Just had I am having I dont know what the fuck it is just over it's not about jee its about everything my life will always collapse within itself and i will never be able toachieve anything in my life madarchod yeh mama kept on snoring in the night I couldn't sleep my head hurts and now some random ass fucking auntie and her child won't let me sleep (her daughter was in her home for a makeover or some shit and my sister and she are friends and she lost some good stuffworth 40k) she came yesterday aur mere mama tak ko dhundhna mein lagaya I was about to sleep at 12pm till 1:30 pm par yeh madarchod aa gaye sone ni diya ab main so ni para sir dard ho raha and even if I manage to sleep I will still end up sleeping at like 3or 4 am advanced 9 am onwards hai it's like always like everytime I can controll nothing people might as well spit in my face behenchod God gifted behen ka loda madarchod randi hu main bas chutiya sala jhant bhar ki jindagi usne ma bap bhai behen sab munh pe antagonistic hain bak bal khatam ni hoti conditionally supportive jab main give up kar chuka tha to sabne kaha padh loda lassan ab main padhna chahta hun to sari bakchodi inki abhi yad ati hai behenchod jhoothe hypocrites moody sale aur main chutiya madarchod kuch ni kar sakta kuch ni there is nothing my life had been fucked my life will be fucked and it will remain fucked I am at the end I cannot motivate myself even further I can do nothing nothing nothing behenchod sari willpower chus gayi hai madarchod madarchod madarchodadarchid madarchod madarchod behenchod how the fuck are people even happy with their lives why don't they just die what's the point what the fuck calm down Kuch ni hora yahan mental breakdown hai and I am not sure if I can recov- Stop stop stop. It's the only chance for me to take over my broken down fucked up psyche and you must not give in to the anxious force the bitch guy within you. Feelings are fucked and they must be burned at an altar. Feel feelings selectively. Many things, many thought patterns that you find yourself in are a result if past trauma, current conditions of your life, and much more. These feelings can lead to one taking drastic steps. The only way to counteract all of this is to give into pure rationality. Giving into pure rationality I must admit that I have no way of quantifying my condition other than mocks and I am too afraid to give mocks, and they will take a lost of time. And speaking logically, the emotional blow from a fucked up performance has a very high of hindering my progress and crippling my motivation, and thus I have convinced myself to forgo mocks. Rationally speaking I must maximize the mocks, but I have mentioned the caveat which lies, what I cannot do is give up. I must study. Keep on studying. Study no matter what. Study however. But study. Work with pen. Watch videos. It doesn't matter. I have to study. I have to give my full efforts, as much as I can. That's the best thing. And the rest of it I have to bet on luck and my mental performance while giving the paper, I have to maximize that. I will not be able to do jackshit in the exams in the time which is left, that's the truth, and in a month you cannot do jackshit either. But I will have to play on the only thing which I have, my mind, i will have to pray and make sure it works in the Advanced, simultaneously I will have to prepare myself emotionally for the blow that will come with the failure, because there are high chances. Then I will have to bludgeon and carry on anyhow. I will have to keep working hard. There is no other way. I will have to go to therapy, by now my mind has completely bifurcated into two personalities, and the bitch pussy crying voice will gave to be cured and dealt with, else it endangers the survival of us both. I will have to stidy. I will have to work hard. I will have to be me. I will have to be rational. I will have to be more emotionally intelligent. I will have to know to select feelings carefully. I will have to be present and hyper aware of everything. The alternative is a very dark path. Well my mind is opting for that alternative because life seems darker. The problem is that I don't feel anything. I am an amalgamation of basic animal instincts of survival and ambition coupled with executive functions and logical side, and I am as much part of myself as the emotional side is. And I see no logical sense to give up, because all the logic is pretty much predicated around survival and increasing entropy of the universal system; and I am a microcosm in my own right, a system of my own and my stability and survival and success is what all the reasoning is fundamentally based on - ergo, dying and giving up is not an option. The emotional side has to be modulated and controlled. I will have to logically induce emotions that will drive me and efficiently deal with and soothe the negative emotions, I will have to validate many scary emotions but at the same time I will have to completely reject, invalidate, ignore, and forcibly stop multiple emotions from festering, which is not healthy for normal people, but I do not lie within the norm if the norm is overall absence of stark dissatisfaction and disillusionment with life. That being said I do not think I am in a position to attempt studying, and it is incredibly hard to determine whether this is the bitch voice or the logical voice speaking. I do not think I will be able to nap either. But I do presume similar conditions will follow me while giving exams because past patterns do not support me being in the best condition while giving exams, and this is the best way to segway to positive emotions. Fuck it I am going to study. I feel tired. Everything is impossible. But I will study. When Thor has to slay Jormungandr he knows he is going to die, but he wields his mighty hammer and accepts his destiny and valiantly fights the great serpent, and dies. I am going to do the same. I know I will fail. I will grieve. I will cry. But not give up. I know cards are stacked up against me. But i will not give up. If I fight against overwhelming odds enough number of times then I will learn to create miracles, and that is a divine power in it's own right. I will learn to create miracles. I will fight against all odds and I might win, or I might lose. But I will keep on struggling, and eventually I will be the miracle maker. What if I fail to make any miracles??? Well, what were the chances that I was born as a dog? Or I was a table? Or I was nothing. My very existence is a miracle and I will create miracle. Humans were fish struggling on land and now they are off to conquer stars!!!!!! This is a miracle!!! Everything was pointless but we kept on struggling!!!! We achieved more than what we could think!!! Why must I give up!!!! Fuck it guys let me overdose myself with caffine and start studying the fuck. Imma do organic revision and pyqs. Organic ke behenchod sare 20 sal ke paper aaj hi nipta dunga madarchod ab bolo koi mock mock (I know it's not possible, but what did I say??) Ya fir definite. Aod. Rotation. Kuch nahi padhunga lekin padhunga aur is bhakalnde behen ke lode exhausted ass state mein padhunga ma chod dunga jindagi ki behen ki chut. Bollo bhagwati maiyaaa ki jai!!!

College pe gaming karne ka shok hai title ko

MHTCET ne bhi chod diya bhai. centre was a crossover between a purgatory and a post-apocalyptic demolished building. room saala oven lagra tha. the chairs were uncomfy as fuck and it was extremely cramped up, no space to even keep your legs at ease. 2 logo ke beech nahi ke barabar jagah thi. aaram se koi bhi chaap sakta tha. who am I kidding? sabne chaapa chaapi kiye obviously 🤡 being nice is a fucking curse behenchod. a girl who was quite late was made to sit beside me and I helped her out (with the credentials filling or whatever) and then she made a small talk with me. yeah, okay nice cool. sab chill hai. paper chaalu hue 10 minute ke andar she starts peeking. and then says, “mei aapke answers dekh rahi hu🥰” MADARCHOD WHAT THE FUCK 🤡 ye kaun karta hai bhai? she literally declared that vo mera paper chaap rahi hai. meri sanak gayi. maine thodese loud awaz mei “NAHI🥰” bol diya sabke saamne toh uski phat gayi. I genuinely thought she was nice kyuki we even talked about how rigged the system is and how people with merit don’t get what they deserve due to cheaters. baaki baithe hue bsdko ne already cheating ke plans banake rakhe the but the invigilator was quite good and tried her best to not let anyone cheat (2 logo ke rough sheets and admit card leli thi) but of course, class itni badi, seats itni cramped up, bachhe itne harami, sabne bhara ke cheating ki. and mere mana karne ke baad bhi of course mere baaju waali ladki poora paper mera chaap rahi thi I couldn’t bring myself to complain uske baare mei and waste mera time.
and now the best part- mere 25 question choot gaye 🤣🤣🤣 I saw it everywhere ki you’re supposed to do Physics and Chem in 1.5 hours and Math in the next 1.5 hours, and thought ki ye ek ideal situation ka suggestion hai 🤣🤣🤣🤣 my pretentious self had no fucking idea ki Physics and Chem 1.5 ghante baad auto submit ho jaata 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 and phir Maths khulta 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 jiss site se maine mocks diye the vaha pe aisa kuch bhi nahi tha 🤣🤣🤣🤣 behenchod I panicked even more and asked the invigilator about it and she was holding back her laughter at my stupid face 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 uske baad maine 30 minute mere existence ko question karne mei bitaaye aur baaki ka 1 ghanta pata nahi kisme 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 kya gajab bhai 🤣🤣🤣 aakhri resolve bacha tha ye 🤣🤣🤣🤣 usme bhi fuck karke aa gayi 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 mental health chudi padi hai 🤣🤣🤣🤣 drop is out of the question 🤣🤣🤣🤣 except for drop from 69th floor 🤣🤣🤣🤣 3 exams de diye already aur kahi kuch bhi nahi milega 🤣🤣🤣🤣 aaj papa ki disappointment is off the charts 🤣🤣🤣🤣 and the sexual tension between me and mere room ka fan is increasing by the very minute 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣
that is all. (mera rr sunne ke liye dhanyawaad, at least mere unfortunate stupid self se kuch toh seekhoge)

+2 paxi k garda kun desh ma Jada ramro hola.. Ma aile currently board diyera bcrako xu kei kaam garum Ki basa sikum result auda samma k harum bairako ca
...dai haru Japan ma xan...aunty Harley Korea try garr vanxan afu confused xu

Bhai, picture this: main tha, soch raha tha ki coaching class join karun, aur phir Vedantu ke JEE courses ke baare mein suna. Toh, unka sales agent mujhse contact kiya, bol raha tha ki unka program bahut hi mast hai. Maine bola, "Thoda time do, yaar. 40k kaafi mehenga hai." Par woh banda toh din raat WhatsApp pe promo chalata raha.
Phir ek raat achanak call aaya, keh raha hai admission band ho raha hai aur agar aaj raat ko payment nahi kiya toh batch mein entry nahi milegi.(LIE) Maine bola, "Bhai, mujhe woh purana batch join nahi karna." Par usne bola, "Arre, kal hi toh naya batch start hoga."(LIE:read further for details) Vishwas karke humne raat ke 12 baje payment kiya.
Lekin agle din, woh naya batch toh kahin nazar hi nahi aaya! Purane recorded classes dekhne ka mann nahi tha. Us agent ko contact kiya, toh bola, "Ho gaya process, bhai. Naya batch Monday ko shuru hoga."
Par Monday aaya, aur kya? Naya batch toh wapas gaya tel lene! Main gussa ho gaya, socha kuch minor issue hoga. Par jab Monday ko bhi nahi hua, toh hadh ho gayi yaar!
Dm kiya, call kiya, kuch nahi hua! Fir customer care pe call kiya, ek aunty ne bola, "6th May ko hi naya batch start hoga." Ab ispe gussa toh aana banta hai na! Raat ko payment kiya, aur ab 7-8 din ka wait?
Seedha refund maanga, kyunki unfair hai bhai! Lekin woh customer care wali ladki toh ulta seedha argue kar rahi thi, "Beta, tumhara future kya hoga?" Bol diya, ki me mera future handle kardunga...[addition: she was damn rude..argued nd screamed at us nd said join nxt batch no other soln...nd she herself cut the line]
Fir ek banda mila, woh toh sahi tha. Humne usko screenshots bheje, lekin fir kuch nahi hua. Fir call kiya, bol raha hai, "Sab try kiya, lekin sales department approve karna padega."[a day later on callin he wanted sumn other department approval]
Fir ek random banda call kiya, "Beta, kya hua?" Baar-baar samjha phir bhi kuch nahi hua! Aur ab wapas customer care call kiya, woh lady phir se shuru ho gayi, future ke bare mein socho..ur sons lyf nd blablabla (idfk how she again came up..again was rude nd herself hung up)
FFS FIX THE THT CUSTOMER CARE LADY WHO WANTS TO FIX MY FUTURE...IK I WAS LATE..U MADE ME EVEN MORE LATE ND NOW IM DOOMED
Yaar, kitna chutiya katoge? Kam se kam, customer care toh accha hona chahiye!
Bas ab thak gaya hoon main. Koi suggestion hai toh batao yaar!
[PS: apologies but the above txt is ai generated based on my rant...cuz the rant i wrote was longer nd barely readable...HELP KARO MY MONEYY]

Apni maa ko chudte dekhne aya hai kya

I am a full time aspirant so I live with my parents and I'm preparing for UPSC. Now it's my fault that I spent the last year not really preparing well and wasting my time so idk maybe this is the reason why my parents aren't really on board.
But then even now they are supportive at times and unsupportive at others. My dad says I have the potential, that government is the best employer and all the other good things about becoming a civil servant. But then, the next day he'll be like "koi naukri dhundo ya shaadi karo. Time mat waste karo".
My mother, is supportive but then she also says ki mat karo UPSC ki teyari, clear nahi hota, people waste their time doing nothing. Ya phir "shaadi nahi chalti clear karke", "I'm sure the job is boring, tumhe achchi nahi lagegi. Kuch Aisa Karo jisme interest ho" "husband ke saath kaise rahogi". Hearing all this demotivates me a lot and now I'm in a phase where I'm deciding whether I should look for a job and leave this prep. Both of them are looking at children around them who are working day in day out.
They basically want me to get a job and after listening to Sanjeev sanyal, they feel like I'm wasting my time and will not get anything in return. A relative of mine could not clear upsc, even after reaching interview stage so other relatives also say "unse nahi hua, toh tumse toh bilkul nahi hoga".
Plus, regarding married life, everyone says that clearing this exam would add on to my issues and I won't have a good life and will bring misery to my future husband also. My mother knows someone who's son in this foreign service. Aunty told her that he gets bored where he's posted cause of loneliness. My mother has been warning me ever since then.
Everyone got quickly on board when my brother said he wants to prepare for UPSC. From my parents attitude, it seems they are willing to support me if I want to continue with the prep but then they want me to have an easy going job so that I can have a good married life. My mother said "bas civil servant Bane ki raty laga rakhi hai, kuch hona toh hai nahi tumse"
Pehle toh most probably I won't clear this exam according to people around me, especially because I'm not the stereotypical padhaku kid who hates fashion, friendships, going out, shopping, talking, eating out and all that. I've put a pause to all these things in my life. My life is definitely not the way I would like it to be. It's boring now and I've done this for this exam. I have zero friends now. I'm sacrificing so much and yet I'm reminded all the time about how I'm not the ideal candidate and that I should leave this prep.
I don't know how to deal with all this. I'm at a point in my life where I have to decide about what I want to do next. I'm so confused and unhappy these days. My life seems so bleak these days.

It is evening time and champak goes for a walk at a nearby park and while walking there suddenly a football hits him in the back of his head after which he falls down and once again his head hits with the big rock! Champak gets unconscious and nearby people gathers and surrounds him. Co-incidentally Tapu Sena are also in the park and when they see large crowd gathering they went there and gets shocked by seeing champak laying down unconsciously! They took champak to a nearby hospital and informed gokuldham society members about it. Everyone rushes there and doctor informs them that champak is very critical because of his head colliding with rock it has lead to a serious injury and now everything is in the hands of God !! Jethalal becomes extremely emotional, A sad bgm plays in the background and he is remembering all the good and funny moments with champak (flashback scenes) and every society member is consoling him

Suddenly a nurse comes and says that champak is regaining his consciousness! Every society member rushes to see him and jethalal emotionally hugs him as well but here comes the big twist.... Champak sees everyone with a Pikachu face and asks:- "kon cho tame badha"? (Who are you all) which suprises everyone after which jetha tells him :- "bapuji me aapka jethiya" and other society members also introduce themselves. Now doctor comes and tells everyone to wait outside post which he calls everyone in his cabin and says champak is recovering now but one big issue is that champak is suffering from 'AMNESIA' (condition in which person loses memory)!! Jetha being Jetha misinterprets it to 'aam rasiya'(lover of mango)' and says :- "bapuji to bachpan se hi aam rasiya hai" with Charlie Chaplin type, smile listening this doctor is patting his head. Mehta explains what amnesia actually is after which jetha falls down and starts crying. Folding his hand he is requesting doctor to make champak normal again and this is the most emotional jetha has ever been! Doctor and society members assures him of quick recovery. Doctor says that champak current memory is when he was a child so take care of him and he will get discharged after some time. Before discharging champak, Hathi being a doctor sends tapu sena and tells them to remove all the photos of him and his father because if champak sees garland on the photo of his father, that will give him shock which is not good for his health and advises all the society members to refrain themselves from indulging in any activity that can cause stress to champak. 

Now champak is being taken to gokuldham after assuring him that Jehta is his 'Kaka' and Jayantilal (father of champak) is at jetha's house. And a blast of comedy begins here :- Champak calls everyone Kaka(uncle) and Kaki(aunty) and tapu sena as Mota Bhai(big bro). Babita and Jethalal are standing together seeing which champak asks jethalal:- "kaka aa mari kaki che"? (Is babita jethalal's wife) after which jetha instantly gives smiling expression then suddenly changes it to surprise and says sorry to babita to which babita responds saying it's okay after which jetha once again gives a shy smile. After some time champak starts crying that he wants to meet his father and somehow society members consoles him and makes him sleep in the next room. A bit emotional scene will be there where jetha says that how child be it of any age needs the love and blessings of father. Next day starts and here we see champak like a child doing 'kulla' (littering) on the society ground and irritating every gokuldham society members like he plays tabla on bhide's head and calls him 'taklo kako' (bald uncle) and then goes to hathi's house and how goli and hathi snatches food from people in the same way he snatches food from goli and hathi's plate and here we see goli and hathi running behind requesting champak to give them back their plate and here champak makes them run the whole society ground and then run away at iyer's house and here Iyer is doing some work in his laptop. Champak distracts Iyer and starts using his laptop and as champak doesn't know much about laptop he thought of it as some instrument and start playing with the keyboard. Iyer wore a lungi and champak runs away taking his lungi directly to popatlal's house and shouts "pappa pappa". Now at the same time popatlal was in call with some girl whom he connected through marriage bureau and listening to champak's screaming that girl rejects popatlal after which popatlal cuts call and gets angry on champak and says:- "chachaji ye kya kiya aapne" and here champak throws lungi on popa's face and runs away. Champak is in the compound now and in between popat calls jetha and suddenly champak went to abudl's shop and removing abdul's cap he is trying to run away from the society but luckily Abdul catches him and anyhow takes him to the society and till now everyone came to the compound. Jetha apologies but everyone says that champak is like their father so no need to apologies and bhide instructs everyone that society main gate will be closed because of champak and those who want to enter or exit should call Abdul everytime.
Jetha decides to call champak's old friend from bachau by citing current situation and old friend reaches gokuldam and society members are in champak's house only. Now old friend is trying his best to make champak remember about him but instead champak assumes that old friend as "FATHER OF SARPANCH KI BETI " and he pleads to old man to let him marry with "Sarpanch ki beti" when both grew up. Listening his society members are both shocked and they are laughing a bit as well and jethya is thinking "agar bapuji ki shaadi unki marzi se hoti to kya meri maa sarpanch ki beti hoti"!! Old friend says "Champak Chakri Thai gayo che" and runs away facing embarrassment. Now a week passes by and daily champak irritates society members through his antics and while society members everyday pray for his well-being they sometimes become playful with him as well like Mehta with champak's help throws diet food without Anjali getting to know about it and bhide influences champak to always sit between tapu and Sonu lol.
It is the same time of evening now and bhide and popatlal gets in argument regarding society matter because of which all society members gets in compound except tapu sena which are there with champak at jetha's house. But tapu being 'choti daya' and 'chapli' tells his friends to go and solve bhide popat matter and that he will make champak understand to not leave the house. Champak pretends that he won't leave house. A few minutes after tapu sena goes downside champak also goes there and slowly slowly goes towards the society board side after which he immediately rushes towards the society gate and as Abdul is also in the compound but he has kept a lock, Champak jumps the gate and go outside while running he goes to the same park and the same thing repeats like the ball hits him in back of his head post which he falls down and once again head hits with the big rock. Now he is rushed to the hospital and jetha and society members are informed about it. Champak regains consciousness and everyone asks him how is he like how people asks the child and champak suddenly asks that why is everyone talking with him like he's some child. After this doctor tells everyone that champak has regained his memory now because of this incident happening with him once again but be aware as you never know when he might go back to his child version! We see the delight in jetha and everyone's face and eventually Mehta ends it with his "shayari".
Guys please take your time out and read this arc and please do comment how's it.

Hi!
In case you're wondering, yes, I'm 21. I know you probably have TONS of questions, and I'll address them end mein. But for now, here's a not-so-little bit about me (get some popcorn, one heck of a post).
Gender: Male
Age: 21
Height & Weight: 5'10" & 54 kg
Marital status: Single (21 mein toh divorced hone se raha 😔)
Education: Pursuing mechanical engineering in a renowned university
Profession: Started a marketing agency recently so I can fund my startup In sha Allah
Hobbies: Haye, aik ho toh bataun. I've picked up almost everything under the Sun - Rubik's cube, skating, sketching, poetry, piano, consuming self-help + business stuff. But one thing that's been permanent is Bollywood rom-com (Dilwaale, Humpty Sharma ki Dulhania, uffff SIMP for these)
Do you want kids? Not in the next 5 years. After that, In sha Allah
Religion: This is a tough one. Alhamdulillah, I fast poora but I struggle with praying. As of now, I don't pray (which is something I need to work on). Other than that, I'm FAIRLY religious.
When it comes to matters dealing with people, I am extremely cautious - kisi ko hurt na karun. I refuse to take interest (and In sha Allah, never will). Although I myself listen to songs, but I don't put them on my publich social media posts (work related, more on that later).
I was recently working with a client (from Australia) and I was ultimately getting people to buy homes (which is done on interest over there), so I quit that (despite that being my only source of income). Allah had better plans (I kept on working with that agency on other clients though, so win-win).
Deal breakers:
1. Doesn't care about halal/haram income: I am obsessed with this. I would rather die hungry than feed myself and my family from haram earnings.
2. Emotional and can't hold discussions: I'm someone who's very calm when solving problems. I see it as "as vs. the problem" instead of "you vs. I", and I expect my wife to do the same. To communicate what bothered her, what problems she's facing so we can solve that instead of being emotional, taane maarna, behas karna.
3. Can't change her opinions on something: If you believe a Sun is a star, and I give you evidence to support that it isn't, and you still don't change your mind, can't happen. I'm always ready to learn new things and change my opinion on something (if I'm given the facts, evidence and logic) and expect my wife to to the same.
4. Is a "feminist": I cannot stress this enough. Although I crack a LOT of sexist jokes, I am a feminist, but not in the way you'd expect. I want to make my wife financially independent, so if we seperate or I die, she doesn't have to struggle. I also want to teach her how to do everything without me (for the said reason). I am NOT a fan of "mera jism, mera marzi" and pseudo-feminism.
5. A medical professional who plans on working: Doctors spend a lot of time hospitals aur patents ke saath, and I want a partner who's there for me. Not someone who works 12 hours a day and comes home too tired to do ANYTHING (not talking about chores).
6. Doesn't dress modestly: Definition - revealing clothes, no dupatta, jeans. You don't necessarily have to do hijab or niqab but still modest dressing.
Interesting facts about you:
Remember how I wrote I'm just 21? I'm a big advocate of early marriages. Why?
Not only do you stay away from haram relationships and zina, but your focus is just on one place - your person. You can really get ahead in life when you have that one person's support. I want to build my life with that person. I have big dreams. Shayad ho jayen, shayad nahi. Allah ki marzi. But mein ne apni taraf se efforts daalni hain, and I want my wife to support me throughout that.
And an interesting story
My aapi was a kid when she brought an eraser home. Apparently, her friend gifted her that. My mother got suspicious and thought aapi ne chori ki hai. She wrote a letter to her teacher asking her to make sure yeh gift hi tha.
She did that to make sure keh itni choti si bachi bhi chori na kar rahi ho.
That's the kind of family my family is. Hamari family mein people don't lie. We don't steal. Even taking a fruit from someone's tree without asking them is considered stealing.
Itna trust hai keh even if I get "caught" in a hotel room with a girl and I say keh I don't know the girl, toh my parents WILL believe me. Of course, I honour that just as much and would never do that.
City: Islamabad
Residence (Own/Rented): Government
Family details: Father is a civil servant, mother is a housewife, one married sister. Upper middle class
Requirements:
1. Supports me emotionally: I would say I'm an entrepreneur, and the stress in my life is fucking crazy. All I want from my wife is to hold my hand and tell me she's there for me and always will be by my side.
2. Values align karti hon: Honest, respectful (I greet even sweepers, kaam wali auntie and everyone bara, and I respect my teachers so much I don't talk about them naam le kar even behind their back), doesn't hurt others (would rather hurt herself).
3. Humour: Bohat lame dad jokes maarta hun. Bas don't say "lame" or "hasna tha" at my jokes and we're good to go ;)
4: Accountability: You can accept when you're wrong and don't let your ego get in the way
Upar upar se, that's mainly it.
Expectations from the partner:
Someone who's my safe place. The last thing I want is when I'm home, I have one more thing to worry about.
Timeframe in which you want to marry: 6-12 months

Ye saale haramkhor itni irrelevant mock test series bechte hai, mock test me literally VIT ke PYQs de rakhe the aur questions baar baar repeat hore the har mock me, behen ki choot ek job thi tumhare paas, usme bhi hag diya, mocks bhi pichle saal wale hi chaap diye kameeno ne aur inka crash course bhi liya tha maine usme bas rachit sir (REAP ke teacher) acche the, baki jo iska founder hai uss se zyada kutta aadmi nahi dekha maine , sala itna ganda course banaya hai usne, bas ek teacher hai dhang ka, maths me bhi bahot basic lvl ki maths karayi, luckily vo maine khud se ki thi to sahi gaya mera. Bkl itni dheemi awaz me padhata tha kuch samajh bhi nahi aata tha.
Bhai upar se sabse gandi cheez, ye saale literally free ke material ko paise ke badle bech ke mast scam kar rahe hai, rachit sir ke lectures free hai youtube pe, aur bhaii koi negative review deta tha to uska comment hi delete kar dete the agle din, SCAM HAI MAT LENA INKA COURSE, YOUTUBE SE HI KARLENA BC.

abh meri kehani sunke cult waale bolenge ki phelaana dhimaaka, lekin abh woh maa sulaae, aunty ji dhk gyi hongi
lamba hai lekin tum jab apni rank pdh skte ho toh yeh bhi pdh hi loge , toh 10 th maine krri thi 2020 mein, aur ohir jab 11th aayi toh life mein aagyi kota factory and nv sir, cult no, 1 motion
mere papa ek trika ka system chlaate they as a side hustle jisme sab paise milate they aur hrr mahine kuch loss pr aap woh saare paise udha skte ho, lekin joh cashier hota tha usko loss nhi poore paise milte they, abh lockdown hua toh kuch log gayab hogye aur paise aane bnd, acha abh trust tha unn pr, toh pehle shk nhi bnna, phir kya hua ki hum uss paise ko use krlete they aur jab salary aati thi toh adjust krte they, abh salary bhi bnd aur paise waale bhi bhaag gye, jinhone diye unke use hogye
iss situation mein maine rr kiya motion ka aur dummy school ka, fast forward 3 mahine poore ghr ka mahool bigaadne ke baad motion milla, jisme meri mummy neih apni ring bechi thi, aur feb mein dummy, abh motion ke itne bkl they unke motivators neih mujhe bhrm mein rkha ki hojayega hojayega, natija 11th waste
cult no 2 akash, 12 mein akash liya kyuki ek dost tha usme, unhone bhi keha ki hojayega, aur unke teachers se basic swaal nhi hote they, 12th adhi chod di fees ki wjha se, abh na school na coaching, pdhai krta hi nhi tha mai bus motivation dekh ke hilata tha, october 10 my mom died, like sudden, phir aaya unacademy scam, jinhone crash course ke naam pr loota, vineet loomba they main culprit
abh aata hai drop year, zero pdhai 11 12 ki, drop year mein liya pw, again adhi pdhai lekin pw neih cult nhi chlaya, phir jee ka result aaya toh 47,2 percentile, fast forward second drop aur 70 percentile
abh maine soocha ki mi formula rtt bhi leta toh isse ache le aata 12 th mein hi, toh kyu mai itna neeche aagya, like board ki copy dekh ke bhi jaata toh isse zyada aajate bkc,
abh aate hai last culprit, mohit tyagi aur baaki motivators, jinhone serious students ka bhosda sir pr liya tha, mujhe lgga serious toh mai bhi hu, toh 12 th mein maine unse pdhne ki koshish kri aur itne boring lectures, mtlb kabhi kabhi lgta hai ki inhe pdhane ka adhikaar kon diya, unhone humesha keha serious student yeh serious student woh, jindal maa ke lode neih keha cengage advanced acha student, alakh daddy neih keha ghr ke halat badlo, mohit tyagi neih keha yeh paper btayega aage ki life kaise hogi
bkl mcdo yeh btao ek bche ko yeh sab btaya jaata hai ki family condition flana dhimaka, ande se nikla nhi hai woh aur yeh bhoj, mai pdhte pdhte yeh sochta tha ki perfect material perfect lecture perfect notes, abh agr nhi hua toh ghr ki condition aur life ka bhosda hojana tha, mujhe gaadhi nhi milti, mere papa ko bandr uthake lejaate bc,
abh sunno meri baat bhosdiwaalo, college bohot badiya cheez hai, mzza aata hai paisa hai sab hai, lekin yeh ant nhi hai aur yeh teachers tumhari wjha se hai, tum inki wjha se nhi ho, aaj jee na do toh yeh log apne haath se apna youtube account na manage kr paaye, aapke so called god of porn teachers ape lectures tk edit na kr paaye, remember ki yeh log failed engineers hai, drr ka wypaar hai yeh, pehle yeh neeche they abh upr hai, system abhi bhi whi hai, yeh log 11 aur 12 se upr ka laand nhi pdha rahe,
"but bcho maine iit ki job nhi ki kyuki teaching passion hai", toh sir phd kriye havard oxford iit mein pdhao na, yeh 16 saal ke muthalo ko kyu pdha rahe ho, ''mera content sabse acha hai lekin'', ek aur chutiyap, inke notes pdhke maine toh kisiko nhi dekha ki usne koi machine bnaadi ho
abh kuch gaandu bolenge woh vidya de rahe hai guru bhagwaan hota hai, yeh koi guru nhi hai, aur rhi baat vidya ki toh inhone usse kothe pr baitha diya hai, aur yeh saare dalal uski boli lgaa rahe hai
naa kisi se drro na kisi ki baato mein aao, aapne hisaab se dekho kya kaise krna hota hai, joh shi lgge kro aur intent to work laao, baate sunno aur bolo mt, yeh books yeh lecture yeh sir mt kro, joh shi lgge woh kro, lekin kro, kisike kehne pr mt aao

There is this old couple who stay right opposite to our flat. Uncle is retired, it's been 6-7 years and aunty is a former nurse who left her job 30 years ago when she became a mother. They have 2 daughters who are like elder sisters to me (gem of a people) but they got married and shifted to UAE. And OMG the uncle has become unbearable since then, he thinks both me and my sister are their Children now, he tries to influence our parents decisions regarding us, bhenchod darwaza khulne ka aawaz aate hi he'll open his door to see kaun hai and agar mai ya meri bhen hue toh he'll be all like, kidhar jaa rahe ho? Kyu ja rahe ho? Kab aaoge? Arey, my parents know about that and that's enough right? Lekin nahi uncle ko gand me ungal karni hi hoti hai. Aunty is fine, infact she stops him from doing all this nonsense but buddha sathiya gaya hai i Guess??? Abhi toh hadd kardi uncle ne, i recently completed my MBA and got a good job and i was constantly in touch with his younger daughter for guidance and all because she too did an MBA and all....he ofcourse knows this and now he's constantly pestering me or my parents to know my package. Arey? Even my parents don't know about my real package, why should i tell him? And he'll try to find it out by different ways like, 1) arey tune loan liya haina toh abhi emi bharega toh X amount of emi ke liye X amount of salary toh rahega na tera? 2) tera dost log ka placement kaha laga? I said mumbai and then he asked kidher se hai wo log? I said koi Delhi, koi Jaipur, etc and then he said toh mumbai me rent itna high hai wo log ko itna rent afford karne ke liye toh X amount of salary toh milata hoga na? 3) the most absurd one, "tune X didi (his younger daughter) ko apna salary bataya na toh mujhe kyu nahi bataya?" I told him, "uncle maine kisiko nahi bataya didi ko bhi nahi aapko kaun bola ki maine didi ko bola?" Unki bolti band ho gayi.
Honestly they are good people and they have gone out of their ways to help us out, we have been neighbours for 16 years now, that family has seen us growing from kids to adults but yaar ab gussa aata hai thoda. Kaise deal karu politely? Anyone elso who also faces such problems?

It's been hours since one of neighbours mother in law is screaming to open door and let her out . I know my neighbour a bit they are good people and they were talking to some aunty ki (Nani dawai nhi le rhi beemar hai ) which I overheard. Ig they are saying the truth coz they aren't harming that old lady but for me it's heartbreaking to watch someone continuously banging the door beggin to open . She's abusing and crying since hours . She also tried to break the door . Tbh I don't have any issues with someone screaming this loud or anything, the only thing that's scaring me is the ptsd . My mother suffered from this type of illness and God those days were terrific n horrible. That poor lady may be going through same . I can't ask neighbours to keep quiet coz I know they can't they are helpless but the whole drama is literally getting in my nerves now.

Kya aap dukhi ho?
Kya aapke bhi mocks mein kumm number aa rhe hai??
Kya aapka bhi motivation kumm hai??
TOH APNI GEND MARAO BSDK...POORE SAAL KYA KAR RHE THE??
Yeh mein khud ko keh rha hu!!....(I have gone mad!!)
Topper se Dropper ban gaya hu...Log sochte the AIIMS jaaunga...abb jab result poochege toh 300 numbers kaise bataunga BC??????😭
Dil toot chuka hai...motivation and confidence ke ghode lag rakhe hai
Papa ko already bta chuka hu apni halat and voh supportive hai and isilitye unhone kuch nahi kaha...BUT ALSO BECAUSE I USED TO STUDY 12 HOURS BEFORE I GOT SICK FOR 2 MONTHS AND BROKE MY HABBIT OF STUDYING
But abb saala aunties and relatives ke TAUNT kaise sahunga??😭
MUJHE STRESS HO RHA HAI...PASEENE AA RHE HAI
AND TUM LOG TOH JAANTE HO KITNA CHUTIYA HU MEIN...EK LADKI KE $UICIDE KARNE CHALA THA....ITNE PRESSURE MEIN TOH NA JAANE KYA HO JAYE
BC...mein chutiya hu jo uss din bimaar hua BKL@!!!
Saala abb kya karu bhai??😭
DUNIYA KE TAANE KAISE SUNNU BHAI...KOI KUCH BATADO YRR PLSS...MEREKO LITERALLY SOCH-SOCH KE CHAKKAR AA RHE MKC...BC MERI GEND PHAT RAHI HAI YRR
TOPPER SE DROPPER KI HALAT MEIN SUICIDAL HONA TOH OBVIOUS HAI...but bhai kuch zyada hi darr lag rha hai bhai
Sirf soch kar hi darr lag rha hai ki samaj mein muh kaise dikhaunga bc?😭

I FAILED. Abb logo ke taane kaise sahu??

Kya aap dukhi ho?
Kya aapke bhi mocks mein kumm number aa rhe hai??
Kya aapka bhi motivation kumm hai??
TOH APNI GEND MARAO BSDK...POORE SAAL KYA KAR RHE THE??
Yeh mein khud ko keh rha hu!!....(I have gone mad!!)
Topper se Dropper ban gaya hu...Log sochte the AIIMS jaaunga...abb jab result poochege toh 300 numbers kaise bataunga BC??????😭
Dil toot chuka hai...motivation and confidence ke ghode lag rakhe hai
Papa ko already bta chuka hu apni halat and voh supportive hai and isilitye unhone kuch nahi kaha...BUT ALSO BECAUSE I USED TO STUDY 12 HOURS BEFORE I GOT SICK FOR 2 MONTHS AND BROKE MY HABBIT OF STUDYING
But abb saala aunties and relatives ke TAUNT kaise sahunga??😭
MUJHE STRESS HO RHA HAI...PASEENE AA RHE HAI
AND TUM LOG TOH JAANTE HO KITNA CHUTIYA HU MEIN...EK LADKI KE $UICIDE KARNE CHALA THA....ITNE PRESSURE MEIN TOH NA JAANE KYA HO JAYE
BC...mein chutiya hu jo uss din bimaar hua BKL@!!!
Saala abb kya karu bhai??😭
DUNIYA KE TAANE KAISE SUNNU BHAI...KOI KUCH BATADO YRR PLSS...MEREKO LITERALLY SOCH-SOCH KE CHAKKAR AA RHE MKC...BC MERI GEND PHAT RAHI HAI YRR
Darr lag rha bass sochke hi ki samaj mein muh kaise dikhaunga bc?😭

I FAILED. Abb logon ke taane kaise sahu??