Happy birthday quotes to my grandma rip

My husband passed away at the age of 25. He battled cancer for over 1,5 years and I was by his side the whole time. I did my share of anticipatory grief the last month or so when he got so much worse.
Yesterday was the day of his funeral. I picked photos of him from holidays, with friends, with me, our dog, pictures that show he lived a full life, even though it was short. I carefully picked music that he loved, I didn't want anything too feely, rather music that felt nostalgic and connected to him.
So many friends came. I felt weird during the funeral, I kept looking at the photos... And my stomach hurt. I didn't really cry. It still doesn't feel very real sometimes.
After that, his mom, my parents and closest friends went for a lunch and drinks, I thanked everyone for coming and asked them to write funny quotes or stories into a notebook I brought. We talked about him and laughed and I told everyone how much he loved them. And most importantly I told friends from his side that I do not want to lose contact with them, and they are all very keen to keep me in their lives. They are my friends as well but I'm pretty shy so it was always him planning things. It was all very raw, I did not cry but I expressed my feelings in such a sincere way.
Despite everything, despite him leaving us too soon, he lived a great life. He found amazing friends, and I hope to keep them in my life, as a sort of a honor to his life. He brought us all together. There was also a friend he hadn't seen for a long time, they met last year after a long time, and I did my best to include her in the conversations, and she's such a nice girl.
Today I feel ok. I know heavy days are coming because I'm still at the beginning. But I'm hopeful. Overall I feel lost and really, really scared, but I trust there are good things waiting for me. I vowed to live a good life. He fought so hard, he had so many reasons to fight, and I know he'd want me to be happy.

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When I was 6 years old my mama & papa left me to my grandma's house and this is the start of my traumas I'm not gonna say it all but I remember when I was a kid I was so so scared because I was 2012 movie, I always has nightmares after that I feel like it's gonna end of the world I am always crying every night at our house I don't have anybody since my mama & papa is working my grandma is busy doesn't have a time for me. I always cry cry and fear fear and to the point I can't even breathe for almost 1 week because of heart palpitations. I beg for my family to bring me to hospital but they just ignoring me and telling me I'm just overacting. This is trauma I know.
2019 I was grade 7, that year is my worst year so many bad things happened to me, I always got fights with neighbors, I don't sleep for almost 2months and have palpitations and don't go school. I just cry cry every night begging lord to make me sleep.
2023 it happens to me again I cry I cry I am so depressed almost 2 month Nov/Dec then Dec I started to feel palpitations again and can't breathe I also found lump in my breast I can't breathe for almost 1 month I never said it to my mother because I know we are poor and I always remember how they treat me before until I realize I need to help my self. We go to doctor and do x-ray the lump can't see in x-ray but if it's mammogram or ultrasound we will see it but my mama doesn't want me to go again because we don't have money and this is not a big deal it's just a lump.
2024 now the news in pH about rabies is triggering my health anxiety. I've been bitten by my kitten in march 31 and got bitten by my dog(vaccinated) again in April 26 (the kitten and dog is still alive until now) , the next day I felt feverish so we go to abc to do anti rabies 1st , 2nd ,3rd dose i experience the side effects that makes my anxiety worst 1 week after 3rd dose may 12 I'm having palpitations and shortness of breath again it's 5days now. April and may I really experience so many unlucky and bad things the college I apply, rejected me. My friends doesn't even greet me on my birthday in May 1and doesn't help me when I ask for support because I missed some school activities and always left me out when we hang out. My family hates me because I am weak and always sick. My neighbors hates me always talks to me when I got outside. And I'm feeling this rabies anxiety or rabies I am really so tired and stress and depressed and scared. I wanna give up life now.
What do you think about my mental health? My health condition?
Please I can't afford therapy and check up because my family won't allow me and we are poor.
I wish in other universe my other self has a life opposite of me in this universe.

So i am in a bít of a pickle here. I’ll try to explain this in the best way possible as I am struggling on how to respond to my narc mother.
I still live at home (student) but my boyfriend who is also a student lives with his mum. We are both at the end of our degrees and plan on going into full time work and all soon so we can get a place together. So atm I just contribute rent to my parents as I am an adult.
Anyway, me and my boyfriend have been together 2 years, but I have noticed that my parents favour my sister (golden child) and her boyfriend. It stands out a mile and my boyfriend has noticed it.
Me and my boyfriend have had arguments as my mum can be controlling and tries to guilt trip a lot. We split up but then got back together a week later and since then the relationship has been great, in fact better than ever. However, when we split up that time he blocked my family members. And hasn’t unblocked them since.
This morning my mum started complaining to me that he still has them blocked and is furious and is playing the victim card. She did nothing but “joke” about how the thought of harming him makes her happy and how she thinks I deserve better. I will admit that I was irresponsible in telling her about me and my boyfriend’s arguments in the past, but since then I’ve not overshared anything and worked on it.
But she keeps asking me why are they still blocked and is making out it’s all his fault and she’s angry. She even said she’s been nothing but kind to him (which she hasn’t) and got funny that I bought his mum a birthday present but now she’s not going to get anything off him, because she’s blocked. She even accused me of picking them over her.
Ngl, ever since he blocked them it’s like our relationship has got better. I have not told my family a lot about our relationship since we got back together and we are both happy. My mum is making out that he is trying to push me away from everyone and isolate me, but in reality it’s because she’s toxic. She also has favoured my sister and made excuses for my sisters boyfriends behaviour towards my boyfriend. He basically made no effort for my boyfriend’s birthday after he made an effort for his. But my mum kept making excuses on why my sister and her boyfriend ignored my boyfriends birthday etc.
I’ve even been out for family breakfasts and my auntie and mum boast about how my cousins cannot wait for my sister and her boyfriend to get married and how well they all get on. It does make me feel singled out but I bite my tongue and realise it’s because I’m the scapegoat of the family and what they say does not define my relationship.
Anyway, so I just want to ask how do I respond to claims about my mum being “innocent” and her blaming my boyfriend for everything? As it’s getting tiring and I just want her to leave my relationship alone, thanks.
Edit: I forgot to add that I drive to see him on the weekends around my work and studying so he doesn’t participate in anything anymore associated with my family. But it is awkward for him to visit mine anyway as there would be nowhere for him to sleep for the night. So it’s easier for me to go to his and his mums house.

did look up this question before posting. are there any romar-g switches that have the standard cross mount/do not have this ridiculous prong stem design? (unlikely i find)
this has been a pretty horrendous first keyboard. I like typing on it, and I do like the ping sounds (as well as the normal sounds), though it's the only proper keyboard I've had and I've gotten used to it (stockholm syndrome). I did get it as a gift without my asking, so maybe I should be grateful (it has been around five/six years now) plus i didn't know too much at the time and i was just happy to have a proper keyboard to both game and type with as on opposed to my laptop keyboard, or a standard office board. bit of a rip at 144AUD, which is around 96USD, for a completely proprietary switch design, that is annoying in every single way possible. slightly bigger than gaterons and cherry, so the board is completely incompatible even if you did wanna solder. and the plastic, while double shot, is brittle as hell in the prongs where it matters. this thing is on it's last legs, with fucked up ctrls (both, don't ask. did miracle surgery), up arrow key and esc. stems got stuck in the stem holes. atrocious design, this happened through standard use. seemingly worsened if it's a corner switch, as seen by my esc and ctrl lol. and ofc they give you the cheapest keypuller of all time, one that scratches up the horrendous plastic.
considering the G512 as i like the way I can adjust the volume on this thing, and it's 20ish bucks cheaper STILL, to this day, the G413 sits on amazon and in my local stores for 144AUD or more, wtf.
there are a couple of things i do like, the numpad for one. am an excel user and i do find it useful in my day to day. the metal base i find very nice, gives it weight and is why I'm willing to try to repair mod, or whatever i have to do to fix it, but im kinda finding nothing on it. told concealed metal plates have basically the same effect so I might look into that into the future.
sub seems pretty tight and strict on rules so I don't know if this is the right place for this, but this is kinda a review and question soooo...

Just some thoughts as I've got back into PCVR recently ...
My father sent me a Quest 3 for my birthday and the edge to edge clarity of the lenses got me back into VR. I have a Reverb G2 (which I used with knuckles) and a Quest 2, but I had played less and less due to content and, frankly, I was sick of fresnel lenses. Meta's optics are now ridiculously good. I had some software in my account, and as soon as I fired up racket fury - it was clear as day, but looked like absolute crap because it hasn't been updated for Quest 3. I played Asgard's Wrath 2, and while better, was the same issue.
I then went to try and set up PCVR streaming with virtual desktop. I tried 200 mbps AVC and HEVC. I could get up to 400-500 mbps H.264. Truthfully, I wasn't happy with the visual quality or the latency.
I used the link cable. I dialed mbps to 960 mbps. Much better, but still not happy with visual quality or latency. The optics of the Quest 3 make it way to easy to see artifacts. I could even see it on the cubes in the color gradients of beat saber, and it drove me crazy. But really, I could live with it if it wasn't for the latency. At max bit rate I'm locked at about 45 ms. On a native headset I believe it's under 10 ms. You can definitely feel it in VR and it ruins it for me. I could dial back the mbps over link, but then the graphic fidelity goes down.
So, I set out to get a native PCVR headset that was as close to the optics of the Quest 3 as possible.
Initially I was interested in BSB, but the reason the Quest 3 excited me so much was edge to edge clarity. Looked at Crystal and Aero. I'm sorry, I just can't buy a Pimax device - knowing how many issues friends have had with the company. Further, it's massive. Maybe the Crystal light will be better.
I got a used Aero from Adorama for $750. It's pretty good, it's a mature product - but it's lenses aren't as good as the Quest 3 (it's close). It's got slight barrel distortion still on the right and left edges of the lens, which my brain tuned out after a day. It's also got slight motion blur when you move your head. Slightly annoying, but I don't notice it unless I look for it. While it's got no local dimming, colors look great - and I have never had an FOV that bothered me.
I went back to the Quest 3 last night playing red matter 2 standalone. The optics are absolutely flawless. The graphics are pretty decent when compared to PCVR, but this is pushing the device to it's limits, as I see frame drops here and there. This is the best we are gonna get from standalone, most games aren't updated to take advantage of it, and it could look soooooo much better via a native displayport connection on a high powered 4090/13900k pc.
All headsets have compromises, and I'm going to use the Aero for PCVR as I really like it. But the quest 3 compromise is self imposed: no native displayport because Meta wants you to buy standalone games from their store. I get it, but it pisses me off. At least make the pro model have a native pcvr option, because that isn't subsidized like the standard models. We have flawless optics at this point but can't use them with native pcvr because meta. That's what bothers me.
If the Quest 3 had native PCVR, I'd pay 2 to 3x it's cost. Which is essentially the original Quest Pro price range. The Aero is great, don't get me wrong - but it's hard to go back to any compromises in optics when you've seen perfect optics. For Meta, the quest pro was a financial flop (doesn't mean it's not an excellent headset.) For the quest pro 2, it makes business sense to add a native displayport for both the prosumer and business audience. Heck, most people use their Quest pro for PCVR anyway. This would allow a choice of wireless, or native and would immediately be the best native headset, assuming it's not extremely uncomfortable.
TLDR - the technology is there for flawless PCVR optics, but we can't use it to it's full capabilities.

I’ve been with my new nanny family since April now. MB and I agreed to a rotational schedule of 1 week on and 1 week off( 7:30am-7:30pm) tentatively. From the start she told me she was working on a contract and she would send it to me once her Lawyer completed it. It’s now been 1 month 1/2 that I’ve been working for her and we still have no contract. The last week of April she had to fly out of the country unexpectedly and asked me to go with her and I was given a 2 day notice. I did not end up going because my passport was expired. However, I also did not feel comfortable traveling with her out of the country without a contract set in place. Since I’m on salary, I still got payed the same amount for the week even though I only worked 4 days out of the 7. This past week I worked all week including Mother’s Day. MB asked if it was fine that I worked since my mother lives out of state. -_- I ended up leaving that day at 9:30pm. (I’ve notice on my very last day of the work week she purposely keeps me later than 7:30pm) anyways I was looking forward for my week off. My birthday is also on Friday so I was happy I had it off. So this week ( my off week ) she was trialing another nanny that would work when I’m off. She messaged me yesterday asking if we could talk about a new schedule with the new nanny and that she needs me to work Friday, Saturday , Sunday because she has no coverage for those days and her husband is out of town. I was immediately taken back bc this is supposedly my “off week”. And during my trial week she had me work a whole week! And new nanny just somehow manages to work 4 days and secures her job? I told her it was my birthday and I had plans so she said well I won’t make you work Friday but can you come Saturday and Sunday? And referred back to the days when she had to travel that I got payed saying I need to make those days up and would appreciate it if I made them up this weekend. Yet again giving me a 2 days notice and a guilt trip. She then messaged me again saying she now wants me to work straight through from May 18-31 because the other nanny had prior engagements and cannot start 1week on/ off schedule until end of June. Basically accommodating the new nanny’s schedule and sacrificing mine. I’m so upset about it and I’m resentful because I feel that I always go above & beyond when I’m caring for her children just for her to come back and disrespect my time like that. Any thoughts or advice would be greatly appreciated. Thank you!

So everyone here probably knows famous quote of Albert Camus "One must imagine Sisyphus happy." but recently I stumbled upon and interesting fable from 17th century Georgian author Sulkhan-Saba Orbeliani in his book "The Book of Wisdom and Lies". here's the fable:
"I passed through a valley where the climate was mild, and as I came to the end of it I saw a man descend the long slope of the hillside, heave a boulder on to his back, then climb the hill and set the stone rolling down; he did this several times. He panted and groaned all the way upward, and laughed gaily as he rolled the boulder downhill. I asked him: “Brother, why do you toil like this, and what makes you laugh?” He told me: “In this stone I behold both joy and sorrow. This one small thing is all that I possess, and yet my joys and sorrows are great; while many men have a thousand gold ingots and hoard them uselessly, knowing nothing of happiness or woe.” That pleased me greatly. With a few simple words he had drawn an excellent moral."
I think this perspective is very unique and interesting. I never stumbled upon take like this on Sisyphus. what do you think about it?

I’m 40 years old, I’ve been with my now wife for 12 years. We moved to Spain from the U.K. a couple of years ago. While here she made the realisation that’s she’s gay.
I spent the last 12 years supporting her through college and university. Paying the lions share of bills and rent. So she could chase her dream career (which still isn’t going great). I’ve never been mega career minded so was happy to support her and her talent. The plan was for us to buy a house with some money her parents had for us and I’d pay the mortgage. Now I have nothing, no money and honestly no hopes.
She has now moved back to the U.K. I am living in free accommodation provided by a family friend but who knows how long for. I don’t have any real friends here or anyone to really talk to. I don’t really earn enough money. I’m not legal here due to Brexit.
If I go back to the U.K. I can go back into a trade I left but hated and maybe make 40k, but I know that that’s not enough to live and save for a mortgage on. So it looks like I’ll be renting for life. But what happens when I’m too old to work????
I’m honestly at a huge wall. I feel like my life has completely fallen apart and I don’t know where to go or what to do. I can’t afford therapy. All the security I had has been ripped away and I’m genuinely terrified for my future. It just looks so bleak. I have to work forever, and then what?

Very happy that everything has calmed down with Kitten and her school. She has to deal with a one-week suspension from the Morning Run but everything else is cool. Oh well, we did a very early 5K in the Park. I'm at my internship waiting for things to start.
I had really been looking forward to meeting up with Benjamin, Jadzia, and Julian yesterday. But, huh?... I had built up a lot of things in my mind that were not true. I thought Benjamin coming over was going to be some type of audition for the Eliza Doolittle part next year. No, I learned, I already have it if I want it. I had imagined that Julian was coming to see whether I could hit that G5 in I Could Have Danced All Night. Julian: "What??? We know you can't! You would just sing an octave lower and 90% of the Cast B Eliza's that you would be coaching won't be able to hit it either." And why was Jadzia there? I was all wrong on that as well. Actually, the entire company wanted to come to hang out but no one else was staying in town on their break.
Yes, they were coming to see me but since there might be some big decisions to make I had I wanted Heidi there. Well, in fact, why not the entire Big Six? Kitten had her lesson with Arturo yesterday so we all met up afterwards and ordered from the Asian takeout place near the Goldsteins.
Most of the time was spent reminiscing. There was so much to talk and laugh about! Muma especially loved sharing her memories. They also caught us up on what happened on their tours of Florida and the Gulf Coast. We filled them in on the wedding in Scotland, our summer jobs, modeling, my internship at the agency, and my professional performing arts school.
Q (to Benjamin): What's happening with the Company next year?
We have grown much tighter as a company and just about everyone has already committed to returning for the second year. We learned a lot about how to improve the scheduling. Basically September will be prep and getting out the training videos, October-November is Leg 1. All of December is off. Jan-Feb is Leg 2. March is off. April-May is Leg 3. June-August is off for some, summer stock for others. The money will also be a bit better.
Based on the word-of-mouth reputation we have created, we have enough inquiries to fill all our residencies for the year. Yes, there will be some college and community theater groups. But most of the interest is coming from public and private secondary schools.
Q (to Benjamin): Any changes to the model?
Absolutely not. It worked! It's an arts education program, we are teaching artists, and we promote school reform. We know we have changed the lives of students, teachers, and institutions. We want to keep doing that.
Q (to me): How do I feel about the role of Eliza Doolittle?
Well, it is a dream role and I am very much more of an Eliza than a Black Nellie. I'm reading Pygmalian now and lots of background information on Wikipedia on Lady.
Q (to me): What about you? What have you discovered about yourself since you left the tour?
I learned a lot about who I am and also a lot about who I am not. I love my new school. I like learning independently more than sitting in a class. My advisor says I'm an autodidact. I love working on projects and tying my work to research. BTW, please tell Miles that after the summer I will be sitting for the Microsoft Office Excel competency test. I'm taking several CLEP tests for college credit, too. My school is supporting me with all of this and I see that this is a type of college experience I will want as well.
Q (to me): Will gains outweigh risks?
Benjamin: We know that rejoining the company would be like you going to a traveling boarding school for your entire junior year of high school. The kids of circus performer families used to be called 'artistes.' That's basically what you would be. We want you but we can find another teaching artist to do this role. In good conscience we will only take you on if this is what you really and want
You would have to weigh the gains of participating in our project against the sacrifice you, your family, and Heidi would make.
Heidi: Wait a second! No, the word "sacrifice" didn't apply to me when Lita was with the company. In fact, we grew stronger by being apart. And certainly "sacrifice" won't apply if Lita jumps on the tour again. We always knew that this is the type of future ahead of us.
Jadzia: Wow.
Q (to me): What have you learned about yourself professionally?
I used to imagine myself joining a modern dance company. But that, I can see, is not going to happen. It is not where my talent lies. I had worked very hard to audition for Disney but was not selected. I actually thank the heavens for the reject. I can't envision myself becoming another Zendaya. I loved the modeling work I did but can't picture myself doing it for 20 or 30 years. My agent dropped me because I'm not aggressive enough in auditioning.
Julian: Ouch!
Me: This week I started interning at the modeling agency. But what I find fascinating, is not the modeling, but the human behaviors I see. In the agency I see examples of excellence and professionalism. I will be writing about this for my final academic project.
Q (to me): How does all this apply to the work you might do with the company next year?
Looking back I see I enjoyed the teaching part of my work more than anything else. I made so many friends! My birthday was last month and I'm amazed how many people I met during the tour reached out to me. I liked how every residency each week presented new challenges that we had to respond to. Benjamin, I loved how you saw the problems with each residency as learning opportunities and helped us have focus and goals. There may not be a lot of money in being an educator, but I think my place in life might be as a teaching artist. I guess that Heidi will just have to be the big breadwinner for us.
Benjamin: You do know you have very unique talents when you work with students and even adults?
Me: Thank you.
I was in the fish bowl with people staring at me for about as long as I could take it. Kitten spotted what was happening and brought out her guitar. She started playing and singing the Sinatra songs from In the Wee Small Hours. Julian knew the music and asked whether he could play along with the piano. We had a lot of fun. From Kitten playing the album incessantly around two houses for about 2 weeks, the Fam could sing along a bit.
It's a very melancholy album and maybe that sets the tone for the bittersweet decisions we have to make in the days ahead.
I cry my heart out, it's bound to break / Since nothing matters, let it break / I ask the sun and the moon, the stars that shine / What's to become of it, this love of mine.

Hello Apes,
Here's another review of Roaring Kitty tweets, if you wanna check out previous days then links are below:
13th May
14th May
To reiterate, the description of each tweet is to the best of my knowledge the references made to allow you to make your own view in context and the speculation is pure speculation on my part, this is just for fun and shouldn't be taken as any financial advice, make your own decisions, I just like the stock. If you have anything to add feel free to in the comments and I'll do my best to update the post but given the amount of tweets now i don't have lots of time.
8:00am - https://x.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790713748866371690
Description: This is taken from the film Easy-A and shows Emma Stone walking through school catching a lot of attention looking fine and what was an A sticker in the original clip has been replaced with the Gamestop play logo. The song is Sexy Silk by Jessie J
Speculation: The stock is sexy, particularly among the younger people. What was Easy-A is now Easy-Gamestop. Looking really great in the black.
8.15am - https://x.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790717515523658119
Description: First we have a scene from the movie Prestige, with a Michael Caine voiceover about a magicians magic trick of making something disappear. The quote is "The magician takes the ordinary something and makes it do something extraordinary. Now you're looking for the secret... but you won't find it, because of course you're not really looking. You don't really want to know. You want to be fooled. But you wouldn't clap yet. Because making something disappear isn't enough; you have to bring it back." Meanwhile a person with a gamestop logo is being electrocuted to life a little frankenstein like and then a Gamestop logo bursts through an explosion. We then go to a fight scene with the song "back in the saddle again" by Aerosmith playing.
Speculation: The quote from the Prestige in full talks about the different parts of making something disappear. In full " Every great magic trick consists of three parts or acts. The first part is called "The Pledge". The magician shows you something ordinary: a deck of cards, a bird or a man. He shows you this object. Perhaps he asks you to inspect it to see if it is indeed real, unaltered, normal. But of course... it probably isn't. The second act is called "The Turn". The magician takes the ordinary something and makes it do something extraordinary. Now you're looking for the secret... but you won't find it, because of course you're not really looking. You don't really want to know. You want to be fooled. But you wouldn't clap yet. Because making something disappear isn't enough; you have to bring it back. That's why every magic trick has a third act, the hardest part, the part we call "The Prestige"." The Aerosmith song also has some interesting lyrics, "Ridin' into town alone by the light of the moon" "I'm ridin', I'm loadin' up my pistol, I'm ridin', I really got a fistful, I'm ridin', I'm shinin' up my saddle, I'm ridin', this snake is gonna rattle"
8.30am - https://twitter.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790721293089964126
Description: Not sure what film this is from but essentially we have a group of people looking for someone who is messing with them, they come across the infamous meme of death looking for Gamestop and then they track down Roaring Kitty alongside 893489 CHIMP located in Boston. We then get a message of Prep mode and arm ready for transport, hold pattern until further notice and a message again on a watch saying the same with a Gamestop logo
Speculation: WS looking for DFV and just coming across more memes, not really understanding it. As pointed out by many, 893489 is the hexcode for purple https://www.colorhexa.com/893489 which could be a direct reference to people DRSing. Final message suggests it's a hold until further notice, potentially a gamestop announcement who knows?
8.45am - https://x.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790725065585439065
Description: We have a scene from Ozark where the wife of the money laundering family is alone in her bedroom reflecting to the sound of The Daily Mail by Radiohead. Some Gamestop logos on the wall which i think replace a picture of her family in the original clip. More reflection.
Speculation: Not sure about this one other than the family in Ozark were right on the line of legality when it came to what they were doing, essentially they were money laundering and in the end it cost them their family. SHFs messing with Gamestop to the point of legality could be what costs them their family of investors?
9.00am - https://twitter.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790728848226521547
Description: This is a famous scene from Star Wars where Han Solo takes them through the asteroid field despite C3-PO's cry that the odds are so greatly stacked against them, approximately 3720-1 to be exact! "Never tell me the odds" says Hans Solo. The Song Come Along by Cosmo Sheldrake comes on as the ship navigates it's way through.
Speculation: This play is a high risk play as we all know but DFV doesn't care about the odds, so many people have told him how crazy he is but that doesn't stop him absolutely nailing it. The song has some interesting lyrics to pick a few, "Don't let moments pass along, And waste before your eyes", "We'll be here when the world slows down, And the sunbeams fade away, Keeping time by a pendulum, As the fabric starts to fray" Full lyrics here
9.15am - https://twitter.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790732615022195139
Description: This is taken from The Chappelle Show "when keeping it real goes wrong". In this sketch Kitty replaces a lot of the words to relate to him and the scene ends with Wu-Tang being brought up.
Speculation: Really i think this is just DFV having some fun with this sketch, replacing the woofs for meows, it brings up Wu-Tang as well which was a talking point way back in the NFT marketplace chat.
9.30am - https://x.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790736391124774975
Description: We have a clip of Moon Knight from Fortnite alongside the song Day and Night by Kid Cudi. This is the official fortnite music video.
Speculation: The Moon Knight in fortnite is considered a rare character. In fact the last time the Moon Knight was in the fortnite shop was Nov29, 2023. With that, it's a very valuable and sort after skin. Also worth noting about the Moon Knight, "For a quick run-down: Moon Knight is actually a former mercenary named Marc Spector. One day, when he's left for dead in the desert, the ancient Egyptian moon god Khonsu revives him. Along with a new lease on life, Khonsu gifts Marc with god-like powers to fight evil". Take from that what you will.
9.45am - https://twitter.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790740164848861227
Description: Not 100% sure on the cartoon being shown but the rap is Mr. Niceguy by Will Smith.
Speculation: I don't think DFV is liking the public dissing he is getting from various media outlets but really he doesn't care that much as he can just nail some memes he has lined up like this. If you want the full lyrics to the song, you can find it here
10am - https://twitter.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790743946764644659
Description: This is the epic reveal in fight club and DFV has replaced a lot of the words. In the original scene, if you haven't watched fight club, the main protagonist has put the pieces together to realise that he himself is actually the same person as the other protagonist in the film and it was him alone that accidentally setup a sort of movement against the financial elite. In this clip DFV plays off the two characters between DFV and Roaring Kitty.
Speculation: Roaring Kitty was the twitter handle and Youtube profile for Keith Gill where he would speculate on the stock because he just loved doing it. DFV was the reddit handle where he is associated to that other sub i can't mention here but you know where i mean. I think that DFV is saying that what started as a fun speculation of the stock became something bigger than himself with his other channel in DFV on reddit. Now the wheels have moved and in the film it ends with the financial institutions being blown up, perhaps something similar metaphorically is already in place right now. It's actually a great analogy from DFV about his situation.
10.15am - https://x.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790747714440892825
Description: This is the scene in Breaking Bad where Walter comes clean to his wife Skylar about all the money he has made selling meth. Skylar sees him for who he really is in this scene and really it's the beginning of when Walter begins to really lose himself. There is a funny insert of Methamphetameme and a mention of Caroline who i believe is his wife in real life.
Speculation: I think this is just DFV having some fun and giving an idea of how nuts it probably was for him to talk to his wife about everything that has happened/is happening. I know to us DFV seems like some sort of oracle but to many people he would just seem like some of stock bro who is nuts, even his wife.
10.30am - https://x.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790751492451754012
Description: This is from the oceans 11 film again where the gang are discussing about what they are and how they have come to be. DFV inserts "the Cohen crunch" as what everything could be called and also says "One could make the argument that because it was in fact Cohen joining the board that seemed to kick things off maybe it should be...". DFV then has a big reveal of the reddit user u/ avocado-in-my-anus.
Speculation: Is this all about Ryan Cohen? Is it about DFV? Is it about the Squeeze? Or is it about Avocado in my anus!? - If you follow to that reddit user you will see 3 posts, all on October 29th of each of the last 3 years, all saying Happy Cat Day posted to 3 different subreddits, "never tell me the odds", "next fucking level" and "woah dude". Why is october 29th so significant? See for yourself here
10.45am - https://twitter.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790755264733626879
Description: First we have a clip taken from CNBC where they say "is Roaring Kitty the one running this company?". It then cuts to a classic superbad scene of lots of dicks being drawn.
Speculation: I would imagine CNBC's angle here is that in their opinion Roaring Kitty is the one helping the stock so much with his influence that he might as well be running the company. Judging by the fact we go to a load of dicks after that I don't think DFV agrees with that opinion...
11am - https://x.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790759048985612468
Description: This is taken from The Avengers Endgame and it's where Peter Quill and Thor are told they should fight one another for the honour of the leadership of the Guardians of the Galaxy. They reply they don't want to go against each other and then there is a little humored ambigurity over who is in charge.
Speculation: This could be about DFV and RC. Not 100% which one is which but DFV is saying they are on the same side and respect each other in their view on what is best for Gamestop. DFV conceding he isn't in charge here and sort of plays into the last meme.
11.15am - https://x.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790762813868175516
Description: This is a scene taken from Love Actually and you will most likely recognize Rick from The Walking Dead. In the original clip he is filming his best friend (and it turns out he actually is in love with his best friends wife in this film). It then cuts to some memes of Ryan Cohen and a clip from his stream about updating thesis regularly.
Speculation: I think this is summed up pretty well by u/ starhammer4billion. "In 2021, DFV was mad, that R.C. did not push the button/do the buyback and told us clearly that he did not like R.C. anymore with this meme. Now in 2024, he rewinds that meme and tells us, that he thought that at the time in 2021, but that the investment thesis evolved over time and he now sees R.C. as a supermodel. So basically he saw what R.C. was doing in 2024, which he did not in 2021 and he likes R.C. again now. Probably because R.C. pushed the button and also did some plan with loopholes and stuff that DFV may not have thought about."
11.30am - https://x.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790766591526735887
Description: Here we have a clip from the music video Gossip Folks by Missy Elliot. Some of the lyrics have been replaced by Roaring Kitty. It tells the story of DFV and then there is a ton of emojis that read 😳💩😿🥜🐸🍦🤢👍👊💀🥸👀🤩⚡️🎮🚀🍄💥🍏🤨😵‍💫💜🫂👌🤝⛺️😼🎯👀🐶🇺🇸🎤👀🔥💥🍻
Speculation: DFV is saying this is going to go down again 3 years later after it all went down last time. The emojis i think tell the story so far too and maybe what's to come. I'll try my best to elaborate - it's really tinfoil but why not.

• DFV a bit embarrassed by how much it all took off originally, he was the focus of the world in Jan21 (embarrassed)
• All went to poo as GME dumped with the cheating tactics of the elite (poo)
• Sad kitty had to go to court and defend himself just because he was right and liked the stock. (sad kitty)
• Showed he had absolute nuts by doubling down on the stock again. (nuts)
• Papa RC posted frog and ice cream just around the time he was announced as chairman, the turnaround well and truly underway (frog and ice cream)
• Not sure about the sick emoji
• GME looking good again and making gains later into 21 (thumbs up and fist pump)
• DFV gets killed off from communicating and stock tanks, bear thesis in full swing about GME (skull)
• DD research is in full swing over what's happening to the stock and DFV is looking at it like oi oi (invetigating and eyes)
• DD gets everyone focused again and loving the stock, GME, power to the players and convinced it's going to do great again (star eyes, lightning, game, rocket)
• GME grows in the dark without revealing it's plan for transformation (mushroom)
• GME runs big end of 2022, all anticipation about NFT marketplace etc etc (boom)
• RC buying into apple and people wondering about some sort of partnership (apple)
• Turns out nothing like that happening as people wait for announcements (straight face)
• NFT marketplace is a disaster and not what people were hoping for (dizzy face)
• People start DRSing (purple heart)
• Love in the community is in full flow again as post after post about DRSing shares (hug)
• Everything is ok and all agreed on the DD and DRSing, happy to wait it out (ok and handshake)
• Not sure about tent.
• DFV comes back (kitty)
• Sees an opportunity to target the shorts again (target)
• Looks to Ryan Cohen, former owner of chewy to make a move (eye emoji in original looks to the right, dog emoji)
• Big announcement (microphone)
• US market sees this and burns to the ground (US flag and fire)
• Squeeze happens (boom)
• Cheers everybody (beers)

11.45am - https://twitter.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790770363627921776
Description: We have a pizza being cut in too more and more slices and dubbed onto the pizza are reddit awards along with DFV's last position update post.
Speculation: The amount of awards that were constantly being given to this post got so out of hand i can't even think how many notifications and reddit coins DFV must have got back in the day. Definitely a joke on DFV's part and just a reminder to how funny it was the amount of awards he was getting.
12pm - https://x.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790774146994966570
Description: This clip is taken from Spiderman i think the one where Spiderman goes dark but i can't remember exactly. The music is The Black Swan taken from Swan lake and it cuts to the movie of Swan Lake with Natalie Portman as the Black Swan and Kitty being dubbed on her face as she transforms.
Speculation: Black swan events are defined as "A black swan is an unpredictable event that is beyond what is normally expected from a situation and that has potentially severe consequences". When GME does squeeze, it's going to have severe and brutal consequences for the market.
12:15pm - https://x.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790777913245421806
Description: First we have Snoop Dogg in his music video for Gin and Juice talking about drama in the GME then we cut to Scarlet Envy saying "is it me, am i the drama", "am i the villain?"
Speculation: Just DFV having fun with all the drama that is being caused through GME, through his memes and everything in a fun light hearted DFV meme of way.
12:30pm - https://x.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790781688848450012
Description: The first clip is taken from Oceans 12 where Ryan is bring the gang back together for an even bigger heist of casinos. Then we have part of the heist where he is stuck waiting in the dining cabinet and cannot escape until they let him out, then we cut to 2 people talking, "waiting", "for what?", "for this". Finally we cut to Batman, i think in the Dark Knight where the Joker is in the hospital and plans to blow it up.
Speculation: Bigger squeeze than last time, band back together, GME holders for the last 3 years could be like the guy in the box just let out in time by DFV, we say "where the fck you been?", he has been waiting, waiting for this.
12.45pm - https://twitter.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790785463118348420
Description: This is taken from The Dark Knight rises where Bane states "it doesn't matter who we are, what matters is our plan", "no one cared who i was until I put on the mask", "was getting caught part of your plan?" "of course"
Speculation: This is taken online about Bane in this movie, "Everything that Bane did was never for himself, not really, we find out his real loyalty later and I think that is a big reason why he said who he is wasn’t important. He wasn’t there to impress the masses, he was there to execute a plan, to be the playmaker for a person he cared for. He wasn’t one who liked distractions and the concern over who he was, I took it as he saw as unimportant to what the plan was itself" DFV doesn't matter, the whole thing is bigger than him now, similar to the fight club tweet reference.
1pm - https://twitter.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790789242513433071
Description: This clip is the big reveal in The Usual Suspects. BIG SPOILER HERE TO THE FILM - The police chief realizes in the film that he has just been completely done by the person who actually committed the crime and he was right there all along in the station . In this clip the drawn sketch of the suspect is replaced with the 'ill do it again' meme.
Speculation: The mug has roaring kitty on it so I wonder if this really is DFV noticing a similar pattern to what is happening with the stock as to what happened before and has made that realization that it's time to come back and this is all on again. HF's digging the same hole for themselves.
1.15pm - https://x.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790793012936851665
Description: This is a clip showing Keith Gill and a narrator saying that investors were looking for someone to blame for losing big on Gamestop. Then it cuts to "shut up bitch" from The Rock in WWF.
Speculation: This is a lol meme and basically DFV saying people invest themselves it's not his problem. People did try to sue him if i remember so it's a bit of a fuck you to them.
1:30pm - https://x.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790796790360363016
Description: This is taken from Seinfeld and is about how George goes so far just to zing a guy. DFV replaces some words and makes this about the previous tweet, some more fun on his part.
Speculation: The episode i believe this takes place is called "The Money" and the episode in which George actually flies out is called "The Comeback", jokes aside that's some interesting references...
1:45pm - https://twitter.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790800562654691686
Description: This is taken from the Saturday Night Live sketch 'old friend'. It's about two old friends reconnecting, DFV expertly chooses this and only has to change the last name of the Keith in the sketch.
Speculation: Everyone thinks DFV is nuts, i mean the guy is posting a lot of memes and taking away my work mornings trying to understand them. Maybe he just loves memes, who knows?
2pm - https://twitter.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790804340673789978
Description: This is a video of beat saber to the song freaks by timmy trumpet and savage. "The bass and the tweeters make the speakers go to war", "the mighty trumpet brings the freaks out to the floor", "where the freaks at?". Big tune and then the vibing cat makes an appearance.
Speculation: Hard to say much about this other than it's a fun song and makes you vibe just like the cat. People are coming to twitter to see his memes and we are all vibing out off of it.
2.15pm - https://x.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790808112741630320
Description: Shows a man being followed around by a man in a suit with a red right hand. I'm not sure what this is taken from but the song is definitely Red Right Hand by Nick Cave and the Bad seeds. For me personally this song is most associated with The Peeky Blinders.
Speculation: The man could be anyone short on GME and the man following him making him scared could be DFV or whatever else is going to pound on those shorts. If you want the lyrics to the song then you can find them here
2.31pm - https://x.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790812277530034448
Description: Shows a bear on a pink recliner with a kitty sneaking in the background.
Speculation: This was a direct response to a Jim Cramer tweet who was essentially poking fun at DFV by saying he should make more memes as it's not working on helping GME. Worth noting that this doesn't look like a scheduled tweet and was probably not planned.
2:45pm - https://x.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790815662203617755
Description: Shows Jim Carrey not 100% which movie it is though i recognize it with a red graph overlayed showing the stock price going down. His smile deteriorates but he seems to have some sort of demented plan in a weird way.
Speculation: Stock might be going down and that might initially take the smile off but the creepy smile at the end shows that it doesn't really matter in the grand scheme of things, they are going to get it by the end.
3:00pm - https://x.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790819440617033914
Description: This is taken from the Truman show where Jim Carrey plays a character who's whole life is a television show for everyone else to watch. He is unaware of this but starts to become more aware as the film goes on. This particular clip is where he is trying to get to the edge of the world to see behind the curtain and the director is trying to stop him with lightning strikes and storms and whatever else he can throw.
Speculation: They are doing everything they can to keep a lid on GME. Firing as many shots as they can but it's not working. Is this the best they have?
3.15pm - https://x.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790823211745063394
Description: This is a clip from Dunkey's best games of 2017 and here we see a game where it's just boss fight after boss fight and is really fun.
Speculation: This is a game for us, they can hammer down the stock and do what they want but GME holders just keep buying more and moving to the next level
3.30pm - https://x.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790826988019528035
Description: This is taken from Tenet and is about inverted bullets. It talks about being able to drop bullets and bring bullets back up and move bullets without touching them.
Speculation: I certainly don't understand even a little of what is going on with the stock, but you can still have a feel for what is happening with the stock and it feels good right now even with the dip. Could be something to do with inverse hedging but don't know enough about that to speculate.
3.45pm - https://x.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790830761542664192
Description: Firstly we have the Matrix where Neo is about to fight Morpheus and then we have Alice in Wonderland with Alice going down into the rabbit hole. (The rabbit hole is mentioned in the Matrix too when Neo is given the pill option).
Speculation: The scene where Neo fights Morpheus is really the first time we start to see Neo believe in his ability to be the chosen one but also understand the power being able to beat the matrix. With the Alice in Wonderland it's about seeing how far the rabbit hole goes, things will get more crazy for sure and we are going to find out just how deep this goes.
4:00pm - https://x.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790834536403574936
Description: Here we have the music video for Karma police by Radiohead. A man is running from a car at a hobble speed and then stops turns around and there is a trail of fuel heading towards the car that has stopped. He pulls out a box of matches from his back pocket and is just before to set the car alight by dropping a lit match on the fuel.
Speculation: Another Radiohead song, you can find the full lyrics here but to pick a line out "this is what you get when you mess with us". Whilst being slowly chased down, there is going to be a flip reverse based on the trail left by the shorts only to blow it all up.
8:00pm - https://twitter.com/TheRoaringKitty/status/1790894938277695671
Description: This is taken from the Shawshank redemption where the main protagonist has escaped from the prison after being wrongly imprisoned for many years. DFV has changed some of the narrators (Red) words in showcase his story of being wrongly accused in 2021 and having the flee out of the spotlight. He talks about pressure and time, he presents a lot of memes he has created over the years and then shows a particular screenshot of one of his streams.
Speculation: This tells DFVs story but also has some juicy parts. I think Red in this is a bit like the reddit crew (us) keeping tabs on his story but DFV is saying to escape like him it takes pressure and time (could be gamma squeeze, could be LEAPS, could be DRS, could be holding and buying, could be ALL of it) but all it takes is time and pressure. The memes he posted i wonder if some of those have found their way into various subs over the last 3 years without any of us knowing it came from DFV. The steam he screenshot has been spoken about a lot this morning but it seems to come from one of his youtube streams when GME last broke $30.
Hope you enjoyed these takes.
Love ya DFV

Original post https://www.reddit.com/stepparents/s/01TiWXwap1
Update So my hubby gave HCBM a bunch of dates that he would be available for the joint party, of course HCBM fought against any of the options. (No reason, she just wants it to happen on her weekend, even though the other joint party happened on her weekend too)
So he ended the back & forth by saying he would work it out with daughter tonight, as the day that everyone is available is 2 weeks after her birthday, so if she didn’t mind waiting, we could do it then. As we were under the impression by her mother that she wanted it.
And guess what??? SD doesn’t even WANT a joint party. She wants 2 parties
If she really cared about having a whole huge party with everyone there she would be happy to wait right?
This is all just a big dramatic attention seeking power struggle by that idiot woman.
Anyway, couldn’t be happier with the outcome. Loving SD’s state of mind and her intelligence that she has 2 families so she gets 2 parties. Common sense. Hopefully she can pass some on to her mother.

I’ve had a crush on this guy 3 years ago. I liked him for a year, and then i ghosted him for 2 years, never spoke to him and totally forgot about him,but we still snapped. We snap there and now but he is very dry. I’ve tried sending full face pics but I just end up getting a wall. Recently I wished him a happy birthday, he hearted my message and said thank you. Sometimes I send him a snap, then he will respond and i will reply back and then i’m left on delivered for 20 hours. Our streak is usually lost by him. Btw to mention he is really shy and like dry. Anyways he’s had like the biggest glow up, and we were put in the same class for role class this year. I’ve tried to talk to him but i’m also really shy so it took a lot of courage. I showed him a picture of him of when we were friends, he kind of smirked and laughed and that was about it. Keep in mind he is really shy. I want to start talking again but I don’t know how to, like if i talk to him in real life it’s just weird because we don’t have any classes together and him and i are both really awkward and it’s so out of nowhere, same with texting like it’s just so out of the blue and i’m worried about his friends asking me about why i texted him. i really don’t know what to do.

For some context, my fiancé (m30) and I ( f25) have been together for almost two years. He and I have been through some tough trauma together and are trying to work through it either together or separately with our own therapists. Communication has been a struggle for us but we’ve still continued to try and have been getting better at it. Here is the issue though. Yesterday I had an extremely tough day at work. I was promised a promotion if I hit certain number and I did. So my manager told me that I was getting it. After talking with the owner, it seems like my manager never said anything to her and that I wouldn’t be getting it. I’ve also had a lot going on with my family and it seems like everything just came to a head yesterday and I had a panic attack. I immediately felt bad because it was my fiancés birthday and this was not what I had planned. In response to my own distress he was triggered because it felt a lot like situations with his family growing up where they didn’t care about his birthday. He then left me after I took my medication to stop my panic attack and went to be with his cats ( they seems to provide him some comfort when he’s struggle with tough feelings) Later that night I tried to talk to him about what was bothering me and apologize for ruining his birthday. I wasn’t meet with hostility but he wasn’t happy that’s for sure and I understand that. It was his birthday and I felt extremely guilty for not being able to get a hold of my emotions. We did later talk but when I tried to bring up things that were bothering me it was met with “ well I feel the same way because …” this isn’t the first time he’s responded this way. In fact it feels like every time we have a conversation about us or stressful topics it immediately turns into what is stressful for him and how I’m not meeting his needs someway. But when I try to listen and implement some of the things he asks of me it never seems like enough. For example, he never feels like anyone has really taken an interest in what he likes in past relationships so I’ve really tried to but last night he said it wasn’t enough and that any time we do something I need to ask him if this is what he wants. I’m all for trying to accommodate and meet his needs better as I love him more than anything but I don’t know how to tell him that sometimes I just want a conversation about my needs and how I feel.

I don't have the worst life. I have a loving stable family life and quite some friends. These people make my life happy, yet why are they the same people who make me want to kms.
Maybe I sound like any other teen that has yet to face many hardships who is complaining about things she prolly shouldn't even be complaining about when people faced harder- maybe cause I am. Hi, I'm a 16F person who doesn't know what she is doing anymore.
I love my family, and they love me too, and that love comes with the cost of me being a good daughter. That's a normal thing- but I'm a human who still feels pressured about their high expectations in me, especially in grades. My grandma recently declined, and same school quarter as that, my grades dropped quite drastically from an average of 90+ to an average of 85. Guess what they felt about that? Ofc they were disappointed. And to top off my issue with my parents, we barely talk especially now that I'm living in a boarding house away from them- and when we call it's always short. Maybe it's my fault for not contacting them. But you know what? I'm jealous of my boardmates who have parents that call them daily... Also.... They're doubtful of the course I want to take....
I love my friends too, not as much as my family, but I suppose they are my support group when my family isn't around here in my new school.... Ya know what I'm tired of typing rn. I already cried while I typed a long apology to a friend of mine earlier and I don't wanna think more of the drama that is making me rant here in reddit... Maybe I'm just an overly sensitive teen....
I don't wanna share my personal feelings much because I always feel that it would just cause issue with the people around me. So I would just rant to strangers. That's an issue that's been pointed out to me.... Why is living life difficult?
I wish I could join my Lola so I no longer have worries like her.... But I can't...

Hello, I'm not big on writing my personal stuff on the Internet but here I am writing it out of pure pain and inability to see a bigger picture.
So just about 2 months ago she broke up with me on my 30th birthday. It was a shock, and the most devastating emotional, psychological experience I ever had. Because what happened was that we were together for the weekend of my birthday, and she bought me a nice present and wrote a heartfelt love letter, saying how wonderful I am and how she loves me forever, how she loves me the most. How she could spend the eternity exploring the amazing universe that my mind is. She woke up before me on the birthday and gave me the present and the letter. And then that same day, that afternoon she told me it's over, and how she thinks that she will regret breaking up for the rest of her life.
Our relationship lasted for about a year. It was very intense and emotionally charged relationship. And during the relationship she made me feel safe. Saying things like: she is my home, my safe place. Saying that I'm the only man for her and that I am somebody who will forever be in her life. Talking about how she sees herself having kids with me. How she loves me unconditionally.
She has seen all of my flaws, and believe me I have them. From my insecurities, abandonment issues, trust issues to a certain degree also. But I am aware of those issues and I am going to therapy, and I do work on them as best as I can. Sometimes I fuck up and let myself react out of emotion, which I know I shouldn't do , but I've never learned those things as a child or young adult, I'm learning it now. The way she ended it out of nowhere, one moment everything is okay and she loves me the most, the next moment is over really fucked with my head and made me put all the blame on myself. She basically decided for me and her that it's over. Now looking back I can see how she was probably preparing to end it a month prior.
But if she was thinking about ending it, why didn't she communicate her unhappiness, feelings she had, thoughts she had with me? Why knowing you wanted to break up, would you come for my birthday and tell me you love me the most and forever?
We did have an open communication, well looking back we had open communication when I was in a better place and was pushing for conversations. In the month before she broke up , I was in a bad place mentally and putting a lot of pressure on myself, being unhappy with the way my life is going, and 30th birthday approaching.
Uh I don't know if any of this makes sense, and I just scratch the surface here , didn't paint a full picture. But I love her, and I feel like my heart and soul were ripped out of my body. Can't stop thinking about her.
She insisted on no contact after the break up. But I'm having a real hard time with it. I've sent a couple of messages saying how sorry I am for lack of emotional maturity on my part and how I love her, and how I can see everything. She just left me on read. No response. My brain is telling me to keep sending her messages explaining my faults and how I never wanted to intentionally hurt her. How I understand her and her past traumas. How she tends to stonewall and how I'm willing to work on it with her. In hopes we can be together and work through the issues. Maybe I'm just delusional or falsely hopefull. Maybe it's the fact that she made me feel like I can put all my walls down and be fully vulnerable with her, and allow myself to love her. And attach myself this much.

Name: Isla Jones
Age: 28
Profession: Counselling psychologist/ writer
Interests: Travelling, Reading, Movie Watching, Dancing, Singing
Location: Brisbane
Bio: Here to help people become their best version
I often preach about the importance of being on good terms with oneself—listening to our thoughts, tuning into our bodies, feeling our rhythm. But here's the irony: I rarely practise what I preach. My schedule was packed tight for a year with no breaks, burning through my mental well-being. I realised I needed to draw a line between my personal and professional life. Around my birthday last year, I decided to make my goal a reality. Vivid Sydney was just around the corner and I wasted no time and booked one of the amazing Vivid Sydney cruises right away. With my impulsive decision and the seats selling out quickly, it soon became clear that I would be enjoying some quality alone time.
I was born in the beautiful Australian state of Tasmania. My birthday in early June is a time I fondly recall, sitting by the fireplace, devouring my mom's delicious Beef Wellington, while the cold wind gently tapped on our creaky glass windowpane near my favourite chair. My dad always surprises me with a birthday gift that brightens my day! I'll never forget when he got me a brand-new iPod for my 10th birthday—it was the best gift ever. He knew how much I loved listening to music (and let's just say, my playlist was dominated by the Spice Girls). After I hit my teens, I had to move to Brisbane for my college and my life has pretty much been glued to the city ever since. Eventually, birthdays started to feel so little and hazy as time moved on. I was busy with my work and my friends. The warm crisp of my mom’s Beef Wellington and my father’s giggle as I tore open my birthday present seemed to be so far away. And for once, I wanted it so badly to break away from my usual routine and be the curious little kid I’ve always been. I’ve never been on Vivid Sydney cruises and I’ve always heard how pretty Sydney transforms to be with all the lights and colours. Stepping onto that cruise, I felt that familiar rush of excitement and joy, reminiscent of the thrill I experienced when my dad gifted me the iPod.
Many people dream of the perfect date, where their hearts bloom with flowers and butterflies dance in their bellies. Every woman secretly longs for such a magical experience. However, in reality, only a fortunate few of us get the chance to live out this dream that so many desire. But isn’t it unfair when we condition ourselves to believe that a truly beautiful date needs somebody else to happen? Why should we rob ourselves of the chance to be truly happy at least for a day? The Vivid Sydney cruise gave me a wonderful opportunity to have the perfect date; with myself. I was able to hold myself close and talk to the inner child within me. I showed her all the beautiful sights that Vivid Sydney had to offer.

I might go into a bit of a rant , but I really need an outsiders opinion on my situation.
For a bit of a background I 21F have been going no contact for almost 2 years with my mother 40F.
Here’s some backstory,
My mother had me quite young, 19 and would later bring up to me how she had a VERY rough childhood and how poorly her parents treated her and her issues with SA at a young age. She never left home and lived rent free UNTILL this day my grandmother had a stroke and my mother took care of her for 1-2 years as her primary caregiver but afterwards my grandfather was the primary caregiver and my mother no longer helped. She claimed to not leave the house because “they needed her” when infact she didn’t provide anything that they “needed” she didn’t pay rent she didn’t help take care she was more of a roommate so to say.
I looked up to my mother very much as a child admired her achievements she was getting promoted at work and travelling to different places for work. When I was 13 she had lied to our family about going on “work trips” when in reality she was hooking up with a very wealthy co-worker . She ended up getting pregnant and lying to my dad and me and my sister saying that she had to go on work trips while she was visiting this rich man and going to baby appointments. She told my dad she cheated on him 1 month before she gave birth and me and my sister 1 week before. Now I should mention I saw my family as a near perfect family everything was very good.My dad forgave her and accepted this new baby like his own child.
My mom lied to her baby daddy (the rich guy) and said that my dad had left her, my sister and I and that my mom lives all by herself in her own home and has no job. This being the opposite of what’s being true. The man agreed to pay her to be a stay at home mom and pay all her “bills” my dad paid all the bills and they she lived rent and bill free. She would go to see the rich man for a 2-3 weeks at a time in a different city than come back to the house me and my sister and dad lived in with our grandparents for 1-2 weeks than repeat the cycle.
She ended up cheating on my dad again a year later with the rich man after promising they had nothing going on to me and my dad. I would beg her not to sleep in the same bed as the man when she would take the kids over to his house. As a 13 year old child.
She truly lived a double life. I never knew when she would come back and I was left to do all her motherly stay at home mom duties and raise me and my sister because my dad worked so many long days and nights.
Our relationship never got better and she expected me to help her out with the new children. She ended up cutting ties with the rich dude and would bring the kids to his house on weekends but return home always.
I had alot of personal trauma involving SA at the age of 14 and a lot of mental health challenges.
She tried to kick me out at 15 and when brining this up to a councillor they almost got me taken from the home. I was in and out of mental wards and picked up a drinking addiction from a young age because of the SA and how the treatment from my mom was.
She decided to take my debit card while I was in a mental hospital and spend 120$ on food for herself. When I came home she let the children break 300$ worth of my makeup and make the most disgusting comments.
She made me miss days of my school so I could watch my youngest sibling while she took my other sibling to school. I fed, washed and the youngest child even needed me to hold his hand while I put him to bed. She expected me to be another parent I even attended every single doctors appointment for the children she had with the rich guy when their own father never attended it was me who did.
There was a time where the baby daddy had cut off her money and she refused to get a job so I ended up paying for dinners gas coffee runs, outings and my younger siblings whole 5th birthday party.
This whole time she would taunt me when I was sad she would get almost excited to see me super sad one time I had overdosed and she kicked my limp body to see if I was dead. Terrible things.
No matter how helpful how supportive I was through her custody battle how much money I spent as a young girl to I was about 17 doing all these things btw, she never showed love to me she threatened to kick me out if I didn’t get a job but I did make very decent money doing online things for money I won’t disclose but it was nothing sexual.
I did whatever she wanted because I was so desperately looking to be loved and wanted.
I finally had enough of her toxic abuse and always blaming me for everything using me as the escape goat and threating that I would be on the streets so I moved out at 19 with nothing but a mattress and a fan no help from my parents at all.
3 months into moving out my grandmother had sadly passed away. My mother invited a women who no one in our family has ever meet before to my grandmas open casket. She was already bringing a friend for support but felt the need to bring a women she’d only known for 2 weeks. I told her how uncomfortable I would be sitting next to a women I never met since this was a private family matter and no outside people that didn’t know my grandma would be coming. She picked bringing this women over my feelings I was heartbroken and sad about my grandma and no one supported me. My dad later on told me if I had a problem with my mom brining the friend I wasn’t allowed to go. After this I cut all ties with my mom and whole family.
A year after I cut all ties and no communication my mother randomly showed up at my doorstep with my two younger siblings both under 8. Saying they wanted to play at the park with me . I hung out with them at the park because I didn’t want this to be a bad memory for them and it’s not the childrens fault. This went awful my sister saying “how many birthdays have you missed now” obviously a line fed to her by my mother. Since she’s to young to come to that conclusion.
I recently after almost 2 years got back in contact with my dad and he’s really wanting me to have communication with my biological sister but I really don’t want a relationship with anyone but my dad and my two younger siblings.
So the question is what should I do my mom is a very toxic person but apart of me just wants a mom and wants to feel loved and wanted by a mom but I don’t think she can do that I’m just so confused and need help. And I’m not interested in a relationship with my sister but my dad really wants one and I have a really goood relationship with him now and don’t wanna make him sad.
If you read this whole thing thank you so much

I am very much a lurker in this community. I feel passionate enough about the Dr K. convo and all the things that have transpired since then to speak up.
I can base a lot of what I'm saying on a possible assumption but, I'm going to say what I have to anyways despite not having clear evidence of it. Be mad, idc.
Self Sacrifice Schema
I watched the interaction between Steve and Dr. K through the youtube video and everything I heard Steven express struggling with, I expressed to my own therapist only a few months ago.
I started medicating for ADHD a year ago and I can now operate on a much higher emotional intelligence then I've ever been capable of. And it hit me like a bag of fucking bricks.
I learned that, through whatever past traumas I have, I felt like I couldn't disappoint people, even when it was a detriment to myself. I would do the most for others while I didn't allow anyone to do anything for me. And at times people take advantage of that. I hate when people compliment me or thank me because in my mind it was my responsibility and not something to be commended for. I can't even stand when people sing "Happy Birthday" on my fucking birthday.
That shit gets taken advantage of. And I don't blame the other party entirely because I understand that I set up the relationship dynamics that contribute to it. My lack of boundary setting was an opportunity for others.
However, whenever I felt slighted enough I am very capable of going scorched earth. Doing the most piece of shit things feeling like someone has awarded me the opportunity and I am very capable of doing that. And it was always when things went way beyond a boundary I should've actually set. And I was made to feel bad for this capability of going scorched earth better than most people and I made myself feel bad.
What's worse however is curbing yourself so much knowing how fucked up you can be that you do nothing and allow people to step all over you.
I've seen plenty of posts here of people asking why Steve shows so much grace to people when they don't deserve it. I think the Dr. K talk explains all of that exactly.
Boundary Setting
Since I've acknowledged my own issues I've set so many boundaries. With my immediately family, my wife, my ex-wife, my children. And that shit is hard. As well, due to a misunderstanding of boundary setting based on not setting correct boundaries in the past, the pendulum had to swing in the complete opposite direction in order to figure out what I should be doing. I became extremely restrictive on my boundary setting with other people.
And due to the dynamics I set up by being extremely graceful it was very difficult for every other party involved. And when they retaliated I had no choice but to stand my ground to get them to understand the dynamics have changed. If it meant being a piece of shit so fucking be it. For my own mental health I was changing the dynamic of relationships with others
In the past couple months we've seen Steve cut the bullshit people he showed more than enough grace to. He split from someone who stepped all over the established boundaries she agreed to. He was as graceful as possible even in those instances.
Opticsmaxxing/Going to far
About a month ago things have finally began to normalize with the people around me. I am a lot more content with myself and have so much more conviction in my approach to others. For the most part it means that my relationships with people who matter have matured and gotten better. But it also means that people who want to fuck around with me are more likely to find out a lot sooner then I would've in the past. And I am not fucking nice.
I struggled at first with this conviction of being straight vile to people who thought I could be fucked with. Thought I was a bad person for it. I realize that I've always done this to myself. I've always been this way and hated myself for it. I now hate that I ever hated myself for it.
I've always been capable of going scorched earth with people. Anytime in my life I've been brought to that point it was either always justified or I dialed my actions back enough knowing that I was taking things to far. When it was justified it was a benefit to others or myself. When I dialed it back it showed maturity, empathy, and understanding. I've today come to terms with that side of me and not longer make myself feel bad for it.
Steve has shown that hes tired of a lot of shit and, fuck it, its time to scorch the fucking earth.
Retaliation
Here's where things get personal for me and why I feel motivated to even post this as a lurker.
Trigger warning: I'm going to probably piss some people off.

1. This has been actually cathartic for me. So i appreciate if it even stays up and if you read through it
   
2. You fucking opticmaxxers in here need to stand the fuck down and eat some fucking shit
   

What I feel like I am witnessing is someone choosing to lean into who they are and always have been. Curbing themselves thinking they were suppose to due to these fucking societal norms of fucking "be nice"
Eat shit and die (in minecraft). The man has shown enough good will and has proven that even in these moments of retaliation he's capable of managing even through the lense of optics. To hear people complain about what hes doing knowing that hes done enough to prove that he knows what hes doing is fucking annoying. Let the man scorch the fucking earth. Its earned. Its deserved. These people in this clique have consistently had his name in their mouth with him showing more grace than any of them showed him.
Scorch the fucking earth
Tldr: Opticsmaxxers need to eat shit and die (in minecraft)

Hi TwoXIndia! I posted this in another subreddit but I think I’d also get good advice here, hence two posts.
I’m in a situation where I’m not sure if I did the right thing.
My grandmother died a few years ago and a lot of her things (clothes, accessories, etc) were being cleaned out over the span of a few years. Yesterday, my mother did the final cleaning and I spotted a pair of earrings that I wore once a few years ago that were my grandmothers. I specifically asked my mother to keep them as I liked them and I had no other thing of my grandmothers for a memory.
Her death was really traumatic for me and I still haven’t really made my peace with it. I also specifically kept telling my mom that I wanted them.
Now, my mom has a habit of throwing a lot of things that belong to me under the pretense of cleaning. She’s thrown a lot of my birthday cards that I received as well as other gifts. An hour ago, I asked her where my earrings were and she said she gave it to the house help along with a few accessories and things.
I got really angry and told her that I asked her not to and that I wanted to keep them because I liked them and I told her I wanted them back. She called the woman to come back to our house and she gave me the earrings I wanted.
Now, my older sister is telling me that it was very mean and insensitive of me to call her back and take my earrings, that she’s poor and was probably very happy to receive the things. This is where I’m confused. AITA here?
I just don’t have anything of my grandmothers’ and I thought that there’s nothing wrong in taking them back? I wouldn’t take anything from her if there wasn’t the emotional attachment part. Please give me your honest opinions and don’t sugar coat it please. Thank you!