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Post: https://www.reddit.com/zen/comments/1cx1gjl/what_did_ananda_inherit/
WHAT DID BUDDHA TRANSMIT?
There could hardly be a more definitive or significant question.

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What did we end up talking about?

There wasn't much in the way of translation problems. The last line of the poem was mistranslated (over translated?) by several people. The significance of the case was the main discussion point.
There is also probably a glitch where people talk over each other... it doesn't last.

CHATGPT TRANS:

CASE: Kashyapa and Ananda Ananda asked Kashyapa, "Apart from the robe of golden brocade that the World-Honored One transmitted, what else was passed on?" Kashyapa called out, "Ananda!" Ananda responded, "Yes?" Kashyapa said, "Knock down the flagpole in front of the gate."

Wumen's Instructional comments:

If you can turn the phrase around here, you will see that the assembly on Vulture Peak has not yet dispersed. If not, even the Buddha of Vipaśyin would have to ponder it, yet still not grasp its profundity.

Wumen's Instructional Verse:

How does the question compare to the answer?
How many people are blinded by this?
The elder calls, the younger responds, revealing the family's disgrace,
Beyond yin and yang, there is another spring.

Explaining Yin/Yang symbol's meaning:

The Yin-Yang symbol is tightly connected with the annual cycle of the earth around the sun, and the four seasons resulting from it. To investigate this cycle, the ancient Chinese used a pole that they put up orthogonally to the ground, as shown in Figure 4. With this setup, the ancient Chinese were able to record precisely the positions of the sun’s shadow and divide the year into different sections. They found the length of a year to be about 365.25 days. Furthermore, they divided the circle of the year into segments, including the vernal equinox, autumnal equinox, summer solstice, and winter solstice.
In addition, they used concentric circles around the pole, helping them to record the length of the sun’s shadow every day. As a result, they measured the shortest shadow during the summer solstice, and measured the longest shadow during the winter solstice.** After connecting the measured points and dimming the part that reaches from summer solstice to winter solstice (Yin), they arrived at a chart like the one in Figure 5** [yin/yang symbol].

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I was thinking about the fact that it seems pretty reasonable to call somebody up and talk on the phone about something you talk about on reddit everyday... but some people are nervous about this. Why? It's a phone call. Is it the public nature of the phone call? In a coffee shop it's public too... but it's not scrutinized.
Being wrong... is that the big worry? We all have trouble saying Chinese words, remembering Chinese names, and explaining Zen concepts that the Chinese themselves were uncomfortable with. What's the standard for public conversations when it comes to knowledge? Does that standard mean less people want to talk publicly?

Hi everybody. I'm sorry for this post, it just got covered and I need to talk it out. This post is essentially a long whining of a young idiot.. If you'll excuse me, I'll start from the beginning.
I am about to turn 21 and for the last two years I have been tormented by the question of faith. I'll come from afar.. I am from Eastern Europe and as a child they tried to instill Orthodoxy in me.. But at the age of 13, I was led away towards rigid atheism. As a result, the question of faith ceased to play any role in my life, but it returned.
I don't know how to explain my condition. I'm scared.. It's scary because it's likely that none of what I'm trying to believe exists. Life after death, creator, the paranormal.. Thanks to registering on reddit and being in groups like afterlife, paranormal and so on, I managed to calm my anxiety. But now that faith has become shaky.. In fact, I am thrown from side to side: I can read something in this topic and faith returns, and then plunge into the comments of materialists and atheists and faith dies.
In fact, faith feeds me.. She supports the desire to live. Without her, there is no meaning in life. It's so terrible to realize that when everyone leaves, everything will go away.. That the day will come when I will no longer hear my father's jokes, the barking of the dog, see my mother's smile and will not be able to watch my younger brother and younger sisters having fun. All this will go away.. Only faith gives hope that something will happen next.
Faith helps me not to fall apart completely. In my 20s, I live with my parents, I can't do anything, I sit at home for days and only faith gives me hope that I need to move on, I need to try to overcome my laziness, fight.. But sometimes, looking at how the number of atheists is growing, how the world's religions are dying, it feels like I'm just a miserable idiot who tries to believe in fairy tales because of my own wretchedness and because of the realization that I missed my youth..
Sometimes it feels like all these attempts to find evidence of faith are just attempts to escape from reality.. A reality in which I will never realize what I wanted.. I won't read books because of laziness, I won't be able to get into a relationship with a goth girl (I keep trying to join this subculture, but it turns out poorly), I won't be able to find friends after university, I won't be able to stop looking ridiculous.. And there will be only work ahead, work, work, work, work, gradual extinction and watching the death of relatives. Phrases like "Life will fly by" "The time of fun has passed and this time is youth" are also annoying.
I'm sorry, this all sounds like the whining of a 13-year-old whiner.. God, I even mentioned the girl... But.. I really don't know what to do.. Faith dies and with it the desire to live fades away. And the feeling that I missed everything.. While my peers are having fun, playing in groups, being realized, I have a feeling that everything is lost

/uw Part four is here! Here's part one, part two, and part three! This one's probably a little more unpolished than the other ones, but I hope that doesn't ruin it! CW: Death, blood. I made a render in blender, but it got the post removed! Take two!
/rw
The end of the book, thin as it is, draws near. The text is overwritten dozens of times, always with the same phrase: "IT WAS AN ACCIDENT". Same as the other pages, though, it's easy enough to look past the bad coverup job. History cannot be erased, after all.
...
When I arrived at the hospital, I was in bad shape. I had a fractured skull, a missing eye, a lesion in my frontal lobe, and I was in hypovolemic shock. They didn't think I was going to make it.
It was a miracle that I even woke up from my two-week coma, but it wasn't all perfect. From the moment I opened my eye(s), I didn't know where I was. I had to relearn everything. My name, my address, my identity... They were all gone.
It was as if I was a new man who'd been transported into a stranger's body. Everyone talked to me as if they knew me, but I couldn't say the same for them. Especially that drow, Eldred. He claimed we were childhood friends. Every day, he'd tell me stories of our history together, but they were stories I never wanted to hear. It felt wrong listening to him talk, knowing there was a man who knew more about me than I did.
The moment I was discharged, I fled to my apartment. I drew the blinds, locked the door, and cut off all contact from the outside world. I wanted to run away from it all, to start a new life, not some travesty of another man's life.
After a few days of my isolation, Eldred (presumably) got worried about me, and came knocking on my door. I didn't answer. I wanted nothing to do with him—or anyone, for that matter. He was a remnant of my old life, and I couldn't let him influence me.
A couple days later, he did the same thing. He offered some kind, reassuring words through the door and left. He did this again, and again, and again, for weeks. I was running low on food and supplies, so I was faced with a choice: leave my safe haven, or starve to death in my own home. I didn't like either option. Although... there was another way.
After 17 days of his repeated attempts, I finally answered the door.
"Ith!" Eldred cheered. "You... you really answered!"
"Yeah."
"So uh... Have you been doing alright?"
"I'm fine."
He looked over my shoulder. "Have... you not left the house?"
"Not yet."
"Jesus, Ithael..." He pulled me in for a hug, but I didn't react. "Do you, uh, need anything?"
"Could... you go to the market for me?"
He let go of me. "Yeah, of course! I'll... I'll be back!"
"Alright."
I slammed the door in his face. Just another echo of my old life, that's all he was... A few hours later, he knocked on the door again. I almost didn't answer, but then I remembered he had my groceries.
He exclaimed with clearly-forced optimism, "Heyyyy! Hope you've been alright! So, I was thinking, and... I was wondering if you wanted to do dinner together?"
"Not out there. Never out there. Here. Please."
"I figured you'd say that... so I got ingredients! I found this recipe for some pan-seared chicken in the library earlier, and it sounded really good!"
"...Alright." I took the bags from him and walked over to the kitchen. "Come inside."
"I, uh, was going to make it for you—"
"It's fine," I interjected.
I rummaged through the bags for the cookbook he talked about and flipped through the pages. It didn't look too difficult to make, but I wasn't sure how I knew that. This was the first time I had cooked anything, after all.
Assumedly hearing the pans clattering, Eldred wandered over to the counter, sitting down in a chair across from me. "Need a hand?"
"I'm alright."
"Are you sure? I mean, you were just—"
"Shut it," I commanded. I didn't mean to be so stern. What had come over me? I decided to brush it off. The recipe called for a diced onion... I needed a knife.
He slumped down in his seat. "Sorry... I, uh, got these books for you, by the way."
I glanced up from the cutting board. "...'Healing trauma: a guide for survivors'? And... 'How to cure amnesia'?" I scoffed. "If they could have fixed it, they would have, Eldred. It's incurable."
"We can't know until we try!" He strolled over into the kitchen, flipping to a bookmarked page. "See? This one here says—"
"It doesn't matter."
"Ithael... I'm here for you, man. I'm just trying to help—"
"And I don't care."
I focused myself back to the task at hand, ignoring his look of disdain. The room fell uncomfortably silent. I needed to fillet the chicken. I rummaged through the bags, trying to find—
"Seriously?" Eldred huffed. "I put in all of this work, and you just... don't care?"
"Never asked for it." Now, where was I? Right, chicken—
"That doesn't mean anything! Let me help you, you're clearly struggling!"
"I could manage without you." I continued to avoid eye-contact.
"Why are you so dead-set on pushing me out of your life?!"
"You were never in it to begin with, Eldred. I'm not the Ithael you knew."
"And who cares that you aren't?! Can't we still be friends?"
I tried to explain, "You're just a remnant of my past—"
"And that's an excuse to treat me like shit?! You know what?" He grabbed the books. "I'm done trying to fix you."
"Fix me?" I scoffed. "So I'm a problem, then? Something to be solved?—"
"You're twisting my words! Why... Why do you hate me?!"
"Face it: I'm a different person! Move on with your life, already!"
"What gives you the right to say that?!"
"Oh, what gives me the right?!" I waved the knife around a little too recklessly. "Were you just in a coma for two weeks? Did you just get thrown into a world that knows you better than yourself?! Where's your excuse, huh?!"
"...What do you want from me, Ithael?"
"I want you to get out of my life!"
Time slowed to a crawl as a deep pit formed in my stomach. I yanked my hand back like I'd touched a hot stove, and the knife... clattered to the floor. That look in his eyes... I'd never forget it. I had never seen a man so afraid before.
He grasped at his neck, his face turning pale as his hands soaked with blood. He fell to his knees, mouthing some words at me, but the only sound that came out was a sickening gurgle. He struggled to keep his balance as he fell flat on his face. His breathing grew labored and shaky as he lay there, a crimson puddle forming around his neck.
I knew that I should have gotten help, but, no matter how hard I tried, all I could do was watch. He cried onto the tiled ground, his breathing growing quieter and quieter, until he finally went silent.
What had I done?
...
It seems that he forgot to put any kind of warding spell on this newspaper clipping, as if he didn't expect anyone to get this far. Or perhaps he was too preoccupied with deceiving himself.
"As rumors regarding the disappearance of Eldred Wyndorn continue to circulate, the enigmatic Ithael Ralich opens a new therapist's office. In response to the whispers, Ithael states, 'There's a profound lack of support in this world, and every person could stand to have someone like Eldred by their side. I hope I can step up and fulfill a role he would have approved of.'
In other news, authorities are taking steps to curb the rising number of missing persons cases. Officials urge citizens to adhere to newly-instated curfew until the threat is solved, but claim there's nothing to worr—"

I could use advice about my relationship. Recently I (25F) started seeing a girl (27f). We met through a mutual ex (got cheated on by the same dude) and essentially have been best friends and unseparable since meeting almost a year ago.
I do really love her, I think she is a wonderful person, beautiful inside and out, one of the sweetest people I've ever met. I just don't think I'm falling IN love with her. I was crushing super hard in the beginning of our friendship but I didn't really want to pursue because the situation we came from was fresh, but about a month ago she asked me to start going on dates and stuff and I was SO excited she had feelings for me too.
My thing now is that it feels rushed, even though I was willing to rush too. She is very much a U-Haul lesbian and talking LOTS of BIG plans for our future (she also has a 5 year old son) that I don't necessarily see for myself, let alone so fast. I told her in the beginning I was also nervous about being a large part of her child's life because I've never wanted kids myself, and now that I am spending considerable amounts of time with them I am so tired all of the time. I feel like I'm forcing myself to participate when my mental battery is low, and I know neither me or her want love to feel like a chore. She also talks a lot about how she hopes our mutual ex knows about us, how she wants to vandalize his property (we both already totalled dudes car after we found out) , etc and it makes me feel like a revenge plot a little.
These are just small things I feel already poking at me in the beginning of our relationship. I don't want to repeat my own toxic patterns of letting my feelings build up until I explode. I know I need to talk to her, but I feel I'm going to upset her so much and I don't know how to phrase what I'm even feeling. In my head I'm thinking "if she's too much, go find less" and like I'm an asshole for not seemingly reciprocating the same feelings she has. I want to stay her friend and in her life, I just don't think i can meet her needs as a partner.
Also please don't hate me for how I'm speaking about my feelings, I have extremely bad untreated anxiety and depression due to losing health insurance so my brain chemicals are extra spicy and mean to me, especially about a wonderful girl actually wanting to love me and im trying to let her. I don't know if I'm picking apart something good to self sabotage, or if I'm invalidating my own feelings to not hurt someone else's.

I don’t know what to do. I have tried absolutely everything.
So I’m a woman in my 30s who has a degree, a good enough job and all I do is work, come home, eat alone and loneliness is eating me up.
I have felt this way since I was 23 years old.
I don’t have a community of friends. I have around 3 fairly close people who were from different parts of my life (one an old job, one from high school, one from college) who I see now and then but there’s no intense, talk constantly, I can tell them anything kind of friendship, they are just people I can grab lunch with now and then months apart.
My dating life has been horrendous. I can’t even explain how bad. It makes me feel like I’m this disgusting rat. All 3 friends and family members plus random people I’ve known throughout my jobs and things have all commented on how strange it is that I don’t have a partner and how badly things go for me.
The people I have dated in my past have all treated me very similarly. As in, I’ve never had an amicable breakup that ended nicely. They’ve all left me feeling awful. Everyone has always been extremely blunt in telling me I’m basically not good enough. Some phrases I’ve heard were: “you make me feel like I want to get myself back” “I didn’t ever see a future with you and didn’t know why I didn’t tell you this before” “you’re boring” “I understand why your friends and family don’t bother with you” “I just don’t care about you” “
I don’t drink alcohol and all these people told me at the start it wasn’t a problem for them. But sooner or later they would comment on how nice it would be if I joined them for a wine out on the porch after work or be able to go to a cocktail bar. And they would pressure me into doing it despite my strong stance on just not enjoying it. It almost seemed like everyone I dated was a disguised alcoholic even though they weren’t because that was the topic of a lot of our arguments … even though I know they weren’t in their “normal life” but just with me alcohol seemed so important that I didn’t do it.
I always came away feeling awful. I have an array of hobbies and find myself interesting - care for animals, reading, hiking, nature, skiing, cycling, I draw, and also write stories - nobody was ever interested in reading any or caring.
Whenever I go out with friends their partners… care. It’s something I noticed a lot. They’d text or call and ask for updates. Even when I was in relationships this didn’t happen. I’ve never, EVER had a partner or boyfriend who cared about me. This is not normal and I’ve never felt loved.
Both of my parents aren’t here either and I have a weird relationship with my brother. He’s married with kids and we aren’t close. I’ve tried and again I feel “not enough”. He tells me he doesn’t WANT to go on vacations with me because I don’t drink and he likes to go to bars and sip wine at nice places and I’d just not be compatible with him on holiday. He therefore doesn’t ever ask to hang out with me in our own country.
I was only ever close with my mother and miss her so much it hurts. I don’t feel connected with anyone and feel my personality must be so awful that nobody wants me around.
I’ve travelled a lot and even lived in other countries and feel deflated. If I do something pretty cool or a nice achievement I can’t tell anyone. Sure, a couple of my friends might send a nice text but I have nobody to hug, kiss or hype me up. I come home to my empty apartment and just have my own thoughts.
Every date I go on recently is a reflection of my past. People just seem to be super interested in the start, as in.. I have no issues getting matches and getting a good conversation flowing, sometimes even up to three moths of dating but then it ends. The same patterns occur where they suddenly don’t want a serious thing and are gone.
I’m broken making these constant deep connections with strangers only to then feel like I never knew them at all.
Friends have told me in the past I am too nice and fall too hard and people can see this but I don’t get it.
I pour my heart and soul into connections I do make, am sweet and caring and it’s never enough for people. I’ve never ever felt anything was ever reciprocated.
Everyone around me has a marriage - a stable, grown adult marriage with house problems and real life stuff, kids or engagements, stuff like that. I want that so much. I want a person to share my life with. I am so tired of being alone and being on this age on apps and going through the same things feeling so unloved and unwanted.
I look around - and this is going to sound judgmental and I don’t mean to be. But I look around at others I knew from school and friends and things and even people who are either not very attractive or even people with horrific personalities (mean, screechy, drama central kind of people) have good loyal husbands and a fairly decent enough life.
I feel like I’ve witnessed multiple situations where people cheat, so awful things and still someone is FIGHTING for someone to stay, fighting for love, somebody is a staple in their life worth it.
For me that’s just exactly what I feel I don’t have. Nobody has ever fought for me. Never cared enough to even go into a serious, let’s live together, maybe get married situations. Nobody has ever made effort the way I do. I’m good looking enough, not the most sexy person in the room but get told I’m natural beauty, cute and stuff like that. I try and take care of myself. I have that “sweet shy gentle” type personality and everyone I meet tells me I have such a good heart and soul. I really do everything for people. So I don’t understand.
I’m terrified of this continuing and I’m exhausted. I don’t feel like I belong anywhere. I’m absolutely broken with feeling like my whole life has been loss around me, in terms of death of my loved ones and also loss of people I’ve cared for and wanted something with, loss of friendships that were once more solid and now are casual, just loss of everything.
Like I said I’ve tried travelling, lived in other countries, joined so many hobby groups and clubs, the amount of nights I’ve sat at a random meet up of a social night with a soft drink and chatted and gave it my all for nothing to come of it is hard to remember, I’ve even reached out on social media to old friends from random hobbies and school and nothing comes of anything.
I don’t know what else to do. I enjoy my own company but I’m now at a point where it’s depressing me so much. I don’t want this to be my life. I want to go to theme parks with someone and feel alive. I want to book holidays with someone and get excited. I want to pack together and prepare their bags. I want to ask someone about their day. I want to share plans. I don’t want to just come home anymore and stare at a wall. Constantly see people thriving on social media. Have no family at important holidays. Nobody to celebrate things, I feel so empty and not even a part of society when I see the beach packed with people, gifts for sale in stores, etc. it’s not for me because I have no one.
I don’t know what else to do. If something cool happens in my day it didn’t really happen because I am literally by myself and have nobody who cares. I feel like other single people still have close friends or a mother or father who is interested, even a community of some sort. But I am literally alone.
Even when I do stuff with friends it’s only for an hour or two and I’ll get a taste of what a nice happy life is like, maybe an hour walking along a nice beach or a nice dinner somewhere with people around us then I’m back to being alone when they go back home to their husbands and have a cute night.
I cry everyday and don’t understand this. I’m so envious of people who have tons of people in their life. I never will have that even if I find a partner. But it just kills that even that part doesn’t exist. I can’t even explain how empty I feel. My birthday went by with one text message from one of my close friends and the other two sent one days later saying they forgot and had been busy. It’s like I don’t exist. And I’m terrified and don’t know what to do.

(Originally meant for UnsentLetters but they wouldn’t let me post for some reason.)
Dear F,
Hey. I’ve written a few letters to you before. Under other aliases— even sent some dumb shit out into other places for venting ‘n some meant for advice ‘n junk.
I think with this one, I’m gonna try really hard to force myself to write one of these letters whenever I get the urge to message you— I know you don’t want me to, and that’s alright. It makes sense. I know you don’t care about working through or unpacking things anymore, and that you just want to move on with your life.
I fucked up. If I was better to you, everything in my life would be better— not just because you’d still be with me, but I’d be… better. I don’t think I would’ve gotten into acting as much as I have, but I would’ve kept up with my art more. I would’ve had all of our friends, creative and talented people I loved building things with. That’s a selfish point of view, though.
At the end of the day, there’s no reality where I could want you in my life for unselfish reasons. I was bad to you. You deserve better and always have, and begging to be a part of your life again would be… well, yeah. I already said it. Selfish.
I see you in every person I meet. Every time I feel even the slightest bit of fondness for someone I always unpack it to being because part of them reminds me of you. I think about how you saw art and life and— Augh. You make me want to cry— Wait, no. That’s not fair.
I’m the one who put myself in this position. You aren’t the one doing that to me. I love you. I’ve always loved you. I’ll never stop loving you. I’m sorry I ever thought that I did.
Part of me likes to imagine you’ll see this and realize I really am still worth talking to. I know there’s basically no shot you check out a place like this, though. I’m also doing a piss poor job of writing a letter that conveys any reason for you to think that, but still.
That reminds me. A while back, when everything was fully falling apart, you asked me— “Why did it take hurting me for you to become a good person?” That reverberates in my head all the time. I’m not sure I was a good person then, and I’m even less sure if I am one now. There’s definitely some truth to that’s though, even if it’s not so cut and dry. I’m not sure why I’m… better now, more mature? I get the feeling it was a bit of a coincidence in timing— hitting my mid 20’s and losing most of my immediate family probably just sent a shock to my system. I think that’s also part of why I didn’t fully grasp the gravity of how badly I was ruining our relationship.
Some choice phrases, specific moments where I could’ve guaranteed everything would work out and we’d all be happy— the pop into my brain like a knife. It always hurts.
My only comfort is imagining that even if I had done everything right— You’d still be happier with whatever your life is like now than you would have been with me. I can only hope as much. You deserve that.
—The Boy Who Was Once Your Doofling

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This is a subreddit primarily focused on modern pop music, but for his 120th birthday I want to take a moment to remember one of the most iconic pop acts in American history:

Thomas Wright "Fats" Waller

A jazz pianist, a singer, and a prolific songwriter famous for his ability to jump onstage and "lift up the band," Fats Waller was a regular fixture of the nightlife scene in New York (an important figure of the legendary Harlem Renaissance) and toured his act all around the country in addition to working as a recording artist in the budding record industry.
In a way, he was one of America's first pop stars- a musical prodigy who dropped out of high school, broke into the music industry when he was a teen, sold tons of records, and developed a huge onstage persona and lived a hard partying lifestyle. We've heard that story a million times, but Fats did it first.
An often repeated story about him recounts a shocking incident where gangster Al Capone kidnapped him off the street to force him to play at a birthday party, because everybody wanted to party with Fats Waller! A less repeated story is this one I found in an NPR article that describes him selling eight of his original songs in exchange for eight hamburgers, which he then consumed in a single sitting.
So certainly, a larger than life figure.

The Records

His legacy as a founding figure of America's pop scene extends to a place you might not expect: back in 1926, he signed a recording contract with the Victor Talking Machine Company, one of the earliest manufacturers and distributors of phonographs and records, which would be bought out by the Radio Corporation of America (RCA) in 1929. Then in 1968, the company would be renamed... RCA Records!
RCA is still a powerful record label today and it's partially thanks to Fats, who was a big moneymaker for them in the early days of the record industry when they were literally selling records.
Over the course of his twenty five year career, he copyrighted around five hundred recordings- supposedly, the label would send him into a recording booth with bunches of sheet music bought from Tin Pan Alley composers and he would rearrange them on the spot to give them that special Fats Waller touch!
But he's best remembered for his skills as a pianist and, most importantly, his songwriting skills. I want to take a moment to highlight that because I firmly believe he's one of the greatest songwriters in history- many of his hits have been accepted as standards and are still in rotation with jazz singers today.

The Music

You might have heard his song "Ain't Misbehavin'," which became something of his signature song after he performed it in the landmark film Stormy Weather (1943), and it's the perfect encapsulation of his style. A clever piano line, a catchy melody, a touch of humor, and a lot of heart. It's just timeless music.

I know for certain / The one I love
I'm through with flirtin' / It's just you I'm thinkin' of
Ain't misbehavin' / Saving my love for you (for you)
(And you) (And you)

There's a tongue-in-cheek sense of humor to the song that's signature Fats- in addition to the lyrics he wrote, he was known to improv and throw new jokes in on the fly during live performances.
We're lucky enough to have footage of him performing "Your Feets Too Big" (another one of his signature numbers where he chastises a woman for, you guessed it, her foot size) and you can just see the charisma oozing off of him as he banters with the band and makes eyes at the camera. All while playing the piano too!
And he was no innocent either, often lacing his songs with innuendo that will shatter any illusions you have about old music being overly conservative. Take, for example, Hattie Noel's recording of "Find Out What They Like," which begins with a disclaimer that the song is "strictly about home cooking" before she sings this:

Find out what he likes / And how he likes it
Go on and give it to him just that way
Give it to him when he wants it / And any time he wants it
And don't you have a single word to say!

He was often performing in nightclubs and bars, which meant he knew how to get the crowd going- "The Joint Is Jumpin'" is the quintessential 1920s party anthem, with the title referring to a secret code phrase that bootleggers would use during the prohibition era to let people know that a party had illegal alcohol. The jaunty music he wrote did a lot to get people on the dance floors as well!
But though he's associated with lively entertainment, there was some grit beneath all that as well. Despite his success, Waller was still a black man living in early 20th century America, and he channelled that into legendary "Black and Blue" (a hit for Louis Armstrong) which is considered by some to be one of the first jazz protest songs:

I'm white inside, but that don't help my case / 'Cause I can't hide what is in my face
How would it end? Ain't got a friend / My only sin is in my skin
What did I do to be so black and blue?

Whatever the occasion, Fats had a song for it.

The End

But like a lot of great artists, Fats had his troubles. He was known for his hard partying lifestyle and frequent money problems that pushed him to be constantly working, and he would tragically pass away in 1943 from pneumonia while on tour.
The man was only 39 years old at the time, but as of today his legacy officially stretches 120 years! So spin a record today for Fats Waller, and get the joint jumpin' in his memory.
If you'd like to hear more of his music, I'd strongly recommend setting aside ninety minutes to watch the Broadway musical Ain't Misbehavin' because it's an incredible piece of theatre that showcases his music spectacularly. Diana Ross & The Supremes did an adorable tribute to him on The Ed Sullivan Show that's worth a watch too.
Any other Fats Waller fans in the sub? What are some of your favorite recordings of his songs?

Wade's visor beeped to life as his alarm system went off, the murder drone's clock showing the time, "8:00 AM", changing to his green-yellow eyes as he woke up. Tina's visor activated as well, the drone girl's own alarm activating she awakened from slumber with Wade.
Stifling a yawn, Wade looked to Tina as he rubbed her back, easing her as she rose upright. "Good morning, sweetie."
"Morning, Wade." Tina replied quietly as she looked to Wade, the two drones smiling warmly as they took in each other's presence. Noticing they were both almost completely bare of clothing, the two drones blushed as Wade began to move off the bed.
"Well, I should get something on." The former worker drone stated as they touched down on the floor, Tina grabbing her green shirt from the counter as she tried to get dressed as well.
"So should I." Tina said back as she put the shirt on, memories of their recent night together still fluent in her mind as she slowly walked over to the kitchen.
The last hours of the past night had been calm for the most part, Wade and his friends detailing their tragic capture, the loss of his brother Ron, the rescue of the drones, and finally, Tina and Wade's miraculous escape from the factory before returning to the base. After the chatter in the bar, the group split off to go their separate ways for the time being, Jasmine going with Wade and Tina to help them into her place before leaving them to watch it while she went to get some food for the next day. During their quiet stay in the apartment, Wade and Tina made small talk over what to do in the future before having what humans would call a... very pleasant night together.
And now, with the new day approaching, the drone couple had to get ready for whatever came ahead. Walking over to his clothes on one of the vacant chairs in the living room, Wade picked up his shirt, slapping it on him before glancing to Tina, who merely wore her copper brown pants and green shirt from yesterday. Smiling at his girlfriend, Wade spoke to her as he turned back around to continue redressing himself. "Seems Jasmine went out somewhere this morning. I don't see her anywhere."
Tina listened to Wade as she inspected the counter, noticing a small sticky note lying on it as she took hold of it. Tina could tell it was left by Jasmine, given the handwriting. The note said, "Morning you two! Went to get some food I forgot to pick up, I should be back shortly after you wake up. - Jasmine"
The pilot drone smiled as she read her sister's note, then turning to the living room to speak to Wade. "She went to get some breakfast, we should expect her to come back any minute now." Opening the fridge, Tina grabbed two cool cans of oil, one for herself and another for Wade. Setting the cans down on the counter, Tina closed the fridge before taking hold of the cans again, taking them with her to the living room where a fully dressed Wade now resided at.
As Tina took a seat next to Wade on the couch, the disassembly drone examined his built-in smartcomm, trying to add all the still active contacts he remembered off the top of his circuits as he spoke to Tina. "It's gonna be hard, being my own person without Ron." Chuckling, Wade smirked at Tina, finding himself unsure at his own words. "Or maybe I'm just overreacting."
Tina chortled at Wade's inconfidence as she tried to bring him some, handing him one of the oil beverages as she spoke. "I think you'll do fine, honey. I've run into some disrespectful humans in my life too."
Wade nodded in understanding as he took a sip of the oil, the sound of the front door opening catching the drones' attention as Jasmine walked in. Carrying a paper bag full of food items, the human pilot spoke aloud. "Morning, you two! Just had to finish an errand I screwed up last night."
"Oh, it's not a problem for us, Jass." Wade replied as he took a sip of his oil, Tina looking over to the kitchen wall as she listened to her sister.
"How was your night? You lovers passed out on me when I came in, so I just rested on the couch." The lover drones gave looks of apologetic concern as Jasmine walked back into the living room, the woman noticing Wade and Tina's faces as she continued speaking. "It's nothing, though. I slept well."
"I hope so, we didn't mean to take up the whole bed." Tina responded as she gave a blush of embarrassment, Wade nodding in agreement as Jasmine replied back.
"I did, really. Besides, you two deserved the bed after all you put up with yesterday. Gotta have some place to blow some steam."
Wade and Tina smiled at Jasmine's comment, then blushed as Wade questioned about her phrasing. "Wait, you mean that as a euphemism or...?"
A knock at the door shut up the discussion, Wade standing up as he offered to handle the visitors. "I'll get the door." Tina nodded as he walked over to the apartment entrance, checking the small peephole before opening the door. Looking down, he saw two beings: a human and drone soldier whom he assumed were from the Coalition given their specific body gear.
While he took notice of the militia duo, the drone soldier spoke up to him. "Good morning, we're looking for a..." He lifted up what appeared to be an ID card, Wade glancing at the object as he heard the drone continue his question. "...Wade Carter? We heard he resided here since last night." Looking to Wade again, the drone stopped himself upon finishing his sentence, then picking himself up as he spoke further. "Come to think of it, you look like him."
Wade smiled warmly as he spoke to the two guests. "That's right. You need something?"
"Eh, more like the other way around, actually." The drone soldier replied as he handed Wade the ID, the former worker drone taking it in his hands as he glanced over it. The ID showed him from when he was still a worker drone, but was thankfully untarnished from the factory as Wade held it tightly. Before he could speak, the human soldier handed him a pouch carrying what Wade presumed were a few more of his personal belongings. The drone soldier spoke once more as Wade took the pouch. "We found these while scavenging the storage bays at the factory, we've been heading around delivering them back to those they belong to."
Wade smiled brightly before finally speaking in a grateful tone. "Thanks, Sirs. If there's anything I can do to help, just let me know."
The two soldiers nodded as the human one replied. "Just doing our job, Mr. Carter. Have a pleasant morning." With that, the troopers departed the apartment complex, leaving Wade to himself as he shut the door.
Heading back inside, Tina and Jasmine looked to Wade as the former spoke to him. "Who was that?"
"Just some boys from the Coalition, and just like Nathan said, they finally found my ID!" Wade answered before showing the card off, Tina grinned happily as she saw it, Jasmine giving a simple smile as he spoke further. "Feels good to have it back, I think that was what was keeping me down a little yesterday."
"Well, at least you won't have to worry about that anymore." Tina replied as Wade put the card in his pocket, taking his seat again before setting the pouch at his legs. Taking notice of the pouch, Tina asked, "What's in that? Battery candy?"
Wade shook his head as he began pulling out the items inside the bag, speaking to Tina as he examined them. "Oh, no, looks like some more of my belongings." Once he was done, Wade put the pouch on the couch's cup holder, on the space behind the drink holders themselves. The items were other various cards and papers with various personal information of Wades written on them, along with Wade's wallet. Wade found it almost comical that the items were all separated from each other, rather than being inside the wallet after getting cleared out.
Tina seemed to agree with Wade's thoughts as he began reinserting the cards into his wallet. "Well, that's silly. They just put everything in that little pouch instead of putting it all back in that thing."
Wade chuckled as he put his ID into the frontal window pocket of the wallet. "Yeah, guess they had to clear every little part of it before sending it off." As he finished restocking his wallet, Wade glanced to the pouch before continuing. "Besides, that IS a nice pouch."
"It sure is." Tina replied before taking another sip of her oil can, Wade putting his wallet away as she spoke again. "On another subject, however, you think we should go see if Nathan's around? Him and Kurtis could come by and have some small talk."
Wade nodded as he started to speak, but stopped as Jasmine spoke first. "Actually, I ran into F earlier while at the market. I heard from her that Nathan was going to be joining her for a date later this afternoon." Glancing to Wade, she finished with, "So he might be already busy for the moment."
Taking his own oil can, Wade shrugged his arm as he replied. "Eh, no problem with that. Don't wanna kill a growing relationship, now do we?"
Tina chuckled lightly as she agreed with her boyfriend. "Indeed, if it were us, they'd probably do the same fo-"
The chatter stopped as another knock sounded at the door, Wade moving to get up again as he glanced to the ladies in confusion. "Another visitor?"
"You think it could be F?" Tina made a wild guess as Wade approached the door, glancing out the peephole in slight surprise before opening the door.
Wade felt as if their talk about the Ceres couple had been a form of summoning as he saw F and Nathan standing at the door, bearing strangely serious expressions as they were greeted by the former worker drone. "F! Nathan! Funny timing, we were just talking about you. Come on in, have a seat."
As the two walked past Wade, F pat him on the shoulder as she spoke to him. "As much as I'd like to visit Wade, I'm afraid we're not gonna be here long, nor are you and the Fowleys."
Wade raised an eyebrow at her reply as he followed Nathan and F, the two simply standing in front of Tina and Jasmine as Wade returned to the living room. "Oh?"
"We're leaving? Should we get dressed and pack our things ASAP?" Tina asked with mild concern as F replied to her.
"Yep, you're on the ball with getting ready, but we're... not exactly leaving." The disassembly drone's words brought a confused face from Tina as Nathan clarified his crush.
"We got a call from J, just as we were heading to one of the diners here." The two drones paused for a moment, glancing to each other as they almost spewed out about their date, but shook it off as Nathan continued with little hesitation. "She told us that Tessa had intercepted some kind of transmission, one that might help us clear up this situation with the company faster than we initially thought."
F gave an affirming nod on Nathan's explanation before adding to it. "Her and J are playing host to a meeting held by the general stationed here, and she wants us to attend." Glancing over Wade and the Fowley sisters, she finished the explanation with, "They especially want you two to come as well, given what you both went through."
Wade and Tina gave blushes of embarrassment at the news, honored by the invitation but also a little uncomfortable with their elevated status as they glanced to each other. After taking a moment to process what they heard, Wade broke the silence. "Well, I did make that promise at the factory, and to J and Tessa earlier... and I intend on acting on said promise." Looking to Tina, his girlfriend gave an agreeing nod as she stood up with him.
"Glad to hear it. We don't have to be in that much of a rush, though, the meeting doesn't start until 10." F stated, Wade and Tina both glancing at the clock to check the time before looking back to their murder drone friend with nods of acknowledgement.
Standing up from her chair, Jasmine stretched as she announced her goals to the room. "Well, in that case, I should hit the shower."
"Right, I'll get myself fixed up too." Tina replied as she looked to Wade, the two sharing warm smiles before heading to the kitchen. Noticing the still unstored items on the counter, Tina spoke aloud. "Jasmine? You mind if Wade and I help store the groceries in the cabinets here?"
"Sure, thanks!" Jasmine answered in a grateful tone as she went off to the bathroom in the back of the apartment, Tina glancing to Wade as she began to take some food out of the bag.
"I'll get the refrigerated stuff." Wade stated simply as he took some items out of the bag, Tina putting her chosen food stuffs into one of the cabinets as they worked to unload the fresh consumables from Jasmine's errand.

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• Whenever a character says "Confusion and delay", take a drink. Take another if it isn't the Fat ControlleSir Topham Hatt.
• Whenever the Fat ControlleSir Topham Hatt says "You're a really useful engine!", take a drink.
• Whenever Gordon says "Oh, the indignity!" or "Express coming through!", drink.
• When a character gets into an accident, drink.
  • Take another one if it's Percy.
  • Take four drinks if it’s Edward or Toby.
• Whenever Thomas does something stupid, drink.
• Whenever Gordon or James behave haughtily, drink.
  • Take another if it isn't Gordon or James, or if it causes an accident (if both happen, take a drink for each one).
• Whenever Thomas complains about his snow plough, drink.
• Whenever the narrator says "Then there was trouble" or "Luckily, no one was hurt", drink.
• Whenever Gordon boasts about himself, drink.
• Whenever James brags about his red paint, drink.
• Whenever Percy asks about the meaning of a word, drink.
• Whenever Duck brings up his Great Western heritage or starts talking about "two ways of doing things", drink (if both happen, treat it as a singular action).
• Whenever the narrator uses the phrase "[insert character's name here] was/felt cross/happy/sad", drink.
  • Take another if it isn't any of those three words.
• When the narrator says "Then, an idea flew into [insert character's name here]'s funnel", drink.
• Everytime the characters laugh spontaneously, drink.
• When Duncan is grumpy, drink.
• When Diesel acts like a jerk, drink.
  • Take another if he bumps an engine from behind.
• When Bill and Ben are Trolls, drink.
  • Whenever they argue, take another drink.
• Whenever Dart says "What he means is", drink.
• When a character says "Bust my buffers!" or "Cinders and ashes!", drink.
• In the Sharon Miller seasons, whenever a character uses rhyming and/or alliteration, drink until you get alcohol poisoning.
• During The Adventure Begins, take a shot every time someone says "See the world". If it isn't Thomas, take a second.
• Take a shot every time someone says "Master of the Railway". Two if it isn't Hiro himself.
• Take a shot in the movies if an insert vocal song starts playing.
• Look through Season 17, and take a drink every time a scene happens at Ulfstead Castle. Better line up a liver transplant in advance.
• Watch Season 18, and take a drink every time a scene happens at Brendam Docks. You probably won't survive after the previous one.
• Every time Spencer acts like a Jerkass, take a sip.
  • If the entire episode goes by without any mention of the Duke and Duchess, finish your drink.
• Take a sip every time the word "streamlined" is said.
• In the CGI seasons, take a drink if an engine other than Gordon pulls express coaches.
• Whenever Edward or Toby indulge in Self-Deprecation, drink.
• Whenever Cranky gets, well, cranky, drink.
• Whenever Marion unleashes her Motor Mouth, drink.
• Whenever Timothy falls for a prank, drink.
• If an engine skives off a job, drink.
  • Take two drinks if it isn't Thomas.
• When Gordon and Spencer race, drink.
• When Ferdinand says "That's right!", drink. Prepare for alcohol poisoning if you're watching Misty Island Rescue or Season 15.
• When Henry is ill, drink.
  • Take two if it's after his re-shape.
    • Another if he's pulling The Flying Kipper and it crashes.
• Take a drink whenever Annie and Claribel are both engaging in Not So Above It All behavior.
  • Take two if Daisy is involved.
• Take a sip when the big engines make fun of the little engines. Take another if it's the other way around.
• Take a drink whenever Thomas and Bertie race each other.
• Take a drink when the Troublesome Trucks misbehave. Take another if they cause an accident, or if you hear their high pitched laugh, or when there are shots of their faceplates.
  • Finish the drink if the accident results in them getting hurt or straight up torn apart and/or mutilated beyond repair from the crash.
• Take a shot whenever engines complain about another engine being late for their trains.
• Take a shot when the passengers complain about Sodor being a bad railway whenever a delay occurs.
• In the model seasons, take a drink whenever an engine rolls their eyes around when they're happy or got into an accident.
• In the model seasons, take two drinks if you spot studio equipment. Take four drinks if you don't need to rewind and pause.
• Whenever Donald and Douglas argue, drink.
• Whenever James says "Here's James!", drink. Prepare for alcohol poisoning if you're watching the late Brenner-era episodes.
• Whenever something bad happens to the Fat ControlleSir Topham Hatt, drink.
• Whenever the narrator says, "The Fat Controller was just looking forward to/enjoying "X and Y", when he hears bad news.
• If you're watching any episode from Seasons 8-16, take a drink whenever you see a goods train without a brake van coupled to it.
• Take a shot whenever Gordon complains about pulling goods trains. Take another if it's James.
• Take a drink whenever the Steamies insult or make fun of the Diesels. Take two drinks if it's the other way around.
• Take a drink whenever the narrator says "His (or [character name]'s) driver and fireman jumped clear".
  • Take two drinks if the narrator doesn't state what happened to the crew at all.
• In the Big World, Big Adventures seasons, take a drink for every Imagine Spot or Just Train Wrong moment.
• In the CGI seasons, take a drink every time Rosie makes a cameo.
• Take a drink every time Daisy encounters a bull.
• Take a drink whenever Daisy speaks Gratuitous French.
• Take a drink when James is the Butt-Monkey.

The Number 47, Synchronicity & the Law of Time Courtney Jamal Dewar, aka Capital STEEZ, came with perfect timing. Wielding a higher message, he revealed to all those around him through his music and his being the corruption of society and all of its constructs. He was fascinated, some would say, obsessed, with the number 47. For him this number held a higher meaning on many levels. First and foremost, he felt it was about synchronicity. He made all of his homies, including myself, aware of how this is the quintessential random number. We literally began to see it everywhere. You can research the numerological significance of 47. Here are just a few: 47 appears to be the quintessential random number of the universe. When a number appears randomly, more often than not, that number is 47. In other other words, if you asked people to pick a number at random, more often than not, that number would be 47. Of course, if 47 shows up more than any other number then it isn’t truly random, but using the word random makes the whole phenomenon easier to describe. From a spiritual perspective, number 47 is a combination of the energies and attributes of number 4 and number 7. The vibrations of number 4 include those of productivity and application, inner-wisdom and practical-thinking, honesty and integrity, endurance and determination, conscientiousness and discipline. Number 4 also relates to our passion and drive in life. Number 7 brings the qualities of spiritual awakening and enlightenment, intuition and inner-knowing, psychic abilities and mysticism, independence and individualism, persistence of purpose and manifesting good fortune.
There is even a much-viewed YouTube spoof of Jim Carrey’s The Number 23, substituting—you guessed it–the No. 47. Jim Carrey's character named Walter is given a book titled The Number 23. Walter starts reading the book and notices striking similarities between himself and the main character, a detective named "Fingerling". Fingerling is obsessed with the 23 enigma, the idea that all incidents and events are directly connected to the number 23 (Weirdly enough when I was younger I was in cod team called 23Enigma) only noted it as of the coincidence.
Jim Carrey told reporters he was so captivated by the 23 enigma even before reading the script that he renamed his production company from "Pit Bull Productions" to "JC23." (Jesus Christ 23?) Oddly enough the first film Carrey worked on with Joel Schumacher his character The Riddler's real name was 'E. Nigma'. According to Carrey, he was reading a book about Psalm 23 when he was first given a copy of the screenplay to review. He said he asked a friend to read the script and "an hour and a half later he was on page 23, circling every 23rd word. That's the kind of thing I want to do to an audience." When he discovered that the first page of the script involved the lead character trying to capture a pit bull, he was "freaked out," given the change in name of his production company. (Pitbull productions) My Nicknames Pitty, short for pitbul (These are just speculations) Also I've gathered others inputs and went down a deep rabbit hole. Mind you, this is just connections that has been gathered over time, but the consistency of certain "coincidences" are interesting to say the least. Just try to piece together the connections even though it may be out of radar due to us living completely different lives.
James > Cleveland Cavaliers (Cavs) > Number 23 > Nicknames are King James & The Chosen One
Cavs is the nickname of my last name Cavanagh
When you flip the cleveland cavaliers logo upside down it is quite similar
(The hat I've worn since 14, P represents the nickname"Pitty:" short for pitbill a nickname ive had since i was around 10 years old.
Matthew writes that on 23 occasions Jesus blessed 47 people.
The Bible credits Jesus with 47 miracles.
The Declaration of Independence has 47 sentences. Originally published: 4 July 1776 (4/7)
1947 is when the UFO crashed at Roswel
The Tropic of Cancer and the Tropic of Capricorn are 47 degrees of latitude apart.
Capital STEEZ died from allegedly leaping from the Cinematic Music Group’ either gripping a bible or with it strapped on his back There is also the fact that a blood lunar eclipse will occur in New York at 3:47 am on STEEZ’s birthday in 2047, and then the lunar eclipse which will occur after this one is part of the Lunar Saros series 135. He said he named the song 135 for “5th dimensional synchronization”... whatever that means, this would be a massive coincidence.
How Many People Can See This Eclipse? Number of People Seeing... Number of People* Fraction of World Population At least some of the penumbral phase 4,070,000,000 When the Eclipse Happens Worldwide — Timeline Event UTC Time Time in Melbourne* Penumbral Eclipse begins 7 Jul at 07:47:47 Visible in Melbourne 7 Jul at 5:47:47 pm On capital steez birthday.
STEEZs last tweet “the end” Was posted December (23) 2012 The building steez died (The colliers office) is on 666 fifth avenue, 10103 10+10+3=(23), New York. The building was built in 1878 The bohemian grove was established in 1878 The address of the CMG label building is on 40 west (23)rd st, 10010, New York The Freemasonry Grand lodge of New York is on 71 west, (23)rd st 10010 NY. Directly located across the same building STEEZ died. Yeah. West 23rd st, w is the (23)rd letter in the alphabet. In Hebrew the letter W represents the number 6 The fraction 2/3 in decimals=0.666 The freemasonry grand lodge of New York was founded in December 15, 1782 15, 1782 1+5+1+7+8+2 = 24. December 24 the date that's etched on STEEZs tombstone. A police report about his death has never surfaced, information has never been released, but there is pictures of his gravestone (see here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OuFVUJJR4Ug) and on that gravestone it says 24/12/12, which actually adds up to 48, yet he tweets on the 23/12/12 stating 'The End. Steez was ready to open up Pandora’s box and expose the illuminati occult in a way that has never been done before. It gets deep. Just think about it guys. Steez was an intellectual genius. He would obviously know that suicide actually makes u go to hell and not heaven. As a believer in the lord he would never commit suicide.
I'm not sure if you're paying attention to the ryan garcia trying to reveal how something tragic happened to him where he was taken to boheiman grove and forced to watch things i wont mention here People said his crazy and on drugs, sad thing is, I believe he is telling the truth Fast forward he wasn't on drugs and
Peep his song "Free The Robots" https://youtu.be/XcmR8DxuHBA
STEEZ has definitely made a positive impact on this world by introducing a new way of thinking and spirituality, even more of an impact than a lot of artists who are still alive... Capital STEEZ was 19 at the time of his death.
There is also gematria behind his death it has to do with numbers. I’ll explain what it is for those who aren’t aware of it. Gematria is the decoding of letters to numbers, it’s used to translate ancient Hebrew Scriptures. But it’s also the code for the entire world. The most basic way I can put it is that it’s as simple as ABC=123, they use these numbers thru media, and the thing that’s being shown on the media always correlates with Masonic numbers and words that correlate with whatever and whoever is being shown on the news or media and whatever event is taking place always correlates 100% of the time. In news, sports, music industry, Hollywood, politics, everything. In Numerology, which is different from gematria. After calculating his name I came across a lot of similarities when calculating mine in various forms.
While calculating his name i came across things relating to me like Like "Melbourne Victoria Australia, Royal Melbourne Hospital, june twenty fourth. From his name which connected to me personally as i was born in that hospital, thats the city i live and my birthday. The similarities left me wondering if it was actually real or not so I used multiple different calculators and paid for a membership on gematrinator to get maximum results and ended up noticing so much our mine and steezs calculations were similar answers in different form, and answers i got with his name ultimately connected to mine, vice versa. So i was intrigued and these are a list of numbers that matched up with our names. This is all speculation based on connections that seem to be very consistent peep this
Calculating these variations of our names such as Courtney Jamal Dewar / Courtney jamal Dewar Jr / Courtney Everald Jamal Dewar Jr / Capital STEEZ / Nathan Cavanagh / Nathan James Cavanagh / Nathan James Cavanagh Sciarra, calculations all listed together when I noted them all I didn't think to label to each name as I was so captivated by the coincidences I just kept going down the rabbit hole. I came across profound links to both our names that binds us both to the unique synchronicities that were to apparent to all be ruled as pure coincidence, such as his name calculating to my birthday, place of birth and city, and city i live to say the least.
These are calculations through gematria, some are our calculations mixed in this as I was just noting down every connection I noticed
The first and the last Eye Of Horus Total Eclipse the numbers of gods matrix coordinated universal time Capital Steez June Twenty Forth (my birthday) came up from steez name Lunar Eclipse Sacrifice July (2047 lunar eclipse on steezs birthday) The Central Intelligence Agency A WISE TALENTED MUSIC PRODUCER Royal Melbourne Hospital (where I was born) The Holy Bloodline Of Jesus The Return of Christ Exodus Luke synchronisation The Synchronicities Of Jesus The Book Of Revelations Vibrational Frequency Biblical Prophecy Melbourne Victoria Australia (where im from), came up on steezs calculations The Royal Bloodline The Divine Bloodline Of Jesus fourth of jew lie Energy frequency vibration The Holy Lineage Of Christ One Who Understands Mysteries december the twenty fifth. ..... speaks for itself A Door to another dimension New Moons And Solar Eclipse twenty four seven (my birthdays the 24th, his is the 7th) the victory of the lamb multidimensional royal regiment of scotland Golden Gate Sacrifice Gods Gift Clairvoyant The Chosen One The Two Appointed Ones Leaving For Heaven David And Daughter Of The Oath Are One Almighty God Roars Upon His Throne Powerful Great Grandma The Lord On Earth Donald Trump Assassination Lords Alignment The Lord Gods Here God Is Really Here God Birthdate Encoded End Of Times God Code The Code Of The Lord Lord Birthday Code Gods Provable Code Gods Alive Loser Access Into Heaven Twenty Three The Anunnaki Gods Jesus Is Coming A True Prophet The Seventh Seal What is Jesus's number? 888 Apollo Is The Beast Of Revelation See Fulfillment Of The Book Of Isaiah Prophecy The Serpent In Genesis Describes The Mark Of The Beast See The Forced Evil Mark Of The Beast Foiled The Victory Of The Lamb May The Lord Fill Your Heart Two Masters Is Cancer (steez and I are both Cancer) God Of Eternity We Are God Twins Maker Of New Earth A Two Edged Swords Xanax Vicodin Addiction (i struggled with bad) The Bible Is Intentionally Concealing Information The Galactic Jesus the Anointed One Moses Will Come The King Is Coming Miraculously Encoded By God Pyramids On Mars Forests On Mars Holy Spirit Of Zeus We Are Absolute Infinite Sent By The Gods Powerful Great Grandma999 Burning Alive The Gang Stalkers. (long story short I was a victim of whay they call gangstalking when I was reaching my peak or enlightenment and have been trying to get back to that state again, all I can describe it as is demonic torment) Enoch 777 on YouTube speaks on it good.) A Fourty Seven Mandating The Poisonous Jabs Knowledge Of God Brings Eternal Life Death Isnt So Scary Anymore Invictus Sol The Lion And The Lamb https://imgur.com/gallery/ztGPJGS The Lord Is Here Coming To Restore The Eternal Kingdom The Blood Of The Lamb Contact With A God Revival Jesus The Annointed One the key to it all I Am The Holy Grail Sun Moon Earth Revelation Nine Spirit World I Am The One Lord Jesus Christ I Know All Codes And Connections The Wisdom Of God Word Of The Lord Quantum Entanglement Theory The Anunnaki Path Almighty God Roars Upon His Throne 173 Enoch Chapter Ninety Five Pyramids Have Hidden Chambers Music Is My Life Revelation Five Everyone Is God Forever Jesus Walking With God Vision Of Gabriel New Revelation Seven Wonders Symbiotic Craft Thank You James (my middle name is James) Words Of The Bible Isaiah Fourteen Thirteen Trumps Last Son He Is Jesus Crown Chakra God Is You Gods In A Body The Resurrection Of Life The Book Lj Enoch King Jesus Gods Wrath We Are At War Truth Hidden In Plain Sight Double Conciousness The Anointed Lay Dead On The Cross Dragon Of China Is The Anti Christ. A Seed Of Jesse Angelic Guidance Black Pyramid Hidden Truth In Plain Sight King Messiah Heavens Dream Let The Decoding Fun Begin Add Up Letters Notorious Names The Child Of Christ Aliens Exist Spirit Of Moses C E R T I F I C A T E Of Baptism Of The Lord Of Christ Alchemist Fluoride To Heaven God Is Number Codes Numerical Language Learning Decoding Is Fun The Lord Of The Messiah The Book Of Hidden Messages Eight Eight Eight Nine Nine Nine Lost Books Of The Bible Rna Vaccine Maternal Ancestors Are Of Royal Descent You Are Gifted Frequency Turn Off Your Smart Phone I Am Eternal Life David Christ Gods Son The Sound Of Jesus Coming Help Others Realize Full Potential Implants During Surgical Procedures The Solar System And Thoughts The Reincarnation Of King David King David Divine Dna Is Activated Jesus Returns To Earth The Lion Of Judah Is With Us (Steez would speak about Judah)
Jamal Dewar; psalm twenty three Jesus son of God Nathan Day Revelation fourteen one Spiritual warfare Gang Stalker (experienced this myself) Satanic Cults Commit Suicide forty seven problem Bloodline of Jesus Christ The End (when this came up my jaw dropped.) And the God of peace shall bruise Satan under your feet shortly The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you Amen The Holy Mother of Jesus christ Are you ready for whats coming july seventh twenty eighteen
Courtney Jamal Dewar, Jr: The Book Of Revelations Vibrational frequency MELBOURNE VICTORIA AUSTRALIA (where I live) Christ Resurrection Satan Rules The World The Divine Bloodline of Christ synchronization Biblical Prophecy Capital steez Exodus Luke The Divine Bloodline of David Second Christ The Return of Christ Jesus Resurrection Jesus Christ Bloodline
I added stuff from my name as it was so coincidental I didn't think to label them at first I just wrote down anything I thought added up This is just deep research into who reminds me of myself My instagram is mistapitty Listen to The Resurrection by Pitty https://on.soundcloud.com/Xn3nN
Listen to Revelation 22 by Pitty https://on.soundcloud.com/gBAja
Peep his song "Free The Robots" https://youtu.be/XcmR8DxuHBA
STEEZ has definitely made a positive impact on this world by introducing a new way of thinking and spirituality, even more of an impact than a lot of artists who are still alive... Capital STEEZ was 19 at the time of his death.
There are four gospel accounts of Jesus' life and ministry. Each of these emphasizes a unique aspect of his sacrifice and ministry. Matthew's focus is on Christ being the son of David and a King.
Look into the etymology of your name. - What Does Nathan Mean? The name Nathan means “Gift of God” or “God has given.” In the Old Testament, Nathan was a prophet and one of King David's sons; he acted as a messenger to King David and is considered one of Jesus' ancestors. (David name of my biological grandfather) (James is my middle name) - James is a classic, traditional and Biblical name (Saint James, of course, was Jesus's brother and one of the 12 apostles) meaning "supplanter" or "replacer." It's derived from the Latin Jacomus which also means "may God protect.
Every letter to Capital STEEZs full name calculates to 147 when done in reverse on the gematria calculator and mine equals to exactly 470 when done in reverse.
"Nathan James Cavanagh Sciarra" = 470 (Reverse Reduction) N a t h a n 104 13 26 7 19 26 13 J a m e s 87 17 26 14 22 8 C a v a n a g h 159 24 26 5 26 13 26 20 19 S c i a r r a 120 = 470 8 24 18 26 9 9 26 Reverse = 470
"Capital STEEZ" = 47 (Reduction) C a p i t a l 26 3 1 7 9 2 1 3 S T E E Z 21 = 47 1 2 5 5 8 Reduction = 47
"Courtney Everald Jamal Dewar" = 147 (Reverse Reduction) C o u r t n e y 41 6 3 6 9 7 4 4 2 E v e r e s t 41 4 5 4 9 4 8 7 J a m a l 35 8 8 5 8 6 D e w a r 30 = 147 5 4 4 8 9 Reverse = 147
On June 24th 2022: Mercury, Venus, Mars, Jupiter and Saturn are lining up in the pre-dawn sky, a planetary procession that could be seen above the eastern horizon And what’s even more remarkable about this month’s lineup is that the planets are arranged in their natural order from the sun. The best day to see the spectacle will likely be the morning of June 24 of 2022, weather permitting, as the planetary parade will be joined by the waning crescent moon. This is three days after the summer solstice (or winter in australia), which is June 21. What makes this so unique is the last time we had 5 planets aligned in this fashion, was in March of 1874.
All of the "classical" planets will be viewable in the early morning skies of June 24th 2022. Mercury, Venus, Mars, Jupiter, and Saturn will be visible, all apparent to the naked eye even under urban light pollution. On the 24th, our moon will be situated between Venus and Mars, so you could say the Earth-Luna system will complete the "perfect" alignment. Under the darkest skies, one will be able to see seven planets in one sweeping gaze. The same year December 24th the planets will align in their correct order outward from the sun for the second time this year, after a pre-dawn alignment in June which was on my birthday. STEEZ is said to have died on the 24th of December 👉 https://imgur.com/gallery/0RVIxxA
Alternatively, 25 December may have been selected owing to its proximity to the winter solstice because of its symbolic theological significance. After the solstice, the days begin to lengthen with longer hours of sunlight, which Christians see as representing the Light of Christ entering the world. This symbolism applies equally to the celebration of the Nativity of Saint John the Baptist on 24 June, near the summer solstice, based on John's remark about Jesus "He must increase; I must decrease." John 3:30 NRSV.[59] Now check out the following texts from the bible, they speak of the solstice here. 👉 https://imgur.com/gallery/0RVIxxA and I thought I should add this as it seemed to be quite a coincidence of the date i posted this somg and the content of the posts she made. It aligned with those geomatria calculations I made and i wish I could document snd explain why certain ones just synchronzie but it'd be to hard to comphrened.
"AFTER THE SOLSTICE, THE DAYS BEGIN TO LENGTHEN WITH LONGER HOURS OF SUNLIGHT, WHICH CHRISTIANS SEE AS REPRESENTING THE LIGHT OF CHRIST ENTERING THE WORLD. THIS SYMBOLISM APPLIES EQUALLY TO THE CELEBRATION OF THE NATIVITY OF SAINT JOHN THE BAPTIST ON 24 JUNE, NEAR THE SUMMER SOLSTICE, BASED ON JOHN'S REMARK ABOUT JESUS "HE MUST INCREASE; I MUST DECREASE." JOHN THE BAPTIST ANNOUNCES THE COMING OF THE LIGHT THROUGHOUT HIS LIFE, JOHN THE BAPTIST, ANNOUNCES THE COMING OF JESUS, THE COMING OF NEW TIMES, JOHN ANNOUNCES THAT GOD IS GRACIOUS TO HIS PEOPLE BY ANNOUNCING THE COMING OF THE SON OF GOD. BEHOLD, HE IS COMING WITH THE CLOUDS, AND EVERY EYE WILL SEE HIM, EVEN THOSE WHO PIERCED HIM; AND ALL THE TRIBES OF THE LAND WILL MOURN OVER HIM.” –ZECHARIAH 12:10-14; DANIEL 7:13-14 SO IT IS TO BE. AMEN (AGREED, YESHUA HIMSELF IS THE AMEN 3:14). “I KEPT LOOKING IN THE NIGHT VISIONS, AND BEHOLD, WITH THE CLOUDS OF HEAVEN ONE LIKE A SON OF MAN WAS COMING."
John the Baptist day is 24th of June.
"The flower of life, represents global consciousness and like there's this thing on the consciousness grid, the last piece, it has to be the flower of life and it has to align with the sun and all that stuff and it will wake up global consciousness & as i further in my ascension I hope to build it one day" "Some people might think this type of thinking, first of all this type of thinking might jump over a lot of people's heads" "I think humans need to lighten up, maybe try lighten up" - STEEZ
Someone regarding STEEZ: "Did he think there were codes in the Bible or something? I’ve heard him say he knows the “code” does anyone know what the code is? He was a truly enlightened person I wish I could understand him better."
STEEZ supposedly said he had to die now in order to save the Earth in 2047, which is when the world is supposed to end. Before he killed himself his friends say he withdrew not only from them, but rap in general, saying he was going to become a superhero.
(My birthday)24th of June 1999 = 2+4+6+1+9+9+9 = 40 STEEZ birthday) 7th of July 1993 = 7+7+1,993 = 2007.) 40 + 2007 = 2047
Now read a conversation he had on Facebook prior to death https://www.kanyetothe.com/threads/rip-capital-steez.354864/page-42?post_id=16781894&nested_view=1&sortby=oldest#post-167818 His song Dead Prez (credit to who found these calculations as this wasn't mine) If you wanna conspire a little, we technically have had 46 different president so far, tho truly only 45 different guys have been in office. This year, if we elect a new president they will be our 47th prezident. You could say that happens when the next president is elected, or when the second new president is elected because then there'd actually be 47 different people. On the contrary, you could predict that once 47 presidents have died, something very significant will happen because the song is about DEAD presidents. It'll happen in most of our lifetimes i wonder what will happen 2047?
https://imgur.com/a/bOpRy
FORTY, THE NUMBER: "Forty days was the period from the resurrection of Jesus to the ascension of Jesus some scholars note that 40 days in the Bible doesn't always mean 40 days literally, but may be a symbolic way of saying "a longer time. A master number and part of the “awakening code”. Also Jose Arguelles’s kin is 11 – he brought forth the Law of Time aka the World Thirteen Moon Cale In the Bible, next to the number seven, the number forty occurs most frequently.
Here's an article on Fader that's kind of aligns some things I've discovered.
https://www.thefader.com/2013/11/26/capital-steez-king-capital
Check out these images, not a lot of people would've seen these: h ttp://i.imgur.com/nPE90.png / http://i.imgur.com/sHtdM.png / http://i.imgur.com/ZcNu2.png - he thought he was the alchemist that had the key for world peahttp://i.imgur.com/ZcNu2.png Deshay posted this on Facebook after his immediate death: "Fxck.... This shxt jus rly fxcked me up. Me and Steezus JUST made plans to record on Saturday now hes gone. RIP Capital STEEZ" Joey said he believed he sacrificed himself for spiritual rebirth.
The End THE WIDELY ACCEPTED STORY is that Courtney ‘Jamal’ Dewar committed suicide by jumping off the Cinematic Music Building in Manhattan on 23.12.12 – which equals 47, the rapper’s favourite number. None of the city’s newspapers reported his death. As a result of inconsistent stories and a lack of police intelligence, confusion surrounds the heart-breaking event for the Dewar family. In a 2013 interview with Fader, an anonymous member of Pro Era said, “STEEZ told some of the Pros that he was thinking of killing himself by jumping off the building where Cinematic had its offices.” Dirty Sanchez a close friend of the late rapper recalled, “Nothing was working. Nothing. It was like too late. He made up his mind already.”
Today I will be briefly explaining the practice of Gematria. Gematria comes from ancient Jewish mysticism. It is the practice of combining the letter with the number, with the word. It is said this is how God created the world.
How does it work? Gematria has 4 major ciphers. The first two are easy as ABC, literally. For example A=1 B=2 C=3. And so on. The code can also be read backward from Z to A. This is called reverse ordinal. There are two more ciphers that are equally important but a bit more nuanced so for the sake of clarity I’ll leave those explanations to the work of Zachary K Hubbard. But to put Gematria into usable terms I’m gonna explain a decode I did recently. If you want to decode a word or phrase without doing the math yourself, there is an extremely helpful calculator at gematrinator.com it will give you all four cipher values for your word or phrase in an instant, as well as compare it with corresponding ciphers. Without further ado let’s look at this example:
Here I will outline some interesting numbers that coincide with the rapper Capital STEEZ and the numbers surrounding the music industry as well as numbers that come up with race, and other things I found eye grabbing.
(Credit to another user on here) First off I’ll start with Capital STEEZ, The interesting number here is the full reduction number, 47. It’s eye grabbing for many reasons, but we’ll start with a little back ground. Before Capital STEEZ’s (aka Jamal Dewar) death (suicide) in 2012, STEEZ was apart of an up and coming rap group known as Progressive Era, or ProEra for short. A known staple among these young men were the belief in “47 chakras” and “indigo children”. The two are a topic on their own, but the interesting part is that such a powerful number in Jamal Dewar’s life also coincides with the Gematria of his rap name. But that’s not it! Let’s continue
Capital STEEZ English ordinal: 137
Full reduction: 47
Reverse ordinal: 187 ( see pushed off a roof)
Reverse full reduction :70
Now keep an eye on 70, as we shall see him more as well.
Next we will decode the gematria of the reported means of STEEZ’s death, suicide. This is where I admittedly started getting intrigued.
Gematria of Suicide:
English Ordinal: 70
Full reduction: 34
Reverse ordinal:119
Reverse full reduction: 47
Wow. The exact same values but flipped.
Just a mere coincidence I’m sure But let’s continue .
With these next two we will see two repeats of values, one new value, 88 and a previously used value, 34. As well as 65
Jamal Dewar
English ordinal: 88
Full reduction: 34
Reverse ordinal: 182
Reverse full reduction: 65 ————————— Phrase: pushed off the roof
English Ordinal: 187
Full reduction: 88
Reverse ordinal: 245
Reverse full reduction: 65
And the next term we will decode will be Jamal’s occupation of rapper. Here we will see a reverse of our main number in question, 47, which I’ve found to be reoccurring as well.
Rapper
English ordinal: 74
Full reduction: 38
Reverse ordinal: 88
Reverse full reduction: 34
I’m beginning to sense a bit of a pattern here... But let me move on Now it’s time to get a little spicy
Jamal Dewar commited suicide on the night of December 23, 2012, though his wiki has his death on the 24 I believe as it was around midnight. Many articles coming out about his death including one I read from thefader.com reported his death on the 23rd. I specifically remember this detail because I was a huge fan of his and Pro Era at the time and it was a huge loss to the community.
December is the 12th month
12
23
12
Care to guess what that equals?
Yep. 47
Here are some other related phrases put into the gematrinator calculator:
Brooklyn New York (where proera is from)
223 79 182 74
Suicide by fall 128 56 223 79
Are you seeing the synchronization of these seemingly unrelated words and phrases?.
The word murder and murdered both have synchronized gematria with Jamal. We also see another repeat with 38, also found in the full reduction of the word rapper.
Murder
English ordinal: 79
Full reduction: 34
Reverse ordinal: 83 (38 reverse)
Reverse full reduction: 38
Murdered ,interestingly enough, though only being two letters away from murder, is actually more closely related numerically to jamals name and the word rapper, But there are similarities abound. Murdered.
English ordinal: 88
Full reduction: 43 (34 reverse)
Reverse ordinal: 128
Reverse full reduction: 47
Wow. This one really stands out to me. Every single number code number is used in the over all code of Capital steez just in this one word.
We see the repeats of 88 and 47 as well as the reverse of 34 for the first time and a repeat in the numbers of 128, which we saw as 182 above.
This one is slightly unrelated so I left it sort of by itself but I still maintain it’s validity as it’s use in the music industry is still relevant. That is the word racist. Race is huge in the overall narrative that msm tries to portray.
Racist
English ordinal: 70
Full reduction:25
Reverse ordinal: 92
Reverse full reduction: 47
racist and suicide are perfect matches on the front end and back end. 70 and 47.
Here’s another nugget.
The phrase : jumped to his death
English ordinal: 178 (pushed off the roof 187)
Full reduction: 70 (pushed off the roof 88)
Reverse ordinal:254 (pushed off the roof 245)
Reverse full reduction :83 (pushed off the roof 65)
Leap also shares 34 and 84.
Suicided 74 38 142 52
Occult
English ordinal: 74
Full reduction: 20
Reverse ordinal:88
Reverse full reduction:34
3 more repeats
The year of his suicide was a leap year
Leap year
English ordinal:83 Full reduction: 38 Reverse ordinal:133 Full res verse reduction: 43
Target audience: 133 61 245 83 Suicidal: 78 33 138 57 Hidden mission: 142 70 209 74 Some of these numbers are conjecture but there’s a lot of links between the numbers. 47/74 being the one of the more prominent, as well as 83/38, 34/43, 70, 245/254, 88, 33, 29/92/209, 182/128 all of these numbers connect in one way or another. Now it wouldn’t mean much if we didn’t know more about the nature of these numbers and how and where they appear. But since these number keep popping up in accordance to things like CONTROL GRID or MYSTERY RELIGION or SUPREME MATHEMATICS it seems almost impossible for it to be mere coincidence. Anyways I urge you guys to think for yourself and put in some work and see if you can find any use of this practice. God bless
Ps:
STEEZ’s debut album ”amerikkkan korruption” Came out on 4-7-2012 another 47. Vibration equals 47
A theory out there is that the cabal needed him to die because STEEZ was really bringing influence to more and more young minds with knowledge and the way STEEZ attacked and exposed certain things is not a good thing for those in power, the label that Joey wanted to sign when they were pro era, was a Jewish man named Jonny Shipes. if you’ve extensively went down the “rabbit hole”, like extensively, and you’d say you’re pretty “woke” (I hate that word), then you may know that most labels especially Jewish owned labels are basically the portals into The Illuminati cult, the Jesuit organization that controls the entire world. Oh and remember the news outrage, and investigation because of the 47 “swa stikkas” all over NY, yea you think these Jonny Shipes fucked with that? Nah. But this is all speculation.
It wasn’t long after Capital STEEZ's unfathomable passing on 12/23/12 – 12+23+12 = 47), which was only days after December 21, 2012, the precise date calculated by the great Mayans to be the end of a Great Cycle, that I received knowledge & became aware of the Law of Time. This seemingly new cosmology felt ancient and I quickly realized it had EVERYTHING to do with Synchronicity! I even found the number 47 to be ever ubiquitous throughout this 13 Moon calendar system.
"The next chapter is unstoppable. And yet, the greatest revolutions sometimes originate from the confines of impossibility, do they not? Break the code. It could make a leap and make possible a decision that defines the order of things that are." " Reality is a mathematical model which gets solved over and over again by the observer your thoughts are computations. And they render this world for you to call your own. Not all processors are alike. Different brains produce different realities. The variations go from the subtle to the drastic. Your mind defines how much you can taste. How much you can feel. How much you can understand. Perception defines perspective. We designed you and made sure to engineer your senses so you could perceive just what we needed you to. Neither more nor less. There are parts of time we preferred you remained blind to. It was a necessity."
The Law of Time, I found to hold the most profound yet simple teaching; our Time is not Money, Time is Art. I was able to grasp a greater vision of how we as humans have created an artificial timing system where our time here equates to how much money we can accumulate, where we are constantly stressed by this false belief of our making, and where there is never enough time… This system of our making and continuous propagation has only served to separate us from our Selves, from each other, and ultimately, from nature. Hence, resulting in the chaos and disharmony prevalent in the world today.
What is the greatest common factor of 23 & 47? 1 is the greatest number that 23 & 47 is divided to. The Chosen One @mistapitty ㄣ

Ok so I did one of these posts analyzing the thesis statement of Subtract last May, and with the X (Multiply) 10 year gig coming up on Wednesday, I thought I’d try to do the same for my favourite album (of all time).
As always, I’m writing this on my phone so I’m sorry for any weird formatting (and also for the word dump that is probably heading your way) but here it goes!!
Multiply is such a deeply personal album (as most Ed albums are), and it feels so raw while still not giving everything away, if that makes sense. It’s such a vulnerable record that’s masked by its not-so-lighthearted bops (see: Sing, Don’t, Runaway)
I think the thesis statement of X is Photograph. It’s a beautiful song and a great single (although it was so overplayed a decade ago that I had to take a short break from it, which by no means takes away from its excellence).
While the line, “loving can hurt / loving can hurt sometimes” would make a great thesis as well, it’s not the phrase I have in mind that encapsulates this album. In fact, I’d argue that it’s actually: “and time’s forever frozen still / so you can keep me, inside the pocket of your ripped jeans / holding me close until our eyes meet / you won’t ever be alone.” Specifically, “and time’s forever frozen still.” Ed is a romantic, and his songs seem to give his all-and at the risk of sounding incredibly parasocial here-he seems to love deeply and emotionally (I’m actually incredibly impressed with the levels of emotions he conveys and expresses throughout his music; it’s refreshing to see a male artist express such vulnerability!)
We’re all well aware that songs are merely snapshots of an artist’s life (perhaps not even entirely realistic ones either, but snapshots that they choose to present to the world nevertheless). In creating this record, Ed himself said that he was trying to overcome the sophomore slump and trying to expand on his artistry, not just being narrowed into the singer-songwriter category (hence, working with Pharrell etc). Multiply was both for the arts and for the charts (we have hit singles like Thinking Out Loud of course, but we also have the cult fan favourites like bloodstream and Tenerife Sea). Regardless of the personal details surrounding songs like don’t and the man (which Ed himself said today he’s not exactly the most proud of LOL), Photograph as a thesis encapsulates this album’s message, which is to dive into things and hold on to the memories, even the painful ones.
I’ll try to go song by song and pick lyrics that I think best support time being frozen still:
One: “just promise me you’ll always be a friend” ‘One’ is just such a hauntingly beautiful depiction of needing to keep that certain someone in your life, someone who you can’t (or think you can’t) live without, especially when those around you are finding their “person” to spend their lives with. You’d stop time to be with them, not willing to lose them.
I’m a Mess: “But for tonight I wanna fall in love” ‘I’m a Mess’ describes a not-so-healthy relationship, where communication seems to be lacking (Ed calls himself a liar in the song and questions how long he’ll love his lover, which makes for a great outro but I guess not the healthiest of relationships). Despite the borderline toxicity, he’d like to stop time just for the night to be with his lover. He keeps his promise here to never leave his lover alone.
Sing: “found you hiding here so won’t you take my hand darling / before the beat kicks in again” This one was a tougher one, cause ‘Sing’ is such an upbeat song with suuuuch a weird music video, but I think this line (that so many radio stations removed back in 2014!?) encapsulates his fear of losing the muse of the song—“before the beat kicks in again” could mean either the actual beat drop of the song, or whatever circumstances would make them drift apart.
Don’t: “wish I’d have written it down the way that things played out… now she should figure it out while I’m sat here singing” ‘Don’t’ is a song reminiscing (not-so-fondly) of a lover breaking your trust; a diss-track, if you will. Here, Ed is wishing that time would forever freeze for that person to reflect on what they did to him, and although he won’t necessarily be there with them to do that, this song sure will!
Nina: “so we can either deal with the pain or wait to get on a plane / but in a day we’ll have to say it again” I’ve honestly never thought too deeply about the lyrics of ‘Nina,’ aside from the fact that he calls her something in between his job and family & friends (OUCH), but damn… he’s actually willing to rip the bandaid off here instead of waiting; either way this relationship isn’t working out and they have to make a decision when to end it, and Ed’s of the thinking that it’s just better to do it sooner than later. Nevertheless, this song is a snapshot and serves as a reminder of the time that they had; a memento, a keepsake that you can keep inside the pocket of your ripped jeans, if you will.
Photograph: the thesis of this album, but the lyric that best fits is “where our eyes are never closing / hearts are never broken”: photographs (ones that we tend to look back at) are usually of happy memories, good times you want to remember. A “picture perfect” moment can be captured, but it doesn’t necessarily reflect the reality (it’s a highlight reel, much like social media); that kind of perfection doesn’t exist in day-to-day life, at least not all the time. Ed is wishing for time to stay frozen in this kind of perfect life, perfect relationship.
Bloodstream: “oh no no don’t leave me lonely now / if you loved me, how’d you never learn” Like most people, Ed seems to fear being alone, or being with someone that doesn’t recognize when he’s not doing so well (see: this entire banger of a song). While in ‘Photograph,’ Ed is telling his muse that he won’t leave them, in ‘Bloodstream,” he’s begging not to be left (alone).
Tenerife Sea: “cause all that you are is all that I’ll ever need” ‘Tenerife Sea’ is such a beautiful ballad, and one of the most wholesome and heartwarming on this record. He’s reassuring his lover that despite all the noise around them, judgment, and whatever else, they’re enough for him; he doesn’t need anything else, and his heart is theirs. He doesn’t need to beg time to freeze, because it already does when he’s with this person (that’s how love feels! Or should feel!)
Runaway: “if things change in a matter of days / I could be persuaded to hold up” ‘Runaway’ is a song about leaving a home because it doesn’t feel like home (unsafe and unwelcoming; alluding to parents drinking and perhaps even cheating). Despite this, the narrator is holding out hope that maybe things could change, and that way they wouldn’t have to leave (although he acknowledges that it’s unlikely and until then he’ll have to leave). He still loves his father, but knows it’s for the best for him to escape that living situation.
The Man: “either way I guess I’m not prepared but I’ll say this / these things happen for a reason and you can’t change ****” This song is spent telling the muse that he doesn’t love them anymore 💀 it’s one of his most cutting songs (ouch!! I still love it, but I get why Ed cringed at it) it’s reflective about what could have been, but (thankfully) isn’t; time didn’t stay frozen and he definitely did not stay with that person, but the memories will!
Thinking Out Loud: “When my hair’s all but gone and my memory fades / and the crowds don’t remember my name” One of his BEST love songs ever, argue with the wall!!!!! In ToL, Ed knows that his partner’s love for him will stand the true test of time!! He doesn’t need reassurance, but is instead reassuring his own partner that he knows how strong their love is for each other; it surpasses the physical and superficial. Beauty, like time, is fleeting, but this love is eternal.
Afire Love: “and now my family is one again / stapled together with the strangers and a friend / came to my mind I should paint it with a pen” ‘Afire Love’ is one of his most heartbreaking songs (a track 12, of course) that details the loss of his grandfather, so I don’t want to delve too deeply into this, but this line specifically gets me emotional, because it encapsulates that out of worldly feeling you get at a funeral, where time seems to stop, but it’s not one of those moments where you necessarily want time to be still—although being around friends and even strangers helps you feel less alone (which is what Ed was saying in Photograph; now none of us have to be alone with that feeling of grief! Let’s look at the positives here lol)
Take It Back: “whispering everything that happens is from now on” ‘Take It Back’ really dives into Ed’s fears of not cracking into the music industry, not “making” it, and reminding himself that his work ethic, talent, and drive will all contribute to his success. I think he’s mostly speaking to himself here, telling himself not to “fade into the back” or fall into the trap of being famous; he’s a guy that just wants to stick to his simple-ish roots; his pre-fame persona will always be there (after all, they do say that people can get frozen at the age they become famous!)
Shirtsleeves: “and I’m captain of this sinking boat now” So I think this song is about Ed’s lover crying for betraying his trust, and yet, he’s still there with them. Wiping their tears, comforting them, to the point where he’s unable to cry himself. The boat — their relationship — is sinking, but he’s willing to go down with the ship to prove that he won’t be the one to leave them alone. Ouch.
Even My Dad Does Sometimes: “Go on and tear me apart / Hold on” Such a harrowing song, EMDDS describes the subject as wanting to give up on life, but Ed is here telling them to feel something, anything, take it out on him (whether it be anger, sadness, guilt, you name it) because these feelings will mean that they will still be there, still alive to FEEL. It’s in moments like this where “you won’t ever be alone” really hits, because here, the singer is pleading for the other person to even lob their most vicious verbal attacks and innermost feelings at them, just so they could hold on and stay alive. It’s a very selfless way of looking at it.
I See Fire: “and I hope that you’ll remember me” this is a song originally written for ‘The Hobbit: the Desolation of Smaug,’ and I choose to believe that time DID in fact stay frozen still at that movie and the third one never happened <3 peace and love.
All of the Stars: “so can you see the stars, over Amsterdam / you’re the song my heart is beating to” Written for ‘The Fault in Our Stars,’ but goddamn does this line hit me like a punch in the gut. Now I never watched the movie or read the book (too sad of a premise), but here the narrator is promising that even though they’re apart, the sky is still the same above both of them (they’ll never be alone)
And that’s it folks! In order to spare your eyeballs I will not be adding the Wembley Edition songs to this (already criminally long) post, but I can definitely expand on it if y’all want LOL. This wasn’t as detailed as I’d like it to be but I didn’t want it to be dissertation-length either, but I hope it was somewhat enjoyable!!! 🥲 Let me know what you think but please be nice I spent soooo much time on this 😭💗🙏🏻
Live, laugh, love, multiply. Xoxo

Boomer neighbor complained about people putting stickers on their mailboxes at our apartment complex. Usually stickers that say "no ads" or something like that.
She dislikes it because the mailboxes aren't clean looking. Or, as she phrased it, "it's looking almost multicultural" which to her is some type of slum or ghetto stereotype.
We live in a quiet, almost suburban part of a nice city with mostly families and old folks. She said that in a neighbor meeting including people of various ethnic backgrounds from our building, all folks who she likes and has known for years. She didn't even realize.
Stuck to her prejudices.

It’s kinda all I have tbh. I had it since I was kid going through well imo some form of negligent going on and trauma. I’ve had friends but I can honestly say I never had a best friend. Cause I don’t think I can very open to my friends on things that really go on because it’s technically all in my head. Only thing they hear about is some ideas I have when it comes to my art. But even though even when I try to be social. Which I’ve sorta gotten better. It still feels like I’m a big void around people. I’m just there but that’s it. I don’t know much. I’m out of the loop. I mean when I see what’s going on. It’s best if I am out of the loop but still it’s just idk out of the loop. I’ve always end to daydream so much to the point it’s like maybe I forgot some things that have happened in my own life. I went from day dreaming about characters to daydreaming about my life and success and honestly a great relationship despite my failed relationship/dating experiences. I would date or go out there. But, maybe I’m not ready. Idk. Maybe I’m too comfortable in my bubble. Even though there’s was years of null and me not doing anything. My head kinda filled in the gaps. I mean it can be disruptive. I tend to day dream about great situations of people I’m into but obviously never really goes well. Plus I even have daydreams that are bad aside from the ptsd flashbacks. But, I’ve also had charaters that have backstories and personalities and everything. Good and bad but they’re apart of me. Some of stuff I would love and some have stuff that overcame or went through. Of course I talk about them out loud in my own space when I’m away from people but it’s rare since I live with a big family my whole life so I never had my own space so I kinda had to get privacy within myself
I wish I could draw them more but that’s a whole situation specially since I’m so just it seems for me. Plus now I’m now into space stuff. So I like drawing or daydreaming about space beings. Also music helps a lot. Specially when I have like safe space singer (I have a better phrase for it but I forgot lol)
Just wanted to talk sorry I’m all over the place lol.

So basically I applied, got accepted, and paid the security deposit for an apartment but that was it. I didn’t sign the lease or do anything else and my scheduled move in date is supposed to be next week.
I ended up going with another apartment, paid the deposit and signed that lease and move into that apartment next week.
But I had completely forgotten about the other place and never let them know that I no longer wish to rent with them. I obviously will let them know that today, but my question is how should I phrase it and is that a shitty thing to do on my end? Am I even allowed to back out at this point since I technically never signed the lease?
I’m new at all this

Firstly I want to acknowledge this is In my opinion less than half of the whole story of Clancy. We are a blessed fan base to consistently get incredible music videos and we get another 10! 11? Who knows. I'm also going to not divulge into any major information, because if you didn't hear it yet I respect you.
Overcompensate- a banger, we've all heard it, it stackable right up with jumpsuit and heavydirtysoul. I love this song, the MV goes hard 10/10
Next Semester- made me cry the first time I heard it. Is an absolute banger, I love the punky TOP and we will see that again through this album. 10/10
Backslide- another big banger, just hit after hit. I love the beat, I loved the MV. 10/10
Minor Spoilers ahead.
Midwest Indigo- Again, I love it when top goes punk, this is like Next Semesters best friend. The "Time To Pretend" style intro is so glammy I love it. It also reminds me of ollld style TOP 10/10
Also at this point I want to acknowledge how amazing Josh's drumming is on this record, and I think his direct in person acoustic sound being gone is a part of what made SAI sound so different
Routines In The Night- A heavy beat, a super catchy chorus. In my opinion this song is very lore heavy and I won't elaborate much else until Friday. VERY excited for the MV. 10/10
Also can we appreciate just how incredible the songwriting is from these two. Like these are all perfect songs that could be played on any radio station from alt to pop. I listen to music from very much a producing standpoint, and this record stands out like Trench did
Vignette- Oh my this is a song, again I think very lore heavy and the MV will show this. I ADORE the use of organic sounds in the beginning. A heavy hitter all around, but that chorus is just something else. Very much not a normal pop chorus which I know goes against my previous point lol. There's some lyrics in here that I'm excited to see get picked apart. Also the chorus has those OLD Tyler notes and I love that. 10/10 for us, probably an 8/10 for regular people.
The Craving(JV)- If you like this band, and this song doesn't make you cry.... idk man. This one's a real treat and its so raw, and sweet. A true wedding song. 9/10
Lavish- A statement for sure. Weird all around, very trippy and entrancing, lyrically a LOT like Mulberry Street. Some very fun lyrics that are making quite a stir. My fav part is the verse at the end, the one in question, very similar song structure to The Outside. 8.5/10
Navigating- My personal favourite off the whole record and I think a lot of people will say that. I love that Tyler plays the guitar now, it really amplified this record. Very TOP, it reminds me a bit like Shy Away on a much higher frequency. This song has the potential to go big big. Feature this in a movie or something boys. This could be a 1B+ stream song. 11/10
Snap Back- I adore this song, I love when i am directly approached, 4th wall breaking. I love the self referential lines. I love the consistent increase in tempo but it's still relaxing. I love the moral of it. It's not a lot of people's favorites, but these last two are my favourite part of the album so I'm still giving it a 10/10
Oldies Station- This is my second favourite on the whole record. Its a really refreshing song, a beautiful song in my opinion. Like Good Day if it was genuinely positive. The cadence of the verses. The wavy bass. If you truly hate this song, I don't think you want to be happy lol. I also think that different generations of fans are gonna take this album in different ways. This song fits the Legend slot in my head. 10/10.
At The Risk Of Feeling Dumb- A prime example of Beat = 😊 lyrics = 😔. A super fun song, this is the moment that I found the whole band sound really came together. My 3rd favourite on the record. The most important message. Fits the Not Today and Neon Gravestones and Redecorate vibes, lyrically. A perfect closer to the record. 10/10
Paladin Strait- I am not going to say much about this song, I feel like this song is a major point in this story. I love it sonically, it is almost haunting. Friday cannot come fast enough for this one. ?/10

I just had part 1 of 3 of my assessment. I came out feeling good. I don't have any answers yet but the practitioner said some things that felt like confirmation in what I've been suspecting.
She was autistic herself and there were several things she laughed and said she totally related to.
She told me that a neurotypical person isn't going to wake up one day and think "I might be autistic" and that a neurotypical person likely wouldn't put 6 years of research into autism and wouldn't take the time to re take tests 6 months apart to account for confirmation bias like I did.
She also mentioned that she will be having me take a SIMS test and explained that it will detect any lying. Which she very quickly followed up with that she didn't think I was lying but that the test is useful for late diagnosis adults to help them believe themselves that they weren't lying. She phrased it specific to me. Like "this test will help you believe your own answers so you know you're not lying to yourself"
While I did almost start crying a couple times , she made me feel heard and understood and it was very comforting to know that someone else felt the same way I do about things. The big one we related on was if someone was crying I CAN comfort them but it's incredibly uncomfortable and I'm just thinking "are you done yet" she laughed and said she felt the exact same way.
My next session is in two weeks and the third will be two weeks after that. This session was 1.5 hours, the next she said will be 2-3 hours and the last could be up to 4 hours. I'm excited to be finally getting answers, rather it be yes or no, but also just want this to be over.

I read TBK for the fourth time in the Avsey translation and enjoyed it. Having not read any Dostoevsky for about a year and a half (disgusted by the terrible McDuff translation of TBK that I read a while back), I went into Avsey hoping he would be a breath of fresh air and he has been absolutely fantastic. The prose flows along, the dialogue is livelier (and much funnier, especially Mrs Khokhlakova) and the notes have been very useful for my own knowledge. I do think that Avsey tends to use jarring modern phraseology from time to time (for example, at one point Grushenka calls the Pole her 'ex', and Kolya uses the phrase 'sent to Coventry' which I am not sure existed in Russian at that time), but overall it was a fun read. As I speed-read it (I swallowed the whole thing in 9 days just to get a feel for the translation), and wasn't going for a slow, deep read, I can't say I got any fresh insight into it - well, apart from how ridiculous Madame Khokhlakova is.
I am keen to try a new translation next time - maybe the P&V or the Michael Katz translation. We'll have to see.

I want to introduce you to several of our board members that are here. So if you guys work your way up front. So Deacon Mark Lagreeve works at St. Francis as Deacon and is on the board of the Haven and was the founder of the Haven. So he has a little bit of an experience with this. Janky is current director of the Hope House and has a long history in Manitowoc, serving on common council at one time, business owner, and again, brings a lot of experience to what's needed here. So welcome. Brittany Punches is a teacher in town. She recently completed her master of social work degree, is a parent, and has been a Starworth volunteer at the shelter for the last two seasons, where she actually did part of her. Did they call them clinicals? Is that the right word, clinicals?
For her master of social work degree there. And so we're happy to have her joining the board. And then we also have Michael Etheridge, the director of the haven. He can't be here today, but is also on the board. And Amy Sonoman, who is the president of the board of Hope House and works at United one credit union. So these are the six and myself, six people from those three agencies that have initially created the board of the neighborhood. Now, we have a lot of work. Like, we don't even really have bylaws yet, but you know that we fill out the paperwork, but we have that. And then, of course, that will expand. But that's the core group.
And again, that's a sign of seeing that these main agencies that are addressing homelessness in our community are working together to make this a positive experience for the whole community. So at this moment, I want to say thank you to all of you for coming out. I don't know what motivated you to come out today. It might have been because you think this is the greatest thing that could ever happen. It could be that you've been a constant volunteer and supporter. It may have been because you have certain questions, but I'm glad that you're here because if we don't come together as a community, if we don't share our questions, we don't raise these things, we can never move. We can never move forward as a community.
So even if you have concerns or questions, that's what we want to make sure this is a community project and that we're able to address those concerns. So I'm going to open it up. If any of the three of you want to say anything, just something really short.
The reason we're doing this is, you know, there's market forces with the rental market, vacation rental properties, people buying second homes. A lot of snowbirds buying property here because they want to win. They want a winter here or summer here. So those are market forces. There are a lot of the new properties, condos that are being built. They're being bought by people that are wintering and have moved away to Florida and now are buying properties here to spend their summers here. So that's where some. Some of these things are happening and these are the market forces. So that's beyond our control. You know, landlords are. We love them. They serve a purpose in our community. But there's limited supply of properties, so the prices are going through the roof. I know of $800. What were $800?
Apartments that are now $1400, apartments that just changed last month, $500 or $600. So that's beyond our control. So we, as nonprofits, we have to do something of response much beyond our control. And that's to figure out how can we get into becoming landlords. How can we end up buying properties, converting them, and serving an unmet need of, you know, the people, the working class, the people that are trying to work through and find their way to home ownership or to find their way to restore their records. They need a starting place. And without us doing this, they don't have a starting place. And these are our community members. These are our family members. There are people that. That we love, that we want to care for. So that's why. What's the motivation to doing this?
And there are some generous donors in the community that see it, and they're asking, how are we going to resolve this? And they've been really asking, how do we collaborate and how do we do something to respond? And it's not just a Manitowoc issue, it's a national issue. So this is just what we're doing. Starting to do here at Manitowoc. 25 apartments here is going to make a little dent. The number of affordable apartments we determine are needed in the community is 150. There's 150. There's a lack of 150 apartments in this community. And that's what's driving supply and demand. That's what's driving up the prices of apartments. I lost my train of thought. There was something else I was going to say about. It'll come back to me. Jan, do you want to say anything?
Okay.
While you're thinking at Hope House, our priority has always been the family. So we have concentrated on, you know, single parents, couples with children, and we've not been able to really help the single female and the couples without children. So this gives us an opportunity to expand our facility that we currently have to help the single and the couple, along with our families, of course, and move them out of our current 90 day program into transitional housing, because those two groups really need help. It will not necessarily be big enough for our families, because our average family is, what, five, six people, which, you know, could be a single mom and five kids. Single mom, four kids, a couple. And these apartments may not be big enough for them. So that will help them through other means.
But we need to get the single female and the couples off the street, and this will help.
Waiting list. That's what they came up. So, Janine, what's the waiting list at the haven now? 100, 150, probably pretty close.
Single men.
Just single men. 100, 150 men get into the haven, and we can't accept them. We have to say, sorry, we gotta wait till someone moves out, but they don't have a place to move out to. What's the waiting list saying? Hope house.
It's over 100, and it's mostly single female and couples because we prioritize the family first.
So it's so hard saying no to these people. We just can't. It breaks our hearts. We have to do something, and this is the something.
So the neighborhood will put a dent in that. And obviously, it's not going to solve everything, but we start somewhere. Brittany, do you want to add anything?
I think it's just really important to press that this is a step in that transition and that it's going to move that process along. When we get our friends off the street, our guests, our neighbors that are those members of our community that, like pastor said, are exactly like us. We have had friends that have had months saved. They have an operation, and they get sick. We have had city bus drivers, we have had teachers. We have had individuals from every walks of life that something happened, and whatever it was their fault or not, oftentimes not. They need just a step up. And this is just one way to help them get back into the community and make our community stronger.
So do we have any questions? I mean, there's probably thousands of questions, but, yeah.
Who's going to do the video tour of the facilities? You've got meetings coming up. You need explanation. Video tour.
Okay, so we need to add to our list to have some folks make some. Some video walkthroughs of the facility. So people who have never seen them. We can get a kind of a look up. This is what the haven looks like. This is what the hope house looks like currently, as well as how this looks and what it can become.
So you mean video tours of Hope House, the haven and this building?
Yeah.
Okay. Yeah, I know that there's a property listing for this that has pictures of it. We have figured out how to share that so we can share that. I know there's a property listing for it that has pictures, but yes, a video would be a great idea to share them before. Pictures.
Yeah, share the pictures and then share the vision.
This is what it is, but this.
Is what it could be.
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I want to know what you're going to do. They have no place to go during the day. I don't want them sitting on my mom's porch. I don't, you know, I know. Worked at places where I work at a convenience store where we've had them hang out at a convenience store. And I know a couple that, hey, they went and got a home and, you know, in another city, and they came back and what they wanted to do was be at that convenience store. So what plans you guys have for the neighborhood to keep everybody safe for the ones that not live here, but the warm.
Thank you. That's a great question. I'm sure a lot of people share that concern as well. So the first way I'll answer that is that. Oh, I'm. Thank you. Just what. Can you repeat the question? We had a hard time period. Yes, that's what. Yeah, that's what I was about to do. So the question was, is, what can we do to help those leaving the shelter each morning, to not just congregate on people's porches and such around the neighborhood, right around here? Is that a fair? Okay, so I'll answer that two ways. The first way is that, you know, the current warming shelter is less than half a mile from here, so it's already in this neighborhood. And so we have not had. Any of the neighbors have had concerns about that.
Most of the guests, when they leave, typically, at least at any given time, I'd say a quarter of the guests are working. So they're going to work. Some of them, of course, work a different shift. But one of the other gaps we have is what do they do during the day? I mean, a lot are at the library and stuff. We have found our guests to be respectful and kind and are. And if we ask them, you know, this, we have never had a problem with them hanging out at private property. And I think if we. That's one of the rules, if you will. We have rules at the shelter. There's conditions and, you know, and just simply to let them know that private property is private property. I, you know that.
I think you use the phrase what can we do to guarantee or insure we can't? Just like we don't now.
Well, you had mentioned earlier about being.
In, you know.
That'S what this area is. How do you keep them out of the alley? How do you keep them out of people's garages, as you had mentioned?
I'd say typically they're not. I mean, the guests at the shelter are not those people. It's the people who can't find room at the shelter, but that's just overnight.
So you kick them out in the morning, to put it one. So from morning to night, where are they going? Where are they going?
They're going to the library. I know the Salvation army two days a week has. They're walking to Walmart, they're walking out to Lowe's. I mean, they're getting on the bus. The location of being a few more blocks away from certain things is not going to impede them at all. I say Salvation army twice a week is offering lunch, which expanded beyond. I mean, it's not just like a half hour thing to hang out on Sundays. We had ascend services has opened up one of their facilities during the day. So I think that they'll be respectful of private property like they have been. I mean, we haven't had, crime rates have not increased around the shelter and things. So I think the guests will go. So typically they're not staying. They're not staying around the shelter.
I have a question.
Yeah, I want to. I just want to.
Well, I've been holding my hand for quite a while. You said that these people in the program in the apartments are background checked. What about the people that are overnight? Are they background checked? Do you know where they come from.
As a low barrier shelter, as we've run that the last two seasons? No, though they do not have background checks on them. We do have a policy that works with law enforcement that if there is a. I can't remember the law enforcement phrases, but if they have, we can have a relationship where they can come in. And if there is, if they are looking for somebody and have reasonable cause, is that the right phrase? Plausible cause that they're welcome to.
So they could have a record for all, you know.
Sure. Just like everybody else here who has a record here? I do.
I don't. Also, you had said that you have a very generous donor for the first year of expenses. What about the following years? Is that going to ever be passed on to the taxpayer?
No, this is not a city project. And so we have. No.
What about maintenance?
So one of our goals is that when we will fundraise for what high level expense? About 8 million. Okay. And then we want to add into that automatically another million that will create an endowment at the Lakeshore foundation so that there will be just generated money to help do maintenance. But also there will be. There will be funding generated by the rental of the apartments that will work. And then as any nonprofit, there will be additional, you know, community fundraisers. But this is not a county or a city project. So there's. This isn't a tax thing.
Well, what about extra police force that we pay for that.
So you would have to ask law enforcement. But at this point, they haven't added any extra law enforcement. You have something to add to that?
At the shelter, were open two seasons, 150 days each total of 300 days. I was there 294 of them. So I can. That's my background. When we called 911, were calling for rescue squad. We were calling because someone was having a stroke. We were calling because someone was having an apparent heart attack. We weren't calling because we had an illegal situation. Now, we have been told that we have saved the life of the person who was having a stroke, that had he been sleeping in his car or worse, he would have passed away. Obviously, these medical incidents would take place whether they were in the shelter under the watchful eye of volunteers, or out in the public.
Yeah, but you're comparing apples to oranges. You've never had a building this size in the middle of a residential neighborhood, and you've never had any trouble at all?
Let's have everyone have a chance. I want to go back to you because you had your hand up.
Check that out with the police.
I was just wondering if the vision could include some kind of cottage industry that. For training, for maybe helping those people that haven't worked in a while. I don't know if there's any programs like that, but that might also help generate some income and good teaching, still something to do during the day that maybe some of them would be a good fit for. And I also wanted to say that I had a family member before the warming shelter downtown who almost froze to death on a night when it was below zero. And yes, they were a drug addict.
But they told me when they were in recovery, they asked me to take them to the lutheran church on Meadow Lane, and they wanted to specifically talk to the assistant pastor because they knocked on his door and he gave them a voucher for a motel for two nights, or they could have possibly frozen to death. She was so grateful. So I just want to put that out there that if it hits home.
For you.
I appreciate your idea, and we'll certainly have that.
So this question probably goes beyond only the neighborhood, but at the concern is this program going to stay within the people that live in this town, or are we going to be welcoming people with Chabot, Green Bay, and all that? That would be an issue because, you know, sometimes the id doesn't match something from Manitowoc. They don't know the streets and things like that. So is there any chance that you guys are going to just take before all the managewalk people that we already know?
We would like to have a Manitowoc county first. Is that the right way to say it, Jan?
Yeah. We always take Manitowoc county residents first. That's the priority.
And also with the warming shelter, that's why we don't want to have more beds than we see the current need for this community.
Well, yeah, but at the end, if they're already here from Sheboygan, they took the right and all that, and they're already here. All the issues that they already mentioned, if they're gonna happen, they're gonna tend in this area or in the alley, walk around, you know, so I don't see. We don't see so much of that.
Issue of being homeless.
So is this gonna trigger something that is gonna make more people from other states?
You know, again, you know, there's certain things which, you know, I don't have a crystal ball, but. But again, though, the last two seasons of having a warming shelter have not created that. And the ten years at the Haven and the 20 years have not. Have not statistically shown that people are intentionally saying, I now need to use the last of my financial resources to travel to Manitowoc, particularly during the winter. So I want to let Brittany had a.
So I really want to mention that part because, like, not only have we seen from historically that it doesn't. It hasn't increased in any of the programs we currently have that open my.
Brain, I was like, oh, I was ready.
Was that.
Okay? Yeah. Yeah. Describe the security plans you have for the warming, Shelley, as to what types.
Of people are.
And how they go about doing that. Okay. I can talk a little bit about what it is now, knowing that isn't the same as what it will be here. And between now and 18 months, we haven't, you know, as far as, like, well, what does that mean with. With lighting and with camera systems? I can't. I can't answer all those questions about this. Personnel, currently. Personnel has been, has all, is currently, is all volunteer with training, and that includes involvement with law enforcement. They serve on the steering committee for the warming shelter and things. So that's how it's currently being staffed.
Pastor.
The main thing I did was I was officially the line monitor. It fell to me to count off the twelve people who were going to be allowed in. When I would walk up to number 13 or number 14, 15, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20, 21, the fear in their eyes was so intense, I often had to turn away. I'm not an overly emotional person, but when I look at someone who has now got to figure out what piece of pavement they're going to sleep on, it rips me apart. Now, what does that mean for the security of the people who are staying in the shelter? The people staying in the shelter. Pay attention when we go over the guidelines, which we do every time there's a new person, or any time on a frequent basis, not every single day, because we have repeat guests.
They all know and they understand that because there is this pressure of these up to eight people out here, they mess up or they go against the guidelines, they could be asked to leave so that someone else would come in. This fear combined with the safety of a warm, safe, clean environment with a hot meal and people who care, keep the guests in a very comfortable, easy to talk to manner. Out of the twelve that come in at a night.
It'S already happening.
It's happening now with everything over twelve.
One voice at a time. Folks, this is a community.
You're bringing it into our neighborhood. We're asking what you're going to do to help protect our neighborhood.
By increasing our capacity to twelve beyond the eight that, up to eight that we know we shouldn't have that. I suspect that if there are homeless in this area, and I believe there are, they're already in places that you don't even know about because they've adapted to their environment. What we're doing is we're pulling them off the street. In the twelve most vulnerable times of the day. From the shelter, there is a migration. South. Library, painting pathways.
YMca.
YMca.
Grow it forward.
Grow it forward. There's all these places that they're headed towards. They have no interest in going away or north in this case, because there aren't resources up there. There's not meals, there's not warm, safe places for them.
Okay, we'll go back. And they have created a community themselves and they hang together.
And so they don't, they're not going.
To the peace by themselves.
They hang together.
They have created a community where they.
Are safe in their numbers with each other and they look out for each other. So I just can't imagine that they would branch out, that they are going to stay, as Ken said, they're going.
To go where their opportunities are to be together.
Well, that's what we're here today for, and that's what history stands for. We didn't see no flyers or anything.
Nothing.
And that's on you now. I would take it even a step farther. Something in this bank should be a referendum.
We have election six months coming.
Off. Yeah, I mean I can appreciate that sentiment, but this isn't, this isn't a city funded thing and therefore it's a dictatorship. Well, we haven't purchased the building. I told you what the conditions for purchase are. Yeah, I believe Mister Cummings. Well, and this, you may not live here, literally right here that the shelter is Mike Cummings. And I believe over there is. Yes. You always said about security and everything and getting people back to work. I know you guys have a shelter down the history every time, because I live here, every time I pass a quick tripod, there's always two or one squad car outside. There's always fights in there all the time. Okay, I hear that. I appreciate that.
Absolutely.
A sweat equity is something that may happen. Absolutely. And they take advantage of many opportunities like that now. So I'm not going to tell you something that we have a plan worked out where they will do all necessary maintenance and janitorial thing. Because what I hear is similar to another one about how can, you know, what are some ways that we can help both teach them or give them some skills that they may take advantage of the incredible skills that they already. So, yeah, I mean, I think that certainly is part of our long term, you know, discussion on how we can do that. I use the term sweat equity. You know, that they're putting something into those resources.
Not a question, statement. The reason you had mentioned, first of all, that neighborhoods or neighbors may be concerned about their taxes, property, you know, their values going down, their property they will go down. I mean if you cross Washington to where all of your very wonderful programs are, the taxes or the property values are lower than they are in this neighborhood? It's just a fact. Just a fact.
Couldn't that because the houses on the south side are older?
No, no.
Are you saying that the property taxes.
No, I'm talking about value tax or property values. Yeah. I'm a realtor. I know that this. This side of the city is. I'm not talking about the hope house reputation or anything. I'm just stating a fact that the south side's property values are lower than they are here.
Always works.
Okay.
Thank you.
And this is just a question to everybody. Are you guys concerned about putting people from encourage Hope House Haven, all of those places that are separated now because we need security for the men's shelter. You need security for domestic violence, you need security for sexual assault victims, you need security for all of those people. And you have them in all different places due to that and background check them. You do all these kind of things. Programs are great that they're working for. I 100% agree with that. But now you're going to put them all in one area, in one apartment complex. So that is my thought about this. Or concern about. About that.
Sure. Can they trigger each other or something.
Coming in and those people haven't been bedded and there, I understand locks and everything, but if they both walk out the same door, they're in the same area. Is that a concern? Because if you have somebody in the warming shelter who isn't supposed to have contact with somebody here who says they're not becoming a nice.
There's a lot of things to work out as we work it out.
Yeah.
Big thing is how do we secure, make it secure and safe for people? Because we're helping people transition to safety as they move out into society. So, yeah. So do we have the answer yet? No, but we know we need to. We know we need to. But, yeah, we're just starting. We started talking a couple months ago when this all started coming together. So we're in the process of getting there. We have 18 months to figure it out.
And you know, too, then the safety of the building and everybody in it, and then the safety of all the neighborhood and everybody around it as well. Because if there's going to be issues with that community and there's going to be issues around the neighborhood community as well, if you're bringing, you know what I'm saying? If there's nothing that conflict, that's just.
I like, I learned what to answer a question with a question. Who's controlling who's living in all the.
Rental apartments in this neighborhood?
No. Who's controlling who's living in the neighborhoods in this community? Who's making sure they're all safe in these rentals in this community?
Police.
Who's making sure that?
Police. Our local police. No, landlords don't do ___. They don't have to do ___.
Stop. Police.
Well, hi.
Are we on opposite sides on this?
Actually, yeah. And I don't even live here. I live in two rivers.
It's gonna be a __ show.
Making advancements 150. And I don't see that 150 number getting smaller as the real estate market.
Remember that they're coming to where they are under total programs, where they're under rules.
I mean, I get that.
And that's not going to change when they come here from the news.
Doesn't mean that they always follow the rules of the program.
I work every day.
And so if they don't, you know, if they don't follow the rules, they're out. And we answer people when they don't, you know, find child care for their children. And, you know, so all these things are totally case management at home.
It would come. It would come through the agency that they entered.
Okay, so it wouldn't be here directly. It would be from. If they're at the case management.
Correct.
So it's not here.
They're having case management not through here, but it may physically happen. Yeah. I would just say the mix of people. The nice thing is that because they are in a program and we know something, they'll be able to determine that this person may not be in the right. We'll know more about them than other apartments and or just home buyers and home rental things. So we try to address some of that, and some people just are tension built with other people around. And some of that we may know. So clearly, if we work with encourage, there's not going to be the person seeking services there, and the person who helped make them go into service are going to be the same.
Transitional housing. Some people, you know, as we've said before, some people might need 120 days of, you know, being in home, and they may never be ready for transitional living. So we have to help them through the rest of the process. So the people that will be here are those that are ready to learn, be on their own, and then get out to be independent members of the.
I live in the neighborhood. Okay. The most important, the important thing about each one of you and me and anybody who might be here is their intrinsic value as a human being. But each human being has an intrinsic value because they're human. So we don't have to trust everyone, right? Maybe not everybody deserves our trust, but everybody deserves respect. And when we don't have compassion, that's looking at us. So I understand, and I bet you they have really smart people working on.
All of it, and they're going to.
Want input so that everybody sees public.
Insurance.
That we are truly responding as a human being, compassion for one another, because as we're compassionate, it's going to grow. A compassionate community. That's right. Now, you have two important meetings coming up, right.
The city.
The first one's Wednesday evening, 06:00 p.m.?
Right? Yes. That's what the public hearing with the site or the plan commission. And then June 17, we would love to have people come and to share your thoughts, your values. I mean, the same types of things that were shared today.
Thank you.
Okay.
Your thought is also that with this transitional housing, those people, there will be.
Someone here that will be case managing.
24/7 not necessarily living.
There will be someone here, like at the warming shelter.
There will be somebody here.
Whenever the warming shows shelters open and the traditional housing, they'll be case managers, checking in daily or weekly or however.
Far along they are.
Yeah.
On their own, running around, doing whatever. They will be under an umbrella of monitor.
They can do whatever they want. Right. They're adults. They can leave.
Yeah.
Go and do whatever they want. So that doesn't stop people from doing. Right. Just like any homeowner, any apartment, any.
Apartment.
We have more control over that. So if they live here and they do something wrong, and he says, you're out. So if they put them on the street, where do they go? Do they go to the warming shelter? Do they stay in our neighborhood? That's our concern. They're going to where they go without it right now, which is, unfortunately where they are right now. All across the community, usually more out in the rural areas under the 21st.
Street Cathay.
Down from the cemetery where they have it should have come out Thursday.
So on Thursdays. Well, should have been. I'm saying should have been. So the plan commission meeting is next Wednesday, and with every plan commission meeting, there's a community mailing within some radius of the area. So the city should have mailed this out already. So if you don't have it, you should be getting it soon. If you have it, contact the plan commission and say, why do I. Why haven't I received the mail and.
I couldn't tell you what that radius is.
So we wanted to. We wanted to have this gathering before you receive the mailing.
And if you. Yeah. And remember, if you don't own your house, unfortunately, you don't get a mailing.
The property owner.
Property owner does. So I mean, that, again, that's. That's it. That's a city thing. So if you're a renter, you may. Your. Your landlord may not share that with you.
Okay, one.
One more that I want to be respectful of our hour.
We've had homeless for longer than we can ever imagine. I had taken a course at Green Bay, and I said, well, we don't have that many. She said, they're coming to us. We have no place.
Thank you for bringing this to fruition. We never thought about it two seasons ago.
Thank you, pastor, so much.
Okay, so I want to be respectful of our hour together. So, again, thank you all for coming. Continued dialogue, it makes us a healthier community, so thank you.
I guess so.

Hello, new to this subreddit, but other subreddits have given me good advice so many times that thought it might be worth an ask!
Does anyone know what might be the cause of my current plumbing woes? Or can point me for a phrase to search to read more?
Context of house refurb: - Ex- council (solidly built)1950s semi detached house in UK, was basically untouched until recent refurb project. - Original copper water pipe from mains supply pipe in road to where in enters house in the kitchen. - All other pipes for water and heating inside house newly installed in last few months- modern width was my understanding. - I know from water company that although the pipes into the house are fairly narrow copper pipes that the pressure is good due to local geography. - my neighbours don't have upstairs/downstairs differences in water flow (at least by eye, haven't got them to measure yet)
Downstairs plumbing seems okay: - Outside tap seems good and works fine with pressure washer - Kitchen tap (direct to mains) takes 7 seconds to fill a one litre jug on cold only, 9 seconds on hot only. Not super high flow I know (something like 9 litres per minute on cold), but not noticeably slow. - there's a water softener unit that connects to everything that's inside apart from kitchen sink tap (as hard water area, was recommended. I'm new to using one). - there's a new combi gas boiler running hot water and central heating with standard radiators.
Upstairs bathroom has a much lower flow rate: - Shower on a medium setting takes 15 seconds to fill a one litre jug (4 litres per minute). Like using a watering can! - Bathroom tap on cold takes something like 15 seconds for one litre (4 litres a second). Takes about twice as long after toilet has been flushed.
Any idea what might be going on? Could it be related to the water softener? Or internal pipework going up 2m to the bathroom?
Builder in charge of refurb is supportive (plumber has made several other daft mistakes and has had to move pipes several times to include fitted appliances). But useful to know what else I could check or investigate before they come back later in the week.
Thanks in advance! Any clues appreciated!