Quote to make boyfriend jealous

No matter what I do to get better, it just constantly feels like I fuck things up.
I'm currently on vacation and usually when I travel, I take trips for about 1 week maximum and it's always local to home. But this trip is 3 weeks long (2 weeks in) and across the globe. And I've had a lot of fun. But im.reaching thst point where I'm starting to get angsty, I cant fall into my comforts because I dont have them and I'm getting really overwhelmed. My boyfriend (who is such an amazing man) has been unwell the past few days. I ended up spiralling and logged out of all my social media to just remove myself from everything before i said or did something I regretted. But I got a text from a friend saying that he's now in hospital. I feel awful for taking a step back when he probably needed me most. I did it to look after myself but I now feel selfish.
Also, the friend I am on this trip with had plans to visit a particular place today. Its been the thing she's been looking forward to the most on this trip. But after a really bad episode last night, chronic illness which makes walking difficult and a lack of sleep, I made the decision to back out and let her see it herself. I said whilst she was out, it would be really beneficial for me to just have some time to myself for the first time in 2 weeks and some time alone to just ride this out. But now, she won't go. She's upset about not being able to go. And whilst I know logically, I'm not stopping her, it feels like my fault.
Finally, things are going south with my mum. For context, my mum is terminally ill. I moved out last year, as caring for her full time when she was downright horrible to me was too much for me to handle. Her behaviour, her attitude and her neglect is a lot of the reason I am the way I am the reason I have to feel like this and the reason I react the way I do and the reason I cant just have a normal day. I need to remove her from my life, for my benefit, but some part of me just keeps hoping she'll come around when I know she won't.
Logically, I know I am doing better. I used to have episodes daily and now, I barely have them weekly. I've gotten better at expressing my feelings and putting myself first.
But I feel like I fuck everything up and im hurting everyone around me for doing things for myself. I dont want this feeling to ruin the last week of my trip. I mean, I'm in Japan for fucks sake. But everything is just going wrong and it is so difficult to handle right now. Thanks for reading, dont forget to hydrate today <33

I’m worried. I fight myself on what I should do and what I can do. I have been looking for any way to make quick money so I can pay my rent for April and May. I’m backed up bad. I’ve called my local resources but they say they’ll get back to me within time, I don’t have time!
I get these outbursts of anger and feel bad when I take it out on my boyfriend, but he understands. He’s been out of a job too since December and tries to pick up jobs his friends offer but it’s only enough to buy groceries for the week. I left my job recently after two years because it was mentally and physically challenging.
I start a new job soon maybe in two weeks, but I only have $200 in my bank account. It’s not possible to pay my rent and live.
My sister and her baby live with me since November. She was collecting unemployment until recently, but I think she has to reapply to get those benefits again so she says she’s out of money. I only ask her for $200 a month and now that she’s not collecting, she refuses to help. I should mention she has a savings account with her tax money in it, it’s a lot. She does Uber eats for now, and I said even $20 can go a long way for me but she says no. We argued about this situation yesterday and she hasn’t slept here since.
My mom doesn’t talk to me for no reason since November, I tried reaching out but she has me blocked. I haven’t bothered again because she suffers from undiagnosed mental health issues and I have trauma from how she treated me my entire life. My dad lives in South America and doesn’t make much money but helped me with $100. I was so thankful, but I know it won’t be enough.
I don’t want to give up. Everything in my apartment, I bought with my own money. I worked so hard to have my own place after being homeless and living in shelters when I was in high school and college. It sucks to see that I might end up on that path again. I’m trying so hard to prevent that. If I get depressed or my anxiety gets out of control, I could lose everything.
I was in the hospital on Sunday for having an asthma attack and found out I had bronchitis. The hospital gave me the week off and I contemplated going back to my shitty job every night. I looked on indeed for new jobs and found one, but now I’m waiting to start. Thinking of how long until I get paid again is just a pain.
I’m trying to stay strong every day and night. I keep my thoughts to myself but I just needed to share this, I don’t care if no one reads it. I can’t give in to the darkness, I won’t but I’m barely holding on

We have 3 pure bred great pyrenees. 3 y/o Knox and Sage, biological brother and sister. And 5 y/o Clover, their biological aunt. We have had all of them straight from the breeder since they were puppies
When it comes to feeding the dogs, my mom is super stressed out. She gives them each a scoop of kibble mixed with canned dog food and some water each night because if she doesn't, Knox will literally starve himself.
Initially we thought he was allot like Clover, Clover only eats every other day. Nothing is wrong with her, we had a pyr in the past who would go 1-2 days without eating and he was still overweight. But Knox will refuse to eat indefinitely if it's not prepared exactly as stated
Sage is a little porker, she's overweight because she steals Clover's food on the days she doesn't eat, but if we don't give Clover dinner, she gets jealous and bullies the other dogs.
My mom is super stressed because Sage is very overweight, Clover's food is wasted if we don't let Sage have it, and Knox will literally starve himself.
When we were free feeding kibble, we didn't have any of these issues until Knox got Anaplasmosis and lost a bunch of weight, my mom started making them dinner like this to put weight back on him and now he won't eat any other way.
She doesn't want to put Clover and Sage outside and just feed Knox dinner since she doesn't want a jealousy issue to arise.
Is there anything we can do to help this situation?

(If I mess up I apologize, English isn't my first language.) Don't get me wrong, men get dissed for making jokes about women but that's usually only with famous people because of cancel culture, but in my day-to-day life this is something that I notice.
I could go on and on with examples but I'll just give one- One time I was with my boyfriend and a group of his friends and they had been making S.A jokes, r**ist jokes, sexist jokes (a lot were towards me), ect. They somehow got on the topic of one of my past relationships. The guy was physically and mentally abusive and his friends were saying stuff like, "What'd you do to make him hit you?" and some jokes that I don't think I can say on here.
My boyfriend sort of meekly said, "That's not funny" but didn't really say anything else since they're all really close friends.
I just responded with, "See it is all men, I think we should just kill them all off"
I was joking like they had been the entire time but they all got pissed at me and were ranting about modern feminism lmao
They know I'm a feminist (I've posted abt going to protests for ending violence against women), so they made sure to point that out. They were saying that it's *so* hard to be a man, and all these women hating men (aka not wanting to date them) makes it so much harder. You probably get the jist of it.
So anyway I broke up with my boyfriend and I'm gonna be staying single until I'm in college. Hopefully dudes will be more mature by then. I'm honestly tired of the way men treat me. 👍
Also just for clarification feminism is women being EQUAL to men, not being ABOVE men. <3

hello everyone! my boyfriend recently went to new york on a trip with his friends and purchased a ring he loves a lot. unfortunately he lost it at the airport, and he's really down about it. i want to replace it for him as a gift, but i want to make it a surprise. i want to get as close as i can to the actual place he got the ring from but i've never been to new york so i have no idea where to start. if anyone can give me any information at all about where this ring might've been purchased from i would appreciate it so much :) thanks for your help!

“I burn for you” -Season 1
“You’re the bain of my existence and the object of all my desires” - Season 2
Do we have a quote of the season yet or do we need to see the second half to fully make up our minds?
Any quotes in the running??

Im M22 and my gf is F22. We have been dating for almost 3 years now and I keep getting on her nerves and don’t know whats wrong with me. I do everything I can for her. But she says im too childish and that I probably wont ever find someone and will die alone, if I don’t change.
I don’t argue and try to solve everything and she hates it. Im not childish because im jealous, manipulative, make immature comments, etc. Im childish because im super forgetful and she hates it. She hates when I walk around barefoot and I often forget wearing my slippers, I forget closing the curtains when I close the balcony door, I forget taking out the trash on some days, etc. And its ruining our relationship. I try setting reminders and stuff, but this has always been a problem of mine and is probably also the reason I moved out of my moms house at 18. Another point is that its hard for me to open up at times and when she asks me why im like this (forgetful), my mind is just blank and she gets so mad. I just don’t know how to respond to a question like that and I can’t change who I am, but i am desperately trying to. I also often dont do things unless im told, like washing the dishes etc. I don’t have any other immaturity problems and am doing rather well in all other aspects of life, but holding a romantic relationship has always been extremely hard for me idk why.
Has anyone ever been in such a situation and when did it finally change?

Backstory: A few months ago I decided to ask a tarot reader a free yes/no question. I asked if this girl would continue to talk to my boyfriend. I was really anxious in the moment and the girl said yes. I then asked the same question again only to hear that him and the girl would end up dating in the future.
Now this situation has really messed me up. I can’t stop thinking about this situation. Ever since, I have not really felt or been the same and I’m not sure what it is but I assume it’s because of that. I’ve been told multiple times that it won’t happen and that was just my fears playing in the cards and I thought that for a while and I was okay but for the past two weeks the feeling has came back and I don’t know how to get rid of it or how to feel better like I did before. I know it’s not true bc they don’t even talk anymore and I was just insecure but now I seriously need help bc every time I feel that feeling it makes me want to cry. The feeling is like something is wrong but I don’t know what. I’ve been told to journal, distract myself, practice self love + care but I’m scared nothing is gonna work. Now I’m not sure if I’m overthinking it and making it worse or what. I only believed it at first bc most of the readings I get are 70% accurate

So my 2017 Forester turbo started making a funny noise recently and we took it to the dealership yesterday who basically said that it sounded like a rod knock and they recommended replacing the short block. They quoted us over $18,000 to do this work.
What causes that failure?
Unfortunately it's within the 60,000 mile warranty but much longer than the 5-year warranty. All oil changes have been performed as scheduled, so we originally purchased this vehicle second hand in 2019 from a dealership, not a Subaru dealership.
Has anybody ever heard of Subaru of America making an exception to the time length portion of the warranty?
$18,000 essentially totals the car.

I’m worried. I fight myself on what I should do and what I can do. I have been looking for any way to make quick money so I can pay my rent for April and May. I’m backed up bad. I’ve called my local resources but they say they’ll get back to me within time, I don’t have time!
I get these outbursts of anger and feel bad when I take it out on my boyfriend, but he understands. He’s been out of a job too since December and tries to pick up jobs his friends offer but it’s only enough to buy groceries for the week. I left my job recently after two years because it was mentally and physically challenging.
I start a new job soon maybe in two weeks, but I only have $200 in my bank account. It’s not possible to pay my rent and live.
My sister and her baby live with me since November. She was collecting unemployment until recently, but I think she has to reapply to get those benefits again so she says she’s out of money. I only ask her for $200 a month and now that she’s not collecting, she refuses to help. I should mention she has a savings account with her tax money in it, it’s a lot. She does Uber eats for now, and I said even $20 can go a long way for me but she says no. We argued about this situation yesterday and she hasn’t slept here since.
My mom doesn’t talk to me for no reason since November, I tried reaching out but she has me blocked. I haven’t bothered again because she suffers from undiagnosed mental health issues and I have trauma from how she treated me my entire life. My dad lives in South America and doesn’t make much money but helped me with $100. I was so thankful, but I know it won’t be enough.
I don’t want to give up. Everything in my apartment, I bought with my own money. I worked so hard to have my own place after being homeless and living in shelters when I was in high school and college. It sucks to see that I might end up on that path again. I’m trying so hard to prevent that. If I get depressed or my anxiety gets out of control, I could lose everything.
I was in the hospital on Sunday for having an asthma attack and found out I had bronchitis. The hospital gave me the week off and I contemplated going back to my shitty job every night. I looked on indeed for new jobs and found one, but now I’m waiting to start. Thinking of how long until I get paid again is just a pain.
I’m trying to stay strong every day and night. I keep my thoughts to myself but I just needed to share this, I don’t care if no one reads it. I can’t give in to the darkness, I won’t but I’m barely holding on
Edit: I’m sorry if this isn’t the right place to post this

Abstract
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Overview
The following is:

#	Circumference 🌍	Person
1.	τετταράκοντα [40] μυριάδας [10,000]	Aristotle (2280A)
2.	40 x 10,000
3.	M x 𓂭
4.	Δ x 𓆐
	Y x 𓆼
5.	400,000 stadia
6.	400,000 🏟️
7.	400,000 [600 👣]
8.	400,000 [600 𓃀]
9.	400,000 [X𓃀]
10.	252,000 stades	Eratosthenes (2210A)
11.	360 x 1,111 stades	Warren (42A)
12.	399,960 stades	Warren (42A)
13.	[ομικρον] x [ιωτα]	Thims (7 Feb A68)
14.	OW x IW x [X𓃀]
15.	◯W x 𓅃W x [X𓃀]
16.	◯W⋅𓅃W⋅[X𓃀]
17.	𓊖⋅𓅃⋅𓃀
18.	239,976,000 feet	Egyptians (Aristotle)
19.	151,200,000 feet	Eratosthenes
20.	131,482,560 feet	Modern value

Here we see that the circumference of the earth was EAN coded when the pyramids were built.
Circle-X symbol 𓊖 [O49]?
In step #17, I have merged omicron (ομικρον) [360] symbol ◯ with the chi (X) = 600 symbol, to make the circle-X (⨂) symbol 𓊖 [O49], which is in the names of many Egyptian city or nome names, e.g. Heliopolis, as follows:

• ◯^W ⋅ X = ⨂ » 𓊖
• 360 ⋅ 600 = ⨂ » 𓊖
• 216,000 = ⨂ » 𓊖

In other words, I am conjecturing that the chi X is merged into or inside of the ◯ circle, to form, similar to what Plato speaks about, the Egyptian circle-X or cosmos birth symbol 𓊖 [O49].
We also note:

• 216,000 = ⨂ » 𓊖
• 216,000 = 216 ⋅ 1,000
• 216,000 = 216 ⋅ 𓆼
• 216,000 = {επιμιχια} ⋅ 1,000

Where epimixia {επιμιχια} [216] meaning: “intercourse“ (Barry, A44) or “admixture”, which seems to make sense, meaning that the phoenix 🐦‍🔥 egg 🥚, formed by Ptah, had to have been made or seeded by “intercourse”, meaning the new cosmos was born from an admixture of sexual genomes 🧬, or something along these lines.
Keys

• W (superscript) means “word value”, e.g. ◯^W = 360, the word value of omicron (ομικρον), or 𓅃^{W =} 1111, the word value of iota (ιωτα).
• Stadion (ΣΤΑΔΙΟΝ) {neutral} or stadia (ΣΤΑΔΙΑ) {genitive} = 600 feet 👣, the length of one Greek stadium.
• 🏟️ = stadium emoji; used as icon for the Greek stadia.
• 𓆼 = 1,000 in Egyptian numerals.
• 𓂭 = 10,000 in Egyptian numerals.
• 𓆐 = 100,000 in Egyptian numerals.
• Δ = 4 in Greek numerals.
• M = 40 in Greek numerals.
• Y = 400 in Greek numerals.
• X = Chi, 24th letter, letter value: 600.
• x = multiplication symbol.
• (dot) ⋅ = alternative multiplication symbol.
• 𓃀 [D58] = one foot 🦶or 16 digits on the Cubit.
• 𓅃 [G5] = Horus falcon, 10th unit on most Cubit rules, and letter-number 10 (𐤉) on the Phoenician alphabet; used as pre-Iota (I) LunarScript symbol, i.e. 10th Greek letter.

Quotes

“Mathematicians who calculate the size of the earth's 🌍 circumference Ⓣ arrive at the figure 400,000 stades.”
— Aristotle (2280A/-325), On the Heavens (Περί Ουρανού) (translator: J.L. Stocks) (§2.14:298a15)

Posts

• 111 ordering of the alphabet
• Omicron [360] ◯ x iota [1111] = T-O map Ⓣ circumference [400,000]!
• Type (etymology): the “form” of a letter
• Stadium 🏟️, from Greek stadion (σταδιον) [635], secret name: sthenaros (σθεναρος), meaning: strong, mighty; robust; intense violent. Length: 600 Greek feet, based on chi (χ), value: 600, secret name: cosmos (κοσμος). Earth 🌎 circumference = 400,000 stadiums 🏟️ (Aristotle, 435A/22870A)

References

• Aristotle (2280A/-325). On the Heavens (Περί Ουρανού) (translator: J.L. Stocks) (§2.14:298a15). Publisher.
• Warren, Charles. (42A/1913), The Early Weights and Measures of Mankind (pgs. 48-49). Publisher.

Two years ago (2022) in mid August, I got sexually assaulted by my mom‘s boyfriend. Now what happened may not be as bad as what many others have experienced, but I guess the worst part of it was how my mom and my family “handled” it.
He was a chain-smoking alcoholic and that day my mom and him were telling me about all the bad guys in college and how I have to be careful they might sexually assault me or bully me or whatever. At the end of the conversation, my mom told me to fix my hair in her closet/makeup room and that’s what I did. My mom went downstairs to cook, and I don’t know what her boyfriend was doing, but he kept popping in saying he was just trying to help me, call him up, he’s just trying to show me. He and I had already been on bad terms since we met during Covid. He was her client and he just got out for a DUI. We’d argue a lot, and my mom really didn’t do anything about it.
FYI, he kept trying to kiss me on the lips, but my mom would argue till the day she dies that all he did was kiss me on the cheek. He groped my left boob, I told her this while cupping it. She’d say that he held my side. She wasn’t in the room. She was downstairs cooking and I was screaming. Every time he would come in trying kissing me and, every time she would scream at him too even though she was downstairs because she heard me. At one point she came up so I told her that he’d been trying to kiss me but she thought it was on the cheek so she went back downstairs. Same shit—he comes in saying crazy ass shit, tries kissing me on the lips while my mom and I scream at him… except this time he gropes me, says sorry when he leaves the room and I rush downstairs telling my mom what happened. I was using the flat iron and I had every opportunity to burn him. Honestly a part of me wishes I did but it wasn’t the answer to this situation; it would’ve made things worse for me so I’m glad I didn’t do anything like that. When I went to college I used the resources available to me but I made no tangible improvements or positive effects for my life. I even went straight to the Police Department (not just UPD) I could’ve gotten a restraining order but I didn’t. The officer even asked me point-blank, “So are we arresting this guy?”
I remember on my last day to work that summer (2022), I was talking to my mom and she was asking me if I really wanted to tell anyone about it like it was a bad thing. The same thing happens a few days later when I get my outpatient surgery, she reminds me of her “handling” the situation. Nobody in my family really gives a fuck btw, when I told my relatives what happened they kind of danced around it, were in disbelief and honestly, were kind of telling me that they didn’t believe me. When I told my brother he said straight up that he didn’t believe me he didn’t think anyone else would.
My moms boyfriend doesn’t drink or smoke to that extent anymore. I still don’t wanna be around him, but I don’t have money. I don’t have friends. I can’t just get an apartment and my mom gets very angry at me when I had a summer job (2023) that despite paying for my stay at college and you guessed it, was over the summer, she was mad that I didn’t just stay at her house. Get a seasonal job here and make money here for free! Because he just won’t bother me, she says. I get free transportation both here and there. I don’t wanna go on family trips because he’s always there. I don’t even want to be in the same room as him. She says I’m segregating and making people walk on eggshells. My mom is so pissed about it that she won’t bother keeping us in separate areas. She says I’m segregating and making people walk on eggshells.
Isn’t that the worst part? I still live here. This is my permanent address. Like, I came back here for the summer break, for the winter intercession, and the gap of time before my last summer internship. I have epilepsy. I can’t get a job rn and I can’t make friends bc my people skills are disgustingly bad. I depend on my mom to drive me to my pharmacy. I don’t speak to any of my family because of how they responded to this situation + he’s at every event. Of course everyone loves him. I don’t love my mom, but I tell her I do so I can be on some “positive” level with her, even though we argue almost daily. She has no sympathy, despite saying her childhood was much worse—she loved her mom so much that she’d speak to her every day... like it’s some competition. She doesn’t understand why her kids at various times in their lives have become estranged from not only her, but her side of my family (one is 100% estranged). I can’t forgive anyone.

First, for context; I was raised in a household where I would get either physically or mentally beaten if I did something wrong. For example, if I were to talk back to my mother she would mentally hurt me, which is why I have a low ego and constant suicidal thoughts. Now I'm an even worse person who gets mad every time someone comes into my room.
My mom believes that I am an asshole and I do too. I also get mad when anyone touches me without permission, causing me to flinch back and make them either worried or upset. I have lashed out at my own mother for touching me multiple times without permission and she tends to insult me when I do so.
I do have feelings, I'm not some emotionless person who doesn't care about anyone at all, (Not that people who hide their emotions are all like that) but I like to keep my bad emotions hidden since I used to get bullied for being the crybaby. My bad emotions are saved until I'm at home and reading, that's when I let all my bad emotions out. Nobody cares about how I'm doing (if I'm feeling bad), and I enjoy that lack of attention; which is why I like keeping my emotions hidden.
I found a quote that perfectly describes how I am in public: Chin up, Princess, or the crown slips. I'm not sure where it comes from, or who said it, but in my mind I'm always saying to myself Don't show your emotions, or you'll face bullying again. I hate myself for this, but I feel I should get over it.
Anyways, enough backstory, I just accidentally hurt my dog because I was mad, but gave her some treats right after because I felt bad. I feel like an asshole because I feel like I mentally hurt everyone around me. I don't deserve anyone who's nice to me because I just put on a mask so I can keep friends. I'm the definition of a faker and I don't get why I'm still alive if I just hurt everyone around me. I take everyone for granted and if they get mad at me my mask just slips off. The only negative emotion I show in public is anger and even when I do show my anger I just get backlash anyways so I always try to apologise either the next day or in the next 2 hours. Sorry to anyone who's actually taking time out of their day to read this, I know it's long. I've been forgotten by my father, who left when I was born; He doesn't even have partial custody and he forgot that I exist, leading him to forget my birthday last year. I'm basically the opposite of a narcissist, (for anyone reading this who doesn't know what a narcissist is: it's someone who has too high of an ego) meaning I hate everything about me, from my mind to my body to my personality to my life. I have thoughts of death every day and I know most people want long happy lives, but I don't.
I kind of just feel the want to get on a private jet as the pilot and purposely crash the plane.
I do self harm, but not cutting, I'll get into that later. I already have the tools to hurt myself. I sometimes pick at my body while finding everything that people hate about me, even if they don't say it. I honestly am a brat, and my mom is so helpful at cheering me up. Lies. She is awesome at making me feel better about myself. Lies. My dad is always there for me. Lies. My life is absolutely awesome. More lies. I honestly hate everything about me, like I already said. I feel like everyone I love is so happy and has a great life, other than this one friends of mine who is going through the same thing as me. We both seemed to have started getting suicidal thoughts for the same reasons. Our grandparents hate us (In my case grandparent) and they treat us like dog shit as if we're not human. We also started having these thoughts at the beginning of our fourth grade year (In which we were in the same class.) The only two things keeping me alive right now is that I'm a fucking pussy who can't act on her thoughts, and that I have things to research that I wish I had. A recent example was a study of skin cancer. I believe I have a disorder called Body Dysmorphia, meaning I see my body as a very disoriented version of it. People say I'm skinny but when I look in a mirror I see something different. I enjoy starving myself, which is one of the only types of self harm I do; The other type of self harm consists of picking at my skin with any objects that will pinch, basically I would use a crabs claw if I got that desperate to feel pain. Pain brings me joy for some reason. I'm not talented, I'm only skilled. I have nothing special to keep me going and I'm a financial burden on my already struggling mother. Sometimes I just think of killing myself but then I think about why my mom would think. All of her friends either forget about her, abandon her, or die.
I can't talk to my mom about anything, because she's not reliable with emotions. What I can rely on her to do is feed my want for my life to end quickly.

Hi, this is my first post so I’m not sure if I’m doing this right. But I’d really appreciate your advice or assurance. I (23F) met my (25M) boyfriend in the United Kingdom this year, we have been dating for 8 months . For context, I’m from the U.S. I was on a visitor visa and we fell in love; I applied to grad school for this next year in his country and I got in. However, I am unable to afford grad school and on the salary of the job I am going to school for, loan repayments and rent would take all of my paycheck, making life pretty difficult for me. My boyfriend, who has been really encouraging of the grad school plan said that in light of the loan issue that I should stay home, work, and save money until we are ready to get married. The problem is, he’s wanting to wait 1-2 years. If I was living in the same country I’d be okay with waiting and taking things slow, but I’m worried that if we’re apart for that long with only a few visits ( we’d only be able to take a few weeks off at a time) per year we’d fizzle out and never end up being together. I love him so much and I’m trying so hard to get to be with him. I’m looking into work visas, I’m trying everything. Those who have been together in a long distance relationship longer than I have, any advice to make sure we don’t fizzle? We talk almost every day but I’m starting a new job soon where I’ll be very busy. Thanks so much, sorry if I sound very disconnected, I just got the loan news today.

-In middle school I had one instance of sleep paralysis.
-In middle school, I was organizing things in my room and randomly heard a loud voice right in my ear. I couldn’t make out a word, it was more just a distorted sound like “ahh” but it was definitely a voice. I turned around in shock.
-In high school I had an OBE that lasted about 10 seconds.
(Smoked weed after high school and had no instances for a long time)
-Randomly brought up Robin Williams one night to my ex boyfriend and started talking about him for a couple hours about how amazing I think he is and his accomplishments. Watching videos of him. The next day his suicide was announced.
-Saw a ghost walking towards me, she had long hair, wearing a bonnet and a long white dress. Although, my friend had saw it too.
-Had another OBE that lasted about 10 seconds.
-My kitty passed away and the next morning I woke up to a loud wheel turning sound and as I awoke it got louder. I turned to look at my skateboard, and my kitty was right there looking up at me. It looked sunny in my room. I blinked and she disappeared, then the room changed back to a gloomy color. Which the weather was at the time.
-A few days later, I woke up and was awake at this point, I felt my kitty come lay and adjust herself on my neck in the form of lovely tingles.
-I am also super sensitive in an emotional way ever since I was younger. The complete opposite from my family and friends. They always tell me im too sensitive. I’ll cry at a random commercial that isn’t supposed to warrant any tears, but somehow I’ll find a way.
I am wondering if I should stop smoking weed and be looking more into mediumship and training if I happen to have a heightened ability?

TW// mentions of suicidal thoughts
hey all, i’m using a throw away because my partner has access to all my other reddit accounts, i created a new email to make this account :)
i’ve been debating posting this because i do act pretty crazy in this situation, im starting to realize it’s because i’ve been through 3 years of emotional abuse. just a little background, i’ve struggled with my mental health since i was 11. i got better at around 17, then my bf came along, and i deteriorated. i haven’t noticed until now i guess.
a few weeks ago, i got into a fight with my boyfriend. he began ignoring me. i have trauma surrounding abandonment, he knows this, he’s contributed to it. i didn’t want to have a mental breakdown, they don’t happen often but when they do happen it’s usually triggered by him. i tried to go on a drive to calm down but it didn’t work, i had a complete mental breakdown in a random parking lot 30 minutes away from home. my aunt found me and comforted me until i could drive again, i went back home and when i walked inside, my bf said hello. i thought he was finally going to talk to me so i sat down on our bed while he played a game on his PC. when he finished his match i tried talking to him, but he wasn’t going to talk to me.
at this point, i still wasn’t ok. i was still suicidal i still wanted help, so admittedly i did keep begging him to talk to me. but he kept telling me to leave him alone, to go away, to stop talking to him, he doesn’t care about me, he doesn’t care how i feel, he doesn’t want to talk to me, and his friends and the game are more important than i am. if he had told me he wasn’t in the right place mentally i would’ve accepted that and went to my best friends house, but all he did was yell at me and berate me. the police were called by my mom after i stopped responding to her and wouldn’t pick up the phone. by the time they arrived, i was pretty out of it. i had dissociated pretty hard.
nothing was done of course, my boyfriend informed them i had an “episode” and he’d take care of me. i slept in the bathtub that night with some towels to make it more comfortable. i yelled at him a lot, i screamed at him, but no matter what he’s done to me or how i feel, it’s not okay for me to scream at him. i just feel so lost. i don’t understand why he did that. i’ve been in spots where i’m not fit to comfort someone, but if they’re on the verge of taking their life, i will at least hold them while they cry so they know they’re loved and not alone. i don’t think i deserve that, but it’d be nice if i meant enough to someone that they give me things i’m not good enough for. i had to lie to my coworkers, i told them i got into an accident and that’s why i have a limp, both my wrists are bruised and one of them is wrapped. i did that to myself though, he’s never laid a hand on me. i almost wish he would. i can handle the physical pain of abuse i’ve done it before, but this is so much worse. i want to leave but i can’t.

I think I’m being used emotionally.
Hey everyone. First time posting. 6 months ago I met a girl on the long covid forum. Things were ultra platonic at first. Just mutual understanding and clear willingness to share coping strategies to overcome our post covid issues. We eventually developed a friendship whereby we’d motivate each other but also open up. I’d open up about my fears, hopes and dream. She’d open up about her issues, how she felt stuck in a relationship and her family dynamic. Over the last weeks things seemed to have become increasingly emotionally charged, and sexual. With her making push and pull comments that she’s into me, but that she’s also confused as she has a bf. Unfortunately I have now fallen for the idea of this person, talking to her flows like poetry and we get along very well. However, I do not think she has genuine interests in leaving her boyfriend as she makes comments to pull me closer then pushes away. I also found her Reddit which we originally used to talk. And she clearly up until recently says she just feels sexually frustrated and not noticed by her boyfriend. I have a very bad attachment style fearful avoidant. And I do think I have lots of love to give and recieve. I clearly can’t make this girl change her mind as she has a bf. But I was ok with being just friends before all this. And now she’s clearly filling a void she has through me. Any advice is welcome

TL/DR: Best friend of 3 years keeps making the mistake of paying her bill late. This time making my phones get shut off and me owing 160 just to turn them back on. I cannot help her and cannot risk it again, so I am requesting her to make her own account but she is refusing to accept. AITA? An AITA for continuing to inquire when she will accept the transfer?
Little back story. Bestfriend of 3 years. I added her to my phone plan to save money for both of us. I over these last 2 years have helped her out 9/10 every month by covering her phone bill so she had a couple of day extra to get the money to me. Never didn’t pay me except 1 time and gave her the benefit of the doubt when she said it wouldn’t happen again.
Last September my life flipped upside down. Lost my house, found out I was pregnant, and was screwed over by the person who tried to give me a place to live after the fact. Due to to my pregnancy I can no longer work being high risk making our income a one person income from my husband. So things changed and I made her aware that I could no longer to help her and I have to have her money by the day of the bill being due. These last 3 months I’ve had to ask for the money for up to 3 days after the time like before. (Her and her boyfriend are DINKs “double income no kids” and are constantly bragging about the things they are buying) When I say anything about it she gets defensive saying they’re struggling too. It’s hard to feel sympathy when two days before she’s telling me about everything she ordered that day.
This month we ran into the situation where I had no ability to pay her part and started reminding her a week ahead of which day the bill was do and letting her know I need it when it’s due. Phones were shut off leaving us with owing 80 dollars for her part of plan and 80 for recconect fees per line (3 of the 4 are mine). I informed her that since I cannot risk not having my phone for emergency purposes that I think it would be good for us to part ways in the phone bill area.
I have it now all set and ready all she has to do is accept the separation on my end. She’s refusing without saying anything. So what im wondering is AITA for trying to make her responsible for her bill on her own? An AITA if I were to continue to inquire when she will be accepting the transfer?

Hi. I (23f) have been dating my boyfriend (25m) for over 3 years and weve been living together for about 3 years because i was kicked from my parents. (Me and my parents still talk btw, we're in good terms now). He's always done coke occasionally when one specific friend comes over, which i dont mind but now im starting to. He only does it maybe once every couple of weeks. Hes always been kind of an asshole towards me but hes been showing some concerning signs. Recently he's started hitting himself in the thighs when he gets mad at his game (not when im around), and theres huge bruises when he does. Everytime we argue he completely ignores me even when im talking calmly.
Im not saying im completely innocent, but last night we just got done having sex, and i was already cleaned up when i asked him for some hershey kisses out of the kitchen. When he brough them he kinda tossed a handful at me and it startled me a bit and i yelled "wtf is wrong with you". I felt like actual shit and started apologizing but he kinda dumped the rest of the bag out aggressively onto the floor, or at least most of them (which i had to clean up later). I tried to calm things down before i went to bed but he didnt want to talk. He mentioned something about me being a lazy ass and not getting them myself but i sont remember the entire conversation.

 And a couple days ago at Arby's, he called me fucking annoying in front of my best friend because i wanted him to go to the counter first (i had the card and was gonna pay after everyone ordered). I shrugged it off because we were doing really good and i didnt want things to get rough between us again. And then he got mad that i forgot to order sauce even though he didnt order any. Last night, before we had sex, he tild me my clit wasnt very pretty at the moment. (It was actually just skin peeling off) but he made me out to be unhygienic. I also have epilepsy which makes me slow at times and sometimes i am a bit slow or sometimes ill be in the way and not know because im having focal seizures. I know im stupid, but i don't need to hear it from him of all people. 

Im just worried that maybe him doing coke even occasionally is starting to cause issues because hes usually not that mean in public even when he is a bit of an ass. But it was in front of my friend. I just want to know signs i should look out for before he starts actually getting physical.

What did you not expect about relationships that you’ve learnt now having that experience? People often say relationships are hard work. In your opinion what makes them hard work?
To expand on the “I love you” question I mean did you date for several months then become boyfriend and girlfriend then after a few more months say I love you or did you say you love them around the time you asked them to be exclusive? Hopefully that made more sense.
Do you feel that eventually infidelity is a given? Is cheating truly as common as it seems?
Is the shift from boyfriend and girlfriend to married a big one or does it feel the same?
People in happy long term relationships how did you prevent the relationship from getting stale?
I know I’ve asked a lot of questions but I have so much I want to know and learn from others.
As I’ve dated but it’s always been short term I’ve never had a boyfriend, introduced someone to friends or moved in with someone so a lot of these experiences are foreign to me.