Nobody knows, except my husband of course, but I had to make a post here. Everyone in this group was so kind to me after my first pregnancy ended in a missed miscarriage right after the holidays in January.
We were out of town all weekend with family, and celebrating mother's day with both our moms. I was feeling off the whole trip, I thought I was getting sick or something. When we got home, I looked at the calendar and realized my period was late. I had a couple of tests leftover from last time, so I took them on a whim. I couldn't believe it, so I went to the store and bought another box and took those too. Four positive tests! 🤞
I have my first appointment scheduled for June 4th, I should be 7 weeks along according to my last period. We both agreed that we're not telling anybody until after the first appointment. I'm really hoping this is our rainbow baby! 🙏

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Hello fellow redditors. Finally fis got the big P!!!!! Honestly this test and the whole process of this is not at all fair on our mental well being. Went through all kinds of Ups and downs during the prep phase, but hey, we're humans after all right? What is life without all the hardships and obstacles? Icing on the cake for me through out this journey was this platform. Cannot emphasize enough the gratitude I feel for many strangers that were willing to go to great lengths to help out fellow strugglers like me. So I promised myself I'd definitely pass on the goodwill here.
Enough rant, back to business now. Honestly all the timelines others post is bs guys. Sorry no offense but it really varies from person to person. So don't depend on them or weigh in your prep based on that. You do you. You feel like you need a whole year or maybe two to finish this step, take it. Or you feel 3 months is enough, good for you, do it.
I started with BB videos to supplement with FA. I tried reading FA alone, but it felt like Japanese to me, so went back to BB, did some annotations on FA. Please note "some annotations" guys. Because you don't want to mess up your entire FA just while watching BnB, coz you'll have more stuff to note down while doing UW. Finished one topic on BnB+FA and did that topic on UW and started with a new chapter on BnB simultaneously.
So the whole first time completing FA and UW took me around 6-7 months with many breaks in between because I'm so inconsistent with my prep. And then after that, started reading FA once again. Never did second pass of UW/ incorrects.
At this point took a baseline NBME 25- scored around 50% and realized I have shit memory of many topics so started doing FA a tad bit more seriously now.
At this point I realized I never really did biostats or ethics or gen pharma or micro properly and took around 1-1&1/2 month to finish them and started taking some other NBMEs. You wouldn't want to know the timeline because it is very inconsistent guys.
NBME 27 - 60 NBME 26- 68 NBME 29- 72 NBME 30-70 (17 days before exam) NBME 31- 76 (12 days before exam) Old free 120- 84 (6 days before exam, couldn't believe my eyes at this point and honestly most of this test I just felt I was guessing most the answers) New free 120- 74 (3 days before exam)
Didn't take UWSAs. Didn't really see any point taking them.
And coming to the MISTAKES I DID during this phase-
1- GIVE IMPORTANCE TO YOUR WELL BEING If you feel like you need a break, then please take that break people. But remember to come back stronger to your table after that break. Or else, you'd feel that exhaustion during the last leg of your prep and we wouldn't want that to happen
2- PLEASE REVIEW YOUR NBMES GUYSSS Honestly saw some pretty similar topics tested in the real deals. Do this and do it religiously. I didn't review most of my NBMEs and I regretted it on test day. Saw 2 or 3 nome images also, so do the high yield nome images pdf
3- CONCENTRATE ON BUGS AND DRUGS FROM BEGINNING. Do micro and pharma for 1/2 hour each at least during the last one month. They're solely based on memory and you can probably save some time in the test.
TWO CENTS ON EXAM-
Trust me it's very doable people. We just gotta put our heads sane and think straight during the whole thing. Sounds pretty simple right, but not that easy to do.
Slept for like 30 mins that night, and was shit scared if I can do it. But the adrenaline rush got me thru it very well.
Honestly guys, all everyone's saying about the length of the questions is very wrong. They're pretty normal, 50% UW length, 40% NBME length and some even smaller, like literally 2-3 liner questions and <10% questions are lengthier than UW.
Had like 4-5 ethics questions in most of the blocks, micro was decent in number. HUGEEEE number of Gen path and system pathophysiology. Maybe around 2-3 biostats questions in the whole test. Took break after every block, 20 min break after 4th block for a light lunch and 7 blocks and 8 hours just flew by. Didn't mark many questions, maybe like 3-5 in each block.
So that's it guys, enough of this monologue for now. Keep your resources limited, Do what you gotta do to get that P. Never compare your journey with others, but always ask for help if you need it from others. My dms are always open if you need any suggestions/ support or you just want to rant.

It does fit. Perhaps Kate experienced an episode of acute pancreatitis, which then required her to undergo Whipple Procedure (which can & is used for non cancerous reason too, apparently), & then following post-surgery tests, it was found that cancer had been present in the head of Kate’s pancreas (the part removed during whipple). All of this stemming off from a bout of pancreatitis, which was not originally suspected to be cancer-related. This would also explain Kate’s extended period in hospital. Furthermore, I did also personally think how Kate appeared slightly jaundiced in her cancer announcement video & jaundice is a symptom of pancreatic cancepancreatitis. Either way, I believe that Kate is much sicker than what we are being told by Kensington Palace. Thoughts?

Just like the title says the vita3k emulator does not work from the home menu but only if you go to the applications and launch the game from the emulator directly. I have seen a post that recommended moving some files however the files were already moved. I have tested two games the walking dead which does not launch at all even from the emulator directly and dragon's crown which does work. Do you guys have any idea how I can fix the shortcuts for the games to work?

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I am NOT OOP. Original post by u/ThrowRA-DNA in AmITheAsshole and Relationship_Advice
Long post, I have provided comments from original threads, these provide extra information however are not vital for understanding the post and can be skipped. Though, I recommend reading them as they provide more context. Your choice though.
WIBTA if I told my parents I know I’m adopted? - 22 April 2024
Hey people.
This is a long story, but I’m going to try and condense it as much as possible. Basically about 9 weeks ago my maternal cousin and I both completed an Ancestral/DNA test through one of the popular brands.
My parents are very against these DNA tests (I thought) because they don’t like the idea of giving your DNA to these companies and so have forbidden me from doing them in the past when I brought up the idea. Though, I now know the real reason they were against me doing it.
My cousin (James) got his results first and matched with loads of people saying my mother’s maiden name, as well as other names known within my mother’s family line.
I got my results about a week later and not only did I not match with my cousin, I didn’t match with any of my cousins matches nor did anyone share my mothers maiden name. My dad (and I) have an extremely common surname in my country -think “smith”- and I did match with a few people who shared that name but none were close matches, 3rd-4th cousins being the closest. So I’m just assuming it was because it’s a common surname.
James’ family know he’s done the DNA test and he’s shared the results however I have asked him to keep what he knows about mine between us for a while.
I learnt this about 2 weeks ago and have since come to the conclusion that I am adopted. At first this made me feel really upset, and I thought maybe the DNA tests were faulty but after researching, no I don’t think they are. I think I am just adopted. I have two younger brothers who are 11 and 9 who aren’t adopted because I remember my mom being pregnant with them. So I can’t understand why I was adopted.
I want to know tell my parents know about being adopted, I want to in some ways confront them and ask why they’ve lied to me for so long. But I also want to say I still consider them my only family. James thinks it’s a really bad idea, he says I should just keep it to myself because if I tell my parents I know I’m adopted it could have negative consequences on my relationship with my parents and also could get him into trouble with his parents because he bought me the DNA test and he is very close to my parents.
I’ve said I’ll just tell them I bought the test myself but he says they’ll know because he got his test so recently.
WIBTA if I ignored my cousin and confronted my parents about me being adopted anyway?
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No verdict flare, not sure why, but most comments seem to be NTA.

Some relevant comments:

Comment thread 1
Commenter:

I can't imagine what you must be going through, realising that you may well be adopted, through a DNA test.

OOP:

I’m 18, but I still live with my parents part time and I live at Uni halls the other time.

Comment Thread 2
Commenter 1:

Have the DNA test done with a different company to double-check results so that your parents can't claim that the first one is in error.

OOP

Yeah, honestly this is a good idea

Commenter 2:

It might be better to tell them about the existing results before you know what the real story is. Right now you're in a gray area, where you have some possibly mixed up information and you're genuinely just asking questions rather than confronting anyone. This gives them a chance to (very belatedly) do the right thing ... or not, which would also be illuminating in a way. You can always seek confirmation and drama later if necessary or desired.

Comment Thread 3:
Commenter

You matched with distant cousins, perhaps a family member fell pregnant at a young age and your parents stepped up as a young couple who were ready to have children?

OOP:

The thing is I don't 100% know they're related to my dad because of how common our last name is. It's likely (imo) that it's just some other people I've matched with that share our name.

Update

I (M18) found out I’m adopted through one of those at home DNA kits. I’ve matched with my biological mom (F33), but now I don’t know what to do. Do I message her or just pretend that this never happened? What do I say? - 4 May 2024
TL;DR at the bottom.
This is a long story, I’m going to try and condense it. I’ve spoken about it before on a different post on my profile if you want more details.
In the past I’ve spoken about wanting to do one of those Ancestry and DNA at home tests, but my parents (or who I thought were my parents) were always against them. They told me because they don’t trust those companies with your DNA, but I obviously know the real reason now.
A while ago my cousin and I decided to buy a test each and I completed mine in secret. I was shocked when not only did I not match with him when we got the results, I didn’t match with anyone who shared a surname with any of my family (except for some matches that shared my dad’s surname, but this is an extremely common surname in my country. Think “Smith” for the USA).
I thought perhaps the test was faulty or wrong, but after some researching I had my doubts that the test was faulty. But just in case I decided to do a second test, with a different company, just in case the first one was somehow wrong. This time I bought three tests, one I gave to my paternal uncle (he’s actually only a few years older than me despite being my uncle) and one I gave to my maternal cousin, and the last one I did myself.
We sent them all off and we got our results surprisingly quickly, about 10 days after we sent them off (yesterday night). But these tests confirmed my suspicions, I’m not related to my family.
And even more, I matched with a woman “49.8% DNA match, predicted parent/child”. Looked on her profile and she was born in 1991 meaning she would have been 15/16ish when I was born. She hasn’t been active on the app for over 6 months.
I’ve written out messages to her to send and then deleted them, I’ve contemplated just saying “hello” but haven’t had the courage to actually send it off. I also could just turn off matches and make my profile invisible, that way she wouldn’t see me if she logged back in again. I could pretend she doesn’t exist and that I never found this out. I have another mom out there that I know nothing about, it makes me feel so anxiously curious.
My parents never told me I was adopted, I feel utterly betrayed by them. I’ve resisted the urge to confront them about it since I got the results back from the first test, but now I know for certain I just want to smash my fists into a wall. I want to scream at them. I hate that they’ve kept this from me for my entire life.
Now the only people who know I know is my uncle and my cousin. I trust that they won’t say anything to anyone until I’ve spoken to people about it.
I feel so lost and confused. Should I message my biological mom? Or pretend she doesn’t exist and turn my profile invisible from her?
TL;DR:
Discovered I'm adopted via DNA kit. Matched with biological mom, unsure whether to message or ignore. Feeling betrayed by adoptive parents. Uncertain about confronting them. Feeling lost and conflicted.
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Some relevant comments

Comment Thread 1
Commenter:

I'm wondering if there is a possibility she did the DNA test as a vague hope that maybe one day you would use it as a tool to find her and reach out to her. Whether or not she did, the ball is in your court and I think it should stay that way until you are ready to deal with it. Reach out when you are ready. There is no real reason to rush right now, you have time.

OOP:

Yeah, I’m guessing that she did it with hopes that I would also do one one day. I mean, that makes sense. Otherwise you wouldn’t have made your profile public.

Commenter:

There are probably other factors as well, but I would bet you being able to find her was one of them, if not the only one.

Comment Thread 2
Commenter:

I gave a child up for adoption at around same age your bio mum was. Your parents are your parents. They shouldn’t have kept this secret from you, and I’m sorry you’re having to deal with that.

OOP:

My parents aren’t infertile because I have younger siblings and I remember my mom being pregnant with them.

Comment Thread 3
Commenter:

You've said that you can make your profile invisible to her temporarily? Then change that later? If so, I would do that.

OOP:

Yes, I’ve done this. I don’t want her to see my profile and thinks it’s an invitation to reach out. Or to get her hopes up that I’m actively searching for her so better she just doesn’t see it. Until I’ve decided what I want to do.

Update 2

Update: I (M18) found out I’m adopted through one of those at home DNA kits. I’ve matched with my biological mom (F33), but now I don’t know what to do. Do I message her or just pretend that this never happened? What do I say? - 8 May 2024
Hey people,
A lot has happened to me since my last post here, and before I start to explain I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who commented/replied to my OP. It was really helpful and I truly appreciate it. For full context read the other posts on my profile which discuss this situation further.
First things first, I decided to turn my profile private/invisible. I didn't want my biological mom (BM) to see that I had done a DNA test as an invitation to message me. I looked at her profile one last time and it still said "last online 6 months ago" or something like that, so she obviously doesn't check the app regularly. I wrote down information about her (first and last name, birth year, 'past' family names) in case in the future I lose access to the account or if I want to try to track her down and her account disappeared. Though I am hoping that if I do decide to have contact with her in the future, I will just be able to message her on the app. But just in case.
I "confronted" my parents about what I had found out, there was a lot of crying. Especially from my mom, but also from me. I told them how hurt I was that they never told me, and how much it has caused pain and anxiety to find this out on my own and feeling like I was unable to ask them about it.
They apologised to me, they explained to me that they wanted to tell me. They planned on doing it when I turned 8, but they 'couldn't go through with it' because they 'didn't want to hurt me'. They said every year they planned to tell me and every year they put it off. They told me they did it out of love for me, but also out of anxiety that it would change our relationship for the worse.
I explained to them that even if them telling me that I was adopted did hurt me as a child I would have had them there to support me through it. And that now I had found out on my own and felt like I didn't have anyone there to understand what I was going through. They took responsibility for not telling me and for the hurt it caused when I was now.
We hugged, we cried and we forgave each other. Even though I don't agree with them not telling me, I can understand their feelings and why they found it so difficult when I was younger.
After we had finished talking about it they asked me what I wanted moving forward, if I wanted to tell my brothers that I was adopted or just carrying on like nothing happened. I said I no longer wanted it to be a secret and that I wanted them to tell my brothers what they should have told me. I didn't want it to seem like a 'dirty' secret, but simply a fact of who I am and where I came from. I want it to be something celebrated, not feared to be talked about. I wasn't born into this family, but this is my family. And I feel so blessed that I was given the opportunity to become part of this family.
I asked what they knew about my BM, they said not much. They know that she was in foster care when she fell pregnant with me, and that she would have only been 14/15 at the time. She decided she didn't want to keep me but didn't want to have a termination and so I was put up for adoption and that she requested 'no contact' with me. I hope that the situation around my birth wasn't traumatic for her. I know this is a weird thought, but I hope she just got pregnant with me from another person her own age and that I wasn't a product of any abuse. That makes me sad to think about.
Sorry for the long post. Again thank you all for the help and advice you all gave me. I appreciate everything.
TL;DR: Made profile private to avoid contact from biological mom. Confronted parents about adoption, led to tears and apologies. They planned to tell me but couldn't. Agreed to tell brothers, no longer want adoption to be a secret. Grateful for my family. Biological mom was in foster care, gave me up for adoption at 14/15, requested no contact. Hopeful for her well-being. Grateful for support and advice.
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Reminder, I am NOT OOP, please do NOT comment on original threads or contact OOP.

Silly post about a dream i had today
Basically i was just walking when someone told me "The moon will fall tomorrow", at first i thought it was just a crazy guy, but i looked into the sky at night and realized the clouds were beign pushed to the sides, and only a GIANT circle was VERY SLOWLY fading in on the sky, it was almost like the moon blended with the sky.
I started to spread the photo i took of it to everyone, but they didnt believe, i considered i was getting crazy so i went asleep, in the morning of the next day i woke up and weht outside to check the sky, the moon was completely visible now and was burning, i just stood there in shock waiting my end.
That's when out of nowhere, Sonic, Amy and Knuckles came running, he explained that Amy casted an spell on him that would force him to do LITERALLY anything for her, and she decided to test its limits by forcing Sonic to do Impossible stuff, one of them is make the Moon fall on Earth, but Sonic managed to break free from the spell.
When the Moon fell on earth, it started to do that generic game/movie explosion shockwave, Sonic then jumped into the air and turned Super, he then started to hold the WHOLE EXPLOSION back, but he screamed "That isn't enough! Knuckles!", then Knuckles throwed the Master Emerald at Sonic, that then turned into the Super Emeralds, making him go Hyper.
After that, he hold the explosion and compressed it in the size of a Basket Ball, and throwed it back really STRONG back to space, and then it exploded and left the sky white by the explosion shyiness. He looked at me with relief, and sadly, my dream ended
Sorry if this post was just too random to even moderate, but i thought it would be nice to share this experience. THANKS SONIC
Ps: Sorry for Grammar errors if i did some, im Brazillian

I try to generate screen-space shadow-maps for my 2d-renderer. There are max. 8 lights, and I would like to draw 8-corner-polygon shadows into the respective bit of a 8-bit stencil texture for each of the 8 lights, for all shadowcasters. In pseudocode I would like to do something like this: ```rust // first draw shadows: pass.set_pipeline(shadow_caster_pipeline); for light in lights { // max 8 lights pass.set_stencil_reference(light.shadow_bit); // e.g. light.shadow_bit could be 0b0000_0100 pass.set_push_constants(light.pos) // to offset verts pass.set_vertex_buffer(0,shadow_casters_instance_buffer); pass.draw(0..8, 0..shadow_casters_instance_buffer.len(); // vertex shader offsets vertices according to light.pos for a shadow // fragment shader should just write into the stencil buffer at shadow_bit }
// then draw lights as circles: pass.set_pipeline(light_pipeline); pass.set_vertex_buffer(0,circle_vertices); pass.set_vertex_buffer(1,lights_instance_buffer); pass.draw(0..circle_vertices.len(),0..lights_instance_buffer.len()); // can the fragment shader here read values from the stencil buffer at the correct light.shadow_bit?
```
I found this blogpost, but I am not sure if it is trustworthy. They say:

After the execution of the fragment shader, a so-called “Stencil Test” is performed. The outcome of the test determines whether the pixel corresponding to the fragment is drawn or not.

This seems a bit weird, because why would we need to execute the fragment shader for a pixel in the first place, if we can already see in the stencil buffer that this pixel should be omitted.
Or maybe I am understanding something wrong here, I am thankful for any advice :)

Hello Everyone,
I am seeking for help in order not to test everything from scratch and lose whole days of testing voltage tweaking to activate XMP.
I am running on Aorus Master Z790, Intel i7 12700K, Gskill Trident 7600MHz DDR5 and XMP profile doesn't Post at all. I Tried to lower the frequency but no luck.
Tried also to follow a video of Builzoid by tweaking the timings and the vlotages of CPU, IMC and RAM and I get it posted but not stable.
What are your setting on Gigabyte Mobos with 12700K as Gen 12 has weaker IMC than Gen13 and I would like to copy one of your settings which is working?

[Cross-post from anno]
I've scoured the internet without success
I've tried to make a program to determine the quantity of ressources needed for my population, but I've been stuck on the skyscrapers part of it. Increasing panorama level gives bonus population on specific needs, and while this increase seemed linear on basic needs, my tests show it's not the case for lifestyle needs
Ex.: panorama 1 gives +6 investors if regional mail is fulfilled, panorama 2 gives +6 too, but panorama 3 gives less.
In my testing, the bonus doesn't seems to be the same for different needs (local mail and regional mail don't give the same amount), but is identical for each need for different skyscraper levels (lvl1-pano1 gives same bonus as lvl2-pano1).
Is there a formula I missed somewhere, or are these values uncorrelated? And if so, can I find them somewhere or do I need to manually get them from the game?
tl;dr:
I am looking for something containing, for engineer and investor, for each panorama level, the amount of population added by each needs.

Update to my first post about any general tips/advice for g test in Peterborough; just passed first try today and went smooth. Only need to work on speed but everything, excellent. Thank you to the two people in old post that helped and shared their experiences!

I am a FTM to a perfect 7 month old (she’ll be 8 months in 8 days which is impossible to wrap my head around). I love her so much I could cry, but at the same time, I feel tired, rundown and not myself. My postpartum journey so far is not what I imagined so many months ago while I stroked my bump and waxed poetically about how magical motherhood would be. And it is magical- but it’s so much more, and some of that more is hard.
My labour was very hard, I had a failed epidural, 3rd degree tears and pushed for over four hours. I know none of that is out of the ordinary, but nothing could have prepared me for how traumatized I felt post birth. I felt shaken, scared and defeated. Although I knew I should have been proud of myself I felt myself detach. I felt I wasn’t cared for during labour. No one believed me I was dilated and refused to check my cervix for 3 hours. They were shocked when I was 10cm dilated- as if I didn’t know a head was engaging my cervix. The nurses after were very dismissive. No one helped me latch her, and when I asked for help, they just shoved her at my breast aggressively until she latched. But we had issues with it right away. Everytime I asked for help I was treated as a nuisance.
I was released 36 hours after giving birth, which I know is standard. I was told she had lost too much weight, but I needed to source a lactation consultant myself, I needed to supplement with formula, and to watch her jaundice.
Once home I couldn’t get her to latch more than 1-2 times a day. I knew I wasn’t making much, so she would get frustrated. I worked with the lactation consultant - I never made enough milk. I had tests done, I latched her, I had her mouth assessed, I took domperidone - I would sob endlessly feeling like a failure that I couldn’t feed my baby. When I pumped, which I did every 2-3 hours around the clock I never produced more than an ounce.
No one warned me domperidone could cause mental health issues - as soon as I started it I felt awful. My stomach was a mess, I couldn’t breathe I was so anxious. I became depressed I imagined driving into the lake, and thought how nice it would be to just not wake up. How much better my daughter would be with anyone else but me. I ended up going to the hospital and was categorized as having a severe mental health crisis and with the help of an amazing team and good ol’ Zoloft I found my way out of the sludge that was swallowing me whole and whispering horrific ideas to my brain. I felt the air return to my lungs. I felt joy again.
Not once have I ever not loved my daughter, she is the light of my life, and the love I feel for her is more profound that I could explain. But sometimes I miss the old me, while i gently embrace the new me.
I have a triple prolapse that appeared 8 weeks postpartum. It’s been painful, has caused a couple infections, and killed my confidence. I will need a surgery, but I need to decide if I want more kids and when , as it can impact many factors.
The prolapse, and not being able to breastfeed has made me feel like less of a woman, I’ll be honest. I feel ashamed of my body.
Sometimes I am so proud of myself. I know I am a good mom, and I wouldn’t change being a mom for the world- but these health complications, and these mental health issues are tiring. It’s hard to embrace being a mom when I’m living in what feels like a broken body. I feel guilty that I enjoy the reprieve of nap time and putting up my feet and reading. Count consumed me when she falls asleep at night and I feel giddy for a few hours of me time.
I exist between two worlds now : loving being a mom and figuring out who I am now , because I know mom is not all I am, but it certainly finds its way into all I do.
I know no journey to motherhood is easy- I wanted to write this because it’s hard to talk about. But it’s ok to not love every aspect of being new mom.
I still feel guilt sometimes I can’t breastfeed and she’s been formula fed since 6 weeks exclusively.
I feel guilt when I feel a little overwhelmed.
I feel guilt when I get a few hours out of the house alone and love it.
I feel guilt for missing my old body even though this one made a whole life and I should be nothing but kind to it.
I feel guilt for being in the trenches during the newborn stage and not fully diving into it.
I feel guilt for looking forward to nap and bedtime some days.
But then, when she is sleeping, I always miss her and look at the monitor and feel love, and I remember that I’m doing ok at this mothering thing.
And so are you!