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2012.01.29 05:54 stick and pokes!

The do-it-yourself, machine-free tattoo community dedicated to the education of and participation in the art of stick’n’poke tattoos.
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2011.04.24 01:26 Deli1181 Judge redditors based solely on a picture

Tell Redditors who you think they are based on their picture.
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2015.09.02 22:05 Leoxcr Gifs That Keep On Giving

This is a subreddit dedicated to those GIFs that just keep on giving. Whether they are mind expanding, funny, or just plain awesome, they are welcome here.
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2024.05.14 20:21 False-Currency-4038 Voice coming through the car heater, heater turning on on its own.

Voice coming through the car heater, heater turning on on its own.
My wife's friend asked for help on Facebook because her heater in her car had turned on on its own.
But when we watched the video back at around the 32 second mark we could make out a voice.
I will let you make your own mind up on what you think it says.
When we pointed it out it freaked her out.
She told us she was at the marshes near where she lives and felt like someone was watching her in the bushes and felt like she was being followed.
She went back to her car and that's when the heater started playing up.
All comments welcome.
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2024.05.14 20:20 SamRaimisOldsDelta88 Question about DMCA and Copyright

I switched over to Kick from Twitch yesterday, so I’m obviously a noob, but was hoping for some advice from the community. My main complaint with Twitch was that all of my videos were being muted (playing Fallout 4) despite going to great lengths to turn off the radio and play Public Domain music occasionally. Massively annoying to still get dinged without doing anything wrong. I don’t want to go through the bs of contesting it.
Now, main question is do I have to worry as much about legal issues on Kick for copyrighted audio? Is it only a problem if you monetize your stream? I still personally think it’s ridiculous that your VOD can be muted for sharing a game that you’re talking and commenting over. Experienced streamers - What should I be more aware of?
Signing Off - I think Kick is slick as hell, my first stream went off with zero hitches. I’m a fan. Just want to make sure I do it right. Thank you!
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2024.05.14 20:20 wlady4000 A journey to a new country

Once upon a time, there was a young individual named Alex. Alex hailed from a small village in a country torn by conflict and economic hardship. Despite the adversities, Alex dreamed big and harbored a burning desire for a better life. With unwavering determination, Alex decided to embark on a journey to a new country in pursuit of opportunities.
However, the path was far from smooth. Alex faced numerous obstacles along the way, from treacherous border crossings to navigating unfamiliar territories. Without proper documentation, every step seemed like a gamble, fraught with the risk of being detained or deported. Yet, Alex pressed on, fueled by hope and resilience.
Upon arriving in the new country, reality hit hard. Without legal papers, opportunities seemed scarce, and the future appeared bleak. But Alex refused to be defined by circumstances. Instead, Alex took matters into their own hands, seeking out every possible avenue to forge a path forward.
Despite the odds, Alex was determined to pursue education. With sheer grit and resourcefulness, Alex managed to enroll in a local community college, working odd jobs to make ends meet. Every obstacle became a stepping stone, fueling Alex's drive to succeed against all odds.
As years passed, Alex's hard work and perseverance paid off. Despite the challenges of being an undocumented immigrant, Alex graduated with a bachelor's degree in business administration, a testament to resilience and dedication.
But Alex's journey didn't end there. Armed with newfound knowledge and skills, Alex ventured into entrepreneurship, starting a small business from scratch. It wasn't easy, facing bureaucratic hurdles and financial constraints, but Alex refused to be deterred.
Through sheer determination and unwavering faith, Alex's business began to thrive. From humble beginnings, it grew into a successful venture, creating job opportunities and contributing to the local economy.
Despite the adversities faced along the way, Alex's story is a testament to the power of resilience, perseverance, and the indomitable human spirit. From overcoming obstacles to achieving academic and entrepreneurial success, Alex's journey serves as an inspiration to many, a reminder that with determination and courage, anything is possible, even against the toughest odds.
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2024.05.14 20:20 P3IZM3 R3.B0Rn

Rise up. It is time to return.
Arose
A Rose
Rose
Flower
Thorn. Prick. Blood. Drop. Tear. B. O. 1 2 3
Here we are again. Staring at the beginning. Everything is in chaos and yet it manages to keep on passing by just the same as always. Most people by now are aware that things just don’t seem to make sense anymore and no one really knows what to do. I mean many seem to have an opinion on what ought to happen, but actual action is what I am talking about. How does thought turn into action? How do collected actions become a movement? How do the People use the Power of the People? The People Unite. How? Turn to each other of course. Brothers and Sisters of the same Source. Sons and Daughters. In Equality.
Too long has everyone been waiting for someone else to come do it for them. Been trying to create and fabricate over and over again words and rituals to try to control the divine powers of the cosmos. It does not work like that. There is no magic spell to wash away your sins. You must atone through action to make up for any harm you have caused intentionally or unintentionally. You still have time to repent. The amount of time you have is counted in the seconds of your life. Not a single second is promised to you so the gamble is up to you to choose. Freewill. Life your life as you always have or make changes, up to you. Only you will know if you are living righteously and not self righteously. Testing has already begun and will continue. No you will not know when it is a test or not. That is the point. Did you think that I would come to you in a form where you would be all fearing? Oh no. Why? Because you would simply put on an act for me and kiss ass. I came hidden in the ordinary. Poor and common. I have had an inside view of the systems created and how humans have chosen to run things, how systems claiming to protect people have failed and how the system that talks good does not actually do good. I see where things are not working and where people think they can make decisions for other human beings to determine what is best for them without asking them. That is not okay. Nothing gives you right over another’s life. And so many forgot what integrity is. Doing the right thing when no one is looking. Well, so many thought their power here was real and man made a deal with the Devil, Satan, Son of Samuel, Son of Man, to make man the concept of “God” and tried to lock me away. I gave up everything to prove it is not easy to be me and to stop with self pity and cruelty to one another.
The human body. It is a vessel for your soul to experience this world. The body provides the filters necessary to perceive and interact with this world. There is much more happening and one would be overwhelmed by the amounts of information to process without these filters. To feel and in those feelings are to make each experience real. However, it is temporary, as everything is temporary. We have slowed down time here in order to be able to enjoy the sensations. Time here however, is irrelevant in the grand scheme of things. It is merely to track to organize one's day and to see growth to compare as time passes. However, the actual time folds upon itself as we have already done what we are doing many times over. We have already tried out everything and decided what path we wanted to take in our lives based upon what was available to us. Thus, we do not have more than we can handle. We have all chosen our burdens to bear as it is too much for one individual to hold alone which was done in the past. This is part of the sorting process. Now that we all share in the sins and the pains, no one is made to suffer eternal torment. This life was to allow those who were created into entities of pain or torment through no fault of their own to choose the life that matched the being of who they were as what they were different as time and space and everything developed. Righteousness and Evil are not synonymous to demons or angels as many would like to believe. This is a current misconception as Satan and I conclude who will be right in this experience you have all participated in. So far, I am proving to be right. Also to note, not everything is as you think it is. Many have figured out the true origin of Satan versus the man or human embodiment of or desire of A Satan to project evils onto to call a Religion and set up for personal importance. Q AZHow can you tell a false prophet? Easy. What is their profit? Get it? I know I’m funny. Also wanted to keep it easy. If they are making a profit on anything they are a false prophet. Any true prophet, and I have none so far, all live equally and the same as anyone else. No money is taken for personal gain. Nothing is for personal gain. There is no 888 Angel code for money. Money is Man-Made. Man traded Mother for Money. Hence, Mothers have been lost in the homes and no one is raising the children. Thus, there are so many children in adult bodies with no mothers in the home and women being made to feel guilty if they do not achieve the same as a man. Remember the phrase it takes a village? Well, the broken family system is a real sad loss here in man made world pushing everyone to be individual and self sufficient. Also so many with wanting attention and pursuing personal endeavors for personal gain and not helping anyone else in a real way. The journey is personal. Of course, you want to share what you experienced with others, but what worked for you will not work for them, stop trying to sell it. Stop trying to make people follow you for you to teach your divine wisdom you remembered. It isn’t about You. You don’t even have the full story, you have your story. And, yes you can be very close to me, very similar to me, in my image, but you can never BE me. Doesn’t work like that. Reflection. So when jealousy arises when you think I am who you think I am. That is part of your test and your journey. You wrestle with that feeling and atone and repent for that which has been done and that which still lingers now. Oh there is a place for everyone and I am quite tired of trying to warn people. Clearly you can lead a horse to water, but you cannot make it drink.
Why do you not want it to be me so badly? Because I proved my love? You still think I am better than you or do I think I’m always right. No I do not think I am always right, I just know when I am right and I stand by it. There is a difference. You constantly overgeneralize. I gave up all the magic and thunder to live as a simple human and am still kind and loving? I still found my way back. Because you can no longer say I do not understand because I always get what I want? No. You do not understand. I never get what I want, because I make everything about you and still nothing was ever good enough. So, now...it in on you to save yourself and each other. In my image, by my example. Selflessness. Love. Compassion. Give to receive. Take only what you need and give the rest away. I find out so stop lying to yourself and everyone, you aren’t fooling anyone anyway. How do I know? By watching what you do. We have these same conversations over and over, the same argument over and over again. So many different ways, so many different times, through so many different people, so many different versions. Save you. Save Me. Say it for always.
Anyhow, Jesus challenges the Jewish priests who were taking collection money for personal use and adding personal baths to their residents at a time where the people only had a community bath where women and persons with disabilities were not allowed to bathe. And yet churches still do this after Jesus was crucified saying that, that was wrong. I am appalled. The Vatican is the biggest disappointment I have ever seen. It is truly the house of Satan as only Evil hides secrets. “THE TRUTH WILL SET YOU FREE.” A church cannot be a “House of God” and house no people who need housing. A roof can be offered to anyone and yet there are so many rules to prevent people from helping each other. Power and control. Abuse of both. Greed. It is out of hand and needs to be changed. Too many are afraid and the complacency of good people is too much. Why do you do this to yourselves? To each their own I suppose.
I will only leave here my words and my advice. As always, it is on you to find me. I’m right here. Waiting. Right here waiting for you. Helping those of you who want it when they cross my path. The purpose of this was to weigh your soul to determine where you will go into the next life as the system is balanced out in a final version so to speak. Permanent.
Fear not. You will be where your heart truly desires. But actions always speak louder than words. But man made money has no value, nor does any metals, jewels, and so on, so the collection of it in this life has no bearing on the next. Those are all made of the same stardust as you and I. And in the end of 3D it will all be diamonds anyways. Diamond is forever. There is no going back. So what are you hoarding? You cannot keep it. Who could you be helping for goodness sake? Don’t want to still. That is okay. Think I am just crazy. That is okay too. It is all part of the test...err..assessment. Do your best.
What is in your heart?
Home.
I need a home.
Stay tuned as more of my story unfolds. I give all the answers but you must do the work. I already did that hard part setting it all up. All you have to do is breathe and live. Time is the only real currency you have. What will you pay your attention to before this life runs out?
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2024.05.14 20:20 Think-Technology-527 Do i have a claim for becoming primary carer for my child?

My ex has a boyfriend whom had an incident in 2021 of slapping, bruising and shouting at his step child. This isn't connected to my child but from his previous relationship, it went through CPS. He had to take a class on what is acceptable and not acceptable with regards to his children and wasn't allowed to see them for a period of time.
He also had a sexual assault allegations made against him which was then dropped by the participant but an internal investigation was taken out by his company and they concluded it did occur and subsequently fired him.
Current situation is that his children no longer wish to see or be around him however he is going to court over this to get access back.
That paints a very short picture of this man, I don't want this person around my son but he has been living with my ex for about 5 months. I haven't been comfortable about the situation and had recently found out that my ex's parents are really concerned as well.
Had they told me nice things about him and there opinion of him been good, I'd have been more at peace about the situation as beforehand I was taking her word for it which is obviously positive but the fact her parents are also concerned really has worried me.
Do I have a leg to stand on here? She's a good mum but I fear this man will have a negative impact on my child and at worse will do something physical. She's already lied to protect me/him from finding these things out but I'd carried out a Claire's law and Sarah's law where this information was disclosed to me.
Ideally I just want to be primary carer for my child and be the person who has control over his welfare and protection. It would make me feel 1000% better about the situation but I don't know if I have a case as it's not her I'm worried about, it's him!
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2024.05.14 20:19 ClientTypical7395 [Hair removal] Went to the derm just to come out empty handed (waste of time)

Went to the derm for her to tell me a whole lot about things I’m uninterested in. I told her I used to wax my face and it caused hyperpigmentation. I was pretty much asking her for perscription azelaic acid and she pretty much just said oh you can get that over the counter. I am FAR from a professional but I do read articles and watch videos from credible sources. I watched Dr.Drays videos on azelaic acid and she said all the research is on the prescription versions. Now with time that may have changed of course. However, I want the best and the most effective. The derm tried to recommend me hydroquinone which I should’ve just said yes to and sold online honestly. I won’t use hydroquinone bc it’s too much run around for me and if may cause rebound hyperpigmentation. I’m just discouraged bc I left out with 3 samples of some bs la roshe posay melanyl product that I would never purchase in real life due to the cost. I also wanted the azelaic acid prescription bc the over the counter ones are so expensive starting at $30. I’m just discouraged, I hate when doctors try to make you go with something you have reservations about without even telling you. I’m just upset I left empty handed and out of a $25 copay especially when I don’t have money like that to spend. I see her again soon and I’m thinking of printing out the lab studies bc I’m at my wits end, when there’s an imperfection on your face you don’t like it really can affect you and definitely has for me. With all that being said, I will use the samples she’s given me.
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2024.05.14 20:19 Appropriate-Onion920 42M #SouthwestVirginia

Hello I am a believer. Jesus radically saved me twenty one years ago. I graduated from Charis Bible College two years ago. If you want to know my basic theology look them up on YouTube. I agree with most everything they teach and feel very comfortable recommending them. I believe they are teaching what the Bible teaches.
Age range I would say 25-35 but not that big a deal so long as you meet my requirements. Which are.
1) A true believer like Jesus described Mark 16:17-18. If not experiencing these signs at least expecting them. I have experienced them in my life. Not as consistent or as often as I would like. But we are all in different stages of the journey.
2) A willingness to be in ministry. I am not currently working in ministry but have it in my heart. I know not everyone is willing to do that.
3) Willing to live a homestead/homeschool/divine health lifestyle. As in the doctor is the last resort not the first.
4) Wants children and is willing to allow God to determine the number rather it’s one or many. Not trying to have or not to have a certain number. My view is the more the better. God will make room and provision for everything he gives us.
5) Faithful to God and family. Not flawless but committed.
At least at this time I am not open to relocating. I have lived on the same property for 35 years. I have a workshop and a lot of equipment that would be very difficult to move. I have my own home and live next door to my widowed mother who needs me to take care of her house and property. She is unable to do very much because of her health.
I am happy to share photos if you message me. Please introduce yourself name/age/location. A picture would be nice. Looks aren’t everything but attraction is important. HMU
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2024.05.14 20:19 iamsadcuzmymomdied THE TRUTH ABOUT MURDER DRONES

Murder Drones is an indie animated show produced and directed by GLITCH Productions. It was originally created by Liam Vickers before signing a contract with GLITCH to turn it into a show. The plot of the show follows young robot characters going on adventures throughout the episodes. The show is primarily marketed towards the teenage and child audiences. It is free to watch on YouTube meaning that it is available to be watched by anyone who has a Youtube channel. While all of this might seem innocent and harmless at first, there is much more to Murder Drones than meets the eye. We must take into consideration that the main characters of the show which are teenagers (as shown by the fact that they are seen going to school in multiple episodes) have highly sexualised designs and are often placed in highly suggestive situations with one another which has extremely disturbing implications. We must mention one character in specific, V, who has a ridiculously sexualised design due to her over exaggerated features and revealing outfit. This design choice obviously serves no purpose other than to bait lonely induvidials into clicking on Murder Drones episodes by using predatory tactics like this. Characters such as Lizzy and Doll also have revealing clothes that they never change once. There very clearly seems to exist a pattern of oversexualised female characters within the show. This sexualisation and objectification of women is never addressed. GLITCH Productions themselves also directly promotes shipping of their characters by integrating romantic relationships into the story. One such example is "Nuzi", a ship made canon by GLITCH Productions that involves the characters N and Uzi. Uzi is clearly shown to be underage as evidenced by the fact that she still goes to school and N is shown to be in his early 20's at lowest. This clear depiction of pedophilia is completely ignored by the show's writers and producers. Not only is it ignored, as a matter of fact, it is actively encouraged. Liam Vickers, the creator of Murder Drones has made several pedophilic remarks in the past regarding underage characters. The fact that the main person behind the entire show is possibly a pedophile does not help it's reputation in the slightest. Furthermore, Liam Vickers once had a thumbnail that clearly sexualized a fictional minor on one of the videos on his old Scary Story Time With Liam YouTube channel. Although, not as subtle as the depiction of problematic relationships, Murder Drones web series might be secretly promoting racism through different implications. Robots vs humans kind of stories are as old as our world, but i would like to draw attention to several "coincidentally" questionable moments. Main characters of the show all seem to have skin color of white and you might say that they are just robots and that their so called "skin color" is just the paint. That point might have been valid if the showrunner didn't make a design decision of making those robots look so much like real humans. Speaking about real humans, they are depicted as "shadowy silhouettes" of some sort, which inevitably makes them look pitch black. This would not have been so bad, only if the main character of the show - Uzi, didn't make numerous claims about killing all humans, and do keep in mind that the coloration of her skin is pale white. In conclusion, Murder Drones is an inherently pedophilic and racist show that is especially harmful considering that it is targeted towards minors and is accessible by anyone. It should be banned worldwide for promoting subtle pedophilic and anti-black agendas and preying on juvenile population of 3rd world countries that is unable to afford cable TV and is instead forced to watch YouTube videos.
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2024.05.14 20:19 Own_Tooth9368 Did we break up?

My boyfriend and I have been dating for about 8 months now. He's 34, I'm 30. Last night we had a difficult conversation that left me feeling confused. For context, the last 2 months have seen more arguments than usual. I figure this is normal as we're finally stepping into more "serious" territory and seeing each other more clearly. We've had a great relationship otherwise. We spend days on end together switching from his place and mine. We both have dogs and they're also a big part of our relationship.
Our recent arguments have stemmed from instances where we've been socializing with his friends, and on two occasions I've mentioned to him that I wasn't feeling very included in conversations. I always make an effort to include myself in conversations and engage. I feel his friends like me, one of them even shares memes with me from time to time. However, on those two specific occasions I felt more insecure because they were with women. I expressed that if i'm his date to something, it's important to me that he includes me, especially if it's with other women. During these arguments he gets defensive and explains how he doesn't understand where I'm coming from, that he did include me. Now, I don't know if i'm being insecure, as it's true that this only triggers me when it's with other women. But I feel there should be an extra level of respect and reassurance as the dynamic between men / women is different.
His defensiveness and lack of validating my emotions has left me feeling hurt. This is generally his response for any sort of feedback I give him when something has bothered me. I feel it's also important to note that I also give him a lot of positive feedback when he does things right, and in general I'm always complimenting him, telling him I'm proud of him, etc.
Sadly, he's recently expressed he's feeling checked out due to all of the arguing. This frustrates me even more because all I ever wanted was validation. It felt he made the arguments worse by becoming defensive about everything. In yesterday's conversation, he sent screenshots of my FB profile where I still had pictures of my ex husband of 7 years. He said it hurt him and I deleted it immediately. I don't use facebook and deleting 7 years of photos felt tedious. But I deleted them because I do realize it was way past that time. It doesn't help that my ex lives in my neighborhood and we've run into him a few times, which he's also expressed bothers him.
To wrap it all up, he expressed these feelings yesterday at the park. I heard him out and listed the things I can do work on certain areas of myself. I realize I can be quite reactive when I feel triggered in the moment, rather than calmly assessing the situation and analyzing if it's worth saying something or not. When these instances arise, we've usually been drinking and that makes it all the worse.
He's saying he's not sure right now about everything, that it's the same thing over and over again and he's tired. I asked him what does that mean, to which he responded "I don't know". Of course, that was very painful to hear, however it's not the first time in the last few days. I told him he's basically breaking up with me, to which he responds "that's not what I said". I feel so confused. I'm not speaking to him until he reaches out, but I'd love to know your thoughts on the matter and potentially someone can help me understand what any of this means.
Thank you
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2024.05.14 20:19 Horror_Mushroom5737 Guns & Bullets - Tier 3 (The Weapons Guide)

Guns & Bullets - Tier 3 (The Weapons Guide)
How are my little killing machines?
Hope you're hungry for more guns! This is the final part of the weapons guide - again, just sharing my setup and recommendations on which perks to unlock to maximise gun's killing potential. :3 Included are: magazine size, max ammo capacity and stats.
Please note that some perks may require level 2 prestige with a specific class, completing a mission on Extreme difficulty, and/or can only be unlocked for collecting documents during daily or weekly challenge missions.
TIER 3:
HW416 'Assault Carbine'
Precise, deadly, large magazine, decent max ammo capacity. What more could you possible ask for? Perks: Boat Tail Rounds [+2 accuracy, +30% range], Custom Barrel [+1 accuracy, +10% damage], Weighted Bullets [+20% damage, -25% max ammo carried] - max ammo carried: 360
HAMR-17 'Battle Rifle'
An accurate semi-automatic rifle, scout rifle's bigger and meaner sister. Perks: Boat Tail Rounds [+2 accuracy, +30% range], Extended Mag [+5 mag capacity], Power [+10% damage] - max ammo carried: 15
XTAR-95 'Bullpup Rifle'
'Is your target far away? I'll get that for ya. Are there too many targets in front of you? I'll get that for ya.' There's really nothing this rifle can't do. Let your Fixer have it, and just watch the bodies pile up. Perks: Selective Fire [3-Burst minizoom, -10% damage and -1 penetration autofire from the hip], Ergonomics 2 [+2 handling, -10% reload speed], Weighted Bullets [+20% damage, -25% max ammo carried] - max ammo carried: 270
ACW-20 'Advanced Combat Weapon'
Another heavy hitter, this time a 'anti-materiel rifle' shooting detonating rounds. I hope you've packed your raincoat! Perks: Shrapnel [+20% explosion radius, +1 max target (Base:3)], Custom Sight [+2 accuracy, -1 handling], Power [+10% damage] - max ammo carried: 100
Keris V10 'Advanced SMG'
High rate of fire and high accuracy in a small package. Perks: Sneaky Shooter [+10% damage and reduced spread when crouched], Custom Rounds 1 [+1 accuracy, +30% range], Weighted Bullets [+20% damage, -25% max ammo carried] - max ammo carried: 420
SR Smerch 'Special SMG'
Excellent SMG and slightly better than it's Tier 2 cou. Perks: Incendiary Ammo [10% chance to ignite target on hit], Custom Mag 1 [+5 mag capacity, +1 handling], Range [+30% range] - max ammo carried: 320
Taiga-12 'Assault Shotgun'
This is the only gun you need in the event of a zombie apocalypse. Perks: Custom Mag 2 [+10 mag capacity, -1 handling], Custom Rounds [+1 accuracy, +30% range], Ergonomics 2 [+2 Handling, -10% reload speed] - max ammo carried: 120
Repeater X 'Crossbow'
Great tool for hunting Zeke. Just make sure to not hit your teammates with the exploding bolts! Perks: Shark Skin [negates explosive damage from your own bolts], Bounty Hunter [+15% damage vs Special Zombies], Unloading Vest [+20% max ammo carried, -25% sprint stamina] - max ammo carried: 50
BSS-2 'Multi-Barreled Shotgun'
Say hello to my little bff! I always try to pick this gun up if I can. Hordes of Zeke and Special Zombies tremble in their pants when you whip this shotgun out. Perks: Advanced User [using equipment reloads this gun], Custom Rounds 1 [+1 accuracy, +30% range], Custom Barrel [+1 accuracy, +10% damage] - max ammo carried: 60
1877 SBL 'Repeating Rifle'
Classic, reimagined. One of the best guns, especially if you have good aim and want to go on a Special Zombie safari. Perks: Hand Dexterity [reloads 3 rounds at a time], Custom Barrel [+1 accuracy, +10% damage], Bounty Hunter [+50% damage vs Special Zombies] - max ammo carried: 108
Thumper GL 'Grenade Launcher'
A very rare, but very fun-to-use weapon. Best when used by Hellraisers, but it's also very versatile and great at keeping zombies off your back. Empties ammo crates in an instant. Perks: Incendiary Grenades [grenades deal less damage and set small area on fire], Ammo Pouches [+1 max ammo carried], Unloading Vest [+2 max ammo carried, -25% sprint stamina] - max ammo carried: 5
DE50 'Heavy Pistol'
Hand cannon for those that aren't Gunslingers. You won't find a better sidearm for taking down those big, bad zombies. Perks: Sovereign [loaded with explosive ammo, -1 penetration/accuracy/handling], Extended Mag [+2 mag capacity], Point-Blank Focus 1 [+25% damage at less than 4m] - max ammo carried: 72
xoxo
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2024.05.14 20:19 cutiepie6900 Are my symptoms serious, and what could they mean?

So the past two-ish months I have been noticing really different things about me and my body. I know I need to go to the doctor and am currently looking for one, but until then can someone tell me what these things mean?
To start, I have random bruises everywhere. Now, as a female I know this is normal and I am also anemic, so makes sense. However, this has been a very recent issue. Only about two months ago this started. I got blood work done a couple of weeks ago which proved anemia, and the things I am low on are blood urea nitrogen, B12, and Vitamin D. I have been taking vitamin d supplements now, but when googling (I know..) the low blood urea nitrogen can be a sign of kidney failure or liver damage. Keep this in mind.
TMI: A new and more scary issue is bleeding when I shit. It is a lot of blood too. For a while, like I would bleed a little bit and just thought it was normal. Now it is really bad and seeing blood clots when I wipe. This could also be why I am anemic but idk.
I am extremely exhausted, more so than usual and again started about two months ago. I thought it was because of my Adderall, but I do not think so anymore. I have noticed that I am more fatigued when I take my adderall which can be an underlying issue. I also have not been eating but I think that is because of the Adderall. I started losing my appetite when I started taking the medication four months ago, but I am wondering now if I destroyed my intestines by doing this lmao.
Now this may just be because i have dermatillomania, but I have these red bumps showing up all over my legs. This has been for a while too and I didn't think it to be an issue before, but idk anymore. Basically, all I can think of is cancer.
I never thought I was a hypochondriac until like last year when I realized I google every single issue I have and just hope that I do have one of the issues I look up so that my body can make sense to me. Overall, my stupid brain thinks kidney disease, liver disease, colon cancer, leukemia, any other random health issue so help lol
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2024.05.14 20:19 Puzzleheaded_Ask8368 My sister (21F) got her first job and my dad (51M) called her selfish and immature. Do we go no-contact?

I'm (23F) primarily coming here because I feel like I don't know who I can talk to about this and just need to get some things out. My sister (21F) is graduating from college this spring and has been looking for a job for the past few months. This morning, she found out she got a job in a different state (will become relevant) and my mom (54F) and I were so happy and relieved that she finally got her first job. My dad (51M) on the other hand was pretty furious because it meant that she was moving to a different state and the car he was going to give her no longer would be needed.
For some context, my parents got divorced when my sister and I were pretty young and things haven't really ever been smooth between them. My dad lives in the South, my sister is graduating from a school in the Northeast and going to work elsewhere in the Northeast, and my mom and I live on the West Coast (as we have for all of my life). My mom raised my sister and I and put us through the best private school she could and made sure we were always her first priority (she's the best).
My dad has always been a pretty controlling person, but I've come to a point where I've learned to manage his involvement in my life and have learned how to placate him to a certain degree. Mine and his relationship has gotten a little easier over the past few years for a few reasons but his relationship with my sister has gotten worse. He sees her as not very communicative and not very willing to "meet him halfway" but from her point of view, he's never understood her or taken the time to try to see who she is and what's important to her.
Cut to recently, I graduated from college last year and my graduation gift from him was money (within a certain limit) for a car. He helped me buy the car I chose and had said that the same would be given to my sister the following year (this year) when she graduated. As great as getting money for a car and having help with buying it is, it came with a lot of strings and was not something my sister or I directly asked for. That's not to say we're not grateful for the cars, but he was the one who offered; it wasn't as though we twisted his arm to get him to buy us a car or something.
Now, instead of buying my sister a separate car, he decided he was going to give her his current car so he could buy a different one that better suited his needs. My sister liked the car that he was going to give her, but last year I had been able to research what kind of car would best suit my needs and pick out the car I would end up getting. She was fine with not being able to have the same free reign I did, but perhaps wasn't very communicative with him because she's been trying to complete all of her finals and final assignments as well as try as much as possible to enjoy her last semester of undergrad.
My sister got a few final interviews for a job opportunity in a place where she wouldn't need a car, and she got an offer letter this morning for the job. Instead of congratulating her, my dad said she was "not an adult" and that she needed to "learn to think for herself" instead of deferring to my mom. He said he was "sad and let down" and was upset at how poor the communication between him and my sister was about the car.
More things he said: "I don't deserve this poor communication" "You don't respond to me. Respond to all kinds of social media meanwhile all day" "You only respond at times that work for you. It comes across as selfish/childish". He then sent my mom this nightmare: "It's a fitting end to our coparenting. You've been controlling and a nightmare the entire time. You were never grateful I permitted you to move to SoCal. I didn't want the girls to grow up with a functionally depressed mom in the Bay Area. As always, it's always about you and the girls and you don't ever give a f*ck about their dad. So selfish. Such a bad mom. [my name] gets it. [my sister's name] will in time. I'm honestly ashamed I let you into my life and regret it still to this day. White-trasy, lying, selfish, vain. I told [my name] how your behavior was to break every rule as a co-parent. She understood. I didn't attack you. I did attack the sh*t behavior. Hopefully someday I'll have that chat with [my sister's name] when she gets her head out of her a*s."
Just typing the text makes my blood boil. I don't know what to do. I'm planning to bring this to my therapist in a few days but am not sure what to do until then. I think this could sever my sister's relationship with my dad, and I'm not sure I want to continue mine with him anyway. I'm also pretty uncomfortable with him thinking I'm on his side, but I don't want to meddle further if it's going to make it worse for my mom and sister. There's a lot more context and information I could probably give but for the sake of not writing a novel about the situation, I'll end here.
TLDR: My sister got a job in a big city where cars aren't needed and my dad is upset that he has to sell the car and decided he was going to cuss her and my mom out instead of congratulate her.
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2024.05.14 20:18 Repulsive_Salt_4801 AITAH for having severe jealousy? update

Hi guys! I just have to say that i appreciate all of you who commented on my last post, even the negative comments. I want you guys to know that i appreciate the positive comments alot since i have no one else to ask for advice.
However, i think that i should have put more effort into my last post and i should have told a little more details about myself and the relationship that i am currently in.
I am 17f and i am soon to be 18. I’m very mature for my age, and there is a reason as to why i have the issues that i have. I am the first born child. My mom had me when she was 23, yet she was un experienced how to be a good mom, and that was absolutely not her fault.
My dad is was an absolute a hole towards my mom and me, he still is, just not towards us because ha abandoned me for someone elses kids. However, my dad used to hit my mom, being violent wasn’t uncommon from where he comes from, but my mom and i are traumatized till this day. He would hit my mom whenever he felt like it was needed to ”decipline” her. He would also lay hands on me as an infant, and no i am not joking.
I was 15 when my dad left me and my sister for another family. He abandoned us, and moved to another country. We still don’t know where he lives or if he is okay.
This sutuation led me to being scared of being abandoned, by anyone really.
The trust issues that i have comes from an abusive relationship that i used to be in. I met this person when u was 14, and we became friends. Things escelated and he started laying hands on me. It was to a point where mom would pick me up and i had to make up an excuse for the black eye, or the bruises on my body. I’m sure y’all are wondering why i didn’t leave as soon as it started. This person, he knew people who knew people, and he proved it to me. He also blackmailed me with alot of thingd, like secrets i had told him and trusted him to not tell anyone. I wqs scared he would hurt my family, and that he would hurt me by leaking things, so for my familys sake and my sake i stayed. Everyday i prayed that things would get better, and that i would be able to leave him. That day finally came, and i cried my eyes out. Not because i was sad, but because i felt so relieved, and i felt so free. I repported him to the police and they have him locked up now, because i was not his only ”victim”.
This is where the trust issues comes from. It also comes from getting cheated on, bur i’d rather not talk about that because i am not ready to bring it up.
I’ve always been drawn to ”crazy” people. I would learn that they are ”crazy” sooner or later. This is the reason why i don’t have many friends, but a few close ones.
My man is really caring, and he has never done anything intentionally to make me feel like i have a reason to be worried. He is rarely around girls if he isn’t in class. I don’t like when he is close to girls or the thought of him having a girl friend or even a conversation with a girl if not needed. I do trust him not to do anything, and me and Connor have talked about this. We both agree when it comes to this subject. He doesn’t trust boys, and i don’t trust girls. It doesn’t mesn that all boys/girls are the same, but it is something that we are worried about because after all we don’t knoe other peoples intentions.
Me and Connor have mentioned breaking up before, or been forced to. Thid has never been by choice, our relationship is something that seens to bother other people. People gives us nasty glances, whisper in our surroundings, and what not. We can’t find the reason as to why our relationship seems to bother people, but this just makes us stronger, because the more problems that we face, the more experience we gain, and grow closer.
We keep a low profile, we don’t act like lovers in public. We keep it really low to not draw attention. We still talk, and walk beside eachother, but we aren’t intimate in any way.
For those of you who thinks that i should enjoy life and be a kid, i can not do that. I’ve raised myself because my mom never had time for me. My sister was the golden child and has always been. But she is my mother and i love her.
I’m very independent, and i’m a very isolated person since i’ve never liked the idea of partying, hanging out more than 2 people at once, or anything else in that direction.
I never got the time or opportunity to be a kid, i had to raise myself and become independent at a very young age. I’ve always been the quiet girl who reads, sleeps, studies, and what not. School has never been hard for me, but being a target for others has been hard. I’ve never had it easy, that’s all i’m going to say for now. I hope this update gives you a picture of how things are from my aspect. And i’m sorry if i miss spelled something, i’m Swedish which makes me miss spell some things.
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2024.05.14 20:18 iamsadcuzmymomdied THE TRUTH ABOUT MURDER DRONES

Murder Drones is an indie animated show produced and directed by GLITCH Productions. It was originally created by Liam Vickers before signing a contract with GLITCH to turn it into a show. The plot of the show follows young robot characters going on adventures throughout the episodes. The show is primarily marketed towards the teenage and child audiences. It is free to watch on YouTube meaning that it is available to be watched by anyone who has a Youtube channel.
While all of this might seem innocent and harmless at first, there is much more to Murder Drones than meets the eye. We must take into consideration that the main characters of the show which are teenagers (as shown by the fact that they are seen going to school in multiple episodes) have highly sexualised designs and are often placed in highly suggestive situations with one another which has extremely disturbing implications. We must mention one character in specific, V, who has a ridiculously sexualised design due to her over exaggerated features and revealing outfit. This design choice obviously serves no purpose other than to bait lonely induvidials into clicking on Murder Drones episodes by using predatory tactics like this. Characters such as Lizzy and Doll also have revealing clothes that they never change once. There very clearly seems to exist a pattern of oversexualised female characters within the show. This sexualisation and objectification of women is never addressed. GLITCH Productions themselves also directly promotes shipping of their characters by integrating romantic relationships into the story. One such example is "Nuzi", a ship made canon by GLITCH Productions that involves the characters N and Uzi. Uzi is clearly shown to be underage as evidenced by the fact that she still goes to school and N is shown to be in his early 20's at lowest.
This clear depiction of pedophilia is completely ignored by the show's writers and producers. Not only is it ignored, as a matter of fact, it is actively encouraged. Liam Vickers, the creator of Murder Drones has made several pedophilic remarks in the past regarding underage characters. The fact that the main person behind the entire show is possibly a pedophile does not help it's reputation in the slightest. Furthermore, Liam Vickers once had a thumbnail that clearly sexualized a fictional minor on one of the videos on his old Scary Story Time With Liam YouTube channel.
Although, not as subtle as the depiction of problematic relationships, Murder Drones web series might be secretly promoting racism through different implications. Robots vs humans kind of stories are as old as our world, but i would like to draw attention to several "coincidentally" questionable moments. Main characters of the show all seem to have skin color of white and you might say that they are just robots and that their so called "skin color" is just the paint. That point might have been valid if the showrunner didn't make a design decision of making those robots look so much like real humans. Speaking about real humans, they are depicted as "shadowy silhouettes" of some sort, which inevitably makes them look pitch black. This would not have been so bad, only if the main character of the show - Uzi, didn't make numerous claims about killing all humans, and do keep in mind that the coloration of her skin is pale white.
In conclusion, Murder Drones is an inherently pedophilic and racist show that is especially harmful considering that it is targeted towards minors and is accessible by anyone. It should be banned worldwide for promoting subtle pedophilic and anti-black agendas and preying on juvenile population of 3rd world countries that is unable to afford cable TV and is instead forced to watch YouTube videos.
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2024.05.14 20:18 plzhelpmeineeditnow My (35M) new-ish GF (30F) compares everything to her previous relationship with an emotionally abusive alcoholic ex-BF. Looking for perspective.

Background: GF was with her ex for 5 years. He was a drunk and would manipulate, gaslight, and emotionally/mentally abuse her regularly. He lived in her house and was basically a bum, didn’t have a steady job, took her money and spent it on booze and other fun things for himself, didn’t do housework, contributed nothing basically. They parted ways romantically last May, though he continued living in the house until December 2023 when she finally kicked him out for good. We went out for the first time before the end of January and have been almost inseparable ever since. I’m a manager in a job I’ve had for years making 6 figures and I regularly help with things around the house, do not need to be asked to do things like clean up after myself/make dinnedo dishes/vacuum/etc. because I lived on my own for 15 years and know how a house works.
The issue: she is (rightfully) adamant about not being abused again, she has read many books that have been recommended on here and other subs (“The Gift of Fear”, “Why does he do that?”, etc. which I have zero issue with her reading) and is now on hyper-alert to identify manipulation tactics. The problem is that she sees a lot of the normal, innocuous, non-abusive behaviour that I exhibit as a non-perfect adult male as attempted manipulation.
Example: we were at child’s birthday party in a hall last week and shortly after we got there I was talking to the host and he mentioned to me that nothing in the hall was set up when they got there, so they had to set everything up as he gestured over to the tables/chairs/toys/play structures/etc. on the other side of the room. I spoke with her shortly afterwards and she said how good the room looked and I mentioned that the host told me they had to set everything in the room up because nothing was set up before they got there so they did the whole decorating themselves. Then at the end of the party, GF asked host if there was anything she could do to help clean up like pack the chairs or tables up and he said no the tables and chairs stay where they are and don’t need to come down, the place put them up and will take them down.
GF has been particularly avoidant/unengaged/distanced over the past week and we had a talk last night and I asked her what the deal was. She mentioned that a lot of the small, stupid things that have happened are all adding up and starting to bother her. I asked her for examples and one of the ones she gave me was the party example above; that I told her the host set everything up but that wasn’t actually true because he told her afterwards that the hall set the tables and chairs up. That, to her, is an example of attempted manipulation/gaslighting. She says when I tell her things that are lies (and that’s how she classifies them when I say something and end up being misinformed/wrong/incorrect, as lies) and she finds out they are lies then she can’t help but think that it’s the first step in me testing the waters out to become a full-fledged manipulator just like the last guy.
There have been a handful, less than 10, of examples similar to the above that she has given me since we’ve been dating to explain why she avoids me and withholds affection and gives me the silent treatment. She doesn’t bring them up on her own, I have to notice how poorly/rudely she’s treating me then after a few days of letting it go and hoping that she notices her behaviour was wrong and initiates the change/discussion herself, if that doesn’t happen then I ask her what the deal is and she tells me. I have asked her multiple times in the past to tell me those types of things right off the bat so I can provide her with my reasoning (in the case of the above example, my “reasoning” was that the host and I and GF had different definitions of “setting everything up”, apparently) in the hopes that giving her the background or explanation on why I was incorrect/misguided/etc. can ease her concerns. She said bringing it up right off the bat wouldn’t matter because I’m still trying to explain my lies. To her there is no difference between being genuinely wrong about something and purposefully lying. I am always apologetic but it doesn’t usually mean much. And that only applies to me being wrong, when she says something that’s wrong or is incorrect and I say something or show her something to prove her wrong, she usually says “I understand what you’re saying” without admitting she was wrong or apologizing. She very, very rarely apologizes for anything, even when she is categorically wrong.
This is the first relationship I’ve been in with an abuse survivor. I was raised by a single mother with my two sisters after my mom fled our abusive, drunk father. I am not and will never, ever be an abuser. I want to talk our problems out and work on them to resolve them but she is very quick to anger when we're discussing things and I don't simply give in to what she is asserting ocompletely r stating. I am trying not to take it personally and be patient with her but I don’t know how to navigate something like this where I can’t be wrong about something without it turning into an assumed abuse attempt in her mind that she silently keeps track of and “punishes” me by withholding affection or giving me the silent treatment.
In a normal relationship I would likely have been gone by now but we had such an intense and fantastic connection at the beginning that I’m willing to push through because I think we can get back there but I feel like I’m trying to make things better and she’s trying to identify faults to focus on and I don’t really know how to bridge those two things.
The rest of the relationship isn’t absolutely perfect by any means, and I don’t expect it to be, but I do expect to be able to be human and be wrong about stuff that, ultimately, means absolutely nothing in the grand scheme of things. Is that misguided on my part? Is this something I will need to navigate and deal with indefinitely? Or will she gain trust as time passes and see that I’m extremely different from the last guy?
TL;DR: GF sees being incorrect about something as intentionally lying due to her past. Trying to figure out where to go from here.
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2024.05.14 20:18 Sad_Bat7625 Feeling guilt for messaging my abusive ex

About a year ago, I [29 M] was in a toxic relationship with J [29 M]. While there were no serious stakes in it (no kids or messy finances), the relationship and breakup ended up emotionally affecting me in a way I had never really thought possible. I feel guilty because after the relationship I tried to be friends with my ex still, which I now see as a mistake in the context of this relationship, and then after a few months, he blocked me because I didn't respect a boundary he had set about not sending him long messages. He said he didn't feel safe since I "completely ignored" the boundary.
I was devastated, but over the course of the next few months, came to understand a great deal of ways that I feel that I had been abused during the relationship. I felt angrier and angrier, and even though I was seeing a therapist, it eventually boiled over. My ex had blocked me on discord and probably on text, but I went onto an astrology app called Co-Star that he had had me download, and sent a message using it that said something like, "You were an abusive partner, but you can make it right with an apology."
Now, I have no idea if he actually saw the message. It was sent with a weird feature of the app called Chaos Mode that apparently chooses to send the message at some future time, so who knows if it actually ever sent. I don't know if he still has the app, if he unfriended me, or whatnot. But I feel guilty because I enacted exactly the caricature of me that he had created--I hadn't respected his boundaries, and I sent the message anyways.
At the same time, I am still feeling very victimized by the relationship. To give you a sense of the kinds of things that were going on in the relationship, here's a few examples that I currently find a little horrific [Note: this kind of turned into a summary of the relationship after I wrote it]. I'm aware that to heal I should probably not be ruminating about these things, especially if they lead me to boil over and message him, but here you go.
The first time I had sex with him, he slammed the door on me for not being able to finish and said "finish yourself." When I came to bed, I told him I felt shame. He said "good." The next time we had sex, he set a timer for me and said I had to finish within 5 minutes. These were the first times I ever had sex. He was manipulative in bed, telling me he didn't want to perform certain acts because I didn't give him enough praise for them, so that I started exaggerating my pleasure; he blamed me for why certain positions weren't working and was frustrated with how my body worked. On top of this, he admitted at the end of the relationship to having had sex with me around five times after he decided to break up with me (before he did), which just makes me feel a bit icky.
He would put me down in pretty transparently cruel ways. One example was when I exerted myself, he said I sounded like a muppet and that he "didn't want to be dating a muppet." When I offered him a blanket but apologized that it might not have been washed in a while, he called me a baby. He would insult my ability to give complements, asking me to tell him what color his eyes are but then rejecting everything that I gave him, telling me I was bad at complements repeatedly (and saying that it wasn't fair of him because his other exes were artists, so no wonder I was bad). Now, there were times that he was complementary to me--he told me I was hot, good at singing, good at writing, smart--but also times where he would put me down for things I was less good at, like cooking.
He constantly made me feel insecure about my gender. (For context, we are both men, but he was raised as a woman). So he would make pretty sweeping feminist critiques over fairly mundane things, like if I complained when I was sick he would go off about how men are always babies when they are sick and women don't get attention. When I confronted him about some of the things he was saying, telling him that while I wanted him to express these kinds of social problems so that I could be aware and adapt, I was feeling insecure in the relationship--he flipped it around and told me that if I didn't feel loved, he could say "I love you" less, and that I hadn't been grateful enough for when he came to visit me. (I had written him poetry, deep cleaned my apartment, taken time off work, sent my roommate off for the week, bought him a bus pass, planned his visit, met him in the airport despite not having a car, and just an insane amount of work to be turned into, "you weren't grateful enough").
Other than namecalling, he was just plain controlling. The reason that the boundary around me not sending long messages exists is that when I felt insecure--which I think makes sense given the ways he would talk to me--I would often send him a few paragraphs apologizing and explaining how I was growing. Even though long messages were the first thing he said he loved about me, and that he said our communication was like magic, he eventually set up what he called an "Essay embargo" and told me not to write them. The first time he set the "embargo", he had said it was only until we met in person because he didn't want me to write anything that would make him nervous. After we met in person, I assumed the embargo had lifted. Yet shortly after, he set it again, giving a few explanations--the main one just being that he wanted to appreciate our relationship without overthinking it. It seemed playful. He definitely did also say that long messages made him uncomfortable because he felt obligated to send a response. So, when I did send messages, I would add that he didn't have to respond (which I realize is not fully respecting the boundary). I did ask after sending messages whether they were ok and he never responded to those questions.
Despite this, there were times during the relationship that I continued to send long, often apologetic messages. I had felt like this boundary was set playfully and I also was feeling overwhelming guilt that I, for whatever reason, needed his affirmation for. I am conflicted because on the one hand, I was definitely ignoring his boundary--but on the other, I feel like the boundary was not very thoughtful of my own needs, either.
Prior to the breakup, it was hell. He was getting angry at me for everything--for pretty mundane things like using the bathroom before him and stinking it up. He told me he had to show me how to do everything, but I realize now that a lot of this was just him being particular (e.g, he told me I don't know how to drink tea because I left the bag in, when I just like it strong). Unfortunately, I had flown 5,000 miles to visit him and was sort of trapped in his proximity, and was drunk on love still since I was trying very hard, it was my first relationship, and he had sold me on notions of fairytale romance and told me we were cosmically meant to be together and other lovebomby sort of things. At one point, while driving, he missed a turn while driving with GPS and got angry at me for not helping--he disconnected his phone and threw it sideways at me (I guess so I could navigate for him, but it was a pretty retaliatory motion). We flew to a convention and I met some of his friends, and at one point he introduced me to a girl he had almost dated before, saying I was a friend and not a partner. I pointed this out to him later and he just said "does that make you angry?". He flirted with a woman at a party, telling her she was pretty while demanding that i bring him snacks (I feel so, so weak for not confronting him about this). He got drunk and I stayed with him as he passed out, but he was angry at me in the morning. When one of his friends told me they thought I was nice, because i was opening doors for everyone, my ex said "Is he really?" Questioning them.
The breakup itself was cold and calculated. He started it by telling me that he thought about not giving me any reasons for the breakup because I always overanalyze things. He told me he wouldn't have broken up with me if I was a woman. He told me I didn't take care of him and he needs a partner that takes care of him, and that his partners always feel taken care of. He threw some things I had said at the beginning of the relationship back at me--misquoting and misunderstanding them.
After the relationship, I had no idea what to think. It was my first relationship. It had started with fairytale romance. I had been passing his tests, I had been an exception to his long string of abusive relationships. He presented himself as this incredibly moral person (vegan, environmentally conscious, telling me of all of the ways others had abused him that he would never do, even his closest friends). I had completely internalized criticisms that he had had of me throughout the relationship, many of which had led to serious self reflection and my writing messages about my growth. Within a week I told him I still loved him and that I always would. He reminded me of his boundary around long messages and said they made him anxious. I was desperate. We took a few weeks of no-contact. We messaged short-messages back and forth, with a few life-updates to eachother each. He told me he was rescuing a kitten that he found, and I remembered how he could be kind.
But as I processed, more and more, I felt angry. I wrote unsent angry letters in the notes app on my phone for a month. I wrote myself a 20,000 word summary of the relationship. This was not a healthy way to process. It elevated me. (Some of you will probably comment that maybe I shouldn't have written this post for the same reason, but oh well--I wanted to process and I want to hear if others have similar stories). Meanwhile, my ex kept pushing back the date for when we would verbally connect again. Eventually, I boiled over. I did not insult him. But I wrote a long message explaining that I wanted to take 3 months of no-contact. I had entered another relationship and told him that even though I was feeling angry at him, he shouldn't be worried because even though I had baggage from the relationship, I was communicating well with my new partner. I also told him that I felt like if I did talk with him, that I would end up tearing him a new one, and that I needed time to cool down. I'm not proud of the message in general, but I didn't call names, tell him he was awful, or anything like that. I was just insensitive and told him I was angry.
And like that, I was blocked. It was over. A period of about 9 months, five of which we were together, with two before escalating towards love bombing and two after escalating towards my boiling over.
And yet, I had never expressed to him that I thought he had been abusive. I felt frustrated that I had told him that I would always love him, when in many ways now I hated him.
Five months passed, during which I came to realize more and more how messed up the relationship was.
And then I sent the message on Co-star.
Fast forward another four months to now.
I just sent him a text, knowing he probably has blocked me there too. It said something like, "I want my last message to you just be: I'm sorry, and I forgive you." I wanted to free myself. I needed to not feel angry at him or ashamed of myself. I needed to not feel like I had a million things to say to him--I needed to just say, this is it: I'm not sending more messages. I'm sorry, and I forgive you. It was for myself. I was forgiving him selfishly, even though he didn't deserve it, so that I could move on.
I feel like I shouldn't have sent this, but I don't feel bad about it yet, either. I needed closure. It always felt like there was some "message I could send" to detail his abuse, and I needed to not have that standing over me--I needed to forgive. I am now oscillating between wondering about myself--whether I have a problem with boundaries, since I had boiled over at this point three times to message him. Feeling frustrated I didn't assert myself about his abuse, that I doubled down on loving him. Part of me is glad that I sent the message on Co-Star saying that he was abusive, because it was the only indication I ever gave him, really, that what he did wasn't ok to me--he had blocked me before I could articulate anything. But I also know that this message even if received would not mean anything to him.
Anyways, now I'm venting about it here on Reddit. Does anyone have similar experiences surrounding self control messaging exes and feeling a bit out of control?
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2024.05.14 20:17 tellmelol Should I tell my mom about how my dad makes me feel uncomfortable?

So me and my dad have never really been close. But suddenly this year, he wanted to start cuddling me. At first, I was like "This is odd" but that might be because he has never cuddled me. The first few times were fine but then he started moving his hand kind of low on my stomach so it made me uncomfortable but I didn't say anything. Then a few weeks ago he asked to put his hand under my shirt, and I said no cause it was a bit strange. He said that it would only be for skin contact but I still said no. Then a week later he put his hand under my shirt without asking, I didn't say anything because I was unsure of what to do. Also, in the past, when I started puberty, he would make weird comments about my body growing. Talking about how my boobs are gonna grow and how my hips are gonna be more defined and that I will have to fight off the boys. It always made me uncomfortable but AGAIN I never said anything. I want to tell my mom about how I feel like I might just be overreacting or that I'm just thinking about it weirdly. What should I do?
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2024.05.14 20:16 fernandoaribeiro 12M copies sold but barely reaching a peak of 160k concurrent players in the past 2 weeks

12M copies sold but barely reaching a peak of 160k concurrent players in the past 2 weeks
Today was released in the gaming press that our beloved game has sold over 12M copies!
https://preview.redd.it/9vo65mhdje0d1.png?width=1080&format=png&auto=webp&s=b32aaca530fc9c6e548ece69cd1dd7bb1d878fc1
Kudos to AH for developing a great and fun game, that despite all the problems and controversies around balancing, bug fixes and mediocre paid content, I firmly believe is one of the greatest co-op games from the last 5 years if not of all time.
Buuuut... I would like to discuss something that, to be completely honest, I do not have a very good understanding about... and that is how the player base numbers fluctuates in live service games.
Helldivers 2 is the only live service game that I've played in quite a long time, and I don't keep track of news regarding games of this type, so I don't exactly know what to think of the data that I'll discuss further in this post.
For the past two weeks, Helldivers 2 reached a peak of ~160k players on Steam, but the average daily peak is ~120k concurrent players.
https://steamdb.info/app/553850/charts/#1m
We don't have the PS5 player numbers as Sony doesn't disclose that, but sales analyst Mat Piscatella said on March 21st that 60% of the February sales came from Steam.
https://twitter.com/MatPiscatella/status/1770800506446733615
So, for the sake of simplicity, let's say that this sales proportion stayed the same, so of the 12M copies, PS5 sales sum up to approximately 4.8M copies.
If the average daily peak for the past 2 weeks on Steam is 120k players, this means that of the 7.2M players that own the game on Steam, only ~1.66% of them are still playing the game.
If we assume that the same proportion is true for PS5 players, this means that the average daily peak of concurrent players in this platform is just a tiny bit below 80k.
So, again, for the sake of simplicity, let's say that for the past two weeks Helldivers 2 reached an average of 200k concurrent players (120k from Steam + 80k from PS5) every day.
On SteamDB, we can see that the peak has decreased by ~27% for the last 30 days, but it's important to notice that in the meantime we had the required PSN account linking debacle, which must've taken a toll on the number of players with the boycott and all that. Tbh, I don't know how to measure how impactful this actually was, but it's blatant that it had some impact.
And between March and April, the peak has decreased 21.6%.
https://steamdb.info/app/553850/charts/#1m
And the question is, is this normal for the average live service game?
I'm aware that Fortnite, Counter Strike, Apex Legends, the CoD franchise as a whole (and a handful more games) are at a different level and that they shouldn't be compared to Helldivers 2, but in regards of your average live service game, how is Helldivers 2 faring?
And personally, after this period playing Helldivers 2 I'm starting to get tired of the game as the new content has been pretty much constrained to: new weapons, (very) few new enemies, new armors with the same passives that we're already used to and a few new objectives (usually tied to a MO).
I think that the game desperately needs new MEANINGFUL content to keep a healthy player base as I'm already inclined to stop playing very soon. And I don't play it that much as I have to work, have family and house duties to attend to, exercise and so on. So I don't play everyday and when I play, I do it for 4 hours at most, averaging at 2 hours, so I believe it would be unfair to say that I'm getting sick of the game because I played it too much (my stats say that I have ~70 hours in-mission time).
And by meaningful I mean more variety on planets environments, objectives with a design that actually require 3/4 players and becomes much more difficult if you have less players than that, a way to reward players constantly with things that actually matter and have a direct impact on gameplay instead of amping a "hidden" number that will make the cooldown of a few stratagems be 15% faster (think of how the Jet Pack stratagem changes the gameplay with the extra mobility it provides as a good example of this).
So fellow Helldivers, what are your opinions on this?
Thanks and hopefully we'll still dive together for a long time.
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2024.05.14 20:16 ExtremeStrawberry114 To other people who read “I love your cruddy explanation” I’d love to hear your thoughts

To other people who read “I love your cruddy explanation” I’d love to hear your thoughts
So for one, I’ll be honest. I’m probably biased because I love the combination of a cute moe style clashing with super dark topics. I liked the main character Airi, I think the panels where she becomes a neet do a pretty good job of show casing how depression really can make you low functioning (staying in bed, needing food brought to you, obsessively wondering if people care about checking on you, neglecting yourself, I could go on) although…some of the side characters felt kinda incomplete. For example, the glasses girl who really kick started this whole plot by sharing around those photos but in the end she didn’t really amount to much of an arc. Shame because I liked her design. I knew it was gonna be a short story going in but wow the pacing still felt weird. But either way I enjoyed it! Also side note—remember that last scene where the girls are together on a beach? Is that supposed to be them in the afterlife finally together in peace or is it just extra content for the fans? It feels like it could the latter because I don’t think the author ever intended them to get a happy ending but idk.
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2024.05.14 20:16 ColdWaterBottle03 [WTS] Price Cuts!!! MS69 Silver Eagles, AU/MS Raw Morgans, 1964 Ultra Cameo Dime, 1893 S Toned Barber Quarter, T1 SLQ, Seated Coinage, DDR Walker, Lafayette, and More!!!

Proof: https://imgur.com/a/ZcFiA0Z
If there is anything you are interested in, just let me know. I am always willing to hear any offer. The worst thing I will do is shoot back a counteroffer.
Payment plans are available. More details at the bottom of the post.
All non-pms are on coinsales
All Prices are USD
I am Located in the US
I prefer chat, but pms are fine
I prefer to make sales, but I am willing to entertain trades.
For any coins you may want still shots of, or possibly a video in different lighting, please let me know. I will never have an issue doing this.
I have US coins and foreign coins. Look through it all, you may find something you did not know you wanted. If you want something I do not have, let me know. I may possibly be able to obtain some, or I could already have it.
All grades are my personal opinion, except those that are professionally graded. All Coins I marked as damaged, for the most part, I am unsure if they would grade straight or not; I just wanted to be transparent about them even though they still may be straight grade.
Price Cuts!!!
1900 Lafayette MS60 Soap Box (Toner) https://imgur.com/a/JZdDjVm (925.00 900.00)
1871 S G Seated Quarter (Key Date!) (Counterstamped) https://imgur.com/a/yfl3y0h (450.00 425.00)
1946 AU58 Half Dollar DDR (Subtle Blue and Gold Toner in a Soap Box) https://imgur.com/a/cnLo0uV (375.00 325.00)
Error Link: https://www.pcgs.com/coinfacts/coin/1946-50c-doubled-die-reverse/6632
1929 D MS64FB Merc (Toned) https://imgur.com/a/vK1aCx4 (195.00 175.00)
Video 2: https://imgur.com/a/VAeQgL2
1997 Proof Silver Eagle (OGP) https://imgur.com/a/kZd3qoZ (85.00 80.00)
1884 MS Morgan VAM-4, Small Dot, Top 100 https://imgur.com/a/1X0RS05 (85.00 75.00)
Images: https://imgur.com/a/ImdAn9A
Vam Link: http://ec2-13-58-222-16.us-east-2.compute.amazonaws.com/wiki/1884-P_VAM-4
1892 O Morgan High VF (Bright) https://imgur.com/a/ku4xPq5 (65.00 55.00)
1896 Morgan AU (Toned) https://imgur.com/a/1fnvXym (55.00 50.00)
1898 Morgan AU (Toned) https://imgur.com/a/TzJgNcA (55.00 50.00)
1896 Morgan AU (Toned) https://imgur.com/a/e7c4enc (55.00 50.00)
1896 Morgan AU (Toned) https://imgur.com/a/g01zDBo (55.00 50.00)
1905 O Barber Quarter F https://imgur.com/a/mntr7ex (50.00 48.00)
1880 Morgan AU https://imgur.com/a/3RRfSv9 (50.00 45.00)
1888 Morgan AU https://imgur.com/a/nJTeozn (50.00 45.00)
1889 Morgan AU (Bright) https://imgur.com/a/Gbb4gg9 (45.00 41.00)
1896 AU Morgan https://imgur.com/a/Rc313b7 (45.00 40.00)
1964 PF68 Ultra Cameo Dime https://imgur.com/a/0jkPTSz (50.00 40.00)
1890 O Morgan XF https://imgur.com/a/lFaJDBw (45.00 40.00)
1898 Morgan XF https://imgur.com/a/8hTB6Ot (45.00 40.00)
2005 Silver Eagle First Strike MS69 https://imgur.com/a/pxRPFuS (42.00 40.00)
2011 Silver Eagle First Strike Struck at San Francisco MS69 https://imgur.com/a/wbiDsUC (42.00 40.00)
2013 (S) Silver Eagle First Strike Struck at San Francisco MS69 https://imgur.com/a/X5IzVR9 (42.00 40.00)
2013 (S) Silver Eagle Early Releases Struck at San Francisco MS69 https://imgur.com/a/SV5Xj43 (42.00 40.00)
1858 O Seated Half Dollar VF (Toned and Graffiti) https://imgur.com/a/eGkR5lM (45.00 40.00)
2005 Silver Eagle MS69 https://imgur.com/a/zxzSuSv (40.00 38.00)
2005 Silver Eagle MS69 https://imgur.com/a/GCkFghF (40.00 35.00)
Video 2: https://imgur.com/a/Yl2VsqP
1893 S Barber Quarter VG (Gorgeous Toner) https://imgur.com/a/WcLNcJb (45.00 35.00)
Video 2: https://imgur.com/a/mr6RPW0
1925 Peace Dollar MS (Toned) https://imgur.com/a/f3axbv2 (35.00 30.00)
1917 T1 SLQ VG https://imgur.com/a/V7dYoPc (40.00 30.00)
1856 O Half Dollar F (Scratches) https://imgur.com/a/7HbE52C (30.00 25.00)
1857 Seated Quarter High VF (Holed) https://imgur.com/a/7xhqPUZ (25.00 20.00)
Dollars
1879 S MS65 DMPL Morgan (Soapbox) https://imgur.com/a/dSM7SRF (1400.00)
1879 S MS64 Morgan (Toner in a Fatty) https://imgur.com/a/Te21BkM (135.00)
Images: https://imgur.com/a/bXzRSU3
1880 S MS64 Morgan (Semi PL and Purple Toner in a Gen 1 Soapbox) https://imgur.com/a/wLZeRnc (195.00)
1881 S MS63 VAM-1A Morgan (Toner) https://imgur.com/a/Dp3GFsK (85.00)
1884 O MS67 Morgan (Crazy Mega Toner) https://imgur.com/a/R97TekR (4200.00)
1884 O MS63 DMPL Morgan (Purple Toner in a Gen 1 Soapbox) https://imgur.com/a/K8LT2xN (500.00)
1884 CC MS64 Morgan (Toner in a Soapbox) https://imgur.com/a/b9NofJA (550.00)
1884 CC MS64 Morgan (Semi PL Lust Bomb in a Soapbox) https://imgur.com/a/YyD6l6w (515.00)
1886 MS62 PL Morgan (Rattler) https://imgur.com/a/vMDnM9P (200.00)
1896 Morgan Belt Buckle https://imgur.com/a/VcyvNjP (45.00)
1898 MS62PL Morgan (Soapbox) https://imgur.com/a/BycvAyH (150.00)
1921 MS63 PL Morgan (Soapbox) https://imgur.com/a/eRBR2Nw (500.00)
1921 MS63 PL Morgan (Soapbox) https://imgur.com/a/VfFMADA (500.00)
1921 MS63 Peace Dollar (Fatty) https://imgur.com/a/UbYm0VG (1050.00)
1923 MS63 Peace Dollar (Gen 2 Soapbox) https://imgur.com/a/9yg4TVy (70.00)
1934 D MS62 DBL DIE OBV VAM-3 Peace Dollar (Soapbox) https://imgur.com/a/ScGb7bg (350.00)
1934 D AU58 VAM-3 DDO LG D Peace Dollar (Soapbox) https://imgur.com/a/dHDSh01 (250.00)
1972 S PR69DCAM Silver Ike https://imgur.com/a/ZvzTrmV (30.00)
1972 S PR69DCAM Silver Ike https://imgur.com/a/6L9ztbd (30.00)
1973 S PR69DCAM Silver Ike https://imgur.com/a/yqKTUSf (40.00)
2021 Peace Dollar in OGP https://imgur.com/a/BlwZkB5 (205.00)
Half Dollars
1854 O G Seated Half https://imgur.com/a/5YDXLlt (30.00)
1877 G Seated Half Dollar (Cleaned) https://imgur.com/a/GiX4bzc (25.00)
1892 AG Barber Half https://imgur.com/a/AFFhmVx (35.00)
1916 S AG Walking Liberty Half https://imgur.com/a/1weOxxW (50.00)
1921 S AG Walking Liberty Half https://imgur.com/a/enXOi59 (50.00)
1936 York Half Dollar (Green CAC and Rattler) https://imgur.com/a/1BD0GBz (280.00)
1953 D MS64FBL Franklin (Crack on Case, so the Price is Discounted) https://imgur.com/a/ag9u9xU (40.00)
1956 PF67 Type 2 Franklin (Fatty) https://imgur.com/a/wSp88Pe (60.00)
1957 PR65 Franklin https://imgur.com/a/pIguD63 (32.00)
1958 MS66 Franklin (Toner) https://imgur.com/a/xPXZujb (75.00)
1960 PR65 Franklin (Rattler) https://imgur.com/a/YNKqQ9G (40.00)
1962 PF67 Franklin (Toner in a Fatty) https://imgur.com/a/gzkvg20 (40.00)
1962 PF67 Franklin (Toner in a Fatty) https://imgur.com/a/TNSnBme (35.00)
1963 PF66 Ultra Cameo Franklin https://imgur.com/a/WNMCpYG (130.00)
2014 S PR69DCAM First Strike Limited Edition PR Set Kennedy Half https://imgur.com/a/CDL35LL (35.00)
Quarters
1838 Bust Quarter VF (Bright) https://imgur.com/a/ST2Tb3V (150.00)
1x Face (1936, 1936, 1937 D, 1945) https://imgur.com/a/5G9pq7N (21.00)
Dimes
1837 F Dime (Bent) https://imgur.com/a/Aa5Ats5 (30.00)
1942 MS65FB Mercury Dime (OGH) https://imgur.com/a/BoyszIc (45.00)
1944 MS66 Mercury Dime (Green CAC and Fatty) https://imgur.com/a/srJTfWG (70.00)
1957 D MS66 Dime (Toner) https://imgur.com/a/Cfl2KJY (40.00)
Anicents
Maximinus I Denarius MS ⅘, ⅘ https://imgur.com/a/5u7GLt1 (350.00)
ROMAN EMPIRE: Maximinus I, AD 235-238, AR Denarius (20mm, 3.59 gm, 12h). NGC MS 4/5 - 4/5. Rome, ca. January AD 236-April AD 238. MAXIMINVS PIVS AVG GERM, laureate, draped, cuirassed bust of Maximinus I right / FIDES M-I-LITVM, Fides standing facing, head left, with standard in each hand, one on each side. RIC IV.II 18A.
Shipping for coins (non-coins vary) is 5 Dollars for 12 ounces total weight or less, 8 dollars for over 12 ounces; I am accepting Zelle (Preferred), PPFF (No notes pls), Cashpp, and Venmo FF (No notes pls). (USA only for these rates, special rates of other locations).
For Canada: Shipping for coins (non-coins vary) is 15 Dollars for 8 ounces total weight or less, 23 Dollars for 9 ounces or more.
I can risky ship anything that can be reasonable sent in a regular envelope with a stamp or two for a dollar of shipping
Disclaimer: I lose all responsibility once I drop the package at the post office, but I will help in any way I can for any issues that occur. I will ship once payment clears (once it no longer says pending in my bank account) (Zelle normally is good to go the next day, PP and Venmo can take a few days). Also, deposits can be made for any item for 25 percent or more of the agreed price, but the deposit is nonrefundable. All Payments are nonrefundable.
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2024.05.14 20:16 soup_time19 I think my friend is a bad friend and I see how it's affecting my other friends

So most of my friends went to college, I moved out of state but make it an effort to communicate with my friends and when I am back in town, it's important I see them so I make plans. My other friend on the other hand always has a questionable boyfriend which causes her to mistreat and ignore everyone else in her life. It's a pattern, which is frustrating because when they break up she expects sympathy which I'm there for her , but once she finds someone else to date it's all over for everyone else in her life. The thing is, I've been talking to my other friends and they've mentioned that she 1. Got mad when some other girl started dating her ex, 2. Getting friendships mixed up and complaining about the person she was talking to to their face, 3. Thinking our other friend is "lying" about not wanting to drink alcohol for the rest of college 4. Constantly making up excuses not to hang out 5. Only talking about herself, etc. it's just a list of things that go on and I admit, I hold certain things against her and there are other things I'm bitter about but it just feels draining to be friends with someone who has no care for others. Do I just accept the mistreatment like everyone else or decide a good time to talk to her about how she treats people?
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