stated sa title, isa din akong tao na matagal nang mahal ang best friend niya. (close friend lang pala) 6 years na, naks malapit nang maka-tie yung pitong taon ni carson 🥰
little backstory: (let's call him j)
J was just an acquaintance at first, a friend of a friend. we met when we were in senior high school, fresh from break up ako noon from my biggest nightmare of an ex, iba kami ng school pero classmates niya childhood friends ko, kaya ayon naging close din kami. we meet up every fiesta dito samin, yes every fiesta lang kasi hindi ako pinapayagan gumala. we message every day tapos we do phone call every night. then, biglang hindi na niya ako kinausap, nalaman ko he was dating one of my closest friends. ayon, natigil. for more than a year, J and i didn't talk with each other. i had a little crush on him that time na talaga but i pushed that attraction away kasi nga syota niya isa sa mga kaibigan ko.
one day he reached out to me, begging me to help him reconcile with my friend kasi blinock siya, they broke up. he was in shambles that time, he did everything for her. as a concerned friend kinausap ko din yung kaibigan ko about him, ayaw na niya talaga. wala naman ako magagawa, he confided on me. and foolish din ako to help him, siya yung tipo na gagawin niyang mundo yung syota niya kaya he was friendless. i made urged him to go back skate boarding, play basketball and coninue playing ML kasi he enjoyed those things pero pinagbawalan siya ng kaibigan ko. i made him slowly reconcile with our friends, i help him sa school works niya kahit wala akong alam sa I.T hahahaha. i brought him food sa campus nila kahit na 1hr away siya from my place. he's funny, gentle, may depth and masipag, he'd usually tuck my hair behind my ear, pill shrimp for me, tie my schoelaces, punas pawis, its the littlest of things talaga. ewan, after a year of those things, he asked permission to court me pero ni-reject ko siya kahit hulog na ako kasi ex siya ng kaibigan ko.
don't get me wrong, my friend and him both confided in me when the break up happened, siguro kasi nurturer talaga akong type of person hahahaha kahit ako napapagod noon sa gitna nila hinayaan ko lang kasi break ups are hard. (tanga moments)
tapos after a few months he courted me again, hindi na siya nagpaalam kasi sabi niya he'll court me whether i say yes or no kasi he wants to prove himself. pero i was adamant na ayaw ko. kahit umiiyak ako everytime he told me he likes me, everytime i rejected him, my heart bleeds out for us. wala akong magawa but to say no dahil nirerespeto ko yung kaibigan ko. tapos nalaman ko pa na sinabihan niya si J na to never talk to me kasi iba daw ugali ko. i was hurt, kasi naiipit ako sa sitwasyon na hindi ko naman ginusto pero alam ko na pinili ko. after that rejection naging mailap na siya, sabi niya he needed space to cope with the heartbreak. hanggang sa ilang buwan na kaming hindi nagkausap kasi iniiwasan niya ako. tapos ayon, nalaman ko may girlfriend na siya. no apologies, i understand naman kasi he didn't owe me one. so i acted like nothing happened, we remained good friends. we still talk, we still hangout, we're still confidants of each other.
yesterday was his and his girl's 3 year anniversary. i congratulated him.
I'm a hypocrite, lagi ko sinasabi na reason ay dahil sa trauma ko sa last ex ko, o kaya naman ay hindi pa ako ready, o kaya naman ay i enjoy being single. pero ang totoo mahal ko parin siya. i still think of him whenever i eat kwek-kwek, remember his face when i listen to the songs he used to play on his guitar, i remember him from every laugh that i let out. he's everywhere from the very nook and crannies of my heart. mahal na mahal ko siya.
i don't cling to this love because of what ifs and the idea of him, but i love just love him. hindi ko wini-wish na maghiwalay sila ng jowa niya because nakikita ko naman na mahal niya yung tao. i can see the way his eyes lit up sa tuwing napag-uusapan o nababanggit niya yung pangalan ng mahal niya. i hope he knows he's loved, unknowingly. ayon lang shuta napahaba na, iiyakan ko nanaman 'to mamaya.

Hi everyone. I'll try to keep it as short as I can.
I have a friend at work whom I love (platonically) a lot. This person has unknowingly saved my life, which is why I value our friendship so much. However, they seem to have a very hard time dealing with emotions, can be extremely short-sighted and sometimes downright hurtful. They'll say anything that comes up in their thoughts. Normally this doesn't phase me much and I can deal with it because I know they're just like that and 99% of their comments and remarks are playful, not malicious.
A lot of people like this person for their outgoingness, enthusiasm, always upbeat and bubbly personality. But the same people have told me they can be an absolute pain in the ass, self-centered, mean, oblivious to other people's feelings and very avoidant when it comes to conflict. I have never experienced this until yesterday.
I told them something that happened to me (my beloved cat died) and that I did very soon adopt another one, and they reacted in an extremely hurtful way. Told me I didn't have respect for my old cat, that I apparently only liked the 'idea of having a cat' and didn't love my deceased cat enough because I didn't take time to mourn her. That really struck a nerve with me because I can mourn and love at the same time and circumstances made me have a new cat so soon. But my friend never even asked about that, they just had their opinion ready to fire at me. I tried explaining it but they just kept repeating the same hurtful thing. I shut down and ignored them for the rest of the hour, and also left early because their remarks sat so wrong with me and made me very angry.
Then later that day this friend texts me asking what was wrong, so I told them that their blatant and harsh opinion didn't sit right with me and that I didn't expect such a hurtful thing coming from a friend whom I respected and valued. They responded with 'I thought it was that. That wasn't my intention. It's your life. You shouldn't care about others' opinions and just do whatever you want'.
To me, this just made it worse because they didn't say sorry, but rather emphasized that they still hold that opinion and that I just shouldn't care about it. That can be true and they can have whichever opinion they want to have, but why say it? Why say such a shitty thing when you know someone is hurting?
I replied again explaining why what they said was so hurtful to me and that I thought it was pretty disrespectful towards me as well. That I thought we were friends and you don't joke about the death of loved ones (even if they are pets), let alone make malicious comments about them. Not to anyone but especially not friends. It's not even about their opinion on the matter because they can think whatever, but is it really too much to ask a little compassion from a friend?
They said 'Well I'm only human!'
I again told them they just hurt me, and that sure they are human, but so am I, and humans have emotions.
They replied 'I hope you are doing well, take care of yourself'.
ZERO reaction to the things I said. None. Not an apology, not an explanation, not confirming/denying we were indeed friends and they may have crossed a line, NOTHING. Just literal empty words, a totally illogical reply to what I had sent them.
I'm seeing them at work again tonight and I don't know what to do. Apparently I completely misjudged our relationship (??) and they simply don't value me at all(??). I don't know whether to go up to them and ask to talk, juat completely ignore them or something else. I can't avoid them completely so ignoring them would be extremely uncomfortable and obvious. But will talking even help? What do I say??
I don't want to lose this friendship, if it even ever was one. I don't want to become strangers with this person and giving them the cold shoulder forever doesn't feel right. But I also don't want to just let this slide and let them get away with hurting me so badly as a joke.
If anyone has any ideas as to how to approach this conflict.. that would be very much appreciated. Thank you ❤️
Also please just accept that losing my pet was and is just very hurtful to me, and opening my house and heart for another cat in need has helped me a lot. Your opinions on how I am handling it are 100% valid, but please be a little gentle.

My sincere apologies for being behind on thank you’s for April and May, as I’ve been away on vacation. Coming home to a full mailbox really brightened my day! 🥰 all replies are written and the remaining ones will be dropped in the mail today ❤️
Keqani: thank you so much for the lovely post card! I loved the cute stickers and your card made me smile.
Chibi_haiku: thank you for the cute card! The cat stickers and washi tape were super cute. And thank you for the tips on improving my coffee making!
Elley_bean: thanks for the colorful Boston postcard! I loved learning about legos and I had no idea they could hold that much weight!
melhen16: thanks for the pretty card! I loved the quote and stickers you sent.
T3ctim: thank you so much for the adorable koala card! It made my day receiving this all the way from Australia!
Destalena: thanks for the lovely German Shepard card and stickers! I really enjoyed hearing about your passion for fostering. I wrote you a novel back! Haha
Mystery sender “Christina P”: thank you for the card! I liked hearing about your love for Taylor Swift’s music and singing along in the car.
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I know it’s a long story but if anyone reads it all… may you be forever blessed 😭
26F in the US, working since 15, first in casual food service. Got into fine dining shortly after and by 21 had worked in 6+ restaurants. I was a job hopper, young and far too entitled. I saw early on that I was great at fine dining and restaurants are easy to move through. Then Covid hit and I was jobless.
The next 2.5 yrs I ran a cleaning LLC w/ my mom then got into office work. Even then I never stayed anywhere longer than 6-9 months. Most recently, I took a 9-5 office job in Dec. At the same time, my life started to fall apart. My live in boyfriend and I split a week before I started. February began an awful period of issues with my mom, who was on my lease at the time. Then I drained my savings for vet bills only to be told my cat has terminal kidney failure. March I was in the ER or doc 6x for a neck injury from ‘22. Finally, my boss got fed up mid April and let me go. The day before I signed a new lease to escape my mother.
It’s been a month, I’m behind on bills and in a deep depression. I also have diagnosed adhd/autism and lupus. Not excuses, just important factors. Ive got every gig app, dd/uber denied me for a speeding ticket 4yrs ago and flex/spark/shipt/etc are full. Only degree is high school. I’ve got 6yrs in restaurants, 6yrs clerical/business, 3yrs cleaning and 4yrs management within that.
I also stupidly let my brother edit my resume and it’s quite “enhanced” now. He took my 4 longest/best jobs, moved the dates and heavily padded the specifics... it’s a stretch.
If you managed to follow that insanity.. my main concerns are making my resume accurate but presentable, and any tips for where to go from here. Im open to more school but no idea what I’d do. Also not “above” any job. I need to make min $17.50/hr @ 40hrs. I’m committed to working hard but feel so lost and ashamed of my history. I know I can’t change the past but I can do better going forward.
My parents weren’t great examples of responsibility so I’m doing what I can to teach myself. I appreciate anyone’s empathy and guidance.

I know it’s a long story but if anyone reads it all… may you be forever blessed 😭
26F in the US, working since 15, first in casual food service. Got into fine dining shortly after and by 21 had worked in 6+ restaurants. I was a job hopper, young and far too entitled. I saw early on that I was great at fine dining and restaurants are easy to move through. Then Covid hit and I was jobless.
The next 2.5 yrs I ran a cleaning LLC w/ my mom then got into office work. Even then I never stayed anywhere longer than 6-9 months. Most recently, I took a 9-5 office job in Dec. At the same time, my life started to fall apart. My live in boyfriend and I split a week before I started. February began an awful period of issues with my mom, who was on my lease at the time. Then I drained my savings for vet bills only to be told my cat has terminal kidney failure. March I was in the ER or doc 6x for a neck injury from ‘22. Finally, my boss got fed up mid April and let me go. The day before I signed a new lease to escape my mother.
It’s been a month, I’m behind on bills and in a deep depression. I also have diagnosed adhd/autism and lupus. Not excuses, just important factors. Ive got every gig app, dd/uber denied me for a speeding ticket 4yrs ago and flex/spark/shipt/etc are full. Only degree is high school. I’ve got 6yrs in restaurants, 6yrs clerical/business, 3yrs cleaning and 4yrs management within that.
I also stupidly let my brother edit my resume and it’s quite “enhanced” now. He took my 4 longest/best jobs, moved the dates and heavily padded the specifics... it’s a stretch.
If you managed to follow that insanity.. my main concerns are making my resume accurate but presentable, and any tips for where to go from here. Im open to more school but no idea what I’d do. Also not “above” any job. I need to make min $17.50/hr @ 40hrs. I’m committed to working hard but feel so lost and ashamed of my history. I know I can’t change the past but I can do better going forward.
My parents weren’t great examples of responsibility so I’m doing what I can to teach myself. I appreciate anyone’s empathy and guidance.

I’ve had my cat for 13+ years without a litter box however she relieved herself on my stair case whilst in work, although she had outside access the little lady was unable to make it. I’ve used carpet cleaner spray and scrubbed but the smell still remains, mark and stains gone but it’s seeped through. Any ideas on how I can get rid of said smell without removing carpet entirely?

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This happens to me once in a while, and I have no idea what causes it. I just wake up and every square inch of my body is like a burning itch, but the lower extremities are the worst. I just took benadryl, but I dont know that it'll do anything.
My diet is super consistent. Fruits, nuts, some dairy, beans, veggies, some meat. I've used the same soap, body wash,and lotion for months. I have what you would consider a severe anxiety disorder, and im on some meds, but no changes in dosage in over a year
Air purifier in my house. Yesterday I spent most of the day inside. Showered. I have a dog and a cat but I've never had pet allergies.
It sucks so bad when this happens.

Throw away account because...
So my husband and sons are all very sports and rough around the edged. Often Friday nights they're having little parties watching sports, roaring at the TV, sweaty and shirtless. They might play football (soccer) outside first, or maybe they're watching wrestling and everyone's wrestling on the couch. Maybe an uncle or some friends are over.
I'm like this quaint housewife offering them snacks which they don't seem to care about. I ask them to maybe put on a shirt, maybe play a board game. We tried for a daughter but just kept... having sons. My husband had 2 before me and 3 with me, now ages 5-12. But I wish we could just do something civilized on Fridays.
I complained and called them barbarians, and they just beat their chests and laugh about it. I said to Huba "and what if I had all girls over and we just drank tea while you had to serve us". He says I don't have to serve them, and that I could have a girls day (he knows I don't have friends). So one day I got really angry, and tucked my hair under a hat, put on a sports bra and baggy clothes, and joined them, saying I'm "Anton". I wanted to make them angry, but they just laughed about it, and the oldest boy even made a joke that it meant his Dad's gay!!! Then the Dad says "I guess tonight I am!!!"
Is this normal? What kind of life is this? AITAH for being angry and wanting change?

Dianne Young, casting director, is a guest host.
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• During season 1, the initial order was for 12 episodes. No one thought they would actually make it to 12 episodes.

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David Gail interview:
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• He is joining from France.
• He thinks his bellhop role is in season 2. When corrected that it’s season 1, he says “excuse-moi” (in his French accent).
• Young cast him because he was nice and easy on the set.
• His son is also on the video. His son’s name is Gautier. His son makes a bunch of funny faces and hand signs throughout the interview.
• His agent would tell him you don’t need to meet the casting director, for auditions in general. Gail wanted to meet them anyways, because he wanted to meet as many people as possible.
• The original season 1 pilot was 2 hours. Rosin passed. It was eventually trimmed to 90 minutes, and about 30 minutes of music videos were cut. Aaron Spelling then wanted to meet him, after the pilot was trimmed. Rosin took the meeting.
• Aaron Spelling did not want to have a season in college. There was a lot of anxiety about the format changing after high school.
• The first two to three episodes of Melrose Place got a higher rating than Beverly Hills, 90210. They convinced the president of FOX, Lucie Salhany,
• Gautier has now taken out a puppet. The entire podcast starts laughing, except for Gail, who doesn’t know what’s happening behind him.
• Rosin then promises FOX that they’re going to have Brenda elope, and that will be the number 1 show that week.
• There was a lot of pressure at this time.
• Young kept waiting for more details about the elopement plot line to emerge.
• No one knew that Doherty was going to be leaving at the end of the season.
• Gail was unaware about any issues Doherty might have been having with the management company.
• Gail had no idea how big this plot was going to be.
• Aaron Spelling gave Gail a kiss and hug after his audition.
• Young does not remember other people that auditioned for this role.
• Mollin says Paul Waigner and Jessica Klein also had a big part in casting Gail.
• Rosin says sometimes during auditions, people talk their way out of a role. They get nervous and talk too much.
• Rosin tells a story of how he once met an actor. Rosin told him he liked this movie he was in. The actor then spent 5 minutes telling Rosin why the movie sucked. This was an example of an actor talking his way out of a future role.
• When Gail came in season 1, he read for a recurring role. They didn’t want him because he was too green. They then offered him the bellhop role.
• During season 4, when Gail was offered the role of Stuart, he asked how they could bring him back as a different character.
• Rosin said at the time, he didn’t think people were watching the show that closely. He didn’t know that there would be dedicated fans like there are today.
• Rosin and Young wanted Gail because everyone had liked Gail from before. Young says she had known him from before, and trusted him.
• Young had reminded Rosin of what Gail had done before, in season 1.
• When Gail went into the Spelling office for this season 4 audition, and saw all of the producers lined up, he was intimidated. Gail had to use psychological tricks like telling himself to breathe. Don’t start when they start, but start when you want to start. Wait until you are in that character.
• Gail cannot walk into an audition and just start being in character. He has to be David Gail first. Meaning he has to say hi to everyone as David Gail first. Then he can get in character.
• Rosin says one of Aaron Spelling’s biggest strengths was casting.
• The first time Rosin heard Aaron Spelling say that his strength was casting, Rosin thought that was BS. But, overtime, Rosin agreed that Aaron Spelling was that good.
• Aaron Spelling knew Julia Roberts was going to be a star, when he saw her in Mystic Pizza.
• David Gail’s son somehow appears on screen, upside down, from the top of the camera. Gail has to shoo his son away again.
• During season 2, Doherty had a boyfriend in Chicago named Chris Lupus. He was wealthy. So Rosin created a character that reminded him of that boyfriend, in Stuart.
• Gail says the plot was fun.
• Gail likes how Stuart was spoiled and possibly dealing drugs. He said it’s more fun to play a character like that.
• Both actors that played Stuart’s parents (Peter Mark Richman, Claudette Nevins) have passed away.
• Mollin likes the dynamic of how Stuart’s dad thought Stuart was a loser, and Brenda was making him a winner.
• Gino Conforti, from Three’s Company, was the mechanic in “Strangers In The Night”.
• Both Richman and Conforti were on Three’s Company.

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• Jessica Klein created Jesse Vasquez. That was the name of her college boyfriend.
• Young went through a lot of resumes with pictures for this character. She had put Mark Damon Espinoza aside. After a few days, she kept going back to his picture. He didn’t have a lot of credits. She wanted to meet him.
• He was so easy to talk to. He was friendly. He was from Texas.
• He had a good theater background.
• Mollin didn’t like the casting at first. He’s grown to love Espinoza. Mollin says the character worked.
• Mollin: A baby is a show killer.
• Young: All of the cast has an opportunity to give input on casting. Carteris didn’t say things about whether a potential picture on a resume was terrific.
• Rosin and Mollin now think Espinoza was pitch perfect in all of his scenes. Even the ones with Ian Ziering in season 5.
• Rosin: He’s a good friend of this podcast.

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• As soon as Young saw Kathleen Robertson, Young knew she had to pay close attention.
• She was easy to work with. She wasn’t nervous.
• Robertson had a unique hat. Mollin and Rosin noticed it. They used that same hat in her character’s intro scene.
• Lou Patrick negotiated Robertson’s contract. (A woman).
• Aaron Spelling had accidentally sent out a cast renewal to Shannen Doherty. Lou Patrick saw that and alerted Rosin. It had already been decided by this point that Doherty wasn’t coming back. They were able to stop that from getting to Doherty.
• Young had hired Nicholas Pryor before on another show. He was professional.
• Young: Christine Belford (Samantha Sanders), Pryor’s wife, was a good actress.
• Kelly McDonald, Young’s assistant, met with actors for D’Shawn Hardell. She was the one that recommended Cress Williams to Young. He was very new.
• Rosin and Mollin liked him.
• Unlike Tico Wells from season 1 (whom Rosin beat in basketball), Cress Williams could not play basketball.
• Young had known Dina Meyer (Lucinda) from before. She had always liked Meyer.
• There wasn’t an audition. Tony Shepherd just told Rosin that Dina Meyer would play the part.
• Barry Bonds and Dina Meyer are the only actors that Tony Shepherd told Rosin who to pick. There wasn’t an audition.
• Young loved Scott Paulin (Professor Randall). She had known his credits.
• Young doesn’t remember too much from Tracy Middendorf’s (Laura Kingman) audition.
• Young: Noley Thornton (Erica) was wonderful. She had seen her from “The Martin Short Show”.
• They had to make a lot of arrangements to get her from one set to another, because she was on both shows. But child actors have some limitations.
• One time, they were praying Thornton would be able to make it, because The Martin Short Show was running long.
• Kerrie Keane (Suzanne) didn’t know that there was going to be a scam.
• When Jessica Klein pitched the scam story to Aaron Spelling, Spelling thought the audience would know right away. He didn’t think the scam would work. Rosin had to promise that no one would see it coming, by the end.
• Rosin likes how he can talk to actors that come on the podcast now, because he was never able to do it when the show was being made. Jason Carter (Roy Randolph) is one such example.
• Young says there were a lot of British actors, at the time, because there was a lot of work in Los Angeles. And they were paid more here, then in British Television.
• Young had met Paul Johannson (John Sears) before.
• He was one of Jason Priestley’s friends.
• David Sherrill (Jack Canner) was another one of Priestley’s friends.
• Young would tell Priestley why one of his friends would or would not get the role.
• Young loves Brook Theiss (Leslie Sumner). She had met Theiss on Growing Pains, and Just The Ten Of Us. She was such a joh to be around. Young also introduced Theiss’ husband to her.
• Young likes Theiss so much, that she would cast her for something right now if she could.
• Young does not remember Kari Wuhrer (Ariel Hunter).
• Young remembers Matthew Perreta (Dan Rubin) a little.
• Young does not remember the Minnesota girls.
• Young loves Jed Allen (Rush Sanders). His acting was similar to Ian Ziering’s. She saw it right away that he was Steve Sander’s dad.
• Ryan Thomas Brown (Muntz) was easy to work with.
• Young had known Zachary Throne (Howard) from before.

Hi there!
I have been casually lurking this sub-reddit since before I reverted to Islam last year in September, as well as a number of other Islam-themed sub-reddits.
In this sub specifically, as well as a few others, I have appreciated the entertaining and informative discourse established by the seemingly open-minded and critical denizens.
JazakAllah khair, fam.
I figured I would introduce myself, as I'm at a point in my study of the Quran and Islam where I believe open discussion of my thoughts and knowledge, (or perhaps lackthereof? 🧐 The more you know, the less you know.), would be beneficial rather than overly influential.
Anywho. My name is Marisa, or نهى 🤷‍♀️. I'm 30 years old. I live in the Bay Area of California and have since I was 18. I moved out here alone, without connections, and built a decent little life for myself. I'm still studying (Civil Eng.) but currently work for a CE drafting and doing occasional field work. I skateboard, bike, read, write, make art, etcetcetc. The two truths I have found in this life are Islam and to seek knowledge insatiably.
Around the end of 2022/beginning of 2023, I found myself with a lot of friends either born in or whose family is from the MENA region. Various places: Tunisia, Palestine, Iraq, Egypt, Morocco, Algeria, Syria, Lebanon, etc. Most are Muslim, الحمد لله 🥰. Given that it's in my nature to seek knowledge, I sought to reconcile the fact that I knew nothing about Islam.
My religious background: I was raised "loosely" Christian. My parents believed in God but didn't really talk about God or go to church. My mom would talk a tiny bit about God with me and I remember saying this prayer before bed well into my teens with her:
"Now I lay me down to sleep, I pray the Lord my soul to keep. If I shall die before I wake, I pray the Lord my soul to take."
Beside that, throughout my childhood also into my early teens, I would go to church with friends. I think a Catholic church once, but mostly Baptist and Protestant IIRC. I even joined youth group a couple of times.
The thing is though, that Christianity never really spoke to me, even though I believed in God. I just couldn't connect with it for no other reason I can think of, than that God was preserving my faith for Islam.
Around the age of 15, I remember telling my father I thought I was an atheist. He acted upset and told me "We believe in God," but didn't have much to say when I said "Since when? You never talk about God."
Fast forward to 18 or 19, and I started calling myself agnostic. My reasoning for this change was the acceptance of the reality of metaphysical phenomena. I was tired of deluding myself to the existence of something outside our understanding, though not ready to accept that I believed in our monotheistic God, the only Lord, Allah subhana wa ta’ala. (Fun fact: When things were terrible and when things were fantastic, I prayed to Allah, even when I called myself an atheist.)
And I stayed that way until I began reading the Quran, hadith, opinion pieces from casual studies, articles and discussions from scholars, from sources across the board. Sunni, Shia, Quranists, ex-Muslims, etc etc.
And I found myself drawn to Islam. For one, it made me finally admit to myself that I believed in God.
Further, the message I was receiving from the Quran was one of ethics, love(in all its forms, fierce and tender), knowledge-seeking, reciprocity, and patience, and so much more as my studies will not cease until I die ان شاء الله .
The tipping point from being drawn by to diving into Islam was what I can only explain as guidance directly from Allah SWT.
I was up late reading Surah al-Nisa. I had finished reading the following ayah, which I had resonated with and was feeling deeply at that moment.
After reading those, I was thinking over them and ready to sleep, I went to put my Quran down. As I did, it flipped open to the page with the Shahada on it. Seeing it, I had a very strong, sudden, and urgent feeling that I needed to take my Shahada. I want to say my intuition was pushing me, but it was different, outside of myself, and far stronger. So I did. I took my Shahada and fell asleep knowing I had done the right thing. Later, I said my Shahada with Muslim witnesses, of course, though not at a masjid.
Since then, I have been content with my choice and endlessly grateful to Allah SWT for His guidance الحمد لله ❤️
For further clarity on my particular stance within Islam, I identify purely as a Muslim and do not associate myself with any sects or school of thought. I take information from everywhere, and my research always goes back to the Quran. I am not a native Arabic speaker, although I'm slowly learning ان شاء الله (And am actually starting lessons soon, الحمد لله), so I often use friends (from all over and who identify within different Islamic schools of thought) as translators when I deep dive verses, hadith, etc, as well as multiple Arabic-English dictionaries, a Quranic Root index, and varying sources of interpretation.
I have not formed any particular blanket opinion about any sect or school of thought at this point, though find some sect-associated acts to be contrary to what we're taught in the Quran.
I am highly skeptical of Hadiths (including the science behind the chains of transmission), though I do not dismiss them entirely. Some are bound to be accurate at best, and indicative of socio-political conditions/individual and group character at worst.
I am deeply curious, though currently ill-informed, about the long-term effect that the first 4 caliphs, as well as the Ummayid and Abbasid caliphates had on the Ummah and our collective understanding of Islamic history, and subsequently our understanding of Islam.
Not sure what else to put on here besides what I already have.
Oh, I have two cats. Ada and Marie. They're named after scientists. If you can guess who they're named after, I'll think you're really cool, مل شاء الله 👌
Also #freepalestine

Quick Summary:

This post will contain spoilers for both Season 15, and Restoration.
With the release of Restoration, Red vs Blue has finally come to an end, and it was a pretty solid ending for the most part amid a few flaws here and there, but most I think would agree it was a Satisfying ending. However as I said before it has a few problems. One being is that we don't know if Restoration actually happend, or if it's also a simulation much like The Shisno Trilogy, and Zero.
Secondly even though some people didn't like The Shisno Trilogy retconing it removes all of the major delevompment certain characters went through. Such as Grif, Donut, and Washington. I think The Shisno Trilogy defenitntly handled their characters better then Restoration did. So I'm going to give my version of what happend after the battle on The Staff of Charon, and see if we can fix some of the mistakes of both The Shisno Trilogy, and Restoration.

Season 15 Prelude:

So in my rewrite I'm going to have both Season 15, and Restoration happen, but there will be some tweeks, and changes added to them. One such change will be Tucker's descent into becoming The New Meta, rather then it just happening offscreen. We see this through Tucker behaving much more differently then he normally would. He often gets angry for unknown reasons, or behaves more violently then he normally would. All of this is a result of him being influinced by both Sigma, and Omega. Personally I think Omega would help Sigma with his goals as long as Sigma gave Omega something in return.

Season 15:

Now let's get into the actual Season. So Season 15 Episode 1 Prolouge goes the same as it does in the original, with The Blues and Reds attacking a UNSC base, and killing everyone there. Dylan Andrews then does her report with Frank, she deciedes to track The Reds and Blues down, Frank is replace by Jax, and together they head to Blood Gulch, meet sister, and VIC, Dylan makes a deal with VIC that he will give her "Three wishes", and then she, and Jax go to Sidewinder, meet Specncer, and Encounter The Blues and Reds. So far Season 15 seems to be going exactaly the same as it did before right, well here's where the first difference comes. Dylan doesn't immendidlty put together put together that they aren't the real Reds, and Blues. This is because Surge actually has a shotgun, and they all have voice filters to sound like the Reds, and Blues.
Anyways after all that instead of going to Chorus, Dylan and Jax decied to go to other places The Reds and Blues have been starting with Zanzibar. There they wouldn't find much, but I think Dylan would at least try to see if she could find any information on the computer Gamma hacked, but probably wouldn't find anything.
There next stop would be Valhalla. There they would first check out The Blue Base, find nothing, and then they would check out The Red Base, where they would find the holgraph training thing Sarge had Lopez built. Once again they wouldn't find anything they would help with their investagation.
Oh by the way the call between Dylan and James would still happen in Episode 4 at Zanziabar and it would go the same as in the original Season.
Anyways then then go to the sandy place with The Temple, then where the Reds and Tucker got destroyed by Tex, and even where they confronted The Director, but they find nothing, and Dylan is about to Give Up when Jax suggest that why not go to the place The Reds and Blues were last known to be, Chorus. Dylan calls Jax a genius, and they head of to Chours. Again this goes exactaly the same as it did in the original version, but with one major difference, Doc would be on Chours working at Donald Doyle General Hosptial as Doctor Grey's assisatant, but once he here's about The Reds and Blues he too like Sister, Grey, and Kimball believes that The Reds and Blues wouldn't go evil, despite all they've put him through. So after getting the info from Kimball, Dylan, Jax, and Doc would all go to The Reds and Blues are on. Doc apologizes to Grey for leaving, but she assures him it's okay, and that he wasn't really that good at opperating, no offense of course. Anyways they go to the planet, the same Star Wars Parody scene happens, and Dylan finally meets The Real Reds and Blues. Cabooose still falls of the cliff, The Reds and Blues kind of have a small reaction to Doc like "Oh Doc what are you doing here". Doc then tries to explain only for The Reds and Blues to say that "No one cares", then they tell their story. It's exactaly the same, but Carolina does point out Tucker's weird behavior from being influnced by Sigma, and Omgea, but they all just blow it off as a phase, and then they get the SOS from Church.
And that's where Season 15 would end. Now I'm sure some of you are going to question why I shorten Season 15 to only about 10 episodes instead of the Original 20, well that was because of Dylan and Jax. See one of my main issues with Season 15 was the lack of development the two new characters got. I mean what did we learn about either of them throughout the Season? Um Dylan was a reporter, Jax wants to make movies, Dylan has a husband she's distant from, and that's about it, and as soon as The Reds and Blues come back into the picture, both Dylan and Jax basically get sidelinded. For me that was my biggest disappointment from Season 15, and is the main reason why I added episodes of Dylan and Jax going to these other places The Reds and Blues have been was so we could learn more about Dylan and Jax.
One thing I think we could learn about is why Dylan is so distant from her husband, here's my take on the reason why. Dylan can't have kids. When Dylan gets the call from James, Jax could ask her why she's so distant from him, to which Dylan would say that it's none of his buisness, then Jax can drop it, and tell Dylan his life story, then in Chorus Lessons Dylan can tell Jax about her being unable to reproduce, she explains to him that other then being a reporter one of her biggest dreams was to be a mom, she and James tried so many times, but nothing worked, so they went to the doctors where they got the news that Dylan was infertal. This revlation devestated Dylan, and she started to distants herself from James, and burry herself in her work. James did suggest things like Adoption, or a Surragate Mom, but Dylan didn't want to do either of does. I know it's not the best story for Dylan, but I just wanted more from her and Jax, instead of them just being sidelinded after The Reds and Blues came back into the picture. Anyways onto the New Season 16.

Season 16:

So yeah Season 16 is just the rest of Season 15 honestly, and for the most part everything goes exactaly The Same. Grif quits still, Carolina and Washington go to search for their old Freelancer friends, and The rest of The Reds and Blues along with Dylan and Jax try to trace Church's message. Everything from their goes the same, including the meeting with Spencer. It's when they meet The Blues and Reds where it's different. When they first meet it goes basically the same where The Blues and Reds claim that they're the good guys, and its The UNSC who are the bad guys, but Tucker does not trust them one bit because they are still going around pretending to be The Reds and Blues, with Tucker even questioning how Dylan couldn't tell they were fakes. Anyways the go into the underwater base, and here's where we get some differences. First of all The Blues and Reds and not the originals, they are just copycats. Doc also never knew them, and there's a little moment of him asking if they have their own Doc, and getting kind of dissapointed that their isn't.
Here's another major difference. It's Sigma who convinces Tucker to not trust Dylan, and to instead trust The Blues and Reds, and espesically Temple. After that everything from Wash and Carolina's relationship getting forming, to The Blues and Reds capturing them goes the same.
Now we get to The Blues and Reds story of why they are doing all of this. Now like I said before they are not the originals like in the canon version of Season 15, and honestly coming up with a different story for them was hard, and this was all I could think of. They were part of The UNSC Resistance, and took part in the battle of the Sargaughcas in Season 9. We still get that whole think of Biff and Temple being friends, and Biff wanting to go home to be with his wife, but this time instead of him asking Temple to shoot him, he was already given permission to leave, and this would have been his last mission. Unfourtnetly he is killed during the battle by Carolina and Tex. As for why The Blues and Reds are pretending to be The Reds and Blues? They saw the article Dylan wrote and that's what gave Temple the idea to pretend to be The Reds and Blues.
Anyways The Reds, and Blues discover The Blues and Reds are evil, Doc, and Sarge join The Blues, and Reds, The Reds, and Blues are captured, Lopez gets launched into Space, runs into Locus, and gets Grif. Grif, Lopez, and Felix go to save The Reds and Blues, free Wash and Carolina, with Wash all loopy, Sarge apologizes, and the fire fight happens. Here we would also see more of Sigma, and Omega influnicing Tucker, primarily Omega during this part since Tucker is angry, and of course Wash gets shot in the Neck.
So after that everything goes exactaly the same as it does in the original with The Reds and Blues, Dylan, and Jax all heading to Earth to stop The Blues and Reds.
Okay now for the Final Battle aganist The Blues and Reds, for the most part it's the same. Sarge and Surge's fight to Sarge accidendtly killing Surge, Grif, and Simmons figthing Gene and leaving him, and Loronzeo getting kicked into space, as well as Cronut blowing up in The Tank, but surving.
Now for the differnces. First off Loco's machine is not a time machine, but it will still causes mass destruction, and possibly destroy the planet so it needs to be stopped. Tucker beats Buckey even worse then he does in the original, breaking nearly all of his bones. This is again because of Omega. Anyways once we get to the final battle against Temple it all goes the same. Temple accidently kills Loco, VIC dies stopping the Machine, and Loco gives Caboose some batteires for Freckles. Now for the differnces. First there's no door that opens to Blood Gulch, and Alpha Church, The Machine just gets destroyed by VIC. Donut still gets shot by a bolt of electricty, but it does nothig except give him a little jolt. Oh and everything that happend with Doc went the same.
Now for Temple's fate. This time Tucker actually kills Temple, quite violently to, shocking everyone. Carolina then says "Tucker, what have you done"? to which Tucker, who's voice is mixed with Sigma's says. "Tucker is gone, I am The Meta"! Tucker now complety controlled by Sigma runs off, gets into Dylan's ship and flies off leaving everyone in shock. Then The Chours crew comes with Sister who reuintes with Grif, and the others are informed of Wash's recover, but then Caboose ask what they are going to do about Tucker, which Carolina says she doesn't know. Season 16 ends with Tucker returing to the base where The Reds and Blues were stationed after Chorus. He opens a door, to a room where The Meta's old armor was stored. Tucker then puts on the Armor and faces the screen in a scene similar to when Maine became The First Meta.
So yeah Season 16 aka The Rest of Season 15 didn't have a lot of changes other then changing the Origins of The Blues, and Reds, and showing more of Tucker's desent into becoming The New Meta. So let's move onto The Final Season.

Restoration:

So I think the best place to start The Final Season is to have The Reds and Blues first go to Chorus to check on Wash. As for Dylan and Jax, they stay behind since they can't fight The Meta. Anyways The Reds and Blues arrive on Chorus, and Carolina goes to see Wash in the Hospital, she wants to tell him about what happend to Tucker, but Wash doesn't let her at first, and instead tells the story about his cat. He tells the story about five times, so Carolina ask Doctor Grey about what's going on, and she tells Carolina about Wash's Cerebal Hypoxia. Now here's where we get our first difference. Carolina tells Wash about his condition, and does not hide it from him. Wash of course is devestated after learning this, but isn't as angry as he was in the original Season since Carolina was honest with him, but then she tells Wash about Tucker, and this causes an argument between the two of them, Carolina wants Wash to stay behind on Chorus while she and the others take care of Tucker, but Washington is insitant that he comes along saying how Tucker is his friend, and he's not going to sit back while Tucker suffers. Try as she might Carolina cannot convince Wash to stay behind.
While that was going on The Reds and Blues come back with the Message from Church. Of coruse Carolina, is skeptical at first considering what happend with the last message from Church, but Epsilon, who somehow new about all of this is able to prove he is real.
Okay so that's basically it for differnces, as everything else goes the same as it does in the original film with the acception that Sister, Wash, Carolina, Donut, Lopez, and Doc are all there the whole time. There would also be more scences of Tucker trying to fight off Sigma's influnce
Now for The Battle on The Staff of Charon with The Meta, here is where we would see Wash's injury effecting him, and it gets to a point where The Meta is about to kill him, only for Doc to sacrfice himself to save him. So yeah Doc still dies, but this time it's onscreen. As for Sarge, he dies too, same way he does in the original film, but the difference is that Sarge doesn't choose to abandon Caboose at first, he dies saving Caboose.
Final battle in Blood Gulch is The Same, with Tex coming back, but also Junior too. They fight and defeat Sigma, and Free Tucker. Caboose then destroys the Memory Unit.
Now for the ending. Grif doesn't leave like he does in the original film, Simmons does still offer it to him, but Grif chooses to stay. One thing The Shisno Trilogy did good was Grif's character arc. He realized that he needs the others in his life, no matter how much he doesn't want to admit it, he went crazy when he was all alone. Washington's character was something else done well in The Shisno Trilogy, his struggle with Brain Damage, and having to come over it, which is one of the biggest reasons why I hate Zero when they just said that he somehow got cured from that offscreen.
Finally with everything fixed, The Reds and Blues all decied to remain on Blood Gulch. Red Base has Simmons, Grif, Donut, and Lopez, while Blue Base has Caboose, Tucker, Washington, Carolina, Sister, and Junior.
Oh one more thing, they also had a memorial for Doc too. Donut is the first one mouring Doc, with Simmons, and the others eventually joining as well, and it's here where they finally acknowledge all the terrible things they did to Doc over the years, and genuinally apologize to him, even if Doc can't here them

Conclusion:

And there we go, my rewrite of Season 15, and Restoration. I know it's not perfect, and believe me a billon other people could do a trillon times better then I ever could, but I just wanted to talk about my take on how I would try to handle The End of Red vs Blue.

A group of us had been selected for special duty in a far-off place at the other end of the Country. And for some reason, I’d been further selected to shepherd our small flock to there. Into my keeping was given everyone’s individual travel orders, tickets, meal vouchers, etc. We’d be flying commercially, so mine to deal with airport personnel, make sure we got to our gates on time, damn transfers, etc, etc. Lucky me.
Why me, I had no idea. I Had achieved NCO status by that point, but I wasn’t the only one. I wasn’t even the senior one. And tbh, I didn’t consider Myself all that responsible.
I Was good at talking, lying, conniving, obfuscating, bribing, and otherwise getting my charges (and by extension Me) out of whatever they’d gotten themselves/us into again. THAT I was good at. Those bast……fine young men were walking chaos. It took up more of my time and ingenuity than you might think.
But this one more minor headache I didn’t need.
Then the skies brightened, and the sunlight it did appear. Gathering at the departure point for to depart, I was delighted to see a SSgt among we lesser sheep.
Approaching his August self, with a happy smile, I informed him of the obvious: “You’re the ranking man here. I believe these belong to you.”
And I attempted to hand over one tan-colored expandable accordion file, flap secured with a string, issue one.
With an even larger smile than mine own, he replied: “No the hell they do not! YOU were assigned this duty. This is Your turkey shoot. I’m just along for the ride. Lead on, McDuff……nice try, though.” The old adage in action: “Don’t volunteer for Anything.” And he wasn’t about to. Smartass.
Gray skies again. But a minor nuisance. Keep counting heads, make sure noone wanders off with departure in five minutes. Tries to sneak a couple of drinks before the flight’s called. Gets to talking to someone and forgets they’re supposed to be going somewhere.
“Let’s go - where are You all goin’?”
“Gate nine’s this way.”
“Gate Five! Gate Five!”
SSgt smiling.
“Are all of you young men in the military?”
“Yes, Ma’am.” (Maybe the uniforms gave it away…..be nice. She’s somebody’s grandmother).
“Flying commercial, I see.” (Well, we’re in an airport…..probably a lucky guess. Be polite. His taxes pay your salary. He’ll tell ya).
“Yes, Sir.”
Boarding call. One, two, three, four, five, six…..”Where’s Cpl Evans?”
“I think he’s makin’ a head call.”
“We been here for an hour, and he goes Now?…..Never mind - here ‘e comes.”
SSgt happy.
“So you’re all flying together?”
(No shit, Sherlock! We’re all Standin’ here together, ain’t we?…….Be patient - she’s just doin’ her job).
“Yes, Ma’am.”
SSgt smiling again.

1995 Kohn:
Der Mikrowellenakustikeffekt, ein Phänomen, das die Übertragung von Sprachnachrichten über Mikrowellen ermöglicht, hat in der Kommunikationstechnologie Beachtung gefunden. Die Forschungsgemeinschaft, angeführt von Einrichtungen wie dem Walter Reed Army Institute of Research (WRAIR), hat intensiv an der Erforschung und Entwicklung von Systemen gearbeitet, die den Mikrowellenakustikeffekt für die Stimmenübertragung nutzen. Dass die Forschungen zur Mikrowellensprachübertragung von Sharp und Grove fortgesetzt worden sind, zeigt sich auch in einer Ausschreibung aus dem Jahr 1995 des Verteidigungsministeriums der Vereinigten Staaten mit folgendem Titel: „Kommunikation mittels des Mikrowellenakustikeffekts“. [[1]](#_ftn1) In dieser Ausschreibung wird auf eine zuvor durchgeführte Machbarkeitsstudie des Armstrong Laboratory/OEDR verwiesen, die die Realisierbarkeit der Sprachkommunikation mittels des Mikrowellenakustikeffekts bestätigte:
„The purpose of the program proposed here is to extend the results of a recent feasibility study, performed for the Armstrong Laboratory/OEDR. The study found that voice communications, via the microwave auditory effect, are highly feasible.”[[2]](#_ftn2)
„Der Zweck des hier vorgeschlagenen Programms besteht darin, die Ergebnisse einer kürzlich durchgeführten Machbarkeitsstudie zu erweitern, die für das Armstrong-LaboOEDR durchgeführt wurde. Die Studie ergab, dass Sprachkommunikation über den akustischen Mikrowelleneffekt sehr gut machbar ist.“
In einem neuen Forschungsprogramm geht es der Projektbeschreibung nun darum, eine revolutionäre Kommunikationsform basierend auf dem akustischen Mikrowelleneffekt zu entwickeln. Diese Idee verspreche der Programmbeschreibung gemäß einer natürlichen Schnittstelle zu sein, die ohne vorherige Schulung effizient genutzt werden kann und einen effizienten Betrieb und eine effektive Kommunikation biete. Die erste Phase dieses Projekts wird sich auf die Identifizierung potenzieller Anwendungen konzentrieren und die Entwicklung von Hardware- und Systemkonzepten vorantreiben, die für Labor- und Demonstrationszwecke geeignet sind. Die Ergebnisse dieser Forschung sind nicht öffentlich verfügbar, und Anfragen nach Informationen unter dem Freedom of Information Act wurden abgelehnt. Dabei ist von einer Weiterentwicklung der ursprünglichen Vorrichtungen des WRAIR und der funktionell ähnlichen Erfindungen von Stocklin und Brunkan auszugehen.
Die Implikationen dieser Technologie sind weitreichend. Sie verspricht nicht nur eine effizientere und möglicherweise sicherere Kommunikation in militärischen Umgebungen, sondern birgt auch das Potenzial für innovative zivile Anwendungen.

1.1.1.2 1996 USAF:

1996 USAF: Ein Bericht der US Air Force aus dem Jahr 1996 beleuchtet die ambitionierten Ziele der zukünftigen Forschung auf diesem Gebiet und zeichnet ein faszinierendes, aber auch beunruhigendes Bild der Möglichkeiten auf dem Gebiet der hochauflösenden Sprachübertragung und Gedankenkontrolle mittels elektromagnetischer Energie. Die darin vorgestellten Dual-Use-Technologien wecken unweigerlich Assoziationen zu 'Mind Control'. [[3]](#_ftn3)
„Prior to the mid-21st century, there will be a virtual explosion of knowledge in the field of neuroscience. We will have achieved a clear understanding of how the human brain works, how it really controls the various functions of the body, and how it can be manipulated (both positively and negatively). One can envision the development of electromagnetic energy sources, the output of which can be pulsed, shaped, and focused, that can couple with the human body in a fashion that will allow one to prevent voluntary muscular movements, control emotions (and thus actions), produce sleep, transmit suggestions, interfere with both short-term and long-term memory, produce an experience set, and delete an experience set. This will open the door for the development of some novel capabilities that can be used in armed conflict, in terrorist/hostage situations, and in training. New weapons that offer the opportunity of control of an adversary without resorting to a lethal solution or to collateral casualties can be developed around this concept. This would offer significant improvements in the capabilities of our special operation forces“
„Vor der Mitte des 21. Jahrhunderts wird es eine regelrechte Explosion des Wissens im Bereich der Neurowissenschaften geben. Wir werden ein klares Verständnis davon erlangt haben, wie das menschliche Gehirn funktioniert, wie es die verschiedenen Funktionen des Körpers tatsächlich steuert und wie es manipuliert werden kann (sowohl positiv als auch negativ). Man kann sich die Entwicklung von elektromagnetischen Energiequellen vorstellen, deren Output gepulst, geformt und fokussiert werden kann und die sich mit dem menschlichen Körper in einer Weise koppeln lassen, die es ermöglicht, freiwillige Muskelbewegungen zu verhindern, Emotionen (und damit Handlungen) zu kontrollieren, Schlaf zu erzeugen, Vorschläge zu übermitteln, sowohl das Kurzzeit- als auch das Langzeitgedächtnis zu beeinträchtigen, ein Erfahrungsspektrum zu erzeugen und ein Erfahrungsspektrum zu löschen. Dies wird die Tür zur Entwicklung neuartiger Fähigkeiten öffnen, die in bewaffneten Konflikten, in Terroristen-/Geiselsituationen und im Training eingesetzt werden können. Neue Waffen, die die Möglichkeit bieten, einen Gegner zu kontrollieren, ohne auf eine tödliche Lösung oder auf Kollateralschäden zurückzugreifen, können auf Grundlage dieses Konzepts entwickelt werden. Dies würde die Fähigkeiten unserer Spezialeinsatzkräfte erheblich verbessern.“
Dieser Bericht der US-Luftwaffe legt dar, wie die Fortführung der Forschung im Bereich der elektromagnetischen Sprachübertragung es ermöglichen könnte, mit ausgewählten Zielpersonen auf eine Art und Weise zu kommunizieren, die tiefe Beunruhigung auslöst und stark an Methoden der psychologischen Beeinflussung erinnert. [[4]](#_ftn4)
„It would also appear possible to create high fidelity speech in the human body, raising the possibility of covert suggestion and psychological direction. When a high power microwave pulse in the gigahertz range strikes the human body, a very small temperature perturbation occurs. This is associated with a sudden expansion of the slightly heated tissue. This expansion is fast enough to produce an acoustic wave. If a pulse stream is used, it should be possible to create an internal acoustic field in the 5-15 kilohertz range, which is audible. Thus, it may be possible to „talk“ to selected adversaries in a fashion that would be most disturbing to them.“[[5]](#_ftn5)
„Es scheint ebenfalls möglich, innerhalb des menschlichen Körpers Sprache mit hoher Wiedergabetreue zu erzeugen, was die Möglichkeit einer verdeckten Suggestion und psychologischen Lenkung eröffnet. Trifft ein hochenergetischer Mikrowellenimpuls im Gigahertz-Bereich auf den menschlichen Körper, kommt es zu einer minimalen Temperaturveränderung. Diese ist mit einer plötzlichen Expansion des leicht erwärmten Gewebes verbunden. Diese Expansion erfolgt schnell genug, um eine akustische Welle zu erzeugen. Bei Verwendung eines Impulsstroms sollte es möglich sein, ein internes akustisches Feld im Bereich von 5-15 Kilohertz zu erzeugen, das hörbar ist. Es könnte folglich machbar sein, auf eine Weise mit ausgewählten Gegnern zu ‚sprechen‘, die sie zutiefst beunruhigt.“
Die Implikation, dass es machbar ist, innerhalb des menschlichen Körpers Sprache in High-Fidelity (HiFi-)-Qualität zu generieren, was eine subtile Manipulation und psychologische Steuerung des Individuums ermöglichen würde, ist bemerkenswert. Durch die Erzeugung eines internen akustischen Feldes im hörbaren Bereich von 5-15 Kilohertz könnte es machbar sein, Sprache mit hoher Wiedergabetreue direkt in den Körper eines Menschen zu übertragen. Dies würde die Möglichkeit eröffnen, verdeckte Suggestionen und psychologische Steuerungen durchzuführen. Die Erzeugung einer akustischen Welle durch schnelle Gewebeexpansion infolge eines Mikrowellenpulses könnte theoretisch genutzt werden, um gezielte auditive Erfahrungen mit hoher Klangtreue zu erzeugen. Dies eröffnet Perspektiven für eine Kommunikationsform mit ausgewählten Gegnern, die diese als äußerst störend empfinden würden.
Der Auszug aus dem Bericht über Klassifizierungen elektromagnetischer Waffen, die Mikrowellen zur psychologischen Kriegsführung nutzen, wirkt wie ein Vorgeschmack auf zukünftige Kampfstrategien. [[6]](#_ftn6) Doch die Realität solcher psychologischen Einflussmöglichkeiten ist bereits gegeben, wie die Existenz umfangreicher öffentlich zugänglicher Literatur und klar definierter Patente belegt. Die Forschung auf diesem Gebiet reicht bis in die 1950er Jahre zurück.
~EEG-Klonen (Remote EEG~**):** Ein weiterer Aspekt des Berichts befasst sich mit der biologischen Prozesskontrolle über elektromagnetische Felder, insbesondere dem EEG-Klonen (Remote EEG):
„In comparison to the discussion in the paragraphs above, the concept of imprinting an experience set is highly speculative, but nonetheless, highly exciting. Modern electromagnetic scattering theory raises the prospect that ultrashort pulse scattering through the human brain can result in reflected signals that can be used to construct a reliable estimate of the degree of central nervous system arousal. The concept behind this "remote EEG" is to scatter off of action potentials or ensembles of action potentials in major central nervous system tracts. Assuming we will understand how our skills are imprinted and recalled, it might be possible to take this concept one step further and duplicate the experience set in another individual. The prospect of providing a "been there-done that" knowledge base could provide a revolutionary change in our approach to specialized training. How this can be done or even if it can be done are significant unknowns. The impact of success would boggle the mind!“
„Im Vergleich zu den obigen Ausführungen ist das Konzept der Prägung eines Erfahrungsspektrums hoch spekulativ, aber dennoch höchst aufregend. Die moderne Theorie der elektromagnetischen Streuung eröffnet die Aussicht, dass ultrakurze Pulsstreuungen durch das menschliche Gehirn reflektierte Signale erzeugen können, die zur Erstellung einer zuverlässigen Schätzung des Erregungsgrades des zentralen Nervensystems verwendet werden können. Das Konzept hinter diesem "remote EEG" besteht darin, von Aktionspotenzialen oder Ensembles von Aktionspotenzialen in großen Trakten des zentralen Nervensystems abzustrahlen. Angenommen, wir werden verstehen, wie unsere Fähigkeiten eingeprägt und abgerufen werden, könnte es möglich sein, dieses Konzept einen Schritt weiter zu führen und das Erfahrungsspektrum in einem anderen Individuum zu duplizieren. Die Aussicht, eine Wissensbasis bereitzustellen, die einem "been there-done that"-Erlebnis entspricht, könnte eine revolutionäre Veränderung in unserem Ansatz zur spezialisierten Ausbildung bewirken. Wie dies erreicht werden kann oder ob es überhaupt möglich ist, sind bedeutende Unbekannte. Der Erfolg wäre überwältigend!“
Das EEG-Klonen basiert auf der Idee, dass ultrakurze Pulsstreuungen durch das menschliche Gehirn reflektierte Signale erzeugen können, die eine Schätzung des Erregungsgrades des zentralen Nervensystems ermöglichen. Diese Signale könnten theoretisch genutzt werden, um neuronale Muster eines Individuums zu erfassen und in einem anderen zu replizieren, was durch eine Art EEG-basierter Wissensbasis eine revolutionäre Veränderung im spezialisierten Training bedeuten könnte.
Beide Konzepte zeigen faszinierende Möglichkeiten, aber auch erhebliche Risiken und Missbrauchspotentiale auf. Die Möglichkeit, Fähigkeiten und Erinnerungen zu "kopieren", könnte gravierende Konsequenzen für das Verständnis von Persönlichkeit und Individualität haben. Eine solche Technologie könnte leicht für militärische oder kommerzielle Zwecke missbraucht werden, was zu einem erheblichen Machtungleichgewicht und möglichen Verletzungen der Privatsphäre und der Menschenrechte führen könnte.
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[[3]](#_ftnref3) Castelli, Christopher J. (2001). „Questions linger about health effects of DOD’s ‘non-lethal' ray“, In: Inside the Navy, 14 (26.03.2001) 12,1-6, URL: ~http://globalsecurity.org/org/news/2001/e20010327questions.htm~ (26.07.2021).
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[[5]](#_ftnref5) Ebd.
[[6]](#_ftnref6) So bspw. Begich, Nick (2005). „Mind Control: Perfekte Manipulation (Teil 1)“, In: Nexus Magazine, 5 (06.-07.2006), URL: https://www.nexus-magazin.de/ausgaben/nexus-magazin-5-juni-juli-2006 (19.07.2021), 51.Kohn

I am looking for a lady between 25 and 35 years old, for a committed monogamous childfree relationship. My goal is to become a true team, supporting each other, caring for each other, nurturing each other and helping each other grow and realise our goals and dreams as much as possible. I'm hoping to find someone that values a relationship as much as I do and takes it seriously. It's not the only thing my life revolves around, but it's also not just something 'nice to have' for me.
I am 186cm tall, slim/fit built, dark brown hair, brown eyes. Both my arms are tattooed (full sleeve), as are my calves and the areas above my ankles. Regarding pictures see below. I am a runner, training multiple times a week. I'm also vegan. My love languages are physical touch and words of affirmation. While I am mostly securely attached, withdrawing from me triggers anxiety and I have made a horrible experience with an avoidant partner in the past, so that is something I fear I cannot deal with again.
I am also an atheist.
I am a very warm, soft and sensitive person, I think I am humorous, I am self reflecting a lot and I can also be really passionate and romantic. Those are traits that also are really important to me in a woman.
I can be quite social, I am a good talker, but also love to listen to really get to know someone on a deeper level. I can enjoy an evening out with friends just as much as the silence of sitting at the shores of the river and watching the sunset in solitude (although I've been craving to watch it together with a partner for a really long time now). I can be out in a pub, at a rave, a metal show or at a football game and have the time of my life, but I cannot do these things every day; I need recharge time (on the sofa, in the woods for a run, a lazy Sunday staying in bed etc.). This should give you an idea; basically, I am a homebody that thoroughly enjoys going out in moderation.
I won't say too much about hobbies; suffice it to say I am into the dark, the obscure, the macabre, the occult, the mysterious, the erotic. It won't surprise you that I had a gothic phase in my youth, bonus points if you did too!
What I'm looking for
Although similar hobbies and interests are a plus, emotional and intimate compatibility are more important to me. I am a very sensitive and emotional person (I do cry easily and by this point I don't think I'll ever be able to change that, sorry), so if you're too, we will definitely understand each other. I need someone who I can open up to (which I do rather quickly, anyway), be myself, bare my soul to and I need these things from you, too. I've had my share of emotionally unavailable women who were afraid of intimacy so I know I can't deal with that again because of the way how those things affect me. I am always emotionally invested with the woman I pursue and in those cases that was to my detriment. But my ability to feel so deep is also something I wouldn't want to change because as of yet, although it's getting harder, I haven't given up on finding someone.
With those emotional needs come two requirements that I found to be vital over the years: First, being able to be silly and cutesy together and to accept each other's inner child and care for it. I am not talking about having to deal with another person's immaturity or inability to perform basic adult skills, rather with the way sadness, hurt, anxiety and being overwhelmed manifests for me (and maybe for you, too?). I need someone who is able to comfort me, to hold me, to allow me to be weak and needy for a while until I've calmed down, and I'm more than ready to offer the same. Your inner child can come out for a while, no problem (: Also in a positive way: Thankfully, today everyone seems to be understanding of the cuteness overload cats (or any animal baby, really) can cause; I need that with a partner. I also still have plushies as comfort animals and ideally, you do too.
Apparently in every relationship, one person is the stronger one. In the past, I have been with women who obviously were stronger than me, but that doesn't mean they always had to be strong, far from it. I certainly need to be able to feel protected, but it's not like I'm a particularly needy partner, like everyone, I have my ups and downs, but I can pull my weight and have been told by past partners that I am very caring and that they felt safe and understood with me, and providing that for my partner is really important for me as well.
Second, intimate compatibility. I am rather insatiable and love to experiment when it comes to the bedroom, so you should, too, in order that we can explore and enjoy together. I found out how fulfilling living out those fantasies can be after years of never being able to try and in a relationship, this kind of fulfillment for both partners is a must for me. I found the term 'filthy best friends and partners' to be a perfect description.
I'm looking for a balance between healthy independence and being emotionally present. A relationship where we 'get' each other; we're both each other's number one and treat each other like royalty. Where a disagreement leads to more intimacy between us as we understand better, not to resentment. Where we're comfortable baring our souls to each other, becoming a safe haven and secure base for each other. I don't like the modern notion that you 'should never feel too safe in a relationship' because that sounds like running from the mafia (and believe me, I love mafia movies); you should always put in effort, yes, but safety is one of the things I always want to experience and provide in a relationship. We shouldn't fear that a disagreement leads straight to breakup. I know ‘self-sufficiency’ is trending right now, but I feel like as partners, we’re partly responsible for each other and not our own but also each other’s happiness. Being dependant and dependable at the same time is important; making each other’s wellbeing a priority. If you’re not able to healthily depend on someone and their support while you’re having a hard time, look elsewhere. If I have to be afraid you’ll run at the first major problem that surfaces, even if it’s a ‘you’-problem, it’s not going to work. I think that all things can and need to be talked about. If you think ignoring someone for days is a form of communication, please look elsewhere.
I am looking for someone real. We all have our problems, I don't want or need a 'perfect' person. You don't have everything figured out or 'all your shit' together. Be imperfect. Admit when you feel sad and angry, lonely, hopeless or even helpless – it's all relatable. Don't hide it. Be quirky, be dorky, be witchy, opinionated, be yourself. Don't pretend.
I'm looking for someone to share romance with. Not great gestures, but small, meaningful ones. Poems for each other, expressing our feelings; cards with heartfelt messages that we put our perfume/cologne on, and a symbol that means something to us only, the print of your lips with lipstick, the way I sign and seal my letters for you.
Just as important to me is agreeing on living a healthy life, staying in shape both for ourselves and for each other, regularly working out and eating healthy. I am drug and disease-free and expect the same of you. I do drink as I love a good beer or glass of wine, rum or whiskey, but I've never really been drinking much and especially during the past year have further reduced it. One vice I have is that I enjoy a couple of cigars a year, but I can definitely accommodate you in this regard.
Another important point is aligned life goals: I value safety more than adventure. I want to build a home together with my partner, a safespace for the both of us, where we always feel loved and protected, a place that we create together, make it cozy together so we just love to get back home there wherever we might have been, a home we decorate together for Halloween (my favourite holiday) or Christmas or Springtime, as we live in tune with the seasons, enjoying nature on a walk or the rain outside, reading in our cozy home. I value stability and harmony.
Appearance-wise, I am into ladies on the smaller side), so I'm looking for someone petite/slim/skinny/healthy-fit. Likewise, I am not really muscular and don't have visible abs; like I said, I'm a runner, so if you're more into the gym-type, I'm not a good fit.
I’d prefer to move from text to voice calls, videochat and then meeting up, all of that rather sooner than later. Not that there’s a need to rush anything, but I’d rather see earlier if we’re compatible or not; as someone who catches feelings fast I need to protect myself.
Caveats

• I don't like travelling as it stresses me out; I don't mind being somewhere else for a week or two, but the organisation part of it drains my energy very quickly and dealing with stuff that doesn't work out is overwhelming to me. Smaller trips are ok, but I'm not the right person to travel the world with.
• I am not the most awake person in the morning (i.e. I identify as nightowl)
• I don't want children and had a vasectomy
• I need space for my own projects/time to recharge after social interaction.
• While I feel like I am in tune with my inner child and working on/with it through therapy, I realise this is something that could be a turn-off for people.
• I have been diagnosed with depressive episodes in the past and am taking anti-depressants right now. I realise that I am a work in progress, maybe more so than in times past, but I manage and the fact that I'm putting myself out here is based on me being ready to get to know someone new.
• I want to create a home together here, as I'm firmly rooted where I was born; I realise this is a lot to ask, but I have seen many people here being open to moving, so I want to at least try reaching out to them.

If you're interested, feel free to message me and include some pictures of yourself and I will reply with my own. Have a nice day (:

General
I am looking for a lady between 28 and 35 years old, for a committed monogamous childfree relationship. My goal is to become a true team, supporting each other, caring for each other, nurturing each other and helping each other grow and realise our goals and dreams as much as possible. I'm hoping to find someone that values a relationship as much as I do and takes it seriously. It's not the only thing my life revolves around, but it's also not just something 'nice to have' for me.
I tried to be as concise as possible while still providing what details I think are crucial to know; I realise this post turned out very long, but I prefer those because I can get as good an idea as possible with detailed descriptions, bar actually talking to the person, and find that very valuable, so if that also applies to you, that would be awesome.
Basics
I am 186cm tall, slim/fit built, dark brown hair, brown eyes. Both my arms are tattooed (full sleeve), as are my calves and the areas above my ankles. Regarding pictures see below. I am a runner (ranging from 5k to full marathon), training multiple times a week. I'm also vegan. My love languages are physical touch and words of affirmation. While I am mostly securely attached, withdrawing from me triggers anxiety and I have made a horrible experience with a fearful avoidant partner in the past, so that is something I fear I cannot deal with again.
I am also an atheist.
I am a very warm, soft and sensitive person, I think I am humorous, I am self reflecting a lot and I can also be really passionate and romantic. Those are traits that also are really important to me in a woman.
I can be quite social, I am a good talker, but also love to listen to really get to know someone on a deeper level. I can enjoy an evening out with friends just as much as the silence of sitting at the shores of the river and watching the sunset in solitude (although I've been craving to watch it together with a partner for a really long time now). I can be out in a pub, at a rave, a metal show or in the stadium watching football and have the time of my life, but I cannot do these things every day; I need recharge time (on the sofa, in the woods for a run, a lazy Sunday staying in bed etc.). This should give you an idea; basically, I am a homebody that thoroughly enjoys going out in moderation.
I won't say too much about hobbies; suffice it to say I am into the dark, the obscure, the macabre, the occult, the mysterious, the erotic. It won't surprise you that I had a gothic phase in my youth, bonus points if you did too!
What I am looking for
Although similar hobbies and interests are a plus (and there have to be at least a couple things we have in common), emotional and sexual compatibility are more important to me. I am a very sensitive and emotional person (I do cry easily and by this point I don't think I'll ever be able to change that, sorry), so if you're too, we will definitely understand each other. I need someone who I can open up to (which I do rather quickly, anyway), be myself, bare my soul to and I need these things from you, too. I've had my share of emotionally unavailable women who were afraid of intimacy so I know I can't deal with that again because of the way how those things affect me. I am always emotionally invested with the woman I pursue and in those cases that was to my detriment. But my ability to feel so deep is also something I wouldn't want to change because as of yet, although it's getting harder, I haven't given up on finding someone.
With those emotional needs come two requirements that I found to be vital over the years: First, being able to be silly and cutesy together and to accept each other's inner child and care for it. I am not talking about having to deal with another person's immaturity or inability to perform basic adult skills, rather with the way sadness, hurt, anxiety and being overwhelmed manifests for me (and maybe for you, too?). I need someone who is able to comfort me, to hold me, to allow me to be weak and needy for a while until I've calmed down, and I'm more than ready to offer the same. Your inner child can come out for a while, no problem (: Also in a positive way: Thankfully, today everyone seems to be understanding of the cuteness overload cats (or any animal baby, really) can cause; I need that with a partner. I also still have plushies as comfort animals (some of which in quite a litteral sense as they make for really amazing pillows) and ideally, you do too.
There is a saying that in every relationship, one person is the stronger one. In the past, I have been with women who obviously were stronger than me, but that doesn't mean they always had to be strong, far from it. I certainly, like I said, need to be able to feel protected, but it's not like I'm a particularly needy partner, like everyone, I have my ups and downs, but I can pull my weight and have been told by past partners that I am very caring and that they felt safe and understood with me, and providing that for my partner is really important for me as well – this just to put the picture I'm (somewhat haphazardly) trying to paint into perspective.
Second, sexual compatibility. I have a high libido and I have kinks, so you should, too, in order that we can explore and enjoy them together. I found out how fulfilling living out those fantasies can be after years of never being able to try and in a relationship, sexual fulfillment for both partners is a must for me. Someone on here has coined the term 'filthy best friends and partners' which I have no shame to be stealing because it's such an apt description.
I'm looking for a balance between healthy independence and being emotionally present. A relationship where we 'get' each other; we're both each other's number one and treat each other like royalty. Where a disagreement leads to more intimacy between us as we understand better, not to resentment. Where we're comfortable baring our souls to each other, becoming a safe haven and secure base for each other. I don't like the modern notion that you 'should never feel too safe in a relationship' because that sounds like running from the mafia (and believe me, I love mafia movies); you should always put in effort, yes, but safety is one of the things I always want to experience and provide in a relationship. We shouldn't fear that a disagreement leads straight to breakup. I know ‘self-sufficiency’ is trending right now, but I feel like as partners, we’re partly responsible for each other and not our own but also each other’s happiness. Being dependant and dependable at the same time is important; making each other’s wellbeing a priority. I love the relationship model outlined in Stan Tatkin’s ‘Wired for Love’ and you should, too. If you’re not able to healthily depend on someone and their support while you’re having a hard time, look elsewhere. I know codependency is the latest thing everyone’s afraid of, but experiencing someone you’ve grown very attached to just bailing because they’re counterdependent and can’t stand working on themselves while simultaneously letting you in is something I’d rather not go through again. If I have to be afraid you’ll run at the first major problem that surfaces, even if it’s a ‘you’-problem, it’s not going to work. I think that all things can and need to be talked about. If you think ignoring someone for days is a form of communication, please look elsewhere. If you think’s it’s okay to lovebomb someone and then leave after a couple of months with the minimum amount of information and no proper conversation because you’re not ready to own up to what’s happening to you emotionally, please look elsewhere.
I am looking for someone real. We all have our problems, I don't want or need a 'perfect' person. You don't have everything figured out or 'all your shit' together. Be imperfect. Admit when you feel sad and angry, lonely, hopeless or even helpless – it's all relatable. Don't hide it. Be quirky, be dorky, be witchy, be opinionated, be yourself. Don't pretend.
I'm looking for someone to share romance with. Not great gestures, but small, meaningful ones. Poems for each other, expressing our feelings; cards with heartfelt messages that we put our perfume/cologne on, and a symbol that means something to us only, the print of your lips with lipstick, the way I sign and seal my letters for you.
Just as important to me is agreeing on living a healthy life, staying in shape both for ourselves and for each other, regularly working out and eating healthy. I am drug and disease-free and expect the same of you. I do drink as I love a good beer or glass of wine, rum or whiskey, but I've never really been drinking much and especially during the past year have further reduced it. One vice I have is that I enjoy a couple of cigars a year, but I can definitely accommodate you in this regard.
Another important point is aligned life goals: many childfree people seem to be adventurous, but that is a trait I don't associate with myself at all. I value safety more than adventure. I want to build a home together with my partner, a safespace for the both of us, where we always feel loved and protected, a place that we create together, make it cozy together so we just love to get back home there wherever we might have been, a home we decorate together for Halloween (my favourite holiday) or Christmas or Springtime, as we live in tune with the seasons, seeing them change around us, enjoying nature on a walk or the rain outside, reading in our cozy home. I value stability and harmony.
Appearance-wise, I am into ladies on the smaller side (albeit not regarding height), so I'm looking for someone petite/slim/skinny/healthy-fit. Likewise, I am not really muscular and don't have visible abs; like I said, I'm a runner, so if you're more into the gym-type, I'm not a good fit.
The natural progression for me would be to move from text to voice calls, videochat and then meeting up, all of that rather sooner than later. Not that there’s a need to rush anything, but having my heart broken because I already developed feelings due to a longer timeframe and then everything unexpectedly turning to shit is not something I want to have to live through again. I’d rather see earlier if we’re compatible or not; as someone who catches feelings fast I need to protect myself, I unfortunately had to learn that
Caveats/Possible red flags

• I don't like travelling as it stresses me out; I don't mind being somewhere else for a week or two, but the organisation part of it drains my energy very quickly and dealing with stuff that doesn't work out is overwhelming to me. Smaller trips are ok, but I'm not the right person to travel the world with.
• I am not the most awake person in the morning (i.e. I identify as nightowl)
• I need space for my own projects/time to recharge after social interaction.
• While I feel like I am in tune with my inner child and working on/with it through therapy, I realise this is something that could be a turn-off for people.
• I have been diagnosed with depressive episodes in the past and am taking anti-depressants right now. I realise that I am a work in progress, maybe more so than in times past, but I manage and the fact that I'm putting myself out here is based on me being ready to get to know someone new.
• I want to create a home together here, as I'm firmly rooted where I was born; I realise this is a lot to ask, but I have seen many people here being open to moving, so I want to at least try reaching out to them.

If you're interested, feel free to message me and include some pictures of yourself and I will reply with my own. Have a nice day (:

For a party at my work, I was thinking about creating my own custom Match Game game, where there would be two contestants, six panelists, me as the host, and the questions, Super Match, and the head-to-head match at the end would all be shown on a big screen. The panelists would all have a small white board and dry erase marker to write their answers on. It would run just like the TV show, and I want it to be fun for everybody involved. The questions would be related to my work.
I was thinking possibly a Powerpoint/Google Slides/etc. slideshow might be a good tool to use if one doesn't already exist out there somewhere. I could even try to have it automatically play the "think" music after a question is read.
Is there a site or an app or something that would help me create this? Or if I go the slideshow route, any tips you can think of to help make it work?
Thanks in advance for any ideas!

Hi, I need support! My 15 y/o neutered cat has been struggling with congestion and bloody nose (one sided) since February.
We have given him three rounds of three different antibiotics - he has been on steroids - he went under to get radiographs of his nasal passages and got his teeth cleaned.
I'm on day four of no water and food. He was at the veterinarian on Tuesday and I'm going back this morning. I am going to ask the vet for an appetite stimulate and subcutaneous fluids.
He has a CT scan scheduled for next week to get a better idea of why this is happening.
Has anyone gone through this and your cat survive? I'm terrified to loss him. Ive been giving him water via syringe every hour - I have him in a separate room with two humidifiers running. What else can I do? I'm so lost!
Thanks!!