Salutations everyone ! How are we all ? We better be good !!
I’m here today on the look for friends! (short term / long term) Here’s some interesting stuff about me !
Well I’m from Ireland and I’m in uni ! And I’m 23 I’m nerdy, heavily enjoy fantasy and grimdark settings, so massive LOTR, elder scrolls, GOT/HOTD and Warhammer fan. I play on PC (total war, arma 3, Hoi4, stellaris and many more ) and ps5 (Elden ring, battlefield) Im also big into history, specifically military history!! I’m a pagan
My fav food is a toastie and I love coffee n tea!
I hope to hear from someone soon and if you have read this far, no hey, hi or hellos, write a introduction!!

I’m in my early 20s and was only recently diagnosed a few months ago. I was properly diagnosed with ADHD as a child and that gave me some peace of mind, because at least there was something specific wrong that I could put a name to. But still I felt like there was something more wrong with me, and I didn’t know what it was or why no one else seemed to have the same problems - until I got diagnosed with autism, and that’s been genuinely life-changing.
I’ve been binging Taskmaster and finally got to Series 14. Fern easily and immediately shot to the top of my list of my favorite contestants, because I found something about the way she carried herself so relatable, but I didn’t know why until I found out she’s autistic too. Ep. 9, with her bottle opener prize and cat monologue in Munya’s play task, was what really got me, because they were so authentic in a way that I often find myself too scared to be, and yet everyone else responded so positively! It was the kind of thing I’d assumed would never be possible for me. I’ve had so many moments after diagnosis where I wondered whether I’d ever be able to “fit in” with normal society, and a few times when admittedly I would feel resentful for my autism making things so much harder. Even if I know for a fact that my autism is a huge reason why I’m good at my very specific job, which I love it because it feels like the thing I was made to do: that’s still something that’s hard to remember and appreciate when every conversation still feels like a puzzle I’m too dumb to solve, yet everyone else seems to have no problem at all and just laughs or stares whenever I break a rule I didn’t even know existed.
Having discovered it after listening to her episode on the Taskmaster Podcast, I recently finished reading Fern’s book, Strong Female Character, and it was so incredible to see a public figure describing these same experiences that I’ve never seen anyone else articulate. My childhood wasn’t nearly as tumultuous as Fern’s but the whole experience of seemingly outwardly studious and high-achieving, and so no one takes you seriously when you keep telling them something is wrong and just assumes you’re manipulative or bad when you’re mostly just confused or upset, is dead-on for me, and it’s unexpectedly validating to read that someone else has gone through the same thing.
All of that is to say: I’m so, so grateful that I discovered this book and have already marked down a lot of the resources it references for later reading, but I would have never known about it if Taskmaster hadn’t given Fern Brady a platform to be her authentic self in a way that made it halfway across the world to me in Los Angeles (yes, I am devastated that I didn’t discover her in time to attend her show here just earlier this month). I know that Fern sometimes lurks in this sub so if you see this, I’m so genuinely thankful for you being so outspoken but also so chill about your autism. One of the things I’ve been struggling with is reconciling how my autism has affected every single moment of my life with how I also don’t want it to be the only part of me that other people see; and in classic autistic fashion, I’ve already been looking to you and your book as a guide on how to do that. And thank you so much to LAH and the Taskmaster team for making such a wonderful show that’s so welcoming and joyful that it allows for fans like me to have experiences like this.
As a wise, Scottish cat once said, “We all seek meaning in our lives, no matter how trivial it looks on the outside.” Taskmaster may seem trivial, even ridiculous and insane, from the outside, but I feel like it’s also a stunning example of the importance of diversity and reputation because of how much it can mean to people in the audience, and for that I’m eternally grateful.
(I’m less grateful to TM for eternally traumatizing me with Mike Wozniak by ensuring I can never look at a casserole the same way again, but given the rest of my post, I’m willing to write that one off.)

Hello again! I’m not sure if you’ve seen my other posts about a fandom roleplay but this one is gonna be about any roleplay in general, fandoms included. This’ll be pretty detailed and I’ll let you know the parts if you want to skip ahead (I suggest you don’t). If you don’t wanna read all of this, then don’t. This was made for people willing to read blocks of paragraphs and maybe even respond with their own.
INTRODUCTION
My name is Hina. To know more about me, I hail from Japan and I have been an avid writer ever since I moved to the States when I was 11. My second language is English but I believe it’s been pretty good. I recently turned 22 years old and I'm female. Talking about age, I would be comfortable with you being 17+ and preferably at least 20. Roleplaying with minors isn’t a big thing for me, I apologize. I’m in the west coast, PST timezone. Let’s see.. What other information can I give you? I would say I enjoy skating, basketball, watching tv shows and anime, and reading. My favorite anime is Nana and Death Note.
GENRES + FANDOM
I am not looking for a specific roleplay. I would say i’m skilled in all genres. Sci-fi, fantasy, horror, apocalypse. All of that. Even slice of life, though that depends on what type of plot exactly. To be more specific on each genre, starting off with fantasy, I'm more used to high fantasy and mythology. I’m not that great with medieval, unfortunately. DnD based role plays aren’t really fit for me and I struggle playing with species like ogres. Just putting that out here. For fantasy, I don’t have any specific ideas.
Sci-fi is the genre I have more skill in. Most of my roleplays are based off of them! Specifically, I’m fine with all subgenres of that.
For other genres like horror and apocalypse, I do have some taste. I really like monsters and creepy things from the horror genre like vampires and all of that and I even have my own idea set up in older times dealing with vampire lords and hunters and all of that. I also enjoy eldritch type horror. I also like that one sun genre of it, like video game horror? I’m not sure how to describe it. I also forgot if it even has an official name or if it’s just something used to describe the horror genre. I like Resident Evil, so maybe that’ll tell you the type of horror I usually enjoy. I do have a developed idea of something more eldritch horror.
More on fandoms! To get some other things down, I usually only play OC unless the character you want me to play is one I know more about and I'm more comfortable playing. The fandoms I like in the more anime way are Jojo’s, Nana, Death Note, JJK, AOT, Haikyuu, and probably more. I’m well versed in the Jojo’s, Aot, and JJK fandoms but less knowledgeable on Death Note since i’ve only seen it once. Other fandoms i’m in include ATLA, TLOK, Harry Potter, Resident Evil, Marvel, DC, and many more.
CHARACTERS
I tend to use character sheets to describe my character, these usually consist of names, background, and personality. More so on appearances, I prefer using animated or drawn references than real life people. I enjoy good enough references where I get the idea of how the character would look like.
The types of characters I write are either the lone wolf type that has some sad past which leads them to want to join someone for a redemption arc or the bubbly character who is the one that brings the mood up and is usually seen as trustworthy and of that kind.
I like all types of tropes, especially enemies to lovers or rivalry. I also really enjoy opposites attract as a whole from either opposite personality or something else they would be opposites in. Enemies to lovers takes my heart, though. I love seeing the characters go past the urge to ultimately hate each other and/or go past their usual way of disliking the others lineage or upcoming.
REQUIREMENT
I think this is my last paragraph on the roleplay. It’s the most important, at least. Requirements. All roleplay searches come with them. Or at least that’s what I heard! But don’t fret, there isn’t much.
I’ve seen this as one of the most used requirements, and I agree with it. As someone who’s first language wasn’t English, I understand that you may not be great at it. But please, I do require a partner that at least has proper use of grammar and punctuation. You don’t even have to use big words or anything, just at least know where to put your periods and the placement of your words.
My second requirement is for you to be LITERATE! Please. I’m a big writer, I tend to ramble on and tend to write more than what I thought I would. (like i’m doing right now) I write multiple paragraphs from the starter until the scene relaxes. I also understand that sometimes writing big blocks of words every response is tiring or boring so I don’t expect it all the time, at least after the starter has been made and in more important scenes. Dialogue also cuts my replies shorter.
Please please please be polite in OOC! We may just be role playing together but kindness goes all ways. If we do include OOC, I enjoy talking about many things. My day, movies, games, funny moments and stories, all of that!
I think that’s the end to this wonderful journey of an ad about my search. I hope you are still here, fellow writer! I would LOVE it if you reached out to me! This wasn’t all for nothing, right!
But don’t leave yet! I do have a passcode. I know this was a jumble of words and rambling but I still have to put one in. I heard that there’s a lot of people on here that don’t read things fully and miss out on rules or information! But.. Just because you read through this all, I’ll gladly give you options on the passcode! Also please put in an introduction of yourself! Don’t think “Oh maybe I shouldn’t bother this person with too much to read”! I like seeing big blocks.
PASSCODE:
What’s your dream country to travel to and why?
OR
Who’s your favorite TV show / Cartoon / Game / Anime character?
Feel free to pick both! Now, that’s all from me. Please don’t put your request as just “Wanna rp”!

• H 💕

Hello, this is my first time posting, but I have always been a lurker. I am currently pursuing a postgraduate diploma and to graduate, I am supposed to submit a 10k word thesis on consumer psychology. I was highly motivated at the beginning and my thesis advisor really pushed my limits and I respect her for that. She made me apply to conferences and I started writing with publication as my goal. However, things started to change and I lost all motivation. I was horribly burnt out throughout the semester due to personal and academic reasons and now I have only 7 days left to finish my thesis. I am not on good terms with my thesis advisor now and I am unable to ask her for help. Since this is my first time writing a thesis, I have absolutely no clue how to do my data analysis. Also, I had psychology as my major but I don't have a pure psychology degree, which puts me at a disadvantage. My thesis advisor expects me to know everything and is unwilling to help me out, and I have no clue what to do about it. How f*cked am I?

Hello again! I’m not sure if you’ve seen my other posts about a fandom roleplay but this one is gonna be about any roleplay in general, fandoms included. This’ll be pretty detailed and I’ll let you know the parts if you want to skip ahead (I suggest you don’t). If you don’t wanna read all of this, then don’t. This was made for people willing to read blocks of paragraphs and maybe even respond with their own.
INTRODUCTION
My name is Hina. To know more about me, I hail from Japan and I have been an avid writer ever since I moved to the States when I was 11. My second language is English but I believe it’s been pretty good. I recently turned 22 years old and I'm female. Talking about age, I would be comfortable with you being 17+ and preferably at least 20. Roleplaying with minors isn’t a big thing for me, I apologize. I’m in the west coast, PST timezone. Let’s see.. What other information can I give you? I would say I enjoy skating, basketball, watching tv shows and anime, and reading. My favorite anime is Nana and Death Note.
GENRES + FANDOM
I am not looking for a specific roleplay. I would say i’m skilled in all genres. Sci-fi, fantasy, horror, apocalypse. All of that. Even slice of life, though that depends on what type of plot exactly. To be more specific on each genre, starting off with fantasy, I'm more used to high fantasy and mythology. I’m not that great with medieval, unfortunately. DnD based role plays aren’t really fit for me and I struggle playing with species like ogres. Just putting that out here. For fantasy, I don’t have any specific ideas.
Sci-fi is the genre I have more skill in. Most of my roleplays are based off of them! Specifically, I’m fine with all subgenres of that.
For other genres like horror and apocalypse, I do have some taste. I really like monsters and creepy things from the horror genre like vampires and all of that and I even have my own idea set up in older times dealing with vampire lords and hunters and all of that. I also enjoy eldritch type horror. I also like that one sun genre of it, like video game horror? I’m not sure how to describe it. I also forgot if it even has an official name or if it’s just something used to describe the horror genre. I like Resident Evil, so maybe that’ll tell you the type of horror I usually enjoy. I do have a developed idea of something more eldritch horror.
More on fandoms! To get some other things down, I usually only play OC unless the character you want me to play is one I know more about and I'm more comfortable playing. The fandoms I like in the more anime way are Jojo’s, Nana, Death Note, JJK, AOT, Haikyuu, and probably more. I’m well versed in the Jojo’s, Aot, and JJK fandoms but less knowledgeable on Death Note since i’ve only seen it once. Other fandoms i’m in include ATLA, TLOK, Harry Potter, Resident Evil, Marvel, DC, and many more.
CHARACTERS
I tend to use character sheets to describe my character, these usually consist of names, background, and personality. More so on appearances, I prefer using animated or drawn references than real life people. I enjoy good enough references where I get the idea of how the character would look like.
The types of characters I write are either the lone wolf type that has some sad past which leads them to want to join someone for a redemption arc or the bubbly character who is the one that brings the mood up and is usually seen as trustworthy and of that kind.
I like all types of tropes, especially enemies to lovers or rivalry. I also really enjoy opposites attract as a whole from either opposite personality or something else they would be opposites in. Enemies to lovers takes my heart, though. I love seeing the characters go past the urge to ultimately hate each other and/or go past their usual way of disliking the others lineage or upcoming.
REQUIREMENT
I think this is my last paragraph on the roleplay. It’s the most important, at least. Requirements. All roleplay searches come with them. Or at least that’s what I heard! But don’t fret, there isn’t much.
I’ve seen this as one of the most used requirements, and I agree with it. As someone who’s first language wasn’t English, I understand that you may not be great at it. But please, I do require a partner that at least has proper use of grammar and punctuation. You don’t even have to use big words or anything, just at least know where to put your periods and the placement of your words.
My second requirement is for you to be LITERATE! Please. I’m a big writer, I tend to ramble on and tend to write more than what I thought I would. (like i’m doing right now) I write multiple paragraphs from the starter until the scene relaxes. I also understand that sometimes writing big blocks of words every response is tiring or boring so I don’t expect it all the time, at least after the starter has been made and in more important scenes. Dialogue also cuts my replies shorter.
Please please please be polite in OOC! We may just be role playing together but kindness goes all ways. If we do include OOC, I enjoy talking about many things. My day, movies, games, funny moments and stories, all of that!
I think that’s the end to this wonderful journey of an ad about my search. I hope you are still here, fellow writer! I would LOVE it if you reached out to me! This wasn’t all for nothing, right!
But don’t leave yet! I do have a passcode. I know this was a jumble of words and rambling but I still have to put one in. I heard that there’s a lot of people on here that don’t read things fully and miss out on rules or information! But.. Just because you read through this all, I’ll gladly give you options on the passcode! Also please put in an introduction of yourself! Don’t think “Oh maybe I shouldn’t bother this person with too much to read”! I like seeing big blocks.
PASSCODE:
What’s your dream country to travel to and why?
OR
Who’s your favorite TV show / Cartoon / Game / Anime character?
Feel free to pick both! Now, that’s all from me. Please don’t put your request as just “Wanna rp”!

• H 💕

So I had this infp friend (27m) i met through a game 2 years ago.
We only know each other online because he lives in the Netherlands and i live in Switzerland.
We've been really good friends, then one time i vented to him about my toxic ex and other problems in my life and he kinda started flirting with me. I always just thought he was playing around or joking and i like him too much as a friend to risk losing him for a relationship.
I went mia for almost 6 months and then I contacted him again and everything was fine, we got really close to rach other and i started realising my feelings towards him.
The problem is that one day i was really mentally not okay so i left him on delivered for the entire day and the next day i noticed a change in the tone of his texting. As an ENFP i tend to know how other people feel just by reading their text messages and noticing changes in their writing patterns so I told him that I felt something was off and want to know if everything's alright and he kinda acted defensive. And then the day after we barely texted and then he left me on delivered when i was telling him about the fact that i had a funny dream and that he was in it.
It's been 2 weeks since he left me on delivered and one week since i contacted him in the game and he acted kinda normal but I have a feeling that he's taking his distance because i might have gave him the idea that i wasn't interested at all.
Yesterday I confessed through messages and told him that i have feelings for him. And because i didn't want to prsssure him i told him that I'm sorry if it made him uncomfortable and that I'll figure my feelings out so that i won't make things awkward. This way i left the ball on his side and he can chose what to say or do.
I still haven't gotten a response from him so I'm trying to get some advice from other infps to know if i did something wrong or if i could do something to fix things with him.

I am seeking someone with whom I can engage in deep conversations, exchanging thoughts on how we live our lives, our perspectives, and what we make of existence as we await our inevitable demise. I am looking for someone whose outlook on life aligns with mine, with whom we can collectively find the best way to live out our allotted time. Together, we will share our plans and goals, discussing our understanding of various matters.
I would be delighted if you, upon deciding to write to me, could explain why you chose to do so and share a bit about yourself, to streamline our initial conversations.
Some of my reflections and views on life: - I've come to realize that happiness for me won't come from having a big house, an expensive car, or even a family. Happiness, for me, lies in improving people's lives. Eventually, I'll die (like everyone else), and if I only live for myself, it would be meaningless—everything will go with me to the grave. But if I create something that improves people's lives, something that remains even after I'm gone, it gives meaning to my own life and brings me hope and happiness. I'm willing to dedicate my life to this, to improving the lives of others. - I'm interested in philosophy not just as a hobby, but as a necessity for determining the direction of life and how to approach it, understanding what to do in this life. - I often ponder the meaning of life in the face of inevitable death (because what comes after death greatly influences what to do with life). - I'm interested in what to do in life and how to spend it. The typical scenario of finding a job with good pay, buying a house, starting a family, retiring, and dying doesn't appeal to me (but I don't have anything against it). If you resonate with these sentiments, I eagerly await your response.

Note: as the original subreddit this story was hosted on originally has been shut down. I've decided to repost this story here in the Ripe Stories subreddit. I'm also updating it, and correcting it somewhat for clarification. I believe ripe read it some years ago in a video. but here goes Hope you enjoy
the background of the story starts in the late '70s, early '80s. My dad had just moved to town, barely going out with my mom. my dad was down on his luck and out of a job just moving to the area when he applied to a local Publication company. The company published a newspaper, a pair of magazines, and on occasion some large local event-related specials. The Publication firm offered Dad a job at the lowest level in the printing presses. Dad takes the job eagerly. Dad for the next 20 years moves his way through the various parts of the company doing multiple positions with always very pleased managers. Dad always went above and beyond for his coworkers (fills in for them no questions asked, takes overtime, and Volunteers for the harder assignments.) Dad made it to the supervisor levels but got moved so he could know the whole business in its entirety.
(Me, personally I grew up in the '90s and lived to watch this whole thing through till the last moment. I find myself thinking fondly of watching him work, watching him talk, and sitting in his office with his coworkers. )
in 2000 the publication company was bought out from a private owner and sold to a smallish publication firm. That firm only held it for a few years before selling it to the highest bidder, and so a larger publication firm took it over.
The new company starts by firing anyone non-union and hires new staff at a lower wage. Slowly the company begins to fire union members by using various methods. In that time Dad had seen a great many good coworkers be either retired, fired, or forced out. Dad went through a great many bosses. Dad had an older Legacy Union contract so they definitely would have trouble firing him. So the company moved Dad through varying departments and finally as a last ditch effort they move him to work in the distribution department. The company called it a horizontal promotion.
Dad worked in that department till 2011. At the start of 2011, Dad was introduced to a young new Manager, "The Kid" Dad called him. (Considering Dad's age, anyone could have been called a kid.) Dad was asked to train the kid on how Dad did his job so well.
So Dad took the kid along for a ride along. Dad likes to use the personal touch when it comes to meetings. Rather than over the phone or in email, Dad prefers sit-downs and in-person meetings with people. So Dad took the "kid" to varying convenience stores, salons, and just about anywhere the publication would be either displayed, subscribed to, or sold. Dad always kept up with new shops in the area so he could make appointments with varying store owners and have new places for sales. the kid stayed in the car or was more occupied with his smartphone. Dad also showed the kid how to do research and write up Projection reports. Keep in mind, these Projection reports were Voluntary (NOT REQUIRED), but the higher ups appreciated them and they also helped Dad keep his job.
Now each year my father would put in Bid for a territory in the distribution department. I should note Dad also taught the kid how to make his own bid. The bid itself consisted of basically how much it would cost to do his job (including operation costs, fuel, etc), and then show how much distribution he could gain over that year. He each year alongside his Bid would include his projection report as evidence. (for clarification: You wanted to have a larger distribution but for the lowest cost, as far as the company was concerned). The Kid Notes to Dad Hes gonna place a bid on a territory. Dad encourages him. Dad was shocked when he found out he was outbid by the kid for the same territory. the kid had well underbid my dad by 50%. The Kid's strategy was to use cold calls, email, and ads for new distribution. He Projected his sales to double over the next year by cutting staff and "needless" driving around. Dad knew the kids report was falsified as his figures didn't make any mathematical sense. dad knew the company lived on these reports and warned his higher-ups once he got to see "the kid's Projection report.
Since Dad's bid was rejected, the company used this as an excuse to fire my father. Dad packed his desk and left. On the day Dad was fired, he realized he never submitted the projection report to his higher-ups and since that report was Voluntary, Dad withheld the report out of pettiness. Dad found out through a friend/ former coworker, that the Kid was a plant from the Parent company. he was solely hired to outmaneuver my father. (nothing we can prove due to lack of evidence) He had access to my father's bid (the bids were supposed to be kept secret, only known to the company, not the distributors) and as said earlier faked his Projection report.
Dad was hurt, but dad decided to pick himself up and started a convenience store. In the following years, at Dad's former job, the kid messed up time after time. What the kid didn't know was two things. First was certain allowances like travel fuel expenses, Budget for buying shelf space, etc.. Basically, the company was paying Dad to drive to the locations and stir up new business. the second thing (and a bigger one) Dad had made a Prediction in his Projections. His prediction was that distribution was going to plummet. why? the app-based and digital-based market was growing. People were now able to get their publications on smartphones, via their email or read directly on their computer on a web browser. The kid put in another bid the next year and the year following. Each time the company went along with him and they lost more and more distribution. Convenience stores were no long going to be carrying any of their publications due to loss of sales and strained relationships. Home subscriptions were going to rival publications that already had a digital presence, and so the company was barely holding on. The publication blamed the kid for the sales loss, and for not seeing this on the horizon.
They approached my father 3 years after firing him, begging him to return. Dad said "absolutely no" to his former managers.
Dad ended up starting a chain of 3 convenience stores. meanwhile, his former job, the publication company, tried to stir up a digital version too little too late. the company is now a shadow of what it once was. Dad's last contact inside told us the following: you can't really find their publications in any convenience stores, The printing press is now in another state, The home delivery department constantly tries to fight with USPS for lower delivery costs, and the distribution department was whittled down to 2 people (formally 12.) They're down to a single magazine and a newspaper that nobody heard of.

So I went to school today on half an hour of sleep bc I had taekwondo practice last night and I had homework to do and tests to study for. Usually I'd be fine for the most part but I even had coffee and I felt like a walking corpse. I'm not joking when I say I felt like I was hallucinating on the bus ride to school. First period starts and both my friends and teacher comment that I look ill. They are kinda right and I get to lie down for a little bit before going about the rest of the school day. My friends suggested I get my mom to pick me up if I'm feeling ill but if that were so easy I wouldn't be on this subreddit. I initially sent her a text that I need a favor but I cancelled it last minute because I'm not eager to get an earful about my attendance or sleeping habits this late into the school year.
School day is over and I'm finally back home, feeling like complete dogshit, but at least I drank some more coffee and had a sandwich. Now the issue is that I can't go take a nap yet because I need to be awake to get the door for my 11 year old brother. I've mentioned this to some people and a few always reply that he is old enough to have a spare key and get himself into the house but I know my brother and not only would he lose the key in no time, he genuinely is daft when face-to-face with basic tasks (nevermind how awfully rude he gets when I try to help him but I've given up). I think it's around 3:30pm-ish when I feel like I've mentally checked out, and I dunno what happens. Time passes and my brother should have been back by now. The doorbell is ringing like mad and sure enough it's him, but the time is 4:30pm-ish. I'm confused bc I know I wasn't asleep but I was so exhausted that I just did not pay attention to anything, let alone the door ringing. He comes in yelling at the top of his lungs that I'm deaf and can't listen to things the first time, and that he's been waiting for so long. Turns out he forgot his smart-watch at taekwondo, the one he was supposed to wear to be able to call my parents, so he went to his friend's house to call my parents. My phone was on ringer this entire time but again, I'm mentally out of it. I pick up the phone call and my mother is calling from work. She's going on a whole rant, cursing and everything, that my one job is to stay awake and get the door from him and how useless and stupid I am to not even be able to do that. Meanwhile this brother of mine is yelling about how dumb I am. The same arrogant shit that comes to my room every night to pester me to tuck him in, the same kid who still gets his mommy to pick up his dirty laundry off the floor. He talks back to everybody and my parents encourage it until he does it to them, in which case they turn to me to tell me that I don't teach him anything good.
Anyways, my mom's going to be back home now any minute and she wouldn't miss this opportunity to call me every name under the sun. I've already barely ate anything else today and the thought of having to deal with her makes me nauseous. To further rub salt on the wound, one of my friends who said I looked ill already checked up on me to make sure that I was okay. How the fuck is a teenage girl doing the bare minimum of your job mom?
This rant isn't really about me feeling bad that my parents aren't giving a flying fuck whether I could keel over right now, I don't feel an emotional attachment to them like that and I think if my mom came barging into my room to ask me how I'm feeling with some stupid look on her face I would puke instead. That might help though since I'm really nauseous right now and I can't seem to get myself to vomit. All I'm saying is that if I chose to rot in bed for a bit to make up for shit health then can they fuck off for a sec and keep their thoughts to themselves?
And my lovely little brother, he's acting more and more like them day by day. I had sympathy for him since it felt like we were on the same boat but if he wants to act up then he better learn how to fend for himself. I swear putting up with his ass is like having to deal with a child that I did not ask for. I've seen the "magic" of children, and now I'm for sure getting my tubes tied when I'm older, I'm not dealing with this now or ever again. If he wants to disrespect me then he can do so after he learns to at least plate his own meals, put himself to bed, and not waste a fourth of his day watching TV. I still love him, and I want what's best for him, but my patience is on thin ice, and I'm not going to take the blame for his behavior.
And to anybody with younger siblings or little siblings on the way reading this, don't ever take it upon yourself to take up any typical parenting duties, because you can use all your patience and effort to be a better role model, but it's ultimately wasted on a brat who won't even treat you like an elder sibling cause they know crying to mommy and daddy is how they can get what they want. Seriously, it's a thankless job, go let that kid learn the hard way and focus on yourself, you're not the parent so you're not responsible.

• Thanks for reading my bullshit rant, I feel better after writing this. I gotta lock back into homework now lmao.

• How old are you? What's your gender? Give us a general description of yourself.
-I am a 17 year old male from England and I’m currently studying philosophy, sociology and ancient history at college.
• Is there a medical diagnosis that may impact your mental stability somehow?
-I was diagnosed with autism at age 12.
• Describe your upbringing. Did it have any kind of religious or structured influence? How did you respond to it?
-I am an only child and lived in a secular family consisting of just me, my mum and my dad. Both of them were very laid back regarding discipline. One thing that could be said is that they gave me too much unconditional love, especially my mother. This, in turn, resulted in them not really teaching me important life skills and independence for fear of putting me in harms way. Thus, in the past 2 years I’ve had a bit of an awaking and have become hyper independent to remedy the lack of life skills and lessons taught during my early childhood.
• What do you do as a job or as a career (if you have one)? Do you like it? Why or why not?
-My ideal employment, realistically, would be a teacher. I really like the idea of taking on a task and being able to enforce original methods to attain the best possible results. That process is the general principle behind a lot of my interests and teaching is a job where it is present.
• If you had to spend an entire weekend by yourself, how would you feel? Would you feel lonely or refreshed?
-I Would feel refreshed. I get really tired when I’m around people. I think that may come from the fact that I tend to put on an act when I’m interacting with others in order to make them like me. This is a favourable result as the more people you are on good terms with, the more likely they are to be a potential asset to your life as opposed to a possible hinderance.
• What kinds of activities do you prefer? Do you like, and are you good at sports? Do you enjoy any other outdoor or indoor activities?
-I enjoy topics that are synthesised with progressing my main goal(s). For example, I enjoy learning about mbti because it is a component of my main goal to understand myself and thus can help me achieve happiness more effectively as I believe this is the main assignment of life.
• How curious are you? Do you have more ideas then you can execute? What are your curiosities about? What are your ideas about - is it environmental or conceptual, and can you please elaborate?
-I would consider my pursuits of curiosity to be loosely filtered through what may be useful to attaining a personal goal and I don’t often get carried away with ideas that have no overall importance to it. I say loosely because I can’t be certain what will be of importance to my pursuits, so for this reason I sometimes stray a from things that I know will be personally beneficial in the long term for things that could be useful, by virtue of the interconnectedness of everything.
• Would you enjoy taking on a leadership position? Do you think you would be good at it? What would your leadership style be?
-I would really like to take on a leadership position. I think I would be good at figuring out solutions and assigning them to people based on an overall objective. However I do not think I’d be very good at leadership in practice. This is because I’m not very quick at making decisions. Thus, my leadership style would be less about leadership and more being a personal adviser to members of a team to ensure they are all going in the same direction.
• Are you coordinated? Why do you feel as if you are or are not? Do you enjoy working with your hands in some form? Describe your activity?
-I don’t feel as though I’m very physically coordinated. I often have to focus on my environment and my movement at the expense of deeper thought. I’ve never really resonated with the popular notion that walks are therapeutic and thought provoking. For me, they are stressful and prohibit any other thoughts than the ones related to keeping my movement and environment in check.
• Are you artistic? If yes, describe your art? If you are not particular artistic but can appreciate art please likewise describe what forums of art you enjoy. Please explain your answer.
-I enjoy art that operates under the pretence that art is a language. I like art that communicates meaning. The reason why I like this type of art at all when it just seems like, if communication is the primary source of my investment, I should just focus on objective language rather than something as convoluted and prone to misinterpretation as art. To this I say, art elicits emotion and creates an immediate reason to care about the message. Thus, making the point carry to greater extent.
• What's your opinion about the past, present, and future? How do you deal with them?
-Most of my time is devoted to figuring out how to get to a desirable destination in the future. By the same token, the present is also very important to me as it is paramount to the aforementioned goal. The past is the timeframe I spend the least time thinking about when I’m happy. It’s not that I don’t consciously recognise it’s value in being a possible example for the future, it’s just not something I have a propensity to think about. I really only dwell on the past when I’m feeling down.
• How do you act when others request your help to do something (anything)? If you would decide to help them, why would you do so?
-My main reason for helping someone echoes an above mentioned sentiment. I would really only help someone to build good will with them, because it lowers the chances they will be a destructive force in your life. Moreover, they are indebted to you for a time which is always handy.
• Do you need logical consistency in your life?
-The primary system of logic I use is what has utility to achieving a goal. I’m not too bothered about logic for logics sake. I don’t live in the details of subjects and thus don’t care about the underlying logic, just what has the most personal utility.
• How important is efficiency and productivity to you?
-They are both really important to me. I like to see results. I always feel unfulfilled by the notion; I probably could achieve x and therefore there’s no point in doing y. I might switch to this mindset if I’m burned out as a coping mechanism for me not being able to express my desire to be productive. But that just emphasises it’s importance to me if I’m willing to change my beliefs to avoid the sadness brought about by unproductivity.
• Do you control others, even if indirectly? How and why do you do that?
-I control others implicitly by acting overly polite and sometimes resort to people pleasing to gain favour with them. This helps with the fact that I’m pretty dependent on what others think of me and their perceptions of me often supersede or coexist with my own beliefs and observations about myself, even if I can logically reason reason them to be erroneous judgements.
• What are your hobbies? Why do you like them?
-As mentioned in the desired career question, I enjoy hobbies that revolve around implementing original strategies to attain a desirable outcome. Because of this, I enjoy strategy games such total war and chess. once again, as mentioned previously another reason why I enjoy some hobbies is because they contribute to a larger goal. Such as my interest for mbti because, it allows me to understand myself, so I know how best to attain happiness and in turn, fulfil what I consider to be the primary objective of life in its most general form.
• What is your learning style? What kind of learning environments do you struggle with most? Why do you like/struggle with these learning styles? Do you prefer classes involving memorization, logic, creativity, or your physical senses?

• I get along fine with the typical learning environment of a classroom lecture. So long as the teacher is charismatic I can let my mind put on a stage performance of what’s being said and I tend to remember those quite well as my it forces me to filter everything through my own perceptions which results in personal meaning being attached to them and thus increases the likelihood I’ll remember the content of the lesson. However, I dislike when you are made to do an abundance of preselected and linear worksheets. I just like making notes with loads of arrows connecting everything. This helps me remember stuff because it displays how it’s all relevant to a bigger concept and doesn’t allow for stuff that isn’t connected to be written down so it filters out unimportant stuff.

• How good are you at strategizing? Do you easily break up projects into manageable tasks? Or do you have a tendency to wing projects and improvise as you go?
-I prefer to have a plan before action. I like to feel as though most things have been decided beforehand and I’m just reading off a to do list written by past me.
• What are your aspirations in life, professionally and personally?
-My professional aspirations are a means to an end. I want to get a job that I enjoy, is stable and provides an income, in the hope that I can stop thinking so much about it and can focus on the more personal aspects of life. Like figuring out how best to achieve happiness after I’ve stabilised my external life.
• What are your fears? What makes you uncomfortable? What do you hate? Why?
-I really fear upsetting people. Partly because I’m scared of how they will react. Especially in ways that could de-stabilise my life. Moreover, as I mentioned previously, I unfortunately have a propensity to need gratification from others and if I upset people I might begin to feel insecure in myself. A lot of what I do can be chalked up to an attempt to attain the admiration of others. I also fear not being able to make my plans and goals come into fruition.
• What do the "highs" in your life look like?
-The highs in my life often involve a dedication to a goal that gets me up every day. I’ll constantly be excited to get one step closer to achieving it. The goal when I’m happy revolves around a more thought out desire for the long term. Furthermore, this is accompanied by a disregard for the appearance of things. In these times I just focus on the character of things and perceive things through a lenses of principles and ideas. Moreover, the type of gratification I seek revolves around my capacity to think.
• What do the "lows" in your life look like?
-By contrast, my lows are aimless at best and destructive at worst. When Im considering the future in these moments I tend to forget about happiness and in turn have a bleak outlook on the future. This leads me to being generally quite unproductive. My gratification seeking becomes much more shallow aswell. It tends to revolve more around appearance and wanting others to view me as attractive. As a result of this I developed anorexia as a byproduct of trying to look more attractive in a period of stress. Moreover, it gave me something to control as I feel an excessive need to do this when I’m stressed.
• How attached are you to reality? Do you daydream often, or do you pay attention to what's around you? If you do daydream, are you aware of your surroundings while you do so?
-I do daydream, Though not as much as I used to. When I daydream it’s usually to test how something I wish to do might go if I were to do it.
• Imagine you are alone in a blank, empty room. There is nothing for you to do and no one to talk to. What do you think about?
-I would consider the main reason for my beliefs again and make updates to it that would eventually trickle down to actionable changes. If I didn’t manage to find any faults in my beliefs and principles of conduct I would keep my goal the same and think about things I could do to achieve it.
• How long do you take to make an important decision? And do you change your mind once you've made it?
-It usually takes me a little while to come to a decision, particularly if it has long term consequences, as I like to look at the external factors and see if they would suit me internally and/or if it would be beneficial to me in the future. Once I’ve come to a decision on a matter, ideologically I think it is best to stick to it because you can maximise the benefits that a particular path can provide. However, if the evidence changes and it contradicts the original reason for making the decision I will change my mind.
• How long do you take to process your emotions? How important are emotions in your life?
-It usually takes me a while to figure out my emotions. They often appear feint and undefined even though I know there’s something there. When I felt really down for months I couldn’t seem to validate my own emotions. To remedy this I tried to keep a journal collecting statistics including whether I cried, how many times? For how long? Have you self harmed in any way? this created a picture from which I could derive a conclusion. However, I have recently begun to value emotions much more than I did. Previously, I would’ve consciously neglected them. However, ever since I developed anorexia and had a really long period of time where I felt negative emotions I realise how powerful they are and how they must be utilised in your favour otherwise life wouldn’t be worth living.
• Do you ever catch yourself agreeing with others just to appease them and keep the conversation going? How often? Why?
-This is something I do quite often with people I’m not acquainted with, as I value the utility of a social connection more than convincing a few people of my beliefs. However, it happens less with people who I know well enough to comfortably make the assertion that an ideological disagreement wouldn’t jeopardise the relationship.
• Do you break rules often? Do you think authority should be challenged, or that they know better? If you do break rules, why?
-I avoid rule breaking that could lead to excessive repercussions. Since I purvey my conduct with the main intention of long term personal fulfilment some consequences that impede this mean that I generally obey rules. However if the consequences are avoidable and/or inconsequential I have no problem breaking those rules. Like cheating in exams for example.

Holy shit listening to the mischaracterization of Destiny by Wizecrack (idk his name and I will be referring to him as Wizecrack) genuinely has my blood preassure increasing.
Kind of a new listener here. I started tuning in about a month ago but my perception of the world has changed pretty significantly since becoming a Destiny fan.
The primary thing that inspired me to write this is I heard Wizecrack say is that Destiny is leading people to believe that politics is simply being angry/unhappy online. As someone who used to be a leftist, I used to hold the opinion that America BAD and socialism GOOD, which I can see in hindsight was such a privileged perspective for me to hold as someone who’s family immigrated from a far less developed nation and made an incredible life for themselves here in the US. I also was rarely engaging with anyone that wasn’t parroting my own world view and automatically wrote off those with dissenting opinion because I wasn’t willing to awknowlege that the vast majority of people are probably good faith and are only expressing what they believe is the best possible solution to a situation.
In the last month I’ve begun to be much more interested in hearing various perspectives as long as they seem to have a solid factual backing. I’ve come to love America again and feel so grateful for the amazing opportunities it has granted me. It’s not perfect, but it’s so far from the terrible world people seem to love to make it out to be, and I feel a little embarrassed that I ever convinced myself it was bad when I really should have known better having come from something so much worse.
I feel like I’m a genuinely happier and more empathetic individual then I have been for the last couple years and that has happened through a mix of engaging with debates and listening to the livestreams. I can’t exaggerate how grateful I am for Destiny because engaging with his content has had such a valuable impact on my life.

First exposure to the extended universe outside of the Halo wiki. Also my first ever audiobook.
I haven't read fiction in a very long time so I don't know what makes a "good" fiction book, but both the writing style and the plot are entertaining enough that I'm really enjoying the book.
The narrator is really good, I love the different voices he does. Hearing him go from Mendez's voice one minute to young John or Kelly's voice is funny but also makes the audiobook experience better, it's a bit more like a movie with my eyes closed, than a book.
The book does a really good job of fleshing out the Halo universe. Very surprising given that this was the first Halo novel and they didn't have any prior worldbuilding to go off of. I don't know how much of this was Nylund on his own, or how much Bungie helped with, but it's very well thought out. The military sci-fi/futuristic technology is presented very well and feels realistic, even though I know most of the technology stuff is obviously BS.
Sam was introduced a few chapters ago, I already like his character but I know what happens to him in the end :(

You know damn well who i am talking about. Fucking Jake. I cannot do this anymore. I hate how the writers clearly favor JAKE any other contestant. He is a 26(corrected thanks to a comment) year old something man that behaves like the biggest child drama queen ever. Every chance of redemption is lost in my eyes, it is too late. Firstly, i hate how the writers shift that Jake is a precious little teddy bear and that Tom is the abuser ok? Ashley blames him for how he treated Jake, bruh? really? If the guy i trusted that I SACRIFICED THE TOTEM FOR IS THE VOTE THAT GOT ME OUT, and then is still not over me, I would non-ironically make up a fake boyfriend to leave me alone. Can we please stop? Jake was as bad if not worse than Tom but if you look closely the writers just try to make Jake likable in front of the audience. Pairing him with a fan favorite? Suddenly all the fault is on Tom? Huge victim complex like gaslighting? If feels like in my eyes the writers cannot comprehend their favorite character to be disliked by the audience. And don't get me started on his fanbase, i will be honest Ellie is my favorite and even she has some crazy fans. But the loudest Jake fans praise him atp for opening a door. They praise him for stuff that they altered. 'He is turning good because he didn't believe Fiore's manipulation' no! he did, he was 100% on the Ally boot train, Ashley had to convince him. And the final straw is that he already had a season in which he was the main focus, there are characters that never shined in their respective season yet characters that were the center of attention are again important. I wanted to share this for a long time but the writing favor Jake wayyyyy too much. Thank you and have a good night. ps: I tried to not make it like a rant but i was too annoyed by him.

I'm confused about my sexuality, like really confused, and scared. I didn't know who else to ask and Google wasn't being too helpful, so I turned to this page.
I apologize in advance. this is going to be a long rollercoaster.
TW: one mention of SA, slight mention of seggsual life (to figure out if I might be asexual or not)
I'm 20 years old and a CIS woman. I always thought that wishing to be born a boy or fantasizing about being a boy was common. As well as finding women attractive and fantasizing about dating one. I've always had these thoughts since elementary, but being raised in a strict Hispanic household, it wasn't an option.
I've lived my life like that for the past years. I have always done my best to be an ally for the community and understand everyone. I got into a relationship with a CIS man as well, so writing all of this feels wrong. But, I think I should understand whatever is going on with me.
However, recently I have started questioning everything about my life and how I see myself. I first started to wonder if I might be bisexual, but then I started being scared I might be comphet... To add on, I started to feel confused about my body and my gender... and the fact that I could either be asexual or just lose spark with my partner.
I guess to start, there have been many times I felt my heart beat faster when I was around girls I found attractive. One of them being my close friend of 5 years. I have found women attractive, most of the time I thought it was jealousy, but I think I noticed now it was attraction... I have found guys attractive and had crushes on boys from school, but I feel like most of the time, it would happen AFTER someone would point out that they were cute. I mean, I have had my heart beat fast around boys too, so it's more confusing. I guess the only person that it didn't feel forced with is my current partner. But I'm not sure if it has always been like that. Apart from my partner, everyone else I had a crush on would only happen after someone mentioned they were good-looking or that everyone was crushing on them.
The only ones that would come naturally were fictional characters and celebrities. Not even the celebrities themselves, it was their character all the time. I'm not sure if that is important information, but I guess those were the only times it felt genuine. I mean, I could ramble about them.
As well, I like being a girl at times. Like, I love dresses and all of that. But, I can't deny sometimes I want to have a flatter chest or something different down there. Or having people wonder if I'm a girl or a guy. As well, the way I tend to dress is usually baggy clothes and rather tomboyish, but I'm not sure if that is helpful information.
Finally, I guess I used to have an active seggsual life and I was super hypersexual. But I got told it was probably a cause of my past SA. Recently, I haven't liked doing anything seggsual. My libido has gone down and I could go months without doing something. However, I'm okay with daydreaming and reading it at times. I'm fine with fantasizing and reading it, but doing it? I can't bring myself to do it. I feel gross at times. But I'm not sure if it's asexuality since I was active in the past.
I'm not sure if I'm asking for advice or help because it's all too confusing and long. I can't expect strangers to solve my problems, but I can't deny, I've been feeling so alone. It doesn't help the people around me are super religious and not very pro-LGBTQ, which kind of added to my internalized homophobia, I think... I guess it's more of a rant, but it would help a lot if someone could just guide me because I'm scared and confused...
P.S. Thank you Chappell Roan (Good Luck, Babe) for getting me through this writing this post.
Edit: My friends just told me that most of the time I would only crush on guys after people would start having crushes on them AND were kind to me. I guess this is important because I have always been considered a boy lover, but idk if any of that was genuine or was I just forcing myself.

• How old are you? What's your gender? Give us a general description of yourself.
-I am a 17 year old male from England and I’m currently studying philosophy, sociology and ancient history at college.
• Is there a medical diagnosis that may impact your mental stability somehow?
-I was diagnosed with autism at age 12.
• Describe your upbringing. Did it have any kind of religious or structured influence? How did you respond to it?
-I am an only child and lived in a secular family consisting of just me, my mum and my dad. Both of them were very laid back regarding discipline. One thing that could be said is that they gave me too much unconditional love, especially my mother. This, in turn, resulted in them not really teaching me important life skills and independence for fear of putting me in harms way. Thus, in the past 2 years I’ve had a bit of an awaking and have become hyper independent to remedy the lack of life skills and lessons taught during my early childhood.
• What do you do as a job or as a career (if you have one)? Do you like it? Why or why not?
-My ideal employment, realistically, would be a teacher. I really like the idea of taking on a task and being able to enforce original methods to attain the best possible results. That process is the general principle behind a lot of my interests and teaching is a job where it is present.
• If you had to spend an entire weekend by yourself, how would you feel? Would you feel lonely or refreshed?
-I Would feel refreshed. I get really tired when I’m around people. I think that may come from the fact that I tend to put on an act when I’m interacting with others in order to make them like me. This is a favourable result as the more people you are on good terms with, the more likely they are to be a potential asset to your life as opposed to a possible hinderance.
• What kinds of activities do you prefer? Do you like, and are you good at sports? Do you enjoy any other outdoor or indoor activities?
-I enjoy topics that are synthesised with progressing my main goal(s). For example, I enjoy learning about mbti because it is a component of my main goal to understand myself and thus can help me achieve happiness more effectively as I believe this is the main assignment of life.
• How curious are you? Do you have more ideas then you can execute? What are your curiosities about? What are your ideas about - is it environmental or conceptual, and can you please elaborate?
-I would consider my pursuits of curiosity to be loosely filtered through what may be useful to attaining a personal goal and I don’t often get carried away with ideas that have no overall importance to it. I say loosely because I can’t be certain what will be of importance to my pursuits, so for this reason I sometimes stray a from things that I know will be personally beneficial in the long term for things that could be useful, by virtue of the interconnectedness of everything.
• Would you enjoy taking on a leadership position? Do you think you would be good at it? What would your leadership style be?
-I would really like to take on a leadership position. I think I would be good at figuring out solutions and assigning them to people based on an overall objective. However I do not think I’d be very good at leadership in practice. This is because I’m not very quick at making decisions. Thus, my leadership style would be less about leadership and more being a personal adviser to members of a team to ensure they are all going in the same direction.
• Are you coordinated? Why do you feel as if you are or are not? Do you enjoy working with your hands in some form? Describe your activity?
-I don’t feel as though I’m very physically coordinated. I often have to focus on my environment and my movement at the expense of deeper thought. I’ve never really resonated with the popular notion that walks are therapeutic and thought provoking. For me, they are stressful and prohibit any other thoughts than the ones related to keeping my movement and environment in check.
• Are you artistic? If yes, describe your art? If you are not particular artistic but can appreciate art please likewise describe what forums of art you enjoy. Please explain your answer.
-I enjoy art that operates under the pretence that art is a language. I like art that communicates meaning. The reason why I like this type of art at all when it just seems like, if communication is the primary source of my investment, I should just focus on objective language rather than something as convoluted and prone to misinterpretation as art. To this I say, art elicits emotion and creates an immediate reason to care about the message. Thus, making the point carry to greater extent.
• What's your opinion about the past, present, and future? How do you deal with them?
-Most of my time is devoted to figuring out how to get to a desirable destination in the future. By the same token, the present is also very important to me as it is paramount to the aforementioned goal. The past is the timeframe I spend the least time thinking about when I’m happy. It’s not that I don’t consciously recognise it’s value in being a possible example for the future, it’s just not something I have a propensity to think about. I really only dwell on the past when I’m feeling down.
• How do you act when others request your help to do something (anything)? If you would decide to help them, why would you do so?
-My main reason for helping someone echoes an above mentioned sentiment. I would really only help someone to build good will with them, because it lowers the chances they will be a destructive force in your life. Moreover, they are indebted to you for a time which is always handy.
• Do you need logical consistency in your life?
-The primary system of logic I use is what has utility to achieving a goal. I’m not too bothered about logic for logics sake. I don’t live in the details of subjects and thus don’t care about the underlying logic, just what has the most personal utility.
• How important is efficiency and productivity to you?
-They are both really important to me. I like to see results. I always feel unfulfilled by the notion; I probably could achieve x and therefore there’s no point in doing y. I might switch to this mindset if I’m burned out as a coping mechanism for me not being able to express my desire to be productive. But that just emphasises it’s importance to me if I’m willing to change my beliefs to avoid the sadness brought about by unproductivity.
• Do you control others, even if indirectly? How and why do you do that?
-I control others implicitly by acting overly polite and sometimes resort to people pleasing to gain favour with them. This helps with the fact that I’m pretty dependent on what others think of me and their perceptions of me often supersede or coexist with my own beliefs and observations about myself, even if I can logically reason reason them to be erroneous judgements.
• What are your hobbies? Why do you like them?
-As mentioned in the desired career question, I enjoy hobbies that revolve around implementing original strategies to attain a desirable outcome. Because of this, I enjoy strategy games such total war and chess. once again, as mentioned previously another reason why I enjoy some hobbies is because they contribute to a larger goal. Such as my interest for mbti because, it allows me to understand myself, so I know how best to attain happiness and in turn, fulfil what I consider to be the primary objective of life in its most general form.
• What is your learning style? What kind of learning environments do you struggle with most? Why do you like/struggle with these learning styles? Do you prefer classes involving memorization, logic, creativity, or your physical senses?

• I get along fine with the typical learning environment of a classroom lecture. So long as the teacher is charismatic I can let my mind put on a stage performance of what’s being said and I tend to remember those quite well as my it forces me to filter everything through my own perceptions which results in personal meaning being attached to them and thus increases the likelihood I’ll remember the content of the lesson. However, I dislike when you are made to do an abundance of preselected and linear worksheets. I just like making notes with loads of arrows connecting everything. This helps me remember stuff because it displays how it’s all relevant to a bigger concept and doesn’t allow for stuff that isn’t connected to be written down so it filters out unimportant stuff.

• How good are you at strategizing? Do you easily break up projects into manageable tasks? Or do you have a tendency to wing projects and improvise as you go?
-I prefer to have a plan before action. I like to feel as though most things have been decided beforehand and I’m just reading off a to do list written by past me.
• What are your aspirations in life, professionally and personally?
-My professional aspirations are a means to an end. I want to get a job that I enjoy, is stable and provides an income, in the hope that I can stop thinking so much about it and can focus on the more personal aspects of life. Like figuring out how best to achieve happiness after I’ve stabilised my external life.
• What are your fears? What makes you uncomfortable? What do you hate? Why?
-I really fear upsetting people. Partly because I’m scared of how they will react. Especially in ways that could de-stabilise my life. Moreover, as I mentioned previously, I unfortunately have a propensity to need gratification from others and if I upset people I might begin to feel insecure in myself. A lot of what I do can be chalked up to an attempt to attain the admiration of others. I also fear not being able to make my plans and goals come into fruition.
• What do the "highs" in your life look like?
-The highs in my life often involve a dedication to a goal that gets me up every day. I’ll constantly be excited to get one step closer to achieving it. The goal when I’m happy revolves around a more thought out desire for the long term. Furthermore, this is accompanied by a disregard for the appearance of things. In these times I just focus on the character of things and perceive things through a lenses of principles and ideas. Moreover, the type of gratification I seek revolves around my capacity to think.
• What do the "lows" in your life look like?
-By contrast, my lows are aimless at best and destructive at worst. When Im considering the future in these moments I tend to forget about happiness and in turn have a bleak outlook on the future. This leads me to being generally quite unproductive. My gratification seeking becomes much more shallow aswell. It tends to revolve more around appearance and wanting others to view me as attractive. As a result of this I developed anorexia as a byproduct of trying to look more attractive in a period of stress. Moreover, it gave me something to control as I feel an excessive need to do this when I’m stressed.
• How attached are you to reality? Do you daydream often, or do you pay attention to what's around you? If you do daydream, are you aware of your surroundings while you do so?
-I do daydream, Though not as much as I used to. When I daydream it’s usually to test how something I wish to do might go if I were to do it.
• Imagine you are alone in a blank, empty room. There is nothing for you to do and no one to talk to. What do you think about?
-I would consider the main reason for my beliefs again and make updates to it that would eventually trickle down to actionable changes. If I didn’t manage to find any faults in my beliefs and principles of conduct I would keep my goal the same and think about things I could do to achieve it.
• How long do you take to make an important decision? And do you change your mind once you've made it?
-It usually takes me a little while to come to a decision, particularly if it has long term consequences, as I like to look at the external factors and see if they would suit me internally and/or if it would be beneficial to me in the future. Once I’ve come to a decision on a matter, ideologically I think it is best to stick to it because you can maximise the benefits that a particular path can provide. However, if the evidence changes and it contradicts the original reason for making the decision I will change my mind.
• How long do you take to process your emotions? How important are emotions in your life?
-It usually takes me a while to figure out my emotions. They often appear feint and undefined even though I know there’s something there. When I felt really down for months I couldn’t seem to validate my own emotions. To remedy this I tried to keep a journal collecting statistics including whether I cried, how many times? For how long? Have you self harmed in any way? this created a picture from which I could derive a conclusion. However, I have recently begun to value emotions much more than I did. Previously, I would’ve consciously neglected them. However, ever since I developed anorexia and had a really long period of time where I felt negative emotions I realise how powerful they are and how they must be utilised in your favour otherwise life wouldn’t be worth living.
• Do you ever catch yourself agreeing with others just to appease them and keep the conversation going? How often? Why?
-This is something I do quite often with people I’m not acquainted with, as I value the utility of a social connection more than convincing a few people of my beliefs. However, it happens less with people who I know well enough to comfortably make the assertion that an ideological disagreement wouldn’t jeopardise the relationship.
• Do you break rules often? Do you think authority should be challenged, or that they know better? If you do break rules, why?
-I avoid rule breaking that could lead to excessive repercussions. Since I purvey my conduct with the main intention of long term personal fulfilment some consequences that impede this mean that I generally obey rules. However if the consequences are avoidable and/or inconsequential I have no problem breaking those rules. Like cheating in exams for example.

Intro

What’s up apes. In this post, I’m gonna write out a loooong wall of text to give my interpretation of DFV's memes. In my writing, I will defend my interpretation using examples and references to the memes themselves. I am not the end-all be-all for how to interpret DFV's memes. So please, tear me apart. As I watched the videos, however, I saw a crystal clear story emerge that I haven't seen in other posts as of yet.
I believe that his entire series of memes, and each meme on its own, could be viewed in 2 ways: things that have already happened, or things that have yet to happen. The meaning changes drastically depending on how you view it. Based on feedback from my last post, I've adjusted my view, and I no longer believe that his tweets are in perfect chronological order when viewed in reverse. I do still believe that some, but not all, his posts follow a chronological order, though.
Also, I use acronyms: KG stands for Keith Gill, DFV stands for DeepFuckingValue, and RK stands for Roaring Kitty. There is a slight difference between them!
Very much noteworthy: there are clear segments of this story - ACTS if you will. This is how I will separate my posts. I aim to make 4 posts
PROLOGUE ACT 1 ACT 2 ACT 3

ACT I

Post Hearing
Elaine Dancing
The music here is “One Dance”. This to me shows that after the hearing, Keith Gill gained immense attention - not all of it was good. His “one dance” in the spotlight elicited some wry looks from the audience. This could also be a reference to the old adage: "Don't Dance." (from The Big Short)
Aladdin
I am led to believe that K.G. is Aladdin in this meme. He is chased down by an oppressive force (whoever or whatever it is that is putting pressure on him to keep quiet). “Rip him open, take it back guys” begins the video. Perhaps K.G. received violent threats from viewers of the hearing, or threats from other financial entities that lost money during the sneeze. This meme shows almost word for word Keith’s new attitude moving forward: “gotta take the hint gotta face the facts”. Aladdin is viewed as a “vandal”, a “street rat” by the city - K.G. is viewed similarly by people who view him as a financial terrorist. He needs to “stay ahead” of the slowpokes, they’re quick, but he’s much faster. All of this alludes to a strategy to “lay low”.
Say something!
Reiterating the previous meme: The man specifically says “I prefer really not to speak. If I speak I am in big trouble. And I don’t want to be in big trouble.” Can't get much more direct than this.
It's Always Sunny
The meme opens with “Let’s talk about…” which gets cut off by Danny Devito saying “I ain’t talkin about nothin’.” This, and each of the cast of the show’s behaviors, simply reinforces DFV’s lay low strategy - radio silence is his plan. This meme may also have a second meaning - DFV’s radio silence might be taxing on him. It would be safe to assume that if he got a lot of heat from the hearing (for instance, death threats) that he might want to confide in a therapist. This meme might be depicting how this whole situation with the hearing was difficult for him to bear. The drawing that Dennis shows the therapist has GameStop logos imposed on it - I interpret this as Keith Gill feeling a bit insane trying to recount this saga to a therapist, or even just anyone he might confide in. How often are all of someone’s life problems caused by a "dying brick and mortar company"??
Newman from Seinfeld
Newman is Roaring Kitty in this meme, as evidenced by the text imposed over the dialogue. Here he is hanging with his neighbors and friends, when his friends ask about what he does for a living. George asks him something, but the text says this: “aren’t those the guys that always go crazy and come back with an arsenal of memes and blast everybody?” to which Newman replies “sometimes.”
To me this meme is showing how K.G. behaves around friends. He must’ve gained heaps of unwanted attention from that hearing - when having conversations about his casual life, the question of what he does for work must come up. This inevitably leads to discussion about GameStop. This of course leads to skepticism from his friends. Eventually, when Newman (Kitty) gets carried away talking about the Postal Service (GameStop) his friends need to tell him to calm down. Reinforcing the idea that he thinks he must sound crazy to those around him. Of course, there isn't anyone decent who believes he's crazy. He's an intelligent investor.
This is art?
Get it? Perhaps the painting represents K.G.’s madness for GameStop - and when he shows it to someone it appears like an abstract art piece, rather than a sound investment. His friend feigns understanding and appreciation to appease him. Of course, I could be wrong. The painting probably has some significance - it looks as though the red background was added on.
SNL Whatcha Say
I don't know enough to speak on this one. I assume it might be detailing a falling out with his friends, where each one backstabs the other? A more likely story is that it's SHF's passing the bags on to each other.
Sad Wojak
This is self explanatory, but in the context of the story, I interpret this as Roaring Kitty putting on a brave face even though he is really struggling to deal with his reputation, personal life, and line of work.
I’mma stick beside ‘em
This shows a video of a woman saying she’ll stick beside Roaring Kitty. Even though he might look like a run-down, down-and-out man, she’ll stick it out with him. This must be Keith Gill’s wife sticking with him despite the negative attention K.G. is getting. Thank god.
The Villain
This shows a man pulling out his phone to read some text in a newspaper or article-type publication that reads: “Roaring Kitty is the villain”. This emphasizes some of the public’s negative view of Roaring Kitty.
Tell Them What Happened!
This video shows a heated argument between Keith Gill and perhaps his wife (or his previous followers). It appears that the woman is trying to appeal to his sense of reason: to come clean and be true. The man’s words seem to cut deep here “If we run, I gotta live like this - I don’t even know who I’m hiding from.” This seems to be Keith Gill saying he is still laying low - he can’t risk speaking or else he’ll be in trouble. He then says “I gotta stay here, I gotta figure this out.” This indicates to me that he has a desire to get to the bottom of GameStop’s shorts strategy, despite the resistance he is facing. He receives an encouraging “so figure it out.”
And so begins a long car chase. During this chase, it seems that through cunning maneuvers, he is able to shake his pursuer, and make it into a garage labeled “exit strategy”.
He pulls in and parks.
The next sequence shows someone getting out of a car in a parking garage and assuming an incognito demeanor (hat tipped down, steady slow gait). The steady, driving beat emphasizes this. In the context of the story so far: Roaring Kitty has shaken his pursuers and he has found out the exit strategy of those who are short on GameStop. He is on the “inside”, behind enemy lines.
Jay Clayton: (hit the limit for links on my post)
This one was created on the fly, I believe. Not much to interpret - RK's saying that it's not his doing that GME's up
What's on the notepad?
His next tweet in line: In the context of the story, considering the previous tweets, this rugged bearded man seems misfit in this lavish, corporate environment. It seems like Roaring Kitty is the bearded man, and he has quote unquote “infiltrated” the enemy. He sees the man in the suit write something down - perhaps it is the short’s exit plan? What he came there to find? The notepad reads “Cohen”. I believe this refers to “Steve Cohen”, not Ryan Cohen. Because the previous tweet we saw RK infiltrating the exit strategy. Here he is now in their office. But… when he finds out what he wrote on the notepad, it turns out to be a crude doodle of a dude with his dick out (there’s probably a name for that drawing). Could this mean that Roaring Kitty found the shorts Exit Strategy, and after all, it’s barely thought out, hastily made, crude and poorly conceived? Of course, it could also be interpreted as anything else.
Don’t Fear the Reaper (SNL Skit)
I believe this meme is K.G. realizing that GameStop doesn’t need to fear the reaper because the shorts exit strategy is full of holes. It’s so full of holes that he’s celebrating by adding lots and lots of cowbell. The reaper comes back later in his tweets as well.
Going through bullshit (Everything Everywhere All At Once)
Ethos. This meme is establishing K.G. as a credible source. He is claiming that his practices are sound because he has the qualifications to back them up. He also sees something significant where others might just see forms and numbers.
Blood Bloody Bloody
To me, the change in tone from his previous memes makes me believe this is depicting those hedge funds who are short in GME. It shows how brave (or foolish) the shorts are to take hits, and maybe die (metaphorically), just to spite other short hedge funds. The car in this video drives straight into a lumber carrying truck, which turns at the last second to avoid a head on collision. Alas, the car and its inhabitants survive, to spite the car it passed as a result. The song is also significant: bloody usually means a “red day” in the markets, meaning dips in the prices of securities. This further alludes to the idea that shorts will do whatever it takes, even risk capitulating, just to spite, or get ahead of other hedge funds.
On the Bojack Horseman snippet: This represents the shorts having a clearly marked “EXIT” stare at them in the face. But they dont want to take the exit, they don’t want to drive out of the way of the lumber truck. They’re “not done”. Perhaps this is referring to a real situation that happened, rather than a hypothetical one? Which one I wonder.
What is Rock Really About?
To me, this video is explaining what the purpose of this saga really is. Sticking it to the man. Looking out for the little guy. It also ends with “you gotta break the rules!” Hmm. The next tweet ties into this.
Music Video
Take your hands off the wheel, the cops are comin, listenin to the music with no fear, you can hear it too if you’re sincere. ‘Cause I’m a punk rocker, yes I am. This directly correlates with his “previous” tweet about rock. In conjunction with the School of Rock tweet, could this mean that if we want to stick it to the man, that we have be fearless, and break the rules? Still unclear what he would be referring to though.
Can’t Stop what’s Comin’
Simply put, the SHF’s are powerless to stop their short positions from closing.
Wrestling
This video shows a wrestler going into a ring overflowing with fighters, only to beat them all with ease one after another. Perhaps this is alluding to a sole, powerful idea or investor, who is able to go into a cesspool of baddies and clean it up? Seems like Ryan Cohen is a fitting figure for this metaphor and how he cleaned up GameStop and turned it around.
Sicario
The character closes the door on a doubleyou ess bee character. Perhaps this indicates shutting the door on gambling. I interpret this as Ryan Cohen trying to distance GameStop from being a meme stock? I don't know enough about the media in question that's being used here, I'm sure it would add more context.
Busta Rhyme
To me, this rap is from the perspective of R.K., asking Ryan Cohen to put his hands where he can see them. I believe R.K. is very taken by R.C.’s GameStop strategy but wants to see it unfold first. For example, “if you really wanna party with me” meaning “if you really wanna make this company profitable, lets see how you do it.”
Only a matter of time
The song is titled only a matter of time. To me this meme indicates a long waiting period - Roaring Kitty is sat at his desk making memes, perhaps waiting for something to happen. This could be signaling impatience, or maybe disappointment even, in the lack of action in terms of GME.
Another Work Question:
Similar to the Newman meme, here R.K. is at a fancy party when he is asked what he does. He says he makes GameStop memes, which, taken with the context of the original clip, is kind of a throwaway answer, and something that the speaker doesn’t seem too proud of. His partner (wife?) chimes in saying “Keith could be a really great investor if he wanted to be”. He then makes a comparison between buildings being “disposable” and greeting cards being “something that lasts forever”. It’s clear that even the actor in the clip doesn’t believe what he is saying. We can infer that meaning to what R.K. is saying through the text here as well. To me this means: albeit regrettably, making memes is the more effective route for Roaring Kitty right now, because investment theses have fallen short when put up against the Hedge Funds who don’t play fair.
This concludes Part 2. I already have the rest of my interpretation written, I'm just keeping things digestible for apes to read.

TL;DR:

This next batch of tweets seems to be detailing how he felt after the court hearing. Although, it is obviously open to interpretation. The next "act", as I'm proposing, will detail his new strategy and demeanor leading up to the past couple weeks.
Like I said, I am not an oracle - I don't know exactly what DFV is thinking. But I wrote this out because I was seeing something that no one else appeared to be seeing. I very well may be an ape who had too many crayons for dinner. Anyway, thanks for reading. Let's chat in the comments!

The one that got away
So I don’t know how to start this but I meet this girl on a dating app and we were talking, everything was amazing even the first time we met up. She spent the night over because she was too drunk to drive home so was I was very hesitant because this person at that time was a stranger but we just vibe so well. After that day we just keep hanging out and exploring places in SD, I got to really get to know this person so well and deeply that we had so much in common, Music, ideas, etc. I started to like this girl so much but the only thing I didn’t like was she was talking to her ex still but for a reason. She had to pay him back for something which I thought It was totally fine but it started to get to a point where she was like “ugh he is just pissing me off and I can’t take this with him.” Also she would bring up certain things with him to me which I thought was weird to me because even though I knew they lived with each other about a two years ago and broke up a year ago. I never seen somebody talk about their ex so much even though it was all bad things about him but even still have contact with him. I would kinda tease her about it sometimes like “oh sounds like you guys are still together.” She denies it and says fucker I like you not him anymore but it got to a point I would say stuff like that out of concern which one day, we had a conversation about it and she said I would bring him up all the time. I never dealt with that before, so even though I know this is wrong I went on a the same dating app I found her on and was looking and I saw her sister friend at the time and I didn’t know the friend at the time so I swipe on her and we didn’t match but I get a call from the girl I was talking to and she was telling me how could I do this and everything else, which she is right I should of never done that. I just felt like she was so drawn on her ex and having conversations with him that I was going try and see what else was out there but after that we came to a agreement on just keep talking to each other. Months go by and we fall for each other, we aren’t in a relationship yet because I just feel so doubtful that it could work because in my mind she is still talking to her ex. She wants to be my girlfriend but I just kept telling her let’s wait because of the ex stuff, I didn’t tell her that but she got it. We have each others location and spring break comes, I don’t know what happened but my location stops working for her. I leave to go back home. She gets worried about not seeing it and wants to fix it and I tried to but it wouldn’t work for me even showing her that it didn’t but then I told her, I’m going be spending time with my family because I never get to see them because I play college football and she got that but it’s also my fault because I spent so much time with them and it was my birthday week so I got new things but I got crocs that had I heart N which was from my mom which represented my uncle who passed which his name started with a N but I kinda gave her slow responses to her so the break ends and she’s worried that I might have a another girl back home. I tried telling her I don’t but I wanted her to come over since I’ve been gone for a week and she had gifts for my birthday that past so everything was good but I had practice so I go to practice and I get text messages from my family friend telling me she is texting her on instagram and texting her on her phone. I couldn’t go back home to ask why she is doing that but after practice I call her and she is literally back at her house and telling me you lied to me and I know what you did and I’m done with you. She literally took an edible and drove home which I think is crazy but she is so high and I tell her on the phone which I was mad asf but had to keep my cool. What is going on and she says I have proof of you lying to me and I told her send it to me. She takes forever to send it but she does and it’s my crocs with the N and she tries to say my family friend is the girl so we go back and forth but then she realize that it wasn’t and says sorry for leaving and she also got in a argument with her mom but I tell her I think we need to just slow down we are just dating and you are doing these things. She agrees and we kinda slow down, after this she is still stalking my family friend but the spring comes to an end and I go back home. I hang with my friends back at home and she is still stalking my family friend, she doesn’t know that my family friend has a boyfriend and keeps looking at her stories and thinks it’s me so she jumps to conclusions and breaks up with me. I keep tryna tell her it’s not me and she keeps saying it is but we come to a agreement again and she asks me why do I still wanna date her when she’s done that and I tell her I just like you so much and wanna see where it can go more. You are the only one I want. Which is true and still is because this is fresh but about some weeks ago she tells me her ex and her been talking for about two weeks I didn’t know any of this but she already told him that she wants me and not him anymore but he didn’t wanna let go and she was just paying him back but he started to make conversation with her and they were just talking like friends but couple weeks ago he confessed to her about wanting her back and wants her to drop me and come back to him but they have a long bad history and she told him I’m not doing that to him, I want him in my life not you just move on and he literally pass out or something while driving because he wasn’t getting sleep or something and she calls me and tells me everything that went on and shit mad me so mad that she still was talking to him because I knew he would do something like that but he gives her a ultimatum of it’s either me or him and she told me that and tells him the next day I’m sticking with him. She couldn’t and wouldn’t go back to that place he put her in so after that I’m pissed off about that whole shit and keeping contact with him. A week ago, my family friends car stops working and asks me to take her to target get and I did because why wouldn’t I help so I do that and we are just laughing and talking then I take a .5 picture of her with my crocs half way in it and she posted it but next thing that happens is I get a text from the girl and she says fuck me, bye then blocks me on the phone and it hurt so fucking much like I still think about it and tried to tell her I wasn’t doing anything with my family friend but I was blocked. I start to post on my story and she just watches them and not saying anything and I don’t say anything as well but then she posts something about karma is coming for the people that lied to me and did me wrong which hurt because I truly wasn’t doing nothing. I didn’t wanna text her because I was still shocked that she would do that then days go by and she stops watching it. I saw she keep opening and closing her account on instagram so when she opened it again I like some new pictures of her then she texts and delete so I asked her what did she say and she said why am I liking her shit and I need to stop because my little girlfriend isn’t going like that like just being so petty then tells me I’m going block you on Instagram too so I started feeling that sad feeling and told her don’t let me just talk to you and I’m not even home I’m literally in a different state which was two days ago but I tell her everything that I love her and wanna fix it. I don’t wanna lose her but she tells me she isn’t changing her mind and I’m begging her because I truly love this girl but we come to some agreement of seeing each other Tuesday when I got back in the state so I text her and tell her my flight is going be late maybe let me stay over because I know her mom a little and her mom likes me so I said maybe I could do that and we can just talk but then she tells me that’s not a good idea and she isn’t doing that so I keep trying and trying but she says we can talk on the phone when I land so I said fine I’m cool with that. Side story when she did block me I had her YouTube still on my PlayStation so I’m looking at the music she is listening to and it’s songs that are just heartbreaks and I’m trying to put songs on her history and YouTube playlist so she can see what I’m tryna tell her but I don’t think she saw it but back to the main story. I landed and I was going to go text her I landed let’s talk but before I went on instagram to see if she unfollowed people because I just couldn’t stop thinking about her being with someone else even right now but I see she blocked me on instagram so I go to text her on her phone number and I was blocked. I had a whole letter for her and she hasn’t even seen it and it just hurts so much because I want this girl like she just matches me and it just happened two days ago so I am really hurting bad. I don’t know what to do I feel so alone but I just want her bad like what can I do and I know the story is everywhere but it’s so hard to type this out. I don’t know if anyone wants to hear all of it, maybe I can make a discord or something but I don’t know what to do and I don’t want nobody else but her

Usually every 2 weeks I make a post going over my initial reactions to the newest episodes of DCAS as they come out. This time however, I decided to do something a little different and talk about my thoughts on the first half of the season and not just the newest episode, which I'll also bring up here. DCAS has a lot of potential to be the best Disventure Camp season yet, but is that potential being utilized to the fullest? In this post I'll go over a few main things that stick out to me as a viewer in the few last episodes and I think are worthy of bringing up for a discussion as the season moves forward.

PART 1 - THE CAST

I don't have any issues with the cast chosen at all. There are a few characters I wouldn't call All Stars myself (Ashley and Connor mainly) but I can see why they made the cut over characters like Dan or Rosa Maria (+ Karol, robbed queens and king 👑). The production staff being combined from both seasons we've had so far is nice and I especially enjoy the addition of Emily. Let's talk about what this cast does in the actual season so far.

PART 2 - THE PLOTS

The great cast we have is given barely anything to work with. The merge is the perfect example of it as out of the 10 contestants who did make it to the merge without the comeback only half of them are involved in an ongoing storyline. I'll get into that in a bit but first let's talk about the premergers: - I'll cut James and Lake the slack as they're the first 2 boots coming into the season with no plot. Cutting them early set things up nicely and spared us from them floating through the game for no reason, - Miriam is also spared as despite being the third boot, she still served a purpose, didn't overstay her welcome and did exactly what she needed to do, which was expose the villains alliance, - My issues start with Hunter's elimination. He gets no closure. He comes back for another season with Ally who he has relationship issues with and doesn't get to resolve them. The show acknowledges this with Ally saying she wishes they could've talked things out in episode 6 and yet, this went nowhere right as it was beginning to be interesting. He opens up to Tess about it and so does Ally through confessionals and whatnot but once again, it went nowhere. Aside from that Hunter bullies Fiore, which while entertaining, isn't much. He was definitely cut earlier than he should've been, - Connor is a support character to Riya and just like majority of support characters this season, fails to actually help the character he's supposed to grow. Unlike Hunter, he gets closure. He cuts Riya off, is unceremoniously voted out by the villains alliance, gives a little speech and leaves. This closure feels rushed because this plot lasts 6 episodes and spends 2 (episodes 4 & 5), which are 1/3 of its time, on pause, then ends in the next episode out of nowhere. What was even the point of bringing back Connor if the one plot he gets isn't even going to get a satisfying conclusion? I mean, him cutting off Riya is satisfying don't get me wrong, but the way it went down is rather disappointing. Why do you think he's a top contender for the comeback amongst the community? - Fiore also didn't do much. She wasn't going to make it far, we all knew it, and yet, she feels wasted despite those low hopes. The one thing she had going for her this season was to reconcile with Alec. That's what people wanted to see and the show built it up and hinted towards that being the case from E2-E6 but they never do. I know they're on different teams but we saw them sneaking off to talk to each other, why did they not reconcile then? Why did Alec not even care when she got voted off despite helping her stay in the game all this time? The problem with Fiore this season isn't that she went too early, its that they built up her story for 5 episodes only to forget about it, eliminate her unceremoniously and forget she even existed. She had one job and she didn't even do that. At least she was funny, I guess. (I just saw that one Fiore greeting lol, guess the Alec reconciliation ain't happening 😭), - Ellie... What a waste. I don't even like her all that much but MY GOD did they do her dirty. The first half of the season built up the Gabbellie angst only for it to go nowhere. Ellie's story was cut short right when it was beginning to be interesting. When we finally get to see more of Gabbellie and have a possibility of an Ellie redemption arc or her going full villain or whatever, she's out the same episode, that mind you, she's not even the main focus of. She had arguably the most potential going into the season and I knew she'd be a premerge boot, but damn, it still sucks to see her be so full of potential just waiting for her 5 minutes to shine and never get it, - The last premerger, Tess, comes into the season with the intention of being a support character for Hunter & Ally who are on the other team. Instead she screws Ellie over in a failed attempt at being a support character for the Gabbellie duo. Her voting off Ellie makes sense for her character but ultimately not only cut Ellie's plot early but also justified Ellie's distrust in people. She's always sticking her nose in everyone's business in an attempt to help them out without knowing the full picture and ending up making things worse in the long run. I'm so glad Gabby called her out on it in episode 9 and didn't take every word spewed her way as gospel like everyone else. She was boring all season long and once again, like other premergers, she's eliminated in the same episode she starts to get interesting. I'm not sad that Tess is gone but she still could've done more interesting stuff with her screen time.
Now onto the production staff and merge cast: - Nina, Marcus and Oliver basically don't exist, - Trevor, Derek and Krystal also don't get much focus aside from the sidelined love triangle, - Emily got fired by both Yul and Krystal. I'm really interested in seeing how her plot goes and I hope she doesn't get sidelined or straight up forgotten, - Alec hasn't done anything since episode 4 and his story with Fiore was cut short for no reason when it could've been so easily resolved with a simple conversation, - Riya hasn't done anything at all other than be funny and give us glimpses of a redemption arc, which once again, is getting cut short for no reason, - Grett is getting fat shamed each episode by Yul and does nothing or talk with anyone outside of it, - Yul bullies Grett and is comedic relief which actually works. He's the best character this season so far as he does his job well without hinting at more then not delivering, - Gabby became relevant at all only 2 episodes ago so I won't be too harsh on her as she finally has something going on, - I can't stand Aiden. Episodes 7 & 10 were nearly as low of a point for him as S2E9. He actively takes away screen time with a plot he's completely unnecessary to at this point and is extremely annoying while he's at it. Is he supposed to be Tom's support character or something? If so, then he's not doing a good job and is ruining his own character by being associated with Tom. I don't know wtf they're doing with the entire love triangle trio and it includes the hypocritical skunk over here as well, - Tom outside of his exhausting plot with Jake has nothing. He does nothing this season to distract you from how awful he is at handling basically anything and it's so tiring to watch, - Jake is the main character and he's surely something. Is he carrying the season in the entertainment department? Yes, and am I happy to see him have more focus? Yes, but it's WAY too much. He has his bs with Tom (Im praying they dont get back together) and rivalry with Ally so he at least has plot so I can't complain too much about him. I do have to say tho, even as the biggest Jake stan and defender out there, I'm getting exhausted. Give him a breather episode or 2 and focus on someone else. The direction they're taking his character is extremely confusing as well but that's conversation for another day, - Ally was sidelined so hard after episode 6 it makes me sad. She was my favorite in the first 6 episodes and has so much potential that's not being utilized at all, - Ashley did nothing but pretend to give Jake good advice without ever actually helping him. Don't even get me started on her "revenge" on Fiore. That was so unsatisfying and she celebrated like she just defeated the devil with her bare hands as if Fiore wasn't in the worst position on the team since the beginning. She did basically nothing with twice as many episodes here than the 5 she got in season 1.
Let me do some math here. There's 25 characters and out of those: - 5 have no plots at all/dont exist (James, Lake, Oliver, Marcus, Nina) - 5 are support characters with nothing going on for themselves (Ashley, Tess, Connor, Aiden, Krystal) - 1 was a plot device (Miriam) - 7 have their plots either put on pause or cut short with no satisfying resolution (Alec, Fiore, Riya, Hunter, Ally, Ellie, Derek)
That leaves us with Emily, Trevor, Gabby, Grett, Yul, Jake & Tom being involved in plots that are actually making any progress, and said progress is slow as all hell. Do we need to see Grett be bullied for 7 episodes straight and just take it without standing up for herself? Surely this could've been wrapped up without dragging it out or at the very least bring something new to the table. It's the same thing over and over each episode.

PART 3 - THE EPISODES ARE REPETITIVE

Now that I mentioned it, I might as well expand. I noticed the episodes follow a certain formula: - Around 7 minutes of pre-challange character interactions we've seen multiple times already with rarely adding anything new to them, - A bit of trauma dumping from a few characters, - Production staff scene lasting around 2 minutes, - A boring and very quick challenge portion not even focused on the challenge, - Pre elimination scene where the big thing of the episode happens, - Elimination ceremony.
I know that's the show's format but switch it up a little! Have some fun with it! Give me a twist! A team swap, auto elimination, Jensen coming back from the dead, different locations, a gimmick shaking up the challenge, immunity idols, ANYTHING to keep it fresh and exciting. Watching 9 episodes going this exact same way gets repetitive.
The actual challenges themselves are something I want to see be more creative in general. The singing episode was a ton of fun, the triathlon was cool and even the first 2 challenges were fun because we got to see new stuff like animals and an underwater episode. But the recent challenges have been lackluster. We got pushing big beautiful balls down a hill, walking around a fake spaceship, slip and slide basketball and plain paintball. In episode 10 they just walk around and argue. The challenge is completely sidelined and for what?? There isn't even a spin to this one, it's literally just paintball. At least in S1 it was combined with capture the flag and there were more people to make it more chaotic but here? What a bore.

PART 4 - THE PACING

Adding to the bore is the pacing of the few plots that we do get to see actually move at all. Tom & Jake could've easily been wrapping up their bs by now, Grett & Yul also could've wrapped it up premerge and... That's basically it because those are the 2 plots consistently and actively getting any room to be explored leaving little screen time for the others.
Why were the Riya and Connor, Huntally or Gabbellie plots rushed but Jam and YulREGrett are allowed to go on for forever without making any progress? Literally only Jake is undergoing any sort of development out of the 4 and his narrative is all over the place making it hard to even get invested in his story if you're not already a die hard fan. It seems like the show itself doesn't know whether he should be seen as the one in the right or not in the entire love triangle and keeps flip-floping between wanting the audience to like & despise him. Same with Tom but I asked this question on another (flop) post. Gretts development is also taking forever and we all know Yul ain't changing.

PART 5 - OUTRO

I'm sorry if this came out way more negative than I intended it to be but I wanted to get my feelings about this out as it does make me a little worried for the rest of the season. It's not even that it's bad, far from it, I think it has potential to be the best DC season yet, but with the last 3 episodes (excluding episode 9) the season is losing its momentum. I'm hoping the quality picks up again and the second half ends up being amazing. Please don't crucify me for this lol. My opinion isn't important and I'm still enjoying the season quite a bit but certainly see ways it could feel more complete. Can't wait to watch the rest of it!
This is a repost because I made some embarrassing mistakes I needed to fix lmao.

Hi Reddit, this is my first time posting, so please bear with me.
As the title suggests, I (19NB) want to break up with my partner (20M), but I'm unsure how to go about it. I've been in relationships before, but I've always been the one being broken up with. Kind of throwaway, I'm anxious he will see this. Might delete after getting advice.
My partner and I have been together for 4 years and currently live together on my parent's property. We've been living together for about 7 months, both of us are students, and we share bills. We rarely go on dates or are intimate unless I organise something, which is maybe once a month. Don't get me wrong, we have great days too!! He helps with bills, he makes sure to tidy the house when I work or make me dinner. We go out sometimes on nature walks or to parties to visit friends, and we are intimate if I really need it. He is kind to me and considerate and funny. He makes me laugh and writes me poetry, and we game together and read. He's even learning my native language.
As much as I love and respect him, I feel we're on different paths, and I want more freedom. I miss going out spontaneously, visiting markets, and enjoying nature walks. I enjoy gigs and meeting new people, but he prefers staying at home. I currently work part-time alongside my studies, while he is focused on his studies and looking for work.
We both have mental health issues and are in therapy, but I think it would be better for both of us to focus on ourselves individually. He has been struggling more with his mental health lately, and I get frustrated when his depression gets bad. When I try to help, he often ignores me or tells me to go away, which I don't like doing because I know he is not safe when he is alone. He then gets upset if I do leave. I've been setting more boundaries to protect myself, but it doesn't feel like enough.
I've been struggling a lot too—my work and family-life is stressful, my studies aren't going well, the cost of living is rising, my mental health has plummeted and I deal with alot of suicidal thoughts, and my relationship exhausts me. I'm not sure we were ever as compatible as we thought, but I was too scared to leave because we've been together so long. I also worry that I will seriously freak out if I end up seeing him with someone else.
I am thinking about breaking up with him tomorrow. It's my day off, and he has therapy in the afternoon. I'm planning to ask him to stay at his mum's, as she lives nearby and they have a good relationship. I think I'll go non-contact for a while too.
The thing is, I don't want to hurt him. Which is a silly thing I know because no one can be in a relationship for 4 years and not feel sad when their SO says they don't want relationship anymore. I just don't know how he will react or how to ask him to move out, and I don't think he will expect it. Honestly I'm kind of freaked out about it and I'm already feeling super upset even though I haven't said anything yet.
Any advice on how to approach this would be appreciated. TIA Reddit 🌱
TLDR; How do you break up with someone after being together for 4 years and live together???

(... I think I need to finish our Visit with Wu for now, I’m having a harder and harder time writing it. Have no excuse today. It just didn’t come out. So back to our previously scheduled Madness. And I'm extra stupid today, I made a mistake in the title so I had to delete and repost. Sorry.)
~First~
RAK and Roll!/Shadows of Centris
“And boom goes the dynamite.” Amadi notes as the cultist guards suddenly realize that they’d been firing on non-existent police officers while the real ones were rushing in from the side. It was those kinds of life altering revelations he just adored to see.
“Hmm, well I guess I need to put this away then.” Reggie notes calmly as he starts breaking down the mortar he’d set up ‘just in case’. After getting his training for the thing the man had been itching to use it, but hadn’t had any opportunity for some indirect fun.
“Probably for the best.” Koa remarks.
“I know. Still...” Reggie admits as he collapses the components down and tucks them away into an expanded pocket. Amadi smirks at the sight. Yes, he’s technically the adept of the three, but do you really need that when the other guys are pocket artillery and a walking weapons platform?
“Ah well, who wants to eat? Lunch rush is finished and it’s cheaper to hand out the overstock than use stasis.” Amadi asks.
“Sure, the area is mostly stable anyways so...” Koa states before suddenly turning and his rifle is held out at the figure he can’t fully see. “Identify yourself.”
“The sun is shining.” The Cloaken woman states.
“But the ice is slippery.” Amadi glibly replies and the invisible hand of the woman has a data-chit balanced upon it. “Thank you.”
“You’d think that would calm down a little with all the cults actively fighting and moving hard.” Koa notes.
“Not really, more excitement means more notes are getting passed around. So it should break about even, sure, most of the everyday silliness is being set aside but the sheer urgency means other things are running out and...” Reggie tries to explain his thought process with a few gestures before a Metak blurs past him and he now has a pair of data-chits in his hand. He holds them up between his fingers. “As demonstrated.”
They have a slight chuckle as Amadi lets his illusions finally fade to allow the police to fully pounce on the kill crazy women who had decided to come out guns blazing when their little country club was pinged. “By the way do you guys know exactly who this gaggle of idiots are?”
“I think they’re called the... the... Starts with an M.” Reggie says snapping his fingers as he tries to recall things.
“Mamaluk?” Koa throws out.
“No, no. It was M Y? Myats? Mycorin? My something.” Reggie asks. “Oh this is bugging me.”
“I thought it was M I.”
“Milaluk! The Milaluk!” He says with a smile before pausing. “I don’t know what it means.”
“Neither do I, but does it matter? The Milaluk were being moronic so we meddled and matched em. Now let’s mosey my men!” Amadi says with a smile.
“Hmm... he’s getting better at those. It didn’t even sound like that much of a stretch.” Koa notes as he stores his massive rifle and all three men get moving.
It doesn’t take long for them to make note of police cruisers soaring overhead and heading to a very different place from the one they just assisted in, but since their communicators are silent they’re not being tagged in to help. And often unwanted help can be worse than none, so they don’t follow.
“So do you think that...” Koa begins before all three of their communicators go off simultaneously. “Oh boy, here we go.”
“Stand by for communications with Observer Wu.” Amadi reads out loud. “Why would he want to talk with us? We’re three guys who wander around and bumble about, what’s so interesting?”
“You mean besides the fact that we’re basically scouts and patrol officers on an alien world that routinely go to many different spires with massively different laws, populations environmental expectations and...” Reggie begins to list off.
“I was being sarcastic.” Amadi says.
“Oh. Well no reason then, probably random chance.” Reggie amends and Amadi rolls his eyes a touch.
“He’s an Observer. He wouldn’t be much good at his job if he didn’t at least glance at everyone. He likely regards the list of Humans outside of Cruel Space as a check list to personally interview, one after the other. Right now he’s just getting his bearings and balance I’ll wager.” Koa considers out loud.
“To say nothing of the idea of him following people with a pair of binoculars and just watching them.” Amadi says conjuring the image of binoculars that he holds in front of his eyes. The wide end of them seemingly a gigantic pair of blinking eyes that Reggie swipes through to dispel the image.
“His title is Observer, not Stalker.” Reggie says.
“The difference between the two is governmental approval and little else.” Amadi says and Reggie just concedes the point.
It takes a few more minutes for them to get to the car they used to get to this spire and a few after that to fly to the one where Amadi’s girls were. The first they ran into was actually Abigail, the cousin of the August Speaker of The Council was clearly excited to see him if the fact she swooped down into his arms and locked up his lips with her own.
After she showed no signs of wanting to stop both other men walked around them and into the diner. There are some enthusiastic greetings from the girls inside and the quick pointing outside has the Rabbis working the till and the one waiting the tables rush out to get some sugar from their man.
“There’s a reason we put the more energetic ones on the outside.” One of the cooks notes. The small warren of Rabbis liked to work things in a total of six shifts and took two each day. That way there was always a full staff and they got all the rest they needed to keep the diner open endlessly and efficiently.
“No kidding. So, how much overstock is there today?”
“Not as much as normal. A lot of girls are struggling to find time to cook for themselves for some reason.”
“Funny that.”
“Yes, it’s almost like everyone’s really busy for some strange reason. I wonder what could cause such a thing.” Koa asks.
“Yes, I wonder...”
“Classified.” Reggie states.
“Right, because a massive scan of the entire planet can be classified. Everyone knows something scared someone higher up. But what was it?”
“Classified.” Reggie taunts.
“How are your girls holding up.”
“Shireen and Misty are on ‘Official Business’ on The Dauntless to get them both the hell out of dodge. They’re nervous so a bit of work as a new set of eyes on our holodeck coding and a fashion consultant for our potential future uniforms gives them both a distraction in a safe place.”
“It’s adorable that you pulled strings to get them both into safety.” The cook notes.
“You had a similar offer. I saw Amadi make it.” Koa remarks.
“No one’s going to bother with us. We’re not important enough for the crazy people to notice.”
“Crazy people are just that, crazy.” Reggie remarks.
“They are, now a quick heads up, there’s going to be...” Koa begins to say before their communicators start going off. “Crap. New ship is coming and on it is an Observer who wants to talk to us apparently. Mind if we take a corner booth?”
“Go ahead, the rush is over and most people are ordering out.”
Amadi has to rush in to sit next to them as they set up the communicators.
“Have I caught you at a bad time?”
“Somewhat sir. We’re often on patrol around Centris and we received are warning a fair way away from The Dauntless, we are however in a trusted and safe location.”
“Very good, I need to know more about the world I’m heading to. What is the on the ground perspective of Centris?”
“Could you be more specific about what you’re looking for? There are all sorts of different things to consider, is it security? Culture? Language? Fashion? Local laws? Something else?”
“I’m looking for how it compares to an Earth city or town.”
“Well, they’re very much a city with towering buildings that can induce a sensation of being among giants. There are few places without large crowds and innumerable different building styles, but there’s always reliable walkways and general driving and soaring areas as well. So jaywalking isn’t as much as an issue as it is in most cities, you won’t interrupt traffic unless they’re coming in for a landing. The roads are more... landing strips and parking areas with walkways next to them.” Reggie explains.
“I see.”
“There are also areas where they seem to randomly have roundabouts or sudden turns to avoid specific areas, but once you learn more about them you realize they’re basically walkways for those that can naturally fly or jump so powerfully that the line between a jump and flight is more academic.” Reggie continues.
“Hmm, and culture?” Observer Wu asks.
“Well culture shifts around a lot depending on the area your in. The galaxy at large has one where men are often protected to the point of coddling, or possibly suffocating them... If you’re looking for a man in public, look for an oddly dense bit of crowd that seems to be defensive. Because their families are protective.” Koa explains this time.
“Or look to those who are followed by a crowd because they’re lashing out as they try to find some kind of purpose. It’s not universal, more than half of the men of the galaxy easily find enough in life to be content. But those that don’t... well... if it’s not petty it’s dramatic. The Undaunted sees a lot of them, they have preferential recruitment.”
“Why?”
“Because less than half of one percent of a galactic population is a recruiting pool so massive that the name tags of their uniform could strip mine entire continents with ease.” Koa answers and Observer Wu nods.
“Oh please, get them all together after a few years of recruitment and it would have a gravitational pull strong enough to replace the moon around Earth.” Reggie remarks. “I’m not kidding by the way, I did the math on my spare time. Recruitment is going up and up an up and there are enough to recruit that quintillions are on the menu.”
“Quintillions...”
“Centris is one of the more population dense worlds in the galaxy. But not the most, and there is not an insignificant number of worlds like this. To say nothing of less overdeveloped ones which are in much higher numbers and with each level they go down in development the more worlds there are.” Reggie says.
“Quintillions, and that’s if one is only considering one half of one percent...” Observer Wu remarks as he looks off. “Our population is in the billions, a thousand more for each person gives us trillions, doing it again is quadrillions and then we have to do it again to get quintillions.”
“Kind of hard to consider, isn’t it?” Reggie asks.
“It is.” Observer Wu notes. “Everything we do that doesn’t fizzle and die will rapidly grow beyond anything humanity has ever accomplished.”
“Yes. In some ways it already has. It took people like Genghis Khan decades to shape the world. It takes some of our teams weeks if not days or even hours to affect even more people over a wider area.” Reggie says.
“Oh calm down, there’s no need to get so dramatic.” Amadi remarks as he reclines a little more. He waves his hand and the image of a spire with all it’s tiers appears. “Of course we can do more with higher numbers, literal magic and immensely powerful technology. Grade school math is harder to figure out than that. A world with giant abstract Christmas Trees for city structures with all the shiny bits and lights and decorations? Well duh it’s different!”
Amadi’s little sculpture of a spire is now shining with lights, the glass windows of sky scrapers and the lights and images of the traffic around them until the literally shining manors at the very top of spires shine like a star on top of a Christmas Tree. “It’s a whole world of this silliness. With great big fake continents flying above the planet like a shining ring. All full of girls so desperate for a man that all he has to do to get more tail than he’s ever even imagined is to say yes. Calm down, things are weird but fun.”
“Don’t forget that the modern hobby is conspiracy, even if it’s a dark garden club about the best way to grow tomatoes.” Koa remarks as he pulls out the data chits and chips he had been given. Reggie then stacks them up and it stands next to the image of the spire and actually rises above it. “Granted, ninety nine times out of a hundred they’re completely harmless like that.”
“But there are so many that they tower above the spires themselves.” Observer Wu states.
“Both on this table and in real life. Throw a rock in a crowd and hit three people, you’ll have also hit seven cultists or conspirators.” Amadi says with a grin. “Makes it fun when you start to poke at them. You get all kinds of hilarious reactions.”
“I can imagine.”
“I doubt it, this is the kind of crazy that needs to be seen first hand.” Amadi says before nodding as he sees another ‘courier’ run in, check to see what’s going on. Clearly consider them as their drop off target and then dismiss it before leaving. “It’s a lot of fun though.”
~First~ Last

(15f) i want to get out of my house as soon as possible but im not even completely sure what to do and i don't have a clear path at all, i was wondering if anyone had any stories or advice or help from people who already have it figured out.
i am trying to get my drivers license as soon as possible, it's giving me a lot of anxiety to work towards it i don't enjoy driving rn but i know it's necessary incase it's one of my only options when I'm moving out.
i don't want to go to university, but I'm open to going to community college although it's not something I'm deadset on. even though it would probably be good for me to live with my mom for that i don't want to be around her. i was thinking i could live with my grandparents if i went to comm college, they live hours away from my mom, atleast right now, and they really love me and all that, even though they're okay with her atleast I wouldn't have to be in the same house as her and they're pretty chill, barely religious. should I just do that so I have something to do with my life when i turn 18?
if i didn't go back to school, i would want to move out as soon as possible, but ik that would not be easy at all and i have an awful work ethic, but im somewhat open to the idea of working multiple jobs if i have to just to have my own apartment. this might be taxing on me but honestly to me it can't get worse than living under my mom. i would be down to live with a friend/partner (if I have one) that I trust, which could make it easy, but I'm not sure if that's a good idea?
if you're wondering if i have any dream job or anything, i don't really. i used to want to be a teacher but i can't since im not going to uni, and my only other dream is being an author (which would quite suit me seeing as how i would prefer to work from home and one of my big passions is writing) but i know it's not easy to make a living and become a popular author, but I think regardless i would love to publish a book. i don't have any plans for the future besides having kids (which obviously I need to be stable to have.)
im obviously not that prepared to become an adult for various reasons, i havent recieved any advice (thats not christian or whatever) and I just don't have a clear trajectory when it comes to career, and it worries me. the only money i know i have is inheritance money when my a relative of mine dies and college fund money (and since i might not go i might not recieve it until im 30 apparently.) i want to be prepared even if it scares me, and ik im getting older and i need to figure this out. i just really need advice so i can start making plans. I'm just really worried about sorting out my adult life and telling my mom im atheist and evrrything else... idek if im going to cut her off. thanks if you read or give advice ^{^}

We’ve been together for two years, the first year was great, he treated me so well, validated my feelings, made me feel loved, cared for and beautiful to him. Now two years later he’s done a full 180. Believe me i’ve tried communicating my feelings so many times, i’ve used it feel statements and everything but i think i’m just coming to the conclusion he rly doesn’t like me anymore and that i’ve just been blinded by love and how good things used to be. He’s called me desperate for asking for more compliments from him, that he doesn’t like what new makeup i’ve been wearing says it makes me uglier. That he feels like he’s superior to me because he has his life together more than me, and more hobbies and things going on for him. He invalidates all my feelings now and says i’m dramatic and emotional. He’s beginning to overstep boundaries now too with girls and says he doesn’t want to change, he likes how he is, doesn’t care to put more effort in like he used to. Now i’m not a stupid person, if a friend came to me describing this to me i’d tell her he’s no good. Since my feelings are involved tho i’m a bit blind, i need someone to tell me directly what is happening and what i need to do please and thank you