Chippewa middle school yearbook

Hey everybody, this might be a bit of a longer one so bear with me if you don't mind. I just need to explain what happened to me and how I'm feeling in the hopes that someone here can help me make some sense of it.
Content warning/TW: Emotional abuse, gendered slurs, mention of genitalia, violence, death threats, and self-harm/suicide.
For context, I'm a 17 year old male (AMAB) and I am currently going to be a senior in high school come fall this year. Besides of the stress of college applications coming to me in a surge right now, I've also been dealing with the fact that I can have the chance to no longer cover up who it is I really feel that I am inside even if that means risking destroying quite literally almost every bridge I've made in my life up to this point.
I've known since I was a little kid, maybe about 5 or 6 if I had to guess, that I wasn't comfortable being male, or at least exclusively male. I knew better than to tell anyone I knew how I felt, but I managed to express it discreetly under the guise of watching My Little Pony with my cousin because she was lonely or helping cook with the ladies at large family events because I was already good at cooking (which I am, it's one of my favorite things to do and I hope to open a restaurant some day). I was unfortunately not the best at hiding this realization despite my multiple attempts and my parents mistook my understanding of my gender identity for curiosity brought about by "that gay shit" that they saw online. My parents are both very religious and conservative and relied on intimidating me to forbid me from finding out more, but me being a very curious kid with access to the internet, they weren't successful and I consider this the first double-edged sword in my life.
Around this time, which was roughly third grade or so, I'd gotten accepted to a program for talented children and my parents got even stricter on me, pushing me to my limit until about 8th grade which was the end of the program and also the year when we started off remote due to the coronavirus. I'd essentially set on the path of doing what they wanted me to become, and I was subconsciously aware of this, although the silver lining was that I'd became friends with people who also felt concern about their gender identity and sexuality as I had. I'd become a perfect student who was part of multiple different clubs and hung out with different popular guys in my grades and called them my "bros". However, when I was learning remotely at home due to Covid, I read more into gender identity and finding what I really was on the inside. The revelation of it honestly shocked me, and it was so bad that on my third quarter of 8th grade, I'd given up on each of my classes because I'd thought that if I just gave up on who I was, I'd have the chance to start again and live the life that I wanted. I'd resorted to punching myself in the legs and stomach to the point that I passed out in the shower once, but when my report card came in, my parents found out about my grades and went through each of my devices and beat me with a meterstick to try and "whoop my ass into shape".
Fast forward a bit to high school, and again, the same situation presents itself as it did in middle school. I was shoved into classes I wasn't completely ready for each year, partly due to my own fault, but I also got to meet people who'd came out or transitioned in multiple different aspects and it filled me with hope, knowing that I could achieve the same thing one day. I even dated a girl who meant a lot to me since she shed light on what it was like being out and trans in a half-supportive half-cutoff family, and although I never got to explain myself to her, I remain forever grateful since she's still here for me now that I'm trying to transition and she's offered me all sorts of help.
But now that brings us to the current present, and I guess I should try and make things a bit more concise so that you all don't have to read a whole novel from me. In the 10th grade, when I went on vacation with my parents and my cousin (who was the one I used to watch My Little Pony with), I got verbally abused and yelled at in public at Universal in Florida because I'd had bought pink pygmy puff slippers from the Harry Potter merch store. To me, they were just a neat little thing that I could use, but to my parents, it was about the most vile thing that I could've suggested apart from not wanting to date someone they'd arranged for me. After returning the slippers, me and my father refused to talk to each other until I was forced to apologize to him at dinner because my mother made me. The fact that I apologized to him still sickens me on the inside.
And fast forward a bit more to this past December, when I'd contracted the flu and got so sick that I literally could not stand and see. Of course, I'd gotten it from my dad and while I was sick and downstairs when he was trying to take care of me, I'd fallen asleep and was abruptly woken up when he yelled "you fucking faggot!" at the tv over a football game. A few weeks after this, while we were on a large family vacation in the mountains, he (in public at the airport mind you) again called multiple people a faggot behind their backs. And then even more recently in February at a robotics competition I was at, we saw someone who visually appeared male or nonbinary but was wearing a bright pink tutu as it was a part of their team's mascot, and my mom and dad both tried to test the waters at home by mentioning it and that it was weird, but I shut them down immediately and told them that they need to have more respect, which they didn't like. These multiple instances over the last half year alone sicken me to my stomach because what if it were me? Does my dad know that his kid, who has wanted to be accepted for so long, has to listen to him say the worst stuff imaginable to people behind their backs? That the same people he wants his kid to also hate are the people that his kid wants to identify with and join their community?
Now comes today, where I sit here writing this wondering what I should do. I've wanted to come out so badly these last 12 to 13 years, and it's bothering me so much that I found two people who I could trust and told them, and they are gladly very accepting of me and want to help me be who I want to be. My parents hold a lot of wealth and are clearly very investigative of me now, wanting to make sure that if they do part with any of their wealth and give it to me in any manner, they're not giving it to someone who has values opposite of their own. This includes my first car, my money for college, money that they've been saving for their "son" since the day he was born.
Am I really trans, and I'm not just telling myself this because I hate what my parents made me go through as a kid and the complete amount of negligence that they showed me over the years, from missing and ignoring multiple of my birthdays to complete excruciating mental and physical pain because my grades weren't all above 94 or because I hadn't done my absolute best in everything put in front of me? I don't even know what to think anymore since this has been bothering me so bad lately to the point that I can't concentrate on anything or talk to anyone except close friends.
For my gender identity, I know that I definitely lean feminine and nonbinary, but I don't feel dysphoria from things like my current male genitalia or my rather deep voice, which is one of the things that I cherish. However, I feel sick looking at myself in the mirror and seeing facial hair, fades and comb overs, and body hair and rough skin. I know these are things that I would change in a heartbeat if I could.
I just.. I'm not sure what I should do. Do I come out, and risk being abandoned. unsupported, or even beaten or straight up killed because of who I am? Or do I shut myself in and struggle for another year before I'm free to go to college, but without no support at all? Or do I just not come out at all and live the clearly lavish life that is there for me to take, completely sealing away the feminine life I've wanted for so long?
For those who think that being killed is harsh or unimaginable for coming out, my parents, more specifically my dad, have mentioned that from where they are from, it was common to exile and even beat or kill those who were queer. I mean it when I say that doing the wrong thing here could very well be the end of my life, and I just want to know how I can get away from this hellhole that I live in and cut off these god forsaken people who've influenced my life arguably more worse than they have better. They are also the kind of people to own weapons such as firearms, legally or not, and not tell anyone, even their own kid and other son included. They are also the kind of person to search literally anything I may have, whether physically or digitally, and I've caught them snooping around in my closet and accessing my laptop and phone while I was dead asleep. Safe to say I fear for my life.
I just need some guidance, if any, on what I should do. I really do have a shot at some of the best colleges in the US (Berkeley, Duke, etc..) but all this has driven me to the point that I'm wondering if I should just give up and let someone else have the opportunity because it's wasted on me.
Again, apologies for the long-ass post, I just need some help. Any input or response here would be greatly appreciated since I'll take any guidance at this point.

I went for middle and high (graduating class of ‘00), until my senior year when I transferred to a closer school. The difference was striking. New school was better in every way. And now that I recall, Nova really sucked. For the life of me I can’t ascertain why it had such a sterling reputation. Any insight?

Osana Najimi: When Osana and Taro were in Middle School (7th grade) Osana’s classmate had a crush on Taro, and was planning to confess to him at a playground.
Osana fakes a note pretending to be Taro to meet with her classmate at the top of the slide. Osana would then confront the girl about Taro, angrily and with jealousy.
As they bicker back and forth, the girl tells something to Osana that causes her to be blinded by anger, and push her off of the slide, spraining the girl’s ankle.
However, due to Osana’s popularity, and the girl’s low reputation, she was called a liar for trying to expose Osana. Osana regrets this, and tries to bury it deep down into her mind.
Amai Odayaka: A male student at Akademi cyberbullied Amai, and review bombed her family’s bakery in incognito. He went for a while without anyone knowing who it was.
But, she overheard a male student bragging to his friends about something, and she realized that he was talking about his troll account that was harassing Amai and her family.
Once Amai found out, she was blinded by anger, and decided to put rat poison in one of the strawberry cupcakes. When passing them out in class, she made sure to give the boy the tainted cupcake
At lunch, the boy ended up throwing up violently. After hearing about his misfortune, Amai realized that what she did was a little too far. She deeply regrets this, and wants to forget about it.
Kizana Sunobu: She purposely sabotages her female club members so that she could get the lead parts. If sabotage doesn’t work, she bullies and embarrasses the girls into giving her the lead role.
This means yelling at them during rehearsal, crap talking about them to male club members, and ruining their reputation by gossiping. Once, the bullying got so bad, a girl left the club, and soon after, Akademi itself.
Oka Ruto: Oka was obsessed with a boy from her old school, one that resembled Taro. She stalked him for weeks, until she heard a conversation with him and his friend about moving away to Canada. Scared she would lose her love, Oka made a love potion, attempting to sway her crush into her arms.
(Just saying, her love potion wasn’t bubbly pink like cartoons. It contained things like period blood, hair, saliva, etc.) When her crush wasn’t looking, Oka slips the potion into his bento. The boy ended up with a stomach virus that caused him to be rushed to the ER.
Asu Rito: After losing a swimming competition, Asu‘s coach threatens to kick her off the heavy leagues unless she can pull her weight on the team.
Hearing her coach’s words, she becomes unhealthily obsessed with winning, and gaining the strength she needs to exceed the expectations of her coach.
She ends up purchasing a huge dose of illegal steroids, which ended up giving her a temporary adrenaline boost.
She won her next swimming contest, gaining a trophy, and her coach’s upmost respect. However, she knows deep down that her opponent should have won, and regrets her decision.

What happened:
So, the other day, (Sunday), Chome was being really slow and laggy, so I closed a few tabs until there were only one or two tabs open. That didn't fix the lag, so I closed Chrome and restarted my laptop (Windows 11, if relevant).
When I opened it back up, it obviously updated, because the 'new update available' icon wasn't visible in the top right anymore (I hadn't closed chrome for a while at that point, so it never updated until then).
However, I quickly noticed that the background I use wasn't loading, and my shortcuts were replaced by websites I requently visit or just recently visited. The middle search bar was also missing. This weirded me out, so i typed a few discriptors into the top search bar to see if it had anything to do with a new update or something.
When the results came up, they were on yahoo! and not google. This caused me to immediately panic, because I had just installed Bluestacks on my laptop (which, as far as I know, has a bit of a bad reputation when it comes to being safe, at least on Reddit), and I have had the unfortunate experience of having downloaded a trojan and a browser hijacker on my pc before (different device, in case you're wondering).
I then noticed the yahoo! icon to the left of the top search bar. My immediate thoughts were that it was a browser hijacker that came or was introduced by installing Bluestacks. I immediately deleted everything Bluestacks (all the .exes, folders, everything that came with it), or at least everything I could find that was related to it. I deleted it permanently, and removed the program from control panel. There was a file or two that I needed to look up in order to delete, but it's gone now.
After doing a bit of searching on Microsoft Bing (I have it on my computer and I didn't feel safe using Chrome/Yahoo!) I restored my Chrome to default settings and it seemed to remove the yahoo thing (and my background, but I wan't that upset about it because it was one of the ones in the google collection thing) and my shortcuts turned back to normal. Basically, everything at this point turned back to normal.
Afterwards:
I then started to do a little bit more digging to find if there was anything about this effect/bug/thing. I found the thing in chrome that allows you to change search engines. When I toggled it to yahoo! the icon on the top search bar thing was replicated, but it just showed the default yahoo! screen instead of the bugged screen I saw prior to defaulting my settings.
I noted that the yahoo thing didn't mess with incognito (I tested it, while I didn't search anything on incognito when the bug occured, the icon thing in the top search bar wasn't there). I also had my school account as a Chrome profile for easier access while doing school homework. I opened that up, and it seemed to be normal.
To be clear, all of the above paragraph occured during the bug, prior to the reset.^^^
I messed a bit with the other search engines to see if I could replicate the bugged screen. While on my regular account it seemed to bring me to the default page of the search engine (yahoo, yandex, etc.), on my school account (where many things are blocked, three of the search engines were blocked but that doesn't matter that much to me), and I managed to get something close to the bugged screen with yandex *(first image I included in this post).
Yesterday, I managed to find a reddit post that included an image of a screen that looked almost completely identical to what my bugged screen looked like, except it was red (which I assume had something to do with their theme, and not any bug).
The post: https://www.reddit.com/chrome/comments/vxih28/chrome_browser_crashed_and_now_it_looks_like_this/
What I need help with:
As this incident freaked me out a bit, I want to know what caused it and if it is still on my computer and will reoccur or something, or if it was a one-off bug. Obviously I'm not a professional or anything, and I just wanted to see if anyone on this reddit knew what this was and if I should be concerned or not.
My take:
After a bit of investigation after the incident, I got mostly that it was one of three possibilities.
Firstly, that it was a bug caused by new updates (again, hadn't updated Chrome for a period of time before this incident), and not anything malicious.
Secondly, it was caused by me downloading Bluestacks, causing malware to fiddle its way into my computer. I scanned it (my computer) with Windows Defender and Malwarebytes Premium Trial, and nothing came up. I also uninstalled Bluestacks quickly after I discovered this problem (not saying that this wasn't the case, but just stating measures I took that could affect the probability of this being the problem.
Thirdly, it was an extension. Okay, there are kinda two possibilities here too, but one is far more likely than the other.
First, the less likely possibility, there is some sort of malicious extension on my chrome browser that caused the issue. However, I don't have any extensions that may be malicious: Malwarebytes, Kindle, Return Youtube Dislke (which I deleted after this incident), Google Docs Offline, uBlock Origin, and Mcafee WebAdvisor (which is my next point).
Second, the more likely possibility, is that it was Mcafee changing my browser. I've only heard about it on reddit posts, but apparently it was a larger(?) problem 2 years ago? I haven't seen any image of this to know what it looks life to be sure but it is a possibility that it was Mcafee WebAdvisor that caused this problem (which I'm okay with, if this was because of Mcafee- cause it's not going to harm me like a virus would).
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If anyone could help me out, I would very appreciate it. I apologize for the long (essay) post, but I wanted to make as many details as clear as possible. If you know anywhere that this post could also be posted to, and that you believe I would get a better or more accurate answer, please inform me.

Hi, I (M25) have autism but my two younger brothers (M21 and M16) and our parents all have ADHD. My youngest brother is really struggling in school, has a hard time focusing enough to complete homework, and has even been skipping classes and not turning in homework. He’s already failed 3 classes and is on track to fail two more.
My parents are against medication so they won’t get him anything like adderall.
Does anyone here have advice on how I can support him? I want him to be successful but he seems to be struggling a lot more than our middle brother with ADHD symptoms and I was always very strict rule follower so they’ve never had to worry about skipping class and not doing homework.
My parents have tried taking away devices and stuff but it doesn’t seem to be working and we keep finding out from teachers after a month or two that he’s not doing well in class.
Apologies for the long post but any tips or advice would really help, he’s already in junior year and I just want him to be as successful as he can.
Thanks

I remember in middle/high school (early to mid-2000s), I would get roasted by friends cause I didn't wear boxers or underwear underneath my swimsuit, which they did. At the time I didn't think much of it, but I never understood the point of this.
Was this a thing in anyone else's friend groups?

The cover was pretty easy to remember; a green album sleeve with a black devil in the middle. Pretty basic stuff.
The release date was from around 2019, though I could be off by a year or two. Pretty sure it was a newer band instead of a new release from an older band.
The music was simply old school black metal of the Burzum/Darkthrone variety.
I heard it around a year ago from one of the black metal streaming channels on youtube, but I can't remember which.
Been trying to find it, bummer for now. I ask help from the redditors.

I put my daughter 5(f) down at 8 o clock p.m. The latest she would go to sleep is at 8:30 and on the weekends 9. In the morning I wake her up 6 o'clock sharp because I have to get her ready, feed her breakfast, get myself ready then be out by 7 then go to work because her school starts at 7:30. Because of that I don't let her stay up or sleep in past an hour past the time she usually gets up because she usually falls asleep before 9 she sleeps through the night and usually in the morning she's cranky when I wake her up if she falls asleep past 9. I'm her daycare she doesn't nap and if she does nap even if it's for 5 minutes she's up until almost midnight. My mother in lat believes that I should let her sleep no matter what time or no matter how long. She has allowed her to sleep for 5 hours despite her sleeping through the night and when we get her back she's up all night until the sun rise. So because of that I limit her naps or don't let her nap at all so she could sleep through the night. Also when she starts kindergarten this year there's no more naptime anyways. Last night she somehow woke up in the middle of the night at 2 o clock. She fell asleep around 8:45 and she didn't go back to sleep around 5 and I had to wake her up at 6. This was the first time this happened in a while because she's been sleeping though the night. When she was at school she was fighting sleep so she didn't nap until she got home. My MIL says I'm abusing her by not letting her sleep whenever and she could die like that. I say whats the point of letting her sleep all evening or afternoon when she's gonna be up all night only for me to have to wake her up early in the morning. So AITA? I'm a first time mom so please correct me if I'm wrong.

I am writing in for my husband as he doesn’t really use reddit. He is graduating with a health and physical education BA. However, he will be officially graduating after this coming fall semester so will be awkwardly finished in the middle of an academic year (it’s just how the school set up the program for some odd reason). Could he still apply for openings to start at the halfway mark or will he just have to wait until the following fall openings? Has anyone experienced starting your career in the middle of the year? What did you do?
Also as a side question, are there any sites you recommend to look for job openings geared toward education positions other than looking on indeed or LinkedIn or the school district sites themselves?

Relevant info: This is a throwaway account. I am 15, my dog is 10, he is a german Shepherd mix (mixed with some sort of small breed so his head is barely up to my knees and I'm 5'3), my mom is currently on a work trip and won't be able to help with anything for at least a month
My (M15) dog recently escaped from our yard and ended up attacking another dog. The owner is understandably upset and will be reporting my dog. The problem comes with the fact that this is his second offense, so he will more than likely get taken away. I've had him since I was four and I'm not ready to let him go. He's a part of my family and I feel like I've failed him. I've urged and begged my dad to put my dog into a behavioral class of some sort or at least a training program, maybe anxiety meds (as my dog has been diagnosed anxious). But he's resisted everything, or just forgotten to do further research. My dog has a line we should be chaining him up to so he doesn't get out again (put up after first offense) but my parents simply haven't been doing that. I can't do anything about what happens during the day as I'm at school. I want to get my dog a muzzle (a big one so he can still pant, but won't be able to bite anything and will hopefully give AC peace of mind). I also want to get him into behavioral training for his reactivity. However, I cannot work and have no money to be able to do those things on my own. My dad has gotten depressed thinking about his little guy getting taken away and hasn't done anything yet.
I want to know 1) is there a way I can convince animal control to let me keep my dog 2) how do I slap sense into my dad and get him to actually do something 3) are there any good dog training programs that I could get my little guy into (preferably cheap and online as I live in the middle of nowhere) 4) how do I prepare for the worst
Thank you for reading this, sorry it's super rambly and scatterbrained. Any and all advice is greatly appreciated. And to get ahead of any comments yes, I know I probably don't deserve to have a dog or any pet if I can't train it properly and make sure it doesn't act out. I know he would probably be happier somewhere else with a family who knows what they're doing, but I just want my dog, I just want my best friend to stay with me. He's already not long for this world. I know it's selfish, but I just want my buddy, I just want him to be happy for the rest of his days

(Posted this in the SLPGrad Group as well 🫣)
I'm having a tough time! I received a conditional offer (complete a Stats course with a grade no lower than a C) into a Master's program last year. I deferred so that I could take that stats course and try to save some money as I'm an international student.
I have always SUCKED at math so I was already dreading this being the condition in which my offer hangs in the balance. I ended the course with a 64% which is the highest math mark I think I've ever received since maybe middle school (I know it's still a horrible mark) 😭😭. I know that regardless it's still not a C but a C-. I have the option to take a makeup exam that's going to cost me $300!!! Obviously, I don't want to do that; but to get at least a C I am more than willing. I emailed the school just to let them know where I currently stand in the course and they have now mentioned that I actually need a 70%. In every school I've attended a C is a 65% or so and a B is a 70%. If I retake this course I know I can bump my mark up by 1 or 2% but 6%??? I highly doubt it.
I just feel so tired an deflated. The tuition was already giving me a run for my money and I was debating if it's even worth being an additional $70k in debt...but now adding this grade bummer to the mix...I'm about ready to throw in the towel and just continue working as a SLPA and call it a life.
My only problem is if I don't do this... regardless the time will pass, but will I regret my decision to not follow through or would I probably regret my decision to spend all that money to go? IS ANY OF THIS WORTH IT?!
I've never felt so lost and unsure of anything in my life. I'm not really sure what I hope to accomplish by posting this, but I needed to vent and let it all out. 😔😮‍💨 .

Hello I (F16) graduate Highschool next month and have to turn in the chromebook my school has provided me in a couple weeks, i have discovered me and my 11yr sisters rabbit named "nami" has chewed on said school computer and I'm not really sure what to do.. it still turns on and everything else seems to be fine , I've had this Chromebook since middle school and have not experienced any damages other than the one our rabbit has caused. I'm super mad this had to happen weeks before i had to turn it in .. if you were wondering the rabbit is fine I’m just little disappointed in myself for letting this happen . If anyone has any suggestions on what to do it would be helpful

Demographics:

• Gender: Male
• Race: White
• Residence: Suburbs outside of Philadelphia, PA
• Income bracket: Upper Middle Class
• Intended Majors: Chemical or Mechanical Engineering

Academics:

• 4.0 unweighted GPA (4.23 on a 4.5 scale where honors are +0.25 and AP is +0.5)
• My school doesn't do class rankings
• 1560 SAT (800 Math)
• Will finish high school with 12 APs although I'm only in my Junior year so I'm only taking/have taken 7
• All 5s on the 3 AP exams I've taken
• Unless I choked probably another 3 5's and a 4 after how my current exams went

Extracurriculars:

• FBLA: Made it to states twice for FBLA in Mobile App Development, placed 9th last year and 3rd this year and am now attending nationals where I probably will not place top 10 but who knows maybe I'm the goat. I am running for PR this year (No clue if I'm winning)
• Student Council: I was a chair for our school charity drive and a chair for a school dance we held and have 40+ volunteer hours in the club and am running for Historian this year (No clue if I'm winning once again)
• Tutoring Club: I am currently PR in our schools tutoring club so I run a social media although not much has been posted on it and also look through application on who to accept or deny as a tutor
• STEM Club: A little weaker since it's mostly just in house competitions but I am an active member and also am running for an officer position since a lot of officers are graduating and I'm one of the most active members but I probably won't win.
• Track and Field: I ran indoor and outdoor track and field my freshman and sophomore years and only did not run this year due to a knee injury that I've been going to physical therapy for
• NHS: I have literally done nothing in this club yet other than my 10 hours that were required.
• MiniTHON: My school hosts their own version of Penn State's "THON" where we stand for 10 hours and raise awareness for pediatric cancer. I was a part of the Business Outreach Management committee and went door to door to businesses in order to get businesses to sponsor our event as well as raising over $100 for the event outside of just businesses
• Part Time Job: I work at MOD Pizza and have worked there for roughly a year now where I've had to train numerous new employees. In the summer I work 4 days a week and in the school year I work 1-2 a week.
• German NHS (Basically nothing)

Awards:

• 9th place at Pennsylvania FBLA's State Leadership Conference in Mobile Application Development
• 3rd place at Pennsylvania FBLA's State Leadership Conference in Mobile Application Development
• Student of the Month (IK this doesn't mean a lot I just have few awards unfortunately)
• 1 time Thanksgiving football champion as starting running back (Strongest EC)

Letters of Rec:

• I asked for one from my English teacher who should write some gas and then I'm between my math and bio teacher because they both know me well and I feel like my math teacher likes me more but my bio teacher might write a better one but then again the math teacher might spend more time on one because he gets asked less for them but yeah.

Essay:

• I've only drafted my essay and not many people have looked at it but it certainly isn't bad so ill give it a 5-6/10 for now but hopefully I can make it not ass cuz otherwise I'm cooked

Schools that stick out for me that I'd want to apply to of many different difficulties and that are in no particular order:

1. Drexel
2. University of Michigan
3. GA Tech (I realize that this is a big reach)
4. University of Maryland, College Park
5. Notre Dame
6. UT Austin
7. University of Illinois Urbana-Champaign (Grainger)

The list is very incomplete and I have yet to visit some of these campuses but I was wondering as of now what my odds would be at some of these schools and what I might have to do in the future in order to have a better shot at getting into these places

i’m throwing a bone out to see if there’s anybody here who has been in my situation before. i played volleyball for almost 9 years. i got pretty good if you ask me, i made history at my school to be the first person rostered on frosh, JV and varsity for the third best school in my state. i’m a 5’9 middle, where i may be short for my position but i figured out how to jump pretty high.
TLDR; i have hip dysplasia and other structural deformities that i need surgery for (PAO, arthroscopy, FO) and i wanted to know if anybody else came back to volleyball after those surgeries or any other big injuries.
january 25th i started to feel some severe pain in my left hip; i couldn’t jump, i couldn’t land, i couldn’t walk, i couldn’t do anything. my mom took me to the doctor a week later where they did x-rays. i was diagnosed with bilateral hip dysplasia and femoroacetabular impingement (FAI.) i was put on a course of PT and was given pain medicine, and was told i could probably play again in 1-2 months.
about 5 or 6 weeks into PT, i began the return to play process but ended up back at square one, with both of my hips hurting horribly. i had to go to the ER one day because the pain was so horrible.
the next day we got CT scans and MRIs done and we later saw the doctor who told me i definitely needed surgery. i had torn both my labrum and the inflammation was way more than should be in my body. at a second appointment she had also informed me that i would need additional surgeries to fix my femoral anteversion. my left femur is at a 41° angle and my right femur is turned at a 45° angle.
i’m awaiting surgery in another state in July, and it’s predicted that it’ll be minimally a year out before i can start even thinking about volleyball training again. i wanted to see if there’s anybody else out there who has dealt with my specific injuries or any other similar injuries. it’s been really hard for me and i wanted to see if there have been any success stories out there.

I just found this subreddit. I've always thought either 50% of the time that my life is normal and im imagining it having been bad and the other 50% im like thinking my life was maybe not normal? Just someone please tell me which one I am ill just list some things about my life. I genuinely never have told this stuff to anyone and I feel like I need outside input because I really need to know if im just imagining things. For context if that matters im 23, and im still living at my mother because I was so depressed after highschool ended I needed to deal with things. Doing better recently. I feel like my family is semi-normal now though.... (mostly)?
-Earliest memories are parents fighting (i only remembered these after like 10 years they happened lol)
-Frequent sleep paralysis and nightmares as a child where the monsters were literally my parents (only realized this a while ago)
-Telling my mother im feeling depressed and them just brushing it off while working saying something like "really? then you need to go to therapy" instead of giving a fuck.
-My mother scaring me with a scary voice before I was 6 years old at night trying to sleep I think because I was in bed but she kept doing it even though I think I remember crying and telling her to stop.
-Parents always favored siblings, literally gave them gifts and let them have things that im pretty sure I let them know I was the one who wanted, not my brothers. (example: I always liked videogames, my older sibling has a PS2 and TV, I want a videogame console, my sibling who doesn't like them that much gets a PS3, new TV and old stuff goes to my younger sibling, who doesn't like them at all???)
-Parents making fun of me because at my childhood and teen years I was fat (i started stress eating at 11, because I was being bullied at school, because I was new there and unable to make friends. Even the teacher bullied me.)
-Clearly being depressed at 11 and after because of the stuff i mentioned above, them not doing anything? I went from a somewhat happy kid who went outside and had some friends, to being inside all the time, fat, crying every morning and they still send me to school?????
-Them never questioning why I didn't do anything normal like go outside, have friends or girlfriends, good grades, anything, most of my childhood and teenage years. Just letting me be.
-older sibling hitting me with a controller in the head I think. I remember saying to someone they did that when I was a child but dont remember the actual event. Possibly happened. Also stuff like calling me fat, telling me to kill myself (mind you I had thoughts about doing it back then)
-Ignoring me when I went on walks at late evening to try to get attention.
-Whole family generally making fun of me constantly my whole life.
-Saying stuff to each other possibly knowing I was to hear it such as saying to my siblings that they all know im the weakest and saying im fat and stuff like that.
-I slept like 3 hours to 5 hours on average around since I've been 11 until my highschool ended. I didn't want the next day to come and night was the only time I got to be alone and in peace so I just played videogames when I was able to.
-Generally treating my siblings better than me. Noticeably. I noticed when I was like 13 that I was clearly the least favorite. I just thought it's because im the middle child and remember crying about it.
-I remember on some health thing at school i crossed a box saying I feel like I have no one I trust or such and my mother got concerned/angry, still let it be after 1 discussion about it.
-Older sibling walking by me without asking if im okay after I passed out at school and just generally always ignoring me. Also breaking my stuff.
-Me seldom getting anything I wanted. My siblings did though. And they were still ungrateful brats.
-Being scolded because of stuff I didnt do/stuff they never scolded my siblings when they did?
-Generally because of depression, loneliness and stuff also not sleeping much, I dont remember almost anything about the years 0-18? Is that normal? I have very few memories I feel like.
-The few friends I managed to get as a child felt like the only people who actually made me feel like I belonged.
-Not supporting anything I liked, any of my hobbies or such. Unlike my siblings'.
Theres probably more if i think about it, but there were happy memories too. Or atleast okay ones. So idk if im just making a big deal out of nothing. I feel like im okay now. But I dont know if I am. What if ive been depressed so long I dont remember what it was like to not be depressed. I genuinely think I haven't felt really anything since I was a young child. I feel tired always. I can't form relationships and dont know how to do so. I've been alone so long. Even thought lately ive been making attempts to better my life and things seem to be getting better I still feel like maybe im fucked up inside and im not doing as good as I am. I really dont fucking know im tired it's 3 am and I should probably sleep. I might delete this later idk.

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Going to school for cybersecurity if that helps in any way.
Thanks for reading and offering any advice!!

I’m curious- our middle school today put out an announcement to families it’s banning the use of the word “sigma” because of the ties to Andrew Tate/white supremicist ideology.
How is your district reacting? Are you also noticing that with use of sigma other radicalized slang and hate speech like “monkey” is being used among students as well?

Hi, so I'm in middle school and most of my friends are on the field hockey team. They recommended that I try out, so I'm going to, but tryouts are in August. I've actually really been considering seriously doing field hockey for a while now but I've never really been able to get into it. Is it possible to learn field hockey and make a team by August? It's over summer so I might be a little busy, but there are three practices per week from july through august. Can I do it?

Hello All!
Thank you in advance for any recommendations.
I am 4 years out of college, I took on $20k worth of loans through Mohela. My parents took out a parent plus loan for $80k. I have paid $15k of mine, down to the final $5k.
I recently paid $10k towards my parents loan, bringing it down to ~$70k.
I feel immense regret putting my parents in this situation, they do not guilt me or make me feel like its a burden, but I cannot help but feel guilty.
The interest on their loans are ~6-7% per year, so it feels almost impossible to get out of without tossing a large chunk of money towards paying it down.
I own my own business, and pay myself ~$55k a year.
My parents income is in the region of $200k per year, but I have two siblings about to go to college which will really take a hit on their income, they also live in a major city in which that $200k is considered middle class. My father owns his own business, and my mother works at a private school.
My situation is not terrible, but I would love to find a solution on getting my parents out of this hole as soon as possible.
Any recommendations on lowering their interest, getting payments waived, or anything of that sort would be SO APPRECIATED.
Thank you for reading and thank you for not only helping me, but everyone else in student loan debt, the world is a better place because of all your work.

Yeah, a lot of this is just me yapping about my life story and whatnot, so I’ll do a TL;DR at the end for y’all.
For me I didn’t realize I wasn’t cis until I was 14-15 (I’m 20 now). That was the time I started to learn more about LGBTQIA+ stuff in general from a close friend, the Internet, etc. When I first learned what being trans was outside of surgery and all that jazz, I started to realize that maybe I, too, was trans. I started to really question for a while despite not really thinking I was trans before or realizing there was any dysphoria there.
I grew up pretty much always presenting as female, dressing all girly and stuff, playing with Barbies, and not really having a problem with that. Well, not really having a problem with it except for when I was “Otis.” That was the name I chose when I was playing as a boy (mind you, I was around 8’ish this time). I enjoyed being Otis, to the point of being him every day hours on end. I never was able to fully enjoy it, however, since all the clothes I owned were all excessively girly, and my hair was extremely long (so then I’d hide it in a hat). At one point I even remember wanting to go to school as Otis, but I knew I couldn’t. My family never saw a problem with this, though they’re extremely transphobic. I was wondering if any cis person has ever done something like this in their childhood or if this was possibly a sign of my transness. Aside from that, I didn’t have a problem with being considered a girl with all my pink colored things and dresses and pantyhose.
I didn’t really have any signs of dysphoria until I hit puberty, when I completely ditched all the girly stuff to become a tomboy. I always felt upset when I was called a “girly girl” by my sister or anyone. Although I never liked to admit it, that girly part of me still remained and still somewhat remains today. I didn’t want to be thought of as girly or ultra feminine; I wanted to be ultra masculine and felt like I needed to put on an act to be perceived that way. That!s part of the reason I was wondering if I was faking; wondering if I really am trans or “just a tomboy.”
I know growing up I hated tampons, enjoyed having a smaller chest and not wanting to accentuate it, and HATED it when my hair grew super long. I started acting hyper feminine again in middle school because I wanted people to like me, even though I felt pretty exposed most of the time. I wanted to be like my older sister, since people seemed to really like her and want to be her friend, so I adopted her sense of style and let her do my makeup. It never really felt like me, though, and it felt too much like I wasn’t being my true self, so I eventually ditched it again for wearing no makeup and wearing stuff that was more my style. I realized I wasted so much time being someone else, as my real friends were there to support me no matter who I was, and I never had to put on an act for them. I never really absolutely hated looking like that though, but I definitely preferred my real style, even though it was still sorta feminine. For that reason, have I been faking this whole time?
I really learned what being trans when I was 14, learning that it isn’t just surgery and that there’s more to it than just that. After seeing trans people on TikTok (specifically trans men), I slowly started to watch them more and realize that I myself am trans. There was this one TikToker who I absolutely wanted to be, and so I learned the basics of trans related things like binding, tying my long hair back, learning about gender dysphoria, etc. I initially came out as nonbinary, seeing as I wasn’t too dysphoric all the time and didn’t feel like doing more research. I settled on they/them for a few months before evolving to they/he, he/they, then to he/him in a span of a few months. I didn’t know or realize there was any problem until I learned about being trans, so is it just another case of someone reading about something and thinking it’s the end all when it isn’t? Or is this normal trans people things?
Today I was reading through Reddit about other trans men and their experiences with bottom dysphoria and stuff. Mine isn’t toooooooo terrible all the time (though it is definitely there). Though I’ve also never done the deed with anyone and don’t know how dysphoric it would make me to use the organ in that way (honestly I gave up trying to give that part a name that didn’t make me dysphoric, so I just call it Tom). I’d be willing to try using it for sex if me and my current bf got there, but that’s another thing I worry about: being willing to try PIV when other trans men aren’t. That really made me worry if I’ve been faking it for 5+ years, and everything I’ve done to affirm myself up until this point was all for nothing. My family would probably be happier if I just stuck to being a cis girl, anyway.
TL;DR: I worry I might be faking my trans identity for 5+ years because of my differing experiences with my childhood/growing up from what is expected from most trans people, and from a lack of feeling super dysphoric all the time even with some definitely being there.
So Reddit, am I faking being trans ,or is all of this normal for other trans people?