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My boyfriend has schizoaffective but in his mind he doesn't. So that makes it very difficult for him to be adherent to a treatment. He started vraylar in december at 1.5mg only but his psychiatrist and myself think he would benefit an increase of dosage. Instead, he started "forgetting" alot to take his meds, to the point he wad taking 1 dose per week during an entire month. I saw that and told him why and suggest him to follow the treatment for now to fully see what are the effects. He was more consistent (at least I think) during the past month...but then he started smoking cannabis (THC) again, smoking, and taking lots of energy drinks. Today was his birthday. I offered him a gift and he was very happy. I bought a cake and we had a nice moment. Then, he went to his dads after dinner (which is out of town for work) and came back at the end of the evening, in a completely different mood. Almost as if he was a totally different person. His eyes gets bigger, the pupils, and he acts very dramatic and almost theatratical, and gets very expressive, says mean things to me and about everyone being the problem, and talks about wanting to punch people randomly...then laughs, then makes fun of me, argue alone about nothing but saying everything is my fault and that he can't endure me. He often talks to himself when in those kind of states. Like he has delusions and thinks I confront him but I do nothing : I was studying maths for my exams as it is the last week of the semester. Then he yells and gets very angry and irritable and left, and then wrote me he no longer wants to see me and that he would never not respect himself anymore by eating cake he didn't want. 30 min later he just sent me a pic of him nude lol. But earlier today he was happy and I told him not to eat the cake if he didn't want to. And he wanted to see me earlier and yesterday he was hugging me and being affectionnate. I don't know what to do and what not to do. It happened before when he was off meds it was chaotic. The mood swings were very extreme and very short, and sometimes (majority of the time) he would forget about it! Like he broke up with me at night, and was kissing me the next morning like if nothing happened. Then he could be hypomanic doing physics calculs of a fictive project as if it was an emergency and gets very centered on himself and gets irritable if I try to talk to him. He wants me to listen to him, but gets mads and yells and sometimes even hurt me physically by grabbing my wrist hard and sometimes threatened me to hurt me or punch me...
I am thinking of taking contact again with his psychiatrist once my exams are done in 10 days. She is very compassionate and empathetic, and I trust her, and he likes her also, at least more than his previous psychiatrist.
Do you have any suggesting for how to deal with a someone delusional having extreme and short mood swings? Sometimes I get hurt and take things personally and it makes me feel miserable.

And I'm not just a cute nerd because I'm serious and sudden onset! badum tiss
I'm also a 5'7'' sorta thin white dude with long black hair, and I think that's kinda neat. I'm big into PC gaming, not that you have to be, but if you are, it's something that I'd love to do together! My interests also extend to things like Pokemon, anime, a couple books (Kingkiller Chronicles is GREAT), and I have a peace lily named Alphinaud! I am quite introverted, so I've always found it hard to make friends, even over the internet. Still, I have a lot of love to give, storing it all inside this rock I've been living under, and just looking for the right person to give it all to.
The kind of person I'm looking for is mostly just someone that genuinely enjoys my company. I want someone that will laugh at all of my stupid jokes, or at least the funny ones. Body type isn't super important to me either, bodybuilder, BBW, or anything in between, its always been more about the person inside, to me. I want someone super affectionate, caring, and gentle with me. Someone who can take the lead, too! I once spent five minutes in the breakfast aisle paralyzed about what cereal to get. I want someone I can fall in love with, to say "good morning" and "good night" to every day, someone I am excited to wake up and see next to me, give me that fairy tale love that everyone craves but few people find!
• Could be talked into DMing for you and your friends
• I still have not seen the Lord of the Rings movies
• I am absolutely full of dumb, awful jokes
• Once, I built a forge out of an old bbq grill and give hobby blacksmithing a try!
• I know how to solve a rubik's cube! Not particularly fast, mind you, but I can!
So yeah, I guess that's it? If any of this has interested you, any of it at all, don't hesitate to drop me a message or PM! I'm happy to move to discord whenever, and I'm also okay with exchanging pics once we've chatted a little. Thanks for reading, and have a great evening!

I come from playing fallout 76 on playstation, I'm lvl 598 and pretty good about helping new players, personally it's something I really enjoy! Today I moved to xbox and started today and little to my surprise about the hostile environment I was thrown in on 76 :( I asked a few high lvls just for some cheap ammo and Stims and was met with harsh messages and being shot/attacked. I'm not asking for high lvl equipment or weapons just some basic easily spendable supplies.... I'm lvl 598 on playstation I have nothing in this game important that requires me to hog my materials or ammo i don't use or hog 500+ stimpacks so I help our community grow and have fun and it honestly makes me so happy to hear how happy I made a total stranger love this game or make people change their mind about first hating the game. Xbox has really disappointed me that a lvl 700 or higher can't spare simple supplies to someone new. Sorry to rant and complaint, I just feel kinda slapped in the face by this. :(

I have had feelings for him for the longest time, we got really close and i told him recently i dont know how he feels about me so i need to take a step back . We would call for hours, and in bed every night. I came back recently and he told me he did have feelings for me but was scared to go foreward with them incase things went badly and ruined things for us, and i re assured him. It seemed to work because we met up since and had a really great time, we've been flirting and making excuses for little games to touch eachothers hands and playfight. It all felt like it was falling into place, but just now he told me everything in his life (some friend drama, family drama, uni work) is getting in the way and he sometimes feels like he should go away from all of his friends forever so he can deal with it alone and so they dont have to worry about him. I told him i wouldnt like that and it would hurt them if he left, and practically begged him to stay. I dont know what came over me, wether its my recent birth control change making me emotional or because its almost 3 am when this conversation took place. I told him i wish things were as simple as when i lost feelings for him when we both took a temporary step back because it means i wouldnt care as much about this. He said if thats what would help i could do it again, but this seems odd because he just said he had feelings for me and is so clearly showing he does. He has a past of liking people romantically but leaving because life gets in the way and then regretting it, so i think maybe he does like me but perhaps wants to step away from everyone and maybe doesnt want to leave his feelings behind for me like he did with people before but feels like he has to,. He told me now he knows people would be upset if he left it helps with him not wanting to as much. I told him im sorry for begging him to stay, and that if he wants to stay it should be because he wants to stay and not give up what we have and not just because i want him to. Things finally felt good and i can feel he really doesnt want to give up what we have but based on his past that hes told me he naturally just kinda runs. I told him i dont want him to regret what he'll miss out on and the connections he has. He seemed finally happy. I wanted to say he has run before and talks about how he misses them and he wish he never did and that now could be the turning point for that, but it didnt feel like my place to say especially through message where it felt like it could be taken the wrong way. I asked to call tomorrow to talk about it, im planning to say it then and i also said through message that i only want people who want me and im unsure why i begged him to stay, and that i do want him to stay but if he leaves then thats his choice. I plan to say in call that i only want people who want me as much as i want them and wont just leave what we had behind, because them leaving tells me what i needed to know and is the closure i need. I dont know if thats too harsh and will make me seem mad at him, but i really dont know what to do. Things were going so well and i guess the idea he could just up and leave it really hurts and does make me a bit mad. But i worry if i say that stuff that he will think im mad at him and leave anyway. But i want him to know that leaving is serious, i dont wanna just beg him to stay, its not like me. I dont want to play the victim, i never have and i usually think if someone can leave me im happy they did because i dont want someone who can just leave but this feels un justified because i know he wouldnt feel happy about leaving and he would miss what we had. I really dont know how to go about this one. If i tell him its quite upsetting and that i feel like hes made this mistake before, i feel like the asshole. AITAH?

I have had feelings for him for the longest time, we got really close and i told him recently i dont know how he feels about me so i need to take a step back . We would call for hours, and in bed every night. I came back recently and he told me he did have feelings for me but was scared to go foreward with them incase things went badly and ruined things for us, and i re assured him. It seemed to work because we met up since and had a really great time, we've been flirting and making excuses for little games to touch eachothers hands and playfight. It all felt like it was falling into place, but just now he told me everything in his life (some friend drama, family drama, uni work) is getting in the way and he sometimes feels like he should go away from all of his friends forever so he can deal with it alone and so they dont have to worry about him. I told him i wouldnt like that and it would hurt them if he left, and practically begged him to stay. I dont know what came over me, wether its my recent birth control change making me emotional or because its almost 3 am when this conversation took place. I told him i wish things were as simple as when i lost feelings for him when we both took a temporary step back because it means i wouldnt care as much about this. He said if thats what would help i could do it again, but this seems odd because he just said he had feelings for me and is so clearly showing he does. He has a past of liking people romantically but leaving because life gets in the way and then regretting it, so i think maybe he does like me but perhaps wants to step away from everyone and maybe doesnt want to leave his feelings behind for me like he did with people before but feels like he has to,. He told me now he knows people would be upset if he left it helps with him not wanting to as much. I told him im sorry for begging him to stay, and that if he wants to stay it should be because he wants to stay and not give up what we have and not just because i want him to. Things finally felt good and i can feel he really doesnt want to give up what we have but based on his past that hes told me he naturally just kinda runs. I told him i dont want him to regret what he'll miss out on and the connections he has. He seemed finally happy. I wanted to say he has run before and talks about how he misses them and he wish he never did and that now could be the turning point for that, but it didnt feel like my place to say especially through message where it felt like it could be taken the wrong way. I asked to call tomorrow to talk about it, im planning to say it then and i also said through message that i only want people who want me and im unsure why i begged him to stay, and that i do want him to stay but if he leaves then thats his choice. I plan to say in call that i only want people who want me as much as i want them and wont just leave what we had behind, because them leaving tells me what i needed to know and is the closure i need. I dont know if thats too harsh and will make me seem mad at him, but i really dont know what to do. Things were going so well and i guess the idea he could just up and leave it really hurts and does make me a bit mad. But i worry if i say that stuff that he will think im mad at him and leave anyway. But i want him to know that leaving is serious, i dont wanna just beg him to stay, its not like me. I dont want to play the victim, i never have and i usually think if someone can leave me im happy they did because i dont want someone who can just leave but this feels un justified because i know he wouldnt feel happy about leaving and he would miss what we had. I really dont know how to go about this one. How do i do this reddit? Thankyou!
TLDR; Things were finally going well with us, but he seems to have a habit of running and wants to even though he says he'll feel sad about it. What do i do?

Happy birthday to my tween self more than 2 decades ago who wanted nothing to do with life and was ready to end it. We have lived such a fun life little one and I can only imagine the fun that’s left. It’s been very fucking tough at time but nothing we can’t take. Thank you for hanging in there 💕 love you

So my ex and I (23f, 25f) broke up a little over 3 months ago. It was really brutal, I was blindsided, but at the same time I hurt her quite a bit as well. We were really toxic towards the end and I genuinely think this was for the best.
Like an hour and a half after we have the breakup conversation, Im at home trying to process things and she texts me a picture of her mom’s dog wearing a kansas city chiefs shirt and says “I fear you would have left me over this anyways” (Context for anyone who doesn’t care about sports, I just straight up don’t like the Chiefs and they were playing in the super bowl again that weekend). I didn’t respond at all and just felt really hurt, we broke up under strange circumstances and I was left feeling like she just didn’t like me and I was resigned to the fact that she didn’t respect me anymore, so getting a joke text within 2 hours of breaking up hurt a lot tbh. Like what was I supposed to say?
Fast forward two days, I didn’t respond to her dumb joke and she texts me at like midnight saying “Im sorry, I’ll learn forgiveness, you were my best friend and I hope we can be friends again” and then says a bunch more stuff the next morning like “We should talk soon”, “nobody understands me like you, I just want to speak with you about this and nobody else but we can’t and it sucks”. My sister and my friends told me to block her but I held strong for some reason. I just couldn’t let go.
Then a few MORE days later I decided to respond with no words, I send her the laundry/taxes meme from Everything Everywhere All at Once, partly because it was sentimental and we did have a really special relationship at one point, and also because lowkey the last thing I dropped off for her was her W-2 and her laundry. She responds saying we should talk soon, and says all kinds of stuff like “I miss you lots”, “Maybe we just need time to be our own people”, “Im still wearing the ring you gave me” (context: It wasn’t a promise ring or engagement ring or anything, just was one of the first birthday presents I ever got her and was one of the first gifts I ever bought someone where I spent real real money on, so it at least meant SOMETHING to us), and a whole bunch of other sentimental stuff, concluding with “Im here whenever you’re ready to speak.” These messages all really hurt me and multiple ppl told me to block her but once again, I just couldn’t bring myself to.
Now, a few more days go by and she texts me about a performance one of our mutual friends’ invited us to. She asked if I was gonna go and said if I was then she would back out. This just bothered me SO MUCH, not only had I forgotten all about this performance and had zero intention of going given the state I was in, but it was just a question that NEEDED an answer, I couldn’t just leave her on read again, right? I responded and kinda showed too much of my feelings and how hurt I was, and we spoke a bit over text. She admitted she handled our breakup inappropriately and also said that marriage was still a possibility for us (Mind you, in our final argument as a couple she pointed at me and goes “Does this even look like marriage material?” which I still think about to this day). It was….jarring. I pretty much clung on to that hope. Then at the end she completely switched her stance and said SHE needed time and that she would let ME know when she was ready for a conversation, saying she needed two weeks.
Fast forward a few weeks, we had been in contact only to exchange our belongings, but she blocked me after I told her she could leave one of my hats in the mailbox if she didnt want to see me. So I message her dad a week later in order to get my things back and get that all sorted. However, one of my friends informed me that she was speaking to a boy in one of her psych courses who had been hitting on her. This kinda sent me down the rabbit hole and I message her dad again asking for some of my stuff back. Mind you, Im still blocked at this point so if I wanted it back, I had to go through him. The thing she still had of mine was my nice pillow which i had given to her to take to her dorm, and even a few days after the breakup she had said stuff like “Im still sleeping on the pillow you gave me” so at this rate I just wanted it back. Her dad immediately assumed I had blocked her and he tried to speak to me like I was his kid and I told him “your daughter is the one who blocked me” and he got really embarrassed. I get unblocked and get my pillow back bc I dont know how youre still sleeping on it while speaking to the first dude that hits on you (Mind you this girl swore she was a lesbian and was always worried I would cheat with a boy). I get the pillow back, she compliments my hair bc I had gotten it done, and we go on our separate ways.
Now, I messaged her a couple more times because I kept finding stuff of hers at my place. Id dropped some of it off at her dad’s place bc he lives in town. Fast forward to my birthday exactly 2 months after we breakup, she texts me at 9pm saying “Happy birthday” and nothing else. Wtf. I didn’t reply and I actually was super lonely on my bday so she was the last person I wanted to hear from.
I think I made the mistake of trying to bring one of her things to her a week later because I was visiting a friend who lived by her campus. This is where I feel she thinks I might be the one trying to drop breadcrumbs. It was super awkward, i just handed her her stuff and she said something completely inaudible but sounded like “take care” or something along those lines. And NOW is where I make the ultimate mistake of asking why that was weird once she got back into her building. She was basically like “im still healing, don’t message me unless theres stuff of mine thatyou have. I dont want to speak to you for a very long time if not ever”. So in 2 months I go from “im here whenever youre ready” to “dont speak to me ever”.
I told her that I am still healing too and dont even want to have a conversation yet, and I make the mistake of asking why she bothered telling me happy birthday if thats how she feels. The response i got from her was “I did it because it would have felt bad not saying anything, I wont say it again next year”. I got blocked permanently a few messages later.
So basically, just go no contact and stick to it. I should have taken my friends advice and blocked her a long time ago, and because I didnt I got my hopes up and got hurt again. Apologies for the long post, but seriously sometimes people just say things because they are emotional and not because they mean them. I held out for hope for way too long.
Apologies for the long ass post

finished this track, gave it the first title that came to mind, uploaded it, then found out it was BE's birthdasy
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My mother in law has got to be one of the most horrendous humans alive. I wish I had a place to start, but in all honesty I just want to have no contact with her ever again but I know it wont be possible because my husband wants his parents in our lives.
To begin this tragic turn of events I guess I will start about a year and a bit before my husband (32M) and I (33F) got married in August of 2022. We had asked both FIL and MIL to be if they would help us with some of the payments for the wedding. My parents had agreed to helping with paying for a third of our wedding, his parents though asked what the price point would be and then assumed it would only be about $550 that would be needed. I told them that when my older sister had gotten married it was about #$25,000 at the end of the day, they had over 100 people attend their wedding as well. They looked at me and said sorry, we can't help you out. My parents, my husband and I paid for the whole wedding just as a precursor to what is about to happen.
We were finalizing our guest list, which at this point was our immediate family no extras. We were having a smaller wedding of only 25ish people, when my then fiancés mom decided to say I want my sisters to be invited to the wedding. We both talked about this and ended up saying no, she asked a couple weeks later if she could have her sisters invited and we again said no. Two months before the wedding when we had sent our invitations out for the save the date and actual wedding invitation, his parents came to our house and his mother proceeded to guilt trip us by saying "My sisters are my immediate family. If my sisters don't get invited then there will be no more relationship between us." Meanwhile my now husband should have said "Sorry mom, but this isn't your wedding so your immediate family isn't invited to a wedding that isn't your wedding." Instead he looked at me and I will just say yes I was a people pleaser. I turned to him and said "We will have to check with my parents to make sure there is enough space..." My parents were not happy with the concept of having to add another person or two to the list of people coming. In the end only one sister was able to make it.
She called us a month before the wedding demanding a rehearsal dinner with just the wedding party and parents were allowed to attend. When I heard that I told my now husband, that won't work seeing as we have a lot of people staying at our venue. The venue was hosted by my family friends, so to say the least I wasn't impressed that my grandmother, my family friends, my siblings partners and everyone else helping out with the wedding wouldn't have been included in this dinner. I said to them I will join you for dinner but if we aren't including the rest of the people at the wedding then no one else would be there to celebrate with us.
Fast forward to the day before the wedding, the in laws to be are upset they didn't get any jobs to do to help with the wedding at all. Well my MIL to be actually was given a job, she ignored it to the point where a surprise for my now husband and I were going to be getting ended up getting ruined because she was so ignorant of my moms messages and pleas to get some pictures of my husband from when he was a baby to the present time so they could create a slideshow for us. Then I asked her to do another task, which was getting wine for us and they did but that was it for anyone wanting help from them.
The evening hit and my husband and I set out to go tot he rehearsal dinner (it wasn't even a rehearsal dinner just a dinner). We got there and all night his mother complained about how no one else showed up for the rehearsal dinner. I started to tune her out until she said "I was wondering if I should just get ready at the cottage with the rest of the bridal party seeing as I am getting my hair and makeup done there anyways." I looked at her stunned she thought that she could just invite herself to someone else's home. I responded with "I can always check to see if that would be alright." The dinner finishes and neither of the in laws to be paid for dinner, instead my husband paid for the whole dinner. Happy wedding eve to us love us right?
Later that night I gave my now husbands phone a call, and I told him "Can you explain to your mom that I want my pictures with my family to be just that my family. I would prefer it if she got ready and came back to the cottage with the rest of you." He understood and explained that to her, and I thought that would be the end of the drama my MIL to be would end up doing. Was I ever wrong!
I barely slept that night having the wedding jitters, I was so excited and nervous to be marrying my best friend. The day started and my MIL to be at the time arrived, and was painfully honest with the hair stylists doing our hair. According to my hairstylist she had said "I was told I was allowed to get ready here, I was then told that I couldn't stay. She doesn't like me, she was so unkind to me I just wanted to share this day with her.." Meanwhile I am having anxiety with everything starting to happen. Honestly the only thing my MIL to be wanted to do was see me in my dress before my husband to be ever got to see it. Oh I almost forgot to mention she tried to get away with not paying my parents back for her hair and makeup, she asked me how much she owed my dad and I said for right now he has it covered but after the wedding I would let her know what she owed him.
When she returned with the rest of the family to take the grooms side of the families pictures she decided it would be a good idea to try and see me in my dress again, I literally ran into a room to hide because I wanted my husband to see my dress before his side got to see it. The rest of the day goes by without any issues though and honestly it was an amazing day minus all the extra drama.
A week goes by and my mom asks me about why my no husbands mom hadn't paid for any of the things she was supposed to pay for, I said I told her she would have to pay back what is owed. My mom reached out to her and my MIL said "Well I was told that I didn't have to worry about paying for anything. I thought (insert dads name here) had it all covered and paid for." Finally my mom got her to pay for something.
I absolutely hate her and her drama and honestly I guess that's why her name is Karen. Stay tuned for more drama from this MIL from hell.

I think we have all had these people involved in collaboration at one point or another...
You know the type, you bring them on board only to start regretting the decision because they find ways to dig their heels in over tiny things, then slowly start assimilating themselves into the directors chair and try to take over everything and slow everything down to a crawl.
I was finding myself to be a pretty decent low budget filmmaker. I know every production is different and every crew works a different way. I was big on not over planning my movies. I knew that what was in my head was unlikely to be what appeared on screen with the limited resources I had, so I would arrive on the day and adapt. I liked a fast paced environment, ideas were always welcome and I wouldn't be too precious over production issues. Working at such a low budget, or sometimes no budget at all, I understood that I would rather shoot the scene how I could and make the most out of it rather than be bitter about it not being perfect. It was freeing, it was fun to be creative in working around issues etc.
My short films were garnering some interest and local actors and crew were wanting to work with me when I was trying to set up a project.
I had worked hard on getting my first low budget feature film into pre-production and it looked like it was about to start shooting in the next couple of months (this was in 2016).
...and then I brought in the cinematographer...
The DP was a good friend of mine. We had met through the local film scene and followed each others work, but never actually collaborated. I thought it would be a good idea to delegate DP duties and we could both embark on feature films together.
He had worked on bigger productions before, bigger than what I had worked on though not as a DP.
It was apparent very quickly that he was unwilling to just adapt to the smaller scale of my production and was pressuring for more and more.
What started as me hoping somebody with DP experience would be able to come in and improve the visual elements of the films through sheer experience and resourcefulness and understanding, was very far from the truth.
Very quickly, he was insisting I spend a good amount of the budget on renting better high end cameras, better and more extensive lighting and wished on me bringing in additional crew to assist him with the DP duties. I was not opposed to this, and figured as a cinematographer it would be a worthwhile investment to the project. Then of course came insurance for that gear and suddenly my very low budget was already starting to dry up if I proceeded.
I figured if we are going from making a cheap local indie feature into something more professional looking, maybe we should try to utilise the gear we had to try and film a couple of things to raise interest and potentially gain some more investment via crowdfunding, so we took some scenes and shot them. They looked alright. Better than what I had been doing on my own anyways...
It was apparent during the shooting though, that he wasn't just focusing on cinematography. He was overruling some of my decisions with actors, trying to change locations and entire conversations. At one stage when I was elsewhere, likely catching a smoke or toilet break, I came back to see him talking the actors through a few things, and when I was trying to get him to adapt what he had in his head to what was actually possible to shoot, he was getting a bit preachy and huffy about not getting his own way.
All things considered, the shoot turned out ok in the end. After I edited it and carried out some detailed sound design, it was actually pretty decent.
The cinematographer then started sending me messages questioning the casting of certain people, and started suggesting alternative actors. He would also start questioning the tiniest bits of dialogue with a sort of 'know it all' attitude, wishing to change locations of certain scenes (for example, from a bar to an office). He obviously had plans in his head to make 'this scene look like the scene from X movie or Y TV series'. If I didn't know any better, I'd say he was trying to film ideas he wanted to visually do, and not actually shoot the script the way I was asking him to shoot.
This progressed into him requesting more gear, because he had ideas. I just didn't have the money for this, but he was digging his heels in again and again over everything including directing decisions, writing, casting.
Film is a collaborative effort, but I had brought in somebody who was taking over the production and any time you had to move him back into his station he would give you the 'trust me, I worked on this and this...I know best' mentality. Production was slowing to an absolute CRAWL because he would just constantly bombard you with expectations and challenge everything, and when things finally got started would take forever reviewing a shot and lighting before he was happy to shoot. I am not against quality control, but this isn't Hollywood, we didnt have the time, money or resources to be this strict about the craft. We had to be in and out of locations within a certain timeframe and he was just too unwilling to meet me in the middle between what he considered his level and my level, it was his way or nothing.
The guy had clearly wanted to work with me, so it confuses me as to how the guy who apparently liked my work and style just wanted to entire project to fit what he thought was best, and my role as the director was requiring the inevitable where I was going to have to kick him off the production because we weren't moving any further forward with his elitist attitude towards the project.
The project eventually folded and never returned. It was what it was. If I had kicked him sooner or even shot it myself, it probably would have been completed. Maybe not to a super high standard, but I wasn't looking for a BAFTA, I just wanted to shoot my first feature script with the money I saved for it, but the budget was drained and the project had been at a standstill for too long directly because of this cinematographer that was constantly throwing spanners and changes into the works.
I thought it was me and I just couldn't handle a production. But as time went on, I worked with others and projects all came together nicely, I had good working relationships with crew and cinematographers. I may have been less experienced, but he certainly damaged the production.
Years later, we are still friends and we do still share ideas with one another.
But I have noticed every single time we initiate the possibility of collaboration, the professional side of him flares up and it becomes the controlling production knowledge it all demon that I experienced back in 2016 all over again. Anything I've ever sought to make without him, gets made. Every time we try to work together, it never gets made for all of the same reasons initially.

Was messaged I was falsely reported and should add this claireconlys to verify my account. Now its asking for my email and birthday and I won't give it.
Anyone else had a s similar experience?

I 16(M) have been through a few short relationships and it always ends the same way. They would always tell me that it was their fault and not mine or that I was too nice. I get it. Furthermore, I always see such happy relationships where the guy acts the same way as I did and the girl actually appreciates the way he does things for her and himself. Am I living in the wrong area? Or perhaps am I just not meeting the right people.
I am what someone calls a ‘hopeless romantic’ and I tend to go out of my way to make my partner comfortable being around me. I want to be able to give them peace and the ‘Home’ sensation. But I always find it so hard because none of my past partners have shown appreciation for what I do for them. I always pay attention to the littlest details and remember the smallest things they say. Like when she says she had a class on 10.30am till 4pm, I would always leave my phone alone and let her focus on her lessons. Bare minimum right? Yet she thought that I was purely ignoring her and talking to other women. I always ask how their day was, type paragraphs to reassure them that I was doing nothing of the sort. Of course, I always text them these things at night to prevent distracting them from their daily activities. I ask them questions such as “Have you eaten?” and they would always find me clingy. After a week or two of constantly being nothing but so nice to them, I would get a certain message saying that they would want nothing to do with me anymore and that we should go our separate ways. I got so used to the messages that I don’t even bother to react to them anymore.
I received the text 5 times, all in one year. I didn’t date anyone, or at least try to, until I was 14 and thought I had already worked on my appearance enough for someone who I can show this side of me to. By the time I turned 15 I never bothered to have feelings for anyone. Maybe just a small crush which lasts for a day or two. And now I find it really hard to believe that there are actual women who would appreciate how I am. I get that some women may find this uncomfortable because the relationship is moving quite fast and that this is ‘love bombing’. However, I have no problem committing to something that may turn out into us growing old together. Anyone can relate?

Rant incoming. I [23F] am the dumpee.
My pretty much LDR ex [21M] was going through his finals season. One night we watched a movie. The next day I sent him a screenshot of a Reddit post talking about some movie lore and a bit of text. He said he would get to the text eventually and ignored me for a couple of days. Never replied to the text. Normally, I could let something like this go, but it was becoming a pattern where I felt like I was walking on eggshells every time I wanted to reach out to him.
This really triggered the anxious attachment in me. It got to the point where I was sleep deprived after starting work early and I lashed out at him with a giant paragraph saying how unloved I feel because he doesn't have time to send me a five second text to check in. Or didn't have the time to pick up the phone and call me.
He replied saying he's going to be super busy for the next two weeks and we should put this thing on hold. I give him space for a couple of days and ask if the thing means relationship. He said yes and said to only message him if it was bare-minimum or light-hearted, even though he wasn't giving me the bare-minimum and the problem was still looming. What I wish he did was set a time to check in with me over text or call, because I know flow state exists but surely if he really cared, he would've checked in?
I tell him ok I'll give you more space. But I just couldn't do it and overstepped a bit. He was ignoring me so I lashed out again saying if he can't send a message, I'm done. In hindsight, I very much regret that. That was a silly thing to send. I should've just waited but I felt like I was going batshit crazy. I backtracked the next morning and apologised saying I just miss him. I get left on read for another few days. No reply. I can see he's still alive because his friends are posting stories with him in it with his phone in his hand. From the nature of these stories, I inferred that he had told them about what I did and they had told him to end it with me.
The next day it was my birthday. I got no birthday message. I spent most of my birthday anxious and crying over this, because I knew a breakup was imminent. I stupidly sent another paragraph detailing everything he could've done to make me feel better and suggested it might be beyond working out. I should've just ended it right there and then instead of beating around the bush.
A few days later, after more ghosting, I get a message whilst I'm at work that says we're done. He didn't even acknowledge anything I said. I tried frantically calling him but blocked me everywhere. I have a panic attack and leave work.
That was three weeks ago. We were only dating for about a year, and I've had a pretty good support system. But it still really freaking hurts. I wish he understood how he hurt me and came back to apologise. I want him to come and tell me that we are going to be fine and that he meant no malice. He knew how I felt about ghosting and being ignored because I have been through that in a dating situation before. He told me he loved me a few weeks ago and now doesn't think I'm worth fighting for? That's the part that hurts the most.
What I've realised though, is that the person that I once loved is dead. Yes, he may still be alive and is probably thriving and dating someone else by now. But the person with the traits that I loved and who loved me is dead. He lost someone who loved him through her actions, who cared about him deeply and accepted his flaws, and I lost someone who only could love me when it was convenient for him, and couldn't show me through his actions. I always put him first, even before myself at times. He didn't really ever do that. That's the silver lining about it ending. I can really put myself first (Crazy Ex-Girlfriend reference anyone? Would recommend the show, it's so good).
I'm doing better since it ended but I still feel pangs of sadness. It's time to live for me now, because looking back, in that relationship, I felt like I wasn't really living for me. If I ever get into a relationship again, God forbid it ends up like the last one and I hope I'm finally my highest self and not a people pleaser to the detriment of my wellbeing. I will never beg for a man to reassure me again. To love me at my lowest. Because if he truly loved me, he would've been there for me in at least the tiniest ways, even though he was busy.
We've got this 🫶🫶🫶🫶 one step at a time

I am a 16 year old girl and my brother is 27 years old. Growing up, it was mainly just me and my brother. My dad left shortly after I was born and my mom wasn’t around much. I know that my brother took all of the work to make sure that I was healthy and happy, and I can’t thank him enough for what he has done for me. He got a job at 15 to provide for us both while my mom was off doing God knows what. I was around 9 years old when my brother left for college at the age of 20. I remember he promised me that he would always come every weekend to check up on me and give me groceries for the week. For the first two years he kept true to his word. He would come by with food and hang out with me. I was lonely and sad without him, but I managed as best as I could for a child. It wasn’t until he met his girlfriend (now wife) that he changed. He stopped coming over as often, leaving me going hungry. I would text him, asking when he’d be back, and he would give me vague answers. I remember for two weeks I could only eat plan turkey sandwiches because that’s all I had to eat. Those vague answers soon turned into no answers. He would also make promises to me that he wouldn’t keep (e.g. buying me more food, clothes, money, etc.) I think I was around 12 or 13 when he stopped coming by entirely. He would no longer answer my texts and I would get no information about his life. He even had a kid when I was 14 that I didn’t even know about until a few days ago when he messaged me. I had honestly given up in ever contacting him again because it had been years since we last talked. He says that he wants to make up for lost time and that he misses me. I honestly felt so mad in that moment that I wanted to block him, but I didn’t. I instead agreed to meet with him. We met a few days later at the park we grew up nearby. He was there with his wife and son. When he saw me he got teary eyed and tried to hug me, but I pushed him away and told him I don’t like hugs anymore. He seemed hurt and that made me just the slightest bit happy. He started talking about what life was like in and after college and what he’s doing now. He said that now that I’m older he wants to be able to do more stuff with me that he missed out on. To put it bluntly, I went crazy on him. Here is a gist of what I said: “I’ve missed you a lot. I remember always turning on my phone to see if you had even responded to even one of my countless messages. For years I heard not one word out of you. I went hungry and dirty because you were no longer around. I get that you had to live your own life, but I didn’t know it included kicking me out of it. I was basically an orphan because Mom was never around. I was 13 when my period started and I didn’t have any money to buy what I needed. And why do you think that my texts randomly stopped one day? It’s because I have up on you. I gave up on you ever being able to care about me like you used to. Because of you I can’t trust people and what they promise me because I’m afraid they will leave me like you did. So I don’t care if you want to make up for lost time, and I don’t think you can because it’s your fault.” By the end of my rant he was crying and his wife was giving me the death stare. He started apologizing and saying that he didn’t know that was how I felt. I called BS because there is no way he never saw any of those texts I sent. After that I left and sobbed when I got home. I love my brother, I really do, but I don’t think it’s fair for him to try and come back like nothing happened.

Intro:
Today I am reviewing what I believe to be the most disappointing Dhar Mann video of all time. It had potential, I was invested... then Dhar Mann just completely fumbled it. Expect me to get more scathing and frustrated as this review goes on.
This is also a weird twilight zone moment because Azeem, who famously salvages bad Dhar Mann videos, is one of the main contributors to what made this video awful (His character I mean, not Azeem himself).
Review:
Our story begins in the school theatre. Auditions are happening, and our titular dorky girl, Julie (Cecily Dowd), nails it. She does so well, in fact, that the heads of the drama club close up all remaining auditions for that role. That's pretty fucking mean if you ask me. Next up is our titular hot guy, Chase, a jock who hates being a jock. His audition sucks, and the coaches tell him that he's not getting the role.
What the fuck is going on here? Cutting off an audition early is one thing, but outright telling somebody they're not getting the part??? This is like the inverse problem with the tryouts for Bookside's Football team I covered last week. Between this and dismissing all people who haven't auditioned for Julie's role yet, this is super unprofessional.
Disheartened, Chase goes to the back of the theatre to sit with his unnamed narc friends (Azeem Vecchio and Nathan Ing. Knowing that it's these two good actors in this role makes this video just...). We learn that Chase knows he sucks, but he needs to get a role, otherwise his dad will make him play baseball again. We get a namedrop of Chase's bitch of a girlfriend, who blew him off to go shopping. Julie comes by and gives her condolences to Chase. Once she walks away, the narc friends make fun of her, and Chase gets a call from Bitch bitching about shopping or some bullshit. She verbally abuses him and also insists that he sticks to baseball.
Wow, a sympathetic protagonist! This is rare in Dhar Mann. Chase is a good guy, but he's manipulated by an abusive dad and a controlling girlfriend. It doesn't help that his friends suck too.
We cut to lunchtime at school the next day, and typical Dhar Mann plot contrivances occur. The male lead (the role Chase tried out for) turned down the part because he got cast on Broadway... you didn't have to go that far for an excuse Dhar Mann lmao. Oh but the contrivance gets even worse, because apparently the directors are giving Julie full power over who the male lead will be... Excuse me?
Why are the directors letting some random student decide this? This is especially contrived considering we saw how unprofessional and absolutist they were earlier... what the fuck. Anyway, narc friends pressure Chase into doing yet another bad thing: manipulating Julie into casting him by pretending to be romantically interested. This is made even worse by the fact that Julie has had a crush on Chase since they were little. That's fucked up, narc friends. They at least made Chase sympathetic enough to understand why he went along with this.
I have to give it to Chase here, because he doesn't outright ask Julie for the role or even pressure her to give it to him. He approaches her asking to help him get better. He's sincere in his compliments to her about how great her singing and acting is. He gets her number, and they arrange to hangout and practice together. So far, Chase isn't in the wrong yet.
We cut to the next day, in the theatre, where Chase is auditioning by reading a scene with Julie. Once again, I have to give a Dhar Mann video credit on something. It's annoying how his videos always repeat the message of the video word for word, but here, the message is stated in a fictional play that these are reciting. That's a bit more clever if you ask me, and MUCH more tolerable. Nevertheless, the directors are not impressed with Chase. They ask to speak with Julie in private... why? They've already been so mean to Chase right to his face, why hold back now lmao. In any case, the directors really don't like Chase, and Julie, at least for a moment, begrudgingly resolves to tell him he's not getting the part.
Julie tries to let Chase down lightly, and this is where Chase finally enters "in the wrong" territory. In a last ditch effort to keep his shot at landing this role, he lies to Julie by telling her that he likes her. Leaning on somebody who likes you to improve at something? Sure. Having them help you audition with their endorsement? Fine. Lying to them to manipulate them into nepotism? That's wrong and messed up. He even lies to Julie and tells her that him and Bitch broke up. Unfortunately, Julie falls for all of this, and overrides the director's decision.
We cut to Chase hanging out with Bitch at some salon. She never shuts the fuck up until Chase mentions Julie in passing. Chase... buddy... you fuck up here... He tells Bitch about his master plan to manipulate Julie. Why do characters in Dhar Mann snitch on themselves so fucking much?!
Julie and Chase are reading lines that mimic their situation a little too closely. That in itself is fine, I just reaaaally hope that they don't break the 4th wall (and insult our intelligence) by acknowledging this. Chase and Julie start genuinely bonding and it's actually an immersive romance for once. They find out they have so much in common and we see a spark form. Even having watched this before, I genuinely forgot about Chase's plan. For the first time, ever, Chase is realizing that Bitch doesn't even remotely care about him the same way that Julie does.
For once, I actually enjoy a montage. The music actually fits, and we see a lot of cute romantic moments. It's so heartwarming, in a way that Dhar Mann videos fail to tug at my heartstrings. Like I said, I was sooooo invested in this video and it had so much potential.
We cut to the day of the show, and Chase's narc friends... oh, right, these clowns still exist... they sneak backstage and support Chase... sort of. They don't congratulate him on a job well done, they congratulate him on manipulating Julie and talk mad shit about her... like why don't you guys just fuck off and get a life already? They leave, and Julie walks, with a massive glowup! Literally every other Dhar Mann character glowup sucks except for this one. Not only are 99% of the now "hot" people at the very median of the bell-curve, but even IF they actually were that attractive, NOBODY reacts irl with the hyperbolic drooling that Dhar Mann characters do. This glow up works because they don't put Julie on a pedestal, nobody ogles her, and nobody suddenly acts really nice to her. It's a much more realistic, Chase tells her she's beautiful, and that's it.
Chase and Julie absolutely knock it out of the park on stage, and the crowd goes wild! This is the only time I recall getting shivers from a video in a Dhar Mann video. The chemistry is so real, for one and one time only in Dhar Mann! Backstage again, Chase and Julie share a romantic moment, but they're still in intermission, so Julie leaves momentarily.
We are at 17 minutes of this 22 minute video. It was good for 17 minutes. These last 5 minutes are all completely fucking downhill... Dhar Mann absolutely FUMBLED this video in the remaining time!!!!
I genuinely stopped writing and watching for a minute to brace myself for how enraged I am going to get from this point out...
Narc friends sneak back stage again and... how does this keep happening?! And sure they tell him he's awesome and all, which is new, but other than that, they give the EXACT FUCKING SAME exposition that they did before the play started. Even in the context of this story, why? Why do this again? Oh, and they don't just loudly announce Chase's plan quietly among themseleves, they fucking declare this shit so loud that the entire world can hear. Including Julie...
Julie is obviously devastated, but what's even worse is that the narc friends just fucking skedaddle. Some fucking friends, right? They seriously left Chase alone to endure Julie's wrath. Even IF they don't know that Chase developed genuine feelings for Julie, isn't it still in their best interest to help Chase so he doesn't have to play baseball again?! At the very very very very least, the friends should say something like "dont blame Chase! He's a good guy, this was all our idea and we put him up to it!" but no. They just take off. No retribution. No consequences. Nothing. Chase gets the entirety of the rage and the blame.
The whole "I was using you at first but grew to actually like you" trope is something common in Dhar Mann. Dhar has made complete assholes get off scot-free and have a happy ending. Here you have a genuine guy who made a mistake and knows it, and he gets the absolute worst of it.
Oh, it gets even worse though... because in another extreme coincidence, this is THE ONE AND ONLY TIME that Bitch decides to care about Chase's life, and show up backstage (HOW ARE SO MANY AUDIENCE MEMBERS GOING BACK DURING INTERMISSION???) to give PDA right in front of Julie. Bitch literally says right in front of Julie "Why is she crying? Did she find out you were just pretending to like her?" Like holy fuck this is overkill! You don't need to narc on Chase this goddamn much!
Despite everything I just said post the 17 minute mark... This video had one more chance for redemption. Dhar Mann could have, and came soooooo close to redeeming this mess... I have to brace myself once again.
In the second half of the show, Julie's tone is much more scathing, while Chase's is completely timid. Usually I hate when, in fiction, people resolve their conflicts on stage by "being themselves", but here... it works. Chase breaks character and gives a sincere, honest apology and plea for forgiveness. I know I've used this phrase a lot, but it is such a heartfelt moment. If any character in Dhar Mann ever deserved forgiveness and a second chance for being genuinely repentant, it is Chase. Hell, even the entire damn audience is rooting for Chase and wants Julie to forgive and embrace him!
20 minute mark. 2 minutes remain, and we just had another peak moment after a valley, so surely this video can't fuck it up... right?
Julie runs off stage and the director calls an impromptu intermission. But then we cut to the next day at school... What? No! You can't just not tell us what happened the rest of the night and what became of the show!
Chase goes up to Julie at her locker with a gift of their favorite food. Chase tells Julie that he broke up with Madison, much to Julie's indifference. Chase is wearing a "so you see..." backpack by the way... Dhar Mann was INTENT on ruining this video holy shit.
Julie tells Chase that she talked to the director and they have decided to recast Chase's rol- HUH?! What??? What the fuck do you mean recast his role?? They JUST HAD the show!!! What do you mean for the rest of the run? That's not how school plays work. And no, there's no bullshit about it just going on a few more days of this weekend, because Julie specifically says that she can't bring herself to dance with Chase EVERY weekend!
I started banging my head into my desk once Julie said "Did you not learn anything from the show? Like my character says: The truth doesn't cost you-" AHHHH fuck off. The one and only time you had a somewhat clever way of veiling the message of the video, you had to fuck it up Dhar Mann by having her just outright point to the intended message... Julie takes the food and walks away. The end.
Outro:
...yes... that's actually how they decided to end this. What the fucking fuck? This is so incredibly anticlimactic and absolutely nothing is resolved. Chase is still under the abuse of his dad, his narc friends are off scot free, and Julie is still crushed. Dhar Mann has redeemed absolutely irredeemable scumbags and given happy endings to sociopaths, but Chase of all characters ends up with an EVEN SHITTIER life than how the video started?! This is even worse with the next suggested video being Anna from "Nerds Get Revenge on Cool Teens", an absolute fucking cunt of character who gets off scot-free and suffers no penalties for the shitty things she does INCLUDING USING SOMEBODY ROMANTICALLY, which she neither regrets nor suffers repercussions for. Just get the fuck out of my face already. Fuck this video, fuck the suggested video, and fuck Dhar Mann for ruining one of the only potentially good videos he ever made.
Sorry for how heated I got in this review. I can assure you that no other video even comes close to disappointing me on this level. It just... you know what, nevermind, I've said everything I need to say.
See you all next week for another review! Leave any recommendations below!

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Sending you all the best <3 jasper