Di post ini, aku mau cerita bedasarkan kisah nyata dari sebagian besar orang yang pernah ngobrol sama aku (plus dengan pengalamanku pas bersama mereka) dan mungkin ini bisa menggerakkan hati atau kita makin positif sih. Ada 2 cerita yang bakalan aku bahas, dan kalian bisa pilih aja mau cerita mana yang mau kalian baca. And ofc, i make it short to save everyone's time.
The story has 2 perspective : Gojek, dan Tukang parkir (niatnya mau ada tambahan 1 lagi, yaitu cerita tentang guruku.. maybe next time i guess.)
Let's start with Gojek.
Gojek Kejadian ini terjadi pasca tahun 2021-an (kalo ga salah). Ceritanya, Sahabat jauh dari solo pulang ke sentul dan aku main sama beliau sambil ngobrol bareng kondisi-nya disana. Kami bercengkrama sampai dengan jam 8 malam, dan aku memutuskan untuk pulang (karena nyokap udah nyariin). Aku akhirnya dianterin pulang dengan mobil nyokap sahabatku yang kebetulan lagi satu jalan dari AEON. tapi, aku denger kabar kata-nya bokap-nya temen tiba-tiba sakit dan Nyokap-nya perlu beli obat. Aku nawarin untuk nemenin beli obat + nunjukin apotik terdekat, tapi akhirnya aku cukup minta diberhentiin aja di Lampu merah dekat CCM. Karena aku takut-nya mengganggu juga + takut pulang kemaleman. Cukup ucapan semoga cepat sembuh, dan akhirnya pergi ke kantor polisi perempatan CCM buat pesan Gojek.
Jujur, aku kaget ketika yang dateng ketika pesen Gojek yang dateng adalah perempuan. Aku ga permasalahin kamu kerja jadi apa... tapi dengan kondisi malem seperti ini dan beliau berani narik Gojek? oh my. That's a daring move and deserve my respect. Tapi pas aku mau naik, beliau bilang.. ini baru pertama kali dia ambil pesanan malem-malem dan kebetulan aga capek (kalo ga salah inget). Aku tawarin untuk ngendarain motornya (it was a scoopy. its has good handling but slow as snail speed. but it has good fuel economy. hehe, maaf terlalu mendiskripsikan motornya).
Kami ngobrol di jalan dong... tanya-tanya abis ngapain dan ini itu. Sampai aku nanya ke beliau "Ibu kenapa mau kerja jadi Go-Jek?". Beliau dengan lumayan santai-nya bilang something along like "Karena ada-nya ini pada saat ini, dan saya harus membiayain kedua anak saya". Aku sambil mengucapkan maaf nanya kepada beliau "Maaf bu, saya kalo boleh nanya.. Suami ibu apakah tidak kerja?". Beliau bilang "Suami saya kabur". That bring a chill on my spine... karena ini ngobrol secara langsung. Beliau bela-belain Nganter barang sampai malam, dan bahkan nyoba nge-gojek. it's somewhat shows how mother figure should always be. She wants nothing but her kids to become succeed and didnt end up like her.
And today 2024, i share her story to here... it shows that maybe even at the very rock bottom, you cannot see down but only up. and you need to keep on going whatever your situation is.
okay, Mari kita langsung aja cerita kedua.
Tukang Parkir Mixue Miksu (ga boleh nyebut merek meskipun keliatan dikit, atleast its for the sake of the funni)
Nah, ini sebenarnya kejadian yag masih baru-baru banget. Cerita-nya ini abis ngampus.. Karena lagi kepengen makan eskrim, pergilah aku ke Miksu deket Sate Tegal Laka-laka yang ada di cibinong. Kebetulan disitu ada tukang parkir (yang kebetulan sering ketemuan dan dia ramah).. ngobrol lah aku sama beliau. He give me many wise words dan saran sebelum beranjak ke dunia yang bener-bener dewasa. it was all fun and game.
But then, i ask him... "Tapi pak, dengan pemikiran dan wawasan yang luas. Kenapa bapak jadi tukang parkir?" He said ketika beliau di pelabuhan tanjung priuk, dulunya dia kerja sebagai pengangkut barang dan disukai sama bos-nya karena etos kerja-nya yang tinggi (Sambil nunjukin kertas kerja-nya, dan dokumen penting lainnya ketika kerja di pelabuhan tanjung priuk. I was surprised how did he trust me to the point to show me this). He got paid handsomely, dan dia kerja dari pagi ke pagi. Sampai ketika orang dalam plays along dan kompetisi yang ga sehat mulai masuk. Dia suka disenggol dan begitu sebagai-nya... dan bahkan sudah berfikir kalo sebagai pengangkut barang udah bukan passion dia lagi (karena terkadang dia mesti berantem pas ngangkut barang di jalan entah sama pungli, dll).
Dan dimasa dimana dia udah kepala 5 atau 6 ini (kalo ga salah). Dia hanya ingin meninggal dengan tenang aja. Dia bilang sama aku "Keinginan muda dan tau pasti berbeda. Semakin kamu tua, kamu semakin belajar kalo dalam hidup itu ga semuanya bisa kamu dapatkan. tapi kamu ga boleh nyerah, dan harus tekun".
He's respectable person... even as tukang parkir. Maybe some people doesnt have a choice and ended up like him. Bahkan orang berjasa kayak beliau aja di-injek". like damn..... Hope he's having a good day
That's the story for today folks. Have a good day !
edit : typo :b

Hindi ako makakapunta sa KALAYAAN 5 kaya sinubukan ko na lang gumawa ng konting breakdown para sa event. Bukod dun, tingin ko rin kasi ay disservice sa battle rap kung hindi ako magsusulat ng kahit ano sa ganito ka-solid na card at poster (🔥🔥🔥) hehe
Medyo high pa rin ako sa M Zhayt vs Emar kaya pinilit ko na lang ihabol itong mabilisan na breakdown para sa KALAYAAN 5 :)
MERAJ v BLZR
Masyadong maaga pa para sa ganitong kainit na matchup - pero sige, isabay na natin sa init ng panahon! Para sa mga nakasubaybay sa underground battle scene nung 2010s, isang main event-worthy ang matchup na ‘to. Magaling si Meraj, pero kakaiba rin ang skillset ni BLZR. Siguro lamang sa tugmaan si BLZR, pero mas mataas ang kalidad ng punchlines ni Meraj. Labanan ng parehas wordsmith ‘to!
Sa totoo lang, di nakakagulat kung mapantayan niya ang level ng Katana vs Caspher. Ganun kaganda ang 2nd rd na ‘to.
BISENTE v KEELAN
Bisente — Isa si Bisente sa pinaka exciting na MCs sa underground ngayon dahil sa pen-game at performances niya. Malakas na combo ng consistency + stage presence. Swabe rin ng delivery niya.
Keelan — Kung may weakness si Bisente, siguro yun ay sakto lang siya sa comedy — at yan naman ang kalakasan ni Keelan. Nung pinapili si Jonas ng mga top comedians niya na battle MCs, si Keelan lang ang non-FlipTop MC na nasa listahan (nauna nangyari yung interview bago ang Won Minutes Luzon 2), so medyo may idea ka na kung gaano siya kagaling sa comedy
Matinding style clash ito!
SAINT ICE v MICHAEL JOE
Saint Ice — Pinakita ni Saint Ice nung Won Minutes na kaya niyang makipag sabayan sa bagong ‘meta’, pero yung performance niya dun ay patikim palang pala para sa mas malakas na baon niya nung Raplines nung sumunod na linggo vs Illtimate
Michael Joe — May dahilan bakit siya ang tinapat kay Loonie nun. Marunong mag-construct ng bara si Michael Joe. Marami rin siya bumitaw ng mga punchlines. Kung makakapag pagpag siya ng kalawang at ilalabas niya yung A-game niya, magandang laban ito
Veteran sa veteran. Quality vs Quantity. Si Saint Ice ang odds-on favorite hehe
ILLTIMATE v JAMES OVERMAN
Illtimate — Alam natin na may tira talaga si Illtimate, natatalo lang talaga siya dahil sa mga chokes at madalas na pag-underperform sa battles. Pero yung A-game na Illtimate, di maikakaila na may husay talaga sa pagsulat.
James Overman — Medyo brutal yung rap battle debut ni James Overman sa Won Minutes, pero dun sa ilang bara na-spit niya, alam mo na may material talaga siya - kaya naiintriga pa rin ako sa anong kaya niyang gawin kapag preparado at tinodo niya yung pen-game niya
Kaabang-abang dahil baka sa battle na ito lumabas ang A-game nila parehas.
TON Z v PLATITO
Ton Z — Isa sa pinaka entertaining sa roster. Well-rounded battle MC din siya - comedy, bars, rebuttal, multi, etc. Kumpletos rekados. Kung preparadong siya, siya ang llamado sa laban na ‘to.
Platito — Magaling si Platito magsulat, pero underprepared talaga siya lagi. Pero maganda yung mga nabubuo niyang linya. Entertaining! Magaling tumugma, decent flow, at madiin mag-deliver. Kaso yun lang, inconsistent at underprepped parati (TBH siya na siguro ang paborito kong femcee hehe)
Kung dito lalabas ang ‘preparadong Platito’, then ang lakas at ang kulit ng battle na ‘to, yung tipong magandang opener ng gabi
AUBREY v EMJEY
Aubrey — Isa si Aubrey sa mga standout femcees sa underground scene. Kung di siya napapanuod, I suggest na panuorin niyo yung Femcee Royal Rumble sa Motus. Goddess among women ang dating niya eh (no disrespect intended) Ang lakas niya talaga dun
Emjey — Kung uulitin lang niya yung ginawa niya nung last performance niya, tingin ko di siya makaka porma kay Aubrey. Pero maganda ang laban kung ibibigay niya yung best niya rito
REYLOAD v JAMY SYKES
Reyload — Actually isa si Reyload sa mga sa nakikitaan ko ng malaking potential sa mga bata. Parang naaalala ko sa kanya sila Invictus at Illtimate nung mga rookie years nila
Jamy Sykes —Buti nalang may magre-represent sa Left-field hiphop. Kung trip mo ang matalim na na unorthodox style a la Emar, then Jamy is your best bet
Katulad ng Bisente vs Keelan, dikdikan na style clash ito kung magl-live up sa expectation sa kanila!
STUKI v JABO
Stuki — Siya ang pinaka-unang nag-champion sa first-ever tournament ng ‘Insane Battles’ pero hindi maganda yung huling salang niya sa Motus (vs Frinze) na halos di na talaga siya naghanda. Sana ito na ang bawi niya mula dun bad performance niya sa Motus (vs Frinze) na halos di na siya naghanda talaga.
Jabo — Nag-umpisa sa liga na ‘sakto lang’ pero consistent siya at consistent din ang improvement niya sa battle. Kung mahihigitan ni Jabo yung huli niyang performance, kaya niya mabigyan ng magandang laban yung champion.
7K v HIRO
7K — Tacoma si 7K, so asahan mo na may ibubuga talaga siya. Kayang kaya manalo basta maitawid niya lang mga writtens niya.
Hiro — Sa totoo lang, hindi ko talaga alam kung anong ie-expect sa kanya kasi wala akong makita/mahanap na battle niya :
Stacked card!
Enjoy at ingat sa mga pupunta rito sa event ✌🏽

Reddit itu cara mainnya seperti apa ya? Bercerita atau bagaimana menurut kalian pengguna app yang sudah lama?
Karena saya masih baru disini dan melihat cerita orang seru-seru dan ya saya suka membacanya.
Tikok untuk melihat video lucu but the comment bisa dibilang sudah bisa tercemar gitu, F untuk mencari informasi tapi kebanyakan bapak-bapak main burung, then g sekarang yang paling better, twiter sangat frontal tapi bisa juga menjadi tempat berkeluh kesah untuk diri sendiri. setelah ketemu reddit seperti balik ke dimana sosial media masih natural dan no gimmick tempat berkeluh kesah dan bertanya paket kumplit.
Terimakasih untuk pengalaman baru dan saya merasa bernostalgia.

(Note: Alam ko na nasabi ko sa'yo dati na never ako magpopost sa Reddit in case man na mag end tayo, pero eto ako ngayon, dito ko na lang sasabihin ang mga bagay na nararamdaman ko ngayon. Sabi mo nga andami kong hindi sinunod sa "kontrata". Di ko kasi kayang i-message sa'yo kasi baka di mo naman basahin at replyan. And siguro I am looking forward din sa magiging comment/s or perspective ng readers in case I might need some insights from them.
I'm using a new account kasi di ko kaya ipost dun sa main account ko.
Also, writing this while listening on repeat to Down Bad and The Prophecy by TS. Kasi the lyrics kinda resonated with what I am currently feeling..)
Hi Rommel. Kumusta ka?
Ako, eto, alam ko na pinalaya na kita at bumitaw na ako dahil hindi ko na kaya ang sakit. Pero bakit ganun? Naiiyak pa din ako. Mula nang maghiwalay tayo, araw-araw akong naiiyak. Iniisip ko pa din bakit nangyari sa atin yun?
Nasabi ko dati na mabilis naman ako mag accept ng mga bagay na nangyayari sa life ko. Pero this time, hindi ko pala kayang tanggapin agad. Feeling ko di man lang na-justify yung nangyari sa atin. Andami dami ko pa ding tanong.
Siguro ang masakit kasi sobrang saya ko pa bago tayo umabot sa hiwalayan. Siguro dahil I was still fixated with the idea na we planned our future together tapos all of a sudden, nawala lahat. I don't know if you're serious ba when you told me about those future plans with me. Ayoko na isipin na pinagttripan mo lang ako that time kasi dagdag sakit at kirot na naman yun sa puso ko if ever.
Sabi nga ng kakilala ko, sobrang nag invest ako sayo emotionally. And that's the first time. Kaya siguro ang sakit sakit kasi parang nalugi ako. Bukod pa dun, siguro natamaan din ang ego ko dahil usually ako ang nakikipag hiwalay dati sa exes ko pero this time, ako yung hiniwalayan. It made me question my worth. At the same time, naisip ko din na ganito siguro na-feel nung mga taong nasaktan ko in the past dahil hiniwalayan ko sila. Baka karma ko na din nga ito.
I think one of the reasons why I am still hurting is because there's another person involved. Na even though you said na "tropa" mo lang at naghingi ka lang ng advice and yun lang ang intention mo at first, I felt threatened. Which sinabi ko naman sa'yo that night. And siguro malakas talaga intuition ng mga babae kasi nagkatotoo pa din yung kutob ko.
Hindi ko alam ano ba ang mas masakit, knowing the truth or not knowing about the "betrayal". Yes, I felt betrayed. You lied that night. We promised each other na magiging honest tayo. Na ginawa mo naman ata sa loob ng 3 buwan. Alam ko naman na naging honest ka kasi sobrang direct and outspoken mo just like me. Pero when you revealed that the other person was actually your ex-fling, parang may punyal na bumaon sa puso ko. Kasi bakit kailangan na sya yung chinat mo that day na nagkakalabuan tayo? Bakit ka nakipag "harutan" and somehow "nilandi" mo sya? At sabi mo pa parang mas gusto mo ulit sya over me kasi yung isa ay "chill" lang at ako ay "sobrang complicated pala". May commitment issue ka but you're planning to kinda pursue her, AGAIN. It made me think na baka nga sya talaga yung minahal mo all this time kasi di ka naman "makikipagbalikan" sa isang tao unless mahal mo. Lalo na nasabi mo na on-off yung situationship nyo before at ilang beses mo triny na magbalikan kayo like 4x. I feel so worthless that time. Na bakit sya or even yung past na naka-date mo, kinaya mo naman na balikan pero bakit ako, nagkatampuhan lang tayo pero gusto mo na agad ako iwanan.
I just can't shake off the idea na you cheated on me. Especially alam mo naman yung past trauma ko nung naiwan din ako sa ere at pinagpalit sa ibang babae. At alam mo ang mas masakit? Alam mo naman ang outcome ng "cheating" - you should know because of what happened ayoko na ituloy pero alam ko na alam mo ang tinutukoy ko dito. Funny din ano, kasi nakwento mo nga yun sa akin kahit very personal. And yet, look at you, ginawa mo din. At sa akin pa talaga. Ano ang kasalanan ko para gawin mo yun sa akin? Alam ko na naging harsh yung mga nasabi ko. Alam ko na nakakasakal yung mga ginawa ko because I became clingy, possessive, selosa, OA, lahat ng red flags na ayaw natin sa isang tao. Hindi ko naiwasan maging ganun kasi siguro may attachment issues pala ako. Or maybe I just really want to keep you for myself kaya ganun. Mahal na nga kasi ata kita. Kahit alam ko from the start na hindi ata pwede since napag usapan naman natin yun dahil at first ay totoo naman na emotionally unavailable ako and pareho nga tayo may commitment issues. Kaya nga nag settle tayo sa situationship at no label relationship eh. Pero hindi ko naman kasi alam na mahuhulog ng ganito ang loob ko sayo. Sabi ko nga ay first time talaga na ganun. I showed you my true and bare self na never ko pinakita sa past relationships. I became vulnerable and put down my defenses pagdating sayo. I overshared my life with you. And it's dangerous pala talaga.
Napapaisip ako lagi after break-up natin if lesson ka lang ba talaga na dadaan sa life ko. Kasi bakit ganun? Why do I have to learn the hard way? Kung kelan ako nagseryoso sa larangan ng pag-ibig, saka pa nangyari. Kung kelan akala ko you were my person kasi we really connected intensely, saka pa biglang mawawasak lahat. Oo, sobrang wasak ako. Kasi I trusted you so much. I wouldn't do those things with you if I don't trust you. Pero nasira lang yung trust when you chose another girl over me.
I told you na you're such an a-hole for doing that kasi sobrang unfair sa akin. I felt disrespected, sobra. I even asked you if nakipag harutan/landian ba sayo pabalik knowing na we were having a rough time then. Hindi mo ata yun sinagot kaya I said na if she did, ang lala naman nya. Lagi mo lang sinasabi na "pang landian" ka lang siguro, na malandi ka kasi talaga. Kaya din NGSB ka at ayaw mo magka jowa. Yan kasi pino-project mo sa sarili mo at yan yung prinogram mo sa isip mo. Alam ko naman na deep inside you also want to love and be loved. Kasi you tried naman; yung binigay mong time and effort sa akin, I felt na you were sincere that time. Akala ko nga talaga love mo na din ako. Kasi pareho natin nakita na somehow may character developments tayo and positive changes din sa atin, albeit briefly. And I, unexpectedly, was able to love every part of your being. When I said na tanggap ko yung pagiging ganito, ganyan mo, I was being honest. You showed me din nga your vulnerable side. Nakwento mo na nga din halos lahat ng ganap mo in life; even ako din naman nakwento ko na sa'yo mostly. And that's one of the ironic and funny things na di ko makakalimutan. Kasi for the last 3 months na we chatted, nakilala natin mga importanteng karakter sa buhay natin-family, loved ones, friends, ex-coworkers, other acquaintances. And the irony? Hindi tayo nagpalitan ng pangalan. We made a pact na magpapakilala tayo once we meet in person. And it happened din naman-we exchanged IDs after our first (and last) date.
I still couldn't forget how happy I was when I finally met you in person. Sobrang saya ko talaga nun. And sabi mo din naman ganun ka - kinilig nga ako nung randomly mo yun sinabi nung medyo nakayakap ka sa akin sa MRT - "ang saya pala ng ganito" were the exact words you said.
Ngayon, lahat ng "feelings" na pinadama mo sa akin ay kine-kuwestiyon ko na. Kaya kita natanong kung totoo ba lahat ng naramdaman mo para sa akin. Kasi akala ko mahal mo na din ako. Ganun kasi yung naramdaman ko sa loob ng 3 buwan. Sobrang intense lagi, sabi mo nga overwhelming at times. Kaya di ko maiwasan magtanong kung bakit parang nawala lang overnight. Na nagkaroon ka ng change of heart. Dahil ba nung nag reconnect kayo nung girl ay na-awaken yung old feelings mo for her? Na siguro nga higit pa sa naramdaman mo for me. And I just really find it so heartbreaking. The last thing kasi na I want to feel is yung pakiramdam na ma-compare ang worth ko sa iba. Remember our convo abt cheaters and 3rd party? Diba sabi natin, sino ba naman ang may gusto na may kahati? Pero bakit tayo umabot sa ganun? And masakit man isipin but you're the one to blame.
When I told you na sana wag mo muna sya i-pursue right after break-up, ang baba ng tingin ko sa sarili ko kasi why do I need to beg? I felt desperate for doing so. Pero sabi mo naman na ititigil mo muna kasi unfair sa akin at unfair sa isa. How come na this time you consider her, na unfair din sa kanya.. When you reached out to her that day na may tampuhan tayo, di mo man lang ba na-consider na unfair na din yun sa akin? Di mo man lang naisip na masasaktan ako ng sobra. Alam mo naman din ata na nasaktan ako ng sobra kasi we're both crying everytime na mag uusap tayo that remaining days na I was still trying to save us na mag work pa din. Pero bumitaw ka na. But you said you want to save our "connection", you also want us to remain as "friends".
Honestly, ngayon, hindi ko ata kaya na maging friends na lang tayo kasi ang sakit sakit pa din. At first okay pa ata ako with that idea kasi I feel desperate nga na I want you to stay in my life. Parang gusto ko na nga bawiin yung sinabi ko that April 1st tutal April Fools naman. Kasi hindi pala talaga okay sa akin na maging magkaibigan lang tayo, na hanggang dun na lang. Kasi I still wanted more. Nasaktan ako nung sinabi mo na ayaw mo na sa akin. Nasaktan ako nung sinabi mo na makipag date ako ulit since before we met naman ay active ako makipag-date. Nasaktan ako nung sinabi mo na hindi ata kita deserve. Nasaktan ako kasi tuluyan mo na nga akong tinataboy. Remember that night na first audio call ko sa'yo kasi you cried and nagdrama ka na feeling mo ayaw ko na sa'yo but I chased you and assured you na gusto kita? Sinabi natin na hindi natin bibitawan ang isa't isa. Na sabi mo ayaw mo din akong mawala. And yet, you pushed me away. Ang sakit sakit, Mel..
Sinabi ko na hindi ako aasa pa pero minsan gusto ko pa din mag wish sa universe na bigyan tayo ng isa pang pagkakataon. Nagre-relapse ako every now and then, reminiscing our happy memories and the what if's. Wasak na wasak na nga ata ako kasi muntik na ako mag self-destruct. But thanks to my loved ones, my closest friends, and even coworkers, kasi they comforted me at my lowest. I think yun na yung lowest eh - yung mag question ng self-worth dahil ipinagpalit sa iba. Kasi I think mas mabilis lang siguro maghihilom ang sugat sa puso ko if yung reason ng hiwalayan natin ay because ayaw mo na. Kasi maiintindihan ko pa yun. Ang hindi ko maintindihan ay bakit kailangan na may other party. Sobrang traumatized na ako, overthinking about my worth whether I deserved that ba? Kasi alam ko na hindi ko deserve lokohin at ipagpalit. Kahit naman hindi maganda mga nasabi ko sa'yo sa chat with my sudden outburst, which I already apologized for and willing nga ako na baguhin yon just so we could still work things out, hindi ko pa rin matanggap na you betrayed me. And it's the second time na it happened. Una sa ex-bff ko, tapos this time ikaw naman. Alam mo kung gaano ako nasaktan sa ginawa ng ex-bff ko when he also chose another girl over me. Pero mas masakit pala pag nauulit at sa taong minahal ko na din. Kaya nga ayaw ko talaga mag open up ng puso ko dahil sa past trauma ko pero I gave you the means to break my heart.
I thought we were soulmates, meant-to-be, twinflames, na we're each other's person. You don't hurt your other person like that. You just wouldn't. Yet, you did. And yung naisip ko pa na how come I was the only one hurting tapos ikaw parang okay na agad? Kasi when I sent you that birthday greeting via text-na I just kept short and simple (para wala na sanang next convo), you still messaged me on Messenger so I replied. Na-hurt nga ako when you said na inalis mo yung post ko sa wall mo. Pero karapatan mo naman din yon. Then sobrang casual mo nun makipag usap as if wala lang nangyari, na parang moved on ka na agad. Samantalang ako, andito pa din-umiiyak gabi gabi. Alam mo ba na kinailangan ko na mag take ng sleeping pills kasi di ako makatulog kaka-overthink? Alam mo naman na overthinker ako diba? Kino-consider ko na nga din mag therapy kasi grabe talaga, I felt so traumatized. Even my friends would check on me daily kasi they knew na nagbbreakdown ako. Sobra, Mel. I never expected na I would be like this. Nagmahal lang naman ako. Bakit ganito? Pagod na pagod na ako umiyak. I did almost everything para lang ma-divert ang attention ko pero bumabalik pa din talaga tuwing ako na lang mag-isa.
Alam mo yung internal struggle ko right now? Yung gusto ko na i-unfriend ka sa social media, i-block ang numbers mo, lahat ng pwedeng gawin para kalimutan ka. I was doing okay for the past 4 weeks of ignoring you. You have no idea how tempted I am everyday to send a message para kumustahin ka. Kasi alam mo ba na lagi pa din kita naiisip, napapanaginipan nga kita minsan eh. At madalas akala ko totoo yung nangyayari sa panaginip ko. Sometimes I would wake up feeling so anxious, nag aalala ako sayo lagi-gaya ng sabi ko before whenever I wouldn't hear from you kasi yun pala hindi ka talaga okay. It felt na you're still connected and communicating with me in my dreams. Sobrang weird na nga and delusional. Sabi mo kasi you still look forward na maka-chika ako. Andami dami kong gustong ikwento sa'yo araw araw gaya ng ginagawa natin dati. Pero alam kong hindi na pwede. Kasi alam ko naman na okay ka na ata sa bago. Kahit sinabi mo nga na magsstop ka muna, why do I have this feeling na you still continue pursuing her. And isa din yun sa masakit na reality na I needed to accept. Kahit there's a tiny hope inside my heart wishing na sana balikan mo na lang ako, na sana ako na lang at tayo na lang ulit gaya ng sabi ni Basha kay Popoy. Ang unhealthy na nga ata for me kasi I already accepted yung nangyari pero I am still kinda holding on sa idea na baka naman may another chance for us in the future - kasi na-mention mo din ito. Sabi mo pa na "i-park muna natin siguro ang nararamdaman natin sa isa't isa", which my friends think na sobrang selfish mo naman for saying that. My rational mind would also thought of the same. Kaso my heart was telling me na "sige, umasa ka ulit". Kasi bakit mo yun nasabi? Dahil ba meron ka pa naman talagang feelings towards me? Or were you just being polite sa response mo para di mo ako ma-hurt? Or dahil you just find me convenient, like in case di mag work sa isa, andito pa din ako na parang reserba? Ganun ba yun? Kahit deep inside gusto ko sabihin mo na ako pa din naman ang gusto mo. Sabi mo nga sa akin mo lang naramdaman lahat ng firsts mo kahit na meron ka naman nang mga na-date at nakalandian in the past. Totoo ba talaga yun na sa akin mo lang naramdaman yung ganun? Kasi minsan di ko din maiwasan mapaisip na baka naexcite ka lang kasi nga new feelings and emotions, na baka nga you just love bombed me that time na sobrang fleeting and euphoric ng nararamdaman natin. Kasi remember how we met? Di naman landian agad. We became really good friends. Gaya din ng sabi mo, that very first time na nag chat tayo, hino-hold mo yung conversation kasi ayaw mo matapos. Eh usually naman pareho tayo mabilis magsawa sa nakaka-chat natin. Well, this time pala masasabi ko din na kasama na ako sa "pinagsawaan" mo kaya nakakalungkot lang talaga.
The reason why I posted this is to let you know na gusto ko na muna mag heal at mag move on from all the pain. I want to be okay again. I also want you to be okay and heal from this kasi nasabi mo din na gusto mo din mag move on and gusto mo din maging better someday sa future relationship mo. Masakit lang na di mo man lang naisip sabihin na gusto mo muna ng break para maging maayos tayo someday. It felt na I am really already out of the equation, out of your life.
So I am also trying to forget you, kahit alam ko sa sarili ko na you already left a big part sa buhay ko. You will always have a special place in my heart. Pero I think that I really need to keep going with my life without you in it. Kahit ayaw talaga kitang mawala sa life ko, I want to heal and move on. I need to keep going. And I still think that one way of doing so is to talk to you in person. I really wanna meet you and talk to you. Kaso di ko alam kung may chance ba to do it. Kahit nasabi mo din naman na yeah, we need to meet and mag usap about what happened. The question is, kelan ba yun? Kasi feeling ko everyday mas bumibigat pa yung emotional baggage ko and one way to unload them is to talk to you. Kasi akala ko once na i-open up ko sya sa mga kaibigan ko, once na maisulat ko sya sa notes app ko, akala ko gagaan somehow ang pakiramdam ko, pero hindi pa din. Mukhang kelangan ata na sa'yo ko sabihin directly. Although ayoko kasi na masaktan ka sa mga sasabihin ko. We're both fragile emotionally. And sobrang martyr man, ayoko na masaktan pa kita. When you said na halos lahat nga ay first time for you, gusto ko sana na happy and good memories ang maaalala mo about me, about us, kasi ganun din ang gusto kong i-keep sa alaala ko.
Mel, hindi ko alam kung mababasa mo pa ba to. Or babasahin mo pa ba to. Kung mabasa mo man, sana talaga makapag usap tayo in person.
Namimiss pa din kita. At gaya ng lagi kong paalala sa'yo, mag iingat ka lagi.
-Y

Hello everyone! Inaaral ko kasi kung paano magiging commute ko based sa title above for October pa naman this year. Around 6 pm ko kailangang makarating (allowance lang for 8 pm na show) at approximately 10 pm naman ako makakaalis after on a Saturday. Matagal pa naman pero kailangan ko nang mapanindigan para hindi ako aanga-anga when the time comes. I would also appreciate suggestions kung may mas mabilis na way to get there. Here goes...
Pulilan to the Theatre (6 pm ang dating) : 1. Sakay ng bus bound to Cubao kasi marami naman dito sa amin. 2. From there, transfer to EDSA Carousel going to Ayala Malls Manila Bay. From AMMB, lakad papuntang The Theatre.
The Theatre (10 pm na alis from Solaire): 1. Lakad mula The Theatre papuntang City of Dreams para mag-abang sa bus ng EDSA Carousel. 2. Baba sa Main Ave. papuntang bus terminals.
Pahabol po, advisable po ba ang paglalakad from The Theatre to City of Dreams nang ganung oras? Although second time ko na papuntang The Theatre, ngayon lang ako magcocommute and alone. Thank you po!

Cerita nya gini aku pribadi lagi mau Deket sama seseorang yang dulunya temen satu kampus kita udah saling kenal satu sama lain sampe sering juga diajak main kerumah dia ataupun main bareng keluar bareng nah permasalahannya selama ±3thn ini hubungan kita tuh gak jelas ntah Itu kita cuma temenan atau ngga nih,
Saran dong kalo aku mau tembak dia tapi nggak bikin canggung kalo semisal ditolak harus gimana ya agan agan semua ?
Terimakasih sebelumnya

Kemanusiaan yang adil dan beradab
- Sila kedua Pancasila

The world’s eyes are currently on Gaza right now, and for VERY good reasons. After Hamas’s October 7th attack, Israel has razed the entirety of Gaza to the ground with missile strikes, in addition to the deliberate starvation of the population in Gaza of any kind of aid like food, water, fuel, and medicine as collective punishment. Many, and I mean many, war crimes have been documented being committed by the IDF including massacres of innocent civilians, rape, and torture. Israeli officials, soldiers, and segments of the public have been astonishingly clear that they want to ethnically cleanse Gaza of all Palestinians. It’s fully obvious right now that what’s happening in Gaza is a genocidal campaign being committed by the Israeli government with the full backing and funding of the US as well as parts of the Western World.
Some of you may see where I’m going with this, but I think it’s important for me to lay out an example that I’m sure most of you can see is pretty morally unjustifiable and use it to make analogies with what I’m gonna talk about, implicitly or otherwise.
As I’m sure most of you are aware by now, there’s been some recent discourse around the circulation of two video recordings that recently went viral on Indonesian social media where it showed a group of TNI soldiers torturing a Papuan man known as Definaus Kogoya inside a barrel filled with water that was contaminated with his blood. One of the videos shows the soldiers punching, kicking, and beating him in the head, while the other shows someone cutting him with a knife. The soldiers themselves recorded this.
The backlash against the TNI because of the video was so bad that the military had to apologize, investigating 42 soldiers and arresting 13 among them that were suspected of being involved in the torture. The TNI accused the man in the video of being a KKB member who was planning to commit arson, but there’s no evidence of this provided, with members of the man’s family claiming he was just fixing his roof along with another friend of his, Alianus Mirok, when TNI soldiers captured them.
After they were handed over to the police, they were released soon afterwards due to there being a lack of evidence against them. After Defianus was already tortured.
There are also some articles that state that Defianus died from his injuries, which if true would make this whole situation extra fucked.
However, this is far from the only incident of torture that has been committed by the TNI. In February of 2020, a civilian named Jusni was tortured to death by a group of 11 soldiers, with most of the perpetrators only getting 9 to 11 months in prison, and only 2 received a sentence of more than a year as well as getting fired.
Even more recently as I was making this, there was a recent article reporting on how TNI soldiers tortured a journalist in Northern Maluku for reporting on the TNI seizing a ship with minyak tanah and threatened to kill him unless he signed a deal where he promised to stop reporting on their activities and quit being a journalist.
The TNI always had a pattern of behaviour when it comes to this, with there having been 431 cases of torture in Papua by apparatuses happening all the way back from 1963 up until 2010, with only 2 having been committed against pro-independence militants, the rest of them being civilians. Of these cases, 65% of them were committed by the military, 34% by the police, and 1% by separatist militants.
Why was there such a high amount of torture by the military against civilians? Aside from the soldiers having a power complex over other people and for the most part feeling immunity from any kind of punishment, there’s another important reason, racism.

Sangat sulit (mengidentifikasi) karena mukanya hampir sama. Mereka brewok
- Mayjen Izak Pangemanan, Commander of the Cenderawasih Military Area Command, when asked by the press why the military had a hard time distinguishing between civilians and militants.

So, to be clear, because TNI soldiers were incapable of telling the difference between a regular civilian and a separatist militant, they captured civilians who weren’t even involved with the militants in the first place and since they were free to do whatever they want, tortured them. Apparently, this problem is so bad that Papuan men have a term for it, musa (muka sama) because they’re afraid that they’ll be mistakenly captured as being a part of the TPNBP and tortured by TNI soldiers.
Now, with the recent discourse surrounding the use of torture by the TNI in Papua, there’s been some comments by people I’m gonna refer to as “ultranationalists” that try to justify or defend what the TNI soldiers had done in Papua. Some of them are current soldiers that say that because TNI soldiers and POLRI men have been killed by TPNPB members, that they shouldn’t be held accountable for their actions. Then there are your netizens that will basically defend everything the military does and say that the people criticizing them are unpatriotic western bootlickers who should go to Papua themselves if they care so much about HAM.
To put this one straight, I strongly disagree with these deflections, I think they’re war crime apologias and I’m gonna spend the rest of my post arguing against them.
And just to be extra clear, when I say “war crimes,” to my understanding it means violations of international law (including torture) that are committed during an armed conflict, at least from what I read from the UN.
There are 2 main arguments I want to make for this case, the first are the political arguments and the second are the moral arguments.
Political Arguments
If we’re looking exclusively from a realpolitik perspective where the main goal is the integrity of the current borders of NKRI, then what happened in Papua, and most likely continuing to happen, is a fucking optical disaster, and undermines that goal entirely.
In Papua itself, stuff like this would radicalize the fuck out of your average Papuan person, imagine if you found out that a family member of yours was tortured by TNI soldiers and the perpetrators went scot-free, of course you would be fucking livid. It further erodes trust in the institutions of the state and galvanizes the pro-independence movement, as chances are they’ll either join one of the civilian pro-independence organizations, or if they’re in the more rural and mountainous areas take up arms with the TPNPB. TPNPB members don’t just come out of nowhere.
We’ve seen this phenomenon played out countless times already, torturing or oppressing a group of people with the aim to instil fear in a population and subdue them usually leads to the opposite effect. As an example, not long after Oct 7, support for Hamas, which advocates for armed resistance, has increased among Palestinians in both Gaza and the West Bank due to Israel’s incessant bombing of Gaza as well as increasing violence with Ultra-Orthodox settlers in the West Bank, while support for the Palestinian Authority has plummeted to the ground.
Internationally, it hurts Indonesia’s credibility on the world stage, turning public opinion against Indonesia’s handling of Papua. People often forget that one of the reasons why Western governments decided to no longer back Indonesia’s occupation of East Timor (may Henry Kissinger burn in hell) was because of the Santa Cruz massacre, in which Indonesian soldiers gunned down unarmed protesters that killed about at least 250 civilians, with footage of the massacre causing international outcry as well as pressure on Western governments to cut their support for Indonesia, similar to what we’re seeing in Gaza right now.
If your goal IS the integrity of the current Indonesian borders, then you should scream out of the top of your lungs to say that shit like this is unacceptable, because this just leads to the opposite effect.
Moral Arguments
As far as moral arguments go, it essentially boils down to this, torture is morally bad, no exceptions.
For one, torture has terrible effects on the victim. Physically, it can lead to chronic pain, brain damage, hearing and vision loss, cardiovascular and respiratory problems, and physical scars. It also psychologically traumatizes the victim, causing them to have depression, PTSD, sleep deprivation, and in the case of stripping the victim naked, strips them of their identity and causes shame.
Two, torture also affects society at large, as the use of torture can lead to its continued and increased use. If soldiers are allowed to torture someone without any consequences, that leads to the entire military feeling that they can get away with it, leading to more cases like Defianus.
The military should not have leeway when it comes to using extrajudicial punishments, as there’s the rule of law when it comes to stuff like this. The use of torture is a violation of the law itself, as Indonesia is a party of the ICCPR (International Covenant on Civil and Political Rights), which among other things include the prohibition of torture, as well as of UNCAT (United Nations Convention Against Torture). Heck even in the 1945 constitution of Indonesia itself, at verse 28G of chapter 10A (which is a chapter that focuses solely on human rights), it explicitly states the right to be free from torture.
“BuT HAM iS JuSt WeSTeRn SJW ProPagAnda” Pancasila&Orba_supporter_#315645, I dare you say that to our founding fathers.
If we legitimize extrajudicial torture as a legitimate form of punishment by the armed forces, who’s to say that the same tactics can’t be applied to you when you’re, say, protesting or criticizing the government? It sets a bad precedent that your civil rights don't need to be taken into account when it comes to the military or authorities for that matter, as well as further creating a culture of impunity among the military and police. I’m sure most of us here don’t want the return of the Orba regime.
Even if the victim was in fact a KKB member who has done some heinous shit, torture in general, aside from being a bad way to make someone tell the truth as it just leads to people lying in order to escape the pain, is just a harm to the individual and society as a whole, hence why I think it should be universally opposed.
Conclusion
So yeah, that about wraps up the main part of my long fucking Reddit post. Normally in a situation like this, I would just write a comment on a post and call it a day, but certain comments riled up my brain that I felt the need to write this all down.
I’ve seen the same logic espoused by Zionists to justify to their ongoing genocide in Palestine by blaming Hamas being said by Indonesian ultranationalists who try to justify the torture of Papuan civilians because of the actions of the KKB, which is EXTREMELY ironic to me, considering I know that these same people would consider themselves to be Pro-Palestine.
To be extra, extra clear, the killing of civilian workers as well as the burnings of public facilities by Papuan militants are completely unjustified and also constitute war crimes. In the same breath, I’m sure that some TNI soldiers feel pain from the loss of friends to KKB gunshots. But that’s the thing though, some of those people part of KKB probably joined the group at least initially because TNI soldiers did some fucked up shit towards either them or their family and friends, but that surely doesn’t justify their attacks on civilian workers on the vague assumption that they’re “spies for the enemy”, neither should that apply for the TNI (and in case the analogies weren’t obvious enough, this also applies to both Hamas and the IDF).
The insane number of comments, lies, and abuses that were levied against the Rohingya Refugees that landed in Aceh by netizens as well as Acehnese students shows to me how dehumanization rhetoric can affect basically everyone, it just depends on how susceptible you are to it. It’s the main reason why I decided to make this post in the first place. We shouldn’t fall into dehumanization rhetoric of an entire group of people just because of the actions of a few. Terrorism committed by the TPNPB should not give the military impunity to do whatever they want, and vice versa for that matter. If we do, we end up using the same justifications that Zionists use.
Di sila kedua Pancasila, dibilangnya kalau semua kemanusiaan itu adil dan beradab. Which to me certainly suggests that all people have equal rights, a.k.a., HAM (gasp, scary acronym). I’m not sure if ultranationalists Orba types who defend TNI soldiers torturing civilians and tell protesting students at BEM UI to KKN to Papua realize that they’re going against a literal principle of Pancasila but guess we all have our blind spots.
A few of the responses to this post will say that I’m just a stupid, unpatriotic, SJW who’s out of touch with the real situation in Papua, and maybe I am, but hey, at least I’m not a war crime apologist.

Posting this because Ramadan is time for charity and reflection on how to be a better person.
I remember when celebrating O Level results (top in cohort in lousy neighbourhood secondary school) with friends some joked that I will look down on them. I promised I won't because when I wear different uniform I'm still same Magikarp. Hardworking but cheerful joker and nice/helpful to everyone even the gangsters in my secondary school.
Two years later I can say I kept my promise and don't look down on them but I changed for worse in other ways. I developed a lot more anxiety over my future and less nice/helpful to people I don't know well. How come? Maybe this is maturity after introduction to harsh world with lots of elitism/racism:

1. Choosing/starting JC

I realised got four IP JCs for SAP schools (HCI/DHS/RVHS/EJC) so top scoring minority race students got limited options (mainly RI/VJC/NJC). First few weeks in VJC were huge culture shock especially IP dogs + VS guys making racist jokes which make me feel not welcome (even consider appeal to NJC but missed deadline LOL).
For GP my English standard + knowledge need to catch up a lot (in secondary school we know little + don't care about issues like politics/LGBT). During GP discussions two Chinese classmates are the most vocally liberal and pro-LGBT. One is king of racist jokes (even by VS guy standards) and doesn't really mix with minority races (other VS guys who make racist jokes still mix with other races). Another is stuck up rich girl who likes to mock (with sarcastic replies) my English mistakes especially after she realised I morally disagree + uncomfortable with LGBT.
Even my H1 Malay class got this well off guy who likes to put down his own community/culture (similar to [Rant] Experience with “elite” malays : SGExams). Thank God most VJC people are not like that and after a few months I managed to make some good friends (all races).

1. Building portfolio

Although my family can't afford tuition I can still get good grades with a lot of self-study + consult teachers. JC increase emphasis on building portfolio (secondary school only got LEAPS) which is more difficult. I joined two CCAs then ran for exco + signed up for many relevant competitions/Olympiads. Selected for a few competitions but never win anything (which is fine).
Missed some opportunities because too expensive + limited time (family commitments + self-studying takes much longer compared to tuition). From competitions + online + classmate gossip I heard a lot about super stacked portfolios of brilliant privileged RI/HCI/ACSI students (some use connections to get opportunities). This make me more worried about how I'm going to compete with them for uni places (aiming for CS due to real interest + ticket out of poverty).

1. Employment discrimination

During pandemic older siblings kena retrench + parents earn less so we rely on gahmen support + older siblings did temp jobs like Grab/SDA. As pandemic improves they look for new jobs but some companies reject kakak because she wears tudung. Cousin with special needs become first in family to complete uni but can't get any job relevant to his degree.
As inflation got worse I consider giving tuition to help with family finances but so many tuition lobangs openly put for female Chinese only.

1. Social media

Pandemic made many disadvantaged families (including mine) reliant on Malay language social media. Abang's most active in group for Grab riders while I'm in another group giving IT help/advice. As inflation got worse the strong gotong royong spirit there slowly replaced by many feeling frustrated/angehelpless over poverty/elitism/racism.
I also join English language social media (mainly Reddit) to find answers/advice which I can't get from family/friends or Malay language social media. Joined some discussions about social issues (to improve my GP) but turns out liberal Chinese on singapore are even more elitist/racist like frequently insulting boomers (even cursing to die) + Grab riders + various customs (like Chinese burning or halal needs) + anyone who disagrees with LGBT (even calling them retarded/ISIS).

1. The turning point incident

Two weeks before turning point incident I'm walking from VJC (ECP side) towards bridge to bus stop then heard voice in Mandarin so turned around. Saw this Chinese lady walking her big dog just behind me and got huge shock.
Turning point incident involves a close friend (also Malay) from secondary school (went poly). Let's call him Poliwrath. He's from broken family and kena some racist bullying in P5/P6. So in Sec 1 he mixed with gangsters in our school for protection but with support from me + others he managed to stop mixing with gangsters. In poly he kena racism from groupmates.
What happened is Poliwrath heard rumour that in NS need to stay in with gays. He asked on Malay language social media but could not get answers/advice only violent jokes/suggestions (which I disapprove of). Then he asked me and I said I don't know but can try to help ask on NationalServiceSG which I did. We met for dinner then checked the replies which all not helpful only insults + some threats.
Poliwrath was like "Why must we serve this ketuanan cina country? If they want to beat us up I better get my old gang to protect us. Like that Chinese girls who only want tuition from other Chinese girls deserve to kena rape?" First time I see Poliwrath so angry/upset in our 5 years as good friends. Next day during GP lesson I mentioned the female Chinese only tuition lobangs and that stuck up rich liberal Chinese girl said "is common sense for girls safety".
Then after CCA finish I walk towards bridge near bus stop (near where I kena the dog owner). Saw a female Chinese (a bit older + not from VJC) coming down last few steps of bridge then fell down + barang drop. Instead of helping her I froze up (feel like legs cannot move) for one minute then walk the other away to different bus stop.

1. Changed for the worse

Now I'm shy/afraid to approach/help people I don't know well (even when I want to approach/help them). I start to be a bit resentful towards rich people. Feeling high anxiety over my future (coping with social environment in NS/uni + risk employment discrimination).
Maybe is not just me who changed. Abang used to be really chill but his temper got worse after kena so many elitist customers (Grab + new job). After turning point incident Poliwrath gone back to his old gang. Another close friend (traditional Chinese) from secondary school confided he kena occasional thoughts about harming others.
TBH I'm grateful for supportive family/friends + great A Level results. Maybe all this elitism/racism is a test of my faith and my desire to help others. Hence I'm asking for advice to reverse my changing for worse.

Selamat datang di blog "Main Seru"! Di sini, kami akan berbagi berbagai ide permainan kreatif yang bisa membuat anak-anak Anda tetap aktif dan terhibur. Dari permainan dalam ruangan hingga permainan luar ruangan, kami memiliki banyak ide untuk mengisi waktu luang anak-anak dengan cara yang menyenangkan dan mendidik. Mari kita mulai dengan beberapa ide permainan yang pasti akan membuat mereka senang!

1. Permainan "Treasure Hunt" (Petualangan Harta Karun)

Petualangan Harta Karun adalah permainan yang menyenangkan dan merangsang imajinasi anak-anak. Sembunyikan beberapa hadiah atau barang-barang kecil di sekitar rumah atau taman, dan berikan petunjuk kepada anak-anak untuk menemukan mereka. Petunjuk bisa berupa teka-teki, gambar, atau pesan tersembunyi. Biarkan anak-anak bersenang-senang mencari harta karun sambil belajar tentang kerjasama dan pemecahan masalah.

2. Permainan "Indoor Obstacle Course" (Lintasan Rintangan dalam Ruangan)

Buatlah lintasan rintangan dalam ruangan dengan menggunakan bantal, kursi, dan peralatan rumah tangga lainnya. Anak-anak dapat melompati, merayap di bawah, dan mengelilingi rintangan-rintangan ini secepat mungkin. Permainan ini tidak hanya akan membantu meningkatkan keterampilan motorik mereka, tetapi juga memberikan kesempatan untuk berkreasi dan bergerak secara aktif.

3. Permainan "DIY Board Games" (Permainan Papan Buatan Sendiri)

Ajak anak-anak untuk membuat permainan papan mereka sendiri! Mereka dapat membuat papan permainan, kartu, dan potongan-potongan permainan dengan menggunakan kertas, pensil warna, dan barang-barang bekas. Setelah selesai membuatnya, mereka dapat bermain bersama teman atau keluarga. Ini adalah cara yang bagus untuk merangsang kreativitas dan mengajarkan anak-anak tentang aturan dan strategi permainan.

4. Permainan "Outdoor Water Balloon Dodgeball" (Dodgeball dengan Balon Air di Luar Ruangan)

Di hari yang cerah, tidak ada yang lebih menyenangkan daripada bermain dodgeball dengan balon air! Isi balon air dan bagi anak-anak menjadi dua tim. Mereka harus menghindari balon air yang dilemparkan oleh lawan sambil mencoba untuk mengenai lawan mereka dengan balon air. Ini adalah cara yang menyegarkan dan menyenangkan untuk menghabiskan waktu di luar rumah.

5. Permainan "Storytelling Circle" (Lingkaran Bermain Bersama Cerita)

Buat lingkaran di sekitar anak-anak dan mintalah setiap anak untuk menambahkan satu bagian dari cerita yang sedang dibangun secara bergantian. Cerita bisa menjadi apa pun yang mereka inginkan, dari petualangan di luar angkasa hingga petualangan di hutan yang misterius. Ini adalah cara yang bagus untuk merangsang imajinasi dan keterampilan bahasa anak-anak.

6. Permainan "Nature Scavenger Hunt" (Petualangan Cari Barang di Alam)

Ajak anak-anak untuk menjelajahi alam di sekitar rumah dengan permainan mencari barang. Berikan daftar barang-barang yang harus mereka cari, seperti batu, daun, atau bunga. Biarkan mereka menemukan barang-barang ini sendiri sambil menikmati udara segar dan keindahan alam.

7. Permainan "DIY Musical Instruments" (Alat Musik Buatan Sendiri)

Biarkan anak-anak mengeksplorasi kreativitas mereka dengan membuat alat musik sederhana dari barang-barang rumah tangga. Mereka bisa membuat drum dari panci, shaker dari botol plastik, atau flute dari sedotan. Setelah selesai membuatnya, biarkan mereka membentuk band dan bermain musik bersama. Ini adalah cara yang menyenangkan untuk mengembangkan keterampilan musik mereka sambil berkreasi.
Itulah beberapa ide permainan kreatif yang dapat Anda coba dengan anak-anak Anda. Ingatlah bahwa permainan bukan hanya tentang bersenang-senang, tetapi juga tentang belajar dan tumbuh bersama. Semoga ide-ide ini membantu Anda menciptakan momen-momen berharga bersama anak-anak Anda! Jangan ragu untuk berbagi pengalaman Anda dengan kami di bagian komentar di bawah. Terima kasih telah membaca!

Langsung aja yes - gue sekarang liat kebanyakan orang orang kita itu lucu (abis ngedenger ama ngeliat kisah teman dan beberapa kenalan gue)
Lucu nya nape? Ya karena di dumay ama irl tereak tereak 'mental health awareness' yet kebanyakan dari mereka ini menganggap wajar toxic behaviour
Ini gue pake dari kisah beberapa kenalan ama temen gue (2 contoh dulu) , mungkin ada yang pernah ngalamin / ngeliat dengan mata kepala sendiri irl juga kayak gue

1. people pleasing : ada banyak kenalan gue yang suka dinasehatin 'jangan mau jadi people pleaser' - ya begitu kenalan gue beneran lebih sibuk ama keluarga dan kehidupannya sendiri dan beberapa orang 'nolak kemauan si orang lain' (in this case yang gue liat : arranged marriage - abang ato mbaknya udah berumur - akhirnya 'dijodohin' lah ke kenalan gue) : kikipelit, individualis, egoist etc....funny thing pas dibalikin omongan mereka, mereka ngomongnya 'suka gak suka budaya timur itu budaya nyenengin orang-mau gak mau mesti ada salah satu pihak yang mesti turutin maunya suatu pihak'......terus buat apa nasehatin orang soal boundaries ama mental health kalo ujungnya mereka anggep wajar dan memaklumi sifat people pleaser?
   
2. lomba adu nasib : ada banyak temen gue yang ngalamin nasib sial di workplacenya kayak
   

A. Ada yang kontrak kerjanya kelar tapi evaluation reportnya diobrak abrik ama bosnya - dilabelin 'insubordinate' (ngelawan atasan) dan berakhir dengan dapet status 'do not rehire' aka diblacklist (gara gara masalah sepele - temen gue inj komplen soal keponakan salah satu manager yang udah nggak bisa kerja / low perform - suka lempar tanggung jawab juga - spv nya cerita temen gue ini yang suka benerin laporan ama ngerjain kerjaannya ponakan si manager tsb) kebanyakan temen gue begini nasibnya btw : evaluation report diobrak abrik cuman gara gara masuk shit list manager
B. Ada juga temen gue yang diterminate cuman gara gara dia komplen soal kelakuan pacar bosnya ke dia (aka dia dilaporin harrassment)
Pas mereka curhat soal struggle mereka - malah jadi 'lomba adu nasib' (ada yang terang terangan ngomong lah 'di blacklist ama dimusuhin pihak management mah masalah biasa di dunia kerja - gue yang sering dimaki maki financial controller tanpa alasan jelas aja selow' ama 'udah 8 tahun kerja di administrasi baru ngeluh sekarang soal black list ama masuk shit list manager? Lebay ah...itu hal biasa') pas mereka bales komplen ya responnya : ' lah lomba adu nasib ama gaslit biarpun kesannya negatif tapi diperluin - tujuannya biar lu gak jadi drama king ama gak berlarut di masalah lu' (dan banyak random stranger di medsos kenalan ama kawan gue yang setuju soal gini - 'budaya kita itu ketimuran dan gotong royong - udah pastilah sifat people pleaser itu wajib dipake... suka gak suka pasti ada momen dimana kita wajib ngikutin ama nurutin maunya pihak lain.....' ama 'lomba adu nasib emang perlu di real life, buat nunjukin kalo bukan cuma lu yang punya masalah' (gue rasa ini para manusia menganggap serius komik ama karakter fiktif kayak naruto ama recca yang hobi suka lomba adu nasib ama lawannya lmao)
Sama kayak diatas.....ngapain ngomong soal self care, empati, mental health kalo hal kayak gaslit, 'invalidate feelings' ama lomba adu nasib dianggap wajar dan perlu?
Gue penasaran, buat apa sebenarnya teriak teriak soal mental health kalo ujungnya toxic behaviour masih dipake dan dianggap penting dan wajib?

Looking for suggestions.
I'm currently living at my parent's house. Married with 1baby. Di na kami bubukod since sabi ng parents ko magiging akin din naman raw ang bahay kasi only child. So napag isipan namin mag asawa para bawas gastos nalang din, is pagawan nlng ng second floor.
Yung bahay ng parents ko is 85sqm with 2bdroom and 1 cr and 1 small carpark.
Currently planning na ipagawa ang second floor ng bahay ng parents ko para may privacy kami ng husband ko. Pero sa ngayon wala akong maisip na design so nagtitingin pa kami ng home design inspo sa internet.
Gusto ko sana yung stairs is nasa labas ng main bahay para kung gabihin mn ng uwi walang maddstrbo. Iisa parin kami ng kusina and dining, kwarto&cr lang at sala lang siguro sa taas para kung may bisita man kami di maka distrbo sa parents ko.
Baka kako may recommendation kayo or suggestion na home design. Patulong po sana ako. If may alam din kayo magkano estimate sa pagpapagawa ng second floor.
Magkano din kaya magpa quote sa contractor. Wala talaga kasi akong idea, yung bahay ng parents ko yung kilalang panday lang ang gumawa ang sabi naka abang na raw yung bahay for second floor.
Baka may alam po kayo or pwede ma share, open po ako sa kahit anong suggestions.

Ini pertamakalinya posting di reddit Indonesia. Semoga ga salah kamar.
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Aku mau cerita. Pertengahan tahun lalu mantanku waktu jaman bloon2 dulu tepatnya waktu kuliah inbox aku di fb. Aku kaget tapi seneng karena sebenernya aku juga pernah nyariin dia tapi karena dulu gak tau nama lengkapnya jadi gak pernah ketemu. Singkat cerita dulu aku ninggalin dia kalo gak salah krn kita beda agama. Eh skrg pas dia inbox ngabarin kl kita sdh seagama. Tapi dia sdh nikah. Aku juga.
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Dari obrolan2 pendek aja aku ngerasa ada yg salah krn aku ngerasa sdg selingkuh walau pun kita gak ngomongin soal cinta2an. Walau perkawinanku sdg ada masalah dan perkawinannya juga ada masalah tapi aku ttp ngerasa salah. Aku seneng ketemu dia lagi tapi terus aku pamitan dan blokir dia di fb.
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Sakit banget rasanya. Perkawinanku sdh di ujung tanduk. Aku sdh dapet pengacara buat ngurus semua. Aku mau berdiri sendiri krn cape punya pasangan yg tak seirama. Suatu waktu aku ingin main ke tempat mantanku itu krn dia tinggal di pulau yg indah. Tapi aku gak niat hubungin dia sih cuma kebetulan aku punya anak yg aku sponsorin juga disana. Aku mulai kerja supaya gak ngandelin suamiku. Tapi stlh kerja bbrpa bulan ternyata penyakitku makin kambuh. Aku gak bisa kerja lagi.
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Aku gak mungkin berdiri sendiri lagi. Aku tergantung sama suami apalagi ada anak2. Tapi jauh didalam lubuk hatiku aku tersiksa hidup sama dia.
Anyway, Sepertinya Tuhan benar2 ngelarang aku bahkan untuk sekedar pergi ke tempat mantanku itu karena jalanku langsung diblokir lewat penyakitku. Satu hal yg aku syukuri dr bertemunya aku dgn dia lagi walau cuma di dumay yaitu aku jadi aktif bikin video di youtube. Dari Agustus smp skrg aku sdh bikin 113 video. Cuma video edit mengedit sedikit tapi itu cukup membuat kepalaku lega sedikit tiap melakukannya disamping melakukan pekerjaan rumah plus ngurus anak2.
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Kpd yg membaca tolong dido'akan ya semoga suamiku kl tdk cinta lagi mau melepasku baik2.

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THE END

TW: Bullying
Before we begin, a glossary of terms for those who may need one. In particular, 'graduation' (a voluntary retirement of a given VTuber identity, whether indie or corporate) will come up a lot; the other specific term is '[Virtual] Livers' (rhyming with 'divers'), Nijisanji's specific term for its VTubers.
Writing this in early March 2024, chances are that the name 'Nijisanji' will ring a bell if you have engaged with just about any online space with even the slightest connection to weeb fandoms in the last few weeks. The scandal resulting from the termination of Nijisanji English's Selen Tatsuki on 5 February – exactly a month ago at the time of posting – has become a matter of considerable attention reaching well outside the VTuber bubble, and may well hang over the agency for the rest of its existence. But it's worth remembering that this was not the first scandal to rock Nijisanji, and especially not the first to revolve around its international branches. The recent blow-up has some rather older precedents.

Where did Nijisanji come from?

On 29 November 2016, tech startup Activ8 debuted Kizuna AI, voiced and acted by Kasuga Nozomi, as the first self-proclaimed 'Virtual YouTuber'. Unbeknownst to her creators, their apparent dominance of the medium was not to last. AI's time as the face of the industry was to end in flames in 2019, as Activ8's attempts to follow through on their original vision of the 'eternal idol' ran up against a fandom that had developed its own set of expectations about VTubing, driven by the proliferation of new VTuber personas that had become inextricably tied to the talents behind them. And at the arguable forefront of that movement was Nijisanji.
Nijisanji, officially styled NIJISANJI and often informally stylised as 2434 (ni shi san shi), is the brainchild of Riku Tazumi (born c.1996), who dropped out of his studies at Waseda University in 2017 to establish Ichikara Inc, and set to work developing a Live2D tracking app, offering a much cheaper and less labour-intensive alternative to the full-body studio 3D then in vogue. On 11 January 2018, Ichikara publicly unveiled Nijisanji, the name of its official app, and opened auditions; eight successful applicants debuted from 8 to 16 February. Nijisanji's bursting onto the scene with Live2D arguably kicked off modern VTubing as we know it, leading competitors like Cover to copy the format, and paving the way for an eventual explosion in the number of independent VTubers as the cost of entry continued to fall. Aggregator site Userlocal would claim that there were over 1000 VTubers by the end of March, and 6000 by the end of the year; 61 belonged to Nijisanji. (source).
We could get bogged down in early Nijisanji history forever, but the meat of this story requires us to leave Japan and 2018 behind and move away in both space and time. Before we get to that, though, why do Japanese VTuber agencies set up overseas operations, anyway?

Why expand overseas?

Even today, the exact limit of the Japanese market for VTubers is not really known, but from the very beginning, the industry has been keenly aware both of the eventual limits of the domestic space and the potential room for growth in foreign markets that will be receptive to Japanese cultural exports. Rarely has a media company sought to have less of an audience. But we also ought to account for the fact that a lot of VTuber agencies have their origins as tech startups, where you get a lot of initial funding and then need to find a way to become profitable before it runs out. Overseas expansion carries with it a certain amount of risk, but when there is only so much money before it all runs out, those are risks that may need taking.

Where to first?

If you look at the history of the major VTuber ventures, it is notable that their first priority of expansion has usually been China, then other Asian regions, and then finally the English-language market, if they ever get there. Regional markets are just easier logistically (both in terms of timezone difference and in terms of shipping for physical goods), and presumed to be more predictable in terms of spending, and historically, the largest of these markets has been the Chinese one. Activ8 did some limited English outreach with Kizuna AI, but their experiment with Multiple AI explicitly included one voice actor to serve as her Mandarin voice. Hololive's overseas expansion went in the order China -> Indonesia -> English. Brave Group, whose modus operandi has often revolved around buying up existing ventures rather than introducing its own, acquired the Chinese agency MUGEN-LIVE in 2022, and only started an English-language branch with V4Mirai the year after. What I'm saying is that we in the Anglosphere have tended to be a pretty distant, fourth-tier concern for the Japanese VTuber industry. Nijisanji would be no exception.

Only Nijixon could go to China

When I earlier wrote that Nijisanji debuted 61 Livers in its first 10 months, that was not entirely true. Nijisanji had licensed its app and its branding to a different company, who proceeded to launch Nijisanji Shanghai and Nijisanji Taipei, each of 8 members, at the end of August 2018. In other words, some 77 people signed on to become official Nijisanji talents that year.
Trying to find out what exactly happened to 二次三次虚拟主播企划 (er ci san ci xuni zhubo qihua, or 'Nijisanji Virtual Streamer Project'; evidently sometimes shortened to '"Nijisanji" Project') is tricky given the relative lack of attention from back in the day and the retroactive scrubbing of a lot of material. Thanks to kirandra I was put on to this writeup concerning Nijisanji Shanghai, but this too is a rather later retrospective. Probably the only comprehensive timeline comes from the relevant page on Chinese ACGN wiki Moegirl.org.cn, which has no citations. So, bear in mind that the following is pretty dry and summative because I have to work with what I could find.
On 8 July 2018, a Facebook page for Nijisanji Taipei emerged, with a cover image featuring silhouettes of its eight members. The project would be formally announced on the 17th on Facebook (focussing on Taipei), Bilibili (focussing on Shanghai), and Weibo (ditto) with auditions open until the 27th. Over the course of the next few weeks, promo images would be teased until, on 24 August, both branches formally began debuting talents.
The debut announcement simply said that Nijisanji had partnered with unspecified 'local company/ies' (在地企業), something which may at the time have been seen as innocuous but which, with the benefit of hindsight, was a bit of a major red flag. Per the summary by Shitantan in the linked writeup, it very quickly became apparent that the quality of models in both instances was noticeably poorer than what was on offer from Nijisanji's main branch. Things got worse after debut, as rumour had it that agency management were abusive towards their talents, linked to a continual wave of graduations from the Shanghai branch which began in November with the exit of Siddel. By March 2019, only one of eight remained, Saitania Liun Linse, and her graduation had already been announced and scheduled for that June (in the event, she brought it forward to 10 May). In mid-February, Monmon would be the first Taipei member to graduate.
The news then came, in late March or early April 2019, that 'Nijisanji' Project's affiliation with Ichikara would cease, and the remaining seven members of Nijisanji Taipei, along with Saitania, would rebrand as VEgo. This was formally announced on 2 April on both Weibo (this was their final post on the site) and Facebook, although the process of rebranding had started a little earlier. VEgo trundled along for another year, but continued losing members until the final one, Talency, left on 31 March 2020, having been alone at the agency since the departure of Siarurin on 8 February. And so came the end of Nijisanji's first overseas foray. Whatever specific events behind the scenes caused all these exits may never be known at this point, but clearly neither the setup nor the management of the two branches was done with particularly great competence.
Tangent: It is commonly asserted across several sites, primarily wikis (including Moegirl, Chinese Wikipedia, and the Virtual YouTubers Wiki on Fandom.com), that Nijisanji's partner was the Japanese-owned, Taiwan-centred influencer and marketing firm, Capsule Inc., with considerable inconsistency over whether it was the 'core' business in Taiwan, its (now-defunct) Hong Kong subsidiary, or its (still-active) Japanese subsidiary that was running the show. However, neither I nor those who helped me with this writeup have found any evidence that Capsule was Ichikara's partner in 2018-19. Capsule's website has press releases going back to late 2018 that make no mention of this partnership, nor of VEgo, nor do social media posts from 'Nijisanji' Project/VEgo mention Capsule's involvement. Moreover, Capsule has since been involved in collaboration marketing projects with both Hololive and Nijisanji, something you wouldn't expect if the latter agency still remembered them for botching their first China project.
However, Nijisanji Shanghai and Taipei did not mark the end of Nijisanji's attempts to edge into the Chinese market. Barely two and a half weeks after 'Nijisanji' Project's rebrand to VEgo, on 19 April 2019 came the announcement of VirtuaReal, a new VTuber project based on a joint venture between Ichikara and Bilibili, with Ichikara licensing their proprietary tech while management would be local, and if this is giving you flashbacks well yeah basically, it is the same idea just without the Niji branding. Without an account I can't see many of the comments on the Bilibili piece, but I will say that it is very amusing to me that of the three that I am allowed to see, one of them is someone remarking:

上海2434屍骨未寒

Which, to translate idiomatically, would be along the lines that:

Shanghai Nijisanji's corpse is still warm

And that really made my day.
I won't go into VirtuaReal at length, for a couple of reasons: firstly, I don't want to get bogged down in the details, and secondly, while its relationship with Niji is really about the same as the earlier entities (its main thing is it uses Nijisanji's tech, and it has some cross-branch collaboration both in 'official' events and between talents), the fact it doesn't even use the Nijisanji name marks it as something other than a simple extension of the brand. I'm sure the group has had its own triumphs and tribulations, but I am happy to place it outside the purview of this post.

An Indone-jerk reaction

Midway through its invasion of China, Nijisanji struck southwards into Indonesia, and… wait no that's the Japanese Empire during WW2. But it does apply to both. Nijisanji's third foray into overseas expansion would move into what is arguably one of the more unexpected VTuber markets to the layperson, that being Indonesia. But Indonesia has a lot of attractions for a VTuber company: there's a strong demand for Japanese cultural exports, a relatively ubiquitous lingua franca in the form of Bahasa Indonesia, and also a relatively decent standard of English that can help Indonesian streamers reach out to a more global audience.
Nijisanji started auditions for its Indonesian branch on 19 July 2019, and saw its first 'wave' of debuts on 17 September with Hana Macchia, ZEA Cornelia, and Taka Radjiman, whose group was later informally dubbed 3SetBBQ. Five more 'waves', one of four members and the rest of three, would debut until 31 July 2021, for a total of 19 talents signing on with Nijisanji Indonesia, or NijiID for short.
NijiID's first wave would be one of, if not the, first groups of agency VTubers in Indonesia. While it was overshadowed in viewership by its successors, locally-based agency Maha5 (pronounced Mahapanca, first debuts in October 2019) and Hololive's Indonesian branch (first debuts in April 2020), it was nevertheless well-liked by fans as a cohesive community unto itself, as well as having very good ties with its notional competitors, with frequent collaboration between the three. Throughout 2022 and going into early 2023, an informal unit known to some as HoloNiji5, comprising two members from each agency, had cropped up, although unfortunately Zen Gunawan's graduation from Maha5 in June 2023 marked the beginning of the end of that particular partnership.
In contrast to the supposed horror-show behind the scenes of 'Nijisanji' Project Shanghai, fan and talent opinion on Nijisanji Indonesia and its talent management was almost universally positive, especially in retrospect. Merch arrived on time, talents didn't complain about mismanagement, and they were able to get along with each other. For its second anniversary in 2021, NijiID pulled out all the stops to do a 7-hour 'Virtual Summit', held partly in VRChat, accompanied by a merch drop featuring a body pillow depicting 'Staff-san', the personification of NijiID's management.
'Hang on,' you may be thinking, 'why is this all in the past tense?'
Hahahahaaaaaa oh god.
On 17 February 2022, Anycolor (which Ichikara had renamed itself to in May 2021) announced that Nijisanji Indonesia was going to be merged with the main branch of Nijisanji at the beginning of the Japanese financial year in April, with its management integrated into the 'main' agency staff. NijiID would no longer exist as a separate branch on the books. This was also to happen to Nijisanji Korea (covered later), but not to Nijisanji English. In the long run, resentment over this decision has been very visible, thanks to NijiID's fans being both more numerous and being more fluent in English than Nijisanji Korea's. At the time though, responses were a little more mixed, with some cautious optimism about the benefits of closer integration with the core agency in Japan, but also concern over the loss of the branches' distinct identity. Of particular note was the implied end of any future debuts in either market, with then-ongoing audition and onboarding processes for both branches being cancelled at whatever stage of completion they may have been at.
To this day, the exact reasons behind the merger are unknown. Officially, Anycolor's reasoning was that it would allow for more efficient management of their talents, a statement that rang a little hollow for fans of NijiID who had (correctly, it seems) never been under the impression that the Indonesia branch was suffering from any management problems. Since then, it has been speculated, and widely accepted, that NijiID may have been operating on relatively low margins compared to EN and the main branch, if not at a loss, and that the merger was done to hide NijiID's financial status in advance of Anycolor becoming a publicly traded company, which eventually happened in June 2022. The charitable but realistic take is that Anycolor had to either go public or sell to a larger company so that early investors could cash out, especially thanks to the credit crunch that happened post-Covid. Pulling ID into the main branch did mean cutting any future development, but at least the talents would still keep their jobs for as long as they wanted to.
Unfortunately, in time it seemed like that was all they would get. For many VTubers, merch releases are a big part of their income, with agency VTubing in particular tending to put a lot of emphasis on talent 'birthdays' (albeit not necessarily the real birthdays of the IRL talents). Usually, these warrant an official merch drop, but as early as July 2022 it was clear that the former NijiID cohort had been pretty definitively shafted. That month, Azura Cecilia's birthday was accompanied by fan merch in the form of a pair of voice packs (voice recordings that basically serve as a sort of mini-audiobook), promoted by fellow talent Riksa Dhirendra, increasingly nicknamed 'Staff R' for how much he was having to carry things for actual management. The same happened with Rai Galilei and Bonnivier Pranaja in September. With Nijisanji Indonesia no longer having its own branch-wide social media accounts, promotion for Indonesian talents was entirely driven by their own efforts and their fans', with no visible support from higher up.
Probably the most glaring example of just how badly ID were treated post-merger relates to fan mail. Unsurprisingly, VTubers get fan mail. Or at least, they do if their agency forwards it to them. Reza Avanluna stated on 30 January 2023 that he did not actually receive fan mail and told fans not to waste their money on postage. Two other ex-IDs added their own perspectives: ZEA Cornelia said that she had received fan mail in the past and that she did sometimes get softcopy scans, but the last time she got the mail physically was when she visited Japan for NijiFes in October 2022; Mika Melatika simply confirmed that she didn't get the mail. This didn't kick up much of a storm, but the tone of the fan response, seen both on Reddit and in various Twitter replies, was one that suggested that the earlier cynicism about the merger was warranted.
Beginning in 2022, graduations from former Nijisanji Indonesia talents started trickling in, typically announced in batches a few months in advance. Miyu Ottavia seemed a lone outsider when she left on 27 November, but then from May 2023 onward, at least one former NijiID member has left each month, except, ironically, February 2024. The first two, in May 2023, were members of NijiID's first wave, in an especial vote of no confidence. Reza Avanluna, the fanmail whistleblower, left in September, though not before Azura Cecilia in August, who accompanied her graduation with this rather provocative thumbnail. Mika Melatika, who was very much well-liked among English-speaking viewers, left in late December last year, followed by Riksa, 'Staff R' himself, in January.
As of writing, only seven of NijiID's original 19 Livers remain. Of the twelve who left, all of them did so post-merger. The typical postmortem on NijiID would have it that this was a branch that was flourishing, but then cruelly thrown on the pyre for the sake of Anycolor's financial reports. We are unlikely to find out soon – possibly ever – if Nijisanji Indonesia's financials really were as bad as many have presumed. But what cannot be denied is that Nijisanji's stated aim of providing better support to its non-Japanese talents in Asia was very clearly unfulfilled in the case of its Indonesian talents. The agency should have done better, and very much could have done better, but it didn't.

Korea-ending controversies

Nijisanji Korea is a bit of an oddity in terms of the history of Nijisanji branches. Whereas its Chinese branches have always been licensed out to other companies, and most of its others have been 'home-grown' so to speak, Korea was a bit of a strange hybrid. Although Nijisanji did set up its own in-house branch, it also bought out an existing Korean agency, 541E&C, whose name just rolls casually off the tongue. The first, ten-member wave of Nijisanji Korea (henceforth NijiKR) would comprise four members specifically hired onto KR, who debuted on 25 January 2020, and six members of 541E&C. This, it is commonly believed, is where the trouble started.
Now, as a disclaimer, whereas I can read Chinese and could therefore deal with Niji's Chinese branches, and a lot of NijiID stuff has filtered into English because of a generally multilingual fanbase and talent pool, NijiKR is a lot harder to find reliable info on in languages that I understand. I thus am reliant on English summaries of variable quality that I cannot vouch for the reliability of, on either an individual or collective basis.
541E&C had been in operation since April 2019, and its members were themselves indies, most of whom had debuted over the course of the year. Unfortunately, 541E&C seems to have been a little lax in its screening process, and this resulted in a rather dramatic exit very early when Moarin, one of the 541E&C members, quit NijiKR on 28 February 2020, and VTubing outright the next day. The full circumstances are discussed in a comment by HarunaKai in this Reddit thread responding to the announcements, but I offer a brief summary here:
Three of 541E&C's nine members, Alice Mana, ENA, and Lucia, had chosen to graduate from 541E&C rather than continue into NijiKR. Alice Mana and ENA had been part of Project Paryi, a one-man show run by illustrator Paryi, which had dissolved in mid-April 2019; they presumably knew Moarin and thus joined 541E&C afterward. The allegation seems to be that Moarin functionally ran 541E&C herself, and exploited her position to coerce and bully the members. Alice and ENA thus seem to have taken the opportunity to jump ship during the NijiKR takeover. (As a coda to this, ENA never resurrected her old identity, but Alice returned to VTubing again in September 2020 and has been active on Youtube since.)
(TW: This is the serious bullying part)
But the allegations about Moarin run deeper. Supposedly, Moarin was also a singer going by SIN*SKI, who was one of a number of high schoolers who, in 2016, had been exposed for bullying. Now, the implications of this seem to be complicated, and the two extant writeups in English present two stories: according to HarunaKai, Moarin/SIN*SKI's bullying went as far as forcing their victims to assume positions that, in one instance, required extensive surgery. On the other hand, there are some writeups from 2021 on DeviantArt by MapuruCafe (1) (2) (whom I will note was apparently 13 when they wrote them so believe at your peril) but which presents something a little different. Per these writeups, it was someone else going by Kyamjya who was exposed as the outright torture bully, and that this led to the 'resurfacing' of unspecified but presumably somewhat lesser earlier allegations against SIN*SKI, a student at the same school. I cannot tell which of these versions is the correct one, but either way school bullying allegations against Moarin/SIN*SKI definitely exist.
Regardless of the scope and nature of the allegations, Moarin's departure was taken as a cause for celebration. Such celebration may have been premature, at least as regards the future of the branch, as four further 541E&C members left in July, leaving only Gaon still present with NijiKR. While I have been unable to find any clear indication as to why, it seems plausible enough that the reason was simply that these were largely former indie VTubers who had signed onto 541E&C when it was an indie network, and the Niji buyout had placed new, corporate-specific expectations on them that they weren't happy with.
In the longer term, KR never really managed to get a particularly strong audience outside a few outliers. Many members were bilingual and chose to stream in Japanese rather than Korean, likely due to the nature of their likely audience: South Korea historically (until recently) had relatively low Youtube livestream viewership compared to Twitch, while Japan historically was the reverse. The branch seems to have lacked a lot of institutional support, with apparent delays in technical support and tensions between talents and management.
Things came to a head in 2021 with the graduations of Shin Yuya and Nun Bora in June and November, respectively. They were the two most highly-subscribed members of the Korean branch, and with their departure, nobody in NijiKR had a sub count above 50k, a bad sign for the branch's overall performance and prospects when compared to other parts of the agency. This became worse in retrospect when it turned out that neither of them actually left for very long. (Spoilers owing to standard VTuber etiquette:) Yuya re-appeared as V-LUP's Lee Jooin on 22 January 2022, and is still streaming today. Bora re-debuted with VSPO! on 24 June 2022 as Nekota Tsuna, a particularly stinging choice given VSPO!'s emergence as a growing competitor to the existing big players on the market.
NijiKR's fate would be sealed with the 2022 merger announcement. Seven more Livers would leave, four in the run-up to 21 April and two very shortly after. As of writing, twelve former KR Livers remain in the main branch. If nothing else, it has been two years since the last graduation, so at least the merger has helped with retention in some regard, with 12 of 27 original members of NijiKR (11/21 if we exclude the 541E&C cohort) still active, representing 44% (or 52%) of the branch, compared to 37% of NijiID. Even before the merger, many of them had pivoted largely to streaming in Japanese and/or English, which may account for their continued presence.
Retrospectively, feverish speculation has hung over this entire period thanks to further bullying accusations against Chae Ara, one of Nijisanji's own hires who debuted in the second wave in May 2020. What exactly happened with Ara is shrouded in mystery, with next to nothing in writing, at least on the English web. The only definitive piece of information I could find was that on 29 December 2021, she posted a message on Twitter, apparently addressing and denying existing bullying allegations. This would be the last thing she said as Chae Ara before she more or less disappeared (though she did retweet the message on 12 January), and she would be unceremoniously struck from Nijisanji's list of talents on 20 April 2022, the day before the merger. (See also her page on the VirtualYoutubers wiki, and its comments section.)
As of writing, I have been unable to find anything more definitive than the above. There came to be considerable speculation (as seen here on Nijisanji's fan subreddit) that bullying by Ara was responsible for Yuya and Bora departing in 2021, and that the graduations of Ko Yami and Lee Siu, announced on 2 February 2022, were also linked to her. In retrospect, Yami and Siu's cases would seem to be more connected with the merger, which was announced to the public only two weeks after the graduations were announced.
There's also something about a lawsuit. No idea what that involves because nobody seems to want to talk about it.
It is not hard to see why the popular narrative on NijiKR and NijiID frames them as direct opposites. In contrast to ID, which at least from the outside seemed to be entirely problem-free, KR came across as a disaster from start to finish, bookended by bullying scandals. Then, post-merger, the branches' fortunes inverted. As of writing, no former NijiKR Liver has graduated since May 2022, with 12 of the agency's 27 members (11 of 21 if we exclude 541E&C) still active at a modest but at least better-than-obscure level of popularity. Whatever Nijisanji's Japanese management has done with its Korean members has, somehow, managed to achieve a far greater degree of long-term retention than it has with the Indonesians.

India unlikely event of a total management failure…

Nijisanji India was many things, and it was also not many things. Tragically, as time passes it seems increasingly fated to be relegated to a footnote, a neat bit of trivia to be inserted into the history of Nijisanji's last overseas branch, Nijisanji EN.
On 18 November 2019, Ichikara announced auditions for the first generation of Nijisanji India, calling for one male and two female talents to take on the roles of Vihaan, Aadya, and Noor. These proceeded to debut on 23 January 2020, soon followed by some relay stream events with other members of Nijisanji and VirtuaReal on 2 and 3 February, as reported at the time here. Even a cursory keyword search on the VirtualYoutubers subreddit shows a small but persistent effort by fans to give the branch a boost. Unfortunately, Nijisanji India never really got very far off the ground popularity-wise.
On 22 June 2020, Nijisanji India's Twitter account rather abruptly posted that the branch was rebranding as Nijisanji EN, and aiming to more strongly target English-speaking audiences. This was evidently given very little fanfare elsewhere, and some of the fan discussion can be seen in this Reddit thread from October. Why, it was asked, had the branch been less successful than its cousins, despite a clear appetite for English VTubers among the viewing public, demonstrated by the recent, explosive debut of Hololive's English branch? Part of it was that the branch was just not very well marketed despite the name change, but part of it also was that it had seen no new members since the starting trio. Both the Korean and Indonesian branches had brought on at least one new wave by the 6-month mark, but there had been no new auditions, let alone debuts, for NijiIN/EN so far. Then, on 27 November, Nijisanji English's Twitter account rather abruptly posted that the branch was rebranding as Nijisanji IN. Er, yes.
So, NijiIN, formerly NijiEN, formerly NijiIN, kept soldiering on. It never did get a second generation, and then, on 13 April 2021, there came an announcement that Nijisanji India would be 'temporarily suspended' and its three Livers would graduate on the 30th. And, that was it. No real fanfare, just a lot of sadness and quite a bit of indignation as well.
One thing that is immediately striking about Nijisanji India in retrospect is just how conservative it all was, and this was apparent just from the VTubers themselves. The designs for Aadya and Vihaan were just not that interesting even considering Nijisanji's relatively down-to-earth designs; Noor stands out as the only one of the three who looks like what an average viewer would expect from a VTuber. That all three streamed in English was certainly a 'safe' choice, but they never really got substantial traction out of it, and Ichikara's indecision over whether or not to simply rename the branch 'Nijisanji EN' further speaks to a lack of any strong direction to the branch as a whole. Worst of all, NijiIN never actually got any new members after the first three, and that seems to suggest that Ichikara went into the whole thing without a particularly strong intent to keep it running. Everything seems to point to either Nijisanji having gone into IN with minimal expectations and thus minimal support, or that it got cold feet extremely quickly.
Today, if Nijisanji India is remembered at all, it is usually for the fact that it was, technically, the first iteration of Nijisanji English. And, in a coda similar to what happened with Nijisanji's Chinese ventures, the second attempt began as soon as the first one was cut loose. On 1 December 2020, three days after the NijiEN->ID rebrand, Nijisanji officially opened auditions for a new branch targeted at English-speaking countries. On 16 May 2021, barely two weeks after NijiIN's members graduated, the first three members of Nijisanji English (round 2) debuted, starting yet another chapter in the story. One of those members, Finana Ryugu, recounted that Noor had been one of her interviewers during the audition, and she is believed to still have been on staff at the end of the year thanks to her voice being heard in an accidentally-leaked test stream by a new talent. Whether she, or anyone else from NijiIN's talents and management, is still involved with Nijisanji is unknown.

Wherever next?

Well, as the last section noted, technically Nijisanji still formally maintains a distinct overseas branch 'in-house', that being Nijisanji English. However, writing this in early March 2024, it is quite hard to give a reasoned retrospective on its history while the wounds are still fresh and the dust is still being blown up. It is too early to say if the branch has imploded, or if it is dying a slow death, or if it is on the path to recovery.
What I think we can say is that Ichikara/Anycolor's overseas branch attempts have been less than stellar. To re-summarise, here's what has happened with each of them:

Branch	Auditions Open	First Debuts	Current Status
Shanghai	17/07/2018	24/08/2018	Separated from Nijisanji to form VEgo on 02/04/2018; last talent graduated on 10/05/2018
Taipei	17/07/2018	24/08/2018	Separated from Nijisanji to form VEgo on 02/04/2018; last talent graduated on 31/03/2020
VirtuaReal (China)	19/04/2019	14/05/2019	Still active (41/106 graduated or transferred to indie)
Indonesia	19/07/2019	17/09/2019	Merged into main branch 01/04/2022; 12/19 graduated
Korea	17/12/2019	25/01/2020	Merged into main branch 01/04/2022; 15/27 graduated or terminated
India/English	18/11/2019	23/01/2020	'Temporarily suspended' since 30/04/2021; all members graduated
English	01/12/2020	16/05/2021	Still active (7/38 graduated or terminated)

Nijisanji has clearly had a lot of opportunities to learn some hard lessons from its earlier attempts to do things overseas. It – and any other agency doing the same – needs to have a strong enough hand to do things like clamp down on bullying and toxic clique-building (Shanghai, Korea), but also to have more locally-minded staff that are, among other things, fluent in the talents' primary language and supportive of their efforts (Indonesia). The result of Nijisanji's repeated failures in achieving these has been tragedy for many. For those who were bullied by coworkers, those who had their support network suddenly removed, and those who dreamed of performing before the world, whose dreams were sadly crushed through no fault of their own.
But if there is one slight silver lining to all this, it is that Nijisanji's repeated missteps in international expansion have not fundamentally harmed the overall trajectory of VTubing as both a business and as a hobby. Granted, VTubing in India never really managed to take off, despite hopes for a potential market, but it is still going strong in China, Indonesia, and Korea; the Anglosphere, of course, goes without saying. VTubing may owe its current existence as a medium to Nijisanji, but at the very least, Nijisanji can no longer destroy that which it has created.

first post here,
halo, as background in general mungkin saya izin cerita sedikit ya; jadi pengetahuan saya mengenai keuangan masih konvensional, selama ini hanya punya debit BCA dan tabungan di digital bank Jago. this year i want to learn and experience more of financial options out there, for example: thinking of applying my first CC (probably BCA JCB & MCxTiket -- gatau bakal lolos apa ngga wkwk) after 3 days reading lots of CC threads here, and did research here and there. so planning to incorporate CC in my daily transaction and less for debit needs
kemudian background lagi utk my main question; tahun ini juga i will have my first trip to Japan (after a decade of not traveling lol). I already gathered that CC BCA JCB prob is a great option for credit transaction in Jp, but others said I better have some cash on me as well. sure, I'll prepare some cash too (prob will visit VIP or further reading which better money xchangers in Jkt), but wondering if I can go with debit transaction in Yen thus this thread title. So far saya ketemu rekomendasinya: Jenius, DBS, OCBC
so the question I haven't found answers for is: which digital bank wins in foreign transaction for traveling and for investing in fx?
inginnya ga hanya utk Yen tapi bisa utk future traveling plans (hence I plan to get BCA MCxTiket too (not aiming for miles bcs I'm not a big spender)) dan mungkin bisa tipis2 nabung valas juga. Banyak yg rekomen Jenius tapi sejujurnya saya kurang percaya sama Jenius wkwkw (dulu pernah punya Jenius tapi udah ditutup sejak ada feesible dan macem2 berita)
so my option lands on DBS or OCBC, any insights? other banks also welcomed (kalau ada yg mau merubah pikiran saya ttg Jenius juga boleh wkwk)
also, if it depends on what countries, I have big dreams of visiting Thai, Europe (esp Spain), UK. others maybe SG, MY, HK, Aus, FYI.
Sorry if my question is weird/broke any rules, but TIA!
edited: barusan kebetulan bgt ada yg nanya juga di app sebelah wkwk, ternyata sebutannya Multicurrency Account ya, jadi punya rekening valas di digital bank. kalo BCA gitu katanya tabungan valas harus dipisah semacam akun BCA IDR & BCA USD gitu, not preferable si

Hari selesa xixix saya lupa untuk mencatat di sini . Seperti biasa saya bangun tidur,mandi dan berangkat sekolah . Akan tetapi hari itu sangat melelahkan karena saya di hajar oleh mata pelajaran yang hampir semua orang tidak suka atau ingin sekali melewatkannya, yaa matematika nama nya. Akan tetapi hari itu saya sangat suka karena terdapat jamkos di akhir akhir jam pelajaran. Dan saya melakukan kegiatan yang tidak baik seperti saya melarikan diri dari ekstra futsal yaa karena saya sedang sakit . Namun walau saya sakit saya tetap main sampai malam sekitar jam 12 malam . Hal itu yang membuat saya lupa untuk menulis dan mengirim kan cerita saya:) , dan segitu aja cerita saya nilai hari itu ( 8,5/10 ).
Yesterday day xixix I forgot to note here. As usual I wake up, shower and go to school. However, that day was very tiring because I was beaten by a subject that almost everyone doesn't like or really wants to skip, namely mathematics. However, I really liked that day because there was a boarding school at the end of the class period. And I did bad activities like I ran away from extra futsal because I was sick. But even though I was sick, I still played until around 12 o'clock at night. That's what made me forget to write and send my story :), and that's all I rated the story that day (8.5/10).
ここにメモするのを忘れていました。いつものように起きて、シャワーを浴びて、学校に行きます。しかし、その日は、ほとんどの人が嫌い、または本当にサボりたがる科目、つまり数学に負けたので、とても疲れました。でも、授業期間の最後に寄宿学校があったので、その日はとても気に入りました。そして体調が悪くてフットサルのエクストラから逃げるなど、悪いこともしました。でも、体調が悪くても夜の12時くらいまで遊んでました。それが、私がストーリーを書いて送信することを忘れた原因です :) そして、それがその日そのストーリーを評価したすべてです (8.5/10)。

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About me: - Arab (ethnic, cannot speak arab, just read a little), Islam, religious one (minority) - Currently taking education in Interaction Design (UI/UX) - Hobby nulis, biasanya soal kehidupan - Suka main game (mostly switch/pc). Beberapa yg disuka kyk Mario, Smash Bros, Ace Attorney, Megaman, Hifi Rush - have high interest in technology and design. - suka baca buku, mostly komik/novel/self development - like listening to life story and other new things - can confidently said a Great listener - INFJ
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