Mausi ko maa banaya

So imma final year CS student, aur bhai mere job nahi lagi hai, par bhai kuch karne kaa jonoon hai, maa baap ko kush karna hai aur apna future bhi banana hai, so pls guid me...
Background : from tier 2 private cllg, know programming well, (typically mern stack ka 14 aur 200+ leetcode wala ) mere ek baar toc mei acche aye the to subject thoda acha lagta hai mujhe 🙂 ab yaad nahi kuch, maths to ghatna yaad hai mujhe shuru se padha hai sab kuch ( 12th ke bhi thode concepts revise karne honge), aur baki sab subjecta ka bhi same haal hai DSA ko chhod kar bas programming aati hai muze
1) How and where to start 2) What are some good resources 3) What best in your opinion ( offline/online) 4) What are good online classes in you opinion or experience ?
TLDR : launde ne bass backhodi ki hai cllg mei GATE ke liye guidance maang raha hai

I have made this list
1.Zara sa
2.Dil ibadat
3.Kya mujhe pyaar hai
4.Tu hi meri shab hai
5.Haan tu hai
6.Labon ko
7.Alvida
8.Desi boyz
9.Tujhe sochta hu
10.Tu jo mila
11.Mat aazma re
12.Kal ki he baat hai
13.Sajde
14.I am in love
15.Hai junoon
16.Mere bina
17.Jannatein kahan
18.Mai tera dhadkan teri
19.Tujhi mein
20.Zara sa (power ballad)
21.Main agar
22.Dil samander
23.Rafta rafta
24.Meri maa
25.Party on my mind
26.Humko pyaar hua
27.Touch me
28.Mai kya hoon
29.Sajda
30.Discowale khisko
31.O meri jaan
32.O meri jaan
33.O meri jaan
34.Jaane kaise
35.Aur tanha
36.Ayaashi
37.Marjaani marjaani
38.Zehreeli raatein
39.Haan mai jitni martabaa
40.Chahoon tujhe
41.Ek pal mein
42.Ye hausle
43.Dekho nashe mei
44.Hai ishq ye kya ik khata
45.Tu salaamat
46.Ye khuda
47.Allah beli
48.Ek pal ke liye
49.U & I let's do balle balle
50.Afreen
51.Tere liye
52.Allah hafiz
53.Ae aa oo
54.Parvar digara
55.Luk chup jaana
56.Shikdum (The Bedroom Mix)
57.Hold, You Will Be Mine
58.Humko Toh Hai Poora Yakeen
59.Aise Hi Bada Hua Gavaskar
60.Hum Dono Jaise Kaun Yahan
61.Jee Lenge
62.Golmaal
63.Antenna

So aaj boards ka result aaya and guess what my stupid ass scored 78.8 percentage (with highest in biology 82 like wtf jabki mein jee ki so called prep kar raha hu
kal pw ka jo short test diya tha us mein 96/96 aaye 10 baje result aaya maa baap full khush ki chalo thoda sa hi sahi par comeback to ho raha hai (not judging my test but they judged my seriousness)
fir madarchod result aa gaya aur papa thoda gussa ho gaye even told me a waste ( I am not blaming my father and pliz don't type you don't deserve him and all those bullshit bro just stfu and don't judge my family from this single line and my perspective)
par fir jab shaam ko thoda eavesdrop kara to suna ki papa bole ki chicken le aaye kya but my mom denied it saying ki aaj somvaar hai (my family are all shivbhakts and they say i was blessed with three marks on my forehead full badassery)
Physics : 26 question diye the 17 ho gaye baaki nahi bane even tho fight pura kiya
Chemistry : Bawaal chiz padhi be Fe0.93O wali chiz majaa aagaya hands down the best class
Maths : jaisa chal raha hai aur haa sir ne aaj se quad eqn start kara
aaj bhot kam self study hui aur raat ko jagkar apne notes + maths ke hw attempt karunga

64% aaye hai guru
dumb nhi hu mein bas procrastination and low motivation se chud gya
result ke time ankh se aansu ane lag gye ki bc kya se kya ho gya mera, never thought ki etne kam number ayenge matlab 60-70% ke beech mein toh kabhi dekha hi nhi hai result
jee mocks mein 11th ke end tak aate aate 200+ tak aane lag gye the and 12th mein jo chudaap kiya hai meine
mein etna careless ho gya tha 12th mein like literally board se pehle kon nhi padhta mein vo chutiya hu jo boards se ek din pehle bhi time waste kar rha tha and youtube dekh raha lol
well mere maa baap duniya ke best maa baap hai literally I thought aaj kutayi pakki hai meri but unhone kuch bhi nhi bola and ulta motivate kiya koi naa hote rehta hai koi badi baat nhi hai tension mat le agle saal puri mehnat karke exams diyo, I feel mere jaisa chutiya aesa maa baap deserve nhi karta
jeetne bhi 11thies ess post ko dekh rhe hai guys guys guys pls 11th mein padhayi ko seriously lena chalu kar dena and overconfident kabhi mat hona and bkl'n 10th ke result se demotivate mat ho mere bhi 91% the and dekh lo aaj kaha hu mein, aane waale kal par dhyaan do and consistent raho din ka 6 hr hi padho but roj padho and self doubt mat karna kabhi
coaching mein samajh naa aye toh maa chudane gayii coaching jaana band kardo and online padho, jara bhi deri mat lagana ess decision mein koi fayda nhi time waste karne ka,
damn, kya hi din tha aaj ka, hamesha yadd rahega

its gonna be a long trauma dump.
im 19f, appeared in 12th this year, this would be my first drop. vaise to iss sun pe lurker rehti thi, aaj laga maybe kuch bol hi du to atleast relief rahega kisko dhang se bataya to. vaise to life meri bekar nhi hai overall dekha jaye to. yaha pe logo ka padho bc achhi lagne lagti hai life, and phir agle din vahi rr.
i was five almost, jb mere nana ne pehli baar mujhe touch kiya tha. mummy papa ka office rehta tha and bhaiya ka school to akele chhodne ki jagah nana ko bula lete the vo log ki mera dhyaan rakhe. achha dhyan rakhe the (apna lolzzz). now that i think about the movements and the way he'd shake afterwards, pyare nanaji was most probably cumming in his dhoti holding his five year old granddaughter on his thigh. (i mean, ladke shayad better jaane, kabhi kisi se detail mein puchha nhi iss baare mein. after it had got some action and y'all are ejaculating, do you guys like, freeze for a bit a breathe hard? agar nhi to im sorry for the wrong allegations). anyways that happened for a while. uske baad ka mujhe kuch yaad nhi. tbh ye bhi nhi yaad tha, until 3-4 saal pehle jb i read a similar scene in a book and ye yaad aaya phir shock mein chali gayi. had two beautiful frnds jinko bataya iss baare mein and they tried to help me out as best as they could. andar se ye bhi lagta tha ki mummy ko kabhi pata bhi chala to nahi manengi, isiliye parents se thoda grudge rehta tha and ladti jhagadati rehti thi.
fast forward to present, mai apne best friend ke saath relationship mein aa gayi and slowly but surely, he made a great impact on my relationship with my family. like uski uske parents ke saath achhe relations hain and ladka bhi sahi hai (haa pyar krti hu usse, mar jaungi ek din) to convince kr liya mujhe ki mere parents bhi pasand krte hain mujhe. and tb se mere relations meri family ke saath significantly improve hue. i even started to trust them.
to kya hai na, mummy and nana ki jamti nhi hai (he's neither a good husband nor a good father), isiliye mummy unse baat nhi krti. ek din recently mummy unhi ke baare mein upset thi and maine mummy se bol diya ki "uss aadmi se to mujhe nafrat hai. royi hu bestfriend ko batate hue" and mummy was like mujhe batao but mana kar di ki abhi nhi.
agle din she came to me and said ki unhe raat mein neend nhi aa rahi thi ye sochte hue ki aisa unhone kya kar diya ki I don't trust her but trust my frnds? phir bohot bolne pe mai unhe puri baat bata di (utni detail mein nhi obviously) and she was very supportive. boli ki "maa baap important hote hain par bachcho se zyada nhi. mai to vaise bhi unhe ghar na bulati but ab to sawal hi nhi uthata. shakal nhi dekhungi unki". and mai apne room mein aake rone lagi ki maine apni maa ko galat samjha ki vo mujhpe yakeen nhi karengi.
then agle din, i think jb mai ghar pe nhi thi tb mummy bhaiya ko ye baat batayi and he told her abt how once i confessed to him i was a lesbian (bisexual boli thi but lauda hai), and pata nhi kaise, mummy ko convince kr doya ki im making this whole story up for sympathy and to seem cool.
mummy aayi and mujhse boli ki "tum jo batayi ho, vo sach mein hua hai ya jo tum ghatiya books padhti ho, uski vajah se dimag mein baitha li ho ki mere saath bhi kuch galat hua hai?" and phir asked me abt that lesbian wala and told me ki inhi sab vajah se my face has lost its innocence and mai kuch nahi kar paayi hu. kaise i didn't deserve the marks i got in boards and sabka entrance exam tha but sab ek event mein aa rahe the but tumne kuch padha nhi tha isiliye nhi aayi (true but jisko neet dena hota vo aise bhi na aata). and how she feels ashamed and unsafe to go out with me varna i would wander off with "bhaiya log". that other girls of my age look smart and innocent and good even of they're fat. and gori ladkiyo ka chehra nhi pink hai, but you have yellowish tone and you never look smart, tumhare andar vo cheez hi nhi. she ended her speech with, "tumhari vajah se maine apne baap ko galat samjha. agar tum jhoote ilzam laga rahi ho to uska anjam dikhega." and then very lightly said, as if she didn't believe it, "aur agar mere baap ne kuch kiya hoga to bhagwan batayenge."
since that day, i haven't been able to look at my family the same way. the love, trust and respect i had for them seems gone. uss din ke baad mummy achhe se baa ki but bhul nhi paa rahi unn words ko. isse pehle bhi aisa bohot kuch boli hain vo jo bura laga tha but ye Dil tod diya. i can't believe my first heartbreak is from my mother itself.
isse pehle bhi she'd questioned my character. mai maanti hu, mai chutiye bachchi thi. nhi samjhti thi kuch. school bus mein achhe bhaiya log mile the to sabko achha samajhti thi and apne age ke logo se ghul mil nhi paati thi. isiliye almost got tricked by a senior jo uss time 11th mein the (i was in 6th, koi dost nhi tha to attention ki bhukhi rehti thi). uske liye mummy branded me as "characterless". I WAS IN SIXTH, NHI PATA THA MUJHE KUCH. phir ek baar humlog kahi gaye the and mummy dusri seat pe chali gayi mujhko leke jbki meri dost pichhe ki seat pe thi. i tried going to her to uss time to mummy bas gusse se dekhi but ghar aake boli ki how im such a bad daughter, achhe ghaf ki ladkiya sirf apne mummy papa ke paas rehti hain but tumko to matakna rehta hai. tumhare jaisi ladkiyo ko characterless rehte hain, kisi ki nhi hoti hain. (this was in class 9th).
ho sakta hai mai apna side leke dekh rahi hu isiliye mai khud ko sahi samajh rahi. but galti kya ki maine ye to koi achhe se explain karo???
recent ye nana wala batane ke baad to bas yahi manati hu roz bhagwan se ki maar daale mujhe. sach nata rahi, jb dekhega na koi sirf meri mummy papa aur bhaiya ko saath mein, to itne perfect lagte hain. and mai manhoos ki yarah aa jaati hu beech mein. (mumma thinks ki mera chehra normal rehne pe mahoos lagta hai, i should be smiling har samay varna apni life barbaad ke dungi aisi shakal bana ke).
marne ka ya relapse krne ka (i used to self harm) roz mann krta hai, but apni best friend aur apne bf ke baare mein sochke ruk jaati hu. sach mein doni pagal pyaar krte hain mujhse. bestfriend ki life already laudi ho rakhi hai, aur nhi pareshan krna, bf ki life mein pehle hi bohot trauma the, ab badhane ka mann nhi. i promised him I'd helo him heal.
ab 15 aur 16 ko cuet hai but padha nhi hai kuch and pata nhi kaise niklega. nikalka bhi zaruri hai varna home life aur fucked up ho jaayegi plus ghar se niklungi to insabme dimag nhi lagega.
samajh nhi aa raha kaise padhu ab, aakhiri din bacha hai, sab kuch padha hai but revise krna hai. idk bhai, higheay sach mein sundar lagne laga hai (srsly)

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17M. Today cbse boards result came out. And I got 68% and I feel devastated.
I tried to do jee coaching and school simultaneously but I couldn't. I used to feel sleepy in classes so much that my eyes felt like burning. I was just not interested in this rat race.
My father is the most toxic person I've ever met. He doesn't even talk to strangers with respect or politely. I couldn't clear jee and my father scolded me a lot and today he said even more stuff that I couldn't take in.
I got horrible percentile in JEE. I know this is not the end of life and these grades don't define someone's potential or life. I accept I couldn't perform well and learnt my lesson through bad decisions.
But aaj papa ne bola "tera ky hoga, pura future barbad krliya h", "2 saal kuch pdhai nhi kiya bas phone chalaya, game khela, timepass kiya", "har ek exam me fail hogya", "ab aage ki padhai chhod de, labour ka kaam kr ky krega pdh kr", "5 lakh barbaad krdiya school or coaching me".
I wasn't like this always. Maine 8th tak boht competitions, olympiads wagera kiya h. Mujhe nhi pata mai jee coaching kyu le liya. Ky hogya mere saath mujhe nhi pata.
He called me and said "apna laptop and phone tod de aur photo khich kr bhej". Kyu todu mai apna phone jab maine freelancing krke khud ke paise se kharida th.
I'm not joking but he called me "ch*tiya and mc" too for not scoring good marks. He even scolded my mother and sister for all this. Bas yahi bolte raha ki mat kr aage ki padhai, sab barbad krliya h ab mera kuch nhi hoga kahi.
Aaj pehli bar saalo baad meri aankho se aasu aagye. Aaj mere se control nhi hua aur mai chhat pr jakr silently andr se cry kr rh th.
He has his ego problem and anger issues. Idk what's his problem. Hamesha se aisa toxic behaviour raha h. Kabhi game khelne nhi diya to jab bhi time milta th bachpan me mai game khelte rhta th kyuki brain aisa sochta th ki ghr me nhi h yeh abhi jitna marji khel leta.
Bachpan me cash me paise diye th aur bola rkhne and maj spend krdiya kyuki bhai bachha th curiosity thi. To jis din pata chala jhapad mar diya and bache hue cash phad diye.
To ab dar lgta h kuch krne se. Mai kahi bahar nhi jata hoon ghumne ya kuch khane. Aaj tak restaurant nhi gya. Bs ek bar dosto ke sath movie dekhne gya hoon Oppenheimer. Ek do bar cafe me gya hoon dost ke sath. Sab apne hi paiso se pay kiya hoon. Pocket money ka concept hi gayb h mere ghr me. School wale goa trip pr legye but 15k mai mangne se ghabra rh th to nhi gya.
Ab weird sa introvert bn gya hoon. Dost birthday party pr ya ghumne bulate h to mai nhi jata kuch bahana krdeta hoon. Female interaction to hai hi nhi ab.
Ek din meri didi ka pata nhi sayd result acha nhi aaya th to bola ki books road pr lejakr jala de. Mai chhota th tab.
Aaj to bole meri mummy ko ki mujhe ghr se bhaga de.
He never accepts constructive critisism about him. For him other's opinions and views dont matter. He only boasts how much money he has spent on education and shit.
Heck he never gave his BA exam himself. Someone else wrote instead of him.
Ky aisa behaviour acceptable bhi hai aaj ki society me? I think he's psychotic and needs a psychiatrist. Like wtf man.
Kahi se koi support nhi mil rh mujhe. Bs lg rh andar se toot gya hoon aur ab kuch nhi h jeene ko. Bs mera friend mujhe support kr rh kyuki uske bhi kam percentage aaye h. Atleast uske ghr wale jyada understanding h and samjhte h ki yeh the end nhi hai.
Mera dream h Germany me pdhna. Mai kuch projects banaya hoon ek dost ke sath apne coding skills se jisse mujhe kafi acha revenue mil jata h. To friend EU ka hai and we've been in contact for long time now.
To ek saal yaha local college me pdh kr next year bachelors Germany ke liye apply krunga yeh mera plan th. Along with learning german language.
Bs isi hope se mai filhal jee rh hoon ki ek din yeh sapna pura hoga and mai finally yeh toxicity escape kr paunga. Mera wo dost financially help bhi krdega if funds ki kam pdegi to uss time. Papa ke to paise bhi use nhi hoga to bhad me jaye mai ja rh apne raste.
Bs aur kuch nhi kehne ko h

nta teri maa ki ch*t, bkl randi agency mujhe palghar mai center de diya joh mere ghar se 120km dur hai aur 16 ko joh exam hai uska center maderchodo ne mujhe nashik ki kisi andheri gali mai de diya (mai rehta navi mumbai mai hu) joh mere ghar se 190kms dur hai
navi mumbai, thane aur mumbai select kiya tha 🤡🚬

All the best to everyone who has their result tomorrow ( if it comes out :): ) ! I hope jo itna time liya hai CBSE ne usme kuch toh acchi moderation kari ho, 86-87 ko 90 toh banaya ho ! I hope sabka result accha aaye! , but mere hope se kya ab toh jo aana hai woh toh chhap bhi gaya hoga ! Dont think negatively worlds too big and trust me in todays time boards are no litmus test to your capabilities.. many will reproach me and say dekhlo kya bakwas jhhaad raha hai .. but it is what it is .. no need cry about it ! I hope everyone of you in 12th , get desired college and do well in life and yes 10th pass walon padh lena 11th me, agar acche number bhi aa gaye 10th me, phir bhi meri baat maanke padh lena , nahi toh ki meri tarah 1 saal baad 12vi me pachtao na ! 'Trust yourself and believe that life is coming from you not at you and never forget the whole world is your oyster everyone gets chances to shine all you need to do is grab it , work for it and then shine bright like a diamond !'
p.s science na lagana ki bhyii diamond reflects light and does not shine ! emotion samjho !

12 sakiyo. Mechanical ki mechatronics engineering maa bachelors garna man chha. Tara kei thah chhaina.
Plan chhain pulchowk ani thapathali maa entrance dine, bhayena bhani india ki aru desh jaane ho.
Questions haru chha:

• +2 ko result kaile aaunchha ani entrance kaile tira hunchha
• Baahira padhna jaana k garne? application kaile lekhne? scholarship haru ko laagi k garnu parxa?
• Bridge course garnu parxa ki pardeina? bridge course gayena bhani k baata prepare garne

I know it's mother's day today. But I want to know how many people's mothers have ruined their life.
I know Maa ko bhagwan ka roop kehte hai but does anyone find it hard to even wish their own mother?
I feel so jealous seeing healthy nurturing relationships between people and their mothers.

Today after buying a gift for my mom, near Goregaon station. As we reached Goregaon station Me and my friend were hungry so we decided to eat some pani puri the stall which is exactly besides firangi burger.
As i stood and was about to take the plate i hear from left ‘aye sexy’ hearing this i got scared as the drunk guy was literally very close to me. After this i went and stood at the other side of the pani puri stall where the Drunk guy followed me and said ‘aye sexy, mereko tu pasand aya rey sexy’ after this i really got uncomfortable and i asked the pani puri wale bhaiya to please get this guy side or i’d leave so he abused the Drunk fella listening to which he moved away…
After a while as i ate 4-5 puri’s the drunk guy came again this time it was too much. He started saying ‘aye sexy kitna sexy hai tu chal mere saath, main tereko khilata hu’ after this i gave this guy a dead look and asked him to go but as i was just giving dead look and asking him to go the pani puri waale bhaiya heroically came and kicked the drunkard after this kick the drunkard started abusing what not to the pani puri wale bhaiya ki ‘teri maa ko 1000 kutte chode and all’ and went away

1st: THOSE WHO ARE TAKING A DROP FOR 25 ADV...
PLEASE THINK B4 TAKING..
AND IF YOU HAVE MADE YOUR MIND THEN ALRIGHT...
THE ALLEN ASAT IS COMING UP WHICH I WANTED TO BRING YOUR ATTENTION TO.
THAT THE ALLEN ASAT IS ON 19 /26 OF MAY...
my problem.
Mko mere papa maa kara rhe hai drop ka whereas mujhe lena hai kyuki I didn't makeup to the mark...
Mera adv hai 26 ko orr papa ko mai ye nhi smajha paa raha hu ki mujeh drop lena hai..
Papa or mere me bilkul nhi banti orr papa bhut strict hai...
Ghar me bhi kaidi jaisa lagta hai.. Dictator hai wo insaan mujhe please help karo ki mai kaise manau..
ASAT bhi den hai orr ADV bhi.....
Mujhe koyi allen wala guide kare ki kaise sabse zada scolarship me le saku in low amt of time... Kyuki woo 19 may ko hai..
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Mero citizenship, passport, SLC documents, +2 documents maa bhako naam ra Citizenship, passport ko Naam maa euta 'a' ko farak cha. Aba maile k garna sakchu? Consultancy bahira basya chu, Exin maa counselling cha, I have no idea aba k huncha. Tyo TU gayera feri line basnu paryo bhane ta pagal bhaincha. Please, are there easier ways?

This is my first and most probably last post here,I have qualified for JEE Advanced but it was a close call as I got 94.5 percentile , this year was my first year appearing for JEE and will be my last at least I think so I had hope for advanced as my chemistry especially organic chem was strong but for a few weeks I had pain in my lower back and groin areas it was unbearable and when we did some tests guess what? I had kidney stones at 18 and the cherry on the top was that they were 10.7 mm and 7.7 mm each in the left and right ureter , that is in the middle of it so you can't remove it with lithotripsy that is a shockwave treatment thing which breaks down the stone into smaller fragments that you can easily pass this treatment is the most minimalistic way to treat kidney stones without entering the body,but it had to be stuck in the ureter. The doctor suggested that I should go for ureteroscopy that a small tube will be passed in the ureter that breaks down the stone making it easier to pass. My parents immediately took me out of the hospital and called every single relative of mine to ask for some bullshitty AYURVEDIC MEDICINE from some Baba of sorts they said " Tujhe kya bada aasan lagta hai operation krwana ? Mera kuch nhi jayega tera hai insurance, mujhe kya jab cheer faad krenge na tab pata chalega." I know that it is quite uncommon for people my age to have to be operated but what can I do now? Kr li galti. Now that things have come to this I have shifted my focus from Adv to BITSAT as that is the only good option I have rn. I feel degected due to this thing I'm not able sit straight for hours, they say go and walk outside , when I try to tell them it pains too much they say it will pain but it will come down slowly slowly and you'll be able to pass it. Well I can't do much about it but the absolute worst of the things I have to face in my life is my parents fighting each other Ik fights happen in household but you ever heard your mum say" Madarchod apni maa ko bicha deta hai na tu logon ke saamne main bhi bich jau kya?!!" Ye sab bolte hain while being loud as fuck saari gali main sunta hain logon ko , I feel ashamed when I see my friends literally next door and on the opposite side of my house,I feel their eyes on me my mom doesn't go out much often so mostly nobody knows her. She shouts so loudly with the most vulgar of things you can imagine she calls me Chakka, bhadwa, and all sorts of things when I try to stop her yelling by placing my hand on the mouth she says that I hit her and beat her. Whenever my dad's home that is my dad works in a company overseas so he goes for 2 months and comes back again after 2 months, she fights with him everyday I admit that many a times he is wrong but she makes it into complicated things and bringing his mother into it too, the fight like mad animals they hit each other swear at each other in the loudest voice possible and the things are so vulgar the mods might take this post down maybe they will cz of the things mentioned above well it was jjst rant in the end so np ig.My family is so fucked up my mother she had me when she was 19 she did not belong to a financially stable family, has 3 brothers and she is the youngest of all she was married to a 40 year old something guy and had me , the man left her after she had me I still don't know the reasons and everyone around her rejected her but my grandmother was different she left everyone for her came to my side she was there for me and my mother for 14 years during which my other met my dad( not the biological one but for me this man is my only father even if not biological) they fell in love and well several years passed everything was going well my father got ED( I came to know about thus cz of these two fighting amd cursing at each other)and my other cheated on him a guy quite younger than her, I came home one day and saw the man in my house I asked who he was my mum said he is some known guy that came here for some auditions and couldn't afford to stay and hotel. He slept with me in my bedroom and well I say my mother and him fucking each other on my bed and while I saw this I started crying while keeping my voice low and closed eyes but I did not turn on the light, I screamed and rushed outside to go and call my neighbour so that he woukd call my father overseas my mom and the guy stopped me and told me nothing had happened and my mom came out from the other bedroom, its been 8 years since then but my mother and that guy still tallk to each other video call eacb other and I can't say anything cz who am I to say? " Tu meri maa hai kya ki mera baap jo mujhe sikhayega??" Exact words of my mother even when I caught her redhanded and told that I would tell father this bitch said she whaf the fuck is your father gonna do huh? " Jisko tu baap bol rha hain na woh sirf meri wajah se pal rha hain tujhe jiss din ye hath hatt jayega na uss din pata lagega tujhe naali ka keeda kahin ka" She raised me in adversities Ik her struggle but should I listen to all of this the man who also although not from the very start took care of me should I let him live a bubble , today my father knows everything but still he believes in mother absolute fool of a man he is she has cheated on him multiple times but just because he has three kids he is not taking divorce because who will watch the kids when he is not here. Its also not possible for my dadi to see us as my mother has always had bitter relations with everyone close to my father Today as well my dad left sometime ago for airport he is flying today this women gave him so much stress he had had brainstroke at the age of 40, my grandmother that is my mum's mother is here with us so she told me to get her medicines while I was going out with my father , she gave me 500 rupees eventhough I wasn't going to take it my father's upi wasn't working well yesterday so I thought that I should take the money for emergencies. So I took the money and after everything was done I came home forgetting that I had to take medicines for my grandma too I dropped dad at home and went out to get medicines while getting the medicines the shop next to it was closing so I quickly got 3 pack of chips for me and my brothers I did not use upi there as I thought giving cash would be fast.I paid the shopkeeper 60 rupees and he handed over 440 to me after which I gave 100 to a istri wala the bill was 5p but we both did bit have change so I told him that he could just give me next time and today my other asks me about WHY I HAD ASKED MY GRANDMOTHER FOR MONEY FOR THE MEDICINES.Even when I told her she told me why didn't I use paytm why did I TAKE MONEY FROM HER. She says If I did not use the money I should pay it back. I her the remaining money she still made a big deal out of it and told my father" ITNI BHI AUKAAT NHI HAI HUMARI JO MERI MAA SE PAISE MANGNE PAD RHE HAIN USKI MEDICINE KE LIYE" and made a scene out of it my dad was about to cancel his job because she said she would leave rn this happened an hour or two ago before this post was posted. I'm fed up with this shit I really am I wish to get into BITS and leave this family after I graduate and keep minimal contact with thsi hellhole. When I leave I ain't coming back never again.

So i didn't know about the drama between these two bw actors (mainly cause i'm not generally into bw and ig i live under a rock😭).. until yesterday when i saw something about it on the news cause the woman is making headlines lately. there was this specific part where the voiceover mentioned how the woman is known for the alleged history between her and the actor. Now i still haven't read about the whole thing yet cause i didnt wanna be influenced before writing this, but i found that claim very bizarre because i literally saw some weird shit going down with them back then in 2012-2013, first-hand. didnt think of making a big deal out of it cos in my profession back then, we used to see a lot of drama from celebs in public but this is way too odd so im sharing... basically i was working at a popular hotel (it's not in india and i can't divulge the name ofc). so the hotel manager told us that some big indian producer, a superstar actor and their movie team(including the woman) are here for a few days shooting for a song so they're vip and should be taken care of. i later realised who the actor was because he's a popular face in india(also a polite and pretty accomodating guy btw)
now the shit that happened was in the middle of the night. i was one of the people who had night shift at the reception and we were in charge of being at their disposition.. i remember the team had returned late that night and everyone seemed chilled out. then suddenly after a while we see the actress walking haphazardly(she was obviously drunk) on the floor where and towards the actor's room was and she just starts banging on his door.. non-stop. i cant give all details but basically he didn't really open the door and the actress was probably gonna sleep at his door if another woman, her assistant i think, hadn't gone to get her. we were concerned but were told to steer clear and keep mum about the details. a man from her team told us that pi rakhi hai so nothing they usually do to calm her down can work if there's alcohol in her body. Anyways they had a hard time bringing her to her room cause she was resisting crying yelling baat karni hai bhav kyun nahin deta bhav kyun nahin deta with very filthy cuss words. She was also saying us aatankvaadi ko chhod kyun nahi raha with maa behen cuss words in the lobby. anyways we saw that the film producer later came to see the actor and the producer seemed angry. the actor finally opened the door, spoke to the producer and told him to let go, she's a woman and that the cussing can happen when you're drunk.. Idk what transpired later on b/w them but after everything that i saw, it's very hard to believe that there was any history. like very, very hard, borderline impossible. the man seemed respectful and courteous if not apathetic to the woman all the time we saw them while she looked like a lost puppy around him when she wasnt yelling..