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2024.05.15 15:02 presentingmaddi Today's Shop Update? (5/15)

I'm at work so can't see. Anyone have an image so I know how many Moonstones i have to buy when I get home? Lol.
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2024.05.15 15:02 annah042 Curious as to why so many people seem to dislike Richard Gadd?

I’ve seen so many people criticise Gadd and how he dealt with the situation which I find extremely unfair. Gadd is a human being who has been through a lot and this was one of the realest, most sincere portrayals of trauma and the way in which it can diminish a person so much to the point they (subconsciously or consciously) get themselves into other abusive situations because they feel it’s what they deserve. I don’t know why people expect a person to just do ‘everything right’ and ‘normally’ after such a thing has happened to them. I truly admire Gadd for his honesty and his insight. It’s almost as if people expect him to suddenly be a perfect human? And only then will they truly consider him a victim? It’s a harmful and unrealistic standard. His ‘flaws’ were very natural and common trauma reactions of a vulnerable person. I find it so strange that someone has been so open and honest to the world and they’re met with ‘I didn’t like Gadd because he didn’t do enough / he put himself in the situation / he had too much self pity’ etc. I believe he also recognised his own flaws and i think the way he portrayed other characters (even ones that had hurt him) was incredibly mature and reflected a more nuanced reality.
Sorry I’m rambling lol. As a r*** survivor myself, I honestly felt relieved to see such an honest portrayal for once so was quite shocked to discover how many people dislike him.
Also, if I’ve missed something and he truly has done something wrong, please let me know - just basing this off what I have seen
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2024.05.15 15:02 GenericallyNamedUser Helping my newbie get more comfortable shooting

I think my son's coaches did a poor job of teaching the 5/6 year olds to shoot. There was literally only a few practices all season where they practiced shots and the coaches seemed to love going right from stretching/line drills to live wrestling. I thought this bizarre as I remembered growing up practicing many different takedowns every single practice. As a result, by the end of the season none of the 5/6 year olds would shoot because they knew they'd lose. The coaches also banned learning and using headlocks so by the end of the season the newbies were just trying to push eachothers heads down into the mat because it's all they really knew how to do on their feet. The coaches would yell constantly for them to shoot until finally one would try to grab a leg, and they were sprawled on easily and taken down. I don't blame the kids for not wanting to shoot when they knew it was a losing strategy.

I never said anything out of respect to the coaches, but I was/am very concerned because these will be the same coaches next year. I feel like the kids should've done 1000 double legs, 1000 single legs, 1000 ankle picks over the course of the season to build confidence in their shot.

Sorry for the venting but my main ask is this: How can I get my kid more comfortable shooting from home so when next season rolls around he isn't so lost when shooting? He wants to get better. He is a good worker. Can you practice penetration steps across carpet? He is also a lefty which makes it feel goofy for me when trying to show him. Any advice for lefties shooting appreciated!

Thanks for any advice!
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2024.05.15 15:02 Wide_Refrigerator_41 Chronic infection (Sinusitis) since DJS (8 weeks ago). Surgeon wanting to cut it open to check titanium screws. Anybody similar experiences?

Eight weeks ago I had double jaw surgery. My upper jaw was impacted by 4mm and moved forward 2mm. My lower jaw was moved 8mm forward.
Since then healing has been a bit of a rollercoaster. Three weeks after surgery I got an infection from which I got high fever and extra swelling in my cheeks again. I got on antibiotics that I had to take for 4 weeks. They did drain it in the mean time as well, through an open fistula that does not seem to heal within my mouth.
After a scan it seemed that the infection was within my maxillary sinus on the right side of my face. Within my mouth the fistula is still present from which small amounts of pus keeps leaking, probably from that sinus. I got prescribed Dexamethasone tablets and a corticosteroid nasal spray as well to combat that. And they told me to rinse with a Neti pot two times a day.
Tomorrow the jaw surgeon is going to open up my wound to look at the titanium screw/plate on that side under local anesthesia. But by now I have so many doubts and questions about this whole healing process. Another thing is that my septum seems to be deviated after surgery so now I am wondering if this could be part of the problem as well. Or maybe bone spurs or loose screw. I wonder if that would not have to be visible on scans instead of “let’s have a look and cut it open” 😅.
Does anybody have similar experiences with infection of sinus or ongoing infection that does not seem to get better with medication.
Seems that I am just a very unlucky person with all these complications. 🙈
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2024.05.15 15:02 vrvryrare How do I deal with wonderkids I want to become HGC

I find myself in a position which I don’t really know how to handle, so I’m now asking for your advice.
I manage Malaga and brought them up from the third division back to La Liga. However the economy was not great during the first couple of years and therefore I couldn’t sign many wonderkids. Now that I’m a couple seasons in, the original homegrown at club players have been sold due to not being good enough anymore. As we are consistently getting into Europe I need more HGC players. So I’ve started tp plan ahead and sign a bunch of wonderkids.
However, the wonderkids are not good enough for the first team yet, but too good for my U19 and B team. But I can’t loan them since i need HGC players. How do I manage this situation?
Thanks for any help! :)
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2024.05.15 15:01 Xanabena anyone else a mom with an ED?

Lately I’ve been mourning my body.. I keep seeing pictures pop up from 3 years ago when I first started recovery and at the time I thought I was huge but now looking back it was the best I’ve ever looked.. I had gained a l bit and was just above being UW, the clothes I wore, my aesthetic, my long hair and being so confident for the first time in my life. (Even if I was faking it to make it) Granted that few months of bliss ended up setting me up for failure and it’s not a time I should be idolizing. I just miss the way I looked and that’s it.. I feel like I’ll never look like that again, I had gained so much weight in two years I was obese, then I lost most of it and was boardering the healthy and overweight line but it was the smallest I’d been in 2 years.. I had a ton of stretch marks and loose skin and my boobs sag because of the rapid weight gain then rapid weight loss then I got pregnant and I thought I’d be fine bc I already had stretch marks, loose skin and saggy boobs but now at 33 weeks I somehow have more even tho Im still at a lower weight than I was at my highest weight.
Ugh I’m sorry if that’s all jumbled and makes no sense and I feel like I sound so ungrateful but I’m not, I was told I only had a 10% chance of conceiving naturally because of how damaged my body was from my ED but it miraculously happened and I couldn’t be happier about her coming! I’ve always wanted to be a mom and thought I’d never get the chance without IVF.
I feel pressured not to go back to my ed because I have a daughter and don’t want her to end up with an ed like I did bc of my mom.. I miss my old body that I’ll never have back with out surgery and even then I’ll never have the skin I did back. It also sucks because 2 of the girls I went to high school with who have kids are both super skinny (one has an ed and the other is just naturally skinny) I’m jealous bc I let myself go for 2 years and feel like that wrecked my body more than being pregnant. Anyone else relate? Or am I being over dramatic?
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2024.05.15 15:01 ibid-11962 More Murtagh Questions [Post Murtagh Christopher Paolini Q&A Wrap Up #5]

As discussed in the first post, this is my ongoing compilation of the remaining questions Christopher has answered online between August 1st 2023 and April 30th 2024 which I've not already covered in other compilations.
As always, questions are sorted by topic, and each Q&A is annotated with a bracketed source number. Links to every source used and to the other parts of this compilation will be provided in a comment below.
The previous post focused on the essence of the Murtagh book and character. This installment will cover additional Murtagh-related questions, such as about specific elements of the writing process. The next post will cover the writing and publication of Eragon.

Further Details about Writing Murtagh

Creating the Maps
For Murtagh I did all the maps after writing the book, but that's because I already knew all the locations and was familiar with them from writing the series. So I didn't need to do the maps before writing the book. [12]
What is your system for drawing maps? I usually start by thinking of what I want a location to look like. And that has nothing to do with a map. That's usually just thinking about how it will serve the story. And then the map will be based off of that. The biggest decision is usually what the style of the map should be, whether I want to do like a top-down city map for a place, or if I want it to be a more of a realistic image. So more of, let's say, a landscape painting, one could say, or if I want to do something that's more allegorical and evocative or symbolic, which there's actually one of those in Murtagh that really isn't a map, but it's a symbolic map, let's put it that way. And all of that is governed by what is the effect I hope to achieve with the reader. Because if it doesn't achieve the effect I want, then what's the point of doing it. I do try to avoid maps where I have to draw every single building if it's a city map because that's just annoying. I'd rather draw mountains than cities. [12]
I love the sort of top-down look, which is why I drew the the original map for Eragon in this style. [12]
Maps are an awesome thing, and they add so much to a world. And that's why I love drawing them, and I love finding them in books I'm reading. And it's also why I make such an effort to draw and paint maps for my own books. [12]
Favorite Parts
What kind of scenes do you enjoy writing most? I really empathize with the characters, so I find it difficult to write scenes where they experience difficulties. I like to write scenes where people wonder about the world, or where the story reaches a climax. With Murtagh, for example, this is the confrontation at the end of the book. Or the fight with the big fish, Muckmaw. There are also quiet moments that I enjoy writing. Again in Murtagh, when Silna – the werecat child – kisses Murtagh's head, that was a very special moment. I like to write things that have meaning and that requires context, so you have to build up to moments that are meaningful, both for myself as a writer and for the reader. [23]
Do you have a favorite moment in the book between Thorn and Murtagh? I have a couple of them. There's a moment after the encounter with Muckmaw when they exchange true names that I quite liked. The end of the Gil'ead sequence. Thorn has an appearance at the end of that sequence, which was rather dramatic. And then right near the end of the book, Thorn gets a crowning moment of awesome, one might say, to use internet speak. But Thorn really, he comes through in a pinch, and I just loved writing that. [32]
What was your favorite scene or moment that you wrote for Murtagh? I'd say the last chapter, and I'm not gonna say why, but I think it's obvious. There's a scene with a creature named Muckmaw, which I quite enjoy. Not just the confrontation with Muckmaw, the aftermath in the water. I was reading Blood Meridian at the time, and I think that influenced my descriptions. And there is a point in the story where something is renamed. And that was a very meaningful scene for me. Also, there's a werecat in the book and I love werecats. They're so much fun to write. [34]
What is your favorite line you've written? The first line I wrote for Murtagh before I had anything really for the book, I thought it was going to be the first line of the book and it ended up being partway through the first chapter, and it was "A man with a dragon is never truly alone." Which since he's an outcast the whole theme of being alone or not alone is kind of relevant. [33]
My favorite good/bad line from Murtagh is: “The water was like liquid ice.”.. . . Yeah, yeah. I know. But you understand what I meant! And that’s the point of writing. Ahahaha!* I didn't notice! just imagined really cold water Can’t tell you how many times I stepped into the Yellowstone River and thought: “This feels like ice! But liquid.” [T]
Providing Context
In the acknowledgments section you said you owe your agent some sushi? Yes! I bet him a sushi dinner, an expensive new York sushi dinner, that I could keep Murtagh under the length of Eragon. And I got close. The first draft was one hundred and sixty eight thousand words long. Eragon is one hundred and fifty six thousand words long. And I figured well I usually drop about ten percent of length in editing, so I thought I'd do that. The problem is I hate over explaining things. I know that sounds incredibly hypocritical based off what I've actually written, but because of my experiences of over explaining things, I've really tried to not do that as much, and so I wrote the book assuming that someone had read the Inheritance Cycle and remembered it. So I didn't explain what a lot of things were because I assumed the reader knew. And my editor came back and said "Christopher, I know what you're doing, but you can't do that. Because someone might pick this up without having read the Inheritance Cycle. And even if someone read the Inheritance Cycle, it's been twelve years. So provide a little context." Well, that ended up being thirty-three thousand words, give or take. So now we're at one hundred and ninety eight thousand words, so I owe my agent a sushi dinner. [17]
It's always interesting to me to see how people do their first chapters in a series. Because I always feel like chapter one is like "previously on..." It's funny. I wrote my latest book with basically no callbacks or explanations of established information. After four books and a million published words, you kind of think people have it under their belt. And my editor came back and she was like, "It's been eleven years since the last book, even if people are fans of the series, you got to give them a little more." So usually when I write a first draft, it drops by about 10% in editing. And with that book, it went up by 33,000 words, which all of it was basically context, which was interesting. So that was a first for me. I'm a kitchen sink author, so I throw everything in and then I usually cut back during editing. [33]
I would love to write books that are more around the length of 100,000 to 150,000 words. Like that's a good, solid length. That's where I was shooting for with Murtagh, but for some reason my editor kept asking me to add more and more stuff so we ended up close to 200,000 words. [1]
Final word count of Murtagh is 198,983 words. So my editor had me ADD about 34,000 words to the book over the course of editing/revising. Ha! That's a first. [T]
Gil'ead Sequence
Interesting choice to break it up into the sections of each city. Just the section in Gil'ead is basically a novel on its own. There's a full arc in Gil'ead that would be a normal size novel for any other writer. I nearly split it into two volumes, actually, there. But my editor said, "no, don't do that". The funny thing about Gil'ead is that actually was not in my original outline. The whole sequence. And the reason is that, for me, I was envisioning a much shorter book. And the whole thing was going to be them going to the village and dealing with Bachel. So let's get to the village as quickly as possible. So we'll just have a chapter or two at the beginning of getting the information. Well, storytelling 101, you can't make it easy for the character. So having Murtagh just be able to go get that information somewhere, find it out, just felt too easy. Also, I kind of locked myself into a little path because the first chunk of the book is reworking the short story from The Fork, the Witch, and the Worm. And at the end of that, Murtagh does not have the information he needs. So he can't get it from the people he interacts with in that chapter, which if I were writing Murtagh as a complete standalone, I could have considered that. So then I thought, "well, he'll go to Gil'ead and we'll have a really quick thing there. And he'll get his information." I started writing it the way I originally envisioned. But again it was too easy. So it was like, "OK. There needs to be a challenge here. What else is going on? How does it tie into my larger world and story?" And it does. There's some unresolved storylines there, but it does tie into the larger stuff I'm going to later. And then it was half the book. Seriously. At the end of the following chapter, right after Gil'ead, is almost perfectly 50% through the book. I'm sure everyone's heard of the three act play, but there's a competing theory of storytelling, which I'm actually very fond of, which is the five act play. So you have two acts at the beginning, two acts at the end, and then your middle act, and then you have an act in the middle. And in that middle act, you have a tipping point where your character sort of sees what they need, or sees what they can become. They ultimately see their own solution to their problems, but then the rest of the back half of the story is them grappling with that solution, coming to terms with it. And that actually worked, it was not intentional, but it worked out perfectly with the structure of this book. The structure of this book is also directly inspired by some of the structuring that I did in my sci-fi novels and I carried some of it back into Alagaësia. [11]
In regard of Murtagh or any other part of your work, what's the most intense moment for you during the creative process when you are in the midst of writing a novel? A lot of it is intense. I'm gonna divide it into two sections. The creative process itself, in the sense that where I'm creating the story and the characters and the world. In this case, of course, the world was pretty much in place, but in the outlining phase, I should say, that's a lot of fun. There's some pressure in the sense that I know if I don't get it right in that stage, that no matter how well I write the book, it won't hang together particularly well for the reader. So there's strain in that sense that I really want to get it right. But I wouldn't say there's any real pressure, because there's no deadlines at that point. I'm not actually writing the book. During the writing itself, there's definitely strain and intensity in wanting to get it right and do a good job of writing each individual scene and chapter and storyline. And sometimes that can get difficult, especially if I feel like I'm not really getting where I need to get in terms of the effect on the reader. I had that in a couple places in the first draft with Murtagh. One was with the character Bachel herself, who was quite different in the first draft. And then another one actually was the whole Gil'ead sequence, where my original idea for that sequence is actually what happens now in terms of the werecat kittens and all of that. And then I second guessed myself and thought, "well, maybe that's a little cheesy. Maybe I won't have a ticking clock element to that sequence. So I'm just gonna not have that, but he'll still have these various adventures in order to earn this information from the werecat Carabel." And the problem is it removed any sense of tension from that sequence. So I ended up having to rework a lot of the Gil'ead sequence to reintroduce that element, bring in the tension and make it all work. But both of those things happened in the second chunk, which I was gonna say is revision. And revision and editing tends to be the most intense part of the process, because at that point we're usually under deadline. We've committed to a release date and things are happening on the business side of things, that are sort of like unstoppable forces. The ticking clock in the real world. And that tends to be the most intense part because it's not that I can't do the work, I always can and I always am able to get where I wanna go. I'm not stressed about that, it's just instead of having two months to do something, now you got to do it in two weeks, and oh hey, you got a new baby you got to take care of at the same time. And that's what makes it really intense. [19]
One of the things that I loved about the very first half of this novel is that it is a quintessential RPG action adventure. Because poor Murtagh gets pushed and pulled willingly and unwillingly in the strangest directions. Yeah, he's on the series of fetch quests. It's funny. I've had a bunch of people react differently to that. I've seen people who kind of hate it and really love it, and a lot of people who say, "Well, Christopher's just writing out his D&D session". I literally have never played D&D except for my recent trip down to the Authors in the Dungeon down in Utah. So I don't play D&D. I have no one here to play it with. The only RPGs I've ever played are Skyrim and the Mass Effect series. My logic with that sequence was there was a whole lot we needed to see about Murtagh's back history without rehashing the Inheritance Cycle, without actually going back and rewriting scenes from his point of view. And just doing it all in flashbacks and dreams gets a bit tedious. On top of that, originally that sequence wasn't in the book I was going to write. I was going to start with essentially the opening. And then we were going to go to Nal Gorgoth fairly quickly in the book. But it just made it too easy. No one's going to give them the information for free. There's always a price attached to information. There had to be difficulty in getting it. And then once I was digging into that, I was like, okay, how can I use this to show some aspects of Murtagh's character, and then how will that then get reflected in the second half of the book? And how will that let me inform what happens in the second half of the book? And I really enjoyed that stuff. Muckmaw was a particular favorite of mine. [32]
Thorn
One of the things that we get a lot of in this book that was really wonderful after reading Inheritance, was Thorn's-- we don't really get his POV, but we get some POV through Murtagh of him. I think he only has one line in the entire Inheritance Cycle. In the last book. And we get a lot of him here. And we get a very different Rider-Dragon relationship between him and Murtagh versus Saphira and Eragon. What was the process of crafting that relationship to be similar in its like magical quality, but also different in the fact that they had a very trying kind of hatching? Well that was the key right there. I wanted it to feel different while still maintaining the sense that they'll back each other up no matter what, which they have in the past. That's an important part of that. But Murtagh is kind of a difficult personality himself. Thorn, as we see in the book, of course, had a very, very difficult upbringing under Galbatorix and then later on. And that leaves scars. That leaves marks. So trying to find a way to reflect that in the relationship without having them also just be at each other's throats, because they're not. They are being supportive. But at the same time, it's perhaps an overused word these days, but they have trauma that they are having to battle. [11]
One of my favorite things is the relationship between Murtagh and Thorn--they’re such a lonely duo, but it allows the book to kind of delve into that dragon/rider bond in a new way. What sets their relationship apart do you think? Murtagh and Thorn were joined under the most difficult of circumstances, and that shapes their interactions in a thousand different ways. Their relationship is more, ah, thorny than Eragon and Saphira’s, but they also still love each other and would lay down their lives for one another, should the occasion demand it. I found their interactions really interesting to write. Also, it felt important that I didn’t directly replicate Eragon and Saphira’s relationship. Murtagh and Thorn are very different beings, and readers should see that. [15]
What is the relationship between Murtagh and his dragon Thorn? Thorn's egg hatched when they were imprisoned by King Galbatorix. The two friends have been tortured and manipulated. They retain many traumas. They care deeply for each other and are closely bonded. But their relationship is more difficult than that of Eragon and his dragon Saphira. [4]
Claustrophobia
I definitely got choked up with just Thorn and his claustrophobia and how it was written, how it was handled, everything surrounding it. Out of pure curiosity, do you or do someone you know have that kind of claustrophobia that you were able to speak to about? No. A large part of the act of writing is the act of imagination, just like with acting. But even though there's no one in my life who suffers from that, when I'm writing Thorn or anyone who might feel that, I do my best to feel what they're feeling, which is why when writing scenes or a large chunk of a book where perhaps things are difficult for the characters, I have a bad time. Yeah, I hope you take breaks. Yeah, that's where it's good to go play with the kids and take a load off one's mind. But some of the battle scenes in Inheritance really got to me at times, because I'm thinking actually especially in Inheritance, but also in Brisingr, there were some large set pieces, battles. And it just takes a couple of weeks to write sometimes. And that's a long time to have your head in blood and guts. [11]
Bachel
You write so many diverse women in your books that we really enjoy. Between Arya, Angela, Nasuada, Queen Islanzadi, you write fantasy with women in positions of power, with agency and with action. And then we get to this book and we meet this villain, Bachel, and she's basically like, "what if Angela was evil?" I hadn't thought of it that way. I was reading the book. I was like, "Did Christopher Paolini and his sister have a fight? What changed in that relationship?" Because she's awful. So I've watched a lot of movies in my life, and a lot of old movies too. I was thinking of some of the classic actresses from the Golden Age of Hollywood who would come on the screen with a very imperious feel, like Sunset Boulevard or All About Eve or some of those films. And Bachel is sort of in that category of presence. And I think it's exactly what was needed to put Murtagh off balance. I was also thinking of Kai Winn from Deep Space Nine. I've always said that Kai Winn and from Harry Potter the headmistress Umbridge, and Hyacinth Bouquet from the British show Keeping Up Appearances. The three of them in a room together will be like a nuclear explosion. When you were approaching bringing this book from the short story about The Fork into a full novel, at what point did you create this character and where did she come from? I had a general idea before writing Murtagh, of course. I did a lot of plotting and preparatory work, but you never know how a character is going to come across until you write the first draft. And in the first draft, Bachel was not as successful as she is now, I think. I was writing the first draft quickly, and I was thinking of the stories a little bit more of like a Edgar Rice Burroughs style adventures. You go off into the jungle, and you find a hidden temple and lost civilization sort of thing. And as a result, in the first draft, Bachel was much more vampy. I really went hard on that angle. And then looking back over, it's like it didn't work. And it was so cliche and obvious. It was like, yeah, I needed to find another approach. So I kept reworking Bachel with each cycle of revision and it was getting better. The character was getting better and better, but I wasn't fully committing to the change. And it was right at the end of revisions. I mean, we were down to the wire and my editor said, we're still not quite there. And even though I hated to have to have any more work at that point, I knew she was right. So I went in. We're talking with a week to spare before we went to the printers. And I rewrote the first four chapters or so when he gets to the village. I rewrote pretty much every line of dialogue of hers and every description of her to bring it to where we are. And then I was like, "OK, now it works", and my editor agreed. She is terrifying and one of those characters that's not mustache twirly evil, but has so much evil within her. She thinks she can do no wrong, that she is always doing the right thing and that she knows what's best for all the people around her. And as a result is capable of anything. So all of which is to answer your question, her character was an iterative process to get where she needed to go. [11]
I try to imagine what it is to create characters and if some of them have the purpose to be a particular message or stand as a parable for a message or an idea and if yes, what does Bachel mean to you in a deeper way? I think the Bachel to me represents unquestioning belief and also the tyranny of unchecked power and control over people's lives. I think what differentiates Bachel from a real world cult leader, for example, and this actually kind of made it interesting to me, is that the Dreamers and Bachel are rational in the sense that they are believing in something that actually exists. The power that they are in awe of and that they are afraid of and that they worship actually exists. And the same is true of the priests of Helgrind. So in a sense they are not irrational to have that reaction. You might argue it's the wrong reaction. I would argue that they're overdoing it and the reaction is wrong and perhaps even evil, but they have more reason for their belief than a lot of people sometimes do because they have physical evidence on an ongoing basis of their object of worship. But again, Bachel would to me represent unchecked fanatical belief as well as personal exploitation of one's power over others. [19]
The cult experience in the pages of Murtagh eerily echoed in some ways certain experiences I've had with religion. Could you talk about where that part of your writing came from or how you went about writing it? I understand why that comment's anonymous, and I'm going to kind of adhere to that philosophy of anonymity here. Without going into details, I've had some family members who were in a cult at one point. And that occasioned quite a bit of discussion in my life growing up. Although the cult might seem, and probably is, completely over the top and cartoony in some ways, you would be astounded by how much of that was essentially true to life. Let's put it this way, playing Far Cry 5, if anyone's familiar with that, was a distinctly uncomfortable experience for me. So I did whatever I do when I encounter something uncomfortable. I played the game like four times in a row. [34]
No matter how outlandish a belief seems, it can be completely realistic in your world. Especially if you have people committed to it. I've had family members who've been in a cult at one point. That was interesting. So I've had firsthand experience seeing a lot of this stuff in person, and I used some of that in my latest book. [25]
How come Bachel is pronounced like that when it’s only one little line away from Rachel? The English language hurts my head. Because it’s not from English, and I wanted it to sound different from every other name in the series. [T]
Puce
In Murtagh I have a dragon who's not supposed to be a very nice dragon. I gave him the worst color I could. I have a puce dragon. And mind you, I don't necessarily mind the color itself. It's just for those who don't know, the original definition of the word puce is the color of dried flea blood. So it's a puce dragon. [33]
Traumatic Sequences
What was it like cranking up the anxieties of it, the horrors of it? It feels more mature this time around. Well, good. Murtagh is a more mature character, and he's always had a harder road to walk than Eragon. So, going easy on him was never an option, but it was hard to write. It's hard to put my mind in difficult situations for days on end, weeks on end, months on end when writing and editing. It takes a toll on you emotionally. At least, that's my experience because I empathize with the characters and the world. But at the same time, it's so interesting dramatically that I can't avoid it. Actually [the reason] why I wrote the book was that last chunk of the book. That's what everything leading up to was building and hopefully supporting so that when that hits, you're there going, “Oh my god.” [6]
There is a extended period of this book uh that is very traumatic. That is the darkest I think the series ever gets. Where did you find the line? Were there any drafts where you felt like you went too far with that section or where you had to pull it back? Yes. Not a huge amount though. First of all, I throw everything in in my first drafts, kitchen sink, because you can always dial it back, whatever it is. Even if it's a funny scene, it's like I push it as far as I can and then see how it hits the audience. So in the sequence you're talking about, there was one thing in particular I did that I actually don't want to talk about, that I cut out during editing at my editor's very wise advice, and I'm really glad I did. But that was a thing. Because I was like how far can I take this, and that was too far. [11]
Hopefully this is not scaring anyone off from reading Murtagh. No, it's fantastic. And I think just because it is darker doesn't mean it's bad. I think that it's honestly a perfect natural progression from the Inheritance Cycle to this character. I think it's what the character needed. I also don't think it's depressing, ultimately. [11]
Tell me a little about how you see Murtagh’s journey in this book. He’s certainly on a much darker road than his half-brother, how was it getting to write a story that has more mature themes? I found it enormously rewarding to write about a character who is both more mature and more complicated than Eragon was for the majority of the Cycle. Especially now that I’m older myself. Dramatically, Murtagh (and Thorn!) presented all sorts of interesting opportunities, and I did my best to take advantage of them in this book. Also, since a lot of my readers have grown up with the series, even as I did, I wanted to give them a book that would satisfy them as much as it will also hopefully satisfy younger readers. [15]
As a fifteen-year-old boy I would never have been able to imagine such a flawed character as a central figure, but I now view life very differently. And you notice that my readers who have grown along with me also see these extra shades of gray. [18]
Murtagh is indeed a more mature book than Eragon. Did you write it that way on purpose? Yes, Murtagh is an older character in the story than he or Eragon were in the first books. He is also a complicated person. And my readers have grown up with me in the meantime. So I felt it was important to write a book where my oldest readers would see my progression as writing, and read about characters they could once again identify with. At the same time, new readers should not be forgotten. That's why I wrote Murtagh in such a way that you can also read it without knowing the previous four books. I wanted to write a book that revolved around the difficult history of Murtagh and Thorn, but was still a fun adventure to read. [23]
If you love this fandom, why are you making us suffer so much with this book? I mean the ending redeems you a little bit but oh my god. I'm sure it's been an emotional rollercoaster for you too. There are parts of the story that are definitely very difficult for Murtagh and Thorn and part of that may be my own predilection for writing that sort of stuff but mostly it was that Murtagh has done some very unpleasant things in the Inheritance Cycle, especially to Nasuada. And he needed to come to terms with that, he needed to grapple that, he needed to face it. And there was no easy path forward for him. If I had done easy on Murtagh I feel like readers would have decided that I was cheating, going easy, and that Murtagh didn't actually have to face the consequences of his actions. Even if he wasn't a hundred per cent responsible for them at the time. I can assure you that, and I'll say this to other fans as well, after this story Murtagh is going to have an easier time of it. This book resolves his personal journey and Thorn's on a really fundamental level, and so life's going to be a little bit easier for Murtagh moving forward. [17]
Uvek
So going to Uvek, you've introduced another Urgal. I think that for a lot of readers, the twist on the Urgals in Eldest. They are not just beastial orcs or Uruk-hai or whatever other franchise does with them, Trollocs for Wheel of Time. They are this sentient race that wants to join the fight on the side of good. I think that that shook me when I first read it. How was it bringing another lead character really from that race into the book? And one of the things I really loved about the book is the scene where they're flying to the village, and they see the village of Urgals. And they're just playing with bows. They're just having a normal day. And he has this moment internally where he's like, "oh, maybe I need to be more inquisitive?" Uvek is one of my favorite characters from the book. I like the Urgal culture. I find it interesting. I wouldn't want to live next to an Urgal village, necessarily, especially since I have kids. But dramatically, creatively, they're really interesting to write about. And trying to balance them in the sense that they're a warrior culture like, we could say, the Klingons. But the Klingons take it to such a degree that realistically, you start asking the question of, how have they survived? How do they build a space-frame civilization when it seems like they tear each other apart super quickly? So with the Urgals, I wanted to show more. And in fact, in The Fork of the Witch and the Worm, the largest of the stories in that is The Worm, which is an Urgal story. And since I was looking at ways of exploring the idea of Murtagh and Thorn's relationship with society, being an outcast, all of that. The Urgals are outcasts in the land also. The other races aren't particularly fond of them. That was a nice connection to bring in and reflect off of Murtagh, so to speak. [11]
Typos
I just got off a very fresh reread of Murtagh. I just sent in typo corrections and a couple little tweaks here and there for the reprints. [32]
You mention in Murtagh that Murtagh's Gedwëy ignasia is on his right hand, but I think the community assumed it was on his left from Eldest. We're we all wrong or is that a continuity error I found? Typo. Getting fixed in reprints. [T]
Divers
I've seen a couple of questions about this, so -- for the record, "divers" is not a typo of "diverse". (Probably got too clever for my own good, but there you go.) Archaic language in fantasy books?!?! Say it ain't so! The language is half the fun. :D [T]
Not a typo. :D Archaic word. [T]
If this hypothetical typo is “divers” … that’s actually the correct word and not a typo. If it’s something else, just send a pic and we’ll get it fixed in reprints. [T]
CHRIS WHAT IS THIS? An excellent and archaic word. [T]
*sigh* . . . “divers” is a real word. Not a typo (and it doesn’t mean those who dive in the water) [T]
I mean, "divers" isn't a typo, so . . . That said, if you do find typos in Murtagh, feel free to tweet them at me. We'll get 'em fixed in reprints. Happens with every book. [T]
Heh. Good thing “divers” is actually a word (and it doesn’t mean someone diving into water). [T]
The thing I want to talk to you about today is Twitter drama. You've been getting in tons of fights with readers lately on Twitter. You've been saying some really awful and hateful things to them just because they're pointing out typos in your book. What's the deal with this "divers" typo? Yes, on the first page of Murtagh there's a word "divers", which is an archaic word that means many or a multitude or different things. And too many people think that I'm referring to scuba divers. So it is a fight worth having. You make up fake words all the time. You're a fantasy author. I think the difference here is that you've made up a fake word which also has a real world definition, a person who dives as a sport, and you've put it on the front page of Murtagh without any context clues provided as to how we should interpret this. This is a book that's part of a world that no one has read in more than 10 years. So don't you think that maybe you should apologize to your readers who have waited all this time for a quality product only to be let down by an "archaic" word, aka a typo, on the first page? Absolutely. In fact, I had a conversation with my editor about this before heading out on book tour and we'll be reprinting the books but we're going to translate it all into Pig Latin which should make it more understandable for readers. [31]
Reading Order
I didn't read FWW,should I read it before read Murtagh? I Thought it was a spin-off book. You don't have to read it ... but I would. It acts as a direct lead-in to Murtagh Honestly I'm finding it shocking the number of people who haven't read FWW. There's a solution to that. . . . (Why does that sound mildly threatening?) [T]
Even if you haven't read the other books I think you can certainly enjoy Murtagh as much or even more. [12]
Is Murtagh Book 5 in the story about Eragon/Alagaësia? Yes [R]
Murtagh is a direct inline full-length sequel to the series, even though it has a different main character. [1]
I just finished Fractal Noise last night, and when you mentioned in the afterward about another book for a certain Eragon character, I was hoping it would be him. Yeah, I wanted to mention Murtagh on the "Also By" page in Fractal Noise, but we weren't sure if Murtagh was getting announced before Fractal Noise got released to early readers. [T]
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2024.05.15 15:00 aznpersuazion Is Software Engineering a Good Job in 2023?

To preface this post, I want to give the disclaimer that like many things, there is not a black and white answer the question. I'm writing this as an experienced tech professional, and the information provided is based on opinion.
To start with. A little bit of history..
The golden age of software engineering(and similar jobs) is over. At least for the next 5 - 10 years. I don't think this is an unpopular opinion. The reason why between the years of 2010 - 2022, these jobs exploded, was because of the boom of the internet for commercial and personal use.
This is different from the dotcom boom of 2000s, where the internet was just starting and most of the products being created were for basic things like: putting banking on the internet, putting videos on the internet, etc.
The boom in the 2010s was related to the widespread popularity of commercial and personal products. Things like Uber, Spotify, and Salesforce. With the sudden increased usage of the digital world, there were MILLIONS of companies rushing to create digital products.
However, we're starting to see the rise and fall of some of these products, millions of startups failings, and less VC funding. In case you don't know, VC stands for Venture Capital, which are basically investment companies that give money to other companies to help them grow and develop, in return for partial ownership of the company.
As the industry began to mature, successful companies started to emerge, and many more started to fail.
The present day..
Software engineering and like jobs will continue to be important, and there will be a high demands for these engineers. Nearly every company will still need a website, a place to manage their data, and people to manage their hardware. BUT.. the basic technologies they need to run their company will become more efficient. AND there will be less research and innovation because the a lot of the trial and error already occurred.
We're in a weird spot where the demand for workers is now decreasing from it's recent peaks, and the supply of workers is now increasing because of how all the benefits of being a software engineer in the past decade.
This has really unfortunate consequences for any recent graduates or others trying to break into the tech field. There are WAY more beginning career people than jobs available. Which is made even worse with the amount of layoffs there are, where mid-level employees are now having to settle for entry level jobs.
What can we do?
I have two pieces of advice for people interested in the topic, or wanting to break into the field but can't. Try breaking in from a adjacent field, where you can get some exposure to tech. Things that data entry, analytics(this can be finance, supply chain etc). Then try to learn as much as you can from the tech people at your company.
The second piece of advice. Go into a different field. Software engineering is not for everyone. You have to learn and understand some relatively complex topics, and it's becoming harder and harder to be competitive in the industry. Healthcare, supply chain, and many other industries are booming right now.
Understanding history, you can see that certain industries will rise and fall. For the near future, technology might be one of the harder careers to break into. Something like healthcare would be that's expected to grow exponentially. The average population of the world is getting older, as less and less people are wanting to have kids. There will be higher demand for healthcare professionals and healthcare technology.
Do your best to review and understand these trends, and hopefully you can create a good life and career. Best of luck!

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2024.05.15 15:00 aznpersuazion My Top 5 Restaurants in South Florida/Miami Area..

Wanted to share my top 5 recommendation list. Having lived here for about 30 years, here are the best spots to visit, whether you're traveling or a local. I've included a range of options from cheap eats to fine dining.
  1. Chef Tally's - I've binge eaten at least 50+ jamaican restaurants, and while this isn't your typical traditional jamaican spot, this is hands down one of my favorite places in south Florida. I dream about the chicken here. It's always a candidate for my "what should I eat this weekend" thoughts.
  2. Mila Sunday Brunch - $95 for all you can eat cinco jota jamon iberico, black caviar, and a ton of other creatively prepared dishes. I've had a few of the other brunchs in south florida, like edge, novikov, etc. but this one gets the thumbs up because they actually have more unique spreads and appetizers. Pro tip, they have a cheese wheel pasta and mojito station outside. Did I mention the price includes unlimited champagne and rose?
  3. Palacio de los Jugos - this is a staple of south florida cuisine. I might get some flack for having this on my list, but amongst all the cuban and latin spots I've been to across Hialeah and Miami, I always find myself back here grabbing a meal for like $7 and juice for $3!
  4. Stubborn Seed - I haven't gone since they've gotten their Michelin Star, but I used to frequent this place. What sets the tasting menu at stubborn seed apart in my opinion is the almagamation of dish pacing, food sourcing/creativity, and lineup of ingredients. I don't think there's a singular dish that really sets this restaurant apart from the rest of the modern fine dining options, but more so a extremely well presented and curated dining experience.
  5. Anita Gelato. This spot recently opened in Aventura coming from NYC. It's not a super traditional italian/argentiniam gelato, but the flavor combinations are the best I've ever had. And it's not too sweet. My favorite ice cream/froyo/gelato spot amongst the hundreds I've been to in SoFlo.
Honorable mention goes to Kaeru Sushi for bringing great quality japanese food for an affordable price.* A little extra. South Florida has EXCELLENT latin american food(peruvian, argentinian, columbian, etc.), mediterranean, israeli/jewish delis, italian, caribbean, and much more. I highly recommend checking out any of the above cuisines. DM me if you'd like any specific recommendations.

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2024.05.15 15:00 wisdom_and_frivolity Buckler's Boot Camp - Posted every wednesday for questions and training

This post is to provide a place for everyone to ask simple questions and chat about anything reasonably on topic. If someone posts something worthy of their own thread, let them know! Like wise, if a thread is personal or answered in the FAQ elsewhere on the subreddit, point them here!

PLEASE READ! ☚☚☚
Got a question? This is the place! Ask anything you like!
Just wanna get something off your chest? Have at it!
Looking for resources? /streetfightewiki/subreddit
Don't like Reddit anymore? kbin magazine
Want to help? 1. Help other players with their questions
2. Apply for mod status on any of our projects
3. Request wiki edit powers! /streetfightewiki

If you didn't get a response in the last thread before the new one was made, feel free to post again!

FAQ:

/STREETFIGHTER FAQ effort time! create threads with similar subjects please!
Who should I start with?
Where can I find a basic overview of each character? SF6 Universe Android and iOS, Supercombo.gg
What does _____ mean? Is there a glossary? The latest glossary thread, iPlayWinner General Glossary, Infil's glossary
Where can I find character combos / bread-n-butters? https://combotier.com/
How can I stop being bad? For the new players struggling...
What are footsies? Footsie handbook, Juicebox's explanation of footsies, RPS footsies in SF6
How can I improve my execution?
What are 'advanced techniques'? (some of these are old) Option selects, hit confirms, negative edge and input shortcuts, input buffering, tiger knee motion and kara cancel, plinking, pianoing, sliding, double tapping, links and frame data, safe jumps
What controller should I get? Check out /fightsticks, they're more than just fightsticks
Where is everyone posting Avatar codes to copy? Check out /SF6Avatars
Where can I find replays of good players?
Where can I find good shows? When are they on?
Where are other fighting game communities? fgc.network and mstdn.games twitter alternatives
supercombo.gg wiki-like
discord list
reddit list
Newbie fight club
Faulty Hands fight club For people with limited motor skills
How can I get critique on my replays? You can post here, or make your own thread. Up to you!
What is the current version of the game? The current version is Street Fighter V: Champion Edition Street Fighter 6
New rules starting June 1:
Rule 9, No Duplicates
Multiple posts of links, video or discussions often would be submitted when new game news or a popular event occurs. To avoid duplicates, only one thread is kept and the rest are removed. An exception can be made if a week has passed and the content is still relevant.
Rule 10, Negative posts on other players or their gameplay must remove the username
Removing players name in highlight video is highly recommended. If names are not removed and the nature of the content can be perceived as demeaning, the content will be removed.
* If your post is a celebration of your own achievements then this is not required.
In order to abide by this rule, go to Multi-menu: Options -> Personal Info Display: change relevant settings to “Display Own Only”
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2024.05.15 15:00 ViFlowers More on Invisible labor

My tolerance for people misunderstanding me, or worse even villafying me, had become far too high during my life.
Always trying to understand and accommodate those who did not reciprocate. Think about where they're coming from, their POV. I usually even try to think to myself 'maybe they're going through stuff idk about' and not take things personally.
Thing is after a while, like 5 years, a decade or so, people forget you're accommodating them. They misinterpret the accommodations as some kind of entitlement. Get mad when you stop delivering what they've come to expect. Not what they deserve. Not the MIRROR of what they earned.
It's a phonemnon I've seen play out dozens of times at least. With people close to me and acquaintances.
See I forget, other people go start telling stories. I forgot other people have such shallow interests that they'll buy the drama. No question.
And THEN if they try to "help" - again THEIR WAY - but I don't respond appropriately they get upset. With ME. Feel JUSTIFIED to take more negative or even toxic actions.
Idk. I just don't get it. I literally can't think that way. I just have to rely on my gut.
Although yet another Pearl of Wisdom from the internet that inspired me to reevaluate my interactions with people:
Were they manipulative? Or are you easily manipulated?
I know for far too long being a people pleaser meant I was the latter. Acknowledging that has helped me a ton with my healing. YOU have to accept accountability for how you also participate in life.
It's my JOB to do the the healing WORK for you.
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2024.05.15 15:00 Sir_David_Davidson Show, Don't Tell. The Key to Creating Attraction!

Hi, David here!
"Actions speak louder than words." This is especially true when it comes to creating attraction. Since talk is cheap, women have developed excellent BS detectors for evaluating a man based primarily on his body language, actions and behaviors.
The first thing you should communicate is a vibe of comfort and confidence. Nonverbal ques and how you say something can communicate much more than the actual words you that you say.
Comfort and confidence in an interaction implies prior success. A guy who acts nervous, rushes his words and is constantly afraid of "screwing up" an interaction is communicating that he thinks a girl is out of his league and that he suffers from a scarcity of similar options.
However, a guy who does not need the other person’s approval, is willing to walk away, or at the very least not chase a girl or act desperate / hungry, implies that he has options. A guy does not actually need to be in abundance or have many options to appear attractive. He must simply show and display the behaviors of someone who does. This primarily done by him not getting overly excited, trying to rush an interaction along before a girl changes her mind, showing a fear of loss, or trying too hard to impress.
When it seems to a person that you are trying to actively and intentionally impress them, they may think that you are overcompensating for something else. Imagine what the behaviors of a self-secure, confident, high value man who had tons of options and was living in abundance would look like. Would he actively be trying to impress a girl he liked? He would simply make his intrigue in the woman known and believe that as she naturally gets to know him in a conversation, that there is no reason that he is not good enough. He would not feel the need to actively try to sell himself.
You can’t logically convince someone to find you attractive via your words alone. The emotions/feelings of attraction are better elicited via attractive behaviors which are harder to fake. And when it is created through your words, these words must be deemed as being part of an honest conversation and not only being said for the sole purpose of making the other person like you. Otherwise the person may dismiss you as just telling them what you think they want to hear.

BTW, I just finished putting together my dating advice eBook "How to Date Any Girl" version 4.0 and would LOVE to get some honest feedback from you!
I decided to give it away for free for the time being.

The eBook is 27 pages long and gives you a practical step-by-step solution to meeting women (15+ years of knowledge put into it).
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This book is the result of going out and socializing with girls for over a decade. I have put in there all the fundamentals I have learned over that time so I would really appreciate all the feedback I could get!!

What are your thoughts? Do you have any tips to add?
Let's discuss in the comments :)
Thanks for reading and have a GREAT day!
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2024.05.15 15:00 Homey55 Bumping my dosage

Been on 120mg (40mg x 3 /week) for a year. I feel like it has lost its effect for 4 or 5 mos. The first 8 mos or so erections were rock hard and lasted a fair amount of time. Sometimes though I was unable to finish but stayed hard. Levels when tested are around 750. I've also been on 5mg Cialis daily for 3 years.
Lately, I tend to lose my erection soon after penetration as if I've lost interest and takes a lot of work to get it back. I feel like I really need to focus to stay hard and finish. Something like being touched is enough of a distraction to lose focus. Is this a libido thing? High Estrogen? 58 years slightly over weight.
I know I need to get labs but my doc only seems to test free and total. I asked for estrogen a couple times and don't remember the number were but not high at the time. I injected 50mg vs the 40mg this morning. Is it wise to up my dose on my own to see how I feel after a few weeks? I've got plenty of test since I'm prescribed single use vials.
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2024.05.15 14:59 Dread_Maximus Tridef3D Lives Again!

Greetings ascended 3D godlings
Many of you may have been sad that your Tridef 3D powers no longer seem to work with steam. Inspired by a workaround created by Reshade Depth3D's BlueskyDefender, I have a very simple solution to get your powers back. And not only that, it technically works better than it used to since the friends menu is no longer disabled.
How? Simple. If you haven't added your games as steam shortcuts, do that. In other words, in the properties for your game in the Tridef3D launcher, it should point to the steam exe, and in the argument section is should have steam://rungameid/XXXX (where the xs are the appid, which can be found by viewing the url for the game's steam store page).
When you run the game through tridef's launcher, steam will restart, then crash. Fear not! For when it asks if you would like to restart steam, choose 'restart with browser sandboxing disabled'. Steam will probably restart with steam itself being in 3d, then it will close and reopen in 2D. BUT, give it a minute, and your game will run in 3D just like it used to. And yes, you can even use the friends menu.
You're welcome!
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2024.05.15 14:59 Token_Broker Why OG memes will be the next meta for memecoins

Memecoins go in cycles
Dogs Cats Company spoofs Politician spoofs Dogs WIF hats Cats WIF hats
And so on and so on
What dictates the meta is how memeable and relatable the meme is which is why you see a theme and so many variations within that theme
This is why OG memes will pop off:
99% of people reading this will be millennials. All in their 30s and early 40s. These people have more money now than during the last bull run. They have dreams of making it big from memecoins and will happily YOLO $100 when before they had to play it safer with $10
OG memes are memecoins they can shill easily because they can make memes for them easily
I'm seeing OG memes pop up more often and one will hit 100m sooner rather than later because the community behind it will be a bunch of dads selling their old BSC memecoins and putting it all onto a SOL meme that they like
Keep an eye out for the next big thing
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2024.05.15 14:59 MeetMaleficent8507 I don’t like being pregnant at the same time as my sister

Not many people know currently about my sister and i’s pregnancies. I found out from my mother that my sister was pregnant. Don’t get me wrong I love my sister and I’m happy for her but…I’ve always felt to be in competition with her and hidden in her shadow. Throughout high school I constantly had teachers trying to get me to be like her. She’s always been the one to get what she wants and pretty hard headed with things. Now I’m hard headed too but I never got things the way she did. Along with that everyone considered her the photogenic and pretty sister… we had the troublemaker(oldest sister), pretty(middle sister) and then it felt like there was just me..the little sister.
I really hate thinking that everything will be compared etc… we’re days apart on due dates…and both are our second kids..
I’m somewhat of a competitive person and having the feeling of my kids birthday party will always be a vs her kids birthday party etc is stuck in my mind…I’ve never been good at parties or anything due to my social anxiety and depression…she’s going to trampoline parks while I’m struggling to even grasp the idea of having a small portion of family over….apart of my brain wishes I never got pregnant even though I had been trying for months. It also doesn’t help that I’m over 900 miles away(military) and she’s right next to our family…
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2024.05.15 14:59 Maximum_Restaurant25 Neurology and Health Anxiety: 1 year in!

Hello all, it's been a while! Firstly, I hope everyone is doing okay, I know some days dealing with this can be ridiculously hard. Sorry for the following essay, feel free to scroll on, I just I felt I had post something to reassure anyone who is feeling how I felt a year ago today.
It was a year ago that I looked down to see my calves moving constantly. I had twitched many times before and thought nothing of it, but these felt and looked different. I then realised that in the last few weeks I had been getting other twitches more regularly. As I became hyperaware of the twitching, it dawned on me that alongside my calves, I was twitching body-wide, probably a few thousand times a day, many of them small and barely noticeable, but they were there. My legs were without doubt the most active areas, but this was (and still is) absolutely everywhere, 24/7. I then Googled my symptoms. The following 6 months were without doubt the hardest of my life. At that point I was absolutely convinced I was in serious trouble, and the intense dread and fear only made things worse. This forum would help at times but then when coming across fellow twitchers convinced of the worst case scenario only fueled my fears further. My posts will tell a story of someone who just couldn't shake their anxiety.
Of course I went straight to the doctor, who reassured me with a clean clinical exam I had absolutely nothing to worry about. At 24, an EMG would be a waste of time and if anything potentially fuel anxiety further. A few weeks later, I demanded an EMG - my mind was running wild and I needed clarification. It was clean. I felt so much better - for a few weeks. I'd never struggled with health anxiety before but here I was. What if the EMG was too early? What if it's something else? I'm twitching tens of thousands of times a day, this cannot be benign (spoiler: it can). Each week I was convinced I was progressing, that my speech was different, my strength was dropping. Back to the doctor again, and again. I demanded a Chest X-ray. Clean. Blood test after blood test. Clean. If you're also doing this to yourself, please STOP. Acceptance is SO important.
Then a letter from the hospital came through my door. One of the lead Neurologists wanted to follow up with me. Of course I shit myself. I thought I was in the clear? I didn't understand why they wanted to see me again. Reluctantly I went, and it was the best decision I ever made. He simply wanted to see how I was getting on, I sat down with him chatting for over half an hour, rationalising every single stupid thought in my head. He was practically shouting at me at one point: YOU DO NOT HAVE **!! He would never have even let me do that EMG if it was up to him. He said he sees people exactly like me every week or so. "Your worst fears don't even start with twitching. You're too young to obsess over this, life is too short to spend month after month worrying about something that will never materialise." He explained to me that out of every single patient he sees, whether it be twitching, tingling, fatigue, numbness etc... 50% simply have health anxiety. It doesn't mean these symptoms are not real, but the mind is very powerful and can single-handedly disrupt your neurology. It highlights the importance of making sure we do not let these physical symptoms take over our lives and our minds, it will only make things worse. He added that Google is great but it feeds health anxiety. You say you're fatigued it's MS. You say you're twitching, it's **. It's all bullshit, the worst outcome everytime, outcome that are a infinitely finite probability. Take what the medical professionals tell you at face value and ignore the noise.
He followed the discussion by confirming in a written letter "we can confidently say that this is a benign fasciculation syndrome." The penny dropped for me, as it should for many of you. I accepted this was my life now, and that was was 4 months ago. I haven't been on this forum since. I've got back to the gym, golf, meeting friends regularly and I'll tell you all right now this is THE BEST way to cure your mind. Distract yourself. Exercise. Within months my strength had rocketed and my golf was better than ever. I'd be lying if I told you every day was a good day, but I refuse to let these twitches control my emotions every single second. If you're suffering then PLEASE, you have to find something else to obsess over. It WILL change your life. Eat well, sleep well and enjoy yourself. What we deal with every day is physically harmless so just focus on healing the mind.
My DMs are open if anyone needs a chat, all the best people!
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2024.05.15 14:59 Jiatlkg Return to Dreamland Deluxe or the Forgotten Land?

While I could buy both, I'd like to save money and only buy one for now. Which one would you recommend? I've played both demos. I enjoyed the gameplay of both, though RtDD seemed much easier. Maybe too easy, but then again it is just the first two levels. What kind of challenges do the games offer? I'd like to complete the game 100%, what would I have to do to acheive this?
And if I am striving for 100% completion, which game would have more content? How many hours would I be playing, roughly? And which game has more levels?
I enjoyed the multiplayer in RtDD more, and the fact that you could play as 4 different characters. I believe tFL only has two characters you can play as? I don't know if that changes later. (No exact spoilers, please)
Sorry for all the questions, I just want your guys' honest opinion, as I want to choose the game I feel I'll enjoy more, and for a longer time. This will also be my first actual Kirby game, though I did first get into the franchise in about 2019, I believe?
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2024.05.15 14:58 Lord_Mystic12 How to create a multiple box layout

How to create a multiple box layout
Doordash
Im trying to make an ecommerce website, and like its shown in the image (taken from doordash) , they have those custom boxes for each restaurant. Now since there are a lot of them on the website, i imagine they cant possibly individually code in that many boxes, or just copy paste them. They probably have a template that is repeatedly added to the site which gets provided information for each reastaurant.
For my ecom website, i need to display all my products in custom layouts like this, and im sure theres a better way than just making so many boxes in the html. How do i do this in a vanilla js website?
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2024.05.15 14:58 LovePossumss Finally realized I need to apply for disability (SSDI) for my PTSD

Has anyone else done this? Any advice?
I’m about to apply for SSDI benefits because my PTSD and general mental health problems have made work damn near impossible. My overall functioning is not great either.
23F, I started working at 16 and since the beginning, I’ve had to miss significant amounts of work to go on medical LOAs for treatment; work just gets to be too much and it causes my symptoms to increase. I’ll work a few months, go to treatment for a few weeks, and the cycle repeats.
After combing through my medical records over the weekend, I realized that in the past ~11 years, I have been hospitalized or in residential, PHP or IOP levels of care 34 TIMES. That is absolutely insane. Within the past year alone I was inpatient once and did a PHP twice. I do outpatient individual therapy 2-3 times a week.
The thing that pushed me to finally apply for SSDI was that I had to quit a job that I mostly loved because it was causing me so much anxiety that I was having SI. I worked in retail (sales) and my interactions with customers could take anywhere from 5 minutes to 1 hour plus on occasion. Draining. It was a struggle because I have trouble making eye contact with people, I have no confidence, and I literally don’t know how to talk to people anymore (small talk esp). My social anxiety and hypervigilance are out of control.
I’m lucky because there is an organization in my area that provides free advocacy services for people applying to SSDI rather than using a lawyer who would take a cut of the backpay.
I know this will be a long journey and I’m feeling worried about it. Not bringing in income is putting a bit of a strain on my relationship with my husband. He’s a good guy but money will be tight and that’s stressful. I hate being so dependent on him. But my anxiety is too damn high to work. And of course my psychiatrist is on paternal leave.
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2024.05.15 14:58 Keylime-to-the-City Can I salvage my degree?

I didn't understand grad school, spent half my time getting high, and missed out on golden opportunities for research because I was arrogant and felt the research should be done my way.
I have 6 year old experience from undergrad that is good. I have some from grad school too.
Maybe I don't know how to market myself, but my entire resume is research and academia. I had a pipedream ambition to do pharmaceutical research and shifted from the human factors research I was trained in for animal and benchwork. I have an entry level job doing that now and realize I hate it.
I don't know what to do. I want to shift to grant writing, but my area doesn't have many opportunities.
I wasted my golden ticket. It's complicated why grad school didn't work out as optimal as it could have. However, I squandered quite a bit.
I peaked in undergrad and am educated and unskilled.
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2024.05.15 14:58 la-pulga-chingona How do I propose to my BF?

So my bf and I are in the 5th year of a happy, stress and drama free open-relationship. The openness has decreased, the past 2-3 years we were 99% monogamous if anything im the one that still has some hook ups every now and then. When I do I remain honest about my desires and actions and I feel respected by my bf. I want to propose to him this year and get married sometime next year. After so many unsuccessful relationships, so many father figures 😝 and a bunch of drama, I’ve decided its him who I want to spend my future with. We are however not conventional meaning there will probably not be a ring 💍 in his finger nor mine. We do not feel we have to live the straight stereotype couple. I wonder however how can I still make this special? Any alternative ideas to rings or gestures of love. He wont get a tattoo. I wanna make it special but I don’t wanna be traditional. Hope maybe some folks here have some ideas. Thanks y’all xoxo
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