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Yeah I know I know don't fix what ain't broken etc etc but hear me out....
• 4K 60FPS textures
• Accurate damage models
• FUCKTON of vehicles both in service and historical. I'm talking M1 to M1A2 SEPV2 with highly detailed textures, weapon sounds and thermals
• You can throw track(only by enemy fire or driving head into a building), weapons jammed if fired for too long, you can damage engines, radiators, periscope(useless in gameplay but the Army can make it happen), you can lose crew members individually, someone can destroy your gun completely and so on
• There's a lot of extra features. Vehicle smoke grenades? Check. Got a bulldozer? Use it. Gen3 thermals? Check. Towing? Simplified but check. Drivers and Commanders view? Commander can't be inside but check. Map with stupid simplified grid squares? Check. 90% accurate ballistic simulations? Check. Rangefinders? Both guestimate and Laser check. CITVs(Commanders Independent Viewers(you know in the Brad how you can scan while the gunner sleeps? And you press a button and the gun goes where you pointed? That) Check.
• Even experimental vehicles are in there too(Stryker with the 30mm(French VBCI)
• There's Apaches in there for y'all cowboys with stabbed guns and Hellfires (no Longbow application tho, it's in there but doesn't do the thing)
• There's a Humvee Avenger for you ADA freaks(Japanese and doesn't have the gun, just the SAMs)
• You can "designate" a spot for someone else to do an airstrike(F15 and F16 atm, if you want Strat you'll have a WW2 bomber lmao that or a F111)
• If you shoot at something, you'll have an X-Ray of where you shot and how much damage you actually are doing, if at all, so that way you can't just complete an exercise by blowing a car by shooting only at its tires
• Some vehicles got accurate Javelin, TOWs, missiles
• There's a bare bones but somewhat accurate radar mode( ground clutter, notching, TWS, IRST, jamms, etc)
• Ground deformation if you really need that. There's water and vehicles that are amphibious
• There's the Sim mode where you control the commander but you still do everything and you aim from the actual gunners sights
• A lot of vehicles from other nations so you could "cross train" with the Bundeswher(Leopard 2A6+, Puma, etc) British(Challenger 2, Warrior, etc) And then there's THOSE nations where you got the T series tanks and the Chinese tanks and so on
Cons
• Russian devs(and Arma 3 ain't huh?)
• I know the army will make it go from somewhat fluid to garbage
• There's no interior models(only driver's periscope and gun sight and that's it)
• There's no FBCB2 implemented(I mean, you see your friends on a Minimal but that's it, unless on Sim)
• No radio functionality (Like, live radio, there's the [Tank, 1595M, C3] [Need Cover(appears on map)]
• No dismounts(there was a April's Fools even that had infantry albeit in exoskeletons, so this can change in the future
• Sometimes a M829A2 APSFDS tungsten round will just shatter on a BMP for absolutely no fucking reason whatsoever but with your luck you know that shit is correct
• 4K and 60FPS and filled with a lot of detail. You know the FSRs will break the engine somehow and make it run like shit
• There's ships but no one gives a fuck about them
• Basic crosshairs
What's your take on it? I know it ain't gonna happen but still, it would be cool. If I fucked up a word or something I'll only reply to people, if I were to edit this post the formatting will go to shit

SW 2024 SP 2.
I have set the appearance to shadowed with borders both in the model and the view on the drawing, draft quality. When exporting the drawing to PDF it saves the views as shadowed (without borders), switches in the settings of the view to high quality and shows the view on the sheet as shadowed, although it's still set to shadowed with borders.
Someone has an idea, how to fix that problem?

Preface: This is for Vedic, Sidereal Astrology.
This took a super long time to finish, but I've finally reached a point where I think I'm done trying to improve it. This part will focus more on how Purva Bhadrapada manifests for individuals.
Nature
Purva Bhadrapada reminds me a lot of Kali Yuga. In Hindu cosmology, Kali is the final of the four ages that the world goes through as part of a continuous cycle of creation, maintenance, and dissolution. It is the final stage before the onset of a new cycle, promising the destruction of the old order and the eventual merging of all into a unified whole. It signifies a time of dual balance before dissolution of individual identities and the reunification of all existence with the divine source. This can be viewed as being similar to the process of individual death, but it is on a universal scale. Kali Yuga is considered the age of darkness and moral decline, where spiritual values deteriorate and materialism prevails. According to Hindu scriptures, Kali Yuga is characterized by widespread social, political, and moral corruption, as well as a decline in virtue and Dharma (righteousness). It is believed that, during this age, human beings face numerous challenges and spiritual tests, and the pursuit of higher consciousness becomes increasingly more difficult compared to the previous Yugas. Just as Kali Yuga tests individuals with challenges to their spiritual resolve amidst the prevailing degeneration of values, Purva Bhadrapada is a cosmic stage where one's truest nature is tested through the weakening separation of the spiritual and the material. Here, individuals are made to confront their deepest fears and desires, burdened with the challenge of facing their true nature and purifying their souls. The emphasis of this nakshatra lies in releasing attachments amidst the seduction of outer freedom and power, mirroring the spiritual trials inherent to Kali Yuga. Yet, despite challenges of degeneration, there exists a unique opportunity during the stages of both Kali and Purva Bhadrapada. Kali is believed to be the best time for spiritual progress and true liberation because individuals can attain spiritual growth more rapidly due to the intensity of the challenges they face during this period, and the same is true of Purva Bhadrapada nakshatra. Both Kali and Purva Bhadrapada emphasize the importance of transcending mundane concerns and dedicatedly seeking spiritual truth amidst the backdrop of pervading ignorance.

The primary nature of Purva Bhadrapada is that of penance and disequilibrium. Purva Bhadrapada is the stage of evolution where individuals are made to undergo intense internal transformation and dissolution, shedding layers of their being in preparation for spiritual renewal and divine return. This process of metamorphosis can be seen as a type of penance, whether embraced willingly or thrust upon them. It offers eventual rewards as they journey towards enlightenment. As the primary nature of Purva Bhadrapada revolves around penance and transformation, individuals heavily influenced by this Nakshatra are oriented towards personal introspection and societal purification, viewing their lives as both a personal quest for growth and an opportunity to contribute to the greater good. Individually, they seek to cleanse themselves of past transgressions and strive for spiritual redemption. They feel personally responsible and remorseful for their impact on others. At a broader societal level, they are driven by a strong sense of justice and a duty to rectify societal wrongs to contribute to the collective upliftment and purification of their community. As such, they often subject themselves and others to extreme physical, mental, and spiritual challenges. They are presented with a kind of spiritual trial of sacrifice: either they can willingly embrace self-denial and endure while remaining detached, or they can create so much desire and fear that it causes them to lose the direction of their souls in the process. While the primary manifestation of Purva Bhadrapada energy is inwardly focused on cultivating self-discipline and perfection, oftentimes to an unhealthy degree, sometimes the focus can instead shift outward. This is where Purva Bhadrapada gains a lot of its infamy; Purva Bhadrapada is revered as one of the most "difficult" and "intense" nakshatras among Vedic astrologers. It is an asterism that gets approached with trepidation due to its somber imagery and associations with themes of violence, debauchery, and malevolence. The negative traits linked to Purva Bhadrapada, such as paranoia, pessimism, and hedonism, contribute to its daunting reputation. And for the most part, the fear of this nakshatra is justified. Not only are these individuals capable of doling out punishment themselves through various means like violence, manipulation, curses, etc., but they can also inadvertently bring out the self-destructive or uncontrolled nature of others. They are the types to cause deep introspection and confrontation with one's own shortcomings and fears, often acting as catalysts for irreversible transformation of character.

In terms of Purva Bhadrapada's inherently unbalanced nature, the trajectory is quite clear. These natives are not the type to do anything in moderation and often have an unstable demeanor and sense of self. They will always be pulled towards the polar extremes of anything, but they can flip on their values rapidly following any transformative event. They may occupy the deepest levels of material saturation, completely lost in chasing fame, drugs, sex, and uncontained immoral activities. Yet, paradoxically, they can also find themselves drawn to the heights of spiritual austerity, sometimes even at the same time they are trying to maximize their material standing. This innate propensity for extremes and contradiction manifests in every aspect of their lives, from their relationships, to their goals, to their beliefs, and to their actions. They are esteemed for their amiable disposition, characterized by warmth, thoughtfulness, and a selfless inclination to assist others without seeking acknowledgment. Yet, concurrently, they are often perceived as self-serving, prone to bouts of ill temper, and housing a proclivity towards ego-centricity. Despite appearing outwardly normal a lot of the time, they can be very eccentric. They are the types to lead clandestine lives, harboring secrets and maintaining hidden facets of their personalities and activities, even to those closest to them. This can make them seem nefarious and untrustworthy. Sometimes this is the case, but despite having a reputation for deceit, many of them are known to be sincere and honorable. Yet, underlying however they are being perceived is a deeper struggle to fully identify with anything. This challenge leads to inner conflicts and uncertainties, as they grapple with their sense of self and their place in the world. They are up and down–left and right, constantly in a state of internal conflict that leaves them questioning who they really are. They can feel like they don't know themselves while still being hyper-individualistic and defensive over whatever their current sense of identity is, even though it is likely to change. These contradictions reveal the complexity of their psyche, where outer appearances often mask inner conflicts and contradictory emotions and experiences. Purva Bhadrapada natives navigate the space where boundaries are starting to blur, reflecting the burgeoning singularity of existence in their minds. Due to this, sometimes they can seem like walking contradictions, embodying multiple clashing characteristics at once. For example, while they may harbor a sense of superiority over others, they can also experience deep-seated insecurity and jealousy. They can like to be critical, but cannot handle criticism. Additionally, they might demonstrate a strong desire for independence and self-reliance, yet simultaneously crave validation and approval from those around them. These conflicting traits contribute to their complex and enigmatic nature, making them intriguing yet challenging individuals to understand to others and themselves.

Purva Bhadrapada's inclination towards extremes extends to their pursuit of goals, as they approach certain tasks with unwavering ambition and dedication. They set high standards and are willing to push themselves to extreme limits to get what they want. This relentless drive for perfection and attainment can sometimes lead them to engage in behaviors that are harmful to the well-being of themselves or others, as they struggle to find balance and moderation. At this point, you may be asking, "how is that penance if they are only striving to selfishly get what they want?" Well, the painful truth about this is that they do not really want these things. They are told by others ignorant to their situation that they will be happy when they achieve some kind of abstruse goal set forth for them by society, and they are sent on a goose-chase of material ambition to achieve happiness, but this inevitably only leads to further dissatisfaction. They are met with pain, humiliation, and harsh transformation, but they keep pushing towards their aspiration of material fulfillment. It is only when they get that job, marry that partner, become famous, etc. that they realize it does not bring them happiness or fill them with the sense of purpose they crave. In fact, this realization often sparks intense anger within them as they confront the worthlessness of what they spent all their time chasing. The journey through Purva Bhadrapada is undeniably arduous, but that is to be expected with such a potent force. They are called to transcend their attachments, lest they be forcefully ripped away. They begin to grapple with an inescapable emptiness they feel when interacting with the world, and this can often lead them to deep feelings of nihilism. Purva Bhadrapada natives are predisposed to being unhappy, and this is not a shallow kind of unhappiness that fades based on external circumstances. Rather, it is a deeply existential depression– a feeling of confused worthlessness and dissatisfaction they often battle with for the duration of their lives. Their experiences and attachments become increasingly burdensome as they grow more aware of the fleeting nature of life amidst the desire they have to get the most out of their lives. These natives openly acknowledge the impermanence of worldly intentions, and this can make their minds unpredictable and unstable. Their newfound philosophy can be used to justify any actions according to moral relativism. This marks the beginning of a test of their true nature as they grapple with the realities of life. If nothing matters in the grand scheme – where whatever you do will eventually fade into obscurity, wiped away with the start of a new cycle – they become mentally uninhibited, feeling free to do whatever they please. The real concern lies in what they choose to do with this. Doing whatever you want only becomes harmful when what you want is harmful. But sadly, the reality is that mast people are not strong enough to fully resist the temptation of evil. Therefore, this trial is exclusively administered to individuals who possess a high level of spiritual advancement. Regardless of the difficulties they face, those governed by Purva Bhadrapada have tremendous inner strength and personal resilience, which often manifests in worldly and spiritual achievement and prosperity in various facets of their lives.

Individuals born under the influence of the Purva Bhadrapada Nakshatra are inherently inclined towards detachment from external influences. This detachment often leads them down two distinct paths. Some choose to embrace a life unbound by societal norms, driven solely by their inner convictions. These individuals seek to experience life to the fullest, embracing both its joys and challenges. However, if they feel unfulfilled, they may turn to darker pursuits in search of excitement. Conversely, others utilize their detachment for spiritual advancement, renouncing materialism in favor of a disciplined quest for higher truths. In both cases, detachment becomes a defining trait, shaping their lives in divergent yet meaningful ways. Whether they become revolutionary leaders or appear lazy due to their selective motivation, their actions are stirred only by what truly invigorates their souls. Their inner character often changes with time. They can often start out seeming quite innocent and fragile, and a lot of the time they will have something about them that invites torment, be it their big and eccentric personalities, their height, their weight, their looks, etc. This often leads people to perceive them as different and vulnerable. Unfortunately, this vulnerability often attracts individuals who seek to exploit, victimize, or corrupt them. There's a noticeable pattern of others attempting to take advantage of their perceived weakness, whether it be through just trying to make them feel bad, manipulating them, coercing them to do things they do not want to, or forcing them to be alone by treating them as outcasts. This predatory behavior can leave these individuals feeling isolated, betrayed, and miserable, further fueling their inner turmoil and sense of disillusionment with the world around them. However, this also serves to strengthen them. During the course of their lives, they will experience a series of external transformations that will change who they are. While their soft and innocent demeanor may still be present in some ways, there will be a new darker side to their nature. The inner transformations that Purva Bhadrapada natives undergo change them into stronger, more hardened versions of themselves. This alteration can manifest in tendencies towards violence, aggression, deceit, manipulation, etc., yet at the same time, it also equips them with the strength and capability to protect others when needed. As they navigate the complexities of life, they become formidable forces, possessing the resilience and detachment to confront challenges head-on along with the capacity to wield their strength for both good and evil.


Purva Bhadrapada natives exhibit a curious mix of flippanse and seriousness, often displaying a casual attitude towards many topics yet demonstrating am air of severe solemnity in regards to topics concerning philosophical and existential matters in particular. They possess a keen intellect of innovation and creativity, excelling in fields like science and research owing to their insatiable thirst for knowledge and a relentless pursuit of deeper truth. While they may have a religious inclination, their focus lies more on unraveling the essence of spirituality rather than adhering rigidly to dogma. As a result of their approach to religion, it can sometimes lead them to be critical of conventional religious practices, which rely heavily on rules and ritual. These natives disdain hypocrisy and superficiality, valuing authenticity and depth in both thought and action. However, despite their outward confidence, they often wrestle with inner self-doubt and a crippling fear of failure, which leaves little room for optimism when faced with setbacks. While they typically prefer solitude, they may inadvertently exploit relationships when seeking to escape the monotony of everyday life. They are driven by an innate desire to transcend mediocrity and be perceived as exceptional and unique. This drive for excellence and distinction stems from underlying feelings of insecurity and a fear of judgment, compelling them to constantly push the boundaries and strive for success through originality in all aspects of their lives. n personal relationships, Purva Bhadrapada natives may struggle to balance their need for independence with a desire for connection. Generally, in their interactions with others, Purva Bhadrapada natives are intense yet detached. Despite their desire for authenticity and closeness in relationships, they may struggle to express their true feelings openly, fearing rejection or misunderstanding. This internal conflict between their need for connection and their fear of vulnerability can create barriers to intimacy, causing them to retreat into solitude or self-imposed isolation. In addition, their critical nature and high standards can sometimes alienate others, as they can come across as overly judgmental or demanding. They do value depth and sincerity in relationships, but they also tend to push others away with their intensity. Despite this, they are often very empathic and understanding and can offer support to those they hold dear.

Before I get into the padas, I want to give some examples. I do not want to go into much detail or take up too much time with this, but given the very complicated nature of this nakshatra, I feel that it is necessary to provide media representations for people to look into if they are interested in knowing more about how it manifests: Martin Scorsese PB Moon and Andrew Garfield PB ASC (Silence Official Trailer (2016) - Paramount Pictures), Billie Eilish PB ASC (Billie Eilish - bury a friend (Official Music Video)), Jack Black PB Moon (School of Rock (2003) Trailer #1 Movieclips Classic Trailers), Dylan O'brien PB Moon (AMERICAN ASSASSIN - Official Trailer - HD (Dylan O'Brien, Michael Keaton), Logan-Marshall Green (Upgrade Trailer #1 (2018) Movieclips Trailers), Paul Walker PB Moon (Hours TRAILER (2013) - Paul Walker Movie HD), Bill Skarsgard PB Moon (The Crow - Official Trailer (2024) Bill Skarsgård, FKA twigs, Danny Huston), Olivia Wilde PB Sun (A VIGILANTE Official HD International Trailer Starring Olivia Wilde) & (The Lazarus Effect Official Trailer #1 (2015) - Olivia Wilde, Mark Duplass Movie HD), John Stamos PB ASC (John Stamos Stars in "Secrets of Eden" Lifetime), Hozier PB Sun (the lyrics and imagery of this video are extremely Purva Bhadrapada) Hozier - Take Me To Church), Kaya Scoledario PB Sun (Spinning Out Official Trailer Netflix), Ryan Gosling PB ASC (THE FALL GUY Official Trailer 2 (Universal Studios) - HD), Camila Mendes PB Moon (Do Revenge Official Trailer Netflix), Bryan Cranston PB Sun (Breaking Bad Trailer), Sabrina Carpenter PB Moon and Milo Manheim PB Sun (Sabrina Carpenter - Feather (Official Video) Alexandra Daddario PB Sun (Anne Rice's Mayfair Witches Trailer: Starring Alexandra Daddario AMC+), Jacob Elordi PB Moon (2 HEARTS Official Trailer (2020) Jacob Elordi, Tiera Skovbye), Tom Blyth PB Moon (Billy The Kid (EPIX 2022 Series) Official Trailer), Daniel Gillies PB Sun (COMING HOME IN THE DARK Trailer (2021) Daniel Gillies Suspense Thriller Movie), Matthew Gray Gubler PB Sun (KING KNIGHT Trailer (2022) Angela Sarafyan, Matthew Gray Gubler), Jon Hamm (Corner Office (2023) Official Trailer - Jon Hamm, Danny Pudi, Sarah Gadon), Rachel Weisz PB Sun + Moon and Sam Claflin PB Moon (MY COUSIN RACHEL Official Trailer FOX Searchlight), Chris Pine PB Moon (Jack Reacher Movie Trailer), Madison Beer PB Sun (Madison Beer - Make You Mine (Official Music Video), Sharon Stone PB Sun (Basic Instinct - Trailer (1080p)), and Michael Jackson PB Moon (Michael Jackson - Thriller (Official 4K Video).

Padas

(mostly for Moon) They all tend to be skinny to middle weight until they get older, where they either become more muscular or plump/curvy.

1st – The first pada of Purva Bhadrapada, falling in the Aries Navamsa, signifies a stage of primal energy and raw ambition. With Mars as their guiding force, they exhibit a relentless drive to achieve their goals, refusing to be deterred by obstacles or setbacks. However, being the initial pada of the nakshatra just leaving the stage of Shatabhisha, this quarter is the least spiritually developed. While they may possess great worldly ambition and the capacity for success, they may also be prone to ego-driven actions and an overly narrow focus on material pursuits. They can get into occultism or spirituality, but it is usually an attempt to further themselves in the material realm. Natives born under this pada possess a combative nature, always ready to engage in confrontations to defend their beliefs or assert their dominance. They tend to be more mentally aggressive than physically, but nonetheless their volatile temperament can lead to physical disputes as well when they are provoked enough. They know they can be very damaging when they lose control, so they will do everything in their power to prevent escalation. Ironically, this can make them seem passive. They typically exhibit anxious tendencies while attempting to conceal or downplay their feelings of worry. Natives of this pada are extremely passionate, but they have a tendency to constantly compare themselves to others, which ultimately can lead them to disregard their efforts to focus on surpassing someone else's. This propensity of theirs for aggression, envy, and competitiveness can strain relationships and hinder their personal growth, as they become consumed by their own desires for dominance and validation. They are usually medium tall with a wide forehead and low eyebrows.

2nd – The second pada of Purva Bhadrapada, ruled by Venus in the Taurus Navamsa, embodies a stage of sensual indulgence and creative expression. Individuals born under this pada are drawn to the occult and mysteries of the unseen, often delving into practices such as astrology and black magic. There is a bit of detachment from the mysticism of it at this stage though. They may prefer to look at it through a scientific or philosophical perspective as opposed to one that embraces faith in the divine. While their interest in these esoteric realms may lead to proficiency in such arts, it also heightens their propensity to lose track of their life's direction, becoming absorbed in the pursuit of hidden knowledge and power. Natives of this pada are characterized by their attractive physique, with beautiful broad teeth and strikingly captivating eyes that draw others to them. They possess an innate charm that makes them highly appealing to the opposite sex, and they are not hesitant to indulge in their darker desires and fantasies. Their creativity knows no bounds, as they constantly innovate and explore new avenues of expression. However, despite their magnetic allure and creative flair, individuals of this pada are prone to indulgence and excess, particularly when it comes to satisfying their sensual appetites. Their pursuit of pleasure and gratification can sometimes lead them astray, causing them to lose sight of their responsibilities and priorities. This stage of Purva Bhadrapada is more spiritually evolved than the prior, but it is still in the accumulation phase of Aquarius and the 11th house. Despite their outward charm, they may struggle to find stability and balance in their lives. They are prone to accidents.

3rd – The third pada of Purva Bhadrapada falls in the Gemini Navamsa and is ruled by Mercury. Natives born under this pada embody the mental side of Purva Bhadrapada, which is very focused on cultivating critical reasoning and gathering information, emphasizing communication, learning, and adaptability. Individuals born under this pada are intellectually inclined, constantly seeking to expand their knowledge and understanding of the world around them. They are playful and curious by nature, approaching life with a sense of wonder and exploration. Their energy is expressed through communication and expression, as they excel in articulating their thoughts and ideas. They have a natural gift for language and may find success in fields such as writing, teaching, or public speaking. Despite their playful demeanor, they are still very serious about their pursuits, driven by a deep-seated desire for personal growth and self-improvement. Natives of this pada tend to be peaceful and honorable, seeking harmony and balance in their interactions with others. However, their mercurial nature can sometimes manifest as manipulation or deceit, particularly when they perceive it necessary to achieve their goals. Nonetheless, they are skilled at navigating social situations and may possess a knack for making money through their cleverness and resourcefulness. In terms of appearance, individuals of this pada may have gaunt lower cheeks, high cheekbones, a narrow and defined jawline, and a medium stature. These physical characteristics complement their sharp wit and agile minds, making them engaging in social settings.

4th – The fourth pada of Purva Bhadrapada is ruled by the Moon in Cancer Navamsa. This is the most spiritually advanced of all the padas and tends to be among the most intense. At this stage, individuals born under this pada have either undergone profound inner transformation, shedding their attachment to worldly desires and material gains for the sake of aligning with the cosmic order, or they have fallen for the empty temptations of material life, leading them to a deeper state of moral decay. This pada in the sequence of this nakshatra symbolizes the finalization of death, and just like when we die, the impact of our lives can no longer be altered. You are called to surrender all you have acquired to the purifying flames of the spiritual fire, relinquishing personal benefit for the greater good, and if you fail, your soul will be lost to another cycle of rebirth. This represents the height of the nakshatra's power to manifest, it can come to be either an uplifting force for individuals and humanity as a whole, or as a potentially dangerous influence. Those born under this pada are deeply engaged in their own spiritual pursuits, usually guided by a sense of purpose and higher calling. They possess an innate magnetism and power that exerts influence over others and the world around them. Despite the intensity of their spiritual journey, individuals of this pada tend to enjoy good longevity and robust health, thanks to their deep connection with the cosmic energies. They are often perceived charismatic individuals, drawing others to them with their presence. However, their innate power comes with a responsibility to wield it wisely, as they hold the potential to bring about significant positive change or destruction, depending on how they choose to channel it.


Caste

Purva Bhadrapada belongs to the Brahmin or priestly/scholarly caste. This classification is based on the inherent qualities and tendencies of individuals born under this nakshatra, rather than their family lineage, as seen in contemporary caste systems. In Vedic astrology and Hindu tradition, each nakshatra is associated with as caste, thereby linking them to specific attributes, occupations, and societal roles. Brahmin is positioned as the highest caste and is given the most power and responsibility, both socially and spiritually. In classical texts, the Brahmin caste is exalted for its dedication to scholarship, spirituality, and moral rectitude. Brahmins are depicted as the keepers of sacred knowledge, entrusted with the preservation and dissemination of ancient scriptures and teachings. They are revered for their intellectual prowess, philosophical insights, and commitment to upholding the highest ethical standards. Brahmins are expected to lead lives of austerity, simplicity, and self-discipline, setting examples of virtue and righteousness for society. Additionally, they play important roles in leading religious rituals, ceremonies, and spiritual practices, acting as intermediaries between individuals and the divine. Their contributions also extend beyond religious and intellectual realms though, as they also provide guidance, counseling, and healing to individuals and communities. Overall, Brahmins are portrayed as paragons of virtue, wisdom, and enlightenment, embodying the highest ideals of human excellence and divine knowledge as described in classical texts, acting as oases of wisdom by guiding society not only in matters of spirituality but also in areas such as literature, philosophy, and science. Their primary occupations are mostly associated with administration of all sectors of society, teaching, healing, and providing spiritual guidance. Its intersection with Aquarius Rashi on the ecliptic plane may also relate it to Kshatriya and Shudra.
Gunas
The nakshatras each represent the different gunas at different levels of functioning. For this asterism, it might be confusing to find out that, despite all of its negative connotations, it is associated primarily with Sattva or purity/balance. This mainly stems from this Nakshatra's capacity for penance, spiritualism, and generosity. Overall, Purva Bhadrapada is associated with two levels of Sattva and one of Rajas. Sattva prevails at the physical and mental levels, while Rajas predominates at the spiritual level. At the physical level, individuals born under Purva Bhadrapada exhibit qualities of purity, harmony, and balance. They are often composed, grounded, and possess a sense of stability in their physical endeavors. Mentally, they tend to exhibit clarity, wisdom, and a penchant for introspection when they are only focused on engaging their rational mind. This can get muddy when they try to incorporate less tangible aspects into their thinking though. At the spiritual level, the influence of Rajas emerges, driving them towards spiritual growth and evolution but also threatening them with the struggle of inner turmoil. With Rajas at the most personal level of the spirit, this can cause a onstant seeking pf external validation and gratification, which leads to things such as constantly chasing after fleeting desires and pleasures from their lack of contentment. Additionally, the intense drive associated with Rajas may result in overexertion, burnout, and a disregard for self-care. It can lead to an inflated ego, arrogance, and a tendency towards manipulative or self-serving behavior. Therefore, while Rajas can propel individuals towards spiritual evolution, it also poses challenges that need to be navigated with mindfulness and self-awareness. Together with the heavy influence of Sattva, Rajas in this nakshatra creates a spiritual restlessness that works to propel these natives to actively engage in spiritual practices, seeking to transcend worldly limitations and attain spiritual liberation. It comes with risk, but this is a necessary trial.


Gana

Purva Bhadrapada Nakshatra falls under the category of Manushya Gana, or "human/mixed species." This designation speaks to the inherent qualities and tendencies of individuals born under this nakshatra, aligning them with human characteristics and behaviors. People belonging to the Manushya Gana Nakshatras, including Purva Bhadrapada, place value on their self-worth and esteem. They often enjoy good physical attributes and are blessed with fortune, leading comfortable lives. With warm and friendly personalities, they exhibit care and affection towards their family, friends, and loved ones, readily offering assistance to those in need. However, they also prioritize their own interests and benefits. They are known for their warm and caring nature, and while they may appear busy if approached, they are capable of balancing their personal and professional lives effectively. The path of those born under Manushya Gana nakshatras is undefined. They possess the potential to exhibit both positive and negative qualities, akin to the diverse nature of humanity itself. They have the potential to be even more evil than the Rakshas and even more good than the Devas. While some may lean towards acts of kindness and generosity, others may display tendencies that are less altruistic. This blend of qualities makes them a complex combination qualities you might see for the Deva and Rakshasa Ganas. Keep in mind that you should look at the dominant Gana in your chart to gain a better understanding of how this may apply to you.
Thank you for taking the time to read this if you did. I will have to continue this in a third part because I'm out of room on this post. Afterwards, I will be starting on Shravana Nakshatra soon, and then later on Anuradha.

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Despite being very niche it was extremely wide in the sense that I basically built subsidiaries from scratch for foreign companies in Brazil where I lived - I have since moved to Europe. I would then sometimes just be replaced as director of the company and sometimes remain providing director services to the client, basically consulting on anything business related.
Even this much information does not begin to explain everything I used to do. My wife never really understood exactly what I did and I met her less than a year after starting the business.
So to the main questions. How would you go about recreating a CV with experience like that? Are there consultants you can hire to help?
Thanks in advance for your time!

When I went to ask about video footage that I'm told is absolutely available if you just go and ask. Tech problems.
Well A) only the pharmacist can view apparently. B) always works ... except that time when I needed to see it #justmyluckiguess C) only so much available, then you have to go to Corp. But you'll need legal representation to make that request... for your data... of your image. I mean mine.
Oh btw cannot tell you how very many conversations and messages from the universe lately!! I mean like overload. Never like that before. Its almost like there's these different "elements" shouting.
Then wouldn't ya know, went to dinner with all the Ms, the waitress was Amanda, the Manager looked like someone I used to know, and I needed to check a table leg at home and THEY needed to check the leg on the table.
And all my TV shows have themes. Simialr and similar to what ive been talking about!! Nicely refreshed recently but was getting same-y same-y there for a while. Like my algorithm got stuck.
IMHO all feels the knock off or 2D version of life in a way. I haven't been able to quite put my finger on it especially woth so much going on.
Almost feels like a script written by someone without the lived experience or desire to understand said experience. An inautheticity.
My intuition, my higher self and all that other cringe-y stuff, they're soft. Like a hug 🫂 or a cuddle.....

Sorry this will be a long read. But I have sooooo many questions and theories and all that lol because this to me is crazzzyyy. I didn’t think it could get anymore interesting and complex. Then here she goes doing an interview with piers Morgan.
Okay I need a discussion and a lil debrief about this.cDid she out herself? Or did someone name drop and piers/ the media contacted her for this interview? She mentioned suing Netflix and daily mail.
Did she mention suing Richard himself? I assume she will. I asked myself why would she out herself like this? (If she came forward at her own accord not due to someone else outing her as the actually woman)
BUT then I realised the only reason she would come forward and out herself is because she was seeing dollar signs and she is seeing millions of dollars worth of dollar signs. (FairPlay).
Correct me if I am wrong but if her name and details etc. were not depicted in the show then how is she able to sue? Because nobody gave it out. She did it herself so how would she have a leg to stand on? Someone could’ve released her name but she didn’t have to appear on piers Morgan of all people.
A man with 2.35 million subscribers, double or quadruple it because even more people will now be viewing it all over the world. (again this is if she was forced to identify as the woman).
What if he didn’t say it was based on himself or based on a true story would she be able to still try and sue? The only way she can sue and win is if she shows all of the evidence of her crimes and stalking etc. etc.
How else can she prove that it’s her? And win her cases in a court of law? Argh this is just as wild as the show. Leads me to believe Gadd was definitely telling the truth and a lot of it.
I won’t lie and it’s not just because of the interview it’s just her as a person. She is way too calm and collected over something she insinuates this has caused her alot of problems and affecting her life (how ironic). If it was me and it was a genuine lie and slander. I would be so upset and angry. Her body language speaks just as much as she does.
Because regardless of the show yall can not tell me that she gives off stalker and compulsive liar vibes. Sociopath? Psychopath? Some sorts path. Her body language of constantly sipping water (proven to be a sign of lying) The mass amounts of information that isn’t important (trying to make it sound more convincing). Constantly saying “oh I’m not sure”. The constant “erm,um,errrr,ahhh” is a sign and she did it a lot that it was starting to irritate me. She had an excuse or answer for absolutely everything yet she made it up as she went the “um’s and. Aahh’s” prove that she was trying to bide her time to give a bullshit answer. Thinking as she went and said anything she could.
This interview gives off that she enjoys attention positive and negative. The attention is her fire and anything big or small. Negative or positive is what she thrives off.
Anyways that’s my thoughts and questions. Long read I know but this story blows my mind lol if yall can’t answer any questions I asked then commenting your thoughts etc as well would be awesome. I need someone to discuss it with !
Side note - something I laughed about is the way she depicts herself as a woman who is so attractive and irresistible that he wanted her so badly as if he was the one obsessed with her and she rejected him. Thats definitely got to be number 1. Her projecting and 2 - delusional because of her demeanour I think that she genuinely thinks she is absolutely drop dead gorgeous 😂😂😂😂😂😂 that alone without all the other evidence is proving she nothing but a big guilty lying ass

(AU) Chapter 1.- Start a quest?
[East Gangseo] [Gayan (il) dong]
[Narrator POV]
A fight was taking place between high school students in an abandoned warehouse
"TAKE THEM DOWN!!"
"WE CAN'T LET EAST GANGSEO FALL!!"
Those now known as the Eastern Gangseo students shouted fervently to encourage their companions in battle since the situation was not going in their favor.
"COME ON NORTH GANSEO, TAKE THEM DOWN" A student from north gangseo shouted, they had the advantage because the personal executives of the top 5 in the north were with them
The two executives were crushing the lines as if the east students were nothing more than flies
As they were about to beat another student, a hand suddenly grabbed both of them by the legs
"HE IS HERE... KIM SEOLJIN!!!"
"OUR KING IS HERE!!!"
[Kim Seoljin Pov]
'Shit, I have been fighting these last hours' i think to myself while slamming the Personal Executives onto the floor
"You fuckers, all of you are just cowards" I say while looking at the northern students just cowering in fear as they watched their superiors unconscious on the ground
Leaving the bodies in the ground I sprint towards the north forces
[You used to the moon card]
I jump high in the air and taking advantage of the descent I made sure to crush one of them
"EVERYONE RUN!!"
Hearing one of them declare retreat, I rush to defeat as many of them as I can before there is no one left in the warehouse
phew
I let out a sigh while looking at the unconscious students in the floor
[Ding]
[Quest: Protect your territory] [Completed] [Reward: 1 Gold card]
"Ahh... I need to rest" i say while walking towards my subordinates
"Thanks everyone for your hard work. Go home and rest; this war is still ongoing"
"YES SIR" they all said in unison
Looking at them leaving I finally look at the blue window
"Claim Card"
[You have claimed a card]
[Ding]
[New] [Maximum Capacity]
[Increases your weight by 220 pounds for 5 seconds] [*Can only be used once per day]
"Hmm, that's definitely a good card" i say to myself while leaving the warehouse and riding my bike heading to the central high school of east gangseo.
[Narrator Pov]
After a while of traveling seoljin made it to the central high of east Gangseo, that school were his headquarter and it was practically all they had left
"WELCOME BACK SIR"
A group of students received Seoljin, they were the guardians of the headquarters and they would defend it with their lives no matter what
One of the students walked towards Seoljin and took his jacket off
"Sir jeonu and miss Soomin are waiting for you in the meeting room"
Seoljin nodded and entered the school, while walking trough the alleys he remembered how all of this started

[Narrator Pov]
A blonde guy was relaxing in his bed, he was apparently reading a webtoon
sigh
"I wish i had a sistem too, that way i could be more strong and thus be someone more important"
The boy looked at his phone for some moments, and then he got up from bed
"I should eat something, i feel like shit"
The boy looked around looking for his sneakers to then proceed walk out of his apartment
'What should i buy, maybe some instant noodles and some chips'
The guy nodded, that's what he was gonna buy, it was cheap and delicious plus, of he buy that he could save some money to spend later
While the boy was walking he noticed something strange, there was no one nearby and there wasn't even any noise.
'This is weird there's no on-' The boy's thoughts were abruptly stopped.
The reason
A floating card shaped object was in front of him
"What the fuck" the boy said with a tone of voice full of surprise and terror
Suddenly the object started to shake, but stopped after a few seconds and a voice was heard
[Congratulations you have been chosen to participate in this war]
"Eh?... war??, what do you mean" the boy said while he looked at the object, what was that thing talking about, a war?
'Huh... everything is spinni-'
Suddenly, the boy fell to the ground, unconscious
. .. ...
[Seoljin POV]
I opened my eyes to see a ceiling, but thats weird, wasn't i on the street a few moments ago,
I look around my room but everything is in its place, just as it was before i went out
Maybe i fell asleep... yeah that should ne the case, there is no way that really happen-
[Ding]
[Quest window activated]
[Would you like to begin a quest]
[YES] [NO]
I opened my eyes in surprise, this... wasn't this what the protagonists receive in webtoons, a system
A system...
System...
OH MY FUCKING GOD!!!
I HAVE A SYSTEM!!!
But wait, that means that, that thing was real, and it said something about a war
I looked at the window and after thinking for a moment I pressed [Yes] maybe that way I can get some answers
[initializing quest system] [Once you complete a quest you will receive a card]
[generating tutorial quest]
[Quest: Have a meeting with ♤€₩] [Reward: 3 Random cards]
'Cards huh, i can work with that' I think while looking at the blue window, but...
A meeting with someone Huh, thats fine but where is the meeting
"Are you looking for someone kid"
Huh??
I quickly turn around and i see a guy sitting on my desk, where did he came from?
. .. ...
[Narrator POV]
Seol-jin looked at the man sitting in the desk without knowing what to say, so he just stared at the man
...
"So, don't you have any questions" the man said
Seoljin looked at him and nodded
"Yeah, but would you answer them?" seoljin asked
The man looked at seol-jin and smiled "Of course, that's why I'm here"
Seoljin nodded and walked towards his bed to then sit on it "then my first question, Are you the creator of the system?"
"Yes... or well, i had some help but technically i made it myself" the man answered
Seoljin looked at him surprised which made the man look at Seoljin weirdly
"Is there something wrong with what i said" the man said which made Seoljin finally react
"No... is just that normally they never say that until the end, but anyways, my second question... What is that 'War' that the card was talking about"
The man nodded and got up from the desk
"Currently gangseo is divided in 3 territories: East, south and North, with east being the weakest and smallest of the three"
The man got to a wall and suddenly a map of gangseo appeared
"You were selected to be the one to stop both south and north, and before you say something... no, nothing about you is special, the fact that you were selected was purely random"
Seoljin looked at the man, he wanted to ask that but hearing the truth still hurt him
"And something else, you will be given something to make you stronger because if I let you go like this, you will be crushed immediately"
Seoljin nodded again, he was the top dog of his school but if even with his current strength he would be crushed by them The that meant that north and south were monsters
"So, i need to become the leader of east and then take down south and north, I think that was everything i was curious about"
The man nodded and the map disappeared into thin air
"Well, then i should get going now-" The man was interrupted by seoljin
"Wait, if there's a war, why haven't east disappeared if there was no one to protect it and what about west, did they decided to not take part of this war?"
The man looked at seoljin and sighed
"West was instantly defeated by north, and east had someone to protect it but that person disappeared, only 2 of the former executives of east remains"
Seoljin remained silent, it was good to know that he has 2 posible allies
"Well, I'll get going and good luck Kim seoljin"
And like that the man disappeared as if it had never been there
Seoljin lay on the bed, digesting the information he just learned but a blue window appeared in front of his eyes
[Ding]
[Quest: Have a meeting with ♤£₩] [Completed] [Reward: 1 gold card] [ 1 Platinum Card] [ 1 silver card]
[Do you wish to claim the cards]
Seoljin looked at the system window before speaking
"Claim cards"
[You have claimed the cards]
[New] [Strong against the weak, Weak against the strong] [The user's strength is increased by one level if the opponent's is lower than the user]
[Peek at you] [Allows the user to see someone's stats]
[To the moon [Allows the user to make a very high jump]
Seoljin looks at the cards in front of him
"Ohhh, this are some good cards... specially [peek at you], that is going to be useful"
[You used peek at you]
[Kim Seol-jin] [6'0] [174 lbs] [Strength- S] [Speed- S] Potential- B] [Intelligence- B] Endurance- S+]
Seoljin looked at his stat window, judging the full bars he was strong, but if with this stats he would still be crushed
He doesn't wanna imagine how strong are south and north
[Ding]
[Primary quest: Become east gangseo top dog]
[1.-Meet the east executives 0/2] [2.-Recover East territory 0/3] [Reward: 2 silver cards] [ 1 Gold card]
[Would you like to start the quest] [Yes] [No]
Seoljin took a deep breath, there is no coming back after pressing [Yes] but instead of fear, Seoljin felt excitement
So finally, seoljin pressed [Yes]
[You have accepted the quest]

I am an immigrant and I rent my apartment with my boyfriend, my partner. My visa is connected to him.
We have been living in his sister's apartment in Amsterdam since November. Even though she is his sister and is back there, asked for the apartment back from the previous tenant so she could rent it to us, she is hiding her lack of action as landlord and excusing all the current problems and she charges 1400 euros per month for a 50m2 apartment covered in mold.
My boyfriend and I signed the contract as co-tenants, and she asked for a deposit in the amount of one month. We moved in November, but only by the end of the month because the month was used to fix the apartment paying out of my pocket, and doing things like installing the floor and painting walls since no repair or inspection had been done after the last tenant left and before we became tenants. At that time it bothered me a lot, but since she was pregnant and I was sick, I tried to be patient.
One thing is that I have been extremely sick all this time, and ended up hospitalized multiple times. I have been diagnosed with a rare, chronic neurological disease, and the symptoms are so debilitating I have become disabled due to my senses, especially my vision, being compromised. I am on sick leave because I can't see or hear properly, with the risk of becoming permanently blind. More importantly: I live with debilitating pain because of my illness. To the point, it causes harsh consequences for me in every single aspect of my life.
It didn't take me more than 15 minutes in this house to start seeing problems like mold in the whole kitchen - impossible to store anything. I saw mold in the bathroom and the bedroom as well. I have been losing my mind over this, and I paid for repairs myself like I did.
My boyfriend and his sister, who is our landlord, have been communicating about all this between themselves and not by writing. I knew something was going on, and while my boyfriend and I are having huge problems between us because of all this, she has been constantly dismissed as well. I did not have the ability to check for more damage stuck in a bed dissociating with pain and unable to see anything, that’s why I understand I was disrespected by both.
Recently she decided to lower the rent to 1k euros (and I didn't hear a word from her about it) because of his complaints. After I checked that by the point system, she couldn't charge more than 850 euros for a place like this - and this is without mentioning mold, leak, and damage.
She is refusing to reimburse me for any damage or for the rent that was charged full price for an apartment that is rotting in mold.
I want to remember that NO inspection happened. She has charging 1400 euros since November 1st and we only could move on November 19th because of the repair we had to do ourselves and the refusal to reimburse us at the time. I have been spending hundreds of euros because of mold, things destroyed by mold and mold products, and I am very allergic to mold and to it. This also makes my headaches caused by the neurological disease unbearable for me. The thing is that I can't even have money to afford my medical bills or think about going back to my home country because of these costs. I never visited my home country since I left because of financial issues, and seeing to whom and how my money is being poorly handled is adding an amount of stress that freaks me out.
I ended up being immobilized by the police inside my own house this week after I reached a point of complete pain. The day I got my diagnosis was also a day the police were called by neighbors due to my constant screams and crying about paying. That day the doctors couldn't reject a test they had been rejecting for more than a year and I knew it was necessary in my case. The procedure is extremely invasive but involves a 15cm needle through my spine to measure my intracranial hypertension, which was and is extremely high.
I had to write to her this week, making a huge effort, to say that I am not accepting being left off the conversation anymore and that things should be communicated by writing.
Since they (she and her brother) don't respect me or my money while I'm extremely sick, I have to take action myself. I will not accept this woman having money while she not only has a place to live, but it's the owner of a place like this and she chooses to rent for this price. She clearly said that she won't pay for anything back because my boyfriend “didn't communicate clearly enough”.
This desperate me as this person is taking advantage of me, someone who once was healthy and stable, working as a passionate primary teacher, and who became disabled and insane of miscare of Dutch doctors and an abusive landlord who happens to be my sister-in-law. I don't have the money to afford to go back to my home country in an emergency anymore. I once had, but I had paid for thousands of euros to repair this place, besides the rent.
Of course, I am extremely disappointed with the attitude my partner has been taking and the relationship is also coming to an end because of this.
I don't want to keep having conversations to try to address these problems, and they insist on doing that - remember I was not part of ANY conversation, and even when she showed up unexpectedly one day in March, they talked in Dutch and don't let me know what's going on. Nothing had been written or said to me until I wrote to her this week.
So, for myself, what can I do? I will just not accept having this person with her pocket full of my money while I feel like I'm dying every day and I can't see or think straight due to my neurological condition.
I am looking for the best outcome for me, and not for me and my partner anymore. What can I do to protect myself in this situation? What are the possibilities of having all this money spent here and the past rents, charged full price, reimbursed? What is the best course of action I can take?
Sorry for the typos and confusion. I struggle to see and I have severe brain fog because of my condition.
Thanks in advance for your time.

Long story short i ( 21F) made a bad decision, dated someone (20M) for approximately 9 months, chalked up the manipulative behaviors to trauma and stayed longer than i shouldve
Context that may matter, he lives in another province, has visited, knows my adress
When i left he started blowing up on me and when i didnt respond how he wanted it escalated, he started being aggressive berating me and calling me a narcissit, he has been calling my phone multiple times a day, when I change number he makes new ones, started messaging my loved ones, posting About me non-stop, lies, calling me crazy and delusional, text messages with whatever context he wants, stalking accounts ive blocked him on with other accounts, I have blocked him every where, its been a week of this
i unblocked him asking him to stop messaging my friends/ people i know and to just believe everything bad he believes of me and just let me be, he replied a long text saying he was "speaking to people i know that agreed with him" and that he wanted to show everyone who I "really am" a bunch of the same stuff just scary
He is using a situation that happened between my two best friends in 2018 involving infidelity in between them, im not directly involved apart from me knowing about it and at the time not knowing what to do with the information and feeling hurt over it which is why i told him He messaged one of the friend involved after his initial freakout Full transparency i did back track on that, i felt didnt really have a choice to when he started messaging her about it when he first started freaking out on me after the breakup, at the end of the day i didnt owe him the truth anymore at that point he had alreadycrossed a line about something that doesnt involve him with the intent to hurt me and the people i care about , but that doesn't matter rlly hes sticking to the fact i lied and backtracked on that to prove the things he says about me and now hes saying how hell download his facebook data to expose the situation and what I've said about it previously Its just mental torture, there is no real point to any of this, he wants a response out of me hes trying to hurt me and he is
More info that might matter, his ex has a restraining order against him (that he disregards however he sees fit) because he essentially did the same thing hes doing right now to her but worst, he threatened to kill her and himself, his entire friend group at the time sided with his ex, he told me its because she had abused him and pushed him this far and i believed it at the time but now being in the exact situation she was minus the threats on my life i can see him for what he is
I called a domestic violence hotline, they told me to file a police report for harrasment
Im scared to not be taken seriously and bring more trouble by making him angry, i know harassment is illegal but he genuinely threatened his ex and walked off with a restraining order only, he lives in another province so although hes unpredictable enough to show up here if he wants im not directly accessible for him to hurt me physically and i know that despite the restraining order he still harasses his ex and genuinely believes that she still cares about him and wants to he in his life, he has thoughts like that a lot, he has cyber stalked other girls before bc he belived she was sending him indirect message to keep going even after she blocked him, a friend of hers had to tell him to stop Im just worried that it wont really stop him ? Or might make it worst
Will i be taken seriously considering he has a record of that? Has he been harrasing me long enough for the law to care? I just need all the info i can get
I need advice im really desperate, im scared i feel trapped

I want to apologize in advance if this comes off as a pure rant. Of course there's also pros and not only cons, but I just needed to get this off my chest.
I met my girlfriend in engineering college around 3 years ago, back then we were both pretty young but things have changed since then and I feel like we're at completely different places in life. I'm employed and working on finishing my masters degree in the next year or so. And I'm wanting to have kids by around 33-34. Whereas she hasn't studied in all the past years, and she's still only 10% (at best) done with her undergrad degree. Plus she's only ever worked part time (like 5 hours a week) as a tutor for high school kids.
She just does not have a plan. I'm not talking about having great ambitions or expecting her to have her entire career planned out. She's really just treading water at the moment. Every day she just wakes up and starts scrolling on her phone or watching Netflix. No sense of urgency, no applying for jobs, no studying, no hobbies, no exercising. (and yes, she already is in therapy)
As shitty as it sounds, I often thought to myself "I wish I was with someone who's just normal". Or "I wish my girlfriend was reliable". Whereas as a teen or even early 20s guy this probably wasn't high on my priority list, I've found that nowadays I find it really really attractive when a woman is some combination of smart, educated and ambitious. And the fun part is, my girlfriend IS smart, she's scored around 130 on several IQ tests. But every conversation with her just feels dull. She has nothing to tell me since she doesn't read or follow the news and doesn't have hobbies either. She knows next to nothing about history (didn't even know japan was involved in WW2 for example), politics, tech or whatever topic one would want to talk about. Plus she thinks philosophizing is lame, so no deep talk. I just don't want to only ever talk about the weather and what other people are doing/saying.
She's 24, and yes, objectively that's still young, but also not that young. I only see two options for her near future right now:

1. She continues studying engineering, and by the time she finishes her degree she will be 30 assuming she starts right NOW (and yes, attaining just your undergrad degree can take this long in my country). So she will be 30, with an empty resume, probably won't have the easiest time finding a job. And by the time she's 31 or 32, we would be having kids, further disrupting her career.
2. She does something else. But that would require her admitting to herself that she "failed". At the moment she's just not able to do this. She'd probably need a couple more years of personal growth to get to this point.

I just keep losing hope by the day. The clock is ticking and the pressure is mounting. But on the other hand I don't want to just give up on her. I also had severe episodes of depression in the past and I only really figured out what I wanted to do at age 24. Before that I didn't really work hard and plan for the future. She's only 24 too, so it would feel hypocritical for me to hold her to such high standards. Maybe I'm overthinking and placing too much emphasis on professional success, or maybe I'm correct to be concerned, since this carries over into every area of your life. I really don't know...
Anyways. I'm just hoping someone reads my wall of text, and really, any input is appreciated. Thank you for coming to my TED talk! :)
Tl;dr: My girlfriend has no job/education/ambition and no plans whereas I'm trying hard to build a better future. I'm clinging onto the hope of her getting better soon. But I don't know how to find out where this is going?

Chapter I: The Covid 727
The school let its aircraft (727-200 cargo) rust out on the tarmac for multiple years (starting with the covid lockdown) without activating anything or mothballing it properly so all the systems died. Originally half the coursework was going to be practical and on the plane, and the big showcase final exercise was to jack it up, turn on hydraulics via GPU, extend/retract the LG and take a photo of the class all smiling and ready to go to the internships. In the cafeteria wall here's still the photos of the classes from before 2020 in their work overalls smiling with their teacher. These photos were what the school used for recruiting. Look at all these students lifting a plane off the ground through the power of teamwork, this could be you! They only stopped using that to recruit recently for reasons that will become apparent.
Now we had no practical courses at all for the entire two years since going on inside is a danger from all the black mold that's covered the plane and the fumes from the clapped-out hydraulic and fuel system. Of course, having a rusted-out hulk and giving your students no practice might go against 147 rules so the EASA auditor told them to get that wreckage off the tarmac or else.
Chapter II: Else:
My country has no aircraft dismantling organizations and flying them in for a job is expensive, so the school figured out a great way to hit two birds with one stone in a traditional Belgian style: slavery. They opened up a brand new course on aircraft dismantling, to be headed by the one poor teacher who is actually licensed to take apart aircraft, helming a "crew" of high school graduates and job-seekers. It was a shitshow and every time the teacher looked away there was someone taking an angle grinder to a titanium part or sawing off a piece of fuselage directly above them. Naturally they did not manage to dismantle the plane but at least the teacher did manage to stop anyone from hurting themselves and he neatly removed all the useful/sensitive components like the instruments, radios and radar.
But in the end they did worse than not doing anything at all, really, since they turned an (at least plane-shaped) wreck into a giant pile of bullshit, and the school is right next to the local international airport's taxiway -that's how the 727 arrived- so every RyanAir is sent off with a nice view of an exploded 727-200 right before takeoff. Happy flying!
So EASA catches wind of Baby's First Slavery Aircraft Dismantling Company and comes down hard on the school and takes away their Part 147 license until they get their shit together (as a side note this is where I rejoined the school to upgrade my Part 66 from A to B1/B2). EASA said no more slavery, so the teacher has to work alone and do full-time weekends sawing this plane apart bit by bit. Dude is in his late 50s and comes every monday to give us 8 hours of M11 for a week straight looking like his skeleton is made of pain. I gotta point out the slavery wasn't his idea, he was just put in charge of it, and I admire him for putting up with so much crap to bail the school out.
Chapter III: It gets worse:
So without EASA's approval, our school is in fact not a school, and legally it's more of a homeless shelter where people gather together to listen to the wise ones give factoids about the 737 and A320. The problem with this is the school receives huge subsidies from the the government and the Air Force for personnel retraining and was already in hot water for their 70%+ failure rate which is somehow higher than a 5-year course in law, engineering or medicine from the universities. Now with their Part 147 approval gone the school was about to serve up a never-seen before 100% failure rate across four AMT classes (two Part-66 A, one Part-66 B and one EMAR-66) and vaporize over a million euros worth of subsidies with nothing to show for it.
Desperate times call for dumb measures, so our school administration rang up a French AMT school with their new genius plan. For a week, our school will officially cosplay as theirs, their teachers come over and make us pass exams, then they go back to France. Of course, the exams will be based on their syllabi, not ours, and we had no access to their syllabus at all until halfway done with our courses. But you know what's cheaper than hiring French teachers for two weeks to make us pass exams? That's right, hiring them for four days and compressing the entire exams session into 4 days, from 8AM to 4PM, with sometimes 4-5 exams per day. The director came to give us some encouraging words like "try to pass half of them lol".
Chapter IV: The Future:
There is a fourth class which I hadn't mentioned before, which is comprised entirely of people from the Air Force. As a requirement for going up in rank, they were sent here to get an EASA-66 license and some extra courses (about weaponry and radar magic, etc.) to get the EMAR-66 on top of it and become proper technicians. They presented their exams ahead of us and word is that they all failed so now the Air Force is also coming down with the hammer on the school that froze its entire ground crew training pipeline. And since these people were already support crew, we have no chance in hell.
The 727 wreckage is still on the tarmac. Supposedly it will be replaced by an ERJ-190, but that's what they've been saying since I signed up, the 190 is nowhere to be seen and I'm 50/50 on whether it exists at all. Even if it does, it's practically guaranteed to end up like the 727 in a few years since nothing has structurally changed.
Exams Begin next tuesday. Wish me luck! And take the train whenever possible.

Long story short i ( 21F) made a bad decision, dated someone (20M) for approximately 9 months, chalked up the manipulative behaviors to trauma and stayed longer than i shouldve
Context that may matter, he lives in another province, has visited, knows my adress
When i left he started blowing up on me and when i didnt respond how he wanted it escalated, he started being aggressive berating me and calling me a narcissit, he has been calling my phone multiple times a day, when I change number he makes new ones, started messaging my loved ones, posting About me non-stop, lies, calling me crazy and delusional, text messages with whatever context he wants, stalking accounts ive blocked him on with other accounts, I have blocked him every where, its been a week of this
i unblocked him asking him to stop messaging my friends/ people i know and to just believe everything bad he believes of me and just let me be, he replied a long text saying he was "speaking to people i know that agreed with him" and that he wanted to show everyone who I "really am" a bunch of the same stuff just scary
He is using a situation that happened between my two best friends in 2018 involving infidelity in between them, im not directly involved apart from me knowing about it and at the time not knowing what to do with the information and feeling hurt over it which is why i told him He messaged one of the friend involved after his initial freakout Full transparency i did back track on that, i felt didnt really have a choice to when he started messaging her about it when he first started freaking out on me after the breakup, at the end of the day i didnt owe him the truth anymore at that point he had alreadycrossed a line about something that doesnt involve him with the intent to hurt me and the people i care about , but that doesn't matter rlly hes sticking to the fact i lied and backtracked on that to prove the things he says about me and now hes saying how hell download his facebook data to expose the situation and what I've said about it previously Its just mental torture, there is no real point to any of this, he wants a response out of me hes trying to hurt me and he is
More info that might matter, his ex has a restraining order against him (that he disregards however he sees fit) because he essentially did the same thing hes doing right now to her but worst, he threatened to kill her and himself, his entire friend group at the time sided with his ex, he told me its because she had abused him and pushed him this far and i believed it at the time but now being in the exact situation she was minus the threats on my life i can see him for what he is
I called a domestic violence hotline, they told me to file a police report for harrasment
Im scared to not be taken seriously and bring more trouble by making him angry, i know harassment is illegal but he genuinely threatened his ex and walked off with a restraining order only, he lives in another province so although hes unpredictable enough to show up here if he wants im not directly accessible for him to hurt me physically and i know that despite the restraining order he still harasses his ex and genuinely believes that she still cares about him and wants to he in his life, he has thoughts like this a lot, he has cyber stalked other girls before bc he belived she was sending him indirect message to keep going even after she blocked him, a friend of hers had to tell him to stop Im just worried that it wont really stop him ? Or might make it worst
Will i be taken seriously considering he has a record of that? Has he been harrasing me long enough for the law to care? I just need all the info i can get
I need advice im really desperate, im scared i feel trapped

Not literally, but I wrote something during my break at work and wanted to share with everyone here:
It’s weird writing (or should I say, “typing”) this essay. There are no due dates. No deadline, I’m not even graded for this. I have no idea why I just wanted to type this essay. Maybe it is a way to improve my typing speed. Or maybe it’s to distract myself from what I should be doing, which is studying for the network+ exam. I have no idea why, but an idea popped into my head and now, I’m here typing away my inner thoughts. Coming back from my deployment was a blessing in disguise. I felt like I learned more about myself in three and half years than what I learned in my entire life before it. More and more I find myself trying to learn something. Keeping my mind engaged, as if I’m scared of losing the brain cells that I have gained since going back to college. I really miss college. Despite me feeling old compared to the other students that go there, being in an environment where I can grow felt amazing. Setting goals is something I look forward to. Accomplishing them feels even more amazing. I really wanted to get my associate’s before going on my 2nd deployment but lately I have been occupied with this mission and preparing my unit for our next adventure. Well, that and a couple of stumbling blocks that appeared before me. But I don’t intend on giving up. I know that I can do it. I love that I’m taking care of myself in a very positive and constructive way. Gone are the days of seeing different women and going out drinking with my friends. I’m glad I can put all that behind me because coping with my deployment and mid-life crisis in that matter left me more depressed as the days go on. But it was necessary. Being abandoned by the people you wanted in your life is never easy for anyone. Since I came back, it has been too much for me. Just when I thought I couldn’t bear losing more of the people I care about, someone else decides to leave. And then one day, I snapped. I decided to show everyone that I was worth more than they thought of me. I wanted to prove to them that I am better than them and that I can become even better. Who would’ve thought that this quest for vengeance turned out to be a journey of self-enlightenment. Up until this essay, I completely forgot about revenge. I honestly didn’t think how much I would enjoy progressing in my life. From promotion to pursuing my degree, getting to where I am, has left me whole but also wanting more. It made me feel hopeful. There were moments where I think of the people I lost, whether through death, or misunderstanding, and I still mourn for them, but I found myself getting happier as the days go by and I find myself grateful for being apart of their lives. Even if it was just for a moment, I will always cherish the friendship we had and the lessons they taught me. I’m also grateful for the new friendships I have developed since I came back. And now another adventure waits for me. This time, I am viewing it in a more positive light. I’ve been having this feeling for a long time. This feeling of reawakening. It is something that I needed to get off my chest and I’m glad I found a way. This is what I needed to do so that now (maybe) I can focus on my tasks and continue to grow. I’m 35 years old and I just started learning to walk. I can finally say this with full confidence: I’m happy.

Idk about you guys, but I used to get along super nicely with my parents, especially my mom. She used to be my best friend. Now my parents are in their late 40s and I cannot relate to them anymore, especially with social media.

• Ever since she got Tiktok she's craving attention from strangers and starts copying trends and craving likes
• She barely even talks to me anymore or asks how I'm doing
• She made a blog and then asks me if I'm proud of her. But it's never the inverse
• She keeps asking when I'm going to have children, and speaks to my aunt more often than me which I find weird (because she has children and wants to see their daily life)
• My Dad is constantly doing things that piss me off on purpose.
• He will also go through great lengths to make "impressive" posts and videos for his Facebook friends that get him 5 likes at most. He lives on those likes and if someone doesn't like his post he thinks they're just jealous or not good friends.
• They both never take anything I say serious unless a stranger tells them. For example, they went to Delhi and hated it. I've spent years telling them that other parts of India is cool and pretty and they shrug me off. But one random stranger on their trip told them the same thing and now they're looking into going again.

Hi Reddit,
I'm a 35-year-old female, and I’ve had a close and supportive friendship with my best friend, "L" (female, 33), for nine years. Recently, our friendship has become strained due to her boyfriend, now fiancé, who disapproves of me.
I've been married for 11 years, which is not conventional. My husband and I are very supportive of each other and have different interests, so we don’t hang out often except for certain activities. His job also makes our days off different. We’ve had some rough times, but we’re working through them, and no matter what we are always looking out for each other and never stop each other from doing what we love.
Because of my chill, open lifestyle, and bubbly personality, L's fiancé views me as a negative influence on her. even thou i know her way before he did.
Her boyfriend has made derogatory comments about me, which she only mentioned after I pushed her to tell me what was wrong. L and I usually spend much time together because we work together and sometimes go to the gym or grab food after work. On weekends, we do other activities like beach or horse riding, and I had no issue with him joining us. However, after a few times when he joined us at the beach, where I met friends for football and paddle boarding, he started criticizing me and my driving skills and the routes I take. Soon after, he stopped coming with us, and L started acting weird. Eventually, I discovered he had called me a “hoe in an open relationship.” and claimed I did not respect my husband or myself because I was too friendly and attract men, which he thought would ruin his relationship with L.
This situation led to a heated discussion and a temporary break in our friendship. I needed to reconnect with myself, especially because she was always fighting with him whenever she was with me, making me feel like a burden. After a months, I felt okay and resumed communication with her, explaining why I needed a break. However, we significantly reduced our activities together (her choice i guess).
L tried to mend the situation by encouraging my husband and me to socialize with them, hoping to show our positive qualities as a couple. My husband refused after learning about her fiancé’s disrespectful behavior. Honestly, I wasn’t ready to socialize with a hater, either. Her fiancé’s controlling behavior goes beyond his opinions of me. He discourages L’s interests, like singing, and displays other red flags that she seems to overlook (which me & others has motioned) to which she fired back that we are not supportive.
Despite L’s efforts to defend our friendship against her fiancé’s attempts to drive a wedge between us, he wanted her to choose between him and me. She claimed she tried to keep everything that mattered, but I was wrong. After our break, we were good for the next six months, even though we didn’t hang out as much (4 times). Whenever we did, she would fight with him and leave early or without saying goodbye, just leaving a message.
My birthday was approaching, and every year as a tradition, L and I have dinner together to celebrate before having a party with other friends. Two weeks before my birthday, I asked her to attend dinner on Friday or Saturday which my husband was to plan for us, she agreed. Two days later, she asked to confirm if it was happening and where. I said I would let her know once my husband confirmed the plans (this is very normal as i inform her always 1 day before). She kept asking the same question daily, which was unusual for her. Finally, she admitted that her fiancé wanted to leave the city for a few days and needed to know if our plans were confirmed. I canceled so she could go with him, but they didn’t go at the end. and that didn't feel great for me.
A week before my birthday, I asked her and other friends to keep their Sundays open for a pool brunch my husband was planning for us. Everyone, including L, confirmed, and she even added, "Count me in +1," assuming I’d be okay with her bringing her fiancé. I was mad but decided to let it go for her. A few days before the event, she messaged me saying she might be unable to come because she had a minor surgery and couldn’t swim. I was shocked she hadn’t mentioned the surgery before and asked why she didn’t tell me. She replied that she didn’t have to tell me everything and that I didn’t need to come. I was mad and asked if it was because of him. She yelled, accusing me of not understanding how much I hurt her by taking a break and moving on, while she didn’t.
She blamed me and our friends for not being supportive, even though we had helped her in the past. For example, she lived with my husband and me for almost a year rent-free when she was jobless only for 2 months. Her fiancé had issues with most of our group despite our welcoming attitude. She kept making excuses and gaslighting us for not being there for her since she got serious with this guy. I listened and asked how I could make things right. She dared to say "I needed to apologize for taking a break to care for myself and moving on while she didn’t". I calmly refused to apologize for taking care of my mental health, knowing how much I had worked on myself. If she wasn’t okay with that, it was her issue.
She tried to be nice the next day, realizing she messed up, but I was a bit cold with her as I didn’t expect her to say those things, especially knowing how much I cared for her and what I had done for her. The day before my birthday, our friend supposed to pick her up before picking me up. When I came down, she wasn’t there. I asked my friend if she was coming, and he said no. I messaged her, asking if she was coming or not. She said yes, but later, as her fiancé wasn’t ready. We went ahead, and three hours later (the brunch is for 4 hours), they finally showed up. Her fiancé didn’t say a proper hello and started complaining about wanting to sit at a table instead of the poolside beds we had booked. Despite arriving three hours late, she had the nerve to ask me to move to accommodate him. I refused and suggested they sit at the table if they preferred.
I saw them arguing a few times, and she kept coming back and forth between the beds and the table. When dessert was served, I decided to join them at the table to be the bigger person. Her fiancé picked up his phone and didn’t speak to anyone. When he decided to leave, he gestured for her to follow him and walked away without saying goodbye.
That was the last straw for me. She seemed okay with his behavior as if it is normal, and there was no way we could convince her that he was mistreating her. I messaged her, saying I didn’t blame him but blamed her for ruining my day and trying to force us to adjust our boundaries for him. She didn’t acknowledge my message. And the next day, she sent me a message to remove my brother’s car from her parking (the car had been parked there for two years without issue). I removed the car and stopped all communication with her and blocked her everywhere. we work with each other, so we are keeping professional.
FYI: This guy has told her in a message that I saw accidentally. Quote his exact message: "you don’t deserve to be a mother if you associates with this people (AKA - any of us), as we have no values and brings only shame and “cockroaches” to her perfect relationship.
I am disappointed and feel sorry for wasting so much time and effort on someone I never knew, apparently.
I want to make sure that i will not look back. hence am asking advice if you think i wronged her in any way?

I be reading stories on this sub-Reddit about how some people have a Lebanese mom and foreign dad, have lived their lives in Lebanon, but don’t hold a Lebanese passport. They speak our language, know the traditions, know the country up and down, literally as Lebanese as you can get but isn’t Lebanese?! I find that shit kind of stupid.
The solution is easy, change the law to allow women to grant their kids/spouse citizenship (btw all Arab countries are the same, only men can give citizenship to their kids/wife) but as usual their is a problem. As a lot of people pointed out allowing women to give the passport means that you will see a lot (I mean anyone living illegally here) of men hear (mostly Syrians and Palestinians) marry a Lebanese women, and as a lot of people pointed out, we are extremely out dated to the point that parents here literally force their daughters to marry someone (Lebanese or not) for $$$. So you can see the problem illegals here will give the parents a lot of money to marry their daughters and then get the passport and live here legally.
Now this normally wouldn’t be a problem, America does it, Britain does it, literally every European country does it, but it is. Granting millions of Syrians and Palestinians citizenship would literally change the whole demographic of Lebanon. The political problems of Lebanon will grow, and there would be more naturalized Lebanese citizens than normal Lebanese citizens. So essentially Lebanon will be Syria 2.0 or Palestine 2.0 (depending on the amount of people) and the identity of Lebanon would seize to exist. I mean look at America for example they don’t have a national dish or any thing national because they are very diverse (but they are built by immigrants), look at Britain they are starting to kick immigrants to Rwanda, etc…
Now going to back to women being able to citizenship, my view is simple, I would make a law that would allow her to pass citizenship to her kids but not her spouse but will allow her to apply for him for residency. So essentially he wouldn’t be able to vote or anything political but would allow him to work and make money as any Lebanese would to support his family. His kids will be able to get citizenship which I think is fair as they live in Lebanon, went to school here, learn the history of this country, then they are Lebanese. This only works if they are born here and live here.
Now if the kids are born abroad, and the family doesn’t live in Lebanon but the mom still wants to give citizenship to the kids, then I would make a law that would allow them to get the passport once they turn 18. As they are out of the country, and won’t be in a Lebanese school or anything like that, there is no point in giving them citizenship at birth. At 18 they would have the option to go to Lebanon and apply for one if they like.
Honestly I would say that’s the best way to fix our citizenship law with out swinging Lebanons political system and not changing our traditions.

Its kinda surprising me how many ppl are impatient with EP and aren't grasping how difficult it is to build a case against someone as powerful as Drake. Like ppl are actually mad at him bc he hasnt dropped the tape on twitter(Im no legal expert but that doesnt sound too smart) lol calling him selfish, money hungry, telling him to stfu or show the tape. I believe its two groups of ppl that are angry at EP, one group of kendrick fans want that proof right now so they can laugh at drake fans and have their "I told you so" moment. The other group believe Ep is the only one thats seen this tape so he's being an asshole waiting to release it. But think for a second, all this happening to drake rn is obviously PLANNED starting with kendrick... And maybe my view is different than others bc I dont believe EP is working alone... Those riddles might have yall thinkin he a one man army but he not fooling me. I think the chain of events the past couple weeks have made it clear there are higher powers that want to expose drake, I'd bet money they contacted the feds and are working to build a case against him right now, and EP is just playing his role until this is over. So as far as Im concerned everyone that needed to see the tape already saw it. I cant exactly figure out EP's role in this but I get the vibes he's supposed to bait some type of reaction from drake and his team, idk what it is. But lastly and most importantly that tape will be exposed when its time and right now just isnt the time.

The other night my wife and I went to see The Paper Kites live. They're not a band I am very familiar with, but my wife really likes them. They were excellent live, I really had a great time. The venue they played at has a balcony running along the side walls of the room, so my wife and I were standing more or less at the front of the stage, which gave us a great view of both the band, and the audience.
The reason I wanted to write this post is that there was a guy on the front row who was clearly having the absolute time of his life, and it honestly made me so happy. He was singing along to every song, and at times visibly overcome with emotions. I was so happy for him that he got to see what I can only assume is one of his favorite bands, and stand at the very front, center stage.
I've been in the very same position seeing my own favorite bands, and I know how emotional I've been. There was just somthing about seeing the whole thing from a bird's eye view, with a band that I myself didn't have that connection with that really made me appreciate the whole situation.
At the end of the show the bassist handed him a setlist and signed his hat, which really put a nice bow on it.

Last Thursday night 9 May, our cat sitter irresponsibly let our much beloved cat (Minimouse) out at 1am, didn't watch him and didn't notify us until the next day. He hasn't been seen since We were only able to start looking for him 48 hours later, when we arrived back from our trip.
Since then we have been looking day and night for him, sometimes from 6am all the way up to midnight.
He went missing from the back terrace of our apartment on a centrally located street in an urban area (we live in Porto, Portugal) and there is no way for him to climb back up onto to the rooftops from which he accessed the ground. We left his litter at the edge of the rooftop attached our terrace (farthest we can go).
We have distributed over 600 flyers and posters and have not received a single sighting. We've asked all our neighbours, extended neighbours, checked all surrounding sheds, backyards, warehouses, gardens.. even abandoned areas.. nothing. Checked all the local cat colonies too.
It's just so strange that nobody has seen him. He is a very social and gentle cat who is usually very vocal but we have heard nothing.
We've also used a drone and an insta360 cam on a 3m pole to search tight spaces and look over fences and walls.
He is our family; our baby who falls asleep in bed with us every night and licks our faces every morning. Who meows and squeaks in response to our calling, who snuggles up under our t shirts when we are working. An innocent little thing whom we love with our entire hearts. To say we are heartbroken is an understatement
We are in so much pain that it feels unbearable. We're finding it hard to be positive, but are clinging on to a sliver of hope.
We are also so afraid that someone's taken him in but doesn't know/want to return him.
Please if anyone has any advice or stories that might help.. or advice on how to deal with this immense emotional pain while not giving up I would appreciate it.

Backstory: I’ve been friends with this person for around a year, but we’ve grown much closer in the last few months. We met on Tinder, but both of us were coming out of pretty serious relationship blues. I’ve always kind of liked her, but I viewed it as more important to be friends than to treat her as any kind of interest. I have no real idea of what she thinks of me in that regard, we’ve never really discusssed feelings towards one another.
In the past few months, I’ve felt a passing interest turn into something much stronger. I think it really started around my birthday, when she surprised me at my job with flowers and some sweaters for me, along with a really heartfelt card. Ever since then I think about them all of the time, whenever I go anywhere I look for trinkets for them, always thinking of songs they might like or movies, she’s just on my mind a lot. They’re very very cool to me. She really values me as well, and always tells me that I’m important to her.
Neither of us are super-romantic people, though she has struggled with relationships more than me. She’s mentioned that a lot of the time she didn’t really “get” relationships. I feel anxious that bringing up that I like her may be poisonous to our friendship. We have both talked about how we’ve had friendships that were ruined by other people’s desires. I worry a lot that my feelings aren’t mutual, and that my feelings could develop into a sort of envy and could destroy my friendship with someone I care about a lot.
My friends and my sister have kind of treated me like I’m crazy for thinking that she might not like me, that when I describe things it seems obvious to them, when I don’t feel that way.
Is there anyway to go about this in a way that wouldn’t be destructive?
tldr: I like a close friend, and I want to tell them but I fear that doing so could put our friendship in jeopardy