Memorial day luggage sale

Continuing my creative journey experimenting with Rosary and chaplet what-ifs, after posting a couple months ago about using clauses and readings with the Rosary and on Monday a Rosary with a different mystery set for every day of the week, I figured that many Reformed in the Episcopal Church who are uncomfortable with Marian devotions might want a Rosary-like chaplet that doesn't have Marian prayers, so I adapted Monday's post to Jesus-centric prayers: The Jesus Prayer, the Fatima Prayer, or any Jesus prayer you want. This could also be adapted to the traditional Rosary schedule.
Please give notes and advice if you have any! 😁
Introduction

CRUCIFIX — In nomine Patris. - Then: Apostolic Creed.
MEDAL — Pater Noster, with the doxology.
BEADS — Jesus Prayer: Lord Jesus, Son of God, [clause,] have mercy on me a sinner. Amen. - Or Fatima Prayer: O my Jesus, [clause,] forgive us our sins, save us from the fires of hell, and lead all souls to Heaven, especially those most in need of Thy mercy. Amen.
MEDAL — Gloria Patri.

Mysteries

MEDAL — Reading. - Then: Pater Noster, without the doxology.
DECADE — Jesus Prayer or Fatima Prayer, with the clause.
LAST BEAD — Gloria Patri, after the Jesus Prayer or Fatima Prayer.

Conclusion
FINAL MEDAL — The Beatitudes (Matthew 5:1-12): And seeing the multitudes, he went up into a mountain: and when he was set, his disciples came unto him: And he opened his mouth, and taught them, saying, Blessed are the poor in spirit: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. Blessed are they that mourn: for they shall be comforted. Blessed are the meek: for they shall inherit the earth. Blessed are they which do hunger and thirst after righteousness: for they shall be filled. Blessed are the merciful: for they shall obtain mercy. Blessed are the pure in heart: for they shall see God. Blessed are the peacemakers: for they shall be called the children of God. Blessed are they which are persecuted for righteousness’ sake: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. Blessed are ye, when men shall revile you, and persecute you, and shall say all manner of evil against you falsely, for my sake. Rejoice, and be exceeding glad: for great is your reward in heaven: for so persecuted they the prophets which were before you. Amen.
The Joyful Mysteries (Monday)

Introductory Beads … who increases our faith…
… who strengthens our hope…
… who perfects our charity…
The Annunciation Reading: Luke 1:26-38
Clause: … whom thy Holy Mother didst conceive of the Holy Ghost…
The Visitation Reading: Luke 1:39-55
Clause: … whom thy Holy Mother didst carry with Elizabeth…
The Nativity Reading: Luke 2:4-20
Clause: … whom thy Holy Mother didst bear at Bethlehem…
The Presentation Reading: Luke 2:21-32
Clause: … whom thy Holy Mother didst present in the Temple…
The Finding Reading: Luke 2:41-52
Clause: … whom thy Holy Mother didst find in the Temple…

The Healthful Mysteries (Tuesday)

Introductory Beads … who increases our faith…
… who strengthens our hope…
… who perfects our charity…
The Ministry of Healing
Reading: Luke 4:38-44
Clause: … who ministered unto the sick...
The Healed Servant
Reading: Luke 7:1-10
Clause: … who healed the centurion’s servant...
The Healed Daughter
Reading: Luke 8:40-56
Clause: … who healed the rabbi’s daughter...
The Healed Woman
Reading: Luke 13:10-17
Clause: … who healed the woman on the sabbath...
The Healed Lepers
Reading: Luke 17:11-19
Clause: … who healed the outcast lepers...

The Luminous Mysteries (Wednesday)

Introductory Beads … who guides our thoughts…
… who commands our words…
… who governs our actions…
The Baptism Reading: John 1:29-34
Clause: … who was baptized in the River Jordan for our sins...
The Wedding Reading: John 2:1-11
Clause: … who manifested His divine glory in Cana...
The Proclamation Reading: Luke 9:1-6
Clause: … who proclaimed the Kingdom of God with His disciples...
The Transfiguration Reading: Luke 9:28-36
Clause: … who was transfigured in radiant glory on Mount Tabor...
The Eucharist Reading: Luke 22:13-20
Clause: … who gave us His body and blood...

The Cleansing Mysteries (Thursday)

Introductory Beads … who increases our faith…
… who strengthens our hope…
… who perfects our charity…
The Cleansed Galilean Reading: Luke 4:33-37
Clause: … who cleansed a demoniac Galilean...
The Cleansed Gerasene Reading: Luke 7:1-10
Clause: … who cleansed a demoniac Gerasene...
The Cleansed Boy Reading: Luke 9:37-42
Clause: … who cleansed a demoniac boy...
The Cleansed Mute Reading: Luke 11:14-28
Clause: … who cleansed a demoniac mute...
The Cleansed Canaanite Reading: Matthew 15:21-28
Clause: … who cleansed a demoniac Canaanite...

The Sorrowful Mysteries (Friday)

Introductory Beads … who enlightens our minds…
… to corrects our memories…
… to perfects our wills…
The Agony Reading: Luke 22:39-46
Clause: … who sweat blood in the garden...
The Scourging Reading: Luke 22:63-71
Clause: … who was scourged for our sins...
The Crowning Reading: John 19:1-5
Clause: … who was crowned with thorns for our sins...
The Cross Reading: John 19:16-17
Clause: … who bore the heavy Cross for our sins...
The Crucifixion Reading: John 19:18-30
Clause: … who died on the Cross for our sins...

The Natural Mysteries (Saturday)

Introductory Beads … who increases our faith…
… who strengthens our hope…
… who perfects our charity…
The Tribute Reading: Matthew 17:24-27
Clause: … who paid tribute by the sea...
The Withered Fig Tree Reading: Matthew 21:18-27
Clause: … who withered the fig tree...
The Abundant Lake Reading: Luke 5:1-11
Clause: … who gave abundance at Lake Gennesaret...
The Pacification Reading: Luke 8:22-25
Clause: … who calmed the waters...
The Arrival Reading: John 6:16-24
Clause: … who walked on the sea...

The Glorious Mysteries (Sunday)

Introductory Beads … who guides our thoughts…
… who commands our words…
… who governs our actions…
The Resurrection Reading: Luke 24:1-7
Clause: … who rose again from the dead...
The Ascension Reading: Luke 24:50-53
Clause: … who ascended into Heaven...
The Transmission Reading: Acts 2:1-4
Clause: … who sent us the Holy Ghost...
The Assumption Reading: Song of Solomon 2:10-14
Clause: … who assumed thy Holy Mother into Heaven…
The Coronation Reading: Revelation 12:1-2
Clause: … who crowned thy Holy Mother in Heaven…

Hello, looking to book a boat for 20 of my friends on Memorial Day weekend. Is there a reservoir people suggest checking out and renting at? Last year we did Chatfield and it was great, cost about 1000 for 2 boats which is a pretty good deal.
If there’s better spots or suggestions, I’m all ears! Thanks, would like to keep it somewhat near Denver

hii everyone i know this is a far reach, but i'm wondering if anyone is driving up to the show on Monday the 27th from San Diego who i can hitch a ride with on the way back? (with gas money ofc)

https://www.middleeasteye.net/news/war-gaza-israel-gallant-opposes-open-ended-military-rule

War on Gaza: Israel's defence minister says he opposes open-ended military rule
Yoav Gallant calls on Prime Minister Benjamin Netanyahu's government to present a clear plan for post-war governance in Gaza

https://www.aljazeera.com/news/liveblog/2024/5/15/israels-war-on-gaza-live-new-nakba-as-hundreds-of-thousands-flee-attacks

US human rights experts finds Israel is committing genocide in Gaza
The University Network for Human Rights, along with other experts, has conducted a thorough legal analysis of Israel’s acts since October 7, finding that it violated the Genocide Convention.
“Specifically, Israel has committed genocidal acts of killing, causing serious harm to, and inflicting conditions of life calculated to bring about the physical destruction of Palestinians in Gaza, a protected group that forms a substantial part of the Palestinian people,” the group of international legal experts said.
The experts submitted their 100-page report, Genocide in Gaza: Analysis of International Law and its Application to Israel’s Military Actions since October 7, 2023 (PDF), to several UN officials.
“The findings of this report put other States on notice that they have an obligation to not be complicit in, and work together to prevent and punish, Israel’s egregious violations of the prohibition on genocide. They also serve to strengthen the current legal cases against Israel in the International Court of Justice and against the Biden administration in US federal court.”
“This assault has been one of extremes: the deadliest conflict for journalists and aid workers ever recorded, the world’s fastest starvation rate ever, and more children killed in four months than all conflicts in the past four years combined. Simply put, the devastation in Gaza is unparalleled,” said Thomas Becker, legal and policy director of UNHR.” https://x.com/unitedforrights/status/1790758140402971084

https://www.aljazeera.com/news/2024/5/15/us-plans-to-send-1bn-in-new-military-aid-to-israel-reports

Biden administration plans to send $1bn in military aid to Israel: Reports
Request for tank ammunition, tactical vehicles for Israel despite Biden’s earlier pause on bombs over Rafah assault.

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A recent State Department report found that Israeli forces likely used US-supplied weapons in a manner “inconsistent” with international law. However, it stopped short of identifying violations that would put an end to Washington’s ongoing military aid.

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Biden has urged Israeli Prime Minister Benjamin Netanyahu not to invade Rafah without safeguards for civilians, seven months into a war that has devastated Gaza.
His support for Israel in the war has emerged as a political liability for the president, particularly among young Democrats, as he runs for re-election this year.
Gershon Baskin, the Middle East Director at the International Communities Organisation, said the US government’s apparent “U-turn” was “probably explainable by the election clock ticking faster for Biden”.
“He was criticised very strongly from friends of Israel, both in the fundamentalist Christian groups and in the Israel support lobbies in Washington, and a significant amount of criticism from the Republican Part probably caused him to rethink his decision to withhold the shipments of bombs to Israel,” he told Al Jazeera.

https://www.nbcnews.com/news/world/israel-hamas-war-palestinians-gaza-rafah-nakba-anniversary-rcna152314

Palestinians forced to flee Rafah as Gazans mark bitter Nakba anniversary
Tens of thousands of people have also been internally displaced in northern Gaza amid fresh fighting in the area.

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Defying U.S. pressure, Israel has pursued a campaign it says is focused on Hamas militants, but many Palestinians say the situation in Gaza is now a humanitarian catastrophe like the “Nakba” of 1948, when around 700,000 Palestinians were forced from their homes for the founding of Israel.
“The memory of the Nakba once again returns to our minds. We used to live with this painful memory, mainly because we heard about it from our ancestors, we studied in our schools, and we always browsed the information that talked about it,” Mohamed Garboa, 34, told an NBC News’ crew in Gaza Wednesday after fleeing Rafah to Muwasi, a nearby coastal area where Israel has promised an “expanded humanitarian area” will await people.
“But this time, we are living the Nakba again and witnessing what is happening around us,” he said. “We are suffering once again from the Israeli war machinery. What happened in 1948 is now happening on a larger and more complicated scale,” he added.
Echoing his comments, Umm Mohammed, an 80-year-old who survived the “Nakba,” said there was no “no catastrophe worse” than the one currently unfolding in Gaza.

https://www.nbcnews.com/news/world/netanyahu-gaza-rafah-israel-biden-united-states-rcna152313

Netanyahu says he hopes to iron out discord with U.S., but won't budge on Rafah assault
“A nation’s got to do what a nation’s got to do," the Israeli prime minister said in an interview with CNBC in response to U.S. criticism of the war in Gaza.

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The Israeli leader's comments come as Israel faces mounting backlash, including from its closest ally, over its operations in Gaza, where more than 35,000 people have been killed, according to health officials in the enclave, since the war began after Hamas' Oct. 7 attacks.
They also come as Israeli forces push deeper into Rafah, the city in southern Gaza once designated a "safe zone" by Israel and where hundreds of thousands of people have sought refuge.
Nearly 450,000 people have fled the city, which borders Egypt, since Israel began its operations there last week, according to UNRWA, the United Nations agency for Palestinian refugees.
"People face constant exhaustion, hunger and fear. Nowhere is safe," UNRWA said Tuesday in a post on X.
Netanyahu has also faced growing protests within Israel, as frustration and despair grows over his handling of the hostage crisis and the direction of his government — the most right-wing in Israel's history.

New York Times. https://archive.ph/h1YsF

Gaza aid gains may be lost as fighting rages in Rafah, the U.S. secretary of state says.
Nearly 10 days after Israel began a military operation in the southernmost city of Gaza, aid trucks are backed up at the border.

https://www.trtworld.com/opinion/after-76-painful-years-palestine-is-having-its-day-and-israel-its-eclipse-18162979

After 76 painful years, Palestine is having its day and Israel its eclipse
A Palestinian-American scholar who was displaced during the Nakba as a child says Israel's war on Gaza is a turning point after which justice will be served.

https://www.middleeasteye.net/news/student-protesters-occupy-cambridge-universitys-graduation-lawn

Gaza protesters occupy Cambridge University's graduation lawn
Organisers said they want Cambridge to disclose its relationships with companies and institutions 'complicit in the ongoing ethnic cleansing of Palestine'

Hi Everyone!
This is my first write-up of any kind of unresolved mystery, on any platform, so I apologize for any formatting errors and my storytelling ability. Today I would like to hear your thoughts on the very mysterious death of Noah Presgrove, a 19 year old from Comanche Oklahoma. I have tried to be as thorough as possible with the details, but there is a great deal of conflicting information in the news reports, so I primarily used facts stated by Noah's family in interviews. With that said, let's begin...
Noah Presgrove was a handsome, athletic 19 year old from Comanche Oklahoma, which is located just south of Oklahoma City in the middle of the state. Noah had recently graduated high school in the spring of 2023 and was waiting for his cousin to do the same the following year so they both could enlist in the Marine Corp together and serve our country. By all accounts Noah was a ladies man, standing at 6'2" with an athletic build, in high school he was a 4-sport athlete with American Football and Wrestling among them. His family also says he was adventurous, kind and very much a jokester who would happily play pranks on his family. Last Labor Day weekend, the first weekend of September 2023, Noah was deciding between attending Rocklahoma, an annual 3-day hard rock and metal festival held in Pryor, Oklahoma, with family members or attending a 4-day Labor Day weekend bash/22nd birthday party of a friend. Noah considered going to Rocklahoma, but changed his mind when the family members he'd be attending with said they didn't think it was a good idea for Noah's 16 year old friend to join them there, since they didn't know this friend's family and Rocklahoma is big for consuming alcohol. With that, everyone went their own way to celebrate the holiday weekend.
The Labor Day/Birthday party was for a female friend of Noah's who was turning 22. It had been advertised on Snapchat, even containing the address, so quite a few people were expected to attend. Noah drove himself to the party on Saturday and by all accounts enjoyed himself. He did text his family member who was at Rocklahoma and express regret at not going with them, but it doesn't appear that this put too much of a damper on his attitude at the house party. After spending Saturday at the birthday girl's house, Noah returned home Sunday, probably to freshen up and take care of any outstanding errands or just check in with his grandmother, with whom he lived. Also, Noah's car was leaking from the oil pan, so it sounds like part of the reason to return home was to leave it there so he wouldn't have to worry about it. There are two stories about what happened next: The first is that one of Noah's friends picked him up from his house on Sunday, but took him to a truck stop so he could grab some food from the Sonic there. Oddly, the friend who took him there says he left him there and Noah was then given a ride to the party by the birthday girl, who had to come pick him up. The other story is that his best friend picked him up from his house and took him directly to the party, leaving him in the driveway. Either way, Noah was back at the party on Sunday and according to those present, was very much enjoying himself. There were videos from the party showing Noah and his friends doing "guy things" like the Slap Game, where two people try to slap each other across the face as hard as they can. Just "macho" drunken teenage guy things. There was also video from the party of the guests playing "classic" party games such as beer pong.
With all the drinking going on, some issues were bound to arise. A confrontation happened between Noah and his best friend. Noah had been in a corner with his best friend's girlfriend and apparently they had their backs to everyone else while talking. The best friend took exception to this and an argument ensued. Luckily, it did not become physical and they made up shortly after, but this event with the best friend and his girlfriend is important for later. A second confrontation occurred between Noah and a 16 year old guest that did become physical. The 16 year old accused Noah of hiding his phone, although the reasons why he thought Noah did it have not been stated. During the argument the kid "fishhooked" Noah and Noah returned the favor by biting his finger. It seems like the other people there were able to diffuse the situation and the kid's phone was found underneath another guest who was sleeping on a couch. As the day went on, things continued to become crazier as the people at the party drank more and more. At one point girls at the party started signing their names on Noah's torso and buttocks, writing things such as "Noah's hot!" and drawing a cartoon penis on his rear-end. Noah and the best friend he had the argument with even drove a John Deere "Gator" UTV "Side by Side" around the property, but stopped when Noah scrapped his hand almost flipping it over. Some people even say that Noah was tossed from the UTV, but he was checked out by a nurse at the party and she said he had nothing to worry about. Another event worth mentioning is that the birthday girl seemed to have a crush on Noah. Noah realized this, or was told this, and while talking to her about it called her a "fat, nasty b*tch". I assume that they were close friends and this is just a drunken teen being a drunken teen. An odd thing to mention is that this girl's mother, who also lives in the home, had told Noah's family that she believed Noah wanted her sexually. Whether this is true or not, I have no clue, but it seems a very weird thing to say to the family of a 19 year old your daughter is friends with.
So here's where the mystery comes in. Early Monday morning (September 4th, 2023), after 2:00am, the guests say that Noah was upset about something and that it might have had to do with sleeping in either the birthday girl's or her mother's bed. One of them either heard, or saw, Noah attempting to sleep in their bed and demanded that he go on the floor. This apparently upset Noah so much that he said he needed to go out for a walk, completely drunk, very early in the morning. The guests say Noah was wearing his best friend's shorts (we'll get to his clothes later) and could only find one of his shoes, so he grabbed another shoe lying around the house and took off out the front door. The house had a 1/2 mile long driveway that then went out to US-81, a major North-South highway that runs for 1,200+ miles through the central US. At 3:41am, a friend of Noah's posted a weird Snapchat: a photo of a girl at the party smiling, with the caption "well, Noah's missing". This was the last Snapchat posted by any of the partygoers after days of constant videos and pics. Around 5:00am, a semi-truck driving along US-81 saw something he believed to be a body lying on the shoulder of the road. After driving past, he became concerned and turned around to confirm what he saw. By the time he got back, two other vehicles had stopped in front of the lifeless body of Noah on the shoulder. He was completely naked wearing only 2 mismatched shoes and curled up in a fetal position. He appeared to have blunt force trauma to the back of his head. He had small scrapes on his left shoulder and left hip and his fingertips on both hands were reported as being "shredded", down to the bone. Noah's front top and bottom teeth had also been knocked out and they were found scattered at the scene. There was no blood found at the scene, other than a small amount around Noah's injuries. Very concerning was the fact that there was no writing on his body anywhere. Not on his torso and not on his buttocks. The shorts Noah was wearing were found folded up next him. The people at the party said "They must've been knocked off when he was hit.", which obviously does not make sense.
Around 6:00am, with the police already notified by the people who found Noah, all Snapchat's/social media from people at the party was deleted. His friends and acquaintances at the party say they have no idea what led up to his death and they were unaware of it. The police did not search the house because they said: "Noah wasn't found there.". They did eventually conduct a "mass" interview with all the partygoers. During this interview, Noah's best friend's girlfriend, the one that led to his first confrontation, told police she had never met Noah. She had wiped her phone so completely that even her boyfriend's number had been deleted. When the guests were asked about Noah being naked, the girls said they gave Noah a "shower", but Noah's mental state at the time, whether mildly drunk or completely inebriated, has been an area of dispute among the guests. Some say he was joking around and being himself while being showered, other accounts state that he was barely conscious. Noah's clothing he wore to the party that night has never been located. Police were told that after Noah showered his clothes were dirty, so he wore his friend's shorts. There is a rumor that his best friend's father found Noah's shirt from the party, which was then cut-up and distributed to the party attendees as a "memento". In addition to this event with his shirt, there is also information that his best friend's father had some of Noah's teeth in his pocket. He stated he "accidentally" picked them up from the crime scene. It's worth stating that this particular individual has been on Noah's family's Facebook memorial page for months, arguing with others on there. Just very odd behavior from an adult father who's son's best friend died mysteriously. But, on this same topic, NONE of the partygoers or their families have ever visited Noah's family to express their condolences. Never once.
Since Noah's friends and others at the party said they didn't know what happened, the police had their work cut out for them. The Oklahoma Highway Patrol obtained a "geofence" warrant covering a 1-1/2 mile radius around the party house. What they found was a bit disturbing. Around the time it is believed Noah died, 2 phones were traced as having left the house, heading to the location of his body. After briefly staying there, the two phones returned to the house. People at the party told a private investigator hired by Noah's family that they went out looking for Noah in the UTV/Gator that Noah and his friend had been on earlier. If they had really done this, they would have found him since the phones were at the spot Noah was found. It has not been released who exactly this was. Also revealed when police searched phones was a video of the birthday girl and her sister on their front porch, screaming at each other about Noah leaving the party. It is believed that this could be relevant. The Texas Rangers also became involved, due to the fact that two men at the party were from Texas. It is not known if these men are persons of interest. The Oklahoma Highway Patrol also quietly issued a warrant for a "black pick-up truck" believed to have been used to dump his body, but it is unknown why they are looking for this particular vehicle. The Oklahoma Highway Patrol has unequivocally stated that this was 100% NOT a hit-and-run. They have now also said that this is NOT a murder investigation. The Medical Examiner's report released on Monday, May 13th 2024 stated that Noah died from "Multiple Blunt Force injuries", but list the manner in which this happened as "unknown". His report also detailed extensive injuries to the teen's upper body, including 10 broken ribs, serious skull, neck, and spine fractures, internal bleeding, brain and organ damage, and cuts and grazes all over his body. The autopsy also revealed air in both his cranial cavity and spinal cord, extremely rare conditions only caused by massive head trauma. The family has heard rumors that a golf club from the set in his best friend's truck may have been involved, but nothing else has come of this.
The family has engaged with a private investigator, who did uncover previously unknown information, and gave that to the police. They have also said that there is much more which has not been publicly released and that the search of the phones did uncover good information. Also according to the family, some evidence has been covered-up or lost and that the day after the party, the birthday girl's house and property reeked of bleach. Despite this, his family says good things are going on behind the scenes.
So, with all of the above information, it doesn't seem to be a stretch to say that someone from the party knows something. It is my personal belief that this case will be resolved, but I think three things will have to happen: Time, Pressure and Guilt. At some point in the future, someone from the party will feel guilty, or media pressure will get to them and they will talk. Unfortunately, it may take some time unless the police uncover new evidence sooner. Thank you very much for reading this, but please let me know your thoughts on this case and feel free to ask questions.
Sources:
Podcast (Interview w/ Noah's family): https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/jimny-carpenteepisodes/The-Suspicious-Murder-Of-Noah-Presgrove-Part-1-e2dchac
https://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-13421341/Oklahoma-teen-Noah-Presgrove-beaten-death-gang-doctor-claims.html
https://kfor.com/news/local/m-e-releases-more-details-in-19-year-olds-death/
https://www.foxnews.com/us/oklahoma-teen-military-hopefuls-family-cant-imagine-was-murdered-offers-theory-about-last-hours

(somehow wound up with 2 accounts no idea how. if you see it posted there this is my actual account)
Dear C,
I loved you. not in that wishy washy lifetime holiday movie kind of way either. I truly loved you. I knew when I met you I could possibly fall. I tried not to, stayed away. didn't want to rock any boats. I think it was that expression of what I believed to be a love of life. the smile and lighting up eyes. I don't know. It's hard to put my finger on. you just had that air about you.
Became friends. shared secrets. shared sorrows. I didn't expect to become what I thought was that area of close friendship. To then get feelings though we lived so far apart. it hurt when I realized it was more than feelings of friendship in my chest. trying so hard to shut if down. not let myself be swept up into something. Love is a lot like the ocean though. one cannot sway it's currents as one cannot halt the rotation of the Earth.
It was turmoil it couldn't be, though I wished for us to fall into each other, hold you tightly to me and feel ourselves melt into each other. You had inklings I know. never said anything, we never discussed it. you moved even further away. I thought perhaps I could move on. I didn't. perhaps that's when I should have noticed. not that you were with someone but that perhaps you were not really my friend.
permission to send flowers but sending them to your work. speaking on the whatsapp. instead of texting. letting me feel confused about your feelings with me yet no resolution. I didn't want to lose you so I said nothing. that was pathetic of me. I think just a way to let myself be taken advantage of again later.
losing touch, regaining communications. losing touch again. Honestly I should have realized sooner but one becomes blinded by their own feelings. It came to a head a year and a half ago. Nearing christmas I found myself this particular year in a deep depression. Even years after tragedy it still hurts. I saw through posts you recently had a family tragedy as well. I wanted to make sure you were ok.
We agreed to meet up for dinner at my place what was that? the 22nd? the 23rd perhaps. So glad to hear from a close friend, feeling a sense of happiness. looking forward to something. braving the grocery stores less than a week from Christmas. I got a bunch of ingredients settling on a fancy style pizza and poached pears. something fun, not romantic (I didnt want to give the wrong vibes) even got a new sauce pan just to make a great red wine reduction for the pears lol. It was all set. I had a bottle of moscato d asti too. just a dessert wine. I even handmade the damn dough. It did turn out pretty decent, the pizza cooked. pears soaking in sugar water. yet
Yet it was 4:00 and I hear nothing, I had that nagging feeling
no Surely she wouldn't.
5:30 I had no word. perhaps a little later dinner. afterall I did not set the specific time.
6:30 and I messaged you to get an apology. I'm so sorry.
She told me her grandmother's memorial was that day. they released a balloon even.
I was crushed. deflated much like that balloon after a week of floating I'm sure. It seemed like an airtight excuse. Or at least one if I questioned would make me an asshole. I may be an ass but C I'm no asshole. I told you I understood but it didn't end there.
for over six months, six months it went on like this. I sent flowers twice actually when I thought I overstepped, made you mad at me. I rememembe getting very sick in Februaury and aplogizing for looking you up to send the damn flowers, feeling guilty of being some type of creep. You didn't mind. Hell I forgot to mention I had a Christmas gift from the previous years I couldn't get to you due to covid.
I asked if you were busy, You asked my free days. if you had the same day off and we made plans, without fail you would cancel or just not show. you would not message me. I understood-still understand helping family when they are sick. yet why not call? text? If I questioned it I was the bad guy. I'd always be the bad guy for simply questioning. I asked you if you didn't wish to be friends. to just reject me if that were the case. I just wanted to spend time together yet... yet even getting you to answer a text was a chore. why? I didn't obsess, I didn't stalk. I just wanted to spend time with someone I cared for. to help in any way I could.
Looking back it was rather pathetic of me. you're still the only person to make me act in that manner. You never rejected me. why? I needed that finality, that goddamned nail in the coffin to know for sure. I guess I just wasn't paying attention. You seemed to get out any way from visiting. spending time together. at a trusted friend's suggestion I proposed time after time neutral territory. coffee shops, restaurants, the book store. any public place.
I didn't know if you had issue with me personally, meeting a guy in his home? you agreed so many times to meet up to only ghost me. You did ghost me. repeatedly. You then said you didn't ghost me that you were staying late to get in the good graces of a new boss, just not answering me letting me apologize later.
I'm sorry C but having well established plans then not letting the person know you weren't going until after the fact. or not letting them know at all IS GHOSTING. SAYING IT'S NOT GHOSTING IS GASLIGHTING.
you ghosted me constantly, you gaslighted me. it hurt. If I didn't have blinders, if I weren't so fucking depressed I would have wisened to it. Instead I hoped and thought perhaps this time. not unlike those scratcher addicts wasting money hoping for that big payout.
You ghosted and gaslighted me. it hurt my self worth. perhaps I wasn't worthy of love nor frienship. a lingering trauma from my childhood you only reinforced in me. I think looking back on it you gaslighted me the entirety of our relationship. when that hit me... I don't know. From the same friend, she thought it a good idea to ask what I was to you. What type of friend am I to you? that was the question. was I just an aquaintenance? was I a close friend? was I just some person?
"of course we're friends" was my response. That wasn't the question though. Crushed. Angry. depressed. I tried still. yet you didnt acknowledge me. I think I grew bitter.
You ghosted me, You gaslighted me. You wouldn't tell me you rejected me even when I asked you to. I felt as though I weren't being treated as a human being.
To me you seemed to be acting like a narcissist or perhaps afraid? You were giving excused the same way the people who raised me did. classic text book narcissists.
C , I hate that a part of me loves you. I hate that what seemed like a relationship that meant so much to me perhaps didn't mean anything to you. I hate that I fell for someone who lies, who ghosts, nor treats me with the slightest bit of respect. I loved you but you only hurt me. loving you made me not feel good about myself. I wish
I wish instead of this rant I could tell you in a nicer way how I feel. That I then wanted to know you because I think it was more the idea of you I fell in love with. just a phantom. That I wished to find the depths of conversation only those like us could know. to find the depths of that well. to truly know one another.
I realize you'll never give an honest answer. I'll never have that chance to cook for you. the closest we'll be emotionally is being an unanswered call, empty chair, dinner for no one. I'll never share true intimacy with you. I remember you placing your head on my shoulder during the movie at the art museum. I wante to put my arm around you so much that night. it seemed innapropriate. I had no idea if she were your friend or girlfriend. I could not intrude.
I realized there are othes who see my worth. I'm more than just a text. people who see me. Yet a part of me lingers wishing. it's only a whisper now, something that still aches. I wished for closure. I'll never get it. I try to accept it. I can only move on.

Haven’t been to Cincinnati for years. Have a family with a baby and attending a day game over Memorial Day weekend.
Wanting to keep the kids out of the sun that day and curious where the best shaded seats are that aren’t all the way at the top.
Thanks

Sorry for the long post…
For some context, I’m a 30yr old female, I primarily worked in Veterinary medicine for my adult life. I did not attend any post secondary education, I have learned everything on the job. I worked for 2 years as a tech assistant in emergency, and 7 years as a surgical assistant along side a board certified surgeon. I LOVED that job, but I left the industry 2 years ago due to burn out and an attempt to make more money in another industry. So I left and I worked at a motorcycle shop for 1.5yrs, initially in the parts department, and then into motorcycle sales for about 6 months. Now I’m working for a laser eye surgery facility in a sales role, and occasionally I prep and recover patients on surgery days.
My current work environment is incredibly toxic, and I’ve learned that I hate sales. I get very stressed knowing I’m meant to hit targets and it doesn’t drive me to work harder. I will say I am an incredibly hard worker and I throw myself 100% into whatever I’m doing, but I need to be passionate about my work, or I am miserable and my mental health takes a turn.
I’ve been considering going back into Vet Med, mostly because I’m confident in my skills and I could ask for a decent wage with my experience. Most clinics I could work 4 10hr shifts which I would love to go back to and be at home more. I’d also love to work remotely since my husband and I are considering moving next year.
I have a lot of experience in customer service, I’m a people pleaser and a good problem solver. I would love any suggestions on industry’s or careers I could look into for my very niche set of skills.
Thanks in advance!

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Hi Reddit, I (21M) and my partner (22F) have been together for about a year and a half. We had our fair share of fights over that time, but we also had many perfect memories. Maybe I should preface this also with the fact that my girlfriend recently told me that she believes she has BPD and has a history of mental health struggles.
Over our relationship, there have been many times where she's gotten extremely upset and even broken up with me over trust-related issues. We met a few summers ago and went on a couple of dates during the summer. She ultimately told me before she left to go back to school in Washington (from California) that "it's okay if we were just friends," so we continued texting super often. So, after college started, I started trying to meet other people through dating apps and whatnot, and she seemed to be having tons of fun in school, too. Anyway, she came to visit once, and we fell in love that one day, and we spent the whole day together. It was the best, so we started long-distance until she finished the semester. (this is kind of all preface for later issues) Well, the whole time we've dated, it has been very drastic swings in whether she wants to be with me. There have been many times when, within a day, it went from you're my favorite person in the whole world to her literally saying she wishes she never dated me. However, after a few days of talking, these would resolve, and it's like nothing had happened. One of the biggest things was that after she had gone back to school during the summer before we started actually dating, I had gotten back on Tinder (because, in my mind, she had very clearly said we were just friends), and I hooked up with people off there and whatnot and also met one of my best friends who even though it was off Tinder it was always highly platonic between us. After my partner and I had been dating, she would randomly start to get very upset about trust-related things like when I told her I was thinking of going to see that friend on a trip during the summer, she was at first calm and then got extremely upset and said I clearly just wanted to go date her, etc etc. this eventually led to me cutting off that friendship to help her feel more secure. This didn't really feel fair because she also is friends with someone whom she actually went on a few dates with and had planned to stay with his family on a trip over the summer too (they seem very platonic, and I wasn't at all worried but it feels hypocritical) well other stuff like that has continued to happen over time consistently, for example, she has looked through my insta and got extremely mad that I'm following girls who have posted pictures in bikinis and whatnot (one that she sent me was literally my cousin) most are just people I had met from school and I don't really know but I told her I was sorry and I can understand that it could be hurtful even though I don't really get this and so I deleted Instagram. Fast forward to a few weeks ago and randomly she texted me saying I should go date X, Y, and Z and I have no clue who shes even talking about. She said they're girls I'm following on insta (I did'nt even have insta at this time) and am "clearly cheating on her with" two I have never even talked to and had just gone to my same college, but one I had met at the beginning of college and we had texted a little through insta about getting ready for college and stuff, and I showed her all of our texts(these were also before we had started dating. Well, she said that because I still like her pictures, and I never really like many people's pictures. I'm clearly in love with her. There are lots of these types of things that happen, and as I said, after I tell her that, I understand she's hurt and apologized and stuff, it like flips a switch, and we seem good again until the moment we're not.
I really don't know what to do. I love her so insanely much, and we have the best time ever when we're together, but idk if I can handle my partner, just never being able to trust me.
Tldr; my partner often thinks im cheating on her with other girls and has broken up with me multiple times about it before the relationship goes back to normal.

Looking to buy a king size mattress in a couple of days. Any recommendations are welcome! We prefer a firm memory foam or hybrid. Budget is about $1200.

I favourited an item and the seller sent me an offer, but I ummed and ahhed on it for a day or so and by the time I decided to buy it the seller had just gone away on holiday so can’t post until 21st May. I’m fine with that but Vinted’s last date for postage is 20th May. What will happen? Will the sale be cancelled, and will the seller get bad feedback automatically? I know it sounds a little sus but I’m sure it’s not - I’ve looked her up elsewhere and she sells on other platforms with great reviews. I think she’s just an independent maker who doesn’t use Vinted that much. I don’t want her to get bad feedback because I bought at an awkward time!
Thanks!

Hi everyone! Dr. Stern Cardinale here. If you've taken General Biology there's about a...40% you were in my class. Posting today because in addition to GB 115 and 116 during the fall and spring, I also teach two summer courses. Currently the enrollment in each is mid-to-high single digits, which is a really nice size, but so is 10-15, so I want to make people aware in case they're looking for a course for the summer.
The first is 11:216:251, Fundamentals of Evolution. This is the 200-level evolution course, and it's a prereq for a bunch of other courses in Ecology and Evolution. It runs for four weeks, four days per week (Monday to Thursday), May 28th to June 20th (no class on May 27th, Memorial Day), in person in Hickman Hall from 10am to, officially, 12:55pm, but we'll finish early almost every day. Want to really dive in to evolutionary biology? Take this course.
The second is 11:261:110, Evolution, Disease, and Medicine. It's an introduction to evolutionary biology in the context of human health, and it's designed for non-majors. This course is online via Zoom, synchronous, for four weeks, four days per week (Monday to Thursday) from July 8th to August 1st, 11am to 1:45pm, but again, we'll finish early most days. This is a great course if you need to complete a science requirement, aren't sure if you are interested in biology, or just need three credits. It's mostly discussion-based, and participation is a huge part of your grade. And if you aren't super familiar with biology, you will learn about some very cool and very weird things.
So if you're looking for a summer course, consider one of these. Thanks. And please ask any questions you have.

I have one ticket for sale letting it go for cost of early owl without service fees. I can meetup in San Diego or Vegas tomorrow.

My boyfriend (22M) and I (22F) go to the same university, same class. We've been dating for 1 year and 2 months now. Our relationship started abruptly when he got to know about me being in an exclusive situationship for more than a year with a guy I've only known online. He figured this guy wasn't going to commit and he didn't treat me right so wanted me to give him a chance and that he'd show what it felt like to be loved, to be in a committed relationship. While we didn’t feel a deep connection initially, he grew on me over time. I enjoyed hanging out with him and doing things together, and I considered him my best friend. One day I was talking to another guy in practical class about using a microscope and we were smiling, we didn't flirt but he had a problem with the guy. He got very angry and refused to talk to me and stormed out and didn't speak to me for an hour, then we fought over the phone like animals for the rest of the night. Similar incidents happened 3 more times. His explanation is that these were guys "he had a problem with and I just had to talk to them and ruin it." Eventually I found out that his ex-girlfriend had cheated on him multiple times and he has some severe trust issues because of that. I tried to understand him and went as far as sending him video updates, live location anytime I went out without him. Although things have changed now, it's not as severe anymore and I don't have to send him proof anymore, I still have to inform him.
My boyfriend is very insecure and has a habit of cursing others behind their backs (not trying to defend the people being cursed at) which disgusts me. His insecurity has led to several huge fights whenever I interact with other guys, to the point where I avoid talking to any male classmates and even stopped visiting my sister because she often has male friends over.
Things took a darker turn when he physically abused me on multiple occasions. He slapped me twice, squeezed my arm hard during arguments, and has called me degrading names. I have also called him names in the past, at some point we started cursing at each other when we fought and things got ugly. He promised me he won't do it again and he hasn't slapped me since but he has squeezed my hand very hard to the point it got sore.
I have an anxious attachment style and tend to hold on to relationships despite the flaws. I thought I could help him heal from his past, where he was cheated on and deeply hurt, but I feel suffocated by the restrictions and his behavior. My childhood was filled with physical and emotional abuse, and I’ve learned to defend myself, but this relationship has triggered many of those old wounds.
Our relationship has a mix of good and bad:
Good Times (80%): He saves seats for me, introduced me to new experiences like seeing the mountains, and I genuinely enjoy his company. Verbal Fights (14%): Frequent arguments, mostly stemming from his insecurity. Abuse (6%): Physical and verbal abuse that has caused both physical pain and emotional distress. Despite the good memories, the physical pain and emotional turmoil remind me of the ongoing abuse, making me question the health of this relationship. I feel sorry for myself and trapped in a cycle of hope and hurt.
He recently abused me and the physical pain reminds me of my emotional turmoil and I just don't want to be abused anymore. But he's begging me to stay, promises that he'll change. But I just don't know. What should I do?
TL;DR: I've been dating my boyfriend for over a year. While our relationship has many good times, it also includes frequent arguments and some physical and verbal abuse. His past experiences and insecurities have led to controlling behavior. I feel trapped between the good memories and the recurring abuse. Recently, he abused me again and I'm struggling with the decision to leave as he promises to change. What should I do?

I have done sales for 6 years, recruiting, managing and training teams. I got really burnt out at my last company and decided it was time for a change. So I started working at a new place and took a demotion from sales manager to just salesman.
I quickly realized I just was done with sales. I just couldn't care any more. However, during this time I had also been learning to code. I started to create tools that automated my processes so it made the clerical work less awful.
After about 5 month my managers were wanting to move me into a management role, but I let them know that I was really starting to think I'd rather be an engineer.
So they supported me, and I started just reaching out to random engineers asking them if there was a chance of me getting into it with my lack of experience. That led to a ton of random engineering teams reaching out to me to look at my tools and asking for my thoughts about their projects they were making.
LLMs were involved in many new projects, and that has be a fixation of mine. I even had started doing some consulting on the side for small businesses on how to better implement LLMs and save money on token usage.
I got offered an internship as an engineer, despite them being past their hiring season for it - but this led to someone suggesting I look into product management. So I reached out to the VP of Product Managment and asked her about it. She set up meetings with me and VPs over Data and Engineering. Had me shadow some PdMs, and then finally there was a meeting with 4 VPs and a couple department heads where I had to show my little projects and discuss the problems I was trying to solve and how I felt like the company needed to really pivot more focus on better data.
The next day I get hit up by the VP of Data and he offers me a role as a Product Manager over LLMs with a 120k starting salary. Which isn't the best salary ever, but this role didn't exist before. After the year ends there will be another conversation on pay.
But I'm over the moon. This fits exactly with what my interest and skills are, and while this isn't the most money I've ever made - I was expecting low pay throughout this transitionary period till I could really prove myself.
Just moral of the story - don't stay in your lane. It is wild that I just reached out to the VP of the company and got them to make a new position and pay me real money for it. Tbh, I even stopped the CEO in the hallways one day (it's a 5000 person company, so not massive). If you see a place where you can add real value - go for it.
I will also say, the company I work for is an amazing company, the CEO took no pay during covid to prevent having to fire any one, and all of management and up took some sort of pay cut. They're very much focused on getting people in the right spot, and not just shutup and do your job. So results may vary at other companies, but man - I'm glad I gave it a shot.

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Hello guys, I'm crying as I write this, and I have no idea what to do.
I started a new job last Tuesday. I worked Tuesday through Friday and then Monday, Tuesday, and today. I interviewed for the job three months ago and started last week, after finishing university. The company has two directors and two 'desks' that each perform a different function. I interviewed with one of the directors, although he was on the other desk from mine, so he was not my direct supervisor, I suppose. Usually, everyone gets interviewed by both of them at the same time, however my direct employer was unable to come due to a funeral. My first day was Tuesday, and my boss was not present. He was there Wednesday through Friday. I'd say he gave me quite negative vibes from the start, which was fine because he'd never met me before and was just figuring me out. He rarely worked around me, so he never noticed what I was doing. Everyone else had complimented me on how well I was doing and how well I suited the position.
The boss was absent on Monday and Tuesday of this week due to his wife's illness. So today was the first full day I'd been working well around him. Towards the end of the day, he brought me into an office, sat me down, and told me I wasn't the right fit. He stated I put in the effort but wasn't cut out for the industry (sales), which I don't understand because I sold a lot in my short time there.
I returned from the workplace, grabbed my bag, and attempted to slip out, but others asked where I was going. I thanked them everyone for their kindness and informed them that I had been let go; they were all surprised and thought i was joking.
The trouble is, I believe my boss had just had a horrible week due to his wife's illness, and today was my worst sales day yet, so I'm not sure if it was a rushed decision. I just don't understand it; he stated he appreciated my work and the number of calls I was making, and that they'd give me a great recommendation, but they fired me?
Anyway, sorry for the rant, people. I just wanted to talk to someone because I moved down to London from university a week and a half ago. I signed a contract for my house and used a loan to pay my first months rent. But I obviously don't have a job anymore. I think the contract is 12 months, therefore I don't know what to do.
My concern is, can they just terminate me for no reason after a week of work? I travelled 5 hours down here the day after my 21st birthday and am completely disoriented today. How do I go about getting paid for the week I worked?
I simply find it so unfair. They knew I had travelled so far and simply dumped me after a week. Is there any way I can get out of my house contract? Or any breach of workers rights? Does such thig exist?
Thank you, guys. If anyone has a job available in London, please let me know:)

This is more of a rant since i'm so depressed rn and I have zero friends to talk to.
Tl;dr: My girlfriend who i've known for 2 years and have worked my ass off for cheated on me twice, lied to me for a whole year, and betrayed me
After 2 years of being in an abusive/toxic relationship with my gf, i discovered that she has been lying to me for a whole year and has cheated on me twice.
When I found out abt evth, i told her that we have to break up and asked her why she did that and her response was "u weren't supposed to find out, i'm just like that." I then kept talking to her for 4 hrs and she never said sorry or felt any regret whatsoever. I told her that i still loved her and it was hard for me to let go so i wanna have a last day with her where we exchange the memories and go through stuff we did together then say goodbye but she said that she's going out with her friends. I then kept asking her to go out with me instead as she'll see her friends more than once but we won't be a thing anymore, and that i would be in my room crying becuz of what happened and i felt uncomfortable with her just partying and going out with friends. She said that she would go whether i like it or not and she doesn't care.
Today, i was checking instagram stories and saw her partying with her friends and having fun as if she hasn't just fucked up her bf of 2 years who she promised she would stay with forever.
For context: i have been nothing but an amazing boyfriend for her. I loved her all the time, i cared abt her, i helped her with school assignments and as time passed, i took it even further and straight up started doing all her assignments while she slept or went out becuz that's what i felt like would be best (those assignments were around fifteen 4000 word essays in addition to many past papers that each take 3+ hrs to solve)
Note: i obv haven't said all thw details since it would be hard to conpress 2 years worth of disrespect in a reddit post but i can answer any ques u might have in the comments ig. I just feel extremely awful that i did that to myself and hate her for what she did to me. I hate seeing her happy and having fun.