you enter with a mindset that this might become something of significance. I also do want to say that I am completely Monogamous. My preference? The sickly, pale, intellectual who watches rain droplets slide down the window in Autumn. Lastly, if I enjoy the company of a person I tend to not want to let them go.
Thank you for taking the time to read my post and have a good day. I ask that you send a DM instead of a chat and that you give your thoughts on my title in the opening of your message.
Goodbye...Or perhaps untill we meet again
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2024.05.13 22:34 LovelySmiles33 Struggling

I am 24 years old, I have a high school diploma, I went to college for a year at a community college, I’m in a very bad environment that I can’t thrive in and I feel like I’m lost without hope, my family is very unsupportive and emotionally abusive and I don’t know where to turn too, when I was away for high school at a yeshiva in New York City I was so happy and had the mindset and motivation to succeed. It’s constantly my family that is bringing me down and I feel as if I have no way to escape, I’ve wanted to go to Israel to yeshiva to learn, get closer to hashem and hopefully get past this hard place in my life, and to obtain better resources for Baal teshuva so I can avoid going back in the same direction. I’m looking to start a foundation to build from. I am looking for maybe a vocational school where I can pick up a career
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2024.05.13 22:34 Motor_Counter_5352 Does this even make sense? (Sizing Help)

Hello all! Years ago I tried the calculator out and the sizing it gave me just made no sense at all so I never explored it further. I am having the same trust issues now, and I am just at a loss of what to do! Any help would really be so great. Thank you in advance!
I currently wear a 38D and haven't really had sizing issues, except that I have teardrop shaped boobs so the best bras for me are the Aerie Balconettes (though I do hate how its cuts into my shoulders and doesn't do any favors for my backfat).
On a Bra that Fits I am told 38G in US Sizing (38F in UK sizing) Here are my measurements based on their directions:
I just cannot fathom this actually fits me and I am at a loss.
I do not feel comfortable without a lot of support as my breasts are heavy and hang low. Without a bra not only do I hate how they look, it physically causes pain from the pull of my breasts, especially since the bottoms are the most heaviest.
But full cup bras, which seem to be the most comfortable, often are too big for my upper breast and it causes unsightly issues. However, I tend to double bubble over balconette bras.
I am seeking not only a great daily bra that also helps with back fat and side fat, but I dream of wearing cute sundresses and comfortable bras. I wish I could find a way to wear spaghetti straps!
Any assistance would be amazing, thank you all!
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2024.05.13 22:33 Leon_Steel Introduction to my fictional Shared Universe the JoeVerse.

Introduction to my fictional Shared Universe the JoeVerse.
I want to share a overview/introduction to my fictional universe that I've been slowly building overtime. I've unfortunately fallen into eternal world building hell where I build far more than I write but at least I thoroughly enjoy it. What I mostly want from this post is to see if the wild amalgamation that is my universe is at least on a surface level "Coherent". I'll answer any questions best I can.
Disclaimer: the pictures shown in the character summaries are not mine and are shown for concept art purposes. These character summaries are taken from across the JoeVerse universe.
Notes: Some information is purposely left vague due to the requirement of story details and I tried to simply the explanations. It may see very unorganized but I created a continuity timeline to help keep track of the verse.
I also created detailed guides for the many Stories, Races/Species, Factions, Locations and Dear God hundreds of Character profiles. Speaking of characters, I really enjoy casual power scaling of fictional characters etc, so when scaling my own universe I exclusively reference the Vs Battle Wiki Tiering system. It is undeniably superb I recommend everyone at least check it out https://vsbattles.fandom.com/wiki/Tiering_System?so=search
Here is what a somewhat completed character profile would look like. https://docs.google.com/document/d/12KilbOVt5RFYg3IckKOYiLPt_UDjrBo5/edit?usp=drivesdk&ouid=111896033102767588703&rtpof=true&sd=true
Lastly, I agree the name of my verse is terrible, it is a placeholder, I will also be sharing a Fun Facts towards the bottom for shits & gigs.
Introduction:
Welcome to the JoeVerse(Name Pending), a long time literary project that acts as both homage to what I love as well as a deep-dive into my creative mind. The JoeVerse is a fictional "Shared Universe" where a large number of characters, locations and stories created primarily by myself and in collaboration with others take place. The JoeVerse is depicted as existing within a large "Multiverse" consisting of a number of separate & distinct universes, all of which help make up the JoeVerse Multiverse.
The most crucial aspect of the JoeVerse Multiverse is that it also incorporates a large number of genres from all major science fiction and fantasy concepts, such as how aliens, gods, magic, mythology, cosmic beings, parallel universes, interstellar travel and extremely advanced human-developed technology all exist prominently throughout the Multiverse.
The JoeVerse primarily was created to express my love for "Action" and the many forms it comes in. For example the many pieces of media entertainment I consumed as a child. e.g Cartoons, Comics, Anime, Books, Video Games, Martial arts, Music, Movies, etc) all strongly and directly influenced the creation of the JoeVerse. The JoeVerse's many stories primarily focus on the aspects I like about these pieces of entertainment such as Action, Characters, Power-Scaling, Continuity, Worldbuilding and Paying Homage to these oh so cherished pieces of media.
)))JoeVerse Prime: At the heart of this multiverse lies the mainstream continuity, which is known canonically as "JoeVerse Prime". JoeVerse Prime is based on a fictitious take on the real-world. For example, Earth found within the JoeVerse Prime has mostly all the features of the real one: same countries, same public personalities (politicians, movie stars, etc.), same historical events (such as World War II, the Cold War), and so on; however, it also contains many other fictional elements, such as new geographical locations, political organizations and a number of new & different historical events.
Corners & Sub-Corners:(Re-read if needed) The JoeVerse Prime is divided into four separate major settings of distinct & “Broad '' genres known as "Corners". The four respective Corners are Earth, Intergalactic, the Naatherlands and the Interdimensional. All Corners house minor settings of typically more “Focused” genres & stories known as "Sub-corners". The Corners and their respective Sub-corners are liable to "Crossover" and even connect with one another.
Four Corners explained:
)Earth: Starting with "Earth", home to an abundance of "Action & Adventure" series featuring primarily humanity through various times in history (I.e stories can take place anywhere from Ancient times all the way to the Modern era and beyond).The majority of stories told on Earth feature subjects & characters such as war, criminals, detectives, espionage, politics, assassins, soldiers, super soldiers, spies, mutants, zombies, magic, warriors, martial artists and then some.
There are also Earth's five sub-corners, starting with the "Underworld", home to the stories of "Urban Fantasy" about the supernatural & often cruel world of Vampires, Gargoyles, Lycans and much more all vying for survival and power while living just under the periphery of human civilization. The Underworld explores the supernatural civilization that has co-existed alongside humanity since ancient times.
Then the second Sub-corner, the "Holy War", a myriad of stories using lore based on the many “Mythologies & Folklore” of various human cultures, these stories follow the secret, ancient, bloody war of the Celestial Church. The Celestial Church is a 2000 year old clandestine organization of holy; warriors, soldiers, mages, knights, nuns, monks and more gathered from the many religions & cultures from around the globe to be the stalwart shield & sharpened blade against the supernatural, the unending swathes of powerful demons attempting to invade Earth and the unspeakable evil entities from alternate dimensions all of which has threatened humanity since it's conception.
Then the "West Coast Tales", a dramatic & grounded anthology series based in and around the West Coast of America. In every story we follow new characters in vastly different situations in life as they deal with family, drama, violence, romance, finances, sickness, coming of age, natural disasters, etc.
Then, the "Virtual World", a video game-like dimension that is home to various "LitRPG" focused stories. The Virtual World is directly connected to Earth via the highly popular, full-body capsule operated VRMMO known as the T.B.G system(Name pending). The Virtual world naturally houses the concept of "Gaming" thus it converts anything that enters it into data that follows its unique laws of reality and thus it has NPCs, Boss fights, Exp, Quest, Stats, H.U.Ds, Builds, Classes, etc.
Finally, the "Kaijin conflict" is the "Kaiju genre" focused storyline about the international conflict between the South Korean based Iskandar Industries with a human mutant sub-species known as the Kaijin. The Kaijin have superhuman abilities and are liable to become animalistic and go on a rampage; they also have the ability to transform into giant destructive monsters known as Kaijus.
)Naatherlands: The next Corner, the "Naatherlands", a large somber dimension that is home to the land of the "Supernatural & the Macabre". With it having stories of Vampires, Lycans, Gremlins, Gargoyles, Witches & Warlocks, horrific wildlife & flora and warring factions led by barbaric warlords. There is also varying levels of industrialized magic-based technology all in the backdrop of a Victorian era-esque(Gaslamp) setting.
And it's singular sub-corner the "Court of Blood", a "Political" focused series that shows the inner workings of the cunning, devious and often blood thirsty motives and actions of the royal members and leading factions of the upper echelon of the Naatherlands as they go about the cruel game of politics.
)Intergalactic: Third Corner, the "Intergalactic" is the setting encompassing the vast Cosmos of which Earth is a part of. The Intergalactic is home to various "Sci-fi" stories full of aliens, robots, artificial intelligence, spacecrafts, advanced and futuristic weapons & technology, interstellar bounty hunters, psychic power wielding warriors as well as galaxy spanning empires and Interstellar warfare.
Its first Sub-corner, "The War of Order & Chaos" is a "Mecha" inspired set of stories about the eternal struggle across the known universe between the immensely powerful chosen warriors of Order & Chaos known as the "Exuu'd". The Exuu’d are random individuals chosen from around the cosmos, if Chaos they are made to spread destruction, misery & death, if Order they are made to spread salvation, love & positivity. For the side of Chaos an Exuu’d can be criminals, scumbags or even prolific serial killers, for Order the Exuu’ds can be lawmen, samaritans or even average civilians. Regardless of origin the Exuu'd all fight each other for the very balance of the Cosmos. They are also gifted the powerful, sentient mechanized beings known as the Exxoms(Mechas) to assist in their endeavors. Exxoms all have unique designs, personalities and weapons & abilities.
Its second Sub-corner "Aon", a "Sword and Planet" inspired storyline, planet and accompanying solar system. The Aon system is locked outside of time & reality and for unknown reasons travelers from the Intergalactic, Interdimensional and even across time get pulled into the mysterious system by an unknown force. Since being secluded by conventional time both the inhabitants & technology have progressed in a way that there are varying levels of technology. There are crude medieval swords & armor as well as lasers, bolters, throwers and other advanced energy weapons. All inhabitants of Aon regardless of age and race are magically kept in their prime age & appearance. There is also a special & powerful magic known as "Laasa", that only women can harness and use. This has led to the majority of the system being ruled or fought over by factions of women led armies and warriors.
)Interdimensional: Lastly, the "Interdimensional", a catch-all term referring to the nigh-infinite Dimensions that make up the JoeVerse Prime. The Interdimensional is home to many genre blending stories of action, fantasy, science fiction and adventure all in the backdrop of numerous and radically different settings. This corner is populated by a myriad of exotic and powerful races such as the Angels of Heaven, the Demons of Hell, the reality warping Mymths, the cosmic beings known as the Balancers, the biologically altered insectoid empire known as the Urrglom, the humanoid Avian warriors known as the Harrpen, the technologically advanced bloodthirsty androids the Praeoids and much more.
It's first Sub-corner the "Collegium Historia", an “informational” adventure series about an interdimensional group of like minded Scholars, Zoologist, Historians, Explorers and Warriors that work towards the detailed exploration & documentation of the untold number of dimensions and the species & culture they may hold. With the group being led by the renowned, cantankerous explorer and swordsman Scuto Magnus.
Then it's second Sub-corner "The Fantastical Land of ORBIS"(Name pending), a standalone "High-fantasy" world full of adventure, danger, magic and awe. With ORBIS being an immense landmass the size of Earth. ORBIS is also full of creatures & beings such as Orcs, Elves, Dwarves, Dragons and so much more. There are also a slew of fantasy iterations of medieval humans cultures e.g Daiyomondo Empire(Feudal Japan), Gyellhaer(Viking Age Scandanavia), Kingdom of Stanum(Chivalric Knight era Europe) and the Shou Chongtu Empire(Warring States period China).
JoeVerse Fun Facts:
Shared Universe definition: A Shared universe is a fictional universe in which multiple independently created works are set. One or more authors may contribute works to a shared universe. The works within the universe may share characters and other story elements, with or without continuity.(For more detail please check the official Shared Universe Wikipedia. (https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Shared_universe)
The concept of the “Corners & Sub-corners" are inspired by and based on the genre, character & location organization of Marvel and DC Comics.
Non-Canonically, the characters Cole Xaiver, Aiden Steel and Joseph were the first JoeVerse characters ever created in that order. With each of these characters being made to embody an aspect of the aforementioned media entertainment, Cole (Western media & concepts), Aiden (Eastern (Anime) media & concepts), Joseph(a mixture of both).
The JoeVerse Multiverse is strongly inspired by and to some extent based on fictional works such as, the Marvel universe from Marvel Comics, the DC universe from DC Comics, the Image Universe from Image Comics, Star Wars from George Lucas, the Halo series from Bungie, the Dragon Age series from Bioware, the Borderlands series from Gearbox Software, the Godzilla series by Toho, the Resident Evil series by Capcom, the Gears of War series by (Cliff Bleszinski) Epic Games, the Skyrim & Fallout series by Bethesda, the Call of Duty series by Activision, the Metal Gear(Big Boss) series by Hideo Kojima, One Piece by Eiichiro Oda, the Spawn series by Seth McFarlane, Dragon Ball Z by Akira Toriyama, Overgeared by Park Saenal, Solo leveling by Chugong, Sword Art Online by Reki Kawahara, Psycho Pass by Gen Ubrobochi, the Elex series by Piranha Bytes, A Song of Ice and Fire/Game of Thrones by George R.R Martin, Starship Troopers series by Paul Verhoeven, Avatar by Nickelodeon, Samurai Jack by Genndy Tartakovsky, Ben 10 by Man of action, Bakugan by TMS, Kingdom by Yasuhisa Hara, One Punch Man by One, the Nasuverse/Type-Moon universe by Type-Moon, Ready Player One by Ernest Cline, RWBY by Rooster Teeth, the Tank girl series by Deadline, the Warhammer 40k universe by Games workshop, Street Fighter from Capcom, Mortal Kombat from Midway Games, the Transformers series by Hasbro, the Gundam series by Yoshiyuki Tomino, the Matrix by the Wachowskis, James Cameron's Avatar by James Cameron, Mad Max by George Miller, Fist of the North Star by Buronson, literally all Zombie Media in general and much much more.
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2024.05.13 22:32 RamonaMaybe Put my transition on hold for years, starting to feel ready again, but where to begin?

My egg cracked about six years ago. I had felt out-of-step with, uncomfortable with my masculinity for nearly as long as I can remember, including feeling a sense of horror over my changing body in puberty that I did not have the vocabulary for yet. I’d always been very passionate and vocal about queer rights, and as the conversation and civil rights struggle shifted more and more to trans issues, I kept seeing more and more of myself, my experiences, my feelings described in the stories and testimonials of trans folks.
At this time, around 2018, I was beginning to take some small baby steps toward exploring my gender identity and beginning some form of transition. However, soon after that, my life got really hectic and stressful, and I had to focus on other stuff. Just in that time period, I finished my dissertation, the pandemic happened, I moved cross-country multiple times, first to help with my dad’s end-of-life care and then to start a new job in a new city, and soon after that I decided the career I was in was not right for me.
The upshot of all this is that I met a wonderful woman in my new city, one who knows about my gender identity and is very supportive of whatever my journey ends up looking like. I’m in a small city that should be pretty good on queer protections, but it’s hard to be confident about that in America today.
Recently, it’s felt like the eggs cracked all over again. I could feel that desire, that need to do … something creeping back into my central focus, prodding for my attention. It's becoming all I can think about, and it's feeling closer and closer.
And last week, a conversation with my therapist helped me have a major, seismic shift in my thinking. We were talking about other things (my sense of imposter syndrome in grad school, specifically, which I think was at least partially my dysphoria), and our conversation made me see how hung up I get on labels and how that keeps me from engaging in the process behind those labels. In other words, that I get so bogged down in the questions that I don’t look for the answers.
And this really felt like it rearranged some of the puzzle pieces in my mind. One of the things that I had really struggled with, and had kept me from pursuing next steps, was feeling like my gender identity was still very TBD. I’m confident that I am not a cis man–that just leaves everything else. I definitely feel a pull toward at least experimenting with being a transwoman, but I also feel a pull in more non-binary / genderqueer directions, maybe even something like bigender.
And I think I’d let that lack of a definitive answer kept me from pursuing the steps that would help me get that answer. And I am increasingly aware of all this time I’ve been spending on therapy without addressing what is almost certainly the root cause of at least some of my mental health issues. But I also know how bad the political situation is right now; I worry that by trying to be my most authentic self, I could paint a target on my back and the backs of those I love.
Fuck, this would be so much easier if our existences weren’t so politicized. I just want to figure some shit out, not be the tip of the spear of the culture wars.
Anyway, I think my problem is one of scale. It’s all so daunting, and anytime I try to focus on the first steps, the kaleidoscoping wholeness of every little thing, every possible direction I could go, every possible good outcome, every possible bad outcome, just overwhelm me. This until-relatively-recently unnameable static in my mind has been the background radiation of my existence for almost four decades. Figuring out how to translate that in concrete steps, into the process I’ve been scared to start for so long, is hard. But all good things are, and I think it's time I start.
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2024.05.13 22:31 Ok_Ordinary7417 Beat the game with no flames, from that very very secret room...

As some of you may know, there's a room we shouldn't officially know about yet, or maybe we should, if all along the solution was datamining...
Of course I'm talking about the giant rabbit statue room (or rabbit room), I'll go into detail about what that is and how to reach it at the end of the post, but for those who already know, maybe you don't know that there is a major skip that you can perform using this room, effectively allowing you to reach the credits without collecting a single flame. All you need is to gather the 4 main items (B. Wand, Disc, Slink and Yoyo) and obviously the Animal Flute.
When you have them all, go anywhere near water, find a spot where you can easily jump in the water without having to walk and use the flute to reach the giant rabbit statue room, walk right at least until you've reached the first step and warp back with the flute. Now, very important, DON'T WALK, jump straight into the water and if you've done everything correctly you should respawn at the beginning of the last area of the game, right after the door that opens with the 4 flames. The optimal spot to warp back from is in the next screen to the right from the giant rabbit, behind the second column, in the small recess at the center of the screen. If you warp from there, you'll arrive directly at the first puzzle of the last area, skipping the first two filler screens.
Now, why does that even work?
From what I understand the game updates the position where you respawn after drowning only if you walk, and it only saves the coordinates of your position, not which map you're in. The rabbit room is in a whole other map, and the coordinates just happen to align so beautifully to allow you to just entirely skip the primary objective of the game.
What is this "very very secret room" anyway, and how do I reach it?
The rabbit room is a location accessible by playing a specific song on the flute: down-right, down-left, down, left, up-left, left, up, up-left. When you enter this room, the only way to get out is to play the same song again, which warps you back in the exact same spot you were before warping there. The room is part of a very small self-cointained biome that has two official purposes AFAIK: it contains a figurine (you'll need the reward from the BDTP quest to reach it) and several different drawings visible with the UV light, that I'm sure will lead to more craziness in the future. The existence of this room has been found out by datamining, the song is written in the room itself, visible with the UV light. As of writing nobody knows what is the intended way to stumble upon this room, which is why many refuse to discuss it.
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2024.05.13 22:30 shione-shirakami Predicting Yandere Simulator great twist : Ayano and Megami

Most of you are probably already aware of this theory. It has been around for years. The great twist of Yandere Simulator will be the reveal that Megami and Ayano are sisters.
This had been a widly accepted theory since the release of Megami's first design, back when she still had black hair. Her design at the time was extremely similar to Kill la Kill character, Satsuki Kiryun. For those who are unaware, Satsuki is the main antagonist of the anime, and the president of the student council the protagonist attends. The plot twist of the anime is that she is the protagonist's sister.
Considering Alex knows about Kill la Kill, as proven by several easter eggs, it's likely he decided to use the same plot twist for Yandere Simulator. Megami's design was changed to not give it away immediatly, but of course, Alex couldn't keep his damn mouth shut, so there are many, MANY details that confirm this theory. I said details ? I should have said pages.
However, I feel like a lot of people are glossing over many details about this theory, and have many misconceptions about it. Notably, about how Megami and Ayano are related. So I decided to give my own theory, including all the... uh... subtle evidences we get in the game.
Crazy Grandpa master plan
No need to beat around the Saikou family's bush (or should I say tree, wink wink), you probably know about the Saikou Grandpa eugenics tendencies. His goal is to create the perfect human being, and he plans on using that by acheving the perfect combination of genetics.
So you might not know about this, but there are two major theories about the development of an individual. It's nature against nurture. Is an individual as he is because he was born this way, or because he grew to be this way. Is a person a blank slate at birth, or is their individuality already present from birth. This plays into determinism, I won't go into more details for a Yandere Simulator dumb theory, but you can look it up if you're interested.
So, to go back to Crazy Grandpa, he was probably on the side of nature at first. He only reproduced after he found the perfect wife, as he didn't want his gene pool to be "tainted", going as far as to DNA her on random shit. How did he DNA test her in the 60s is anyone's guess but let's move on.
The result were two children, Ichiko and Ichirou. Ichiko was raised rather normally, and ended up leaving the Saikou family as she didn't want to become the CEO. Crazy Grandpa saw it as the failure of his belief in nature, and decided to switch to nurture with Ichiro.
So Ichirou was raised with high expectations, to the point he acted like a robot, but Crazy Grandpa was very proud about what he had become.
Saishou carefully designed a very specific upbringing for Ichirou in order to encourage the development of specific personality traits and interests, and discourage the development of any attribute that he considered to be 'unnecessary'.
The boy spoke formally at all times, never expressed emotion, and rarely changed his facial expression. The Saikou family's attendants often wondered if the boy was still capable of independent thought, or if he was simply an empty shell that had been trained to carry out his father's will." Beside that, nothing else is known about his personality.
Familiar, isn't it ? We also learn that this is Saisho's conception of an "ideal person".
It is mentionned Grandpa was the one to chose Ichirou's wife, with the same criteria as he chose his own wife. Again, a perfect wife, because he didn't want his son to waste all the work he had put to this point to have a perfect bloodline. To this point, grandpa got the living proof that nurture works, but he still can't let go of his belief nature plays a part in it.
If only there was a way to run an experiment that could give an answer to this question...
The theory
The sisters theory is that Megami and Ayano are sisters, but there are usually divergences on how they are related. Keep in mind that I will be using the old timeline from 1980s mode as a template. It's already inaccurate as Yandere Simulator isn't set in 2022 anymore, but in 2026. But I don't care, the events probably play the same way.
Megami and Ayano are revealed in this timeline to have been born in the same year. You'll notice that the timeline mentions the birth of "Ryoba's daughter", and the birth of "Ichirou's daughter". Keep in mind that Jokichi isn't mentioned as Ayano's father.
And that's where we come to the main misconception in this theory.
Who are Megami's parents ?
Ichirou is obviously Megami's father. However, many have theorized that Ryoba is Megami's biological mother. This theory goes both way, either Megami and Ayano are twins separated from birth, or Saikou kept an egg from Ryoba and inseminated the Wife. This would make her Ayano's maternal half-sister.
I don't suscribe to this theory. Well, first of all, considering the timeline, Crazy Grandpa was the one behind the deal we'll mention later with Ryoba. I don't think he would have wasted his time finding a wife with perfect genes for his son if he had planned for her to only be an incubator.
Also, another reason, Megami's little antenae. It's a part of her design that she gets from her mother. The Wife is also mentioned to have given birth to two children, Megami and Kencho, which wasn't a necessary precision. Alex would have probably found a way to circumvent this if she hasn't really have birth to Megami.
So no, sorry, Megami probably isn't a yandere.
So... if Ayano and Megami aren't related throught Ryoba... how are they sisters ?
Through Ichirou. Simply enough.
Yeah, as great of a dad Jokichi is, he is probably not Ayano's biological father. Ayano is a copy paste of Ryoba, so he doesn't share anything in common with Ayano design-wise, that could indicate he is indeed her father. We don't even know that much about him as an adult. The Characters page doesn't mention him being Ayano's father, he is only described as the student he was back in the 80s.
However, Ichirou is described as extremely similar personality wise to Ayano. While Ayano is probably emotionless due to the Aishi curse, she is way more stoic than Ryoba in her own mode. But that's still a weak evidence, this is way I will back this up with the timeline.
We know that Ryoba has given birth to a daughter very late compared to her own mother and grandmother. These reasons are said to be plot related and big spoilers. Again, Ayano's father isn't mentioned as a parent, only Ryoba.
I recently went through my text document that lists all character ages and birthdates and changed a few things. Aishi women now give birth at 18. Ryoba, however, gave birth at 31, for plot-related reasons that will be revealed in the true ending (or perhaps in the basement tapes).
So, this is my own theory on what happened.
Just shut up and tell us what happened already
In the timeline, it is mentioned Ryoba's mother kept her Senpai in her basement. In 1984, when Ryoba was still a child, Saikou Corp renovated all the houses in Buraza Town for free, including Ryoba's house. Why was this even mentioned ? Because it was the first meeting between the Saikou and Aishi families.
Crazy Grandpa found out about the weird shit happening in the Aishi's basement. He learns about the Aishi curse. He decides to keep an eye on the Aishi's daughter at Akademi. Everything Ryoba did to get her Senpai convinces him the Aishi gene is the perfect gene to create an emotionless heir.
Kocho is extremely reluctant to let Ryoba return to the school, stand on a stage, and hand her a diploma but was told by Saisho Saikou to let it go.
He orders his men to abduct Jokichi as an hostage, so she would agree to have a meeting. That's when they made a deal, that Ryoba would be the mother of the future Saikou heir. But not only is Ichiro not old enough, he wants to find the perfect wife for him. She can marry her Senpai and have well paying jobs in the meantime.
Ten years after that, Ryoba has a meeting with Saikou and his son. And according to Kencho, she is apparently a regular.
She walked straight through the waiting room and directly into Mr. Saikou's office, without even speaking a single word to the secretary.
How long had that woman been coming here? How often? What business did she have here?
Kencho asks the secretary details, and we are told :
The secretary was silent for a few moments, and then gave me some generic platitude about how "the details of Mr. Saikou's appointments must be kept strictly confidential."
So either Saisho fired the previous secretary, or this meeting must be extremely confidential. Because that secretary was a huge gossip when it came to Ichiro and Saisho's falling off.
We get the confirmation it is a big deal as all the employees act the same at the mention of Ryoba.
When they saw how distraught I was, they were eager to help, but...
...When I asked them about that woman who just walked by, they... their attitudes changed in a heartbeat.
They slowly turned away from me and returned to their work in silence.
They ignored me, as if I wasn't even there! I haven't been treated like that since I was a schoolboy!
It was as if that woman was a taboo subject that no-one was allowed to speak of...or that...
He asks about her several times but Crazy Grandpa shuts him down. Kencho mentions Ichiro was there for all the meetings, but he has only heard him speak a handful of times. However, we also know that Ryoba and Ichiro have spoken with each other.
2004, Ichiro is in his mid-twenties. He gets married to the Wife. That's when his two daughters are born : Megami is born to the Wife, as the official heir to Saikou. Ayano is born to Ryoba, away from the Saikou family, as the bearer of the Aishi curse.
How exactly what Ayano born ? It is unlikely Ryoba would have cheated on Jokichi, which is why many have theorized on an insemination. Considering Saikou is a tech company, it's not out of reach.
He had two children, in accordance with his father's wishes; 'One as a backup in case the first child fails you.'
Yes, this might refer to Kencho. But this might also refer to Ayano. After all, Saisho did have twin daughters, before having a spare...
One was raised to be emotionless. One was born emotionless. It was the old debate, nurture against nature. Which one would produce the perfect heir to the eyes of the Saikou ?
Crazy grandpa retires in 2019, right before Megami and Ayano enter Akademi, and Ichiro becomes CEO.
Ichiro wants to select the perfect heir. And for that, he decides he will select the one who will come out on top, between Megami and Ayano. He seals a deal with Kencho about Ayano.
There is...one tape...that I'm already prepared to part ways with... The tape I made after Mr. Saikou's recent, ah...demands. It's far, far too risky for a recording like that to exist... That one...must be destroyed...immediately.
We know this deal is about Ayano. When Kencho kills Ayano as he feels threatened, he says "Mr. Saikou, the deal is off".
Ryoba and Jokichi both work for Saikou. We know from the headmaster that Ryoba and Ichiro have frequent meetings. She is able to walk in his office regularly. Why ? To discuss their daughter.
When Ryoba announces they are going to America, and Jokichi worries about their job, she says she gave a call to their boss and "he was very understanding". I used to interpret this as their boss being scared of Ryoba. But if their boss is Ichirou, there might be a reason he was so understanding. If Jokichi and Ryoba were to get away from Buraza Town, they wouldn't get in the way of his plans.
After Ayano disposes of Osana, we get a cutscene where he is on the phone with Ichiro. He seems very pleased with the unfolding events, and tells Kencho these deaths are "necessary casualties" for the "progress of science". Normal CEO activity, nothing wrong here.
But Megami also learns about this, as she is aware of the presence of a dangerous individual. Either Ichiro told her, or she might have discovered it by herself. Ichiro keeps her away from school for several weeks. She attends school through Zoom.
In very early builds of the game, you could find a laptop in the school. You would get to see Megami as a shadowy figure, back when she still had black hair. And here's her monologue :
I know who you are. I know WHAT you are. My father won't allow me to attend school while you are... "active". He has a reason for tolerating your presence at this school. I don't. You are a vulgar creature that is only allowed to exist because you serve a purpose. If it was my decision, then every last one of you would be exterminated.
And here's the end of Megami's description.
Megami clearly has some very important information that would cause her to go to such extreme lengths...but what does she know? Does Saikou Corp have anything to do with it? And, more importantly, does Senpai have anything to do with it?
So yeah, that's it for me folks, I'm putting the tin foil hat away and going back to my regular activities. If you have any counterpoint or anything to add, please tell it in the comments.
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2024.05.13 22:27 Low-Pop-4352 F (38) M (37).I snapped at my narcissistic husband of 13 years and wrote him an apology letter for my behavior. We have been in therapy for a long time. No kids. I believe in marriage. I have been mistreated for over 2 decades now. what is wrong with me?

'm writing to you, filled with remorse for my recent actions.
I want to take responsibility for my behavior, as I know it was not acceptable or justified. My reaction to throwing books at you was not only inappropriate but also harmful, and for that, I am deeply sorry. Physical acts of aggression are never an acceptable way to express frustration or resolve conflict.
Please know that my apology comes from a place of genuine remorse.
Currently, and over the years, I have felt a lot of moments of deep hurt and distress in our interactions. I've come to recognize patterns of behavior that have left me feeling emotionally wounded, patterns that are still happening now. I want to express to you that some of how we communicate and interact have crossed into what I would define as emotional abuse.
I want to be clear that I'm not blaming you entirely for our struggles, and I understand that relationships are complex. However, both of us must acknowledge the impact of our actions on each other.
I've felt belittled, ignored, and invalidated in our conversations. Words and actions have left me feeling devalued and diminished, and these experiences have taken a toll on my emotional well-being.
I am angry. I am angry because every day, I feel mistreated in our relationship. It's not just isolated incidents; it's a pattern that has become all too familiar, and it's taking a toll on my well-being and our connection.
The disrespect, dismissiveness, and disregard for my feelings have left deep wounds that cannot be ignored. Every interaction tainted with negativity chips away at the foundation of our love and erodes the trust and respect I long for in our partnership.
I can't continue to brush aside my feelings or pretend that everything is okay when it's not. Ignoring the elephant in the room only allows it to grow larger, casting a shadow over the love and happiness we both deserve.
I'm writing to you not to assign blame or start a fight, but out of a desperate plea for change. I need you to understand the gravity of the situation and the impact your actions have on me and our relationship.
I'm asking you to listen, truly listen, to what I'm saying and to take it to heart. I need you to acknowledge the hurt you've caused and to commit to treating me with the love, respect, and kindness I deserve.
I've been feeling incredibly overwhelmed and frustrated in our relationship, and I've been struggling to find a way to express these emotions without screaming and crying.
I've been feeling a deep sense of regret and disappointment about the direction of our marriage and the time we've spent together. I've found myself questioning whether we've both invested our time and energy in ways that align with our goals and aspirations.
I have always said to you that I will never leave you. I am at the end of the road where I feel completely hurt because of the mistreatments I keep receiving.
I deeply regret my actions of throwing books at you and hurting you. It should have never come to this point but it did.
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2024.05.13 22:26 eztigr Don’t put it on the customer?

Over in EndTipping, u/JimboLA2 says restaurants should do away with tipping and just raise their food prices. They say that customers shouldn’t be involved in compensating the servers. A number of people have made the same argument over time.
What they fail to understand is whether there is tipping or not, customers are involved in compensating servers. Obviously, tipping is a direct payment to the server. But compensation without tips are still funded by the customers through the payment of menu prices.
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2024.05.13 22:25 Big_Original9347 Dating Situation Advice

Oh well, so I met this guy (27yo Im 35), January last year on grinder. Started as a hook up, then I started spending the nights (leaving inthe mornings) but Id come for a movie sometimes, we'd go out for a movie, go to the gym, dinner, I met his mom one night. we had a few altercations due to communication, I was catching feelings but he'd say he wanted to keep it casual, even though giving mixed signals sometimes (holding my hand walking on the street, introducing his to his mom, etc). At one points towards the end of the year after another altercation I decided it was hurting me and I should let that go. I spent a couple months without talking to him, we'd see each other at the gym and just pretend we didn't know each other.
Then he messages me one night (the night before Id go out of town for a month), I end up going to his place and spend the night. I thought I over it and would just do it for the sex. I go on my trip, come back and we start talking again, this time he seemed to be chasing a bit more and I had moved on. I start going to spend the night as his place once a week or every other week, hang out with him and his roomate, etc. but to me I was really getting caught up again. This whole year I was only seeing him when he reached out, I would never reach out first. (but i also never said no)
last week he texted me at 12 saying "I want cuddle sleep", which just made me feel some way about it. Like I was a cuddle uber delivery. Even thought it's kinda how we talk to each other, very direct, fast texters, etc. For the first time I said no bc it was too last minute, then he says "but you never ask me to hang either". Then I message the next day and didnt hear from him (sometimes was the reason for our past altercations but he hasnt done that this year until now). I dont say anything, then on saturday we talked he was with a friend and joked the friend wanted a 3some. That annoyed me so I kinda went off a bit, brought up how I felt about the text on wednesday etc.
We had more discussions, he tries calling me 20x to talk but I was just too upset. I tried asking the next day if he'd still like to talk, he said he was still licking his wounds but was sorry ands felt bad for making me feel bad (first time I hear him being apologetic and seemed genuinely sorry). Then 2 days later I send another text, kinda being a bit of an asshole bc I was upset, saying that if he didn't care to talk it only validated the way I felt. We then talk more, we talked on the phone that night and kinda decided we wouldn't see each other for a bit, or "text and see how it goes", something like that. After the talk he textes me this song (https://genius.com/The-japanese-house-somebody-you-found-lyrics), saying it explains better how he feels then he could. Which then just made me more confused... I texted back saying I was sorry and didn't mean the bad things I said. The next day I said I had a little something planned for his bday (end of the month) and if it would still make sense to. He said "probably not now" and that he would be out of town for his bday and that "maybe we could do something chill when he gets back".
I'm really confused. There's so much I want to ask after our last talk and that song, but Idk if i should or just go no contact again. Any advice would be helpful and thanks so much for reading all of this <3
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2024.05.13 22:24 Big_Original9347 Dating Situation Advice

Oh well, so I met this guy (27yo Im 35), January last year on grinder. Started as a hook up, then I started spending the nights (leaving inthe mornings) but Id come for a movie sometimes, we'd go out for a movie, go to the gym, dinner, I met his mom one night. we had a few altercations due to communication, I was catching feelings but he'd say he wanted to keep it casual, even though giving mixed signals sometimes (holding my hand walking on the street, introducing his to his mom, etc). At one points towards the end of the year after another altercation I decided it was hurting me and I should let that go. I spent a couple months without talking to him, we'd see each other at the gym and just pretend we didn't know each other.
Then he messages me one night (the night before Id go out of town for a month), I end up going to his place and spend the night. I thought I over it and would just do it for the sex. I go on my trip, come back and we start talking again, this time he seemed to be chasing a bit more and I had moved on. I start going to spend the night as his place once a week or every other week, hang out with him and his roomate, etc. but to me I was really getting caught up again. This whole year I was only seeing him when he reached out, I would never reach out first. (but i also never said no)
last week he texted me at 12 saying "I want cuddle sleep", which just made me feel some way about it. Like I was a cuddle uber delivery. Even thought it's kinda how we talk to each other, very direct, fast texters, etc. For the first time I said no bc it was too last minute, then he says "but you never ask me to hang either". Then I message the next day and didnt hear from him (sometimes was the reaosn for our past altercations but he hasnt done that this year until now). I dont say anything, then on saturday we talked he was with a friend and joked the friend wanted a 3some. That annoyed me so I kinda went off a bit, brought up how I felt about the text on wednesday etc.
We had more discussions, he tries calling me 20x to talk but I was just too upset. I tried asking the next day if he'd still like to talk, he said he was still licking his wounds but was sorry ands felt bad for making me feel bad (first time I hear him being apologetic and seemed genuinely sorry). Then 2 days later I send another text, kinda being a bit of an asshole bc I was upset, saying that if he didn't care to talk it only validated the way I felt. We then talk more, we talked on the phone that night and kinda decided we wouldnt see each other for a bit, or "text and see how it goes", something like that. After the talk he textes me this song (https://genius.com/The-japanese-house-somebody-you-found-lyrics), saying it explains better how he feels then he could. Which then just made me more confused... I texted back saying I was sorry and didn't mean the bad things I said. The next day I said I had a little something planned for his bday (end of the month) and if it would still make sense to. He said "probably not now" and that he would be out of town for his bday and that "maybe we could do something chill when he gets back".
I'm really confused. There's so much I want to ask after our last talk and that song, but Idk if i should or just go no contact again. Any advice would be helpful and thanks so much for reading all of this <3
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2024.05.13 22:24 Sin-God Master Of All: A Really Neat Perk (& Also Other Generic Gamer Musings)

Today I'm discussing Master of All, which is a perk from Generic Gamer. If you've never seen this perk or heard of this jump... this perk is probably the best singular perk in the jump (though ALL of them are really good), but it's not the INTENDED reason to come here. I personally think an early jump could stand to benefit from fusing GGJ with a more mundane jump (which is what my latest story-jumper is doing though not by choice) and grabbing this perk, it's appeal is kind of amazing. Now let's see the ACTUAL perk!
Master of All: Specialists focus on depth at the expense of breadth; generalists focus on breadth at the expense of depth. But what if you could focus on a single ability and have it benefit all of them? When you train one skill, ability, or power, that training and development applies not just to it, but to all of the skills, abilities, and powers you possess.
This is, understandably, a capstone perk. It is immensely powerful, and is the best TRAINING perk I've ever seen. There are BETTER perks out there for mastering stuff, heck I'll even include the other capstone in this jump just so you can see a better perk for MASTERING something.
Hyperspecialization: There’s focusing in a few specific areas, and then there’s this. Select a single skill, ability, power, Perk, whatever, so long as it’s possible to improve. At base, two things happen. A: the chosen ability progresses as if you’re training with it all the time, even when you’re doing nothing; if you were to actively train with it, the rate of growth would be effectively doubled. B: the rate of growth and development for the chosen ability is multiplied by a hundred.
Now, keep in mind that that’s just at base — both of these boosts increase gradually but exponentially the longer you focus on a single ability. Give it a few days, and the rate of growth will be multiplied by two hundred; a month, and by a thousand. You can change what ability you’re focusing on at any time at the cost of resetting the accrued exponential boosts.
Hyperspecialization IS a better perk if you want to master singular skills (or if you need a boost in power or skill in some SPECIFIC area but don't have the time to actually sit down and hone that area), but if you want to TRAIN something, if you value working for your goals, and if you want to be a jack of all trades Master of All is the better perk. And of course you could always grab BOTH perks, you could even do so without a SINGLE drawback AND you could still get other perks WITHOUT stacking drawbacks due to the discount mechanics of this jump. But I strongly prefer Master of All, personally.
Master of All is a very creative way to reward engagement in a setting which is something I'm always a fan of. A smart jumper who is not constrained by something like the notion of a fickle benefactor who ACTUALLY punishes boring jumpers might get something like Hyperspecialization and want to turtle up, but with Master of All you need to do SOMETHING for it to benefit you. Now WHAT you do doesn't matter, so long as you do SOMETHING that serves as training.
A very fun build could be for someone to snag both Skills, which is a function of the gamer system in Generic Gamer and then grab MoA and go to something like Generic School Years and diligently study. That studying will definitely count for MoA, since studying will definitely become or involve a skill as defined by Skills. This means that while you're studying you're becoming better at gymnastics, or cooking, or painting, or... using The Force, or mana management, or whatever other skills you've gained at this point in your journey.
One small facet of Master of All that is very interesting is how it stacks with uncappers and the very neat knowledge that there is a free uncapper in Generic Gamer (it's a facet of the gamer system!). This means that Master of All will eventually give you stuff like functionally limitless stamina and potentially unlimited strength, once you get the right upgradeable stuff at least. A fun thing I like about this perk is how it affects stuff like workouts. Workouts not only make you more physically fit with this, they also strengthen your perks, strengthen facets of your physique, and can even improve your luck (assuming there is a perk for your luck, which there IS in this jump in two senses: there's The Devil's Own Luck, AND there's a gamer function called Attributes, which CAN give you a luck stat if you want, I recommend it partially to mix with this perk). The idea that going for a joydrive can strengthen your telekinesis, or actively make you smarter is very funny but also very true with this perk and the right mix of gamer things.
This perk on it's own is somewhat limited, but a smart strategist who wants their jumper to be able to stand alone has a lot of options they can use. Two of my favorites here are Jack of All Trades and Experience Booster. JoAT is a fun perk that makes it much easier for you to hone new perksyou acquire along your chain, and Experience Booster is just a POWERHOUSE of a perk that boosts how much experience you get from anything that gives you experience, whether you only get it from defeating enemies or you get it from doing minor stuff, and if you mix it with Master of All you get a powerful combination since it makes it so that your workouts buff your brain by twenty times as much as they would otherwise. The best way to cheese it has got to be to go all in on game-ifying your life and taking the skills function of the gamer system, which allows you to make a ton of stuff into a skill, which thus plugs it into the Master of All functionality. Here, look at the description of Skills so you can see what I mean.
Skills (-100/-200/-300 GP)
For 100 GP, any ability or skill you possess becomes a ‘Skill’, with a skill level, increasing in power and efficiency as it levels up, done by gaining enough experience, which is gathered by using the skill; Level 1 is maximum inefficiency, while Level 99 is the maximum efficiency you could normally get — you can go even beyond that, though, with no hard cap to how high a skill’s level can be. The higher a skill’s level, the more experience required to get it to the next level. Generally, the more powerful and useful a skill, the slower it is to level up.
Any powers, skills, or abilities you already possess are automatically converted into System Skills. You may gain new skills by performing relevant actions; for example, throwing a knife might earn you the skill ‘Knife Throwing’. Skills will not deteriorate with time or disuse.
For an additional 100 GP, once a skill has reached Level 99, it may ‘prestige’, granting you an at least vaguely similar but much more powerful skill at Level 1 without taking away this one or, occasionally, traits if you’ve purchased the option. Prestige skills may themselves prestige. Prestige skills are especially difficult to level up.
For an additional 100 GP, you may ‘combine’ certain skills into a new one — without actually losing the ingredient skills.
This is hands down the best way to cheese this. This is also just a VERY good function in general, but guaranteeing that your skills can improve AND uncapping how good the stuff you do and the stuff you make can be is INCREDIBLE. This also allows you to become holistically better at everything just by cooking, or reading, and thus rewards you for having hobbies. This perk is very nice because it frees you from the constraints of training and having to incorporate stuff that makes you a stronger jumper but is more time-consuming and is not what a native would do.
I'm gonna take a beat to talk about Hyperspecialization again because one thing that's worth mentioning is that it's a passive trainer perk. It's MORE than that, sure, and in fact if you get it you're getting something worth every bit of CP you pay for it, but at it's core it's an enormously powerful passive trainer. There are other passive trainers. There didn't USE to be, at least not a LOT of them, but they exist now (these types of perks exist in several Edrogrimshell jumps, usually they are named "Dabbler" but not all of them have that name) so this perk has lost of some what made it unique. A perk doesn't have to be unique to be valuable, but it helps. Master of All, on the other hand is part of a, as far as I've seen, rarer type of perk: a training synergizer (something which blends types of training and studying together), and it's also a COMPLETE training synergizer which I've never seen before or anywhere else (normally the training synergizers I've seen link SPECIFIC skills, such as a perk from Generic Wizard which syncs how strong you are with your skill as a wizard, or a perk from Generic Culinary Warrior that links your cooking and combat skills). What this means is that if you miss out on Hyperspecialization you can go to other jumps and snag an equivalent perk there. In fact, you can actually grab something that is a MINOR improvement over Hyperspecilization, because all of the passive trainers I've seen let you passively train more than one thing at a time. It IS true that Hyperspecilization beats out these other, baby perks in how quickly it trains what you assign, but that minor aspect of its winning out is somewhat lessened in importance when you remember that placing something new in the lone slot hyperspecialization gives you resets how fast it trains the thing in question. Master of All is both less easy to compare to other existing perks and doesn't have any internal conditions that weaken active usage of it like Hyperspecialization does.
Now that's not to put you off of Hyperspecialization, if I were in a real chain I'd want to grab BOTH Hyperspecialization and Master of All (and not just because MoA completely removes the weakness of Hyperspecialization, but that's certainly a part of it haha), these are INCREDIBLY powerful perks, but one is... one is more universally useful than the other. Master of All is just an absolute S-tier perk. I cannot imagine any build where MoA is applicable where it wouldn't be an absolute GOD-TIER of a purchase. The only possible combination I could think of that might invalidate MoA would be the Sage x Spirit Touched combination from the ATLA Redux jump, and that'd be most of your base CP in a jump that has MULTIPLE sections worth of stuff to try and grab.
To put this in perspective, with a perk like this and the right combination of gamer things you can go into a setting like Chronicle and hone your telekinesis by working on your photography skills. You can become a better chef by doing your math homework and rereading whatever chapter of MacBeth you're on in English. Once you've gained the right skills you can become better at soccer and other sports while you design a website. Become a better wizard by practicing juggling. This is an incredible QoL perk that frees you from a lot of the time-crunchiness that comes with only having a decade in a setting as opposed to a lifetime. Honestly that's kind of the biggest strength of the particular nature of the Generic Gamer Jump, it does a LOT to free up your time and really let you optimize your time in a setting.

Generic Gamer As A Time Optimizer

So depending on the setting, a decade is either a LOT of time or it's BARELY any time. In Avatar the Last Airbender, a decade can be a HUGE amount of time (the entire plot of the first show is about one calendar year according to one of the show's execs), but in Harry Potter a decade is only a bit more time than the plot takes, and truthfully is barely a blink of an eye. So perks that allow you to have a special relationship with time are always good.
One of the critical facets of Generic Gamer is how it allows you to optimize time. There's definitely some underlying logic here, since game characters have INCREDIBLE growth rates, and I love that about this jump. Generic Gamer, for the cost of 50 GP lets you lose the need to sleep, the need to eat, and the need to drink. That is an INCREDIBLE boost to the amount of functional time you have in a jump, if you started your chain off as a base human and entered this jump as a non-boosted human or as an only minorly-boosted human. Getting rid of three of the most essential bodily needs for the cost of 50 points in a thing where you start off with 1350 points makes it a steal (You get different points for perks and for gamer system customization in this jump).
A big part of how essential this is, is how much time it saves you by eliminating sleep but in all honesty removing your need to drink or eat is also critical. I don't know how many jumps could safely be taken as first jumps that completely eliminate the need for sleep, food, AND water, but this one can and that's pretty OP given the costs. Also, bv eliminating the need for stuff like food and water you make entire other jumps wholly more viable. Minecraft, for example, becomes WILDLY safer if you don't have to work about starvation, since hunger is directly linked to your ability to recover from wounds but in Generic Gamer you can completely subvert this system by spending 100 GP: purchase Gamer Body (eliminating the need for food) and also purchase the HP System (which gives you fiat-backed regen, so long as you don't take a hit for a beat, giving you a passive heal much like some FPS games).
Gamer's Body & HP System guarantee you survive any setting that isn't actively trying to kill you, and also frees you up to more safely do what you want like explore or just have a good time. If you don't have to pay for food or housing for sleep, you either don't need money or you need a LOT less of it. Stuff like this is also DRAMATICALLY powerful for vampires and other creatures that are normally driven by, or at least associated with, constant hunger. Also this just makes zombie jumps hilariously easy for you to solo since the number of risks you have to take (while solo) are SO MUCH lower. Funnily enough the right set of perks here even lower the risks you have to take when you work WITH other people, as Inventory lets you both raid places by yourself (since you can store an infinite amount of stuff on you by yourself) AND lowers how much supplies you need for your friends (since time doesn't pass for stuff in your inventory, preventing it from going bad!).
This jump is also filled with training boosters, with Jack of All Trades, Experience Booster, Hyperspecialization, and Master of All all qualifying as training boosters broadly, they all just qualify as different TYPES of training boosters. This is very interesting, since one of the big things a lot of adventure jumpers will need sooner or later are training boosts of their own. The best training boost here is Experience Booster which buffs training by 100 times, a STUNNING boost to one's training, and this stacks hilariously with every other training booster here.
I have a lot of thoughts on this jump and I think I'll keep writing them down from time to time. It's just so good.
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2024.05.13 22:24 Big_Original9347 Dating Situation Advice

Oh well, so I met this guy (27yo Im 35), January last year on grinder. Started as a hook up, then I started spending the nights (leaving inthe mornings) but Id come for a movie sometimes, we'd go out for a movie, go to the gym, dinner, I met his mom one night. we had a few altercations due to communication, I was catching feelings but he'd say he wanted to keep it casual, even though giving mixed signals sometimes (holding my hand walking on the street, introducing his to his mom, etc). At one points towards the end of the year after another altercation I decided it was hurting me and I should let that go. I spent a couple months without talking to him, we'd see each other at the gym and just pretend we didn't know each other.
Then he messages me one night (the night before Id go out of town for a month), I end up going to his place and spend the night. I thought I over it and would just do it for the sex. I go on my trip, come back and we start talking again, this time he seemed to be chasing a bit more and I had moved on. I start going to spend the night as his place once a week or every other week, hang out with him and his roomate, etc. but to me I was really getting caught up again. This whole year I was only seeing him when he reached out, I would never reach out first. (but i also never said no)
last week he texted me at 12 saying "I want cuddle sleep", which just made me feel some way about it. Like I was a cuddle uber delivery. Even thought it's kinda how we talk to each other, very direct, fast texters, etc. For the first time I said no bc it was too last minute, then he says "but you never ask me to hang either". Then I message the next day and didnt hear from him (sometimes was the reaosn for our past altercations but he hasnt done that this year until now). I dont say anything, then on saturday we talked he was with a friend and joked the friend wanted a 3some. That annoyed me so I kinda went off a bit, brought up how I felt about the text on wednesday etc.
We had more discussions, he tries calling me 20x to talk but I was just too upset. I tried asking the next day if he'd still like to talk, he said he was still licking his wounds but was sorry ands felt bad for making me feel bad (first time I hear him being apologetic and seemed genuinely sorry). Then 2 days later I send another text, kinda being a bit of an asshole bc I was upset, saying that if he didn't care to talk it only validated the way I felt. We then talk more, we talked on the phone that night and kinda decided we wouldnt see each other for a bit, or "text and see how it goes", something like that. After the talk he textes me this song (https://genius.com/The-japanese-house-somebody-you-found-lyrics), saying it explains better how he feels then he could. Which then just made me more confused... I texted back saying I was sorry and didn't mean the bad things I said. The next day I said I had a little something planned for his bday (end of the month) and if it would still make sense to. He said "probably not now" and that he would be out of town for his bday and that "maybe we could do something chill when he gets back".
I'm really confused. There's so much I want to ask after our last talk and that song, but Idk if i should or just go no contact again. Any advice would be helpful and thanks so much for reading all of this <3
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2024.05.13 22:23 Worried-Quiet-3976 Post attempt

I hate that I use this account to post these sad rants but this is my new way of trying to explain myself. I’ve let months go by simply by accepting I’ll die soon.
I had my first serious attempt yesterday (none have come this close). Mother’s Day. Who does that ? My whole immediate family including young kids (my first baby cousins) came over. Usually at these parties I’m one of the best dressed, on making drinks, somehow am also the entertainer and the one to get the kids to sit/eat. Can’t even imagine my family getting to the house and finding me lifeless. Yet I still tried to die. Due to my appearance and having avoided my family for the last few months.. everyone asked me if I was “okay”. I was pretty good with avoiding these pursuits of answers by helping in the kitchen and playing with the kids. No sane adult is going to force you, an adult, to start explaining where/what you’ve been when a kid is playing with you or your hands are occupied. I pathetically took advantage of this. I’ve always been relatively close to my family but I’ve burned ties twice now. First time around this time last year and second time we are currently in. What got me out of that first time ? I’m not really sure. I think I just knew I had to try one more time before really giving up. There were some cornered moments and while my loved ones were just doing what family does (checking in) I just kept replaying my attempt that occurred precisely two hours before anyone got there. I wore a dress with a collar. This collar was important because my neck was extremely bruised and looked scratched. My attempt if not apparent by now was by partial hanging. I put makeup on it and left my hair down to cover. It wasn’t enough but this goes to show how good I was with avoiding eye contact and being investigated. My sister isn’t easily fooled. We were setting up some food before people arrived and she asked me what happened to my neck. I didn’t even take the time to come up with a story just in case. Was it a cry for help? I wasn’t going to let it be. I somehow blamed it on my necklace scratching me when I took it off. To this second I don’t know how she believed me or the conversation shifted. Must have been a combination of my tone/mannerism and her just going with the flow because I was actually present. I haven’t been with anyone in so long. My isolation has ruined everything. Anyways I put more concealer and kept a smile for my family. My dad walked into the gathering with flowers for everyone. After greeting everyone he approached me with my own orchid and a trinket for me. I am not a mother but he made it a point to include me and to remind me he thinks of me. The trinket can be described as a decoration for a table. An all in all thoughtful gift. It has in cursive “live the life you love, love the life you live” with a clip I’m guessing to add a picture. I immediately grabbed it, turned it around so I wasn’t reading it anymore, somehow changed the conversation and he being my father (I believe knows me more than I think), took the hint to walk away. I’m grateful he did because I was about to have a mental breakdown. I somehow held my tears back and forced my attention back to my baby cousin which wasn’t hard she was drawing and wanted me to see. After a bit of this she wanted to go by the front of the house to play and her mom was there alone. This is down a hall away from where we were. I felt time move slow as we made eye contact and my mouth go dry as the space between us was closing. I knew what was coming. Everyone else was congregated in the kitchen and family room. A simple what’s up how have you been was about to send me over the edge. I didn’t even notice I was holding my dads gift in my right hand. She grabbed my left hand and instinctively said “wow I’ve never seen your skin this pale it’s like porcelain”. She didn’t mean it in a bad way just stating a fact. I looked at her and as my eyes started tearing up she let go. She asked me if I was sad and I said I can’t talk now because I’ll lose it. Thing is once I start I can’t stop. I told her I needed to go to the bathroom. She called her daughter said we need to talk I said okay and went to my bathroom upstairs. As I stared at myself in the mirror now completely alone I realized just how different I have to look to everyone. I looked at my dads gift and really started crying. After a few sobs I somehow managed to stop crying and fix my makeup a bit. I went back down to the party mostly to try to prove I’m okay and avoid being a topic. I know this was the bare minimum thing to do. I know this isn’t who I should be. This weekend coming is a bigger party. Point is I barely survived yesterday. I’m one of the youngest in my family not including the baby cousins. That being said everyone is older and has way more stressors than me. They either have kids, their careers, more bills, and whatever else. These people manage to go to every party, maintain conversation, and overall be apart of the family. I 23 unemployed overweight believe I can’t get it together. I can’t be apart of anything. I went through college and from the moment that last semester ended didn’t know what the fuck to do next. Before my attempt yesterday morning I spent an hour on a suicide hotline. I never admitted to the woman on the phone how close I was to the edge. This is what I wrote down after the call “I told her almost everything. The isolation, how I let myself go, and how I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I couldn’t actually say what my plan was. The lady was really nice. We agreed I should face everyone and get professionally evaluated. I didn’t really mean it. I’m going to die before I face anyone and I couldn’t tell her I can’t tell anyone. She was a really nice lady. I wonder if she’s a mom. It’s Mother’s Day. Mommy I can’t do it. You were always there for me. Always answered me. I can’t answer you anymore. I wish I could’ve talked to you. I wish I would’ve just talked. For what it’s worth I do love you. “. My mother called me around 9AM Mother’s Day morning. Said she needs help getting gifts ready and I told her I felt bad. She said how everyone is worried and I have no reason to be this far gone/sad. I somehow got the conversation to end. She ended saying I was going to be okay that we’re going to get me a therapist just have to get through mothers day and next weeks party. I said I love you and immediately tied the belt around my neck. I was seeing black, choking, ears ringing, and arms shuffling. Something came over me and I got myself out of it. I didn’t even cry. I went to my bathroom showered, got dressed, and you know the rest. Now I’m here 4 o’clock the next day writing. I have spent the whole day in bed. I think subconsciously I’ve let myself go into this isolation to weaken my body. For it to be easier for me to die and severed connections for it to be easier for those around me. I don’t know what I want from writing this down. I know my throat feels sore and I think I want to know why this is happening. I want to somehow try to put a reasoning behind everything. Somehow find a way to maybe really talk to one of the people that care without breaking down and shooting blanks with my mouth. I’ve tried even though it looks to those around me I haven’t. Thanks for reading.. comments are sincerely appreciated.
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2024.05.13 22:22 -onwardsandupwards- My Ultimate Pet Peeves List

I've been experiencing A LOT of nonsense lately so I feel I need to get this all out. For some of these, I'm thinking it maybe just the area that I live in - but still, I absolutely hate when people do the following:
  1. When someone tells you to email them if you have anything to ask and then they never respond to you when you do email them.
  2. When you're in the left turn lane and the driver(s) in front of you aren't paying attention to the light and you end up missing the green when it's your turn to make the left turn.
  3. Loud neighbors who think they don't need to have courtesy because they pay rent too.
  4. When people (not necessarily delivery trucks) double park on narrow streets and hold you up because traffic is oncoming in the opposite direction so you aren't able to just go around their double parked car.
  5. When a job you applied for gets back to you 2 MONTHS after you applied to them, asking you to set up an interview with them.
  6. When you're in line at checkout, and the person behind you has no idea what personal space is.
  7. People who know they are sick (and look very sick) and sneeze in public without at least covering their mouth - especially in the grocery store on top of all the open produce.
  8. When people bring their clan of hooligan children out in public without teaching them how to behave.
  9. People who let their dogs poop all over the shared apartment space and not clean it up - even though there are multiple pet poop receptacles around.
  10. When people who aren't in your situation try to minimize your problems or tell you to be "the bigger person", knowing that they would react the same way that you are IF they were facing the same issue you're telling them about.
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2024.05.13 22:21 Eastern_Hedgehog_924 Advice for a newcomer to the hobby

Hello everyone, I would love some advise on choosing my first radio(s)
I hear a lot of times this question is followed by many comments asking for clarificarion, what the person wants to do with the radio so I will also provide some context in advance.
I am new to the hobby literally just got the eamil I have passed my exam.
So now I need to chose my callsign and... ...buy some gear.
Just to start with a bit of context.
What got me into the hobby is my Malahit SDP2 (the chinese version with the russian software) I got one of those receivers earlier this year and found it absolutley fascinating that I can hear signals transmitted thousands of kilometers away I love the waterfall. I also have two Tecsuns, they are lovley radios too there is also something about browsing the frequencies without having waterfall and a visual representation of the signals activity. With the Tecsuns it reminds me a bit of fishing, you are not really sure what will come out when. After listening for a while I started to think I would like to transmit not only listen and this is how I started studying. And now I have my licnese class A in Denmark. (Not sure what is the FCC equvalent. I can operate on all ham bands on most up to 1kW on commercial homemade or modified equipment )
I am not sure that I know what are all the things I can do with ham radio therefore I am not sure what I want to focus on and that does not really help me with choosing gear.
I would like to hear any pointers on which directions the hobby can genrally take me. And maybe this will helpe me figure out what gear I should get.
Personally I am fascinated by long distance contacts. Also the satelites sound exciting, not data but accessing the satelite repeaters and eventually talking to ISS (I understand that it is very low probability that an astrounaut will actually be free and available for contact at the exact small window of time in which I reach the ISS but still fascinating even with low probability)
What does not seem a direction I would like to take is CW i do not believe I can ever learn it. Or at least I do not believe I can enjoy learning it.
(That said I could be interested in any options for software code decode morese from to text not sure if such exist )
FT8 sounds interesting but I am not really crazy about using a laptop in my leasure (i would rather hope to get myself away from laptop screens, i do stare enough at them during my workday)
If location matter for the radio activity around me / within reach, am located in Denmark.
I am interested in experimenting with building my own antennas.
Also along with the radios what else I might need? Tuners? Are the build in tuners good enough or an external one wpuld be able to tune wider range of mismatch?
I believe i will be mainly using my radio indoors from my basement but might be interested once in a while in taking my radios out and listen / transmit from the outdoors. So I guess any tips on batteries are welcome too.
There are a couple of set ups I consider and would like to hear your opinion on what would be advantages disatvantages and also what are some differences that won't make any difference for a non expert like myslef.
Considered options ftdx10 and a separate VHF/UHF radio Vs one radio like 991 or 7100
I guess if I go with a separate VHF/UHF radio I will be missing out on ssb (not really sure if there is much ssb activity on those two bands )
Seems like 991 or 7100 would be the logical choices as they offer widest rande of bands / modes but my concerns is both are older models compared to the ftdx 10 which seems to have much better user experience in anvigating and accessing of all the menues and settings.
There is also the matter of d-star and fusion... Maybe orher standards too... None of the radios above have dmr if I am not mistaken? So I probably need to get one to listen on dmr repeaters?
Yeah I am really uncertain what to buy so that I won't regret after a while. And be in a situation where I would be saying: 'I wish I bouth rhis other radio because of this or that...'
Thank you in advance.
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2024.05.13 22:17 A_dalo What's your favorite large backpack and why?

What's your favorite large backpack and why?
Thought this might be an interesting topic. I have a number of favorite smaller backpacks (daypack size, under 40l) but hands down my favorite big pack is my Arcteryx Bora 95L. It's currently in a closet at my other house so here's a store's stock photo of how it looks:
https://preview.redd.it/hylpbyf7390d1.jpg?width=900&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=c8ef5650fb017a52567bddd25cc941203e2b2e34
Mine's a dark navy and I bought it new off Ebay for $350 back in 2012. I don't know if they make it anymore, I haven't seen a 95L anywhere. Shame that. It's great. it's a near perfect bag.
What I like:
Well it's 95L. It goes without saying you can fit a lot in it. If anything it's overkill for most circumstances. However, it's empty weight is surprisingly light and you can easily use it in place of a more modest 60L if you just don't stuff it fully. I took it on a 3 week hike and this was a primitive hike, no accommodation, no food, had to carry everything we needed to survive. It did great.
It fits my 5"3 female frame well... with modification. We had to sew the straps down to make them tighter and in the right spot. This took a little bit of trial and error but we got it right and it now carries really super comfortably. No complaints and i don't mind having to modify it a bit. I think almost all unisex 95L backpacks would have needed some work to fit a smaller frame.
It's SO well made. Incredibly well made. I genuinely think this is something I'll have my entire life. $350 for a lifetime membership suddenly seems like a pretty good deal.
It has multiple zippers to the main compartment including top, sides, and a hidden zipper in the bottom so you can get at your stuff from every direction.
What i don't like:
Okay, the side water bottle pockets are rubbish. They're too shallow and the bottles fall out. This isn't a major issue, we sewed on some elastic to keep them in place, but in their base form they're not great.
Not that many attachment points for carbiners/stuff. This is an older model, maybe the newer ones have more?
... I think that's it. That's all the negatives.
What's your favorite pack&why?
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2024.05.13 22:17 xDanSolo Black screen of death after login - GPU only - Advice?

Hey guys, seeking some expertise on a strange and headache-inducing problem I've been slowly troubleshooting the past few days. I'll start with my specs:
Problem:
For the past week or two my PC has been intermittently giving me the "black screen of death", meaning both of my monitors (HDMI and DP) go black and say "no signal". Only way to get my desktop back is to hard-reset my PC. It was completely random, though at first it seemed to only happen when I opened an image or video file. Overtime thought the problem grew, and began to happen as soon as I logged in after a restart. Now it's so bad, I can barely even get to the login screen; when I do, as soon as I click to enter my PW the screens lose signal.
Tried:
I was running an old 1060 when the issue was happening, as it got worse I decided I was overdue for a new GPU anyway so I got a 3060 to swap to. Set that up, drivers and all, and the problem came back almost immediately. So it wasn't my GPU, and I didn't need a new one. I also replaced cables, switched to single monitor(tried both), uninstalled an reinstalled drivers, and eventually did a full system wipe and reinstalled W10. Lastly, I moved my PGU down to slot 2 just as a last ditch effort and that didn't work either, as windows won't even show my GPU now the bios settings recommend only using the top slot anyway. The problem returns immediately, no matter what I've tried.
Workaround:
If I plug my monitors directly into the motherboard and bypass the GPU, it works fine. I can get into my desktop and use it for hours without issue. Now I know it's NOT the GPU since the old one and new one both did the same thing, so I'm left wondering else I can try before I go replace my entire motherboard next?
Any advice whatsover would be awesome. Thank you.
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