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My boyfriend (27) began physically abusing me (27) during my last months of pregnancy September 2023 to present. I noticed some signs like in the first month we began dating he wanted me to cut off all of my guy friends. He seemed “masculine” and sure of himself so I followed his lead. I found out he cheated emotionally twice because I was still technically married but we were living together. I slowly started to see through his macho facade but then I found out I was pregnant. He gave me half of the money to terminate as I was out of work and had 4 children. When it was time to go to my second appointment to officially terminate, he made excuses saying he already gave me half, I was too sick (I was extremely malnourished due to morning sickness and seizures), and he did not want me to leave like I said I would. The last day I could go he blocked my car in until the facility closed. I then accepted I was having another child. I was so sad because we spent months set on termination that it never left me time to bond with the baby. At 6/7 months pregnant he threw a computer chair at me. Then he started shoving me the into the walls. One day it was so bad I had a seizure at work.
December 2023: The baby wasn’t even a week old and he escalated to throwing hard objects at me resulting to shattering my window just missing my head.
Then the choking started. He dug his nails into my neck that I have a scar. Then the smacking. Then he began punching my body. Picking me up and throwing me on the ground. Spitting on me. Throwing food, water, trash whatever he could find he would put it over my head and dump it.
Today he drove into the opposite lane of traffic because he was yanking my hair and punching me in the head. The neighbor called the police as he chased me down the street when I was running away with the baby.
All of this because he says:

1. I was still married (I never cheated and barely speaking to my ex husband unless it pertains to our child).
   
2. I’m disrespectful (I was a very sure woman before I met him and I have an education so I won’t settle for him degrading me. I know I can get everything I work for. If and when I talk back it’s because I won’t tolerate him telling me about my character when he has zero friends or social skills. I let him know I had life before him and will after him no matter how hard it will be.)
   
3. I had a great social life and loved by a lot of people so he feels like I want to go back to my life he tries to isolate me from.
   

I know he is a loser but I can’t leave. He works retail but thinks he is so much better because he is starting a business with the money he got from his mother passing. I have a career and have no problem taking care of myself even though it would be tight. He needs me to need him. I do not know why I feel safe with someone who is very close to killing me. Someone please help me make sense of this. He went through trauma as a child so I always just attribute his behavior to it.
I want my life back before I met him but I am stuck in Such a dark cycle I have no actual will to leave. I want him to show up the way I need him to. This is irrational I know I can’t wrap my head around it either.

My (39F) Fiance (41M) and I had a disagreement the other day. I had received a package from a girl that he had cheated on me with 3 years ago. (She lived in a different state than us and they never met face to face it was all through video/messages/phone calls) This is the 3rd package I have gotten from her. I received it while he was at work. She sends the gifts that he got her to me. This time it was a necklace. I mentioned it to him by text and of course was a little upset that this lady is still bothering me all these years later. That evening as we were getting ready for bed, he couldn't seem to understand why it was bothering me since she has done this before. He started to raise his voice and swearing at me. He said "F you" numerous times and I told him that he was starting to scare me with how badly he was escalating. I said "Please stop, you're seriously starting to scare me". He turned to look at me and said "Oh! You're scared? How about I get a gun and we will see how scared you are." He then stormed off towards our closet where he keeps his rifles. I started crying and begged him not to get the gun. He stopped and told me he was leaving. He's never put his hands on me or ever threatened me before. We've been together for 4 years now and while he has lost his temper and blows up, he's never done anything like this. Advise please?

Care to have a discussion with a potential newcomer? Hubs is retiring from the Army after 25 years and has a job opportunity at the Pittsburgh airport. We had lots of domiciles to choose from and have seen a myriad of locations to bid on, but Pittsburgh is calling our name. We’ve never been to the area, but it checks so many of the boxes we’ve always wanted in a hometown after being a military family as long as we have.
My husband’s new job has presented us with many choices of where to live next, and while we’ve never been, we have nearly narrowed our decision to the Pittsburgh area. We need to be near the airport so Moon Township is looking like a convenient place for us to land next!
I have a few questions:

1. Does Moon Area School District have as good of a music program as we have been led to believe from our research online? Our 13 year old daughter is a very talented musician, playing everything from upright bass to clarinet and the guitar. She is academically gifted as well. We are hoping that Moon can challenge her in these areas.
   
2. We want to buy a house, eventually, but first would like a one year rental to call home in the Moon Area School District while we get used to our new surroundings. The Army has sent us to all corners of the world for the past couple of decades and we’d like to take our time to find a perfect place for our family. Other than the popular rental apps (Zillow, Redfin, etc…) are there any other locals sources I should be checking for a comfortable, clean, and safe rental home? (Looking for at least a 3/2 around $2500, give or take) SPAM me with suggestions and leads, please!
   
3. Are we nuts to think Moon/Pittsburgh is a good fit for us? We just want a quiet easy life with access to all the food, culture, and arts a city like Pittsburgh seems to have.
   
4. Is there anything about the area we haven’t thought of? We’ve researched weather, politics, taxes, housing prices…
   
5. School bus stops? Any way to find out that info as we search for a home?
   
6. Lastly, will we be accepted as a non-Pittsburgh “natives”? We are stationed in CO now and the vitriol towards outsiders is sad and palpable. We’re hardworking quiet people who’ve been at the mercy of the government telling us where to go next and we’d like to pick a hometown where we’ll feel welcome.
   

Thanks all. Looking forward to putting some roots down in PA!

I, female 17, have been with my boyfriend male 18, for 8 months. I had previously been in an abusive relationship for 1 1/2 years before this, and left the man 2 days before I got with my current boyfriend. Let’s call him mark. Mark has been incredible, super nice and understanding, and we have both had very similar lives. (Drug parents, adopted my grandma, terrible exes who cheated, you get it.) lately, we’ve gotten into a couple arguments on petty things. We both have friends of the other gender, that we do not hangout with outside of school. Mine however, always apparently seem to like me which I do not believe. I don’t comment on who he talks to out of trust, but he seems to get very jealous when I talk or laugh with another guy. A couple days ago, I had explained how I’ve been feeling and that I want time with my friends too instead of always him. That I don’t want something wrong to happen every day, and that I don’t want to keep dropping my guy friends because he believes they like me for no logical reasoning. He had blown up and said I was a pos and that I always laugh with them which is not true. I have tried communicating, but he jumps to assuming. If I don’t want to make out in front of other people or my family, he thinks that I don’t want to be near him. I have no idea what to do at this point and I want to know if I’m doing something wrong here. Any advice would be appreciated!

I dunno, I’ve wronged some people, intentionally or not, unknowingly or knowingly.
I do recall spitting horrific insults, violent and maybe hurtful against some people I perceive to have made my life hell.
Most of the time I just remain silent though.
Living in a residential treatment center as a teenager gets old.
Too old, I am very introverted, I don’t enjoy external stimulation and the reduced privacy, not too much time where I can rest and let shit out, I haven’t any friends to talk to, I’m very fearful and avoidant for two reasons mainly, don’t wanna get hurt, don’t want people to get hurt.
I was grumbling this morning about the driver who takes us to school stopping by a 7/11 that was right across the street from it, aswell as making a stop by a jamaican beef patty place too halfway through the ride, someone explained to me that I was indeed being somewhat selfish as I do take forever to get my hygiene together and my ass out of bed, being depressed and drained has its’ perks I guess.
I understand that was wrong, it seems he most likely needed breakfast and there was a chance he couldn’t make his way to the 7/11 after school starts.
For context as to my behaviors:
I get lost in thought doing stuff all the time, hence my hygiene being long, have been working on it though, trying to route my thoughts back onto the task as much as possible, reduced it to about 45-50 minutes in total before I’m ready.
I still struggle to get out of bed, I just got an alarm clock but it seems I forget where the snooze button is, being groggy, irritable, and my mind being foggy when I wake up, not to mention I don’t feel motivated, excited or happy to do anything or to run myself into a hellish concrete noisebox, the school we go to is kinda iffy in quality and structure, well, there is no real order tbh, things are always loud, and I can’t get much of a break but they told me of a few specific people I can go to, my social worker there essentially declared me to not be worth his time though, I just wanted some time to rest and maybe talk whenever I met with him but it seems he ran out of patience and stopped being supportive.
I’ve had a shit life so far, bad luck and even worse decisions do that, not gonna too much get into it as it’s only relevant in that it gave me trust issues, emotional control problems, and the big sad (depression), talking too much about it would only be counterintuitive as I am here to see if I can get the POV of an outsider to help myself with a decision on how to improve myself, not seek pity, I still may share a lot so scroll to the bottom if you don’t want to read it.
Asian family, NYC, abuse, I feel personally that my family is composed of narcissistic assholes, the physical abuse/corporal punishment only ended when ACS was called, childish arguments over trivial things and slights, get old though, I was told that it could just be communication problems but I doubt it as every time I trusted them I only suffered and wound up guiltripped into doing what they want, study endlessly at the cost of my sanity, being threatened with them rescinding all validation, ‘love’ and help.
My residential’s social worker encountered similar problems in childhood and seems to be supportive to some degree, but recently she refused to apologize for certain actions that only ate away at me instead of helping despite me telling her, including waving her hand in front of my phone jokingly when I was typing in the journal app, finishing up a cathartic rant, and forcing me into activities I don’t want to do because it only served to remind me of how fucked I am and made me share stuff I don’t feel comfortable sharing.
She also was one of the person stating my familial issues could just be communication problems and I’m tired of them trying to convince me that my family totally gives a shit at all, my mother does occasionally feel like making more generous offers when I am replacing some old things but sometimes she skimps out on important parts, maybe half assing the deal by replacing a component of the thing I asked for with a cheaper item, that sometimes could be detrimental to the thing as a whole, though some of these times she could replace some items with expensive stuff with or without necessity, often I am reluctant to accept, I recently did get the latest iphone but my old phone was running out of storage and was really dinged up and I don’t get to replace my phone very often, it’s on a basis of once every few years.
My family may skimp out on some of my other needs, primarily personal space and emotional, aswell as maybe hygiene products depending on the case (I don’t like using irish spring or years old dove bars and most of the bath and shower stuff is suited for their needs, and before I had to argue for quite a bit in some instances regarding deodorants and getting different soap.) which is why I feel like the above is just window dressing, I do get berated and shamed for trivial stuff excessively, but it all just leads to arguments whenever I try to address it with them regardless of what tone I chose to speak to them with.
I don’t know what to make of all the above and pardon me if it is excessive, I am aware I am not the most emotionally stable and I can come off as rude or self absorbed but I have been dealing with a lot more lately, and I snap more easily when that happens, and don’t wanna be bothered, frankly you don’t walk away happy from being yelled and jeered at by bullies at the school and being told to kill yourself, and being told you have to deal with it for character development, I also hate being lonely (I’m literally alone, got no friends and even shittier self esteem, feel too ashamed and fearful to make friends and I have habits that drive people away, partially derived from said loneliness), the people I’ve met, I don’t know if I’ve read them wrong but I don’t trust them, they say I should try to share and communicate but frankly that is difficult when it seems they don’t want to, in many of the cases I don’t feel heard either as I am talked over or interrupted, rushed even, including sometimes by the social workers.
Now, I don’t know if it’s because they are stressed themselves but it gets old.

This is an overview of my prayer requests.
**1: Spiritual Clarity and Protection**
"Please join me in prayer for spiritual protection and clarity. Pray that God removes all negative influences and provides discernment to distinguish His voice. Ask for His angels to surround and protect, replacing disturbances with peace and divine signs.- Additionally, pray for my family and friends, and for all those affected by negative spiritual influences, that they may be set free and find Jesus, experiencing miraculous transformations towards a better life."
**2: Personal Growth and Purpose**
"I seek your prayers for guidance and strength in my personal and spiritual growth. Please pray that God forgives my past mistakes and directs me to fulfill His purpose. May I remain committed to His will and effectively serve His kingdom."
**3: Daily Life and Activities**
"Please pray for God’s blessing over my everyday activities. Ask for uninterrupted ability to study, work, and manage daily tasks. Pray for peace in my living environment and restful nights, ensuring my daily life is under God’s protection and guidance."

This is an overview of my prayer requests.
**1: Spiritual Clarity and Protection**
"Please join me in prayer for spiritual protection and clarity. Pray that God removes all negative influences and provides discernment to distinguish His voice. Ask for His angels to surround and protect, replacing disturbances with peace and divine signs.- Additionally, pray for my family and friends, and for all those affected by negative spiritual influences, that they may be set free and find Jesus, experiencing miraculous transformations towards a better life."
**2: Personal Growth and Purpose**
"I seek your prayers for guidance and strength in my personal and spiritual growth. Please pray that God forgives my past mistakes and directs me to fulfill His purpose. May I remain committed to His will and effectively serve His kingdom."
**3: Daily Life and Activities**
"Please pray for God’s blessing over my everyday activities. Ask for uninterrupted ability to study, work, and manage daily tasks. Pray for peace in my living environment and restful nights, ensuring my daily life is under God’s protection and guidance."

This is an overview of my prayer requests.
**1: Spiritual Clarity and Protection**
"Please join me in prayer for spiritual protection and clarity. Pray that God removes all negative influences and provides discernment to distinguish His voice. Ask for His angels to surround and protect, replacing disturbances with peace and divine signs.- Additionally, pray for my family and friends, and for all those affected by negative spiritual influences, that they may be set free and find Jesus, experiencing miraculous transformations towards a better life."
**2: Personal Growth and Purpose**
"I seek your prayers for guidance and strength in my personal and spiritual growth. Please pray that God forgives my past mistakes and directs me to fulfill His purpose. May I remain committed to His will and effectively serve His kingdom."
**3: Daily Life and Activities**
"Please pray for God’s blessing over my everyday activities. Ask for uninterrupted ability to study, work, and manage daily tasks. Pray for peace in my living environment and restful nights, ensuring my daily life is under God’s protection and guidance."

When I was a little kid, it was Sunday night with Mutual of Omaha's Wild Kingdom and then the Wonderful World of Disney. Later when I was older, Solid Gold with the Solid Gold Dancers was another Sunday night staple.
I'm pretty sure that Happy Days and Laverne & Shirley were on Tuesdays and then I think Mork & Mindy were Thursday.
Then when MTV was all the rage and I lived in an area with no cable TV, Friday Night Videos was a necessity. Saturday Night Live was also still a pretty big deal for teens back then but that was the Eddie Murphy years.
Of course, Thursday nights on NBC has been a big deal since Cheers and Night Court.
Now, I couldn't tell you what night any show airs. Well, other than Saturday Night Live. That's still Saturday, right?

For anyone following we’ve had a few good weeks and things seem to be trending towards actually recovering and reconciling.
I also have recently been taking new medicine for my anxiety and while it’s helped quite a bit, when I take it as it’s new and we’re adjusting the dose, it causes spikes in my anxiety and then it feels like someone else is driving my body sometimes.
Anyways I was having a bad anxiety day. I couldn’t stop my thoughts from racing and drawing conclusions. My WW had thus far been honest with me and I may have fucked it all up. I let my anxiety control the conversation and I told her I can’t do this anymore. My brain wasn’t letting me reconcile what she was saying to her AP, and the reasons why she was saying those things (my love, cutie, sweetheart, or sending her love songs).
Her reasoning for not cutting off AP was because she said that AP is still dealing with a lot of grief with the death of her sister so my WW is trying to “be there and support her”.
This, obviously did not add up for me. I didn’t understand what was going on or why. The AP would often not respond to the cutesy stuff or leave her on read. I knew these things but still didn’t understand why my WW was saying it. Her reason wasn’t good enough.
It came to a head then the other day. I said I couldn’t do this. Hoping she’d help talk me down. Calm me down. And she tried but I let the anxiety control the conversation. I told her it didn’t make sense. That I don’t know why she’s saying those things. When she told me it would be platonic.
Well, the conversation devolved and I ended up having a panic attack and had to take like an hour or so and just breathe.
WW messaged me again and we were able to work through most of it. What I said. She had sent an email as a “declaration of love”. Highlighting how much she misses AP. AP hasn’t responded.
I knew she sent an email, not the content, and that came out in my spiral. She did send me it and I saw all the contents.
She maintained she “didn’t cheat”. I confronted her on this. Told her what I assumed happened. She tried to say that she was sorry I was hurt but supposedly I should’ve known when she said it was done that she was okay to do whatever.
I said nudes, and sexting, and making out is cheating. She agreed. So then I said you cheated. As I don’t do those things with my “friends”.
WW tried to justify it and when I simply said “Whatever” was when she took accountability. Stating that “Fine, it was a shitty thing to do.” I said I wasn’t sure she believed that.
She said, “Maybe I do believe it and I’m trying not to feel like a shitty human being and move on. Something you keep saying you’d like to do and then you continuously remind me of how shitty I am.”
Which 1) She hasn’t actually ever acknowledged or said something like the above. Surprising me with what seems to be the truth. 2) She says I remind her but it’s only a reminder because I was asking questions on things for clarity. And because I wasn’t willing to let her rug sweep.
So those two things together, make sense. It’s better than I never did that or I do XYZ with a lot of my friends.
Also stated that she still hasn’t sent anything sexual. Isn’t making any plans with her. Hasn’t seen her in over a month.
Which brings us to the culmination, I still pressed for a why? Why all that shit?
She said, “I’ve been testing her a lot with shit I say cuz I’m starting to see that I’m just the love of her life when it’s convenient for her. So.”
Following up with:
“That is why I haven’t stopped saying things. Because if im going to walk away from something 100% I need to know I’ve given it every opportunity. She knows how I feel. She can step up and grow up or I’m moving on without her. So. But when I try to get answers from her over messenger she avoids answering me or changes the subject or just plain doesn’t respond for two days.”
I asked her how she thought that was keeping things platonic or how that was her stepping back?
Responded with, “Because if she’s in fact not trying to or planning on making changes to herself then I’d rather just have a clean break and be done so I can move on. I’ve been getting real vague answers and I’m over it. I’m tired of having good things turn into bad things and I’m tired of just not being happy no matter what I do. That’s the mood I’ve been in for weeks now. I feel like an idiot for letting her in again.”
Which is why she’s trying to focus on just herself.
She also added that she’s not “testing me” because we’re still basically living our life together. She is watching what I’m doing and the changes I’m making for myself and she is so far very happy with the results. She says she knows how I feel about her and she’s never doubted it.
That was the truth. Finally. She said she didn’t think I’d believe her. But I do because that makes more sense than “I’m trying to be there for support”.
During the peak of my spiral she had said that AP was or is actually pushing her back towards me, until this stupid attack.
Thankfully she’s understanding of med changes and while she said her feelings were hurt she doesn’t think it set us back. We even were intimate later that night. Something she acknowledged earlier in the convo and said I’m doing things with you I’m not with her.
It’s still a hard place to be. But she’s here. She’s trying. I have to trust the process. Trust her. Which is something that I caused/had issues with before she cheated.
Today is also the anniversary of our first date. So I’m trying to focus on what she’s said and the actions she’s said. All things said, she’s been clear and transparent during this. May have not told me all the truth, but she did. And it makes sense.
She wished me a Happy Anniversary (9 years)without prompting. So. I’m trying to look forward. That we’ll be able to get there.
I know this was a lot. I’m open to opinions or what have you. I’m hoping while it’s messy, it seems to all line up. I don’t feel super crazy anymore. I hope that it seems that way to others but if not. Ya know. Feel free to drop your experiences.
Thank you, ~Ish

My parents, who are Chinese citizens, are considering buying an apartment in Flushing for 121W. It's similar in layout to this listing but located on the 15th floor. Their primary motive is to transfer their money from China to the US due to government limits on annual transfers, and this purchase can be made with RMB. We might live in the apartment for 2-3 years before selling it to buy a house.
My main concern is whether we can sell this apartment in the near future at a price that covers the selling costs (tax, agent fee, etc.). I'm not familiar with the NYC housing market, so any information, opinions, or advice would be greatly appreciated!
https://streeteasy.com/sale/1699838?utm_campaign=sale_listing&utm_medium=app_share&utm_source=ios&utm_term=5d778c99206f427

Throw Away Account
Here's some backstory: 128F live with my boyfriend 28M and we have a child together. We have been together for over 2 years. I am a SAHM and he travels for work. He's gone for 3-6 months at a time. He cheated on me when I first got pregnant and I don't think he's stopped. He will go through these phases where he gets verbally mean and will call me the most awful names. Like if you wanna mess around with others let me know because if you get to, I want to. I tried bringing it up once, he mentioned that he wanted a "hall pass" and I said if you get one, I get one. He told me no because l'd go after a black person. Then proceeded to tell me that I'm a mom and I don't get to be a "wh*re" but he gets to because he's a man.
When he's home and we're intimate, it's not enjoyable for me. He doesn't try to get me in the mood at all. So I just lay there hating every minute. I tried to bring up how I would like him to try to get me in the mood better (we were texting in the conversation) and he responded with "I'm not going to read that" but since then he's been extremely nice to me, complimenting me and it's weird to me because he's rarely this nice.
I don't know where to go from here. I'm scared to bring it up because he doesn't seem to understand how I feel no matter how I try to explain it. He gets mad easily.
I'm finding myself needing more intimacy in all aspects not just sex. We are stuck in this roommate phase and I need out of it. I thought about an open relationship.
I am happy with him aside from the name calling and lack of intimacy. Therefore I would like to try anything to "spice things up" before I decide to call it quits.
Pros? Cons? Are open relationships worth it? How would you ask if you were in my situation?

Ever since I can remember, my parents had an odd relationship. They had me, their only kid, but never got married because they always had ups and downs. They were careful not to fight in front of me, but I knew they were constantly mad at each other. When I was 6, I remember that my dad started sleeping in another room, and ever since, my parents barely spoke to each other even when they were in the same room. I was little, but I knew something was off. Then, when I was 9, my dad told me he was going to start sleeping in another house. He moved out, but they had a 50/50 custody arrangement, so I saw him pretty often.
Then my mom started telling me that my dad abandoned us and that I should be angry at him. When I told my dad, she never said that to me again. I guess they agreed not to put me between their mess. Later, I found out that when my dad changed rooms when I was 6, they had broken up and remained so for almost three years. My dad explained to me that the relationship was bad for both of them, so he decided to end it without a chance of reconciliation. He begged her to go to therapy, but she didn't want to, so he gave up and broke it off., but my mom asked my dad to keep living in our house to help her co-parent, and he agreed. I asked my mom for confirmation, and she told me that it was true.
I also found out that my dad moved because he had met someone else a month before moving out and started dating her. Now, 10 years later, my dad and his fiancée are getting married, and we get along pretty well. My mom doesn't want me to go; she's very hurt about the wedding, and she's always told me that she was my dad's mistress, that even if they were broken up and nothing happened between them he was still living with us, so he technically cheated. My dad has always told me his side of the story and let me draw my own conclusions. I honestly don't think my dad cheated because they were broken up, but I guess my mom has really old values, and for her, living in the same house means still being in a relationship.
I don't know what to do because, obviously, it will kill her if I go to their wedding, but I also want to be part of my dad's special moment. Is my mom right? AITA?

Hey San Diego, I'm attempting to launch a new community tool lending library in the 92115 area, hopefully in the fall of this year. Before we get it live, I'd love to get some feedback from the community. If you have 2 minutes to spare, please fill out this form: https://forms.gle/oERGcJQrsHmNyiLMA
Here's a beta version of the service with a handful of tools available to rent for the time being (will continue to add tools as we roll it out): https://toolboxrentals.app/
Plans for the full version of the tool shed allow for easy self-service access, at almost any time, to over 50 tools, at multiple locations. Let me know your thoughts. Thanks!

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I will be live tonight at 12 am to make some discussion and create new content around Zayn❤️

When I (24F) was 20 my father passed away very suddenly during covid. It was an extremely traumatic time, it happened in may of 2020 so beginning of COVID. My parents lived abroad so I had managed to fly to the country they lived in before borders shut, but my brother (35M) was stuck in the UK.
My grandma (father’s side) passed away 6 weeks ago before him from COVID. He went in to hospital for stent surgery but had a massive stroke and was in a coma for two weeks before passing away. It was just my mother and I dealing with the whole situation as my brother could not get into the country.
Since then, my mother and I are extremely close, I would say borderline co-dependent on my side. She is my best friend and biggest supporter and I genuinely cannot live without her. Since my brother is much older, far more independent and lives further away from us, I feel like I am closer to my mother than him.
Three years on from my father’s death, my mum finally got onto the dating apps. I was all for this as I know how left out she now feels with her ‘couple’ friends and deserves someone to go on adventures and have fun with. She started a relationship with a man in 2023. There were red flags from the start, and the first time I met him was a long weekend at home, the week before my final exams of university and also the anniversary of my dad’s death. The timing couldn’t be worse, and I absolutely hated the fact that he was in my house. At the end of the weekend I couldn’t hide my feelings and confided in my mum. She completely understood how I felt and regretted the way things happened.
Since then, I always had a bad feeling about him. I didn’t like spending time with him and hated it when she would go on and on about his life and his children. Eventually, things didn’t work out and I was happy for that. My mum was very concerned about how I felt. She couldn’t understand why I couldn’t be happy for her, and why I wouldn’t feel relieved that when I’m not around, she has someone to spend time with. I couldn’t put my finger on the reasoning, except for the horrible circumstances of how I had met her ex. I told her that in the future, when the situation is dealt with properly, things would be different.
6 months later, she has found a new love interest. He sounds nice and I can’t find any red flags, yet there’s still something inside me that hates it when she talks about him and their future together. She wants me to meet him soon, by going to his house and having him cook dinner for us. I know that this is the right way to do things, but I still do not know why I feel this way. It has been 4 years since my dad passed, I know there’s not a timeline for grief but it should be long enough for me to able to accept a new partner for my mum. I thought I didn’t like her ex because of the circumstances but I haven’t even met this one and still feel the same way. In my ideal scenario, she would have a boyfriend that she has fun with and travels with when I’m not around, but I would never have to meet him. I only want to spend time with her without him, like an out of site out of mind scenario. Why do I feel this way?? What can I do to get over it so I’m not in the way of my mums relationship???
If I said I didn’t like him, she would always pick me first, but i know it’s not fair. How do I find peace in this situation?? My brother is the complete opposite, he truly wants whatever makes mum happy and is more than willing to meet her partners.

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A little bit about me: vers-top but due to the lack of bottoms in my area I end up bottoming 90% of the times, ideally I would like to have only one fwb/fuck buddy. My ideal fuck buddy would be:
1- handsome (aka my type aka bear)
2- has a decent dick
3- can use his dick properly
4- likes kissing & cuddling
5- likes playing with my dick
6- likes eating ass.
7- likes my body as it's
I have 4 fuck buddies rn, unfortunately none of them checks all the boxes.
First guy:
Pros: 1- handsome (bear) 2- has an amazing dick, very girthy and filling 3- an artist when it comes to using his dick ,to say at least. 4- loves eating ass.
Cons: 1- doesn't like kissing. 2- doesn't like cuddling. 3- not very passionate about my dick.
Second guy:
Pros: 1- can use his dick properly, but not as first guy. 2- loves kissing. 3- loves cuddling. 4- very passionate about playing with my dick
Cons: 1- has an average dick (idk if it's a con tbh) 2- average look (otter not bear) 3- doesn't like eating ass 4- he prefers my ass trimmed very much (I have a hairy ass), I don't like trimming.
Third guy:
Pros: 1- very passionate and good kisser 2- likes cuddling 3- has a decent dock 4- doesn't mind playing with my dick
Cons: 1- doesn't know how to fuck (biggest con) 2- below average look. 3- doesn't like eating ass.
Fourth guy:
Pros: 1- handsome (bear) 2- likes kissing 3- very passionate about cuddling.
Cons: 1- has a small dick 2- can't use his dick properly (he cum in like one minute). 3- doesn't like eating ass 4- just like the second guy, he prefers my ass trimmed, but doesn't make fuss of it. 5- doesn't like touching my dick at all.
All of those guys are decent ngl, and I have sex with them pretty regularly, however I want to stick to only one of them, for a lot of reasons. So the question is: should I start seeing new guys in hope of finding a guy who checks all the boxes? Personally I hate being on the apps and meeting new people, I mean I live in a small town so I don't have a lot of options. Or should I choose only one of those guys? And if so which one?
I get along with all of them, some have weird traits but I thought it would be too long to include anything about their personalities.
I hope this post doesn't come as dehumanizing or smth, as I said I really like all of them.
Edit: idk why I'm getting downvoted