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Please be nice. Some of yall act like rabid dogs when someone says they don’t hate children and babies lmfao.
I think I have been experiencing baby fever for the first time in my life since the birth of my niece. I would literally kill and die for that kid. I cry when I hold her because I love her so much, lol.
Anyways, it’s just made me feel really weird the last couple of months. I used to be so staunchly child free, so absolutely certain I never wanted to be pregnant or have kids. I know for sure that I don’t really know how to interact with kids that aren’t tiny infants and I don’t super enjoy being around them. Pregnancy and birth really freak me out still. But….there’s like some instinct or some shit that’s freaking me out. Like my brain keeps toying with the idea of having a kid someday.
I’m also temporarily living with my mother (that I do not have a great relationship with, I just have to live here for a couple of months before I move to another country) and I keep having these thoughts of “if I have kids I’ll never treat them the way you treated me”, almost like I want to have them and treat them the way kids deserve to be treated? Does that make any sense to anyone else? Idk, it feels like such a selfish reason to even consider kids.
I feel so off and weird and uncomfortable. Does anyone else have experience with this? Please don’t eat me alive for this. I’m honestly a little scared and I feel so uncomfortable in my own skin because of this.

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I finished uni a year ago studying a bachelors degree that was design and programming as well. So I did studio subjects like UX, UI, product design, data visualisation, web design, JavaScript coding, animation stuff like that pretty in demand stuff when I was studying it and there was heaps of jobs and a big demand for UX. I also did designathons assisted with PhD research in VR and more research. I worked hard and got high grades and ended up getting a strong portfolio together which my mentor currently said is better than some designers he knows. The only problem now is that the job market is terrible due to tech layoffs and no one is hiring due to a bad economy and over saturation of UX designers from boot camps.
I did have a final interview the other day for a large company that had over 1000 applicants for the role and I was one on the six to make it to the final round but sadly they hired other people because I lacked experience even though it was entry level and I was told to do an internship instead because they said it’s fast paced and think I’d struggle but they never seen me work and I don’t want an internship I want a job I’m nearly 25. Why does entry level need experience they said in the email they’ll teach you on the job. But I guess I’m alright to make it to the final six out of 1000 while only two were hired.
But there are no other jobs idk what to do, all the jobs are mid to senior level. It’s been a year and it looks like I’ll never get a job. I’ve applied for smaller jobs but didn’t even hear back.
So my life’s been a loop for the past year I get up walk my puppy then scroll on my phone all day. I have a mentor who’s given me a list to do to help but I haven’t even done that I feel like it’s pointless. I haven’t exercised in months or done any of my hobbies I just scroll on my phone in my room all day. I don’t even have the energy to place video games or eat normally my diet has gone to crap I barely even brush my teeth anymore.
I’m also feeling like a complete failure I’ve never been in a relationship at 24 and don’t have a career started yet. I’m so ugly I made a post on Reddit for plastic surgery but people said I don’t need it but I can’t believe them I feel like they’re lying trying to be nice and say my face isn’t asymmetrical when I was told I’m a 3/10 and need facial reconstruction surgery. I don’t want to go outside because I’m so ugly and deformed unlike everyone else. Someone called me an incel because I hate my face so much I wanted to die and self harm. What does that have to do with women that’s mean and hurts my feelings I’d never hate women. I don’t even want to do anything at all when I know I’m hideous
My parents are mad at me and say all I do is scroll on my phone and I should go back to uni and study something else or work in data entry or retail stocking shelves. People on Reddit said I should give up and I did a bullshit degree but they’re pretty in demand skills just the market sucks. I know a girl who’s been struggling for nearly 2 years. I’ve been to psychologists but none have been good one nearly fell asleep, one made weird assumptions and one dismissed my problems and said I have different problems. Only my psychiatrist helps
But I don’t feel depressed like I use to. Maybe burnt out and a bit disheartened that I worked so hard for nothing and been told to give up.
I currently have a part time job but that’s about it
Sorry for the long post but I’ve wasted a year pretty much in my bed on my phone. What can I do to fix it my family is mad at me for doing nothing and it’s not like I don’t want to do this. I’m 24 and so far behind in life my younger brothers friends have careers and travel. Am I lazy like they say or is there something wrong with me how to I find motivation to live again. My brothers are doing better than me with gfs and careers while I’m living at home with no future because of the job market
My laptop broke so I bought a MacBook Air but not getting it until next week so hopefully that helps
Sorry for the long post and if I sound whiny I’m just tired and struggling to improve no one’s helped only bend angry at me and making threats like threatening to financially drain me or kick me out because I’ve been struggling. I’m on medication been on it for years but now I’m in a slump i struggle to get out of. I can’t even surf anymore and I live near the beach. And I quit the gym I got a eating disorder from it so I don’t wanna go back
My puppy is all I have right now that’s keeping me active. I literally do nothing it’s almost midnight my sleep schedule is screwed and I haven’t even read a book in like a year I’m just so unmotivated by anything I don’t exercise, don’t eat well, don’t do hobbies, barley have energy to apply for jobs now I can’t do anything but my parents say I’m lazy which I probably am I guess but I never was lazy . I’m ugly and don’t have a career yet which I want, I want to start my life already
I have a lot of free time I should be enjoying it but I want a job
I’ve wasted my 20s

And it totally sucked... We were NC for a month, she broke up with me in January and for things of life I couldn't move out of our house until April. I realize I had my flaws and was absent and took her for granted but in my mind everything was okay. Instead of her communicating the issues that were making her unhappy she bottled it all up and ended up cheating on me back in November... Even with all the pain from the breakup and finding out her betrayal I told her I was willing to put everything behind, work on myself and our relationship and try to come out stronger from this stuff. She told me she wanted to be single and just do her thing, while we were living together after the BU I saw her leave late at night and not come back for days, obviously going out with men while I just wondered what did I do so wrong to deserve all of this?
I moved out in April and been no contact with her until early this week that a dear relative of hers died so I reached out, and she asked me to talk today, what would be our wedding anniversary... This just brought that hope I had Buried deep down in my heart and maybe thought she had a change of heart and wanted to try again... Little did I know, she just called me to catch up and told me the same things, how she is better without me, how we are so young and we have all these better people and blah blah blah, all the things she has told me before, so no news at all... Now I don't know how to feel, one of my biggest mistakes is making these scenarios in my head and when they don't end up panning out as I think they would I just spiral out and lose my mind. I should have not accepted to talk to her today.
I'm sorry if I'm rambling and not make sense at all. In our relationship like I said above, I was absent and took her for granted. Probably was too in my head from smoking too much pot, this breakup made me kick the habit and today I'm 150 days free of it... Nothing against pot but for me it was fun until it wasn't. Apart from that I never abused her or was toxic with her.
Before talking to her today I missed her like crazy and had the hope in my heart that we were gonna work it out. Now I have to really realize we are not coming back, she got what she wanted, I guess...
Thanks to anyone who read.

Based on the fact that we are awareness and once we live with just being present or aware of thoughts when they come up, what then does a person do? I understand there is no wanting anymore because there is no attachment, identification or judgement with anything but we still exist on this earth and have to choose what to do whether it's meditating in the mountains free from human contact or building a business etc. How do you choose what to do even though it doesn't matter what you do and there is no egoic motivations to do anything (including needing the answer to this question)? I have watched videos of Eckhart Tolle talking about making decisions, intuitions and thoughts of what to do and to my understanding the causes to which actions and choices we take can either come from intuition from a deeper knowing or thoughts of what to do (does not matter from where the cause to actions come from since it does not change us or affect us as awareness). If i don't have that deep certainty of what to do next (which Tolle says come from an energetic balance of what to do next) then do I choose to do certain things instead of others just because I have thoughts that I think will make my life situation (which doesn't matter since it's not the now) better? For example, because "I think" (I don't think, thinking just happens) making more money will give me more freedom which thoughts tell me will improve "my" life situation on a human level then I do that, without any attachment to whether I achieve it or not, always being present in the process and enjoying it without it being a means to an end. This seems to be what Eckhart Tolle said here and here. In the first video he talks about moving away from a drunk person that sat next to him on a bus because that was "his preference". By preference I mean having/observing thoughts that prefer to be a life situation one way instead of another. However it did not matter if he moved or not because the thoughts that tell him to preferably move are not "him" (Eckhart Tolle) and "he is" just an aspect of awareness which isn't bothered by any preferences fulfilled or unfulfilled by thoughts telling "him" to move. So in the case that he couldn't move away from the drunk person, awareness would just observe any thoughts saying "move away from the drunk person" without giving them any power or just become present of the situation without any thoughts at all if they are not needed.

I soon to be 31F am feeling…weird about life. I’ve been with my partner 33M for 12 years. Lived with him for 11 years. I know…moved in way too soon. But it’s my first relationship so I didn’t know that’s way too fast. Our relationship is…okay. I mean we love each other, but he takes his bad moods out on me by being snippy or just silent for hours or gets snippy when I make simple mistakes (sometimes). I think he might be slightly controlling as well with wanting to know my whereabouts every few hours when I’m out away from him. So I kind of feel like I’m either walking on eggshells or just anxious with him a lot. Again, I honestly thought this stuff was normal relationship stuff but now I’m thinking not so much. We also both WFH. I’m a big introvert & need my alone time to recharge but get it rarely.
Aside from the relationship, my Jeep has been waiting on a part since JANUARY, it’s unsafe to drive & it’s on back order with no ETA. My alone time was me driving around with my windows down music blasting ugh it’s my favorite and I haven’t been able to do that all year. Sure I can use my bfs car but it’s just not the same. So I’m stuck home listening to my upstairs neighbors (apartment) child that STOMPS nonstop 8am-930pm so me being home with it is also making me anxious/mad.
Lately I’ve been feeling very “blah”, I use to be such a bubbly happy person and I just don’t feel that way anymore and haven’t for awhile. Idk if it’s just one thing or a mixture of all of these things. I have no appetite anymore, I’m usually around 115-120lbs, last week I was 107, this week I’m down to 104. I try to make myself eat but you know when you don’t have an appetite you’re just nauseous at the thought of eating? Yeah. So then I’ve been drinking ensures when I know I haven’t eaten much.
I think I just don’t know who I am or what I want out of life. I mean I never got the chance to figure out life as I got in a live in relationship at age 19. I just feel like my 20s I didn’t really grow much and still am so unsure with what I want out of life. Everyone around me is getting married, buying houses, having kids, and I’m sitting here trying to find out who the hell I even am at 31 & why don’t I want any of those things? This is all I can think about.
This is mainly just a vent post but feel free to give any advice or share similar stories 😅

Married (34M) Wife (31F). We live in Ohio. I was at work today only to get a phone call from my wife that the police had been called on our chickens. We do not have a coupe as we prefer our chickens to free range.
We live in a suburban neighborhood but we don’t have a fence because we like the view of the trees in our yard. Our kitty corner neighbors have two small children I think ages 4F and 2F and my chickens “allegedly” attacked them in the backyard. To the point where the wife called the non emergency police line.
To say I am livid is an understatement. We have had issues with these neighbors before. The man who owns that house has asked me repeatedly to put up some sort of fence but again we love the view and want our chickens to be free range.
I am looking into legal action against them as I had to leave work to talk to the police all because of an alleged chicken attack.
I am welcome to all suggestions as I am furious that these people don’t respect my families lifestyle.

TL;DR - My father has a loan of over 1cr (again). We (me, my wife) earn about 1 lakh a month. Don't know if I (late 30s) should prioritise myself, my kid or my father.
Sorry this is going to be a very long post, as I feel like giving you a 40 year background and TBH, I don't even have right questiona to ask.
Part 1 - Background
My father started his first business (1980s) before even I was born. As he didn't have any capital, he took heavy loans to begin. Although he was running a successful wholesale agency (among top 10 in my state as per the company accounts), our expenses+interest was huge. By 1995 his interest was about 10 lakhs per month vs ~8L he made. By 1998, we got bankrupt and he had to sell everything, even his shop, my mother's ornaments and the house where we lived. As per the agreements court ordered us to pay 50% or principal to each lender (all of them had already got 10x via interests earlier). We did that, but not all money was owned by noble men, some of it was from loan sharks and they wanted last penny so they threatened and kept on taking money till today.
In 2000, after the shame of bankruptcy went little bit down, my father restarted the business as a retailer, with just 8000 that he earned doing petty things. With his contacts and dedication he grew enough to support our family, but 2005-2010 hit him hard. I went to college, my sibling wanted badly to go to Kota, all savings went down coz of 2008 crash and he took loans again.
Since then his expenses vs earning is constantly negative and loans have soared to 1 CR again. With zero assets this bubble will burst in maximum 1-2 years.
He has ZERO assets, just a 2007 Activa that he bought for me.
Part 2 - My story.
I (late 30s) along with my wife earn ~1.5 LPM. We spend about 80k in Rent, grocery, shopping, insurance etc. give 30k to my father for their expenses, rest saving in FDs/RDs for down payment to buy us a home.
My father loved us like anything and despite of him not having anything fulfilled all our naive wishes. Now all I wish is same like Babu Bhai from Hera pheri. I want to see my father sit in his own home debt free and take a sip of tea.
But this would be at stake of me not building anything for my future and can seriously jeopardize my kid's future too.
Part 3 - Questions

1. Should we consider him closing his business and shifting with us? His account says business earns about 1Lpm with average expenses of 80k. But his interests some of it from suppliers cause it go negative.
   
2. Should I send more money home to help him repay his loans?
   
3. How do I plan for my kid (~3 yo).
   
4. For my case does saving even matter?
   

P.S. Serious answer only Don't need upvotes, just need genuine advice, so rather share with someone who you think can really help.

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I have searched, and searched, and researched and done EVERYTHING I possibly can to find a solution for the problem I’m having and I’m not finding any luck so I’m really hoping someone here can help me out.
I just got access to TikTok Live studio, got it set up on my laptop, I have a vroid that I use to stream along side my actual gameplay so I followed the steps of using the vertical OBS plug in on OBS, set my scenes and turned on virtual camera. Brought that over to TikTok live studio and now here’s where the issue comes in - everything is EXTREMELY lagging. The stream comes in at like 2fps and it’s practically unwatchable. But when I check OBS it’s beautiful, flawless, a masterpiece.
I’ve messed with the resolution settings in TikTok of bringing down to 720, fps to 30, audio to 3000, but nothing seems to fix the issues.
I really hope someone can help me with this. I stream perfectly fine on Twitch but it doesn’t gather as much exposure as TikTok does so getting this up and running would be chefs kiss
Sorry for the lengthy post - just wanted to make sure I got all details in here lol

Not sure if anybody else has stumbled across this or not but I think I just figured something out. Hear me out. So, I bought the Location Sessions EP about 3 years ago around the time Scaled & Icy came out. For those who aren’t familiar with it, it’s a 4 track EP of alternative recordings/mixes from the Trench era. 1. Chlorine (Mexico City) 2. Cut My Lip (Brooklyn) 3. The Hype (Berlin) and Level of Concern (Live from Outside).
I have heard all of these versions before on streaming and they’re all cool alternatives, The Hype probably being my favourite.
However, every time i’ve listened to this on vinyl, the tracks have always just seemed wrong to me. The pitch is slightly too high and so is Tyler’s voice. For years I’ve thought this is just my record player being cheap and very not great but then I realised…
This is is a regular 12” LP. Usually, records with this amount of tracks are smaller, maybe a 7”? Also, on the LP itself, there is an instruction to play the songs at 45RPM which is the usual speed for a shorter album. BUT, having just listened to another record by another band beforehand, I didn’t switch the speed setting from 33 to 45 and oh my god.
So the music is obviously so much slower, and idk if this is intentional but the tracks now sound like they’ve been recorded with genuine instruments rather than over produced and poorly mixed computers. Tyler’s voice is now slowed right down and therefore it’s kinda warped and deep… But it’s Blurryface! It’s the deep voice used on the Blurryface when he takes over and is speaking directly to the audience.
Literally feel like I’m listening to these tracks as if Blurryface has hijacked Tyler’s body and showed us his versions of these songs.
I’ve just listened to the whole thing twice and I’m starting to wonder if this is on purpose or if it is actually just my record player being sh*t.

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What app/website are you using to watch the NBA Streams? ... I'm not 100% it's basically a live stream of the NBA Streams.
NBA Conference semifinals Games:-
Celtics vs. Pacers Time 8:00 pm et
East Finals - Game 1, Series starts 5/21
I pirate everything: games, movies, software, and even made my own plex server. But lately I have gotten really into NBA and haven't found a great way to watch Celtics vs. Pacers Streams for free live.
I don't care if there is a small delay or anything, but it needs to be at a good bitrate at 1080p or it isn't worth watch for me. Also preferably I would want a way to watch it on a smart TV in some way but im expecting to sacrifice that luxury honestly.
ESPN, ABC or NBA Network. I'm sure you can stream as well as way to watch it but I want to see what you guys recommend.

Stream NBA and NCAA games live online for free. Offering multiple high-quality NBA streams, Select your game and dive into the best HD Reddit NBA live …
I'm not 100% it's basically a live stream of the NBA Streams. NBA Conference semifinals Games:- Celtics vs. Pacers Time 8:00 pm et. East Finals …
Streams NBA games live online for free. Offering multiple high-quality NBAstreams, Select your game and dive into the best HD Reddit NBA live.
How do Can I find ways NBA (live) Streams Options?. Hey fellow NBA Basketball viewers. As I’ve been watching NBA for quite a few seasons now, I've done some digging to access the trusty Celtics vs. Pacers Streams. I pirate everything: sports, movies, TV Channels, and even made my own plex server. But lately I have gotten really into NBA and haven't found a great way to watch Celtics vs. Pacers Streams live for free...
What app/website are you using to watch the NBA Streams? ... I'm not 100% it's basically a live stream of the NBA Streams.
NBA Conference semifinals Games:-
Celtics vs. Pacers Time 8:00 pm et
East Finals - Game 1, Series starts 5/21
I pirate everything: games, movies, software, and even made my own plex server. But lately I have gotten really into NBA and haven't found a great way to watch Celtics vs. Pacers Streams for free live.
I don't care if there is a small delay or anything, but it needs to be at a good bitrate at 1080p or it isn't worth watch for me. Also preferably I would want a way to watch it on a smart TV in some way but im expecting to sacrifice that luxury honestly.
ESPN, ABC or NBA Network. I'm sure you can stream as well as way to watch it but I want to see what you guys recommend.

If you read this, thank you in advance.
I'm the third one of 5 siblings. I've been taking care of both my parents since 2016 till my dad passed away at 90 y.o. during the pandemic. A year before it, my older sister also passed away, which was a big blow for my parents. Now it's mom and me. Younger brother lives close, but won't even call mom to check how she's doing. Younger sister lives in another country and tries to be in touch through video calls, but most of the times mom is not in the mood or something happens. My older brother takes care of all the paperwork and makes sure all bills get paid and tries to come see her after work a couple of times during the week. Since January, after my mom needed surgery (colostomy), I have a live-in nurse, 5 days a week.
The main thing is that I never got along very well with my mom. I realized life was getting harder for my parents, some kind of accident was bound to happen any day (kettle on the fire, open gas, falls, you name it) so as I was single, I decided to move in with them. I was renting at that time, but between my job (+12 hours/day Tuesday thru Sunday, plus every other Monday) and getting groceries, cooking and keeping company to my parents, I barely spent time in my place. It was like a big and expensive storage unit.
For a while it was ok. I wasn't home a lot, they had someone who "helped" with the house chores (and managed to steal a lot of stuff in the meantime) and they didn't need assistance to walk, bathe and we're pretty independent. That was till they discovered the "help" was stealing and she resigned (after blaming me for stealing?).
Then the pandemic had us all locked up at home and my dad started to decline fast. So basically, it was just mom and me watching him going down at a very fast pace. He would come and go to and from the hospital several times during that process and once he didn't return.
The next day of my dad's passing, I was called back to go to work. And that's when this all started. My mom (about to turn 92 now) started calling me on the phone several times a day, asking me to return home, which I couldn't till my shift was over. That went on for about a year. I had the chance to retire with 30 years of service and at the (sort of) young age of 51. All was good for a couple of months. But my mom has always been a bit controlling and she demands that I tell her everything I'm doing. She sees me walking into the kitchen and she asks Where are you going? I go to the bathroom? She wants to know what for. I admit sometimes I don't answer properly. What am I supposed to say when she asks me what I'm going to do in the bathroom?
If I tell her I'll go get some groceries, when I return, she's pissed off because I took too long. The shop is around the corner, so the longest it takes me is 15 minutes, if it's crowded. My social interactions are when I go out for groceries or meds. If I went out for a coffee (God forbid!) she wanted to know where I'd be, with whom, how long it'd take... Maddening!! I told her that after being on this planet for more than half a century, I deserved some space for myself, without needing my mom's permission to breathe. She went on pestering me, so I stopped going out almost completely.
But that's not the problem. Like I said, we never got along very well. So when I didn't live with her 24/7/365, I could tolerate her criticism. I would laugh it off and leave. But now it seems that she's determined to break me. Nothing I do is good enough, everything could be improved. She keeps finding new ways to humiliate me and make me feel stupid. Some days I don't mind, but others I just can't take it and blow out. She's mean on purpose. She says nasty things and keeps going till I leave the room. Then she's satisfied and joyfully says: "Oh! That bothered you? Come on! I was joking!". Why is she doing that? Jealousy. Because she thinks I took better care of my dad. But he was almost blind, almost deaf, bedridden and had trouble swallowing, so all his meals needed to be prepared very carefully.
Except for the colostomy, mom's health is better than mine. She has no dietary restrictions, her heart works great, no lung issues, nothing. Before the colostomy she was independent. Now she refuses to walk. And yes, she can do it when she wants. It's just that she doesn't want to get better. She said that if she does, she won't have the attention she's getting now.
She knows I had plans for my retirement years, but she told me she's entitled to my company since " You don't have a life like your siblings". I know, for some people the only life worth living is if you have a family. I chose to be alone. But I don't think I should be punished for my life choices.
Anyway, despite her being so judgemental, I don't neglect her. Each time I go out, I get her something she'd like. Chocolates, sweets, pastries, whatever I know she enjoys. She says she'd like to have something, before the week is gone, she gets whatever she asks for and she's happy, at least for a few moments... But of course, once she has it, she doesn't want it anymore. And wants something else. I cook whatever she asks me to prepare. I thonestly try my best to have her happy. But I feel it's useless. She always finds something to complain.
Having to clean her and change the colostomy bag doesn't bother me. I did it for my dad, so it's fine. Anyway it's only a couple of days a week now. I'm ok with it. What drives me nuts is the neverending nagging. I told her that if she keeps bothering me, I'll leave and she knows that my brothers won't give up their lives to come live with her and she'll end up in a nursing home. I've talked to my brothers and they tell me to be "more!" patient and to brush off what she says. Yeah! Easy when they don't have to deal with it 24/7. They don't come and stay with her for a few hours when they're free. They just make a short visit and leave. And I just want to scream when I hear them telling me to "be more patient".
I'm absolutely worn out, depressed, overwhelmed, angry and defeated. Why do I stay? Because the other option is a nursing home and she won't last long there.
Sometimes I think that I should just pack my bags and let things happen.
I know I made a mistake when I moved back with them. But I was spending so much time here, that it seemed the natural thing to do. Wrong! I'm a loner. I've always been independent. If I wanted to travel, I would just pack and leave. I enjoy being by myself and not talking to anyone for several days, and having to live with someone permanently and taking care of their needs is like Hell.
Now I feel like I'm stuck here and there's not much I can do without jeopardizing my mom's last years. But I don't know how long I'll be able to live like this. Each day I feel more drained and hopeless.
Sorry, it's too long, but I needed to get this out. Thanks for reading.

So I bought a used 2019 Honda odyssey from a certified dealer. I was told it was certified pre owned. I have had the car for roughly 7 months and have had to bring it in to be fixed 7 times already I had an appointment to bring it in because the door latch for the passenger side back door went out and I was supposed to drop it off Friday but today the transmission went out on it. The dealership has fixed all problems but one for free but at this point I really can say they sold me a lemon and I have had it for less then one year of the 7 year term and I’m really worried they won’t fix the transmission and I can’t afford to fix it and I just want to be done with this car so I need to know if there is anything I can do. Ps I live in Georgia but bought the car in Tennessee

Hello all, I am moving to Frederick from central PA. And, yes, I am one of those disgusting Philly sports nuts. I live and die by how my beloved Phillies, Sixers, and Eagles play. Are there any Philly sports bars? And has anyone had luck streaming Philly sports in the area?

I finished uni a year ago studying a bachelors degree that was design and programming as well. So I did studio subjects like UX, UI, product design, data visualisation, web design, JavaScript coding, animation stuff like that pretty in demand stuff when I was studying it and there was heaps of jobs and a big demand for UX. I also did designathons assisted with PhD research in VR and more research. I worked hard and got high grades and ended up getting a strong portfolio together which my mentor currently said is better than some designers he knows. The only problem now is that the job market is terrible due to tech layoffs and no one is hiring due to a bad economy and over saturation of UX designers from boot camps.
I did have a final interview the other day for a large company that had over 1000 applicants for the role and I was one on the six to make it to the final round but sadly they hired other people because I lacked experience even though it was entry level and I was told to do an internship instead because they said it’s fast paced and think I’d struggle but they never seen me work and I don’t want an internship I want a job I’m nearly 25. Why does entry level need experience they said in the email they’ll teach you on the job. But I guess I’m alright to make it to the final six out of 1000 while only two were hired.
But there are no other jobs idk what to do, all the jobs are mid to senior level. It’s been a year and it looks like I’ll never get a job. I’ve applied for smaller jobs but didn’t even hear back.
So my life’s been a loop for the past year I get up walk my puppy then scroll on my phone all day. I have a mentor who’s given me a list to do to help but I haven’t even done that I feel like it’s pointless. I haven’t exercised in months or done any of my hobbies I just scroll on my phone in my room all day. I don’t even have the energy to place video games or eat normally my diet has gone to crap I barely even brush my teeth anymore.
I’m also feeling like a complete failure I’ve never been in a relationship at 24 and don’t have a career started yet. I’m so ugly I made a post on Reddit for plastic surgery but people said I don’t need it but I can’t believe them I feel like they’re lying trying to be nice and say my face isn’t asymmetrical when I was told I’m a 3/10 and need facial reconstruction surgery. I don’t want to go outside because I’m so ugly and deformed unlike everyone else. Someone called me an incel because I hate my face so much I wanted to die and self harm. What does that have to do with women that’s mean and hurts my feelings I’d never hate women. I don’t even want to do anything at all when I know I’m hideous
My parents are mad at me and say all I do is scroll on my phone and I should go back to uni and study something else or work in data entry or retail stocking shelves. People on Reddit said I should give up and I did a bullshit degree but they’re pretty in demand skills just the market sucks. I know a girl who’s been struggling for nearly 2 years. I’ve been to psychologists but none have been good one nearly fell asleep, one made weird assumptions and one dismissed my problems and said I have different problems. Only my psychiatrist helps
But I don’t feel depressed like I use to. Maybe burnt out and a bit disheartened that I worked so hard for nothing and been told to give up.
I currently have a part time job but that’s about it
Sorry for the long post but I’ve wasted a year pretty much in my bed on my phone. What can I do to fix it my family is mad at me for doing nothing and it’s not like I don’t want to do this. I’m 24 and so far behind in life my younger brothers friends have careers and travel. Am I lazy like they say or is there something wrong with me how to I find motivation to live again. My brothers are doing better than me with gfs and careers while I’m living at home with no future because of the job market
My laptop broke so I bought a MacBook Air but not getting it until next week so hopefully that helps
Sorry for the long post and if I sound whiny I’m just tired and struggling to improve no one’s helped only bend angry at me and making threats like threatening to financially drain me or kick me out because I’ve been struggling. I’m on medication been on it for years but now I’m in a slump i struggle to get out of. I can’t even surf anymore and I live near the beach. And I quit the gym I got a eating disorder from it so I don’t wanna go back
My puppy is all I have right now that’s keeping me active. I literally do nothing it’s almost midnight my sleep schedule is screwed and I haven’t even read a book in like a year I’m just so unmotivated by anything I don’t exercise, don’t eat well, don’t do hobbies, barley have energy to apply for jobs now I can’t do anything but my parents say I’m lazy which I probably am I guess but I never was lazy . I’m ugly and don’t have a career yet which I want, I want to start my life already
I have a lot of free time I should be enjoying it but I want a job
I’ve wasted my 20s