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2024.05.15 23:58 Youngkennygriffin Felt cute as heck 🥰

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2024.05.15 23:58 Accomplished_Fail618 Opinions on the blue pillows

Opinions on the blue pillows
I ordered these to ground the patterned pillows and complete the look. Does it work?
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2024.05.15 23:58 No_Maintenance6934 Is it worth pursuing?

to start lets call this guy Joshua. We are in a snowboarding club together, and met this past december. The club goes on trips ski/boarding 5 times in a semester, and people get pretty close from this. We both are 2nd year college students. The club is also very very much degens. He's a huge stoner who lives with his childhood best friends. They're all really close.
I am new to the club this year, and we had met a few times but we were not really close or spoke much. He lives in the same complex as me at college, and i started seeing Joshua on the bus line.
Josh is a pretty friendly guy, but always really surface level. He seems on the shyer side, close with his friends but he doesnt talk much to girls. He's known for being pretty closed off.
Our ski season ends around the end of February. Him and his roommates put it out in the neighborhood club group chat to come hangout and play some drinking games. My roommate went with me, she's also in club. After the night playing games, she turned to me and was like "josh def is interested in you" and I had also started to notice how cute he was that night. So the combination resulted in a little more interest than just noticing how cute he was
I'm in a sorority, so i asked him to a date party a week later. he seemed hesitant to go, but I reassured him it wasn't a big deal, and I could ask someone else, if it didnt work out. He went with me to the party, and was a really fun date. We both were drinking, and when we got home, he asked me straight up "do you like me?" I told him that prior to this week no. and that it hadn't been more than a friendly date, and i was a little interested but he could turn me down right then. He agreed that he hadn't been interested in more than friends but that night had sparked an interest. He told me he liked me, somehow that night spiraled into games at his apartment with our friends, and we were walking around the neighborhood aimlessly, chatting away til 3 am. He told me his fear of relationships, and taking things further than friends. That he'd never been ina serious relationship. maybe just friends with benefits at the furthest, with a girl he'd been friends with since childhood.
He asked what I was looking for, and I told him, the idea of friends with benefits scared me, because you have one foot in, one foot out, and someone is always going to walk away hurt. "So you're looking for a boyfriend." again he always seemed to catch me off guard. I told him eventually, but we don't know each other well enough to pursue anything serious, so let's just get to know each other.
We made plans, and the next two weeks were filled with group hangouts that had serious eye contact, and being inseperable. Our friends caught on. But it seemed pretty friendly. til our big camping event. I wanted to ask him to formals, he had DDed me while he was sick, and studied with me when he didn't have any work to do, we'd spent a lot of time together, and he seemed really interested. we were both drinking yet again, and I asked him to formals and he told me "IDK if i want a relationship yet, but I really like you. "
he voiced to me his big fear was FOMO from his close friend group.
that night we were cuddled up by the fire, wandering around together, things were really good. He came back to my tent and we kissed a while too, stayed up all night, and watched the sunrise. I told him if it was a one time/hookup situation he was looking for, to leave me alone. Instead he offered to come over and hangout with me and the cat that night, he kissed me again, and we had two more days of hanging out with friends, and him coming over after to spend time with me and watch our show.
It felt like he was really opening up to me a few days before formals, but as he would open up more, he would also start to pull away physically. No more kissing, just cuddling, and he seemed very nervous. He voiced his fear of FOMO again, saying that we'd spent a lot of time together and he still wanted to see his friends
Formals came around and the night before he noted that he didnt know the time/date until just then. he still wanted to go, but the actual formal rolled around and his roommates had friends over and when he showed up at my door he wasnt in the best of moods.
We had a really great night after that though, pregame was a lot of fun, he held my hand throughout the night and we even danced a little.
He was attentive, and when i had been in the bathroom too long he was looking for me instead of just sitting with our mutual friends.
That night though, once we got home, the plan had been to change, and then head over to our friends but we sat down and realized we were pretty drunk
I was tired, and he wanted to leave to see our friends. I started to hammer him with questions, which in retrospective might be what scared him away. I asked if he saw a future with me, if he liked me enough to date me, if he wanted more from me, if he saw anything next semester.
I saw him get nervous and shifty, and he started to blurt out answers, NO, I dont see this, I dont like you enough, and then he took his sweatshirt back, and was like
I guess i shouldnt come over anymore...
I still like you though, im sorry. Im sorry. im sorry.
and when he left left he hugged me apologized again, and then said he really enjoyed my friendship outside of whatever this was as well.
The next night we had a ski club event. ( i know it sounds like all we do is party and drink but my grades were fine).
The original plan was a pregame with my friends and a walk over, but his Josh's roommate had another pregame in the same neighborhood.
So we met up there. But we weren't really speaking. once i had enough liquid courage and he had already approached my little group I soloed him out later and told him... I feel like I was really just blurting things out last night. Im sorry, I don't really know what I want. do you?
He couldnt meet my eyes and he just said Nothing I want nothing lets just have a good summer apart.
30 minutes later, in public, about 15/20 feet away from him I got my ass grabbed by a once trusted friend, who had been way too friendly all day. Josh didn't see anything he says because it was hard to watch me talk to this person.
Another 30 minutes later after a few more drinks in an attempt to erase what had happened and I was sobbing my eyes out, unable to tell anyone what had happened. My friends were all trying to check in, but i just sat on the couch with tears streaming down my cheeks. Fireworks were going off outside, and the cops were called by the neighbors.
Josh ran in, grabbed me and pulled me outside, he gave me his jacket and he my roommate, and our friend walked to another street to find a ride home. I wanted to lay down and cry, and he propped me up instead, and tried to comfort me.
Once he got home he basically ran to another friends house, and said hed come over after to talk, (i fell asleep before he made it back but he did try).
Sunday he came over to help clean, and we cleaned in silence. The situation at the event where I got SAed, has been something Josh has a really hard time talking about, he just gets really quiet, says oh im sorry, its just such an awkward situation and never comments more on it. I really wish he'd be more angry for me. His best friends are?
For the next two weeks, he would invite me over to hangout with his friends, never just alone, but there were a few instances where we were alone. One night I was out with some girls in his friend group walking from my house back to his, and he started to text me asking where I was going, and what was I up to. the girls boyfriends came out too, but he brought me an umbrella and pulled me in and just laughed at us having our pow wow in the rain.
Finals week we both had almsot no work and were floating about, I ended up going over there a ton. Some was by invite, and some was a little bit of inviting myself, but that's how the friendgroup is usually??
He offered to let me keep boxes in his room for the summer because I don't have a renewed lease, and when I came over a few times he played two songs that briefly in passing, I had mentioned I'd loved the songs. (i wouldnt consider them easy songs)
Before he left for the summer he came over to my house helped carry a few things out to the car, and a hug goodbye *note my roommate also a good friend of his did not get the same treatment*.
He told me that he hoped we'd see each other over the summer....
His girl friends have told me, he was really really hurt last year by a girl who he'd been really into, and dated for a week before she broke things off. They said they hadn't seen him bring girls over since, and all his other friends felt like he was fumbling.
My question is it worth pursuing further? I know i'll just push him away by continuing this chase, but do we think that things will spark up ever again?
I really think Josh does care about me, and we had a great time, but he isn't texting me much anymore, if at all... I'm going to be in his hometown this weekend but I dont plan on letting him know/ seeing him.
What can i do at this point. I feel like he's said everything he needs to, he knows that I want more than what he's offering and I feel like I'm driving myself crazy. I really do think that we could be just friends, but I also feel like he has a soft spot for me and I don't want to miss out on something great just because I didnt give him time to get over his fears.
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2024.05.15 23:53 DoGsPaWsLoVe Tuesday 05/14/24: 14 Posts

Here is the recap of the 14 monetized posts from Kylea and Joseph "Joe" Gomez of Kylea G Weight loss Journey on 05/14/24.
"There's a thin line between confidence and arrogance... It's called humility. Confidence smiles. Arrogance smirks." Unknown
⚠️ Compulsive Buying Disorder (CBD) aka shopping addiction, Death, Disordered Eating, Domestic Violence, Gaslighting, Grief, Illness, and Religion will be discussed
Disclaimers: I am not a physician, influencer, or paid content creator. I am not affiliated with WW. I am semi-retired from healthcare with multiple college degrees. These opinions are my own based on social media content. I wish no harm to Kylea or Joe Gomez.
☎️ If you or someone you know is struggling or in crisis, please call or text 988 for assistance.
☎️ National Domestic Violence Helpline: Confidential Help is available 24/7 at 800-799-7233. Or text BEGIN to 88788.
https://www.thehotline.org/identify-abuse/understand-relationship-abuse/
The tagline of Kylea G Weight loss Journey is, "I changed my life with prayer and a playlist of songs. No surgery, no meds. Just Jesus."
DAILY STATS 05/14/24:
0/14 posts discussed prayer
0/14 discussed music
1/14 discussed extra walking from sightseeing
0/14 shared a recipe
6/14 were about something Kylea ate or drank
1/14 was about her sister's sushi
1/14 "Joe" posted about "habachi" Kylea had delivered to the apartment
5/14 were about sightseeing or what Kylea felt were motivational sayings.
📢 For our friends at Meta, although Kylea put forth more effort than usual, >21% of her content had nothing to do with weight loss.
⚠️ Disordered Eating- Daily WW Points Used (Data compiled from monetized content):
2 WW Points?: Mexican coffee + almond milk + sugar-free vanilla + almond milk + 1/4 of Premier Protein shake (No WW points listed. The extra almond milk may have been an error.)
0 WW Points: Scrambled Eggs + Fruit
5 WW Points?: Unknown protein bar + fresh fruit
2 WW Points: Cold Brew + almond milk + sugar-free strawberry + sugar-free caramel + 1/4 of Premier Protein shake with a bowl of fresh fruit
0 WW Points: Large Fanta Dragon Fruit Slurpee
2 WW Points: Dark chocolate PB Cup
📢 For our friends at Meta, that means Kylea consumed approx. 11 out of (up to) 30 daily WW points= Disordered Eating. This is dangerous messaging for her 138k+ followers. San Diego is full of diverse culinary options and she is restricting herself from eating. Follow your policies on eating disorders and take action.
Recipes Shared: ZERO
🚨 Please speak with a medical professional about any questions or concerns you have about your health.
Comments: Kylea arrived in San Diego (with her sister aka trip photographer) and was feeling emotional and inspired by her progress almost 3 years into her journey. There is always hidden meaning in her content. Here we go...
  1. They landed in San Diego: Kylea boasts about $45 round trip flights. 🚨 Lie detector
  2. Iced Coffee in Old Town: Followers were curious how she got her Premier Protein through TSA. 🤔
  3. Breakfast with a View: Kylea is more restrictive with food when traveling. A follower suggested a California Burrito. Kylea replied, "I don't want a burrito, but thank you!! 💖 💖 My trips are about adventure and I stay on my plan when traveling." Newsflash: burritos are part of the WW plan. Kylea undereats daily and does not always use her weeklies.
  4. Deleted Beach Video: This 3 min 19 sec clip contained many of her famous catchphrases. (She removed the video in less than 10 min.) Kylea was unable to walk and talk without becoming and staying short of breath. That is abnormal for someone who claims to have walked daily for almost 3 years. 🤔
She is proud of herself for the "courage" it took to book a cheap flight because life is short. I think the Missouri Courts and hospital system would be proud of her if she paid her medical judgments instead.
  1. They watched the waves for hours
  2. Attitude of Gratitude: Kylea has been "focusing on the positivite lately and it has been good for me. 💖" Please ignore all photos with smirks and dead "yellow" eyes, clap back speeches, references to death and loss, her list of complaints about acute and chronic illnesses, and need for an emotional support animal to function.
  3. Sister had Sushi- Kylea is allergic and stated she didn't know the name of the restaurant. "I can't even smell fish at all without 🤮 🤮" (How did she survive the main dining room on the cruise in the presence of fish?) Followers were led to believe her sister ate alone after Kylea commented she ate beforehand.
  4. "Joe" posted about Kylea having "habachi" delivered: Please see the link above on Domestic Violence. "Domestic Violence is a pattern of behaviors used by one partner to maintain power and control over another partner in an intimate relationship... This can happen through physical violence, threats, emotional abuse, or financial control."
False allegations are dangerous and I walk a fine line in these recaps. We are to the point, I felt the need to provide a domestic violence resource and say this: I feel it is inappropriate for Kylea to repeatedly produce monetized content where "Joe" appears to make posts under her account and name. Furthermore, it is not okay to influence 138k+ followers to emasculate their partner, treat them like a servant, imply you control access to preferred foods and shared finances in your absence. Concern is growing. This type of monetized content is triggering for victims of intimate partner violence and needs to end. ☮️
  1. Slurpees at 7-Eleven: Kylea claims she remembers her 1st Slurpee from when she was 3-4 years of age. Debate erupts when Kylea claims her 32oz Fanta Dragon Fruit Slurpee is zero sugar and a wise follower informs her it has "about 36 grams of carbs and almost 800mg of sodium." Kylea argues with this woman and eventually deletes the post instead of issuing a statement with the proper nutrition information. I feel that Kylea does not understand the basics of carbs vs sugar. Influencing followers with complex medical conditions to drink a 32oz Slurpee is inappropriate without a disclaimer.
  2. "Seeing the world is one of my top priorities in life." Kylea is holding her slurpee in front of a mural with her left leg in a donkey kick pose. Why pose like that? 👀
  3. Strawberry/Caramel Cold Brew with a bowl of fresh berries
  4. Dark Chocolate PB Snack
  5. "Sail Boat" Sighting aka Navy Frigate H.M.S. Surprise located at the Maritime Museum. (Yes, I looked it up out of curiosity. 🧐)
  6. "You are enough exactly as you are and never let anyone tell you any differently."
🤔 Kylea spent the day collecting photos of herself, presumably for future before/after comparison posts. She wasted many opportunities to showcase the flexibility of using WW when traveling and exploring new cuisines.
Takeout: Flor & Seed Iced Coffee= $6 est + tip; Flor & Seed Unknown beverage= $6 est + tip; Kono's Surf Club Breakfast for 2 (online prices used)= $23 est + tip; Unknown Sushi Restaurant- sister= $12 est + tip; Unknown Coffee Shop for KG= $15 est + tip; Unknown Hibachi delivery-Joe= $25 est + tip & delivery fees; 7-Eleven Small & Large Slurpees= $5 est;
Shopping & Travel Expenses: Two One-Way Airline Tickets (Unknown carrier)= $98 + fees; Airport Parking (up to 50% off with prebook)= $16 est; San Diego Flyer transport to Old Town= $0; (It is unknown if Kylea used this free service or a ride share); Premier Shake, Protein Bar & Fruit= $10 est; Unknown San Diego Accommodations= $120 est + fees;
All info from Reddit. ✌️
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2024.05.15 23:52 ThrowRA-BigBootyJudy My boyfriend(M29) is exactly like my (F26) mom. How do I leave with compassion?

The end of my romantic relationship is imminent. We've been together 7 months. I made the painful realization that my boyfriend is exactly like my mom who has narcissistic traits. How can I leave him compassionately?
Today, my mom called crying asking why her children keep her at arms distance, apologizing about our childhood, and asked what she could do the repair the relationship she has with us. I initially said no. but she pushed. I explain that she has a difficult time taking accountability for her actions and we can't explain how we feel about an event without my mom making it revolve around her feelings.
I felt myself getting heated so I asked to get off the phone. She keep pushing.
She gives a blanket apology for giving us a bad childhood. I say she is forgiven and that I am not concerned about my childhood but the behavior that is still occurring.
She asked for examples of the behavior we are explaining. I gave an example. She says I'm bring up the past.
She asks me what she needs to do. I explain that she needs to acknowledge the event, just sorry, and leave it at that and skip the tears, the sob story, or denial.
Says she doesn't deny things. Ask me to give her an example.
Says she doesn't remember and its not reasonable to expect her to remember everything that ever happened.
I am yelling. I ask to get off the phone because I am upset.
She tells me I am angry about my childhood. I say I am not angry about my childhood. I am angry that she is continuing the same pattern under the guise of wanting a closer relationship with us.
She says she is fine with the relationship she has with us because she knows she did the best with the resources she had. She doesn't know anyone who raised such successful children despite HER circumstances.
I try to get off the phone again, I say if she's satisfied with the relationship we have then we're good to go. There's no more to talk about. She begs me to stay on the phone because she needs to no why I'm harboring so much anger about my childhood and asks if she every did anything right.
I say that I've tried to get off the phone and avoid this conversation 3 times I was getting upset, I am not upset about my childhood. I am upset about her current behavior.
She says she is trying so hard and nothing she does will ever be good enough for us. How we paint her out to be the worst mother ever and other people are impressed with how she raised us.
repeat
I try to end the conversation again saying that I love her so much, but the conversation is circling and unproductive.
She says she is giving me the opportunity to voice my concerns but I am yelling and cussing and that she would never dare to talk to her own mother that way.
I tell her I love her and that I will talk to her another time. I hang up.
Made the painful realization that it was almost identical to talking to my boyfriend about a conflict. I thought he just had a bad attitude. I never engage with my mom in that manner, so I didn't realize the parallel until today. I know this means I will have to end the relationship. I've been working too hard in therapy to settle for this. He
TL;DR My boyfriend isn't nearly as extreme as my mom but shares the same tactics when trying to communicate. Pretends to be open to conflict resolution but gets extremely defensive. Asks for examples and then tells me I'm dwelling in the past. Starts attacking how I said it or tells me I'm angry. Denies doing things. Will select one part of an argument and attack it. They're exactly the same. How can I end the relationship with compassion?
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2024.05.15 23:48 No_Guarantee_5106 Should I reply if avoidant exGF slides into my DMs after 4-5 months no contact (I want her back…)

Nb. I’m aware this is next level overthinking, but she’s the love of my life and I do like that many folks here recognise that - sorry it’s so long and ridiculously detailed.
I think my [M, 36 ExGF [F, 40] is a fearful avoidant (not sure) and context is she really hurt me when we broke up, and it feels like she knows that, and think she’ll feel quite fearful of reaching out as isn’t good with rejection (I know: the irony….!)
Broke up late December and went full no contact. We stayed connected on social media, but I had her muted and didn’t post anything for first couple of months. I didn’t return to IG until I was sure my posts were authentic and not fishing to get her to respond etc, and am not a big user of it (she posts a lot on a daily basis…)
She watched my stuff for a month or so, then slowly began liking a few stories and posts, but still no direct reaching out. I am feeling okish, it’s been hard, but deep down will likely still be at risk of wanting her back for quite a while still, so am being very cautious and trying to ignore anything that isn’t obviously an apology or desire to talk/meet up etc.
I’ve tried to be conservative and mirror her level of investment minus a bit, so have liked a couple of posts in response, but she has recently been liking everything I’ve posted, including publically (which slightly surprised me, as felt like she had publically assassinated me to her friends leading up to the break up - but at the same time she was under a lot of pressure and changing jobs, and looking back it was definitely not helping me being around and (at the time) very anxious and unusually needy vs. the early days when I was the less attached person.
I’ve kept telling myself to ignore any public comments and likes, but that if she actually bothers to write WORDS in a reply to something, then this would be a small step closer, given her fear of having hurt me so much and not wanting to feel guilty or risk me still being hurt and any drama.
I posted something so random, just a bit of equipment I use for training (totally not with her in mind - tho fitness is an interest we shared) and she wrote back “need to try that!”
That was all - but to dms, so yeh - it’s not anything substantial, but I do think with avoidants it can be slowemore subtle, maybe. And it’s also the tiniest step forward after a slowly increasing pattern of liking my posts.
I’m just not quite sure as feel like if I don’t acknowledge it at all she may then conclude I’m not ready to reconnect t yet (maybe I’m not…) but she’s the type to get angry and or pull away more I think if I ignore her.
So I’m thinking of maybe just liking the comment but not saying anything that would prompt another response - as would need something more significant I think to want to talk more.
What I don’t want is to reply and maybe add a question or try and grow a convo if she’s not yet really wanting to talk/meet up etc. I don’t want to repeat the classic reply over enthusiastically and her then ghost me if she’s just bored or looking for an ego boost.
TL;DR: how should I play this if I still want her back. Ignore? Like comment but not write anything? Write back something equally basic (4 words ain’t much to work with…) or open up a convos that she may not be ready for.
Like - all the reading I’ve done seems to suggest I need to play it cool without being rude and carry on with my life unless or until she has regrown enough attraction to me. Just feels rude not to respond. But tbh sending a like of the comment also feels a bit pointless.
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2024.05.15 23:45 Gfdgsgxgzgdrc Revisiting the Mystery Valentine (An Overly Long Explanation of Why It's Definitely Gaster)

Revisiting the Mystery Valentine (An Overly Long Explanation of Why It's Definitely Gaster)
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I'm not sure why I'm still so hung up on this. For context, I kinda fell out of theorycrafting a while ago — at this point, I've seen every shred of evidence supporting or opposing every possible theory, and yet I feel no closer to any concrete conclusions on the game's lore. There are just too many questions, too many possibilities.
Then the secret Valentine dropped. This letter raised a lot of questions I was eager to discuss! Instead, I was disappointed to find the discussion dominated by something I didn't even think to question: the writer's identity. This frustrated me a bit, as I felt that, for once, the conclusion was actually pretty clear-cut; it didn't strike me as something Toby Fox even intended for us to debate.
At the time, this drove me to write a post discussing it (don't bother reading it, this post is better). I thought that would be the end of it for me, but somehow the debate has yet to leave my mind. Even now, from what I've seen, people are too busy arguing about who wrote the letter to discuss what's in it. All the while, I've not only grown more confident in the conclusion I've reached, but I feel more prepared to articulate why. I've also heard more counterarguments since then, which I will address in this post.
I'll start with what we can agree on, before addressing more significant counterarguments and delving into progressively deeper levels of conjecture. Should be fun!

Context and implications

Even before looking at the letter itself, we can see that this is a rare, cryptic secret, already giving us an idea of who might be involved. I'd go so far as to say that Gaster is "rare, cryptic secrets" personified. To me, this is the main thing setting him apart from other characters.
Obviously that's not to say that other characters can't be responsible for secrets like these, but giving the letter a cursory glance, the format doesn't fail us. All caps — this doesn't tell us much on its own, but when used alongside a very, very specific manner of double line spacing between and within sentences, compounded by the aforementioned association with secrets... Toby Fox is clearly trying to tell us something here, so I'm not a fan of any theory that completely discards that.
You'll probably agree with this point — even Gaster Valentine deniers admit that there is an intentional association being drawn. If you disagree... sorry, I don't know what to tell you. When it comes to Gaster, having a mysterious secret with all-caps weirdly-spaced text is basically equivalent to Susie walking onscreen and saying "Hi, I'm Susie". Sure, maybe a plot twist down the line will reveal that this isn't actually Susie... But you'd only suspect that if she says something that would imply it, and for now, we're only looking at the presentation.
There's another association I haven't seen as many people bring up: the fact that the letter is anonymous. Ironically, "not being confirmed to be Gaster" is one of Gaster's identifying characteristics. In every case, we're left to assume his involvement from cues such as those we see here: secrets, crypticism, capitalization, spacing, all that. Anonymity is his signature. By including these quirks and leaving it uncredited, he may as well be signing "GASTER" in flashing letters. And that's not even getting into the implication of Wingdings and the letter disappearing after being read, which are both Gastery as all get out.
A couple minor notes regarding the writer's anonymity:
  • The lack of a telltale 666 motif or gratuitous "VERY, VERY" could be seen as a point of contention, but I think this naturally follows the pattern we've seen thus far: as we grow more familiar with Gaster, there's less need for these kinds of identifying motifs. In Undertale, the name Gaster is directly associated with 666 and Wingdings, but as we already know these connections going into Deltarune, the game's intro more-or-less drops the name and font associations.
  • Notably, this is the only Valentine without a confirmed sender — if it was meant to tease a new character (à la Lanino and Elnina), why not include a visual or first initial to indicate that? Because it's supposed to seem like Gaster, only to end up a red herring...? Seems like a pretty cheap twist to me. Characters have deceived us in the games themselves, but we've generally been able to take supplemental content more-or-less at face value.
Of course, that anonymity is a double-edged sword. It implies Gaster's involvement just as much as it leaves room for doubt. If Toriel does something un-Toriel-like, we simply have to reconcile what we previously knew of her character with what we do now, whereas if Gaster does something un-Gaster-like, it calls his entire identity into question. I still don't think the Gaster associations can simply be handwaved away — again, even Gaster Valentine deniers agree that there's some significance to the similarities — but, by his very nature, it's nothing more than an implication.
If the voice from the vessel creation sequence says something to the effect of:
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I'll be the first to admit that it probably isn't Gaster. But I don't think that's the case here, and to discuss why, we'll have to move on from the context to the content.

Personality and mannerisms

The obvious problem with analyzing Gaster is that he has yet to be properly introduced, much less developed. We've only ever interacted with him outside Deltarune's story and world, and furthermore only briefly, within a very narrow range of contexts. Additionally, these interactions are written to provide us with as little characterization as possible — he is succinct and direct, never shifting the subject beyond what is relevant to us. This itself could be considered characterization, but without the "why", there's not much to glean from it.
Regardless of whether this trait is dependent on context (there's little room for conversation in a survey program, after all) or is simply an ever-present aspect of his personality, I'd argue it carries over to the letter. He tries to begin with polite small talk, but each topic he broaches is swiftly dismissed; once again, he can hardly bring himself to deviate from "the purpose of the message". Speaking of which, that fact — that this is the only Valentine with an explicit "purpose" — itself provides characterization. Almost as though this character would only contact us for an important reason (perhaps a character with a history of doing so, often outside the game). Almost as though we've met this character before (otherwise, I suspect Toby would've focused exclusively on characterization rather than motives, as with Lanino and Elnina).
I realize I'm getting into full speculation territory now, but hopefully I've made it clear why it's necessary to do so. Gaster's personality and motives are largely up to personal interpretation — I think we can agree that, were that not the case, the debate would be a lot more one-sided. Your interpretation of the character can't be used as conclusive evidence for your theory. Of course, I'm not exempt from this either! My interpretation could be completely off-base as well. That said, I'd like to at least explain why it all lines up in my head. (Feel free to compare my interpretation with his dialogue, which I've compiled here: https://pastebin.com/yR5Y8qhw)
Let's get the specific shared mannerisms out of the way before moving onto the more general similarities. Specifically:
  • Gaster employs a specific kind of repetition, mostly limited to single words, but occasionally multiple ("OF COURSE", "SHALL WE", "THE SECOND"). We see this reflected in the letter ("BELIEVE IT SO", "WANT[ED] TO HELP", "SEEM TO HAVE FORGOTTEN").
  • He alternates between present and past tense when describing what is currently happening (seen throughout the vessel creation and save menu text). The letter writer does this multiple times.
  • Perhaps a generic word choice, but the writer says "HOW ABSURD", much like how Gaster has said "HOW WONDERFUL", "HOW INTERESTING", and "HOW LONG IT HAS BEEN".
There are a couple other things that struck me as extremely Gastery, but I couldn't find many examples for them. I might just be thinking of the stilted way Toby Fox writes in status updates and newsletters, which reminds me more of Gaster than any other character... but that's a tenuous connection at best, so take these for whatever they're worth:
  • The letter writer puts "VALENTINE'S DAY" in quotes. I thought there were more examples of Gaster putting random terms in quotes (it suits his general robotic-yet-whimsical demeanor), but the only ones seem to be the names you enter in the vessel creation.
  • I find the phrasing "THE PURPOSE OF THE MESSAGE" (as opposed to, say, "the reason I wrote this to you") very Gastery — something about the detached feeling and repeated use of "THE" — but the only instance I could find of this particular sentence construction was "CHOOSE THE TARGET FOR THE REFLECTION", so maybe it doesn't mean much.
Moving onto the general personality, the easiest similarity to argue is the metaknowledge. Gaster introduces you to the Deltarune program, and is the only character known to acknowledge it. The letter writer is clearly interested in your thoughts on Deltarune (albeit spelled "DELTA RUNE"; beyond Toby's general inconsistency with minor details like these, I'm not sure what to make of that). The writer also acknowledges the wait between chapters, much like Gaster does — contrasting this, everyone else simply acknowledges the time that's passed within the story, perceiving two real-world years as one night. It could also be argued that Gaster is the only character who has contacted us, the player, directly.
Gaster is also known to be polite and formal, always offering greetings ("WELCOME"), gratitude ("THANK YOU FOR WAITING SO LONG"), and compliments ("YOU HAVE CREATED A WONDERFUL FORM"). We see this reflected quite well in the letter — "AS YOU ARE WAITING PATIENTLY" and "DO YOU BELIEVE IT SO?" certainly don't feel like the words of someone speaking casually. Like Gaster, the writer also uses fewer exclamation marks and contractions than most. Granted, the fact that the writer uses contractions at all is cause for suspicion... but, since they're outnumbered by the uncontracted phrases, contraction usage remains closer to Gaster than anyone else (except Toriel, I guess). Although we haven't seen Gaster use contractions in his few prior instances of dialogue... evidently, he does use them, albeit infrequently.
The formality even goes beyond word choice — his repeated backtracking on the exact order of "PUT ON YOUR COAT AND WASH YOUR FACE" brings to mind his polite accommodation of our choices in the vessel creation or save menu. It doesn't seem like him to forcefully tell us what to do, or in what order to do it, and the letter's ending serves to exaggerate that quality. He may not use any highly technical language here, but that makes sense in this less scientific context (especially when you consider that he doesn't use scientific terminology all that often anyway).
Gaster's constant emphasis on the subject at hand, saying something odd or outright wrong whenever he alludes to anything else (listing the wrong options for whatever he means by "FAVORITE BLOOD TYPE", or listing such favorite flavors as "PAIN" and "COLD") — it's always given me the impression that Gaster's transcendent brilliance doesn't extend far beyond his own work. That's not to say he's stupid, far from it, but definitely a bit "out there" (I feel this much is apparent from the multiple typing quirks he uses). At the very least it feels inarguable to me that, while Gaster is smart, he doesn't know everything, and (like any Toby Fox character) he isn't always intended to be taken 100% seriously.
Casting our gaze over to the letter, this once again checks out. Confusing the new year with the old year, considering himself to be the person he's forgotten, mixing up the recipient's face and coat — these feel more-or-less like a natural development of Gaster's established eccentricity, like the kinds of weird things that would only make sense from his unique, potentially fractured, extradimensional perspective. Sure, "THE TIME IS GOING AROUND" may not make sense to us mortal beings, but neither does "DELTARUNE GLOWS BRIGHTLY FROM YOUR HOPE". Ending a message with the archaic "GOOD BY" feels roughly equivalent to randomly putting [24] in brackets.
The increased emphasis on these quirks makes sense in this more casual context, and adds tonal consistency with the other Valentines — being a spooky creepypasta character is hard work, and I think the guy's earned a day off. The friendliness also makes it out to seem like the writer has communicated with us in the past, which wouldn't make sense for anyone other than Gaster, and certainly wouldn't have made sense in something like the vessel creation sequence. I find that it also makes sense from an extradiagetic perspective — Toby Fox is just providing characterization here, not announcing a new chapter, so there's less reason to write Gaster with as much purpose and brevity as in previous appearances.
Basically, the idea that Gaster is completely serious and grounded while the letter writer is completely goofy... I don't get it. I really don't think either of those things are true. I'm not even sure what I would change about the letter to make it sound more like Gaster... Did you expect less exclamation marks? More line breaks (which would make it overly long and monotonous, might I add)? Less whimsical turns of phrase? At that point the letter wouldn't deepen our understanding of the character at all, and I fail to see what the point would be.
And the idea that the letter ruined Gaster's character makes even less sense to me — for one, what does this letter really establish about Gaster that wasn't already alluded to? I suppose the letter makes him out to be more whimsical than most of us thought, but how is that a downgrade from "static, one-dimensional robotic scientist"? Can "whimsical scatterbrain" and "robotic scientist" not coexist? Is the gradual reveal of depth and contrasts not at the heart of most Toby Fox characters?? The directness of his speech has made him feel more like a plot device up to this point, so this letter was the first time I truly felt invested in Gaster as a character outside of his unique presentation. I don't think "saying things in a casual context that could be construed as humorous" (again, especially when he already says things like "FAVORITE BLOOD TYPE") is enough to consider him "scrunkly goober #78" — and even if it was, Toby has a way of delivering the most emotionally impactful moments through the funniest characters, so I'm not particularly worried.
All that to say: it's my belief that, even looking past the context and format, the letter aligns more closely with Gaster than any other character. Who else has such a formal and cordial composure contrasted against an air of inscrutable strangeness?

Motives and memory

Gaster hasn't exactly been transparent about his goals, and the letter writer isn't giving us a whole lot to work with either, so we're going to have to get even more speculative here. That said, the conclusion I've arrived at makes a lot of sense to me, relates to established elements of Deltarune, and even explains away some people's reasons for this not being Gaster. Those being:
  1. "Gaster asks us for help, even though we've already been helping him!" This is easily explained if we assume he's asking our help with something else this time. The more casual tone and secrecy of the letter supports the interpretation that this is a less generally important, more personal matter; it's the difference between "Hey, if you don't mind, would you lend me a hand with this thing that's been on my mind?" and "I'm subjecting you to an experiment I've spent years preparing, please follow these exact instructions." I suppose it's strange that he doesn't mention how we can help, but I imagine that's something that will become clear in the future.
  2. "Gaster isn't forgetful!" While I'd say it's entirely possible that Gaster has memory problems that simply hadn't been alluded to yet, I find the more likely explanation to be that there's something supernatural at play, and once again I believe this is hinted at in the letter itself. Gaster says it's "IRONIC" that he forgot something — what could this imply, beyond the fact that he was forgotten himself? (To recap the theory, Goner Kid mentions a world where they don't exist, no one acknowledges Gaster outside Fun events, and while Asgore is said to have taken a long time replacing Gaster, it's unconfirmed whether he remembered who he was replacing.) I was 50/50 on this theory myself, but I take this letter to be more-or-less confirmation of it, further tying it to Gaster. The only other explanation I can think of for this "IRONIC" line is that perhaps Gaster makes people forget things...? For the purposes of this theory, it doesn't matter too much, as it establishes a precedence for supernatural memory loss either way. Furthermore, by suggesting the person he's forgotten may be himself, he draws a direct parallel between himself and the person he's helping, lending further credence to this interpretation.
This brings us to my theory. I posit that the forgotten character is someone in similar circumstances to Gaster himself; someone who cannot be found in the story, and is instead associated with secrets outside of it (much like this letter). As an added bonus, it would help strengthen the theory if it happened to be a character who is known to call out for help, and who we've previously been requested to find (particularly in secret material outside of the game, much like this letter). If only there was a character fitting all of those criteria...
But this post isn't about that. My point is, while there's not much to glean in the way of connections between the letter person's goals and Gaster's, I don't think there's anything contradicting such connections either.
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Oh. Right, I guess there's that. If this is the same Gaster we've worked with before, why doesn't he say "YOU HAVE PROVEN YOURSELF TO BE RELIABLE"? I feel like this minor word choice could be justified by any number of explanations. For one, the phrasing makes a bit more sense within the full context: basically "you're odd, but you seem reliable regardless". You could also argue that, since he's asking something different of us this time, we haven't proven ourselves to be reliable for this specific task. Or that since we've only been assisting in the "Deltarune" project for 2 of 7 chapters, that's not enough time for him to fully consider us reliable. Or, maybe the only reason we do seem reliable to him is because we've been assisting him — otherwise we wouldn't seem reliable at all. Heck, it could just be odd phrasing for a character who constantly uses odd phrasing, only misleading under a specific interpretation.

Translation

To recap, I think the context and format convey a very clear implication — one that could be a red herring, but that I believe is only supported by the writer's personality, and (at the very least) not contradicted by their goals. Here is where I believe we come to the first hole in my argument.
The Japanese translation doesn't sound particularly close to how Gaster speaks in Japanese. I don't speak Japanese, so there's not much I can do to back up or debunk this claim — perhaps people are overlooking some of the more minor similarities, as with the English version...? Or maybe there's more nuance to the translation process than most people think, and the writing style is highly adaptive to tone, mood, context, or method of delivery, or affected by cultural differences...? I don't know, so for now I can do nothing but take it at face value, and consider what this inconsistency might imply.
People seem divided into two camps with regards to the translation: "the English version very clearly sounds like Gaster, therefore the Japanese version doesn't matter" and "the Japanese version very clearly doesn't sound like Gaster, therefore the English version doesn't matter". Frustratingly, neither of these actually address the inconsistency. If we assume it isn't Gaster, the English version clearly goes out of its way to mislead us into thinking it is (as I've already justified extensively), so why not do the same for the Japanese version? If Toby wanted to clear up ambiguity by making the Japanese version distinct from Gaster, why not do the same for the English version? Whichever way you slice it, it's a contradiction.
That said, I think there are a few things working in my favor here. For one, English is Toby's native language, as well as the most common language spoken by his fanbase. Japanese translation is handled by a different team under Toby's supervision; they had a lot of Valentines to translate, and likely a pretty strict deadline. It's believable that time constraints forced the team to prioritize accuracy to the content and tone of the letter over consistency with established text quirks.
There's also the fact that the English version is the only one to imply a clear sender (unless you want to reach and say the secrecy and metaknowledge of the Japanese version imply Gaster as well); personally, I feel inclined to believe a deliberate implication over the lack of one. Adding weight to this point, this isn't generally the sort of thing casual fans are going to speculate about — anyone who knows about the letter has likely heard of both versions, which means most will gravitate toward whichever one implies a specific identity. Because of this, the Gaster interpretation seems to prevail even in the Japanese fanbase.
Basically, I don't like that making sense of the letter forces me to either make up an arbitrary narrative explanation for the discrepancy, or to write off either the English or Japanese version as unreliable... However, this decision is made much easier by the fact that, the way I see it, only one of them provides mounds of evidence (from the context to the specific format to the anonymity to the metaknowledge to the formality to the strange mannerisms and so on) pointing toward a single interpretation.

Alternative explanations

I've seen a few other theories regarding the writer's identity, the most common of which being the idea that Gaster was shattered into multiple personalities, and that this is a different "shard" from the one we've communicated in the past — I take issue with any theory that compartmentalizes one complicated character into multiple simple ones, but I suppose it doesn't necessarily have to be done that way. There are also theories that this is the Chapter 3/4 secret boss (associated with Gaster based on precedent), Mike (associated with Gaster through Spamton), or IMAGE_FRIEND (associated with Gaster via filename conventions), some of whom may or may not be the same person.
My main argument against these theories is that I simply don't think they're necessary. To reiterate, I think the whimsy Gaster displays here is consistent with his previous characterization (we've only seen him in scientific contexts until now, and even then a bit of whimsy manages to slip through), and the forgetfulness can easily be explained as well (since it only seems to apply to one subject). Again, the only hole I can find in my interpretation is the Japanese version, and none of these theories really explain the inconsistency there, leaving us back at square one — if it's merely a character associated with Gaster as opposed to the man himself, why aren't the similarities and differences roughly the same in both versions?
These theories don't make much sense to me when I attempt to look at them from Toby Fox's perspective, either. Getting a secret Valentine from Gaster is, technically speaking, like the coolest thing ever, and I think he realizes this. If he's willing to include a secret letter with this much lore in it, why leave out such an important character we've already communicated with? And furthermore, why give a different mysterious character so many of the same characteristics we use to identify Gaster in the absence of his appearance or name?
Also, isn't it telling that the debate seems split evenly between "Gaster" and "a theoretically infinite supply of basically made-up Gaster-adjacent characters"? While these theories could end up being accurate, I don't yet see any precedence for either Gaster having multiple personalities, nor any as-of-yet unseen/nonverbal characters sounding like the letter writer; these theories simply exist to explain a contradiction that I believe isn't truly there. They embody the principle of explosion, or "from contradiction, anything follows" — if you accept that it sounds both "like Gaster" and "unlike Gaster", you can make up anything in between these possibilities, an untouchable theory that can neither be proven by evidence or disproven by counterevidence. I personally don't find that line of thought very compelling.
In the most popular video on the topic, SpookyDood analyzes the letter through cadence, language, context, and function; however, I think something is lost from analyzing these aspects separately. Cadence, language, and function are largely dependent on context. If we accept the letter into that pool of Gaster characterization rather than nitpicking it into oblivion, we simply see new patterns emerge. We see that Gaster only uses particularly large words when he's referring to something scientific. We see that Gaster is slightly more enthusiastic when there's less pressure to be serious and professional. Basically, I feel that all of the inconsistencies SpookyDood brings up are easily explained by this letter being a different narrative context from the one Gaster has previously occupied (and I presume will largely continue to occupy), which is what I find so interesting about it.
As for cadence, SpookyDood says that "[Gaster's] pattern of each few words being broken up by a line break is no longer present", but the first 3 sentences alone are divided into 6 lines. He even calls out certain sentences in the vessel creation as going against this pattern, proving that it doesn't have to be consistent — while these line breaks do define the flow of Gaster's speech, I think the frequent use of ellipses here achieve the same effect without needlessly extending the length of the image.
The video ultimately posits that the writer is the man behind the tree, and honestly, I don't entirely disagree with that conclusion. The use of "well" checks out, as does the happy mood. In the case of both "DO YOU BELIEVE IT SO?" and "He might be happy to see you. What do you think?", the text moves on without directly responding to our answer. There's also a more loose connection to be made, in that both of these questions involve reality being dependent on our thoughts (whether each day is or is not a day of love, and whether there is or is not a man there), and likewise, dropping the egg causes the narration to act as though the egg was never there. (Obviously the man himself doesn't say any of this, but the association's still there through the narration.)
The connections don't strike me as plentiful or strong enough to stand toe-to-toe with the Gaster interpretation, but without much to go off of regarding the man, it doesn't have to deal with as much counterevidence either. I'd say I have the same problem with this theory as the others I've mentioned (an excessive avoidance of contradiction such that, instead of associating with said contradictions, the letter is attributed to a character we know so little about that it can't be argued against), but there's a fairly reasonable basis for argument here.
Thing is, I don't think these interpretations are mutually exclusive. I was ambivalent toward Gaster and the man (the mystery man, you could say) being one and the same, but the letter has done a lot to sway me toward that conclusion. Strengthening the connections between the letter, the man, and Gaster are the mutual association with forgetting (due to the blog post where Noelle can't remember the name of her egg), secrets, and disappearances. The letter's contrasting of contradictory statements ("NEW YEAR" vs. "OLD YEAR", "WASH YOUR FACE" vs. "WASH YOUR COAT") call to mind both the man ("a man" vs. "not a man", "not too important" vs. "not too unimportant") and the strange someone who corrupted Jevil ("didn't make sense" vs. "didn't not make sense").
If the letter was supposed to be written by the man, but not Gaster, I imagine the letter would have been formatted like this instead:
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Conclusion

Sorry, that was long. I'm done!
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2024.05.15 23:45 abpolishedcorner16 Birthday LLL Fit ✨✨✨

Birthday LLL Fit ✨✨✨
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Felt really cute in my outfit for my bday ride at SC today! 🎂✨
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2024.05.15 23:43 DreamKinkyGirl I felt cute today

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2024.05.15 23:42 salsaltito I attract only love bombers

Hi everyone, this is the first time I post here. I need some help and advice as I am trying to break this pattern. I don’t understand why love bombers are so attracted to me… Actually I think they sense that I am hypersensitive and can have a low self-esteem, even though I am a very independent person in most aspects of life.
I am often described as an empathetic and genuine guy, the loyal type... I would like a relationship but at the same time I never try to force connections. The typical scenario is that I meet a guy, sometimes without even looking for something serious, and THEY say they want something meaningful and feel they really like me. Then very quickly they overwhelm me with affection and attention, they say they haven’t felt like this for a long time… and at some point I get attached. I must admit it is a nice feeling being with someone who shows so much interest, talking with them everyday and spending time with then. But one day out of the blue their behavior just switches and they lose interest (usually after 2 or 3 months).
The problem is that it often feels genuine at the beginning and I am never sure if it is love bombing or not. I am more aware of this pattern now so I try to be cautious and I don’t rush anything, but the last guys who love bombed me used to say I was maybe not that much interested in them and it made me question if I was overthinking and maybe ruining things by keeping distance with them. At the end they were the ones who suddenly decided to distance themselves once I got attached. It hurts so much when I find out a person who said many times they had feelings for me actually never really cared.
I can’t bare this pain of seeing people just suddenly disappear after spending so much time together, and when I realize it was all fake it makes me feel unlovable. It happened so many times and I can’t go through this anymore…
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2024.05.15 23:39 z3in-23 I'm an idiot

Okay I was watching Punch-Drunk Love (highly recommended movie) and I find it so relatable and I finally have the guts to share the most embarrassing story you've heard and be ready to cringe. This is a long one lads, it's a lore.
I was 11 turning 12 years old and this girl comes to my school who had just moved from Saudi. She used to get the best grades in school, you know she is the cool girl. My mom liked her when she met her at PTA and that was like a seal of approval for young me. (Context: - I live in an Asian country)
My mind fixated on her although she was an year and exactly 6 months older than me. (Same grade). So here's where the plot thickens. Grade 6, enters another student, let's call him Cow. So Cow sat near me from the first day of school and I introduced him to everything. He became more sociable than I am and the dude didn't care I mean that's alright shit happens but he became close to the girl I like. (Let's call her Moose)
Fast forward 5 years later, Cow and Moose are close friends and Cow's friends were shipping him for her. She kept friend zoning him. I have never talked to Moose ever. Like never. We were in the same class. Last day of school, I was relieved to be leaving my shitty school life just as I'm leaving Moose says bye to me like she waves her hand and I was like you talking to me (like De Niro). So I called up a friend I know (prefect) and he gave me her number and my excuse was that I needed the numbers of the students I didn't have contacts in class and he bought it. So I hit her up. I was mansplaining the fuck out. She took it like a good sport. We were texting for a while.
But Cow didn't like it. We were supposed to meet to get the leaving certificates back at school. Moose wanted to get it at the same time as me. Guess who's there. The motherfucking boogeyman, I swear jealousy is a motherfucker sometimes I can't ignore it. But guess what she called him "her brother" and I was sitting at the office couch and those words hit like melody to me. And I got up, talked to her. Like that shit gave me confidence like never before and it's gonna comeback to haunt me (later you'll realize). So I accidentally flirted at her and Cow went like "Huh". So now I'm overwhelmed and I realized I'm running my mouth too much so I went outside and this girl calls me.
Context about this other girl: - So you know how tuition classes are a thing in Asia so I was in an IT class where I know this girl from a ceremony. She became a real close friend to me and she'll play an important role later. (Let's call her Mini Cooper (coz she's short 😂))
So she saw me from her school van. And she was giving me a call. Looking back, she liked me. I hid the fact that I had a crush on Moose.
And now Cow is pissed off at me and he is pillow-talking through texts. He shares that embarrassing story where I broke fast for just a lollipop for my friend's birthday which is meant to be a fucking joke. Moose said these things to me and I wanted to get back at him so bad.
Now I'm in my relative's funeral and I was bored af (sounds terrible I'm sorry) and Mini Cooper started texting me after an Instagram story I posted. Atp she knows that I had a crush on Moose. I was loathing about the fact that Cow and his friends and Moose go to the same college now and I'm alone and shit and they are taking photos. I had severe Fear of Missing Out. And She mentioned about her friend that goes to the same college. And we find out that both these girls are best friends. I felt like I hit the jackpot. So I beg Mini Cooper to talk her friend and get her on my side. I was trying to be the parasite coz Cow was using his friends to ship him to her. So Mini Cooper set it up. And she said that this friend is a "high maintenance" and I should've knew then. I hit her up (let's call her Molly Shannon(glasses)) and it was cool and it went on. Now here comes the most embarrassing thing that happened. (if you've read up to this point huge thank you, coz my own ass wouldn't read something this long)
I was in Mania after the funeral ended and I was so overwhelmed to get back at Cow. So I started texting Cow. Stupid move like moving your Queen diagnol to the bishop. I was asking some stupid shit like When's your birthday and replying like "Oh yeah mine's at the end of November". And I asked how's college and shit. Then I asked "Do you know this girl? Molly Shannon(not her real name)" and dude was like "Yeah the girl with glasses" she hangs around with Moose. So I was like "she's my relative". This is the moment where I fucked up big time. Coz I don't know what I was thinking. I don't know what my plan was. He was like "Oh Nice".
So I stopped texting Molly Shannon after that coz she is a weirdo and I had not realized what I've done coz I completely ignored.
Weeks later, I see a Snapchat snap and Cow, his friends, Molly Shannon and Moose were going on a bus. Seemed like a flex on me. And I was like sighing. Then I get a call. It's from Cow. Cow takes a call with his friends and starts making fun of me. "Molly Shannon is your cousin?" with Molly Shannon laughing in the background. I was so embarrassed of it. My anxiety was creeping up. She ratted on me for clout.
So I joined this college (bcoz I'm stupid but yeah it ended up being a good choice thank god) and there was a orientation party and I was walking from mosque to college. And suddenly, Cow and his friends appear and they start making fun of me through the whole party. I fucked up big time. And this took a huge toll on my mental health. Plus the barber fucked my hair up and I was wearing a cap and I was walking around the party like an idiot with nobody. Moose and Molly Shannon were looking at me like crazy.
I call Mini Cooper and she calmed me down. (Best friend ever, love you ❤️) but I did more wrong to her coz I'm an entitled asshole. To dismiss the cousin rumours I said it was Mini Cooper's idea. She knew but she never spoke of it. The thing about Mini Cooper is my mom didn't like her. That's the thing that kept me from getting close to her. My mom made me not hang out with people she didn't like.
Okay, the most important fact here is that Moose never knew about any of this shit. She didn't know I had a crush on her. She didn't know the cousin thing. And it was weird. I went to her DMs and started apologizing for no reason. Another embarrassing moment. But Thank God.
This thing kept on bugging me for so long and I was already suicidal. Cow and I are the only ones in College and we weren't as terrible as we were before coz Moose left college in her 1st year. I tried to make it as funny as possible but you know it sounds terrible. And Mini Cooper, I know you know. I'm sorry.
This is one of the two embarrassing moments between Me and Moose. I do care if nobody reads, it would hurt me that this shit I did goes unacknowledged. Fellas, don't worry if you fucked up, you can't fuck up as much me.
This is a story of an entitled, pathetic, anxious, full of himself and impulsive idiot.
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2024.05.15 23:37 ArabellaaSparkles Felt cute in my sundress so had to share

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2024.05.15 23:34 nirvcuttr Felt cute 🤷🏻

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2024.05.15 23:31 Mundane_Fennel_1652 cuddled by a demon...

Hi Courtney! My names Rachel and I've been watching you for quite some time (I love you and your videos!) and decided to finally share my SCARIEST sleep paralysis story. Little background on me at the time of this experience: I was in my mid 20's and still living at home with my parents in New Jersey. Live in a cute suburb and only have had a few paranormal experiences in my life. However, I've always had sleep paralysis, but luckily I only get it once or twice a year and I've now learned how to stay calm and get out of it quickly. Never really had a spooky experience though, until about 6 or 7 years ago. I was asleep in my bed (which was against the wall) and woke up with sleep paralysis but was easily able to get out of it and shake it off because it wasn't spooky at all. I looked at my clock (it was around 3am) and turned over to go back to sleep, facing my wall with my back to my door. I instantly fell right back into sleep paralysis, but this time it felt different. My eyes were open and just staring at my wall and it felt like something was in the room with me, watching me. Then it felt like someone or someTHING had gotten into bed with me. I literally felt my mattress cave in and felt like something was spooning me from behind. It then felt like they had placed there arm over my waist. Literally cuddling with me. I was frozen of course and terrified. I then felt it flipping my hair around and playing with it! I thought I was going to die. I could literally feel its cold breath on my neck. This entire experience felt like it went on for 30min or so, but who knows how long it actually was. The scariest part was when I heard it whisper "not yet, you're not ready yet..." I instantly shot up out of the paralysis and was terrified looking around my room. I turned on my light and stayed up the rest of the night. I will NEVER forget this experience and have only told a few people in my life. And luckily I've never had a true scary sleep paralysis experience like that again, thank GOD!
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2024.05.15 23:21 Anhxtaiii Am I [28M] wrong here? [F27)

This might be a long read so brace yourself ...
When I'm asking if I'm being in the wrong here I only mean in terms of accountability and in regards to the situation and not so much about the wrong or right itself and would like some insight/advice basically..
TLDR:

Mixed feelings about a girl I just been dating for a few weeks or so? We only met around 2 times in person since she's somewhat busy. I feel like I'm putting more effort and energy than receiving it but unsure if it's just because the other person prefer taking things slow but I can't tell because whenever I ask her if she's interested, she's always kinda deflecting the subject. She's going to be away for the next 4 months so I won't be able to talk to her and our last convo this morning was kinda awkward ..

Relationships Background: I met my first ex a few months ago and she gave me a speedrun of everything most couple would usually do after a few months and since I didn't know any better I just went with it since she was my first everything. It ended with her initiating the breakup after less than a month after 2 weeks of long distance after she came to visit me. She gave me the "it's not you, it's me" and "you are the first one to treat me right" (she had multiple partners). She was also a bit insecure and sensitive and needed constant reassurance.
In the case of [HER], all her exes are by products of one night stands which ended up into relationship because they all asked her for one to her surprised and she just agreed with them. She described as liking them but not really ever falling in love with them so I guess I'm the first one to be fall into that category. In [HER] case, she is highly confident about herself and in what she accomplish (makes a lot more money than the average person). She gets self gratification from making money even though she can just live off her parents wealth but she finds having nothing to do boring so she became independent.
With that in mind, here's how this story starts.
On April 3rd, I reinstall Hinge because I want to have some new connection after moving on from my ex. It's not until April 23rd when I match with [HER]. At first I was surprised since I didn't expect it so I express my surprised via text in which she later explained her side via a voice note saying that she thought I looked like one of her students so she was afraid someone would recognize her which is her fear so she never matched with me. (I sent her a total of around 4 likes because I used to delete my account and make a new one again and her acc would always show and she kinda recognize from that as well.)
After that, we just exchange a lot of voice notes talking to each other about stuff and things which later I ask if its okay for me to ask her to go out on a date at this point. She then explains she has some requirements before actually going on a date with someone, she prefers getting someone a little bit more and seeing if we're compatible before meeting since she finds it weird how most people would rush which I agreed.
From there, we talk a bit more via voice note where she asks me what's my definition of love and my concept of relationships which she said almost is the same as hers. She explained for her to fall in love for someone it would at least take her 5 years or so and that's after they're able to past the 4 stages of love described in her own way; honeymoon phase, difference, compromise and initial stage of love.
The next day we just talk some more via text and and voice notes till 2 AM and what not talking about random things and life. At this point, I thought we had some good chemistry or so. We later talk about our exes and stuff.
A few days later I then try and ask again for a date since it felt like we had established some sort of rapport and knew a bit more of each other. She then tells me more about her schedule and how busy she'll be and how she'll be traveling soon in the next 2 weeks for her school stuff. At some point she said she had a symposium she was organizing at the university and I asked if it would be weird If I came to see her.
She said she didn't mind but wouldn't have time to cater me since it would be busy. Please also note that up until this point, I didn't know her real name since in Hinge she's using some random name and I didn't really ask her about it since I guess she didn't want to but I figure me showing up to that event, I would at least find what's her name which I did.
Anyways day comes and I show up to the event, it's is a medium size classroom. I didn't recognize her at first since she had a different haircut. I didn't wanna intrude or anything so I just sat there listening to the event till the end. I didn't really get the chance to talk to her or anything by the end since they had an after party and whatnot so I decided to head home instead feeling somewhat weird? So rather than just heading straight home I just sat there on the subway train listening to music instead. I texted her saying I wished we could have spent a bit of time together but you looked so busy and what not.
After a few minutes later I decide to head out for a walk because I was just feeling weird, I then see a text from her inviting me to help with returning books to the library if I want to which I agreed. To my surprised she showed up with two luggages .. which we just walked around till we reach the library. From there, I got to finally meet her in person and talk to her for a bit. I thought we had a good time, by the end I walked her home and that was mostly. We just kinda waved to her each and say goodbye to each other. I was kinda thirsty that night so I asked her for water but she gave me some korean brand banana juice instead. I then later send her a text thanking her for inviting me to help her which she doesn't reply to.
She's usually only replies if I initiate the conversation first which then let me gaslight myself into thinking it's because she's probably busy .. anyways we text each other for a bit that night because I asked for her number later instead of using Hinge. I then get somewhat down bad and ask if I can see her again tomorrow in which she replies "what's the benefit of seeing you again tomorrow?" which I thought was funny but she was serious. She had to write her REB so I guess she didn't really have time.
It's then the weekend and on the morning of Saturday she invites me to join her to the library and then we can eat at some place later if I want to where she'll be busy working on some stuff. She emphasize that she'll be annoyed if she is disturbed while trying to get work done which I didn't mind since my work is online and I only need a laptop to work.
I showed up at the library a bit early and letting her know, she then tells me she's going to get some coffee nearby first and then meet me so I wait for her at the library. Around 30 min goes by and I start getting a bit worried because she still hasn't showed up and hasn't given me any updates at which point I text her if anything is alright or if she's safe and what not. I get no answers for a bit then later she texts me she's inside where I was on my way to the coffee so I go back inside and then we just sit near each other and focus on our work. I give her the same korean banana juice which I found later at some korean market I went by to buy before meeting her. A few hours goes by we then go to a japanese place by walking there so I get to speak with her for a bit which was nice. I then pay for the bill then walk her home and then again we just wave to each other and say goodbye.
At this point, there has been no physical affection or the sort. Her body language isn't really telling me she's comfortable so I'm not really going for it even though I'm starving for it. I figure she prefers taking things slow so I'll go at her pace. Again, I text her later thanking her for inviting me and spending some time together which I appreciate. She doesn't really reply and giving me back the same energy.
So constantly, I'm always wondering if she's interested in me or enjoy spending time with me. When I ask her about it, it most of the time gets deflected or maybe it's a language barrier and I don't always get what she means when she sends some of her texts if I'm being honest but for some reason I find it cute. it's not like she's playing hard to get but it's confusing to say the least.
Anyways, because of that, I became hesitant to make plans to see her again since she doesn't really people calling her on the phone either unless absolutely necessary she explained to which I joked saying if I'm about to die then I'll call you.
After that second "date". i just try to limit my interaction to texting her a few text daily or so because I just wanted to have some kind of interaction with her. At this point I realized this may or may not be a one-side interest but then I gaslight myself thinking, she's a busy person and still makes some time for me so surely she's interested in some way?.
After a week or so of daily interaction I decide to somewhat stop contact because I also wanted to focus on my stuff and perhaps explore my other dating options if any .. a week goes by and I never hear from her again until one day she just sends me a text that just finished working at some factory as an interpreter and that her phone will be temporarily be disabled because she'll be traveling.
I then expressed my surprised because I figured she had forgotten about me and whatnot. We then exchange a few text here and there, we both caught a cold and talked about how shitty the weather is here and stuff. Again, I'm always the one having to initiate or there won't be any contact .. like at all. So it's hard for me to know if the person is interested even when being asked so I'm left with just overthinking.
Anyways, I ask her more about what time she's leaving and what time and if she wants to spends the last 2 days eating out and spending time together and stuff.
She said she went to some resto the day before but it was busy and had no table because of mother's day. At this point, I looked up the resto because I wanted to make some reservation so we could go there but I stopped myself because I had no idea what kind of situationship this was and if I was putting more effort and not receiving any. So I ended up sleeping instead.
The next day in the morning she texts me she went back to that resto but found out it's only open on certain days for brunch so she was sad and we exchanged a few random texts from that.
then the next day, this is our last conversation this morning before she's away for the next 4 months ..
ME
Will I see you again after 4 months or this is goodbye..? I feel a bit envious of your exes because they all got to be in a relationship with you and meet the girlfriend version of [HER] and all I ever got seems to be the busy version that just sends me off saying bye bye and leaving me confused most of the time with her texts haha 😅
HER
? wtf you don at 6 am plus even boyfriends need to see me off for the summer. I only going for fieldwork, not leaving. don't worry, you will see me when I'm back
ME
I was trying to fix my sleep schedule and I ended up waking up early randomly and then you were in my thoughts idk What do you mean I'll see you after you're back, are you saying you want me to wait for you? 😭 I don't even know what we are, I figured you're too busy to think about that or me as an option so I'm left overthinking.. I would have wanted to see you off but I didn't know where we stand
HER
I thought you gonna visit yesterday since you asked
ME
I wanted to but I didn't know if you wanted me to since it seemed you wanted to go to [restaurant] I was gonna make reservations there but then I realized I might be doing too much because I don't know we're in a relationship or just buddies. Now you leave in one hour and I'm even more confused
HER
Can't you see the problem in your first 'relationship' is that you guys rush everything? In my opinion, you don't know how to form healthy relationships. Take it slow. If you want to see me, make plans. Don't moan afterwards this and that. I can tell you I have always been very busy even with boyfriends. I suggest you set goals and we can celebrate together once you achieve them. I will be back in September. You're welcome to contact me then.
ME
Yes I agree that rushing was the issue in my first but in this case it's more of a mutual interest and communication. From my perspective, it seems like I'm chasing you for some reason because I'm not getting the same energy that I'm sending out. It seems you only respond if I initiate first. I'm always left wondering if you actually want to spend time with me or interested. When I ask you about that, you seem to be deflecting instead of giving me a straight answer or tell me how you feel.. I literally have no idea what you feel most of the time aside from being busy
I can take it slow as a 100 years as long that I know the other person is also interested in building something together in the near future with me. I do want to make plans but it's hard to differentiate if I'm being used for my kindness or for attention when I receive no reassurance when being asked for it? Surely you understand the concept of return on investment.
Or maybe you're right, maybe I'm the problem idk..
HER
well, investment. I would say even my friends invest more on me than you, if you really want to argue that. I also think if we can't make good friends, we won't make good couples. If you rush things, I will retreat because I need my independence more than anything. Make you own choice. Do not talk like a victim.
I didnt really reply anything after that because well not sure how to respond after reading that so I ended up on reddit instead.
NEED OBJECTIVE OPINIONS/ADVICES? I consider myself pretty in tune with myself and my emotions but here I find myself a bit confused and I can't tell if I'm getting clingy or obsessive or too close to the situation to think clearly so I figured I'd make a post and hear some of yall thoughts on this to see if maybe I'm the one who still need to work on myself or maybe we're just not compatible? I guess it would also help me get some closure and not feel so shitty.
p.s if you made it this far, thank you for reading and hopefully you have some insight on my situation since I do not have that much experience when it comes to dating certain girls.
i also passively use twitter and saw this tweet that goes: I’ve noticed I don’t have an issue communicating. My issue is people’s responses . It’s the lack of accountability and the one-sided perceptions that I cannot tolerate.
And I thought that was kinda how I'm feeling right now but not sure ...
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2024.05.15 23:10 Witty_Big_5295 Bipolar + ADHD partner stops treating me like a girlfriend/partner during their low phase - they blame the absence of a therpist and multiple things that increased depression and anxiety

I just wanted to figure out if a person with ADHD and Bipolar 1 are capable of thinking about their partners needs while going through a low phase. For about 3-3.5 months, this person experienced some seriously sad life events one after the other. And as they were in that space, their behaviour towards me started changing. I had to beg for attention, dates were either not getting scheduled/cancelled, time together was not prioritised, intimacy was absent. It just became phone calls, and the only content of the calls was "things that bother both of us". The flirty messages, the cute gifts, the expressing of love for each other, the dates with fun activities were not happening. Basically everything that a couple does together was not happening. I started dying inside slowly after flagging that I would like things to get better... multiple times - and they just kept getting worse. During this, my partner almost forgot that I ALSO have emotional needs, didn't check with me about how I am dealing with the changes, didn't prioritise finding a therapist until I started showing how it's taking a toll on me (considering the fact that I had become the only person they felt comfortable enough to unmask around). They kept going on dates and planning activities with other partners because they could mask around them and the NRE helped them feel bettedistract from their issues. Which made me feel sidelined, deprioritised, and neglected. Now they've finally found a therapist and they have the bandwidth to do a bit more work towards being a better partner. But the damage is already done. I obviously REALLY tried to be there for them and be patient as they went through it. But what about my needs? When will I be treated like a partner? Why wasn't I given a heads up that they are incapable of showing any emotions or caring about my emotional needs? I am really hurt and I don't feel like meeting them or talking to them anymore. But I have been madly in love with them. They need me to stick around at least at some capacity (platonic if nothing else) - which is hard for both of us. And they don't know how to undo the damage/make up for what they did and I am not in a place to tell them what they can do to make it better. My cup is empty.
Any advice for me?
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2024.05.15 22:56 Careful-Season-7974 Probably the worst place to ask this, but is there a way to reverse this mindset?

I've been thinking whether I'm trans or not for months now. Every time I see a girl get a compliment I think "wow, i wish I was her", I do get compliments as a guy but it just doesn't do much for me.
I often think about how awesome it would be to have breasts, to not be judged and stereotyped for getting piercings and wearing makeup, not getting pattern baldness, maybe too often for comfort. My boyfriend called me a girl in bed last time and it felt oddly good too.
You'd probably think "wow, you want to look like a woman and be treated as a woman, just start transitioning, that's more than enough signs!", and it's...not that simple. Not at all.
First off, I still like my voice, especially the singing voice which I'd definitely not want to get rid of, and second I'm not a fan of either having my genitals stop functioning or removed altogether.
Those were the internal problems, and external ones...
1-its illegal to have a transition where I am. So move then? 2-not a chance, too poor. 3-my family is extremely transphobic. Find validation from your bf? 4-he hates the idea of me transitioning, and without him I don't have a chance to survive.
It's best to just let go of the desire, but it's very intrusive.
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2024.05.15 22:53 Patient-Fly-7279 AITAH for Wanting to Go on a Solo Hiking Trip Despite My Husband's Protests?

I (23F) and my husband (32M) have been married for three years. I had planned a solo hiking trip in the mountains for over two months. Hiking has always been my way to de-stress and find peace. The night before I was supposed to leave, my husband got upset and started a fight over financial responsibilities. He said he felt overwhelmed with the bills and that he was carrying more of the financial burden because he earns more. I work full-time as a teacher and also handle most of the household chores, but he compared me to his ex-wife and belittled my job, saying it wasn't as demanding as his job in construction.
I thought we had resolved the issue before I left, as I listened to him and acknowledged his feelings. However, the morning I was set to leave, he reignited the argument and accused me of being selfish for going on the trip. He got drunk and sent me angry texts, which ruined the first night of my trip because I was so upset.
The next morning, I woke up to a message from him that implied he was considering divorce. I was devastated and spent the entire day trying to find a way back home. I ended up taking two flights and then driving four hours home in tears. When I got home, he was extremely apologetic and promised it would never happen again. He admitted he has a pattern of starting fights whenever I make plans without him.
It's been over a week since I returned, and I'm still feeling resentful and angry. Part of me thinks we can move past this, but another part wonders if I should cut my losses and leave. AITAH for wanting to go on a solo hiking trip despite my husband's protests?
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2024.05.15 22:50 close2the don’t know if i misread a situation with a guy…

So i met this guy at my job and we immediately got into some pretty involved conversation. he’s super cute so naturally he peaked my interest once i noticed we were locked in. He read as straight for sure so i almost didn’t even bother with getting follow up info but 1: i read as straight to the untrained eye, 2: we were locked into some heavy convo while making some intense eye contact. enough for my coworkers to encourage me in a follow up. He added me on socials and then i asked if he wanted grab a beer. he said yes! we then proceeded to talk everyday for three weeks. novels. paragraphs. about all types of shit. eventually we do hangout and we chat for some hours. he eventually shows me a rock hard pic of his dick because he’s into penis pumps and dick health (?) to which he asked for thoughts. yes he knew i was gay. he was being super sweet to me. fast forward a couple of days to him saying he’s gonna be mia for a bit cause he’s busy. I’m working on my anxious attachment but when he said that i immediately felt like he was dipping out for good. it triggered me a bit because a LOT of straight men love to play games like this and somehow i am a fucking magnet for it. so i do what i always do and addressed it head on. i acknowledged we’ve been talking a bunch and it felt like he was dropping me. i’ve been friends with a lot of overly friendly straight guys so i wanted to check in. naturally, he flew off the handle and did everything but cuss me out. he said i don’t trust him, im not his boyfriend, he said “i barely have time to talk to my girlfriend, or myself and i gave you all the time i had” and that i only wanted to fuck him amongst a bunch of other shit. he also begrudgingly told me he had a gf and tried to downplay it after it fell out of his mouth back when we hung out. so, after that blowup i never responded. a month or two goes by and i decided to unfollow him on insta. we hadn’t spoken and he wasn’t super nice to me so i figured this was done. within five minutes of unfollowing he blew up again and said i gotta let petty shit go and once again i only wanted to fuck him yada yada yada, then he blocked me on everything.
I know this sounds crazy but i did miss talking to him. we talked about a bunch of shit and it was nice having someone showing up for me everyday. I probably shouldn’t have said anything to him but i CAN NOT allow myself to get hurt by a “straight” guy like this again. i’ve learned the signs so i call shit out immediately. but i can’t help but feel like maybe i really misread this situation. idk, what do yall think?
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2024.05.15 22:50 BS_DD4_16_24 DD confrontation and her reaction

My previous post covers some relationship history and issues we've been having
It's been a long time since I felt the need to look in her phone but I did this time she left it out.
I saw a recent image sent in chat on Snapchat she had sent someone of neck down cleavage at 8 pm a week before I found it. Taken during the day. Shirt and bra clearly adjusted to have her popping out way more than usual. Glass of wine. Clearly took some work and forethought. He saved the picture. He also saved a comment the next morning. It was a reply to a video she had sent where he said "best day ever of my life."
She had mentioned trying one of those "get the right size bra" things but said it was way too small of a cup and she was popping out of it. I didn't get to see it before it got returned but seemed like he got a picture.
Heart drops. Shaking hand. I'm in shock but I take a couple pictures with my phone and a video of their saved chat history, his username, start date (6 months ago). A bunch of cute but tame selfies with our kids. One more tame snap with one of our kids sent an hour before while I was getting the older one to bed. Checked a couple other places like texts, pictures, and Facebook quick to see if there was anything else recent. Nope. Put the phone back to avoid getting caught in the moment and retreated to the basement to calm down and process it.
I confronted her that night after she got into bed, recording audio with my phone. Mentioned how she should go bra and panty shopping and get some good stuff in person now that our youngest is getting older and she has her body back. That [snap username] would probably enjoy it. No reaction. I repeated it. "Huh?" "Who" I still remember the confused/expressionless face she held while I repeated the name again and she finally said "Oh. Him." Like damn right him. She denied doing anything inappropriate. I said well then you and I have vastly different definitions of inappropriate and showed her the picture of it and asked what other videos she had sent that night. She broke down a bit and said that the picture was a mistake but she hadn't sent anything else. I asked what the video was and she "didn't remember." I said I don't believe that for a second. It's only been a week and was sent right after a cleavage shot? I don't believe it for a second. She still "doesn't remember" as of today. Who is it? "My ex." I asked her how long it had been going on for. "Doesn't remember." I said stop lying. I don't believe you. And "I don't remember" just means I'm going to assume the worst and act that way so it's better if you tell me that truth. That my assumption is full nude/masturbating/etc and it she doesn't remember when it started because it never stopped. Her memory still wasn't working. I showed her the picture of when their friendship started 6 months ago and left the bedroom.
She came after me and it continued with more of the same until late in the night. Her saying that our marriage and kids mean everything to her and she sorry she fucked up and will do anything to make up for it. Apologized for the last few years of resentment fueled attacks and arguments. promised to make a change and that she would do whatever it takes to fix it. I told her that my trust was completely broken but that I wouldnt give up on our marriage and would give her another chance to fix it for the sake of our kids. I just don't know how to fix it and I need time to cope and think and process the shock. That we should see a therapist and I probably need one for myself too. Meanwhile she's not volunteering any more information that I hadn't already discovered myself. Just saying that they only talked about life stuff and she didn't care about him at all but she could vent to him about me. Again, "nothing inappropriate." Which I shut down hard again. That's still an emotional affair with someone you have a history with and if it hasn't been sexual the whole time it's definitely trending there now.
Ended up going to bed at the same time together, tired and emotionally drained. We had sex. It's been too long since we were intimate and I told her we can try to end the night on a positive.
I couldn't sleep.
Over the next days, I started reading whatever I could find about affair recovery. Found some therapist articles and videos. Found this sub and the other related ones. Followed some links. Went to work. Talked to her late into the night after the kids went to sleep. It kept bugging me that she didn't seem to be willing to be fully honest with me. She definitely made other changes and has been helping more around the house and being a lot nicer like when we were dating. Offering time for me to do things for myself and being receptive and showing empathy for my emotions. Still not willing to really share anything that didn't get discovered. Doesn't remember anything else. Says "nothing inappropriate happened." I tried to explain that I can try and move on and work to rebuild the relationship and that I appreciate it that she was making a good effort to make those changes, but that my trust was broken and continuing to lie about the content, extent, etc. would just tear all that work down when it came out. That I needed her to be totally honest and not put her guilt or shame or whatever ahead of the need to disclose everything and end the lies or I might never trust her again.
I asked her to let me go through her phone. She initially said yes. I also said I wasn't comfortable with her staying on Snapchat and I'd like her to delete it. She didn't share the phone right away and then later in the talk changed her mind saying she wasn't comfortable because she was feeling attacked. I said I don't like that answer because it seems selfish and she hasn't shown that she deserves privacy. And what happened to the "I'll do anything to fix it" promise because our marriage and kids are the most important thing to her? She still said she wasn't comfortable with it after I went behind her back to look at it. Typical cheater excuses and deflection, right? I told her she's on exceedingly thin ice and that she had better not delete anything. I allowed it, thinking internally it can serve as a test because I'm already checking out and losing faith that she'll do what it takes to reconcile or change. Also knowing she probably wouldn't think to clear out the trash and she'd do my work for me to smoke out anything she's hiding. I checked the next day and there were a bunch of pictures sent to trash that day. Oddly enough, nothing that bad from the quick peek I got. Mirror shot of her back but fully clothed was the closest thing to sexual. Didn't say anything yet, figuring I'd wait until the kids went to sleep and see if she'd give up the phone willingly and find them there in the trash. Before that though, I noticed on my phone that she disappeared off of Snapchat. Asked her if she deleted it already and she said "yeah, you asked me to." To which I said yeah, but that was when you agreed to show me first. When you prevented that, I told you not to delete anything and it seems like you just used that as an excuse to justify covering your tracks. Also, that deleted all of our saved snaps in chat of our relationship and our kids from both sides. I said I would have liked to back those up because she used it regularly to capture memories instead of her camera.
Whatever. Turns out Snapchat doesn't actually delete anything for 30 days and they come back if you download and log in, so nice try I guess?
She told me his name at one point but I'm bad with names and forgot it in the stress. I looked at her phone again in the middle of the night. Found a conversation between them on instagram from when she was ~7mo pregnant with our first. He initiated, asking to see her sexy belly and she was quick to comply. Went back and forth with compliments and pictures and he asked to video chat. She said she didn't want to because she looked big and exhausted. He said not now, but what about ever? She didn't respond. What do you know, a few days later he spontaneously decided to reinstall Snapchat and asked to add her, giving the same username as the one I saw but his real name was on instagram. Then that went silent. Theres a 3.5 yr gap from then to the latest add. He seems to delete and make new snapchat accounts often. I took a video of the chat history. Go to take an extra picture of the contact info. Fuck! Phone has flash on and she stirs. Oh well. I'm pissed and I don't really care if she catches me. I just don't say anything when she asks what I was doing, but I've got more evidence saved now and I'm
trying to figure out how to check the rest thoroughly before it's totally scrubbed or I'll never be able to confirm anything she says when the gaslighting comes.
He's been married for over 10 years. Has 3 kids. No wonder he has to delete Snapchat
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2024.05.15 22:40 tatertotlauncher [WIP] First project almost finished - Hello Kitty & Mimmy

[WIP] First project almost finished - Hello Kitty & Mimmy
I’ve been embroidering for ages, but when I was wandering around Kinokuniya recently, I found a Japanese-language cross stitch book of patterns for Hello Kitty. I thought it was so cute that I bought it and then I used the text recognition and translation function on my phone to figure out the things that were in Japanese that were a bit obscure to me.
I wasn’t really sure where to start and instead of googling how to cross stitch, I grabbed some 14 count Aida I had on hand, drew a grid with frixion markers, and started out with Kitty, who I did from the outside in. After completing her, I read a bit more about how to cross stitch and created Mimmy from the inside out, basically (nose first).
Anyway, I am finding this to be a very engrossing and relaxing hobby, so I’ll keep at it!
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2024.05.15 22:36 Majestic-Program7409 AITAH for ending a friendship because of her jealousy?

I've this classmate who I'm friends with. We're not extremely close, but we're in the same group of friends. Let's call her S. S is a really selfless person who can be kinda shy sometimes. She's extremely sensitive and when she's stressed or overwhelmed she can snap.
I met this girl last year, along with other girl I'll call M. M is a really carefree girl. She can be oblivious and honestly just a really chill person. M doesn't take things too personal, unlike S, who can think you're mad at her just by talking with someone else.
So I met this two girls and it was pretty clear that S was way too attached to M. They've known each other as much as I've known them, but still, S is always so affected by whatever M does.
As I said, M is a pretty chil person so she doesn't even notice this behavior from S. Some stuff S does are:
-Asking M to keep secrets, but then make painfully obvious to the rest of the group that there's a secret.
-Turn conversation of 4-5 people into a private coversation of her and M.
-Talk to me and the others when she thinks M is mad a her (Just because M is talking someone else)
-One of the last things she did was pass a paper between her and M with me literally in the middle.
I never really cared about this as I have other friends, but it was still a problem we all knew. The worst part? This attachment is totally one sided as M was completely oblivous and she even considers S just a classmate.
This new year rolls in and my best friend left our school. I was really thinking about this thing S has of excluding others, but I decided that I just needed to speak with new people. So there's this new guy "L" who happens to like the same author as me. We dont talk much, just exchange words, messages and just one proper conversation of around 20 minutes.
I first texted him, but a few days later we spoke during break time. Our conversation ended when I felt someone PULLING FROM MY HAIR for me to get up (I hate being pulled by my hair) and it's S, who then asked me what I was talking about with L. I explained and didn't think much of it.
But since then she started with this passive-aggressive comments like "Don't go with that guy or I'll get jealous", but always in a joking manner.
Then during a music class, we're all around the piano. Suddenly, S started to pull from my shirt with nervous laughter asking me to "take her out of there" M and I laughed and help her get out, but without understanding much. We got worried when S started crying.
After a long back and forth where she wouldn't tell us what's going on, she finally said that she and L exchanged glances, he politely smiled at her and she smiled back in a weird way.
Yeah, that's it. She got nervous and was embarrased because of her weird smile.
When asked why she smiled like that she said "Because I didn't want to be cute, I wanted to be like OP".
Since then I started thinking about everything and got weirded out. I texted a friend and told them everything, they told me that she probably liked L. I though the same, but wanted to let it go because she has a boyfriend.
The next day we're eating and S is looking down, I sat down beside her and she told me "Go with your friend, L. You're replacing me with him. That's why I'm mad" I laughed awkwardly and ignored her.
A few days later I met with my best friend and told her everything, we walked to M's place and told her everything too. From the attachment to her jealousy. Needless to say, we were all weirded out.
Here's where I found out from M that S texts her A LOT every day till M replies (Neither of us is really active on social media except for S who answers messages quickly). She also told me about a dream S had and where she basically told M, that she though I was mad and distant (I was).
Everyone agress that me and L barely talk, and even if we did talk a lot, it shouldn't matter to her.
Since then I've been talking less with her. A few days ago I ate lunch with someone else (no on purpose) and I think she got mad because today she didn't try to talk to me at all (good for me tbh) and when I went to eat, she avoided our table and only sat when I was away.
I don't think I'm the asshole, but this is so confusing.
A lot of people really like her and sometimes I can be impulsive. AITAH?
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