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Missing 411: For people who want to know more. Unexplained disappearances and other weirdness
2014.04.15 15:34 hyperactivelime Missing 411: For people who want to know more. Unexplained disappearances and other weirdness
Information and discussion about people who go missing in National Parks and forests, and rural and urban areas, as detailed in the Missing 411 media. This is an unofficial, independant subreddit with no ties to CanAm Missing Project.
2008.09.23 12:16 UnsolvedMysteries: This reddit is about unsolved mysteries ...
This subreddit is about unsolved mysteries. Whenever possible, actual redditors have participated in investigating the events. What you are about to read is not a news broadcast.
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2024.05.29 05:10 AgitatedSite2952 AITA for moving out of my sisters?
Hi, I’m F(17) I have a little sister who’s F (15). So little back story me and my little sister agreed to babysit my niece who was 3 months at the time while my older sister worked, she’s 21 but was 19 at the time that was two years ago. We started babysitting her more instead of it being a few days it would end up being weeks, months, years of us onstantly babysitting our niece cleaning up after them doing stuff for her that she wouldn’t have time to do around the house or with her daughter.. I thought her daughter to walk! Well, she thought it was a brilliant idea for us to move an hour away from our mother and move in with her and in a different city to watch her daughter but that caused us to slowly start failing school and we got homeschooled to help watch her baby so we have missed two years of school and I brought this up to her a million times that this is a problem and we really need to go back to school but she’s more worried about us watching her daughter. Well, we got in a big argument a few days ago and she said that we don’t do anything for her, even though we watch her kid, clean up after her and I take care of her animal on top of taking care of mine! Well, she yelled at me and told me that we should just move out because we don’t do sh!t for her.. and I told her good luck finding a babysitter when we leave because even though her baby daddy does watch my niece sometimes during the weekend she works during the weekdays and she’s always complaining about bringing her down there because of gas money so I went to a family event this weekend and they said they could help us move out and since I do have my license and a car, I’m going to slowly move stuff back into my mom‘s house.. well my sister got mad at me when she found out that we were moving out she said wouldn’t have help anymore taking care of her daughter but claims we don’t watch her and don’t do anything for her, so truly AITA for putting me and my little sisters education and own lives first?
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2024.05.29 05:08 Admirable-Amoeba-393 i need help finding a buck-tick song!!
I've been listening to buck-tick for a few months now, i've been specifically listening to this mix of songs that someone uploaded on soundcloud in 2015 only because it has this one song that i'm absolutely obsessed with, I've been trying for a long time to find this song, no luck obviously, or maybe im just not trying hard enough?? thankfully, no one else commented on the track, my comment is right when the song starts. whoever takes the time to try and find the song, i literally owe you my soul because i love this song so much😭
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2024.05.29 05:08 halfstep44 Don't I have to know my geographic coordinates to navigate with a map and compass? And how do I find those coordinates manually (without my phone)
I know that's kind of a dumb question, but I'm trying to learn how to do this the old fashioned way. So without a cellphone
I've done some online searches and I can't find anything that explains a manual way for someone to determine their geographic coordinates.
And for longitude wouldn't I have to know GMT down to the second? And I can't do that without a cellphone
Is there something I'm missing?
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I've done some online searches and I can't find anything that explains a manual way for someone to determine their geographic coordinates.
And for longitude wouldn't I have to know GMT down to the second? And I can't do that without a cellphone
Is there something I'm missing?
2024.05.29 05:07 DefiantYesterday4806 Debunking, "If there was a conspiracy, someone would say something because humans are incompetent."
The idea that humans in large numbers lack competency, and so therefore a conspiracy would be practically impossible completely misses the point. Actually, the fact that humans are insanely incompetent and low-information is why conspiracies are everywhere and almost never go noticed. In fact, people DO speak up often and whistleblow and NO ONE LISTENS.
Part of the issue here is epistemological. We think we know about the world. Why do we think that? First of all, human brains are built to conceive of about 150 people around them. Urbanization breaks our brains, and because we're not built for it, we consistently process our impression of society wrong.
School and media are huge and very simply blunt instruments to provide us with a better impression of the massive urban society around us. Most of what we think we know comes from here. Yes, it's true that false information can be contradicted and humans actually can be quite logical with plain, clear facts. However, we have other social instincts which prevent this from happening.
We humans mostly tend to intuitively perceive what kinds of beliefs others have and give massive weight to that while filtering possibly complex or confusing facts in our heads. While some of us and some cultures are much more sophisticated and cynical about media, there are TONS of demographics (i.e.: young women) who psychologically interpret literally anything the media presents as representative of the actual tastes and preferences of that abstract 150 people the brain is built to perceive. Simply because the media exists and promotes one point of view, it means that this must be the position of those in the tribe with power.
Experienced, educated professionals will constantly filter inconvenient information in favor of adjusting to what the group believes. Smarter, 110-130 IQ "midwits" will actually recognize something is wrong, but will rationalize the emotional inconvenience and build explanations or narratives so they can cope. <110IQ people can't construct these rationalizations, and if they're low-IQ enough they can't even understand them, so this is why dumb people often perceive conspiracies that highly intelligent people observe, because the layer of rationalization doesn't appear to them. >140 IQ literally cannot use these rationalizations because their brains see right through them and you have to be a psychopath to ignore what you see. 110-130 IQ people ACTUALLY BELIEVE these rationalizations, that's the point. They ego invest in them and will fight their own kin to squash anyone noticing malicious behavior systemic to institutions. This is partly because, these midwits as the supreme managerial class, so effectively rationalize, they can operate in corrupt environments without being aware of the corruption. Thus they are rewarded immensely, given titles or big salaries, and become personally invested in the fraud while also consciously believing there's no fraud.
As an adult who has noticed all this from experience in the military, ecclesiastical, academic, corporate (never medical sadly) sectors, these patterns seem universal. You know the store manager who has the keys to lock up? Well, when they open up to their buddies and drink a little of the merchandise and throw a little party or whatever, if corporate can't tell, then why wouldn't they? Not everyone who has power will abuse it, but anywhere power is held, someone will abuse it. Abuse of power is a very casual thing, and at a minimum, some percentage of human personality types will always do it. The go-getters and doers especially trend toward a willingness to abuse power, and that's part of the problem. Other humans have specific instincts to submit to the powerful and almost take pleasure when they are on the good side of a psychopath who is abusing a third party.
Here you might say, "Gee, you have a cynical view of humanity." Sorry, the day a college kid can stand up and assert a point of view that's not social consensus, and have even 10% of the class change their minds and support him merely from considering the argument, then maybe I'll be more optimistic. No, people are cowards who are constantly trying to fit in, mostly most people are pretty dumb, and actually most people disdain those who refuse to fit in and don't care at all about the group's corruption. See, kids who are instinctively socially breaking from their parents will oppose the society of their parents. But kids will never oppose, not ever, not at scale, the social momentum of other kids unless there are other kids of clear divisions like racial or religious.
Therefore, I would propose that not only is society full of conspiracies at every level, but actually society functions on the basis of conspiracy. Small group loyalties and hierarchies form nodes around which institutional structure can build larger organizations. I was in the military which is full of formal authority, laws and rules. The reality of it is all that was a distraction to make people put up with a system that is more about little cliques among officers and so forth that sort everything out behind closed doors. Sure, norms, laws, rules, training smooth things out, allow interchangeability, but real decisions are made selfishly by some leader and they have quidproquo with colleagues and that bubbles up to the top. So whatever stupid beliefs they have about their organization or its values, they take with them to the top where someone like a general wields real power. Yet, such a person is sort of "endowed" with that position by his clique-community, and so they must fight for that community's values in the confines of that community's worldview, which might be totally inaccurate.
With this in mind, here is your final graduation thought experiment.
I've tried to understand the Ukraine war.
Right now Russia is playing on its former Soviet era diplomatic network so it's leaning into "white neocolonialists who think they have superior values exploit brown people because of theft and racism." But they're also simultaneously playing the newer, libertarian narrative of a progressive managerial elite which has hijacked the Western bureaucracy. It's sort of insane how they do this. Like how they exalt Orthodox religion but also insist Stalin did nothing wrong, which not even the post-Stalin USSR believed.
The anti-neocolonialist narrative says that rich whites want to steal resources from poor browns. This is factually what's happening, but the tragic irony is that many third world countries probably couldn't develop or benefit from these resources without first world help. So, there's both an argument against neo-colonialism, but also an argument that it's not like this big scam so much as a natural consequence. What it boils down to for me is where war, jackal economics or espionage is used. That's clearly wrong, and I think a lot of poor countries would be doing a lot better without these interventions, although I don't think they'd be rich and developed.
Well, the West actually is anti-neocolonialist too. Globalists want smart cities, AI economy, UBI, CBDC. They want rural white Americans to be the same level of poor as rural Africans, and for the gains of exploiting natural resources to be concentrated among a global elite, which although unfair, is not exclusive to borders. The geopolitical unfairness of neocolonialism will be addressed by Globalism. And its elite will be very small compared to the global proletariat they intend to have.
This is all very ironic since the globalist machine is playing the Euro-chauvinism card to appeal to Euro elites, and also the American exceptionalism card to appeal to American nationalists. They're playing whatever cards they have, like Russia.
So this is all I know: the West is lying to some of its lesser elites by paying lip service to their values. Russia is playing its old USSR geopolitics card while also playing a trad Orthodox card, while also playing an anti-globalist card.
I KNOW that the West is globalist, the leadership that is. So NATO must lose, because the globalists will certainly win if NATO wins. However, I fear the other side might also be globalists and the whole conflict is an anti-white, anti-Western charade meant to displace the old Euro elites and American nationalists.
That's the irony. Globalists control the West, but have to constantly deal with these older elite factions, so they could be using the war as a purge in a way.
It's hard to explain why the globalist-American leadership needed this conflict so bad. Probably it's all a shitshow gone wrong. This is where my explanation of how conspiracies function comes into play.
Neocons thought the would reinvigorate interest in the military but it hasn't. Like a new patriotism and interest in military power and funding.
Ukrainian Jews might have thought they could purge the Slavs and make a second Jewish homeland but that's probably off the table due to the failed counter offensive.
Russia's hopes of exercising their historical and cultural hegemony to settle the conflict have failed, when Ukrainian deep state operatives assured them they were still on the same old team.
Stupid nationalists who are somehow blind to the globalists and think the American economy is "doing great" probably thought this could be a knockout blow to Russia's meddling in certain geostrategic resource deals that affected American hegemony over Europe. This is a legacy of the British "can't let Europe become a world power" prerogative. The kind of dumb monkey legacy deep state geopolitical prerogatives that these idiots cling to while ignoring the other players around them.
So there are members of the British and American diplomatic-military-intelligence communities who are seemingly oblivious to what globalism is, or the imminent collapse of the Anglo-American financial hegemony. They actually believe the financial journalism. They are playing out a specific strategy from their class or clique or culture's history which is about keeping Europe down. So they are acting from that vantage and are acting as a conspiracy.
There are Euro elites acting from the vantage of actual vestigial colonialist attitudes where they actually think that Europe of all places is a bastion of Western values. While this class is completely morally degenerate, what they really mean is there is a class of elites in Europe that actually thinks the whole world outside of white Europe are actually just dumb monkeys. Not metaphorical. They are committed to all this, as a conspiracy that exercises influence as a conspiracy, because of this idiotic, low-information attitude.
Then there's the globalists who have all kinds of plans, and have even got Russia and China and India to adopt some of their financial technologies in preparation for their Great Reset. And this is done because of their massive influence over global business. As a conspiracy. And yet, while massively influential, they don't outright control Russia or China and their plants are constantly falling short. I'd say the globalists are trying to act as a conventional "illuminati" style conspiracy.
But the point is what I said in the beginning. Even these powerful, highly competent cliques have huge blind spots and huge power gaps because humans are in fact highly incompetent in large numbers.
I get a clique trying very hard to influence things and just falling short of being able to do it, but what boggles my mind is that a lot of these conspiracies who KNOW they are conspiracies who KNOW the world is a stage for the common sheep and KNOW the basic nature of deep state and intelligence games that are played. Even these people will not see past their own biases or egos, and fail to see lies in front of their own faces.
Because conspiracy is natural to humans. We do it naturally, so we engage in illicit collusion and cliquishness, but we don't necessarily see or realize where it's happening outside of our brain's 150 person social perception. Which to me is the oddest thing.
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Part of the issue here is epistemological. We think we know about the world. Why do we think that? First of all, human brains are built to conceive of about 150 people around them. Urbanization breaks our brains, and because we're not built for it, we consistently process our impression of society wrong.
School and media are huge and very simply blunt instruments to provide us with a better impression of the massive urban society around us. Most of what we think we know comes from here. Yes, it's true that false information can be contradicted and humans actually can be quite logical with plain, clear facts. However, we have other social instincts which prevent this from happening.
We humans mostly tend to intuitively perceive what kinds of beliefs others have and give massive weight to that while filtering possibly complex or confusing facts in our heads. While some of us and some cultures are much more sophisticated and cynical about media, there are TONS of demographics (i.e.: young women) who psychologically interpret literally anything the media presents as representative of the actual tastes and preferences of that abstract 150 people the brain is built to perceive. Simply because the media exists and promotes one point of view, it means that this must be the position of those in the tribe with power.
Experienced, educated professionals will constantly filter inconvenient information in favor of adjusting to what the group believes. Smarter, 110-130 IQ "midwits" will actually recognize something is wrong, but will rationalize the emotional inconvenience and build explanations or narratives so they can cope. <110IQ people can't construct these rationalizations, and if they're low-IQ enough they can't even understand them, so this is why dumb people often perceive conspiracies that highly intelligent people observe, because the layer of rationalization doesn't appear to them. >140 IQ literally cannot use these rationalizations because their brains see right through them and you have to be a psychopath to ignore what you see. 110-130 IQ people ACTUALLY BELIEVE these rationalizations, that's the point. They ego invest in them and will fight their own kin to squash anyone noticing malicious behavior systemic to institutions. This is partly because, these midwits as the supreme managerial class, so effectively rationalize, they can operate in corrupt environments without being aware of the corruption. Thus they are rewarded immensely, given titles or big salaries, and become personally invested in the fraud while also consciously believing there's no fraud.
As an adult who has noticed all this from experience in the military, ecclesiastical, academic, corporate (never medical sadly) sectors, these patterns seem universal. You know the store manager who has the keys to lock up? Well, when they open up to their buddies and drink a little of the merchandise and throw a little party or whatever, if corporate can't tell, then why wouldn't they? Not everyone who has power will abuse it, but anywhere power is held, someone will abuse it. Abuse of power is a very casual thing, and at a minimum, some percentage of human personality types will always do it. The go-getters and doers especially trend toward a willingness to abuse power, and that's part of the problem. Other humans have specific instincts to submit to the powerful and almost take pleasure when they are on the good side of a psychopath who is abusing a third party.
Here you might say, "Gee, you have a cynical view of humanity." Sorry, the day a college kid can stand up and assert a point of view that's not social consensus, and have even 10% of the class change their minds and support him merely from considering the argument, then maybe I'll be more optimistic. No, people are cowards who are constantly trying to fit in, mostly most people are pretty dumb, and actually most people disdain those who refuse to fit in and don't care at all about the group's corruption. See, kids who are instinctively socially breaking from their parents will oppose the society of their parents. But kids will never oppose, not ever, not at scale, the social momentum of other kids unless there are other kids of clear divisions like racial or religious.
Therefore, I would propose that not only is society full of conspiracies at every level, but actually society functions on the basis of conspiracy. Small group loyalties and hierarchies form nodes around which institutional structure can build larger organizations. I was in the military which is full of formal authority, laws and rules. The reality of it is all that was a distraction to make people put up with a system that is more about little cliques among officers and so forth that sort everything out behind closed doors. Sure, norms, laws, rules, training smooth things out, allow interchangeability, but real decisions are made selfishly by some leader and they have quidproquo with colleagues and that bubbles up to the top. So whatever stupid beliefs they have about their organization or its values, they take with them to the top where someone like a general wields real power. Yet, such a person is sort of "endowed" with that position by his clique-community, and so they must fight for that community's values in the confines of that community's worldview, which might be totally inaccurate.
With this in mind, here is your final graduation thought experiment.
I've tried to understand the Ukraine war.
Right now Russia is playing on its former Soviet era diplomatic network so it's leaning into "white neocolonialists who think they have superior values exploit brown people because of theft and racism." But they're also simultaneously playing the newer, libertarian narrative of a progressive managerial elite which has hijacked the Western bureaucracy. It's sort of insane how they do this. Like how they exalt Orthodox religion but also insist Stalin did nothing wrong, which not even the post-Stalin USSR believed.
The anti-neocolonialist narrative says that rich whites want to steal resources from poor browns. This is factually what's happening, but the tragic irony is that many third world countries probably couldn't develop or benefit from these resources without first world help. So, there's both an argument against neo-colonialism, but also an argument that it's not like this big scam so much as a natural consequence. What it boils down to for me is where war, jackal economics or espionage is used. That's clearly wrong, and I think a lot of poor countries would be doing a lot better without these interventions, although I don't think they'd be rich and developed.
Well, the West actually is anti-neocolonialist too. Globalists want smart cities, AI economy, UBI, CBDC. They want rural white Americans to be the same level of poor as rural Africans, and for the gains of exploiting natural resources to be concentrated among a global elite, which although unfair, is not exclusive to borders. The geopolitical unfairness of neocolonialism will be addressed by Globalism. And its elite will be very small compared to the global proletariat they intend to have.
This is all very ironic since the globalist machine is playing the Euro-chauvinism card to appeal to Euro elites, and also the American exceptionalism card to appeal to American nationalists. They're playing whatever cards they have, like Russia.
So this is all I know: the West is lying to some of its lesser elites by paying lip service to their values. Russia is playing its old USSR geopolitics card while also playing a trad Orthodox card, while also playing an anti-globalist card.
I KNOW that the West is globalist, the leadership that is. So NATO must lose, because the globalists will certainly win if NATO wins. However, I fear the other side might also be globalists and the whole conflict is an anti-white, anti-Western charade meant to displace the old Euro elites and American nationalists.
That's the irony. Globalists control the West, but have to constantly deal with these older elite factions, so they could be using the war as a purge in a way.
It's hard to explain why the globalist-American leadership needed this conflict so bad. Probably it's all a shitshow gone wrong. This is where my explanation of how conspiracies function comes into play.
Neocons thought the would reinvigorate interest in the military but it hasn't. Like a new patriotism and interest in military power and funding.
Ukrainian Jews might have thought they could purge the Slavs and make a second Jewish homeland but that's probably off the table due to the failed counter offensive.
Russia's hopes of exercising their historical and cultural hegemony to settle the conflict have failed, when Ukrainian deep state operatives assured them they were still on the same old team.
Stupid nationalists who are somehow blind to the globalists and think the American economy is "doing great" probably thought this could be a knockout blow to Russia's meddling in certain geostrategic resource deals that affected American hegemony over Europe. This is a legacy of the British "can't let Europe become a world power" prerogative. The kind of dumb monkey legacy deep state geopolitical prerogatives that these idiots cling to while ignoring the other players around them.
So there are members of the British and American diplomatic-military-intelligence communities who are seemingly oblivious to what globalism is, or the imminent collapse of the Anglo-American financial hegemony. They actually believe the financial journalism. They are playing out a specific strategy from their class or clique or culture's history which is about keeping Europe down. So they are acting from that vantage and are acting as a conspiracy.
There are Euro elites acting from the vantage of actual vestigial colonialist attitudes where they actually think that Europe of all places is a bastion of Western values. While this class is completely morally degenerate, what they really mean is there is a class of elites in Europe that actually thinks the whole world outside of white Europe are actually just dumb monkeys. Not metaphorical. They are committed to all this, as a conspiracy that exercises influence as a conspiracy, because of this idiotic, low-information attitude.
Then there's the globalists who have all kinds of plans, and have even got Russia and China and India to adopt some of their financial technologies in preparation for their Great Reset. And this is done because of their massive influence over global business. As a conspiracy. And yet, while massively influential, they don't outright control Russia or China and their plants are constantly falling short. I'd say the globalists are trying to act as a conventional "illuminati" style conspiracy.
But the point is what I said in the beginning. Even these powerful, highly competent cliques have huge blind spots and huge power gaps because humans are in fact highly incompetent in large numbers.
I get a clique trying very hard to influence things and just falling short of being able to do it, but what boggles my mind is that a lot of these conspiracies who KNOW they are conspiracies who KNOW the world is a stage for the common sheep and KNOW the basic nature of deep state and intelligence games that are played. Even these people will not see past their own biases or egos, and fail to see lies in front of their own faces.
Because conspiracy is natural to humans. We do it naturally, so we engage in illicit collusion and cliquishness, but we don't necessarily see or realize where it's happening outside of our brain's 150 person social perception. Which to me is the oddest thing.
2024.05.29 05:07 Chlemtil Tanganyikan Community Tank not quite realizing my vision
Hi friends. I have a Tanganyika Community tank that's been set up for a month or so now. Everyone is healthy, but it hasn't really achieved its full vision. Mostly, the three species that I thought would settle into different areas of the tank have not done so. My free swimmers (Cyprichromis leptosoma) that I THOUGHT would swim around the top of the tank spend a lot of time in my caves. The cave dwellers (Julidochromis Regani) spend most of their time around my shells. And the shell dwellers (Neolamprologus multifasciatus) used to have their homes in the shells but are recently homeless and all over the place.
Was hoping someone with more experience than me might be willing to get on FaceTime or Zoom and maybe consult me on this? Would appreciate it greatly and would even be willing to send a few bucks to you or your favorite charity as a consultant fee!
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Was hoping someone with more experience than me might be willing to get on FaceTime or Zoom and maybe consult me on this? Would appreciate it greatly and would even be willing to send a few bucks to you or your favorite charity as a consultant fee!
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2024.05.29 05:05 Wisewolves77 Trimalleolar fracture recovery
So, I am a 58 year old female and dell in a rain divot in our dirt driveway at like 1AM on May 5, of COURSE I did, as we were leaving on the 8th for our 1st real vacation in 10 years, a condo at New Smyrna and 4 days at Welcome to Rockville. We had to call the Ambulance as I could not get up, and my husband couldn't help me as any movement caused nausea. At the ER the doctor said I had a trimalleolar fracture as she saw a chip in the back but the radiologist said no, just bi They splinted me up and I went home, saw the surgeon on the 7th, he confirmed trimalleolar but didn't think the one at the back would need help but as i was unstable wanted surgery ASAP. Just peachy Surgery was the 9th (missed our check in date) after surgery and that amazing nerve blocker we got the dogs and ourselves and drove the 2 hours to our condo rental. I had very little pain, I had bought a knee scooter and on Friday the 10th and Saturday the 11th we went to Rockville. (DEF GET THAT KNEE SCOOTER!!+) also I saw someone say don't buy the Cast cover for the shower, honestly 2nd best purchase for 12 bucks from amazon, easier to use and cheaper in the long run than bags and tape. And if I had to do it again, I would def recommend spending the money on the pillow wedge. after vacation I have been pretty okay, not much pain, discomfort usually in the evening and man I regret not buying the wedge pillow Went to a mall, do most of my chores, I rarely use the crutches. Except.. I live in a mobile home on a horse farm, I go out as little as possible as it's dirt everywhere and there are steps in the door. I work from home already so things have been okay Today was my post op, so 19 days post surgery. Removed the sutures I have a plate and screws on the outside and one screw on the inside. And gave me a boot, this thing is enormous and heavy, I am non weight bearing for 4 more weeks at least. But the shower!!! Being able to get my leg wet, so much nasty dry skin, and lotion and even shaved some. Was incredible But I guess I was spoiled as I have had so little pain, because man I have more pain tonight than i have had since before surgery, some is because it is 98 degrees here in FL and obviously some sweat I believe and getting jn the edges of my wound, while the stitches were removed it's still not totally closed and I have a few butterfly strips. Sleeping in this beast js not going to be fun. I had 2 oxycodones left and had to take one tonight. Anyone else have this kind of pain still at 19 days? Or after you went feom splint to boot? It is snug so it's not an issue of moving. I am so frustrated as I have tickets I paid alot for to see a baseball game July 8, right by thr visiting Yankee dugout, and I don't know how the heck I am going to do that as I assume there are quite a few steps to get to my seat. Probably 20 steps and f I csn barely get in and out of my house with 4 stairs. My 4 week appt and xray will be June 25, so 2 weeks before the game,. Who has made it to this point as to how much weight bearing we may start with? 10%?
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2024.05.29 05:05 Eubank31 Finally made the switch!
 | Gonna give a list of first impressions, things I miss, general thoughts, etc: submitted by Eubank31 to Garmin [link] [comments] Why did I buy it? Well, I’m actually interning for Garmin this summer so I had a pretty hefty discount. I got two of these, one for myself and one for my dad, along with an Index scale. Also, my Apple Watch is a series 6, and the battery barely lasts a day anymore. It’s super annoying needing to charge multiple times a day, especially as I do use sleep tracking. Things I’m enjoying so far: - much brighter and larger display - sleep score/body battery. I’ve had issues sleeping the past few years, so getting better insights into my sleep beyond the Apple Watch’s fairly rudimentary sleep insights is nice - customizability/ConnectIQ. User made watch faces is a big plus - so much data. Data and more data. I’m a software guy, I love my data. So awesome just being able to see everything. - More customizability, in this case being able to change the vibrations. I immediately was annoyed with the vibrations being very jarring, as I was used to the Apple Watch’s very subtle but satisfying Taptic Engine. But I very quickly found that there’s actually a setting to change the vibration strength. Not something I’m used to in the Apple ecosystem - I expected notifications to be a big issue (I’d heard you couldn’t granularly edit notifications on iOS) but was pleasantly surprised that it hasn’t been an issue as I have my focus settings pretty well controlled anyways Things that are bothering me: - the buttons. God damn trying to click the bottom button and move to the top button is all very annoying because they’re slightly hard to press and just in an awkward position - swipe navigation is kinda clunky. I can definitely see how this gets such good battery life, the refresh rate is not great - not significant, but if I’m editing a watch face in ConnectIQ, every time I save a change it kicks me back to the watch page and I have to click settings again to edit - some of the navigation is difficult but I imagine it’ll get better as I use it more - a few times I’ve accidentally started an activity and haven’t been able to get out, all while it’s beeping at me while I’m in a quiet office - strength training is definitely an afterthought. Although I understand the big focus is on runners/cyclists, I tried setting up a strength workout on the Connect site, and it took me a solid 20 minutes to fully input my 4-exercise workout (I’m a powerlifting athlete), and even then 2 of the 4 exercises I wanted to use just don’t exist. I’ll just steer clear of this functionality, which is fine because Apple Watch doesn’t have anything similar anyways. All together I’m really enjoying and looking forward to getting more used to it! There are tradeoffs but they really aren’t very consequential to me. I often run beta software on my phone and I daily drive Linux (arch btw), so I am no stranger to software hiccups😅 |
2024.05.29 05:04 blurredsulci A Name I Don't Know
I was drunk. My good friend was with me. We had both just gone through breakups and she decided to visit me to hang out and go to the state fair. We had been at the baclub for a while at this point. She was being bitter. My other friend came with us but he was being a debbie downer. I ended up being asked to dance so I did so. I was dancing with this younger black man with long dreads. He was teaching me to two step. Honestly, I was already drinking for a while, but I was having a great time. I kept checking in with my friend. She was on her phone a lot and I decided I wasn't going to just sit there while she texted some guy 2 hours or so away. That's when I decided to go dance.
To be clear, at no point was I black out drunk or out of control. I was buzzed and happy.
She mentions this guy she's talking to. She invites him to the bar with us. He was drinking with some friend of his. My friend and I sent them a bathroom mirror selfie not saying anything provocative or anything, at least not that I know of. Either way, he calls her at some point. He's there but his buddy wasn't allowed in...because he showed up to a country baclub in sweatpants. He was already drunk too. They are discussing this when the guy she invited (a man a few years older than us going through a divorce and custody battle...mind you we are somewhere around 22 and 25). I feel bad for him and we go out to the parking lot to talk with the friend and see what he wants to do. He says he is fine waiting in the lot. I don't know who, but someone was like well let's go get food so he can be included. So I was like sure and my friend and I get in our car, the guy she invited and his friend get into their own car with the plan that we all meet somewhere to get food. I don't remember the specifics of how it happened, but we didn't get food. I think the place they wanted was closed or something. Either way, she invites these two men that are strangers to me to MY apartment. I had a just over 500 sq ft studio apartment in a bad part of town. I had 3 bar stools, no couch, no where to sit, just my bed and the chairs. I wasn't comfortable with this but my opinion wasn't heeded.
We get to the apartment. I know I made a shot for everyone. The friend of the guy my friend invited wanted to drink all my alcohol basically. I told him no because I was a student and that shit's expensive. He wasn't about to wipe out all my liquor on his own. But my friend and the guy she invited say they're going to take a step outside to talk about something. I found out later they went to his truck to talk about them or whatever. Well, this means I am left with this asshole friend of the guy.
I had been sitting on my bed when my friend left the apartment to step outside. I had been trying to be polite and let my guests have the chairs. Some things get fuzzy here. I know the friend of the guy came and sat by me. He started trying to touch me and kiss me. I told him I wasn't interested and I didn't do hookups. He starts telling me about his baby momma and his kid. He said some stuff that made me think he was a bit of an awful person but I don't remember exactly what it was now. Anywho, he tries to sit right by me, a 110-120lb very petite girl. I try to move away while still being polite. He starts putting his hands on me. Sliding them up my shirt and trying to grab my chest. I tell him no and to stop. I say I'm not interested. He says don't worry he'll come visit me and we can go out later so it's not just a hook up. He knows where I live now so he'll come by after tonight. I don't like this. I keep telling him no and trying to get away. Things are getting fuzzy.
I know he grabbed my thighs. He tried to take my shirt off and undo my jean shorts. He kept rubbing on my vagina over my jeans. I kept saying no and trying to get away. He pushed me down and back so I was laying on my bed. I squirmed out and went to the bathroom. I tried to text my friend. She left her phone inside. I didn't know what to do.
I come out of the bathroom. He says how much he wishes I had come out in lingerie. I don't remember how but I remember I was on the bed again. He was on top of me, touching me, grabbing my chest, rubbing between my legs, pinning me with his weight. I tried to play friendly and get him off. Anything I could do to get it to stop. He wouldn't listen. Eventually he laid beside me and tried to get me to touch him. I was able to get up and get to my door.
My friend was in the front seat of the guy she invited's truck. I asked her when she was coming in and if she could come back in with me. I was so concerned with ruining her night. She had made it sound like it would just be a second. I couldn't stay outside, the area wasn't safe, let alone for a petite female. But my apartment wasn't safe now either. I know I ended up back inside. I tried to stay far away from the man inside. He would try to come onto me and touch me still. I got him to start just talking so he'd be distracted and stop. Eventually my friend comes in with the guy she invited. I remember the guys left.
I felt numb to what happened. I know if I reacted differently it would have been way worse. I kept him from getting my clothes off but I couldn't stop the ways he touched me. I couldn't stop the ways he grabbed me or made me feel uncomfortable in my own space. I told him to stop and articulated why so many times. I played dumb and sweet to get it to stop. It was like Josh again but worse and with a man I didn't know. Whose name I don't even remember. For some reason I feel guilt about it. Did I do something to make him think I wanted that? I said if they came it would be fun but I said that in an innocent way as in I knew my friend wanted to see this guy and I wanted her to be able to do so. Did he go home upset because some prude bitch wouldn't sleep w him when he went all that way? Did he think I owed him? Did I do something wrong? I don't know him. I don't owe him. I didn't control him coming down here or tell them to. I didn't want them in my apartment. I didn't want to be alone with them.
I feel that twinge of guilt still that I owed him when I think about this. I felt numb to it for a long time like it wasn't a thing that mattered. That's still how I see it mostly. Some of these details might be blurred. I don't know that I remember everything, which is weird because I wasn't crazy intoxicated, I was happy buzzed. My friend asked me a few times if I told her everything that happened. She said she felt bad once I finally told her what happened. But a part of me wonders if something more did happen and I just refuse to remember it. I don't know. A part of me says I should be flattered someone thought I was attractive. I should be flattered he wanted me. I know this wasn't right. I'm not okay with it, but why do I think of it like this? Why do I think something more might have happened? I was incredibly hungover the next day. Worse than ever before or ever since. It was awful. I wasn't drugged. I made the only drink I had while those guys were around. I don't know what all happened now. The details are fuzzy. Hell some of what I wrote may be me filling in gaps. I can't say for sure. I just know my friend and I haven't seen each other since. We barely speak. I had some discontent with her for this. It wasn't her fault but I couldn't see things the same. She was one of my closest friends. Why would she tell them to come over? Why would she leave me alone, clearly buzzed, with this strange guy in an apartment that had no where to go? His actions aren't her fault at all. I know I could never leave a friend in that situation though. I can't completely reconcile that someone that was supposed to be there for me and we were supposed to look out for each other would act as such.
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To be clear, at no point was I black out drunk or out of control. I was buzzed and happy.
She mentions this guy she's talking to. She invites him to the bar with us. He was drinking with some friend of his. My friend and I sent them a bathroom mirror selfie not saying anything provocative or anything, at least not that I know of. Either way, he calls her at some point. He's there but his buddy wasn't allowed in...because he showed up to a country baclub in sweatpants. He was already drunk too. They are discussing this when the guy she invited (a man a few years older than us going through a divorce and custody battle...mind you we are somewhere around 22 and 25). I feel bad for him and we go out to the parking lot to talk with the friend and see what he wants to do. He says he is fine waiting in the lot. I don't know who, but someone was like well let's go get food so he can be included. So I was like sure and my friend and I get in our car, the guy she invited and his friend get into their own car with the plan that we all meet somewhere to get food. I don't remember the specifics of how it happened, but we didn't get food. I think the place they wanted was closed or something. Either way, she invites these two men that are strangers to me to MY apartment. I had a just over 500 sq ft studio apartment in a bad part of town. I had 3 bar stools, no couch, no where to sit, just my bed and the chairs. I wasn't comfortable with this but my opinion wasn't heeded.
We get to the apartment. I know I made a shot for everyone. The friend of the guy my friend invited wanted to drink all my alcohol basically. I told him no because I was a student and that shit's expensive. He wasn't about to wipe out all my liquor on his own. But my friend and the guy she invited say they're going to take a step outside to talk about something. I found out later they went to his truck to talk about them or whatever. Well, this means I am left with this asshole friend of the guy.
I had been sitting on my bed when my friend left the apartment to step outside. I had been trying to be polite and let my guests have the chairs. Some things get fuzzy here. I know the friend of the guy came and sat by me. He started trying to touch me and kiss me. I told him I wasn't interested and I didn't do hookups. He starts telling me about his baby momma and his kid. He said some stuff that made me think he was a bit of an awful person but I don't remember exactly what it was now. Anywho, he tries to sit right by me, a 110-120lb very petite girl. I try to move away while still being polite. He starts putting his hands on me. Sliding them up my shirt and trying to grab my chest. I tell him no and to stop. I say I'm not interested. He says don't worry he'll come visit me and we can go out later so it's not just a hook up. He knows where I live now so he'll come by after tonight. I don't like this. I keep telling him no and trying to get away. Things are getting fuzzy.
I know he grabbed my thighs. He tried to take my shirt off and undo my jean shorts. He kept rubbing on my vagina over my jeans. I kept saying no and trying to get away. He pushed me down and back so I was laying on my bed. I squirmed out and went to the bathroom. I tried to text my friend. She left her phone inside. I didn't know what to do.
I come out of the bathroom. He says how much he wishes I had come out in lingerie. I don't remember how but I remember I was on the bed again. He was on top of me, touching me, grabbing my chest, rubbing between my legs, pinning me with his weight. I tried to play friendly and get him off. Anything I could do to get it to stop. He wouldn't listen. Eventually he laid beside me and tried to get me to touch him. I was able to get up and get to my door.
My friend was in the front seat of the guy she invited's truck. I asked her when she was coming in and if she could come back in with me. I was so concerned with ruining her night. She had made it sound like it would just be a second. I couldn't stay outside, the area wasn't safe, let alone for a petite female. But my apartment wasn't safe now either. I know I ended up back inside. I tried to stay far away from the man inside. He would try to come onto me and touch me still. I got him to start just talking so he'd be distracted and stop. Eventually my friend comes in with the guy she invited. I remember the guys left.
I felt numb to what happened. I know if I reacted differently it would have been way worse. I kept him from getting my clothes off but I couldn't stop the ways he touched me. I couldn't stop the ways he grabbed me or made me feel uncomfortable in my own space. I told him to stop and articulated why so many times. I played dumb and sweet to get it to stop. It was like Josh again but worse and with a man I didn't know. Whose name I don't even remember. For some reason I feel guilt about it. Did I do something to make him think I wanted that? I said if they came it would be fun but I said that in an innocent way as in I knew my friend wanted to see this guy and I wanted her to be able to do so. Did he go home upset because some prude bitch wouldn't sleep w him when he went all that way? Did he think I owed him? Did I do something wrong? I don't know him. I don't owe him. I didn't control him coming down here or tell them to. I didn't want them in my apartment. I didn't want to be alone with them.
I feel that twinge of guilt still that I owed him when I think about this. I felt numb to it for a long time like it wasn't a thing that mattered. That's still how I see it mostly. Some of these details might be blurred. I don't know that I remember everything, which is weird because I wasn't crazy intoxicated, I was happy buzzed. My friend asked me a few times if I told her everything that happened. She said she felt bad once I finally told her what happened. But a part of me wonders if something more did happen and I just refuse to remember it. I don't know. A part of me says I should be flattered someone thought I was attractive. I should be flattered he wanted me. I know this wasn't right. I'm not okay with it, but why do I think of it like this? Why do I think something more might have happened? I was incredibly hungover the next day. Worse than ever before or ever since. It was awful. I wasn't drugged. I made the only drink I had while those guys were around. I don't know what all happened now. The details are fuzzy. Hell some of what I wrote may be me filling in gaps. I can't say for sure. I just know my friend and I haven't seen each other since. We barely speak. I had some discontent with her for this. It wasn't her fault but I couldn't see things the same. She was one of my closest friends. Why would she tell them to come over? Why would she leave me alone, clearly buzzed, with this strange guy in an apartment that had no where to go? His actions aren't her fault at all. I know I could never leave a friend in that situation though. I can't completely reconcile that someone that was supposed to be there for me and we were supposed to look out for each other would act as such.
2024.05.29 05:03 waldoles Birthday gift for my partner
My (29F) partner's (32M) birthday is in a few weeks. I'm stuck on what to gift him. He's into bass and I got him some accessories e.g., guitar strings, cleaning kit. I'd love to gift him something more intimate and creative. I was thinking of asking some of his friends (he has big social circle) and family to handwrite notes and I could compile them into a photo book or something. I get in my head when it comes to giving gifts. I'm unsure if this is too over the top for his 33rd birthday. Can someone objectively share with me how this gift sounds? TIA!
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2024.05.29 05:03 blurredsulci A Name I Don't Know
I was drunk. My good friend was with me. We had both just gone through breakups and she decided to visit me to hang out and go to the state fair. We had been at the baclub for a while at this point. She was being bitter. My other friend came with us but he was being a debbie downer. I ended up being asked to dance so I did so. I was dancing with this younger black man with long dreads. He was teaching me to two step. Honestly, I was already drinking for a while, but I was having a great time. I kept checking in with my friend. She was on her phone a lot and I decided I wasn't going to just sit there while she texted some guy 2 hours or so away. That's when I decided to go dance.
To be clear, at no point was I black out drunk or out of control. I was buzzed and happy.
She mentions this guy she's talking to. She invites him to the bar with us. He was drinking with some friend of his. My friend and I sent them a bathroom mirror selfie not saying anything provocative or anything, at least not that I know of. Either way, he calls her at some point. He's there but his buddy wasn't allowed in...because he showed up to a country baclub in sweatpants. He was already drunk too. They are discussing this when the guy she invited (a man a few years older than us going through a divorce and custody battle...mind you we are somewhere around 22 and 25). I feel bad for him and we go out to the parking lot to talk with the friend and see what he wants to do. He says he is fine waiting in the lot. I don't know who, but someone was like well let's go get food so he can be included. So I was like sure and my friend and I get in our car, the guy she invited and his friend get into their own car with the plan that we all meet somewhere to get food. I don't remember the specifics of how it happened, but we didn't get food. I think the place they wanted was closed or something. Either way, she invites these two men that are strangers to me to MY apartment. I had a just over 500 sq ft studio apartment in a bad part of town. I had 3 bar stools, no couch, no where to sit, just my bed and the chairs. I wasn't comfortable with this but my opinion wasn't heeded.
We get to the apartment. I know I made a shot for everyone. The friend of the guy my friend invited wanted to drink all my alcohol basically. I told him no because I was a student and that shit's expensive. He wasn't about to wipe out all my liquor on his own. But my friend and the guy she invited say they're going to take a step outside to talk about something. I found out later they went to his truck to talk about them or whatever. Well, this means I am left with this asshole friend of the guy.
I had been sitting on my bed when my friend left the apartment to step outside. I had been trying to be polite and let my guests have the chairs. Some things get fuzzy here. I know the friend of the guy came and sat by me. He started trying to touch me and kiss me. I told him I wasn't interested and I didn't do hookups. He starts telling me about his baby momma and his kid. He said some stuff that made me think he was a bit of an awful person but I don't remember exactly what it was now. Anywho, he tries to sit right by me, a 110-120lb very petite girl. I try to move away while still being polite. He starts putting his hands on me. Sliding them up my shirt and trying to grab my chest. I tell him no and to stop. I say I'm not interested. He says don't worry he'll come visit me and we can go out later so it's not just a hook up. He knows where I live now so he'll come by after tonight. I don't like this. I keep telling him no and trying to get away. Things are getting fuzzy.
I know he grabbed my thighs. He tried to take my shirt off and undo my jean shorts. He kept rubbing on my vagina over my jeans. I kept saying no and trying to get away. He pushed me down and back so I was laying on my bed. I squirmed out and went to the bathroom. I tried to text my friend. She left her phone inside. I didn't know what to do.
I come out of the bathroom. He says how much he wishes I had come out in lingerie. I don't remember how but I remember I was on the bed again. He was on top of me, touching me, grabbing my chest, rubbing between my legs, pinning me with his weight. I tried to play friendly and get him off. Anything I could do to get it to stop. He wouldn't listen. Eventually he laid beside me and tried to get me to touch him. I was able to get up and get to my door.
My friend was in the front seat of the guy she invited's truck. I asked her when she was coming in and if she could come back in with me. I was so concerned with ruining her night. She had made it sound like it would just be a second. I couldn't stay outside, the area wasn't safe, let alone for a petite female. But my apartment wasn't safe now either. I know I ended up back inside. I tried to stay far away from the man inside. He would try to come onto me and touch me still. I got him to start just talking so he'd be distracted and stop. Eventually my friend comes in with the guy she invited. I remember the guys left.
I felt numb to what happened. I know if I reacted differently it would have been way worse. I kept him from getting my clothes off but I couldn't stop the ways he touched me. I couldn't stop the ways he grabbed me or made me feel uncomfortable in my own space. I told him to stop and articulated why so many times. I played dumb and sweet to get it to stop. It was like Josh again but worse and with a man I didn't know. Whose name I don't even remember. For some reason I feel guilt about it. Did I do something to make him think I wanted that? I said if they came it would be fun but I said that in an innocent way as in I knew my friend wanted to see this guy and I wanted her to be able to do so. Did he go home upset because some prude bitch wouldn't sleep w him when he went all that way? Did he think I owed him? Did I do something wrong? I don't know him. I don't owe him. I didn't control him coming down here or tell them to. I didn't want them in my apartment. I didn't want to be alone with them.
I feel that twinge of guilt still that I owed him when I think about this. I felt numb to it for a long time like it wasn't a thing that mattered. That's still how I see it mostly. Some of these details might be blurred. I don't know that I remember everything, which is weird because I wasn't crazy intoxicated, I was happy buzzed. My friend asked me a few times if I told her everything that happened. She said she felt bad once I finally told her what happened. But a part of me wonders if something more did happen and I just refuse to remember it. I don't know. A part of me says I should be flattered someone thought I was attractive. I should be flattered he wanted me. I know this wasn't right. I'm not okay with it, but why do I think of it like this? Why do I think something more might have happened? I was incredibly hungover the next day. Worse than ever before or ever since. It was awful. I wasn't drugged. I made the only drink I had while those guys were around. I don't know what all happened now. The details are fuzzy. Hell some of what I wrote may be me filling in gaps. I can't say for sure. I just know my friend and I haven't seen each other since. We barely speak. I had some discontent with her for this. It wasn't her fault but I couldn't see things the same. She was one of my closest friends. Why would she tell them to come over? Why would she leave me alone, clearly buzzed, with this strange guy in an apartment that had no where to go? His actions aren't her fault at all. I know I could never leave a friend in that situation though. I can't completely reconcile that someone that was supposed to be there for me and we were supposed to look out for each other would act as such.
submitted by blurredsulci to drowningawake [link] [comments]
To be clear, at no point was I black out drunk or out of control. I was buzzed and happy.
She mentions this guy she's talking to. She invites him to the bar with us. He was drinking with some friend of his. My friend and I sent them a bathroom mirror selfie not saying anything provocative or anything, at least not that I know of. Either way, he calls her at some point. He's there but his buddy wasn't allowed in...because he showed up to a country baclub in sweatpants. He was already drunk too. They are discussing this when the guy she invited (a man a few years older than us going through a divorce and custody battle...mind you we are somewhere around 22 and 25). I feel bad for him and we go out to the parking lot to talk with the friend and see what he wants to do. He says he is fine waiting in the lot. I don't know who, but someone was like well let's go get food so he can be included. So I was like sure and my friend and I get in our car, the guy she invited and his friend get into their own car with the plan that we all meet somewhere to get food. I don't remember the specifics of how it happened, but we didn't get food. I think the place they wanted was closed or something. Either way, she invites these two men that are strangers to me to MY apartment. I had a just over 500 sq ft studio apartment in a bad part of town. I had 3 bar stools, no couch, no where to sit, just my bed and the chairs. I wasn't comfortable with this but my opinion wasn't heeded.
We get to the apartment. I know I made a shot for everyone. The friend of the guy my friend invited wanted to drink all my alcohol basically. I told him no because I was a student and that shit's expensive. He wasn't about to wipe out all my liquor on his own. But my friend and the guy she invited say they're going to take a step outside to talk about something. I found out later they went to his truck to talk about them or whatever. Well, this means I am left with this asshole friend of the guy.
I had been sitting on my bed when my friend left the apartment to step outside. I had been trying to be polite and let my guests have the chairs. Some things get fuzzy here. I know the friend of the guy came and sat by me. He started trying to touch me and kiss me. I told him I wasn't interested and I didn't do hookups. He starts telling me about his baby momma and his kid. He said some stuff that made me think he was a bit of an awful person but I don't remember exactly what it was now. Anywho, he tries to sit right by me, a 110-120lb very petite girl. I try to move away while still being polite. He starts putting his hands on me. Sliding them up my shirt and trying to grab my chest. I tell him no and to stop. I say I'm not interested. He says don't worry he'll come visit me and we can go out later so it's not just a hook up. He knows where I live now so he'll come by after tonight. I don't like this. I keep telling him no and trying to get away. Things are getting fuzzy.
I know he grabbed my thighs. He tried to take my shirt off and undo my jean shorts. He kept rubbing on my vagina over my jeans. I kept saying no and trying to get away. He pushed me down and back so I was laying on my bed. I squirmed out and went to the bathroom. I tried to text my friend. She left her phone inside. I didn't know what to do.
I come out of the bathroom. He says how much he wishes I had come out in lingerie. I don't remember how but I remember I was on the bed again. He was on top of me, touching me, grabbing my chest, rubbing between my legs, pinning me with his weight. I tried to play friendly and get him off. Anything I could do to get it to stop. He wouldn't listen. Eventually he laid beside me and tried to get me to touch him. I was able to get up and get to my door.
My friend was in the front seat of the guy she invited's truck. I asked her when she was coming in and if she could come back in with me. I was so concerned with ruining her night. She had made it sound like it would just be a second. I couldn't stay outside, the area wasn't safe, let alone for a petite female. But my apartment wasn't safe now either. I know I ended up back inside. I tried to stay far away from the man inside. He would try to come onto me and touch me still. I got him to start just talking so he'd be distracted and stop. Eventually my friend comes in with the guy she invited. I remember the guys left.
I felt numb to what happened. I know if I reacted differently it would have been way worse. I kept him from getting my clothes off but I couldn't stop the ways he touched me. I couldn't stop the ways he grabbed me or made me feel uncomfortable in my own space. I told him to stop and articulated why so many times. I played dumb and sweet to get it to stop. It was like Josh again but worse and with a man I didn't know. Whose name I don't even remember. For some reason I feel guilt about it. Did I do something to make him think I wanted that? I said if they came it would be fun but I said that in an innocent way as in I knew my friend wanted to see this guy and I wanted her to be able to do so. Did he go home upset because some prude bitch wouldn't sleep w him when he went all that way? Did he think I owed him? Did I do something wrong? I don't know him. I don't owe him. I didn't control him coming down here or tell them to. I didn't want them in my apartment. I didn't want to be alone with them.
I feel that twinge of guilt still that I owed him when I think about this. I felt numb to it for a long time like it wasn't a thing that mattered. That's still how I see it mostly. Some of these details might be blurred. I don't know that I remember everything, which is weird because I wasn't crazy intoxicated, I was happy buzzed. My friend asked me a few times if I told her everything that happened. She said she felt bad once I finally told her what happened. But a part of me wonders if something more did happen and I just refuse to remember it. I don't know. A part of me says I should be flattered someone thought I was attractive. I should be flattered he wanted me. I know this wasn't right. I'm not okay with it, but why do I think of it like this? Why do I think something more might have happened? I was incredibly hungover the next day. Worse than ever before or ever since. It was awful. I wasn't drugged. I made the only drink I had while those guys were around. I don't know what all happened now. The details are fuzzy. Hell some of what I wrote may be me filling in gaps. I can't say for sure. I just know my friend and I haven't seen each other since. We barely speak. I had some discontent with her for this. It wasn't her fault but I couldn't see things the same. She was one of my closest friends. Why would she tell them to come over? Why would she leave me alone, clearly buzzed, with this strange guy in an apartment that had no where to go? His actions aren't her fault at all. I know I could never leave a friend in that situation though. I can't completely reconcile that someone that was supposed to be there for me and we were supposed to look out for each other would act as such.
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2024.05.29 05:02 mbrain2858 We've all done this...but top 100 all-time!
In response to Apple Music's Top 100 album list (which I thought was horrid but hey who am I), I decided to make my own top 100 album list to make corrections where I thought it was needed. I'm sure all of us music enthusiasts have attempted this before, but I really went at it this time. I scoured the internet for musical opinions, used AI, and of course a little bit of personal opinion, although I tried to be as unbiased as humanly possible. I tried my best to take into account critical acclaim, popularity, artistic value, cohesiveness & flow, influence, and just overall value. Here it is, let me know what you'd change or think about my list or Apple's list!
(Also, I made sure only to do one album per musical act, as there's so much great music out there it felt wrong to double up on the same artist)
~The Greatest Albums of All Time~
1. Abbey Road by The Beatles
2. Pet Sounds by The Beach Boys
3. A Love Supreme by John Coltrane
4. The Rise and Fall of Ziggy Stardust and the Spiders from Mars by David Bowie
5. OK Computer by Radiohead
6. To Pimp A Butterfly by Kendrick Lamar
7. Rumours by Fleetwood Mac
8. Blue by Joni Mitchell
9. Kind of Blue by Miles Davis
10. The Velvet Underground & Nico by The Velvet Underground & Nico
11. My Beautiful Dark Twisted Fantasy by Kanye West
12. Songs in the Key of Life by Stevie Wonder
13. In the Court of the Crimson King by King Crimson
14. Loveless by My Bloody Valentine
15. Illmatic by Nas
16. Nevermind by Nirvana
17. Wish You Were Here by Pink Floyd
18. Disintegration by The Cure
19. Hounds of Love by Kate Bush
20. What’s Going On by Marvin Gaye
21. Led Zeppelin IV by Led Zeppelin
22. Madvillainy by Madvillain
23. Heaven or Las Vegas by Cocteau Twins
24. Vespertine by Bjork
25. The Miseducation of Lauryn Hill by Lauryn Hill
26. Journey in Satchidananda by Alice Coltrane ft. Pharoah Sanders
27. Remain in Light by Talking Heads
28. Electric Ladyland by The Jimi Hendrix Experience
29. Grace by Jeff Buckley
30. The Queen is Dead by The Smiths
31. Highway 61 Revisited by Bob Dylan
32. Unknown Pleasures by Joy Division
33. Enter the Wu-Tang (36 Chambers) by Wu-Tang Clan
34. The Black Saint and the Sinner Lady by Mingus
35. Paranoid by Black Sabbath
36. The Downward Spiral by Nine Inch Nails
37. Doolittle by Pixies
38. The Low End Theory by A Tribe Called Quest
39. Is This It by The Strokes
40. Pink Moon by Nick Drake
41. Ágætis byrjun by Sigur Rós
42. Aquemini by Outkast
43. Mezzanine by Massive Attack
44. Discovery by Daft Punk
45. Songs of Leonard Cohen by Leonard Cohen
46. In the Aeroplane Over the Sea by Neutral Milk Hotel
47. Daydream Nation by Sonic Youth
48. Illinois by Sufjan Stevens
49. Ride the Lightning by Metallica
50. The Velvet Rope by Janet Jackson
51. The Doors by The Doors
52. Blonde by Frank Ocean
53. Sometimes I Might Be Introvert by Little Simz
54. The Glow Pt 2 by The Microphones
55. Pastel Blues by Nina Simone
56. Donuts by J Dilla
57. Marquee Moon by Television
58. Either / Or by Elliott Smith
59. Future Days by Can
60. Since I Left You by The Avalanches
61. Horses by Patti Smith
62. Souvlaki by Slowdive
63. MM..FOOD by MF DOOM
64. Love Deluxe by Sade
65. When the Pawn… by Fiona Apple
66. Lift Yr. Skinny Fists Like Antennas to Heaven! by Godspeed You Black Emperor!
67. Bloom by Beach House
68. Liquid Swords by Genius/GZA
69. Piñata by Freddie Gibbs & Madlib
70. Close to the Edge by Yes
71. Laughing Stock by Talk Talk
72. Endtroducing….. by DJ Shadow
73. Selected Ambient Works 85-92 by Aphex Twin
74. Soundtracks for the Blind by Swans
75. Titanic Rising by Weyes Blood
76. Mama’s Gun by Erykah Badu
77. Spiderland by Slint
78. The Lonesome Crowded West by Modest Mouse
79. Juju by Siouxsie and The Banshees
80. The Money Store by Death Grips
81. Dots and Loops by Stereolab
82. Floating Into the Night by Julee Cruise
83. LONG SEASON by Fishmans
84. Velocity : Design : Comfort by Sweet Trip
85. Atrocity Exhibition by Danny Brown
86. Deathconsciousness by Have A Nice Life
87. Karma by Pharoah Sanders
88. Symbolic by Death
89. Dreamboat Annie by Heart
90. Igor by Tyler, the Creator
91. Hot Rats by Frank Zappa
92. First Utterance by Comus
93. Ants from Up There by Black Country, New Road
94. Kalk samen kuri no hana by Sheena Ringo
95. Dragon New Warm Mountain I Believe In You by Big Thief
96. A I A: Alien Observer by Grouper
97. De todas las flores by Natalia Lafourcade
98. Adan no kaze by Ichiko Aoba
99. 3D Country by Geese
100. Daughter of Darkness by Natural Snow Buildings
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(Also, I made sure only to do one album per musical act, as there's so much great music out there it felt wrong to double up on the same artist)
~The Greatest Albums of All Time~
1. Abbey Road by The Beatles
2. Pet Sounds by The Beach Boys
3. A Love Supreme by John Coltrane
4. The Rise and Fall of Ziggy Stardust and the Spiders from Mars by David Bowie
5. OK Computer by Radiohead
6. To Pimp A Butterfly by Kendrick Lamar
7. Rumours by Fleetwood Mac
8. Blue by Joni Mitchell
9. Kind of Blue by Miles Davis
10. The Velvet Underground & Nico by The Velvet Underground & Nico
11. My Beautiful Dark Twisted Fantasy by Kanye West
12. Songs in the Key of Life by Stevie Wonder
13. In the Court of the Crimson King by King Crimson
14. Loveless by My Bloody Valentine
15. Illmatic by Nas
16. Nevermind by Nirvana
17. Wish You Were Here by Pink Floyd
18. Disintegration by The Cure
19. Hounds of Love by Kate Bush
20. What’s Going On by Marvin Gaye
21. Led Zeppelin IV by Led Zeppelin
22. Madvillainy by Madvillain
23. Heaven or Las Vegas by Cocteau Twins
24. Vespertine by Bjork
25. The Miseducation of Lauryn Hill by Lauryn Hill
26. Journey in Satchidananda by Alice Coltrane ft. Pharoah Sanders
27. Remain in Light by Talking Heads
28. Electric Ladyland by The Jimi Hendrix Experience
29. Grace by Jeff Buckley
30. The Queen is Dead by The Smiths
31. Highway 61 Revisited by Bob Dylan
32. Unknown Pleasures by Joy Division
33. Enter the Wu-Tang (36 Chambers) by Wu-Tang Clan
34. The Black Saint and the Sinner Lady by Mingus
35. Paranoid by Black Sabbath
36. The Downward Spiral by Nine Inch Nails
37. Doolittle by Pixies
38. The Low End Theory by A Tribe Called Quest
39. Is This It by The Strokes
40. Pink Moon by Nick Drake
41. Ágætis byrjun by Sigur Rós
42. Aquemini by Outkast
43. Mezzanine by Massive Attack
44. Discovery by Daft Punk
45. Songs of Leonard Cohen by Leonard Cohen
46. In the Aeroplane Over the Sea by Neutral Milk Hotel
47. Daydream Nation by Sonic Youth
48. Illinois by Sufjan Stevens
49. Ride the Lightning by Metallica
50. The Velvet Rope by Janet Jackson
51. The Doors by The Doors
52. Blonde by Frank Ocean
53. Sometimes I Might Be Introvert by Little Simz
54. The Glow Pt 2 by The Microphones
55. Pastel Blues by Nina Simone
56. Donuts by J Dilla
57. Marquee Moon by Television
58. Either / Or by Elliott Smith
59. Future Days by Can
60. Since I Left You by The Avalanches
61. Horses by Patti Smith
62. Souvlaki by Slowdive
63. MM..FOOD by MF DOOM
64. Love Deluxe by Sade
65. When the Pawn… by Fiona Apple
66. Lift Yr. Skinny Fists Like Antennas to Heaven! by Godspeed You Black Emperor!
67. Bloom by Beach House
68. Liquid Swords by Genius/GZA
69. Piñata by Freddie Gibbs & Madlib
70. Close to the Edge by Yes
71. Laughing Stock by Talk Talk
72. Endtroducing….. by DJ Shadow
73. Selected Ambient Works 85-92 by Aphex Twin
74. Soundtracks for the Blind by Swans
75. Titanic Rising by Weyes Blood
76. Mama’s Gun by Erykah Badu
77. Spiderland by Slint
78. The Lonesome Crowded West by Modest Mouse
79. Juju by Siouxsie and The Banshees
80. The Money Store by Death Grips
81. Dots and Loops by Stereolab
82. Floating Into the Night by Julee Cruise
83. LONG SEASON by Fishmans
84. Velocity : Design : Comfort by Sweet Trip
85. Atrocity Exhibition by Danny Brown
86. Deathconsciousness by Have A Nice Life
87. Karma by Pharoah Sanders
88. Symbolic by Death
89. Dreamboat Annie by Heart
90. Igor by Tyler, the Creator
91. Hot Rats by Frank Zappa
92. First Utterance by Comus
93. Ants from Up There by Black Country, New Road
94. Kalk samen kuri no hana by Sheena Ringo
95. Dragon New Warm Mountain I Believe In You by Big Thief
96. A I A: Alien Observer by Grouper
97. De todas las flores by Natalia Lafourcade
98. Adan no kaze by Ichiko Aoba
99. 3D Country by Geese
100. Daughter of Darkness by Natural Snow Buildings
2024.05.29 05:02 blablablablablahhhh Guys help me out understanding this !!!
((While you guys are at it , tell me your top 3 characters as well. Mine are 1. Levi 2.Erwin 3. Reiner ))
Regarding eren changing the path of that Dina Fritz titan from bertolt(i heard someone call him burrito recently and found it hilarious) to his mother , how does this work . i understand that Eren having the attack titan , can change past and future but how does this even work, doesn’t this become time travel in a way . feels like a loop and if the older him didnt change the path of the titan what would happen then . i’m kinda confused. Technically past is the way it is because Eren made it that way .
Can he see the future properly? could he see what became of paradis after several years . All that bombing and attacks by outsiders.
Also towards the end we see a boy visiting the tree by Eren’s grave that had an opening , was it suggested that history would repeat itself , or is it ambiguous? i’m really confused about all this .
Is there a possibility that Eren just like ymir had feelings for Mikasa so he could also have similar powers like Ymir herself . What do you think?
And did eren actually have feeling for Mikasa because through the entire series i never felt like he did , Mikasa seemed obsessed with Eren while Eren was always aloof , it feels kinda forced to me . I bawled my eyes out with that scarf scene in the ending but what i couldn’t accept was that Eren suddenly wanted to be with her and didn’t want Mikasa to find anyone else , it all contradicts itself because he himself told her that he hated. her (which is know was a lie) but he seemed pretty chill not wanting to be spend any time with her , he must have known he was gonna die then why not try to spend just a few moments with her .
Did you all also feel like Armin was a very unforgettable character , as much as i tried to like him and consider him the main character, i just couldn’t . I don’t see any armin fans anywhere as well, He was a really sweet and genius character but just seemed so irrelevant to me .
If you guys know could you please help me out .
P.S.: Guys i had to watch the series in a rush so might have not understood certain things .
submitted by blablablablablahhhh to titanfolk [link] [comments]
Regarding eren changing the path of that Dina Fritz titan from bertolt(i heard someone call him burrito recently and found it hilarious) to his mother , how does this work . i understand that Eren having the attack titan , can change past and future but how does this even work, doesn’t this become time travel in a way . feels like a loop and if the older him didnt change the path of the titan what would happen then . i’m kinda confused. Technically past is the way it is because Eren made it that way .
Can he see the future properly? could he see what became of paradis after several years . All that bombing and attacks by outsiders.
Also towards the end we see a boy visiting the tree by Eren’s grave that had an opening , was it suggested that history would repeat itself , or is it ambiguous? i’m really confused about all this .
Is there a possibility that Eren just like ymir had feelings for Mikasa so he could also have similar powers like Ymir herself . What do you think?
And did eren actually have feeling for Mikasa because through the entire series i never felt like he did , Mikasa seemed obsessed with Eren while Eren was always aloof , it feels kinda forced to me . I bawled my eyes out with that scarf scene in the ending but what i couldn’t accept was that Eren suddenly wanted to be with her and didn’t want Mikasa to find anyone else , it all contradicts itself because he himself told her that he hated. her (which is know was a lie) but he seemed pretty chill not wanting to be spend any time with her , he must have known he was gonna die then why not try to spend just a few moments with her .
Did you all also feel like Armin was a very unforgettable character , as much as i tried to like him and consider him the main character, i just couldn’t . I don’t see any armin fans anywhere as well, He was a really sweet and genius character but just seemed so irrelevant to me .
If you guys know could you please help me out .
P.S.: Guys i had to watch the series in a rush so might have not understood certain things .
2024.05.29 05:01 Dull_Wrongdoer_8118 DRAKE WITH AN UNKOWN AFRICAN RAPPER
Drake should jump on a track with an African rapper and make the song top the chats in the US. This will be the only way to show that he can take some un-kown guy and top the chats with him.
This guy is the best for this strategy.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EBFXrZY3dL4
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This guy is the best for this strategy.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EBFXrZY3dL4
2024.05.29 05:01 Mdogger369 The end is soon
1 the moon is turning red(rusting)which is apart of this verse The sun turned black like sackcloth made of goat hair, the whole moon turned blood red
which brings us to number 2 black sun spots have been appearing on the sun
3 the Euphrates river is drying up apparently it will dry up in 2040 that is when we will be in the end times
4 there is many wars going on and (I don’t know this for sure)but it might not be how many wars are going on but how many life’s will be lost or the possibility of ww3 idk so don’t judge
5 trillions of bugs are in America not normal amounts but there coming in a big group crawling out from underground every 13 or 17 years with a collective song as loud as jet engines the periodical cicadas are nature's kings of the calendar.
(Pls tell me if i have missed smth or got smth wrong and have a wonderful day)
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which brings us to number 2 black sun spots have been appearing on the sun
3 the Euphrates river is drying up apparently it will dry up in 2040 that is when we will be in the end times
4 there is many wars going on and (I don’t know this for sure)but it might not be how many wars are going on but how many life’s will be lost or the possibility of ww3 idk so don’t judge
5 trillions of bugs are in America not normal amounts but there coming in a big group crawling out from underground every 13 or 17 years with a collective song as loud as jet engines the periodical cicadas are nature's kings of the calendar.
(Pls tell me if i have missed smth or got smth wrong and have a wonderful day)
2024.05.29 05:01 gutsbabymama am i unworthy of care or respect cause of my body?
putting a tw for: body shaming at a young age, negative food talk, emotional neglect/abuse possibly, bad negative self talk, derealisation, body dysphoria issues, suicidal talk/depression, weight loss talk. plz be advised when reading or don’t if its too heavy.
also this is long, im just hoping someone would take the time to read and provide what they can. no one is obligated to read, thanks.
im genuinely starting to get upset and its killing me inside, when i look for support or any help anywhere there is none. all the content on instagram is targeted towards those who’ve made it past that age and survived having to cover up or not dress how they want. no one ever seems to care about the teen and tween girls who currently deal with this kind of stuff cause it seems to them it doesn’t exist anymore. its disappointing to see and shows i dont belong in any community so i’ve come here
im currently 17 and for the past multiple years ever since i started being heavier around the end of 5th grade it feels like my father has been more ashamed of his daughters body and has tried to cover me up and tell me what i should wear. im also dealing with covering up my severe depression and trauma so theres more thats kinda related to this but i dont want to stray off topic
when i was four my dad put me in the child acting industry based in la/weho. that wasn’t that traumatic for me honestly and didn’t take away from being a child but during that time my dad would sometimes get angry when i wanted a snack such as chips or a cookie, he would threaten me and be like “youre gonna grow as big as a house” or “of course you want the cookies”. keep in mind i was only in early elementary school around this time. and in fifth grade he signed me up for this shoot where it was some sort of tv pilot pitch where it was described as the biggest loser for kids and they had other slimmer kids on set that wore fat suits basically and i was the biggest one there. i belived i had to have a fitness routine at 11 in the fifth grade and started working out for two days
into middle school i started getting known for being a bigger girl but i remember around 7th-8th grade my dad kept saying how the clothes i had were too small when i was just trying to dress trendy or like similar styles like any middle school girl. if not that then it was stuff that was too “childish” or fit snug on me. this is when i started to feel totally repulsed about my body and dreaming about wearing what i wanted. and even to this day he periodically will get upset and disappointed in me being dressed down with my hair up just to do something mundane or for my therapy appointment. i was wearing hoodies or shirts with leggings. i remember when we were at six flags for my birthday and i was wearing a cute tank top that slightly showed a bit of tummy and he forcibly pulled the shirt down.
and getting into high school and up into this point he periodically, gets mad and upset when im wearing a certain outfit to go somewhere simple or drags me into the plus sized women’s section of kohls to look for clothes i don’t need and want. i remember when he took me to get my blood drawn i was on my period and wore pants that i typically do cause im uncomfy naturally on it and he got mad and i went into my room trying to calm down and not argue because its pointless with him, and i already knew he was gonna come in and go in my closet and tell me to change into a different pair of pants i don’t wear or what he liked. i always have to please what he likes or i should be wearing in my size.
up until recently he’s telling me i need to get a new wardrobe, that all my clothes are small when they just fit snug or my tummy shows through, (i go thrifting with my mom alot), and convincing me to shop in the plus sized women’s section of jcpenny and kohls. mind you he’s in his early 60s so i dont wanna hear “who still shops there” cause thats not making me feel better about myself at all. i remember he took me to see the women’s shorts and pants, all straight fitting long shorts that were two sizes too big on me. him sending me pictures of mens shirts that are oversized on me because i have some mens pants that i wear as jeans. when he took me shopping recently for athletic wear and told me i NEEDED new shorts and pants because the ones my mom gets are “too tight” when they fit me comfortably and the shorts i have to try on are long and big on me, i literally put them on and feel disgusting like im dressing for pe class, i dont say anything other than they just look plain in which he tells me im not supposed to look stylish at the gym and be comfortable. but when i wear them to the gym they keep falling down on me past half my ass no matter how much i have the draw string tied and im constantly pulling them up. when i have to struggle to not tell him i dont like any of the stuff he chooses for me or think fits since he gets mad and angry about it but also gets upset when i dont wear any of the things he gets me. and for the past two years i start to realize why he’s getting me to wear oversized or bigger clothes for me, because anything my size is too tight basically.
he’s told me my first cosplay i put together myself at fifteen looks raggedy and made me look like a street urchin, he didn’t let me get thin framed glasses i liked that were in our budget because my head was too wide for them and they just looked ugly to him, when he got a dress i needed for a cosplay in my size he made my mom try it on before i did and told me it was tight on her, said that the brand name suggested it was too small, kept telling i needed a bigger size, then when i tried it on and it fit perfectly he kept wondering if it was too tight. i dont even want to do any cosplay or get better cause of him and i cant even dress or put effort in outfits like i did in middle school. now i just feel like a burden cause of my body, something that needs to be hidden away, like everything is my fault because im bigger.
i feel repulsed and never take pictures, only when i feel like i should. my dad doesn’t take pictures of me anymore or puts up any photos of me in middle school or high school like he did my brother, only those photos of me as a young child. now im dealing with binge eating habits that affect me, weighing more than my parents, having shame about eating in public, feeling guilt when i eat, and not feeling like a person. even if friends take fun pictures of me i feel freaked out. im not living, and i dont know how im supposed to be accepted by this community when im forced to hate myself in real life and get jealous over those who’ve already made it past the shame in hiding themselves or appealing to society’s standards. and this is on top of processing me hiding my autism and severe depression and trauma. i dont want to keep dealing with thinner people who dont understand. and dont even ask if my mother is better, she just tells me that my dad would hate certain clothes and constantly nags me about having to shop at torrid. and im hoping to move out into a dorm around next year but this is something that’s killing me besides other things and i dont have any support because im the biggest person i know personally.
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also this is long, im just hoping someone would take the time to read and provide what they can. no one is obligated to read, thanks.
im genuinely starting to get upset and its killing me inside, when i look for support or any help anywhere there is none. all the content on instagram is targeted towards those who’ve made it past that age and survived having to cover up or not dress how they want. no one ever seems to care about the teen and tween girls who currently deal with this kind of stuff cause it seems to them it doesn’t exist anymore. its disappointing to see and shows i dont belong in any community so i’ve come here
im currently 17 and for the past multiple years ever since i started being heavier around the end of 5th grade it feels like my father has been more ashamed of his daughters body and has tried to cover me up and tell me what i should wear. im also dealing with covering up my severe depression and trauma so theres more thats kinda related to this but i dont want to stray off topic
when i was four my dad put me in the child acting industry based in la/weho. that wasn’t that traumatic for me honestly and didn’t take away from being a child but during that time my dad would sometimes get angry when i wanted a snack such as chips or a cookie, he would threaten me and be like “youre gonna grow as big as a house” or “of course you want the cookies”. keep in mind i was only in early elementary school around this time. and in fifth grade he signed me up for this shoot where it was some sort of tv pilot pitch where it was described as the biggest loser for kids and they had other slimmer kids on set that wore fat suits basically and i was the biggest one there. i belived i had to have a fitness routine at 11 in the fifth grade and started working out for two days
into middle school i started getting known for being a bigger girl but i remember around 7th-8th grade my dad kept saying how the clothes i had were too small when i was just trying to dress trendy or like similar styles like any middle school girl. if not that then it was stuff that was too “childish” or fit snug on me. this is when i started to feel totally repulsed about my body and dreaming about wearing what i wanted. and even to this day he periodically will get upset and disappointed in me being dressed down with my hair up just to do something mundane or for my therapy appointment. i was wearing hoodies or shirts with leggings. i remember when we were at six flags for my birthday and i was wearing a cute tank top that slightly showed a bit of tummy and he forcibly pulled the shirt down.
and getting into high school and up into this point he periodically, gets mad and upset when im wearing a certain outfit to go somewhere simple or drags me into the plus sized women’s section of kohls to look for clothes i don’t need and want. i remember when he took me to get my blood drawn i was on my period and wore pants that i typically do cause im uncomfy naturally on it and he got mad and i went into my room trying to calm down and not argue because its pointless with him, and i already knew he was gonna come in and go in my closet and tell me to change into a different pair of pants i don’t wear or what he liked. i always have to please what he likes or i should be wearing in my size.
up until recently he’s telling me i need to get a new wardrobe, that all my clothes are small when they just fit snug or my tummy shows through, (i go thrifting with my mom alot), and convincing me to shop in the plus sized women’s section of jcpenny and kohls. mind you he’s in his early 60s so i dont wanna hear “who still shops there” cause thats not making me feel better about myself at all. i remember he took me to see the women’s shorts and pants, all straight fitting long shorts that were two sizes too big on me. him sending me pictures of mens shirts that are oversized on me because i have some mens pants that i wear as jeans. when he took me shopping recently for athletic wear and told me i NEEDED new shorts and pants because the ones my mom gets are “too tight” when they fit me comfortably and the shorts i have to try on are long and big on me, i literally put them on and feel disgusting like im dressing for pe class, i dont say anything other than they just look plain in which he tells me im not supposed to look stylish at the gym and be comfortable. but when i wear them to the gym they keep falling down on me past half my ass no matter how much i have the draw string tied and im constantly pulling them up. when i have to struggle to not tell him i dont like any of the stuff he chooses for me or think fits since he gets mad and angry about it but also gets upset when i dont wear any of the things he gets me. and for the past two years i start to realize why he’s getting me to wear oversized or bigger clothes for me, because anything my size is too tight basically.
he’s told me my first cosplay i put together myself at fifteen looks raggedy and made me look like a street urchin, he didn’t let me get thin framed glasses i liked that were in our budget because my head was too wide for them and they just looked ugly to him, when he got a dress i needed for a cosplay in my size he made my mom try it on before i did and told me it was tight on her, said that the brand name suggested it was too small, kept telling i needed a bigger size, then when i tried it on and it fit perfectly he kept wondering if it was too tight. i dont even want to do any cosplay or get better cause of him and i cant even dress or put effort in outfits like i did in middle school. now i just feel like a burden cause of my body, something that needs to be hidden away, like everything is my fault because im bigger.
i feel repulsed and never take pictures, only when i feel like i should. my dad doesn’t take pictures of me anymore or puts up any photos of me in middle school or high school like he did my brother, only those photos of me as a young child. now im dealing with binge eating habits that affect me, weighing more than my parents, having shame about eating in public, feeling guilt when i eat, and not feeling like a person. even if friends take fun pictures of me i feel freaked out. im not living, and i dont know how im supposed to be accepted by this community when im forced to hate myself in real life and get jealous over those who’ve already made it past the shame in hiding themselves or appealing to society’s standards. and this is on top of processing me hiding my autism and severe depression and trauma. i dont want to keep dealing with thinner people who dont understand. and dont even ask if my mother is better, she just tells me that my dad would hate certain clothes and constantly nags me about having to shop at torrid. and im hoping to move out into a dorm around next year but this is something that’s killing me besides other things and i dont have any support because im the biggest person i know personally.
2024.05.29 05:00 Calm-Explanation6944 Just a thought about pink tape
I was just thinking about all the comments and all the shit people say about pink tape and I agree and disagree with some
However I feel like pink tape really brought back Uzis ENERGY he had at the start of his career. For example songs like Nakamura (should have been pink tape intro) like suicide doors crush em. Etc
I feel like side A ea has zero energy same with Pluto baby Pluto and he’s had lifeless features from 2020 onwards
And for someone who calls himself a rockstar I felt like his energy he had especially on luv is rage 2 was gone and he may have outgrown that whole rockstar thing. But I’m glad he didn’t and found some passion in his shit again.
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However I feel like pink tape really brought back Uzis ENERGY he had at the start of his career. For example songs like Nakamura (should have been pink tape intro) like suicide doors crush em. Etc
I feel like side A ea has zero energy same with Pluto baby Pluto and he’s had lifeless features from 2020 onwards
And for someone who calls himself a rockstar I felt like his energy he had especially on luv is rage 2 was gone and he may have outgrown that whole rockstar thing. But I’m glad he didn’t and found some passion in his shit again.
2024.05.29 04:58 Dm12374 Everything Puppies or the Story of Putting Puppies Over Profits
Well, this was okay. Not great. I liked how they talked about the struggles that a small business startup as to go through even in a small town to get their product into a local branch of a national chain. Alas, they had to deal with the big dog food company to even get some space for awhile at least. I mean they had space but then it disappeared because of pressure from the bad company. That reminds me, it's been awhile but wasn't there a similar thing in "Romance to the Rescue" with our heroine setting up a display outside of the story in order to help out the company too? Seems to me that happened before. I don't know. Maybe I'm wrong. Like the other day I saw "Time from them to come home for Christmas" and they had this song by the Blue Note Trio" and I was thinking "I swear I saw this in another movie." Maybe all of these movies are just blending into each now. But I digress. Not much for the best friend/co-owner to work with in this movie which is a shame as Kathryn Davis has been a staco-star in a few films now. Ahh, Pascal was in Never Been Chris'd which I haven't seen before. I must have remembered her from the commercials. But she does remind me of someone else too. She was good enough. The bad company's guy was a little much. He definitely put profits over puppies.
I found hilarious the whole "Duke at Corporate Scene". I mean it was obvious that it was not Bernie as "Duke" there just by the way Duke was walking. Well, stereotypically at least. Still they did what they had to do. Stephen Huszar is not one of my favorite Hallmark actors. I can't think of a film that I've seen him in where I've thought "Yeah, he makes the film better." But then agan to be fair that's probably true for most Hallmark actors. Yes, actors. Not actresses. He lacks the charm of Paul Campbell for example. Well, it wasn't great. But if you love puppies and the success of a small business then you'll probably love it.
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I found hilarious the whole "Duke at Corporate Scene". I mean it was obvious that it was not Bernie as "Duke" there just by the way Duke was walking. Well, stereotypically at least. Still they did what they had to do. Stephen Huszar is not one of my favorite Hallmark actors. I can't think of a film that I've seen him in where I've thought "Yeah, he makes the film better." But then agan to be fair that's probably true for most Hallmark actors. Yes, actors. Not actresses. He lacks the charm of Paul Campbell for example. Well, it wasn't great. But if you love puppies and the success of a small business then you'll probably love it.
2024.05.29 04:57 nikkinique25 Bini's sound to International Market
 | Hello. Gusto ko lang i-share 'tong nakita kong Brazilian Blog post na nakita ko sa X the other day about Bini. In it, the author shares their thoughts on the sudden fame of the group in our country. Apparently, the author discovered them during the Karera era last year and alam naman natin na hindi pa talaga sila ganong kasikat that time kaya naman nung binalikan ng author yung Bini recently sobrang nagulat siya sa biglaang growth ng group. Nabanggit niya kasi na sobrang suprising daw na Pantropiko and Salamin Salamin yung magpu-push sa Bini to stardom when the the songs are quite generic sa pandinig niya. Parang hindi ganong ka special para maging hit talaga. May nagretweet din sa post na the songs sound "bad" (not sure kung yun yung exact translation pero yun kasi yung lumabas T.T) Napaisip tuloy ako kung enough kaya yung songs na yun, despite being successful sa atin, para mas lumaki yung international reach ng Bini or they would need another song pa to achieve this. submitted by nikkinique25 to bini_ph [link] [comments] Here's the article link. Portuguese siya. https://popasiaticojpg.com/2024/05/26/bini-e-o-mais-novo-girlgroup-da-nacao-nas-filipinas-com-os-smash-hits-pantropiko-e-salamin-salamin/ |
2024.05.29 04:57 VanillaMemeIceCream Some random introspection about myself
So to preface I have autism, social anxiety, selective mutism (recently diagnosed yayy), and gender dysphoria. Lately I’ve been having thought like “hmmmm maybe I’d like to raise a kid after all???” even though I’ve been childfree my whole life. After reflecting I realized I actually don’t want to raise a kid at all, just like always. But because of all the aforementioned conditions, I feel like I missed out on my childhood and teenagehood and am currently missing out on my 20s (I'm trying to make it better!!). So I realized I wanted someone to project that onto. For example I always imagine my kid(s) being a boy(s) and can’t really imagine having a daughter, so I would be able to “reclaim” growing up as a boy through them. Similarly I imagine them being how I wish I was. Which if I did have kids would translate to me trying to live vicariously through them and pushing my wants on them regardless of who they are and what they want which is not good. And that wouldn’t change anything for me, projecting and living vicariously through another person doesn’t turn that into your lived experience. They’d end up miserable and I’d end up where I started, I wouldn’t experience or “get back” anything, and it’d be even worse because I'd have to be a parent when I don’t actually want to be
Not to mention I would just suck at being a parent in every way and my kids would just come out traumatized anyway lol. And I wouldn’t enjoy the day-to-day of it, that’s never appealed to me
Not much of a point to this post I just felt like getting that off my chest idk
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Not to mention I would just suck at being a parent in every way and my kids would just come out traumatized anyway lol. And I wouldn’t enjoy the day-to-day of it, that’s never appealed to me
Not much of a point to this post I just felt like getting that off my chest idk