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This is a story I've come up with my head for years It predates most things talked about so I've had to figure a way for it to fit in. This story was created basically to find a good way to blend Dbs with Naruto. There is a bit of a "timeline thing" but that will be explained and basically thrown away fairly early on. Also it starts a little overpowered but only due to the bigger things I started building up too. Also This is my first time "writing this down" and I'm not exactly a world class story teller so in ways this is more of a character.His name is Hachiman
This takes place in the Hidden Leaf Village but the current time is during Just before the 4th Great Ninja War. In this world The Kaguya clan has not yet gone extinct. A Prodigy child is born of the Kaguya Clan. A Rere Genetic Awakening has happened within the child's body Opening access to the Ötsutsuki genes within him of which being born with Byakugan and multiple charkra nature's are amongst a couple. His Ötsutsuki ability has the ability to manipulate time to a second difference Small but extremely reliable. Due to being such a a Prodigy at a young age as well as fascination with different Justu, as well as Frankly not being able to Beat or Captured he was Drafted into the Anbu. He shows hardly any emotion and Know's full well he can do what he wants to an extent but has no want for this as he Would rather just live peacefully and whatever brings him and everyone closer to peace he will due solemnly. He grows up with Hardly anybody but 1 girl named Kiriko (Kiri for short) In the middle of a mission The Hidden Stone attacks the Leaf! Hachiman hurry's back to the village quickly! Quickly he fends off quite an amount of Hidden Stone. A Shriek is heard in the distance! He rushes to Help! There he finds Kiriko with blood trickling the the hands of the enemy. Blind Rage awakens within Hachiman His Time related Kekkei genkai Erupts! White Surrounds the entire area it seems as if the world Is collapsed within it. When he comes to he awakes in a Forrest, "Where is the hidden leaf?" He thinks. Realizing his eyes have awakened Sharingan! Shinobi running through the Forrest stop him "Who are you they ask" As Hachiman looks up they meet eyes with the Sharingan. Immediately they attack! Hachiman defeats then. As he begins to walk around he notices the world and the chakra of the world itself is different? Eventually he stumbled into a camp and realizes this is an Original Uchiha Camp. He begins to ask questions blending in with the fact he has Sharingan they questioned nothing. He begins to put the pieces together His Kekkei genkai awakened and Swalllowed Him in time, He himself has Time traveled to before the Villages had begun. Thinking back in history eventually he works under the Uchiha but with minimal Killing as to protect time from being distorted and making an impact that never happened. As time continues he meets Madara Uchiha and studies him from the shadows Observing and Copying his every move. Hachiman learns his Sharingan's ability is able to Save and copy other Sharingan Formation (allowing Amaterasu, etc) Later he again Stay's in the shadows and does the same with the Tobirama. As time moves on he realizes he does not age anymore. He begins to not fully understand his situation but make the better of it instead. In the shadows he studies and copies all of the Legends from Naruto. Eventually Rinnegan awakens and Before the final Ninja war he abandons this dimension. "It is not my home anymore" he believes. He watches as Naruto and Sasuke beat Kaguya and Learns of the Ten tails. Trying to further his power he discovers a Ten tails abandoned in a random dimension. He decided to become a Ten Tailed Jinchūriki. Later Sasuke while traveling through his Rinnegan meets Hachiman. Hachiman explains everything. Sasuke already having his first run in with Otsutsuki explains everything that has been happening home. Hachiman has no interest as he feels a greater threat is coming. He tells Sasuke to leave him and he will stay out of all Trouble and wishes to be left alone.
Dragon Ball Super side of things
The Grand Priest has learned of a Universe Remnant that has survived Xeno's destruction. Immediately he sends a New Angel named Jin is sent to Investigate. Feeling a threat Incoming Hachiman meets Jin. Jin begins to explain why he was sent but Hachiman dosen't try to listen as he believes this might be an Otsutsuki threat. He fights to the Fullest ability! (Ten Tails Jinchūriki Awakening, Pure White Susanoo armor coated to his body, Lighting Style armor (similar to what The 3rd Raikage used), Sword of Nunoboko, as well as Multiple upon Multiple Shadow Clones) It is during this fight he awakes what he calls (Divine eyes) which allows him to use Divine Jutsu (which is basically just any Jutsu turned up to an 11) He is losing almost overwhelming however he is able to his a surprise Planetary Devastation. This surprises Jin to which he states that Hachiman is coming with him. Reluctantly Hachiman agrees. They leave to meet with The Grand Priest which has an Idea for the young Hachiman. During the 1st meeting with Universe 6 as well as Universe 7 Hachiman is brought to View and see if he can contend with such fighters. A sparing match is to be had the winner gains access to 1 wish from the Super Dragon Balls! The Fight begins! Hachiman Vs Vegeta!! To all Viewers the Fight ends Astonishingly Quick as Vegeta dosen't move everyone including Vegeta Unaware he is Locked in Genjustu. While The Fight unannounced to Vegeta is Over, Vegeta believes the fight is currently happening. Hachiman used Genjustu to obtain all Knowledge Vegeta has about everything. Quickly Hachiman learns of what sayians are as well as The circumstances as well as the Different sets of Dragon balls. Vegeta's body is set in the stands Senzu beans don't work as Vegeta's body is fine. The Fight with Goku Begins!! Using the Knowledge Hachiman now has He understands how to Fight A sayians better. While maintaining a "Mind Fight" with Vegeta Hachiman begins to Truly battle Goku. Using as many cheap trucks as he can to contend with a sayians of Goku's Caliber Eventually the fight ends with A Planetary Devastation Sealing Justsu. Goku can't escape. Announced as the winner Hachiman gains his wish! However with the knowledge gained from Vegeta he chooses to Use the Namekian Dragon Balls instead as a Win He makes his 3 wishes 1) He wishes to become a Half Blooded Sayians while maintaining all abilities he had Before 2) He wishes to unlock what his Bloodline Calls Tensigan 3) He does not care what this wish is and Gives it away Shortly after the The TOP is announced. Jin has been assigned to watch over Hachiman to keep eyes within his universe and Him. Hachiman decides he will be entering the TOP alone as he as already stated he will not intervene within what is happening with his universe The training with his New Found Divine Eyes mixed with the Blood of a Sayian has led him to become Overwhelmingly Powerful as well as unlock Ssj2 The TOP begins!! Immediately knowing the difference in power as well as being cunning Hachiman Buries himself within the Ground Funneling and Learning how to manipulate Kachi Katchin steel, as well as basically being a Clone summoning Factory that fight above ground. For the most part Hachiman keeps quiet until near the end. In a Fatal attempt he does try to fight Jiren thinking Genjustu might solve the problem IT does Not. Jiren let's it happen at first Letting Hachiman Speak to him. Later he breaks free however and Finds the real body of Hachiman. Seeing No way to win in a Sayian Anger fuled Rage he uses a Justu never been done before DIVINE STYLE: DIVINE REAPER DEATH SEAL Everything fades to black and seemingly Hachiman Disappears. In pure black A voice Speaks "My Slumber has been interrupted by whom" A Divine Reaper God appears before Hachiman Otsutsuki Honestly in Fear for the 1st time Hachiman has no words However The reaper Feels his energy and reads his based off this. "You ask for my power for such a weak Creature..... Pathetic" he states Hachiman responds " It was a sudden Idea I had no idea what would become of it Who are you?" " I am the What happens to God's and angels who have fallen, I am the manifestation of the Natural order Of things" Taking an Intrest in Hachiman The Reaper proposes an Offer "I have not been summoned in millennia as well as God's have not fallen in such time, I would like you to become my new Reaper You will gain access to my abilities as well as my Power" "& In Return?" Hachiman responds "I exist in all of time Past, Present, & Future you will be of use to me there will be interference from me in anything you do, so long as every now and then you fuel me with energy" Hachiman agrees Appearing back in the same spot as if Time stopped again Hachiman awakens with Black Energy pouring from his body He rushes Jiren Quickly however His body cannot take the duress and Gives out Hachiman is Eliminated The TOP proceeds regularly. When the Universes are Brought back Hachiman appears in the dimension he was Watching over back home in Universe 13 Jin arrives afterwards to Explain that the Grand Priest would like his presence. Hachiman goes with Jin to meet. The Grand Priest is alone with no Guards as well as no King Xeno He explains that he is unhappy with the way the Universes are being run. Tired of presiding over a Child with the Supreme power. He asks if That was the God Reapers energy he Felt within Hachiman. To which Hachiman says Yes. "Can you access it? Use it and your own will?" The Priest asks Hachiman responds No but it's still within him he could learn to harness it but why? Grand Priest has a plan to extract Xeno's energy and Give it to him to run this the Multiverse Correctly as a God should he also explains that when King Xeno destroyed the Multiverse is seems at that exact moment is when Hachiman's outburst happened and The moment destroyed Single handedly restarted his Universe through time. To help train Hachiman with his New Found power as well as the Fact Universe 13 has no current God of Destruction Hachiman is assigned as well as Given God of Destruction Power After a 4 years have passed Hachiman has traveled not only throughtout his universe but because his universe is still so Young there isn't much to Destroy or Watch he travels throught the other Universes. Every planet he has been too throught the Multiverse he places the Flying Rajin Seal A Coup has begun Grand Priest helps set the stage Hachiman's reaper energy has manifested through talking to the Reaper as well as practice. The Reaper energy as well as Reaper Saiyan Form has the ability to completely absorb Energy of all Kinds and Manifest it as Their Own. He uses Rope Kunai Energy weapons to predominantly absorb others energy. King Xeno is Stabbed at the same time as The Grand Priest the channel the energy from one blade to another. As the Energy is being drained Hachiman begins to see inside the Grand Priests Mind seeing that the Grand Priest plans to eradicate all of the Multiverse for Good Hachiman stops! The power is drained from Xeno but the Grand Priest has 75% of the power while Hachiman has the remaining 25%. Hachiman Escapes Labeled a Traitor Hachiman is Hunted by everyone the Grand Priest can get his hands on. Traveling from world to world Hiding Honing all of his abilities to One day fight The Grand Priest and Finally decide what should be done with The power of Xeno.
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Hi, I’m sorry if this is stupid but I have some questions about hormones in relation to PMDD. I’m currently doing my own research into my symptoms & trying to figure out what is wrong with me. I don’t know that I have PMDD & feel my doctors aren’t listening & just keep adding medications that don’t help lol. I also have PCOS & Hashimotos but my thyroid has been normal the last few years (besides new nodules). Is low Estradoil (<.05), low DHEAS (1.1) & high Cortisol (8.2) related to PMDD or a separate issue? These results are from 2019 from a ZRT saliva test so I realize they may be different now. My family dr said that checking hormones only tells you where you are at in your cycle & wouldn’t check them. I’m just trying to figure out where to go from here & if these hormones are worth looking into again. Thank you!

I started a save with my local team in Portugal, Caldas, in the 3rd division. Everything was going okay, we had no money so i didn’t make any moves, still we are in the playoffs to go up to the 2nd division. The problem is that i just now realized, almost all my players were on 1 year contracts… and only 2 are willing to even listen to my offers to re sign. The rest of the players say “i would like to stay at the club but i don’t think you have the financials to get even close to what I’d want”. Anything that you suggest i do in this case? Thank you!

My favorite color is orange. So, naturally I just had to have butterfly milkweed. What didn’t realize is all the ORANGE bugs that would flock to it 😍😍😍. I am glad they found their way. Spent too much time last night watching them chill

Let me set the scene:
For 8 years I (36M) was a manager at craft beer bar that was around even before the big craft beer boom of the last 15-20 years. It’s a hipster place but it’s a classy place that hosts beer dinners and such. It’s a place that many consider craft beer or bar royalty in our area, with a fierce army of loyal regular customers.
I also have brightly colorful tattoos. Two sleeves. Battle Hymn of the Republic-themed. Sick. Several other staff members had tattoos too. The owner encouraged them to be visible as long as they were appropriate.
I arrived one Saturday and clocked in for my closing shift at 4PM, and was told by the morning manager that a party of 6-ish people had been there drinking since noon and to keep an eye on them. I notice it’s a birthday party for a regular customer (30’sM) who I recognize. He had been drinking too much and was being way too loud for our establishment. I went over to the party and ask him to quiet down. He called me by name and apologized profusely, as he had had a few and didn’t realize when he was being loud. Totally cool about it.
After about 15 min or so again he was being crazy loud and I went over again and said that he’s cut off and if he can’t keep it down I’m going to have to ask them to leave. Again he was genuinely apologetic, and totally understanding. He had a love of this place and was always coming in during the week to check out the new arrivals.
The third time I have to go over and tell them to move the party along (I suggest the dive bar down the block). The millennial regular was about ready to leave anyway and is understanding about it.
Then the boomer mom pipes up for the first time with:
“So he can’t be loud but your tattoos can be that loud?”
I said we don’t tolerate rudeness towards the staff and she’d be expected to leave immediately.
The drunk millennial regular then immediately stuck up for me on my behalf: “Mom what the hell? That was rude-we’re leaving right now, come on”. He then apologized to me profusely for the comment and said he’d see me on Tuesday, and they left. He made sure the tip was good on top of that. She left way ahead of him in a huff. That boomer “huff”.
You just know she had been stewing in the corner the whole time waiting to “get me” with that line about my tattoos. All they care about is judging others and being angry.
Maybe live your life in a way where your children don’t have to apologize for you in public while THEY are drunk on their birthday?

Throwaway account.
I’m in a relationship that I don’t know if I can save, or if I’m even capable of saving. My (M,30) partner (F,40) and I met 3 or 4 years ago working at the same location, and began dating 2 years ago. We clicked immediately. We’ve had many ups and downs, but some really high highs, and really low lows. I love this woman so so much, and she’s very smart, caring and compassionate. She’s been a wonderful partner to me and has supported me. We’ve had our consistent struggles along the way pertaining to communication, in which I know I’m not very good at. We’ve known that there is an age gap between us, and that shouldn’t technically matter, but people do grow and learn and change and evolve, and that life experience really makes a difference in understanding the world. We are currently at a crossroads. The relationship is on the verge of ending. There is lots of arguing, lots of crying and lots of therapy. The biggest killers for us have been pertaining to communication on my end, which I am severely struggling to understand. My partner has told me time and time again that I am passive aggressive, and won’t think much before I speak. She says I don’t know how to be supportive and I take things incredibly literally. I don’t take initiative and I’m a passive and timid person. It’s hard for me to understand when someone is needing something unless they tell me point blank to my face. I’ve missed countless cues and opportunities to be supportive and step in because I thought that if she needed something, she would just straight up tell me. I feel like I’m crossing boundaries if someone tells me something and expects something else. She’s even explained to me in a general sense how to “be there” but with each situation being so different, I can’t just apply that information in the same way every time in my head so I freeze up and try to just work in the moment. I also forget lots of small details and will forget lots of things in schedules and around the house that lead to frustrations. I’ll cut her off without realizing it and I’ll say things that can be taken as passive without realizing I’m doing it and it’s pushed her to a breaking point. And when things get so heatedI have tried working on it, journaling, therapy, being present, active listening techniques, everything I can think of. It didn’t work. Things never changed even though I was putting in effort. She feels defeated and I feel useless. As this has grown over the years, I discussed these things with my therapist and tried to understand why I could be coming across that way, because In my head my intentions are always good but I know that actions speak louder than words. We’ve gone through speech and childhood upbringing to see if there are any underlying reasons or causes. Then something hit me, and I’m ashamed and embarrassed that I didn’t consider it before. I’ve had Tourette’s Syndrome (diagnosed at 5) and have always had a nagging thought in the back of my head that I was on the autism spectrum, but it never REALLY crossed my mind until recently when I started reading about how people with ADHD or autism struggle in long-term relationships, and the specific dynamics that come with them. “if your partner has ADD, you may feel ignored and lonely. Your partner can focus on things that interest them, but not on you. They never seem to follow through on what they agree to do. They may seem to act like a child instead of an adult. You nag them, and you’ve started to dislike the person you’ve become. The two of you either fight or clam up. Worst of all, you are stressed about being saddled with the household responsibilities while your partner gets to have all the fun. If you have ADHD, you may feel your partner has become a nagging monster. The person you loved has become a control freak, trying to manage the details of your life. No matter how hard you try, you can’t meet your partner’s expectations. The easiest way to deal with them is to leave them alone.” - ADDitude Mag
This whole time I had been trying to adjust things about my communication and thinking when in reality, I’m coming to find out that I’m not sure that it’s possible for me without help. And I feel so stupid. Went and got tested with my therapist (a 22 year practicing APRN) and sure enough, “Yeah it’s pretty clear you have ADHD”. I also, YOU GUESSED IT, might be on the spectrum, she says. Doing further testing currently. This is a jarring and honestly, a kind of traumatizing realization for me to have at 30. So I was prescribed low doses of Adderall to combat the forgetfulness and communication and it seems to be working. I feel focused, my emotions are regulated, I take more initiative, the loudness in my brain is quiet now, but I’m 24 hours into the new medication and things are so bad in the relationship that my partner has lost all trust in my ability to change and my ability to take initiative, take action and lead with my words without being passive aggressive or direct. It’s at the spot where she’s so angry about it all that It feels like even if I make a lot of progress, any slip-up I make leads to an argument and a blow-up. She voiced anger that I didn’t look into ADHD sooner. I agree. I truly feel like a fuck-up. I feel like I’ve hurt her for 2 years straight and didn’t even fully understand how I was doing it. But at the same time, I also feel like she doesn’t and can’t understand that my brain has a lot of trouble grasping these concepts, and it’s not just a yes/no switch for me to do. I sincerely struggle with comprehension in intimate settings and I want to be better at it so bad. I’m not choosing to be passive aggressive or not supportive or not take action, I just truly don’t understand how to do that. I looked back at my past relationships and saw similarities at why they ended. I’m ashamed. -I’m ashamed for going this long without knowing about my condition. I’m almost 30. -I feel guilty for letting my relationship get bad even though I thought I was trying my hardest to be better. -I’m embarrassed to be in a spot where I also now have to deal with the emotions that come with knowing my brain works differently than other people’s. I feel like an idiot overall now and my view of myself has changed. -I feel regret for my past relationships and how heartbreak could’ve been averted if I had just looked into this sooner. At the end of the day, I feel like I’ve been trying so hard to be a good person and partner and take criticism with stride and work hard on bettering myself, but I’ve ended up in a spot where past relationships & current ones likely hate me because of my inability to understand communication on an intimate level.
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I want to preface that I don’t mean to sound selfish talking about myself like this. I know that it may even come across pity-party ish, because I know that my partner is the one hurting the most, but I don’t know what else to do and I’m struggling so bad and need some direction. I’m putting this here because I feel like I have no one to talk to about the situation from an outside perspective and I’m feeling physically sick to my stomach every day because of everything and I feel like I’m going to break down. I love this person so much and don’t want things to end, but I’m worried it’s too far gone to save, and pushing onward is just going to hurt us both deeper and deeper with every passing day. I’ve set up couple’s counseling and I’m truly hoping she gives me some time to adjust to medication to see if things make a shift for the better, but things are looking bleak.
We are pursuing couple's counseling and individual counseling.
I am pursuing active treatment and study into my condition.
Is there anything else I can be doing? TL;DR : Partner and I have struggled bad with communication for 2 years. She’s been justifiably angry that I’m not trying to learn or take action and fix the issues, and that things never change. Turns out I’ve had ADHD and possible autism the whole time and just legitimately don’t know how to understand cues and communication on an intimate level. On Adderall, things seem to be improving. Relationship may be fucked because of how long it look me to understand. I don't know what to do.

I joined this sub back when the game was just announced. I kinda forgot about it after I realized that it needed time on the backburner. Six years later, I come to see that the game's nowhere near finished. Are there any other games in a similar vein, sandbox with rpg mechanics, you guys could recommend?

Original post: https://www.reddit.com/AsOneAfterInfidelity/s/aDWg4wSGER
Update 1: https://www.reddit.com/AsOneAfterInfidelity/s/V0O5DpriSv
Oh man. So much has happened since my last update, and since Dday 5 months.
I started attending church again because I felt like I needed to get a grip of my life again and get back to my core values. And was suddenly asked if I wanted to go on a missions trip to Uganda with a few other young people from the church and I agreed.
Reconciliation was going good up until my trip. Still had daily triggers and daily mind movies but I managed. I wasn't crying everyday anymore. So progress I guess.
Anyways, I went on the trip and a few days in i realised that I was happy. Just being around other like minded people.....friends. and for a while I didn't even think about my WS and I just realized that this feeling I'm feeling now. This is what I deserve in life. I don't want to "manage" in life. I want to actually live. I don't want to worry about triggers. I don't want to work on my newfound trust issues. I don't want it anymore. And I don't want a life where that is the foundation of my relationship.
So I had clarity, and I started getting a little interest in one of the girls from the group. Not that I wanted anything. But just knowing that I'm actually still capable of catching feelings towards a new woman was freeing somehow. Like, it was comforting to know that I'm gonna fall in love again someday with a new woman. That my WS isn't the ONLY one.. I wanted her to be the only one. But knowing that she doesn't have to be was freeing.
So when I got back home from Uganda (3 days ago) I gathered my thoughts for a day. And then ended it my WS the day after.
I kept it on my own side of the road and didn't blame her. I just told her that "the trust that is needed to rebuild this relationship, Is not something I'm capable of giving. I forgive you, I love you, I'm not angry at you. But I'm just not strong enough to make it through this anymore. It's been almost half a year and I'm exhausted of the triggers and mind movies. And I'm not strong enough anymore"
And then I hugged her. Kissed her forehead and held her as she cried for a while. And then I left.
Today I called my best friend and he helped me move some of my belongings over to my new place where I'm moving in with a good friend of mine. I decided to leave her most of the things that I brought into the house. I only took my bed, tv and dining table. And left the rest of the furnitures in the house for her so that she wouldn't have to wake up and live in a completely empty house. I care for her deeply and wish her the very very very best in life. And secretly I think I have a little hope that some day in the future when I'm completely over it. I meet her again and fall in love all over. But for now, I'm surrounded by long lost friends that I reconnected with again through church and I'm excited and happy for the future. I feel like a big weight has been lifted off my shoulders and I no longer worry about triggers and barely any mind movies anymore. Thank you all for reading and following up on me in my darkest time of life. Might update again some time in the future.

I will try to write it not too long, but I have too. As someone who is mentally ill, I was trying to find out what is wrong with me, changing medications...but I can see now that I'm not depressed, just sad. And telling it may help me, even if no one will read it. But even I can't tell everything, it's interesting story.
We were almost for 3 years in ldr (37F&M). I was never lucky in love, never could be with someone I loved, even they loved me too. Became a single mother (after 15 years he is crying how stupid he was). I got even married, I was pregnant and quite happy, I tried to make it work, but nothing in the marriage wasn't working. We didn't have anything in common, sex few times a year, then nothing. When I was 34, I was fine and satisfied. I had a great job, good money, looked great, 2 amazing children, accepted that I had to divorce and that I will stay alone because of my previous experinces.
Soon, I met a guy in a facebook group. We just started talking, he seemed to be much younger, so I was relaxed. But we had always a lot to talk about, soon spending whole nights talking. It took few months, until we had realized we felt in love. I was damaged from previous relationships, didn't trust anyone, didn't beleive in love. I was trying to run from it, but it wasn't possible. During the time, I'd found a lot about him, we was using profile of someone else, had very hard childhood (he is from poorer country than me), did bad things as young, had to leave the country to save his life. So much damaged. This caused a lot of hard fights between us of course, but we were able to get over it. And it was going better by the time when many things got clear, we were able to trust each other. Every free moment, we were talking. Often whole nights. We had the same plans for future, the same opinions, we could talk nonstop without being bored. And planned our future together even it was difficult. We met in person after two years and it was amazing. We were like happy married couple. He was so caring for me, so much in love. Even we had such strong desire for each other (and had the same intimate preferences, which was huge win for me), we spent a lot of time walking, drinking and talking for whole nights. And after few days, I had an incident, I broke few bones. I was in terrible pain, but still joking, but he was so scared and shaking, taking all care for me, carrying my handbag in hospital, taking care for everything. We were first time together and for few days when it happened. Many men would be annoyed by this, many wouldn't help so much. I saw that this man was really a treasure.
When I had to leave, it was heartbreaking for us both. I thought I would be able to visit him soon again. But it wasn't possible. He lives in a poor country, not able to go abroad. And I lost my job. I had enough money for long time, but not to travel abroad. I got more depressed, because even as a top qualified, I couldn't find a new job. I still had to live in my ex hb's apartment (I can't move outside the city because of children now). Started drinking too much. But we were going through this all together. Getting rid of alcohol addiction together.
Someone could ask, I had several plans how to do it future. Everything legally, considering my children. There's a solution for everything. I loved him so much and he proved me his incredible love to so many times. But recently, he started to be really desperate. So much missing me. Sometimes begging me to do crazy things like to take children and go to him. But I couldn't do it of course. He wanted me to come to him in certain time soon, but I didn't know if it would be possible. He offered to pay for me and there I may made a mistake, I refused, I wanted to have my own money. I told him it wouldn't be possible probably. I was trying to find a solution, but I couldn't promise anything.
We were still be so in loved and devoted to each other. I don't care about the circumstances and his past, because he had such good heart and loved me so much. He was the first one who told me "I love you" and I could tell him the same. He was such an amazing partner, worth all the effort. He was Orthodox, I'm baptised. But I planned to do it because he wanted to have a wedding in a church and I liked this church. We were even talking about it just few day before we spent night talking, drunk, he was finally able to talk about his pain from his previous life. And suddenly he told me he wanted be a muslim. He find the love of Allah. And how he is the most and like this. I didn't expect it, I was stunned, angry when he was talking that Allah was the most important for him. It was always me. We got in fight. Nothing extraordinary, but the next day I day a very difficult time. I told him sorry for my bad words. I had extremely difficult the whole week, one of most difficult in my life. And he didn't talk to me at all. I needed him, he was the closest person for me. After the week, I tried to talk to him. And it was a disaster. I got a lecture how I was disrespectful to his God (actually not to his God, but to him), he was so awful, arrogant and sniffy. Talked like an ISIS member. It got better in the next days. I saw still love to me in him. I was trying to get used to it, that he became a Muslim, but I didn't want it had any effect on our relationship and future family life. I didn't want to leave him. We had good days, bad days. But it couldn't work. He was still going to be such an arrogant awful person. I tried to be nice to him, but he was behaving like I was annoying him. He isn't the person I loved anymore. He was always loving, with good heart, devoted to me. It was enough for me. But this person doesn't exist anymore. I miss him so much, our love, his smile, his voice, talking with him. He was planning to ask me to marry him this summer. It would be the most beautiful time in my life, I had been dreaming about it, a man I love would ask me to marry him. I miss his face and smile. I saw him last time 3 weeks ago. I miss everything. Him, his and our love. Our time spent together even for long distance. Our future. I lost everything.
I know this person I loved doesn't exist anymore. He is still drinking, doing crazy stuff. But Allah is more worth than me. He showed that I was annoying to him. It's not the person I knew. It's someone totally else. I miss him so much. I know he doesn't exist anymore. But I'm still so sad and desperate for my love.

Wish it was all over and done with. The man said as he exited the car what was he talking about? He could be talking about any situation he is in or his job or everything Will I ever know. Then all of a sudden it was over. Hello my name is Adrian and a few years ago it all began when I was playing Baseball. I had just finished the game and then Boom everything froze except me. I was able to walk around and talk but nothing else could. Until a man approached me he said I had a choice come with him or stay tucked away in time of course I chose to go with the man then I realized he had a briefcase which surprised me he had a fancy black suit and a bowler hat and flat black gloves then we were in an building full of people it was like a office then the room went silent and everyone looked our direction and the they all continued their lives. A few minutes later I was asked questions the first question was did I have any questions I said yes where are we and who are you the man then said we are Stuck In Time And he said we are The Corps of Chronos then I was given an outfit one of their outfits and was told to suit up a few minutes later done (I felt great being in this outfit but today I hate being in it but back to what happened) then I was given a ring weird but it was so I could time travel weird right but I was given a mission to prove I was worthy. The mission was simply to assassinate Lord Ethan Edwards If I failed this task I would be executed.
As I arrived in the year 1788 Lord Ethan Edwards was rising to fame as I infiltrated the castle I was shot at? What this isn't the century for weapons that fire rounds excuse me! Then I dived for cover but was shot in the shoulder by an infamous Commander of the Infinite tranquility clan as they came to check if I was dead I was passed out so they abducted me and took me back to their home as this was happening I was slowly dying I woke up and was questioned again this time though I was tied up They had asked me questions the first was how are you associated with The Corps of Chronos I said I was at a baseball game and then time froze and I was threatened To join them or I was going to be stuck in time forever Then I was untied and told I could join them or be left to rot with the The Corps of Chronos and I figured they were the good guys so I joined them and was given a new outfit it was like the other one but instead of being black it was white then I was given a choice of my arsenal so I chose the justifier which is a revolver and then the end and the begnning which are to daggers who together make a devastating combo
I was able to keep my time traveling ring and was given a new one which its power was to teleport to anything or anyone I could see by saying the word Ghost. What I did not know though was that I was being tracked down and hunted by one of the most feared commanders of The Corps of Chronos their name was N3M3515 A hacker. As I leave the office there is a women waiting for I assumed she was my new partner until she asked to see my ring full of guilt I show her as she looks I feel some suspicion so I put my right hand in my jacket and pull out the beginning she then portals away to a different time

okay like the title said I (16f) had been enfp most of my life and I strongly believe that this is me, but when I was 15 I had very rough patch of my life and some examples are my best friend of years start to replaced me and I realize that she had never even loved me from the beginning, and with that I changed a lot, my parents had always and still do fight a lot but I had never been this affected by it but now it really destroyed me, my parents were not the best parents and now I start to feel depressed and it's really strange like I remember how they treated me years ago and I start to cry about it, but I never really been like this I almost always let go and never make it bother me but now the little things they do make me remember and get really angry, and some of my parents had done to me is play with my confidence, that why I really don't have a lot of friends, but the other thing I always was satisfied with one, but it failed and tried to make new friends and didn't really know how or why they don't want to be my friends destroyed me too, like there a class mate who sits besides me who's infj and I want to be her friend so desperately but I couldn't, and the other things my parents wasn't this feelingly and lovely, not only with me but with eachother, so I think that the reason I never felt loved, but that never happened to me, I used to fight it and try to fix everything and now I become really really tired to the point I want to give up and die, but I am still a cowerd who couldn't even dare to hurt herself because their something in me saying that I will regreted so much, I used to be so optimistic and find happiness in everything, who had over a million hoppy and now I cant do anything and that's killing me, I don't who I am anymore I start to hate myself and I think everyone else hate me and be better off without me I just want to be my oldself and I don't know who please can someone tell me how?
sorry for my bad english

I'm a middle-aged man who's struggled with depression, anxiety, and social awkwardness my whole life. Despite trying various therapies, I still felt stuck.
I have extensive experience with therapy. Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT) didn't quite help me - it only offered temporary relief, not lasting change. Compassion-Focused Therapy (CFT) in contrast helped me immensely with my anxiety, depression and stress. There is something fundamentally sound about starting to discover your own compassionate self. I only wish it was more trauma-informed.
Because I was still stuck in some aspects of my life - especially in terms of socializing and connecting with other people. But when I stumbled upon the concept of Complex PTSD (C-PTSD), many pieces of my past fell into place. Growing up with emotional neglect, I realized that my struggles weren't just about anxiety or depression, but about the deep-seated wounds of my childhood.
That's why decided to seek out trauma-informed therapy. I was drawn to NARM, because it's not about dwelling on the past or changing my behaviors. It's about understanding how I adapted to my experiences and how I can show up more fully in the present.
My NARM therapist tracks my body language and gives me feedback, helping me become more aware of my emotions and reactions. I feel safe exploring my feelings without fear of being pushed to confront them head-on. For the first time, I'm learning to express myself in the moment, connect with my body, and practice relational skills.
But what's truly new for me is learning to talk about the therapeutic relationship itself. I'm discovering how to express my feelings and needs in the moment, without fear of judgment or rejection. This is a new relational skill for me - being able to express when I am uncomfortable or even shameful.
Only three sessions in, but I am already feeling a new sense of hope and connection. Looking forward to see what the NARM journey brings.

I just read Kuma's backstory again and it took me a while to realize how many crosses and bibles there were in pre and post time skip, whether it's in treasures, Kuma in his entirety, churches and nuns, it will be kinda cool if one piece will involve jesus/Christianity like Araki did in jojo's bizarre adventure part 7

The song is talking about drugs honestly to me that drug is my crush see why
FIRST : the adrenaline rush She’s high she lives in the sky Tonight she’s satisfied Rolling back her eyes
“I start missing him and thinking him and how his doing you know the first happiness and the butterflies that hits you when u think about him or see him well that’s how I first feel “
SECOND:the start of an addiction and pain that hits you when you’re missing him But then she starts to cry Everything it’s turning to black All in one night She just went to HEAVEN AND BACK
“I start realizing how bad his love effects me missing him wanting to see him wanting to just have a look from him its killing it hurts i cant stop it i start crying and overthinking and trying my best to reach him but i cant my mind wont let me and my heart is begging and all of this turns into a continual war between them my mind and my heart"
To me the songs describes the whole transition from happiness to that awful feeling

Ugh, sorry - I'm a newbie. Deleted my previous post because I realized I had my son's name in one place. And apologies for the long post, but I really need some advice and thought I should give some background:
My son, D. is 11 years old and in 6th grade. He was diagnosed with SCD when he was 4 years old and he has received special education services through our public schools since preschool. In elementary school (K-5), he would spend most of his time in the general classroom setting, receiving support primarily for language arts, and then he would attend finish the day with the autism teacher focusing on social skills. When he began middle school in the fall as a 6th grader, much of that structure is the same but of course they change classes each period. But he continues to receive support during his language arts class and has a special class for social skills, then he is on his own the rest of the day.
I would not say it's been an easy year, I have had to work with his teachers consistently to make sure he gets his work done. And he's had a few minor issues with refusing to comply with instructions or do his work in class, but he had all A's for the first 3 quarters and overall seemed to be managing all of the changes better than we expected.
However, things have taken a turn in the last few weeks, with him frequently refusing to do work, having trouble making it to class on time, having a hard time keeping his emotions in check. We have worked to address each occurrence, and I had already contacted his case manager at school to schedule an IEP meeting as soon as possible to discuss the issues and if he needs other supports during school, but then today I just received this email from one of his teachers:
"While I was on the other side of the room with my back to D. and my desk, D. ran behind my desk and took a bag of snacks I have for rewards. I caught him with the bag before he was able to open it. I took him out to the hall and asked him for an explanation. He stated that he wanted them, and he thought he wouldn't get caught. I explained to him that this was stealing, and it was not okay. As I said, I was very surprised by this behavior because D. has never done anything like this before in my class."
My initial question is, how do I address the issue of stealing with him today? I feel like we have managed fairly well to this point with rewarding for positive behavior, and consequences that we have made very clear to him for negative behavior, like loss of computer or video game privileges, etc. But I am increasingly concerned that we are not connecting when we have discussions. (And obviously this is a huge part of the challenge for a kid with SCD). I want to do my best to handle this situation as best as possible, but I don't know what that is. I know not to ask things like "Why did you do this?" and to keep my emotions in check. But what is a reasonable discipline/strategy for a kid with SCD to ensure it doesn't happen again?
Any help/insight would be greatly appreciated!

I'm a 23-year-old male turning 24 in a few weeks, and my partner is a 30-year-old male. We've been together for 5 years and have lived together for over 18 months now. We also have animals together. Lately, I've been feeling stuck and unsure about our relationship.
From the day we got together, I knew he was a drinker. However, as our relationship progressed, I realized it's much worse than I was initially told. Living together I've told him if he wants to drink, he can buy it himself, as I refuse to enable it. It's concerning that he drinks to the point of stumbling into bed nearly every night and I have aired this to him and even his family know how much he drinks and don't help.
In my life, I'm striving to save money towards a house together. I manage to put £200 away every payday, whereas my partner consistently lives in his overdraft, always in the negative figure. This has been the case since we got together because he spends so much money on alcohol each month.
I care about him deeply, and he has been there for me during tough times, helping me overcome social anxiety. However, our sex life is non-existent due to his late working hours and habit of coming back home to drink until 5 am. I've expressed to him that I'm contemplating our relationship. After I finish work, I cook food for us and even do his washing. It's become a running joke among his work friends that I'm like a maid for him, which makes me feel like I'm being taken advantage of, as I do everything for him.
I just don't know what to do and feel so lost.

I’m refurbishing my front door to its natural wood grain. Whilst sanding I realized I can remove these rubbery mouldings. They’re yellow under the paint so ideally I’d like to replace them with black. I’m not sure if I could find this product at Home Depot etc or if I should just remove, clean, and paint. If anyone has a lead or just a name of the product I’m after that’d be appreciated.

I just got my second lobe piercings today and went to a tattoo/piercing studio where they used a needle rather than a gun and everything seemed legit. This is my only piercing since I got my first lobe piercings as a kid and this was much less painful than I remember the gun being. Anyway, the earrings they had to choose from were all titanium but I realized afterward that they’re butterfly backs. Apparently they’re not as good for healing and I wouldn’t prefer them anyway because of how they poke me when I sleep.
Should I try sleeping on the butterfly backs and wait a couple months to change them? Or should I change them now?
And I know the advice is going to be to go to a different piercing studio to get them changed out, but honestly that wasn’t part of my budget and I don’t know that a different studio in my town would be any better than the one I was pierced at. Surely this is something I can do myself?
And finally, where can I find quality flatback studs that aren’t too expensive? Should I get the threadless or threaded ones? I saw there was a list of jewelry companies in this sub’s pinned FAQ but they’re all either wholesale or super expensive. The titanium studs I’m wearing now were only $20 at the studio. Etsy has a lot of cute, affordable options. Do you think it’s safe to buy from there or am I going to get knock offs made from worse metals?
I know you may say “don’t be cheap.” I did pay for the professional piercing, but realistically I have to weigh the risks of infection and such vs further costs I wasn’t expecting.
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Im not gonna ramble about how my life sucks or anything like that but I must tell that my actions and circumstances over the past years made me get into a sittuation in life where it seems to me theres no way of getting out of this.
I am not religious but i am very scared about the idea that theres a chance that i could be tortured for eternity after i die.
Honestly i wouldnt really mind oblivion but i rather go back in time with the same mindset and with better conditions to live a different life but i believe theres not a big chance of this happening.
I attemped before and i deeply regret aborting half way through.I wish i actually died that day but unfortunatly i still hesitate buying the same poison.I should already been dead until now but i dont have the same courage.
I just want to die in my sleep without realization.
Someone convince me to die

I realize this will be different for everyone. Age, overall health, how fit you were when you started, etc.
I'm just trying to decide if I'm doing it right, basically.
I'm 48, almost 49. I was in ok-ish shape to start, but my cardio was NOT good. I weighed about 196 lbs, standing 5'11".
I began my C2 routine in mid-March. I do Apple Fitness+ interval workouts with Josh Crosby alternating with :30 steady rows, and longer rows on the weekends when I have more time.
The only consistent data I have from start to current comes from the :30 rows.
The first one was April 8, about 2 weeks after getting the C2. I covered 5,934 meters for a 2:31.6 split, 23 spm, 100 average watts.
This morning I did 6,783 meters for a 2:12.6 split, 25 spm, 150 average watts. By the time I finished I was at my max heart rate of 181, so I know that's about as hard as I could've gone for the distance.
That's after about 6 weeks or rowing 5-7 days a week from :30-:60 a day, plus handweight exercises and lots of springtime outdoor activity to bolster the workouts.
I KNOW that's a tangible improvement (and I'm also down to 185 lbs), but I also know my best is a long way off from even being 50th percentile. I'm not discouraged because I'm not doing this to compete. I'm just curious - should I be improving at a faster pace given my routines? I've gotten good feedback on my form, but maybe one or two in-person sessions with a coach would help? Or just keep it up because it takes many, many months, especially at my age, to start to plateau? I guess the bottom line is I have established a consistent habit, I'm losing weight, I'm getting stronger, and I feel better... so maybe it doesn't matter that much as long as I keep it up.

So I am in Tuscaloosa Alabama and I purchased some active leggings out of the women’s section so tell me why when I get home I look at the pants and realize they are a Youth size and the receipt says no refund or exchange like really? How is it my fault? Do you all think I can still exchange them? The leggings were pretty high and I don’t wanna just give em away!