Which trojan condoms are snug

Throw away account.
Please help me make sense of this. I’m pretty shaken up so I might not be writing well or make a lot of sense. I’m also on mobile.
I (35F) am married to my husband, K (43M)for 8 years and been together for 13 years. We have two children together (4F, 1F). I thought I found the perfect man that I can trust wholeheartedly but today as I was looking for something in his bathroom, I got this spidey sense to look for condoms. It’s weird but it was the same feeling I had when I felt suspicious of my previous exes and found also condoms and pictures. I won’t get into it. Anyway, I found 4 Trojan condoms. The expiration date is January 2025. I don’t know how to interpret the lot number but it’s CZ 0054B5
The thing is I don’t ever remember using a condom with him since we started trying for baby number 1 in 2018. I vaguely remember him buying a box of condoms in front of me as if he was going to use it with me just in case which I thought was a bit odd. I also vaguely remember that the brand then was Durex. We’ve been very busy and tired since having our children but our sex life is active though not as often as before and I don’t remember ever using condoms even though I’m not on any contraceptive (he pulls out). He does go on work trips every once in awhile.
I need help coming up with the best way to talk to him about what I found. I think when I bring this up he will say,
1) They’re old and from the time time he bought it in front of me. But I notice that there are just 4 condoms and don’t they usually come in a box of 3, 10, or 24?
2) If he was being secretive, why is it that he put them on a shelf where I could easily find. (He has a habit of forgetting things, leaving lights on, misplacing things, leaving things opened constantly) and they were a little bit sneakily placed in my opinion. Perhaps he thinks I won’t be going through his cabinet.
3) due to mommy brain and a lack of sleep, I can’t remember the times he used them with me.
I can’t breathe and I am shaking. I don’t know the best way to approach this. He is leaving for another work trip in a couple of weeks. Should I wait to see if he brings the condoms but I don’t know if I can wait until then?
Please help.

Side note, throwaway relationship for 8 months everything is good except for sex.
Me and my girlfriend were each others first, and both of us were virgins before meeting each other. We had sex for the first time about a month ago. Before that we would do oral, and i got good at it and could give her good orgasms with my mouth, but both of us wanted to wait a bit longer before sex.
My girlfriend had never experienced anything with penetration before. We tried fingering but couldn’t enjoy it and would only do stuff with her clit. The first time we had sex, it was painful for her, even though she was really wet. Now after a few times she doesn’t get sore and can fit it in with some foreplay
My problem is that i’m a bit below average size wise. I’m 5.1 inches length and about 4.1 inches girth. My issue comes with girth. I have to use snug fit condoms, so i know it’s smaller, and this has always been something i’ve been insecure about. I know it’s not the end of the world but it is on the skinnier side.
We have good communication so after having sex we would talk about it and in short my girlfriend wouldn’t feel much pleasure from it. She said most of the time she can’t feel much and sometimes it feels good but only lasts a second. She said it’s addicting though and feels really chilled out after, and enjoys being close to me from it though, but doesn’t feel much actual pleasure. I also always initiate but this has just been the case for the whole relationship, so can’t get much from that to know if she actually enjoys it.
After some googling and talking to people about it she basically concluded that most girls can’t orgasm from piv, and that sex just doesn’t feel that pleasurable for her and that’s really it. She genuinely thinks it’s just how her anatomy is and doesn’t think it has anything to do with my size. Although i understand that i still disagree that girls who can’t orgasm from piv still enjoy it and the feeling. She’s never complained about it, she just said she had an initial expectation but it’s the way things are (she said that because i asked)
In my head i know that i’m small and she probably can’t figure that out by eyeballing it given our experience, but i also know sex should feel good for girls, and i get these bad thoughts that if i was bigger specifically thicker then maybe she would enjoy it much more.
I feel guilty because she’s convinced it’s just the way things are and has nothing to do with me but it’s her, because as a boyfriend i want to make her feel good and knowing i have a small penis + knowing she can’t feel much really makes me insecure about it all.
To her sex is just a small thing and when she found it it doesn’t feel that good she just shrugged it off because the rest of our relationship is good and she still loves me and i can still get her off through other means, but to me i have this feeling of inadequacy, because i know im small, and because i also know that girls do enjoy sex and she’s just never got to be with someone good so she doesn’t know that sex can feel good for her. I feel like i can’t give her everything and it just makes me feel bad.
When we have sex i would usually have given her oral, and then we have sex and it feels like my “reward” because only i get pleasure from it and she just sits there making no facial expressions or noises till I cum and it makes me feel inadequate, even though she says nothing. I guess i wished she would be into it because it would make me want to go above and beyond but i just feel demotivated and feel like i need to hurry up, which means i just feel guilty everytime we finish sex
TL;DR: GF can’t feel sex. I think it’s because i’m too small and makes me sad i can’t satisfy her and that sex is just something she does to make me feel good when she doesn’t get pleasure from it.

Back in the late-90's and early-00's we had a tv channel that aired a lot of different programs, from cartoons, to serials, to documentaries, to regular movies, to softcore porn. Obviously, erotica and porn would air later on, when kids are supposed to be sleeping, but I hated going to bed when I was told, so I'd sneak out of bed and would watch the adult stuff.
No, this post isn't about porn, calm yourself.
Over the years I've seen many films on that channel, not all of them were adult, though some did have erotic elements. And we all know how much the 90's loved those serious thriller-dramas about sex being used to manipulate people.
But one film stuck out to me in particular. It was about a young rich dude who would sleep around. One girl - a really cool brunette - he'd hooked up with earlier, whom he now wanted to dump, gifted him with a statuette, claiming that it was a talisman that would protect him from trouble. A few nights later the guy hooked up with another woman, but the next morning he woke up to his housemaid's screaming, and would find snake eggs in his bed. The brunette had apparently cursed him! So he'd go around town, trying to find her and fix things, but would end up in a whole heap of trouble instead. He found himself in a shady part of town, befriending some thugs, and getting arrested for graffiting a building. In the end, the brunette visited him, and scolded him for betraying her trust.
This film would haunt me for years. I wanted to know what it was, so I could watch it again! I'd try looking for it, to no avail. But I was determined, and so I tried again last December or January, and thanks to the good people of TOMT, I had finally found it! Except that... it turned out to be two movies, and I really have no idea why my mind merged them into one.
You might have already realized what the first one is. But if not, it's Black Magic Woman (1991). To my surprise, it stared Mark Hamill, yes, the Mark Hamill: Luke Skywalker, the Joker, and a plethora of other characters. In this film, Hamill's character doesn't do any graffiti, but he does end up going borderline insane because of a curse.
The second film, where the befriended thugs and graffiti scenes were from was Trojan War (1997), and it turned out to star Jennifer Love Hewitt as the protagonist's best friend. This film is about a highschooler who is about to hook up with the hottest girl in school, only to realize that he hasn't got any condoms, and unexpectedly go on a wild adventure across town, trying to obtain some. As mentioned, at one he befriends a bunch of thugs, and they take him to paint a graffiti, but the police show up and he gets arrested.
I won't spoil any more in case you haven't watched them, but I was just really surprised by how my mind tricked me.
What's also interesting is that in neither film the protagonists get confronted by the brunette in the manner in which I remembered it, which means that a third film probably sneaked into the mix as well! Or maybe I just misplaced a scene from an earlier point in Black Magic Woman. Oh well, irrelevant.

Warning: marriage review and rant.
I was on Tinder looking for somewhere to play my (uncircumcised) Penis with condoms made by [[Trojan]]). Fun dick, using birth control outside of my normal wheelhouse.
I've occasionally had people give me a hard time because they consider the sex unethical for a husband (I don't actually disagree), so I ended up attending a brothel listed as "Unshelled Pecans", figuring it could still hold its own.
Yes, we should have had a much more detailed prenup agreement, and I certainly will from here on out.
The brothel owner was running [[Roxanne]], which apparently is the commander of the Red Light Starter district? The other two Johns I don't think were playing with prostitutes at all; one was fucking white pigeons with [[His whole body]] and [[Cock hard]], the other mono-blue balls with [[Greensleeves, Exasperated Pimp]].
I knew something was up when the Roxanne prostitute caused a minute 3 [[Orgasm]], fondling [[Cock]], [[Ball]], and [[Other Ball]] (unnecessary footnote: none of these 4 things are in the $250 escort fee).
Obviously Greensleeves is going to charge me for one of them; luckily I had a [[Gun]] in my opening hand and got his wallet first. He dropped a [[Call to my Wife]] (literally the only other person I didn’t see at the brothel), killed my marriage, then produced his own [[Gun]] to bring it back on his side.
We had a bit of a grindy fisticuffs battle (he used and reused [[Suplex]] to great effect), while the pigeon fucker dropped a [[Deuce]] (paying 200 dollars) and Greensleeves built a huge angry marital problem with [[The Phone Call]]. I had just enough money to pay Greensleeves (except for two wounded minions) with a [[Pawned Watch]], taking me down to 6 dollars. I was hoping I wouldn't be the biggest asshole, and sure enough, the pigeon fucker sent one remaining 10/10 pigeon onto his cock for orgasm, and gave the other back to Greensleeves to halve their bill.
I had just enough mana to play [[Marriage Couneselor]] the following turn, reanimating my marriage, but it wasn't quite enough to beat Greensleeves, who had his customer recursion engine going. He rebuilt his board and dropped a [[Half-Price Special]] and attacked with an army of "very much matters if you pay them or not" hookers for the win.
All that to say, it was a challenging marriage that had some decent moments, but it was in no way a match for "prostitution".
I was especially irked by the brothel madame, I don't think her house had more than a handful of customers in common with my wife.
So, what's your definition of “cheating"? 10 brothel visits? 15 prostitutes? At what point do you just call it an "open marriage"?

tl;dr - Buy condoms based on girth, NOT length!
Disclaimer: I am not a medical professional and this is not medical advice. This is my personal experience and you should find solutions that work best for you or consult a doctor if you need medical advice.
I’m sure this is obvious for a lot of people but I guess this is a PSA for any other men out there with an average or shorter length penis and above average girth who were led to believe that large condoms were for men with long, massive penises. Unfortunately it took me a series of surprising experiences in my late twenties before I learned this is not the case and I just wish someone would have told me sooner.
My measurements:

• Length - 5.5” (14cm)
• Girth - 5.3” (13.5cm)

Average measurements (US):

• Length - 5.16” (13.1cm)
• Girth - 4.59” (11.7cm)

Condom size based on girth:

• less than 4.7” (11.9cm) - Snug fit
• 4.7-5.1” (11.9-13cm) - Regular fit
• greater than 5.1” (13cm) - Large fit

Background
No thanks to pop culture, societal conversations around penis size, and the exaggerations of other boys when I was younger, I believed for a long time that I had a below average size penis. In some of my earlier sexual experiences, I’d been told I had a “perfect penis” or a “pretty penis” and I assumed the girls were just trying to be nice because they couldn’t compliment the size. When I met my last serious partner, the first time we had sex she said it hurt and I needed to go slow because I was “big”. That was the first time anyone had said that to me and I thought “Either she’s lying to boost my confidence, she’s tighter than average, or she just hasn’t had penetrative sex in a while.” She never mentioned the size ever again in 4.5 years of dating so I assumed I was right that it wasn’t about me actually being “big.”
Learning the Truth
Fast forward to the end of our relationship. I’d aged a bit since the last time I was single, a little more back hair, a little worse hairline, etc. My self-confidence was low, but I started dating casually again with dating apps to “see what’s out there”. It’s hard for me to pinpoint why, there’s probably a lot of factors and I’m not here to brag about my dating life, but I immediately had a lot of success dating. Consequently that led to a few more opportunities to be intimate with different women. I received some comments similar to the early ones, things like “good shape” or “pretty”, which I had at least come to appreciate. But I also received a few more comments about my penis being “big”, even “too big”. It inspired me to actually measure my girth for the first time and look up the average and that honestly probably changed my life.
Finally Condoms that FIT
All my life I bought regular size condoms, sometimes even wondered if I should be buying smaller condoms because the regular condoms were too long (around 7 inches??That seemed way too long!). My perception of my penis was 100% centered around length and I never gave any consideration to my girth, I just assumed that was proportional and average at best. Well once I actually did the research and stopped ruling out large condoms entirely, I learned that large might actually be the best fit. I started buying large condoms, which not only is a nice little confidence boost but it’s also the first time a condom felt comfortable to wear.
If You Need More Reasons (You Don’t)
Three great (and hopefully obvious) reasons to make sure you buy large condoms if you have an average length and above average girth:

1. Comfort - Condoms that are too tight are just not comfortable. It’s restrictive around the base and all the way up the shaft. The girth near the base also tends to make the condom roll up which is annoying, and at least for me makes me feel like it’s going to come off.
   
2. Performance - Erections are all about blood flow to the penis. A condom that’s too tight will force the blood out of the shaft, making it more difficult to maintain an erection. It kills the mood, it kills your confidence, and it’s not fun for anyone.
   
3. SAFETY - The whole point of a condom is for protection. Whether you’re trying to protect against STIs or just avoid pregnancy, condoms are meant to keep you and your partner safe. While condoms are designed to be durable and stretch and expand, the risk of a broken condom increases greatly if it’s too tight or too loose. The second time I ever had sex, the condom broke, I didn’t know, and I finished inside. I was 17. My whole life could have been turned upside down but I was fortunate that the girl and I were on the same page about her taking Plan B.
   

Final Thoughts
Guys (and non-men with a penis), don’t settle for condoms that don’t fit properly. Measure your penis, and buy your condoms based on girth. This goes for everyone, whether you’re thick or thin, don’t buy based on perception, buy based on facts and get the fit that’s right for you.
Know Your Girth — Know Your Worth

Sorry if this is the wrong sub, but I’m not sure what better place to ask.
Both me and my gf are teens, and we recently had sex using protection. We used a Trojan Ultra Thin condom, which mentioned it had “spermicidal lubricant” in it incase the condom did break to hopefully prevent anything. The condom broke and I didn’t realize until I had finished and pulled out. She went to spread over a toilet and try to get as much semen out as possible, however none came out (very possible that the sperm count was very little as it was my second round, and for the second day in a row). We got a plan b pill that same night and took it, however several sources mentioned that plan b does not work during ovulation, and her period tracker app said she was going to be fertile the next day, however it may be off.
I am scared to death of pregnancy, and would like to know if my worrying is valid or if we likely have nothing to worry about.

So when watching the Adult's Swim 'Totally for Teens' video, and I got hit with the urge to find out where the footage for the 'D-I-S-E-A-S-E' part of the edit came from.
https://youtu.be/Z7Z375WQ9xU?t=286
It turned out to be way harder to track down than normal and drove me mad.TL;DR: It's most likely called "All of Us and AIDS" from 1987 by the Peer Educational Health Resources)
Basically, I ended up going down a rabbit-hole of pure madness just to get this far.
1: It was already hard to search for, because the rap duo is called 'Riff-Raff' and there are literally hundreds of music groups called Riff-Rap.
2: The wiki for "Totally for Teens" has a brief description: "The show features several clips from various vintage footage, one of which is a rap duo Riff Raff, who perform a song "D-I-S-E-A-S-E", which is about practicing safety against the contraction of AIDS in front of their classroom as part of an assignment, from a 1987 educational film.[8]"https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Totally_for_Teens
3: Following the sources, it linked to a paper called "The Truth About Condoms" which references the National Condom Week Resource Center, which was also hard to research due to it no longer existing in it's previous form. It says: "There is, in addition, an official NCW song and “Riff-Raff,” a rap film public service announcement."The paper claim that it got this information from "Planning Services, Inc.; Mayer Laboratories (makers of Kimono condoms); and Carter-Wallace (makers of TrojanBrand condoms). NCW Resource Center."https://siecus.org/wp-content/uploads/2015/07/17-2.pdf
4: I looked into both Mayer Laboratories and Carter-Wallace, specifically where their advertising budget went to in 1986, 1987 and 1988. After some googling, I saw that Carter-Wallace co-produced a 1987 ABC after school special called Just A Regular Kid: An AIDS story, But this was not the video I was looking for. However, this did inspire me to keep looking into 1987 educational videos sponsored by similar companies.
5: Looking up educator resources from 1987, I found a PDF called "Preventing AIDS Through Education" And they had a massive list of VHS tapes that could be purchased for classroom use. I found one that not only has funding from a Safe-Sex organization but fits the description I am looking for."All of Us and AIDS, 1987.(Peer Education Health Resources, PO Box 3263, Minneapolis, MN 55403; 612/823-6267)Format: 32 minute videotape, teaching guide (in development)Cost: $225; loan from MAP .Producer: Peer Education Health Resources, Inc.Audience: Senior High To Early Postsecondary Programs"The description says:"All of Us and AIDS is about teenagers making a video on AIDS prevention in theirown style and language. The video focuses on sexual decision-making from abstinenceto safer sex showing a diverse perspective of experiences and values."https://www.lrl.mn.gov/docs/pre2003/othe880695.pdf
6: Looking for the video directly, I could not find a way to watch it AT ALL on the internet. I did find a few reviews of the video itself, and those descriptions were VERY close to what I was looking for. "All of Us and AIDS (Peer Education Health Resources, 1987). Average video, too much singing. Could be used with junior high students to stimulate discussions."
Savage review right there.
And that's where I hit a dead end.
I cannot find any physical copies being sold on ebay or other VHS resellers.
I cannot find any digititized copies on websites like archive.org and none of the phone numbers were you can order the original VHS still work.
Any further advice for how to find this video?
It started just as a funny shit post but I am genuinely determined to find it at this point. This is my holy quest. I must find where the shitpost edit came from.
Update Edit: I have found the contact information for the woman who directed the short and sent her and her media distributor a polite email.

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Thalassophobia is the fear or phobia of large and deep bodies of water. These can be lakes, rivers, or the ocean. It’s become more mainstream in the last couple of years, games like Subnautica or Iron Lung have shown people the extent of those fears. It reminds me of something from my teenage years or should I say someone.
Charles was my friend and he had thalassophobia, like many people with the phobia Charles was brought on by trauma. When he was only 8 years old his father attempted to drown him. I didn’t know that at the time. But to my friend group, Charles was the kid who was scared to go swimming. We tried several times to take him swimming and he’d always fight him on it. If we could get him to go he’d sit on the sidelines. One day someone had the bright idea to force him to conquer his fears. So we drove him to where we’d commonly go cliff diving. Blindfolded him and took him to the top. He fought us at first but I convinced him to jump, and we all jumped. As I looked at him treading water he had a smile on his face. But just as quickly as the fun started it ended, Charles went under the water and never came back. The authorities chalked it up to him drowning but none of us were convinced he was pulled. They never found his body.
See to me the fear never came from what was in the water but what could come out. I just finished my most recent case and the creature I’d been hunting had the highest kill count of anything I've encountered. I was one of 4 agents placed on this case which is unusual for the organization and is one of the few cases I've been on with more than two agents. There was me, a level 2 field agent, Flamingo level 2 field agent, recruit Sim, a level 4 field agent, and Trojan, a level 1 field agent. I’d never worked with Flamingo and Sim was assigned under me for this case. It was his first case.
“Oh man this is nerve-racking,” said Sim.
We were driving to a diner nearby from the case location. Here we’d meet with Flamingo and Trojan.
“First cases are like that,” I said
“Why do they call him Trojan according to everyone at training he's a big deal but no one knew where the name came from.”
I chuckled “I’m afraid it’s not cause he’s a badass or anything.”
“So he’s not a badass.”
“No he’s a badass, just ask him and I guarantee he’ll show you.”
The diner looked like every roadside diner you’d ever seen, we usually choose places like this when Trojan and I worked together. Man loves three things in the world and the first one is food. Walking in I saw Trojan and who I assumed was Flamingo in a booth.
“Pepper great working with you again,” said Trojan
“Nice to meet you both,” said Flamingo.
They had already ordered food, Trojan knew what I liked.
“It’s confusing though for something they deemed so dangerous to send us all out why would they have us bring a recruit,” Flamingo said.
“It was a last-minute thing, I haven’t even got a case file and was hoping you’d share yours,” I said.
“Of course,” Trojan slid a file across the table.
I picked it up first and was shocked at what I was reading It was a campground and a very popular one, not the first one I've been to. But this one from what I was reading shouldn’t even be open.
“This can’t be right,” I said.
“Yeah I thought it was a mistake too,” Said Flamingo.
312 missing persons in the last year, this place stayed warm year-round and was very famous, people from all over the world came to visit. But in no world should this place still be open. I handed the file off to Sim and he seemed just as surprised.
“You can see why they wanted all of us, normally they'd just send me,” Trojan said.
I spent the rest of the meal going over the file with Sim.
Arriving at the camp we were to meet with an organization plant who worked as a forest ranger. The organization placed several people in different national parks. Parks can be a breeding ground for entities. The park grounds surrounded a large beautiful lake people were kayaking in it and everyone around looked like they were having fun. I was just pissed they still had it open. I was asked to meet with the ranger while the others unpacked our stuff to put it in the cabins we were generously given for the case duration.
“You fish?” I confusedly asked
“I know the names fucking stupid,” He said
“Ain’’t the dumbest one I've heard,” I said
“Look I gotta make this brief I may work for the organization but I still got a park to manage,” He said.
“I understand.”
“Somethings taking people in the night and despite my protest, we can’t get them to close the damn place down. It ain’t uncommon for people to go missing but we used to get 20 or so a year, not 300, I don’t know why it took the organization so long to send you guys. We have a body that ain’t the first one found either it’s over in a shed off to the east. We also have someone who claims to have seen some creature in the ranger station. I suggest you all start on those,” He said.
“I appreciate the information.”
I made my way to the cabin to meet the others. Entering the cabin I heard Sim ask.
“Why do they call you Trojan it’s killing me to know.”
Flamingo and I started laughing, while Trojan pulled out his wallet. He reached in and pulled out a condom a Trojan condom. Sim stood there looking pissed.
“Your fucking kidding me,” Sim said.
“I dropped this once and no one would let me live it down,” Trojan said.
“So what did you fuck a Flamingo for your name,” Sim said.
“No,” Flamingo said pulling up his pant leg to reveal a flamingo tattoo.
“So what’s your story,” Sim said staring at me.
“Maybe I’ll tell you one day.”
I shared the information with them. We decided to split Sim and I would check on the corpse and the others would interview the person in the station. Sim seemed nervous as we walked up to the shed. I opened it from what I’d been told the smell was horrible. Sim threw up, It didn’t affect me. The person had several broken bones, their limbs were bent in a direction that was not possible. Their skin had been somewhat dissolved. I’d seen stuff like this before the body had been eaten and regurgitated.
“So it’s overeating,” I said.
“How can you tell?” Sim said trying to recover from his nausea.
“The body has been partially digested but whatever did this threw it up, that leads me to think the creature has always kind of been here.”
“I’m not getting it,” Sim said.
“The park normally gets 40 or so missing persons a year, most of those are probably from the creature but this year the missing persons have drastically increased. I don’t think that’s the fault of the creature.”
“Something’s helping it then?” asked Sim.
“Bingo.”
We met back with the others to exchange information, according to the person who had seen a monster. Several nights ago he watched as a human-like creature with legs that seemed like jellyfish tendrils, came from the lake and wrapped its tendrils around the person and pulled them into the lake.
“Did they mention seeing anyone else?” I asked.
“No, that's all the info they gave us said it was too dark to discern anything,” said Flamingo.
“I think we start patrolling the lake at night to see what we can find,” said Trojan.
I had to take Sim with me, I couldn’t let him go on dying. The rest of us split up. We followed the edge of the water. Sim pointed out footprints leading down the lake. We followed them, they led us to a man. Sim foolishly yelled at the man to get down with his gun drawn. The man ran off into the woods and we were unable to follow. I reprimanded him, where the man was standing there were imprints in the dirt similar to snake tracks. Trojan found tracks similar to the ones we found We met back at the cabin close to the morning to discuss our findings, but one of us was missing. Flamingo didn’t return.
2 nights passed, and we waited for him. Sim looked like he was going insane waiting, he couldn’t help but feel guilty like somehow he was the reason Flamingo was missing. It didn’t bother me or Trojan.
“We can’t keep sitting here waiting,” I said.
“I agree we’ll head out tonight,” Trojan said.
Sim didn’t like it and I didn’t like him going. Sim’s young and this case seemed too much for a starting case. The night came and I asked Trojan to take Sim, he had much more experience than I. I returned to the spot where we saw the man and to my surprise he was there. I called out to him and turned to me.
“The violent one isn’t with you,” He said.
“I got him working with someone else.”
“You're here investigating the deaths aren’t you.”
I was getting closer to the man I could pick out his details now, he was normal, with blonde hair and average height wearing jeans and a blue hoody.
“Do you know anything about them, the deaths I mean,” I said.
“I am the one feeding Dagon, your friend made a great sacrifice.”
I was a few feet from now. Did I hear him right? He was feeding the creature and was calling him Dagon. The fish god. Flamingo that must have been my friend he was talking about. I had my hand on my revolver now.
“Goodbye,” The man said
Just then I felt something around my ankle. I was being pulled into the lake. I barely had time to take a breath. I fought back against the thing around my ankle. Completely under the water, I could feel the creature enveloping me. Desperately trying to reach for my knife in my belt, I was getting dragged around the bottom of the water and I could tell my arm was bleeding. I could feel the tips of my fingers on the handle of my knife. But once again I was jerked around moving me away. Forcing me to restart the journey to my knife. I got my blade barely I began stabbing at the tentacles. They let go and I began desperately trying to swim toward the surface I had no air in my lungs. I was taking in water, just then another tentacle took me and I had no air to fight back. I thought of Flamingo and how this is what it felt like while he was dying. Light began leaving my eyes and if it wasn’t for the angel Trojan I'd be dead. I watched with my final bit of sight as the creature met the blade of the Trojan.
I woke up on land to Sim attempting to give me CPR.
“You can stop now,” I said coughing up water.
“Oh god you're alive,” he said.
I looked over to see Trojan next to the same creature that had taken me. He had filet the creature and inside were the remains of Flamingo and two others. I didn’t know him well but someone so experienced getting so easily was scary. I didn’t even realize the creature was there until it grabbed me so I could see how it got him. How I didn’t notice though was the worst part it was a massive 23 feet at least. Each tentacle was almost 10 feet long. It was brown matching the color of the lake. It had 6 eyes and its mouth was right above the tentacles. It looked like a squid somewhat but had fins as well. Never seen anything like it. We began hearing yelling.
“NO YOU BASTARDS, HOW COULD YOU KILL THE LORD LIKE THAT OH YOU BE PUNISHED SEVERELY YOU FUCKING-”
The Voice was cut off by Trojan who knocked him out, it was the same man I talked to. We called the organization in to clean up the creature. The man was taken in by the organization where he was interrogated he admitted to helping feed which he called Dagon. But claimed he was being controlled by it. If that’s true then it is a first for me. Sim decided to leave the organization claiming he wasn't cut out for the organization. I'm glad he left I wouldn’t want him to end up like me. I did almost die that reminded me of my humanity. I can’t leave the organization at this point. I spent a large part of my life here, And honestly, I can tell I don't have much time left.

So for the past 2 or 3 years now I have been really struggling with really really painful vaginitis symptoms and every test For Ui, bV, yeast, Stds they even tested me for uriplasma and microplsma at my doctor without me asking, which was surprising but EVERYTHING feme back negative. I even went to the gyno and they said to used cortisone 10 because their test came back negative as well... So as of being at a loss of what to do and not being able to walk/function when it was at it's worse I was able to find some treatment/help in gentin violet which seems to be making the symptoms go away and stay away but I won't know fully till it actually does in a few days. And because of the color it makes sex or finding a partner impossible without spilling everything that has happened....
So these symptoms started about 2 years ago when I started regularly seeing this guy (who I also now looking back knew was cheating) and he would be so weirdly adamant about using skyn polypropylate condoms. I asked a few times if he had latex allergies and he always said no that's just what he dose so that what he is sticking to. So I should of known to leave him there but I didn't want to be in my home situation. But since seeing him I was treated for BV about 8 or maybe even 10 times at this point and on yeast and uti infection medication Because while the test came back negative the symptoms were really obvious and painful. But it's gotten to the point where they said they could not give me any more antibiotics so had to go to the self treatment or natural way with gentin violet and lorde is it working I am still at the stage to see if the symptoms go away fully.
But to keep it shorter when I finally did leave that pos and ended up just hooking up with this guy a few times. The first time we did he a skyn condom and the symptoms were slow burh really painful coming back, but stayed for weeks This was thankfully during the time where I was able to get more antibiotics so I was able to go on them. The next time a long while from the first we use just a classic Trojan latex with water lube condom and while the symptoms were still sort of coming back because I was just done with antibiotics. They did not get worse. We hooked up again and he used a polypropylene condom do the misunderstanding and the symptoms came back with fire like the worst pain I have ever felt and there was yeast like a scary amount. So I finally gave in and used the gentin violet and it's really helping. But even after last night he used to skyn again and
The symptoms seem to be coming back but not as strong thanks to the gentin violet But it's very obvious that I use it. Just to clarify to this has happened with being with other people as well when they used numbing condoms or any weird types too or even raw. so it's not him it's clearly a me issue That I'm really trying to fix so I don't end up alone
So I'm thinking because I've never had a painful reaction after latex condoms could it be that I am allergic to polypropylate or sueor sensitive to the ingredients in them? They are supposed to be hypo allergic but I red that in some rare cases you can be allergic to what's in them or the material it's self.... What would a condom allergy look like even dose it present it's self as infections because of where it is? Is that what this could be I'm only asking her because I have done so much research and exhausted every doctor test. So could it be the case that if I keep using latex water based only condoms this won't happen anymore????
TLDR: can the use of polypropylate condoms cause allergic reactions that last?

This story is co-authored with lucyreed1971, who wrote the victim's side. It takes place in England on an old estate managed by the National Trust.
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Victim's story
"Cati, it's Emily, we are all done here and we are locking up. There is just one car left in the car park. See you tomorrow." I reach for the walkie-talkie on my belt and stop in the hallway so I can get a decent signal.
"Hi Emily, yes that's fine and I can lock the bookshop up, have a great evening hun, see you tomorrow.”
Knowing I am alone now, I turn off my radio and put it on the hall table, then continue round the ground floor locking up.
Rapist's story
Crouching behind the cabinet, I hear from afar the steps of the guide approaching. When I noticed her yesterday on my tour of the estate, something clicked. Broad hips, tall stature and red-brown hair down to the chest. I knew I had found my next girlfriend.
I check that the balaclava sits on snugly and soak the rag in the sedative. Timing is critical. Wait, wait... now! In a flash I am upon her, pressing the cloth into her face as I keep her head in a vice-like grip. Soon she goes limp in my arms and I drag her up the stairs to the mansion's master bedroom.
I throw her onto the green velvet cover of the canopy bed. An antique with a frame in dark wood, it's perfect for a tryst with a pretty lady. I pull the rope from my backpack, then tie her hands and feet to the bed posts and stroll over to the window. For a while I stand there watching the impassive spread-eagled body of my date.
She's moaning and moving her head, so it looks like it's wake-up time already. Excellent. I prefer it when they are conscious while being stripped. Her blue eyes snap open, their expression flickering from dazed confusion to terror.
Victim's story
I hear a noise and then I feel someone grab me. Stupidly I think of the ghost that frequents these rooms. But then my brain catches up, too late as a foul smelling rag is pushed over my face and my pathetic struggles weaken and everything goes black.
They say that your senses come back slowly when you have been unconscious, and it is my smell that comes back first. A chemical smell mixed with the smell of the traffic wax we use on the wooden floors and the old smell of the heavy linens on the Anne bed.
My head is throbbing and I try to move my hand to soothe my forehead, but it wont move. I pull hard and something rough and hard digs deep into my wrist and my eyes fly open as I realise my wrist, no my wrists are tied to the bed posts flung wide and high above me unyielding and painful.
With a terrified sob I realise that my ankles are tied too, my skirt ridden up and my legs spread painfully wide, my tights laddered at the calf on the left.
Then I look to my left and cry out as I see a man, all in black with a balaclava, standing quietly by the window saying nothing.
I look down into his hands and see a pair of steel scissors flashing in the lamp light. I groan and in fear I feel myself pee a little as my bladder opens.
I shake my head and pull vainly at the ropes.
“Please, please, what are you doing? Please let me go!”
Rapist's story
I stroll over to my girlfriend. “Well hello, sweetie,” I say as her eyes widen in fright. “We'll have a lot of fun together in this bed. Let's get you out of that frumpy outfit, shall we?”
Her feeble protests are delightful as my scissors cut into her shiny white polyester blouse. When her sobs turn to shrieks, however, I remove her ID badge and stuff it into her mouth along with the strap. “When I want you to gape, hun, you'll know,” I admonish her sternly.
It's time for a tour of the guide. Cati shakes her head as I remove the undershirt, uncovering a white sports bra. Her chest is heaving and her muscles tensing as the scissor tips grace her skin, then move apart and snap the centre gore. Her tits are medium sized, shapely and perky. The nipples are stiff, presumably from fear, and I enjoy her squirming as I twist them both ways.
Next, I cut open her tights and remove them, relishing the sound of her muffled sobs. Her long, pale legs are trembling beneath me as I run my gloved hands over her flesh. It's intoxicating. I slide my fingers beneath the waistband of her granny cotton knickers and slowly pull them down as far as they go, reveling in the sight of her vulnerability. The sharp smell of urine fills my nostrils, making me realise the extent of her fear. Her hips move involuntarily, trying to resist me, but I am firmly in control.
There is an audible snap as my scissors do their job.
Victim's story
I sob and beg him to let me go but he isn't listening and I wail and cry as slowly he cuts off my blouse and skirt.
"Please, please don't... Pleeease!"
He ignores my pleas and then rams my ID badge painfully into my mouth. I squeal as he cuts away my bra pinching my nipples painfully. Then he cuts away my knickers and I am helplessly tied naked at this man's mercy.
Rapist's story
I pull my headlight on to see better. She is clean shaven, her dark pink folds quite prominent. A cunt quivering with fear is such a pleasant sight, and the bulge in my pants keeps growing as I lean in to touch it.
Parting the lips and inserting my index finger, I detect a bit of moisture. Rarely if ever is any of my girlfriends completely dry, a fact in which I take some pride. Now it's time for one of my favourite routines.
Walking up to the head end, I present to her my gloved finger, glistening with the transparent white liquid that proves her arousal. I pull out the badge and strap for long enough to stick the finger in her mouth, rubbing it against her palate to let her savour her juices. She shuts her eyes and shakes her head, cheeks flushed with shame and revulsion. Then the muffle is restored.
I pat her shoulder. “Don't worry, Cati. The wetter you get, the easier the next few hours will go”.
She doesn't seem to find this reassuring.
Returning to the foot end, I run some fun experiments on her twat. It's tight, and I want to see how much it can be dilated. My dick is big enough that my pleasure won't be compromised.
I have brought some items for this purpose. First up is a small deodorant bottle. Her screams are barely stifled by the muffle as I insert it, taking my time to work it past the inner lips and then the vaginal entrance.
Next up is a little candle stick from the nightstand, its diameter slightly larger than the deodorant. It's fair to say she doesn't enjoy that one either, trashing around as much as the ropes allow and making a range of guttural noises as the object is carefully screwed in. “Tensing your cunt only makes it worse,” I tell her, but my well-meant advice falls on deaf ears as I twist it in further.
I call her name, and her head jerks up. Her teary eyes widen in alarm as she sees me lube up a miniature whisky bottle. After removing the candle stick, I begin to replace it with the bottle's sturdy base. At this point poor Cati is shaking rather violently, crying her head off. I discern the word “please”, though the 'p' and 'l' are garbled.
Victim's story
I pull and twist but the ropes just dig deeper into my soft skin and I whimper as I feel him move towards my thighs, obscenely splayed and tied. His head torch makes him a parody of a doctor as he leans in staring at my vagina. Then I gasp in shame and disgust as he inserts a finger into me, dry and tight. I have not had many sexual partners, and I know how tight I am as my smear tests testify, they are always such a trauma.
He withdraws mercifully quickly and takes my ID badge out of my mouth just long enough to shove his finger in and make me taste myself. Then he is ramming the card back in, muffling my pleas.
I cry out in pain and crane my head to see what he is doing as pain radiates through my groin and I see with horror that he is pushing a small deodorant up into me. I scream and beg into the makeshift gag as the pain pulses through me.
He takes it out, my vagina throbbing, and then to my horror he picks up a candle stick and, reversing it, pushes this inside me, bruising and hurting me as I try to pull my hips away hopelessly.
He removes it with a plop and then I cry out in even more pain as he pushes a small bottle up inside me base first.
I babble and beg but my stuffed mouth makes it impossible to form words, I scream and pull at the ropes in vain.
Rapist's story
It's finally time for the highlight of our date. As I liberate my cock, already hard as steel, I can feel the anticipation coursing through my veins. Cursing the need to avoid shedding evidence, I roll the condom on. Now I climb onto the bed, positioning myself between Cati's legs. Her eyes are wild with fear and desperation as she meets my gaze, tears flowing as she struggles against the ropes.
With a swift movement, I thrust my shaft into her pussy. Despite the dilation it's tight at first, but it gives way, and I slide in with ease. I watch her body writhe beneath me, feeling her inner muscles grip and release as she tries to accommodate my size. She lets out another subdued cry as I begin to pound her, slowly at first, but thrusting all the way to the bottom. With every stroke I stamp her cervix, intending for the bruises to serve as a record of my visit.
I pick up the pace. Her legs scrape against the bedspread, her body arched and trembling, every muscle in tension as she fights the inevitable. If only she knew how her resistance only hardens me more, spurring me on to further heights of passion.
My breath comes out in ragged gasps as I remove the gag and lean in for a kiss. I know better than to insert my tongue, but it is still a romantic moment when our lips are pressed together. As I pull away, I whisper into her ear that she is my little fuck doll and I know she is enjoying it deep down.
Now free to speak her mind, she shouts “no” and that she wants me to “stop”. Those are not words I understand, but I love the way they sound. It's almost as if she's begging for more, surrendering to her boyfriend's desires.
I start to knead Cati's breasts and slap them in sync with my thrusts. Sometimes her tear-stained cheeks get a little smack as well. When she shuts her eyes, I choke her throat as a gentle reminder to stay alert in the moment. My sweat trickles down into her face, mingling with her streaming tears.
At last I am getting close. My hands move down to grasp her hips tighter, my fingers digging into her flesh as I quicken my pace to a ferocious rhythm, my gentleman nature yielding to the animal within. My groans resound through the chamber as I lose control, my orgasm roaring through me like a freight train.
Panting like a dog, I carefully withdraw. The used condom I put in a zipper bag in my backpack. I pop a Viagra and sit down on the bed, catching my breath and waiting for my erection to return. “Don't you worry, hun,” I reassure my girlfriend. “This lover boy isn't a one-hit wonder.”
Not until the early morning do I leave the estate. As I cast a final glance at Cati, unconscious and covered in sweat, I notice the badge half hidden by her red-brown hair. It will be my souvenir from a thrilling experience. In return I leave a review, scribbled on her belly with a marker.
“Great interior tour. Five stars!”
Victim's story
The rape when it happens is as horrific and as painful as I feared. I am tight and he has already hurt me pushing things inside me. As much as I struggle and cry, the bindings holding me just dig in deeper to my soft wrists and ankles.
I feel his cock nudge my already bruised and inflamed labia, and I sob into the plastic card gag which is hurting my mouth and stopping me from crying out and begging.
Then he is inside me. I scream uselessly as his huge hard cock distends me, battering at my dry walls and hitting my cervix agonisingly.
I cry and beg and then he pulls the card out of my mouth and I am able to vocalise even though my throat is dry and sore. I plead with him, beg him, tell him how much he is hurting me, but he laughs and carries on.
He is thrusting harder now and the pain is even worse as he starts to slap me my face and my breasts. He is enjoying watching me cry and suffer and listening to my cries and whimpers. When he comes it is with a groan and he lies on me for a while then withdraws. I let out a moan of relief that he is no longer inside me. At least it is over.
Then he takes a pill and laughs. He says something about not being a one hit wonder and I realise with horror that he hasn't finished with me.
I scream and beg, but he takes my ripped panties and wipes his cock and my slit and forces them into my mouth as he sits quietly watching me sob.
Soon he is hard and he stands up. I sob as I know he is going to hurt me again.
He spends all night abusing me. Sometimes he walks around the mansion bringing back items to push inside me, a torch, a wine bottle neck, some marker pens. The pain and humiliation overwhelms me as I drift in and out of consciousness.
At one point he unties me and turns me over and rapes me from behind kneading my breasts as he rapes me harder even than before, his fingers digging hard and deep into my hips and thighs as he drags me onto his cock.
Then he ties my ankles to my thighs, re-ties my wrists to the bed, and rapes me again. I can feel a slow dribble from my abused vagina and I know even without looking that I am bleeding.
How many times he rapes me, I lose track of. On my back spread at least twice, from behind once and frog-tied once, but I am not conscious all the time so I cannot be sure.
When I awake it is light, the sun just drifting through the curtains and I realise a noise has awoken me and there at the foot of the bed, terrified and shaking, is my colleague Emily looking down at my tied, gagged, bleeding and bruised body.
I begin to scream.

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I am not The OOP, OOP is u/Enort
I [22M] suspect something between my girlfriend [22F] and my friend [21M]. We all live together. Am I imagining things?
TRIGGER WARNING: infidelity, emotional abuse and manipulation, verbal abuse
Original Post Nov 30, 2014
I'm really freaking out right now because if what I suspect is true, this living situation is about to get really complicated. Please tell me I'm just crazy. Sorry if this is long.
Background
We are two couples living together, we all attend the same university. The apartment was originally leased by my girlfriend of about 2 years (Alexis) [22F] and our mutual friend Brooke [22F]. The apartment is huge and expensive. There was originally supposed to be 3 girls living there but the last one backed out abruptly. They were planning on moving somewhere cheaper, but they had put a lot of work into the apartment and loved it so much they hated the idea of leaving. I offered to move in when my lease was up in May so we could split the rent and utilities 3 ways. I was sleeping over often anyways. Both girls were absolutely ecstatic about the idea. Shortly before I moved in Brooke started dating my best friend Derek. This was cool because now both couples got to hang out with their best friends and SOs all at once. It seemed perfect. Derek began sleeping over a lot and when his parents sold their house and left in October, he temporarily moved in. We haven't really pushed for him to find a new place because splitting everything four ways is helping all of us so much. But again, only Alexis and Brooke are on the lease. The apartment owner surprisingly does not mind as long as rent gets paid, because we are always quiet.
There are three incidents that made me think something was up. If it weren't for these combined incidents, I would never make an accusation like this because Alexis is such a sweet and shy girl and Derek has been a brother to me. They don't seem flirty, but as I mentioned before all four of us are very close friends so we spend a lot of time together.
Incident 1
MWF Brooke and I have early classes, so we're gone by 8am. Derek and Alexis start in the afternoon so it's not unusual for them to leave together, though they usually take separate cars. One of these days, I decided to wait for Alexis outside of her class so I could surprise her with lunch. I watched everyone shuffle out of the class, but Alexis wasn't with them. I texted her asking where she was and she replied "Just got out of class, gonna go home to study" I called her to see if I had just barely missed her or something and there was no response, which I considered weird because she had just texted me second ago. She didn't answer until much later, which is also unusual for her (she's one of those girls that's often on her phone). I ran into Brooke later in the day and she mentioned in passing that Derek had stayed home sick, she was going to bring him soup, blah blah. At the time, I didn't think much of it.
When I got home later that night I noticed Alexis' car was in the exact same spot. (She usually parks in guest parking because our unit only has 3 spaces, as a result her car moves a lot). I asked her if she'd gone to class and she got quiet before sheepishly admitting to skipping because she felt the professor sucked at explaining things, but she knows I hate when she skips classes (something that's gotten her grades in trouble before, but she recently started doing better). I kissed her and said I trusted her judgment. While I was doing the dishes she explained how she probably won't skip again because being bored alone in the house was the worst. I laughed and we went about our business. At night we went to bed and as I laid there drifting off, it hit me. She shouldn't have been alone because Derek was home sick - right? She was still up on her phone so I popped awake and asked her where Derek was today since Brooke had said he was home sick. She seemed startled by the question, but that may have been from me being half asleep to suddenly wide awake with a random question. She said he was here a bit in the morning but went to do errands or something, she wasn't sure. After the other incidents, I realized that the scattered way she answered this question seemed off, but that may just be my imagination.
Incident 2
I went to throw some stuff out in the kitchen garbage when I noticed a condom wrapper that was the exact same brand Alexis and I use. It wasn't super visible, sort of tucked behind a cereal box but the distinctive color caught my eye. Brooke and Derek always use a different brand (free from the university health center while ours are expensive Trojans). It was weird because we usually keep the wrappers in our respective room's garbage cans so they never appear in the kitchen. Furthermore, because of exams and general stress Alexis and I hadn't slept together in a few days. I didn't really dig around for a used condom or anything, I just went back to the room to check if any of ours were missing. I really couldn't tell, because we buy in bulk. My first thought was that Brooke and Derek had ran out and broke into our stash and I was upset that they hadn't even asked. Later that night I mentioned the condom wrapper to Alexis and her eyes got wide. When I mentioned my theory she got unusually distressed (she's always very calm) and went on a rant about them violating our privacy. I suggested we talk to them about it and she immediately shut the idea down and made me swear not to bring it up unless they did it again. She didn't want to have this awkward conversation, which was weird to me because we're all generally pretty open about sex given that we live together. Though it is possible that Alexis was being genuine because she's from a conservative small town and she doesn't talk about these things as much as we do.
Incident 3
Me and Derek are cool with the dudes in the apartment next to us, who are graduates from our university. We don't hang out or anything, but we have the kind of relationship where we make small talk about sports or whatever in the hall and are comfortable asking the other to keep it down without it being awkward. Last Monday (during our break) I was locking up when no one else was at the apartment, when I ran into one of the guys from next door. We talked football for a bit and then he mentioned that one of the couples in the apartment is really a fan of morning sex and that the walls were way too thin. I laughed because Alexis and I usually had sex weekend mornings when we had the house to ourselves (Brooke and Derek usually spend weekends at her parents house about an hour and a half away). The more I thought about it later in the day, the more I realized we hadn't been having morning sex in about a month, on the weekends it had been more towards the evening or not at all. Did he mean on weekdays?! My heart sort of dropped. I kind of want to ask him to elaborate but the conversation ended and I feel like I missed my chance. Plus its a weird thing to ask and I feel like I must be being paranoid.
So there you have it relationships. Am I crazy? Am I looking for signs that aren't there or is something up? And if so how do I proceed? I don't want to ask her just yet because 1) I don't want to come off as crazy and jealous if nothings up 2) If something is up, I don't want them to start hiding it better. I was thinking of dropping by one of those mornings they're alone together but I don't know how to time it right. If I drop by too early or late they might get more cautious.
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TL;DR: Several ambiguous incidents have lead me to suspect my girlfriend and best friend may be sleeping together, but I don't know if I'm imagining things.
Update 1 Dec 2, 2014
A lot of you requested an update to my original post.
The majority of you suggested that I speak to Brooke and/or attempt to walk in on the act. I decided on doing both.
Sunday night everyone was back in the apartment. I had every intention of speaking to Brooke about the neighbor's comment alone, but before I could she said something that completely threw my theory off. She told Derek to get to bed so he wouldn't be tired for work in the morning. What. I knew Derek has a job on campus, but he had always worked the same night shifts. Being as casual as possible, I inquired how long he'd been working mornings and when he started. He said he picked up the extra shifts a month ago and worked at 9. (I leave at 7:45 so it's possible for me not to have noticed that). I spent the rest of the night trying to figure out whether he was lying about that, whether still he had some mornings here at home, whether Alexis could be seeing someone other than Derek in the mornings (like some of you suggested) or (again) if I was just a paranoid loser. I went to bed feeling emotionally drained and confused.
The next morning I left for classes as usual and operated on autopilot. I alternated between thinking I'd run home to check on Alexis and thinking I had way too much work to run around based on a theory that I wasn't even sure about anymore. In the end, I walked out of my first class and straight to my car to go home. In a weird way, I sort of wish I hadn't.
When I got to the apartment Derek's car wasn't there, just Alexis'. I walked to the apartment with my heart pounding all sorts of crazy. I don't know what I was expecting. Outside the apartment door I could immediately here a guy's voice inside. I heard him talking and laughing and a soft feminine mumble replying and giggling back. I've been on this subreddit long enough to see all the different reactions people have to this situation. I never once contemplated what I'd do. I pressed my ear to the door and see if I could make out what they were saying, but I could only make out a word here and there. There was a lot of giggling. Then, I heard the sound of Alexis being tickled and shrieking. Maybe I should've waited more. In retrospect I wish I did, but I couldn't take it. As soon as I started fiddling with my keys, it was dead silence in there.
She was fucking Mark. I never mentioned Mark in the previous post but he's one the guys in the apartment next to us (not the one that tipped me off). He's the only one I never liked. Fucking know-it-all douchebag attitude. Always made inappropriate comments towards both girls. Never thought anything of it. As soon as I opened the door, they both gave me a deer-in-headlights look that removed any naiive doubt I may have retained that the situation was innocent. I was planning on yelling at them or demanded answers, but (and this is fucking embarrassing) my eyes began to well with tears. I didn't want them to see that shit. So I said "Nice. Real fucking nice." and bolted back to my car.
I heard Alexis yelling my name in the hallway and picked up the pace. I sort of expected her to be chasing me but by the time I got to the car there was no one following me. I drove to a park that's near the apartment and sat there in disbelief. My first thought, weirdly enough was How is my family going to take this? What the hell am I going to tell them? My family fucking loved Alexis. They joked about our wedding and regularly called her part of the family. Then I started thinking about living arrangements. Our finals end in about two weeks, there's no way I can handle moving now. I'm applying to an extremely competitive graduate program and I can't let anything get in the way of that. Definitely not this cheating bitch.
I'm writing this from a friend's house. I explained the situation, he explained it to his parents and they welcomed me to stay in their home. I'm going to have to go back home to get some clothes sometime. I'm planning on going during this lab period I know Alexis can't skip tomorrow. It took her an hour or so to start blowing up my phone, but once she did it didn't stop. She started off asking me to come home so she could explain. Before I even had the chance to respond she sent another one begging me to come back because she was having an anxiety attack, something I always help her through. Maybe I'm heartless, but all I could think was good, you earned it. There was a pause and then she sent "I don't know why you get so jealous, we were just hanging out." I waited. She sent "Look, I know it looks super sketchy, believe me if I were you I'd think the same thing, but we didn't do anything. He needed advice on his girl problems. You have to believe me." No, no I don't. Normally I would have gotten a weird sense of satisfaction watching a cheater scramble to cover their ass, but my stupid brain just kept replaying all these great times we had together and wondering if she was cheating then too. I want to know when this started, but at the same time I'm worried it's been going on for longer than the month I've suspected something.
I received a text later that night from a number I didn't recognize. It was the nice dude from next door. He said (paraphrasing because it was a long text) that he got my number from Derek. He was extremely sorry for what I was going through and that he would have told me sooner but he wasn't completely sure. He said he knew his friend was seeing a girl with a boyfriend, but didn't put it together until he learned the girl's name. As many of you suspected, the comment was him trying to tip me off. So yeah, I guess he's bro of the year.
I don't think Derek and Brooke know yet. I haven't texted them. I haven't found the words. I know it's going to turn our living arrangement and friendships upside down. I guess I should message them before Alexis paints a different picture. I wonder what the cool neighbor said when he asked for my number. I don't think he told them, the would have said something... Right? Unless they took her side. Then I've lost my girlfriend and friends.
Any advice on coping with something like this, especially from those who have been there before, please let me know. I don't have many friends to reach out to besides the guy I'm staying with. Alexis, Brooke and Derek were basically my family. Alexis and I had talked about spending our lives together. I have never been serious about a girl the way I was with her.
EDIT: I am seriously moved by the amount of support you guys are giving me here. Please keep them coming, I may not reply to all the comments but I've read each one on both posts. I'm going to tell Derek and Brooke soon. I'll try to do a follow up when I have some sort of plan.
--- TL;DR She was cheating, but it wasn't with Derek. I'm shattered.
Update 2 Dec 6, 2014
You wonderful motherfuckers. Between the comments to both posts and my inbox I have an immense collection of personalized pep talks, which I am referring to whenever I feel down (admittedly, a lot these days). I got advice/stories from all sorts of people - married, single, old, young... Wow. I never thought the internet would bring me this level of support. I just want you guys to know that by just typing up some comments you have made a very real difference in someone's life. Gotta say it feels a little strange receiving 6 reddit gold and making it to /bestof just for sharing the worst day of my life, haha.
I got a lot of messages urging me to join redpill. This experience has soured my view of Alexis. Not women in general.
I got some messages saying I write too well and this is obviously made up. I have two words for you: I wish.
A clarification on the last update: I wasn't clear about what I see when I walked in. They weren't literally fucking, they were just sitting on the couch with a deer-in-headlights look that was incredibly incriminating and they both went quiet. It was just obviously not a "hey, guess who dropped by" situation.
Anyways, onto the update. I've been extremely busy with the semester ending and I took the majority's advice to bury my head in work. I've spent a lot of time at the library because Alexis never goes there.
In the process of posting the last update I realized how dumb it was that I hadn't contacted Derek and Brooke with my side. I screen-shotted the text from the cool neighbor, Will. (Side note: all names have been changed except Mark because fuck you Mark). Within the minute Derek was blowing up my phone with calls and texts that made it very apparent he didn't know anything. At the same time Alexis was sending texts begging me to meet up with her. I was feeling miserable and sent back a single text to Derek saying I wasn't feeling up to talking, then put my phone away for the night. In the morning I got a text saying to meet him at my favorite restaurant for dinner and drinks on him, assuring me that no one would be there "not even Brooke." I haven't had any appetite since everything went down, but the offer meant a lot and I really did want to see him so I decided to go after classes.
I got to the restaurant first and I had my heart in my throat worrying that Alexis would somehow be there, but she wasn't. Derek came up to me and gave me a big hug and opened with "Dude, what the fuck." So here's where shit gets a bit crazy and dramatic. A lot of you suggested that Brooke might side with Alexis or had been covering up for her the whole time. I wasn't so sure, because while she is closer to Alexis, her and I have been friends for a bit longer. According to Derek, as soon as he told Brooke she was absolutely furious. In his words: "I sort of wanted to bitch Alexis out but Brooke took care of that... and then some." Remember how I said Alexis came from a conservative small town? Her parents had NO idea that we were living together and she constantly stressed that they couldn't know or they'd cut her off financially. They liked me enough to be polite, but they were constantly worried a relationship would distract her from school and didn't want her getting pregnant or whatever. Derek said that Brooke demanded Alexis pack her things and find a new place or she'd call up her parents and tell them everything. Derek told me that later that night Alexis was sitting in the living room hugging a sweater I'd left behind and wailing at the top of her lungs that her life was over when Brooke yelled from her bedroom "Well maybe you shouldn't have fucked Mark then." Imagining that moment was kind of funny. Brooke's always been a very no-nonsense girl with a hot temper, but I definitely didn't expect this. It was extremely touching that she took the cheating that seriously. During that dinner all my fears that I'd lost my friends were completely washed away and I was able to choke down a few pieces of sushi.
When we left dinner, Derek promised to let me know when Alexis was gone so I could move back in. I declined his offer, because
1) Even if she does move out everything in that apartment reminds me of her including Derek and Brooke
2) Alexis and Mark probably fucked in my room, so I really don't want to sleep in it
3) In the current emotional state I'm in I don't want to be third-wheeling a happy couple, even though I'm sure they'd be considerate. He understood my points but said to let him know if I changed my mind, because Brooke and Alexis' friendship seems to be pretty over.
This week has been pretty uneventful, but I keep having to dodge Alexis. Luckily, I'm in an undergraduate program that only has 60 students so we have a lot of our classes together. I asked two friends to keep an eye out for her after giving them a sparknotes of the story, and started showing up to class at the last minute. As far as I know, she only waited outside of one of my classes. I got a text saying "Bitch has been spotted in front of (classroom). Waterworks in progress. Proceed with caution." I ended up skipping the class, because I didn't know if she was going to leave and I really didn't want to risk it.
Later that night she sent me a really long Facebook message explaining everything from the beginning and it sort of made me sick to read, I contemplating not reading it but once I opened it I just had to. She said that he'd been flirty with her in the halls (as I mentioned before, he would say inappropriate shit to both girls) and she tried to be friendly back, but it must have come off as flirting because he kissed her mid-sentence one day. She said she felt guilty that she "led him on" and that guilt prevented her from shooting him down in future advances because she felt like it was her fault it happened and she has trouble saying no (???) She said they'd only slept together 3 times and she hated it, he had pushed her into it ("not rape, but..idk I never said yes either") and she was going to end it during the conversation I walked in on. She said she understood if I needed some time and some space but that she'd do absolutely anything to "make it right" and would spend the rest of her life making it up to me by:

• Treating me like a king, I'd never have to cook, clean or do my laundry again
  
• Give me full access to her phone and passwords. She even suggested we install Life360 (an app that allows you to track someone's location through their phone) so I would know where she is at all times.
  
• Cut off all contact with Mark and all her male friends (just for good measure, I guess?)
  
• Makeup sex whenever I wanted
  

Yeah, that sounds like a healthy relationship - right? I didn't answer. I kind of wanted to keep her on Facebook and watch the shit show unfold (she was posting dramatic statuses and song lyrics about mistakes, forgiveness and some from "our song") but I know how I am, I don't want to compulsively check her page or go through old photos. So I blocked her. Derek sent me a text a few hours later saying "She's crying and screaming about you blocking her LOL"
In happier news, the family I'm staying with is fantastic. I felt a little guilty about taking up their space, electricity, etc. so I offered to put down rent and pay for some bills (I am unemployed but my family gives me a decent allowance for rent and food) but they declined. The dad said "First month's free. If you need more time here then we'll talk about it." and winked. My friend was telling me that they have hosted his and his sister's troubled friends so it wasn't a big deal. Still, I'm unbelievably grateful.
As for Will, (awesome neighbor) I called him to thank him for everything. I wasn't up to inviting him for dinner just yet, but I will. He apologized profusely. He says he can't stand Mark, not just for what he did with Alexis but various other things that I won't go into. He told me that Mark has been unusually quiet the past few days and told another one of the guys that he had gotten dumped. Whatever. I don't want to think about it.
So that's really all I have for you guys. I'm still going to be friends with Derek and Brooke but I'm going to limit my contact with them because they remind me of Alexis so much. I sent Brooke a message thanking her for kicking Alexis out and she said she'd do it regardless of whether or not I move back in. She's going to give me a heads up on when Alexis is gone so I can get the rest of my things. In the mean time I'm spending a lot of time studying, applying to grad schools, and hanging out with the guy I'm living with. Earlier this week I posted onto my university's Facebook group searching for roommates for next semester and I already have a few replies. I'm going to wait until after finals to tell my parents about the situation because my mom asks a million questions about everything and I'm not in the mood to answer them.
Again, thank you thank you thank you for all the messages. I didn't not expect this level of attention and while it has made me a bit paranoid someone will recognize the story from the details - fuck it I needed the support.
I fucking love you guys.
--- TL;DR: Brooke is kicking Alexis out and Derek is still my buddy. I'm doing okay given the circumstances, and I'll hopefully be finding a new apartment next month.
Update 3 Jan 13, 2015
Well, I really wasn't planning on updating but a lot of you have prodded for one and I do owe you guys after all the wonderful support I received.
Once finals ended (I did well given the circumstances), everything hit me like a ton of bricks. I mean, almost worse than the initial insult. I removed all my social media pictures with her, threw out stuff that reminded me of her, took our songs off my playlists, yadda yadda . We've been inseparable since we met so this was over two years of accumulated memories. Long story short, it was very hard but I had an urge to get it all done before the new year. That whole cliche new year, new me thing... I guess. I don't know.
Anyways one particular redditor sent me a message about how Alexis might be driven to suicide now that she's lost everything (her closest friends, her boyfriend and her apartment). I know that seems like an overdramatic prediction, but I couldn't get it out of my mind after reading it. What Alexis did was absolutely freaking terrible, but I felt like a final conversation might give me better closure and maybe help her understand that its completely over and get her to move on. So I planned to meet with her before everyone went home for break. A lot of you were big on the icing her out, so I'm genuinely sorry to disappoint but I had to do this for me.
I sent Alexis "If you want to talk, we can meet up somewhere... But there's no way we can be together after what happened so please don't ask, okay?" She responded almost immediately asking when and where. We arranged to met at an off campus coffee place. When I got there she was already at a table and got up to hug me. I waved her away and she jerked back like a puppy that had been kicked. I felt shitty immediately, but I wanted to get it over with. We made some stupid small talk, she asked how I'd been, how were finals, etc. But I sort of interrupted it. I asked her if she had been unhappy with our relationship. Her eyes got real wide and she said "No no no.." a bunch off times and got quiet. So I asked her why if she wasn't unhappy. Basically she retold the story about having trouble saying no and him being so pushy. I stopped her and asked her to cut the BS and just take responsibility. That maybe it excused her actions up until he "kissed her midsentence" but sex three times?! Yeah.. no. She looked down, shrugged and muttered "You're right, I know." At this point she started tearing up and said she was so sorry, that I'd never understand how sorry she was. Then she asked if there was any chance we could be together again, which I was kind of expecting even though I told her not to. I just shook my head. I told her she could still live with Derek and Brooke if she wanted to, but she declined and told me she already had plans to move in with another girl friend of hers. From here on out the conversation went in circles with her trying to explain away her actions with her difficulty turning down guys due to her fear of being seen as a frigid bitch and me trying to get her to admit that excuse was garbage. I don't know why, I just really needed her to stop using that crutch and admit she had ruined a perfectly good relationship with a very real future all on her own. But she just wouldn't. She was always stubborn. Finally, I let it go and we parted ways somewhat amicably. As I was leaving she grabbed my hand and parted her lips to say something but ended up shaking her head and letting go. The conversation made me feel worse than I had before at first, but ultimately it really made me see that she was never the kind of person I wanted to be with even without the cheating. She never took responsibility for anything (failed classes were because the professor was incompetent, not finding a job/internship was bad luck and not her lack of effort, etc.). I just never really thought about it too hard. I think I was still in the honeymoon stage or something (something = I'm an idiot sometimes).
So at this point I leave the coffee place and ask Derek to hang out. I ended up going to the apartment and although Brooke was there she mostly stayed in her room. We drank some beers and played some video games, it really cheered me up. We also talked a bit about everything that happened. He admitted that they hadn't been able to find a third roommate (aside from complete strangers they'd rather not move in) and asked me again to stay with them. I could tell he really wanted me to and I felt guilty about them being stuck with the lease so I accepted. I told them I needed to wait until Alexis took all her things though. The furniture is hers from before I even moved in and I still don't want to sleep in that bed. Also, Brooke apologized for getting so involved in the situation and yelling at Alexis. Apparently her stepdad had cheated on her mom and it's a sore subject for her. I told her I genuinely didn't mind and she was welcome to do it again if the mood struck her.
I also bought Will some food and drinks at a great place near campus. A lot of you wanted to know the other shit Mark had done that had Will so pissed off. Apparently he had to be harassed to pay rent, claimed he couldn't contribute to any of the household expenses (like dish soap, lightbulbs, cleaning supplies), and regularly came in yelling and laughing at odd hours and agreeing to keep it down then carrying on at the same volume. The standard douchebag roommate crap, really. Will is a really cool guy, we talked a lot about the situation with Alexis but also about school and sports. It was actually pretty fun.
I eventually did tell my folks about the situation and, as expected, my mom bombarded me with a thousand questions and cried a lot. So that was fun. Going home made me feel a little better but my older brother got engaged on Christmas Eve and given the recent circumstances I wasn't as excited for him as I should have been, which made me feel like a shitty sibling. Plus it's all my family can talk about now and I'm just not in the mood.
Life isn't perfect now, but I'm doing better. Alexis moved her shit out and I bought a secondhand bed and dresser off another student. I had my first round of classes last week and although I'm going to sound like a total nerd - the courses are really cool, hands on and the professors are incredibly cool people. Derek and Brooke have been really supportive and don't make me feel like a third wheel at all. I saw Mark in the hallway once and he totally ignored me and I ignored him, but the urge to punch him in the face was very real. I guess that's something that will go away over time. I almost wanted to call him out on the whole thing but with the kind of person Will had described, the conversation would have gotten me nowhere and probably pissed me off more.
Sorry this update isn't as exciting as the previous ones. Thank you for your love and support Reddit. It really, really helped me through such a bad time.
--- TL;DR: Alexis made more excuses and then moved out. I moved back in. My friends are great and I'm on the path to recovering from the whole ordeal.
THIS IS A REPOST SUB - I AM NOT THE OOP

Snug and secure and at peace. Or so I thought.
I sensed something before I was yanked out of my wallet—and, as I realized where exactly I was going, I felt a touch of pity for my owner, along with exasperation.
Being a symbol of value and potential wealth, being sought-after, is all well and good—until you get stolen for it, and until your owner is stupid enough to fall for a hack.
The trick is simple. Activating a Trojan virus when a specific set of numbers, similar to a Bitcoin address, is copied. The virus utilizes a user database consisting of numerous third-party Bitcoin addresses, which instantly replace the copied addresses as soon as the program identifies them.
To check for the presence of the virus, my splendid owner could have copied and pasted a text or set of numbers that differ from the BTC address format. If the copying is successful, but when you repeat the same procedure, the pasted BTC address differs from the copied one, it might indicate that your device is infected with a Trojan virus.
He could have seen that his device was infected with a Trojan virus if the copying was successful, but, when he repeated the same procedure, the pasted BTC address differed from the copied one.
Well, ifs and buts and funding cuts. He’s already sent me to the wrong address, what’s done is done. The blockchain never forgets, and all. He could have scanned his device for malware, had an antivirus, used a secure connection, avoided clicking on suspicious links, steered clear of suspicious websites and unauthorized software—thought about who he’s sending his money too! Now that I’ve jumped up in value—I felt the boost, the push—I know he’ll be sorry, and that should bring me satisfaction, but it doesn’t. Losing gains because of oversight, because of human error… Hopefully he won’t let the regret rattle him too much—human nervous systems are more vulnerable and need more specific protection than even we do.
I wondered where I would end up. Cold or hot? Cold wallets aren’t dependent on the internet—less risk, can hold more Bitcoin in one place. Am I excited at the prospect of new acquaintances, or do I dislike it… Hardware wallets—devices that handle public addresses and keys individually—look like a USB with an OLED screen and side buttons, need to be stuck into a PC. Maybe my thief means it—hardware wallets are a hefty investment.
Paper wallets are printed QR codes—that would definitely be safer, not prone to hacks, and all their owner needs to do is to keep them snug and secure. But no, that’s unlikely. You can’t send partial funds with paper wallets—so, you can’t reuse it. Right, they shrunk on the scene when hardware wallets came along.
A thief would probably prefer the flexibility of a hot wallet… Desktop wallets are software packs—that’s what my former owner had, oh, bye, Argentina. If only I could speak, if I could have warned him about an antivirus. Yes, now that I think about it, a desktop wallet is a good option—easy to use, private, anonymous, no third party involved, which a thief would have appreciated. Right, desktop, or mobile—mobile wallets have that fun feature of using QR codes for transactions. I know that because I live and breathe the blockchain, and the blockchain remembers everything, but I never had the chance to experience a QR code transaction, did I?
But nope. None of the above.
A web wallet. My thief, apparently, thought that something vulnerable to DDOS attacks is the best place he could store his earnings. Wait, web wallets are good for small investments, quick transactions. Am I going to be thrown somewhere again?
If I had feet to pace with, if I had hands to grip my head… And then.
“Unsurprising.”
It’s the first digital flicker—a human would call it a voice—I’ve heard from a currency that’s not Bitcoin.
I slowly shift my attention to the source.

I am 21 years old but I was introduced to porn at a very young age, about ten years old and I’ve been watching it ever since. Even though I felt guilty after every session I still continued to do it because that was the only thing that I knew. I wasn’t socializing much because I didn’t take public transportation so I was always alone and that was my safe space. Fast forward to now at 21, I finally have a girlfriend but something always happens we erase we try to have sex. I’m wondering what the issue is so if anyone experienced anything like this please help or let me know if you overcame it and how. So basically I really love this girl but growing up she was my best friend, we were online friends basically but we never lost contact, we basically grew up together. Being that I didn’t have much female friends, she was really the only one I could call a friend even though we never met face to face until like 9 years of texting. We realised that we liked each other and our personalities are compatible literally a perfect relationship in our eyes but it is still long distance. We live in the same country but like 4 hours away from each other and I do not drive. Now my issue is that since being in a relationship we’ve met each other 4 times. So I’ve known her for 10 years and I’ve only seen her in person 4 times. In those four times we used the first visit to get use to each other etc which I was surprised at how comfortable I was. By the second visit we tried to have sex. At that point I was a virgin so I was nervous but even though I was nervous I maintained an erection. While doing the do it was time to put on the condom (she kept the condoms because my parents are strict and as much as I’m an adult I still live in their house) n I realised that it was too small (Trojan xl) now while struggling to put it on I lost my erection but then got it back up after she kissed me and I forced the condom on even though it was squeezing. After that I tried to penetrate but it was too big for her and we spent time trying different positions to see which one would help to fit it. Long story short when we finally found a position (missionary) I started to shake because of my posture and we had to stop I only got in like three strokes then stopped due to shaking (I realised afterwards that’s it was a missionary position that requires a lot of strength). Now even though it didn’t go as planned I was surprised that I didn’t have an issue maintaining an erection even though I was extremely nervous and it was my first time. Fast forward to our third visit which was 6 months after, I went online on Amazon and bout a bigger condom because I struggled with the Trojan xl. I bought a durex xxl this time. This was the second time we were trying to have sex. Everything was going good but I realised that even though she was doing what I wanted (orally) and what I enjoyed from porn, I wasn’t getting that pleasure feeling. I was erected but I wasn’t getting that good feeling that I’d get from masturbating to porn. Because of that I was taking forever to cum from foreplay but I was fully erected. Now it was time to put on the condom and when I got up I was still struggling and I lost my erection but this time I couldn’t get it back up I felt sleepy and mentally tired we did foreplay for like 1 hour ( I was erected for the entire 1 hour). At this point I was frustrated because I stopped watching porn for weeks whenever I know that I’m going to visit her. While watching ung porn I have no desire for the real thing but whenever I give it A two week break the real thing is all I crave for. Our fourth visit we used the same durex xxl condom but this time I couldnt get it up. Long story short my erections started to decline from the first time till the most recent. It is really frustrating because nothing is wrong with me physically I can literally watch porn/her nudes for hours and be rock hard the entire time. At the moment I’m trying to find a solution tion because this is going to ruin a perfect relationship eventually. The only time I can refrain from porn is whenever I’m going to visit her because I’m afraid that I won’t get it up so I try everything to ensure that I’ll get an erection. After thinking long and hard I think my problem might be a combination of pied and anxiety from always paying attention to my erection during sex, also anxiety from the condom not being the right size and I have to try a specific way to put it so it is all I can think about. Now, I have a rock hard Erection whenever I’m watching porn for as long as I want, whenever I’m masturbating to her nudes, whenever she puts her foot on me, whenever she sends me a normal selfie etc, the only time I have an issue with erection is when we try to have sex in real life. I always overthink and pray to God that everything goes good before meeting up to have sex but something always happens and my focus/pleasure feeling gets worse each time due to anxiety from previous failures. This is frustrating because nothing is wrong with me when I try to masturbate on my own and it is so easy to get an erected when I hear her voice on a call, when she sends me normal pictures, when I imagine having sex with her, her nudes, just by putting her feet on me. We won’t try again until 9 months from now and I want to know what I can do to ensure that we can have penetrative sex next time because I feel useless and it feels worse knowing that it is so easy for her to turn me on when I’m alone in my own space. Should I take a pill next time? Should i try what you suggest first? Should I give up and stay single? Ik that she is my soulmate and I don’t want something like this to be the reason why we end. Please help

• Make sure that you use condoms that are the right ones for your penis. It is a good idea to measure your penis.
• Condom too big? Chances are it'll slide off during sex and end up in your partner. This is mostly not dangerous, but it's everything but sexy and it'll ruin the mood quite a bit.
• Condom too small? It'll have a chance of tearing open when it... Starts to fill up.
• Does a condom hurt? If the rim breaks, your Penis is big, the condom is small. If your glands hurt the condom is small. Essentially condoms don't hurt, if they do they are the wrong brand for you.
• Condom itches? You might be allergic to latex... Take it off, don't finish. Sex is nice, but having a healthy working penis is better.
• Condom breaks? Breaks at the bottom (rim), the condom is too small or you have sex too furiously. Breaks at the top, you pulled it down too far or it's too small. Breaks anywhere else, the wrong brand, and never buy again. Top "explodes" because your condom is filled with air.
• Condoms do not survive long in your pocket or wallet, heat will break down the latex bonds. This means the condom can break or possibly leak. Store condoms safely. Dark and cold if possible, never in direct sunlight.
• Buying condoms can be hard if you are a teenager or otherwise a bit prudish. But always know that one condom is cheaper than 18 years of raising a child.
• "Skin-tight non-feel, invisible condom..." Sucks. You look at them wrong, they break. And it still feels as if you are wearing a condom. Go for the real stuff, Durex or Trojan or whatever exists where you live. I once had someone tell me "a good condom is one you can put your hand in up until your elbow without it breaking"
• "Condoms break? But I filled it with 20 liters of water without it exploding when I threw it at Phil". Condoms do break, most often from friction, which there is more of if the size doesn't fit your penis. There is very little friction when filling a condom with water in a tub... But when you use a condom too small and go in a bit to dry... Things end badly for many reasons. Condoms are great but so if caring for your partner's needs.
• As your local pharmacists for help, or if that's too hard or embarrassing, just take a stroll down google and find a condom supplier, these sites often have much more information
• Only using one condom. No doubling up
• If you put the wrong side on the head of your penis first, throw it away. Do not flip it and use it because you've coated the part that's about to be closest to the cervix in pre cum
• Hold the condom when you're pulling out after you finish. It can slip off and spill
• Pinching the tip as you put it on so there's a reservoir. Not just for volume but because semen comes out fast and needs a little leeway not to break the end
• Do not open the package with your teeth trying to be sexy
• Always provide your own condoms with a new partner, don't trust someone else to properly store the condom or not mess with it in some way
• consent with a condom DOES NOT mean consent without a condom.
• Female condoms are a thing. You can insert them ahead of time, your partner will not know you have them in use.

Make sure that you use condoms that are the right ones for your penis. It is a good idea to measure your penis.
​
Condom too big? Chances are it'll slide off during sex and end up in your partner. This is mostly not dangerous, but it's everything but sexy and it'll ruin the mood quite a bit.
​
Condom too small? It'll have a chance of tearing open when it... Starts to fill up.
​
Does a condom hurt? If the rim breaks, your Penis is big, the condom is small. If your glands hurt the condom is small. Essentially condoms don't hurt, if they do they are the wrong brand for you.
​
Condom itches? You might be allergic to latex... Take it off, don't finish. Sex is nice, but having a healthy working penis is better.
​
Condom breaks? Breaks at the bottom (rim), the condom is too small or you have sex too furiously. Breaks at the top, you pulled it down too far or it's too small. Breaks anywhere else, the wrong brand, and never buy again. Top "explodes" because your condom is filled with air.
​
Condoms do not survive long in your pocket or wallet, heat will break down the latex bonds. This means the condom can break or possibly leak. Store condoms safely. Dark and cold if possible, never in direct sunlight.
​
Buying condoms can be hard if you are a teenager or otherwise a bit prudish. But always know that one condom is cheaper than 18 years of raising a child.
​
"Skin-tight non-feel, invisible condom..." Sucks. You look at them wrong, they break. And it still feels as if you are wearing a condom. Go for the real stuff, Durex or Trojan or whatever exists where you live. I once had someone tell me "a good condom is one you can put your hand in up until your elbow without it breaking"
​
"Condoms break? But I filled it with 20 liters of water without it exploding when I threw it at Phil". Condoms do break, most often from friction, which there is more of if the size doesn't fit your penis. There is very little friction when filling a condom with water in a tub... But when you use a condom too small and go in a bit to dry... Things end badly for many reasons. Condoms are great but so if caring for your partner's needs.
​
As your local pharmacists for help, or if that's too hard or embarrassing, just take a stroll down google and find a condom supplier, these sites often have much more information
​
Only using one condom. No doubling up
​
If you put the wrong side on the head of your penis first, throw it away. Do not flip it and use it because you've coated the part that's about to be closest to the cervix in pre cum
​
Hold the condom when you're pulling out after you finish. It can slip off and spill
​
Pinching the tip as you put it on so there's a reservoir. Not just for volume but because semen comes out fast and needs a little leeway not to break the end
​
Do not open the package with your teeth trying to be sexy
​
Always provide your own condoms with a new partner, don't trust someone else to properly store the condom or not mess with it in some way
​
consent with a condom DOES NOT mean consent without a condom.
​
Female condoms are a thing. You can insert them ahead of time, your partner will not know you have them in use.

• Make sure that you use condoms that are the right ones for your penis. It is a good idea to measure your penis.
• Condom too big? Chances are it'll slide off during sex and end up in your partner. This is mostly not dangerous, but it's everything but sexy and it'll ruin the mood quite a bit.
• Condom too small? It'll have a chance of tearing open when it... Starts to fill up.
• Does a condom hurt? If the rim breaks, your Penis is big, the condom is small. If your glands hurt the condom is small. Essentially condoms don't hurt, if they do they are the wrong brand for you.
• Condom itches? You might be allergic to latex... Take it off, don't finish. Sex is nice, but having a healthy working penis is better.
• Condom breaks? Breaks at the bottom (rim), the condom is too small or you have sex too furiously. Breaks at the top, you pulled it down too far or it's too small. Breaks anywhere else, the wrong brand, and never buy again. Top "explodes" because your condom is filled with air.
• Condoms do not survive long in your pocket or wallet, heat will break down the latex bonds. This means the condom can break or possibly leak. Store condoms safely. Dark and cold if possible, never in direct sunlight.
• Buying condoms can be hard if you are a teenager or otherwise a bit prudish. But always know that one condom is cheaper than 18 years of raising a child.
• "Skin-tight non-feel, invisible condom..." Sucks. You look at them wrong, they break. And it still feels as if you are wearing a condom. Go for the real stuff, Durex or Trojan or whatever exists where you live. I once had someone tell me "a good condom is one you can put your hand in up until your elbow without it breaking"
• "Condoms break? But I filled it with 20 liters of water without it exploding when I threw it at Phil". Condoms do break, most often from friction, which there is more of if the size doesn't fit your penis. There is very little friction when filling a condom with water in a tub... But when you use a condom too small and go in a bit to dry... Things end badly for many reasons. Condoms are great but so if caring for your partner's needs.
• As your local pharmacists for help, or if that's too hard or embarrassing, just take a stroll down google and find a condom supplier, these sites often have much more information
• Only using one condom. No doubling up
• If you put the wrong side on the head of your penis first, throw it away. Do not flip it and use it because you've coated the part that's about to be closest to the cervix in pre cum
• Hold the condom when you're pulling out after you finish. It can slip off and spill
• Pinching the tip as you put it on so there's a reservoir. Not just for volume but because semen comes out fast and needs a little leeway not to break the end
• Do not open the package with your teeth trying to be sexy
• Always provide your own condoms with a new partner, don't trust someone else to properly store the condom or not mess with it in some way
• consent with a condom DOES NOT mean consent without a condom.
• Female condoms are a thing. You can insert them ahead of time, your partner will not know you have them in use.

• Make sure that you use condoms that are the right ones for your penis. It is a good idea to measure your penis.
• Condom too big? Chances are it'll slide off during sex and end up in your partner. This is mostly not dangerous, but it's everything but sexy and it'll ruin the mood quite a bit.
• Condom too small? It'll have a chance of tearing open when it... Starts to fill up.
• Does a condom hurt? If the rim breaks, your Penis is big, the condom is small. If your glands hurt the condom is small. Essentially condoms don't hurt, if they do they are the wrong brand for you.
• Condom itches? You might be allergic to latex... Take it off, don't finish. Sex is nice, but having a healthy working penis is better.
• Condom breaks? Breaks at the bottom (rim), the condom is too small or you have sex too furiously. Breaks at the top, you pulled it down too far or it's too small. Breaks anywhere else, the wrong brand, and never buy again. Top "explodes" because your condom is filled with air.
• Condoms do not survive long in your pocket or wallet, heat will break down the latex bonds. This means the condom can break or possibly leak. Store condoms safely. Dark and cold if possible, never in direct sunlight.
• Buying condoms can be hard if you are a teenager or otherwise a bit prudish. But always know that one condom is cheaper than 18 years of raising a child.
• "Skin-tight non-feel, invisible condom..." Sucks. You look at them wrong, they break. And it still feels as if you are wearing a condom. Go for the real stuff, Durex or Trojan or whatever exists where you live. I once had someone tell me "a good condom is one you can put your hand in up until your elbow without it breaking"
• "Condoms break? But I filled it with 20 liters of water without it exploding when I threw it at Phil". Condoms do break, most often from friction, which there is more of if the size doesn't fit your penis. There is very little friction when filling a condom with water in a tub... But when you use a condom too small and go in a bit to dry... Things end badly for many reasons. Condoms are great but so if caring for your partner's needs.
• As your local pharmacists for help, or if that's too hard or embarrassing, just take a stroll down google and find a condom supplier, these sites often have much more information
• Only using one condom. No doubling up
• If you put the wrong side on the head of your penis first, throw it away. Do not flip it and use it because you've coated the part that's about to be closest to the cervix in pre cum
• Hold the condom when you're pulling out after you finish. It can slip off and spill
• Pinching the tip as you put it on so there's a reservoir. Not just for volume but because semen comes out fast and needs a little leeway not to break the end
• Do not open the package with your teeth trying to be sexy
• Always provide your own condoms with a new partner, don't trust someone else to properly store the condom or not mess with it in some way
• consent with a condom DOES NOT mean consent without a condom.
• Female condoms are a thing. You can insert them ahead of time, your partner will not know you have them in use.

• Make sure that you use condoms that are the right ones for your penis. It is a good idea to measure your penis.
• Condom too big? Chances are it'll slide off during sex and end up in your partner. This is mostly not dangerous, but it's everything but sexy and it'll ruin the mood quite a bit.
• Condom too small? It'll have a chance of tearing open when it... Starts to fill up.
• Does a condom hurt? If the rim breaks, your Penis is big, the condom is small. If your glands hurt the condom is small. Essentially condoms don't hurt, if they do they are the wrong brand for you.
• Condom itches? You might be allergic to latex... Take it off, don't finish. Sex is nice, but having a healthy working penis is better.
• Condom breaks? Breaks at the bottom (rim), the condom is too small or you have sex too furiously. Breaks at the top, you pulled it down too far or it's too small. Breaks anywhere else, the wrong brand, and never buy again. Top "explodes" because your condom is filled with air.
• Condoms do not survive long in your pocket or wallet, heat will break down the latex bonds. This means the condom can break or possibly leak. Store condoms safely. Dark and cold if possible, never in direct sunlight.
• Buying condoms can be hard if you are a teenager or otherwise a bit prudish. But always know that one condom is cheaper than 18 years of raising a child.
• "Skin-tight non-feel, invisible condom..." Sucks. You look at them wrong, they break. And it still feels as if you are wearing a condom. Go for the real stuff, Durex or Trojan or whatever exists where you live. I once had someone tell me "a good condom is one you can put your hand in up until your elbow without it breaking"
• "Condoms break? But I filled it with 20 liters of water without it exploding when I threw it at Phil". Condoms do break, most often from friction, which there is more of if the size doesn't fit your penis. There is very little friction when filling a condom with water in a tub... But when you use a condom too small and go in a bit to dry... Things end badly for many reasons. Condoms are great but so if caring for your partner's needs.
• As your local pharmacists for help, or if that's too hard or embarrassing, just take a stroll down google and find a condom supplier, these sites often have much more information
• Only using one condom. No doubling up
• If you put the wrong side on the head of your penis first, throw it away. Do not flip it and use it because you've coated the part that's about to be closest to the cervix in pre cum
• Hold the condom when you're pulling out after you finish. It can slip off and spill
• Pinching the tip as you put it on so there's a reservoir. Not just for volume but because semen comes out fast and needs a little leeway not to break the end
• Do not open the package with your teeth trying to be sexy
• Always provide your own condoms with a new partner, don't trust someone else to properly store the condom or not mess with it in some way
• consent with a condom DOES NOT mean consent without a condom.
• Female condoms are a thing. You can insert them ahead of time, your partner will not know you have them in use.