Washington State's Respiratory Illness Dashboard for all official numbers and visualizations. See bottom of post for links to all data sources.

Note As of May 1st hospitals are not required to report hospitalizations due to COVID-19, RSV, or Flu. This means everything presented here is underrepresented.

In this post I provide alternative visualizations for the overall weekly disease activity and reporting on weekly confirmed case positives, emergency department (ED) visits, new hospitalizations, total inpatients/occupied hospital beds, and confirmed deaths. Trends reported here are based on % change of total weekly counts and not "Percent of" which is how the state reports many of these categories.
I'll use the category of Hospital Admissions (Hosp. ADM) due to COVID reported on WADoH dashboard as an example of how our summaries compare:

Summary location	Prior Week's incomplete Hosp. ADM	This Week's incomplete Hosp. ADM	Weekly Change
WADoH	0.7% of all Hosp. ADM coded COVID	0.7 % of all Hosp. ADM coded COVID	0 %
here	83 Hosp. ADM coded COVID	70 Hosp. ADM coded COVID	↓ 15.7 %

Both sets of numbers are true, it's just a different way of looking at it.
Note As of May 1st hospitals are not required to report hospitalizations due to COVID-19, RSV, or Flu. This means everything presented here after that date is underrepresented (even more-so than usual with the reduction of free PCRs and clinical testing). As far as I can tell, deaths are still reported. If anyone knows otherwise please let me know!
I have managed to find the % of hospitals reporting each week and will present it here to help provide context. Unfortunately this data updates on Fridays so it will always show a week behind.

Week	% Hospitals Reporting to NHSN	Change
Apr-28	96 %	↓ 3.0 %
Apr-21	99 %	-

https://imgur.com/enmznCH
All COVID-19 specific visualizations.
Total weekly positive clinical cases administered at a healthcare facility or processed at a certified lab.
https://imgur.com/L5HkBpa

Week Diagnosed	Newly Reported	Updated Totals	14-Day Trend
May 05	+ 636	636	↓ 0.5%
Apr 28	+ 12	639	↑ 4.9%
Apr 21	+ 3	609	↓ 11.9%
Apr 14	+ 3	691	↓ 6.7%
Apr 07	-	741	↓ 3.0%
Back thru 2023	+ 2	181,724

Percent of Emergency Department visits with confirmed COVID-19 in Washington state facilities by week. Most recent week of data is incomplete. I have not found a replacement source for weekly ED visits since the HHS reporting stopped.
https://imgur.com/xER6JYp

Week of ED Visit	Newly Reported	Updated Totals	14-Day Trend
May 05	-	<0.04%	-
Apr 28	-	0.5%	-
Apr 21	-	0.5%	-
Apr 14	-	0.5%	↓ 16.7%
Apr 07	-	0.6%	-

New hospital admissions in Washington state facilities with laboratory confirmed COVID-19 as reported by the state and NHSN. Most recent week of data is incomplete.
https://imgur.com/3HD0tDi

Week of Hosp. ADM	Newly Reported	Updated Totals	14-Day Trend
May 05	+ 86	86	↓ 2.3%
Apr 28	+ 18	88	↑ 6.0%
Apr 21	-	83	↓ 20.2%
Apr 14	-	104	↑ 2.0%
Apr 07	-	102	↓ 23.3%
Back thru 2023	-	18,453

Total occupied inpatient beds (excludes ICU beds) used in Washington state facilities flagged with diagnostic codes for COVID-19 (U07.1) and pneumonia due to COVID-19 (J12.82).
https://imgur.com/uU4gqXc

Week Beds Occup.	Newly Reported	Updated Totals	14-Day Trend
May 05	+ 607	607	↑ 15.6%
Apr 28	- 20	525	↑ 2.7%
Apr 21	-	511	↓ 19.0%
Apr 14	-	631	↓ 10.4%
Apr 07	-	704	↓ 7.7%
Back thru 2023	-	119,903

Total occupied ICU beds used in Washington state facilities flagged with diagnostic codes for COVID-19 (U07.1) and pneumonia due to COVID-19 (J12.82).
https://imgur.com/RPNdR99

Week ICU Occup.	Newly Reported	Updated Totals	14-Day Trend
May 05	+ 58	58	↑ 3.6%
Apr 28	+ 20	56	↓ 20.0%
Apr 21	-	70	↑ 45.8%
Apr 14	-	48	↓ 7.7%
Apr 07	-	52	↓ 32.5%
Back thru 2023	-	13,412

Recent deaths certified/coded as, or referencing to, COVID-19 in WHALES with a corresponding positive lab as reported in WDRS. Most recent two weeks of data is incomplete.
https://imgur.com/9dmzixa

Week of Death	Newly Reported	Updated Totals
May 05	-	-
Apr 28	+ 8	8
Apr 21	-	4
Apr 14	-	9
Apr 07	-	18
Back thru 2023	+ 1	2,010

Notes on Data and Limitations:
As of May 1st hospitals are not required to report hospitalizations due to COVID-19, RSV, or Flu. This means everything presented here is underrepresented. * In this post I provide alternative visualizations for the overall weekly disease activity and reporting on weekly confirmed case positives, emergency department (ED) visits, new hospitalizations, total inpatients/occupied hospital beds, and confirmed deaths. Additionally I provide changes in COVID-19 activity due to backfill. * Trends are calculated based on the % change in the totals for the most recent week of data compared to the second most recent. This differs from the state's trend % as they are doing a % change of a percent. * Columns with a bright bar are the new additions for this week's report. Darker bars are counts from previously published reports. An empty/outlined column is where previously reported numbers have been removed with this week's update. * These graphs were put together by using a multitude of resources spanning from the Washington State Department of Health all the way to the CDC and National Healthcare Safety Network (NHSN). All of these state and federal reports use the standardized Sunday-Saturday 7-day definition. * All numbers except for cases and deaths are a reflection of 'healthcare encounters' and not representative of individuals nor of residence. Total weekly counts are extrapolated by applying the state's weekly hospitalizations to the NHSN's reporting of hospitalizations, bed occupancy, and icu occupancy due to all causes. Beds occupied as a weekly average are multiplied by 7 days to get to total beds occupied. * A COVID-19, Influenza, or RSV death is only counted by the state if data is complete (cause of death is attributed to the disease *and** there is an associated laboratory positive test with no period of complete recovery between illness and death). The only exception is that RSV does not need a test, only that it is indicated as cause on the death certificate.
Sources:

• WADOH data from the Washington State's Respiratory Illness Dashboard and Flu Update (Flu Update includes case numbers for RSV)
• NHSN data from Weekly United States Hospitalization Metrics by Jurisdiction...for Data Reported Voluntarily Beginning May 1, 2024

Washington State's Respiratory Illness Dashboard for all official numbers and visualizations. See bottom of post for links to all data sources.

Note As of May 1st hospitals are not required to report hospitalizations due to COVID-19, RSV, or Flu. This means everything presented here is underrepresented.

In this post I provide alternative visualizations for the overall weekly disease activity and reporting on weekly confirmed case positives, emergency department (ED) visits, new hospitalizations, total inpatients/occupied hospital beds, and confirmed deaths. Trends reported here are based on % change of total weekly counts and not "Percent of" which is how the state reports many of these categories.
I'll use the category of Hospital Admissions (Hosp. ADM) due to COVID reported on WADoH dashboard as an example of how our summaries compare:

Summary location	Prior Week's incomplete Hosp. ADM	This Week's incomplete Hosp. ADM	Weekly Change
WADoH	0.7% of all Hosp. ADM coded COVID	0.7 % of all Hosp. ADM coded COVID	0 %
here	83 Hosp. ADM coded COVID	70 Hosp. ADM coded COVID	↓ 15.7 %

Both sets of numbers are true, it's just a different way of looking at it.
Note As of May 1st hospitals are not required to report hospitalizations due to COVID-19, RSV, or Flu. This means everything presented here after that date is underrepresented (even more-so than usual with the reduction of free PCRs and clinical testing). As far as I can tell, deaths are still reported. If anyone knows otherwise please let me know!
I have managed to find the % of hospitals reporting each week and will present it here to help provide context. Unfortunately this data updates on Fridays so it will always show a week behind.

Week	% Hospitals Reporting to NHSN	Change
Apr-28	96 %	↓ 3.0 %
Apr-21	99 %	-

https://imgur.com/enmznCH
All COVID-19 specific visualizations.
Total weekly positive clinical cases administered at a healthcare facility or processed at a certified lab.
https://imgur.com/L5HkBpa

Week Diagnosed	Newly Reported	Updated Totals	14-Day Trend
May 05	+ 636	636	↓ 0.5%
Apr 28	+ 12	639	↑ 4.9%
Apr 21	+ 3	609	↓ 11.9%
Apr 14	+ 3	691	↓ 6.7%
Apr 07	-	741	↓ 3.0%
Back thru 2023	+ 2	181,724

Percent of Emergency Department visits with confirmed COVID-19 in Washington state facilities by week. Most recent week of data is incomplete. I have not found a replacement source for weekly ED visits since the HHS reporting stopped.
https://imgur.com/xER6JYp

Week of ED Visit	Newly Reported	Updated Totals	14-Day Trend
May 05	-	<0.04%	-
Apr 28	-	0.5%	-
Apr 21	-	0.5%	-
Apr 14	-	0.5%	↓ 16.7%
Apr 07	-	0.6%	-

New hospital admissions in Washington state facilities with laboratory confirmed COVID-19 as reported by the state and NHSN. Most recent week of data is incomplete.
https://imgur.com/3HD0tDi

Week of Hosp. ADM	Newly Reported	Updated Totals	14-Day Trend
May 05	+ 86	86	↓ 2.3%
Apr 28	+ 18	88	↑ 6.0%
Apr 21	-	83	↓ 20.2%
Apr 14	-	104	↑ 2.0%
Apr 07	-	102	↓ 23.3%
Back thru 2023	-	18,453

Total occupied inpatient beds (excludes ICU beds) used in Washington state facilities flagged with diagnostic codes for COVID-19 (U07.1) and pneumonia due to COVID-19 (J12.82).
https://imgur.com/uU4gqXc

Week Beds Occup.	Newly Reported	Updated Totals	14-Day Trend
May 05	+ 607	607	↑ 15.6%
Apr 28	- 20	525	↑ 2.7%
Apr 21	-	511	↓ 19.0%
Apr 14	-	631	↓ 10.4%
Apr 07	-	704	↓ 7.7%
Back thru 2023	-	119,903

Total occupied ICU beds used in Washington state facilities flagged with diagnostic codes for COVID-19 (U07.1) and pneumonia due to COVID-19 (J12.82).
https://imgur.com/RPNdR99

Week ICU Occup.	Newly Reported	Updated Totals	14-Day Trend
May 05	+ 58	58	↑ 3.6%
Apr 28	+ 20	56	↓ 20.0%
Apr 21	-	70	↑ 45.8%
Apr 14	-	48	↓ 7.7%
Apr 07	-	52	↓ 32.5%
Back thru 2023	-	13,412

Recent deaths certified/coded as, or referencing to, COVID-19 in WHALES with a corresponding positive lab as reported in WDRS. Most recent two weeks of data is incomplete.
https://imgur.com/9dmzixa

Week of Death	Newly Reported	Updated Totals
May 05	-	-
Apr 28	+ 8	8
Apr 21	-	4
Apr 14	-	9
Apr 07	-	18
Back thru 2023	+ 1	2,010

Notes on Data and Limitations:
As of May 1st hospitals are not required to report hospitalizations due to COVID-19, RSV, or Flu. This means everything presented here is underrepresented. * In this post I provide alternative visualizations for the overall weekly disease activity and reporting on weekly confirmed case positives, emergency department (ED) visits, new hospitalizations, total inpatients/occupied hospital beds, and confirmed deaths. Additionally I provide changes in COVID-19 activity due to backfill. * Trends are calculated based on the % change in the totals for the most recent week of data compared to the second most recent. This differs from the state's trend % as they are doing a % change of a percent. * Columns with a bright bar are the new additions for this week's report. Darker bars are counts from previously published reports. An empty/outlined column is where previously reported numbers have been removed with this week's update. * These graphs were put together by using a multitude of resources spanning from the Washington State Department of Health all the way to the CDC and National Healthcare Safety Network (NHSN). All of these state and federal reports use the standardized Sunday-Saturday 7-day definition. * All numbers except for cases and deaths are a reflection of 'healthcare encounters' and not representative of individuals nor of residence. Total weekly counts are extrapolated by applying the state's weekly hospitalizations to the NHSN's reporting of hospitalizations, bed occupancy, and icu occupancy due to all causes. Beds occupied as a weekly average are multiplied by 7 days to get to total beds occupied. * A COVID-19, Influenza, or RSV death is only counted by the state if data is complete (cause of death is attributed to the disease *and** there is an associated laboratory positive test with no period of complete recovery between illness and death). The only exception is that RSV does not need a test, only that it is indicated as cause on the death certificate.
Sources:

• WADOH data from the Washington State's Respiratory Illness Dashboard and Flu Update (Flu Update includes case numbers for RSV)
• NHSN data from Weekly United States Hospitalization Metrics by Jurisdiction...for Data Reported Voluntarily Beginning May 1, 2024

My partner is a good person. I love him but I realized with time that I’m not in love with him. However, I’m wondering if it’s normal to feel this way ? I wanted to share with you all the things that are making me reevaluate my relationship with him right now :
Relationship didn’t start well : I started dating him when I was 19 and he was 22. He was the first man I’ve ever dated and kissed. He was very immature, cheated a few times. Yes at first I did find him cute and I liked his positivity and sweet personality, but there was never any butterflies. More of a sense of security .
Relationship with his family : I never got along with his family. They disliked me from the start and I suspect it’s because of my nationality. This is bad because I want to have a good relationship with my in laws !
Career and laziness : He’s been working as a customer service rep. in a call center since I met him . He never progressed . Meanwhile I went to college and currently working as an accountant. I tried to encourage him multiple times to go to college but he always said that he prefer to save the money for a business . Well, 14 years later, this business never happened because he’s 24/7 on the couch watching tv ! And whenever I try to talk to him about it, he gets defensive. He has all those ideas but never ever worked on it. He doesn’t even look for another job but rather complain about it everyday ! I have to apply at jobs for him ! He has no charisma, no fire in what he does ! And him staying on the couch 24/ 7 is incredibly unattractive!
Personality : He shouts/ raises his voice a lot . It’s difficult to have a serious conversation with him especially when it involves him . Meanwhile i usually speak with a very calm tone . He also has more conservative views ( especially about women ) then me , and sometimes it can be demoralizing. For example , he believes a woman should cook for her man and he doesn’t have to. I do cook, but I wished also my man cooked for me ? Or we cook together ! He’s also very lazy and I’m extremely charismatic!
Attraction : I started losing attraction for him 5 years ago . He gained 80 pounds , and I know it sounds harsh but his belly is like of a 9 months pregnant woman. We cannot have proper sex ! He doesn’t take care of his body and his weight . He eats whatever fatty things he likes . Meanwhile I stayed healthy all this time , with a healthy weight ! Because his body changed so much it’s hard to have sex, and be intimate. The attraction problem is so bad I don’t know how I’m going to make a baby with him :( .
Life Goals My life goals are health, wealth, family and kids . He doesn’t priorise health . He wants to be wealthy one day but doesn’t do anything about it ! He wants a big family but CANNOT afford it !
But why I stayed ? I stayed for various reasons : I’ve been with him for a very long time , never had another relationship before, never kissed/sex with another man . I love him . He’s still a good man . He’s supportive, generous , he provides, he’s funny and is a wise man. He’s my best friend , has been there in the best and worst moment of my life ! We had many great memories together . Finally I’m scared that if I leave I won’t find another guy because of my age . Dating world looks horrible right now and I hear how women in their 30s are not desirable by men .
I don’t know what to do . I’m very unhappy 🙁 .
I fantasize about making love with another man that I love everyday because I didn’t feel that way for a decade . I fantasize about having kids with a man I love romantically. Thinking about building a future with him is making me extremely anxious and sick. But in the same time thinking of ending up alone the rest of my life or having to settle because of my age makes me as anxious .
This lead me to think about ending my life because I feel guilty . I should’ve left a long time ago so he can at least find someone else , and so do I .

Hey Reddit, I’m just here to get some external perspective on some issues I’m having with my boyfriend. I (20F) have been dating my boyfriend (19M) for a bit over a year now. He’s a complete sweetheart, he has a huge heart and is an emotional guy (not in an aggressive way; he just has big feelings about things and cries easily). These are things I honestly lve about him, but I’m worried things are starting to go downhill. For some background, he has pretty severe OCD and ADHD. He’s been diagnosed and medicated since he was about 8, and had to go through some pretty intense exposure therapy for a while. He’s overall very functional and operates normally. I, on the other hand, also have severe OCD and ADHD, as well as generalized anxiety and depression. (All professionally diagnosed on both sides, don’t worry.) The difference is, I was only diagnosed 2 years ago (ADHD) and this year (OCD). My main issue is this: I feel that he’s progressively gotten too comfortable with me and my family. Obviously I want him to feel comfortable, but it’s to the point where he treats my house as his own (eg. leaving clothes on the floor, not putting things away, leaving old food/drinks out everywhere, etc.) I feel like I am constantly asking for him to do small things, and he always takes it harshly. For example, I’ve nicely asked him several times to not leave trash in my room. My contamination OCD is severe, and I will go into a panicked cleaning spree and not be able to sleep if there are germs/garbage in my room. I also get super irritable, which I try to let leave my system before I say anything about it to him. Essentially, I feel like I’m not asking much, but whenever I ask him to change small things about his lifestyle he gets really emotional and treats it as if I’m attacking his personality. He definitely has made small improvements, but not to the capacity I’ve expected. He sometimes remembers to pick up his garbage from my room, but he’ll still leave stuff all over the rest of the house. It feels as if I have to parent him, sometimes. My main question is, how should I approach this problem in a way that won’t make him defensive? Am I asking for too much? Should I give it more time for change to come into effect? It’s put a strain on our relationship and I’m really not sure where to go from here. I love him and want this to last long-term, but I truly don’t know if it will if these things persist.
Additional things that have happened: - I’ve had to bribe him to brush his teeth at night, and that’s only the nights he spends with me. I don’t think he brushes at night at all when he’s at his house, though I know he does in the morning. - He has really poor eating habits, which comes mostly from his upbringing. My family has always been a home-cooked meal (or at least healthier takeout) family, while he grew mostly on fast food. I’m genuinely concerned about his health moving forward, but he refuses to eat healthy a lot of the time. - His car is a mess, and it’s definitely gotten better. But most days I get in his car, there’s at least one old drink and an old bag of food laying on the ground. - he complains about his stomach issues and headaches often but won’t go to the doctor. I have volunteered to schedule him an appointment but he refuses and says he’ll do it himself. He’s been saying this for a few months now.
Again; he’s a genuinely good person with a good heart. I think he lets his mental illness control him more than it needs to, and his willpower is taken over by his desire to avoid discomfort. Let me know your opinions, and please be kind. Thank you in advance, all I’m seeking is clarity in a situation I don’t know how to navigate.

Live Music

• Jim Lamb, Mill Top Tavern, 12:00 pm – 4:00 pm
• Smokin' Joe Schauer, Backyard Island Cafe at Meehan's, 1:00 pm – 5:00 pm
• Vinny Jacobs, The Cellar Upstairs Wine Bar & Restaurant, 1:00 pm – 4:00 pm
• Alexis Peramas, Pierre's Pub, 1:00 pm – 5:00 pm
• Chubby McG, Conch House Marina Resort, 5:00 pm – 9:00 pm
• Trevor Compton, St. Augustine Shores Golf Club, 5:00 pm – 8:00 pm
• Fond Kiser, Oasis Deck & Restaurant, 5:30 pm – 8:30 pm
• Rob Peck, Fuzion 904 Eatery, 5:30 pm – 8:30 pm
• Alex Richman, Fuzion 904 Eatery, 5:30 pm – 8:30 pm
• Dewey Via, Cimarrone Golf Club, 5:30 pm – 8:30 pm
• Bob Patterson, O.C. White's Seafood, 5:30 pm – 8:30 pm
• Ramona the Duo, Prohibition Kitchen, 6:00 pm – 9:00 pm
• Dion & Collins, Borrillo's Pizzeria & Beer Garden, 6:00 pm – 9:00 pm
• ZaZa Flamenca, World Music with Yael Zaza Flamenca, 7:30 pm – 8:30 pm
• Chillula, Bar with No Name, 10:00 pm – 1:00 am

Wednesday Pier Farmers Market

• The Wednesday Pier Farmers Market at the St. Johns County Pier offers fresh fruit, vegetables, bread, and local arts and crafts every week. With a number of different vendors, visitors can find a variety of unique, quality goods. Each item is handcrafted by these dedicated artists, and the food is locally grown and handpicked.
• This beachside farmers market makes for a great outing on Wednesday mornings. Visitors can browse the huge selection of locally grown goods and then afterward take a stroll along scenic St. Augustine Beach. Farmers markets boost the local economy by giving local merchants an outlet to sell their wares. They also benefit the community by offering fresh, local, seasonal foods.
• Admission: FREE
• When: 8:00 a.m. - 12:00 p.m. every Wednesday
• Where: St. Johns County Pier Park is located at the St. Johns County Ocean Pier at 350 A1A Beach Blvd in St. Augustine Beach, Florida 32080

Boozin' on the Boulevard

• Boozin' on the Boulevard takes guests on a hop-on hop-off service to some of the local restaurants on Anastasia Island.
• This bar crawl begins at Kaiser's Deli & Market and Sogno Restaurant from 5:00 to 6:00 p.m. Guests will then be taken to Blackfly and Odd Birds Cocktail Lounge and Kitchen from 6:00 to 7:00 p.m. The tour will end at Candlelight South at 8:00 p.m.
• Each eatery will have food and drink specials — individuals must purchase a drink first from Kaiser's or Sogno Restaurant to receive a wristband. This band enables entry onto the Old Town Connect bus — a free transportation service for participants.
• Admission: Food and drink prices vary at each establishment. Transportation is provided by Old Town Connect once a drink is purchased at Kaiser's Deli or Sogno Restaurant.
• When: Every Thursday from 5:00 to 8:00 p.m. Note: Dates and times could be adjusted based on the number of sign-ups.
• Where: Starts at Kaiser's Deli & Market at 4 White Street East, St. Augustine, Florida 32080.

St. Augustine Wine Walk

• On the third Thursday of each month from 6:00 p.m. to 8:30 p.m., Casa de Vino 57, hosts a wine-tasting walk. The tour visits several local shops, with wine tastings at each location, and ends with a return to Case de Vino 57 for a glass of wine in the courtyard. Tickets are $35.00 and are availble on their website or Facebook page.
• Casa de Vino 57, both a wine shop and a venue, offers boutique wines and charcuterie to guests in their courtyard, where they can enjoy live music from local performers.
• Admission: $35.00 per person.
• When: The third Thursday of each month from 6:00 p.m. to 8:30 p.m.
• Where: 57 Treasury Street in historic downtown St. Augustine.

Bo Johnson at Cafe Eleven

• Café Eleven welcomes comedian Bo Johnson on Thursday, May 16, 2024, at 8:00 p.m. Doors open at 7:00 p.m.
• Seattle native Bo Johnson makes waves in the comedy circuit by amassing millions of views on TikTok and gaining recognition for his stand-up routines on Netflix and Comedy Central. Touring across the United States and beyond, Bo headlined prestigious festivals like Bumbershoot, Prize Fest, SF Sketchfest, and more.
• Johnson's hilarious antics and routines continue to earn him rave reviews from major media outlets such as Cosmopolitan.
• Admission: VIP tickets cost $25.00 if purchased in advance and $35.00 on the day of the show. General admission seating costs $20.00 in advance and $25.00 on the day of the show. Purchase tickets in advance online or purchase them at Café Eleven on the day of the show.
• When: Thursday, May 16, 2024, at 8:00 p.m. Doors open at 7:00 p.m.
• Where: Café Eleven, 501 A1A Beach Blvd, St. Augustine, Florida 32080. On the corner of A1A and 11th Street, one block from St. Augustine Beach.

Historic Architectural Review Board Meeting

Date: May 16, 2024
Time: 1:00 PM - 2:00 PM
Where: Alcazar Room at City Hall, 75 King Street
I am unable to post the sources because they are getting flagged as spam since they are all similar in name. So please visit this site for the list.
Written out urls here tinyurl.com/yjkw32kd

For future events please visit the Discord.

https://discord.gg/NG4eZSWAgR

Live Music

• Jim Lamb, Mill Top Tavern, 12:00 pm – 4:00 pm
• Smokin' Joe Schauer, Backyard Island Cafe at Meehan's, 1:00 pm – 5:00 pm
• Vinny Jacobs, The Cellar Upstairs Wine Bar & Restaurant, 1:00 pm – 4:00 pm
• Alexis Peramas, Pierre's Pub, 1:00 pm – 5:00 pm
• Chubby McG, Conch House Marina Resort, 5:00 pm – 9:00 pm
• Trevor Compton, St. Augustine Shores Golf Club, 5:00 pm – 8:00 pm
• Fond Kiser, Oasis Deck & Restaurant, 5:30 pm – 8:30 pm
• Rob Peck, Fuzion 904 Eatery, 5:30 pm – 8:30 pm
• Alex Richman, Fuzion 904 Eatery, 5:30 pm – 8:30 pm
• Dewey Via, Cimarrone Golf Club, 5:30 pm – 8:30 pm
• Bob Patterson, O.C. White's Seafood, 5:30 pm – 8:30 pm
• Ramona the Duo, Prohibition Kitchen, 6:00 pm – 9:00 pm
• Dion & Collins, Borrillo's Pizzeria & Beer Garden, 6:00 pm – 9:00 pm
• ZaZa Flamenca, World Music with Yael Zaza Flamenca, 7:30 pm – 8:30 pm
• Chillula, Bar with No Name, 10:00 pm – 1:00 am

Wednesday Pier Farmers Market

• The Wednesday Pier Farmers Market at the St. Johns County Pier offers fresh fruit, vegetables, bread, and local arts and crafts every week. With a number of different vendors, visitors can find a variety of unique, quality goods. Each item is handcrafted by these dedicated artists, and the food is locally grown and handpicked.
• This beachside farmers market makes for a great outing on Wednesday mornings. Visitors can browse the huge selection of locally grown goods and then afterward take a stroll along scenic St. Augustine Beach. Farmers markets boost the local economy by giving local merchants an outlet to sell their wares. They also benefit the community by offering fresh, local, seasonal foods.
• Admission: FREE
• When: 8:00 a.m. - 12:00 p.m. every Wednesday
• Where: St. Johns County Pier Park is located at the St. Johns County Ocean Pier at 350 A1A Beach Blvd in St. Augustine Beach, Florida 32080

Boozin' on the Boulevard

• Boozin' on the Boulevard takes guests on a hop-on hop-off service to some of the local restaurants on Anastasia Island.
• This bar crawl begins at Kaiser's Deli & Market and Sogno Restaurant from 5:00 to 6:00 p.m. Guests will then be taken to Blackfly and Odd Birds Cocktail Lounge and Kitchen from 6:00 to 7:00 p.m. The tour will end at Candlelight South at 8:00 p.m.
• Each eatery will have food and drink specials — individuals must purchase a drink first from Kaiser's or Sogno Restaurant to receive a wristband. This band enables entry onto the Old Town Connect bus — a free transportation service for participants.
• Admission: Food and drink prices vary at each establishment. Transportation is provided by Old Town Connect once a drink is purchased at Kaiser's Deli or Sogno Restaurant.
• When: Every Thursday from 5:00 to 8:00 p.m. Note: Dates and times could be adjusted based on the number of sign-ups.
• Where: Starts at Kaiser's Deli & Market at 4 White Street East, St. Augustine, Florida 32080.

St. Augustine Wine Walk

• On the third Thursday of each month from 6:00 p.m. to 8:30 p.m., Casa de Vino 57, hosts a wine-tasting walk. The tour visits several local shops, with wine tastings at each location, and ends with a return to Case de Vino 57 for a glass of wine in the courtyard. Tickets are $35.00 and are availble on their website or Facebook page.
• Casa de Vino 57, both a wine shop and a venue, offers boutique wines and charcuterie to guests in their courtyard, where they can enjoy live music from local performers.
• Admission: $35.00 per person.
• When: The third Thursday of each month from 6:00 p.m. to 8:30 p.m.
• Where: 57 Treasury Street in historic downtown St. Augustine.

Bo Johnson at Cafe Eleven

• Café Eleven welcomes comedian Bo Johnson on Thursday, May 16, 2024, at 8:00 p.m. Doors open at 7:00 p.m.
• Seattle native Bo Johnson makes waves in the comedy circuit by amassing millions of views on TikTok and gaining recognition for his stand-up routines on Netflix and Comedy Central. Touring across the United States and beyond, Bo headlined prestigious festivals like Bumbershoot, Prize Fest, SF Sketchfest, and more.
• Johnson's hilarious antics and routines continue to earn him rave reviews from major media outlets such as Cosmopolitan.
• Admission: VIP tickets cost $25.00 if purchased in advance and $35.00 on the day of the show. General admission seating costs $20.00 in advance and $25.00 on the day of the show. Purchase tickets in advance online or purchase them at Café Eleven on the day of the show.
• When: Thursday, May 16, 2024, at 8:00 p.m. Doors open at 7:00 p.m.
• Where: Café Eleven, 501 A1A Beach Blvd, St. Augustine, Florida 32080. On the corner of A1A and 11th Street, one block from St. Augustine Beach.

Historic Architectural Review Board Meeting

Date: May 16, 2024
Time: 1:00 PM - 2:00 PM
Where: Alcazar Room at City Hall, 75 King Street
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Hello, friends! I apologize for the length of this post. I truly value any advice or guidance you can provide ❤️
I've come to the realization that my self-confidence and trust in myself are severely lacking, and I still have a lot of work to do in order to fully heal. The past four years have felt like a complete blur, and the social anxiety I have as a result of it all is a nightmare.
Timeline Synopsis: •2010: At 18, desperate for relief, I sought therapy and was immediately prescribed 3 different controlled substances and various antidepressants. •2010 - 2013, I found myself in my first relationship, lasting 3.5 years. However, due to our youth and lack of understanding on how to cultivate a healthy bond with ourselves and each other, the relationship eventually imploded, causing my life to shatter into pieces. The aftermath left me feeling lost and emotionally wounded for a long time. •2015: Traumatized when I discovered my Grandma dead at home. In an attempt to cope with the overwhelming grief, I resorted to abusing my medications; taking extra, then running out. This affected my work performance. My poor attendance and decreased productivity on top of that subsequently led to me being let go. In search of help, I checked myself into inpatient treatment. •2016: My ex reached out to me, seeking a friend to share his recent schizophrenia diagnosis. We rekindled our friendship for a short period, but tragically, he took his own life a few months later. •2019: I fell into the wrong social circle and engaged in extensive experimentation with any & all drugs, binge eating, and drinking. •2020, the mounting anxieties triggered by the pandemic caused me to have a severe nervous breakdown. This led to a brief hospitalization, during which I concentrated on detox and recovery. Upon discharge, I worked the 12-step program. • 2021: My mother suffered a heart attack, and immediately went the hospital. She had emergency surgery and was then Intubated and restrained for her safety afterwards. Luckily, I was able to visit her since I was vaccinated. •2022: Arriving back home to find my Guinea Pig motionless and silent in his enclosure evoked a profound sense of sorrow, intensifying the emotional trauma I had previously experienced discovering my grandma. •2023: I experienced a pretty serious seizure while at work. 911 was called and I was brought to the hospital via ambulance. •2024: In January, my Papa passed away suddenly. During the commemoration of his life, my mother unexpectedly fainted and was promptly transported to the hospital via ambulance. Thankfully, after a brief medical assessment, she was given a clean bill of health.
Since then, I've been taking antidepressants and non-narcotic anxiety medication, which have been helpful. I've also been working with a therapist, and I feel like I've made progress in improving my overall mental health. I've made a conscious decision to no longer "mask" my quirks or “tone down” my personality for the sake of my own comfort and healing. I take pride in embracing my uniqueness and being considered "weird." It adds a sense of fun to life. Additionally, I've started swimming, eating better, losing weight, taking vitamins and supplements, and regularly visiting the doctor and dentist.
In 2020, I started dating someone whom I'm still with and deeply love. We've known each other and been part of the same friend circle for 10 years, so I feel comfortable around him. However, there have been instances where he has said things that have deeply affected me and have almost given me a complex. It's important to note that I have been diagnosed with BPD, ADHD, anxiety, and depression, so please consider this when giving advice.
Here are a few examples of his comments: - I'm a very animated and loud person, partially due to my struggle with hearing people, especially him. Despite telling him numerous times to speak louder, he never does. - I'm also sassy and opinionated, which is part of my Italian heritage. - While we were at the gym, I was expressing how something made me feel, which was not inappropriate, and he told me to "calm down." This is something he has done many times in different situations. - He often tells me not to make a scene, lower my voice, stop yelling (even when I'm speaking at a normal volume to him), and not be dense. - I also feel like he always needs to be right, has to have the last word, and often mansplains things to me. This makes me feel stupid and immature.
Whenever I try to have meaningful conversations with him to understand his values, he accuses me of trying to argue. He frequently claims that I sound extremely condescending, rude, and hateful, even though that is never my intention. I'm genuinely just trying to express myself.
When I attempt to explain how I feel or why I act a certain way due to my neurodivergence, he dismisses it by saying that "everyone is a little bit autistic" or "everybody has ADHD." He even goes as far as claiming he has these conditions, without understanding any of my symptoms and complaining about the behaviors that result from them.
I would greatly appreciate any advice, tips, or insights you may have. Thank you for taking the time to read my entire message.”

I am wondering if someone here could help me find the most up-to-date logging and old growth area data.
On the BC Gov website I can see a lot of maps, etc. that seem to be from 2022. I assume that these areas are assessed every few years? Which is why there's nothing newer.
Also, are there any data that is in a format that I could analyze? GIS data works, or just some form of raw data showing coordinates and areas, etc. I want to analyze and map the logging areas and other non-logging covariant data. This includes areas logged, when they were logged, areas of old growth, and fire data.
I can see the FTP site they provide has a few things:
https://www.for.gov.bc.ca/ftp/HTS/external/!publish/OldGrowthStrategicReview/Recommendation6/TechnicalAdvisoryPanel/Spatial_Data/OGSR_Vector_Polygon_Data/PLEASE%20READ%20FOR%20VECTOR%20DATA%20DOWNLOAD.txt
However this seems to only be old growth and nothing digging into logged areas. Unless I'm mistaken.
Thanks!

33M. My only goal in life, since I was probably 16 was to have a family, I made all my future plans around that goal of providing for a family. I was even voted by my peers in 10th grade as most likely to be best father, was kinda an odd category for HS but whatever.
I’m an introvert, I’m not great talking with women in romantic settings and even worse at making moves. I hit the dating scene hard in my early 20s after I felt like I was worthy to have a family, I owned a 4 bedroom house, I set a foundation for a family. I thought that would help me when it came to dating. Turns out women didn’t care, they could absolutely care less if I owned a house or if I was homeless, a few said if we got together that I would have to sell my house and we would buy a house together later so “I didn’t hold power over them”.
Post buying a house I had a lot less money in the bank and a whole lot less time, I felt like I made a horrible mistake, didn’t get any closer to a family and at around 27 or 28 years old just checked out, I already was drinking by then, the constant rejection was too much, felt like I messaged 1000s of women on dating sites, had to personalize most of them which took time and little to no results. So I have been living in a house alone since. Now I guess I have accepted that I will never have a family. But now and then I find myself crazing the attention of women on the internet.
Anyone can message me if they want, I’m mostly interested in chatting with ladies. I would just like to connect with someone for a bit.

There is great benefit, these days, in having a name unlike any other: you float to the top of Google searches. Bolerium Books, in San Francisco, knows this well, although it wasn’t a consideration when it first opened, in 1981. Bolerium’s co-owner, John Durham, runs through any number of explanations for the name, depending on whose leg he wants to pull and how hard. “It was an ancient road in Roman times,” he intoned recently, “large, funny, and sluggish,” while another co-owner, Alexander Akin, roundly mouthed, “Not true.” (The word is a Roman one for Land’s End, in Cornwall, England. The bookstore was once a bit closer to the ocean.) Fittingly, there is no other place like Bolerium, not on the Internet nor in the province of the real. Similes come steadily, none of which really seem to fit. Perhaps Durham’s is best. “We’re like a platypus,” he told me recently, “ugly as fuck and all sorts of parts.”.
This moment of serious American protest against Trump has led to one of Bolerium Books’ best sales years ever.Photograph by Thor Swift / NYT / Redux.
At last count, the store contained 67,385 single titles in stock. Estimates of the time that has elapsed since the last deep cleaning ranged from a jokey “twenty years ago” to a hemming “define ‘clean.’ ” “Nature abhors a vacuum,” Durham quickly noted. A store map gestures at the sheer amount of stuff, with sections labelled as “Reef of Flotsam” or “Onset of Confusion” (right by the entrance), or, in one cramped corner, “Hell.”
The semi-barbed humor protects something serious and deeply essential. Few people walk in (“the door is locked to keep out the unworthy,” Durham wrote in response to a negative Yelp review, though he made sure to mention the password, “swordfish”). Those who do manage to enter find, three floors above one of the Mission District’s busiest intersections, a vast and quiet space populated by seven staff members, thousands of books about and from social movements, densely packed rows of pamphlets and ephemera, and, in the adjacent storage room, great snowbanks of paper. These snowbanks, or “midden heaps,” as Durham calls them, are from attics, basements, personal archives, and libraries across the country. They have all been sold or donated to Bolerium. In them, evidence of the past is to be found, possibly reckoned with, and then, hopefully, sold.
From Bolerium’s snowbanks have come copies of On Our Backs (a lesbian erotic magazine put out in response to the anti-pornography publication Off Our Backs), century-old postcards of pacifist Doukhobors protesting in the nude, intricate Black Panther posters and handbills, an issue of Lumberjack (“with appendix on musical saw”), and the famous inter-commune Kaliflower newsletters from early-nineteen-seventies San Francisco. But with a staff so expert that they can translate a Mongolian treatise on traditional Oirat law using a handmade cheat sheet, classifications like “famous” and “obscure” begin to blur. So do “past” and “present.” Rather than a platypus, maybe the store is more like an estuary: the disparate holdings mingle, rolling in and out according to murky tides. (If you visit the Web site and browse the digital catalog by date, the tides begin to feel more explicable; one week, for example, carries a huge wave of Alan Watts-related material. The next week brings a crush of gay romance novels.) At Bolerium, for better and worse, you can wade around in what Durham calls “the primary source material for history.”
Here is an 1838 publication by the American Anti-Slavery Society and a brochure arguing for the Equal Rights Amendment. A pamphlet from a 1928 speech by Marcus Garvey sits not far from a publication on “incidents in the Life of Eugene V. Debs” written by his brother, Theodore (once, before an important speech, a piece of barbed wire tore “a great rent in [Debs’s] trousers . . . the flap of which hung down like the ear of a Missouri houn’ pup”). Among many other small, sheeny pins is a button from the 1990 AIDS Walk in San Francisco. Here are fliers that passed from hand to hand at protests, meant to convince, assuage, and inflame, and here’s a lump of coal from a miners’ strike in Alabama with tiny chicken-scratch wording: “never forget.” Notably, this year of serious American protest has been the store’s best sales year ever.
Not marked on the map is that other part of American history that has, this year and every other, raged—a section that Durham loosely calls “the White Problem” and keeps behind the locked door of a different room altogether. Accessible to scholars and those who know to ask, the spindly bookcases contain titles like “Gun Control Means People Control” and “Fluoridation & Truth Decay,” as well as several publications by the John Birch Society. “You can’t understand American history without understanding the far right,” Durham told me. “What it’s done, its justifications, its tropes and idiocies.”
It was to the deepest corner of the storeroom that the archivist Lisbet Tellefsen was drawn one afternoon. (Tellefsen visits Bolerium as a “treasure hunter,” and has amassed the largest collection of Angela Davis-related material in the world.) One time, she idly tugged out an issue of The Bayviewer, a magazine that once served the historic black neighborhood that James Baldwin characterized as “the San Francisco America pretends does not exist.”
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The magazine fell open to a page bearing the face of Tellefsen’s father, whom she had not seen since she was two, in an advertisement for his Oldsmobile dealership. That led to an ongoing saga of tracking down half-siblings and cousins found on Ancestry.com. “There is so much history there,” Tellefsen told me. She visits Bolerium once a month, wary of buying back her own consigned material. “It’s so rich with connections. We have an understanding of history, but places like that hold so much.” Bolerium’s official motto, “Fighting Commodity Fetishism with Commodity Fetishism since 1981,” does not quite distill the feeling of holding some of these discoveries between your fingers, or explain the way that ephemera can work to vivify history, very often through its ordinariness. A bit of light browsing recently unearthed a flier from a class reunion of Florida’s first accredited African-American high school, as well as an Electrolux manual from 1933 listing Pope Pius XI as a famous customer.
But history is ongoing, and the present moment needs its collectors. During the Occupy Movement, the store paid a dollar for each flyer or poster that people brought in, then put together a sweeping collection for the British Library. Holdings from contemporary social movements are fairly small, since so much planning, discussing, and arguing takes place on Facebook and Twitter. “Occupy was the last one to have lots of leaflets,” Akin told me, somewhat sadly. Currently, he is collecting material from what he calls the “shock-and-disbelief period” following the 2016 Presidential election. Only from “marinating in the sauce of time” do these things begin to accrue both value and interest.
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Recently, in one snowbank, Akin found a sketch done in creamy pastel of a basalt mountain and drifting clouds. Tiny guard towers dotted the background. It was a drawing of the view from Tule Lake Segregation Center, the largest of the incarceration camps that held Japanese-Americans during the Second World War, and the one which held those people deemed by the government to be “disloyal.” The artist was a man named Tomokazu, surname unknown, who resided for over thirty-five years in Plumas County, California, before being imprisoned at Tule Lake. The piece of paper sat among countless others all bearing dispatches of one kind or another from the past, which is not a foreign country, really, but a place hovering just under our present, and made of paper and ink, buttons, and voices.
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Me [33M] and my wife [32F] have been together for 9 years and married for 7 years now with two children. She's a SAH mom while I work full time.
Back when we were dating, I already knew that she had some unresolved issues with her family and noticed some anger issues where when she gets worked up, it's almost impossible to calm her down and discuss anything reasonable. From what I was told, her parents often neglected her emotions and feelings unless she goes into a maniac state growing up. Being from a dysfunctional family myself, I reckoned that this is something we can work on, but things just get worse and worse once we had kids, especially when her parents are around.
Her unresolved issues with her parents cause her to be constantly upset and uneasy whenever they're around. She can't stand every little thing that they do or say. For example, she would constantly be talking about her mom's bad posture, judging how she interacts with others, nagging about her diet and blood pressure and eventually followed by an outburst about why her mom never listens to her. She does this with my mom too, where she would repeatedly point out her flaws, her dating history, spending habits. I know she comes from a good place and simply wants the best for everyone, and I actually do agree with some of the stuff she says, but she's also making it very stressful for everyone around her. It's like she has a problem with everyone around us that she can't get pass and we're constantly being nagged about different things about how we live our lives and anything that we do or say around her might upset her. When we get tired of listening to her and become annoyed, she'd flipped out and go on her anger spree. Family gatherings are a nightmare for me when she's around because I would be constantly worried about what other people would say or do that might trigger her.
When she's having an outburst, she goes on a rampage for hours of either bringing up past fights or demanding an apology for letting her get to that point of anger. Even when I do apologize, she can still go on for hours after that. The worst part is that when she gets triggered, she'd flipped out anywhere, no matter who she's with. She'd do it in front of friends, our parents and even our kids, which is what I care about the most. I've tried talking to her at a time where she's calm or when she brings it up herself because she also acknowledges that she has this issue. I've stated my bottom line many times, which is to not do this in front of the kids, but it still keeps happening over and over again. During the most recent incident I was so defeated that I told her if this keeps happening, I really don't see a way forward in our relationship - I don't know how long I can keep doing this. The way that she talks and behave when she's mad in front of our kids is really unacceptable for me.
I sympathize with her as much as I can because I also didn't have the perfect family situation growing up. She didn't want kids but decided to do it because she knew that's what I really wanted to do. She's a loving mother when she's not having an outburst and would always feel guilty about it after having one. Giving up on her is the last thing I want to do but I don't know how I can avoid doing that without having our kids constantly exposed to this.

I 21f have been dating my boyfriend 23m for the past 2.5 years. We are in a long-distance relationship. The first 1.5 years were really good but from the past 1 year or so he has developed a weird habit of making useless offensive jokes between conversations.
The reason he gives is that he is stressed about his career and hence doesn't have the mental capacity to work on this issue of his and doesn't think too much before saying it.
His jokes for example:

1. He jokes about dying. I have told him not to make such jokes which hurts me but he still makes it.
   
2. He says jokingly "What if I am here cheating on you with someone else, as you are not living in my city".
   

There are so many more examples of such silly "jokes" he makes which annoys the shit out of me and I end up fighting.
The main issue is that I have REPEATEDLY told him that what he says "as a joke" hurts me so bad and he apologizes every time. But still, he doesn't stop doing it. He again will start behaving this way after some days and will make me mad and then apologize and ask for forgiveness again.
I am so tired of forgiving him. I feel so disrespected that why can't he just stop doing this even when I have told him that it hurts me?
THE LAST STRAW WAS TODAY
My mom loves dancing so she made a beautiful reel on this trending Marathi song "Gulabi saree". I have sent it to him saying "Look at your future mil🥰".
To which he replied "Why is she dancing at this age instead of doing Bhajan🤣" (she is 43y.o).
After he realized that I didn't take his "joke" well. He instantly started apologizing that "it was just a joke, she looks so beautiful"
I just told him I am fucking done with him. He then again started his RR on how sorry he was and would not repeat such jokes.
I understand that he is stressed about his career but so am I. It doesn't mean that he can make so-called disrespectful jokes which hurts me.
I am so mentally exhausted. I haven't slept properly last night. I told him I needed a break from him. I don't know I might now just end this relationship.

That’s it. I’ve been isolating myself for years because I’m so scared. I’m literally googling shit like “I don’t know how relationships work” and “steps to having a loving relationship when you don’t know how”
I am so lonely it’s soul crushing. Yet I still avoid talking to people because I feel that nobody could ever truly love me, I don’t trust people and I have this constant feeling that I have to prove to people that I deserve to be loved. I just don’t deserve it. I don’t know how people do it. Most of my exes have married the person they started dating after me. It’s like I was an example of what not to do. How not to look and act and talk and fucking everything else about me.
I need to stay alone and quit trying, but I want to love and be loved. I’ve never been healthy enough for it. I keep self sabotaging whenever I have a chance. How.

I'm exploring the possibility that I might have NPD as well, so correct me here if I am wrong. But going through this sub has me a bit uncomfortable with the number of times I slipped into what I believe was psychosis without ever realizing it. The problem is that there are many times I think I experienced psychosis strongly, but I still believe they actually happened and weren't psychosis. I think because I am so aware of myself a lot of the time and think things are ridculous or I am a know-it-all, I don't suspect that I could actually have a problem. I'll list some examples below.
For example:

• During a several months long situationship with another girl, we continuously went in and out of contact---usually after an argument I started. During these "separations," I would manically search the Twin Flame subreddit for answers, do and listen to constant tarot readings, and literally (I'm not kidding here) hear God. At first it was greek deities, like Artemis or Hekate later on, but at one point, I was grieving the possibility of no longer having my best friend in my life and heard God tell me (like in my head, voice and all) that she was never going to leave me. When I told my situationship about this, she got genuinely scared for me. I just remember her going, "God? You heard...God?"
• Also during that situationship, I can strongly remember sitting on the floor, crying my eyes out and thinking I had magical powers. Like I could feel the power in my hands and I was fully convinced that if I could get further on the twin flame journey or something, I could harness the power of the universe or something? I had constant dreams about this as well. Like Hekate coming to me and telling me that I had a greater power inside of me than I realized.
• When I was younger, I got really obsessed with the CW show 'Reign,' which was about Mary, Queen of Scots. I got so attached her story (which wasn't historically accurate in the slightest btw) that I ended up having dreams that I was her handmaiden or something, and that I actually knew her in another life. I don't know that if grew into a full blown delusion but I was looking through a random family tree of mine and when I saw Scottish nobles (whose daughters could have been ladies maids), I was like I knew it!! Just to realize that actually wasn't part of my family line. So I think I did accept it as fact.
• Recently, I got into a situation with a girl at my old job (I got fired for poor performance). It was not a good situation at all. But I became fully convinced that this girl was communicating with me through song lyrics on the whiteboard in our workroom. Not only that, it led me to cross a boundary with her because she had already made it clear she wanted nothing to do with me, but I kept thinking she actually did because all the times she made it clear were through other people, and then she'd act differently from how she said she wanted things to be after I walked away from the situation in some way. I kept doing tarot readings that told me certain things to do, and I listened. However, even the cards told me that my assumptions were not based in reality. Like over and over. So idk. I just remember thinking I was completely correct, and then going back and looking over all the pictures and 'evidence' I had of her being 'after me' in some way, and being like, "Oh my god. This is literally all just a strong coincidence." Like at one point, the song of the day board (it was a list of dates and anyone could write a song for each date), there were titles like "Acknowledge Me," "We Still Don't Trust You," and "Honey, I'm Afraid." I thought these were all her, but when I showed other people, they said the handwriting didn't look the same. Like straight up told me the truth. It's kind of what broke me of my thinking, honestly. I'm still not completely convinced she and others WEREN'T screwing with me. But I do think that considering a lot of what guided my actions were the presence of deities speaking advice directly into my head, tarot cards (and tarot readings on tiktok), etc.
• A couple of times, I've caught myself half believing my dogs are robots. I only started to think this was a delusion after I looked at them earlier and saw them as just cute dogs. Now I am back to feeling like they could be robots.
• When I was in high school as well as later on in college, I remember thinking that a God was interested in me sexually and even doing the deed with them. Which...was strange. In high school, I think it was just a fantasy, but later on in college, I think that was honestly "real" in the sense that I thought it was real.
• I don't know that this was a full blown delusion, but as a kid, I remember thinking that since my under eyes turned a greenish blue after I cried (like a rainbow, I thought), that meant that I could possibly be the second coming of Christ? I also got a lot of messages from God a couple years later, like when I was sad, I'd ask for a sign that things were worth going on for and two seconds later a girl came up to me, gave me a donut, and walked away.

Idk. Now that I know when you are going through psychosis, you should go to a doctor, I think I'll keep that in mind for when I go through these moments. Probably would have saved my job, honestly.
Updated to add: I also struggle strongly with paranoia. I used to be paranoid in high school (2014-2017) that ISIS was going to come marching down my street and herd us all into camps or something. My dad used to tell us this was going to happen so it was a very honest to god fear of mine before I learned what islamophobia was. I wrote a whole short story about it. I also used to get constantly paranoid that someone was going to take me or come after me, but when I stopped watching Law and Order: SVU and other violent crime shows, I stopped getting so scared of this possibility.

I’ll try not to make this a novella. I (mid40sM) am a widower. It’s been a couple years now and it still sucks but life goes on. I’ve had my fair share of hook ups since then, but anytime something gets close to serious I bail. I’m just not ready, not sure if I’ll ever be ready to do a relationship. My wife was my person. She was the one. And now she’s gone.
Enter Jenn (late 30sF) and her sister Emily (34). I’ve known them for 20 years now, I first met Emily when she was 14 and I was mid-20s. I never really interacted with her cause she was a teenage girl.
But as the years went on both sisters became really good friends with my wife, to the point where they both considered her their best friend. Her dying knocked both of them on their asses too and one night several months after she died, Emily and I slept together after some drinks. Just a one time thing, we were both adults and moved on.
It’s been more than a year and Jenn just found out. Jenn is… problematic. She’s clearly been in love with me for more than a decade to the point it was a wedge between my wife and her at one point. She loved our kids and she wanted some of her own - she even “jokingly” proposed me being a surrogate several times. That wasn’t happening, so she basically banged anyone from free dating sites til she got pregnant.
Having a kid did make her way more tolerable to be around but, and I feel sorry for saying this about a little kid, but her kids a dead eyed psychopath. And then she went and had another baby with another dude that’s not in the picture at all. This kid doesn’t make me afraid to leave him around sharp objects at least.
After my wife died Jenn basically called dibs to my wife’s very large friend group. That didn’t stop several from approaching me anyway cause it’s public knowledge that I’m just not interested.
Jenn has been persistent but not pushy these years. She pushes to hang out once a week, she follows me around like a puppy when we’re in public together and it’s just really obvious she thinks I’m as good as hers. But then she found out about emily and I, probably while Emily was buzzed and loses any filter.
Jenn flipped out and is calling me a groomer to friends, because I knew her sister when she was 14 and waited to take advantage of her. Everyone who’s been around long enough knows Jenn is full of shit but I have noticed some dirty looks recently at get togethers and at least two women I was on friendly terms with before won’t even look at me.
I don’t think I’m in the wrong but it does bug me that some people appear to think worse of me for sleeping with a woman in her 30s. AITAH?

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Growing up I wasn't allowed to date or go out with friends or get on the computer.. literally anything outside of my home. I get it to an extent but it created a very awkward and backward person. Anyway, enter my ex husband. I was 13, he was 26. A family friend. "Age is just a number", right? Well, when I was 13, I definitely thought so. He'd drink with my dad, and I'd sneak out and hang out with them. My ex, let's call him Tommy, would play footsies with me under the table while dad wasn't paying attention and he would always find reasons to touch me. As I got a little bit older, the touching turned to more and more but there was no penetration until I was 18. We were a couple from 15 on. Of course, all I wanted was freedom. I wanted to go to prom, for example. Someone asked me and I really liked him. Tommy sat and cried and told me that I was breaking his heart and all these ridiculous things. I felt horrible, I didn't go to prom. We end up sticking it out and I try to do better. We get married after 6 months of legally dating and he proceeds to treat me like crap. He expects me to be his little house wife. Cook for him, clean for him and all the while he refuses to take care of anything in our home. I want to start off saying that I had no real excuse for this but, I ended up cheating on him. He divorces me, of course. And here I am. 6-7 years later and doin' fine. AMA:)

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Here I share with you some of the best free tools that were released during the 1st week of may 2024.
Audio examples included & all download links.
In this list you'll find: a transient shaper by Audec, a 4 in 1 saturator by Techivation, an amazing loop based sampler by Dream Date Designs, a cool bass synth by Urban Kits & more.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vcW-c0gSS8k

I have a list of 1000+ tasks, one row for each task and different columns for the categories like Task ID, Ball-in-Court, Prime, Sub, criticality, cost etc. I also have a column for total expect hours (1000 hours) for example. and each tasks has a value. I also have completed hours to date (500 hours).
The pivot table I am trying to make is something like this:
Column A, subcategory, column B total expected hours, Column C, completed hours to date AND column D the percentage of completed hours to date over Total expected hours.
How can I calculate this percentage on the pivot table? Any suggestions?

so i think is should just let this out here so i had a stalker named eye who came out of no where let me explain it was December 29th 2022 I get a message from eye me and him had a not so mature conversation I mostly cussed him out and threatened him because he wouldn't really tell me what his true identity was but that's besides the point to make a long story short I found out that he had been stalking me and my friends personal life online for quite some time for example he knew some internet drama my friend was in and he also knew one of my friends was suicidal and knew that a friend of mine had a crush on someone i don't want to mention i did my research on who this eye guy might be and i found out that its a possibility that he is one of the most well known stalkers on the dark web all of a sudden he sent me a date with a message in Zulu that translated to "just wait." its been a year since I've heard from eye and i certainly hope he never texts me again or better yet even comes back to the internet where ever he is eye will always be watching

I've been looking at different sites and apps for a while,searching for someone that seems like they would be interesting and fun but at the same time can be serious and hold a nice conversation. I really haven't had much success. I was wondering if anyone could share what things have and have not worked for them. I haven't seriously dated in many many years and could use some advise.