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I just want to vent to the void.. and possibly get some advice. Never posted my personal business online before but Im just slowly giving up..
I have a 5 year old son with Down Syndrome. I love him cause he's my son but hate to say I hate him cause of his delay which is of no fault of his own. He's smart in his own way but so stubborn.
He won't eat anything that requires chewing and only eats stage 2 baby food mixed with some baby oatmeal despite having a mouthful of teeth. He won't drink any water, juice and only a few swallow of milk. Oh but sweets, there's no problem like any other kid, I suppose.
He's constantly hitting either me or his dad and even sometimes his grandmother (my mom). There's no therapy that'll get him to stop..we've been told that he'll stop on his own. But he'll hit you in the face, the chest, back.. and will even try to trip you cause he spends most of his time on the floor because he's not walking fully on his own either.. despite many hours of walking around the house with him. Can't teach a child to stop hitting by hitting (spanking) them.
He's stubborn bout getting his hair brushed, his teeth brushed too. He starts spasing out and tries to hit in the face whenever you try to brush either one.
His dad (my husband though not legally) is trying his best, I suppose. He gave me the entire Mother's Day off without having to take care of him but one day out of many feels like it's never enough. I don't wanna complain but I'm just so tired. And I always get.."what could you possibly be tired from?" Cause honestly I don't do too much of anything..just my soul is tired of pretending to want to be a mom. And I can't discuss this with my husband cause it's our fault and responsibility for bringing a child into this world.
And now.. guess what? I'm 3 months pregnant with another baby. It was a talk for when our son would be 5-7 to have another sibling only cause this world is cruel and he would need someone else to help him when we're gone. But the only thing on my mind is to hope and pray that this baby comes out better. That this one won't have a disability. I know it's messed up to hope and wish for a new baby to hopefully make things better but I'm scared I'll be stuck with another one that's disabled.
I regret having a child. I miss days of freedom. I miss not being a mom every day. I want to tell my husband to just leave and take the kids and just leave me alone and I'll sign whatever papers I can to just be away from it all. I wanna be by myself again with no worries. Everyday I wish for a red button to push to be able to start over because I'd do SO many things differently.
I'm just so tired mentally and emotionally.. I don't wanna be angry anymore.
I just wish to be alone again..

I didn’t get stretch marks until a few weeks into my third trimester so I guess I’m one of the lucky ones idk. I’m 40 weeks Friday and every time I look at myself in the mirror it feels like the stretch marks are bigger darker longer and that they have multiplied. I just feel ugly and fat and so over it.

Bit of a follow up to a couple of weeks ago. My friend was asked verbally to move out because the family was moving in, never got the proper paperwork by the deadline… I’ll try to make it quick:
She got a phone call last week asking if they were going to be ready to leave by June 30th as agreed verbally. My friend explained all the stuff that you guys helped us with and the LL said she would write a letter. It was explained that a letter isn’t what’s needed, that it has to be the proper form with 2 months notice, so they agreed verbally on July 15th (Supposedly her family is arriving and needs the place after their air b&b is up in the middle of July so the 15th was perfect…) and the papers would be delivered by May 15th. Then a call came a couple of days ago. There’s a surgery someone in the family needs so she’s going to be overseas for a while and won’t need the house until next year. Hmm, ok…
So now they want my friend to sign a new lease for 1 year from when the old one runs out (June 30) with a 3% increase. Seems ok, but long story short, does a lease renewal still require 3 months notice for an increase or is the lease the notice? And is there any reason to actually sign a new lease or should it just go month to month like the current lease says? Any risks either way? Thanks again for previous and any new help!

What are your favorite quotes from the show that never fail to make you laugh? One came into my head earlier. When Julie gets him the Polly Wolly Doodle card and he says he's not a fan of the rock and roll music lol

How come the W cannot see the signs? There were so many signs in the past especially and the wife still didn’t catch on and I can’t figure it out how… One time she found my earring at their place( I didn’t go there but somehow my earring got stuck on his shirt i guess and she found it on the floor) to him texting with me and her seeing him text but not the actual messages and asking who it was and asked to see but he made up something on the spot, or when she caught him laughing while being on the phone with me at like 1am or him smelling like my perfume or getting home late and not answering the phone (normally he always answers fast) ,even a crazier sign is that he’s wearing earphones while we call(because i hear him better than with the airpods and mind you he always wears airpods not earphones) and we watch movies or series in the same time. So basically he has his earphones in his ears (plugged into his phone) and watching a movie on his laptop or tv…😅 I mean these are really obvious signs don’t you think?

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M(13)so my parents are great people they have given me everything I want and need and more but I am tired. My sister does not do anything and my dad is in a wheelchair which means it's me and my mom. Every single time there is a leak something that needs to be built installed or fixed the first person to come to mind is me, witch, I don't mind very much but am tired of not being able to play a game for 30 minutes without being called I have had my ps5 for roughly 6 months and I have 60 hours across all my games and half of it is my game running while im doing stuff for my family another thing is apparent a C is failing and the last time I got a bad grade(1/5) my mom took me into her room beat me a hanger broke the hanger hot pissed and said I broke the hanger and the broken hanger had a nail sticking out of it she threatened to carve my face with the nail then she broke hanger again and I ran out of the room she dragged me back told me I was going to work at McDonald's and then she told me to get out. Oh did I mention SHE IS A THERAPIST Another thing is she loves and is the number one supporter of gender roles and I fucking hate them I sleep w squish mellow and do other girly things that she hates and she thinks that every gay thought is caused by the internet and nothing else and IM DATING A A TOMBOY/TRANS FTM AND IM A FEMBOY please yall help I love her to death but I don't want her to go away so currently while writing this it is 10:24 pm I don't know what to do?

Just need one but would take a couple if you have them to spare and willing to take the time to package up! Thought I had a few but can’t find them!
Let’s call it $2 + shipping, $1 ea for several! Thanks for helping a brother out.

I have been great at managing my torn up knee if I avoid what triggers the swelling. But it’s very swollen today and I didn’t do any of the usual offenders. What causes yours to swell? Maybe there’s one I haven’t figured out yet.

Currently an electric user, mostly out of convenience (dad bought me one years back), but it's been causing me a lot of issues lately. I think the blades are probably dull again, but beyond that it takes a longer time to do the shave than I'd care for, hairs are often missed, and due to the distance of the shave I've got a noticeable shadow on the face and it's been causing dysphoria for a few months
I have depression and adhd burnout that causes me to have little energy for self-care. I also have a relatively lower income job so as to better manage the mental health. The combination of the two has steered me away from most shaving solutions I've looked at before (usually seems to have high maintenance and high entry + continuous cost from an outside perspective).
Feels like a choosing beggar thing to ask, but hoping that there's an option out there that's both economical and low-effort to maintain. Oh, and it would need to be either SE or DE, as SRs scare me. I always think I'll end up slitting my throat on purpose if I have one and I'd rather not give myself that chance

So I'm running this a my first game and one of my players is a monk who took observant as their level 4 feat giving them a passive perception of 20 and the module says all the secret doors have a perception dc of 20 unless stated otherwise how should I handle this helpe please

WSJ has a limited edition series on the development and making of Oz and Mounjaro. One of the journalists was on it and shares his experience on it and having to deal with the price will be coming up soon. Curious to hear thoughts when the series is done. First episode below.
https://open.spotify.com/episode/1XIgBAKpL9IEcd20MwPLKI?si=vigtUMXaTX-W3iZfPV6VYw

TW: Suicide, Mental Illness, SA, Porn Addiction, Abuse, Pedophilic Thoughts.
Hi, this post is going to be insanely long post as I am gonna go over a lot of things in detail throughout my life. I am going to premise this with a very important disclaimer: I am not looking to be the victim. I am not trying and do not want to make you feel bad for me. Things I saw will end up sounding like attention-seeking and victim mentality, but please know that no matter how much it sounds like that, that is not my intention. I'm basically going to go through my entire life story, so buckle up.
We'll start at the beginning of my life in 2005. I'm born and have an older sister, who is still my only blood sibling. At 3 years old I experience my first traumatic events that I can remember. I start hiding in the bathroom whenever my parents fight, and after a fight, I try lightening the mood by dancing in a goofy manner, but I end up falling and slashing a big hole in my knee and have to go to the hospital. At 4 years old my parents get divorced, and my dad moves in with his girlfriend. I vaguely remember crying as he took his last suitcase out the door. I also start pre school at this time, and my parents start realizing I have mental issues. I get tested and come up with ADHD and autism. I hate loud noises, get overstimulated, hate fire, and can be very irritable. At 5 I do my second year of pre school, because my parents feel I wasn't socially ready. I did competitive cherr with my sister which was fun, except for a mean teammate and an unsupportive father. At 6 I start kindergarten, and have more traumatic events. I doodle on my paper and get yelled at by my very menacing teacher, which just stuck with me for some reason as I am very sensitive to arguments and such. I start having my first memories of being abused by my mom. She wasn't beating me but she would slap me, grab me, push me, and she threw my sister down the hall one time. At 7, I have the same types of memories, but good ones too. My sister starts getting in on the abuse and hitting me too. Her and mom start fighting all the time. And this is where my first sign of real issues shows up. My aunt babysat me after school every wednesday whike my parents worked their jobs. I was scrolling on my old chunky laptop and came across it. Gay porn. It was two men on a bed doing some sort of act. Im confused but cant stop watching. My aunt eventually comes in and puts an end to it, berating me. But I start getting worse. I keep looking it up on my tablet and getting caught by my dad and mom, and even get caught looking up how to end myself. I get the same talk that it wasn't good or whatever. And one time, I even tried getting my 2 year old nephew to "lick it" because I didnt think there was anything wrong with that. The next few years, the same trends become increasingly worse, and my parents also gave up trying to get me to eat healthy because of my picky eating habits due to the autism. I became overweight and no longer did any sports. I have a few more traumatic memories of my mom hitting me or destroying my stuff and making me clean it up. My porn addiction becomes worse. I start getting exposed to things like incest and beastiality. I also start having my first experiences with pedophiles. I was taught by another kid how to masturbate on xbox. And got into a party with someone else. They were atleast in their mid to late teens and possible older. They convinced me to teach them how to masturbate aswell. My addiction got worse and I would masturbate multiple timed a day at a very young age. I started hiding things from everyone. I started actually being attracted to the incest porn I was seeing so often and got into the taboo of it. As I got older I started fighting with myself, begging myself to fix my issues before it became to late, but I didn't listen. I started hiding my porn addiction really well and kept letting myself get groomed. I would show myself to pedos on omegle because I thought it felt good to get the attention. A 16 year old told my 12 year old self to send a booty pic, and I did, but blocked him immediately after. When I got into 7th grade I also started getting corrupted by public porn, and started masturbating at school. I was being bullied for my weight, and being smelly by that point, and was just so fucked up and never got help. If I ever talked to someone, I'd just lie and water down so everyone would think I was fine. In 8th grade I got bullied really bad, but covid ended that early luckily. I never masturbated in class again after this. This is where it gets worse, again. I become so deprived of human contact and addicted to sex, that I start sneaking videos of my father in the bathroom after his showers. To note, I don't have an amazing relationship with him. He was always very intimidating and bad at controlling his temper. Never good at having conversations either, so I've since closed myself off to him. I kept taking pictures of him, and eventually, started sneaking pictures of people I found either attractive, or even people that didn't repulse me. This included strangers, classmates, teachers, etc. I started really internally fighting with myself at this point. I hated myself. Who I had become. I tried and tried to make myself stop and become healthier, working out, watching else porn, trying to delete pictures I took of others, but to no avail. I eventually on rare occasions, masturbated to beastiality porn. I always felt so disgusted before, during, and after. These always felt like intrusive thoughts that I was acting on, but I didn't know that was actually the case until much later. I also starting convincing my grandpa to show me what it "felt like" as a 15 year old, until at 17 in 2023, he eventually coerced me into doing it to him, which I can't tell if it's SA or a taste of my own medicine, since I was a minor. I'm gonna go back to 2022. My sister's husband, who I consider my only brother, committed suicide. I was devastated. All i ever wanted was a brother, but I decided it wasnt meant to be. A few months later, I saw a cute guy at a local fair near my house, and feel deeply in love. I didn't masturbate or even look at porn for an entire week. I could not think of him sexually at all. Until eventually, the effect wore out. I started becoming addicted again, and also became to overbearing to the guy I was in love with because I texted him too much. He was 28 and I was 17, and he had no idea I actually liked him. This crushed me too, and the school year started soon after. I started imagining him and his friends withbme wherever I went and stalked his page constantly. I couldn't stop thinking about him. Later on in thar school year, I fucked up with both of the friend groups I was in, and lost them all. The rest of the year passed by slowly, but it still ended up okay. Now onto this school year, my senior year. I come back to school and no matter what I do, I can't get myself to stop. And a few months into the year, I finally get caught. I get suspended and don't come back for a few days. I get bullied as expected and lay low. My mom takes my phone and deletes everything, and I eventually tell her most of what I've said here. I relapse occasionally and watch certain porn that I feel guilty about, or snap a pic of someone. Luckily, I finally deleted everything myself and never took a picture of someone or watched beastiality again, and will continue that path. My current consensus is that I'm a classic case of a kid who never had a support system, which led me to making bad decisions, and just never stopped and got worse. I also now have been diagnosed with OCD, Anxiety, and depression. I was always big on recording and taking pictures of everything memorable, which contributed to this. I also have very intense intrusive thoughts which are still unmedicated. When I took that first picture of someone I thought was attractive, I felt disgusted with myself for months. But the thoughts got stronger and stronger, and I did it again to make them go away, until eventually they got more often and consistent. I myself don't want people to be uncomfortable. I hate people that do stuff like that, and I wouldn't wish the feeling on anybody. No matter how many times I tried to push the thoughts away, or stop what I was doing, I couldn't. I lost all self control. The good part of me wants to help people, make them feel safe, loved, and attended for, but that side lost the fight. My morals were completely washed away over the years as my thoughts worsened, and I kept doing what I could to appease them. I consider the thoughts another being inside of me. It's super powerful and no matter how much I try to push against it, it always wins eventually. I got prescribed meds and picked them up today to help with the thoughts, and I hope it works. I found out this is called Purity OCD, which is when you have intrusive thoughts, and eventually give in and act on them to get them to go away. I also have Brain Loop Syndrome, which is when you get into a bad behavior, and want nothing but out, and physically cannot do it. I also want to clarify again that I am not looking for sympathy. I'll take any questions or advice on where to go from here. I've been telling myself that I deserve to be tortured, raped, and killed, or to burn in hell if I end myself. Again, not for sympathy/victimization. People I've told about the situation in real life keep saying "well it's not like you committed a serious crime, lots of people are curious and many take pics but are afraid to admit it" but I feel like that doesn't make it any better?? It's still weird and wrong. But anyways, I'm open to any questions or comments about this, if you want to just comment "ky$" or "I hate you" I understand, it's totally valid. I just needed to say it, get some advice and answer questions. Have a good night ya'll.
Quick edit before the comments start coming in: Apologies for the long read btw. I also wanted to say if you're ever experiencing negative thoughts regarding anything I stated here, or have any issues in general, PLEASE SEEK HELP. Do not do what I did. More people will understand you than you believe. You are not as alone as you think. Please don't let it get to this point!! Ans also yes guys there is a few more little traumatic events or whatever sprinkled in there that are probably important but I think you guys get the gist.

I understand that ps4 isn't supported anymore but I'm just trying to race on spa and even practice or qualify because 1. It's laggy as fuck and 2. It keeps crashing what an I suppose to do literally had zero issues with this game for the first 2 weeks I owned it and now I could barely play one track yesterday I could play misano fine and now can't play spa.

I left her with 3600 geo….I trusted her, I whistled in my darkest moments knowing that I was safe and secure. I knew I could one day rely on her when I finally ruled the kingdom with Hornet by my side and a nest egg to get this new empire off the ground. I trusted that bug, but I suppose I’ve learnt a valuable lesson….trust absolutely nobody.

As a new player myself (just three months in and exclusively playing standard!), it's an interesting discussion to follow, but also a little overwhelming! Standard seems exciting, but I worry about cards rotating out. Historic looks amazing with its depth, but that turn one win video that I just watched made me worry... Is that what I can expect as a beginner?

1. Turn 1 Wins: Not Fun for Anyone (Especially New Players!)

Let's face it, turn one wins, I think, are the antithesis of fun, especially for someone just starting out. Magic is all about strategy and interaction, and getting knocked out before I even get to play sounds rough. While it might be a rare occurrence, it raises a question: is Historic the healthiest fit for new players like me?

1. Finding the Fun: What's Right for New Players?

Maybe Explorer, with its smaller card pool, offers a more balanced experience for beginners? Or maybe Standard, despite the rotations, allows me to learn the core mechanics without feeling overwhelmed?

1. The Rest of the Arena: Beyond Standard and Historic

Brawl also sounds interesting – a singleton format that encourages creative deckbuilding. While it might not be the most competitive scene, it could be a great way to experiment and have some casual fun. (Basically, I now only play this format after reaching mythic rank in standard format this season. I think it's the most entertaining)

1. Looking for Guidance from Experienced People

So, what do you all think, seasoned MTG Arena veterans? Is Historic salvageable for newbies, or should I steer clear for now? Is Explorer the sweet spot, or is Standard the way to go for learning the ropes? Maybe Brawl is the hidden gem for someone new in this game?
P.S. A quick search eased my worries a bit – apparently, those wins aren't super common. But hey, a new player's gotta be cautious, right?

What a DLC. Fantastic. I finished it today and I just can’t stop thinking about it. I perused the web, and here, a short while after playing to pick the minds of fellow players and a lot of support seemed to fall on the decision of saving So Mi and betraying Reed. Even some google screen rant articles seemed more in favor of it for a happier ending. I did not agree though. Ultimately, it felt siding with Reed and killing So Mi, was the best outcome.
I did initially side with So Mi when I started the mission but I found myself re-loading my save to restart the mission just before escaping the stadium. It just didn’t feel RIGHT. Yes, So Mi seemed to really confide and trust V. Yea, she could have been more honest from the beginning. I did feel she would do what she could to save V’s life. I know Reed and Alex are just government pawns who’ve struggled due to their loyal devotion. However, So Mi is technically the same, albeit with some heavy push from Reed in her joining the FIA. In the end, everyone wanted to improve their path in life. So Mi however, tampered with the black wall. Even if at the push of Myers, and she continued to do so. There were notes early in game about how negatively impacted her psychological state seemed to be. She herself made comments about feeling like someone was controlling her. Upon deciding whether to betray her or not, she seemed hell bent on murdering everyone in her path, including the civilians working shops at the stadium just to save her own skin, and maybe help V (which we then learn the cure is effective for 1 use only, so who really knows.) I don’t know how you guys played your character, but that didn’t seem like something the V I played would do. I also do feel the game rewarded that decision with more gameplay opportunity. Killing Hansen myself was awesome, and although the Cerberus mission had me shitting bricks. It was fun.
Killing So Mi, felt like the best decision because it was honorable. NightCity, the corps, NUSA; they all have ulterior motives. Even when the good things can be seen in characters like Reed, Alex, Myers, they are a part of that system and its world. Less can be said for So Mi, and even less for V, who have been placed in a position of desperation to grasp survival. Even though siding with Reed saved his life and the weight of all the innocent deaths at the stadium were not on V’s shoulders to bear. Even though So Mi, showed increasing signs of corruption from the black wall, they still shared a bond unlike the others and killing So Mi honored her. It was the best act to free her from the clutches of NUSA and the black wall.
The ending offered by Phantom Liberty was one of cowardice. Betraying So Mi, turning her into NUSA to save your skin. Johnny dies and V lives a shell of the life he had. Even his friends aren’t so friendly. He just fades away. It’s funny, even after the mission was over and I went to finish off the game with meeting Hanako at Embers, I actually felt ready to die. Like I put So Mi out of her misery, freed her, a consequence of the choices she had made, for tampering with the wall, and like her I was also waiting to be freed, a consequence of the climb to NightCity legend, of messing with the biochip. Jackie paid a price and the whole game it seemed to feel like V was waiting to pay his.