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Info for people buying first pit bike/suggestions and considerations
2024.05.14 02:30 SloMobiusCheatCode Info for people buying first pit bike/suggestions and considerations
 | Was replying to someone who’s looking for a first bike and my response was getting long so figured I’d post it for all for others looking to get in to pit biking. After almost 20 years and countless pit bikes bough, ridden and sold, here’s some highlights… submitted by SloMobiusCheatCode to Pitbike [link] [comments] The bike you get depends on your size but I think the best all around regardless is a 110. There’s CRF, KLX , Ttr, I don’t think they make the DRZ 110 anymore, but if you’re going to buy used that one’s cool too. As long as you get to test the bike/someone trustworthy tests it and takes a good look, there’s no reason not to save some bucks and buy used for a first bike. Unless money is no concern then by all means cop new. I’ve always bought mine used and I’ve had about 10 different pitbikes. I’d say you can probably find a decent functional bike for as low as $1200 then up from there. More likely $1800/2k tho. Used low priced bikes might be some years old and have some dings but if one of the tried and true brands it’ll still be solid enough to ride and not worry about. Depending on where you are, there are several factors to consider when getting your first bike. The real big consideration is: where could you ride? Do you have land or is there land you’re able to ride close to you? or an OHv area near you? Where I live in the bay area CA and there’s nowhere for many miles from me. You’d have to drive like an hour to get somewhere you can legally ride then another hour or two to the next ohv area, so unless you have land, this is far from the best place to ride / have a dirt bike. My solution was to get a plate and some lights to get my bike Street Legal, so if you’re in a place that has a lack of places to ride, consider going Street Legal route. People often assume they can just cruise around on pitbikes no problem, but I’ll tell you in my area you just 100% can’t. There’s plenty of rural areas where no one cares at all, but in major cities and suburbs cops will pursue, write you a big ticket, take your bike and impound sometimes and get super pissed. However if you’re in a really big city, there are some with no chase policies in place. If that’s the case, when cops try to stop you, and you run from them, They did not chase you because it would be more dangerous than it’s worth. You don’t really wanna have to do that, but it’s a thing. Some cities seem to have given up on policing dirt bikes, which is a win if you have one. The cops just have bigger problems in some cities, so in my area it seems that the suburbs are the ones that really get screwed and you can get away pretty Scott free if you’re in the city. It complicates the matter because if you are in one of those cities where it’s a gray area, and the cops don’t seem to chase, but you don’t want to run the risk of having to deal with them chasing you for no reason, getting a plate could be a solution, but then if you’re riding around doing wheelies and riding with groups and they do decide to come after you guys, you’re just wearing a name tag (plate) and they can identify you anywhere, so it’s kind of better to keep the anonymity in some scenarios. Then again If you’re in a position to have to flee from the cops While riding dirty and by yourself it can be a sketchy situation situation. TLDR- avoid the offbrand, Chinese, knock off etc. and go with the namebrand Japanese bike for longevity and reliability. If you’re trying not to break the bank, buying used is fine (craigslist or similar etc.) 110 is a myth suggestion for an all around fun, safe, reliable pit bike. If new to riding, you should put in plenty of thought as to where you will ride and what to be prepared for depending on your area regarding legalities and policy’s. |
2024.05.14 02:30 verylikelydepressed 23F - Questions I need answered: Tokyo Drift
We're back at it again with more questions because those little voices in my brain just won't stop. Feel free to answer as many or as little as you like, no pressure! Though as always, I reserve the right to judge your answers
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- Do you think you could go fully off the grid without being tracked down? It's up to you how you go about it, but you do need to give reasons why you think you wouldn't be able to be found
- Would you willingly become a vampire if given the opportunity? If you would, do you want to live forever or is there a point where you feel like you would just be done with it all and walk into the sun?
- If you came across a treasure map, what's the furthest distance you would be willing to go to recover the treasure? For example, if you're in North America, would you be willing to go to Europe for the possibility of finding something? There's no guarantee there's actual treasure there
- If you found out there was a clone of you, would it be more likely that the clone is the evil version, or you are? Provide evidence (if you're comfortable with it)
- All clowns have a personality, outfit, and makeup style, what would yours be? Bonus points if you do me a little drawing of your clownsona, it doesn't have to be good at all
- You have to pick three songs. One defines your character, one defines your past, and one defines your deepest desires. What are the songs you would pick?
- If you found out the leader of your country was coming to dinner tomorrow, what dish would you make them? If you wanna make them something awful, there'll be no consequences. If you make them something good, they'll reward you. It's completely up to you whether you want to show your actual feelings about them or not
- Do you think Pavlov realised he was also conditioning himself to want to give a dog a treat every time he heard a bell ring?
- Should we normalise adult bouncy castles? That's the full question, I just wanna jump around goddammit
2024.05.14 02:30 Rough-Boot9086 How to improve "leave/drop it"
I got my puppy at 10 weeks and began leave it from the beginning. She was doing well more than half the time as she got a little older. I live in a huge apartment complex wich is like it's own little neighborhood so I walk her around there every day. We have three little fenced in areas for dogs to run around so I'd take her but we have stray cats so she'd find cat poop if she started digging around in a corner and then wouldn't drop the poop so I had to stop taking her there. During our walks though, she'd see something on the ground, I'd say leave it and give her a slight tug and she'd keep walking. She also did pretty well in the house with leaving things, considering she was three months old. Now she's six months and listens less. I can't get her in the house because I have an open kitchen so she will run around in circles forever. If I feel she has a choking hazard, I'll put a high value treat right in her face but sometimes she'll keep chewing what she has. When she does leave it I always make sure to give her treats and a lot of praise because it's so important for their safety. I guess it's just part of puppiness ? She knows I have no problem sticking my hand in her mouth either. So she knows she can leave it, get praise and a treat or she can keep chewing the bottle cap, I stick my hands in her mouth and take it away and she gets nothing...
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2024.05.14 02:29 verylikelydepressed 23F - Questions I need answered: Tokyo Drift
We're back at it again with more questions because those little voices in my brain just won't stop. Feel free to answer as many or as little as you like, no pressure! Though as always, I reserve the right to judge your answers
submitted by verylikelydepressed to MakeNewFriendsHere [link] [comments]
- Do you think you could go fully off the grid without being tracked down? It's up to you how you go about it, but you do need to give reasons why you think you wouldn't be able to be found
- Would you willingly become a vampire if given the opportunity? If you would, do you want to live forever or is there a point where you feel like you would just be done with it all and walk into the sun?
- If you came across a treasure map, what's the furthest distance you would be willing to go to recover the treasure? For example, if you're in North America, would you be willing to go to Europe for the possibility of finding something? There's no guarantee there's actual treasure there
- If you found out there was a clone of you, would it be more likely that the clone is the evil version, or you are? Provide evidence (if you're comfortable with it)
- All clowns have a personality, outfit, and makeup style, what would yours be? Bonus points if you do me a little drawing of your clownsona, it doesn't have to be good at all
- You have to pick three songs. One defines your character, one defines your past, and one defines your deepest desires. What are the songs you would pick?
- If you found out the leader of your country was coming to dinner tomorrow, what dish would you make them? If you wanna make them something awful, there'll be no consequences. If you make them something good, they'll reward you. It's completely up to you whether you want to show your actual feelings about them or not
- Do you think Pavlov realised he was also conditioning himself to want to give a dog a treat every time he heard a bell ring?
- Should we normalise adult bouncy castles? That's the full question, I just wanna jump around goddammit
2024.05.14 02:29 Ok_Coconut_2560 Noodles
My family has always been of great minds. I hated it. Growing up and having to study day and night to try and live up to them was extremely exhausting when I couldn't care how things worked as long as I was happy. I gave up but somehow everything kept turning out to be true.
Over my lifetime I have become the Gorden Ramsey of the science world. Known for my temper and also for huge things like curing world hunger using play-doe and cancer with baby powder I got in a back street ally while drunk.
To get my family off my back I started making random ideas so they could see me as a failure and leave me alone but...they keep working. And soon people started to praise me. Fame has left me with nothing but more and more attention. So today I plan to make sure that everyone can just think I'm insane and leave me alone and not some king.
I chuckled like a kid who was opening a Christmas present as I heard the crowd of people chatting and talking loudly as I hid behind my stage in a grey tight suit that my sister had picked out. I sighed and was ready to walk out and make a fool out of myself but my brother stopped me.
" Jack... I just want you to know how proud I am of you. Dad would have loved to see you right now. "
I thought it was ironic because last night while chilling on the couch watching TV and eating chips I made this theory up. He dusted off my shoulders held them tight and looked me in the eyes taking in the moment.
" go give them hell man. "
He had a goofy smile just like Dad but spoke with confidence.
" you got it, man. "
I heard my name being called onto the stage and the uproar startled me for a second but I collected myself and headed out after giving him a nod just to entertain him.
The lights were blinding as I grabbed the mic and looked at the table in front of me with a small box with the ingredients I needed and a chalkboard behind me.
After I stood still for a minute the crowd died down. I had not told anyone what I was presenting so the whole world was watching without a clue of what I was doing this time.
"Hello everyone. Today I believe I have my most important presentation yet..."
The crowd grew silent and hung on every word. And I heard my voice around the room through the speakers.
" Today I have with me a box...and inside is spaghetti I had for breakfast. "
The crowd laughed thinking it was a joke
" shut up "
The crowd grew silent once more
"Behind me is a chalkboard and I will now present my new findings to all of you...I have found out how to make portals to other worlds. "
A man in the far back of the audience yelled bullshit in a heavy Indian accent but he was so far it was a faint sound for me. I smiled at that thinking I had finally found something that would make me lose my title and I could go ahead and live a life without people making me feel like an evil man for not helping others.
I opened the box got a handful of the noodles and threw them at the chalkboard. I then grabbed a paper towel on standby to clean myself.
The noodles hit the board and slowly moved and rested on a spot on the board. I made eye contact with my brother backstage and he had a look on his face showing he believed in me.
I spun the board dropping the noodles to the ground I then grabbed the chalk and drew around the sauce and noodles that stuck to the board then drew my attention to the others that had fallen on the floor and drew an outline of that.
After it finished I threw the chalk in the crowd violently hitting an old lady in the face.
" Quickly I want a show of hands who thinks I'm a crazy guy "
Everyone raised their hands and I laughed to myself
I then went behind the board and laid it horizontally. I grabbed a small knife in my pocket and poked my finger with it. The crimson blood fell and hit the chalk and then as more and more blood hit the chalk it started glowing.
" you have got to be joking. "
I said out loud as it started to spark an orange glow and it slowly grew color to the rest of the chalk in orange sparks.
Once the symbol was fully sparking with orange the sauce began to swell and move around in a counterclockwise manner. I stepped away from it in shock as small parts of the blood in my finger began to float to the parts where it fell on the floor I drew my outlines on and started sparking those as well.
It started to smoke and hiss as if lightning could whisper and the orange began to take shape and the sauce made a doorway. The parts that were not on the board began to grow ice around them and started to make designs on the floor circling me and the board. Suddenly it grew in size and a large booming voice was heard through the portal as I felt panic of people start to set in.
A huge claw came out and scrapped the sides of my table trying to crawl out from the world it had been trapped in. Cold winds hit me as they cut my skin and threw around my clothes. As I saw the table was now melting from its touch.
A slimy green claw with mucus like a face-hugger egg from the movie Alien carved through the floor and pulled the rest of its body out slowly. A beast stood at 12 feet tall adjusting to our world as goop grew and shaped its body as people screamed, ran, and stood frozen in fear.
As it looked around it locked its spider-like eyes and swerled around coming out from the portal and twisting and turning around the body as it made its way to its head finding a place to rest. It then locked its eyes with me and its jaw twisted slowly from an ant-like maw to mine and slowly shrunk and it soon took the shape of me and knelt on the floor and spoke to me.
" master. "
I stood in shock as everyone seemed to calm down and watched to see what I would do.
"...umm "My family has always been of great minds. I hated it. Growing up and having to study day and night to try and live up to them was extremely exhausting when I couldn't care how things worked as long as I was happy. I gave up but somehow everything kept turning out to be true.
Over my lifetime I have become the Gorden Ramsey of the science world. Known for my temper and also for huge things like curing world hunger using play-doe and cancer with baby powder I got in a back street ally while drunk.
To get my family off my back I started making random ideas so they could see me as a failure and leave me alone but...they keep working. And soon people started to praise me. Fame has left me with nothing but more and more attention. So today I plan to make sure that everyone can just think I'm insane and leave me alone and not some king.
I chuckled like a kid who was opening a Christmas present as I heard the crowd of people chatting and talking loudly as I hid behind my stage in a grey tight suit that my sister had picked out. I sighed and was ready to walk out and make a fool out of myself but my brother stopped me.
" Jack... I just want you to know how proud I am of you. Dad would have loved to see you right now. "
I thought it was ironic because last night while chilling on the couch watching TV and eating chips I made this theory up. He dusted off my shoulders held them tight and looked me in the eyes taking in the moment.
" go give them hell man. "
He had a goofy smile just like Dad but spoke with confidence.
" you got it, man. "
I heard my name being called onto the stage and the uproar startled me for a second but I collected myself and headed out after giving him a nod just to entertain him.
The lights were blinding as I grabbed the mic and looked at the table in front of me with a small box with the ingredients I needed and a chalkboard behind me.
After I stood still for a minute the crowd died down. I had not told anyone what I was presenting so the whole world was watching without a clue of what I was doing this time.
"Hello everyone. Today I believe I have my most important presentation yet..."
The crowd grew silent and hung on every word. And I heard my voice around the room through the speakers.
" Today I have with me a box...and inside is spaghetti I had breakfast. "
The crowd laughed thinking it was a joke
" shut up "
The crowd grew silent once more
"Behind me is a chalkboard and I will now present my new findings to all of you...I have found out how to make portals to other worlds. "
A man in the far back of the audience yelled bullshit in a heavy Indian accent but he was so far it was a faint sound for me. I smiled at that thinking I had finally found something that would make me lose my title and I could go ahead and live a life without people making me feel like an evil man for not helping others.
I opened the box got a handful of the noodles and threw them at the chalkboard. I then grabbed a paper towel on standby to clean myself.
The noodles hit the board and slowly moved and rested on a spot on the board. I made eye contact with my brother backstage and he had a look on his face showing he believed in me.
I spun the board dropping the noodles to the ground I then grabbed the chalk and drew around the sauce and noodles that stuck to the board then drew my attention to the others that had fallen on the floor and drew an outline of that.
After it finished I threw the chalk in the crowd violently hitting an old lady in the face.
" Quickly I want a show of hands who thinks I'm a crazy guy "
Everyone raised their hands and I laughed to myself
I then went behind the board and laid it horizontally. I grabbed a small knife in my pocket and poked my finger with it. The crimson blood fell and hit the chalk and then as more and more blood hit the chalk it started glowing.
" you have got to be joking. "
I said out loud as it started to spark an orange glow and it slowly grew color to the rest of the chalk in orange sparks.
Once the symbol was fully sparking with orange the sauce began to swell and move around in a counterclockwise manner. I stepped away from it in shock as small parts of the blood in my finger began to float to the parts where it fell on the floor I drew my outlines on and started sparking those as well.
It started to smoke and hiss as if lightning could whisper and the orange began to take shape and the sauce made a doorway. The parts that were not on the board began to grow ice around them and started to make designs on the floor circling me and the board. Suddenly it grew in size and a large booming voice was heard through the portal as I felt panic of people start to set in.
A huge claw came out and scrapped the sides of my table trying to crawl out from the world it had been trapped in. Cold winds hit me as they cut my skin and threw around my clothes. As I saw the table was now melting from its touch.
A slimy green claw with mucus like a face-hugger egg from the movie Alien carved through the floor and pulled the rest of its body out slowly. A beast stood at 12 feet tall adjusting to our world as goop grew and shaped its body as people screamed, ran, and stood frozen in fear.
As it looked around it locked its spider-like eyes and swerled around coming out from the portal and twisting and turning around the body as it made its way to its head finding a place to rest. It then locked its eyes with me and its jaw twisted slowly from an ant-like maw to mine and slowly shrunk and it soon took the shape of me and knelt on the floor and spoke to me.
" master. "
I stood in shock as everyone seemed to calm down and watched to see what I would do.
Now that this creature knelt before me I realized that the room I was in was so terrible quietly you could hear everyone's ass get tight in anticipation of what would happen next.
" ...what...are you. "
I spoke carefully to the being that had taken the shape of myself. It still took my breath away and my throat was dry.
The beast was a deep green. The color mixed with shades of grey streaming from it. The longer I looked at it I could see it getting closer to what I looked like shaping itself.
From small flowing green tendrils to an arm they grew as they twisted and made bone then muscle and finally skin.
It locked eyes with me and it smiled deeply at me. As it formed the face finally.
" Your vassle. "
My eyes had not moved to the crowd at all but even though the lights hit the stage so hard it was enveloped in smoke.
The creature's eyes glowed as it answered brightly, not figuratively. This thing's eyes were glowing.
"To serve you, We are bound by blood magic. I am a reflection of your desires, Master, " it said, its voice now a whisper in my mind.
It began to stand up as my grey suit began to form on it and by the time it stood fully up it had copied what I looked like.
" let me explain everything. "
My body frozen in fear woke up with adrenaline as I blinked and a flash of green smoke covered my vision as he teleported right to me face to face.
Its body turned to smoke and went into the slits of my eyes. I felt visions follow me in my peripheral vision but surprisingly no pain followed power filled me and it felt like one hell of a drug.
My body and mind altered.
I was now in a very dark place with no walls or light except my reflection on the floor which waved like water.
I took a step back looking around and back to the reflection of me on the ground.
Soon the water rippled and my reflection fell through the floor like gravity was inverted. he flew upright and water fell off of him as he looked at me as he now stood straight ahead of me. He was just reflecting in the water but now eyed me down.
Collecting my nerves.
I begin to speak.
" what do you want..."
He was still in my form and stood perfectly straight. Now with water dripping from his...my hair.
Slight stubble with hair that hung down and my hazel eyes were not present within him but I was greeted with a swelling acidic green that doubled the size of my pupil.
" to serve you. "
He made no other movement than putting his hands behind his back like a soldier at ease.
I could not tell if it was lying or not.
" ...is that it? "
" I am the embodiment of your fear desires and brilliance. You have shaped me. Your desire for solitude birthed me. I will aid you in shaping the world how you see fit. Your reality becomes mine. "
There was a slight echo in the room as he spoke.
" wait...where are we "
I questioned haphazardly
" your mind. "
An awkward silence was in the air until I spoke
" so...am I just standing on the stage not making a sound? "
He gave me a concerned look.
" no...time has frozen outside for you. You may sleep here without having to in the real world so to others you look as if you never rest and you may think and plan what to do in battle here. For them, it will be about two seconds...Do...do you not have any knowledge of what I am? "
Suddenly I felt bad like I had encountered someone famous and I had no idea who they were. A slap in the face like a popular kid meeting someone who had never heard of them. Ego shattered.
" ok sorry no. I...don't go around reading about...monsters?"
I felt like was I saying the n-word of the demon realm not knowing if that word was offensive.
He folded his arms a little upset.
"Are you not a warrior? "
" well...no I...just watch TV and cook here and there- "
The demon cut me off
" weak. "
" excuse me? "
" look. I am an immortal being and after a while you get bored. So I'm sorry if I may be a little upset after being bonded with some nobody. "
I got quiet and I was a little annoyed that I was being roasted by some demon that I just met.
Its form wavers and eyes begin to open on its skin. Cheeks forhead etc.
"After being a god for so long it's fun to play with limitations. Makes things extremely exciting. "
" what do you mean by that? "
" look. You can only be so entertained by the same things. Life gets boring and now...you are going to help me with this. I get to have pure entertainment while you get every wish you could ever want. A mutual bond no? "
He then closed his eyes annoyed and the other eyes meshed back to his skin.
" though... the TV is not that interesting...life is what gets the blood pumping"
I felt the need to quickly change the topic
"Are there others like you? "
The room began to take shape very slowly as the water floor turned to wood and walls went around us.
" of course. You may meet them one day "
Confused and curious I pressed.
"Meet them? "
" yes. Summoning one of us is considered a threat to them. "
He spoke while opening and closing his newly found hand except backward.
" hm...no that don't look right "
I quickly responded
" Wait! How is doing that a threat! "
"Well, one doesn't just accidentally Summon one of us to suddenly get powers beyond human control. "
I thought back to how I summoned him by accident with some food I made.
" well...funny story but I summoned you using my breakfast..."
I had never regretted speaking so much as in that moment.
" What... "
Acid dripped from his words. Literally. His pupils split in half and his bottom jaw ripped open like an ant and curved giving sharpness to the bone.
"Please don't kill me. "
The room began to look like a cozy cabin with a fireplace and he slowly went back to normal.
" I would if I could. I've never felt so disrespected. We are bonded by your blood. If you die...I die. "
Suddenly I felt at ease by this new information.
Then a thought came to my mind
" ...God's can die? "
" you did hear me, right? "
The SAS from this guy was unneeded and I was starting to miss him being on his knees as weird as that sounds.
" so...all that power gone.... in an instant... "
" well...no actually God's powers don't just disappear they transfer to whoever killed them...wait...hold up."
He suddenly had an epiphany.
A smile grew on his face and he grabbed my shoulders
" you! You are going to help me kill the other gods! "
He sounded proud but I let him down.
" ha! No. "
" oh come on! Don't be like that. "
He did a pout.
"Look, man. I'm not killing gods for you. Just because you are bored. "
" hey...they might send people to kill you because you bonded with me. "
"What did I ever do to them? "
"They have a system to this stuff. They like to build and watch things play out. You're a problem. That can mess it up. So...they kill ya...to be honest, I don't know any other way to explain it, man. You know people normally just use my power to kill people and become a king and know this already. "
"This is outrageous. "
" bro. Look if you do this I will be able to get their powers and you will be able to do so much more than what I offer "
I tilted my head
" what can you do? Know what never mind. I will just talk to them and figure things out. "
He groaned and his form melted down sagging and it shot back up reforming
"Is there not anything that you want? Anything in the world? Gods don't put themselves in physical forms. They give people power and can make beings to hunt you. And if they care enough to come down themself. Ha, good luck."
I stopped and thought about it trying to weigh the options of pissing off higher beings.
Suddenly. I found something.
"Can you bring back the dead..."
He stopped confused.
" well...no "
" then I don't want anything "
" wait! "
He threw his arms out pleading
"I don't...but another God does..."
He crosses his arms smiling. He had left the question hanging letting me reconsider his offer.
I stopped and thought for a while before looking back up to him.
I let out a sigh and looked him in the eyes
" ok...you are going to help me get my father back. "
The demon smirked.
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Over my lifetime I have become the Gorden Ramsey of the science world. Known for my temper and also for huge things like curing world hunger using play-doe and cancer with baby powder I got in a back street ally while drunk.
To get my family off my back I started making random ideas so they could see me as a failure and leave me alone but...they keep working. And soon people started to praise me. Fame has left me with nothing but more and more attention. So today I plan to make sure that everyone can just think I'm insane and leave me alone and not some king.
I chuckled like a kid who was opening a Christmas present as I heard the crowd of people chatting and talking loudly as I hid behind my stage in a grey tight suit that my sister had picked out. I sighed and was ready to walk out and make a fool out of myself but my brother stopped me.
" Jack... I just want you to know how proud I am of you. Dad would have loved to see you right now. "
I thought it was ironic because last night while chilling on the couch watching TV and eating chips I made this theory up. He dusted off my shoulders held them tight and looked me in the eyes taking in the moment.
" go give them hell man. "
He had a goofy smile just like Dad but spoke with confidence.
" you got it, man. "
I heard my name being called onto the stage and the uproar startled me for a second but I collected myself and headed out after giving him a nod just to entertain him.
The lights were blinding as I grabbed the mic and looked at the table in front of me with a small box with the ingredients I needed and a chalkboard behind me.
After I stood still for a minute the crowd died down. I had not told anyone what I was presenting so the whole world was watching without a clue of what I was doing this time.
"Hello everyone. Today I believe I have my most important presentation yet..."
The crowd grew silent and hung on every word. And I heard my voice around the room through the speakers.
" Today I have with me a box...and inside is spaghetti I had for breakfast. "
The crowd laughed thinking it was a joke
" shut up "
The crowd grew silent once more
"Behind me is a chalkboard and I will now present my new findings to all of you...I have found out how to make portals to other worlds. "
A man in the far back of the audience yelled bullshit in a heavy Indian accent but he was so far it was a faint sound for me. I smiled at that thinking I had finally found something that would make me lose my title and I could go ahead and live a life without people making me feel like an evil man for not helping others.
I opened the box got a handful of the noodles and threw them at the chalkboard. I then grabbed a paper towel on standby to clean myself.
The noodles hit the board and slowly moved and rested on a spot on the board. I made eye contact with my brother backstage and he had a look on his face showing he believed in me.
I spun the board dropping the noodles to the ground I then grabbed the chalk and drew around the sauce and noodles that stuck to the board then drew my attention to the others that had fallen on the floor and drew an outline of that.
After it finished I threw the chalk in the crowd violently hitting an old lady in the face.
" Quickly I want a show of hands who thinks I'm a crazy guy "
Everyone raised their hands and I laughed to myself
I then went behind the board and laid it horizontally. I grabbed a small knife in my pocket and poked my finger with it. The crimson blood fell and hit the chalk and then as more and more blood hit the chalk it started glowing.
" you have got to be joking. "
I said out loud as it started to spark an orange glow and it slowly grew color to the rest of the chalk in orange sparks.
Once the symbol was fully sparking with orange the sauce began to swell and move around in a counterclockwise manner. I stepped away from it in shock as small parts of the blood in my finger began to float to the parts where it fell on the floor I drew my outlines on and started sparking those as well.
It started to smoke and hiss as if lightning could whisper and the orange began to take shape and the sauce made a doorway. The parts that were not on the board began to grow ice around them and started to make designs on the floor circling me and the board. Suddenly it grew in size and a large booming voice was heard through the portal as I felt panic of people start to set in.
A huge claw came out and scrapped the sides of my table trying to crawl out from the world it had been trapped in. Cold winds hit me as they cut my skin and threw around my clothes. As I saw the table was now melting from its touch.
A slimy green claw with mucus like a face-hugger egg from the movie Alien carved through the floor and pulled the rest of its body out slowly. A beast stood at 12 feet tall adjusting to our world as goop grew and shaped its body as people screamed, ran, and stood frozen in fear.
As it looked around it locked its spider-like eyes and swerled around coming out from the portal and twisting and turning around the body as it made its way to its head finding a place to rest. It then locked its eyes with me and its jaw twisted slowly from an ant-like maw to mine and slowly shrunk and it soon took the shape of me and knelt on the floor and spoke to me.
" master. "
I stood in shock as everyone seemed to calm down and watched to see what I would do.
"...umm "My family has always been of great minds. I hated it. Growing up and having to study day and night to try and live up to them was extremely exhausting when I couldn't care how things worked as long as I was happy. I gave up but somehow everything kept turning out to be true.
Over my lifetime I have become the Gorden Ramsey of the science world. Known for my temper and also for huge things like curing world hunger using play-doe and cancer with baby powder I got in a back street ally while drunk.
To get my family off my back I started making random ideas so they could see me as a failure and leave me alone but...they keep working. And soon people started to praise me. Fame has left me with nothing but more and more attention. So today I plan to make sure that everyone can just think I'm insane and leave me alone and not some king.
I chuckled like a kid who was opening a Christmas present as I heard the crowd of people chatting and talking loudly as I hid behind my stage in a grey tight suit that my sister had picked out. I sighed and was ready to walk out and make a fool out of myself but my brother stopped me.
" Jack... I just want you to know how proud I am of you. Dad would have loved to see you right now. "
I thought it was ironic because last night while chilling on the couch watching TV and eating chips I made this theory up. He dusted off my shoulders held them tight and looked me in the eyes taking in the moment.
" go give them hell man. "
He had a goofy smile just like Dad but spoke with confidence.
" you got it, man. "
I heard my name being called onto the stage and the uproar startled me for a second but I collected myself and headed out after giving him a nod just to entertain him.
The lights were blinding as I grabbed the mic and looked at the table in front of me with a small box with the ingredients I needed and a chalkboard behind me.
After I stood still for a minute the crowd died down. I had not told anyone what I was presenting so the whole world was watching without a clue of what I was doing this time.
"Hello everyone. Today I believe I have my most important presentation yet..."
The crowd grew silent and hung on every word. And I heard my voice around the room through the speakers.
" Today I have with me a box...and inside is spaghetti I had breakfast. "
The crowd laughed thinking it was a joke
" shut up "
The crowd grew silent once more
"Behind me is a chalkboard and I will now present my new findings to all of you...I have found out how to make portals to other worlds. "
A man in the far back of the audience yelled bullshit in a heavy Indian accent but he was so far it was a faint sound for me. I smiled at that thinking I had finally found something that would make me lose my title and I could go ahead and live a life without people making me feel like an evil man for not helping others.
I opened the box got a handful of the noodles and threw them at the chalkboard. I then grabbed a paper towel on standby to clean myself.
The noodles hit the board and slowly moved and rested on a spot on the board. I made eye contact with my brother backstage and he had a look on his face showing he believed in me.
I spun the board dropping the noodles to the ground I then grabbed the chalk and drew around the sauce and noodles that stuck to the board then drew my attention to the others that had fallen on the floor and drew an outline of that.
After it finished I threw the chalk in the crowd violently hitting an old lady in the face.
" Quickly I want a show of hands who thinks I'm a crazy guy "
Everyone raised their hands and I laughed to myself
I then went behind the board and laid it horizontally. I grabbed a small knife in my pocket and poked my finger with it. The crimson blood fell and hit the chalk and then as more and more blood hit the chalk it started glowing.
" you have got to be joking. "
I said out loud as it started to spark an orange glow and it slowly grew color to the rest of the chalk in orange sparks.
Once the symbol was fully sparking with orange the sauce began to swell and move around in a counterclockwise manner. I stepped away from it in shock as small parts of the blood in my finger began to float to the parts where it fell on the floor I drew my outlines on and started sparking those as well.
It started to smoke and hiss as if lightning could whisper and the orange began to take shape and the sauce made a doorway. The parts that were not on the board began to grow ice around them and started to make designs on the floor circling me and the board. Suddenly it grew in size and a large booming voice was heard through the portal as I felt panic of people start to set in.
A huge claw came out and scrapped the sides of my table trying to crawl out from the world it had been trapped in. Cold winds hit me as they cut my skin and threw around my clothes. As I saw the table was now melting from its touch.
A slimy green claw with mucus like a face-hugger egg from the movie Alien carved through the floor and pulled the rest of its body out slowly. A beast stood at 12 feet tall adjusting to our world as goop grew and shaped its body as people screamed, ran, and stood frozen in fear.
As it looked around it locked its spider-like eyes and swerled around coming out from the portal and twisting and turning around the body as it made its way to its head finding a place to rest. It then locked its eyes with me and its jaw twisted slowly from an ant-like maw to mine and slowly shrunk and it soon took the shape of me and knelt on the floor and spoke to me.
" master. "
I stood in shock as everyone seemed to calm down and watched to see what I would do.
"...umm "
Part two of the noodle demon.Now that this creature knelt before me I realized that the room I was in was so terrible quietly you could hear everyone's ass get tight in anticipation of what would happen next.
" ...what...are you. "
I spoke carefully to the being that had taken the shape of myself. It still took my breath away and my throat was dry.
The beast was a deep green. The color mixed with shades of grey streaming from it. The longer I looked at it I could see it getting closer to what I looked like shaping itself.
From small flowing green tendrils to an arm they grew as they twisted and made bone then muscle and finally skin.
It locked eyes with me and it smiled deeply at me. As it formed the face finally.
" Your vassle. "
My eyes had not moved to the crowd at all but even though the lights hit the stage so hard it was enveloped in smoke.
The creature's eyes glowed as it answered brightly, not figuratively. This thing's eyes were glowing.
"To serve you, We are bound by blood magic. I am a reflection of your desires, Master, " it said, its voice now a whisper in my mind.
It began to stand up as my grey suit began to form on it and by the time it stood fully up it had copied what I looked like.
" let me explain everything. "
My body frozen in fear woke up with adrenaline as I blinked and a flash of green smoke covered my vision as he teleported right to me face to face.
Its body turned to smoke and went into the slits of my eyes. I felt visions follow me in my peripheral vision but surprisingly no pain followed power filled me and it felt like one hell of a drug.
My body and mind altered.
I was now in a very dark place with no walls or light except my reflection on the floor which waved like water.
I took a step back looking around and back to the reflection of me on the ground.
Soon the water rippled and my reflection fell through the floor like gravity was inverted. he flew upright and water fell off of him as he looked at me as he now stood straight ahead of me. He was just reflecting in the water but now eyed me down.
Collecting my nerves.
I begin to speak.
" what do you want..."
He was still in my form and stood perfectly straight. Now with water dripping from his...my hair.
Slight stubble with hair that hung down and my hazel eyes were not present within him but I was greeted with a swelling acidic green that doubled the size of my pupil.
" to serve you. "
He made no other movement than putting his hands behind his back like a soldier at ease.
I could not tell if it was lying or not.
" ...is that it? "
" I am the embodiment of your fear desires and brilliance. You have shaped me. Your desire for solitude birthed me. I will aid you in shaping the world how you see fit. Your reality becomes mine. "
There was a slight echo in the room as he spoke.
" wait...where are we "
I questioned haphazardly
" your mind. "
An awkward silence was in the air until I spoke
" so...am I just standing on the stage not making a sound? "
He gave me a concerned look.
" no...time has frozen outside for you. You may sleep here without having to in the real world so to others you look as if you never rest and you may think and plan what to do in battle here. For them, it will be about two seconds...Do...do you not have any knowledge of what I am? "
Suddenly I felt bad like I had encountered someone famous and I had no idea who they were. A slap in the face like a popular kid meeting someone who had never heard of them. Ego shattered.
" ok sorry no. I...don't go around reading about...monsters?"
I felt like was I saying the n-word of the demon realm not knowing if that word was offensive.
He folded his arms a little upset.
"Are you not a warrior? "
" well...no I...just watch TV and cook here and there- "
The demon cut me off
" weak. "
" excuse me? "
" look. I am an immortal being and after a while you get bored. So I'm sorry if I may be a little upset after being bonded with some nobody. "
I got quiet and I was a little annoyed that I was being roasted by some demon that I just met.
Its form wavers and eyes begin to open on its skin. Cheeks forhead etc.
"After being a god for so long it's fun to play with limitations. Makes things extremely exciting. "
" what do you mean by that? "
" look. You can only be so entertained by the same things. Life gets boring and now...you are going to help me with this. I get to have pure entertainment while you get every wish you could ever want. A mutual bond no? "
He then closed his eyes annoyed and the other eyes meshed back to his skin.
" though... the TV is not that interesting...life is what gets the blood pumping"
I felt the need to quickly change the topic
"Are there others like you? "
The room began to take shape very slowly as the water floor turned to wood and walls went around us.
" of course. You may meet them one day "
Confused and curious I pressed.
"Meet them? "
" yes. Summoning one of us is considered a threat to them. "
He spoke while opening and closing his newly found hand except backward.
" hm...no that don't look right "
I quickly responded
" Wait! How is doing that a threat! "
"Well, one doesn't just accidentally Summon one of us to suddenly get powers beyond human control. "
I thought back to how I summoned him by accident with some food I made.
" well...funny story but I summoned you using my breakfast..."
I had never regretted speaking so much as in that moment.
" What... "
Acid dripped from his words. Literally. His pupils split in half and his bottom jaw ripped open like an ant and curved giving sharpness to the bone.
"Please don't kill me. "
The room began to look like a cozy cabin with a fireplace and he slowly went back to normal.
" I would if I could. I've never felt so disrespected. We are bonded by your blood. If you die...I die. "
Suddenly I felt at ease by this new information.
Then a thought came to my mind
" ...God's can die? "
" you did hear me, right? "
The SAS from this guy was unneeded and I was starting to miss him being on his knees as weird as that sounds.
" so...all that power gone.... in an instant... "
" well...no actually God's powers don't just disappear they transfer to whoever killed them...wait...hold up."
He suddenly had an epiphany.
A smile grew on his face and he grabbed my shoulders
" you! You are going to help me kill the other gods! "
He sounded proud but I let him down.
" ha! No. "
" oh come on! Don't be like that. "
He did a pout.
"Look, man. I'm not killing gods for you. Just because you are bored. "
" hey...they might send people to kill you because you bonded with me. "
"What did I ever do to them? "
"They have a system to this stuff. They like to build and watch things play out. You're a problem. That can mess it up. So...they kill ya...to be honest, I don't know any other way to explain it, man. You know people normally just use my power to kill people and become a king and know this already. "
"This is outrageous. "
" bro. Look if you do this I will be able to get their powers and you will be able to do so much more than what I offer "
I tilted my head
" what can you do? Know what never mind. I will just talk to them and figure things out. "
He groaned and his form melted down sagging and it shot back up reforming
"Is there not anything that you want? Anything in the world? Gods don't put themselves in physical forms. They give people power and can make beings to hunt you. And if they care enough to come down themself. Ha, good luck."
I stopped and thought about it trying to weigh the options of pissing off higher beings.
Suddenly. I found something.
"Can you bring back the dead..."
He stopped confused.
" well...no "
" then I don't want anything "
" wait! "
He threw his arms out pleading
"I don't...but another God does..."
He crosses his arms smiling. He had left the question hanging letting me reconsider his offer.
I stopped and thought for a while before looking back up to him.
I let out a sigh and looked him in the eyes
" ok...you are going to help me get my father back. "
The demon smirked.
2024.05.14 02:28 TypicCarcass41 This is an apology post for my previous post. I’m sorry…
I want to start off by saying that I am aware that both Konami and Crypton Future Media are different companies with different businesses. The original intention behind my previous post was because I wanted it to be an empathy post where we could both share how we aren’t getting great things for 2024 this year, and possibly craft some theories of why this may be the case for one, or both companies if common problem and grounds could be found. That post was for people who love and know about DDR and Vocaloid.
For people who knew only about the DDR side, I apologize for having the post mainly one sided about Vocaloid at the very top. The reason for this was because, as I said in a comment on my previous post, I had been following the problems of the Miku Expo since day 1, and it got to the point where I could list many and possibly all the bad things off the top of my head.
DDR, meanwhile, I literally had 1 statement made, and I gave instructions to search up KAC 11th talk and you could find the video made by Dr. D Gaming on YouTube. I DID KNOW about what the content covered, but, because I had learned about it just yesterday, I would have had to sit down and type details on my post while rewatching the video because it’s not possible to instantly remember a near 30 minute video without repetitive watching for some people.
You can stop reading at this point because down below is the reason why I brought Vocaloid here. If you are still curious anyway, keep reading. I will also include DDR first this time unlike in my last post. It will be from memory without looking at the video again, but it’s better than nothing. Plus, you could always search for the video yourself to verify and get more information.
The reason why is because I was exploring the possibility that, possibly by coincidence, both Konami and Crypton Future Media did not like westerners, and they had pretty much gave the community watered down or no events at all.
For DDR KAC, such problems are:
You must know Japanese in order to be qualified for KAC because the final round will be in Japanese(this was shown and removed on their website as shown in the video. Note:It might have been a previous KAC year, but I’d have to go back and check)
You must pay for your own flight(literally had no problem flying overseas players from previous years)
iamchris4life along with 3 other people had their KAC entries called into question, and could be disqualified if not addressed. I imagine that they had very good and strong reasons, but was still turned down anyways. Konami even had the audacity to say to their face they appreciate and hope they continue to support them.
If you were disqualified from KAC ever, you’re never participating again.(That would pretty much narrow the event down to Japan only)
There was a KAC song that was region locked specifically to Japan
Various things here if I could remember them.
Last one I can remember. While not a problem, it’s an acknowledgment from the DDR champion of this year, HIBKI. They knew the technicalities is a bs reason to keep players outside of Japan from participating as kind of implied if you know the context behind his champion speech(seen in Dr. D Gaming’s 11th KAC DDR video)
For Vocaloid, a lot of things at the Expo went wrong. These things are:
Limited merchandise(100 glow sticks when literal thousands are coming to the concert)
No communication about the LED screen(It’s important to note that fans have pointed out that there is no difference between transparent glass screen and LED screen because it’s fine as long as the screen is integrated with the stage. When that happens, it can cause the same immersive effect that the Vocaloids are truly there and on stage.)
Unable to refund tickets(turned off by the organizer which would be Crypton).
Tickets for the Europe tour being released on the day of the concert, meaning, there was almost no way for Europe fans to know about the transparent glass screen switch before it was too late.
False advertising(the Vocaloids being projected on to the glass screen like years prior before this 10th anniversary)
The no glow stick rule other than the official ones by Crypton(this lead many to believe that the transparent glass screen + projection would be used, implying that it was not going to be an LED screen)
Crypton is not addressing the backlash until the NA tour ends, or possibly, until the Europe tour ends which would be the end of the year. If we assume we are getting a response at all(this could be a debatable problem. I can kind of see why they are waiting until the end of the tour)
As you can see, while these are very different events, and situations, it could come off as them hating westerners. Someone on my previous post had wrote an interesting theory that perhaps for Konami, there are 2 different management/team members. One goes for global expansion because they see potential. The other doesn’t want to take the risk creating mixed messages. Naturally, my reply would be that we had the team members who weren’t going for global expansion this year.
I also kept this insight in mind just in case if Crypton also has more than one management and is facing a similar problem.
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For people who knew only about the DDR side, I apologize for having the post mainly one sided about Vocaloid at the very top. The reason for this was because, as I said in a comment on my previous post, I had been following the problems of the Miku Expo since day 1, and it got to the point where I could list many and possibly all the bad things off the top of my head.
DDR, meanwhile, I literally had 1 statement made, and I gave instructions to search up KAC 11th talk and you could find the video made by Dr. D Gaming on YouTube. I DID KNOW about what the content covered, but, because I had learned about it just yesterday, I would have had to sit down and type details on my post while rewatching the video because it’s not possible to instantly remember a near 30 minute video without repetitive watching for some people.
You can stop reading at this point because down below is the reason why I brought Vocaloid here. If you are still curious anyway, keep reading. I will also include DDR first this time unlike in my last post. It will be from memory without looking at the video again, but it’s better than nothing. Plus, you could always search for the video yourself to verify and get more information.
The reason why is because I was exploring the possibility that, possibly by coincidence, both Konami and Crypton Future Media did not like westerners, and they had pretty much gave the community watered down or no events at all.
For DDR KAC, such problems are:
You must know Japanese in order to be qualified for KAC because the final round will be in Japanese(this was shown and removed on their website as shown in the video. Note:It might have been a previous KAC year, but I’d have to go back and check)
You must pay for your own flight(literally had no problem flying overseas players from previous years)
iamchris4life along with 3 other people had their KAC entries called into question, and could be disqualified if not addressed. I imagine that they had very good and strong reasons, but was still turned down anyways. Konami even had the audacity to say to their face they appreciate and hope they continue to support them.
If you were disqualified from KAC ever, you’re never participating again.(That would pretty much narrow the event down to Japan only)
There was a KAC song that was region locked specifically to Japan
Various things here if I could remember them.
Last one I can remember. While not a problem, it’s an acknowledgment from the DDR champion of this year, HIBKI. They knew the technicalities is a bs reason to keep players outside of Japan from participating as kind of implied if you know the context behind his champion speech(seen in Dr. D Gaming’s 11th KAC DDR video)
For Vocaloid, a lot of things at the Expo went wrong. These things are:
Limited merchandise(100 glow sticks when literal thousands are coming to the concert)
No communication about the LED screen(It’s important to note that fans have pointed out that there is no difference between transparent glass screen and LED screen because it’s fine as long as the screen is integrated with the stage. When that happens, it can cause the same immersive effect that the Vocaloids are truly there and on stage.)
Unable to refund tickets(turned off by the organizer which would be Crypton).
Tickets for the Europe tour being released on the day of the concert, meaning, there was almost no way for Europe fans to know about the transparent glass screen switch before it was too late.
False advertising(the Vocaloids being projected on to the glass screen like years prior before this 10th anniversary)
The no glow stick rule other than the official ones by Crypton(this lead many to believe that the transparent glass screen + projection would be used, implying that it was not going to be an LED screen)
Crypton is not addressing the backlash until the NA tour ends, or possibly, until the Europe tour ends which would be the end of the year. If we assume we are getting a response at all(this could be a debatable problem. I can kind of see why they are waiting until the end of the tour)
As you can see, while these are very different events, and situations, it could come off as them hating westerners. Someone on my previous post had wrote an interesting theory that perhaps for Konami, there are 2 different management/team members. One goes for global expansion because they see potential. The other doesn’t want to take the risk creating mixed messages. Naturally, my reply would be that we had the team members who weren’t going for global expansion this year.
I also kept this insight in mind just in case if Crypton also has more than one management and is facing a similar problem.
2024.05.14 02:27 Ubud_bamboo_ninja You have a job and try to live though another day. Whom are you doing it for?
 | You do it for someone or for “Yourself”. Yes? Not so fast. Stop right there, turn around, put your hands on your vehicle and show me those fundamental believes of yours, buddy... submitted by Ubud_bamboo_ninja to SimulationTheory [link] [comments] Sir, I want you to clean your chakras right at the next crystal shop 2 miles down the road. And you will have to pay a fine. In this state, it's your life. I want it "only for myself"! I don’t want to do this not for anyone but for myself. Ever heard this crap? Do you understand what it means? "I want just to keep on training and try to run 100m faster than 12 sec. just for myself, to know I can." Every sneaker advertisement is based on it. Just Do it. Why? You know why, for yourself! Just do it for yourself! Do it, motherfucker, whatever "it" takes. I don’t care you don’t know what is the right thing to do. Just do it, bitch. Today let’s discuss if you are able to "do something for yourself only" at all or it’s a distorted perception of reality? And actually, all you do, you do for yourself. The answer is quick and simple: Whatever you do is done only in two ways: Actions you wanted and did them, same as reactions to the objective world in a personal framework of understanding it. Here we see that the "bottle neck" of our reality is very solipsistic. You can’t deny that you need to receive information using some of your 5 senses and only then you personally can confirm that something is happening. You can always predict what is happening but you can never be sure. Even to think about separate of your existence of the "objective world" when you are not thinking about it means processing it through your "bottle neck" of thermodynamical above quantum realm. To understand anything you need to process it through your brains. Without that process, everything is virtual. Not proved. That objective world is partially not sensed by you; in fact, you sense only a little fragrance, and you can only keep some still memories of the whole story, because our consciousness is glued to Entropy. And all that world in your life moments that is not sensed will always remain in superposition as for you. It never happened in your life. Something didn’t happen. And that exact something might happen in the lives of other people. And that would look like that story about something in particular might happen to you but actually happened to some other guy. But the story was the same. Like you were brave enough to speak to your future wife, and you got a good life story, and another guy in the same conditions didn’t find bravery to speak to the love of his life. It even might be the same girl! The story of "happy relationships" jumped from one character to another. And in quantum dramaturgy, stories do that a lot. All that matters and differs is the exact set of stories that drive your personality forward. Even if some of your dreams are about "sacrificing" yourself in the name of your children or humanity, it is just a part of a feeling "right thing to do, just for myself. So I know I did it and I’m a good person." You know, just do it. And again see what is happening? You will feel good and happy only when you feel satisfied with the understanding (feedback from reality) that what you planned to do was done at some rate. So all you do is always only for yourself. I suggest you never hide your real intentions behind this wall of "absolutely Buddha" state when you think you can just be a good person. That is worthy because after you get to some goals or you fail at something, you might feel abused like: "why is reality so cruel? I only wanted good for the world and it fucked me up like that." It’s because you might lie to yourself. You can want and make good things. But don’t deny it’s to feel better. And it’s okay. Nobody died or resurrected because of it. Though, claims were made. For more stories about stories check out basics of computational dramaturgy, Physics of Imporatnt Things on SSRN. |
2024.05.14 02:23 Bright-Talk5516 I'll never find a love like hers.
Before i start, I should state that I'm an 18 year old male. My ex is a female and year younger.
I posted on here about 4 months ago after my breakup with my ex of 5 months. But after a while i decided to delete the post. The sum of the post was that our relationship was at the best it's ever been and she ended it out of no where one night, saying she thinks she might be a lesbian. I supported her decision no matter how much it hurt to hear, because i loved her so so much. I was spiraling and thinking whether or not i wait for her to come back after she finds herself due to her concerns that she might go on this journey and realize she's actually not a lesbian, but if she wanted to come back, i wouldn't be here. Anyway, i still have the text so i'll repost the story on my profile after this post if you was read it.
But let's cut to now. It's been 4 months since. And I'm still not over it. It was my first ever heartbreak, which i know tends to stick with you no matter what. But I really saw her as perfect. I felt she was the best girl for me, and i tried my best to be the best guy for her. She's the sweetest, kindest, person i've ever met. She was also incredibly beautiful to me. Anyway, i can go on and on about her but I'll just explain my feelings.
Over the past 4 months i've never stopped struggling. i still think of her every single day. and every time i feel like im making good progress at getting over her, something happens that places me back to square one. For Example, for the past few weeks i've been trending towards getting better! But 2 nights ago, i had a weird dream that included her, painted in the most wonderful light, accentuating her beauty and all her good qualities. and me, i suppose metaphorically chasing after her. this isn't the first time this exact thing has happened either. i have dreams of her all the time.
Last Night, i couldn't sleep due to my mind racing. I couldn't get her out of my mind. So i did something that i probably shouldn't have. i looked through memories from when we were together. But it surprisingly made me smile and laugh more than anything. i was truly happy for the first time when i was with her. and it's all memories and screenshots now.
I somehow reached this level of peace afterwards. imagining being with her. and i felt happy. it was almost like a hallucination or a lucid dream. it was weird, but i felt amazing. but now, im back to this helpless feeling.
Sorry for being all over the place, but what im trying to get to is that... I just don't know what to do. I've tried moving on by looking for new people, but every single one ends up failing. and every time i start to get in my feelings about my ex, i run away from talking to anyone bc it's not fair to them. I'm not gonna say i have no one to talk to about this, bc i do. But i don't want to overwhelm anyone like my mom for example with all of this (so i'm running to reddit 😭).
So do i keep trying to get over her? or do i maybe try to inch back to talking to her? that's really scary but, if i have the slightest chance to get her back i'll do it. even though there hasn't been any signs of that being a possibility.
I would just love some advice on this from people who have been through a similar situation, because i really can't shake this helpless feeling i have when i think about her. I'll answer any questions you have for me about this, because i know this post is all over the place and probably confusing. sorry about that :/
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I posted on here about 4 months ago after my breakup with my ex of 5 months. But after a while i decided to delete the post. The sum of the post was that our relationship was at the best it's ever been and she ended it out of no where one night, saying she thinks she might be a lesbian. I supported her decision no matter how much it hurt to hear, because i loved her so so much. I was spiraling and thinking whether or not i wait for her to come back after she finds herself due to her concerns that she might go on this journey and realize she's actually not a lesbian, but if she wanted to come back, i wouldn't be here. Anyway, i still have the text so i'll repost the story on my profile after this post if you was read it.
But let's cut to now. It's been 4 months since. And I'm still not over it. It was my first ever heartbreak, which i know tends to stick with you no matter what. But I really saw her as perfect. I felt she was the best girl for me, and i tried my best to be the best guy for her. She's the sweetest, kindest, person i've ever met. She was also incredibly beautiful to me. Anyway, i can go on and on about her but I'll just explain my feelings.
Over the past 4 months i've never stopped struggling. i still think of her every single day. and every time i feel like im making good progress at getting over her, something happens that places me back to square one. For Example, for the past few weeks i've been trending towards getting better! But 2 nights ago, i had a weird dream that included her, painted in the most wonderful light, accentuating her beauty and all her good qualities. and me, i suppose metaphorically chasing after her. this isn't the first time this exact thing has happened either. i have dreams of her all the time.
Last Night, i couldn't sleep due to my mind racing. I couldn't get her out of my mind. So i did something that i probably shouldn't have. i looked through memories from when we were together. But it surprisingly made me smile and laugh more than anything. i was truly happy for the first time when i was with her. and it's all memories and screenshots now.
I somehow reached this level of peace afterwards. imagining being with her. and i felt happy. it was almost like a hallucination or a lucid dream. it was weird, but i felt amazing. but now, im back to this helpless feeling.
Sorry for being all over the place, but what im trying to get to is that... I just don't know what to do. I've tried moving on by looking for new people, but every single one ends up failing. and every time i start to get in my feelings about my ex, i run away from talking to anyone bc it's not fair to them. I'm not gonna say i have no one to talk to about this, bc i do. But i don't want to overwhelm anyone like my mom for example with all of this (so i'm running to reddit 😭).
So do i keep trying to get over her? or do i maybe try to inch back to talking to her? that's really scary but, if i have the slightest chance to get her back i'll do it. even though there hasn't been any signs of that being a possibility.
I would just love some advice on this from people who have been through a similar situation, because i really can't shake this helpless feeling i have when i think about her. I'll answer any questions you have for me about this, because i know this post is all over the place and probably confusing. sorry about that :/
2024.05.14 02:22 nessosuke Hitsukarin is really problematic
I may be the only one to think about it but I find it weird to ship Karin and Histuguya. Remember that even if Histugaya seems young, he knows Karin's father even before Karin was born.
He could literally be his great-great-great grandfather if not ancestor. Shipper Karin with a person older than his 15-17 year-old brother, you really have to think about it.
And for the hitsukarin shipper who will say "yes but she's an adult now" Stop that, you ship them even before she's an adult so yes it's problematic.
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He could literally be his great-great-great grandfather if not ancestor. Shipper Karin with a person older than his 15-17 year-old brother, you really have to think about it.
And for the hitsukarin shipper who will say "yes but she's an adult now" Stop that, you ship them even before she's an adult so yes it's problematic.
2024.05.14 02:21 dalty69 Your savior has arised! $KICHI is the next $MICHI and you are early!
 | Yo! I've been trying hard to find something worthwhile, and basically, I've only found two projects that I would ever consider working for. Today, I'm talking about the second one: $Kichi. submitted by dalty69 to Memecoinhub [link] [comments] $Kichi is led by a CTO and a group of individuals who are determined to do whatever it takes to make this project a success. They have a truly strong community that engages in big raids non-stop throughout the day. But what's even more impressive is that many of these guys come from $Michi, a previous project where they performed exceptionally well. $Michi was also led by a CTO and hit over 200mi MC. So, if you do the math, you have $Kichi, a small-cap project (72k) with early investors from $Michi (230 mi), which was also led by a CTO. Can you see the potential here? Ca: ErqdGZWP4YDaQmpEMnXLtXUfhZJeM6SC4Ave7w8uNCuw |
2024.05.14 02:21 dalty69 $KICHI Will explode and here's why
 | Yo! I've been trying hard to find something worthwhile, and basically, I've only found two projects that I would ever consider working for. Today, I'm talking about the second one: $Kichi. submitted by dalty69 to memecoins [link] [comments] $Kichi is led by a CTO and a group of individuals who are determined to do whatever it takes to make this project a success. They have a truly strong community that engages in big raids non-stop throughout the day. But what's even more impressive is that many of these guys come from $Michi, a previous project where they performed exceptionally well. $Michi was also led by a CTO and hit over 200mi MC. So, if you do the math, you have $Kichi, a small-cap project (72k) with early investors from $Michi (230 mi), which was also led by a CTO. Can you see the potential here? |
2024.05.14 02:21 dalty69 Maybe they biggest early memecoin yet $KICHI
 | Yo! I've been trying hard to find something worthwhile, and basically, I've only found two projects that I would ever consider working for. Today, I'm talking about the second one: $Kichi. submitted by dalty69 to memecoinmoonshots [link] [comments] $Kichi is led by a CTO and a group of individuals who are determined to do whatever it takes to make this project a success. They have a truly strong community that engages in big raids non-stop throughout the day. But what's even more impressive is that many of these guys come from $Michi, a previous project where they performed exceptionally well. $Michi was also led by a CTO and hit over 200mi MC. So, if you do the math, you have $Kichi, a small-cap project (72k) with early investors from $Michi (230 mi), which was also led by a CTO. Can you see the potential here? |
2024.05.14 02:21 dalty69 Is this the biggest meme gem yet? $Kichi
 | Yo! I've been trying hard to find something worthwhile, and basically, I've only found two projects that I would ever consider working for. Today, I'm talking about the second one: $Kichi. submitted by dalty69 to shitcoinmoonshots [link] [comments] $Kichi is led by a CTO and a group of individuals who are determined to do whatever it takes to make this project a success. They have a truly strong community that engages in big raids non-stop throughout the day. But what's even more impressive is that many of these guys come from $Michi, a previous project where they performed exceptionally well. $Michi was also led by a CTO and hit over 200mi MC. So, if you do the math, you have $Kichi, a small-cap project (72k) with early investors from $Michi (230 mi), which was also led by a CTO. Can you see the potential here? |
2024.05.14 02:21 Spiritual-Tourist13 How do I M 36 find closure with my wife F 37?
Throwaway account.
I (M 36) have been married to my wife (F 37) for 14 years. I have known her since I was eleven. We dated in high school, broke up, and found each other again in college. We have two wonderful children, 8 and 11. Grew up going to church in the US all our lives until the pandemic. I would say that I’m agnostic, for about a year now. Based on recent conversations, my wife feels similarly about her faith. My parents have in many ways treated me like I don’t exist unless I make the time to go visit them. I share that because it is adding to my current dilemma but I will get there later.
Prior to us getting back together while in college, she dated someone who emotionally, physically, and sexually abused her. Primarily it was emotional trauma, with him stealing her phone, telling her shouldn’t have any male friends, etc. Before this relationship, I would have described her as outgoing and extroverted. After the fact, it was clear she was deeply hurt by all of what happened to her. To this day, I don’t think she has processed the trauma and how it changed her and impacts her daily.
During college, we reconnected over the summer my junior year and it was clear we had chemistry despite both being very different from our high school selves. We dated and were engaged within 9 months and married in another nine. We have had a beautiful marriage. We only had sex 1-2x monthly since we got married but it never felt unusual; I have always believed that the abusive relationship altered her ability to want intimacy in that way. We are very close, snuggling, talking often, we spend much of our free time with each other and share many common interests in art, music, etc.
After our second child was born, it was a tough three years. My daughter rarely slept, not getting through the night until she was three and a half years old. During that time, my wife was burned by three different female friends in a short time frame. It felt like those two things almost broke her. But, after she got poison ivy one day and couldn’t get rid of it, she went to the doctor and got steroids. The insane amount of energy she had actually led to her becoming involved in and obsessed with triathlons. She transformed, physically and mentally over the next six months. I was extremely happy for her.
But, maybe seven months into this new her, I began to notice that her attention to her phone changed. She turned off messages from displaying in the front of the phone. We stopped having sex all together. It came to a head at the beach. I saw her dm’ing with a guy—a very successful graphic designer. My wife loves art and drawing so I wanted to assume it was that connection but for the first time in my marriage it felt like I was being lied to a lot. During this time she also acquired lingerie and toys that we never used together; I found them in the closet all the way in the back, hidden. We never had used that before in our marriage but she had also never felt sexy in the last ten years, especially for three since our kid was born so again I wanted to believe her. And honestly, she was glowing for the first time in a long time and is extremely beautiful. This situation evolved. I went in her phone. She had deleted everything everywhere. She was still talking to the guy from the summer on Instagram but the conversation was super innocuous and almost always just reels or sharing a post. We fought, she cried saying I violated her trust—I know how that looks. I restated that she lied to my face. We began sleeping in different rooms and things were not good.
Fast forward two months, I pulled phone records and found she had been messaging her ex from before our marriage for a week. I confronted her and she lied to my face and said she hadn’t been communicating with him. So I showed her the records and she for the first time in several months apologized to me and then began opening up. This guy was also the first person who really helped her recover her personhood after being abused. He holds a special place in her heart because of how he helped her. I actually do not think anything happened with him during our marriage ever. I won’t know though because she deleted everything. The way my wife reacted to me with the graphic designer indicated she was having some sort of emotional ptsd from her past trauma when I freaked out about it. She told me and her mom and her counselor (according to her) that nothing happened, emotionally or physically. The person was halfway across the country.
Now, at this point it is very obvious to me that everyone that reads this would only assume the worst. I get it. But my wife was abused and it deeply impacted her. Her father cheated on her mother and we only found out when he died (right before all this started). She deeply resented him for it and to this day speaks poorly of him for it. And I know that those things can seep into your psyche and you can find yourself doing the things you hate about your parents. But to summarize, I don’t know that anything happened. I know that she lost all her friends and was traumatized by our second kid. I know that she felt physically beautiful for the first time in years. I realize that could mean two things. Either this person meant something to her and it blossomed until I found it, or it is just something that all happened in the same time and the compounding complexity of prior abuse made it spiral down.
I went to counseling. She went to counseling. To this day she affirms that it was simply a connection around art and culture and nothing more. She says the toys and clothing was because she felt sexy for the first time in a long time and wanted to try them. I chose to believe her. But I never got to see her messages because everything was deleted. I never felt like I got closure. I chose to believe that she did nothing with this man and that he meant nothing. But the millions of coincidences still rattle my brain because I never got to see things and was asked to move forward. We reconnected meaningfully during Covid. I’ve never felt closer to her.
So why am I here? It popped up again in my brain lately and I cannot get away from the feeling that I didn’t get closure and I don’t know what to do. I can feel myself spiraling emotionally. I have had thoughts of killing myself. I won’t, though. I know I am loved and needed. I have only felt it maybe twice in my life and don’t suffer from depression. Mostly, I feel helpless and broken. I don’t have have any close friends other than my wife, which I know is also not good and I need to change it. I don’t believe in the god of the bible but haven’t told anyone other than my wife; it would be a big change for many who know me and so I am after I’d to really own it publicly but that is who I am, heart on my sleeve. And in the midst of all of that, I am feeling like I don’t know if I believe my wife from that five year ago incident. I feel super lost and it is suddenly making me feel like my marriage is going to end.
We’ve talked about it again lately and she seems hurt by me feeling that way but said it is ultimately her fault because for how she interacted with me during all of it. Recently she went and spent time with a couple friend and I later accused her of being there alone with the guy but she never was. I feel super distraught.
Just looking for help on how to get meaningful closure about five years ago and how to move forward, thanks.
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I (M 36) have been married to my wife (F 37) for 14 years. I have known her since I was eleven. We dated in high school, broke up, and found each other again in college. We have two wonderful children, 8 and 11. Grew up going to church in the US all our lives until the pandemic. I would say that I’m agnostic, for about a year now. Based on recent conversations, my wife feels similarly about her faith. My parents have in many ways treated me like I don’t exist unless I make the time to go visit them. I share that because it is adding to my current dilemma but I will get there later.
Prior to us getting back together while in college, she dated someone who emotionally, physically, and sexually abused her. Primarily it was emotional trauma, with him stealing her phone, telling her shouldn’t have any male friends, etc. Before this relationship, I would have described her as outgoing and extroverted. After the fact, it was clear she was deeply hurt by all of what happened to her. To this day, I don’t think she has processed the trauma and how it changed her and impacts her daily.
During college, we reconnected over the summer my junior year and it was clear we had chemistry despite both being very different from our high school selves. We dated and were engaged within 9 months and married in another nine. We have had a beautiful marriage. We only had sex 1-2x monthly since we got married but it never felt unusual; I have always believed that the abusive relationship altered her ability to want intimacy in that way. We are very close, snuggling, talking often, we spend much of our free time with each other and share many common interests in art, music, etc.
After our second child was born, it was a tough three years. My daughter rarely slept, not getting through the night until she was three and a half years old. During that time, my wife was burned by three different female friends in a short time frame. It felt like those two things almost broke her. But, after she got poison ivy one day and couldn’t get rid of it, she went to the doctor and got steroids. The insane amount of energy she had actually led to her becoming involved in and obsessed with triathlons. She transformed, physically and mentally over the next six months. I was extremely happy for her.
But, maybe seven months into this new her, I began to notice that her attention to her phone changed. She turned off messages from displaying in the front of the phone. We stopped having sex all together. It came to a head at the beach. I saw her dm’ing with a guy—a very successful graphic designer. My wife loves art and drawing so I wanted to assume it was that connection but for the first time in my marriage it felt like I was being lied to a lot. During this time she also acquired lingerie and toys that we never used together; I found them in the closet all the way in the back, hidden. We never had used that before in our marriage but she had also never felt sexy in the last ten years, especially for three since our kid was born so again I wanted to believe her. And honestly, she was glowing for the first time in a long time and is extremely beautiful. This situation evolved. I went in her phone. She had deleted everything everywhere. She was still talking to the guy from the summer on Instagram but the conversation was super innocuous and almost always just reels or sharing a post. We fought, she cried saying I violated her trust—I know how that looks. I restated that she lied to my face. We began sleeping in different rooms and things were not good.
Fast forward two months, I pulled phone records and found she had been messaging her ex from before our marriage for a week. I confronted her and she lied to my face and said she hadn’t been communicating with him. So I showed her the records and she for the first time in several months apologized to me and then began opening up. This guy was also the first person who really helped her recover her personhood after being abused. He holds a special place in her heart because of how he helped her. I actually do not think anything happened with him during our marriage ever. I won’t know though because she deleted everything. The way my wife reacted to me with the graphic designer indicated she was having some sort of emotional ptsd from her past trauma when I freaked out about it. She told me and her mom and her counselor (according to her) that nothing happened, emotionally or physically. The person was halfway across the country.
Now, at this point it is very obvious to me that everyone that reads this would only assume the worst. I get it. But my wife was abused and it deeply impacted her. Her father cheated on her mother and we only found out when he died (right before all this started). She deeply resented him for it and to this day speaks poorly of him for it. And I know that those things can seep into your psyche and you can find yourself doing the things you hate about your parents. But to summarize, I don’t know that anything happened. I know that she lost all her friends and was traumatized by our second kid. I know that she felt physically beautiful for the first time in years. I realize that could mean two things. Either this person meant something to her and it blossomed until I found it, or it is just something that all happened in the same time and the compounding complexity of prior abuse made it spiral down.
I went to counseling. She went to counseling. To this day she affirms that it was simply a connection around art and culture and nothing more. She says the toys and clothing was because she felt sexy for the first time in a long time and wanted to try them. I chose to believe her. But I never got to see her messages because everything was deleted. I never felt like I got closure. I chose to believe that she did nothing with this man and that he meant nothing. But the millions of coincidences still rattle my brain because I never got to see things and was asked to move forward. We reconnected meaningfully during Covid. I’ve never felt closer to her.
So why am I here? It popped up again in my brain lately and I cannot get away from the feeling that I didn’t get closure and I don’t know what to do. I can feel myself spiraling emotionally. I have had thoughts of killing myself. I won’t, though. I know I am loved and needed. I have only felt it maybe twice in my life and don’t suffer from depression. Mostly, I feel helpless and broken. I don’t have have any close friends other than my wife, which I know is also not good and I need to change it. I don’t believe in the god of the bible but haven’t told anyone other than my wife; it would be a big change for many who know me and so I am after I’d to really own it publicly but that is who I am, heart on my sleeve. And in the midst of all of that, I am feeling like I don’t know if I believe my wife from that five year ago incident. I feel super lost and it is suddenly making me feel like my marriage is going to end.
We’ve talked about it again lately and she seems hurt by me feeling that way but said it is ultimately her fault because for how she interacted with me during all of it. Recently she went and spent time with a couple friend and I later accused her of being there alone with the guy but she never was. I feel super distraught.
Just looking for help on how to get meaningful closure about five years ago and how to move forward, thanks.
2024.05.14 02:21 dalty69 Is this the biggest meme gem yet? $Kichi
 | Yo! I've been trying hard to find something worthwhile, and basically, I've only found two projects that I would ever consider working for. Today, I'm talking about the second one: $Kichi. submitted by dalty69 to shitcoinmoonshots [link] [comments] $Kichi is led by a CTO and a group of individuals who are determined to do whatever it takes to make this project a success. They have a truly strong community that engages in big raids non-stop throughout the day. But what's even more impressive is that many of these guys come from $Michi, a previous project where they performed exceptionally well. $Michi was also led by a CTO and hit over 200mi MC. So, if you do the math, you have $Kichi, a small-cap project (72k) with early investors from $Michi (230 mi), which was also led by a CTO. Can you see the potential here? |
2024.05.14 02:21 dalty69 Is this the biggest meme gem yet? $Kichi
 | Yo! I've been trying hard to find something worthwhile, and basically, I've only found two projects that I would ever consider working for. Today, I'm talking about the second one: $Kichi. submitted by dalty69 to shitcoinmoonshots [link] [comments] $Kichi is led by a CTO and a group of individuals who are determined to do whatever it takes to make this project a success. They have a truly strong community that engages in big raids non-stop throughout the day. But what's even more impressive is that many of these guys come from $Michi, a previous project where they performed exceptionally well. $Michi was also led by a CTO and hit over 200mi MC. So, if you do the math, you have $Kichi, a small-cap project (72k) with early investors from $Michi (230 mi), which was also led by a CTO. Can you see the potential here? |
2024.05.14 02:20 Zebbers950 Call with Mom
Some backstory and context: I (23fNB) live in Virginia with a job as an elementary school music teacher. I’ve only been at this job for one year and I got it right after graduating college last May. Needless to say, I hit the ground running out of college. Coincidentally, my faith crisis started happening around my late junior year and throughout senior year of college. And my leaving coincided with my new teaching job. My parents live in Texas.
I kept my parents in the dark about my faith crisis and subsequent leaving (unofficially; my records are still in), until I started subtly hinting at it the past few weeks. Just letting them know I haven’t been to church in at least a month (try two years now, but I was too scared to tell them that). My mom finally just asked me what was going on with me and church today. I told that it’s been a long time since I felt anything at all relating to the spirit (I didn’t tell her anything about contradictions in doctrine, or the history of the church bothering me, because idk how she would take that). She started crying on the phone telling me that we all feel that way sometimes and to just never stop reading (my scriptures) or saying my prayers because it’s easy to fall away if you’re not keeping yourself active.
I was holding back tears because that felt so invalidating to my experience. I know she didn’t know that, but my gosh. She then told me to drive to DC and sit on the temple grounds and think. I’m totally done with the church. I am not doing that. But I’m also thinking about moving back to Texas soon to live with my aunt a few minutes down the road from my mom. But if I do that, I will be expected to attend church and push down my sexuality (I’m bi/demisexual) and everything I’ve been discovering about myself for the past 5 years. I’d only probably be in Texas for a year so maybe I could survive, but I would be so lonely without any of my friends who actually understand me. The whole reason my mom wants me back home is so that she knows I’m not lonely. And also, I think now that she knows about my faith crisis, she wants me home so she can make sure that I’m going to church.
Idk what to do right now. I am super scared of my dad finding out I’m bi and gender questioning.
Pros to moving back to Texas: I wouldn’t be paying rent at my aunt’s house and I could focus on paying of student loans and car payments. I would be close to family if something were to happen. Especially since a lot of family is old and frail. I would be close to some of my childhood friends again.
Cons: my church-going habits (or lack thereof) would be heavily monitored and probably pushed. I’d basically be putting myself back in the closet. I’d be moving away from a lot of my job network that I’ve built up in Virginia. My school district’s streak of replacing the music teacher every year for the past five years would live on.
Help
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I kept my parents in the dark about my faith crisis and subsequent leaving (unofficially; my records are still in), until I started subtly hinting at it the past few weeks. Just letting them know I haven’t been to church in at least a month (try two years now, but I was too scared to tell them that). My mom finally just asked me what was going on with me and church today. I told that it’s been a long time since I felt anything at all relating to the spirit (I didn’t tell her anything about contradictions in doctrine, or the history of the church bothering me, because idk how she would take that). She started crying on the phone telling me that we all feel that way sometimes and to just never stop reading (my scriptures) or saying my prayers because it’s easy to fall away if you’re not keeping yourself active.
I was holding back tears because that felt so invalidating to my experience. I know she didn’t know that, but my gosh. She then told me to drive to DC and sit on the temple grounds and think. I’m totally done with the church. I am not doing that. But I’m also thinking about moving back to Texas soon to live with my aunt a few minutes down the road from my mom. But if I do that, I will be expected to attend church and push down my sexuality (I’m bi/demisexual) and everything I’ve been discovering about myself for the past 5 years. I’d only probably be in Texas for a year so maybe I could survive, but I would be so lonely without any of my friends who actually understand me. The whole reason my mom wants me back home is so that she knows I’m not lonely. And also, I think now that she knows about my faith crisis, she wants me home so she can make sure that I’m going to church.
Idk what to do right now. I am super scared of my dad finding out I’m bi and gender questioning.
Pros to moving back to Texas: I wouldn’t be paying rent at my aunt’s house and I could focus on paying of student loans and car payments. I would be close to family if something were to happen. Especially since a lot of family is old and frail. I would be close to some of my childhood friends again.
Cons: my church-going habits (or lack thereof) would be heavily monitored and probably pushed. I’d basically be putting myself back in the closet. I’d be moving away from a lot of my job network that I’ve built up in Virginia. My school district’s streak of replacing the music teacher every year for the past five years would live on.
Help
2024.05.14 02:18 GamerXraid [PC browser/mobile] [2010s] please I been searching for weeks TLDR strategy army game turn based,leader abilities (not a hex army game) ,I provide video link of similar game style as well :/
I used to play this game when I was younger. All I remember it was like age of empires, but Roman Empire age. You could make units and form them up in a testudo “tortoise” formation, wedge, and others. The pikemen could be formed in a “ready position”. ,I played an Arabian game back then when I was younger about 10 years ago ,that has the same idea basically a testudo armies with diffrent shapes and abilities you are allowed a number of that increases by the more you develop, and each has their own abilities like atack all,heals,skip,chan(stop next turn),increases moral for the rest to get their special abilities faster etc ,and to each of these had a leader whether it was the Arabian style game or the roman centuries one , that could equipe with gear that increase his little testudo army numbers or makes his special ability hits harder or increase his damage ,and I believe it is multiplayer maybe on Google play or browser ,but it qas a free 2 play .
I will provide a link that shows the battle system of that Arabian old game (the game is closed and no longer exists) but it features same idea and everything that I am looking for
Appreciate if anyone has similar games whether new or old of the same style honestly miss this style too much and can no longer find it or even know how it search for it😥
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=LXpF3KpGrN4&pp=ygUV2YHYsdiz2KfZhiDYp9mE2YXYrNiv
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I will provide a link that shows the battle system of that Arabian old game (the game is closed and no longer exists) but it features same idea and everything that I am looking for
Appreciate if anyone has similar games whether new or old of the same style honestly miss this style too much and can no longer find it or even know how it search for it😥
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=LXpF3KpGrN4&pp=ygUV2YHYsdiz2KfZhiDYp9mE2YXYrNiv
2024.05.14 02:18 saarsurya My cats’ strange habits
 | For some reason if I pet my cats hard enough they’ll both ask for belly rubs and start purring really loud lol. Sometimes they will not stop meowing at me until I do it too which I find VERY strange cuz I’m like why are u literally craving belly rubs lmao. they’re both sisters and I got them together ~3 years ago. The grey one is Iris and the black one is Boa. Another weird habit is that during the day Iris will sleep on my bed and boa under it, and then as soon as the sun goes down they flip flop idk why. Boa always has to lay on me for like 10 minutes and get pets before bed it’s like her way of saying goodnight it’s v endearing, then she goes and sleeps by my feet lol. Not complaining whatsoever I just found these habits pretty funny. Love em to death, feel free to share your cats’ weird habits! submitted by saarsurya to cats [link] [comments] |
2024.05.14 02:17 CheapPower4385 I cant deal with being in my own mind.
When I was growing up, my parents moved us around alot. I have 3 siblings, 1 brother and 2 sisters. We moved around so much I met so many people but I never made any real friends, we stopped moving and stayed in one place for a few years, I made a "friend" there, later I realized he liked my older brother more than me, they were friends, not me. That was a real emotional punch.we all moved and than moved again, and again, and we finally made it to a place called tipton, we stayed there for 4 years, I made a real friend there, and even met a girl I really liked, but she didnt like me in the same way, how could she? Theres so many better, more interesting people around. Tword the end of our time living in tipton, my only friend got a girlfriend and she got pregnant. Thats about the time we stopped talking, He has a life to live now. My little sister at the time, she made some bad choices and met this guy colby, a nastly drug addicted pos, he turn this sweet innocent girl into a heroine using meth head, he knocked her up three times, and convinced her that all the choices she made were our fault. Alot of other stuff happened but shes not around anymore. My big sister moved out back then too, I was still just 17 maybe 18 at the time, my parents decided to buy a rv and leave tipton and took me and my older brother out of state, we went to Colorado. Lived there for 4 years and than went to nevada for 6 months and thanwe came back to our home state when mom and dad lost their jobs, I was never able to finish high school and never made any friends, for the last 5 years we have been traveling in the same old state and just living on what we had.
Whats really been getting to me for the last few years, Is all my life we have been moving, I never had a girlfriend, no romantic relationship, that girl I liked back in tipton, she told me I was too boring, and that I'm not good enough. All the females in the schools I went to mostly avoided me. Im convinced I'm never going to find anyone to be with. On top of that my dad has always been a drinker, lots of beer every night. When he dinks he kinda mentally abused and bully me, more so than when he wasnt drunk, and because of how I grew up I never learned to think fast enough to defend myself with words like most people do, again never had any friends to talk to lile that.
Most recently I moved in with my cousin, Lets call him J, he knows alot about my family and how I grew up, even saw some of it. So when we started talking again, he would ask questions about life, and honestly, I told him the truth about some of it. Him and his girlfriend M, got a home together and weeks later they invited me over to hang out, and we did that a few times, when I first walked into their home it felt lile I was finally back home, about 10 years of not living in a house. It feels different, the two of them said they were already talking about me moving in before I even asked them, so it was a easy yes, I guess. Been here for almost 2 weeks. Theyre the greatest couple I have ever seen.
Ofcourse seeing them be so romantic and stuff, its been hitting me even harder, how much I have always felt alone, been alone, how I will probably never be in a romantic relationship, and at this point thats all I want, its been so bad, I never really though about suicide before. But the months before I moved here It started coming to mind, and now everytime I see them cuddle up or kiss, I get a deep feeling in my chest, my mind feels like its going to fall apart. The other night I found myself just looking at nothing while deep in my thoughts running so many of my problems through my head I started crying. Had to be quite tho, didnt wanna get anyones attention in the middle of the night, I cant ever sleep well and lately its been getting harder and harder to eat.
I dont know what to do with myself. I cant bring myself to commit suicide, so thats off the table, too shy and scared of opening up to J or M even though their so easy to talk to. Theres the two of them and their kids, there so many around me now, I was a part of a family of six and now this family of six has invited me to be here. I still feel all alone.
I bearly get any sleep, I just wanna cuddle up with someone and fall asleep.
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Whats really been getting to me for the last few years, Is all my life we have been moving, I never had a girlfriend, no romantic relationship, that girl I liked back in tipton, she told me I was too boring, and that I'm not good enough. All the females in the schools I went to mostly avoided me. Im convinced I'm never going to find anyone to be with. On top of that my dad has always been a drinker, lots of beer every night. When he dinks he kinda mentally abused and bully me, more so than when he wasnt drunk, and because of how I grew up I never learned to think fast enough to defend myself with words like most people do, again never had any friends to talk to lile that.
Most recently I moved in with my cousin, Lets call him J, he knows alot about my family and how I grew up, even saw some of it. So when we started talking again, he would ask questions about life, and honestly, I told him the truth about some of it. Him and his girlfriend M, got a home together and weeks later they invited me over to hang out, and we did that a few times, when I first walked into their home it felt lile I was finally back home, about 10 years of not living in a house. It feels different, the two of them said they were already talking about me moving in before I even asked them, so it was a easy yes, I guess. Been here for almost 2 weeks. Theyre the greatest couple I have ever seen.
Ofcourse seeing them be so romantic and stuff, its been hitting me even harder, how much I have always felt alone, been alone, how I will probably never be in a romantic relationship, and at this point thats all I want, its been so bad, I never really though about suicide before. But the months before I moved here It started coming to mind, and now everytime I see them cuddle up or kiss, I get a deep feeling in my chest, my mind feels like its going to fall apart. The other night I found myself just looking at nothing while deep in my thoughts running so many of my problems through my head I started crying. Had to be quite tho, didnt wanna get anyones attention in the middle of the night, I cant ever sleep well and lately its been getting harder and harder to eat.
I dont know what to do with myself. I cant bring myself to commit suicide, so thats off the table, too shy and scared of opening up to J or M even though their so easy to talk to. Theres the two of them and their kids, there so many around me now, I was a part of a family of six and now this family of six has invited me to be here. I still feel all alone.
I bearly get any sleep, I just wanna cuddle up with someone and fall asleep.
2024.05.14 02:17 Artistic_Editor_9436 I’m really struggling with my heartbreak that I spent the evening writing my own eulogy, people say it gets easier, when does it get easier because I spiralling
If you’re hearing this, then it means you’re all wearing pink & I’m not here anymore, please don’t cry 😢 it’s Okies ! In life we always have choices, this was mine!
No one commits suicide because they want to die." "Then why do they do it?" "Because they want to stop the pain.
There are so many things I will never have, I’ll never have someone to love me unconditionally, i will never have someone to wipe away my tears, hold my hand and weather every single storm, I’ll never be a mum, I’ll never grow old I will always be 35 & frozen in time! It takes so much more courage to continue to live than it does to decide to end your life, anyone that knows me, knows that I’m like the lion from the wizard of Oz, I’ve always been a bit of a coward, but The bravest thing I ever did was freezing myself in time before cryogenics was ever a thing!! my favourite Sylvia Plath quote is “The thought that I might kill myself formed in my mind coolly as a tree or a flower”
once the seed were planted the thought started to occupy my mind more and more until my mind was a greenhouse filled with the most beautiful stargazer & tiger Lillie’s at their roots was my demise!
Robert Harris once said, “suicide leaves everyone feeling guilty”, please don’t feel guilty this was completely my choice, nothing you could say or do would have stopped me, you all know how stubborn I am! I always believed in soulmates, the minute I lost mine, I knew that I would never find someone to love me like that again! I didn’t want to continue to go through life sad and resentful! I hate cats so it’s not like I could be a crazy cat lady, although I’m an amazing crazy person! Don’t be sad or angry at me for leaving, for there will always be a part of me with you in your heart, every time you see a butterfly I want you to smile fondly and think about how I’m finally free! Butterflies are sent from heaven to let us know that our loved ones are always thinking about us & believe me no matter where I am, I’ll always be thinking of all of you….Always!
Xxxxx
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No one commits suicide because they want to die." "Then why do they do it?" "Because they want to stop the pain.
There are so many things I will never have, I’ll never have someone to love me unconditionally, i will never have someone to wipe away my tears, hold my hand and weather every single storm, I’ll never be a mum, I’ll never grow old I will always be 35 & frozen in time! It takes so much more courage to continue to live than it does to decide to end your life, anyone that knows me, knows that I’m like the lion from the wizard of Oz, I’ve always been a bit of a coward, but The bravest thing I ever did was freezing myself in time before cryogenics was ever a thing!! my favourite Sylvia Plath quote is “The thought that I might kill myself formed in my mind coolly as a tree or a flower”
once the seed were planted the thought started to occupy my mind more and more until my mind was a greenhouse filled with the most beautiful stargazer & tiger Lillie’s at their roots was my demise!
Robert Harris once said, “suicide leaves everyone feeling guilty”, please don’t feel guilty this was completely my choice, nothing you could say or do would have stopped me, you all know how stubborn I am! I always believed in soulmates, the minute I lost mine, I knew that I would never find someone to love me like that again! I didn’t want to continue to go through life sad and resentful! I hate cats so it’s not like I could be a crazy cat lady, although I’m an amazing crazy person! Don’t be sad or angry at me for leaving, for there will always be a part of me with you in your heart, every time you see a butterfly I want you to smile fondly and think about how I’m finally free! Butterflies are sent from heaven to let us know that our loved ones are always thinking about us & believe me no matter where I am, I’ll always be thinking of all of you….Always!
Xxxxx
2024.05.14 02:15 imatmydesknow [MW3] My Activision account was hacked and I am not permanently banned from MW3/Warzone/MW2 - my acct was 14 yrs old and I am a casual middle aged player. Am I Screwed?
Gonna try and make this short. I was an avid COD player starting around 2010-2011. I played every release leading up to about 2017 when my PS4 bit the dust and i just thought of using my time doing other things. fast forward to xmas this past year my lady and i decide to buy a ps5, shortly after the new mw3 remaster came out and i purchased that. i do not play the campaign ever i only play multiplayer, more specifically i basically only play TDM or hardcore TDM. My kdr MAY be at 1.00 but honestly its probably is lower. i can get in a match and go 3-24 easily depnding on the map lol, im a middle aged man. im out here trying to have guy time not go pro.
In april i noticed i had random friends on my friends list that were in chinese/japanese characters, at first i was like how did those get there, but then i thought maybe someone switched the name on their account from my old friends from my playing days. to be safe i deleted the old friends outside of who i play with currently, including the strange accounts.
Well last week i try to log on and i do not get online. so I assume the serve it down, but after 3 days still not connecting. this lead me to investigate. to which i find i have been banned from MW3, Warzone, and MW2. I appealed it, trying to explain the situation withint the 1000 character account but that did not work and now i have no more appeals. I aslo noticed my activision account was connected to a random steam account. i have no idea what steam is, as i am a middle aged man as i have said. activision has not seemed to care.
Oddly enough i went to vent on twitter and to my surprise hundred of bots came trying to get me to pay this account or that account to regain my account back. which im definitely not doing that. I assume that is a hustle for hackers.
My question is, is there anything i can do or anyone i can actually contact outside of the appeal form? LIke an email or someone to actually explain the situation and not rely on AI to make a decision on the status of my long running account? I literally just purchased the 420 cheech and chong bundle too.
I have screen shots and more via my facebook post i made last week about the situation that shows the freidn requests and my appeal band. The other interesting this is i stopped getting activision emails, so i was unaware of the punishment until i researched it.
https://www.facebook.com/iamlurk/posts/10161545608546473
twitter links with the bots trying to scam me:
https://twitter.com/lurkcity/status/1788056855865876968
https://twitter.com/lurkcity/status/1788071385069228455/
twitter.com/lurkcity/status/1788209225916637622
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In april i noticed i had random friends on my friends list that were in chinese/japanese characters, at first i was like how did those get there, but then i thought maybe someone switched the name on their account from my old friends from my playing days. to be safe i deleted the old friends outside of who i play with currently, including the strange accounts.
Well last week i try to log on and i do not get online. so I assume the serve it down, but after 3 days still not connecting. this lead me to investigate. to which i find i have been banned from MW3, Warzone, and MW2. I appealed it, trying to explain the situation withint the 1000 character account but that did not work and now i have no more appeals. I aslo noticed my activision account was connected to a random steam account. i have no idea what steam is, as i am a middle aged man as i have said. activision has not seemed to care.
Oddly enough i went to vent on twitter and to my surprise hundred of bots came trying to get me to pay this account or that account to regain my account back. which im definitely not doing that. I assume that is a hustle for hackers.
My question is, is there anything i can do or anyone i can actually contact outside of the appeal form? LIke an email or someone to actually explain the situation and not rely on AI to make a decision on the status of my long running account? I literally just purchased the 420 cheech and chong bundle too.
I have screen shots and more via my facebook post i made last week about the situation that shows the freidn requests and my appeal band. The other interesting this is i stopped getting activision emails, so i was unaware of the punishment until i researched it.
https://www.facebook.com/iamlurk/posts/10161545608546473
twitter links with the bots trying to scam me:
https://twitter.com/lurkcity/status/1788056855865876968
https://twitter.com/lurkcity/status/1788071385069228455/
twitter.com/lurkcity/status/1788209225916637622