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If you're like me.. hype as fuck since the tweet storm.. I've watched the reverse compilation of Roaring Kitty's tweets many times. Here's the soundtrack from his masterpiece of a movie. https://open.spotify.com/playlist/0rtHTBt6XyVcwnoG4a2D5l?si=af0eba7a319240d6
The songs are in reverse order as they appear in his tweets. Most recent first.
A lot of the song names and lyrics probably have some hidden meaning. Many stand out but these stand out the most to me.
Matter of Time, whatsyourask, SHERlocked, tick of the clock on there twice.
SHERlocked is most interesting to me. Shares... Locked...

• Goodbye Stranger - Supertramp
• Twisted Logic - Coldplay
• I Was Born To Love You - Freddie Mercury
• Seven Nation Army - The White Stripes
• One Dance - Drake, Wizkid, Kyla
• One Jump Ahead - Brad Kane, Disney
• Hide and Seek - Imogen Heap
• Tick Of The Clock - Chromatics
• (Don't Fear) The Reaper - Blue Öyster Cult
• Evidently Chickentown - John Cooper Clarke
• Punkrocker - Teddybears feat. Iggy Pop
• Put Your Hands Where My Eyes Could See - Busta Rhymes
• Matter of Time - Vandelux, Alex Maher
• Crazy - James Michael Mix - Alanis Morissette
• Best Friend - Sofi Tukker feat. NERVO, The Knocks, & ALISA UENO
• Goosebumps Original Theme Song - Jack Lenz
• Just Dance - Lady Gaga, Colby O'Donis
• ...Baby One More Time - Britney Spears
• Chaiyya Chaiyya - Sukhwinder Singh, Sapna Awasthi
• Nobody But Me - The Human Beinz
• Made You Look - Nas
• /K/arma Police - Radiohead
• White Rabbit - Jefferson Airplane
• Alice - Pogo
• A Monster - Waveshaper
• Fire Like This - Hardknox
• Red Right Hand - Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds
• Freaks - Radio Edit - Timmy Trumpet, Savage
• Gin and Juice - Snoop Dogg
• Tchaikovsky: Swan Lake, Op. 20, Act 4: No. 29 - Pyotr Ilyich Tchaikovsky, André Previn
• Gossip Folks - Missy Elliott feat. Ludacris
• Bye Bye Baby - Bay City Rollers
• Roda - Sergio Mendes & Brasil '66
• Mr. Niceguy - Will Smith
• Day 'N' Nite (From "Moon Knight") - Geek Music
• Come Along - Cosmo Sheldrake
• The Daily Mail - Radiohead
• Back In the Saddle - Aerosmith
• Under My Skin - Original Mix - Byron Foxx
• 1.0_8-whatsyourask.m4p - Mac Quayle
• Gonna Make You Sweat (Everybody Dance Now) - C&C Music Factory, Freedom Williams
• Scopin - Kordhell
• Du hast - Rammstein
• Counting Bodies Like Sheep To The Rhythm of the War Drums - A Perfect Circle
• Bang! - AJR
• You're Not God - Anna Calvi
• Hello Beastie - Hans Zimmer
• Narco - Blasterjaxx, Timmy Trumpet
• The Ecstasy Of Gold - Live with the SFSO - Metallica
• Enter Sandman (Remastered) - Metallica
• Farewell Ride - Beck
• SHERlocked - Michael Price, David Arnold
• Ain't No Mountain High Enough - Marvin Gaye, Tammi Terrell
• Dog Days Are Over - Florence + The Machine
• See You Again (feat. Charlie Puth) - Wiz Khalifa, Charlie Puth
• Tick Of The Clock - Chromatics
• Shimmy She Wobble - Othar Turner, The Rising Star Fife And Drum Band
• Stand Up - Ludacris, Shawnna
• "Why Can't We Go Backwards?" - Alan Silvestri
• Exit Music (For A Film) - Radiohead
• Light of the Seven - From "Game of Thrones" - The City of Prague Philharmonic Orchestra
• La resa dei conti - Ennio Morricone

These are Castlevania Netflix icons made available as part of the limited \"Netflix and Chills\" collection (October, 2018).
Before I include the steps, I would like to give a few thanks. Some of you may know that I started this mission to find a way to get these icons a few days ago. It took a bunch of work, posting on Facebook groups, Reddit, Twitter, desperately asking for people to help, haha. Well here we are. Thank you u/Sartana for getting the ball rolling by giving me the unique ID of Dracula. Thank you u/sublimeme for providing us with Trevor's. Thank you @insightsoda (Twitter) for helping us get Alucard's. And thank you u/N313intruder for helping me ask around once you were made aware of my mission, haha, and successfully helping me get the icons I would have missed.
Well, that's it. Here's what you need to do to be able to change your Netflix avatar to these icons (taken and altered from u/TaylorSwiftAddicted's guide):
* Be sure to turn off VPN before attempting as some people are having trouble with them on *

1. You will need to be on Microsoft Edge or Chrome to do it.
2. You will need to temporarily install this extension to help you change it. Should you worry about whether or not it is safe to install, it has over 2 million users, and is made by Facebook. You can remove this extension after you have changed the icon, should you wish.
3. Go to https://www.netflix.com/ManageProfiles, and navigate to the page where you can change your profile icon.
4. Open the React Developer Tools by right clicking anywhere on the page and choosing 'inspect'.
5. At the top of the developer tools, you will find a tab named 'Components'.
6. On the left inside this Components tab, you will see a bunch of rows of things. Click on the first row that says 'LolopiIcon'.
7. Now on the right side, you will see a bunch of information about the icon. Next to 'icon' there is an arrow, click it to expand the information inside icon.
8. Inside 'icon' is an 'id'. This is the one we will need to change. Double-click on the value to the right of 'id' so you can edit it.
9. Replace it with the unique ID of your desired icon. In our case, the IDs are as follows: Dracula: "AVATAR0c531682-c1ea-11e8-a863-1204ac6e63e2enMX81029379" Trevor: "AVATAR0c52c863-c1ea-11e8-a863-1204ac6e63e2enMX81029379" Alucard: "AVATAR0c5364a0-c1ea-11e8-a863-1204ac6e63e2enMX81029379"
10. Back in your browser on the edit profiles page, click the very first icon on the screen (this would normally be the first icon in your history of past icons used). This icon is the one we just set a new ID on. Don't worry, it didn't overwrite this icon and you can still change back to this icon in the future, should you wish.
11. After you click, you will be shown a prompt about whether or not you want to change. This will not yet show your desired icon under 'new'. Click let's do it.
12. You will now be shown another prompt about whether or not you want to save your profile settings. Again, it will not show your desired icon yet. Click 'save'.
13. You should now have your desired icon! And yes, this change would be reflected on all devices.

Have fun!
ALSO, if it's not working, try following these steps, but it really should work.
If you're interested, here are links to reddit posts relating to our little mission hehe:
https://www.reddit.com/castlevania/comments/r9efwx/i_finally_have_draculas_icon_on_netflix_still/
https://www.reddit.com/castlevania/comments/r1mfst/does_anyone_still_have_alucard_as_their_netflix/
https://www.reddit.com/castlevania/comments/rammz5/how_to_use_alucard_dracula_netflix_icon_2021/

I’ll be honest, if it wasn’t for the war on hip hop that B.Dot’s controversial end of year list caused, I may have never heard this album. Per usual, his selection of artists naturally created cultural discord leaving many steadfast in disagreement. As I witnessed the contention on various social channels, and the numerous opinions of its sequence, this album regardless of its placement, was undoubtedly included.
By the title, I was interested, and taken after the first listen. Immediately, the biblical mockery at its commencement was more than enough to occupy my attention. I could not believe what I was hearing. This wasn’t the usual inclusion of an artist's personal faith walk in music, but rather the tone of a self appointed godhead taking his sovereign position. It was his passion, and his candid incivility towards the church's consecration. Rolls Royce Break Lights, and it’s exuberant production acting as the album’s prelude, setting the atmosphere for Cook’s word.
“I’m the truth, I’m the light, I’m the way”
Bread of Life was a swift change in tone, settling the congregation in their seats while Cook’s reasoned his wise tales. This song was delivered with the posture of an expert, detailing his past in a way that tantalized those who’ve never walked in his shoes, finding the treasure that he did. He had glory and knew it, and in his unapologetic jovial tone, made sure we knew as well. This was an episodical account of events that placed him in such a position of opulence. I listened closely.
“Out of all these rap niggas, I’m the goldest, 24 karat glow, my soul lit”
It was beautifully irreverent, the robe of a street priest and the honesty of his unabashed life experiences proving to be more potent than any scriptural teachings. A master at his craft, rap and otherwise making his hustle a joyous, celebratory occasion. A pronounced success separate from one found in the lust of the music business. In the album, Cooks, regardless of whether he ever released music, was already successful. This was his version of the American dream, manifested in a way that supersedes the road more traveled, and the prerogative that way affords you.
By Crosses, he was loud and clear as the dark, ominous production ensured that we understood him. In it was a vulnerable frustration, standing firm in his belief, and the inevitable position he would take in hip hop. He wasn’t looking for acceptance, or a welcoming of any kind. Nor was this an attempt to alert the culture of his plan to capture the coveted crown; he had one already. His position was unlike any other, blatantly disrupting the culture’s comfort zone and deriding its slumber to his advantage.
As I replayed this track, I heard something different every time. More passion, and also to my surprise, his lyrics working in concert with scripture. Personally, I find religion a travesty, and regardless if that conclusion stems from my own experiences or not, it is a dangerous falsehood usually consumed by those left void by life’s noncompliance. However, similar to Matthew 7:13, Cooks sermonizes the inevitable ruin associated with the sacrifice of fame, even if that notability is found in street life. In the mood of Crosses was Cook's inveterate position firmly planted on his own conquests.
“Face it, Feds gave us a pop quiz and we aced it, don’t let ‘em tangle up your laces”
Aside from the greatness of the album’s entirety, this song was a magnum opus of its own. A detailed account of his rising, the culmination and even the lucre of his choices; however, so richly nestled in ascendancy. Do I think he’s suggesting his listeners partake in street life? I doubt it, but rather to run your own course, at your pace, all while being mindful of its enmity. I think in the manner of Cook’s story telling more highlights the self determination esteemed to those of personal triumph. That even in drug related subject matter, his message balances the consequence of his ways of life, but also its predestined victory.
“I’m thinkin’ when this shit over, what happened to your soul”
Another well favored track, Gloria Blemente and it’s flirtatious tone. Cook’s skillful, endearing honesty made it one I’m sure the ladies of his fan base relished as much as I did. This was the sincerity of the one that makes you smile though you’re upset with him. The one whose lifestyle scares you, though not enough to leave. The hustler, or king of the city reigning in the splendor that often blinds your better judgment. This was dope boy romance, in the scintilla of charm he can afford while his guard remains high. Overall, as the consequences of his decisions loom, you stay because he means well. We’ve all been there, and despite the circumstance, he brings a new woman out of you, and you like it.
For every song, a highly cinematic thread binding them together and this was no different. A gentleman to his sound, lively yet relaxed in the delivery knowing his own knighthood. A craftsman that has used the dignified autonomy of his life for justifiable self righteousness. Who could stop him, or for a second, attempt to discredit his past being the fuel to his freedom; the freedom he deemed necessary. Enamored with his confidence, I couldn't help but ponder the genesis of such personal sovereignty. This wasn't the incipient album of a new artist with apparent trepidation. This was a master class, a sermon of godship carefully crafted to the internal betterment of its hearers. Also, a candor contrary to his seemingly enigmatic nature. Not much social media, hardly a collection of interviews, but the roots of the culture allowing the constitution of his word to live on its own. The perfect literary conveyance complementing the legendary production of Roc Marciano; all the makings of an artist ahead of his time. This album, a bar of excellence unable to be contained by any list, but rather a well sequenced screenplay perfected in lyrical audacity. The story of destiny's obstacle course he conquered with ease at every turn. Today's Illmatic.
Like many of us, he could clearly see the deficit in the culture, not only by the name of the album, but also its content. This time, it was his decision, not that of the industry to extend an invitation. This was his principle, and in the savor of this album came a cosmic shift in rap and life that, like the word of God, teaches to find joy in indignation. This was a law of personal liberty found in those who have persevered despite their circumstance, and the celebration of it. Isn't this what we all strive for? Shouldn't this be our dream? That self sufficiency reigns, and in friction we find our way with a fuck you as comely as Cooks forthright character. Him audaciously choosing a self belief rather than the force fed pious concept of a savior; Cooks being his own. I appreciate that, as many are deceived by the manipulative ways of the church, neglecting the detriment to the believers. Maybe that’s why I enjoyed Cooks disposition and not so much the religious undertones of other albums. In life, we often decide so ignorantly to believe in the numinous ways of a divine being, and that somehow those teachings will abate our own inherent experiences. What about those unafraid to apply the word until we see the gravity of it in our predestination? Maybe until we reign and our word, or our law drives the course of our fortune. Isn’t that true faith? If so, that faith is exemplified in this album regardless of anyone’s consent. What if beauty for ashes truly comes when you construct it? What if we are wholly “free indeed” when we’ve run through the ribbon at the place we marked?
“Why you think they call this shit a race cause it’s a fuckin race bitch, and they made you believe that you ain’t even racin”
What if our firmest victory arrives when we can feed our families without lack after the suffering of perpetual poverty? Isn’t that joy in the morning? In life, there is no instruction manual and many of us bear adversity despite good doing. Out of that is often born a frustration that fuels us to circumvent the supposed road of truth until we find our own. That’s what I hear in this album. I’m unaware of Cook’s personal reasons for his jarring, highly derisive religious context but I understand my own. Reasonable Drought was evidentiary support to the subjective matter of success. The real drought in my opinion, is the deficiency of those bold enough to speak like him, and win how they see fit.
I commend Cooks for his valor, for his own way, and his refusal of conformity. This album was sexy defiance, the sonic display of power, finding the source of it in self; like we all should. As the film played in my mind and the soundtrack in my ears, I thought of what I'd say to him if we ever crossed paths. I'd ask him of the origin of the church's mockery, then tell him of my own, and how I fancy it. Also, how his candid example was not only enjoyable, but a requisite in my own life. Reasonable Drought was a word of law and life, a reminder to stand tall in our own podium and swiftly part with those who oppose our gospel. This was a master's truth, the sanctimonious cape of an expert that had studied the genres entrance and exit points to be had at his convenience.
"Don't mention me with with them, they irrelevant, let me settle this"
Overall, I enjoyed this album thoroughly, but more so, the underlying principles I found in it. This was the tutelage of a maestro, the guardianship for a people who need the acquired taste of achievement. Whether you take his path or not, the one you select will only be conquered by the same fortitude and determination Cook’s displays in his distinguished literary masterpiece. Maybe you didn’t take away what I did, that’s arbitrary, but I encourage any listener to extrapolate the ingenuity in this amazing body of work whether you agree with it or not.
By my third listen, I made a small change making Cocaine Cologne the last song. It was the benediction, the climax to his life symphony, and the orchestra as the curtains close. At the time of this writing, Cook's latest singles Run It Up and That's the Game play simultaneously on heavy repeat, and like his album, I'm once again charmed by his elegant, well poised delivery. Another movie, the one with the entrancing villain we're all rooting for, with a lyrical prowess over more phenomenal production. In the opulence of Cook's charismatic music is hope. A resetting of the roots of hip hop, and adding to the bulldog annexation of upstate New York's position in the culture. In his music, Cook's personal ascension is evident and well celebrated. This album was the relatable gospel to be only digested by those willing to risk it all in their own permissive pursuits. His story is one to believe, the plan to get to the money, or whatever your lust, and the celebration of self in every meantime. Personally, with my own futile religious experiences, and Cook's discourteous backdrop of it, the music was introspective self enjoyment. His versatility, originality, along with his ability to play with melody while keeping the integrity of the culture intact. A legend indeed.
"You gotta visualize it moving when the shit won't, and let the non-believers that jumped off the bitch go. Then you flex floatin by em in the big boat, screaming better kick your legs harder nigga big strokes"
-Bread of Life, Reasonable Drought

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If you're like me.. hype as fuck since the tweet storm.. I've watched the reverse compilation of Roaring Kitty's tweets many times. Here's the soundtrack from his masterpiece of a movie. https://open.spotify.com/playlist/0rtHTBt6XyVcwnoG4a2D5l?si=af0eba7a319240d6
The songs are in reverse order as they appear in his tweets. Most recent first.
A lot of the song names and lyrics probably have some hidden meaning. Many stand out but these stand out the most to me.
Matter of Time, whatsyourask, SHERlocked, tick of the clock on there twice.
SHERlocked is most interesting to me. Shares... Locked...

• Goodbye Stranger - Supertramp
• Twisted Logic - Coldplay
• I Was Born To Love You - Freddie Mercury
• Seven Nation Army - The White Stripes
• One Dance - Drake, Wizkid, Kyla
• One Jump Ahead - Brad Kane, Disney
• Hide and Seek - Imogen Heap
• Tick Of The Clock - Chromatics
• (Don't Fear) The Reaper - Blue Öyster Cult
• Evidently Chickentown - John Cooper Clarke
• Punkrocker - Teddybears feat. Iggy Pop
• Put Your Hands Where My Eyes Could See - Busta Rhymes
• Matter of Time - Vandelux, Alex Maher
• Crazy - James Michael Mix - Alanis Morissette
• Best Friend - Sofi Tukker feat. NERVO, The Knocks, & ALISA UENO
• Goosebumps Original Theme Song - Jack Lenz
• Just Dance - Lady Gaga, Colby O'Donis
• ...Baby One More Time - Britney Spears
• Chaiyya Chaiyya - Sukhwinder Singh, Sapna Awasthi
• Nobody But Me - The Human Beinz
• Made You Look - Nas
• Karma Police - Radiohead
• White Rabbit - Jefferson Airplane
• Alice - Pogo
• A Monster - Waveshaper
• Fire Like This - Hardknox
• Red Right Hand - Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds
• Freaks - Radio Edit - Timmy Trumpet, Savage
• Gin and Juice - Snoop Dogg
• Tchaikovsky: Swan Lake, Op. 20, Act 4: No. 29 - Pyotr Ilyich Tchaikovsky, André Previn
• Gossip Folks - Missy Elliott feat. Ludacris
• Bye Bye Baby - Bay City Rollers
• Roda - Sergio Mendes & Brasil '66
• Mr. Niceguy - Will Smith
• Day 'N' Nite (From "Moon Knight") - Geek Music
• Come Along - Cosmo Sheldrake
• The Daily Mail - Radiohead
• Back In the Saddle - Aerosmith
• Under My Skin - Original Mix - Byron Foxx
• 1.0_8-whatsyourask.m4p - Mac Quayle
• Gonna Make You Sweat (Everybody Dance Now) - C&C Music Factory, Freedom Williams
• Scopin - Kordhell
• Du hast - Rammstein
• Counting Bodies Like Sheep To The Rhythm of the War Drums - A Perfect Circle
• Bang! - AJR
• You're Not God - Anna Calvi
• Hello Beastie - Hans Zimmer
• Narco - Blasterjaxx, Timmy Trumpet
• The Ecstasy Of Gold - Live with the SFSO - Metallica
• Enter Sandman (Remastered) - Metallica
• Farewell Ride - Beck
• SHERlocked - Michael Price, David Arnold
• Ain't No Mountain High Enough - Marvin Gaye, Tammi Terrell
• Dog Days Are Over - Florence + The Machine
• See You Again (feat. Charlie Puth) - Wiz Khalifa, Charlie Puth
• Tick Of The Clock - Chromatics
• Shimmy She Wobble - Othar Turner, The Rising Star Fife And Drum Band
• Stand Up - Ludacris, Shawnna
• "Why Can't We Go Backwards?" - Alan Silvestri
• Exit Music (For A Film) - Radiohead
• Light of the Seven - From "Game of Thrones" - The City of Prague Philharmonic Orchestra
• La resa dei conti - Ennio Morricone

Hey y'all,
Hope this is the right place to post. My grandma was accidentally shipped this seemingly cheap (brand: NTCEOBO) solar panel and they didn't ask for a return. Not wanting to throw it out (the whole point is conservation right?), I was hoping y'all could help me figure out how to put this together.
I myself know nothing about solar, but I gather that I at least need a battery. I'm not even sure what the names of the various connections here are, though I gather the 3-way is for connecting to a generator. The other two cords seem to be for a battery. The instruction manual only details how to initialize the settings on the controller but not the actual physical setup.
We don't really know what to use it for so literally any guidance whatsoever is appreciated haha. Thanks in advance y'all.
Edit: photos in comments bc Reddit sucks on Android

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Need to get rid of a bunch of stuff laying around. Everything is OBO and does not include shipping.
Local near Tacoma
Car Audio Stuff - Everything here is opened but never been used.

ITEM	DESCRIPTION	PRICE
SKv2-200.4D	1,600 Watt 4-Channel Car Amplifier	$270
SPX-65C	6.5" 400 Watt 2-Way Component Speaker System	$150
RP-1500.1D	1,500 Watt Monoblock Car Amplifier	$130
SKAR0ANL-CCA	1/0 Gauge - 2,000 Watt CCA Amplifier Wiring Kit	$30
Pioneer DMH-W2770NEX		$350

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Misc Hardware

ITEM	DESCRIPTION	PRICE
Raspberry Pi 1B, Zero W, 2B, Two Pi 4 cases with fans, Zero case, Two extra pi fans	1B Works. Zero ACT light flickers & it shows up in device manager when plugged into the usb, but I don't have a mini hdmi to test display. 2B Has not been tested.	$30 For Everything
Adafruit Trinket and Trinket Pro	Never used.	$5 for both
One by Wacom Tablet	Used for osu a little bit. Probably only has 10 hours of use.	$25
Optimumtech Zeromouse	Bought off a user on mousemarket. Used twice and didn't like it. Includes regular and hyperpolling dongles, cable and extra skates.	$120
Broken G303 Shroud Edition	Used for a couple months and tried to swap the switches but ended up burning a contact on the switch pcb. Definitely fixable but I never wanted to spend the time.	$0.69
300mm Gen 3 Riser	Bought for a build and used for probably 3 months.	$5
Maono Maonocaster Audio Interface	Used for like a month.	$10
Beginner Custom Keyboard	This was my first custom keyboard. Frosted acrylic case with all broken standoffs, kailh pro purple switches and amazon xda keycaps. Works with VIA	$20
Alpha28	Bought off a user on mechmarket and never spent the time to learn it. Has a sticker bombed back acrylic plate.	$20

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Hi! My name is Greg. Beginning a career in video editing. Have been on and off editing videos for fun for 5+ years. These include drumming, fishing and hunting videos. Offering free services at this time, as I’m looking to build up a portfolio to show my work and start making money doing something I love! If you’re looking for any assistance on creating shorts, send over a DM! I’d love to help!

I hope I'm posing this question correctly, but here goes. I have voice recordings that I am having the damnedest time tuning in, equalizing, compressing, limiting, you name it, I'm having trouble!! I've used low-pass, high-pass, shelves, Denoisers, only to make the sound worse, but I've had nothing but chirps, whistles, high scratching, static, and hisses.
At the moment I'm using n-track studios mainly because I've got so much time invested in it and I guess an unreasonable amount of stubbornness, but I REALLY NEED THE AUDIO off of these recordings as there is incredibly sensitive material in these voice recordings. I cannot stress the importance of these audios, and the necessity for me to render these audios clear.
I don't know who is or if anyone is using n-track, but I know the audio is good because I can hear voices, I just can't clear them up well enough to make out the words. But without sharing a clip it sounds like high-pitch screeches and chirps that I know are clipping, but if move a high-pass node it makes it worse, or a low-pass node it makes it worse. I know that anyone with any audio editing experience would have this figured out quick style, but due to the sensitive nature of the recording, I haven't shared it with anyone. I just need to be pointed in the right direction. Any help would be SUPER APPRECIATED!!! Thank you!!

Excuse if this is a little messy. I hardly use reddit, and this entire situation is stressing me out to the point of shakiness and illness. On that not, onto the story.
So, for a bit of context, I am a very, very new adult. I just graduated high school, and I've never had the best relationship with my family besides my mom and brother. I was still very distant from my mom because of some slight neglect in the past. I don't blame her for it because she's a single mom and was working a very hard job.
Extra context, my mom had also been planning a California trip. She had changed the plans every other day. Me and my fiance couldn't keep up with it, especially because he had a work venture there.
The past few months, I had been going out with my boyfriend, now fiance ( we'll call Ax ). My mom had been pretty hard on me because of this. Saying how, "I'm not home enough," and, "I need to help with (this this and this)." So, I was already getting a little fed up. I just wanted an escape from the house which is honestly not a very healthy living space due to my fairly slobbish family. Everytime I would go home she would bombard me with stuff, which I never had to do before, so it made me want out more.
I'm just going to summarize the build up by saying, there were quite a few arguments and she never seemed to listen to me. I also have a super hard time communicating my feelings and confrontation so participating in an argument is a big deal.
Now we get to the big night. The last thing we "talked" about was the California trip and how Ax's parents won't let him go if we stay at her friend's house. She got upset and stormed off. Me and Ax were upset so we went to his birth mom's ( we'll call her Cat ) house to take a break. It didn't really help. I had gotten fed up with all of the arguing and bitterness from my mom. All of the snide comments to Ax. I texted her that I was moving out and wasn't going on the California trip. ( I was moving into Cat's house. )
Now should I have texted her? Probably not, but texting helps me form my thoughts into words. I express more clearly through text, and shut down on the phone and especially in person.
She calls and I freak out and hand the phone to Ax. Mistake number 2. A bit about Ax, he is very very protective of me, especially with some of the stuff I've told him about my family and my dad. He doesn't want me to go through the same thing again. He's also a big jokester but is autistic so he doesn't really get when not to do some of his joking tones and words. They also come off as very disrespectful sometimes and he was kind of tired of her. So my mom is angry.
She tells me to come home within 5 minutes. I very shaky get in the car and we head there. We get there and she takes the keys to the car and my phone. Tells me to come inside and talk alone. Now, I get where she's coming from, but I HATE feeling cornered. I need someone else there by my side or I just shut down. It socks and makes things a lot harder with this kind of stuff. Now the rest is a but of a blur but she gets aggressive. No physical violence, but she does get in my face. I back up and she starts acussing me of telling people I'm violent though I haven't. It blurs again and suddenly I'm packing my things and leaving. My brother (15) by my side sad to see me leave this way.
The night goes by and I hear nothing from her. The next day she texts. I don't remember many of the texts, but I do remember being stressed out and not replying to things often. I tell her I need some time.
Few days go by with few texts I answer and a couple calls I don't. Then we get to church just a few days after the big night and an argument over text starts. She acusses Ax of lying, stealing, and vandalizing her car. The "lying" was a joke he made about his origins that I took seriously at first, I am a very slow person, that he had not realized I took seriously until very very later on. On the stealing, he had not stolen from some of the places acussed, but we did have a separate incident that was true. However, he's done his best to make it up and has not done anything like it since. He got punished by me and his parents. She still thinks he should've gotten worse. He's especially tried to make it up to my mom because he had lost her full trust and she was very obvious about it and still hasn't forgiven him to this day. The vandalizing was him working on the car, but not fixing it fully, because, we'll, she took the car before he could.
I talked about getting my legal documents, the entire point I was texting her in the first place, she brought up Ax herself. I misunderstood her and thought she was wanting to keep them from me so threatened legal action. I won't go deep into this because I'm not a lawyer, but ultimately it was more a threat to get my stuff. She said that I could get my stuff from the garage. Remember when I told you that my family was slobish? Yeah, I have no clue where these documents are and the garage is stacked to the sealing so it's going to take me a bit. I don't want to, but it's the only way to get my documents.
I completely give up at this point. I already said I needed a bit of time, but she continued to text. When I didn't answer email me a mental health line. The only times I would talk to her was to get my stuff. She started making facebook posts warning about toxic relationships, and how losing loved ones without making peace is terrible. This continues for a bit then stopped a couple days ago. The last thing I got, just a few hours ago, was an email. I will be quoting it word for word but changing names blah blah, you know how privacy works.
"Hi, [deadname]! I hope everything is going well for you.
I just wanted to take some time to explain some things. I wanted to tell you these things in person because it really does matter. Reading something is far different from hearing how someone says it. Arguments and misunderstandings should always be fixed in person.
First and foremost, I love you. I would do anything within my power for you. I have always been there for you and I want to continue being there. It breaks my heart that you don't want anything to do with me. I've tried to make you feel loved and supported. I've been active in your interests and activities. I even played Minecraft for you... (Haha)
I wanted to talk to you privately because we will never be able to fix things between us if someone else is involved. And honestly, it's no one else's business. I've never physically or intentionally hurt you so there is no reason to be scared to spend time with me.
What I have tried to tell you through text, is that I did not blow up because you wanted to move out. My response was that we would talk when you got home. That was not blowing up and this is why it is important to communicate in person rather than via text. I wanted to know your plans and see if I could help or add some suggestions that might help. I blew up because of the disrespect. I was being treated like I was nothing and like I've done nothing for you. I tried to explain that I wasn't mad about you wanting to move out. I'm not sure why you thought I would be since we've been talking about it for 6 months.
I apologize to you for how I handled my thoughts and feelings about [Ax]. It shouldn't have been handled that way. I'm not mad that either of you made mistakes. I was mad at the lack of taking ownership of said mistakes. I was mad that I was lied to again when I called out those mistakes.
I just want us to work through this. I love you. I will always love you. I want to help you if and when I can. I always want to be a part of your life. I am hurt that you can so easily throw away our relationship because of one argument. I am hurt that you're acting like I've done something for you to be afraid of me.
My door is always open and I'm always just a phone call away.
Love, Mom"
It makes me feel like I'm in the wrong and I'm actually unsure if I'm being to harsh on her. AITH?
TLDR; I move in with my fiancé. Arguments with mom as she acusses us of things we didn't do besides one thing. Im tired and stressed so go almost no contact. I get an email from her making me rethink my position on the matter.
Edit 1 and 2: Updates to layout of the post.

Hi, I’m opening up here. Since I was a little kid, I have dreamed of making music. I wanted to be a singer, a songwriter. I sang a lot, even when I was 6yo I wrote songs and recorded them accapella. I confidently sang in public or played the piano in front of anybody. I took piano lessons for many many years(classical theory and reading sheets). I loved the lessons but hated performing, but I had to. As I grew older, I became less and less confident. Motivation to actually make music or play music vanished slowly. I stopped playing piano now. I do sing without any shame and I LOVE to, but it’s not my own stuff.
Gradually, making my own music became more of a fantasy dream than a “I’ll work on it till I make it” dream.
I still write lyrics down. I still record some voice memos with little bits of songs or melodies that come across my mind. But I NEVER managed to materialize any of the hundreds of ideas I have had. Songs that exist in my head only, and I feel that they would turn out to be pretty great, but vanish after a while.
I tried. I’m trying. I took a production course, I had to compose and edit something. Some ephemeral moments of inspiration stroked me, and the very green first demo sounds ok. Surely if I could work on it for longer I’d like it. I dropped out the course because I got stuck and couldn’t make any progress so it became uncomfortable for me to just say “I didn’t do my hw”. I spent some money and put up a home studio, so I could be autonomous, but adhd keeps me from learning on my own. I’m taking singing lessons. Those are great. My therapist advised me to, since she said I need to enjoy music and not force myself into something that makes me anxious. She also told me I have some impostor syndrome shit but honestly I always find the name to my problems but struggle to solve them.
I feel like a failure. A frustrated musician who is not even a musician. I don’t play piano anymore. I feel jealous of everyone who is making music, they’re expressing themselves. I spend time around friends who do so, and think of ways I would contribute. And they even ask me to. But I just refuse, my creativity gets scared off.
I won’t be genuinely happy until I destroy the invisible barrier that keeps me from doing something that looks so fun and that I think I would be good at.
ANY ADVICE WELCOME!!!! Love you all

I swear, my wallet's a black hole, swallowing every cent I never made. Bills stack like a burger I've only dreamed of, pickle-less, with a side of curiosity.
The suits on TV sell me dreams, limited edition failure, gourmet debt. I once tried to pay rent with Monopoly money; the landlord laughed so hard he forgot my name.
My bank's on speed dial because it misses me, those mini overdrafts are my love letters. I sweat coins, bleed nickels, the pigeons downtown appreciate my generosity.
Friday night's a ghost town, credit card’s a magician's trick, vanishing act in my greasy hand. Even my piggy bank's now on strike, smashing ideas of Paris trips and caviar.
But still, I stroll the aisles of wealth, laughing like a millionaire of nothing. Because being broke ain't bad, baby, when losing is the best joke life's ever played.