This is my first time to post anything here, I’m sorry if it’s the wrong sub. Basically i have been diagnosed with pcos 3 years ago and been trying to get pregnant naturally for 2 years and had one chemical pregnancy and thats all.
so recently we decided to try the medical route . So my doctor prescribed me clomid this cycle as well as some prenatals, ovaecare inistol , glocophage and had a trigger shot this Saturday 11th of may.
I know it’s my first cycle medicated and I shouldn’t put my hopes so high, but I’m fighting the urge to not test or obsess over the possibility of a pregnancy.
I just wanted to let this out, i would love to hear any advice or stories to help me pass these 2 weeks left.
Also I really love reading everyone’s success stories it gives me so much hope and motivation.

To be honest I don't know how I feel about my writing. I was hoping you guys could give some advise to help me improve. I'm new to writing longer fic, most of the stuff I wrote before is one shots and poems. Also English isn't my first language, so I'm in unfamiliar territory.
1) I'm kinda regretting writing my story in past tense. I think that present tense would have been better, reserving the past tense for my flashbacks. Is it too late to change it? I mean it would mean having to rewrite the whole fic and I'm worried it would mess it up. What do you think, should I do it?
2) From what I learned in school and from the advice I read online, show don't tell is one of the most important rules of writing. However that is my exact problem. When I read my stuff I get the feeling like my writing is too dry and not descriptive enough and my beta agrees with me, but every time I try to be descriptive it comes off as flowery and it just feels like it was written by other people. How can I add more descriptive elements without sounding too flowery?
3) On that same note, my beta said that I tend to over explain scenes like for example in one chapter of my fic, there are several scenes where one character refusing help due to being stubborn and not wanting to be a burden and and the other character being frustrated/feeling they are taken advantage and wanting to end the friendship. I was trying to show how their friendship slowly imploded and as such certain elements pop up again and again. My beta said that it was too repetitive and that readers are not idiots who can pick up on themes without being hit over the head with a hammer. She's right of cause, but to be honest I'm not sure I'm good at writing subtext. Do you guys have any resources or tips to help me improve in that area?

I had a tech out yesterday to perform a cleaning of my A/C unit and take measurements and give me a quote for a duct cleaning, but it was raining so he didn’t get to service the rooftop A/C unit. He offered instead to do a free indoor air quality test and checked 3 spots with his monitor and told me that the ranges were between 4400-5000ppm.
That seems shockingly high. Is there any way that’s legit? For reference we’re in the 3rd floor of a 4-story apartment building (10 total units) in an urban setting. Two young kids, no pets and no smokers.
I guess two questions are: 1) is that a legit reading or are they trying to scam me into purchasing additional services and 2) if that is truly our indoor air quality what can we do about it to make it healthier for our kids?

This might be long, but i dont have anyone to talk to so if even one person reads this and helps i'll be super grateful!
Basically, had this “situationship” last November. Me and her were best friends in high school and were in like a 1.5 year talking stage lol, we never confessed feelings and eventually I told myself I had to move on from her bc I didn’t think it was ever gonna go anywhere. Fast forward to my junior year of college and her sophomore year, she had broken up with her bf (late October, a couple weeks before we started talking talking) and we had been in some contact the past few months. She drunk texted me the night she broke up with him and confessed how much she liked me in high school and it just sucked we never confessed feelings bc we would’ve been perfect together.
A couple weeks after all that, we’re on thanksgiving break and we hang out. We then talk about that in person, about how we would’ve been perfect for each other and we should’ve just confessed feelings, etc. Our next hangout, I decided that we shouldn’t talk right now. She had just gotten out of a really bad relationship and I had to study for my dental school admissions test. We would also be long distance, and I could sense how insecure she was in herself due to her past relationship, and she def needed time to be alone. I told her that, and she agreed. We agreed to try again after my Test, which would’ve been 3 months from then. Butttt then we eventually we kissed lol…
That led to us still talking and this was a topic of conversation like every couple of days. We would agree to not talk anymore and try again after my test, but then we would both fold and still talk. Winter break came around, and we said we’ll continue to talk and hang out until winter break ends. We’re with each other every night, she’s telling her friends about me and all her friends love me too. They all made an effort to meet me and they say I’m perfect for her. However, her ex would still hit her up, but she would show me everytime she rejected him so. Although, there was this one night they saw each other to talk and she said "i dont make any promises nothing wont happen btwn us" and that made me so scared, but nothing happened so ig its okay...??? Anyways, My hope was that by the time winter break ends, she’ll see we're good for each other and we can give it a chance, but she was still set on wanting to be single and heal from her last relationship, which I understand.
The night before winter break ended, I went over to her apartment. We basically did everything but have sex. She wanted to but I didn’t want her to get attached, and I didn’t wanna get attached myself so I told her we shouldn’t bc we were gonna be in no contact after this. She understood, but it was still one of the greatest nights of my life. I was finally with the girl I wanted to be with, and it just sucked we had to stop talking after this.
2 days after we're both back in school, she drunk texted me saying how much she missed me. So ofc we talked again that day. Next night, she drunk called me this time...She was talking about how i am her person, she sees herself falling in love with me and marrying me, and all this sorta stuff. She then told me "i dont think im good enough for you" this completely shattered my heart, no matter how much i told her thats not true and that shes perfect for me, she wouldnt agree. this confirmed that shes too insecure in herself to be in a relationship. After this, i wanted to talk to her sober about what she said, but she didnt want to. then she said we shouldnt wait for each other to try again after my test because she said she felt pressured to wait for me to be done...this made me so frustrated bc we agreed to try again every time we talked about this. Anyways, her bday was coming up, so i texted her friend to get her flowers on her actual bday and not tell her its from me (i had already gotten her flowers and a buncha gifts the night i went to her apartment) and she said she would. On her bday, i texted her and she just said "thanks" The combination of this and her bailing on the plan to try again after my test made me super frustrated. So that friend had asked me what happened btwn us and i kinda was in a rough place, so i told her that i dont think anything is ever gonna happen btwn us bc of the way things ended and all this tainted my image of her. I regret this so much. A couple weeks later, her friend texts me again to check in and i apologize to her friend about all the things i said, and i told the friend to tell her i am so sorry about it and i didnt mean any of it.
Okay, so throughout this semester, she texted me every now and then, wishing me happy bday and sometimes just asking me random stuff about school. After my test was done, which i did well on thankfully lol, she asked me how it went and i told her and stuff, but the convo never advanced. Now, I am stuck btwn wanting to ask her to hang out to try again or letting go of her and let fate bring us back together. Idk if she wants to hang out with me or not and its killing me. I feel like i completely ruined my chance with her bc of what i told her friend and its created a pit in my stomach. She def seems more confident and secure in herself bc shes finally posting on social media and stuff like that, which makes me so happy for her. Idk im just stuck. My fear is that she'll say no to hanging out, but i feel like if i never ask her then i'll never know. Like what if i ask her and shes willing to give it another chance, i wouldnt know if i didnt ask her ya know.
Tl; dr My overall question is: Do i let go of her and improve myself as much as possible and let destiny bring us back to each other like it did the first time, or make an effort to try again with her, with the fear of being rejected from the girl i've always wanted to be with?

Am I too much?
My boyfriend and I are new. We’ve been “official” for two months now and are quite serious. We’ve discussed the word love, but haven’t really put it out there. He has stated several times that he believes I’m in love with him but that he believes I’m holding it back to protect myself. He says I should let them out. I’ve repeatedly told him I’m nervous to do so because I’m not trying to rush this already fast paced relationship and that I don’t want my feelings to be vocalized and he not feel the same way. I told him I want to make sure my feelings are safe first, and he insists that they are with him. Just this weekend, he said “what if something happened to me and you never told me?” That statement stayed in my head during the entire scenario I’m writing about.
His wife passed almost a year ago, and since we met, he insists he’s ready to move forward in life. We talk about the future, but I’ve been a bit wary because I know this is all new to him. He is an amazing man and treats me wonderfully.
He’s 56 and I’m 45 but we live about 50ish miles from one another. We make a point to see each other as much as possible. We also make a point to communicate with one another every. Single. Day. We talk every morning before work, text throughout our day, and stay on the phone several hours at night. The only time we break this routine is when one of us is out of town or away visiting family, but we discuss that ahead of time.
This weekend, he came to my hometown, and we spent an amazing weekend together. We had the best time. At the end of the weekend, we both went home, (this was maybe 10am) but I never heard of he made it home safely. I texted him around 1 just to ask. Never heard a word. Then texted around 5pm to let him know I was going to a friend’s house and would call him when I got back home. Told him I hope his day was going well. We usually do check in texts when we know we will be unavailable.
I get home that night around 10pm and ask him to just please let me know if he’s ok. I then call but it goes straight to voicemail. Then again around 12am to let him know I’m worried. I go to bed.
I wake up around 6 am and see no missing calls or messages, so I call him. Straight to voicemail again, so now I’m worried. I go to work and still hear nothing from him, so around 9:30am (24 hours later), I call back. Same thing. This is very unlike him, and I start to panic.
What would you do at this point? I really hesitate doing everything else next, but I’m worried. I call his job to give him a message to contact me. I’m ready to leave it at that and wait. I don’t have his number memorized, so I’m sure with a dead phone that he doesn’t know mine. His job calls me back around 11am and says “ma’am. You called early to deliver a message to ———. Well, I’m calling you back to let you know that ——— isn’t here for us to deliver the message. I definitely was not expecting that and my fear sets in. That was a strange phone call to me.
I’m worried he’s hurt, and especially with not hearing a peep from him for over 24 hours, I leave work early around 12pm and head his way. I get to his house, and he’s not there. I go to his job next, but I don’t go in. Instead, I call a second time. I speak with the same person, and she asks my relation. I tell him I’m her girlfriend. She pauses and says “I’m not supposed to say anything, but I’ll just say this. His family knows what’s going on with him.” I tell her thank you then hang up.
To me, that means something happened. So I go to his mom’s house. Again, I am doubting all of my actions, but at this point, I’m thinking he’s hurt. We are new and haven’t introduced one another to family other than one person. Outside of our own information and the names of our jobs, we don’t have contact info for one another, so I’m unsure what to do during all of this. I decide I’d rather be the crazy lady that did too much than sit back and not know what happened.
So, I’ve been to his mom’s house but never inside. The one time I went, it was late at night and he had to pick something up, and I didn’t want to meet her for the first time in that manner. I have met his sister briefly before. So, I’m at his mom’s house and knock on the door. I explain what’s happening and she invites me in. She does not know who I am, but that’s not unusual. If the situation were reversed, my parents would not know who he is either. She tells me he is in the hospital and that she was there earlier and he should be home later. She told me what happened which is concerning but fits with what he’s told me about his medical history.
She gives me a different phone number for him. She says he had to get another phone the day before because he cracked the one with the number I have. I call it and it just rings. Then I ask the hospital number. She doesn’t give it to me (again, I don’t blame her) but tells me the hospital name and that the system at the hospital is down.
I go to the hospital. The system is down. I ask information, and they say something about ransomeware. After a while of asking, I leave and go sit somewhere to wait. I’m praying he will call me. I text the number his mom gave me and later the number calls back, rings once then hangs up. I call it back, rings then voicemail.
After about 3 hours after getting that number from his mom, the number calls me back. It’s him, and he’s pissed. He says I did too much. He’s mad I called his job because he doesn’t want them in his business. He says he could see if it was two or three days but not one. I told him something felt off and it turns out I was right. He was in the hospital. He asked why I did it all and I told him because he went all outside of our routine in a big way. He told me we don’t have a pattern and not to look for one. We definitely have a pattern. We even talked about it this weekend and I told him how much I love his consistency. I apologized if I overstepped and said I thought we were serious enough for our actions. He said we are that serious but proceeds to say I did too much. He wouldn’t let me come to the hospital to see him and said he needed some uninterrupted time to himself so I went home. I didn’t even respond and I don’t plan to. I feel like I should just step alllllllll the way back. I also think he’s panicking because he’s only used to being loved by his late wife.
I do love this man, but it feels like he took all that love he said he saw and wanted and threw it back in my face. I’ve made it clear that I’m intense. I would have done the same had it been my parents, my kids, siblings, friends, etc. when we talk again, I know I won’t be the same. I don’t trust him with my feelings anymore.
We haven’t talked since. I’m sure he’s doubting me because I’m surely doubting him. Not once did he acknowledge what I went through to check on him. And he wasn’t trying to listen. I told him I’m happy he’s ok but I listened to my intuition which said he wasn’t and it was right. He said don’t listen to that. I told him that had I heard from him just once that he was ok, none of this would have ever happened. Are my intentions even important here?
I know my actions are a lot and this is a lot to read, so if you’ve made it this far, thank you.
Am I crazy? What would you have done? What should I have done? Do you think this is salvageable?

I've played tarkov since 2017 ( a year after it's release) and a few things I'd like to note. First I'm not going to mention the obvious with the new edition.
To start, I hate this new Era of "Early Access" titles, when it's really just an excuse to not produce the game at the start. Dayz is not exception. If you were to tell me in 2017 that tarkov would not be in 1.0 I would have waited to buy. I have 1500 hours so it's been fun, but the fact that they do "major" changes every year vs wipe is so pointless. Since you get no real rewards for playing each wipe or even reaching kappa, the next wipe feels stale. Sure we got 3 new maps in the past 5 years but they've been unrunnable and not fun to learn. Adding landmines and other zones to new maps is just frustrating when they are in the middle of the map. When "Early Access" is thrown around I usually think that they are experimenting and trying to find and fix what works best. BSG however makes very tiny changes and will brandish them as game breaking. Each year I've played, audio, performance, and cheating have not only been a problem but all seemed to get worse as new content arrives. The rapid changes they are making because of the new failure they brought is how the game should of been handled to begin with. IMO I feel like having the same quests (with the exception of a FEW new ones) gets boring. For the people who haven't gotten kappa, it's fun getting until you've gotten it once or twice then it just feels stale, kinda like beating a story game a few times. If they have 3 separate quest lines, COMPLETELY different containing 0 quests from each similar, per wipe of the year (3 wipes usually per year). I feel like a game that's been out for 8+ years should of been out of Early Access years ago.
I also feel that edge of darkness should of gone away about 4 years ago. Before people freak, I say this because they kept it for greed, they could of added the unheard edition and been fine (as long as what was included was given to eod). The reason I think EoD should of been removed earlier than now is that too many have it. I honestly forgot about the custom name tag when buying it, and thought it was just a bug or player scav when I got killed by a white tag. It was never after I'd see white tags, and with 1500h that's saying something. EoD should of been limited, usually a "limited" product doesn't last 8 years.... unless it's Baja blast. They could of released the more expensive version and given EoD holders the items in it, EoD however was so broken, if you played tarkov frequently you had to have it. Money and guns don't matter from it, but a lvl 4 stash and gamma case makes a huge difference, and I'd still argue there are less than 100 people that have gotten Kappa that haven't owned EoD.
Arena is the last thing I wanna talk about, I know I got a large wall of text. BSG was so upset about arena doing bad they felt the need to make another cash grab with UHE. Arena however could of and CAN still be fixed easily. First remove all the maps in it now. Second add snips from maps similar hlto how CSGO did their 2v2 maps where they are fractions of other maps. Snips from maps like customs, maybe making it a Dorms fight, or for bigger team battles maybe even sawmill from woods. This would be the absolute cheapest way to get players to play, while still having features like voip. Of course the biggest change and most important, is stop trying to be CS or valorant. We don't need a buy system with money yatatat that's not what Arena needs. I'm fine with TDM and I enjoyed the 2v2 3v3 5v5 tournament mode but stop with the money to items modes. Also important, the weapons, armor, ammo etc... I hate what I'm about to say, but this feature needs to be copied from Call of Duty. What I mean is that you can make custom loadouts with whatever you want. Yes I get that it would issue a meta to the game but a system like this where armor and ammo stay at mid tier would work way better than play the game for 50h they you get to get a dusk cover on your ak. Another system, which is the one I want more, is one that compares to both Arena and Regular. Guns, ammo, armor, etc... pull directly from your stash, if it's tdm you'd keep the weapon and total ammo you had per death, where as a more hardcore version would be you can die and get looted per round and lose/gain gear giving more or less incentive to the quality of gear brought. There could be quest and other reqards that would give some help towards your Tarkov Regular character such as money and gear. This would give a boost to Early game and players not familiar with active combat. With familiar maps and situations relative to the real game, this would 100% give people a reason to buy Arena. But similar to other games the way to prevent fall off of the game even with changes, is a reward system that bsg can control. Rewards like winning a tournament gives you permanent clothing or gives you a random item like scav junk case does in the hideout. With rewards and a rotation on maps in the pool Arena would easily be playable.
Thanks for reading this wall of text, these are a few changes I think if implemented Tarkov would have reason to play and not just play until 30 and quit which is what the average level people stop at per wipe, and also give reason to play Arena.

Read this in Ryan’s voice for maximum effect:
After 376 votes cast, the first person in our Bottom 3 is…Leah Marlene
The next person in our Bottom 3 is…Casey Bishop
And joining them in the Bottom 3 is…Kayko
Result: Kayko, you are going home. Leah and Casey, you are safe. “You had a bad day, you’re taking one down…”
On today’s ballot we narrow the Top 6 to the Top 5. For this round, you have up to 4 votes to spread out amongst the competition and can give up to one vote per contestant. The person with the lowest number of votes will be eliminated. On the ballot, the contestants are listed in random order. Voting for this round closes at 9am Eastern tomorrow, May 15.
To vote, head over to the Straw Poll at this link: https://strawpoll.com/LVyK8PYadn0
(Don't forget the same kind of competition is currently going on for the Fox seasons and the first ballot for that closes TOMORROW at 9am, too! Here's the ballot.)
Here’s the full season schedule. The date listed is the date the ballot is posted for that round. You have one day to complete each ballot.
REDDIT IDOL! SEASON 1
A competition to determine the sub’s favorite contestants from the ABC era of American Idol
April 23: Auditions (Top 70)
April 29: Wildcard
May 1: Hollywood Part 1 (Top 60)
May 2: Hollywood Part 2 (Top 50)
May 3: Hawaii Part 1 (Top 40)
May 4: Hawaii Part 2 (Top 35)
May 5: Final Judgment (Top 30)
May 6: Top 20
May 7: Top 15
May 8: Top 12
May 9: Top 11
May 10: Top 10
May 11: Top 9
May 12: Top 8
May 13: Top 7
May 14: Top 6
May 15: Top 5
May 16: Top 4
May 17: Top 3
May 18: Top 2
May 19: Winner Announced
All Results So Far, FYI:
Eliminated in Audition Round: Jay Copeland, Cade Foehner, Caleb Kennedy, Lady K, Grace Leer, Jurnee, Alyssa Raghu, Dimitrius Graham, Dennis Lorenzo, Emyrson Flora, Wade Cota, Alyssa Wray, Marybeth Byrd, Dillon James, Deshawn Goncalves, Warren Peay, Mike Parker, Jovin Webb, Michelle Sussett, Caleb Lee Hutchinson
Eliminated at Top 60: Tyson Venegas, Walker Burroughs, Colin Stough, Haven Madison, Uche, Triston Harper, Michael J. Woodard, Ada Vox, Christian Guardino, Zachariah Smith
Eliminated at Top 50: Julia Gargano, Noah Thompson, Allegra Miles, Odell Bunton, Jr., Madison VanDenburg, Louis Knight, Will Moseley, Sophia James, Nya, Laine Hardy
Eliminated at Top 40: HunterGirl, Arthur Gunn, Cassandra Coleman, Jeramiah Lloyd Harmon, Julia Gagnon
Eliminated at Top 35: Mia Matthews, Makayla Phillips, Nutsa, Jennifer Jeffries, Emmy Russell
Eliminated at Top 30: Gabby Barrett, Lauren Spencer-Smith, Jonny West, Roman Collins, Oliver Steele, Nicolina, Laci Kaye Booth, Francisco Martin, Kaeyra, Just Sam
Eliminated at Top 20: Chayce Beckham, Kaibrienne, Hunter Metts, Ajii, Megan Danielle
Eliminated at Top 15: McKenna Faith Breinholt, Jayna Elise, Maddie Poppe
12th Place: Catie Turner
11th Place: Grace Kinstler
10th Place: We Ani
9th Place: Alejandro Aranda
8th Place: Willie Spence
7th Place: Kayko

Hallo liebe Community,
leider hab ich vergangenes Wochenende eine recht unliebsame Begegnung gehabt
Gegen Mitternacht bin ich raus ausm Bett um mit dem Welpen noch eine Runde zu gehen (wohn in der nähe von Spittelau, Wien), und kaum raus ausm Haustor werd ich gegen die Wand gedrückt (so a Reaktionszeit muss man mal haben, respekt).
Vor mir zwei Jugendliche, einer drückt mich gegen die Wand, der andere steht wohl als emotionale Unterstützung recht passiv daneben. Dabei ist der zweite unscheinbar aber scheinbar Assi angezogen, der erste in Froschgrünen (!) Adidasjacke unterwegs. Gut, „gib uns dein Geld“, nanonanet, was sonst. Ja hab keins mit. „Schwör?“ Ja, Hawara i geh mim Hund pissen um 12 auf Nacht i hab kein Geld mit. „Gib uns dein Geld, sonst stich ich dich ab. Willst an stich?“ Passt scho, i hab nix mit Während der ganzen Gesichte hält sich der Haupttäter die Oaschtasche seiner hautengen Jeans, wohl um „Ich stech dich ab“ mit einem Messer zu unterstreichen , was sich aber im Nachhinein eh als homöopathisch herausgestellt hat.
Nach dem exemplarischen Taschen-leeren und herzeigen was ich mithab - an Schlüssel und mein Iphone Mini (war ihnen wohl zu klein, wolltens ned) sagt der andere endlich „lass“ und geht langsam weg, der andere folgt. Aber nicht ohne noch nonchalant zu fragen ob ich nicht „an Tschick“ dabei hätt - na i bin nichtraucher. Reicht als Antwort anscheinend.
Gut, Polizei angerufen, keine 30 Sekunden (vom nächsten Mci raus, also wirklich…) mit Blaulicht und bam, habens den nicht-zu-übersehenden Green Goblin gefasst - mit 9 Mann und 1 Frau vor Ort.
Nach der Beamtshandlung und Erstbefragung darf ich direkt mit ins LKA fahren, wo direkt vom Leiberl DNA proben genommen werden - zwecks Beweisen, Zeugen gibts nämlich keine.
Nach knapp einer Stunde warten und erneuter Schilderung des Vorfalls (inklusive 5-minütiger Wartungspause fürs polizeiliche IT-System) sowie Gesichter-Memoryspiel darf ich gehen, mit weder Brille oder Geldtasche noch sonstwas dabei, knapp eine Stunde mit den Öffis von Daheim weg. Zum Glück haben die Kollegen sich erbarmt mich mitzunehmen, haben eh in die Richtung müssen. Weitere 5 minuten vorm Garagentor, sie kriegens ned auf. Und während der Fahrt habens die Mci-Shakes von vorhin genossen. Dann endlich daheim, noch etwas perplex von der ganzen Sache.
/sudern Ende
Die Täter habens ja eh, der Grüne mit 5 (!) Vorstrafen, was sie übern anderen gesagt haben hab ich leider nicht gehört. 20 und 18, also beide jünger als ich.
Habt ihr Erfahrungen mit sowas? Was sind die Chancen dass die ohne Zeugen wirklich belangt werden, grade deswegen weil sie ja auch wissen wo ich wohne. Leider waren die Polizeibeamten um 3 in der Früh auch nicht mehr Motiviert und haben mir absolut nicht gesagt wies jetzt weitergeht.
Tl;Dr: Bin von zwei jugendlichen Ausgeraubt worden, Versuchter Raub zumindest.

I'm sure most of you have already read it at this point, but if you haven't, you better eff off now because SPOILERS AHEAD.
Okay, now that the innocents are gone, WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT?! How on EARTH are they going to get away with something this gruesome in the next season of HotD? Also, I don't remember seeing Helaena playing with Maelor in the brief shot we got of her with the kids last season; I only saw the twins. I can't imagine B&C being as effective without Maelor and the Sophie's Choice of it all. Did anyone catch a third kid in the mix?
I've seen a lot of posts on here saying it could be the next Red Wedding, and as much as I would love/hate that (especially since I'll be a reader who knew it was coming this time), I can't help but disagree. The Red Wedding happened after 3 seasons/over 3,000 pages, giving viewers and readers plenty of time to connect to Robb and Cat. Also, GRRM wrote the Red Wedding before he wrote B&C---it was the first time we knew George was not fucking around. No matter how fucked up things get in Fire and Blood, nothing can equal the shock of the Red Wedding. We were all sweet summer children before then. Now we're hardened cynics, shouting "COME AT ME BRO!" to whatever GRRM throws at us next.
I'd also argue that reading the Red Wedding is actually worse than watching it. First time I read it, I was on the subway and started crying uncontrollably, even though I'd already seen the show at that point and knew it was coming. Nothing can prepare you for the final Cat POV chapter. That said, I didn't have the same reaction when I read Blood and Cheese. I'm sure it's because of the style of writing, the lack of POV chapters, and how that influences the readers connections to the characters. I'm actually way sadder about what's going to happen to the show version of Helaena vs. what happened to the book version. Show version doesn't deserve what's coming. She's so sweet and perfect. It's gonna be rough.

US Residents - My boyfriend and I are traveling out of the country at the end of June, we ordered expedited passports and he didn't have any checks so I just wrote him one. I applied for a new passport in person so the USPS rep just wrote my DOB on my check. I saw her write something and asked if I can write a check for him, she confirmed with no extra context. When I wrote one for him I completely missed the instructions to put name and DOB! All I wrote was "Passport Application" in the memo line.
I read that the DOB is just to help identify checks if they get separated, but I'm not sure if the same applies to the name of the applicant.
Did I screw his application up?
I saw that it can take 2-3 weeks for them to tell you there was an issue. I saw some people find the processing center from their application status and call and pay over the phone, is that an option?
Any help would be amazing!

Ectopic pregnancy is a potentially life-threatening condition that occurs when a fertilized egg implants outside of the uterus, usually in the fallopian tube. It affects about 1 in 50 pregnancies and requires immediate medical attention. As a woman, it is crucial to be aware of the warning signs of ectopic pregnancy to seek prompt treatment and prevent complications.
In this blog post, we will discuss 5 warning signs of ectopic pregnancy that every woman should know. As the best gynecologist doctor in Indore, I have seen many cases of ectopic pregnancies and want to raise awareness about this condition.
1. Abdominal or pelvic pain:
One of the most common symptoms of ectopic pregnancy is abdominal or pelvic pain. This pain is usually sharp and severe and can occur on one side of the abdomen. It may also be accompanied by cramping and tenderness in the pelvis. If you experience sudden and intense abdominal pain, it is essential to consult your gynecologist immediately.
2. Vaginal bleeding:
Vaginal bleeding is another warning sign of ectopic pregnancy. It may be light or heavy and can occur at irregular intervals. This bleeding is different from a normal period and may be accompanied by abdominal pain. If you experience any abnormal vaginal bleeding during pregnancy, it is best to consult your gynecologist.
3. Shoulder pain:
Shoulder pain may seem like an unusual symptom of ectopic pregnancy, but it is a warning sign that should not be ignored. This pain occurs due to the irritation of the diaphragm caused by internal bleeding from the ectopic pregnancy. If you experience sudden and severe shoulder pain, it is crucial to seek medical attention.
4. Dizziness or fainting:
Ectopic pregnancy can cause internal bleeding, which can lead to a drop in blood pressure. This can result in dizziness or fainting. If you experience these symptoms, it is essential to consult your gynecologist immediately.
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5. Nausea and vomiting:
Nausea and vomiting are common symptoms during early pregnancy, but if they are accompanied by any of the other warning signs mentioned above, it could be a sign of ectopic pregnancy. If you experience persistent nausea and vomiting, it is best to consult your gynecologist.

I'm a 3.5 player, maybe 4.0 in singles on my best day. I'd love to say I'm an all-court player but I am probably closer to a baseliner at this point. I'm not a racket/string/equipment nerd so I know very little about what's out there and what I should be experimenting with. The sheer number of rackets that exist is overwhelming, so I would love to get some guidance from the community here.
I'm currently using the Babolat Pure Strike 18x20 (I believe they are 3rd gen--might be 2nd). I have been using this racket since I picked up the sport again a handful of years ago. Honestly, I have no complaints about this racket, but I would like to look at other options that:

• Provide more power and spin
• Are more arm-friendly

I've read and been told that my current stick is not great on the above two points.
The club I belong to has what seems like a large selection of rackets to demo, but there is no list of what's available online or elsewhere. What rackets should I be looking to demo?

dear bean
yknow i know you definitely will not care about this and you will probably tell your friends and say how desperate or annoying or needy or shitty I am, and its fine - say what you want. because honestly I couldn't care less about how you think about me but I just want to be heard from your end one final time. and yea I did say that a couple times, I've tried reaching out a couple times, I've tried being a mature person even though I was actually breaking inside. so yea, I'm sorry I lied, sorry I said it would be my last time contacting you but breaking that promise every time, but this time it really will be the last time.
honestly, I think we had a good run for the what, 4 months we were friends? i have nothing bad to say about you, and even though it was hell after whatever you would call that, I still don't dislike you or hate you or feel negative feelings towards you, cause at the end of the day, we're all humans living life and we can decide when someone isn't worth being in our life anymore (that might sound passive aggressive, it wasn't supposed to sound like that, just read it like I understand the feeling). if you're annoyed by this email - don't keep reading, I'll just go on and on and I guess this email (that I will never send) is just a way for me to reflect and understand my feelings while also giving you, the bean that I knew, a chance to come out one last time before shutting me down once and for all. yea so if you're gonna go beserk from this email, dob me out to all your friends, then I suggest you leave before I pour my heart and soul out.
you were actually really cool in my eyes, talented and smart, it was hard not to admire the determination you had and the willingness to do things. and I hate admitting it, and I know my friends hate hearing me talk about it, but I miss you and your presence. yes, sue me, no I'm not in love with you, yes you made that big of and impact on me. i was scared of you when you first joined honk, you had very sharp and cool eyes. and again - you were talented which intimidated me. but overtime, I understood that you weren't scary, you were actually so sweet and funny and really silly. i liked how you pushed yourself to try harder and new things, like clarinet 1 in honk. i don't even know how we started chatting, I think you were looking for some sheet music or something. honestly it was nice talking to you, even from the beginning. it was fresh talking to someone new, I didn't have high expectations of where this friendship would go but I was happy enough to enjoy the moment while it lasted.
and well, that moment lasted a while. we talked for a week and I could already tell that my crappy feelings would complicate things - I just never met someone so like me before. even though I didn't have strong feelings, I knew they were there, but I still chose to talk to you. how foolish right? i mean we had the same interests, music (clarinet!!), txt, twisted tales, it was a coincidence meeting someone who was like a mini me. and of course, when we started talking about crushes, I felt adrenaline and just kept going until I just puked my feelings over you. I'm not sure how you felt then when I admitted I liked you, but if it was hard for you or if it made you uncomfortable, I'm sorry. putting you in that position must have been hard so i'msorry. you said you weren't ready for anything serious, but I was just excited, too happy to find someone finally, that it didn;t occur to me how fast i might be going.
we had our issues, but i thought that we loved each other. i loved you so i thought that even though i had issues, talking it out with you was always the best way to work things out. communication is key, that's what i told myself. i guess it wasn't key, unless it's the key to making friendships break apart. i guess i just tricked myself into thinking you loved me just as much as i loved you, so i thought you had the same idea of communication as i did. and honestly i think a part of me was right, because you did try. but it was my fault, i kept bringing in other little small things that affected me and you had to put me back together. and i guess that must've been annoying cause at some point you just stopped trying. I'm not saying that that's an issue or that it was your problem, I'm under the impression it was all my doing.
looking past that, i seriously loved you so much. i neglected a lot for you - again not blaming you, i did it because i really really loved you so much and i wanted the best for you in every circumstance (even if it didn't seem like it). i left my friends a lot, my mum noticed i was getting more distant and well, after things ended i got into touch with my loved ones again, so I'm in a way grateful for you for doing that.
love is hard to describe. but i knew i had love for you. i said i loved my other crushes, Nathan, louis. but they were absolutely nothing compared to what i had for you. i had love for you that was comparable to evangeline (don't tell her that). mayve you can tell but words could not describe how or what i felt after things ended. not sure what your breaking point was, but it must have been a big point. i have 3 main points regarding this end of whatever we had:

1. what is it we even had? you said we were just friends - i accept that - but i feel like it was definitely not what i saw. and yes, maybe this is subjective BUT i don't think friends hold hands (well they do but they're not afraid to), they don't celebrate "months of friendship" (recalling every month we were "together" we would celebrate) and friends don't kiss each other's foreheads like that (and if they didn't like it, they'd stop each other). honestly, I'm cringing recalling the fucking embarrassing things i did but it needs to be addressed. i have to ask you - and there's no shame in being truthful because i don't care anymore - what did you see us as? was i a one time fling? was i seriously just your friend? did you have feelings for me then realise i was too high maintenance to handle and dropped me? or maybe there was another factor. that brings me to my next point.
2. was there another person who you realised was better? again, while an average person might see this as morally incorrect - i do not care - you're human and you can feel whatever you want for whoever you want. But i’m genuinely asking, did you? Was it the guy you liked in year 6? The one who bullied you? Call me a detective but, i remember seqc calling one night after things ended, i was back from vietnam and had slightly accepted the idea of the situation. you pulled out some messages from a boy on discord, it was of him admitting he liked you back in year 6. i looked at the date, it was the 6th of january 2023, 9 days before you had the courage to break it off with me. Did he maybe have a part in this? Did you maybe feel things weren’t working out with me and realised you had a chance with someone else so you took it? AGAIN NO SHAME - you do whatever you want to do in life, i’m not shaming you or judging you I just genuinely want to know. I also saw you posting about a boy on your story - not sure if its the same boy but if it was, i hope it went well for you. Sorry these were all the conspiracy theories i made up to cope - crazy right? Imagine what a person can do to you.
3. why did we stop being friends? Even though things didn;t work out romantically (or what i thought was romantic, you thought of as friendship), i don’t know what happened to us. You told me you wanted to be friends. I also wanted to be friends. The only reason that kept me alright was the idea that even though you don’t think of me more, i could still keep you as a friend - someone i could share my passions with and geek out over txt music with. Thats why i tried to stay friends with you. I really and truly did try to make ‘friends’ work with you. But the more i tried - the more annoyed you got. Or i think you were getting annoyed. I wouldn’t know because you didn’t tell me how you felt afterwards. I tried to make it work because you said we could be friends but you gave up on me. I think that’s what hurt me the most - breaking your word. I keep saying it, but you’re entitled to do whatever you want, but it left an emotional scar on me. I don’t want to admit it, but on the days you started at (bean's new school name), i woke up early just to talk to you, to keep you company on the bus on your first few days. Yea cringey i know, bare with me please. I thought I owed you that, i thought that being friends with you after you ended ‘things’, i had to earn my right so i tried, i really tried to be my best for you, so you felt that maybe it was worth keeping me around. And maybe, maybe i was still in love with you then. But i think you saw talking to me for three days straight at 7am was annoying and you were probably uncomfortable because it was me. I feel like you saw me as a creep - almost like a pedo. But i tried and you gave up on me, and there was a time a couple months later where we were perfectly fine, but then things just went again.

you might think I just had silly little feelings for you. but I didn't. i really had feelings for you. and I don't know if you genuinely didn't see me that way, or you didn't have feelings for me, if you just thought it was a silly little thing we had going on or if you're hiding the fact you did like me at some point. I just know that losing you as a friend really crushed me to pieces. and yes you told people you never want to talk to me or talk about me - which is fine you're entitled to your own rights - but I just wanted to get this off my chest. one last time - I promise.
I don’t know if this will get to you. It probably won’t, theres a bit too much that i wrote in here. Do you care about this still? Definitely not (I’m assuming). It’s embarrassing how much I think about this and how much i regret not letting my feelings out before you removed me as a friend on instagram and discord (or even blocking me on spotify, not sure how spotify was a way for me to get to you but whatever works i guess). This issue has been taking up my mind for the last few years, and it really does suck. But I’m gonna let it out, so im sorry if you got up to here.
Not sure how much this means to you, but you can contact me anytime if you want to let out your feelings (of life, not about this or me), i want to support you as much as i can. I can also help you with coping with school - again i don’t think you’d take me up on that but it’s always an option if you need it. I won’t make it weird, i wont bring this up again, i’ll talk to you like you’re one of my friends.
I haven’t heard much about your feelings in this - feelings of anger, regret, sadness. If you do want to share (you most definitely don’t have to), email me, text me, contact me and we can talk about how you felt too. This email was for me to finally write down what i wanted to let out and finally let go of what happened (even if you think it was miniscule, it wasn’t for me).
Life is hard, and I learnt that through you and the experience of you. So thank you for teaching me this. Thank you for showing me what love felt like, and thank you for being my first love. You made it very hard for other people because i only compared them to what I had with you. But in saying that - I made life long friends who helped me cope. And I hope you found some life long friends as well.
I hope you have a good life (in saying that, i am assuming we will never meet each other ever again - but if we do meet again disregard this).
Thanks for everything (and nothing as well) (while that sounds bitter, its more like a thank you for what you taught me - life lessons and all - but also thanks for the pain i had to feel afterwards, while that pain was not enjoyable, it was what taught me).
kind regards,
toad
to readers: i censored the names for privacy, but i called her bean (as a nickname - it really suited her), and i was known as her 'toad', hence the names.

I have a Teton Sports Polara 3-in-1 sleeping bag. As can be seen in the link, the storage bag that comes with the sleeping bag is synthetic and tight. I’ve read online that this can damage the sleeping bag over time.
Unfortunately, I do not have the space to hang the sleeping bag. I’ve heard that mesh bags are a good alternative. My questions are:

1. Do I need to buy a mesh bag or is the synthetic bag okay to continue using?
   
2. If I do need a mesh bag, what affordable and durable options would you recommend?
   

Recently Gates of Hell released the American faction and did a full overhaul of the German faction, leading to a pair of interesting factions with an incredible variety of historically authentic uniforms. You could zoom in on any of the squads and see the diverse uniforms depicted right down to the insignia on their caps and the regiments on their patches. Shermanator’s interview of Chase/Trudel (the lead animator & 3D human artist) gave me faith in the developer’s passion for the history and the game. This made me quite excited, because we have yet to see a British Commonwealth faction but there is some heavy implication that we can expect one in the future.
I wanted to make this thread, because I wanted to express my desire to see elements in the game that would make the Commonwealth faction a wealth of interesting units, uniforms and nationalities, particularly via the doctrines system that exists within the game. The intention is to throw in representatives across all the major nations of the British Commonwealth as well as some of the Allied armies-in-exile that came under British command. I also want to highlight some of the vehicles that are rarely mentioned in other games due to their obscure theatre or role. For the record, I'm not telling the devs what to do - I'm just making some example doctrines that I came up with as an example of the variety of units I'd love to see and making their inclusion plausible. Mostly to get the community talking.
I won’t talk about early war, partially because ‘Early war’ in Gates of Hell is largely post-Dunkirk, but also because I feel like what I am asking is still quite a lot just for one faction across two eras. I also I won’t be mentioning the more obvious or general units like Stuarts, Crusaders, Cromwells, Grants etc, as I expect them to be added nonetheless. It’s the vaguer aspects of the Commonwealth I wanted to talk about; the weird, wonderful and the diverse.
Mid War Doctrines
I think the mid-war should be largely inspired by the North African Campaigns, centred largely on the 8th Army and utilising the huge variety of cultures that fought within it. Extra bits can be added from the Italian campaign where the faction is lacking, and the Italian campaign can also be represented in the ‘Temperate’ skin for the mid-war faction. There are a lot of inspirations one can draw to create a variety of options for the Commonwealth player and each doctrine should draw from their unique aspects.
All-Round: Inspired by the Desert Rats, the 2nd Battle of El Alamein and Operation Crusader this one balances the various aspects of the other doctrines while keeping it unique. I’d like to see the Infantry include British Desert Rats Infantry, 2nd New Zealand Infantry, & 1st South African Infantry. I’d also like to see South African Marmon-Herrington Armoured Cars (multiple variants) as an early-battle option, plenty of the more common tanks and maybe the Bishop as a slow but mobile artillery piece. As a special call-in, we could probably include the Free French Legionaries as a powerful assault unit, just to really complete the variety in this division.
Defensive: Inspired by the Siege of Tobruk, this doctrine should primarily represent the Australians. Variations of the Australian 9th Division troops as infantry alongside minor British elements with a heavy emphasis on field engineers, emplacements and field guns. Defensive doctrine could also include RAF Regiment infantry, RAF 20mm Oerlikon guns, RAF Rolls Royces, India Pattern Carriers (from the Indian 18th Division), air strikes and, as a special unit, they could even have captured Italian tanks from the 6th Australian Division Cavalry Regiment! As a defensive doctrine, they should also have access to the best mid-war field guns, including the rare (but historical) ’Pheasant’ 17/25 Pounder Field Gun.
Offensive: Inspired by the Battle of Tunisia and Operation Torch, I think this one should show off the might of the UK’s heavier vehicles in the latter stages of the African campaign, particularly the Churchill III, Sherman III, the Priest 105mm and the Stuart Command Tank, alongside the more standard British tank options. As for infantry options, we can include Indian troops of the 4th Infantry Division (India), Gurkhas, and a motorised unit of 22nd Guards Infantry. I would also add the British Commandos in this division - partly because they were involved in Operation Torch, but also because they had an iconic impact on the mid-war (outside of Africa) that it would be a pity not to add them.
Irregular: This one would be quite unique in mid-war as it is effectively the light vehicle special forces doctrine. Although some standard British units would form the basis of the army, they would have access to a variety of assets representing the Long Range Desert Group; Chevrolet trucks with mounted Vickers MGs, Boys AT rifles, twin 303 Brownings or even Bofors and captured 20mm Breda guns! ‘Bamtam’ jeeps with twin Vickers Ks or 303 Brownings. The transport and logistics would be different too, using the Marmon-Herrington 6-ton Heavy Truck or the White 1064 10-ton. Other unique special call-ins would include an LRDG WACO Recon plane and the SAS (armed with the Lewes bomb). The downside to this doctrine, however, is that imagine it to be much lighter on armoured support, relying mostly on towed guns for its heavy firepower.
Other Units: I’ve tried to use inspirations from specific parts of the war to get a rounded but also diverse array of units, but there are loads of obscure units across the mid-war that I’d love to see; the Priest 105mm SPG, the AEC Deacon Gun Carrier, the Daimler Dingo, the Humber Light Reconnaissance, and so on.
That is as much as I want to say on mid-war without labouring the point. I’m sure there’s interesting things I’ve missed accidentally, and I’m afraid there’s some I have missed on purpose. For example, I considered the Australian Matilda Hedgehog, but it turned out to be late war and never used. I also considered the Greek and the Czech Division, but I think I’ve already stretched it too far as regards voice acting alone without adding units that, as distinguished their service might be, are just too obscure without adding anything extra - appearance or gameplay. That said, my hat would go off to the devs if they achieved that.
Late War Doctrines
Here we get to represent the Commonwealth units from Operation Overlord up until Operation Varsity.
All-Round: The quintessential British doctrine, combining bog-standard infantry with hardy tanks and a decent array of equipment. Partially based on Gold Beach, but also Operation Varsity/Plunder towards the end of the war, I would personally give them 50th (Northumbrian) Infantry, RAF Regiment Gunners, RAF Humber Light AC, Churchill AVRE, the Cruiser Mk. VIII Challenger and the Comet. Maybe give them some 6th Airlanding troops and 1st Canadian Parachute Infantry as a reference to the Normandy paratroopers if we feel they need more skilled infantry.
Offensive: The Canadian Doctrine - mostly inspired by the First Canadian Army in Normandy with elements of their experiences later on (including the Battle of the Schelt and Operation Veritable) with the doctrine largely focused on armoured assault infantry. They’ll look quite unique compared to the British because their uniforms were greener and they were the first to use the British-designed Mk.III helmet at D-Day. Troops of the 3rd Canadian Infantry Division as standard, supported by assault infantry. Eventually, armoured infantry can spawn in Buffalos (used at the Battle of the Schelt) and, as a special call-in, Ram Kangaroo APCs (sporting an armoured MG turret). The Otter armoured car would be an early call-in, with M4A1 Sherman Grizzly tanks as well as Ram IIs available in the standard tank tab. Some unique but limited special call-ins would include the Skink AA tank (of which 2 saw historical combat in Normandy) as well as a skilled sniper wielding the Ross rifle.
Defensive: Just as the US Defensive doctrine features the 101st Airborne (no doubt inspired by the Battle of Bastogne), the British Defensive doctrine can feature the British Airborne - particularly based on the defense of Arnhem Bridge in the Netherlands as part of Market Garden. Infantry units can include the 52nd (Lowland) Infantry, 1st Airborne Paratroopers, 1st Airlanding Infantry, Parachute Squadron Royal Engineers and 1st (Polish) Independent Paratroopers (who are distinctive with their grey berets). Armoured units can include the Tetrarch and the M22 Locust. To suit their defensive doctrine, they should get some decent guns and I’m thinking the airborne jeep-towed 20mm Polsten Gun, airborne 17th Pounder as well as (in a departure from the Parachute theme) the BL 7.2-inch howitzer. The Patchett sub-machine gun could make an appearance here too.
Irregular: Based on Sword Beach, Commandos and the 79th Armoured Division, with the more unusual units in the British arsenal. Probably with 3rd Infantry Division Infantry as standard, this unit could have access to No.41 (Royal Marine) Commandos, Fusilier Marines Commandos (based on No.4 Commando’s assault on Ouestreham), the Centaur Mk.IV QF 95mm, the Sherman DD, the Churchill Crocodile and Royal Engineer Assault Teams deployed in the cute Terrapin 4-ton Amphibious. If we want to be really wacky, we could even add the M3 Grant CDL (an unarmed searchlight tank) for armoured spotting, similar to the 150cm Flakscheinwerfer searchlight.
Other Units: Further unique units that would fit in any one (or multiple) of these divisions (based on balance) include the Land Mattress Rocket Launcher, the Loyd Carrier, the Universal Carrier WASP (flamethrower), the Sexton SPG, Sherman Firefly, the Archer TD, Achilles TD, the Priest Kangaroo, the Morris C8, Staghound and so on. There are SO many strange and obscure British vehicles that don’t often see the light of day, but would be perfect for Gates of Hell.
Post-release Doctrines -
More of a final thought than anything else, but if/when the Japanese get added into the game, I’d love to see a fifth doctrine to represent the British 14th Army to match the Japanese. A doctrine that is mostly comprised of Indian infantry and Indian tanks, with representation from the East/West African Divisions, Gurkhas and the British 2nd or 36th Infantry Divisions. Special call-ins could include the Chindits (using Thompsons and the Jungle Carbine) and paratroopers of the 50th Indian Parachute Brigade. If we’re feeling generous enough to allow the doctrine to encompass the Pacific Islands as well, we could also include an Australian squad armed with the Owen SMG, South Pacific Scouts, the Matida Frog (flamethrower) and the Matilda QF 3-Inch.
Conclusion: I apologise for such a long read. But I hope we see how a bit of ambition could really help the Commonwealth stand out and be worthy of the variety seen in the other factions since their overhaul. While the Germans have Spanish soldiers in their ranks, the Commonwealth can see the UK, Canada, India, Australia, New Zealand, South Africa, Poland, and France (and technically Nepal) all get some recognition. While the German Kriegsmarine and Luftwaffe stand out on the field, the Commonwealth might get the distinctive blue battledress of the RAF Regiment, or the long white tunics of the Foreign Legion. We would see such a variety of hats including pith helmets, berets, kepis, dastars, keffiyehs and slouch hats. Some units, like the LRDG vehicles, might even stand out as unique from any of the nations already in the game. It’s a lot of colourful uniforms, a lot of voices and a lot of strange and wonderful machines.
However, it does come with its downsides. Firstly, Africa and Europe are such dramatically different theatres that their version of mid & late war are incredibly different to one another. So much so that the depth of variety might make the faction too big, making it a lot of effort for the art department (especially with uniforms changing for the map’s climate. Imagine making skins for temperate, desert AND snow). The second issue is whether France is getting its own faction in future iterations of the game (the French flag appears in the loading screen during Axis vs Allies games). The final (and probably biggest) issue is voice acting. I’m no expert on games development, but I gather that getting enough voice actors for a faction is hard enough as it is without having to accurately represent 9 countries at once. I would love to hear the developer’s thoughts on the matter - whether such a project is within the game’s scope and if they have the ambition to take it this far.
Do let me all know what you think as well.

I'm going to try my best to make a tldr version of this because I keep getting the "something went wrong" error and can not find any advice as to fixing it. Everybody just talks about the app which I dont even freaking use or desktop and I'm getting more and more distressed. I hope im allowed to post the original more detailed version in the comments, maybe
I'm an autistic 20 something adult that lives in a small town and has only ever lived in places that have nowhere to go that would justify leaving the house. Most of my life i lived in a tiny little village (yes VILLAGE) of six hundred residents or less. It has a bank, a post office and a bar and grill that only takes cash. I did not know any families that had kids my age that lived there (if they ever even existed lol) and even if i did its not like i could have just left the house of my own volition and walked there.
Thankfully, the small town i moved into in 2021 is a big upgrade, but it is still so void of anywhere that can be a social gathering for people (ESPECIALLY young people) that even the program made for disabled people here admitted there was fuck all they could do to help me get into the community.
But ever since i was pulled from mainstream in person school after the third grade due to mistreatment from both teachers and students, the only friends i have had are purely online. I love my online friends deeply but it is not the same as face to face sharing the same experiences together. I also want to have a girlfriend and eventually a wife someday (being a lesbian in a conservative place complicates matters greatly but at least my parents accept me fully) but like having real life friends, this is impossible because there is no way for me to find someone like that in the first place
Anyway this is the part thats really embarassing and why I'm hiding being a throwaway. For as long as i can remember i have been using imaginary friends to cope with the void in my heart. They change as i grow and change myself. I'm so deeply emotionally attached to them and am genuinely afraid to let them go. But i know i cant keep living like this forever. It is too painful. I even made myself a imaginary wife this way and im so in love w her that i am afraid to genuinely search for a mate.
Thats probably all i can post here, but mods if youre reading this, please let me know if i can add the full version in the comments because i think just this much is not enough information to fully explain what led me here. Thank you

Stopped listening about a year or two ago. This past week decided to give the CDS universe content another try. The youtube is still begging for donations to do stupid or nasty stuff. The shoode solos are an hour long whine and bitch. The sports show was promoted with the wrong name and couldnt find it. They finally go it right and Iistened to 3 episodes. The first one was split 50/50 live reads and content. The second he referred to JJ McCarthy as JJ Hundley and just left it in. The third he said the Patriots were powerhouses in the AFC West and didnt edit that either. Also, I’m not trying to be mean I really used to enjoy his shows, but he sounds fatter on the mic than the last time I listened over a year ago. Maybe its a speech mishap he has to correct like his tongue is loose or pressing against his teeth/lip but its prominent on the p, f, and s and sounds like someone is squeezing his mouth or its full of salvia or something. Hearing him say attempts or points is kind of gross. He said field once and I could hear the air make his top lip fart on the mic during the f sound. Tor still sounds great though even though the last picture i saw of him posted here he looked like he put on a few. We will see if these free Friday shows are interesting with decent topics and discussion or just him bitching about everything.

Hello. I have had this laptop for what is 4 years now. I bough it for 600 euros and was branded as a failry good laptop. It definelly wasnt good but it was able to play most games at 60 fps medium graphics no problem. I runned a test on userbenchmarks and got 40% gaming a 99% desktop and a 68% workstation. But this isnt what i am talking about. 1 year ago things got bad. My laptops cpu and gpu started overheating massively reaching 110 degrees Celcious from the normal 70 degrees. My laptops fan also started to turn off and on all slow down massivelly. My Cpu, a AMD Ryzen 7 3700u, clock speed started crashing every 5 seconds from a 2.8GHZ to a 0.4 GHz. My Gpu, an AMD Radeon Vega 10, is an integrated graphics card and its clock speed fell to 200 MHz from my normal 700 MHz. My Ram, 8gb 2400 MHz DDR4 only has 6gb available and 3 of them are used in i dont know where, so only 3 gb. My Gpu Memory clock speed is going crazy some times and some times not. In general my fps went from 60, medium graphics, in World of Warships to 30 in lowest graphics. My fps went from 60 maximum graphics in Roblox, to 20 in lowest. My fps went from 60 medium in trackmania to 30 in low. From 260 in TMNF to 70. My fps went from 60 in hearts of iron to 15 while the game speed slowed by 3 times at its minimum. After that happened i started to search for any solution, trying to figure out whats wrong but even 2 months of searching every single word related to laptops and issues i found nothing anywhere near represending my case. It was about 1 month after that that my laptop fan started making weird cranky noises from time to time and generally every time i opened my laptop. after that my laptop started to shut off many times because of my cpu getting way to overheated. One day my cpu reached 115 degree mark where it normally shut off but it was going 0.1 GHz that the emergency turn off didnt even work until it reached 148 degrees. I was using AMD Radeon Software by the way. I spend another hundet of hours searching for anything that could help me but there was nothing. I did everything suggested to me by alot of people. 5 months ago is the time now and my laptop has gotten even worse. Every time i press restart my laptop simply closes and doesnt open. The turn off button doesnt work most times because my laptop crashed on the turn off screen. I get the blue screen and i cant get out. I am forced to do repairs which dont work. In the words of the repair screen "Repair has failed, try again" (It didnt say that but thats the short version). So i had to do a factory reset again. Thankfully the restart and turn off button work fine. 4 months go by with my laptop overheating problem having cooled down. Some games dont load, Power point crashes every time which is very importand for my homework. Word doesnt work either so i cant do my homework. At that point i got frustrated beyond believe because now it isnt only my gaming life getting effected but my school grades. I scout for any answers.. Nothing again. 2 weeks ago i did a Userbenchmark and my scores were: 4% Gaming, 43% desktop, 27% workspace. 1 week ago my laptop started getting very big and sometimes long stutters when my laptop completly froze. I have QuickCpu for monetaring my cpu and the result of that stutter was a straight line with the same stats and time not moving. My laptop has crashed many times, ALT f4 hasnt worken many times because of how slow my laptop is moving but despite it QuickCpu has always kept working. For it to display a straight line were time apparently doesnt move.. something aint right. And now we reach today. Most games load now. Powerpoint, word and the rest dont work still. I did the Userbenchmark again and got the same results. Stutters are getting longer every time i get one. I got another blue screen. Everything is starting to lag and i am noticing a time delay between me pressing buttons in the keyboard and actually typing it. The same with my mouse. The weird cranky noise from my fan still goes on till this day. Fps has gotten worse. From my 60 fps in medium in War thunder i now get 20 in the old videocard setting with lowest. every other game has lost fps too but on this scale. I was getting 60 fps in medium settings when i had the issue not before. And before anyone points out drivers, all of them are the latest. And no getting a new laptop isnt an option, Neither is getting a pc. The only thing working fine at this moment of time is windows updates.
Hope anyones has any information, any tips, anything that can help me i am glad to hear it. Like just throw out random ideas for me to try.