Is demi lovato depressed

Is Charming (2018) available to watch via streaming?
Yes, Charming (2018) is available to watch via streaming on Netflix.
The film tells the story of Prince Philippe, who is very handsome but was cursed as a child. Because of his curse, Philippe compulsively proposes marriage to every woman he meets, causing chaos in the kingdom. His father, King Charming, gets fed up and tells Philippe he has to find true love before he turns 21, or he won’t get to be king.
The movie features the voices of Demi Lovato (Lenore Quinonez), Wilmer Valderrama (Prince Philippe), Sia (Half-Oracle), Avril Lavigne (Snow White), and Ashley Tisdale (Cinderella).

heres a list of everything ive watched already
ik its a long list, but please skim through it before reccomending a show :))
cause i always end up getting alot of comments reccomending shows to me that ive already seen
and please keep it to just shows so no movies :)) preferably 24 ep or shorter, but i dont mind longer shows as long as theyre good
also would prefer shows that are dubbed (ik, lame. but my TV is broken n its hard to read subtitles on my phone)
i enjoy both wholesome shows as well as gut wrenchingly depressing shows that will leave me feeling empty afterwards
most the shows on this list are ones i enjoyed watching, but there are sum that i didnt really like. i didnt rate them tho so 🤷‍♂️
n ofc if anyone here is interested in a show on my list that they havent seen before n wants to know my opinion on it n if id reccomend it to you, feel free to ask :))

1. Attack on Titan
2. Yugioh
3. Tokyo Ghoul
4. Elfen Lied
5. Eureka 7
6. Wolfs Rain
7. Soul Eater
8. Soul Eater NOT
9. Gurren Lagann
10. Mob Psycho 100
11. Squid Girl
12. Death Note
13. Black Butler
14. One Piece
15. Naruto
16. Pokemon
17. Demon Slayer
18. Scryed
19. Blue Exorcist
20. Parasyte: The Maxim
21. Hetalia
22. Junjou Romantica
23. Maiden Rose
24. (forbidden anime)
25. Devilman Crybaby
26. The Great Pretender
27. Fooly Cooly
28. Beastars
29. Brand New Animal
30. Toradora
31. Durarara
32. Cowboy Bebop
33. Sword Art Online
34. Immortal Grand Prix
35. Ghost Stories
36. Another
37. Space Dandy
38. Jojo's Bizarre Adventure
39. A Lull In The Sea
40. Food Wars
41. AJIN: Demi Human
42. Neon Genesis Evangelion
43. Anohana
44. Corpse Party
45. When They Cry
46. Violet Evergarden
47. Your Lie In April
48. Yuri On Ice
49. Free!
50. Megalobox
51. Pop Team Epic
52. March Comes In Like A Lion
53. The Way Of The House-Husband
54. Japan Sinks: 2020
55. Mondaiji-tachi ga Isekai kara Kuru Sou Desu yo?
56. Terror In Resonance
57. Scissor Seven
58. One Punch Man
59. Persona 5
60. Wonder Egg Priority
61. Paranoia Agent
62. Sailor Moon
63. Stars Align
64. Mononoke
65. Erased
66. SK8 The Infinity
67. Mushi Shi
68. Death Parade
69. Tokyo Revengers
70. Given
71. Angels Of Death
72. Serial Experiments Lain
73. Ghost Hunt
74. Banana Fish
75. B: The Beginning
76. 91 Days
77. Made In Abyss
78. Orange
79. Plastic Memories
80. Psycho Pass
81. Bungo Stray Dogs
82. Jujutsu Kaisen
83. Hikari: Be My Light
84. To Your Eternity
85. The Promised Neverland
86. Sarazanmai
87. Deadman Wonderland
88. Toilet-Bound Hanako-kun
89. Arcane
90. Hyouka
91. Pillow Boys
92. Akudama Drive
93. Gleipnir
94. Link Click
95. True Tears
96. Hamatora
97. Darling In The Franxx
98. Boogiepob Phantom
99. Boogiepop And Friends
100. Rascal Does Not Dream Of Bunny Girl Senpai
101. Fruits Basket
102. No. 6
103. Shelter
104. Kids On The Slope
105. Ranking Of Kings
106. Vivy: Fluorite Eye's Song
107. Blood Blockade Battlefront
108. Sonny Boy
109. Blue Period
110. The Orbital Children
111. Kiznaiver
112. Noragami
113. Darwin's Game
114. Odd Taxi
115. Steins;gate
116. Dororo
117. My Love Story!!
118. Kotaro Lives Alone
119. Darker Than Black
120. re:ZERO
121. Btooom!
122. Komi Can't Communicate
123. Princess Tutu
124. HoriMiya
125. NANA
126. My Hero Academia
127. A Place Further Than The Universe
128. Blue Spring Ride
129. Carole & Tuesday
130. Dorohedoro
131. Ikebukuro West Gate Park
132. Dance Dance Danseur
133. Cyberpunk: Edgerunners
134. Code Geass
135. High-Rise Invasion
136. Kakegurui
137. Monster
138. WataMote
139. Angel Beats
140. Welcome To The NHK
141. Kiss Him, Not Me
142. Bakuman
143. Inuyashiki
144. Domestic Girlfriend
145. Michiko And Hatchin
146. K-On
147. Gangsta
148. Charlotte
149. Clannad
150. Clannad After story
151. Beck
152. Summer Time Rendering
153. Assassination Classroom
154. Tomodachi Game
155. Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood
156. Spy × Family
157. My Dress-Up Darling
158. Tokyo Magnitude 8.0
159. Chainsaw Man
160. Baccano
161. K-Project
162. Eden Of The East
163. Samurai Champloo
164. Akame Ga Kill
165. His And Her Circumstances
166. My Little Monster
167. Dr. Stone
168. Vinland Saga
169. 86
170. Buddy Daddies
171. Haikyuu!!
172. Hunter × Hunter
173. Deca-Dence
174. Shiki
175. School-Live
176. Ghost Hound
177. Kemono Jihen
178. Mieruko-chan
179. Takt Op. Destiny
180. Haibane Renmei
181. Rumbling Hearts
182. Barakamon
183. Now And Then, Here And There
184. Shadow's House
185. Heavenly Delusion
186. Oshi No Ko
187. Insomniacs After School
188. Aggretsuko
189. Sanrio Boys
190. Gloomy
191. Ouran Highschool Host Club
192. Say "I Love You"
193. Princess Jellyfish
194. Hell's Paradise
195. Migi & Dali
196. The Dangers In My Heart
197. Somali And The Forest Spirit
198. Hybrid Child
199. Zom 100
200. Pluto
201. My Home Hero
202. Mushoku Tensei
203. Lycoris Recoil
204. A Galaxy Next-Door
205. Solo Leveling
206. The Apothecary Diaries

On Fame and Riches the line “Posted on the strip selling Demi Lovato” is said. Ik what the line means. I was just wondering why he used it as it seems weird to talk about her in a song. Was there ever any response from her or statement from Demi? Sorry if this is a stupid question.

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Please be 32-45 if you're going to message me.
Me: https://imgur.com/a/W9O0uUj
A bit about me: I love old school turn based jrpg's (SaGa Frontier, Chrono Trigger, Wild Arms, I can go on) and am currently replaying Dragon Quest XI as well as a fresh game of Eiyuden Chronicle: Hundred Heroes, tabletop rpg's (D&D, 7th Sea, Desolation etc.), and music (such as stoner metal/rock, hair metal, some hip-hop, although I like many things).
For the boring stuff: No kids, never married. I work from home and spend my days working on reports. More interesting stuff: I am a dog mom (her name is Honey Havok) and snake lover (all animals, really), liberal, love to cook, a bit of a wrestling mark (AEW, GCW, NJPW, etc.), and love to learn new things.
The real stuff: I am demi/asexual, and have depression and anxiety. This means I am not always the easiest woman to deal with and my moods can fluctuate. I try not to take my feelings out on others though, I'm just a bit of a crybaby. I am currently living in MA although not exactly married to the area. I'm thinking of moving back to NH eventually.
In general, I am pretty laid back, have an odd sense of humor (give me all your questionable memes, dad jokes and dark humor). I'm also a little spooky in that I love taxidermy and wet specimens. I don't have a huge collection (yet) but it's growing slowly.
As for the kind of men I enjoy...I tend to like them nerdy, strong, and even possibly intimidating. Tattoos are a plus as is a well-kept, very short beard. Mohawks are one of my weaknesses. I also greatly value good communication skills and a sense of humor. I would like for us to be able to express ourselves without fear of judgement and be able to laugh at the absurdity of life together. I love the written word and appreciate men that are intelligent, witty, and able to participate in a little banter. Make me fall for your words and mind.
I am ideally looking for a non-smoking 30+ nerdy and/or alt guy with a good personality, similar interests, is in or near the US (possibly open to someone who would relocate to the northeast), and who is open to something serious after we get to know each other and build up a close friendship. However, I am open to friendship as well, just let me know.
If anything in my post sparks your interest; feel free to message me with a little about yourself, a picture so I can put a face to the name, and why you chose to message me. Bonus Points for dog or reptile pictures. Low effort messages will be ignored.

Please be 32-45 if you're going to message me.
Me: https://imgur.com/a/W9O0uUj
A bit about me: I love old school turn based jrpg's (SaGa Frontier, Chrono Trigger, Wild Arms, I can go on) and am currently replaying Dragon Quest XI as well as a fresh game of Eiyuden Chronicle: Hundred Heroes, tabletop rpg's (D&D, 7th Sea, Desolation etc.), and music (such as stoner metal/rock, hair metal, some hip-hop, although I like many things).
For the boring stuff: No kids, never married. I work from home and spend my days working on reports. More interesting stuff: I am a dog mom (her name is Honey Havok) and snake lover (all animals, really), liberal, love to cook, a bit of a wrestling mark (AEW, GCW, NJPW, etc.), and love to learn new things.
The real stuff: I am demi/asexual, and have depression and anxiety. This means I am not always the easiest woman to deal with and my moods can fluctuate. I try not to take my feelings out on others though, I'm just a bit of a crybaby. I am currently living in MA although not exactly married to the area. I'm thinking of moving back to NH eventually.
In general, I am pretty laid back, have an odd sense of humor (give me all your questionable memes, dad jokes and dark humor). I'm also a little spooky in that I love taxidermy and wet specimens. I don't have a huge collection (yet) but it's growing slowly.
As for the kind of men I enjoy...I tend to like them nerdy, strong, and even possibly intimidating. Tattoos are a plus as is a well-kept, very short beard. Mohawks are one of my weaknesses. I also greatly value good communication skills and a sense of humor. I would like for us to be able to express ourselves without fear of judgement and be able to laugh at the absurdity of life together. I love the written word and appreciate men that are intelligent, witty, and able to participate in a little banter. Make me fall for your words and mind.
I am ideally looking for a non-smoking 30+ nerdy and/or alt guy with a good personality, similar interests, is in or near the US (possibly open to someone who would relocate to the northeast), and who is open to something serious after we get to know each other and build up a close friendship. However, I am open to friendship as well, just let me know.
If anything in my post sparks your interest; feel free to message me with a little about yourself, a picture so I can put a face to the name, and why you chose to message me. Bonus Points for dog or reptile pictures. Low effort messages will be ignored.

I wanna start off by saying, the more each day passes the more I cannot stand this girl. “That’s hot” “that’s so fetch” excuse me? 🤮 She’s even got Demi Lovato commenting on her bullshit posts now. Watching her behavior, the way she treats people, and her lies how can anyone still support this girl? She’s making actual victims on TikTok and other social media platforms feel like shit, because she has her stans coming for them when they say something about her exaggerating the abuse (or even faking it if you’ve gone down the rabbit hole enough to see that it was Dee afraid of Gyp.) (It happened to me too, someone came at me with the ‘have you ever been abused’) And now, every single time Fancy goes live, she either does something outrageous or gets her banned, or both. Specifically every time fancy starts talking about the chromosome disorder 🤔 odd right? I think little miss Gyp shit is afraid of people finding out about that. Why? Because it throws her whole case out the damn door and proves she played us all for fools AGAIN. So I think we need to help the truth and be more loud about the disorder. She can’t get all of us 😇 one day all of this is going to come crashing down and we’ll see her fake tears that only come when she’s in trouble or undeniably caught, and we’ll all laugh. Shoot maybe she’ll do us a favor and get in trouble again by then. Sorry to ramble on and on like this, but with each attack her fans do on anyone that doesn’t agree with her, every celebrity comment of support, each ban for someone telling the truth, her confidence and ignorance skyrockets and she thinks she’s unbeatable. It’s disgusting.

i used to be obsessed with watching music videos as a kid, i didn't care about the music itself, i just liked watching music videos on VEVO. I particularly loved music videos with a storyline.
I have such a vivid memory of being obsessed with this one video, i would have watched it around 2017ish? so it would have been released before that. It was a female singer, relatively young, and the music video went like this:
set in a lab, everything is black and white except for a little girl who is playing at a table. watching through a window, there are old men in lab coats observing her, and amongst them, there is the singer who is also in black and white. the singer is dressed like a scientist/researcher too. then it cuts to a scene where the little girl is a cell/room, and the female scientist/singer comes in, and wipes her face to reveal she is also colourful, just like the little girl. the pair run away, getting chased by the scientists, and they drive away in a red car. there is a scene where they come out of a tunnel and they arrive in a land that is colourful, and there is a crowd of people that are waiting for them.
i tried finding it, i initially looked through Demi lovato and Katy perry, but i cant see any of their music videos that are like this!
Can someone let me know if they recognise this?? thanks!

i used to be obsessed with watching music videos as a kid, i didn't care about the music itself, i just liked watching music videos on VEVO. I particularly loved music videos with a storyline.
I have such a vivid memory of being obsessed with this one video, i would have watched it around 2017ish? so it would have been released before that. It was a female singer, relatively young, and the music video went like this:
set in a lab, everything is black and white except for a little girl who is playing at a table. watching through a window, there are old men in lab coats observing her, and amongst them, there is the singer who is also in black and white. the singer is dressed like a scientist/researcher too. then it cuts to a scene where the little girl is a cell/room, and the female scientist/singer comes in, and wipes her face to reveal she is also colourful, just like the little girl. the pair run away, getting chased by the scientists, and they drive away in a red car. there is a scene where they come out of a tunnel and they arrive in a land that is colourful, and there is a crowd of people that are waiting for them.
i tried finding it, i initially looked through Demi lovato and Katy perry, but i cant see any of their music videos that are like this!
Can someone let me know if they recognise this?? thanks!

TLDR: I'm in love with my monogamous best friend and it triggers my depression.
I've been in love with my best friend for the better part of a decade. Sadly, she is very monogamous. It doesn't really effect our friendship honestly. I've always been honest and up front about my feelings for her, never trying to seduce her or manipulate her, or any of that other horrible crap you usually hear about in stories like this.
Do I hold out a small glimmer of hope that some day she might try to give poly, and me, a chance? Of course! But it's not necessary. All I'll ever need from her is her continued friendship. Everything beyond that is just bonus gravy.
This last week though, she finally found a guy that she's developing serious feelings for. It's a big deal for her because she's also a rp/abuse survivor as well as demi/aro/ace.
I'm really, REALLY proud and happy for her, and the guy genuinely seems to be one of the good ones. But...... I'm jealous, which I expected, and it's happening at the same time as a bunch of other big life stressors, so it's triggering my depression really hard as well.
I've only managed a couple hours sleep, the last couple days, and have felt like I have been on the verge of tears the whole time. I've caught myself wishing I was dead a couple times and have also been just kinda numb at times as well. It's the first time I've felt this down since my last suicide attempt.
I've never done well with therapy (could never find a therapist that I meshed with) and normally when I start to spiral like this me and her just plan a day together and just hang out and bullshit until I feel better.
But this time, it just feels wrong to come to her with it. The last thing I want to ever do is to make her feel like she is responsible for my feelings for her. I never want to be the guy, or even come across like the kind of guy, who gaslights, guilts, and/or manipulates someone. And it feels like if I sit down and talk it out with her like I usually do, everything I say is gonna come out sound like that, and I hate it.
So it just feeds my depression even more. I hope that I can break this spiral quick and find a way to sit down and get back to our usual friendship soon, cause I'm not sure if I could survive losing her because of my own stupidity.
[Point of clarification: I am not looking for advice or even sympathy or support. I just needed a place to vent to get this off my chest where there might be people who understood. If this kind of post is unwelcome, or not allowed, then, mods, please feel free to delete it and just remove me from the group.]

January 4, 2024
HAPPY NEW YEAR 🎊🕛🥳 I'd like to see how you all are feeling about the content that gets posted here. I sometimes post on my profile,🔥 usually longer articles from scholarly pursuits.
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Also next week will be the first contest in the annual anthology📒 that will be good for you guys to start getting involved in this community. Post will go up on the 8th and stay up one week. There is going to be a three week option for submitting and then we will be selecting the first winner 🏆 on February 7th. Announced on February 9th. Next month contest will be February 8th. And so on.🏆🪶🥠🥡
🌹🌹🌹Prizes for the short story and poetry is $100 cash and promotions, as well as a place in the annual anthology! Our artwork is going to be a prize of $50 and featured in materials and online, then it will be a 🌹🌹🌹Anthology chapter👀 introduction, and compete for the cover, with the monthly winners. The same dates apply to the three different contests.👀🌹
Anyone can enter, up to three submissions in each category! First entry in each category is free. Each additional entry is just $10 via PayPal or Cash App. If you don't have the ability to pay, we have a few waiver.
Our sponsors will be featured in the first post so even if you don't want to enter, read about us then!!!🕛❤️‍🔥
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This is January 4, 2024 newsletter #2.
This is our featured subject for January. We are going to focus on getting ready for working towards sobriety, if you struggling with bad habits or are addicted to something that's causing you more harm than good - check out the resources, articles and readings that are designed to accomplish the initial assessment of getting clean 🫧🪥. No judgement, no mandatory participation, just some things that are designed to make it easier to start that process.
January 4, 2024
🏠🏡 JANUARY = CLEAN UP YOUR HOUSE MONTH You are the house!🏠🏡

Quotes from Individuals in Recovery:

1. Russell Brand:
   
   • "The mentality and behavior of drug addicts and alcoholics are wholly irrational until you understand that they are completely powerless over their addiction and unless they have structured help, they have no hope."
2. Robert Downey Jr.:
   
   • "Job one is get out of that cave. A lot of people do get out but don't change. So the thing is to get out and recognize the significance of that aggressive denial of your fate, come through the crucible forged into a stronger metal."
3. Eminem (Marshall Mathers):
   
   • "I knew that my first thought was always negative. But now I have learned to just brush it off."
4. Demi Lovato:
   
   • "I had to learn the hard way that I can’t do parties anymore. Some people can go out and not be triggered, but that’s not the case for me."

Cited Readings on Addiction and Recovery:

1. "In the Realm of Hungry Ghosts: Close Encounters with Addiction" by Gabor Maté:
   
   • This book provides a compassionate and holistic understanding of addiction, exploring its biological, psychological, and societal roots.
2. "Beautiful Boy: A Father's Journey Through His Son's Addiction" by David Sheff:
   
   • A memoir that chronicles a father's struggle to understand and support his son through addiction and recovery.
3. "Recovery: Freedom from Our Addictions" by Russell Brand:
   
   • Russell Brand shares his personal journey through addiction and recovery, offering insights into the 12-step program and mindfulness practices.
4. "The Big Book" (Alcoholics Anonymous):
   
   • The foundational text of Alcoholics Anonymous, providing guidance, stories of recovery, and the principles of the 12-step program.
5. "Clean: Overcoming Addiction and Ending America's Greatest Tragedy" by David Sheff:
   
   • David Sheff explores the science of addiction and potential solutions, examining both personal and societal perspective.
6. Anthony Hopkins:
   
   • "I believe that we all have a basic need to feel safe. And when we don’t feel safe, we feel threatened, and when we feel threatened, we tend to react in various ways."
7. Nicole Richie:
   
   • "I have to be careful. I have to live in balance. I can’t stay up all night but then need to be on time in the morning. But I’m finding my way."
8. Elton John:
   
   • "I am a survivor. I’ve survived a lot of things. Life is full of pitfalls, even for someone like me."
9. Jamie Lee Curtis:
   
   • "I was the wildly controlled drug addict and alcoholic. I never did it when I worked. I never took drugs before 5 p.m. I never, ever took painkillers until 5 p.m."
10. "Unbroken Brain: A Revolutionary New Way of Understanding Addiction" by Maia Szalavitz:
    
    • This book challenges traditional views on addiction, exploring the role of learning and choice in the development and treatment of addiction.
11. "Memoirs Aren't Fairytales: A Story of Addiction" by Marni Mann:
    
    • A personal memoir that offers a raw and honest account of addiction, detailing the author's journey from addiction to recovery.
12. "Dopesick: Dealers, Doctors, and the Drug Company that Addicted America" by Beth Macy:
    
    • This investigative work explores the opioid crisis in America, shedding light on the complex factors contributing to addiction.
13. "Clean: The Journal" by Chris Niosi:
    
    • This interactive journal provides prompts, exercises, and reflections for individuals in recovery, helping them navigate their journey.
14. "Ninety Days: A Memoir of Recovery" by Bill Clegg:
    
    • Bill Clegg shares his personal experiences of recovery in this memoir, offering insights into the challenges and triumphs of rebuilding one's life.

Remember that these quotes and readings reflect the experiences and perspectives of individuals in recovery, and different people find inspiration and support in various sources. Always consider seeking professional guidance and support in addition to personal insights gained from shared experiences.

More Quotes from Individuals in Recovery:

1. Matthew Perry:
   
   • "I've had a lot of ups and downs in my life. I've learned a lot from my failures, but the best thing about failure is you get to learn from it."
2. Drew Barrymore:
   
   • "Recovery is an acceptance that your life is in shambles and you have to change it."
3. Rob Lowe:
   
   • "I'm nearly nine years sober, and there's a great quote I read about three years ago that had a huge impact on me. It's from the great Winston Churchill, who said, 'Success is never final, and failure is never fatal.'"
4. Kristen Johnston:
   
   • "I’ve been sober for over 14 years now, and the way I live my life is, I don’t think of it like I stopped drinking; I think of it like I started living."
5. "High Achiever: The Incredible True Story of One Addict's Double Life" by Tiffany Jenkins:
   
   • A memoir that provides a gripping account of addiction and recovery, exploring the author's journey to rebuild her life.
6. "Recover to Live: Kick Any Habit, Manage Any Addiction" by Christopher Kennedy Lawford:
   
   • This book offers a comprehensive guide to various forms of addiction and provides practical strategies for recovery.
7. "The Sober Diaries: How one woman stopped drinking and started living" by Clare Pooley:
   
   • A personal and humorous account of one woman's journey to sobriety, sharing insights and reflections on life without alcohol.
8. "Guts" by Kristen Johnston:
   
   • Kristen Johnston's memoir delves into her experiences with addiction and recovery, providing a candid and humorous perspective.
9. "This Naked Mind: Control Alcohol, Find Freedom, Discover Happiness, and Change Your Life" by Annie Grace:
   
   • Annie Grace explores the psychology of alcohol consumption and provides insights to help individuals change their relationship with alcohol.

These quotes and readings offer diverse perspectives on addiction and recovery, and they can serve as sources of inspiration, reflection, and guidance for those navigating their own journeys. Always seek professional support if needed and consider these resources as complementary to a comprehensive recovery plan.

More Quotes from Individuals in Recovery:

1. Craig Ferguson:
   
   • "I had a simple perception of success as getting things that I thought I needed to be happy. I thought that happiness was success. I don’t think that anymore."
2. Anthony Kiedis (Red Hot Chili Peppers):
   
   • "I've made a lot of mistakes and I don't regret any of them. Sometimes those things take you to the most amazing places."
3. Jamie Lee Curtis:
   
   • "I know my limits. I know that if I drink again, I will die. Every morning I wake up, I make that choice."
4. Steven Tyler (Aerosmith):
   
   • "It’s not about how much you drink. It’s about why you drink. It’s when life gets good, do you celebrate? Or when life gets tough, do you drink?"
5. "In My Skin: A Memoir of Addiction" by Kate Holden:
   
   • A memoir that explores the author's experience with addiction and her journey toward recovery.
6. "Recovery: A Guide for Adult Children of Alcoholics" by Herbert L. Gravitz and Julie D. Bowden:
   
   • This book addresses the specific challenges faced by adult children of alcoholics and provides guidance on healing and recovery.
7. "The Unexpected Joy of Being Sober" by Catherine Gray:
   
   • A personal and practical guide to quitting alcohol, sharing the author's journey to sobriety and the positive changes it brought to her life.
8. "The Recovering: Intoxication and Its Aftermath" by Leslie Jamison:
   
   • Combining memoir and research, this book explores the cultural and personal aspects of addiction and recovery.
9. "Girl Walks Out of a Bar: A Memoir" by Lisa F. Smith:
   
   • Lisa Smith's memoir chronicles her journey from high-functioning addiction to recovery, shedding light on the challenges and triumphs of sobriety.

Newsletter Repeat 🔁 TL:DR These quotes and readings provide diverse perspectives on addiction and recovery, and they offer valuable insights for individuals seeking inspiration and understanding. Always consider these resources in the context of individual needs and consult with professionals for personalized support.
I'd like to see how you all are feeling about the content that gets posted here. I sometimes post on my profile,🔥 usually longer articles from scholarly pursuits. I have a newer subreddit based on my Tarot content, at tarotjourneys for the most recent content that I have been working on in that subject area. I'm not sure if I will have new subreddits for different subjects, or if I can keep it together here. I am going to be posting and cross posting so join both or don't, just read and connect with me here, or there!
Also next week will be the first contest in the annual anthology that will be good for you guys to start getting involved in this community. Post will go up on the 8th and stay up one week. There is going to be a three week option for submitting and then we will be selecting the first winner 🏆 on February 7th. Announced on February 9th. Next month contest will be February 8th. And so on.
Prizes for the short story and poetry is $100 cash and promotions, as well as a place in the annual anthology! Our artwork is going to be a prize of $50 and featured in materials and online, then it will be a Anthology chapter introduction, and compete for the cover, with the monthly winners. The same dates apply to the three different contests.
Anyone can enter, up to three submissions in each category! First entry in each category is free. Each additional entry is just $10 via PayPal or Cash App. If you don't have the ability to pay, we have a few waiver.
Our sponsors will be featured in the first post so even if you don't want to enter, read about us then!!!
This will be a great way to get published! I can't wait to see you guys enter!
This is January 4, 2024 newsletter #2.

There are a lot of details here and I apologize. I just have to get this out.
My boyfriend referred to me as ace today, and I don’t know if that’s where I fit or what.
It came up because of a conversation we had last night. I don’t really get anything out of sex. I told him I could go the rest of my life without it.
Now this isn’t always true. I have definitely had points where I’ve been preoccupied with sex— I have a vibrator and use it, but once I finish I’m just sort of done. The endorphins are gone.
But really until I was 25, I didn’t even think I would ever have sex. I have a lot of trauma in regards to those things and it took me six years of therapy and doctors appointments to even feel comfortable enough with hands.
I really felt like demi fit me well because I am a very emotional creature and I even told him sex is ONLY emotional for me.
He thought I was saying I wasn’t attracted to him like that
And lately I haven’t been attracted to anything. I have been incredibly depressed and disconnected and like yes I will have sex, and even enjoy it, but I just… I don’t know I feel awful.
The other thing that is confusing is probably silly, but I read and write smut. I don’t actually want to do the things from those books but it’s so fun to read and write. I’ve also gotten off on posting nudes and enjoy the attention.
Sometimes I do want it. Other times I border on sex repulsed. I probably was sex repulsed from the time I was 19-25 because it was just associated with pain.
And lately I’ve been touch averse too.
But I’ve also been in a very scary place mentally I’m getting treatment for.
I’ve always considered myself hetero to bi and have never really worried about labeling myself
But I desperately need someone to talk to who has felt like this
I don’t feel like anything

Awesome interview with Evan Bogart who wrote Rihanna's hit song "SOS" while he was an assistant at a talent agency.
He originally wrote the song for a girl band that got turned down by every record label, but was eventually able to sell it to Christina Milian's team.
Christina Milian passed on the song & Rihanna agreed to record it. 3 months later it went #1 worldwide.
Since then, he's written songs for Beyoncé, Britney Spears, Demi Lovato, Jennifer Lopez, Madonna, Jesse McCartney and just about every pop star out there.
His story is inspiring

Mine is victorious by panic at the disco, kissing strangers by Dnce, and cool for the summer by Demi Lovato

So, I'll try to be brief as possible while providing context. I (35f) am (was) in a relationship with my two partners (33f and 42m). We have lived together for going on three years til this happened. My partner, 33f, has been married to 42m since 2016. In 2017, he cheated on her in their monogamous marriage with an ex that he just can't seem to stay away from.
To put it simply, my gf is going through a tumult in her life with other things. She was raised by a narcissist, for one thing, and in November 2022, that woman shot her ex-husband dead. Lately, we (she) had to go appear for a court deposition about her mother and this refreshed a lot of the trauma she'd packed away growing up with this woman as a caretaker. This deposition happened on May 30th which was also the night she caught 42m still in contact with his ex that he'd been caught messing around with back in 2017.
In 2017, they were not poly. My gf admits to me now that the reason they eventually opened their relationship to courting other women (not men, 42m is too fragile for this). To me, this feels like.. Well, that's not why I'm here.
Fast forward to the present day, 42m is now back at his parents' house. Not of his own accord, but my gf's little brother (youngest of three, but the guy's 6'6 and fit) came over to throw 42m into a hotel. He promptly left the hotel to go to his parents' house where he simply said he'd been kicked out. He hasn't told them why he was kicked out or that he lied to us upon being caught. Tried to minimize every aspect of cheating, bordering on blaming his discontentment at his own induced estrangement on us. On her, (33f) for being talented, beautiful, and recently getting her degree. And on me for being aloof and an inability for form a connection with me. TLDR: I'm aloof because he was giving me red flags this entire time and each time I'd try to overlook it something would happen. I became tired of this dance and settled into being content with myself vs depressed at 1/3rd of my relationship being something I could never change. Or, if I could change it, then I do not want to labor in this endeavor.
Admittedly, there had been a lull in sexual activities for the last 4 months or so on my end. He did something some time ago, I can't remember what it was, that set me on the path to focusing on myself, my own interests, and eventually I was so absorbed in my own projects that I forgot whatever I was mad about. More like, I did not care anymore to be mad and I preferred my hobbies over interactions with him. I'm very demi-sexual, regardless of the complications of genders, and don't want to have empty sex with a man who's weird about having sex. That's a whole 'nother thing.
I entered this relationship through my gf (33f) and while his persona did give me apprehension, he had HER love and endorsement. And she is everything and more that I could ask for: kind, smart as hell, philosophical and spiritual. She has taught me so much about love and gentleness that I will never be the same. My history is littered with abusive, cheating partners and I just want someone good to share my heart with after 26 years of putting myself through hell for others. He is the first and only man that I've ever been with and I mostly identify as a lesbian.
About three months into me moving in, there was another girl he tried to bring in. She was like 24 or something and worked for him as an employee, which already raised some flags. Not saying that a genuine, healthy relationship can't emerge from these circumstances, but it just smacked me as kind of gross and cringe. Then he started spending more and more time with her, lying about the little things, his nights out would get later and later. We are poly, yes, but that's under the stipulation of honesty and he never, ever, ever goes back to the woman he cheated with in 2016. I feel like those are rather fair terms that he couldn't abide. Eventually, the 24f girl effed off, but he got head from her and lied about it. He even went through a phase of blaming us for not being willing enough to fuck this girl who was a near-stranger to us so that he could get laid. His logic was he knew he only had a window of time to slide in and grew increasingly more agitated as time went on. Not realizing that he himself was the one pushing the window shut.
He's so lazy in his lies that he can't even keep them straight. I am very patient, data-oriented, and not inclined to call a liar out until they stumble over the truth though their own inconsistent narrative. I'll not give any reaction when lied to until I have the evidence. I suffer not at all from being believed to be a fool. It's just easier to let them dig the hole.
Sorry for getting sidetracked. This is already turning into a novella. Anyways, this was the first overtly obvious indication to me that he might not be equipped to be a fulfilling partner in matching with me. Which is fine, I guess. We're poly, after all. I learned to love him through her (33f) love of him, but I was never in love and this used to bring a lot of stress. Stress because I felt internally that it would never be enough for him.
He (42m) has a therapy session today for the first time. He has been texting us mostly self-pitying stuff. Paragraphs and paragraphs at the sparsest of texts from either of us. To me, this feels like him trying to say anything to get back in, but we've had long discussions with him about himself and seeking the help he needs to connect with his authentic self and he is now regurgitating our iterations in his own words. I don't know if that's sincere or just the right frequency he thinks he needs to send to get us to considering giving him the shot at taking a shot. Right now, his only "shot" is that he has a chance to work on himself and maybe, maybe, maybe in a few weeks or months, he can start trying to date us again both separately and together. But my gf isn't the 22 year old girl that she was anymore. In their 12 years of knowing each other, she grew and he remained more or less the same. She's not the woman he married back in 2016 and he's going to have to prove him a suitable partner to the woman she is now. For me, I don't know.. They have so much history and love to build from, but he has never shown me that he's a safe person to trust with my consent and feelings.
Anyways, I just.. I dunno, I guess I'm asking for input, insight, thoughts, outbursts? What are we potentially looking at here?

So I'm 17, which meant that I grew up during the Golden Age of music known as the 2010s, with such amazing artists like Justin Bieber and Maroon 5, of course a lot of songs would be very nostalgic for me, even when I don't listen to much popular music from that era anymore.
But for a long long time I have remembered 1 music video, no clue what the song was but all i could remember was a guy and a girl singing about eachother with a brick wall on between them. For some reason I always thought it was Justin Timberlake and that's who I kept searching for, to be honest I wasn't doing a deep search, everyone once in a while I would just casually look through music videos from 2010-2015 but no luck, I knew it definitely wasn't Timberlake which didn't feel right with me
And that brings me to today where I found it. As I was being lazy and not getting out of bed (still not out of bed) I scrolled through YT Shorts and came across one with a very recognisable song in the background, I searched up the lyrics and found the name, went on YouTube and found the music video, the song is Up! By Olly Murs and Demi Lovato, it's a decent song, not really my style but it is absolutely the song I was thinking of and I am just happy I found it

I’ve been watching live all the Karjenners have walked, Hailey is still MIA. Demi Lovato appeared, still no sign of SelennnnnuuuRRRRr
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My first time posting here and this happened about two years ago, so I apoligize in advance if this gets a little jumbled. But to start the story I guess I should talk about the backstory of the "Player" in question, who I am going to refer to as Mae.
I was never close with Mae, I only spoke with her during dnd or in our post session discord vc. I believe she was a friend of the GM's friend, I think its thre reason she got away with the majoirty of the stuff she would pull as the GM didn't was to upset his friend by explcuding her. She could never seperate in character arguments from player arguments. If you said something negative about or to HER CHARACTER in character, she took that as a personal inssult. On top of that, if she had an issue with you she wouldn't tell you. She would instead text her boyfriend, who will be refered to as Jack, about it and have him tell you or talk shit about you to others over it. She also never went anywhere without him, if she was in vc, he was in vc, even if we were actively in a session. Mae also had a habit of making monstedemi-god characters who constantly conflicted with the setting.
This got bad enough that when she asked to be in a completely different game, with a different GM, Jack followed her into vc and cursed out the GM when asked to be quiet and not talk over the players. In that game specifically she was playing a Drow who openly worshipped Lolth, and then got upset when the other PCs didnt trust her character one of which worshipped Eilistraee. That ended with her being kicked after starting one too many arguments over things said in character. This was one of of many experiences with her.
On to the main story
At the time, I didnt really have a life and wanted to get into another game because I love the character creation process. So I asked one of my friends, the GM, if he had any spots open in the game he was currently running to which he said he did. So him and I set aside a day to come up with a character concpet that worked with his story since I was joining later, all went well and I had no idea of the shit storm that would start just from me joining this game.
I join the session, my character is introduced near the end as a merchant who was in town selling his families goods and is paid by the party to tag along because he has a cart, can defend himself, and has resources that the party needs. Session ends and I think all is good in the world, it isn't, as Mae had been sitting in and listening to the session. Not playing. I didnt think much of this until she starts asking the GM if she can join too. Turns out, she was told PRIOR to me joining that she couldn't join because the GM didn't want anymore players. If I had known this, I would have never asked to join this game, but here we are.
The GM was at a loss for what to say (probably seeing his mistake) and before he could say anything, Jack spoke up and started asking the players if they wanted Mae to join. I can only assume that everyone already knew about Mae's shenanigans, because everyone gave a hesitant "Sure" or "I don't mind", expect me. I didn't say anything. I had personally had one too many issues with her that I didn't want to deal with again. But instead of saying anything, I just sat quietly which I know was bad on my part. I should have spoken up or at least communicated how I felt, but I was upset how Jack and Mae made everyone vote on if Mae should join with the fear of being kicked from the server, yes, both of them were the SERVER OWNERS and had a reputation of kicking and banning people who upset Mae. So dropping a vote, where they would know who said no, felt incredably underhanded.
Jack noticed I didn't say anthing and called me out on it, asking me why I didn't say anything. My response was something along the lines of "I didn't have anything to say". The GM just went along with it and said she could join to make her happy, but then talked to us after the fact to see what we actually wanted to do. The majoirty of us didn't want her to play, and the GM told her that some of the players had changed their minds and she couldn't join. Turns out she already made a character too, some type of demi-god AND godslayer that didn't see the light of day. Which I do realise that telling her that she can join and then "Actually, no" was not the right thing to do and the situation could have been handled much better.
There were a few more incedents like this before Mae did something that ultimatly made the GM and everyone else move the game to a different server (which in hindsight should have been done sooner)
After a session, we all were sitting and talking. Just having a grand ol time until someone joined the vc and started talking about how it had been brought to their attention that Mae was being bullied and descriminated against. This person was from so far out of left field and unrelated that I got whiplash.
Que them going on and on about how we had been yelling at Mae and excluding her to just be mean and shatter her mental health, and that it was driving her to depression and thoughts of self harm. I am not bullshiting. Mae had been telling this person that we had been bullying her so badly that she wanted to hurt herself, when everyone was too scared to even tell her to shut up.
It was at that moment I left the server willingling along with a few other people and we started our own server to finish out the game, which got canceled because the GM bit off more than he could chew and gave us too much too quickly.

I understand there has been some tension and a general sense of ill-feeling amongst nearly all of you - the world - and though I don't claim to have all the answers I hereby submit my application for Ruler of the World/King of the World/Super-God (I have not decided on my title yet) and pledge to do whatever I can to solve whatever it is that is currently going on.
My qualifications:

• always on time
  
• fluent in English, which most people already speak
  
• a people-person, approachable
  
• has backdoor access to all the world's major banks
  
• has never held Demi Lovato or anyone else hostage for any length of time
  
• environmentally conscientious
  
• firm believer in hexagons
  

so let me know what you think, and thank you in advance for your support